The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 2, 2004:

The question today has to do with catalyst and determining what our catalyst is. We would like to have some information upon how we can determine what it is that is catalyst in our life and what we should be focusing on. The second part of the question has to do with the way catalyst can be processed: when it is successful, it seems as though the success comes from being able to look at the catalyst with a light touch; being able to look at it as catalyst and develop a certain sort of tolerance and patience with it as you work with it. And catalyst which has gone awry, as Ra said, tends to cause in us the feelings of frustration and anger and doubt and depression. So we would like for Q’uo to give us a bit of information about how to stay on the track where we develop the qualities of tolerance and patience and how to avoid the frustration and anger.

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we are. It is a great privilege and blessing to be called to your group this day, and we thank you with all our hearts. To be able to be a part of your meditation and to share our thoughts with you is, to us, a powerful help, as it enables us to share our service as we hoped to do when we chose to undertake this time among your peoples. It has never been more pleasurable to undertake service to those of planet Earth than when we speak with this particular group, and we thank you for maintaining the eagerness and the openness for truth that creates the vibration which calls us to you. As always, we would ask, in order to preserve free will, that each of you guard your own powers of discrimination carefully and use them well as you listen to those things which we would say to you this day. It is important to us that you realize that we are not authorities but rather your companions upon the way.

Your query this day is interesting to us, and we thank you for asking us to speak upon the subject of catalyst. The message which we have to offer to those who would hear our voice remains very simple. There is a vibratory nature to creation. And the various fields of energy which comprise all of the complex parts of all of your bodies, be they physical or metaphysical, vibrate at a certain, shall we say, series of harmonics which, in total, add up to the complex of vibrations which is as an orchestra playing your song. We recognize each entity’s melody fairly well. It is a signature like no other in its completeness. So, each of you is a vibration that is at some harmonic, in general, with those about you, with the groups that comprise your planetary sphere and with the Creator and the creation as a whole. These vibrations are disturbed, or changed, by any number of stimuli, on any number of levels, speaking of the physical body, the mental, the emotional, the spiritual, and the inner bodies all together.

Catalyst, then, is a term to use to describe that which, while being unchanged, creates changes in this complex of energy fields and the vibrations thereof. Within a chemical experiment, there is a little arrow that is used to indicate that catalyst only goes one way. A chemical reaction does not go forwards and backwards, it only goes forwards, and so it is with the catalyst that you experience. One cannot look back. One cannot go back. One cannot possibly repeat one’s experiences. One shall indeed meet each experience again, but it is a spiral of experience and catalyst, and experience and catalyst, and each time you meet the same type or class of catalyst you have a new opportunity to recognize the catalyst, to locate the trigger of the catalyst, to examine the equation of the catalyst: what is going into the chemical experiment, what’s being “cooked,” and what comes out at the other end. And you have the opportunity, if you choose to use the will and the discipline to take it, to alter by removing various, shall we say, chemicals of your emotions, your thoughts, and your triggers, thereby changing the equation and changing the result of this particular little experiment in the life of your self.

Now let us look at this model a bit more closely. We use the term, trigger, to describe the action of catalyst. A catalyst comes into the purview of the being. It does not come into the ambient environment of the entity on purpose. There is no innate consciousness to the way things occur from the level of their occurrence. There is a causative factor inherent in the carefully made agreements that were entered into before incarnation. Biases were set up in the very currents of destiny surrounding the particular nexus of energies that represents the opportunity for an incarnation. When the body and parents and so forth are chosen, this nexus becomes potentiated and that particular little destiny that is your pre-game game plan clicks into place and begins to unroll the scroll of space/time as you, as an entity, enter into a body, become embodied and enfleshed, take form by birth and begin to unravel the great tale that is the story of your life.

So, one source of catalyst that is dependable and ongoing can loosely be called guidance, or the higher self, or destiny. For there has been implanted within your game plan, shall we say, repetitive cycles of the introduction of certain catalysts into the ambient environment so that you may work with certain balances and biases within one or more of your energy bodies. The inner work of an incarnation is primarily in those energy bodies in the inner planes, those bodies that are closer to the heart of why you are a being, or, shall we say, why the Creator finds it inevitable and useful to create beings such as yourselves. That is one source of catalyst, and as you can identify those repetitive types of catalyst that point to incarnational level lessons, you as a seeker can begin to see into the game plan, to begin to think not like the victim of circumstance but the person who planned all this and finds that certain things have simply slipped her mind. If you can find this attitude in times of stress, that “you really have responsibility for this situation but, my goodness, you seemed to have forgotten just a bit of the pattern and now there is work to do,” then you may do the work of identifying catalyst, locating the trigger, and, to the extent possible in situations, doing what you can to remove the trigger or to alter the circumstances. You have become far more a person of power than you were before.

Every time you are able to identify the catalyst and the trigger within you that caused an otherwise harmless detail to become powerful in your life, you have learned about yourself and have begun to take responsibility for learning in a conscious way what you would inevitably learn without consciousness, no matter what, by the sheer pressure of repetition. Each time you are able to get on board with the game plan beforehand, or during the catalyst’s coming up, you become more able to retain your power. And eventually you become able to use that power wisely and with compassion. And this is particularly important regarding yourself. Although it is very helpful when you may achieve that same compassion for others, in the case of the identification and the working with catalyst, the primary player in the drama is the self and therefore the entity to be forgiven, accepted, and loved unconditionally is the self.

Wespeak in terms of power here. Because when catalyst causes one to react, the catalyst, innocent though it may be, and unasking of power as it is, has the power. It is only as a person begins to be able to see into the process of these repetitive, cyclical testings, or introductions of catalyst into the environment, that one begins to be able to settle into a relationship with catalyst which sees catalyst, destiny, and unexpected events in general, with an eagerness and a freshness of attitude that invites that which is to come and looks forward to the next lesson, the next test, the next introduction of discomfort into an otherwise serene atmosphere.

The group question for this session was: “The question today has to do with catalyst and determining what our catalyst is. We would like to have some information on how we can determine what it is that is catalyst in our life and what we should be focusing on. The second part of the question has to do with the way catalyst can be processed: when it is successful, it seems as though the success comes from being able to look at the catalyst with a light touch; being able to look at it as catalyst and develop a certain sort of tolerance and patience with it as you work with it.” Q’uo began their reply by saying the message which they had to offer was very simple, and that was that there is a vibratory nature to creation, and the fields of energy which include all of the complex parts of all of our bodies, be they physical or metaphysical, vibrate at a certain series of harmonics which add up to the complex of vibrations which is like an orchestra playing our song, and they recognized each entity’s melody because it is a unique signature, so each of us is a vibration that is in some harmony with those about us, with the groups of our planet, with the Creator, and the creation, and these vibrations can be changed by any number of stimuli, on any number of levels of our bodies: physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, and inner bodies. Q’uo went on to say that catalyst describes that which–while being unchanged–creates changes in our energy fields, and within a chemical experiment there is a little arrow that is used to indicate that catalyst only goes forward, and so it is with the catalyst that we experience because we cannot repeat our experiences, but we shall meet each experience again in a spiral of experience and catalyst, and each time we meet the same type catalyst we have a new opportunity to examine the equation of the catalyst: what is going into the chemical experiment, what’s being “cooked,” and what comes out at the other end, and we have the opportunity to use our will and discipline to remove chemicals of our emotions, thoughts, and triggers which  change the equation and the result of this experiment in our life. Q’uo continued by saying that they use the term, trigger, to describe how catalyst comes into our being through carefully made agreements that we entered into before our incarnation when we set up the energies of our destiny that represent the opportunity for an incarnation when our body and parents are chosen, so that our pre-game game plan clicks into place and begins to unroll the scroll of space/time as we enter into a body and begin to unravel the great tale that is the story of our life. Now Q’uo said that one source of catalyst that is dependable is our higher self, or destiny, for there has been implanted within our game plan repetitive cycles of catalysts so that we may work with certain balances within one or more of our energy bodies since the inner work of our incarnation is in our energy bodies in the inner planes that are closer to the heart of why the Creator finds it useful to create beings such as we are. Q’uo said that is one source of catalyst so that as we can identify those repetitive types of catalyst that point to incarnational level lessons we can begin to see into the game plan as the person who planned all this, and certain things have slipped our mind, and if we can find this attitude in times of stress that we have forgotten some of the pattern, and now there is work for us to do, then we may do the work of identifying the catalyst and doing what we can to remove the trigger, then we have become far more a person of power than we were before. Q’uo said that every time we are able to identify the catalyst within us that caused a harmless detail to become powerful in our life, we have begun to take responsibility for learning about ourself in a conscious way what we would inevitably learn without consciousness by repetition, and each time we are able to begin our game plan before or during the catalyst’s coming up, we become more able to retain our power, and eventually we become able to use that power wisely and with compassion, and this is important because it is helpful when we may achieve that same compassion for others, in the identification and the working with catalyst because we are the primary player in our drama and the entity to be forgiven, accepted, and loved unconditionally is ourself. Then Q’uo said that they are speaking in terms of power because when catalyst causes us to react, the catalyst has the power, and it is only as we begin to see into the process of these repetitive introductions of catalyst into our environment that we begin to be able to settle into a relationship with catalyst which sees catalyst, destiny, and unexpected events in general with an eagerness of attitude that invites that which is to come, and we look forward to the next lesson of discomfort into an otherwise serene atmosphere. On April 26, 1996, Q’uo spoke about the source of catalyst in our lives:

Now, each path is open to the free will of the individual, but as that path unfolds each will be unable to avoid following the path, for it is not a straight path. It is often a roundabout and complex path, but all variations of your path lead you to the infinite Love of the one infinite Creator. No matter what general permutations of your path you choose you still are upon your path, for the path is more a journey of self than a journey within time and space.

These concepts are almost impossible to share using your language. We apologize if we seem to be vague. But it is deeply so, we believe, that you cannot ruin your path. You cannot fail to continue to have constant feedback from all experience that offers a constant and self-renewing source of catalyst to the self.

In the terms of movement there are times it feels well to race upon one’s path, and then we urge your feet to have wings. The cycle will contain those times when the body of emotions has been beaten and it needs to rest and recover, and in those times there will be the pausing upon the path. But all of the various moods that consist in the emotional weather of self are acceptable.

Within the confines of your illusion and the life which you experience consciously, awake and working with your day, there is a tremendous amount of power in becoming eager for that next piece of catalyst. When you at last find an appetite for change, for learning, for newness, then you are more able to invoke discipline when it would seem that difficult or unpleasant circumstances arise. Admittedly, as we gaze through this instrument’s recent recollections, we can see that it is not always an easy thing to create the environment for the self that is a safe environment for total honesty in looking at the catalyst of the self. It is often a lowering experience in terms of what this instrument would call, ego, to look into the mechanics or the psychology of the self, to see just how vulnerable the self is to catalyst which is at the level of the teenager or the child or even the toddler in some cases. And yet each entity retains all identities which have not proven themselves useless in terms of producing further learning.

So, until you as an entity are through, completely through, with learning all of the lessons that are possible to learn within incarnation, you shall, according to the prerequisites of your own game plan, receive the spiraling, cycling opportunities to react to the catalyst. It shall come around again and again. This is not a ploy to drive the spiritual seeker crazy. It is a necessary way of checking the self to see where the self truly is, where the feet come down on the road in any given incarnational lesson. Thusly, catalyst may eventually, in a certain way, become that which enters the consciousness, proceeds through the consciousness and walks out the other side without causing any reaction. The entity is still aware of the catalyst and still aware of its trigger, which speaks but not loudly enough for the self to take seriously, for it has been worked so often and so well that there is no longer the potential for a reaction. Thusly, and only in this way is catalyst at last neutralized. Until the energy in that catalyst’s appearance is gone, there will be continuing work.

Thusly, we would suggest, whenever catalyst arises, that the most efficient attitude for the skillful worker in consciousness is to thank it, to open the self to it, to ask it to move through as quickly as possible, especially if it is difficult, but to put up no sort of resistance against it. The skillful seeker will sit with the catalyst while allowing it to move through the system and create the emotional changes and reactions that it will. The self can still be a witness to these reactions, these feelings, these worthy and needed expressions of the present moment. The purpose of working with catalyst is not to defeat the catalyst but to cooperate with the catalyst, to move into the catalyst, to move into that collection of energy, that node, that has been created by the catalyst and to see why the arrow is there, why the energy for reaction is there, what that energy is, where it comes from within the energy body in terms of the chakra involved, and so forth.

Then find that trigger, find that wounded part of the self that is not comfortable yet with the self and look at that trigger to see how deeply it goes into the self. And ask it once again—for those to whom we speak have in many cases identified several of the kinds of catalyst of which we speak—to enter into understanding it more and more, not to get rid of it but to learn from it. To absorb it. To be it. In the surrender to this node of concentrated energy, there is a magical component that increases as there is an increase in the confidence and faith within the seeker in the process that has been engaged by the activation of the catalyst. There is tremendous power in knowing why something is happening to one. Not in knowing what provoked a certain person to do something or what strange machinery created a coincidence that is complex and deep but rather knowing that one is in good hands, one is in the hands of guidance, and having faith in the process that will deliver one, at the end of that process, a greater gift to the Creator and a greater asset to the self because the balance of the energy body that has been worked on has improved, has come closer to that which was hoped before incarnation.

Thequestion of how to recognize catalyst is almost that which we cannot answer for it seems too simple a thing to need a response, and yet the query remains, and so we would simply say that when one’s tenor of thought or one’s mood changes, the changes are either inconsequential, ephemeral, and insubstantial, in which case there is no learning going on; or they are more substantial, consequential and meaningful, in which case there will be a plangent note to the moment of catalyst. There will be a sudden change in the vibration which you are putting out and giving to the world as your gift to it. In that change, the balance has shifted either more towards the vibration of the Creator or less towards the vibration of the Creator. When catalyst occurs, the result of which is that the entity is more in tune with the Creator, this normally is not seen as a situation which needs any concern for it is seen as a positive thing; it is enjoyable to feel bliss, and joy, and peace. When catalyst such as that occurs, there is only rejoicing on the part of the seeker. Yet, when there is catalyst that causes the exact opposite within the seeker, that causes a contraction in the self that pulls it away from a feeling of unity and oneness, then it is seen as a “bad thing.” This attitude may always be examined. For locked within each seeker’s deep mind is that collection of biases which, before incarnation, you genuinely and deeply intended to work with until you were more satisfied with the achieved balance.

Now, we speak repeatedly of balance and usually it is a balance that is between love and wisdom; between the green ray and the blue/indigo/violet trinity of rays. It is very attractive to many wanderers, especially in incarnation upon planet Earth, to stay within the upper triad of energies, using this system of seven chakras and an octave. It is similarly attractive to others who have come into incarnation from a point of different balance to lean into the green-ray open heart and to see everything in terms of keeping the heart open. Either focus, if taken to the extreme of not invoking the other, is unbalanced. So, there are entities who are attempting to balance their energies more into the green ray, into an integration with green ray of their blue-ray strengths, and there are others who are doing precisely the opposite, attempting to soften their green ray with wisdom. Perhaps this may help in thinking about this very interesting subject. To become able to work with catalyst, be unafraid of catalyst, refrain from contracting when catalyst is felt, is a tremendous aid in becoming able to live consciously, and she who lives consciously is she who is truly being that light that is upon the hill.

Then Q’uo said that within the nature of our illusion and our conscious life, when we are working within our day, there is a tremendous power in becoming eager for that next piece of catalyst, and we are hungry for change because it is not always an easy thing to create the environment for ourself that is safe for honestly looking at our catalyst, and it is often a difficult experience for our ego to look into the psychology of ourself to see how vulnerable we are to catalyst which is at the level of a child, yet we retain all identities which have not proven themselves useless in terms of producing further learning. Now Q’uo said until we are completely through with learning all of the lessons that are possible to learn within our incarnation, we shall, according to our pre-incarnational plan, receive the cycling opportunities to react to our catalyst again and again because it is a necessary way of checking ourself to see where we are on our evolutionary journey at any moment, so our catalyst may become that which proceeds through our  consciousness without causing any reaction, but we are still aware of the catalyst and of its trigger, which speaks but not loudly enough for us to take seriously, for we have worked on it so often and so well that there is no longer the potential for a reaction, so in this way our catalyst is at last neutralized. Q’uo went on to suggest whenever catalyst arises, that the most efficient attitude for us is to open ourself to it, to ask it to move through as quickly as possible, but to put up no sort of resistance against it so that we can sit with the catalyst while allowing it to move through our system and create the emotional changes and reactions that we can be a witness to these worthy and needed expressions of the present moment because the purpose of working with catalyst is not to defeat the catalyst but to cooperate with the catalyst: “to move into the catalyst, to move into that collection of energy, that node, that has been created by the catalyst and to see why the arrow is there, why the energy for reaction is there, what that energy is, where it comes from within the energy body in terms of the chakra involved, and so forth.” Q’uo continued by saying that then we should find that wounded part of ourself that we are not comfortable with, and look at that trigger to see how deeply it goes into ourself, and ask it once again to enter into an understanding of which kind of catalyst that it is, not to get rid of it, but to learn from it, and in our surrender to this concentrated energy, there is a magical component that increases as there is an increase in our confidence and faith in the process that we engaged in by the activation of the catalyst because there is tremendous power in knowing why something is happening to us, not in our knowing what provoked us to do something, but rather knowing that we are in the good hands of guidance, and having faith in the process that will deliver us as a greater gift to the Creator and a greater asset to ourself because the balance of our energy body that has been worked on has come closer to that which we hoped before incarnation. Now Q’uo said that the question of how to recognize catalyst is when our mood changes, the changes are either unimportant in which case there is no learning going on, or they are more substantial, in which case there will be a unpleasant note to the moment of our catalyst, and there will be a sudden change in the vibration which we are putting out and giving to the world as our gift to it, and in that change, the balance has shifted either more towards the vibration of the Creator or less towards the vibration of the Creator so that when catalyst occurs, and the result is that we are more in tune with the Creator, this normally it is seen as a positive thing because it is enjoyable for us to feel bliss, and joy, and peace, but when there is catalyst that causes the exact opposite within us of a contraction in ourself that pulls us away from a feeling of unity and oneness, then it is seen as a bad thing, and this attitude may be examined since locked within our deep mind is that collection of biases which, before incarnation, we genuinely intended to work with until we were more satisfied with the achieved balance. Q’uo said that they wanted to speak of balance that is between love and wisdom, between the green ray and the blue/indigo/violet trinity of rays, and it is very attractive to many wanderers upon planet Earth to stay within the upper triad of energies, using this system of seven chakras and an octave, and it is similarly attractive to others who have come into incarnation from a point of different balance to lean into the green-ray open heart and to see everything in terms of keeping the heart open so that either focus, if taken to the extreme of not invoking the other, is unbalanced, so there are entities who are attempting to balance their energies more into an integration with green ray of their blue-ray strengths, and there are others who are doing precisely the opposite, and attempting to soften their green ray with wisdom, and: “perhaps this may help in thinking about this very interesting subject. To become able to work with catalyst, be unafraid of catalyst, refrain from contracting when catalyst is felt, is a tremendous aid in becoming able to live consciously, and she who lives consciously is she who is truly being that light that is upon the hill.” On November 3, 2002, Q’uo spoke of the value of how we can work with catalyst:

However, we would suggest that there is also skill and art in throwing open the windows of the self to the light within, to the hope within, to the faith within, so that there is a growing awareness in yourself, as you work with catalyst, that you are only partially a creature of time and space. In another portion of yourself, you are a universal and infinite being, a dweller in eternity and one who has given gifts to the self from the future and from the past that feed into the present moment, because there is a need for the nuances, for the lessons of loving and being loved. No matter where the energy centers are that are being stressed by the challenges experienced, the lessons will continue to be about love.

As wisdom feeds into the daily life, that wisdom expresses itself as different realizations of what love is, new and invigorating awarenesses of what it is to share unconditional love, and, for those who are in advanced lessons within incarnation, the challenges are nuanced by the shadings of the energies of accepting the love offerings of others. Many are the times that a negatively presenting set of circumstances has as its formative cause the need to learn the lesson of accepting the love that is given to one. It is in almost every case among those who are positively oriented far easier to learn the lessons of loving than those of being truly, unconditionally, utterly and completely loved. The resistance to the truth of that creates a good deal of murkiness within the patterns that are created through the archetypical and secondary systems of catalyst.

She who lives consciously is able to be more than one absorbed in a processs, and perhaps that is what we may say about the light touch. It is a very absorbing process to become aware of the self, to become at last one who is living consciously, magically, positively, and constructively. This fascination, however, can blind one to the beauty, the wonder, the majesty of every moment that is lived, every heartbeat that is enjoyed, every tear and every laugh that is experienced. The gifts of life and thought are marvelous, and the more that it can be seen that this catalyst and these sometimes dreary processes are taking place in the garden of Eden and in beauty indescribable, the more that this sojourn in the valley of the shadow of death, as this instrument would call life, becomes triumphant, funny, wonderful, delicious, a thing of real splendor. That is the potential of each breath. That is the shadow of what is possible when one becomes fully conscious and is able to express passion, and excitement, and equanimity, and simply becomes able to enjoy the show. For upon a very substantial level, it is a show. It is a production. It is a performance. There is an endless search within each for reality, the reality of the self, the reality of the life, that which is the ground of being. You shall never find it. You can only find images of it. You can, however, be the ground of being. You can be essence. You can be so much more than you can say! And in many ways the doing, the thinking, the working with catalyst, and the whole process is aimed at delivering you at last to being.

The one known as G was talking with this instrument this morning concerning this instrument’s bias against the use of feel-good music in church services. This instrument was saying that she appreciated the more complex sacred works which bring suffering, and doubt, and many complex and somewhat dark emotions into the singing of sacred thoughts so that the entire human experience is able to be brought into sacred space in such music, whereas in the so-called “praise music” there is a seeming separation between the suffering person and the good feelings which are generated praising. There are times, however, when praise music of whatever kind that lifts the spirits is very helpful. Perhaps for a certain entity it might be a country music song or a classical music piece or some other form of seeming distraction. Yet when chosen, such distractions are very helpful, whether they be good art, as this instrument—a born critic again—would call it, or not.

That which lifts the spirit and changes the atmosphere is sometimes very helpful, as nonsensical and illogical as such things are. It is not well to allow the self simply to rest in a state of panic or unhappiness or depression. There is a time for sitting with catalyst, and when that time has come to an end—and for each entity the rhythms are different—there is the time of asking the self to rise up, give thanks, and move on into the rest of the day, into the rest of that which is available when one is not focused on a certain piece of catalyst. We encourage you not to allow yourselves to become so absorbed in the process of learning that you become unavailable to the present moment. This is a juggling act, in so many ways, as several within this group have said earlier this day. There is so much to think about and so much to do. As you juggle, you will drop balls, and as the one known as J says, when you drop the balls, that, too, is part of juggling. And the reaction to dropping them should not be that which is judgmental or harsh but simply to encourage the self to pick that dropped ball up with grace, style, and humor.

Lastly, you questioned concerning how to avoid bitterness and how to encourage the self not to use catalyst awry. That is perhaps a topic we may save for another day in terms of really moving into it. But in general, we may say that one is almost never able to see ahead of time that one is going to be bitter, defensive, angry, and so forth. So, one is not able to defend against such times. They simply come upon one, and one finds oneself in the shadows and very unhappy for one reason or another and in one way or another, depending upon the personality shell. When you’re in the soup there is no use objecting to yourself because you fell or because you’re wet. Bitterness comes into the life because it is a way to keep the attention away from getting out of the soup.

The energy of one who has run afoul of catalyst and is struggling can be focused in one of two ways. It can be focused in trying to stay afloat, or it can be focused in trying to get out of the cup of soup. Climbing the slippery China walls of your cup is not easy and it requires far different skills than treading water. However, those who tread water shall be doomed to repeat the exercise, never being allowed to drown and never, while treading water, able to garner the energy that is required for the tremendous effort needed to break the pattern and create a ladder of will and discipline that allows you to clamber over that China cup and get out of the soup. There is no question that it is easier to tread water, stay in the soup, and repine concerning the difficulty that one is in than it is to gather the energies and create, by will and faith alone, that ladder out of the situation and back to a sense of owning the self and not being a victim of circumstance. However, it is through such work that one is able to move through the refining fire, not burning to a cinder, but rather becoming more and more tempered…

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…more and more burnished, and more and more flexible.

Now Q’uo said that we who live consciously are more than one who is absorbed in a process, and that is what Q’uo said about the light touch is a process of becoming aware of ourself as we are living consciously and magically, but this fascination can blind us to the majesty of every moment that we live, every tear, and every laugh that we experience, and the more that we can see that this catalyst is taking place in the garden of Eden, the more this journey in the valley of the shadow of death becomes a life of real splendor so that is the least of what is possible when we become fully conscious and are able to express passion and to enjoy the show, and there is an endless search within us for the reality of ourself and the reality of our ground of being which we shall never find, and by working with our catalyst we can be delivered to our ground of being. Then Q’uo said that G was talking with Carla about her bias against the use of feel-good music in church services, and she said that she appreciated sacred music which brings suffering, doubt, and many complex emotions into the singing of sacred thoughts so that the entire human experience is able to be brought into a sacred space in such music, whereas in the so-called “praise music” there is a separation between the suffering person and the good feelings which are generated in praising, but there are times when praise music that lifts the spirits is very helpful so that it might be country music, or a classical music piece, or some other form of seeming distraction, and such distractions are helpful, whether they good art or not. Q’uo went on to say that which lifts our spirit and changes the atmosphere are sometimes very helpful even though they may be nonsensical and illogical, but it is not well to allow ourself to rest in a state of unhappiness because there is a time for sitting with catalyst, and when that time has come to an end there is the time of asking ourself to rise up, give thanks, and move on into the rest of that which is available when we are not focused on a certain piece of catalyst, so Q’uo encouraged us not to allow ourselves to become so absorbed in the process of learning that we become unavailable to the present moment because this is a juggling act since there is so much to think about and to do, and as we juggle we will drop balls, and when we drop them our reaction should be to pick them up with grace, style, and humor. Q’uo continued by saying that regarding how to avoid bitterness and how to encourage ourself not to use catalyst awry, they said that we are never able to see ahead of time that we are going to be defensive and angry, so we are not able to defend against such times because they simply come upon us, and we find ourself unhappy for one reason or another depending upon our personality shell, and when we are in the soup there is no use objecting to ourself because we feel because bitterness comes into our life since it is a way to keep our attention away from getting out of the soup. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that when we have run afoul of catalyst that we can focus our energy in one of two ways: it can be focused in trying to stay afloat, or it can be focused in trying to get out of the cup of soup, but climbing the slippery China walls of our cup is not easy, and it requires different skills than treading water, but if we tread water we shall be doomed to repeat the exercise, never being allowed to drown and never able to get the energy that is required for creating a ladder of will and discipline that allows us to climb over that China cup and get out of the soup and back to a sense of owning ourself and not being a victim of circumstance, but it is through such work that we are able to move through the refining fire and becoming more tempered and more flexible. On February 6, 2006, Q’uo described the nature of our personality shell:

We gaze at this question for those items on which we may speak further to you that might be a resource in considering this question of what the personality shell is. We believe that we have expressed the concept that the personality shell, as we use that term, is not only a selection of personality traits such as preferences and ways to acquire information and process information but also includes items that are difficult to categorize to a mind such as we find this instrument to have. She does not grasp how you would characterize or categorize limitations, certain placements of limitation, and so forth. The placement of limitation has a special niche in the personality shell.

Many of those among your peoples in incarnation at this time have placed certain stoppages or limitations that will keep them from moving too far along an extreme towards an end that is not desired by the soul or spirit. An example of this is this instrument’s lifelong dynamic of frail and fragile health. This instrument carefully placed in its personality shell before incarnation a limitation that would come forward whenever this instrument chose, of her own free will, to move into a physical activity to the extent that she was unable to pursue a daily, inner, meditative, and contemplative side. When this instrument has in the past developed such an aggressive and ambitious program of physical activity that it has found itself unable to feed its deeper needs in terms of contemplation and meditation, the physical body has simply broken down.

We find that our time is up, and it is time to open the meeting to shorter additional queries. Are there queries at this time?

J: On June 8, there’s a Venus transit which lasts eight years, which will bring us right to the year 2012. I was wondering about your opinion. Is this an important event, or is it just one of the many smaller events leading up to ascension? Is this event something that we should really look at to move us into a higher consciousness?

We are those of Q’uo, and we are aware of your query, my sister. We believe that information could be gleaned by those who have intuitive gifts and a wide and deep knowledge of astrology. There is always much to be learned from the movements of the stars and their influence upon the body of Earth itself and each of you as well. However, the chief excitement which remains upon our own minds is that great interest that we have in seeing the way entities are awakening and becoming more and more able to live consciously and radiate light. This is far more factored into the eventual outcome of your peoples and the, shall we say, end of the age than any cosmic influence. Much lies at this time in the hearts and the hands of entities upon planet Earth at this time.

May we answer you further, my sister?

J: No, thank you.

Q’uo: We thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

G: Q’uo, I have a series of questions sent in from readers abroad but first, I know, knowing T1, that when he has a question, he will hold his off and let others ask their questions. I would like to ask if T1 has a question before I ask a series of questions.

T1: No, G, please go ahead.

G: Okay. This question is from B. “In 1987 I lost my job, broke up my marriage, left my wife and children and lost my desire to live. I totally surrendered my life to the Source. It was my ‘turning point.’ And ever since I’ve been on my spiritual path, re-married and live happily. However, there is still some bitterness within my children and my ex-wife towards me, while sometimes I still feel guilty to have left them. I would appreciate it if Q’uo would throw some light on our relationship at soul level (karmic ties) and give us some guidance on how to heal the wounds.”

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of the query, my brother, and we thank you for vibrating that query for him. To the one known as B we would say that the true nature of the relationship betwixt you and your ex-spouse is oneness. The energies that you experience at this time may fruitfully be examined for just those things which we were speaking about earlier: the catalyst involved, the triggers involved, and the biases that are involved in the particular lesson that you and your ex-spouse share. Often this work cannot be done together with another in such a situation, and so it is very helpful if the entity has the energy to step into the other-self’s shoes to such an extent that the one known as B is able to see through the eyes of the ex-spouse, sitting there until there is as full an understanding on the conscious level of the dynamics involved in this particular node of catalyst as possible. The details of past lives and so forth are not those things with which we would prefer to deal as we would wish to limit comments to those that are helpful to all entities and at all times.

The spiritual principle involved here is the principle of responsibility for one’s actions. When there is the full acceptance of the self, the full forgiveness of the self, and the full appreciation of the present moment, then such concerns as are expressed in the query become details which do not have the power to alter consciousness within the self. We encourage the reading of the channeling through this instrument that was given at the first part of this meditation.

Is there another query at this time, my brother?

G: This next one comes in from S. “I have only recently been exposed to the term ‘Crystal Kids.’ I would like to know as much information as possible on these children. Who are Crystal Kids? How are they different from the Indigo Kids and what can you tell us about their purpose on Earth? I thank you for the opportunity to ask this.”

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my sister. From our standpoint there is virtually no difference in those called Indigo Children and those called Crystal Kids. The designations indicate a double-activated third-density/fourth-density body, which makes such children, as they grow up, more able to access fourth-density reality. Since fourth density is here, since entities are living in a combined third-density/fourth-density atmosphere, there is an increasing ability for all people to work upon the, what this instrument would call, DNA; to work upon the self at the cellular level, lifting consciousness and asking it to take hold of the new reality that is interpenetrating third density.

These children are far more able to do this than those with only the yellow-ray body activated because their DNA is already altered to some extent. However, their purpose here is as pioneers. They come in, in terms of fourth density, within very basic and primitive conditions, and are giving their lives to help establish fourth density and to be bridges of light for those who would listen to that which they would have to say and to live in such a way as to follow such advice as they would give. To put it another way, they are here to radiate light and love, as are all entities. It is hoped by their higher selves that they will have more efficacy in doing so than those who have not the advantage of a double-activated body.

Is there another query at this time?

G: This is the last outside query. This one comes from T2. “Dr. Sun Yat-sen is the founding father of the Republic of China. This Republic is as short-lived as himself. However, he is respected by both Chinese and Taiwanese, both the Communist party and the Kuomin party. If it is possible, could Q’uo speak about Dr. Sun Yat-sen’s life?”

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. This entity was one whose energy was that of the heart and yet whose abilities included communication. This entity was a brilliant blue-ray being who was able to inspire and to lead because his communication rested upon a compassionate and humane structure of character. This entity gave greatly of itself and was exemplary in its habits and inner disciplines, creating an incarnation of stature.

Is there another query at this time?

G: I have a personal one, Q’uo. In the last channeling you stated that, “Until one has individuated, one cannot begin magical work, and yet one is never fully individuated. So, logically speaking, one could never begin magical work. Yet there is, shall we say, a critical mass only that needs to be reached, and it is by no means a large percentage of the actual available will of an entity.” Ra also spoke of a “set level of lack of distortion” required to tap intelligent energy through crystals, “or through any use.” So, the first part of my question is, are Q’uo and are Ra speaking of this same point? And the second part of the question is, can you describe more about this point and are there any tell-tale signs that will manifest in an entity when this point has been reached?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We cannot speak to the first part of your query in this setting, although, if you wish, we are able to address it at length at another time.

To respond to the second portion of your query: the tell-tale signs of magical working are sudden changes of a profound nature in circumstance which reflect a synchronicity that is obvious. Synchronicity is indeed a mark of one who has activated a certain magical-ness within its own nature.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: Perhaps might that sudden change not only reflect through the outer physical in synchronicity but might that look or feel or give one the space, the freedom, to love that which was before was unlovable?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. Such a circumstance might occur, my brother. May we answer you further?

G: No, thank you very much, Q’uo.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there a final query at this time?

D: How may the distortions of pride and arrogance be recognized when you are the one experiencing them?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We smile because we are aware of this instrument’s deep and intense involvement in this very query for the last little bit of her time. Because of this factor it is more difficult to answer your query, my brother. However, we may say that when the self, in its inner contemplations, begins to cast aspersions upon another, it is possible that pride and arrogance have been invoked, and that there are more circumstances than one is aware of, which might change the attitude from that sourness to a more balanced and compassionate view. When that typical sourness which has that taste of judgment comes into the mouth, into the mind, then it may be that there are lessons in humility that could be easily taken up with advantage.

May we answer you further, my brother?

D: That’s quite sufficient. Thank you.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother, and we thank each of you. This group is such a blessing to us, and it is such a pleasure to speak with you through this instrument. We thank you with all of our hearts and wish each of you to know that you are in our hearts. At any time that you wish to have our company during meditation, you have only to ask, for we are those who love each of you. Certainly, the beauty of each of you is remarkable and we thank each of you for sharing the experience of this meeting with us.

We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning, I was honored once again to be a guest on Jonathan Tong’s Seattle Law of One Study Group. There was a great variety of questions asked such as how to deal with the stressful political scene around the world, the nature of cats, the destruction of Maldek, the deleterious energy exchange between Don and Carla in Session #106, the purpose of UFOs, and the life of Muhammed Ali. I could feel the Creator’s love flowing through the hearts of each person in the group, and I look forward to our next zoom meet on the first Saturday in April.

This afternoon I went outside and took down the blue clothesline ropes on three sides of the fishpond because I had spread out the distance too much between the V and A shapes that I use to keep birds from flying into the netting that surrounds the fishpond. Then I put it back up with less distance between the V and A shapes.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

March 1

The Year Of Jubilee

I am of the principle of the Love of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of that Love.

We greet you in your divinity, knowing that you cannot see it and find it hard to believe that it exists. We greet you as children of the Father, heirs to all that Love may bring, sons and daughters of eternity.

We greet you who are trying to unstop your ears and peel the veil of illusion from your eyes and urge you instead to enter into your own heart and, there, clean the house of the Lord and make ready your own self, trusting in the sweetness and perfection of the creation of the Father, which is your self, that you may be worthy to receive the gifts of the spirit.

It is for each to decide when the year of Jubilee shall come, when the acceptable time of rejoicing shall be declared. The potential lies in each and every day. May you turn within in peace and, cleansing yourself diligently and persistently, prepare yourself ceaselessly to be channels of Love. For such voices, hearts, and hands as yourself are the presence of Love in your world.

We leave you in the peace which does not deny responsibility and in the comfort of Love which does not deny responsibility, in the hard and creative Love and joy of divine consciousness, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 18, 2004:

Our question today has to do with the purpose of third density. As entities are graduated from the second density, where the way of being is the group mind, they come into third density with the opportunity of individuating, of developing an individualized consciousness that will be able to aid its own evolution by the choices that it makes, free will choices, and we would like Q’uo to give us information about how this individuation then will lead into another kind of group mind, a social memory complex, and maybe a little bit of information about how the group mind of second density differs from the social memory complex that we’re moving towards as the result of the individual choices that we make in the third density. So, could Q’uo give us a kind of overview of how this all works, of how the nature of the choice, the intention behind the choice, where does the metaphysical or magical personality come in here? We would appreciate anything you could tell us about how third density works.

(Carla channeling)

We are of those of the principle known to you as Q’uo and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we come to you this day. We thank you for calling us to your group to talk about the function of the third-density experience, and we are delighted to share our opinions upon this subject, with the request beforehand to each of you to guard your powers of discrimination well. We would ask that each of you be responsible for that which you take in and that which you leave behind. We cannot possibly hit the mark on all of our remarks. Some of them are bound to be useless to each of you. We ask you not to take them in without considering carefully whether they resonate in your own process and whether they feel like something that you might have forgotten but knew all along. If it feels like that, and resonates, then it is your truth for this particular point in your particular process. Otherwise, it perhaps bears no use whatsoever and would be best left behind. If you each will guard your free will and the processes by which you take in new concepts and make them your own, we will feel free to speak our mind. We thank each of you for allowing us this consideration.

Often the Confederation channels with which this group has long been associated have called third density, the density of choice. It is a vivid, intense, rather brief period, in cosmic terms, during which an entity, as the question suggests, moves in consciousness from the consciousness of late second-density life-forms, such as your predecessor, the great ape, to the nascent life-form of an entity with a fourth-density body and fourth-density lessons to learn. In between that second-density experience of the animal kingdom and the vegetable and mineral worlds, and the experience of the density of love or understanding or compassion, lies the density of choice. That is the experience within which you are immersed at this time.

It is undoubtedly an experience that has not been tranquil, entirely, nor an experience in which the shape of the life has seemed at all times appropriate and desirable. It is an experience of artifice and illusion. One could almost call it a day at the carnival. And yet it is a carnival whose every ride has a carefully designed purpose and whose grounds are laid out in such a way as to provide an infinitely responsive feedback system to echo and intensify thoughts and desires that have more than a transitory value. It is an environment couched in forgetfulness. That is to say that a requirement for preparation to enter third density is the requirement to place in safe-keeping the detailed memory of that metaphysical or time/space world from which you came in order to enter incarnation in third density.

Regardless of the density from which you came, whether it was from second density into third, or from a higher density, looping back into third density, for more work within that crucible, the preconditions of entering third density are alike. That direct knowledge, or as this instrument would say, gnosis of the Creator and of the self as an integral part of the Creator, must be placed aside, and the veil of forgetting must drop, so that each entity that comes into third density comes into it blind and without the possibility of sight, in a very specific way; that being that, in terms of metaphysical as opposed to physical process, there is a carefully structured environment in which hints will constantly be given concerning the nature of that underlying ground of being which has been veiled over by the veil of forgetting, while keeping any sort of objective proof from muddying the waters of unknowing. There is a determined bias within the Creator, concerning this particular third density, towards keeping entities as much in the dark as possible concerning the way things really are underneath the appearance of things. It is a recipe that is designed to be confusing, frustrating, maddening, and displacing.

It is felt, as the harvest of many experiences, that while more information and a more transparent third density is a more comfortable experience, in the end it is a more confusing, a less effective, and a less viable third-density experience in terms of serving as the ambiance within which seeking souls are able, consciously, to affect an acceleration of their learning and evolution. The third-density experience of this particular planet is extremely vivid. The consensus reality/illusion is extremely heavy, and it is correspondingly difficult to penetrate. This means that there is great potential for experiencing intense emotions and desires. It is the production of these things: the feelings, the biases, the various elements of a person’s make-up, that the environment of third density is designed to bring into greater and greater relief, so that each seeking entity has complete free will to look at the experience of living in any way that is chosen.

The group question for this session was: “We would like Q’uo to give us information about how this individuation then will lead into another kind of group mind, a social memory complex, and maybe a little bit of information about how the group mind of second density differs from the social memory complex that we’re moving towards as the result of the individual choices that we make in the third density. So, could Q’uo give us a kind of overview of how this all works, of how the nature of the choice, the intention behind the choice, where does the metaphysical or magical personality come in here? We would appreciate anything you could tell us about how third density works.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that the Confederation has called third density the density of choice, and it is an intense and brief period during which we move in consciousness from the late second-density life-forms such as the great ape to the beginning life-form of an entity with a fourth-density body and fourth-density lessons to learn, and in between that second-density experience of the animal kingdom, the vegetable, and mineral worlds, and the experience of the fourth density of love and understanding is the density of choice, and that is the experience within which we are immersed at this time. Q’uo went on to say that this is an experience that has not been peaceful nor an experience in which our life has been desirable because it is an experience of an illusion that we could call a day at the carnival where every ride has a carefully designed purpose and whose grounds are laid out in such a way as to provide an infinitely responsive feedback system to intensify our thoughts and desires, and it is an environment based in forgetfulness where there is a requirement for our preparation to enter third density to place in safe-keeping our detailed memory of that time/space world from which we came in order to enter incarnation in third density. Q’uo continued by saying that regardless of the density from which we came, the preconditions of entering third density are alike, and that knowledge of the Creator and of ourself as an integral part of the Creator must be placed aside, and the veil of forgetting must drop so that each of us that comes into third density comes into it blind in a specific way that, in terms of metaphysical as opposed to physical process, there is a carefully structured environment in which hints will be given concerning the nature of that underlying ground of our being which has been hidden by the veil of forgetting, while keeping any sort of objective proof from muddying the waters of unknowing because there is a bias within the Creator concerning the third density towards keeping us as much in the dark as possible regarding the way things really are underneath the appearance of things, and it is a recipe that is designed to be confusing. Then Q’uo said that it is felt that while a more transparent third density is a more comfortable experience, in the end it is a less viable third-density experience in terms of serving as the environment within which we are able to affect an acceleration of our learning and evolution, and the third-density illusion of this planet is extremely heavy so that it is hard to penetrate which means that there is great potential for our experiencing intense emotions and desires because it is the production of our feelings, biases, and the various elements of our character make-up that the third density is designed to bring into greater relief so that each of us has complete free will to look at the experience of living in any way that we choose. On April 6, 1997, Q’uo spoke about our experience of living:

We are not suggesting that each entity forbid the self to think, or to reason, or to order the chores and duties of the day. Rather, we encourage each to allow the self to become more and more open to the experience of living in two worlds at once. That life upon dry land is the life that retrieves the salary in order to feed the self, that keeps the self covered, and fed, and housed. Yet this self does not deny but rather is completed by that unmanifest and always mysterious self that is too large for words or concepts, for each of you is an immense and many-storied citizen of eternity.

As each entity opens to that dual existence and finds it easier and easier to slip between the two back and forth, each will find the experience of living more rhythmic and more able to flow. There are many, many ways to see the spiritual path. Almost always it is envisioned as a circular journey and we might even suggest that it is the journey of no movement whatsoever, for if all things are one where is there to go, for one is always within the creation, and the creation is kept like a precious gem within the heart of each which seeks the ways of love. So, we encourage each to be able to flow through the water, to dive deep, to enjoy the ocean and to find ways new every day, for this is very true: that each moment is unique, and each is born new through each sleeping and awakening again.

The Creator does not have to hope that something will occur because the experience of all previous creations has been that evolution is inevitable; change is inevitable. It may be change regressing towards the density left behind, or it may be change progressing towards the density ahead, but it is impossible for entities to remain completely stable. They must create novelty; they must move. That is the restless and insatiable nature of consciousness itself. It shall, by the machinations of endless free will, always have that curiosity about what else there may be to learn that pulls the entity onward, whether the entity is considered in terms of the microcosm or macrocosm. So, each of you dwells now within a school that is carefully designed to give each entity its hard knocks on a regular basis. Not in order to indicate the cruelty or the judgment of the creative principle, but to create a schooling atmosphere in which entities are self-schooled by their own hand, by their own mind, by their own perceived problems and solutions.

Nowlet us look at this word “choice.” What happens in terms of how third density functions as each entity comes to choices? This is a true key word for this density. Choice is at the center of learning here. For upon the choice of polarity rests the work of the next few millennia, the next few million years, shall we say, from your point of view. What is the nature of choice? From the second-density point of view, from the hive-mind, shall we say, choice has a certain cast in nature which may be understood best by seeing that species of animals and of plants have a common pool of being. The spirits that create growth and life using the elements of the Creator that have been provided, such as seeds and sunlight, are able to dip into this pool of type, or kind, and create specimens of that kind. These entities are created with a kind of consciousness that has a great deal of information in it, which is copied from the pool as a whole rather than being taken from any individual within the species. Consequently, it may be assumed, unless an animal, for instance, has had a great deal to do with humans who have altered the second-density programming for that animal, that an animal will act according to the actions of its species. While there are always rogues in any species that do not act according to the species, for the most part, one is dealing, in an animal of second density, with an entity that is making choices according to the choices programmed into its kind.

When an entity graduates from second density to third, it becomes an entity which has not been taken out of a pool of consciousness but rather must stand upon its own very shaky legs of individuality. It is still equipped with the second-density information but with the veil of forgetting over most of it. So, in a way it has lost a great deal of valuable ground. Things that were obvious to second-density animals, because there was no conscious mentation in the genetic programming, become not at all obvious to an entity who is programmed heavily towards conscious and individualized thought. In other words, a third-density entity has complete freedom of will built into it.

Now when you gaze at an entity that has just entered third density, you are gazing at an entity who does not know what to do with free will. It does not know that it is free. It does not know that it was, at one time, pent in a cage of generic assumptions; and in fact, it may still be acting upon many of those assumptions, for they are part of the instinctual package that is dimly remembered if not clearly recalled. When such a third-density pioneer begins to make choices, they are likely to be made according to second-density programming. In other words, a choice of action will generally be decided to protect the self and the tribe, or the family, and to secure for that family the resources necessary for its survival. While this is simple and even elementary programming, at the same time, the tentacles of the instinct for survival being so many and so far reaching, that simple programming may indeed control a large amount of the life decisions of an early third-density entity.

Q’uo said the Creator does not have to hope that something will occur because the experience of all previous creations has been that change is inevitable, and it may be change regressing towards the density left behind, or it may be change progressing towards the density ahead, but it is impossible for us to remain stable because we must create novelty since this is the restless nature of our consciousness itself, and because of our free will we will always have that curiosity about what else there may be to learn that pulls us onward, so each of us dwells within a school that is designed to give us its hard knocks on a regular basis–not in order to indicate the cruelty of the creative principle–but to create a schooling atmosphere in which we are self-schooled by our own mind, and our own problems, and solutions. Then Q’uo said in the third density choice is at the center of learning, for upon the choice of polarity rests the work of the next few million years from our point of view, and the nature of choice from the second-density point of view may be understood by seeing that animals and plants have a common pool of being because the spirits that create growth and life use the elements of the Creator, such as seeds and sunlight, are able to dip into this pool of type and create entities a kind of consciousness that have a great deal of information in them, which is copied from the pool as a whole rather than being taken from any individual within the species so that it may be assumed, unless an animal has had a great deal to do with humans who have altered the second-density programming, that an animal will act according to the actions of its species although there are always rogues in any species that do not act according to the species, but when we are dealing with an animal of second density, we are dealing with an entity that is making choices according to the choices programmed into its kind. Q’uo went on to say that when an entity graduates from second density to third density it must stand upon its own shaky legs of individuality because it is still equipped with the second-density information but with the veil of forgetting over most of it so that it has lost a great deal of valuable ground, and things that were obvious to the second-density animal, because there was no conscious thought in the genetic programming, are not obvious to an entity who is programmed towards consciousness and thought, so a third-density entity has complete freedom of will built into it. Q’uo continued by saying that when we gaze at an entity that has just entered third density, we are gazing at an entity who does not know what to do with free will, and it does not know that at one time it was caught in a series of generic assumptions, and it may still be acting upon many of those assumptions, for they are part of the instinctual package that is dimly remembered, and when such a third-density pioneer begins to make choices, they are likely to be made according to second-density programming to protect the self and the family, and while this is simple programming the instinct for survival being so far reaching, that simple programming may indeed control a large amount of the life decisions of an early third-density entity. On January 2, 1983, Latwii described the general nature of the veil of forgetting:

Each of you, as we have said, moves within an illusion. The veil of forgetting is drawn so that it is not possible for a clear perception of the nature of your unity with all things to be known to you. Therefore, you learn through being attached, shall we say. You learn by desiring, by sowing the seeds of wishes. Do you then draw unto yourself those events to fulfill the wishes? By observing your response to such events, your emotions may be discovered to be positive or negative, and by achieving the balance within the self of each emotional response, the entity becomes what is called balanced or regularized according to the expression of each energy center or chakra. This then allows the entity to experience what various of your religious cultures have called the non-attached state of being. We might refer to this more clearly as a finely tuned type of compassion so that whatever catalyst the entity encounters, the entity is aware that it is seeing the Creator experiencing Itself. And the entity’s response is love, compassion and understanding. This is the balance which has been spoken of by the description of detachment.

Slowly, usually, through a series of many incarnations, the third-density entity begins to develop a core sense of self that returns with a bit more strength from incarnation to incarnation so that there is not quite as much veil as there used to be, and at some point, there is the experience of awakening. That awakening is an awakening to the possibilities that are, as this instrument would say according to the modern idiom, “outside the box.” Now the box is simply the generic assumptions given in second density that have been accepted by the third-density entity. Society, as this instrument knows it and as each of you know it within your Western civilization, retains a great many of the characteristics of late second-density structure. The family structure, the way society is organized into extended family systems and into those who ally for survival, are structures which retain second-density characteristics.

However, as entities begin to awaken, they begin to see something very important for third-density work: that awakening begins when the realization occurs that the choice is not either/or. The choices are infinite. When the viewpoint begins to expand, when the mountain first disappears and then reappears, then that third-density soul begins to see that it is not a matter of becoming better at making choices, it is a matter of becoming more able to see the full range of choices. To see that it is not, for instance, a choice between belief in a creative principle and a belief in no creative principle. Rather the choice is an infinite range of possibilities concerning the Godhead principle. There is the movement from a very firmly vectored angle of attack at things in making decisions to an increasingly loose, rounded, and multi-directional way of looking at the present moment. It has often been noted in the conversations with this group that so many things are interconnected, and that information is available virtually in everything that you lay your eyes on. The question then becomes, “What is that object, that word, that person, that catalyst actually attempting to tell you?” And as the third-density soul begins to grow in its maturity, it begins to realize the endless and infinite gradations of meaning that can be received when one peels away any present moment to see layer, after layer, after layer of insight, suggested, hinted at, sparkling on the wind, glistening in the trees—just waiting for the connection of heart and attention. The choice, then, is not simply a choice in a certain situation but, even more so, a choice of attitude, a choice of how to be, how to stand, how to express one’s essence in the most full and honest way.

There is another key word that we would look at and that is “individuation.” It was part of your query, and it is a very tricky concept from a metaphysical point of view. Many times this instrument has tried to respond in letters to questions from people concerning whether it is service to self or service to others to take time for the self to learn, to study, and to begin to become familiar with the self deeply and to know the self in a non-transient manner. There is tremendous validity in this process of individuation, of researching and learning the self, and indeed this process will go on as long as the individual retains flesh and blood around that particular personality shell. It is, then, a process that is never completed. It is not intended to be completed. Rather it is one of the ways of learning to serve and to grow within the third-density atmosphere. Until one has individuated, one cannot begin magical work, and yet one is never fully individuated. So, logically speaking, one could never begin magical work.

Yet there is, shall we say, a critical mass only that needs to be reached, and it is by no means a large percentage of the actual available will of an entity. It is a very powerful thing to become aware of one’s own will and because of the use of it, even imperfectly, and even incorrectly, or without full knowledge, tremendous energies can be set in motion. So, the magical process begins to take place as soon as an entity begins to ask of the Creator, or of perceived guidance directly, “Who am I? Why am I here, and what would you have me do?” These kinds of queries are those that create a magical circumstance. Certainly, it is well to be as mature as one may be before asking such questions, and yet the glory of third density is that all are imperfect and yet all are asking those questions. These are the questions that drive third density.

Consequently, entities on the spiritual path are constantly asking for and getting much more information than they were prepared to deal with. Often, they do not recognize that they are receiving that which they requested and feel that there is no sense to the experience. Yet, that, too, becomes perfectly acceptable, for no matter how the experiences that have been created by the questions are used, they in turn shall be that which will create the seeds that are sown for the next generation of learning. And those seeds will fall into good soil and have the possibility of growth, regardless of whether one road or another road is taken. Regardless of the choices made, the result will be a net gain in understanding. So, it is in some ways a hard ambiance in which to learn and in other ways it is a very forgiving ambiance in that one cannot fail. One can become weary and rest, but one can always pick up the self when one feels again ready to enter the fray and again ask, and again receive the information, and again work with that information.

Then Q’uo said that through a series of many incarnations, we slowly begin to develop a sense of ourself that grows with more strength from incarnation to incarnation so that our veil thins, and at some point, there is the experience of awakening to the possibilities that are “outside the box” which are the common assumptions given in second density that have been accepted by us such as the family structure, the extended family systems, and into those who join together for survival, are structures which retain second-density characteristics. Q’uo went on to say that our awakening begins when we realize that our choices are infinite, and we begin to see that it is not a choice between belief in a creative principle and a belief in no creative principle, but our choice is an infinite range of possibilities concerning the Godhead principle so that there is the movement from a firmly vectored angle of attack at things in making decisions to an increasingly multi-directional way of looking at the present moment, and as we begin to grow in our maturity we begin to realize the infinite levels of meaning that can be received when we peel away any present moment to see layers of insight sparkling on the wind and glistening in the trees, waiting for the connection of our heart and attention so that our choice is not simply a choice in a certain situation but a choice of how to express our essence in the most full and honest way. Q’uo continued by saying that they wanted to look at the word “individuation”because it is a tricky concept from a metaphysical point of view, so they said that Carla has been asked if it is service to self or service to others to take time for us to learn and to begin to know ourself in a stable manner, and there is validity in this process of individuation, of researching and learning about ourself, and this process will go on for the rest of our lives because it is not intended to be completed since it is one of the ways of learning to serve and to grow within the third-density atmosphere, and until we have individuated, we cannot begin magical work, and yet we are never fully individuated, so logically speaking we could never begin magical work. Now Q’uo said that there is a critical mass that needs to be reached, and is a powerful thing to become aware of our will, and even if we use it imperfectly tremendous energies can be set in motion, so the magical process begins to take place as soon as we begin to ask of the Creator: “Who am I? Why am I here, and what would you have me do?” These kinds of queries are those that create a magical circumstance. Certainly, it is well to be as mature as one may be before asking such questions, and yet the glory of third density is that all are imperfect and yet all are asking those questions. These are the questions that drive third density.” Now Q’uo said that we are constantly asking for and getting much more information than we were prepared to deal with, and often we do not recognize that we are receiving that which we requested and feel that there is no sense to the experience, but that becomes acceptable because no matter how our experiences that have been created by our questions are used, they shall be that which will create the seeds that are sown for our next generation of learning, and those seeds will fall into good soil and have the possibility of growth regardless of the choices made, so the result will be a net gain in understanding, but it is a hard way in which to learn, and in other ways it is a very forgiving feeling that we cannot fail, and we can become weary and rest, but we can always pick ourself up when we feel ready ask, and then receive the information and work with it. On May 26, 2018, Q’uo said that we always have the possibility of growth:

This is a statement which is somewhat veiled itself, which suggests that as the veil of forgetting becomes more permeable in these last days of your planet’s third density, then entities are able to see light in those darkened areas of the fertile soil of their own being as well as the planet’s being. This was a, shall we say, metaphor not meant to point directly at the dirt, shall we say, but at the fertile circumstances that are everywhere present but frequently unused by entities who are unaware of the possibility of growth that is possible when the fertile conditions of one’s being, and the spiritual surroundings of the planet itself, are utilized for the purpose of making the harvest, or opening the heart, shall we say. Thus, the soil is that which has been unused within the environment of many third-density entities, the environment in which they live and move and have their being.

As the soul of third density begins to live consciously and make choices from a more aware standpoint as regards its own essence, the ability to do magical work increases, and entities begin to have an inkling of what it is like to be a part of a living organism that has more than one center of consciousness. Many times this is first encountered in the small groups connected with family, that lucky family that happens to have a spiritual connection and experiences a common dedication to that which is beyond them. This occurs often in musical families, or in families of scholarship, or in healers such as medical doctors. These are the first nascent experiences of thinking as individuals, and yet as one group, working as one, unified for a goal, whether it is to make music, to solve a complicated medical problem, or to resolve a fascinating scientific question.

It is seldom, however, found that entities are able to enter into the unity of fourth density while within third-density bodies. And we note this present group, in attempting to create a fourth-density consciousness within its group, is indeed attempting that which is only marginally possible. Yet at the same time, the attempt not only creates a greatly advantageous learning situation for those attempting such a thing, it also creates, as the one known as V has suggested, that place where fourth-density qualities may dwell, survive and thrive. These kinds of desires to create heaven on Earth will hone and polish the honesty of each entity and will, if followed carefully, create a growing awareness of the fluidity and flexibility of truth.

The things that separate entities within third density are those things which are assumed. Some assumptions must be made in order to function. What assumptions entities have in common is very critical. The choices made by entities striving as this group is striving become more intense and more capable of making powerful changes in consciousness in the process of their being made because of the purity of the desire to stand in the Light of Love and be unified with the higher forces of Love. This also creates an atmosphere in which experiences which are garnered from the ambience of such an atmosphere are very sharp and often painful. It is, as this instrument would say, a very fast track, one that enables one to lift up and bring the self into an atmosphere of change, and learning, and energizing of that learning by conscious dedication. It is that which tests the mettle and the determination of the seeker. Any time an entity attempts to do what this instrument would call light work, to better the planet and its people, to serve as a beacon, and so forth, that choice brings into being a time of testing. And the more there is the desire to serve and to learn, the more the testing shall occur. It is a self-governing system that must operate as it does in order for free will to be preserved and in order for choices to be tested, refined, and evolved. For a choice tends to move to another choice, to another choice, and so forth, so that it is a spiraling system that builds upon itself; each choice building upon itself or working to correct a previous choice made. Again, this is always at the discretion of the individual.

The late third-density entity then, the one who is ready for graduation, is an entity who knows itself well enough that it is ready to open itself completely to the offerings of all other entities with which it shall work. It has re-entered a group mind, but it is not the same as any other of that group mind; rather, it is appreciated by the group for its flavors, no matter how harsh or pungent they may be. The group will use that uniqueness where it is needed according to the genius of that group. It is very difficult for a third-density entity even to believe in, much less experience, the power of the oversoul of a group and yet as soon as two entities make a true bond, there is a group soul. As soon as three entities are able to unify to a certain critical mass there is a group spirit, just as there is one to the L/L Research attendees that has grown over a period now of some 40 years and it is a very real source of guidance to those who call upon it.

There are potential training wheels available for a nascent fourth-density type constructed at this time simply because this group has continued for a long period of time to attempt to unify itself, more and more, so that all within the group are attempting to serve together. There is a tremendous collaboration in service and in learning that comes into being as fourth-density ways are taken over from third density and at this time within your planet’s experience, these possibilities for fourth-density structures and interactions become more and more viable as, as the one known as Bob Dylan said, “The times they are a changin’.” The energy is changing; the vibration is changing; and fuller love is possible. What choices shall you make? What polarity do you wish to study? This is the great choice and there is no issue too large or too small to contain grist for the mill and information that will be helpful in pursuing those choices.

Now Q’uo said as our soul of third density begins to live consciously and make choices from a more aware standpoint as regards our own essence, the ability to do magical work increases, and we begin to have an idea of what it is like to be a part of a living organism that has more than one center of consciousness, and many times we first encounter this in groups connected with our family that happens to have a spiritual connection to that which is beyond them, and this occurs often in musical families or in families of healers such as medical doctors so that these are the first experiences of thinking as individuals that are working as one whether it is to make music or to resolve a scientific question. Q’uo went on to say that it is seldom that we are able to enter into the unity of fourth density while within third-density bodies, and at the same time, the attempt not only creates a learning situation for those attempting such a thing, it also creates that place where fourth-density qualities may survive and thrive and these kinds of desires to create heaven on Earth will enhance the honesty of each of us and will create a growing awareness of the fluidity and flexibility of truth. Q’uo continued by saying that the things that separate us within third density are those things which are assumed, and some assumptions must be made in order to function and to make powerful changes in our consciousness and the purity of our desire to stand in the Light of Love, to be unified with the higher forces of Love, and this is a fast track that enables us to bring ourself into an atmosphere of change and energizing our learning by conscious dedication, and any time we attempt to do light work and to serve as a beacon, that choice brings into us into a time of testing, and it is a self-governing system that must operate as it does in order for our free will to be preserved and in order for our choices to be tested because a choice tends to move to another choice so that it is a spiraling system that builds upon itself. Now Q’uo said that as late third-density entities we are ready for graduation because we know ourself well enough that we are ready to open ourself completely to the offerings of all other entities with whom we shall work, and we have re-entered a group mind which will use its uniqueness where it is needed according to the genius of that group so that it is very difficult for us even to believe in the power of the oversoul of a group, and yet as soon as two entities make a true bond, there is a group soul: “and as soon as three entities are able to unify to a certain critical mass there is a group spirit, just as there is one to the L/L Research attendees that has grown over a period now of some 40 years and it is a very real source of guidance to those who call upon it.” Q’uo completed their reply by saying that there are potential training wheels available for us as the beginning fourth-density seeker that have been created because this group has continued to attempt to unify itself so that all within the group are attempting to serve together, and there is a collaboration in service and in learning that comes into being as fourth-density ways are taken over from third density, and at this time within our planet’s experience these possibilities for fourth-density structures, and the energy is changing so that a fuller love is possible, and all this depends upon the choices we will make of polarity which is the greatest choice that we can make. On April 21, 1996, Q’uo spoke of the choice of polarity is of great importance:

There are many, many kinds of personalities which have formed around free will and individual expression of this will. It is inevitable that there will be conflict and confusion, for the free will expression of personal identity is an activity that third-density entities are liable to use with or without discrimination, and yet the expression of this free will is central to all choices made and most importantly central to the choice of polarity that is the gift of this density. Thus, each entity is in its own way attempting to carve out that vehicle of personality that shall carry it to those places it wishes to go.

This instrument informs us that we have talked as long as we should upon one subject, and that it is time to open the meeting to further questions, and so we would at this time do so and ask if there is a question at this time?

B: Q’uo, in a case where the messenger becomes more important than the message, what can the messenger do to correct the situation and bring the focus back to the message?

We are those of Q’uo, and we appreciate your query, my brother. It is a well-known phenomenon that often the face or the symbol of a very good thing may become mistaken for that quality, and indeed there are times when the face must disappear. The technique of that disappearance is always at the choice of the entity who wishes to become less important. However the underlying difficulty is that difficulty of the easy versus the difficult, the obvious versus the subtle, the simplistic versus the real.

May we answer you further, my brother?

B: Are you aware of any specific techniques perhaps used by others in such a situation that could be helpful in understanding this?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We are aware of many techniques. However, we find that this query runs very close to conscious work done by several of those present and therefore we run up against the bounds of free will. It is not acceptable to teach/learn for another.

May we answer you further my brother?

B: No, that’s it, thank you.

Q’uo: Is there a further query at this time?

D: I had a question that I have wanted to ask for a long time. Are our prayers for blessings and guidance for the deceased a practice that is worthwhile?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. Prayer of any kind is a very good idea in that it places one in the heart and places one in conversation with the Godhead principle. Both of these are greatly desired orientations for spiritual seeking.

We would say perhaps the most skillful way to discuss blessings with the infinite Creator is to acknowledge them, for there are many blessings that abound even in the harshest circumstance. The attitude of thanksgiving, and the claiming of great matters for which to be thankful are, as this instrument would say, a good idea. That attitude of affirming perfection as opposed to asking for blessings is the difference between knowing and being a needy child, asking for help. In one situation there is the claiming of the self as part of all that there is; in the other there is a separation between the asker and the one who has been asked. However, in general terms, any time that there is conversation with the Creator, it is a very positive and helpful resource upon which to draw.

May we answer you further my brother?

D: The general purpose of my question was more towards the deceased friends and loved ones. Does this apply in that area?

We are those of Q’uo, and this is correct, my brother. Is there a further query?

G: Q’uo, How does an entity in third density become qualified to serve as a higher agent, as a messenger of a message of service which is intended to be for your best and highest interest but which is given in what I would call a negative nature?

We are those of Q’uo, and are not grasping your query, my brother. Could you ask it in another way?

G: Reading your highest words, I feel that opening the heart to another, accepting another unconditionally, and learning how to love is the crux of this density. I believe an entity may be mistaken to appoint themselves to a role in which they can administer a negative form of catalyst. So how does an entity, if an entity can indeed properly do this in a balanced manner, become so qualified? What in their being (experiential learning) makes this a balanced and loving service?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. The ways of teachers and students do not run so much upon qualification as upon the movement of essence. Entities move into those roles for which they have a feeling. The question of qualification is not one which can apply for there is no system of qualification for spiritual work. It is truly a matter of each individual moving upon its own rhythms and upon its own track and attempting to serve as best as it may.

Consequently, all are teachers, and all are students, and all may indeed, in the process of expressing themselves, create negative catalyst for others, yet it is not upon the basis of qualification that such actions could be justified. Indeed, the concept of balance is perhaps helpful rather than the concept of justification.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: Can an entity indeed act on your highest best, giving catalyst of a negative nature, and do that in a balanced manner?

Q’uo: We use the term of the one known as V and say, “Unknown, Captain.” For indeed, you ask a question that we cannot answer. It moves us past the boundaries of free will, and we apologize but cannot go further than we have.

Is there another question, my brother?

G: Not on that particular topic. Thank you, Q’uo.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there a final query at this time?

T: Q’uo, if you are able to answer without infringing upon my free will, are you able to offer any suggestions on how I may be able to better learn from the experiences of… times when I needed patience and tolerance?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. The lessons of patience and tolerance are lessons that are slow, my brother. And therefore, we encourage that feeling that you have for water to come forth for you, to picture within yourself the slow, slow movement of the breaking up of the ice of judgment and narrowness. Do not force the ice to melt, for it is spring, my brother, and the ice will melt. Rather, allow that process to take place even though it feels as if it were breaking you apart. For truly your nature must change from crystallized water to liquid water and from orthogonal angles to the spherical drops of the flowing water in which all things are able to rub along comfortably and make room for each other, whereas the crystallized nature of the ice is such that it must have a certain structure in order to exist in that form at all. You are experiencing, when you ask yourself to relax into non-judgment and patience, to move from that frozen condition to the liquid condition in which you do not have control such as you would feel that you had when you had that right-angled structure of the ice and its crystalline nature. It is not that you change from a crystalline nature. Water also is a crystal, yet it is able to radiate in a different way and is able to accept different structures in an enhanced way without disturbing its own nature.

May we answer you further, my brother?

T: No, thank you Q’uo, that’s very helpful.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother, and we thank each of those who has attended this group this day. We thank you for putting aside this time and for putting aside the daily grind and the concerns that have been on your hearts, simply to empty the self and to come into that place where questions are asked. It is hoped that resources have been added to your arsenal.

We leave each of you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai, my friends.

This morning I vacuumed the first floor of my home, and then I ran an errand to The Home Depot to buy some netting that I plant to use this afternoon.

This afternoon I took down all of the netting around the fishpond because there were torn places here and there that might provide a place for a racoon to get in and try to eat my goldfish. After I took all of the old netting off I hooked the new netting onto the same nails on the top framework of the fishpond and then wove the blue clothesline rope in a zigzag style to let birds know not to try to fly into the netting and get caught in it.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 28

Seeing Shadows

I am of the principle of the consciousness of Love, and I greet you in the name of Jesus Christ.

A shadow of sadness lies at the edge of the illusory consciousness of many pilgrims who have not the grace either to forgive or to forget the trials of the past. This shadow is a habit of mind inimicable to the consciousness of Love, for in Love there is the freedom of the peaceful consistency of wholeness with no shadow or variation of any kind.

Yet blame not your eyes, your mind, or your heart for perceiving shadows in past, present and future. But when perceiving those shadows, know that by definition they are an illusion to be governed and balanced by the consciousness of Love.

We leave you in the peace of wholeness, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 4, 2004:

The question today deals with change. We were talking around the circle about the different kinds of change that each of us is going through. It even seems that the Earth and the solar system and perhaps the galaxy are going through changes as well, and it would seem to be the logical thing, considering all things are moving and growing. We are wondering if Q’uo could give us some information today on how we, in our own personal lives, can deal with change. It seems that whenever we want to change or when change faces us, that there is a practical side and an idealistic side to the change: things that we would like to do and things we feel like we have to do. Blending the two or balancing the two seems to be the real trick. So, if Q’uo could talk to us some about how to look at the concept of change in both the practical and idealistic senses, we would appreciate that very much.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we come to you this day. It is a great blessing to be among you, to experience your vibrations, and to share your meditation. We thank you for calling us to your circle this day to speak concerning the concept of change, and we would ask one thing, as always, that will enable us to speak freely: we would ask each of you carefully to guard your own judgment and discrimination, and to listen to those things that we say with a careful and jaundiced ear. Be cautious about absorbing new information. We are not authorities; we are those who seek, just as you are. We share our opinion, and while you are welcome to it, we wish you to realize what we also realize that we are not without imperfections and it is possible for us to err. Consequently, guard those portals of your learning and accept only those things which resonate deeply within as being truths that are helpful for you at this time. Because truth is of the nature of a growing thing. It has a path of individual development, and it is different for each individual. With that understood, between us we feel that we can speak freely without infringing upon your free will and we appreciate that from each of you.

We gaze within this instrument’s mind to find a starting point for that which we wish to say today and give her the image of the ivy that she was weeding from the planting of lilac trees that grows along the path of the side of this instrument’s house. We see the thoughts that this instrument had while following the ivy around and around the lilac and gently disentangling it from the mass of other strands, or wires, of binding plant that spiral endlessly in the attempt to seek the sun and yet, in so doing, attempt to use all about it as a prop in order to have help in ascending to that source of light, and food, and warmth. Just in such innocent ways does each of you find comfort in the winding effect of some habits that have seemed at first to be helpful, and then perhaps not so helpful and perhaps even narrowing or limiting in their effect upon you as a growing and changing person.

Thechange that is taking place is as a stream that has an energy of its own. Each nuance of attitude which you bring to the observation of and into relationship with this stream, affects the stream. When there is no resistance to that stream, which this instrument would loosely call “destiny,” then it is as if that stream takes one quietly along with a minimum of distress or displacement because of the shift in the movement or flow of that river of destiny. It is as if quiet and self-confidence were the raft or the frail barque that keeps one high and dry in this river of destiny. Only those materials that build the canoe, quietness, and confidence, are availing. In every other situation, one is either resisting the flow of destiny, which has little use since it moves directly against the process of change, or one may indeed embrace change with such a hectic ardor that the change cannot take place properly, or easily, shall we say, in the flow of things because the entity has taken up the oar, or the paddle, and begun furiously attempting to help the stream move forward. The first blocking energy is that energy of fear. The overeager energy is also, in a way, that of fear. The resting upon the pleasant seat in the canoe of quietness and confidence, then, is that path of least resistance which, in many cases, is the most difficult path to take. It is completely understandable that in many entity’s minds, when one approaches a known process of change, one wishes first of all to create that process and move through it as quickly as possible.

So, the first thing that we would suggest is to have a model within the mind of change as being affected very, very much by a process that is already flowing and that has flowed out of the wellspring of your past intentions and the focus you have attained in the past. For in the past you sow for the future and in the present, you reap that which you have sown long ago. Allow this process to take place as it needs to in terms of the timing of things. Not in terms of how carefully you think about what is happening or how deeply you contemplate the nuances of the processes taking place. It is an excellent idea to ask the self daily, if it is on the mind daily, what one thinks, how one feels, to sense into the process that you are aware of, however imperfectly it is taking place, in order to keep the lines of communication within the self open. These lines of communication are most helpful, and they are very sensitive to intention. Telling the self, asking the self, creating space within the self for learning more about such a process of change will yield results, whether they be from the portals of dream, or waking vision, or subjectively interesting coincidence.

Given that each day you are experiencing an increase in the transparency of the new energy to the energy of late third density, it is skillful, in working with the process of your accommodating and embracing change and of moving with the flow of your own destiny, to realize that you have increasing abilities to envision, to set intentions, to ask for help of far more subtle energies than were previously possible, and in many ways to link the deeper aspects of the self with the very considerable powers that are beginning to form up from fourth-density Gaia and from that fourth-density web of social memory that is nascent at this time and even now being experienced in brief flashes in groups such as this one. The subtlety of working with fourth-density energies while in a third-density body are not subtleties that will yield easily to the reasoning process of the logical mind.

The third-density ability to generate thoughts that express in words, while a useful ability, is a third-density ability. And what you are attempting to do is make use of fourth-density-level information in approaching the process of change. This information does not come in processes that create words. There is a translation process that is necessary, and entities such as this instrument have created ways to inform themselves of sub-conscious processes in a conscious manner which produces words. However, this a learned and not an automatic skill and, in general terms, the subconscious processes that feed into each of you are those processes that will not, at any time, approach the reasoning or logical mind.

The group question for this session was: “So, if Q’uo could talk to us some about how to look at the concept of change in both the practical and idealistic senses, we would appreciate that very much.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that they gazed within Carla’s mind to give her the image of the ivy that she was weeding from the planting of lilac bushes that grew along the path outside of her home, and Q’uo saw the thoughts she had while following the ivy around the lilac and gently disentangling it from the mass of other strands that were binding plant that spiraled endlessly in the attempt to seek the light of the sun, and in an attempt to use all about it as a prop in order to have help in ascending to that source of light, food, and warmth, and in such innocent ways does each of us find comfort in the winding effect of some of our habits that seemed at first to be helpful, and then even limiting in their effect upon us as a growing and changing person. Q’uo continued by saying the change that is taking place in us is as a stream that has an energy of its own so that each variation of attitude which we bring to the into relationship with this stream affects the stream, and when there is no resistance to that stream of our destiny it is as if that stream takes us quietly along with a minimum of distress because of the shift in the flow of that river of destiny, and it is as if our self-confidence was the raft that keeps us high and dry in this river of destiny so that only our confidence that builds our canoe can have an effect, and in every other situation, we are either resisting the flow of destiny, or we may embrace change with such a strong desire that change cannot take place easily in the flow of things because we have taken up the oar and begun furiously attempting to help our canoe move forward. Q’uo said that the first blocking energy is that of fear which we may also express by being overeager in achieving change, so when we are resting upon the pleasant seat in the canoe of quietness and confidence, that is that path of least resistance which is often the most difficult path to take, and it is understandable that in our minds, when we are approaching a known process of change, we wish to create that process and move through it as quickly as possible. Q’uo continued by suggesting that we have a model within our mind of change as being affected by a process that has flowed out of the wellspring of our past intentions and the focus we have attained in the past, for in the past we sow for the future, and in the present we reap what we have sown long ago, so we should allow this process to take place as it needs to in terms of its timing but not in terms of how deeply we contemplate the variations of the processes taking place, and it is an excellent idea to ask ourself daily how we feel, and to sense into the process that we are aware of in order to keep the lines of communication within ourself open because these lines of communication are  helpful, and they are sensitive to our intentions and creating space within ourself for learning more about such a process of change that will yield results from the use of dreams, waking visions, or interesting coincidences. Then Q’uo said that each day we are experiencing an increase in the transparency of the new energy of fourth density from the energy of late third density, and it is skillful when we are working with the process of embracing change and of moving with the flow of our destiny to realize that we have the ability set intentions and to ask for help of more subtle energies than were previously possible, and in many ways to link the deeper aspects of ourself with the powers that are beginning to form up from fourth-density Gaia and: “from that fourth-density web of social memory that is nascent at this time and even now being experienced in brief flashes in groups such as this one. The subtlety of working with fourth-density energies while in a third-density body are not subtleties that will yield easily to the reasoning process of the logical mind.” Now Q’uo said that our third-density ability to generate thoughts that express in words is our attempt to make use of fourth-density-level information in approaching the process of change, and this information does not come in processes that create words, and entities such as Carla have created ways to inform themselves of sub-conscious processes in a conscious manner which produces words, but this a learned and not an automatic skill, and the subconscious processes that feed into each of us are those processes that will not approach the logical mind. On September 7, 2003, Q’uo spoke about how we all go through the process of change:

Thusly, the first thing we would say about the way to deal with the concept or the perception that one is in a process of change is to remember the structure that supports this perception. That structure is your eternal and infinite soul stream, that energy that is you, now and forever. A part of that energy has moved into the habitation of the physical body or vehicle, and at this time you are inextricably intertwined, energetically, with this physical vehicle. Yet you are not this physical vehicle. You simply reach into the physical vehicle with the ties and bonds of your dedication of self to the incarnation and connections within the energy body that move into the connections in each chakra. As you present yourselves to us at this time, you sit in the jars of clay, shall we say, that are the vehicles of your physical body, which cannot contain the rainbow self that is your energy, or energetic, body. This rainbow self shimmers and glows and exceeds the boundaries of physicality. And in the balance of each of those chakras, we see much that is not apparent within the veil of third-density illusion.

Consequently, the challenge is how to take in fourth-density concepts when one has not yet become fully telepathic, shall we say, or sensitive to the voices in the trees and the wild animals and indeed in the elements, the “angry agate marble coffee table,” and the sky. All things do have their voices and the one known as D is not altogether incorrect in assigning active personality to such things as the aforementioned table. The one known as D was unfortunate enough to come into contact in a painful manner with this particular table. Was the table therefore angry? Was the table therefore offering information? Or was the entire episode expressing that which was, shall we say, information which was most easily sent in that particular way in that particular moment. All things that impend upon you can have a subjectively interesting meaning and can be looked at with profit for that which they bring, in terms of situations, emotions that have been brought up by such catalyst, and so forth.

Thereis wisdom in remaining personally interested and motivated towards discovering precisely what it is one desires. Serving the Creator and being a part of the spiritual principle does not mean denying the self but rather unveiling the self to the self and discovering the very heart of what you wish to do. And then, allowing the self to grow in awareness of the very best way to bring such a dream into manifestation. So, we do not encourage you to abnegate any personal feelings in favor of the desire to serve the Creator. There is a co-creatorship that is important to the Creator as well as to you. It is important to the Creator that that which you desire is that for which you are aiming. Hone your desire once you find it. Until you are sure of it, pursue the knowledge of yourself. Pursue that question of the self as to what it truly does desire, what its motives truly are. Ask once but then ask a second time and a third time. For the process of change is not that which occurs and then is over. It is that which will cycle through the experience until you are removed from this particular outer experience by the processes of death. The body itself is irresistible in its relentless change. And as the one known as D has been discussing recently, the very system of planets and stars which are your physical home is in the midst of a relentless and inevitable series of changes.

The current atmosphere is one in which your best allies are your guidance system, your consciousness, and the world about you. The world about you, being first and second density, has never been separated from the Love of the one Creator, and It constitutes a powerful resource for those who are contemplating change. The guidance system that you experience has a great deal of information and many resources, many layers or levels of help that are available in various ways, in various times. As we have said before, we do not wish to pry too closely into that guidance system, which is a very individualized system. Yet it is there, whatever its characteristics are, whether it is, as this instrument would call it, a Holy Spirit or any other description, such as higher self, that you would wish to make as a characterization. This energy is a true part of who you are, and it is never apart from you. So, there is always information that is coming in that is fully intended to be helpful.

Consequently, those two allies are the most powerful. Your third ally is the consciousness that you carry. That consciousness is not your thoughts. Your thoughts are riding on that consciousness like whitecaps above the water. Your consciousness is that which lies beneath, around, permeating what you think of as your consciousness. It is your essence. It is that part of you that also has never been separated from the creative principle. Within it lies your sanctuary—that point of contact with the one infinite Creator, that tabernacle where you may go in at any time and find rest and comfort for your soul. This instrument likes to picture the one known as Jesus as having a huge hand and she climbs into that hand and falls asleep in that palm, resting in safety. In other times she imagines crawling into the lap of the Creator and being rocked like a little baby. And when she is feeling sore and weary, she does go into her sanctuary. Each of you has that sanctuary within. Not because of what you think or because of how you feel. The water within you is deeper than any of those surface disturbances. You are also that deep water which is eternity and infinity. You are Love. You are Light. You are the one great original Thought, which is the Creator Itself. This asset is that which is so easily missed in the search for help without. And there is no entrance into this powerful ally except silence, time and asking. So, we encourage those times of silence, and asking, and knowing that that which you are asking is being heard by the one infinite Creator Who is closer to you than your breath.

Then Q’uo said the challenge is how we can take in fourth-density concepts when we have not become fully telepathic or sensitive to the voices in the trees, the wild animals and the  marble coffee table because all things have their voices, and D is not incorrect in assigning a personality to the coffee table because D was unfortunate to come into contact in a painful manner with this table, so was the table angry, or was the table offering information which was most easily sent in that way and in that moment because all things that affect us can have a personal meaning, and we can look at them with blessings which they bring us, in terms of emotions that have been brought up by such catalyst. Now Q’uo said that there is wisdom in our remaining personally interested in discovering  what we desire because serving the Creator and being a part of the spiritual principle is a process of unveiling ourself to ourself and discovering the heart of what we wish to do, and then allowing ourself to grow in awareness of the best way to bring such a dream into manifestation. So, Q’uo did not encourage us to deny any personal feelings in favor of our desire to serve the Creator because there is a co-Creatorship that is important to the Creator as well, and it is important to the Creator that which we desire is that for which we are hoping, so we should pursue that question of what we desire, and ask a second time and a third time, for the process of change is not that which occurs and then is over because it will cycle through the experience until the end of our life since our body goes through continuous change which is also true of the system of planets and stars which are our physical home. Q’uo went on to say that the current atmosphere is one in which our best allies are our guidance system, our consciousness, and the world about us which is the first and second density that has never been separated from the Love of the one Creator, and It constitutes a powerful resource for anyone that is contemplating change, and our guidance system has many resources that are available in various ways and times, so Q’uo said they did not wish to pry too closely into our guidance system which is unique to us, whether it is called the Holy Spirit, as Carla called it, or our higher self because this energy is a true part of who we are, and it is never apart from us, so there is always information that is coming in that is fully intended to be helpful. Q’uo continued by saying that those two allies are the most powerful, and our third ally is our consciousness that lies beneath, around, and permeating what we think of as our consciousness, and it is our essence which has never been separated from the creative principle, and within it lies our sanctuary which is the point of our contact with the one infinite Creator, that tabernacle where we may go in at any time to find rest and comfort for our soul. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that Carla liked to picture Jesus as having a huge hand, and she would climb into that hand and fall asleep in that palm, resting in safety, and in other times she imagines crawling into the lap of the Creator and being rocked like a little baby, so when she is feeling sore and weary, she goes into her sanctuary, and each of us has that sanctuary within us–not because of what we think or because of how we feel—because the water within us is deeper than any of those surface disturbances, and: “We are also that deep water which is eternity and infinity. We are Love. We are Light. We are the one great original Thought, which is the Creator Itself. This asset is that which is so easily missed in the search for help without. And there is no entrance into this powerful ally except silence, time, and asking. So, we encourage those times of silence, and asking, and knowing that that which we are asking is being heard by the one infinite Creator Who is closer to you than your breath.” On October 8, 1989, Q’uo revealed how we all are the one great original Thought:

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We shall take your phrase, “the place of your origin” not to be a specific location, for, indeed, you are from all places, but to be that frame of mind or attitude of unity from which each portion of the one Creator springs, and, indeed, this is true, my brother, for each entity has begun in total unity as an unpolarized and undifferentiated particle of that one great original Thought of Love which has set all creation in motion. Each entity, therefore, finds its uniqueness in the means by which it is able to refine and define this unity from a perspective born of experience that becomes of necessity unique, for as each portion of the creation that becomes intelligent and self-conscious does so, its experience is at variance to some degree from the experience of any other portion of the creation, for the hallmark of an infinite Creator, my brother, is variety. By the free will choices that are possible to each portion of the creation, there is seen an infinity of possibility for each portion of the creation.

Thus does each entity such as yourself move in a rhythm that partakes of the great heartbeat of the universe, moving outward and outward, gathering experience, turning that experience into the power to serve, to love, to glorify the one Creator, and to continue on the journey, moving then back again to that place of unity from which all this began, having now gained the experience of moving through the cycles of creation. Thus, you are in microcosm the one Creator that has come to know Itself as you are now, and shall come to know Itself as all that is.

We would at this time ask if there are further queries about the opening question or whether we may answer another query at this time. We are those of Q’uo.

R: I don’t have a question, Q’uo, but I do want to say that on the surface it seems good to be back in the group and hear your voice coming through the instrument, Carla. And I wanted to thank you for being with me during those two years in various places where I have been, being a quiet support, an inspiration.

We are those of Q’uo, and, my brother, may we say that it also has been inspirational for us for the one known as R has been a true knight who has polished his armor.

Is there another query at this time?

G: Q’uo, in the seeking of truth, could you comment on which of these two attitudes is more likely to be effective. A) The action of the seeker to seek after their own identity, that is, to commit themselves to the doing of the seeking of that identity, or B) To not necessarily search it out but to claim that knowing of identity—to affirm and state, “I know who I am.” If you could respond to any of that I would be most appreciative.

We are those of Q’uo, my brother, and are aware of your query. The question of knowing is no light question and certainly there are as many answers to the question of right knowledge as there are philosophers. To state boldly that which you know is an excellent thing. To state boldly that of which you are not sure is premature. No one but the individual involved can know when unsureness and questing become absolute certainty within the self. One of the best ways to discover the degree of one’s certainty is to ask the self if one would take a stance that might involve dying for taking that stance. If something is that which important enough to die for, this instrument has often said, then it is important enough to live for. This is one way of asking the self mentally how sure one is. Would one die for this principle? Would one die to be this entity?

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: No, excellent, thank you, Q’uo.

We are those of Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

G: Q’uo, in your knowledge of all the many spiritual paths on this planet that all lead to one place, is there, in general, ever a point where a seeker needs to state what “price” they are willing to pay? Is there ever a price that needs to be decided upon before illumination or greater self-knowledge comes?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, if one gazes upon the archetypal images upon which the one known as G has been gazing recently, the material is rich in suggestion that the willingness to pay a price is a legitimate and even necessary part of an archetypal movement. This entity has recently seen that motion picture which is called Mel Gibson’s The Passion of the Christ. And this entity indeed was asked what he would pay to express truth. This entity was not at first entirely settled in its mind that it was ready to pay that price. Yet it truly wished, as was expressed within the motion picture, to “make all things new.” And that which made all things new, in this entity’s way of thinking, was worth dying for. In this movement, this entity embraced that which eventually was indeed the physical death. Yet the story goes on to say that this price, having been paid, was redeemed and indeed was not price so much as gift; and the entity known as Jesus was not simply victim but also priest.

So, consequently the question, “What would you pay for this?” is that question which is as an archetypal key turner, that which changes energy, that which creates a bond between the self and the intention and indeed, in that way of thinking, and in those circumstances, it is indeed a legitimate and just query.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: I’ll have to look that over. Thank you, Q’uo.

We are those of Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there a final query at this time?

G: Q’uo, in the Law of One series they talked about the initiation that one goes through when one enters into the pyramid, and Ra says, I believe, that it’s in the Queen’s Chamber that the “being must be centered upon the Creator,” or there must be a commitment made to center the being upon the seeking of the Creator. While I don’t expect direction from you, I believe that the seeking/centering of which they speak comes from within. Is that centering of the self upon the Creator the type of centering that is seen in saints—those people who spend every waking moment thinking about the Creator in adoration, and reverence, and worship, those who spend their time both in silence and conversing with the Creator in all ways inner and outer—is that something of what Ra meant by the centering of the being upon the seeking of the Creator?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, that would be one way of expressing such intention and devotion. The concept of devotion, we believe, is that with which you struggle at this time. There are as many ways to express devotion as there are ways of serving the Creator. For many, the ways of devotion are very ascetic and have almost no emotional aspects to them. For others, there is an almost hysterical amount of emotion within devotion. It depends upon the personality shell of each seeker in terms of what practice or daily rule of devotion, of keeping oneself fixed upon the Creator, will be most efficacious. For some, it as with this instrument, the daily reminders of morning and evening meditation and reading of spiritual material are helpful. For others, it is very much a twenty-four-hours-a-day, seven-days-a-week, experience of being lead from moment to moment, always within the feeling of being in direct contact with the one infinite Creator. There are many ways of expressing devotion. There are many levels and kinds of devotion, and we encourage the one known as G to play with those feelings that he finds within the self, finding how his focus is honed and sharpened; finding how his particular emotional set is affected; finding how his particular “savage breast” can be soothed—whether by music or by art, by beautiful words or by silence.

May we answer you further my brother?

G: No, thank you for being with us, Q’uo.

We are those of Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother, and thank each for the privilege of being able to share thoughts with you at this time. We would at this time leave each as we found you, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my leaf rake and backpack blower to move the crushed rock from the corner of my neighbor’s yard into piles that I then used my shovel to put in buckets and spread onto the parking area in front of my pet cemetery. This crushed rock was under the foot of snow of a month ago when I hired a snow removal company to remove the snow from the parking areas, but they didn’t put the snow and crushed rock in the pet cemetery as I asked them to, so now that the warm weather has melted the snow/ice I have finally got it out of my neighbor’s yard.

This afternoon I was on a zoom meet with Daniel Hodapp, Gabriel Luzo, and members of their Berlin Study Group. I was honored to be asked a variety of questions that focused on the Law of One. I enjoyed making my best effort to answer the questions in the best way that I could, and I am looking forward to our next zoom meet.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 23

Blessedness

I am the living Spirit of divine Love, and I greet you in the blessed name of Jesus the Christ.

Has the concept of “blessed” touched your life, your thoughts, and your feelings in the last little while? Does the sweep of your life include consecration? We surely hope that it may.

And if it does not, we who speak of divine Love and bear the consciousness of that Love urge each seeker to gaze in faith upon the blessedness of that which lies before you this day. For each moment is sanctified to the sanctified eye, ear, and heart.

Surely, we who came to comfort shall comfort still and be with each. And if blessedness is escaping your consciousness, turn within and ask in humility to be shown that vision of beatitude which lies within each event which comes before you.

For those who act are all blessedly loved by the Divine Consciousness which is Love. That Love strives to move into a world of illusion and shadow. May your consciousness of blessedness lighten the area about you. May your vision, given by grace and produced by your will to worship, bless in turn all those about you.

We leave you in peace, that undergirding strength of lLve divine, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

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I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 21, 2004:

Q’uo, today we’ve been discussing the interaction and relationship between the universe and the seeker. We would like you to discuss how it is that the universe answers the seeker’s questions of identity, service, and transformation, and how it is that the seeker can best listen for, respond, and know those answers that the universe offers. Additionally, what do these lessons teach of patience and how may we invoke and implement that quality in our lives?

(Carla channeling)

We are known to you as those of the principle of Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we come to you today. We thank each of you for taking the time and the energy to dedicate this working to the seeking of truth. It is a great privilege to enter meditation with you and to be a part of that still, small voice that speaks in the quiet of such times. We are most happy to speak with you this day concerning the nature of the relationship between the seeker and the creation, the questioner, and the answerer, and thank you for that opportunity to speak. As always, we would ask that each of you govern those things which you would take in of what we would have to say with exquisite discrimination, for each of you has a very good power of discrimination and can feel the resonance of those thoughts that are helpful at a particular time. We would ask that, unless you feel that resonance, you allow the thoughts simply to pass by and be dropped without further thought. In this way we feel that we can share our hearts with you without being concerned that we will infringe upon your free will, for we truly do not wish to constitute a stumbling block for anyone.

Your query this day is one which drives to the heart of the nature of being. Perhaps it was not intended that this question probe so deeply, yet the question was that of the relationship betwixt the seeker and the system of information which constitutes the creative principle, the Godhead principle, or the one infinite Creator. So, we would first back up to gaze at that one infinite Creator, for that concept, in and of itself, is a key to that question that was asked. Each who is taking breath in and letting breath out within this circle of seeking, and each who may read these words as a part of their life experience of a particular moment: at the moment you hear or read these words, each is a part of the one infinite Creator. The realest part of each spirit or soul in manifestation or third-density incarnation, alike and equally, is a part of the Godhead, a part that has never been separated from the Godhead, a spark that shall never know separation from the original Thought that created the “house” that you experience as the universe and all of the furnishings or dimensions or densities of it.

Becoming able to realize one’s part in the creative principle is, within waking consciousness, virtually impossible, the limitations of body, flesh, and physical senses narrowing the doors of perception and, in many cases, closing them entirely. All of the massive indoctrination that you as very young entities within incarnation are carefully taken through by parents and teachers guarantee that if there are any who may come to awareness free of bias and full of the knowledge of the self as Creator, then that is a very tiny group. For the rest of those upon your sphere at this time, we believe it is safe to say that each has lost that direct sense of insight and union with the one infinite Creator. Yet there is a unity there. Perhaps each is not leaning into that unity, yet it subsists. It cannot be shed, it is not a skin that can be molted, and it is nothing that shall ever be renewed. The human experience, shall we say, the third-density incarnational experience, is all about death and renewal, endings and beginnings. Yet throughout the process of incarnational living, the most fundamental part of your essential being is not that which will change, grow, or alter. Rather, it is that which is. How in the holy work that this instrument knows as the Bible did the Creator express itself? “I AM.”

So part of each of you is an I AM. Can you feel the difference between “I” and “I AM”? Can you feel the shift from personhood to essence? It is an important shift of which to remain aware, not simply for the purpose of this discussion but in terms of the basic skills of living life awake and conscious of who you are and why you are here. What this instrument would say about the relationship between the I and the I AM is that she hopes, in each day, to allow the I that is I AM, to become her, so that the I of her is what she would call the Christ or Christ Consciousness or unconditional love. It is not a taking of the self, tossing the self away, and then replacing it with the Creator, the Christ, or the Christ principle. Rather, it is allowing oneself to remember that the I AM is the deepest essential self that is a true part of the whole being that is the one known as Carla.

Now, we feel that each within the circle has hopes along similar lines, that is, each has hopes of expanding personal consciousness into a truer, more whole and deeper consciousness; expressing a more essential and more vital self. If infinite consciousness is living your life, then there is no questioner and no answerer but rather a state of being which is unitary; in which there is no necessity for questioning, for waiting, for looking, for all is perfect. This is a valuable tool and resource. No matter what the circumstances, this level of consciousness is always a powerful resource in centering the self and allowing the self to lift away from peripheral details of a particular given situation that has the energy of a bubble of topical interest at the time. One cannot, for the most part, stay within unitary consciousness, within the I AM, a hundred percent of the time within consensus reality. Consensus reality was specifically designed to pull one away from calm, smugness, and the acceptance of things as they are. Consensus reality is carefully designed to pull one’s energies out of their comfort zone not once, but again, and again, in cycles, from birth until the death of the physical body. Consequently, we do not suggest that each attempt at all times to remain completely submerged in the I AM of Creatorship. Yet when there is that forest of confusion out of which one cannot find a way, when there seems to be a failure of the rational way of gazing at a situation, we encourage each to take a moment to rest the self from all of the labors of the mind and emotions, to sit or rest while walking, and simply allow that consciousness of I AM to permeate and take over the mind and the focus of the mind, for in that utter lack of personality or condition lies the deepest treasure of the incarnate spirit, the connection with all that there is.

Now let us move into gazing at a less unitary and more dualistic view of spiritual process, that view which posits that the seeker is the questioner and the universe, the creation, or guidance, is that which is responding the question. This is much closer to the level of consensus reality. This offers no challenge to the personality that is locked into the roles that he or she is playing and that have perhaps have been thrust upon him or her. Many times, the way the creation chooses to respond to the questions which seekers ask depends upon the most flimsy, fragile nuances in the way questions are put. Many times, as this instrument has given personal channelings, private readings, for individuals she has asked for the entity asking the question to go back and study again the question that has been asked to be sure that it catches the absolute center of that concern with which the entity has come to request the reading. And this entity is correct to do so, for that which the universe naturally can flower into in response to a question is completely dependent upon the shape of the intent, the mood, the very tiniest wording of the question asked. And when that shape is heard by the creation it brings about an absolutely automatic, natural process of response. It is not a response that can be detailed in a linear fashion—first this happens, then that, and then the other—for it is a response upon as many levels of intent as the energy of the question discloses. What entity can truly know all of the levels at which he is asking a question? How can an entity truly penetrate so deeply into the unknown country of his own archetypical mind that he is even aware of the full nature of that which he seeks?

The group question for this session was: “We would like you to discuss how it is that the universe answers the seeker’s questions of identity, service, and transformation, and how it is that the seeker can best listen for, respond, and know those answers that the universe offers. Additionally, what do these lessons teach of patience and how may we invoke and implement that quality in our lives?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that our query is one which drives to the heart of the relationship between us and the one infinite Creator, so Q’uo wanted to speak about the one infinite Creator, for that concept is a key to the question that was asked, and each of us who is breathing in and breathing out at the moment we hear or read these words, is a part of the one infinite Creator so that the real part of each soul in incarnation is part of the Godhead that shall never know separation from the original Thought that created the “house” that we experience as the universe or densities of it. Q’uo went on to say that when we attempt to realize our part in the creative principle that is impossible because the limitations of our body, flesh, and physical senses narrow the doors of our perception and, in many cases, close them entirely so that all of the indoctrination that we went through as children by parents and teachers guarantees that only a tiny group of us may come to an awareness free of bias and full of the knowledge of the self as Creator, and Q’uo believed it was safe to say that each of us has lost that direct sense of union with the one infinite Creator, but there is a unity that we are not leaning into, and our third-density incarnational experience is all about death and renewal, yet the most fundamental part of our essential being is not that which will change, but it is that which is, and in the Bible the Creator expressed itself as “I AM.” Q’uo said that part of each of us is an I AM, and they said that the difference between I and I AM is a shift from our personhood to our essence which is an important shift to remain aware of in terms of the basic skills of living life conscious of who we are and why we are here, and Carla said that the relationship between the I and the I AM is that she hoped to allow the I that is the I AM to become her and what she calls the Christ Consciousness, but it is not tossing herself away and replacing it with the Christ principle, but it is allowing herself to remember that the I AM is the deepest essential self that is a true part of the whole being that is the one known as Carla. Now Q’uo said that each of us has hopes of expanding our consciousness into a deeper consciousness and a more vital self so that if infinite consciousness is living our life, then: “there is no questioner and no answerer but rather a state of being which is unitary; in which there is no necessity for questioning, for waiting, for looking, for all is perfect.” They said that no matter what the circumstances, this level of consciousness is always a powerful resource in centering ourself, but we cannot stay within unitary consciousness within the I AM all of the time within consensus reality because consensus reality was designed to pull us away from the acceptance of things as they truly are again and again from birth until the death of the physical body, so Q’uo did not suggest that we attempt at all times to remain submerged in the I AM of Creatorship, but if we cannot find our way out of the forest of confusion in a rational way, they encouraged each of us to take a moment to rest from all of the labors of our mind and emotions and allow that consciousness of I AM to permeate and take over the focus of our mind, for in that lack of personality lies the deepest treasure of our incarnate spirit, the connection with all that there is. Then Q’uo said that they wanted move into looking at a less unitary and more dualistic view of the spiritual process which says that we are the questioner and the universe that is responding the question in the way of consensus reality which offers no challenge to our personality that is locked into the roles that we are playing, and many times the way the universe chooses to respond to the questions which we ask depends upon the fragile way that we ask our questions because we need to be sure that they catch the center of our concern that expresses our intentions, mood, and the detailed wording of our question, and when that shape is heard by the universe it brings about a natural process of response upon as many levels of intention as the energy of the question expresses which is difficult to do especially if we are not totally aware of the nature of what we seek. On April 28, 1985, L/Leema described how we are all that there is:

I am L/Leema, and, my brother, we may say that there is but one source, the One which moves in all, and yet, my brother, we may say there are infinite sources, for this One expressed Itself in infinite variation and your own creation contains infinite resources which any seeker might partake in furthering its own evolution. To look within one’s own being is to see all that there is. To look within the eyes of another is to see all that there is through another’s eyes. To look at your creation of flowers and trees, of birds and insects, the wind and weather, is to see the Creator moving with a simple elegance yet containing all answers to all queries for those who seek with discerning eyes and ears and yearning hearts. You may look about you at any source, and if you look beyond that which meets the physical eye, you will see the one Creator there in full, whole and perfect, willing to teach all that you seek.

Earlier there was a discussion of a movie recently seen concerning the life of the one known as Jesus the Christ and in that movie the character of Pontius Pilate asks the question, “What is truth?” And this is basically what we are saying to you, “What is your question?” It is difficult to know the truth of a situation or a question. It is almost impossible to know what you are asking to the full limit of that question. Hidden within the folds of the silence between the words lie worlds of requested information that is pointed very precisely by the attitude, the hopes, and the feelings that go into that moment of asking.

So, one thing that we would say about the relationship between questioner and response is that the questioner has the deepest of personal individual power and responsibility for the quest, the question, the intent of the question, and everything that surrounds the moment of coming to crux, coming to crisis, and accepting that there is a cusp which must be met. Then when that is realized, it is well to take that realization and employ that patience of which you asked first, in the forming of your question. How deeply can you probe into your secret heart? How carefully can you sense those feelings that perhaps have not seen the light of day? What work might there be for you to do in reaching out to those dark places within yourself where questions have not been fully asked because the essence beneath those questions has not yet been fully redeemed within the self, to the self? What powers of forgiveness can your heart bring to the process of coming into the present moment and releasing the past? How high can you hold up your hope, your intent, and your aim? And to what sharpness of focus can you bring that part of yourself that carries pride, so that you are able to give it as a gift, as you kneel in humility with empty hands at last before the truth itself.

Once the seeker has asked the question there is that time of release and then, skill and art lie in that which the one known as G referred to as the light touch. Once you have awakened the universe to your need, you may be sure that the universe will find many ways to communicate with you concerning your query. Again, because it is the universe of the Creator, rather than the universe of humankind, it is often that this information does not come in words at all, but rather in coincidences, signs, hints, chance thoughts heard in unusual circumstances, and many subjectively interesting occurrences such as the dreams of yourself and others about you, the chance comments of others about you upon topics that do not seem to have a relationship to your question but yet which angle in tangentially and have their own eerie but very true meaning in terms of your situation. Many are the times that we have discussed within this group all of the amazing ways in which the world of nature as well as the world of humankind finds ways to express its connectedness with you, its care for you, and its affiliation with you.

When there is a question which seems to be intensely important, it is especially difficult to retain a sense of proportion, a sense of peace, a sense of patience, shall we say. There is the feeling of a need for immediate change. And while we have complete sympathy for that wish to see results, at the same time we would encourage each to consider the possibility that the question that has been asked is expressing on many different levels, only one of which shows above the ground of the conscious mind, the limen or threshold of the waking consciousness. Most of the information that comes into the deeper self to inform and prepare that self for the changes in energy that are taking place come into the web of the self below the level of conscious awareness and only bubble up into conscious awareness in that very subtle way of yeast bubbling up into bread in order to make the situation rise, shall we say. One becomes aware that there is space where there had not been space, there is information, or an opinion, or a feeling where previously there had not been a feeling. Look for and lean into those perceptions that seem simply to be bubbling up from within because that is the end result of a fairly lengthy process of information-gathering by the self from the creation. It has bubbled in through notice of coincidences of conversations, the messengers of animals and flowers, the speaking of trees and the blowing of the wind. All of these things move into the web of self and touch various inner bodies of the energy-body system that is instinct within the outer physical shell that each of you enjoys.

It is a tremendous gift simply to have faith that this process is taking place. One may see that such a process shall, through the limitations of the physical body, take time. It takes time to wake and sleep, and wake and sleep, and wake again, allowing this process of recovery of information through dreams and through subtle processes that occur inwardly to have time to complete themselves. So, it is not simply patience within a vacuum that we encourage you to adopt but rather patience that is a knowing patience, a patience that contains the awareness that things are occurring of which the conscious mind cannot know. The ability to take on faith that this is the way the spirit works within entities is a tremendous asset. Use it if you have it and attempt to cultivate it if you do not. How can you cultivate the faith in these subtle processes but by taking the leap of faith, taking the effort and the time to have patience with the process of seeking the answer to the question, and then evaluating, after the fact, what sources of information in fact came through to you and what kind of efficacy those processes have had in bringing into manifestation the blooming and development of that which was a budding situation of which there was great question as to the appropriate way of blooming or maturing.

Then Q’uo asked us, “What is your question?” Then they said that it is difficult for us to know the truth of a situation or a question, and it is almost impossible to know what we are asking to the limit of the question because within the silence between the words lie worlds of requested information that are pointed precisely by our attitude, hopes, and feelings that go into that moment of asking. Then Q’uo said that in the relationship between the questioner and response is that the questioner has deep personal power and responsibility for the question and everything that surrounds the moment of accepting that there is a turning point which must be met, and when we realize that, it is well to use that realization and that patience of which we asked in the forming of our question and then ask ourself: “How deeply can you probe into your secret heart? What work might there be for you to do in reaching out to those dark places within yourself where questions have not been fully asked because the essence beneath those questions has not yet been fully redeemed within the self, to the self? What powers of forgiveness can your heart bring to the process of coming into the present moment and releasing the past?” Q’uo continued by saying that when we have asked the question then there is that time of release and the need to exercise the light touch because once we have awakened the universe to our need, we may be sure that the universe will find many ways to communicate with us concerning our question because it is the universe of the Creator, and it is often that this information does not come in words at all, but rather in coincidences, thoughts heard in unusual circumstances, and interesting experiences such as dreams of ourself and others about us, and many amazing ways in which the world of nature as well as the world of humankind finds ways to express its connectedness with us, its care for us, and its connection with us. Q’uo went on to say that when there is a question which seems to be important, it is especially difficult to retain a sense of peace and patience because we feel a need for immediate change, but Q’uo encouraged us to consider the question that we have asked is expressing on different levels, only one of which is within our conscious mind because most of the information that comes into our deeper self, to prepare us for the changes in energy that are taking place, come into the web of ourself below our level of conscious awareness and bubble up into our conscious awareness in a subtle way, and we become aware that there is information where previously there had not been information so that we should lean into those perceptions that seem to be bubbling up from within us because that is the end result of a lengthy process of information-gathering from the creation that come from: “coincidences of conversations, the messengers of animals and flowers, the speaking of trees and the blowing of the wind. All of these things move into the web of self and touch various inner bodies of the energy-body system that is instinct within the outer physical shell that each of you enjoys.” So Q’uo said that it is a gift simply for us to have faith that this process is taking place, and we may see that such a process shall, through the limitations of our physical body, take time to wake and sleep, again and again, for us to allow this process of recovery of information through dreams and through subtle processes that occur inwardly to have time to complete themselves, and Q’uo encouraged us to practice patience that contains the awareness that things are occurring which our conscious mind cannot know, and we can cultivate faith by taking the leap of faith, and taking the time to have patience with the process of seeking the answer to the question, and then evaluating what sources of information came through to us and what kind of efficacy those processes have had in bringing into manifestation that which was a budding situation of which there was great question as to the appropriate way of blooming or maturing. On March 21, 1999, Q’uo described how we can cultivate faith:

Faith is simply an attitude which is part of your spiritual being. Faith is that which knows that all is well and that all will be well. It cannot be gotten at by trust in any other person. It can only be experienced in midair after one has leapt from the precipice safely. In midair one finds oneself marvelously able to cultivate faith, and you will find, as you work with your desires, that there is a place or balance which you will come to recognize. There is a comfort in sensing that one is centered, that one is on the beam, that one is in rhythm and in cooperation with one’s destiny.

When seeking the truth, there is much to be said for leaning into the interiority of the process. Much energy can be wasted in the reaching outward, for outer authority and outer knowledge. When there is a question of spiritual evolution involved it is seldom that the outer world will have a prima facie, direct way of speaking to the heart of the problem, the situation, or the question. The deeper the question, the less effective consulting outer authority shall be. Yet there is a system of inner authority to which one may go in mind and in heart. And we would not limit this for entities by saying it is this or it is that. To many, a guidance system is a unitary or singular phenomenon. This instrument would call it the Holy Spirit. The one known as David would call it the Guidance System, and so forth. And yet we assure each that the guidance system of each of you is massive and tremendously complex, moving not simply into the inner planes of third density but into the family connections, shall we say, between those in soul groups and their connections in other densities and so forth, so that the guidance system that can be approached by the asking of a question amounts to the complete awareness of your own inner planes and outer densities as well as that center of guidance for each of you that is that self of sixth density that is looking back to self in third density and offering that harvest in awareness that it has within that particular illusion.

This massive family that backs up each of you may take some of your time to respond so that it manifests within your own awareness. And so we give to this instrument the image of that figure within the Bible of which the one known as Jesus spoke, of the one who goes into his room to pray in secret, to express suffering in secret, to offer in the utmost privacy of self, the heart of self, the suffering of self, and all of the self that can be brought to that room in the asking of what is the situation and what is the truth of the situation. Keeping it quiet, keeping it silent, keeping it completely inner is a very helpful technique for it allows a kind of intensity to build up within that tiny room of prayer. Perhaps each of you is familiar with the way that a materialization medium gathers ectoplasm within its closet so that it may manifest that which this entity would call a ghost or spirit in a séance. Just in such a way can you gather the energy of your prayer, keeping it within that tiny closet, within that point of union between you, the question, and the response system—that point that is the gateway to intelligent infinity—staying just there, just past the lions at the gate, just in the door, not anywhere nearer than moving into the interior, resting and allowing the process to move.

The one known as V was speaking the other day of the connectedness of all things, the labyrinth that turns out to be that which connects everything to everything. It is at that point, just within that tiny room of prayer, that that connection point is. So the more interior that you are able to make your seeking, the more quiet, private, and special, the more opportunity you will have to move into that deep rest that lifts you in a hammock just where you wish to be and allows you to rock, waiting in total comfort, resting in the cradle of the Love of the infinite Creator. If you can do this for yourself, daily, if possible, when working through a situation, you shall be touching into the most efficacious and helpful place within you for truly listening to that still, small voice of the one infinite Creator.

Each is aware of many techniques for determining the rightness of a particular fact or action. The use of the pendulum has been discussed often, the use of readings, whether they be tarot or astrology, and the use of psychic or spiritual counselors. All of these ways of getting more information are very helpful but you may see how diffused and outward they become and how quickly one loses that precious focus, that honed intent, and that quiet, listening ear. One may employ crystals; one may employ pyramids; one may employ such a large number of techniques for finding out more information concerning the outer details of a situation that we could not possibly mention them all. But each is aware of the size of the spiritual supermarket, about which this group has often joked and enjoyed conversation. There are many, many ways to know more about the energies around you. Yet, in terms of how the universe works, the best connection between questioner, question, and guidance system is the gateway that lies within each of you.

Now Q’uo said when we are seeking the truth, there is much to be said for looking into the inner nature of the process because we can waste our energy when we reach for outer knowledge, and when there is a question of spiritual evolution is involved, it is seldom that the outer world will have a direct way of speaking to the heart of our question, so the deeper the question, the less effective consulting outer authority will be, yet there is a system of inner authority to which we may go in mind and heart, and Q’uo would not limit this for us by saying it is this, or it is that because to many, a guidance system is a singular phenomenon which Carla would call the Holy Spirit, and David would call the Guidance System, and Q’uo assured each of us that our guidance system is massive and complex, moving not simply into the inner planes of third density but into the family connections between those in soul groups and their connections in other densities so that the guidance system that can be approached by the asking of a question amounts to the complete awareness of our own inner planes and outer densities as well as that center of guidance for each of us that is our higher self of sixth density that is looking back to us in third density, and offering that harvest of awareness that it has within this particular illusion. Then Q’uo said that this massive family that backs up each of us may take some of our time to respond so that it manifests within our own awareness, and Q’uo gave Carla the image of that entity within the Bible of which Jesus spoke of the one: “who goes into his room to pray in secret, to express suffering in secret, to offer in the utmost privacy of self, the heart of self, the suffering of self, and all of the self that can be brought to that room in the asking of what is the situation and what is the truth of the situation.” Q’uo went on to say that keeping our suffering silent and within us is a very helpful technique for it allows a kind of intensity to build up within our tiny room of prayer, and each of us is familiar with how a materialization medium gathers ectoplasm within its closet so that it may manifest that which Carla would call a ghost or spirit in a séance, and just in such a way can we gather the energy of our prayer and keep it within that point of union between us, “the question, and the response system—that point that is the gateway to intelligent infinity—staying just there, just past the lions at the gate, just in the door, not anywhere nearer than moving into the interior, resting and allowing the process to move.” Q’uo went on to say that the one known as V was speaking of the connectedness of all things, the maze that turns out to be that which connects everything to everything, and it is at that point–just within that tiny room of prayer–that the connection point is, so the more inner that we are able to make our seeking, the more opportunity we will have to move into that deep rest that lifts us in a hammock just where we wish to be, and allows us to rest in the cradle of the Love of the infinite Creator, and we can do this for ourself daily when working through a problem, and we shall be touching into the most helpful place within us for truly listening to that still, small voice of the one infinite Creator. Q’uo completed their response by saying that each of us is aware of techniques for determining the rightness of a particular action such as the use of the pendulum, the use of tarot or astrology readings, and the use of spiritual counselors, crystals, and all of these ways of getting more information are helpful in knowing more about the energies around us, but we may see how scattered they become, and how quickly we can lose our focus and our listening ear, but in terms of how the universe works, the best connection between questioner, question, and guidance system is the gateway that lies within each of us. On February 9, 1974, Hatonn spoke of the nature of desire:

Your desire, my friends, is the key to your existence. Your desire is extremely important, for the Creator planned that all of Its children throughout all of the universe would get exactly what they desire. That is how the universe works. That is how the Creator planned it.

The people of your planet at this time do not understand this, though it is evident to us that this is the cause of all of the conditions that you enjoy on your planet. These conditions range from those that you would call enjoyable to those that you despise. However, my friends, all of these conditions are a result of desire.

This, my friends, is why meditation is so very important at this time. It is because people on Earth do not understand their desires, and, since they do not understand their desires, people do not understand the gifts of the Creator. They interpret them quite erroneously. And, my friends, the Creator never planned for Its children to be the recipients of that which they did not desire.

However, entities on Earth are desiring things that they do not want. But they do not realize this. They can realize this, very simply, through the process of meditation. They may know themselves and their true objective. That objective, my friends, is the same for all people throughout all of the creation, even though, as on your planet, they do not realize the objective. The objective, my friends, is the Creator. A return to Him. A return to the true creation.

At this time this instrument requests that we move on to ask if there are further questions that we may answer at this time. Is there a query that we may answer at this time?

B: I have one. When you were speaking initially, you spoke of a duality, and you really only talked about one side. Would the other side be where the one infinite Creator becomes the seeker?

We are those of Q’uo. We are aware of your query, my brother. The duality of which we were speaking is that duality that is self-perceived by the questioner, when the questioner sees itself as one dynamic of a duality and the answer as the other part of a duality. The unitary attitude, on the other hand, would see the questioner, the question, and the guidance as one system which is not at all separate from itself, but which is a unit working to expand the self and, in that way, we would say that indeed when there is a unitary attitude the questioner is the Creator. This is correct, my brother.

Is there a further query?

G: Q’uo, I have one. Ra speaks about the will and says that it is paramount; it is not to be underestimated; and its use in faith can create change and can accelerate the path. Yet, I am feeling doubtful about the ritual that I want to undertake tonight, in which I would use the will to create a change or shift in consciousness. I know, reading through past transcripts, that this philosophical point between willing change to occur and waiting for change has been discussed much, but I was wondering if you can speak more specifically to this particular situation?

We are those of Q’uo, my brother, and are aware of your query. The state of willing that which one feels is correct for the self is that state in which the entity is sure, in a way that this instrument would call “gnosis,” of that which is intended. It is a matter of knowing one’s own heart, knowing one’s true feelings to the point where one is willing to stand upon the ground and say, “This is who I am. This is how I wish to express my will.” In that way of offering the will, there is an inner knowing that lies behind that ability to cast off all fear and doubt and simply apply the will directly, straightforwardly, forthrightly, to the goal at hand. The purity with which one maintains honesty with the self is a great key to the achieving of this kind of gnosis or sure insight concerning the self.

When a situation is upcoming in which the will to serve is known by the person but not which situation needs to be served, it brings forth the second kind of use of will, which is to abnegate one’s own will in favor of the will of the infinite Creator, the guidance system, and the basic incarnational plan that one has had in place for the entire incarnation and in which one does have faith. In this latter situation, it would be folly to force one outcome over another. In that case the will is involved simply in bringing the whole self to a point of surrender so that as the will of the Creator becomes obvious, it may be followed with a complete and full intensity of effort and focus.

May we answer you further my brother?

G: Yes. I think I was skillful enough to create the ritual so that I was not forcing one outcome or another or requesting any kind of specific unfolding of events, but I did steer the will, especially at the end of it, to one of surrender to the Creator. So my question then is: if one feels that they are not fully, one hundred percent, in totality, surrendered to the Creator, can one then marshal what will that they are aware of within themselves to create a more full surrender to whatever outcome that the Creator will give, whatever catalyst that will come one’s way, to bring the rest of that self lagging behind and up to that surrendered and accepted state to know the Creator’s will?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. Yes.

G: You’re awesome. Thank you Q’uo.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there a further query at this time?

B: Q’uo, you used the word, faith, on numerous occasions. Could you please define what you mean by faith?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We use the words that this instrument has in her vocabulary. Often there are intangible differences in the way we use that word which you may have noticed, my brother. Faith, in general, is intended to indicate surety. The way that this instrument sees faith is fairly acceptable to us. In her mind faith is connected with knowing that all is well. That is what this instrument tends to mean when she speaks of faith. It is not that she attaches any fact, or dogmatic principle, or tenet to the word, faith, but rather it is a noun expressing an attitude of inner surety of the reality of the perfection and the rightness of the pattern of creation in which she is involved and of which she is an active and creative part.

When we use that word we are attempting to express a sense of confidence that is not aggressive but rather rests in peace, and confidence, and sureness, so that the knowingness is not confrontive, argumentative or even filled with fact but is simply an attitude of mind which assumes and stands on the rightness and the goodness of creation, of each entity’s place in it, and of the patterns of suffering, and expression, and experience that seem to be moving about one at any particular time.

May we answer you further, my brother?

B: No, thank you, that was fine.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there a final query at this time?

T: Q’uo, I’m not sure how much you can say but are you able to comment at all upon the decisions that I’ve made in relation to employment and the idea that I’m now pursuing?

We are those of Q’uo, and the warmth of our affection for you makes this instrument smile, my brother. We are able to say that we feel that you do indeed stand on faith. We express our complete faith in you and in those decisions that you have made. And we are with you and with each as each moves into those areas which have been beyond the comfort zone and which now have the attraction of that which shall be and that which even now is growing into maturity within you.

May we answer you further, my brother?

T: No, no thank you, Q’uo. I just want to send my thanks and love to you and also to those of Hatonn.

We are those of Q’uo, and may we say, my brother, that your words are most welcome to those of Hatonn that are with us, as always, at this time.

We thank this group in our hearts for allowing us to be a part of your beautiful nature, your sweet meditation, and your community of seeking. It is such a privilege to us and such a blessing to be able to be of some small service within your patterns. We assure you that you are of tremendous service to us. And we thank you.

We leave each of you, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai. We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo.

This morning, I talked on my iPhone to Ariana K., woman in France who Carla has been in contact with for the past six years and has been receiving guidance and support from Carla on her spiritual path of working with the Akashic Records and healing. Carla and I went to visit Ariana’s mother in 2003, and I showed Ariana some pictures that I took of her and her brother when they were teenagers which she had forgotten about. She meditates three or four times a day and frequently has what are usually called kundalini experiences which feel very transformative.

This afternoon I took the old pump out of the fishpond and replaced it with a new pump because the old pump would occasionally shoot the water out of the fishpond. I am hopeful that this new pump will have a more consistent performance and keep the fountain within the pond.

From A Book of Days, by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 26

Healing The Body

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

Those who seek healing without an understanding of the sacred and divine nature of all matter, seek healing in a much-reduced atmosphere, an atmosphere in which the opportunity for using the forces of Love to engage in healing work have been minimized.

It is easy for a studious pilgrim to consider the body a sinful beast of burden which has all the wrong instincts. And, yet it is the mind of each entity which legislates the actions of the matter of the body, not the instincts. Indeed, the instincts of man on Earth have been much subdued. Yet the sinful inclinations of the heart are only removed from conversation.

The nature of the body is, as all things made by the author of love, a manifestation of Love. And Love may speak to Love. Thus, in Christ the life of the body lies in the consciousness of Love. And to imagine and pray for that Light and life to be sent to every cell is, indeed, an efficacious prayer.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 11, 2004:

Question from C: Events seem to be preparing me for a new direction in my life and I would like Q’uo to speak to that direction as much as possible.

(Carla channeling)

We are thus known to you as the principle of the Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we come to you this day. May we say, my brother, what a true privilege it is to be called to have a conversation with you concerning the question of what new directions to which you may be called. It is a question that is a joy to address, as it is open, straightforward and moving to the heart of things, releasing and embracing that which is, and that which is to be.

We would only ask one thing of you at this time and that would be that, as you listen to these humble words, you are able to release any thoughts of our being authorities over you in any way. We may have opinions, and we are most happy to share all that we know and think. Yet is not knowledge and truth a very subjective thing, my brother? Consequently, though we aim to speak directly to your soul, at the same time we realize that some arrows will miss their mark. Therefore, please, as you listen, take care to discard these ideas which do not have resonance for you at this time. With that understood we shall feel free to express ourselves and not be concerned with infringing upon the freedom of your will and your process.

Within the question of new directions lies an assumption that that which is old may need to be discarded. For as the one known as C wrote in a letter to this instrument, it seems that there is a pattern of taking on new directions without appropriately evaluating that repositioning of oneself within the nexus of those activities that had at one time seemed like new directions and so had been followed with passion and joy. Yet in one life there is only so much energy, and the wise entity looks not back but forward, for it is in the present and in that which the present seeds for the future of the self. Thus, the concern is justly brought to bear for the seeker of evolution for the self. Consequently, we would ask the one known as C what true evaluation can this entity give of his passion for each and every item that is upon the game board, shall we speak, as a piece that is moved and that takes up the time and the energy which the player of the game is willing to expend and has the time to expend? What is the harmony of that particular piece of the game of right livelihood? Or to move the field further, the game of right moving-hood, relative to the other pieces that are upon the board?

Thisinstrument recently was encouraged to do this kind of evaluation of those things that were upon her mind and upon her heart, and she found that they were, when gazed at steadily and with an analytical mind, quite prey to being sorted in one of several ways. In the end the criterion which this instrument chose was primarily that of passion. The question became one of those things for which she felt passion. How did she prioritize them in terms of their importance? It was this exercise that relieved this instrument of continuing feelings of being overwhelmed and swept by those things which she had on her agenda, and we might fruitfully suggest that this tactic may be a preliminary to more deep and searching ways of evaluating the contents of a rich and fully lived life at this particular time. Some items, as noted by the one known as C, do need to fall off the back of the wagon but why and in what order? This sort of conscious, intellectually based analysis cannot go deep, cannot dive into the essence of the underlying questions that are presupposed in such a query. Yet it can, perhaps, in some helpful way, order and organize a picture of the situation within the mind so that there is a grasp of the whole that can be had at an intellectual level.

In moving deeper into the query of new directions and what we can say about them, you may perhaps have anticipated that we would be unable to be specific concerning new directions, for it is not our work to do your work. Nor would we take that tremendous privilege and responsibility from you. There is an honor to being faced with this question in one’s life and it presupposes a “life of significant soil” as the poet has said, that life that has dug into itself to produce things of value that are valued and have the history of being valued by others. Consequently, when one wishes to embrace new directions there are those deeper questions that are concerned in such a gaze. One wishes to gaze at the process of thinking which is the habitual nature of the one known as C, gazing at the self through time, looking at those patterns of thought that repeat themselves and beginning to sit with them and identify the themes of those thoughts. Many times there are patterns that have been used, and perhaps used fully, that, because of affection, are retained within the active mind and in some cases these need to be reevaluated in terms of the living and energetic center of the self which seems to be moving on and trying to move, shall we say, into new directions and in new ways of thinking and being.

You do not consider these things as quantities only. For each line of inquiry, each avenue of spending time fruitfully, is an entire world full of qualities and not simply a unit of fact. When things are valued, they are far more than fact. When avenues of progress are valued, they are far more than streets. There is an aura, a presence, a world that is implied with each turning and each new project. What roads are needed by the one known as C at this time for his learning and service? This is the proper question, and we believe it is precisely that which you ask. But realize that you ask about a far more subtle and complex thing than simply that which can be said in a disposition that expresses quantity or essence. We would move back to the word about which we had some discussion before, and that word is “passion.” It is always well to identify the center of one’s passion and in order to do that it is often necessary to release all suppositions concerning the self and to begin from a place of simple inquiry into the self.

This past weekend this instrument was channeling for its group meditation at the regular Sunday afternoon time, and a very similar question was asked of us by several within the group who were pondering new directions as well as the one known as C. And to them as well as to you we discuss the experience this instrument is having, of having the wiring within the house in which she lives redone because the previous wiring was not strong enough to carry enough power to do those things which this instrument wished to do within the house. When new directions are intended, quite often before they can be followed there must occur a period of deconstruction within the house of the personality, shall we say, or the ego, the aspects of self that are the shell of the self and that need sometimes gently to be evaluated and perhaps repositioned in a more helpful configuration for telling the truth about the substance of being that dwells within the house of personality and name and identity.

The question today came from: “Question from C: Events seem to be preparing me for a new direction in my life and I would like Q’uo to speak to that direction as much as possible.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that within the question of new directions lies an assumption that that which is old may need to be discarded because, as C wrote in a letter to Carla, it seems that there is a pattern of taking on new directions without evaluating that repositioning of ourself within the center of those activities that had at one time seemed like new directions, and so they had been followed with passion and joy, but in our life there is only so much energy, and the wise entity looks not back but forward since it is in the present is that which seeds the future of ourself so that the concern is brought to bear for us as a seeker of evolution, so Q’uo asked C what evaluation he could give of his passion for each item that is upon the game board as a piece that is moved and: “takes up the time and the energy which the player of the game is willing to expend and has the time to expend? What is the harmony of that particular piece of the game of right livelihood? Or to move the field further, the game of right moving-hood, relative to the other pieces that are upon the board?” Q’uo went on to say that Carla was encouraged to do this kind of evaluation of those things that were upon her mind and her heart, and she found that they were, when gazed at with an analytical mind, prey to being sorted in one of several ways, and in the end the criterion which this she chose was that of passion so that the question became one of those things for which she felt passion and how she might prioritize them in terms of their importance, and it was this exercise that relieved her of feelings of being swept away by those things which she had on her agenda, and Q’uo suggested that this tactic may be preliminary to deeper and more searching ways of evaluating the contents of a fully lived life at this particular time because some items do need to fall off the back of the wagon but why and in what order? Q’uo said this sort of intellectually based analysis cannot dive into the essence of the underlying questions that are presented in such a query, yet it can organize a picture of the situation within our mind so that there is a grasp of the whole that can be had at an intellectual level. Q’uo continued by saying that in moving deeper into the query of new directions we may have anticipated that they would be unable to be specific concerning new directions, for it is not their work to do our work, nor would they take that privilege and responsibility from us because there is an honor in dealing  with this question in our life, and it presumes a “life of significant soil”, that life that we have dug into ourself to produce things that are valued so that when we wish to embrace new directions there are deeper questions that are concerned in such an effort, and if we wish to consider the process of gazing at ourself and our thoughts that repeat themselves, and sitting with them to identify the themes of those thoughts, many times there are patterns that have been used that are retained within our active mind, and they may need to be reevaluated in terms of the energetic center of ourself which seems to be moving on into new directions and in new ways of thinking and being. Now Q’uo said that we do not consider these things as quantities because each line of inquiry is an entire world full of qualities and not simply a unit of fact, so when things are valued, they are far more than fact since there is a presence that is implied with each new project, and then Q’uo asked what roads are needed by us at this time for our learning and service? They said this is the proper question, and they believed it is precisely that which we ask, but we are asking about a subtle and complex thing than can be said in a quality that expresses essence, so Q’uo moved back to the word “passion”  because it is always well to identify the center of our passion, and in order to do that it is often necessary to release all suppositions concerning ourself and to begin from a place of simple inquiry into ourself. Then Q’uo said that this past weekend Carla was channeling for the group meditation at the regular Sunday afternoon time, and a very similar question was asked of them by several within the group who were pondering new directions, and when new directions are intended, it is quite often before they can be followed there must occur a period of deconstruction within the house of our personality that are the shell of ourself that need to be gently evaluated and perhaps repositioned in a more helpful configuration for telling the truth about the substance of our being that dwells within the house of our personality and identity. On February 4, 2002, Q’uo spoke of the value of taking new directions:

The question of worth is always present. What is worth more, free time or more money? What is worth more, intensity of effort or material success from effort? Questions like this are not easily answered and in the context of an everyday life it seems that these demands of supply and finding ways of meeting the challenge of each day create more than enough opportunity for new things, new experiments, new ways, and new directions. At the same time as this world of the horizontal takes up the three dimensions of your days there is at the same time within you a vertical life that seeks always to reach higher and to go deeper, to find the springs of inspiration within the roots of consciousness and to find the guidance from up above. And it comes through earnest desire and persistent asking.

And so, we would suggest to you that you take a gently ruminating and thoughtful look at the energy entity that is yourself, the nuclear level of personality, the level of the surface of the life experience. It is well to ask the self, “Who am I and what is it that feels the most deeply a part of myself? And what is it, on the other hand, that begins to feel like a part of a role which I am playing, a mask which I am wearing, a reputation which becomes, though true, most tiresome?” Often the expectations of others, as pleasing and flattering as they may be, are also those things which unconsciously limit the essential energies of the self from moving outside what this instrument would call the box of consensus reality and its conventions of thinking.

It is often helpful in searching for results not to forget the search for essence. Results are something that occur almost as an offshoot of that entity whose process is on the beam in terms of following the resonance of the needs of that essential being and energy that you are. Involved in the hoopla and the tap dancing of speech and expression and ratiocinations of all kinds, beneath the shell of words and the easy glibness of surface eloquence and meaning no matter how attractive, there lies a hungry and thirsty soul and spirit whose essence is aching to explore not further, but deeper, not more broadly, but in a more focused manner. And as the searchlight of one’s everyday consciousness becomes charmed and intrigued into attaching itself to the focus of a deep inner search, that spotlight may sharpen and delineate much that upon the surface of things is impossible or certainly improbable to see.

In some cases, it is a matter of almost seducing oneself away from the joys of thinking and into a position of utter surrender to that darkness that accepts the mystery of the self and the infinite possibilities of what that self may do if allowed to bloom as the Creator has prepared for you to bloom. Not that there is one destiny for you or one choice that is right. Quite the opposite. There is certainly one destiny in terms of a general incarnational design, but it is rather that chances for that design to be fulfilled are bursting at every corner so that there is never an end to the possibility to, as this instrument would say from the old Shaker hymn, “come round right.”

There is more than one configuration that is appropriate at this time. However, one needs to be chosen, and we encourage the one known as C to go deeply into that country that is unknown within himself. It can be done by something as simple as an exercise this instrument has done from time to time in just such a situation. The simple exercise is that of standing in front of the mirror and gazing, not at the self, but into the eyes or more particularly into the left eye, choosing one eye and gazing within it. This is a technique that aids in the focusing which moves the entity from the attitude of looking at an image or a form into the attitude of looking into an essence. For that which lies within the sparkle of the eye is the one infinite Creator, of which that sparkle is a little holographic unit.

We pause while this instrument awaits the removal of two feuding cats from the immediate vicinity of the instrument and the one known as V.

[Pause]

We are again with the instrument. Gazing into a mirror is gazing into the eyes of the Creator. Implicit in that flash of light that you are able to see into, in the eye in that mirror, is the gaze of The Lovers which has been given flesh and is fascinated to find what it may find. This is your quest. To be and to learn and then, with the harvest that you have learned, to offer the gift of your observations to the one infinite Creator. For in learning about yourself you give the Creator the opportunity to learn about Itself in ever richer detail of understanding. When you are in this state you have only to rest in the connection in order for that which is in your heart to be asked of that web of guidance that lies within that sparkle that you see in the mirror. It is a very physical way of identifying for you that consciousness that indwells you, dwells within your body, yet is closer to you than any cell in your body. For it is that essence that is you and out of it can be spun a thousand or a million bodies that may experience incarnation. That light in your eye, as you gaze into it, is all that there is. And so, you have direct access to grasp that which is not able to be grasped by the intellect, that all is truly one, and that all information that you need will come to you as you need it. Rest in that looking and in that receiving until you begin to get a sense of yourself as consciousness, not the you of the physical eye but the great, the universal eye that is a citizen of eternity and that has come to this particular place at this particular time hoping to do certain things.

It struck the one who is the instrument when she was reading the very helpful note which the one known as C had so kindly sent her, that in the query about the writing of songs the evaluation of that song writing took only one criterion, and that was the possibility for popular success of the writing of these songs and these screen plays. Why, the one known as C wondered, would an urge to write these things be there if it were so inappropriate in terms of creating that green energy which the instrument calls money. And yet we would say to the one known as C, while it is the form of things that you wish to write songs or screen plays, what is the essence of that which you wish to communicate? Having achieved an age of seventy, it’s a good time to move not into the mundane but into the metaphysical, not into the practical but into the philosophical, not into the outer world but into the essence of the inner world that contains the roots of consciousness. It cannot be said that there’s any harm in outer achievement. Often such outer gifts to the world are most needed and most appreciated and most helpful in lightening the consciousness of the planet. Yet many times the essence of one’s incarnational service to the planet, to its people, that for which one took breath in a very deep sense, has to do not with outer gifts but with inner gifts and their development. Many times in the attempts to be productive the self is not allowed fully to come into its bloom. That which blooms, that which is unseen, also lightens the planet. And so, we encourage the one known as C to open into a wider point of view so that there are more points to evaluate and a deeper puzzle to solve. We do not wish to solve this for you, my brother, but we do wish for you to see the justness of the question and the depth of its ramifications. We wish you great joy in moving into this time of choice with full awareness of your freedom to do that which truly creates for you the right environment in which to bloom.

Now Q’uo suggested that we take a thoughtful look at the energy entity that is ourself at the surface of our life experience, and then to ask ourself: “Who am I and what is it that feels the most deeply a part of myself? And what is it, on the other hand, that begins to feel like a part of a role which I am playing, a mask which I am wearing, a reputation which becomes, though true, most tiresome?” Q’uo said that the expectations of others, as flattering as they may be, are also those things which unconsciously limit the essential energies of ourself from moving outside of what Carla called the box of consensus reality and its conventions of thinking. Q’uo went on to say that it is often helpful in searching for results not to forget the search for essence because results are something that occur as an offshoot of our process that is on the beam in terms of following the resonance of our needs as a being of energy that we are, and involved beneath the shell of words and meaning, we are a hungry and thirsty soul whose essence is aching to explore deeper and in a more focused manner so that as the searchlight of our everyday consciousness becomes involved in attaching ourself to the focus of a deep inner search, that spotlight may sharpen much that upon the surface of things is impossible or certainly improbable to see. Q’uo continued by saying that in some cases, it is a matter of turning ourself away from the joys of thinking and moving into a position of utter surrender to that darkness that accepts the mystery of ourself and the infinite possibilities of what we may do if allowed to bloom as the Creator has prepared for us to bloom, but there is not one destiny for us that is right because it is just the opposite since there is certainly one destiny in terms of our general incarnational design, but it is rather that chances for that design to be fulfilled are around every corner so that there is never an end to the possibility to, as Carla would say from the old Shaker hymn, “come round right.” Then Q’uo said that there is more than one pattern that is appropriate at this time, but one pattern needs to be chosen, and they encouraged us to go deeply into that place that is unknown within ourself, and that can be done by an exercise that Carla has done in just such a situation, which is standing in front of a mirror and gazing into her left eye, and this is a technique that aids in the focusing which moves us from the attitude of looking at an image into the attitude of looking into an essence, for that which lies within the sparkle of our eye is the one infinite Creator in miniature. Now Q’uo said gazing into a mirror is gazing into the eyes of the Creator, and in the light that we are able to see in our eyes in the mirror is the image of The Lovers which has been given the flesh of our bodies and is fascinated at what can be found, and this is our quest to be and to learn, and then with the harvest that we have learned, to offer the gift of our lessons to the one infinite Creator, for in learning about ourself we give the Creator the opportunity to learn about Itself, and when we are in this state we have only to rest in the connection in order for that which is in our heart to be asked by that web of guidance that lies within that sparkle that we see in the mirror. Then Q’uo said that it is a physical way of identifying for us that consciousness that dwells within our body, yet is closer to us than any cell in our body, for it is that essence that is us and out of it can come a million bodies that may experience incarnation, and that light in our eye is all that there is, so we have direct access to that which is not able to be grasped by the intellect: “that all is truly one, and that all information that you need will come to you as you need it. Rest in that looking and in that receiving until you begin to get a sense of yourself as consciousness, not the you of the physical eye but the great, the universal eye that is a citizen of eternity and that has come to this particular place at this particular time hoping to do certain things.” Q’uo completed their reply by saying it struck Carla that the evaluation of song writing took only one criterion, and that was the possibility for popular success of the writing of these songs and these screen play so C wondered if it was inappropriate to seek to earn money by writing, so Q’uo said that if we wish to write songs or screen plays, the essence of that which we wish to communicate that: “it is a good time to move from the mundane and into the metaphysical and into the roots of our consciousness, and many times the essence of our incarnational service to the planet, to its people, that for which one took breath in a very deep sense, has to do not with outer gifts but with inner gifts and their development. Many times in the attempts to be productive the self is not allowed fully to come into its bloom.” On November 1, 1998, Q’uo said that we all are a citizen of eternity:

We give to this instrument the image of a traveler. The traveler moves across the desert landscape gazing intently, even feverishly, for a source of water. At the same time this entity is, metaphysically speaking, in a world made of water, that which this instrument refers to as water consciousness. As a citizen of eternity, one may consider oneself cast upon the shore of an inhospitable environment, the desert land which offers learning opportunity for service and challenges that teach and create the potential for transformation. When you feel that you are truly in the desert, that all is dry, and lifeless, and without hope, we encourage you to practice knowing by faith the watery environment of the human spirit, for that which seems upon the surface to be dry and dusty and difficult is, in metaphysical terms, wondrous, a treasure, that which is to be prized, a canvas upon which to paint a self in love with the beauty and the majesty of the infinite Creator. When the mouth is parched for something to drink, when the stomach grumbles for food, remember that you are a citizen of eternity and that you have meat and drink that the world does not know of. And allow the desert to become the ocean, life-giving and new with every tide.

We would finish this transmission through the one known as Jim. We are those

May we answer any further queries at this time, my brother?

Questioner: Yes, can you tell me, if you can, when the human population of the earth will be reduced?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We may say, ironically enough, that the human population of this planet is already in the process of being reduced. For as those entities which are born come into incarnation, the structure of their cells are somewhat altered in such a way as to better enable them to enjoy fourth-density vibrations, which are becoming increasingly transparent to the third density of vibration upon your planet at this time.

We are not able to offer information concerning the possible sudden removal of entities from the planet which you know as Earth or Gaia. There are no more than possibilities or, as the one known as Ra called them, possibility/probability vortices. There is a wide range of possible futures for your people. May we say that much has changed simply because of the events since the turn of this last millennium in that while the outer situation has seemed to become darker and darker, the situation as regards the lightness of its peoples has improved in that the sheer darkness of the situation and the relative simplicity of identifying the darkness and the light have helped to quicken the pace of awakening those who were, shall we say, sitting on the fence, half asleep and half awake.

The sheer outrageousness of some of the patterns has been as the snooze alarm on the alarm clock saying, “Just wake up a minute and check out this one thing. Then you may go back to sleep.” However, one snooze alarm after another has to bring one into a more wakeful state in which underlying patterns of planetary madness begin to become more obvious. Consequently, it is completely unknown to us at what rate entities will continue to awaken and at what rate the ensuing lightness of the planetary atmosphere will begin to cause what this instrument would call the “Hundredth Monkey Effect,” thereby causing rapid positive changes within planetary policies of all kinds. This could occur as well as those events which would set off rapid reductions in the population of humans upon the planet Earth.

May we answer you further upon this, my brother?

Questioner: Please tell me what you can about Western civilization and where it is heading.

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We can say somewhat elliptically that your Western civilization has been heading nowhere for its entire sojourn upon your planet. Before your planet experienced its first orbit about this particular, shall we say, rut into which your third-density entities have fallen, the planet known to you as Mars had completed the pattern of choosing aggression over peace and territorial separation over unity as a society. And when those of what this instrument would call Babylon, Rome, the Holy Roman Empire, Germany, and finally, America, started and moved through the pattern of dominance and warfare and societal destruction, their orbits changed not, only the costumes worn by those who move through this particular pattern.

We are of the hope, as are many within your peoples, that at this particular time those within your societies, not only of America but of the entire globe, are able to move away from the old way of increasing polarity, war and destruction. It is not that this pattern is a complete disaster, for it has been most instructive in terms of the Creator discovering those things which do and which do not work to the betterment of the evolution of mind, body and spirit. It becomes obvious that there are aspects to the complete lack of guidance concerning polarity that encourage that which is known by this instrument as the dark side to have a seductive value that it would otherwise not have. Be that as it may, it has been so that your planet has included a nugatory, useless pattern so many times that its entire society has been quarantined and put to one side of, shall we say, the usual timeline. It is as if time itself had been suspended for these entities while they are moving through this pattern again and again. So, it is a matter, more or less, of taking back the mind from those who would keep it distracted, polarized and asleep.

May we answer you further, my brother?

Questioner: You have been very enlightening, and I thank you very much. Is there anything further that you would like to say to me?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We find we have only to say to you, “Be of good heart.” There are many about you in the unseen world and some of those in the seen world who are angels and who wish only to help you. There are many ways of giving messages and leaving one’s opinion to mix into the thinking process and those who are in that web of love about you are actively attempting to find ways to send a symbol, a hint, an inkling or even something very obvious to let you know that they are supporting, encouraging, and attempting in all ways to help bring you into alignment with those things which are most deeply within your heart and within your incarnational plan. We would say to you, simply, “Take heart.” Rest in quietness and confidence in that peace that the world knows not of. And from that consciousness know that all is well, and all will be well. That which you need shall come to you and you shall, no matter what it looks like from the outside, be making those choices which help… “

[Tape ends.]

This morning I used my backpack blower to blow crushed rock from my flower beds along the parking area in front of my home back into the parking area. Then I did the same thing in front of the pet cemetery where the snow removal crew had put the snow/crushed rock in the pet cemetery and in the flower beds in parking area in front of my home.

This afternoon I made an errand run with my first stop being at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some Pepsi-Zero and some Kleenex.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 25

Free At Last

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ. I come in the power and wholeness of the consciousness of divine Love.

This creative force hatched the universe and formed all things in beauteous array. This Love created you and sustained and protected you until this moment. This creative Love is part and parcel of your own selfhood.

Why, then, are you so full of doubt? Do you not know the power of divine and creative Love? Do you not recognize the spirit of that Love as a powerful good within your own life?

Take up what you consider to be your burdens, and let your shoulders bend under the weight. And then take up the Light and the life of Love and add it to your burden. And feel the weight diminish and cease to be. Feel your back straighten, your broad shoulders free at last. For service in the strength of creative Love is no burden, but a pleasure. May your work be a joy to you.

May your self-perceived burdens fall away under the Light of divine Love, in the spirit of helpfulness and comfort. For do you not seek to be a servant of Love? And in that service do you not perceive your true nature?

Go into freedom.

We leave you in love and peace abiding, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 7, 2004:

The question today has to do with change, perhaps even change to the point of self-healing. We are wondering if Q’uo could talk to us about the decision-making process that goes into this type of change. Could you explore the concepts of honor and duty and how discovering what our honor and duty in a certain situation is might help us to make the choices that would lead to this change and perhaps healing ourselves, finding a direction to be of service to others?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we come to you this day. We thank you so much for the privilege, the honor, and the duty of being called to this group this day. It is a blessing to us to be able to serve as we had hoped to and a call from your group is most welcome. We ask, as always, that each of you guard the portals of your discrimination very carefully, listening to the personal resonance that comes with your unique truth and not for any perceived outer authority. If you are able to guard those things that you keep of what we say and those things that you discard, then we will feel far more free to be able to share with you without infringing upon your free will.

The freedom of will has been a sticking point for many in the creation of a satisfying and rewarding spiritual practice. Free will can be a bewildering thing. The chore of determining what one truly wishes to do can be awe-inspiring and mind-boggling, for it is as though one were pulled in different directions by many different opinions and strains of thought in almost every situation. It is not too difficult to imagine the choices of many things: what to eat, what to wear, and so forth. However, there are levels of choice that affect more than just a moment or a day. It is as the choices become more ponderous and seem to carry more weight for the present and the future that the predicament of making what this instrument would call the “right” choice is more and more substantial a challenge.

The one known as B invoked the principle of the honor/duty that the ones of Ra had spoken of before with this group in saying that every honor is a duty and every duty an honor. It was the one known as B’s thought that perhaps when one is attempting to make a truly correct choice for the self, however one wishes to define that word “correct,” that perhaps one would do well to think of what one feels one’s honor would require in a certain situation or what one’s duty might require. It might also and equally be suggested to invoke the principle of unconditional love. Where is the love in a decision? It was the one known as T’s hope that, in making the decision for his own right livelihood, he would be able to find that choice that most truly and deeply opened and revealed his heart, a deep and true center of self. Certainly, when one views the question that you asked and looks at the level of depth that is suggested when one is attempting to make decisions for the healing of one’s self, any and all ways of looking at a situation, feeling into it, sensing the nuances of it, and so forth, are helpful. All resources are helpful when approaching a decision that has the capacity to affect one’s path not just in this next day or next week, but in the rest of the incarnation to come.

We would perhaps start with that of which the one known as D was speaking, in terms of his own process, of his discovery that in the very pain of the dramatically and unconsciously lived life, where events seem to overtake one and toss one about with tremendous force and seeming carelessness, there is an aspect to this suffering that is attractive and that actually can begin to create the impression that it is this pain that is actually a sign of life and that, when the pain, or the critical, or difficult nature of the situation eases, the meaning of life has somehow been taken away from one and that, somehow, that meaning must be sought again, even though that meaning is a meaning that is felt in suffering and pain. This entity was discussing a way of looking at one’s relationship with others that is called “co-dependant.”

We would suggest that, if one may take a step back from a specific co-dependency or addiction that is specifically geared to one person, one may perhaps see that in each incarnational pattern there is that tendency to divide the self into the good self and the bad self, the light self, and the dark self, the peaceful self and the disturbed self, and so forth, creating out of a universal and infinitely graded being with no seam or rip in the make-up of that being a being that has separations and isolations of parts of the self from other parts of the self, so that there seems to be more going on, shall we say, than in truth there really is. It is so endemic to your peoples that we would suggest that instead of the term “co-dependency” one may perhaps think more generally in terms of addictions. For the addiction to pain is no more of a puzzle than the addiction to any substance that one begins to see as not being helpful for the self.

Why would entities with good sense and good balance choose to inculcate within the self a continuance of pain in order to feel more alive? It is simply because it is the observed method upon your planet, in the culture in which you enjoy living, for entities to embrace those things which are destructive such as overwork, a dependence upon substances, and other imbalances, because they seem to be appropriate and even necessary for the functioning of the organism and the being, in the job, in the family, and in the environment. The habit of looking outward for meaning, of depending upon ideas, people or things for a feeling of rightness and a sense of meaning is that which has been accepted among your peoples as the appropriate way of behaving and thinking.

The group question for this session was: “The question today has to do with change, perhaps even change to the point of self-healing. We are wondering if Q’uo could talk to us about the decision-making process that goes into this type of change. Could you explore the concepts of honor and duty and how discovering what our honor and duty in a certain situation is might help us to make the choices that would lead to this change and perhaps healing ourselves, finding a direction to be of service to others?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that the freedom of will has been a sticking point for many in the creation for a satisfying spiritual practice since free will can be a bewildering thing because the chore of determining what we truly wish to do can be awe-inspiring and mind-boggling, for it is as though we are pulled in different directions by different opinions in almost every situation, but there are levels of choice that affect more than just a moment, and as our choices become more difficult and carry more weight for the present and the future that the predicament of making the “right” choice is a more substantial challenge. Then Q’uo said that B invoked the principle of the honor/duty that the ones of Ra had spoken of before with this group in saying that every honor is a duty and every duty an honor, and it was B’s thought that when we are attempting to make a correct choice for ourself we need to define that word “correct,” so that we would do well to think of what we feel our honor would require in a certain situation or what our duty might require, and it might be suggested to invoke the principle of unconditional love and to determine where the love is in making a decision, so it was T’s hope that, in making the decision for his right livelihood, he would be able to find that choice that most truly opened and revealed his heart, a deep and true center of his self, and when we view the question and look at the level of depth that is suggested when we are attempting to make decisions for the healing of ourself, any way of looking at a situation and sensing the variations of it, are helpful, and all resources are helpful when approaching a decision that has the capacity to affect our path not just in this next day or next week, but in the rest of our incarnation to come. Q’uo went on to say that in the pain of the unconsciously lived life where events seem to toss us about with force and carelessness there is an aspect to our suffering that is attractive and can begin to create the impression that this pain is actually a sign of life, and that when the pain of the situation eases, the meaning of our life has been taken away from us, and then we must seek that meaning even though that meaning that is felt in suffering and pain could be seen as our being dependent on others to give us the catalyst of pain. Then Q’uo suggested that if we could take a step back from a specific co-dependency that is  geared to one person, we may see that in each incarnational pattern there is that tendency to divide the self into the light self and the dark self, and then creating out of our universal being a being that has separations of parts of ourself from other parts of ourself so that there seems to be more going on than in truth there really is, and this it is the nature of our people so that Q’uo suggested instead of the term “co-dependency” we may think more generally in terms of addictions, for the addiction to pain is no more of a puzzle than the addiction to any substance that we might to see as not being helpful for ourself. Q’uo continued by asking why would we choose to imprint ourself with constant pain in order to feel more alive? They said it is because it is the observed practice within the culture in which we live for: “entities to embrace those things which are destructive such as overwork, a dependence upon substances, and other imbalances, because they seem to be appropriate and even necessary for the functioning of the organism and the being, in the job, in the family, and in the environment.” They said that the habit of depending upon ideas, people, or things for a sense of meaning is that which has been accepted among our people as the appropriate way of behaving and thinking. On February 13, 1983, Latwii spoke of the nature of addiction for some people:

Entities who experience what you call addictions to various substances such as the alcoholic beverages and the, as they are called, harder drugs, are oftentimes entities of great sensitivity and creativity. Entities within the culture in which you now exist who contain within themselves delicate sensitivities, budding creativities, and who yearn to express that which they feel they are, yet who also find such expression blunted by the general, shall we say, milieu, become sometimes frustrated, and find that their only solace is to turn inward and to ponder how to exist as a finely tuned being in what seems to be a gross and greatly overpowering world. Such an entity will often turn inward to such an extent that it becomes reclusive. Such an entity will find there are various aids to intensify this reclusive nature. The aids of the drugs and alcohol tend to turn the entity further and further in upon the self so that those sensitivities which began the entity’s yearning and seeking for expression, become themselves blunted so that they no longer motivate the entity in the manner which found no expression. It is often that the turning inward and the use of the substances which alter the mind is specifically chosen that the mind might be altered, for it is the sensitive mind and the sensitive heart and the sensitive being that it seems to the entity began the pain. And yet these can be, shall we say, stilled in some degree, but then the entity assumes there will be no pain. Yet, can the spark of life which glows within any be extinguished? It is often a long journey until the entity discovers that the spark must live. And how that spark shall live is the decision which each must make.

It is astounding to most entities who are living at this unconscious level to conceive that they may perhaps not be in a carefully engineered situation, in a certain, shall we say, “house,” or environment of job, and family, and personal details for the reason that they may feel is so. They may not be in the job, for instance, because that is the correct job, they may be in that job because it seemed appropriate, and it has seemed to be adequate to the life. The thought that one could simply walk out of this “house” of arrangements and relationships and “the way things are” would indeed seem not only astounding but somehow deeply wrong. Yet it is true that entities build their houses to include the pain that seems necessary in order for them to feel alive, normal, and functioning.

So, when one attempts to begin healing the self, it may perhaps be seen that a substantial amount of deconstruction becomes necessary. There is a stage that one goes through that is analogous to that which the ones known as B, G, and D have been doing within the structure of the dwelling place in which this meeting is now taking place, the house that this instrument calls the Magic Kingdom. Indeed, it has been remarked often within the last few weeks, as disaster after disaster has been narrowly averted and repaired, that the angels that have stationed themselves as part of the loving system of guidance that surrounds this group have been working overtime! And each time that the one known as B has identified an electrical fault or found a gas leak or the one known as D has seen a fire start and put it out, that the house itself is expressing the desire to heal.

The people within the house have banded together in an increasingly tight-knit group with the desire to create new life, new energy, a higher and a truer sense of self for each and for the group as a whole. And in this increasingly intense environment of idea, ideal, and focus, the house itself is experiencing a deconstruction as old wires are pulled out and new wires must be put in, new wires that can hold more of a charge; that can sustain more of an effort. And indeed when one is attempting to heal, it is as though one were going back into the wiring of the self and needing to deconstruct some of that wiring, pulling out the inadequate wiring, checking the system for leaks, checking the system for truth, shall we say, checking the new “wire” that one is putting in to carry energy, to see if it indeed has more strength, if it indeed can carry more energy safely and at a stable manner and level.

Oneis doing the internal rewiring of various patterns of thinking, attempting to pull out of the self those tangles of old wiring that are no longer attached to anything that is helpful but that still may be carrying power, but oh so poorly and so inadequately. So, this process must begin with a careful, conscious period of releasing that which is outmoded within one’s thinking, within one’s feelings, within one’s being. And for each entity this will require different resources and different approaches, for no two people approach the mirror of the self in the same way. Each entity approaches the mirror and looks into the eyes of the self with a different bias. Each has a slightly different slant. Even each within oneself, from time to time, will be able to access different levels of self and be able to see into different levels of patterning and what the patterns of the past have to offer in terms of health, wellness and healing. Perhaps there are some old patterns that are extremely helpful. Not all things that are old are poor. Some of the oldest patterns within you may be some of your best work.

So, it is not that one pulls everything out in order to toss it and to start over completely, but rather that one looks into that mirror, into the eyes and not at the image, for one can get lost in mental images as well as one can in the image of the mirror. Your face does not tell the story of your soul, but the face of your personality also does not tell the story of your true essence, especially when one seeks to move into a better balance with the self, into a self-healing mode. One must not simply go with preconceived notions about the self. Rather, it is good to do that of which the one known as G has been speaking, the going on a quest for personal vision, a quest to see into that essence of self that is the gift which you have brought in the package that is your personality, your body, and what the ones known as B and V were calling your identity.

Then Q’uo said it is astounding to most of us who are living at this unconscious level to conceive that we may perhaps not be in a carefully engineered situation in an environment of job and family for the reason that we may feel we are, so we may not be in the job because it is the correct job, but because it seemed appropriate, and the thought that we could simply walk out of this “house” of arrangements and relationships and “the way things are” would indeed seem not only astounding but somehow deeply wrong, but it is true that we build our houses to include the pain that seems necessary in order for us to feel alive, normal, and functioning. Q’uo went on to say that when we attempt to begin healing ourself, it may be seen that we may need to go through a great deal of change which is analogous to what has happened to how the home this meeting is held in, called the Magic Kingdom, as there were various disasters that were averted which seemed like angels had guided the home and the group through them so that the home has the desire to heal. Q’uo continued by saying that the people within this home have banded together in a tight-knit group with the desire to create new life and a truer sense of self for each and for the group as a whole, and in this intense environment of  focus upon ideals the home itself is experiencing a deconstruction as old wires are pulled out and new wires must be put in that can sustain more energy, and indeed when we are attempting to heal it is as though we need to deconstruct some of the wiring of our system for truth and checking the new “wire” that we are putting in to carry energy to see if it can carry more energy safely and in a stable manner. Now Q’uo said that we are doing the internal rewiring of various patterns of our thinking by attempting to pull out our old tangled wiring that is no longer attached to anything that is helpful but still may be carrying power poorly, so this process must begin with a careful period of releasing that which is outmoded within our thinking, feelings, and our being, and for each of us this will require different resources and approaches, for none of us approaches the mirror of ourself in the same way, and each of us looks into the eyes of our self with a different bias, and even within ourself we will be able to access different levels of ourself and be able to see what the patterns of our past have to offer in terms of healing, and some of the oldest patterns within us may be some of our best work. Q’uo said that it is not that we pull everything out in order to toss it and to start over, but that we look into that mirror and into our eyes, and not at the image, for we can get lost in mental images as well as we can in our image in the mirror because our face does not tell the story of our soul, nor does the face of our personality tell the story of our true essence, especially when we seek to move into a better balance with our self, into a self-healing mode, so we must not go with preconceived notions about ourself, but it is good to go on a quest to seek that self-healing mode that is the gift which we have brought in the package that is self-healing mode and self-healing mode. On October 3, 2015, Q’uo spoke of the nature of our sense of self:

This focusing inward then offers the opportunity for contemplation, for meditation, and for prayer as means by which to process the catalyst of the day. This seeking within also tends to cause those activities which are of lesser value, shall we say, to fall away, until the seeker begins to focus the energies of the self upon fewer, more significant portions of the opportunities offered each day in your very busy experiences.

Thus, to simplify one’s opportunities, shall we say, to simplify the daily round of activities, is a portion of the seeker’s journey which then tends to bring a sense of peace, direction of purpose, and method to obtain that inner sense of self. One may then call upon that inner sense of self to deal with those catalysts which are essential to the growth and survival of the individual, the family, and the community.

Thus, we would suggest that each look for those areas within the life experience which can be simplified, that the focus of one’s mind, body, and spirit might be centered upon the ineffable and infinite qualities of love, wisdom, and sharing these qualities with all whom one meets in the daily round of activities.

You have a location for your incarnation in space and time. The fact that in order to have a location you also have to buy into the illusion of life and death is simply a fact of the matter, a condition in which all incarnation is held. There is an illusion implicit in drawing breath and that illusion is that you are a location, an identity, a personality, a face. These concepts of self, in terms of your spiritual center, are and remain illusory right through the incarnation. Even in the midst of the illusion of incarnation you may know yourself as an illusory personality. Were this to be the beginning and end of the soul, there would be no point in working towards the evolution of that soul. However, you are, even within incarnation, a real essence, part of what this instrument calls the Godhead principle, part of the Creator. That you have a package makes you seem very singular and indeed you are unique; yet at the same time, you are a holograph of the Creator.

So, in many ways the journey towards meaning is a journey down through layers of decreasing selfhood as more of the shell, the illusion, the body, the face, the personality, is seen for what it is and allowed to loosen its hold upon self-identity. What is your identity? Much of the decision-making process has to do with the stance from which you view the creation and that begins with your self-concept. If you conceive of yourself in thus and thus a way, then you begin to build that “house,” that narrowness, that stricture that we were speaking of earlier. You begin to construct your location and seemingly to block yourself from making certain choices because they would not be appropriate to someone in this particular kind of house, this particular kind of personality.

Once you feel that you have gone through a time of coming to your own essence, once you feel that you have begun to be able to identify what it is to be you, that you that you will know as well ten thousand years from now in another incarnation as you do this day, then you can begin to ask the questions that the one known as B was asking, but only then. You cannot simply begin by saying, “This is who I am and therefore these are my duties, and these are my responsibilities.” First and foremost, you must come into a relationship with yourself that is loving, unified, and compassionate. In the words of this particular instrument, you must “redeem” yourself. For as long as you feel that there are parts of your personality that are the shadow side, that have not yet been claimed, they will continue to indicate their lack of being integrated by expressing themselves as negatives within your life experience and they will draw to you catalyst that is designed to uncover and delineate the particulars of these biases.

However, there does come a time when that first cluster of work is done and you sit, shall we say, in terms of the Native American way, on your blanket, in meditation, with the creation and the twelve directions spread out, the creation emanating from the center of the self and the wheel of unity spinning endlessly and fruitfully around that center in a way that feels powerful and full of life. In that centered position, then, you may ask yourself, truly, “Where is the love? Where is my heart? What are my duties? What do I wish to honor in my life?” And all of these questions are worth time and contemplation and a process of asking, and resting, and asking again. For such questions will remain with you as part of the spiral of learning and service that is the evolution of mind, body, and spirit within incarnation.

How can you know that you are on the right track? We cannot give you a thumbnail rule for being in self-healing mode. We can speak of certain characteristics of being “on the beam.” We’ve spoken often to this group about fear. When there is a feeling of attachment, urgency, desperation, or necessity, these energies are suspect. It is to the peaceful, resting spirit that a balanced pattern is more likely to come, and it is to the questing soul who rests with such a vision and allows it to mature that the inevitable difficulties of such a process will seem less demanding, less difficult. This instrument was speaking earlier of a level of peace that she has experienced recently, and she was finding difficulty in describing it, yet it has to do with relaxing attachments to all outcomes in the growing understanding or grasp of the fact that there is no true attachment, there is no true necessity. What there is, is a spectrum of infinite possibility, which acts either without focus or with focus. Without focus, it is not as powerful in terms of interacting with other sources of energy. It moves and makes connections and will ally itself with like-minded energies.

Q’uo continued by saying that we have a location for our incarnation in space and time which means that we also have to accept the illusion of life and death as a condition in which all incarnations are experienced, and there is an illusion that is part of drawing breath which is that we are an identity and a face, so these concepts of ourself, in terms of our spiritual being, remain illusory throughout our incarnation, and even in the midst of the illusion of incarnation we may experience ourself as an illusory personality, and if this were true there would be no point in our working towards the evolution of our soul, but we are, even within incarnation, a  unique part of the Creator. Q’uo went on to say that in many ways our journey towards meaning is a journey through layers of decreasing selfhood as more of the illusion of our body and personality is seen for what it is and allowed to release its hold upon  our self-identity which begins with our view of the creation and our concept of ourself, so if we see ourself in a certain way then we begin to build that house of narrowness that blocks us from making certain choices because they would not be appropriate for someone in our kind of house or personality. Q’uo said that it is most important to come into a relationship with ourself that is loving and unified and could be seen as redeeming ourself, for as long as we feel that there are parts of our personality that are on the shadow side, which we have not claimed, they will continue to reflect their lack of being integrated by negative expressions in our life experience, and they will draw catalyst to us that will help us uncover the nature of these biases. Then Q’uo said that there does come a time when the first work is done, and we sit, in terms of the Native American way, on our blanket in meditation: “with the creation and the twelve directions spread out, the creation emanating from the center of the self and the wheel of unity spinning endlessly and fruitfully around that center in a way that feels powerful and full of life.And in that centered position, then, you may ask yourself, truly, “Where is the love? Where is my heart? What are my duties? What do I wish to honor in my life?”” Q’uo said that these questions are worth time and contemplation and a process of asking, and resting, and asking again, for such questions will remain with us as part of the spiral of learning and service that is the evolution of our mind, body, and spirit within our incarnation. Then Q’uo asked us how we know that we are on the right track because they could not give us the basic way of being in a self-healing mode and certain way of being “on the beam,”  so they said that when there is a feeling of fear or desperation, these energies are suspect because it is to the peaceful spirit that a balanced pattern is more likely to come, and when we are the questing soul who rests with such a vision and allows it to mature that our difficulties with such a process will seem less difficult if we are able to relax our attachments to all outcomes in understanding the fact that there is no true attachment, but what there is, is a spectrum of infinite possibility, which acts either without focus or with focus. On November 16, 2003, Q’uo spoke of the nature of infinite possibility:

This is in fact, your situation. You are in the position of being able to live both a life in space/time, the horizontal life, and a life in time/space, the vertical life, simultaneously. We might say that the ability to remember this image, the ability to remember that which is unseen, that which opens to the Creator and to the essential self, is a measure of how well you are doing with the simple act of remembrance that is the key in many ways to progressing in spiritual, mental, and physical evolution of self. How to remember that what you see is not all that you get? How to remember the intersection with wonder, and magic, and infinite possibility? This instrument pursues a daily and weekly spiritual or religious program which includes group worship within that distortion of spirituality called Christian. This is one way in which she attempts to be a creature of remembrance. There are many ways to be remembering who you are and why you’re here. That is one way, the simple act of setting aside time, such as you have this day, to seek together. No matter how the meditation goes, no matter how you feel that you have been as a part of a seeking circle, the intention, the dedication of time, are the things that create the feeling of remembering and honoring the portion of yourself that is living that vertical life. In moments such as this, as you allow the energy to move around the circle, we feel sure that each of you has that riveted feeling of opening to the infinite possibilities of the moment.

Yet it is to an entity who has done the work to have brought focus to that feeling of sitting in the center of the blanket with the energies of self very openly and tidily arranged about one like the pattern upon that blanket, that the connections will be stronger, the click of recognition between people will be more powerful, the ability to communicate ideas will be more pointed and more obvious. And when more than one entity in a group has begun to get that inner centering and that feeling of focus, the possibilities for deeper and deeper collaborations that are part of the hoped-for service and learning of the incarnational plan become more and more prominent and likely to prosper.

The one known as Dewey, in speaking of how his learning as a physicist affected his own thoughts about spiritual matters, chose to describe the way he saw the “new man” as an ethical biological unit. The “old man,” he said, “was simply a biological unit.” It worked from instinct, it made its choices, and it protected that which was its own and saw to the survival of itself and its family unit. However, when one moves into the new definition of self that is the conscious self, that self that is aware of itself as a soul, the word that is added is “ethical.” An ethical biological unit is one who does look to the honors, to the duties, and to the love that is theirs to judge and deem appropriate and choose.

How true it is that one must, at some point, make a positive choice, or the choice will simply make you, and that choice may be a choice in which all of the old unconscious patternings of what the one known as Eckhart Tolle called the “pain body” may be thriving in glorious health. So it is well to take hold of the decision-making process, especially in such deep matters as right livelihood and self-healing, and to move through the most conscious effort possible of gazing within the self, moving the self to the best-judged center of self that can be found, and from that point, asking the self, “What do I love, and where is the love pulling me? What do I honor, and how can I give honor to those things that I do so honor? What are my just and fair responsibilities, and how can I best fulfill those?”

This instrument has thought sometimes about the concept of responsibility, for she has seen many entities who are on spiritual quests who find themselves choosing to walk away from situations without taking responsibility for them. Within her own life it has never seemed that this would be possible for her. Yet for many, the effort of becoming conscious is that effort which, in the terms of their own thinking at the time, cannot be made unless a clean and sharp break is made between the past and the present. And therefore, it cannot be said to be incorrect for such dramatic choices to be made. On the other hand, if there is sufficient time and space and patience for a slower and more careful process, it is very much a help to that process to move slowly, to move gently, and to ask the self frequently, “How does this feel? Do I feel centered? Do I feel open? Do I feel in any way hindered or bound by my belief system?”

Think of a root system that may be fouling a structure like a sidewalk or a pipe system. Some roots need to go deep, perhaps some pipes need to be moved. You must determine in the system of your own working spirit and its connections with the body, with the mind, and with the emotions, what is working and what is not working. “Where do I need to focus my redeeming love? Where do I need to embrace a part of myself of which I have been unconscious, and which has been leading me around into dark places?” For indeed it is very true that the structures of suffering have to do with the thinking of the individual. It is not that you would not experience pain if you were completely without bias and exposed to fire. You would still burn. However, when the entity can see fire not as something from which to contract but as a brother or a sister, then certainly appropriate action may be taken to avoid immolation by such a force in one’s life but at the same time there is nothing to fear, literally, no thing to fear, for you are an entity far beyond the limitations of these illusory husks, the personality, the body, the face, the package. Do not identify overly with the package but seek to begin to know what is inside and let that center of self begin to act as the gyroscope that is whirling inside in rhythm with the heart of the Creator so that, as the Creator seeks to know Itself, so do you seek to know yourself. And from that center all things have their right pattern. May it be so for each of you in increasing levels of harmony and strength. For each is part of a beautiful dance, that dance of creation in which every flower and tree and bird and being has its part.

Q’uo continued by saying that Dewey B. Larson spoke of how his learning as a physicist affected his own thoughts about spiritual matters and the way he saw the new man as an ethical biological unit, and the old man was simply a biological unit that worked from instinct; it made its choices; and it protected that which was its own; and saw to its survival and its family unit, but when we move into the new definition of ourself that is our conscious self that is aware of ourself as a soul, the word that is added is ethical, and an ethical biological unit is one who looks to the honors, the duties, and the love that is theirs to judge and deem appropriate to choose. Q’uo went on to say that it is true that we must make a positive choice, or the choice will simply make us, and that choice may be a choice in which all of the old unconscious patterns of what the one known as Eckhart Tolle called the “pain body” may be thriving in glorious health, so it is well for us to take hold of the decision-making process, especially in such matters as right livelihood and self-healing, and to move through the conscious effort of gazing within ourself, moving ourself to the center of ourself which can be found, and from that point, asking the self: “What do I love, and where is the love pulling me? What do I honor, and how can I give honor to those things that I do so honor? What are my just and fair responsibilities, and how can I best fulfill those?” Then Q’uo said that Carla has thought about the concept of responsibility, for she has seen many entities who are on spiritual quests who find themselves choosing to walk away from situations without taking responsibility for them, and  within her life it has never seemed that this would be possible for her, but for many the effort of becoming conscious is that effort which cannot be made unless a clean break is made between the past and the present so that it cannot be said to be incorrect for such dramatic choices to be made, but if there is time, and space, and patience for a more careful process, it is a help to that process to move gently, and to ask ourself: “How does this feel? Do I feel centered? Do I feel open? Do I feel in any way hindered or bound by my belief system?” Q’uo completed their reply by saying that we must determine in the system of our own working spirit and its connections with the body, with the mind, and with the emotions, what is working and what is not working and: “Where do I need to focus my redeeming love? Where do I need to embrace a part of myself of which I have been unconscious, and which has been leading me around into dark places?” For indeed it is very true that the structures of suffering have to do with our thinking, but it is not that we would not experience pain if we were completely without bias and exposed to fire because we would still burn, but when we can see fire not as something from which to contract but as a brother or a sister, then we can take appropriate action to avoid being burned by such a force in our life, but there is literally, no thing to fear, for we are an entity beyond the limitations of these illusory qualities of our body and our face, so we should not identify with the package but seek to know what is inside of us, and let that center of ourself begin to act as the gyroscope that is whirling inside us in rhythm with the heart of the Creator so that, as the Creator seeks to know Itself, so do we seek to know ourself, and from that center all things have their pattern, and may it be so for each of us in increasing levels of harmony and strength, for each of us is part of a beautiful dance of creation in which every flower, and tree, and bird, and being has its part. On May 7, 2006, Q’uo described the dance of creation:

As your souls crystallize in the way water is a crystal, they become much more easily magnetized and you become a much more fluid and responsive being. In higher densities you are aware not of less organization but of more, for you are not veiled and shielded from the dance of creation as a whole. That dance is endlessly, beautifully, rhythmically, gracefully organized. All parts of the creation are aware of all other parts of the creation.

You are familiar with this kind of dance because you see it in the second density and first density about you all the time. The trees, the air, the oceans, and all of the energies of nature are responsive in one holistic system, of which you are a part.

We would at this time open the meeting to further questions, if there be any at this time.

G: Q’uo, would you have any recommendations for concerning the preparation for my upcoming vision quest at Avalon and how I might best maximize the experience while there?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We would say to this instrument, trust the self and be unafraid to open the self to unfamiliar things. It is not an easy thing to move quickly from the surface of life to that level of consciousness where subconscious processes are available to the conscious mind. In something like a vision quest that you have spoken of, the basic effort is to open the doors of perception, as the one known as William James has said it, so that one has more information available. The concept of the quest has to do with the concept of the self as having many floors of being, shall we say, like a tall building that has quite a few different levels, not only above ground but also below the level that may be perceived as the ground floor. It is those deep, subterranean floors of self that one is attempting to access. Now, when one goes down the stairs into the basement, it is a very straight-forward thing. There is a certain angle to the steps, and they are at a certain distance from each other. It is a very regularized, geometric structure, the stair steps having so many degrees of declination, angles of turning, and so forth. It is not unlike that within the layers or floors of the self, below the level of the conscious mind. There is a very definite geometry and there is a way to move down into the deeper levels of the mind.

The one known as B was discussing one of these ways, the idea being to read in the mythology that affects one’s blood ancestry. The thinking behind this is correct in that the body and its structure, down to the cell structure, is a gift from the ancestors of that body. Each cell in the body is instinct with the knowledge, the life, and the experience of all of those entities that have shared those cells, those inherited strands of what this instrument would call, DNA. So you are, as a body, as a being within incarnation, a part of the Earth from which these beings sprang, the mountains, the lakes, the air. And as one grows up within a certain environment, the geography, the topography of the land becomes written in the DNA, and becomes part of you in a way that is magical, so that connecting with the Earth, connecting with the surroundings which are part of your heritage, places you in an optimal situation for stability in moving down into the roots of self. Certainly, the roots of the body are not necessarily the roots of the mind or the spirit. But one is in the body and one needs the grounding of that body in order to fuel that quest for vision. Further, one has, in the stories told by the ancestors of your body, material that describes the geometry, shall we say, of a very deep level which this instrument would call the archetypal level, in that subconscious being which is a part of you. You are attempting to ask for vision from this larger part of self to which you do not have access in conscious, daily life. Consequently, the one known as B was suggesting that one steep oneself in the mythology and stories of one’s ancestors. And certainly this is one way to approach such a quest.

There are other strengths into which one may lean in order to achieve this deep opening. Such alternatives include music, art and the creation itself. They include as well many other things and we do not feel we may be much more specific than this without infringing as you go about creating what needs to be for you a very self chosen, consciously chosen, experience. Within these parameters, may we answer you any further, my brother?

G: No, thank you very much, Q’uo.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother.

G: I have one from the one known as J who asks, “How does one go about creating a ritual that allows you to effectively configure your mind for sacred workings and donning the magical personality?”

Q’uo: We are aware of your query, my brother, and we thank you for the question. It certainly is one with which the one known as J has been working for some time. We would say to the one known as J that the preceding discussion may help in somewhat delineating the field of action for becoming a conscious, magical being. The essence of seeing the self as magical and experiencing the self as magical is that great step of believing that the self is magical. If one moves from that assumption, then one must take responsibility for each thought. Not simply each action, but each thought. For the magical personality is often defined, at least by this instrument, as one who is able to effect changes in consciousness by thought alone. This again requires a time of deconstruction to loosen the bonds of shallow attachments and reconstruction in attaching to far more sturdy sources of power, or conduits for power.

We believe that this may be sufficient for now but we would be glad to revisit the question with the one known as J in the future.

Is there another query at this time?

G: A quick one, Q’uo. With enough work can an entity become a crystalline entity in one incarnation and is that goal worthy of pursuit?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, each of you is a crystal, it is a matter of mining for it, finding it, polishing it up, and allowing it to shine.

Is there another query at this time?

G: Q’uo, is this instrument hard-pressed to continue these channelings on her own?

We are those of Q’uo, and aware of your query, my brother. In gazing into this instrument’s state of mind we find that she is as she has always been: one who sincerely wishes to serve. This instrument is convinced and has been convinced for a number of years that one of her right livelihoods or means of service is indeed this channeling of which you ask. It therefore is that which she does see the honor and the duty of doing. She does not find it at all burdensome. She does not find it, shall we say, fun; it is not something that draws her and consequently she must make a conscious effort to align herself with the gift which has been given her. There are times we find that she regrets the effort that it takes to move into this alignment and at the same time she would not forgo the honor even upon the point of death. Consequently, we would say no, this instrument does not find it difficult to serve. She would find it difficult not to serve.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: Not on that line, thank you, Q’uo.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother.

G: Sorry to hog it all but if nobody else is asking, I’ll take it again. Q’uo I was just curious if for a wanderer to awaken to their status as being from elsewhere they need to be first of a 51% service-to-others vibratory nature before awakening to the truth of their identity?

Q’uo: We are aware of your query, my brother, and we do not find that to be necessary. Indeed, it is not necessarily at all linked that one be aware of polarity and that one be aware of not belonging to this planetary system. The two strains of learning are not necessarily connected.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: I don’t think I meant awareness of the workings of polarity but that they must be vibrating at 51% service to others. Must they be harvestable in order to awaken consciously to who they are?

We are those of Q’uo, and believe we are more aware of your query, my brother. Again, it is not necessary to have any awareness except the discomfort of being in a difficult place that does not feel right to be aware that one does not belong some place. The tendency is for those who wander to move into incarnation within third density with some of the overlays of the previous density which would suggest that many a wanderer has much information flowing through about service to others and so forth. And so, there is a tendency for service-to-others entities to be those who are wanderers or shall we say it more properly, for those who are wanderers to be aware of desiring to be of service to others. Indeed, it is almost a part of desiring to be of service to others. Indeed, it is almost a part of the wanderer’s syndrome, shall we say. However, there are many who awaken first to their discomfort and have not yet done that work of choosing a polarity.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: No, thank you very much.

Q’uo: Is there a query from any in the group at this time?

G: So, for my vision quest, would you say that arming myself with a question, the question, my set of questions, would be sufficient? To go there with my questions for the Creator and let the Creator do the answering?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. It is not for us to say what is sufficient. We believe that the thought of sufficiency is not helpful at this time. We would suggest that you allow yourself to be undefended, and unclothed with suppositions concerning what is enough and so forth. Beyond that, we find that we cannot speak.

Is there a final query at this time?

T: Q’uo, this is not a query. It’s just an expression of thanks for your presence and help… in the last few weeks.

We are those of Q’uo, and aware of your most kind thoughts, my brother, and we thank you for them. We are indeed most pleased that we have been a resource for you at this time and we hope that we may continue so. Indeed, we hope that we may continue to serve each of you as a part of your system of guidance and strength. Please know that, whatever your self-doubt and whatever your process, we are there and so much is there for you. You are surrounded by a great web of love, and we cannot tell you how strong and how bright that web is and how far it goes. Indeed, in the end all are connected to all.

We offer each of you blessings and love. We thank you with all of our hearts and we leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning, I walked around the yard and picked up small tree limbs that were no longer covered by snow because of our recent warm weather. I was able to fill two garbage cans with the limbs. Then I went across the street to my neighbor’s yard and filled the two bird feeders in the front yard with birdseed and scattered it under the bird feeders as well.

This evening, we had our yearly Board of Director’s Meeting for L/L Research with each of our L/L staff presenting information in a great variety of topics to let the Board know what inspiring work has been done for L/L Research this year.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 24

The Calm Beneath The Storm

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the consolation of the perfect consciousness of divine Love.

Oh, perfect consciousness: as simple as the blue sky and as steady as the steadiest rudder upon a calm sea! This consciousness of love permeates all. Yet how quickly it is lost to the human heart, to the eye, and to the ear that cannot see the calm beneath the storm of mundane, personal events.

This is your sky. This is your rudder. In your faith, say to the events of the day, “Peace, be still.” And in the fleeting moments that follow, feel the constancy of the Love that remains always as it always has been, and as it always shall be: creative, joyful, and merry, leaving blossoms and wonders as a flower leaves behind a scent.

The day may be full. Your difficulties may well be many. But recall in faith the underlying peace that is not of your mundane experience but of the consciousness within. In faith you experience eternity within.

We leave you in this peace, this healing, and this love, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 15, 2004:

The question today has to do with changes of various kinds, whether it’s changing a job, or attitude, or invoking a new presence of joy, peace, and harmony. When we attempt these changes, when we make efforts in the third-density illusion to bring these changes about, we’re wondering how we can know if we’re being successful? Is there a predetermined path or way made for us already, or is this a choice we make from moment to moment totally of our own free will? How can we know if we’re exactly on the beam or not?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you with full hearts and happy spirits in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we are. We thank you, each of you, for joining this circle of seeking today. It is our delight to be called to this group, and we would ask, as always, simply that you use your discrimination carefully in listening to our thoughts. For, as we share them, we need you to know that we are not authorities but fellow seekers and that we share opinions rather than proven fact. Please take those thoughts that you like from what we have to say, and leave the rest behind. That will enable us to speak without being concerned that we infringe upon your free will. It is well to guard carefully those portals wherein information is taken, for that which is believed is so. And when that which is believed is sufficiently different from that which is the more natural pattern of truth, the distortion can be difficult to comprehend and difficult to perceive and therefore difficult to extricate oneself from.

Indeed, this is a portion of that which you are asking this day, for you have asked about change and how to know when the appropriate change is manifesting; how to go about making sure that the changes are indeed appropriate in the pattern of your incarnation. This instrument was speaking with the one known as B concerning the piece of the Creator’s creation which she calls “Avalon.” The one known as B was saying that he had spoken with Avalon in that voice that has no words but expresses emotions and feelings, and he felt that the land itself had been somewhat abused in the past, misused and used too hard, so that the soil was depleted of those nutrients that it would wish to have in order to support life, and that it had been neglected and abandoned. Consequently, it was shy of humans and somewhat distrustful.

It had not occurred to this instrument that it was a two-way street, for, in this instrument’s trusting and somewhat childlike way, she relates to all things and all qualities as though they were all very glad to see her, and the consequence that is indeed the reaction of the land called Avalon to the one known as Carla is that it is delighted to see this sprightly spirit and delighted to relate with her in any way she wishes. However, this instrument has not attempted to plant, nor has it asked of Avalon that which it wishes. And indeed, this is something to think about when looking at a change that is large enough that it cannot entirely be imagined. When the question is asked, “What do you want?” or “What do I want?” the question throws the thinking mind back into the world of form and not into the world of substance. However, if the question is asked of the present moment, “What does it want?,” “What does the life’s situation at this moment want of me?” that is a blind and non-intellectual question, and consequently it has a big possibility of reaping a harvest of some sense. But that sense may well be a sense of substance rather than a sense of the form of the appropriate path to take. When the question is opened up so that it is clear that there is a relationship between the self and the creation, it enlists the cooperation of the creation which is, of course, an extension of the self, just as the self is an extension of the creation and just as both are holographic in nature, reflecting the Creator.

We have often said that all is one thing, and yet, when you relate to the outer world, that seemingly outer world of consensus reality, consciously including it in the decision-making process and asking it what it wishes, the question is made whole in a very special way. It is well to consult not only the inner self but that outer self that is the system of mirrors that reflects the Creator to you, that is, the outer creation, the Earth which you inhabit, the people which are your companions upon its surface. These energies and essences also have life, sentience, and will. And, when cooperation is asked, it is immediately received. Then it is a question of continuing to listen, continuing to ask and continuing to have this living and protean dialogue that penetrates all forms and moves into the world of substance. The nature of coincidence, or synchronicity, or the unfolding of fate, if you will, is such that the more cooperation is asked and expected on a continuing basis, the more rich the sources of information will be that are eager to share information with you.

We have spoken many times about the fact that information can come through the natural world, and, indeed, it often does come through animals and elements that are in synch with the energy fields of your bodies, of your intentions, and of your hopes. So let us look at the area of intention and hope. There are two in this group, that is, three entities and two concerns, with an actual commitment of the self to a job or a new business, and there are two other concerns within this group which have to do with attempting to create from nothing a network or cooperative or collaboration which is of a mixed nature, being partially spiritual and partially worldly. The process of visioning or envisioning is important.

The group question for this session was: “The question today has to do with changes of various kinds, whether it’s changing a job, or attitude, or invoking a new presence of joy, peace, and harmony. When we attempt these changes, when we make efforts in the third-density illusion to bring these changes about, we’re wondering how we can know if we’re being successful?” Q’uo began their reply by saying we have asked about change and how to know when the appropriate change is manifesting and how to go about making sure that the changes are appropriate in the pattern of our incarnation, and Carla was  speaking about the piece of land which she calls Avalon, and B was saying that he had spoken with Avalon in a voice that has no words but expresses emotions and feelings, and he felt that the land itself had been abused in the past so that the soil was depleted of those nutrients that it would wish to have in order to support life, and that it had been neglected, so it was shy of humans and somewhat distrustful. Q’uo continued by saying that it had not occurred to Carla that in her trusting and childlike way she relates to all things and qualities as though they were all very glad to see her, and the result is the reaction of Avalon to Carla is that it is delighted to see this lovely spirit and delighted to relate with her in any way she wishes, but since Carla has not attempted to plant, nor has she asked of Avalon what it wishes that this is something for Carla to consider when looking at a change that is large enough that it cannot be imagined, so when the question is asked what Avalon wants or what Carla wants the question causes Carla’s mind to consider the world of form and not the world of substance, but if the question is asked in the present moment that is a non-intellectual question with a possibility of reaping a harvest of some sense, but that sense may be a sense of substance, and when the question is asked that shows that there is a relationship between Carla and Avalon it gets the cooperation of the land which is an extension of Carla just as Carla is an extension of the land, and both reflect the Creator. Q’uo went on to say that all is one thing, and when we relate to the outer world of consensus reality and ask what it wishes, the question is made whole in a special way so that it is well to consult not only our inner self but that outer self that is the system of mirrors that reflects the Creator to us which is the Earth which we inhabit and the people which are our companions on its surface, and these energies also have life and will so that when cooperation is asked, it is immediately received, and then it is a question of continuing to have this living dialogue that penetrates all forms and moves into the world of substance, and the nature of the unfolding of fate is such that the more cooperation is asked on a continuing basis, the more rich the sources of information will be that are eager to share information with us. Then Q’uo said that they have spoken many times about the fact that information can come through animals and elements that are in synch with the energy fields of our bodies and of our hopes, so Q’uo wanted to look at the area of intention and hope because there were three entities and two concerns in this group with a commitment to a new business, and there were two other concerns within this group which have to do with attempting to create from nothing a collaboration of a mixed nature which was partially spiritual and partially worldly, so the process of or envisioning is important. On February 13, 2010, Q’uo spoke of the value of intention and hope:

We thank all of those who asked these queries this evening. It is a great joy to us to feel that this group which sits within these modest walls has become quite large in its actual size. The reason that this is a delight to us is not because we want to attract followers or to become bigger, but rather because it is the nature of groups such as this one that you are lighthouses. And each entity doubles the energy of the entity next to you, so that even in a very modest group, you are creating a focus of light, a focus of intention and hope, that is exponentially greater than any of you could create by yourselves. And when you add all of those who are not physically in this room but who have moved into the energy of this particular circle of seeking by the questioning that they offer, then that lighthouse energy becomes exponentially greater. So, we thank each of those from wherever those queries came upon your globe and appreciate greatly the increase of light that occurs from those who are visiting in thought with this sitting circle.

From the business standpoint, of course, it is well known that one may go through a planning process in which the questions are asked of the self concerning what goals are intended, what resources come to the table to promote those goals, and so forth. It is perhaps less well understood that the same process must be followed with the environment about one and with the energies surrounding the present moment. The nexus of each present moment for each person is the self. This is why truth is so infinitely individual and personal. One is always coming from that place where the environment is known to one that has never been walked in before. The present moment finds each of you and each of us in a new world. It has taken aeons and densities and many, many incarnations, and teachers, and thoughts to bring each of us, each of you, to this precise tuning with which you greet this present moment. Consequently, your world is brand new, and nothing can be taken for granted. So, it is well to look at this new world of the present moment with new eyes, innocent of supposition and without the blinders of cynicism and manic zeal, resting, relaxing, and moving into the center of self.

Move with us, if you will, in the clockwise motion about the circle, feeling the energy of the group moving, growing and forming a temple of light about you. Now continue that exercise, but move only within the orbit of your being, and feel the part of the temple of the group that you are. Feel that smaller temple whose light moves into the group energy. Now, move deeper and deeper within that holy and sacred space within until you come to the very center of that being that you are and rest there. Stop, and sense into that quiet, living center of self which is your heart. Here is your place of rest, recuperation, and healing. Here is your place to reach out your hand to the Creator and to feel Its hand in yours before the reaching has ever been done. This is the center of your connection to guidance, truth, and stability. Were we never to speak with you another word, were there no perceived authority to offer wisdom, this center of self would be entirely sufficient to guide you, in terms of that which your desires for this incarnation were before you ever came into the experience of life with its hectic breath and its beating heart (and we may say, because of this instrument’s allergies, its itching nose). Before all of the sensations of life, the center is the place of rest and the platform from which one may spring into action, spring into expanded being, spiral into those lessons to be learned and those services to be performed.

When one is able to come to the center of self and rest, then one is much more able to ask in that sacred space, “What lies before me? What is right action? What shall I see that will enable me to have more of the sense of who I am and why I am here?” When you open your eyes from this prayer, we would ask you to be open to guidance. Keep a paper and pencil handy, ready to jot down those things that come to you in this particular moment, after this particular time of centering and resting. When you get up from such a rest, keep the center open even as you become active again in the world of consensus reality. The creation is ready to expand into those areas which fascinate you, which draw you. It is sensitive to all kinds of energy, so, if there are conflicts within your desires, these will show up in the seeming cross-purposes and the ambivalent nature of the hints and the inklings that your guidance seems to be giving you. Consequently, there is contemplation involved in attempting to discern right action and right being, contemplation of what cross-purposes there may be.

Ifthere is a dynamic where things seemingly are partially indicating one path and partially indicating another, sit and rest with that dynamic, letting the mind relax away from forms and looking at some of the underlying issues which might surround and inform this dynamic. Allow time for this procedure. Ask not simply on one day or on one occasion. Assume not that you have received the full wisdom that is available. There is a continual questing for those who wish to remain in the center of their beings, for you move on, the stream of time moves on, and the spiral of evolution moves on so that each day there is new information, there are new metamorphoses to be contemplating. And there are what this instrument has come to call distortion leavings to be released. Often that which muddies the picture for those questing for right action or right being is an over-affection for the pain, the pleasure, for the shape in general of the past, those things that have affected one in the past for weal or for woe.

So Q’uo said that from the business standpoint it is well known that we may go through a planning process in which the questions are asked of ourself concerning what goals are intended and what resources we have to promote these goals, but it is less well understood that the same process must be followed with the environment about us and with the energies of the present moment, and the center of each present moment for each person is ourself, so this is why truth is so infinitely personal because the present moment finds each of us in a new world that has taken aeons of time, densities, and many incarnations and thoughts to bring each of us to this tuning with which we greet this present moment so that our world is new, and nothing can be taken for granted, and it is well to look at this new world of the present moment with new eyes innocent of supposition and without the blinders of cynicism, resting, and then moving into the center of ourself. Then Q’uo said to move with them in a clockwise motion about the circle, feeling the energy of the group forming a temple of light about us, and continue that exercise, but move only within the orbit of our being and feel the part of the temple of the group that we are, feeling that smaller temple whose light moves into the group energy, and moves deeper within that sacred space within until we come to the center of that being that we are and rest there, and sense into that quiet center of ourself which is our heart, our place of rest and healing, our place to reach out our hand to the Creator and to feel Its hand in ours before the reaching has ever been done because this is the center of our connection to guidance and truth. Q’uo said that if they never spoke another word to us, or if there were no authority to offer us wisdom, this center of ourself would be able to guide us in the ways of our desires for this incarnation were before we ever came into our life with its breath and its beating heart because this is the place of rest from which we may spring into our expanded being and move into our lessons to be learned and the services to be given. Q’uo continued by saying that when we are able to come to the center of ourself and rest, then we are more able to ask in that sacred space: “What lies before me? What is right action? What shall I see that will enable me to have more of the sense of who I am and why I am here?” So when we open our eyes from this prayer, Q’uo asked us to be open to guidance and to keep a paper and pencil ready to jot down those things that come to us in this time of centering and resting, and when we get up to keep our center open even as we become active in our life because the creation is ready to expand into those areas which fascinate us since it is sensitive to all kinds of energy, so if there are conflicts within our desires, these will show up in the ambivalent nature of the hints that our guidance seems to be giving us, so they suggested contemplation for us to attempt to discern right action and of what cross-purposes there may be. Q’uo went on to say that if we feel a dynamic where things seem to indicate one path and then indicate another path that we sit with that dynamic and look the underlying issues which might inform this dynamic, allowing time for this procedure, asking not simply on one day, but do not assume that we have received the full wisdom that is available because there is a continual questing for us if we wish to remain in the center of ourself because we move on; the stream of time moves on; and the spiral of evolution moves on so that each day there is new information to be contemplating, and there are distortion leavings to be released since: “that which muddies the picture for those questing for right action or right being is an over-affection for the pain, the pleasure, for the shape in general of the past, those things that have affected one in the past for weal or for woe.” On January 12, 2008, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the spiral of evolution:

And there is a kind of purity in that emptiness that is powerful. You become the Holy Grail which you seek because you are that cup which is now empty or that hand outstretched which has nothing in it, ready to receive that which is new, that which comes from the great original Thought to transform you as a creature so that you have become that which is new.

Then that cycle begins again, where you start from a new place in the spiral of evolution. It is if it were, in a flattened spiral, the same place you have been before in this incarnation. Yet, because it is an upward spiral, you are always moving to that place you were before with a new mind, so that you meet that repeating theme or those repeating themes of your incarnation from a new place of observation and experience.

It is just as important to release the self from past excellent experiences as it is to release the self from past misery and suffering. Does the good time in the past create or add into the reality of your present moment? If so, why? Does the pain and the sorrow that are remembered from past experiences affect, in a living and breathing way, the present moment for you? Ask yourself that. It is important to release that which has been harvested in terms of catalyst and experience. It is a natural thing to take in the food of catalyst and to digest it and work with it and get the good out of it. It is equally important to release the distortion leavings of these experiences from the system. Otherwise, they may well clog the system, making it impossible for your evolutionary energy body to absorb the nutrients of experience and be ready to take in more. If there is any lack of hunger for new things, it is entirely possible that it is because that which has been thoroughly and completely digested in one’s life has not yet been eliminated from the system. When the value of the excellent times and the difficult times of one’s past have been completely appreciated, it then becomes far easier to release these experiences.

In terms of knowing that you are on the beam, there is a talent in being able to look without looking, to know without knowing, and to walk between worlds. It is a lifting away from assumption, a lifting away from presupposition, and an opening into the possibilities that surround the moment. These possibilities are literally infinite. But which is that direction which calls? Which is that direction which wants you as much as you wish it? It is a matter of asking, and asking again, centering, and asking, centering, and asking, until the life process contains the centering and the asking, the centering and the asking far beyond even a habit and more into a way of breathing life in and breathing life out. Ask… rest… ask… rest… as a way of being, so that you are asking yourself to open to the sense of rightness, the sense of resonance that you may get through your body and any of your senses, within your heart, and various energy centers, in those signs and wonders which mean something subjectively to you personally. When the asking has become a part of the in breath, and the resting has become a part of the out breath and the time between breaths, then you have entered a state of mind, a way of being, that has the best possibility of bringing to you a richer load or harvest of information concerning the issue about which you are asking. Sometimes it is a very subtle thing and occurs over a period of time, while in other cases there are sudden and sharp epiphanies in which whole systems of the future are seen for the first time in wonderful delineation.

It is never known ahead of time what pattern shall emerge from the chaos of asking without expectation. Yet, when it comes, there is that sense of a converging pattern that will let you know that the pieces, as the one known as S said, seem to be coming together. Chaos seems to be melting into a certain quantum, a certain situation that has, to say it one way, the blessing of guidance; to say it another way, the resonance of a good pattern that fits within those parameters of your incarnation which you set up before birth. It is not that there is a fate laid out for you. The possibilities are always infinite. It is that you have created for yourself what this instrument would loosely call a mission, a personal plan of service, and learning. And, when that mission is being materially addressed, with whatever success, there is a sense of being in the right place that is unmistakable. Wait for that sense, and do not attempt to think it into place or feel it into place or in any way force the swirling mists to clear. If there is to be a misty and mysterious time, enjoy it as you would a great snow storm or a down-pouring and enriching summer rain. The vision goes away, but the heavens have opened to give life-giving moisture to the dry and thirsty soil.

Then Q’uo said it is just as important to release ourself from past excellent experiences as it is to release ourself from past misery and suffering, so they asked if our good times in the past add to the reality of our present moment, and does our pain and sorrow from past experiences affect the present moment for us? They said that it is important to release that which we have harvested in terms of catalyst and experience since it is a natural thing to take in the food of catalyst and to process it and get the good out of it, and it is equally important to release the distortion leavings of these experiences from our system, or they may clog our system and make it impossible for our energy body to absorb the nutrients of experience and be ready to take in more, so if there is any lack of hunger for new things, it is possible that it is because that which we have digested in our life has not yet been eliminated from our system, and when the value of the excellent times and the difficult times of our past have been completely appreciated, it then becomes easier for us to release these experiences. Q’uo continued by saying that in terms of knowing that we are on the beam, there is a talent in our being able to look without looking, to know without knowing, and to walk between worlds because it is a lifting away from assumption and an opening into the possibilities that surround the moment, and these possibilities are infinite, but: “which is that direction which calls? Which is that direction which wants you as much as you wish it?” Q’uo said it is a matter of asking, centering, and asking again until our life process contains this process far beyond even a habit and more into a way of our breathing life in and breathing life out so that we are asking ourself to open to the sense of resonance that we may get through our body and any of our senses, within our heart, and in those signs and wonders which mean something subjectively to us personally, and when our asking has become a part of our in breath, and the resting has become a part of our out breath, and the time between breaths, then we have entered a way of being that has the possibility of bringing us to a richer harvest of information concerning the issue about which we are asking, and sometimes it is a very subtle thing and occurs over a period of time, while in other cases there are sudden epiphanies in which whole systems of the future are seen for the first time in wonderful delineation.  Now Q’uo said that it is never known ahead of time what pattern shall emerge from the chaos of asking without expectation, but when it comes, there is that sense of a pattern that will let us know that the pieces seem to be coming together, and chaos seems to be melting into a resonance of a good pattern that fits within those parameters of our incarnation which we set up before birth so that it is not that there is a fate laid out for us because the possibilities are always infinite since we have created for ourself a personal plan of service, and learning, and when that mission is being addressed there is a sense of our being in the right place that is unmistakable, so we should wait for that sense–and not attempt to think it into place–because if there is to be a mysterious time, we can enjoy it as we would a great snow storm, and the vision goes away, but the heavens have opened to give life-giving moisture to the dry and thirsty soil. On September 5, 2010, Carla spoke at our Homecoming Gathering and described the nature of our energy body:

The Love and the Light of the infinite Creator is moving through our energy body in inexhaustible supply at all times. We can’t run out. By stopping the flow of Love through us, by clutching and contracting around our woes and our problems—which we all have—what we can do is stop that flow into the heart, and then we can’t get our hearts open all the way. The fuel is Love. It’s right here. It is inexhaustible. We don’t have to hoard it. All we have to do is live in such a way that our energy bodies are clear so that we get that energy through us at all times.

Sometimes a great deal of the moisture of spiritual water must come and, for a time, blind the vision, and it is then that faith is a powerful support, that faith that all is well. It is not a faith that things will turn out appropriately, because things actually never turn out. You may have noticed this quality of life. Things spiral continuously, moving through many scenes and moods. Nothing ends or, to put it another way, everything ends, and the story moves on without missing a beat. There is no grand finale; there is no dénouement. There is simply the ongoing spiral of light and dark, laughter, and tears, suffering and joy. Yet, beneath all of those experiences, surrounding all of that seemingly outward miasma of confusion, there remains always the place of center to which you may go. It is the closest thing to you. You may amputate arms and legs and not lose your center. You may glow incandescent as a candle without clothing, without occupation, with only the consciousness with which you came into the world of consensus reality, and you will have that center, that center that links you to all that is, to all that has been and all that will be. All you need is in that center. Perhaps that is the fundamental message we have to share this day. Rest and know all is Love. All is one; all is Love.

You are magical beings, my friends. You are not at risk, as it may seem that you are in terms of a physical life. You are citizens of eternity. You are in a very precious and hard-won place. You have cast aside all else, because you felt that this incarnation was important enough to invest your eternal self in, to go through a great deal of inconvenience and suffering just so that you might improve the balance of your own personality and serve in the consensus reality about you, to fulfill goals which you have set long ago, goals that have to do with being helpful. Rest in the knowledge that these things are in place and that there are many, many sources of information that are very dedicated to communicating with you and with the groups with which you associate.

Notice those groups about you. For this instrument, it has been a year or more of very obvious building up of the group, but, in all of the years of this instrument’s life, there has been that same process going on, and, in each of those in this circle this day, this process has been taking place. Gradually the currents of self and other-self have circled and spiraled until each has met each, and each has been drawn into this group on this day. Each entity that you meet is a portion of a group, a soul group, as the one known as S has called it, or a group of those who have often incarnated together, to work together and to serve together. So, when you are touching entities, you are touching the groups with which they are involved, and you are binding yourself and others in streams of love and mutual hope and ideals. As you go about your daily life, and as you meet each entity, see the relationship in its deeper terms, and know that energies are involved that are far, far below the level of one’s awareness. They may be sensed, and they may be followed, but they may usually not be understood. Follow those relationships, and consider the relationship and your part in it, in each case looking for the ways to support and encourage each other. There are higher selves involved in each of these groups as well and higher hopes that each of these groups may have in terms of the service of the members of that group to the planet and its people. Trust this network to be there, and expect to meet old friends as you move through the days ahead.

Above all, sharpen the energies with which you move through life by offering yourself the solace of meditation. Time in the silence cannot be overrated for returning one to that precious center, what the one known as G would call the “power of now.” Enlist the help of Gaia, as the one known as B calls the planet upon which you dwell. Walk within its precincts and allow the trees, and the wind, and the small animals to sooth you, to connect with you, and to bring you back to that precious center.

Now Q’uo said sometimes a great deal of the moisture of spiritual water must come and, for a time, blind our vision, and it is then that our support comes from our faith in knowing that all is well, but it is not a faith that things will turn out as we wish them to because things actually never turn out  that way because they spiral through many scenes and moods until everything ends, and our story moves on without missing a beat into the ongoing spiral of suffering and joy, yet beneath all of those experiences, there remains always the place of our center that links us to all that is, and all we need is in that center so that we can know all is Love, and all is one. Q’uo went on to say that we are magical beings and are not at risk in our physical life because we are citizens of eternity, and we have cast aside all else because we felt that this incarnation was important enough to invest our eternal self in, to go through suffering just so that we might improve the balance of our own personality, and to serve in the consensus reality about us to fulfill goals which we have set long ago having to do with being helpful, so we should rest in the knowledge that there are many sources of information that are dedicated to communicating with us and with our spiritual groups. Q’uo continued by saying that we should observe those groups about us because each entity that we meet is a portion of a soul group or a group of those who have often incarnated together, to work together, and to serve together, so when we are touching entities we are binding ourself and others in streams of love and mutual hope so that as we go about our daily life, and we meet each entity, we can see the relationship in its deeper terms, and know that energies are involved that are far below the level of our awareness. Q’uo said that these energies may be sensed, and they may be followed, but they may usually not be understood, so we should follow those relationships, and consider the relationship and our part in it, in each case looking for the ways to support and encourage each other, and: “There are higher selves involved in each of these groups as well and higher hopes that each of these groups may have in terms of the service of the members of that group to the planet and its people. Trust this network to be there, and expect to meet old friends as you move through the days ahead.” Q’uo completed their reply by saying that we should sharpen the energies with which we move through life by offering ourself the comfort of meditation because time in the silence cannot be overrated for returning to our precious center, which could be called the “power of now,” and ask for Gaia’s help, the planet upon which we dwell, and walk within its natural surroundings, and allow the trees, and the wind, and the small animals to sooth us, to connect with us, and to bring us back to our precious center. On May 1, 1983, Hatonn described the comfort of meditation:

If you are able through meditation to keep the realization fresh that your beingness does not depend upon anything, but is, and has been, and will be as it is, then you can begin to experience those gifts given to what that same holy book has called the poor in heart. We realize that this may be confusing to those who are attempting with a full heart and sincere purpose to seek the one infinite Creator, for there is a great deal of intention and purpose needed to set one’s feet upon the path and to keep one’s feet moving, to pick oneself up when one falls, to open oneself to the comfort of meditation when one does not even feel worthy of such a state of being. But each of you is already full of purpose, full of desire and seriously seeking. Therefore, the balance is necessary. You seek for yourself, and then you give what you have sought back to the infinite Creator. You can lose nothing. You can gain nothing. You are always on this journey. You are always on the brink of an utterly indescribable joy.

This instrument informs us that we need at this time to open the meeting to questions. Are there questions at this time beyond that which we have spoken?

G: Q’uo, I’m not sure of how exactly it is that the quarantine works around this planet, but, working within those principles, is it possible that an entity or a group of incarnate entities could request and create a physical meeting with beings of an extraterrestrial nature or higher density beings of a positive nature on this planet?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We do not choose to give this instrument any information upon this point for two reasons. Firstly, attempts of this nature create an energy that we do not consider particularly desirable. Secondly, the attempt to create such a meeting is much like sending out a “CQ” on a ham radio. The entities who are monitoring these particular ham radio bands are, however, for the most part negative.

The infringement upon free will in giving further information is such that we find that we are not able to speak further. However we would say that the energies of the one known as B have already brought to you, the one known as G, experiences of meetings with entities that are not human and are certainly very positive, and we speak now of those entities on Avalon which this instrument has often called devas and which have a great deal of life and reality of their own. This kind of open questing is quite desirable, and we would recommend that, instead of attempting to meet an extraterrestrial, you simply attempt to meet the many, many entities around you with which you have not yet become acquainted.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: No, that was cool. I don’t think I or anybody else has big plans to do so. I was just curious. Thank you, Q’uo.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there a query at this time?

B: I have one that’s not directly on this topic. I was wondering what the role of the social memory complex was in the development of consciousness?

Q’uo: We are aware of your query, my brother, but are having trouble with a response because of the fact that, as far as we are aware, consciousness is, and it is not in need of being, shall we say, developed.

B: Growth is perhaps a better term?

Q’uo: Would you rephrase the question, my brother?

B: I was examining the social memory complex, and, as we enter the seventh sub-density of the third density, Ra has said that we can actually form these structures, and I was wondering how that would interact with our conscious spiritual growth? I mean, why does the social memory dominate in the fourth density? What do we learn from this experience?

Q’uo: We are now far more aware of your query, my brother. The social memory complex is as if you had opened your arms and said, “Everybody in,” as if you were the Creator, and you had accepted everyone that was about you into your heaven. The energy of this formation enhances and intensifies the purity and the clarity of the individual’s ability to open into unconditional love, or, in other words, to become a part of the social memory complex. So, as soon as a social memory complex begins to be formed, simply by leaning into the power of that group being or essence, you are allowing the self to become more and more attuned to that sublime or supernal nature of the self which truly feeds into the social memory complex.

You see, my brother, when experience is taken in at the level of consensus reality and conscious thought, much of the detail of the actual transactions taking place between entities is lost. The nuances are washed away by the grossness of words and actions, and the intentions, the energies that are being exchanged between two people, or a person and a place, or a person and a situation, are grossly oversimplified so that they can be consciously understood. Even in the most subtle and quick mind, there is that limit of rapidity of the accumulation of fact and the intuition, the ability for direct insight, is hampered. What the social memory complex does as entities move into it and begin to, shall we say, “get it” is to empower and enable the personal shell of personality to relax and lift away from specificity so that it may become less reactive and more stable. The personality shell of third density is unnecessary in fourth density, and the great gift of the seventh sub-octave of third density is that the social memory complex has enough energy now to be accessed by intention.

May we answer you further, my brother?

B: One quick point. Would the attempts to form a social memory complex here or, more specifically, at Avalon, be in any way disruptive to the non-human life that’s there now, that which you referred to as devas and the plants and animals being of lower densities?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, were social memory being attempted, as if in a vacuum, as if only with people, certainly this would be perhaps less than optimal in terms of the energy of that portion of Gaia to which you refer, and this is why the instrument, in its talk with you at an earlier time, had the intuition that the land must be a portion of the questing for the social memory complex being formed upon its sacred ground. To form a social memory complex with the full cooperation of the earth that it contains is to make each place so included a sacred space. It most definitely would be appropriate to include the Earth itself as a part of the social memory complex, for the Earth is a very sentient and very conscious being.

May we answer you further, my brother?

B: So you would see no problem with second-density life being exposed to a fourth-density concept, thinking basically of the plants and things we would like to grow there. Now, my concern is this: a lot of times when higher concepts are introduced too early in a developmental stage, they might bias the development as I see here, when the Confederation introduced entities from other worlds to our planet. Do you understand what I’m trying to get at?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. If it were forced upon this entity, Gaia, that such and such a group wished to do such and such a thing here and it was simply told to the land, then, yes, my brother, there would be the lack of respect. However, the second density and the first density, unlike the third density, dwell within the creation of the Father that the fourth density dwells within, so that in a way, moving into the social memory complex energy is returning to oneness with the creation of the Father. And indeed this works more synergistically than third density is able to with these nature spirits and with the planet itself.

May we answer you further, my brother?

B: That clarified it sufficiently, thank you.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there a query at this time?

G: Q’uo, I usually wouldn’t ask a question like this, but I’m just really curious. How did it come to be that the three of us, B, V, and I, all had a dream about a volcano, and two of us had a dream about a Polynesian named Bob? Could you maybe speak to the symbolism and why it was that we had really similar dreams, please?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother, and, as you perhaps surmised, we leave this work to you.

Is there a final query at this time?

S: I have a question. We’ve noticed of late that the difficult times Carla calls psychic greeting, or what has been termed the dark brotherhood, have given very intensive interference to myself and those of my soul family group. I have asked the guidance source whom I call “The Seven Dwarves” about this. They were quite reluctant to give me any specific details. I recall that, similarly, I had asked you at one time, and you were also reluctant to give me specific information and just your opinion and your ideas. What is the meaning or spiritual reason behind that?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. The nature of so-called psychic greeting, or psychic attack, or the influence of darkness is such that it seems to be coming in from without and seems to be a threat that is outer to one’s own self. And yet the mechanism by which these greetings are attracted is the desire to stand in the light. The harder and more fervent the desire to be of the light and to serve at one’s highest and best, the more sharply delineated are those portions of the shadow side of yourself that have not come into full harmony and acceptance within the self as loved, forgiven, and redeemed. Only you as a self, falling in love with the self and going through a full circuit of forgiving, accepting, redeeming of self, can do the work that enables one not to have the chinks in the armor, as this instrument would say, of light. That armor of light shall always have chinks. It shall always, within third-density incarnation, be imperfect, because were you able to be perfect, it would be time for you to move on, and you would simply not any longer be of third density. You would go through the experience of physical death so that your energy body, your soul, would be free to move into a more appropriate garment for continuing your experience.

Consequently, those who seek to stand the closest to the light are those who shall bring about the rightness or readiness for the experience of being tried, tested, greeted, attacked, or overshadowed. These are all subjective terms which describe a situation where one feels invaded or intruded upon or encroached upon. What is encroaching upon the self in a metaphysical sense in psychic greeting is the shadow side of one’s own self. So, when it is experienced from without, then it is well to take that mirror that is the dog barking at one, the wolf biting at one, and look to see within the self what portion of that shadow side, what vagrant part of the past, what relationship that has not been thought upon sufficiently, is truly causing the distortion within that has caused the wolf to bite just in such and such a way, so that responsibility is taken. And then, once responsibility is taken, and it is seen that there is nothing to fear, for it is only the self, then it is helpful to be able to release the fear and the contraction around this greeting, so that it no longer is a threat, it is simply that which is occurring. Then the work towards healing of the situation may be done without the additional stumbling block of fear blocking one’s own path of forward progress.

May we answer you further, my brother?

S: It’s an interesting thing for me to consider. I will have to think on it. Thank you very much.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. We find it is time to depart from this group, as this group’s energy wanes somewhat, and it is well to leave this instrument while there is still plenty of energy to make a good farewell. And so we do offer you farewell, reminding you always that we are with you whenever you should mentally request it, to strengthen and support you, without words but with love and energy.

We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning Anna and I synchronized our computers and listened to Carla channel Ra is Session #69 where the entire session was focused on how Carla had almost left her body during a Sunday Night Meditation when she heard a seeker’s question that she did not know the answer to and wished that she was channeling Ra. Ra gave the suggestion that she should not attempt to channel answers to questions and that her hand could be held to keep her from going into trance.

This afternoon I went upstairs and cleaned Benny’s apartment. Then I took a new bag of birdseed to my neighbor’s yard across the street and filled the birdfeeders with the birdseed and scattered some on the ground for the deer and squirrels.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 23

Blessedness

I am the living Spirit of divine Love, and I greet you in the blessed name of Jesus the Christ.

Has the concept of “blessed” touched your life, your thoughts, and your feelings in the last little while? Does the sweep of your life include consecration? We surely hope that it may.

And if it does not, we who speak of divine Love and bear the consciousness of that Love urge each seeker to gaze in faith upon the blessedness of that which lies before you this day. For each moment is sanctified to the sanctified eye, ear, and heart.

Surely, we who came to comfort shall comfort still and be with each. And if blessedness is escaping your consciousness, turn within and ask in humility to be shown that vision of beatitude which lies within each event which comes before you.

For those who act are all blessedly loved by the divine consciousness which is Love. That Love strives to move into a world of illusion and shadow. May your consciousness of blessedness lighten the area about you. May your vision, given by grace and produced by your will to worship, bless in turn all those about you.

We leave you in peace, that undergirding strength of Love divine, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

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I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 15, 2004:

The question today has to do with changes of various kinds, whether it’s changing a job, or attitude, or invoking a new presence of joy, peace, and harmony. When we attempt these changes, when we make efforts in the third-density illusion to bring these changes about, we’re wondering how we can know if we’re being successful? Is there a predetermined path or way made for us already, or is this a choice we make from moment to moment totally of our own free will? How can we know if we’re exactly on the beam or not?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you with full hearts and happy spirits in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we are. We thank you, each of you, for joining this circle of seeking today. It is our delight to be called to this group, and we would ask, as always, simply that you use your discrimination carefully in listening to our thoughts. For, as we share them, we need you to know that we are not authorities but fellow seekers and that we share opinions rather than proven fact. Please take those thoughts that you like from what we have to say, and leave the rest behind. That will enable us to speak without being concerned that we infringe upon your free will. It is well to guard carefully those portals wherein information is taken, for that which is believed is so. And when that which is believed is sufficiently different from that which is the more natural pattern of truth, the distortion can be difficult to comprehend and difficult to perceive and therefore difficult to extricate oneself from.

Indeed, this is a portion of that which you are asking this day, for you have asked about change and how to know when the appropriate change is manifesting; how to go about making sure that the changes are indeed appropriate in the pattern of your incarnation. This instrument was speaking with the one known as B concerning the piece of the Creator’s creation which she calls “Avalon.” The one known as B was saying that he had spoken with Avalon in that voice that has no words but expresses emotions and feelings, and he felt that the land itself had been somewhat abused in the past, misused and used too hard, so that the soil was depleted of those nutrients that it would wish to have in order to support life, and that it had been neglected and abandoned. Consequently, it was shy of humans and somewhat distrustful.

It had not occurred to this instrument that it was a two-way street, for, in this instrument’s trusting and somewhat childlike way, she relates to all things and all qualities as though they were all very glad to see her, and the consequence that is indeed the reaction of the land called Avalon to the one known as Carla is that it is delighted to see this sprightly spirit and delighted to relate with her in any way she wishes. However, this instrument has not attempted to plant, nor has it asked of Avalon that which it wishes. And indeed, this is something to think about when looking at a change that is large enough that it cannot entirely be imagined. When the question is asked, “What do you want?” or “What do I want?” the question throws the thinking mind back into the world of form and not into the world of substance. However, if the question is asked of the present moment, “What does it want?,” “What does the life’s situation at this moment want of me?” that is a blind and non-intellectual question, and consequently it has a big possibility of reaping a harvest of some sense. But that sense may well be a sense of substance rather than a sense of the form of the appropriate path to take. When the question is opened up so that it is clear that there is a relationship between the self and the creation, it enlists the cooperation of the creation which is, of course, an extension of the self, just as the self is an extension of the creation and just as both are holographic in nature, reflecting the Creator.

We have often said that all is one thing, and yet, when you relate to the outer world, that seemingly outer world of consensus reality, consciously including it in the decision-making process and asking it what it wishes, the question is made whole in a very special way. It is well to consult not only the inner self but that outer self that is the system of mirrors that reflects the Creator to you, that is, the outer creation, the Earth which you inhabit, the people which are your companions upon its surface. These energies and essences also have life, sentience, and will. And, when cooperation is asked, it is immediately received. Then it is a question of continuing to listen, continuing to ask and continuing to have this living and protean dialogue that penetrates all forms and moves into the world of substance. The nature of coincidence, or synchronicity, or the unfolding of fate, if you will, is such that the more cooperation is asked and expected on a continuing basis, the more rich the sources of information will be that are eager to share information with you.

We have spoken many times about the fact that information can come through the natural world, and, indeed, it often does come through animals and elements that are in synch with the energy fields of your bodies, of your intentions, and of your hopes. So let us look at the area of intention and hope. There are two in this group, that is, three entities and two concerns, with an actual commitment of the self to a job or a new business, and there are two other concerns within this group which have to do with attempting to create from nothing a network or cooperative or collaboration which is of a mixed nature, being partially spiritual and partially worldly. The process of visioning or envisioning is important.

The group question for this session was: “The question today has to do with changes of various kinds, whether it’s changing a job, or attitude, or invoking a new presence of joy, peace, and harmony. When we attempt these changes, when we make efforts in the third-density illusion to bring these changes about, we’re wondering how we can know if we’re being successful?” Q’uo began their reply by saying we have asked about change and how to know when the appropriate change is manifesting and how to go about making sure that the changes are appropriate in the pattern of our incarnation, and Carla was  speaking about the piece of land which she calls Avalon, and B was saying that he had spoken with Avalon in a voice that has no words but expresses emotions and feelings, and he felt that the land itself had been abused in the past so that the soil was depleted of those nutrients that it would wish to have in order to support life, and that it had been neglected, so it was shy of humans and somewhat distrustful. Q’uo continued by saying that it had not occurred to Carla that in her trusting and childlike way she relates to all things and qualities as though they were all very glad to see her, and the result is the reaction of Avalon to Carla is that it is delighted to see this lovely spirit and delighted to relate with her in any way she wishes, but since Carla has not attempted to plant, nor has she asked of Avalon what it wishes that this is something for Carla to consider when looking at a change that is large enough that it cannot be imagined, so when the question is asked what Avalon wants or what Carla wants the question causes Carla’s mind to consider the world of form and not the world of substance, but if the question is asked in the present moment that is a non-intellectual question with a possibility of reaping a harvest of some sense, but that sense may be a sense of substance, and when the question is asked that shows that there is a relationship between Carla and Avalon it gets the cooperation of the land which is an extension of Carla just as Carla is an extension of the land, and both reflect the Creator. Q’uo went on to say that all is one thing, and when we relate to the outer world of consensus reality and ask what it wishes, the question is made whole in a special way so that it is well to consult not only our inner self but that outer self that is the system of mirrors that reflects the Creator to us which is the Earth which we inhabit and the people which are our companions on its surface, and these energies also have life and will so that when cooperation is asked, it is immediately received, and then it is a question of continuing to have this living dialogue that penetrates all forms and moves into the world of substance, and the nature of the unfolding of fate is such that the more cooperation is asked on a continuing basis, the more rich the sources of information will be that are eager to share information with us. Then Q’uo said that they have spoken many times about the fact that information can come through animals and elements that are in synch with the energy fields of our bodies and of our hopes, so Q’uo wanted to look at the area of intention and hope because there were three entities and two concerns in this group with a commitment to a new business, and there were two other concerns within this group which have to do with attempting to create from nothing a collaboration of a mixed nature which was partially spiritual and partially worldly, so the process of or envisioning is important. On February 13, 2010, Q’uo spoke of the value of intention and hope:

We thank all of those who asked these queries this evening. It is a great joy to us to feel that this group which sits within these modest walls has become quite large in its actual size. The reason that this is a delight to us is not because we want to attract followers or to become bigger, but rather because it is the nature of groups such as this one that you are lighthouses. And each entity doubles the energy of the entity next to you, so that even in a very modest group, you are creating a focus of light, a focus of intention and hope, that is exponentially greater than any of you could create by yourselves. And when you add all of those who are not physically in this room but who have moved into the energy of this particular circle of seeking by the questioning that they offer, then that lighthouse energy becomes exponentially greater. So, we thank each of those from wherever those queries came upon your globe and appreciate greatly the increase of light that occurs from those who are visiting in thought with this sitting circle.

From the business standpoint, of course, it is well known that one may go through a planning process in which the questions are asked of the self concerning what goals are intended, what resources come to the table to promote those goals, and so forth. It is perhaps less well understood that the same process must be followed with the environment about one and with the energies surrounding the present moment. The nexus of each present moment for each person is the self. This is why truth is so infinitely individual and personal. One is always coming from that place where the environment is known to one that has never been walked in before. The present moment finds each of you and each of us in a new world. It has taken aeons and densities and many, many incarnations, and teachers, and thoughts to bring each of us, each of you, to this precise tuning with which you greet this present moment. Consequently, your world is brand new, and nothing can be taken for granted. So, it is well to look at this new world of the present moment with new eyes, innocent of supposition and without the blinders of cynicism and manic zeal, resting, relaxing, and moving into the center of self.

Move with us, if you will, in the clockwise motion about the circle, feeling the energy of the group moving, growing and forming a temple of light about you. Now continue that exercise, but move only within the orbit of your being, and feel the part of the temple of the group that you are. Feel that smaller temple whose light moves into the group energy. Now, move deeper and deeper within that holy and sacred space within until you come to the very center of that being that you are and rest there. Stop, and sense into that quiet, living center of self which is your heart. Here is your place of rest, recuperation, and healing. Here is your place to reach out your hand to the Creator and to feel Its hand in yours before the reaching has ever been done. This is the center of your connection to guidance, truth, and stability. Were we never to speak with you another word, were there no perceived authority to offer wisdom, this center of self would be entirely sufficient to guide you, in terms of that which your desires for this incarnation were before you ever came into the experience of life with its hectic breath and its beating heart (and we may say, because of this instrument’s allergies, its itching nose). Before all of the sensations of life, the center is the place of rest and the platform from which one may spring into action, spring into expanded being, spiral into those lessons to be learned and those services to be performed.

When one is able to come to the center of self and rest, then one is much more able to ask in that sacred space, “What lies before me? What is right action? What shall I see that will enable me to have more of the sense of who I am and why I am here?” When you open your eyes from this prayer, we would ask you to be open to guidance. Keep a paper and pencil handy, ready to jot down those things that come to you in this particular moment, after this particular time of centering and resting. When you get up from such a rest, keep the center open even as you become active again in the world of consensus reality. The creation is ready to expand into those areas which fascinate you, which draw you. It is sensitive to all kinds of energy, so, if there are conflicts within your desires, these will show up in the seeming cross-purposes and the ambivalent nature of the hints and the inklings that your guidance seems to be giving you. Consequently, there is contemplation involved in attempting to discern right action and right being, contemplation of what cross-purposes there may be.

Ifthere is a dynamic where things seemingly are partially indicating one path and partially indicating another, sit and rest with that dynamic, letting the mind relax away from forms and looking at some of the underlying issues which might surround and inform this dynamic. Allow time for this procedure. Ask not simply on one day or on one occasion. Assume not that you have received the full wisdom that is available. There is a continual questing for those who wish to remain in the center of their beings, for you move on, the stream of time moves on, and the spiral of evolution moves on so that each day there is new information, there are new metamorphoses to be contemplating. And there are what this instrument has come to call distortion leavings to be released. Often that which muddies the picture for those questing for right action or right being is an over-affection for the pain, the pleasure, for the shape in general of the past, those things that have affected one in the past for weal or for woe.

So Q’uo said that from the business standpoint it is well known that we may go through a planning process in which the questions are asked of ourself concerning what goals are intended and what resources we have to promote these goals, but it is less well understood that the same process must be followed with the environment about us and with the energies of the present moment, and the center of each present moment for each person is ourself, so this is why truth is so infinitely personal because the present moment finds each of us in a new world that has taken aeons of time, densities, and many incarnations and thoughts to bring each of us to this tuning with which we greet this present moment so that our world is new, and nothing can be taken for granted, and it is well to look at this new world of the present moment with new eyes innocent of supposition and without the blinders of cynicism, resting, and then moving into the center of ourself. Then Q’uo said to move with them in a clockwise motion about the circle, feeling the energy of the group forming a temple of light about us, and continue that exercise, but move only within the orbit of our being and feel the part of the temple of the group that we are, feeling that smaller temple whose light moves into the group energy, and move deeper within that sacred space within until we come to the center of that being that we are and rest there, and sense into that quiet center of ourself which is our heart, our place of rest and healing, our place to reach out our hand to the Creator and to feel Its hand in ours before the reaching has ever been done because this is the center of our connection to guidance and truth. Q’uo said that if they never spoke another word to us, or if there were no authority to offer us wisdom, this center of ourself would be able to guide us in the ways of our desires for this incarnation were before we ever came into our life with its breath and its beating heart because this is the place of rest from which we may spring into our expanded being and move into our lessons to be learned and the services to be given. Q’uo continued by saying that when we are able to come to the center of ourself and rest, then we are more able to ask in that sacred space: “What lies before me? What is right action? What shall I see that will enable me to have more of the sense of who I am and why I am here?” So when we open our eyes from this prayer, Q’uo asked us to be open to guidance and to keep a paper and pencil ready to jot down those things that come to us in this time of centering and resting, and when we get up to keep our center open even as we become active in our life because the creation is ready to expand into those areas which fascinate us since it is sensitive to all kinds of energy, so if there are conflicts within our desires, these will show up in the ambivalent nature of the hints that our guidance seems to be giving us, so they suggested contemplation for us to attempt to discern right action and of what cross-purposes there may be. Q’uo went on to say that if we feel a dynamic where things seem to indicate one path and then indicate another path that we sit with that dynamic and look the underlying issues which might inform this dynamic, allowing time for this procedure, asking not simply on one day, but do not assume that we have received the full wisdom that is available because there is a continual questing for us if we wish to remain in the center of ourself because we move on; the stream of time moves on; and the spiral of evolution moves on so that each day there is new information to be contemplating, and there are distortion leavings to be released since: “that which muddies the picture for those questing for right action or right being is an over-affection for the pain, the pleasure, for the shape in general of the past, those things that have affected one in the past for weal or for woe.” On January 12, 2008, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the spiral of evolution:

And there is a kind of purity in that emptiness that is powerful. You become the Holy Grail which you seek because you are that cup which is now empty or that hand outstretched which has nothing in it, ready to receive that which is new, that which comes from the great original Thought to transform you as a creature so that you have become that which is new.

Then that cycle begins again, where you start from a new place in the spiral of evolution. It is if it were, in a flattened spiral, the same place you have been before in this incarnation. Yet, because it is an upward spiral, you are always moving to that place you were before with a new mind, so that you meet that repeating theme or those repeating themes of your incarnation from a new place of observation and experience.

It is just as important to release the self from past excellent experiences as it is to release the self from past misery and suffering. Does the good time in the past create or add into the reality of your present moment? If so, why? Does the pain and the sorrow that are remembered from past experiences affect, in a living and breathing way, the present moment for you? Ask yourself that. It is important to release that which has been harvested in terms of catalyst and experience. It is a natural thing to take in the food of catalyst and to digest it and work with it and get the good out of it. It is equally important to release the distortion leavings of these experiences from the system. Otherwise, they may well clog the system, making it impossible for your evolutionary energy body to absorb the nutrients of experience and be ready to take in more. If there is any lack of hunger for new things, it is entirely possible that it is because that which has been thoroughly and completely digested in one’s life has not yet been eliminated from the system. When the value of the excellent times and the difficult times of one’s past have been completely appreciated, it then becomes far easier to release these experiences.

In terms of knowing that you are on the beam, there is a talent in being able to look without looking, to know without knowing, and to walk between worlds. It is a lifting away from assumption, a lifting away from presupposition, and an opening into the possibilities that surround the moment. These possibilities are literally infinite. But which is that direction which calls? Which is that direction which wants you as much as you wish it? It is a matter of asking, and asking again, centering, and asking, centering, and asking, until the life process contains the centering and the asking, the centering and the asking far beyond even a habit and more into a way of breathing life in and breathing life out. Ask… rest… ask… rest… as a way of being, so that you are asking yourself to open to the sense of rightness, the sense of resonance that you may get through your body and any of your senses, within your heart, and various energy centers, in those signs and wonders which mean something subjectively to you personally. When the asking has become a part of the in breath, and the resting has become a part of the out breath and the time between breaths, then you have entered a state of mind, a way of being, that has the best possibility of bringing to you a richer load or harvest of information concerning the issue about which you are asking. Sometimes it is a very subtle thing and occurs over a period of time, while in other cases there are sudden and sharp epiphanies in which whole systems of the future are seen for the first time in wonderful delineation.

It is never known ahead of time what pattern shall emerge from the chaos of asking without expectation. Yet, when it comes, there is that sense of a converging pattern that will let you know that the pieces, as the one known as S said, seem to be coming together. Chaos seems to be melting into a certain quantum, a certain situation that has, to say it one way, the blessing of guidance; to say it another way, the resonance of a good pattern that fits within those parameters of your incarnation which you set up before birth. It is not that there is a fate laid out for you. The possibilities are always infinite. It is that you have created for yourself what this instrument would loosely call a mission, a personal plan of service, and learning. And, when that mission is being materially addressed, with whatever success, there is a sense of being in the right place that is unmistakable. Wait for that sense, and do not attempt to think it into place or feel it into place or in any way force the swirling mists to clear. If there is to be a misty and mysterious time, enjoy it as you would a great snow storm or a down-pouring and enriching summer rain. The vision goes away, but the heavens have opened to give life-giving moisture to the dry and thirsty soil.

Then Q’uo said it is just as important to release ourself from past excellent experiences as it is to release ourself from past misery and suffering, so they asked if our good times in the past add to the reality of our present moment, and does our pain and sorrow from past experiences affect the present moment for us? They said that it is important to release that which we have harvested in terms of catalyst and experience since it is a natural thing to take in the food of catalyst and to process it and get the good out of it, and it is equally important to release the distortion leavings of these experiences from our system, or they may clog our system and make it impossible for our energy body to absorb the nutrients of experience and be ready to take in more, so if there is any lack of hunger for new things, it is possible that it is because that which we have digested in our life has not yet been eliminated from our system, and when the value of the excellent times and the difficult times of our past have been completely appreciated, it then becomes easier for us to release these experiences. Q’uo went on to say it is just as important to release the ourself from past excellent experiences as it is to release ourself from past and suffering, so then Q’uo said that we should ask ourselves if the good times in our past create or add to our present moment because it is important to release that which has been harvested in terms of catalyst and experience and to use the catalyst as food to get our lessons out of it, and that it is equally important to release the distortion leavings of these experiences from our system or else they may clog our system, making it impossible for our energy body to absorb the nutrients of experience and be ready to take in more, so if there is any lack of hunger for new things, it is possible that it is because that which has been completely digested in our life has not yet been eliminated from the system, so when the value of the excellent times and the difficult times of one’s past have been completely appreciated, it then becomes far easier to release these experiences. Now Q’uo said that it is never known ahead of time what pattern shall emerge from the chaos of asking without expectation, but when it comes, there is that sense of a pattern that will let us know that the pieces seem to be coming together, and chaos seems to be melting into a resonance of a good pattern that fits within those parameters of our incarnation which we set up before birth so that it is not that there is a fate laid out for us because the possibilities are always infinite since we have created for ourself a personal plan of service, and learning, and when that mission is being addressed there is a sense of our being in the right place that is unmistakable, so we should wait for that sense–and not attempt to think it into place–because if there is to be a mysterious time, we can enjoy it as we would a great snow storm, and the vision goes away, but the heavens have opened to give life-giving moisture to the dry and thirsty soil. On September 5, 2010, Carla spoke at our Homecoming Gathering and described the nature of our energy body:

The Love and the Light of the infinite Creator is moving through our energy body in inexhaustible supply at all times. We can’t run out. By stopping the flow of Love through us, by clutching and contracting around our woes and our problems—which we all have—what we can do is stop that flow into the heart, and then we can’t get our hearts open all the way. The fuel is Love. It’s right here. It is inexhaustible. We don’t have to hoard it. All we have to do is live in such a way that our energy bodies are clear so that we get that energy through us at all times.

Sometimes a great deal of the moisture of spiritual water must come and, for a time, blind the vision, and it is then that faith is a powerful support, that faith that all is well. It is not a faith that things will turn out appropriately, because things actually never turn out. You may have noticed this quality of life. Things spiral continuously, moving through many scenes and moods. Nothing ends or, to put it another way, everything ends, and the story moves on without missing a beat. There is no grand finale; there is no dénouement. There is simply the ongoing spiral of light and dark, laughter, and tears, suffering and joy. Yet, beneath all of those experiences, surrounding all of that seemingly outward miasma of confusion, there remains always the place of center to which you may go. It is the closest thing to you. You may amputate arms and legs and not lose your center. You may glow incandescent as a candle without clothing, without occupation, with only the consciousness with which you came into the world of consensus reality, and you will have that center, that center that links you to all that is, to all that has been and all that will be. All you need is in that center. Perhaps that is the fundamental message we have to share this day. Rest and know all is Love. All is one; all is Love.

You are magical beings, my friends. You are not at risk, as it may seem that you are in terms of a physical life. You are citizens of eternity. You are in a very precious and hard-won place. You have cast aside all else, because you felt that this incarnation was important enough to invest your eternal self in, to go through a great deal of inconvenience and suffering just so that you might improve the balance of your own personality and serve in the consensus reality about you, to fulfill goals which you have set long ago, goals that have to do with being helpful. Rest in the knowledge that these things are in place and that there are many, many sources of information that are very dedicated to communicating with you and with the groups with which you associate.

Notice those groups about you. For this instrument, it has been a year or more of very obvious building up of the group, but, in all of the years of this instrument’s life, there has been that same process going on, and, in each of those in this circle this day, this process has been taking place. Gradually the currents of self and other-self have circled and spiraled until each has met each, and each has been drawn into this group on this day. Each entity that you meet is a portion of a group, a soul group, as the one known as S has called it, or a group of those who have often incarnated together, to work together and to serve together. So, when you are touching entities, you are touching the groups with which they are involved, and you are binding yourself and others in streams of love and mutual hope and ideals. As you go about your daily life, and as you meet each entity, see the relationship in its deeper terms, and know that energies are involved that are far, far below the level of one’s awareness. They may be sensed, and they may be followed, but they may usually not be understood. Follow those relationships, and consider the relationship and your part in it, in each case looking for the ways to support and encourage each other. There are higher selves involved in each of these groups as well and higher hopes that each of these groups may have in terms of the service of the members of that group to the planet and its people. Trust this network to be there, and expect to meet old friends as you move through the days ahead.

Above all, sharpen the energies with which you move through life by offering yourself the solace of meditation. Time in the silence cannot be overrated for returning one to that precious center, what the one known as G would call the “power of now.” Enlist the help of Gaia, as the one known as B calls the planet upon which you dwell. Walk within its precincts and allow the trees, and the wind, and the small animals to sooth you, to connect with you, and to bring you back to that precious center.

Now Q’uo said sometimes a great deal of the moisture of spiritual water must come and, for a time, blind our vision, and it is then that our support comes from our faith in knowing that all is well, but it is not a faith that things will turn out as we wish them to because things actually never turn out  that way because they spiral through many scenes and moods until everything ends, and our story moves on without missing a beat into the ongoing spiral of suffering and joy, yet beneath all of those experiences, there remains always the place of our center that links us to all that is, and all we need is in that center so that we can know all is Love and all is one. Q’uo went on to say that we are magical beings and are not at risk in our physical life because we are citizens of eternity, and we have cast aside all else because we felt that this incarnation was important enough to invest our eternal self in, to go through suffering just so that we might improve the balance of our own personality, and to serve in the consensus reality about us to fulfill goals which we have set long ago having to do with being helpful, so we should rest in the knowledge that there are many sources of information that are dedicated to communicating with us and with our spiritual groups. Q’uo continued by saying that we should observe those groups about us because each entity that we meet is a portion of a soul group or a group of those who have often incarnated together, to work together, and to serve together, so when we are touching entities we are binding ourself and others in streams of love and mutual hope so that as we go about our daily life, and we meet each entity, we can see the relationship in its deeper terms, and know that energies are involved that are far below the level of our awareness. Q’uo said that these energies may be sensed, and they may be followed, but they may usually not be understood, so we should follow those relationships, and consider the relationship and our part in it, in each case looking for the ways to support and encourage each other, and: “There are higher selves involved in each of these groups as well and higher hopes that each of these groups may have in terms of the service of the members of that group to the planet and its people. Trust this network to be there, and expect to meet old friends as you move through the days ahead.” Q’uo completed their reply by saying that we should sharpen the energies with which we move through life by offering ourself the comfort of meditation because time in the silence cannot be overrated for returning to our precious center, which could be called the “power of now,” and ask for Gaia’s help, the planet upon which we dwell, and walk within its natural surroundings, and allow the trees, and the wind, and the small animals to sooth us, to connect with us, and to bring us back to our precious center. On May 1, 1983, Hatonn described the comfort of meditation:

If you are able through meditation to keep the realization fresh that your beingness does not depend upon anything, but is, and has been, and will be as it is, then you can begin to experience those gifts given to what that same holy book has called the poor in heart. We realize that this may be confusing to those who are attempting with a full heart and sincere purpose to seek the one infinite Creator, for there is a great deal of intention and purpose needed to set one’s feet upon the path and to keep one’s feet moving, to pick oneself up when one falls, to open oneself to the comfort of meditation when one does not even feel worthy of such a state of being. But each of you is already full of purpose, full of desire and seriously seeking. Therefore, the balance is necessary. You seek for yourself, and then you give what you have sought back to the infinite Creator. You can lose nothing. You can gain nothing. You are always on this journey. You are always on the brink of an utterly indescribable joy.

This instrument informs us that we need at this time to open the meeting to questions. Are there questions at this time beyond that which we have spoken?

G: Q’uo, I’m not sure of how exactly it is that the quarantine works around this planet, but, working within those principles, is it possible that an entity or a group of incarnate entities could request and create a physical meeting with beings of an extraterrestrial nature or higher density beings of a positive nature on this planet?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We do not choose to give this instrument any information upon this point for two reasons. Firstly, attempts of this nature create an energy that we do not consider particularly desirable. Secondly, the attempt to create such a meeting is much like sending out a “CQ” on a ham radio. The entities who are monitoring these particular ham radio bands are, however, for the most part negative.

The infringement upon free will in giving further information is such that we find that we are not able to speak further. However we would say that the energies of the one known as B have already brought to you, the one known as G, experiences of meetings with entities that are not human and are certainly very positive, and we speak now of those entities on Avalon which this instrument has often called devas and which have a great deal of life and reality of their own. This kind of open questing is quite desirable, and we would recommend that, instead of attempting to meet an extraterrestrial, you simply attempt to meet the many, many entities around you with which you have not yet become acquainted.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: No, that was cool. I don’t think I or anybody else has big plans to do so. I was just curious. Thank you, Q’uo.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there a query at this time?

B: I have one that’s not directly on this topic. I was wondering what the role of the social memory complex was in the development of consciousness?

Q’uo: We are aware of your query, my brother, but are having trouble with a response because of the fact that, as far as we are aware, consciousness is, and it is not in need of being, shall we say, developed.

B: Growth is perhaps a better term?

Q’uo: Would you rephrase the question, my brother?

B: I was examining the social memory complex, and, as we enter the seventh sub-density of the third density, Ra has said that we can actually form these structures, and I was wondering how that would interact with our conscious spiritual growth? I mean, why does the social memory dominate in the fourth density? What do we learn from this experience?

Q’uo: We are now far more aware of your query, my brother. The social memory complex is as if you had opened your arms and said, “Everybody in,” as if you were the Creator, and you had accepted everyone that was about you into your heaven. The energy of this formation enhances and intensifies the purity and the clarity of the individual’s ability to open into unconditional love, or, in other words, to become a part of the social memory complex. So, as soon as a social memory complex begins to be formed, simply by leaning into the power of that group being or essence, you are allowing the self to become more and more attuned to that sublime or supernal nature of the self which truly feeds into the social memory complex.

You see, my brother, when experience is taken in at the level of consensus reality and conscious thought, much of the detail of the actual transactions taking place between entities is lost. The nuances are washed away by the grossness of words and actions, and the intentions, the energies that are being exchanged between two people, or a person and a place, or a person and a situation, are grossly oversimplified so that they can be consciously understood. Even in the most subtle and quick mind, there is that limit of rapidity of the accumulation of fact and the intuition, the ability for direct insight, is hampered. What the social memory complex does as entities move into it and begin to, shall we say, “get it” is to empower and enable the personal shell of personality to relax and lift away from specificity so that it may become less reactive and more stable. The personality shell of third density is unnecessary in fourth density, and the great gift of the seventh sub-octave of third density is that the social memory complex has enough energy now to be accessed by intention.

May we answer you further, my brother?

B: One quick point. Would the attempts to form a social memory complex here or, more specifically, at Avalon, be in any way disruptive to the non-human life that’s there now, that which you referred to as devas and the plants and animals being of lower densities?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, were social memory being attempted, as if in a vacuum, as if only with people, certainly this would be perhaps less than optimal in terms of the energy of that portion of Gaia to which you refer, and this is why the instrument, in its talk with you at an earlier time, had the intuition that the land must be a portion of the questing for the social memory complex being formed upon its sacred ground. To form a social memory complex with the full cooperation of the earth that it contains is to make each place so included a sacred space. It most definitely would be appropriate to include the Earth itself as a part of the social memory complex, for the Earth is a very sentient and very conscious being.

May we answer you further, my brother?

B: So you would see no problem with second-density life being exposed to a fourth-density concept, thinking basically of the plants and things we would like to grow there. Now, my concern is this: a lot of times when higher concepts are introduced too early in a developmental stage, they might bias the development as I see here, when the Confederation introduced entities from other worlds to our planet. Do you understand what I’m trying to get at?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. If it were forced upon this entity, Gaia, that such and such a group wished to do such and such a thing here and it was simply told to the land, then, yes, my brother, there would be the lack of respect. However, the second density and the first density, unlike the third density, dwell within the creation of the Father that the fourth density dwells within, so that in a way, moving into the social memory complex energy is returning to oneness with the creation of the Father. And indeed this works more synergistically than third density is able to with these nature spirits and with the planet itself.

May we answer you further, my brother?

B: That clarified it sufficiently, thank you.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there a query at this time?

G: Q’uo, I usually wouldn’t ask a question like this, but I’m just really curious. How did it come to be that the three of us, B, V, and I, all had a dream about a volcano, and two of us had a dream about a Polynesian named Bob? Could you maybe speak to the symbolism and why it was that we had really similar dreams, please?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother, and, as you perhaps surmised, we leave this work to you.

Is there a final query at this time?

S: I have a question. We’ve noticed of late that the difficult times Carla calls psychic greeting, or what has been termed the dark brotherhood, have given very intensive interference to myself and those of my soul family group. I have asked the guidance source whom I call “The Seven Dwarves” about this. They were quite reluctant to give me any specific details. I recall that, similarly, I had asked you at one time, and you were also reluctant to give me specific information and just your opinion and your ideas. What is the meaning or spiritual reason behind that?

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. The nature of so-called psychic greeting, or psychic attack, or the influence of darkness is such that it seems to be coming in from without and seems to be a threat that is outer to one’s own self. And yet the mechanism by which these greetings are attracted is the desire to stand in the light. The harder and more fervent the desire to be of the light and to serve at one’s highest and best, the more sharply delineated are those portions of the shadow side of yourself that have not come into full harmony and acceptance within the self as loved, forgiven, and redeemed. Only you as a self, falling in love with the self and going through a full circuit of forgiving, accepting, redeeming of self, can do the work that enables one not to have the chinks in the armor, as this instrument would say, of light. That armor of light shall always have chinks. It shall always, within third-density incarnation, be imperfect, because were you able to be perfect, it would be time for you to move on, and you would simply not any longer be of third density. You would go through the experience of physical death so that your energy body, your soul, would be free to move into a more appropriate garment for continuing your experience.

Consequently, those who seek to stand the closest to the light are those who shall bring about the rightness or readiness for the experience of being tried, tested, greeted, attacked, or overshadowed. These are all subjective terms which describe a situation where one feels invaded or intruded upon or encroached upon. What is encroaching upon the self in a metaphysical sense in psychic greeting is the shadow side of one’s own self. So, when it is experienced from without, then it is well to take that mirror that is the dog barking at one, the wolf biting at one, and look to see within the self what portion of that shadow side, what vagrant part of the past, what relationship that has not been thought upon sufficiently, is truly causing the distortion within that has caused the wolf to bite just in such and such a way, so that responsibility is taken. And then, once responsibility is taken, and it is seen that there is nothing to fear, for it is only the self, then it is helpful to be able to release the fear and the contraction around this greeting, so that it no longer is a threat, it is simply that which is occurring. Then the work towards healing of the situation may be done without the additional stumbling block of fear blocking one’s own path of forward progress.

May we answer you further, my brother?

S: It’s an interesting thing for me to consider. I will have to think on it. Thank you very much.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. We find it is time to depart from this group, as this group’s energy wanes somewhat, and it is well to leave this instrument while there is still plenty of energy to make a good farewell. And so we do offer you farewell, reminding you always that we are with you whenever you should mentally request it, to strengthen and support you, without words but with love and energy.

We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I placed the new chairs around the living room for the public channeling meditation that will take place in my home this afternoon. Then I turned off the printer and house phone and lit a couple of sticks of incense.

This afternoon the meditation started at 1 pm, and we had eleven seekers that began the round robin by sharing their name, where they were from, and the most important part of their spiritual journey at this time. It was an especially open-hearted sharing, and I was glad to be a part of this group of sweet souls. There were only four questions for those of Q’uo, so we had more time after the channeling session to talk with each other and share more about our spiritual journeys and how we are moving forward on them.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 23

Blessedness

I am the living spirit of divine Love, and I greet you in the blessed name of Jesus the Christ.

Has the concept of “blessed” touched your life, your thoughts, and your feelings in the last little while? Does the sweep of your life include consecration? We surely hope that it may.

And if it does not, we who speak of divine Love and bear the consciousness of that Love urge each seeker to gaze in faith upon the blessedness of that which lies before you this day. For each moment is sanctified to the sanctified eye, ear, and heart.

Surely, we who came to comfort shall comfort still and be with each. And if blessedness is escaping your consciousness, turn within and ask in humility to be shown that vision of beatitude which lies within each event which comes before you.

For those who act are all blessedly loved by the divine consciousness which is Love. That Love strives to move into a world of illusion and shadow. May your consciousness of blessedness lighten the area about you. May your vision, given by grace and produced by your will to worship, bless in turn all those about you.

We leave you in peace, that undergirding strength of Love divine, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

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I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from December 21, 2003:

Today we are taking pot luck, so, Q’uo, we would be glad to hear anything you’d like to share with us.

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we come to you today. We thank you for the great privilege of calling us to your group by your desire to seek the truth. It is always a pleasure to be called to this group. We would ask only one thing of you and that is, as always, that you listen to those things which we have to say with a jaundiced and careful ear, being quick to discard and toss away any idea or thought that does not suit you and keeping only those things which seem to you to have resonance and a personal meaning that speaks to you specifically. We feel that we are no authority figures but rather those companions who walk with you upon the road of the seeker. If you will guard your own thought processes, we shall feel free to share our thoughts with you without being concerned that we infringe upon your free will.

We find that this group does not have any opening question for us, and that gives us the opportunity to move into those energies that are unspoken and that may perhaps be addressed in a less than specific and direct way by those things that we might share. We are aware that the energy of the time you call Christmas is very much within this group and within your culture at this time. And it is interesting to observe the lack of joy with which many entities approach the dark times of winter solstice, for indeed that is the energy of this particular season of the year, that energy of the dark and the sleep of hibernation and winter. It is a time when it is very easy for those entities who are close to passing from the incarnation to have a more than usual opportunity to greet the dark, with its invitation to all to come and be a part of that darkness.

It is a seduction that brings many to that passage betwixt incarnation through what is called death to the next stage of consciousness for that entity. The inner planes having received all entities who pass through the gateway of death, so it is then the opportunity of each entity, having made that passage, to discover, for himself and herself, what the next step is. Is it a step of healing, a step of review and examination of the life just passed? Or is it, in some cases, that entities who pass through the gates of death are quite conscious of the opportunity being offered to work within the inner planes and so are most eager to move on into new work, new projects, and new service?

For those who are at all drawn to the dark, this is that time during the season of the year when that invitation will seem more seductive than usual. It is, paradoxically, a time when the deepest impulses of entities are to lighten the darkness, to energize that darkness with gaiety and noise and movement, as if such hectic pleasures might distract the souls dwelling within from their preoccupation with the gathering darkness. That invitation, that seduction of the dark, is often set very deeply within the gaiety of your celebrations. It is as though the energies of humankind, not knowing how to cooperate with the darkness, find it necessary to throw up defenses against the darkness and deny the reality of the darkness. For darkness is not simply a physical thing. It is not simply the absence of a sun body within your atmosphere. Certainly, that physical darkness is a huge part of the way darkness feels, that experience of the lack of light. Yet, the energies of this season are more than, and other than, physical. In part, the darkness that is physical darkness is complemented or paired with the shadow of self, the darkness of self, that entities such as this instrument would always prefer not to deal with, because it is, while undeniably a part of the personality, not considered a desirable part of the personality. We feel that perhaps this might deserve a good look, this attempt to make all things bright, to lift everything up to the light, and to have a merry and a happy season.

Certainly, each within the circle has experienced the hectic nature of this particular season in, as the one known as T said, the cycle of Christmas and Christmas doings. The one known as T was saying that it would seem obvious that entities could wish each other good and send thoughts to each other without the necessity for purchasing items, without the necessity for getting certain items and yet, year upon year, and century upon century, entities faced with the shortest of the days and the longest of the nights of the year turn hungrily towards the festivities that make a brave show in the face of all of that darkness and shadow.

Let us look at the story of Christmas, in that it is a story with darkness within it. The biblical story that this instrument knows from its Sunday school has a beauty to it, the beauty of innocent birth, and angelic visitors, and wise men of the Earth who also come to honor a tiny child. Yet, it is perhaps not emphasized, but certainly part of the story, that the mother of this entity, the one known as Jesus, was brought to childbed without the convenience or the respect of having been married first. Further, this entity was then asked to marry an older gentlemen who was not particularly amused by the pregnancy that presumably happened by Spirit’s hand alone. And further, in the very last extremities of pregnancy, this odd couple was forced to travel in the middle of winter, in inclement weather, to a place where there was no bed waiting for them at the other end, so that when the one known as Mary gave birth, it was in a stable, and the infant Jesus slept in a manger that was full of hay. These details speak of the physical and the metaphysical darkness of the season, the inconvenience of Spirit, the demands of the spiritual life, the demand of this infant to be born—not waiting for marriage, not waiting for propriety, but insisting upon being born, in the darkness, in the cold, in the stable—without convenience, or planning, or foresight. Simply, “It is time, and now I shall appear.”

The group decided to take potluck for this session, and Q’uo began by saying that that gave them the opportunity to move into those energies that are unspoken and that may be addressed in a less direct way by those things that they might share, and Q’uo said that they are aware that the energy of Christmas is very much within this group and within our culture at this time, and it is interesting to observe the lack of joy with which many entities approach the dark times of winter solstice, for indeed that is the energy of this season of the year, that energy of the dark and the sleep of hibernation and winter, a time when it is easy for those entities who are close to passing from the incarnation to have a greater opportunity to greet the dark, with its invitation to all to come and be a part of that darkness. Q’uo continued by saying that it is a temptation that brings many to that passage between incarnations through what is called death to the next stage of consciousness for that entity, and the inner planes having received all entities who pass through the gateway of death offer the opportunity for each entity to discover what the next step is which could be a step of healing, or a step of review and examination of the life just completed, or it could be that entities who pass through the gates of death are conscious of the opportunity being offered to work within the inner planes and are eager to move into new work and new service. Q’uo went on to say that for those who are drawn to the dark, this is that time during the season of the year when that invitation will seem more seductive than usual because it is a time when our deepest impulses are to energize that darkness with gaiety and movement, as if such pleasures might distract us from our preoccupation with the gathering darkness so that seduction of the dark is often set very deeply within the gaiety of our celebrations, and it is as though the energies of humankind, not knowing how to cooperate with the darkness, find it necessary to throw up defenses against the darkness and deny the reality of the darkness, for darkness is not simply the absence of the sun body within our atmosphere, though that physical darkness is a huge part of the way darkness feels, it is also the experience of the lack of light, but the energies of this season are other than physical because the darkness that is physical darkness is paired with the darkness of ourself so that entities would always prefer not to deal with it because it is not considered a desirable part of our personality, so Q’uo felt that this might deserve a good look: this attempt to make all things bright, to lift everything up to the light, and to have a merry and a happy season. Now Q’uo said that each of us within the circle has experienced the hectic nature of this particular season in the cycle of Christmas and Christmas gatherings that we could wish each other well  without the necessity for giving gifts, and yet year after year as we are faced with the shortest of days and the longest of nights of the year we turn hungrily towards the festivities that make a brave show in the face of all of that darkness and shadow. Then Q’uo said that they wanted to look at the story of Christmas that has darkness within it, the biblical story that Carla knows from her Sunday school which has the beauty of innocent birth, angelic visitors, and wise men of the Earth who also come to honor a tiny child, and the mother of Jesus did not have the respect of having been married first so that when she was asked to marry an older gentlemen who was not amused by the pregnancy that presumably happened by Spirit’s hand alone, this odd couple was forced to travel in the middle of winter, in inclement weather, to a place where there was no bed waiting for them at the other end, so that when Mary gave birth it was in a stable, and the infant Jesus slept in a manger that was full of hay, and these details speak of the physical and the metaphysical darkness of the season, the inconvenience of Spirit: “the demands of the spiritual life, the demand of this infant to be born—not waiting for marriage, not waiting for propriety, but insisting upon being born, in the darkness, in the cold, in the stable—without convenience, or planning, or foresight. Simply, “It is time, and now I shall appear.” On May 18, 1997, Q’uo spoke of the nature of metaphysical darkness:

In the parables of the one known as Jesus this entity frequently said at the end of a story, “Let him who has ears to hear, hear.” And this is the quest of each seeker, to develop ears that hear ever more accurately the song of love that rushes through each moment of experience. Third density, your Earth plane, is a world of great solitude and sorrow, with each entity shut up from each other entity in ways that do not occur before this density or after it. This is a density of metaphysical darkness lit only by that pale moon of hope and faith. And yet in this dim light there lies a depth of truth that shall never be touched again, for only in this density has the Creator given Itself the luxury of not knowing. Thusly, as each experiences himself, the Creator experiences Itself in an unspoiled and untouched way, totally spontaneous and totally free, and if that entity that is you finds that heart of love that is the deepest truth, that finding is completely real for it is not at the surface of things that this truth is obvious. It is not obvious that all is one. It is not clear at all that each entity is a creature and a child of Love. Indeed, it is only by blind faith that we can begin to apprehend that which we do not know and yet that which we do know, Love itself.

Such is the nature of your own spirit. It is nurtured in the darkness of the season, and you are brought to childbed with it as the timing of your own process pulls you into new birth, the birth of your own spiritual self, within incarnation. For that is one of the great values of being in incarnation. You are able, when you become conscious of the situation of incarnation and its advantages, to determine within incarnation to awaken that sleeping soul within that has been brought along into incarnation within you but certainly hidden, sometimes fairly deeply, within the stuff of personality, culture, and conditioning.

In the darkness within the self lie both the riches of the soul and the less appreciated of the riches of the shadow side of that soul. As you bring this infant that is you as a soul into conscious awareness and begin to nurture that part of yourself as if it were an infant that needed love and tending, you begin to pull that structure within you that is the witness to all that you undergo in incarnation into more clarity. It is that witness that can release thoughts of the darkness and thoughts of the gaiety and simply continue witnessing as that child within begins to express itself, to reach towards the light that it sees, to begin to have the energy and vitality to move upon its own and to begin to grow within incarnation. As you go about nurturing this beautiful portion of the inner self, we would ask you also to look very carefully to find the wolf that bites, to find the murderer, the thief, the adulterer; to find that entity within the self that truly does partake of the darkness of self-good, that part of selfhood that is self-involved, that has the impulse to think first of the self. This is a good time of year to focus into that neglected portion of the self and to invite it into the warm and gently lighted circle of your own heart’s hearth.

It is as though there are parts of the self that have been denied because they are too dark, they are too seemingly selfish, or evil, or harsh, or rough. And yet, that whole entity which you are cannot function without all, both the light and the dark, of its nature. Many times entities who polarize towards beauty, and truth, and purity feel that they must deny and leave behind those shadow portions of self. And yet we would ask you not to leave behind one iota of that 360 degrees of self that you do possess. For all of the voices within you, all of the 180 degrees of “good” and 180 degrees of that which you label “not good,” are necessary to integrate into one peaceful kingdom within.

Many are the times that this instrument has asked the question, “What is peace?” For she meditates on behalf of peace each night. And one of the keys to understanding peace, the concept of peace as a living thing and not as a dead idea, is to realize that peace is the complete and harmonious integration of light and dark, so that all is in balance within the whole entity and all of that entity’s faculties are brought to bear on a situation, not simply those faculties towards the good but those faculties that might be considered towards the negative. For the thief, the coveter, the lazy one, all of those dark voices within, can be charmed into becoming the bedrock of will that puts grit into the expression of love that the “light” part of self has no trouble expressing. Yet when the going becomes rough, it is that dark side of self that is able to take hold in difficult situations and endure. That same darkness that could be the wolf that bites, then has become the best support possible for the light. And this is the hoped-for result of an incarnation full of both the light and the dark as the seasons revolve and as the seasons of inner life revolve as well.

So, we take this opportunity to praise the dark as well as the light, and to ask each of you to work on embracing all parts of the self, loving, honoring, and respecting each and finding ways each day to come into more conscious harmony of being. As you are able to find your kingdom within becoming peaceable, just to that extent shall you be able to be a force for peace to those about you. No matter how you strive, if you do not embrace the dark side of self, you shall ever be less of a messenger for peace and more of a voice that has not the force and directness to project into the Earth plane with all of its inner planes of energy.

Then Q’uo said that such is the nature of our own spirit that is nurtured in the darkness of the season, and we are brought to childbed with it as the timing of our process pulls us into the birth of our own spiritual self within this incarnation, and this is one of the great values of being in incarnation because we are able, when we become conscious of the advantages of our incarnation, to determine to awaken our soul within us that has been brought along into incarnation within us but hidden within the stuff of  our personality and culture. Q’uo went on to say that in the darkness within ourself are both the riches of the soul and the less appreciated of the riches of the shadow side of our soul, and as we bring this infant that we are as a soul into conscious awareness and begin to nurture that part of ourself as if it were an infant that needed love and tending, we begin to pull that structure within us that is the witness to all that we undergo in our incarnation into clarity, so it can release thoughts of darkness and continue witnessing as that child within us begins to have the energy and vitality to move upon its own and to begin to grow within incarnation so that as we go about nurturing this beautiful portion of our inner self, Q’uo asked us to look carefully to find the murderer, the thief, and that entity within our self that does partake of the darkness of  that part of ourself that has the impulse to think first of the self, and this is a good time of year to focus into that neglected portion of ourself and to invite it into the warm and gently lighted circle of our own heart’s hearth. Q’uo continued by saying that it is as though there are parts of ourself that have been denied because they are too dark and selfish, and yet that whole entity which we are cannot function without both the light and the dark of our nature, and many times when we who polarize towards beauty, truth, and purity feel that we must deny those shadow portions of ourself, but Q’uo asked us not to leave behind one iota of that 360 degrees of self that we possess because all of the voices within us, all of the 180 degrees of “good” and 180 degrees of that which we label “not good,” are necessary to integrate into one peaceful kingdom within. Then Q’uo said that many times Carla has asked the question, “What is peace?” because she meditates on behalf of peace each night, and one of the keys to understanding the concept of peace as a living thing is to realize that peace is the complete and harmonious integration of light and dark, so that all is in balance within our whole being,  and all of our energies are brought to bear on a situation, not simply those energies towards the good but those energies that might be considered towards the negative because the thief and the lazy one, and all of those dark voices within us can be invited into becoming the bedrock of our will that puts grit into the expression of love that the “light” part of ourself has no trouble expressing, but when the going gets tough it is our dark side of self that is able to take hold in difficult situations and endure, so that same darkness has become the best support possible for the light, and this is the hoped-for result of our incarnation that is full of both the light and the dark as the seasons revolve and as the seasons of inner life revolve as well. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that they wanted to take this opportunity to praise the dark as well as the light, and to ask each of us to work on embracing all parts of ourself by loving and respecting each and finding ways each day to come into more conscious harmony within our being, and as we are able to find our kingdom within becoming peaceable, in that same way shall we be a force for peace to those about us, and no matter how we live, if we do not embrace the dark side of ourself, we shall always be less of a messenger for peace and more of a voice that has not the force and directness to project into the Earth plane with all of its inner planes of energy. On November 18, 1996, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the dark side of ourselves:

Unity, when it is absolute, is without awareness. Each of you is a portion of that unborn and undying awareness, that heart of all creation that is the one original Thought. Within that thought of infinite Love there lies no shadow. However, we as well as you walk the path of duality and exist within a series of physical vehicles, enjoying the experience of living within various densities and conditions of body, mind, emotion, and spirit. In all of these densities of unimaginable variety lies duality.

Thusly, it is well to remember that the light side and the dark side of your self alike are portions of that shell of manifestation which represents the totality of your self. The learning, the experiencing, the growing that is done within incarnations throughout the densities is a growth hemmed in on every side by limitation. Within this world of finity the light and dark create a tremendous dynamic. Within this dynamic rest all of those who sleep; that is, all of those who are within incarnation yet who are not yet aware of themselves as Consciousness experiencing Itself. Those who are spiritually unawakened rest in the center of that dynamic betwixt light and dark.

This instrument’s head is full of angels at this time of year, the angels of heaven, praising God and saying, “Glory to God in the highest and peace to men of good will.” We wish you those angels, we wish you the truth of this precious dark time. May each of you move into that time with quietness and confidence, allowing the great washes of emotion and memory to move through your thoughts and your feelings, washing you and leaving you golden and rested and truly at peace. We would ask if there are any queries at this time before we leave this instrument.

J: Yeah, Q’uo, I’ve got a question. The veil is very thin at this time, and I was wondering what your impression is? I know it’s always a good time to meditate. Are there any suggestions that you could make? Is there a way to connect with the thinness of the veil, right now, today, tomorrow? Is there anything that we can do to share in that thinness?

Q’uo: We are aware of your query, my sister. Certainly, there is truth to your concept. It is indeed a time when the energies of the Earth and its inner planes are very transparent to the outer world. The idea of meditation is certainly a good one. We have difficulty imagining a situation in which we would say anything else than that about meditation! However, one item that is possible in order to connect with the energy of this time would be that which this instrument would call a solstice declaration. At the solstice, it is a very efficacious time to express those things which you wish to give to the dark: the greed, the world hunger, the illnesses of the world and so forth, all of those things which you may consider to be less that optimal. These can be named and given to the dark and the health of this action is in releasing those energies from the consciousness within your self. It is as though this is a good time to connect with the energies that this instrument knows of as Shiva the Destroyer, to hand those things to the Mother, as it were, that you wish to release from your self. “World hunger, I give it to the dark! War and the bestiality of war, I give it to the dark!” It is well to create more of a festive party atmosphere to this energy, so that those who take part in it may feel the joy of the release of these impressions.

May we answer you further, my sister?

J: No thank you, Q’uo, and happy winter solstice to you.

Q’uo: We thank you as well, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

As we seem to have exhausted the queries of this group, we shall take our leave of you, thanking each of you for taking precious time to sit in a circle of seeking and asking. We are with you, whenever you would ask us to be, to help you with your meditation or to be a presence that makes you feel safer. You have only to ask mentally, and we shall be with you. We leave each of you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo. Adonai my friends. Adonai.

This morning I discovered that the fountain on the fishpond had once again shot out of the fishpond, and the level of the fishpond was down about five inches although the fountain was barely running when I went out to check on it. I decided that I would leave it as it is now, with the pump turned off, and hope for warmer weather next week so that all the ice that is encompassing the motor and replace it with a new motor.

This afternoon I ran some errands with my first stop at AutoZone where I bought two containers of 50:1 2 cycle engine oil. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My third stop was at Walgreens’ Drug Store where I bought some Pepsi-Zero and some hair thickener.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 21

The Key

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

We who dwell in Love ask that this day be a day of forgiveness.

In each situation betwixt two entities there is the constant opportunity for miscommunication, misunderstanding, and hard feelings.

In every situation where one must wait in traffic or in your stores, there lie many, many opportunities for the forgiveness of rudeness in others and that same impulse in yourself.

Make this a day when there is nothing so terrible that it cannot be forgiven in your heart. Allow your heart to be made soft. For forgiveness, given again and again and again, is the key to the full realization of the Love of Christ.

We leave you in love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

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I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 16, 2003:

Q’uo, our question today concerns the eternal present moment. A human author urges us to access the power of now. He states that in the present, suffering cannot exist because suffering depends on time. We are told, time and time again, that time is an illusion. So, we would like to know what exactly is the “power of now”? How can we gain access to that power? How can we live more and more in the moment? How can we realize that we are creatures of the moment? What does the present moment look like to one that has discovered it? What results can be expected in a seeker who indeed has discovered the present moment?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we are happy to be and in Whose service we come to you today. We thank you so much for calling us to your circle of seeking by your desire to seek the truth. It is a great honor to us to be asked for our opinion and indeed it is our method of service at this time. So, it is a great help to us to be able to speak with you since that is our method of service to others. It is a very precious thing to us, and we shall do our best to share thoughts with you that will be helpful. However, in order for us to be able to speak freely, we would ask of you, as always, that each of you employ your discrimination very carefully in listening to those things which we have to suggest. For we are in every case not those of authority but those who are as you, students and seekers of the truth, of that great mystery. We do not know the mystery, but we seek it as do you, and we are glad to offer our notes from the road with the understanding that you will take only those things which are fair to you and leave behind without a second thought anything that does not sound just right. For truly each of you can recognize and resonate with your own personal truth.

You ask this evening concerning the present moment, the now, and how it may be discovered, recognized, entered, enjoyed, appreciated and, above all perhaps, how it may be learned from. In order to speak about this interesting subject, we would begin with some thoughts regarding time itself. The illusion of time is that which allows your experience to occur within your being. Without the illusion of time and space, without the structure that the Creator has builded for your particular body, mind, and spirit to dwell in, you would not be able to process catalyst into experience. You would indeed not have catalyst. You would simply be. This is in fact your true state. You are, period. It is not that you are a human or that you are a soul or that you are any quality or condition, you are a part of all that is. You are an Is-ness. It is very difficult for us to express this concept through words. But beneath all movement, you already and eternally are.

Sincethat sounds like such a delightful state, one wonders perhaps why the Creator would indeed create a house, such as the universe which you enjoy, which is nothing but an illusion, or a system of illusions that are interpenetrating. The reason is that about which we were speaking recently, that first distortion of Free Will. The Creator chose to know Itself. And in order to know Itself, It created, with Love and with Light, a creation in which entities could examine whatever of the material of their essence or Is-ness that they wished to examine, against a backdrop that seemed plausible and solid so that there would be a believable, self-correcting, consensus reality dream in which all of those within a planetary system, such as yours, could take part and help each other to learn more about that entity which all of you are or which each of you is. For, again this is difficult to say. While each of you is utterly unique, at the same time each of you is a part of one energy system which is the Creator. You are in the process of learning from your inner self with the help of your outer or other selves.

The world, then, may be seen as a dream, as a kingdom, or as a prison. But certainly, your physical world, though an illusion, is quite solid, quite substantial, and quite believable. Without time, you would not be able to have the experience of consecutivity. You would not be born, live, and die, rather you would exist in a being born, dying, and everything-in-between-state, all in a big soup. The desire of the Creator was that hope of becoming a fuller, more richly realized beingness. There was a dedication of the principle of Godhead to an examination of self, a celebration of self, and a learning about self.

Each of you, then, is a spark of that Creator Who has chosen at this time to come into this particular environment of what this instrument calls third density, to live in incarnation amongst others of your kind, being mirrors for others, to reflect to them that truth which they offer you, seeing the mirrors of others that reflect the truth of you back to yourself, and, through all of the mazes and mirrors, beginning to come to a competency of understanding regarding the nature of the illusion that allows you, as a spirit who is seeking the truth, to penetrate more and more that which is not of the essence of self, so that more and more, you are able to take life lightly, to remove from the self the feeling of prison and to replace that with the feeling of the dream or of the kingdom.

There are many ways to lose that feeling of being a slave to time or being imprisoned within time and space. We certainly recommend meditation, as always, but there are many ways to shake the trammels of the noon-day thoughts and chores and businesses in order to lift up from that mental narrowness of thought that does not remember who you are or why you are here. It is very easy to be caught up in the never-ending series of lists, as the one known as T1 was seeing; the doing of things on a daily basis, as the one known as Jim was saying to this instrument earlier, the never ending mountain of chores to be done and duties to be fulfilled. How easy it is to become completely convinced that these are the building blocks of a complete existence! Yet, in and of themselves, there is no real substance or meaning in these things. There is simply that structure which allows experience. Without further seeking, then, the world may seem a kind of prison where the sentence is life, and the eventual sentence is death. One cannot escape the life except by the door of death, and when one escapes by that door, as far as those remaining can see, that entity has become nothing, dust has returned to dust, and the cycle of life and death is completed.

The group question for this session was: “Q’uo, our question today concerns the eternal present moment. A human author urges us to access the power of now. He states that in the present, suffering cannot exist because suffering depends on time. We are told, time and time again, that time is an illusion. So, we would like to know what exactly is the “power of now”? How can we gain access to that power? How can we live more and more in the moment?” Q’uo began their reply by saying you ask this evening concerning the present moment, and how it may be discovered, entered, and how it may be learned from, and in order to speak about this interesting subject they began with some thoughts regarding the illusion of time as that which allows our experience to occur within our being because without the illusion of time and space, without the structure that the Creator has created for our particular body, mind, and spirit to dwell in, we would not be able to process catalyst into experience; we would not have catalyst; we would simply be, and this is our true state, but it is not that we are a soul, or that we are any quality because we are a part of all that is, and beneath all movement, we eternally are. Q’uo went on to say that since that sounds like such a delightful state, why did the Creator create the universe which we enjoy which is nothing but a system of illusions that are interpenetrating, and Q’uo said the reason was the first distortion of Free Will where the Creator chose to know Itself, and in order to know Itself, It created, with Love and Light, a creation in which we could examine whatever of the material of essence that we wished to examine within an environment that seemed solid so that there would be a believable consensus reality dream in which all of those within a planetary system could take part and help each other to learn more about that entity which each of us is because while each of us is utterly unique, at the same time each of us is a part of one energy system which is the Creator, and we are in the process of learning from our inner self with the help of our outer or other selves. Q’uo continued by saying that the world may be seen as a dream, as a kingdom, or as a prison, but our physical world, though an illusion, is quite solid and quite believable, but without time, we would not be able to have the experience of moving in time since we would not be born, live, and die, rather we would exist in being born, dying, and in an everything-in-between-state, all in a big soup so that the desire of the Creator was that hope of becoming a more richly realized beingness since the Creator was dedicated to an examination of Itself, a celebration of Itself, and a learning about Itself. Then Q’uo said each of us is a spark of that Creator Who has chosen  to come into this environment of third density and to live in incarnation among others of our kind, being mirrors for each other and reflect to them that truth which they offer us, seeing the mirrors of others that reflect the truth of us back to ourself, and through all of the mirrors, beginning to come to an understanding the nature of the illusion that allows us, as a spirit who is seeking the truth, to penetrate more and more that which is not of the essence of ourself so that we are able to take life lightly and to remove from ourself the feeling of prison and to replace that with the feeling of the kingdom. Now Q’uo said that there are many ways to lose that feeling of being imprisoned within time and space, and they recommended meditation, but there are many ways to shake the restrictions of the thoughts and chores in order to move ourselves from that mental narrowness of thought that does not remember who we are or why we are here because it is easy to be caught up in the never-ending series of lists of chores to be done, and it is easy to become convinced that these are the building blocks of our complete existence, yet there is no real meaning in these things so that there is simply that structure which allows experience, and without further seeking the world may seem a kind of prison where the sentence is life, and the eventual sentence is death, and we cannot escape the life except by the door of death, and when we escape by that door, as far as those remaining can see, we have become nothing; dust has returned to dust; and the cycle of life and death is completed. On March 25, 1989, Latwii spoke of the nature of the door of death:

For the most part, the reason that there is so little of communication between those who have moved through the door of death and those who remain within the conscious incarnation is that there is little, if any, attempt made by those remaining incarnate to communicate with those who have moved into what you would call the discarnate or state of consciousness on the other side of the door of death. There is little belief amongst the majority of your peoples that such communication is either possible or advisable if it is possible, for that which is unknown amongst your peoples is feared to a large extent, and it is much more comfortable to most of your peoples to allow that which is unknown and that which is feared to remain untested and to not set foot within such mysterious fields, shall we say.

Another reason why there is little communication betwixt these two groups of your peoples is that, for the most part, those who have moved through the door of death have within their being a feeling of completion for the incarnation which has just ended and have a great feeling of the desire to explore that which is obviously awaiting them on their own journey of seeking, so that there is little desire to move back, shall we say, to that illusion which they have so recently left.

And so, for the first cycle of seeking, shall we say, there is that tendency for the new seeker to begin to feel that life is a dream. There is that realization that these seemingly solid building blocks of chores, and days, and seasons are not substantial. And there is a tremendous feeling of relief and freedom of the lifting up from having to take the work time, the chore time, the time of duties, too seriously. Within one of your philosophical distortions there is that phrase, “First there is a mountain, then there is no mountain, then there is.” The time of experiencing life as a dream within a dream is that time when there is no mountain. It is a time when sudden realizations and new information may create tremendous excitement within the self and a time when the dark night of the soul can plunge one into the abyss of the deepest sorrow and grief, and yet always with the feeling that one is actually a spirit rather than a body, and that one is experiencing a dream and that nothing is terribly important. It is a precious time in many ways and much good comes from the seeking that is done during this time.

Beyond that time, there comes a time of reintegration, the dream and prison coming together to form a new picture, which is that of the kingdom, a realm, a magical place. We find that this is where many of you within this circle are attempting to live at this time and we commend you for having moved along the path of seeking, through so many bends, and curves, and difficulties in the road, that your spiritual maturity has begun to allow you to see the riches of the illusion, the tremendous richness of the environment that has been provided for this school of life that you experience during incarnation. It is a time when the bitterness begins to dissolve. There is no longer anger at having to work for a living, or feed the body, or cleanse the body, or take of the environment that one has chosen.

The prison doors open because there is freedom to see the blessing of everything. There is no need to justify suffering and duty and all of the unpleasantness of life because it is finally seen not as that which limits and narrows the light, not as that which may be attended to but not taken seriously, but that which has been given as a tremendous gift, each gift, each moment coming fresh from the Creator. That is the time of kingdom. That is the time of jubilee. And it is truly the first place, shall we say, within the mind from which a point of view may be taken that has great depth, so that you may survive those realizations which shall come when you have become unafraid of the prison and unafraid of the dream.

Most entities among your peoples live a kind of inner life that we would describe as horizontal. The world of things spreads out like the skyline, full of detail. And it is that within which one lives. One drives the streets, one walks the sidewalks, one moves horizontally along the face of the planet. To all illusory intents and purposes, it is a flat existence. If that horizontal life were called the x-axis, then the world of spirit could be seen as the y-axis, the vertical life. Imagine standing upon the ground, seeing with the physical eyes that it extends flat in each direction, horizontally as far as the eye can see. The feet meet the ground in just so and so a place. There is contact between the soles of the feet and the ground. And that thin meeting place represents the depth of reality. But imagine suddenly realizing that precisely where the sole of the foot meets the ground there is an infinite opening, upwards and downwards; upwards into the world of ideals, guidance, Godhead; downward into the ground of being. It is as though chasms open beneath you and above you, and suddenly you are not standing upon a thin slab of ground but upon the razor’s edge, in intersection with eternity and infinity. This is in fact, your situation. You are in the position of being able to live both a life in space/time, the horizontal life, and a life in time/space, the vertical life, simultaneously.

Then Q’uo said for the first cycle of seeking there is a tendency for the new seeker to feel that life is a dream and the realization that these building blocks of chores, days, and seasons are not substantial, and we have a feeling of relief and freedom of the lifting up from having to take the time of duties too seriously so that the time of our experiencing life as a dream within a dream is that time when there are no chores or duties, and it is a time when sudden realizations may create excitement within ourself, and a time when the dark night of the soul can plunge us into the abyss of sorrow and grief, and yet always with the feeling that we are actually a spirit rather than a body; we are experiencing a dream; that nothing is terribly important, so it is a precious time, and much good comes from our seeking that is done during this time. Q’uo went on to say that beyond that time, there comes a time of reintegration of the dream and prison coming together to form a new picture which is that of the magical place, and this is where many of us are attempting to live at this time, and Q’uo commended us for having moved along the path of seeking through so many difficulties on the road so that our spiritual maturity allows us to see the riches of the illusion that has been provided for this school of life that we experience during our incarnation, and it is a time where there is no longer anger at having to work for a living, or feed the body, or cleanse the body. Q’uo continued by saying that the prison doors open because there is freedom to see the blessing of everything, and there is no need to justify suffering and duty because we finally see–not as that which limits and narrows the light– but that which has been given to us as a gift which is each moment coming fresh from the Creator so that is the time of jubilee, and it is truly the first place within our mind from which a point of view may be taken that has great depth so that we may survive those realizations which shall come when we have become unafraid of the prison and unafraid of the dream. Now Q’uo said most entities live a kind of inner life that we would describe as horizontal so that we drive the streets; we walk the sidewalks; and we move horizontally along the face of the planet which seems like a flat existence, but if that horizontal life were called the x-axis, then the world of spirit could be seen as the y-axis, the vertical life, and if we could imagine standing upon the ground and seeing with our physical eyes that it extends flat in each direction, and our feet meet the ground beneath them there is contact between the soles of our feet and the ground so that thin meeting place represents the depth of reality, but if we could imagine suddenly realizing that where the sole of our foot meets the ground: “there is an infinite opening, upwards and downwards; upwards into the world of ideals, guidance, Godhead; downward into the ground of being. It is as though chasms open beneath you and above you, and suddenly you are not standing upon a thin slab of ground but upon the razor’s edge, in intersection with eternity and infinity.”Q’uo said this is our situation, and we are in the position of being able to live both a life in space/time, the horizontal life, and a life in time/space, the vertical life, simultaneously. On November 5, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the horizontal life:

The practice of this yielding, this tabernacling with the one infinite Creator, the immediacy of this presence, when carried on persistently, patiently, and with no dedication to outcome over a period of time begins to set within one a growing awareness of infinity. For as you meditate and listen, you are lost in the present moment. And this present moment is instinct with joy. The present moment is infinity. It is as though one were at the intersection of time and eternity at each present moment. The difficulties people experience are due to living the horizontal life without being aware of the resonances of the vertical life which is moving infinitely within one at all times.

You see, it is so tempting to think of oneself as the physical vehicle which you may see in one of your mirrors. It is so tempting to give oneself characteristics and qualities based upon various parts of one’s physical appearance, emotional makeup, and so forth. It is very, very easy to become entwined with many, many intellectual thoughts which always end in mystery and paradox.

Wemight say that the ability to remember this image, the ability to remember that which is unseen, that which opens to the Creator and to the essential self, is a measure of how well you are doing with the simple act of remembrance that is the key in many ways to progressing in spiritual, mental, and physical evolution of self. How to remember that what you see is not all that you get? How to remember the intersection with wonder and magic and infinite possibility? This instrument pursues a daily and weekly spiritual or religious program which includes group worship within that distortion of spirituality called Christian. This is one way in which she attempts to be a creature of remembrance. There are many ways to be remembering who you are and why you’re here. That is one way, the simple act of setting aside time, such as you have this day, to seek together. No matter how the meditation goes, no matter how you feel that you have been as a part of a seeking circle, the intention, the dedication of time, are the things that create the feeling of remembering and honoring the portion of yourself that is living that vertical life. In moments such as this, as you allow the energy to move around the circle, we feel sure that each of you has that riveted feeling of opening to the infinite possibilities of the moment.

But there are, as the one known as T2 said, so many different ways of coming into a state of remembrance. Each of you has five senses in the physical. The example that the one known T2 gave of washing the hands and becoming aware of each characteristic and nuance of feeling in that experience operates on the principle of using the gifts that are given to you. Each sense is evocative. Each sensibility may be triggered, tuned, and even transformed by choosing to be alert, to be watchful, to be attentive, to pay attention to the little things. This instrument is fond of saying, the smaller the thing, the more common and everyday, the more sacred it seems to her. And while we find everything equally sacred, we understand what this instrument is attempting to express. Consider that act of washing the hands, of emptying the bowels, and rising from that natural function to wash the hands and to go forth to meet the day. It must be done every day, perhaps more than once but certainly in the morning. For each of you this is a life sentence of natural function that must be attended to for the sake of the body. But that is a heavy energy, that is a grudging life when one “has” to perform natural functions.

However, if one enters into those natural functions, and the natural ways of cleanliness, and preparing for the day with every sense awake, each humble, necessary chore can become a symbol, in the physical, of processes which are moving on within the inner being, processes that move from nuance to nuance and half tone to half tint. And the ability to enter into the joy of removing the old from the system and clearing it for the day and then rising and washing the hands and blessing that event, experiencing that magical flow of water as it cleanses, experiencing all the feelings that are attendant upon the cleansing: the pleasant smell, the texture of soap, the texture of the towel; attending to each of these to see the beauty in them, softens and gentles the harsh edges of necessity into things of unutterable beauty. And as each tiny thing begins to become open to that view, the sacredness of things emerges and lifts one up into the glory of the illusion of incarnation. Each moment is a bounty, a feast, a banquet; it is brimming with information; it is whole and perfect and one. The only way to come into that sense of consciousness is to learn the attentiveness to the sacredness of everyday things.

Within a sacred space, with altars and pews and vaulted ceilings and stained glass windows, it is easy to feel that one is in a sacred place. Yet every child of dust within the illusion of earth stands on holy ground, whether they are starving or fed, whether they are cold or clothed, whether they are sick or healthy. No matter what state or condition they may be in they stand upon holy ground, and they themselves are holy. And you, child of dust, also are infinitely, ineffably, holy. You are a sacred essence of the divine. How may one begin to experience this point of view? In some ways it becomes a matter of sheer discipline. There is a certain amount of what this instrument would call struggle involved in training the mind to come into a state of remembrance. There is much help which is available to those who wish to become present.

Now Q’uo said that our ability to remember this image is that which opens us to the Creator and to our essential self, and is a measure of how well we are doing with the act of remembrance that is the key to progressing in spiritual, mental, and physical evolution of ourself, and the way to remember the intersection with wonder, and magic, and infinite possibility is the simple act of setting aside time to seek together in meditation, and no matter how we feel that we have been as a part of a seeking circle, the intention and the dedication of time are the things that create the feeling of remembering and honoring the portion of ourself that is living the vertical life, and as we allow the energy to move around the circle each of us has that feeling of opening to the infinite possibilities of the moment. Q’uo went on to say that there are many different ways of coming into a state of remembrance, and each of us has five physical senses that may be triggered and transformed by choosing to pay attention to the little things such as the act of emptying our bowels, and washing our hands as we go forth to meet the day, and we need to do this every day because for each of us this is a natural function that must be attended to for the sake of our body, but that is a heavy energy when we perform these natural functions. Q’uo continued by saying that when we enter into those natural functions and are preparing for the day with all of our senses awake each humble chore can become a physical symbol of processes which are moving on within our inner being so that our ability to enter into the joy of removing the old from the system and clearing it for the day: “and then rising and washing the hands and blessing that event, experiencing that magical flow of water as it cleanses, experiencing all the feelings that are attendant upon the cleansing: the pleasant smell, the texture of soap, the texture of the towel; attending to each of these to see the beauty in them, softens and gentles the harsh edges of necessity into things of unutterable beauty.” Then Q’uo said that as each tiny thing that we do begins to become open to this perspective that the sacredness of things emerges and lifts us up into the glory of the illusion of incarnation so that each moment is a feast full of information that is whole and perfect, and the only way for us to come into that sense of consciousness is to practice the attentiveness to the sacredness of everyday things. Now Q’uo said that within a sacred space of a beautiful church it is easy to feel that we are in a sacred place, yet every child within the illusion of earth stands on holy ground no matter what condition they are in; they are also holy; we are a sacred essence of the divine; and we can begin to experience this point of view by exercising discipline in training our mind to remember these truths, and there is much help to into the present moment. On January 15, 1995, Hatonn spoke of the nature of holy ground:

We suggest that each encourage those thoughts which refrain from judgment and discourage the self in its desires to castigate and rebuke the self for its shallowness, its lack of appropriate awareness of the present moment. This we say in order that those many times when the self is perceived as being out of harmony with eternity, that the judgment will be not chosen, but rather a shrug, a laugh at the human condition, and a turning once more to thanksgiving and naked praise for the infinite One which fills the days, the moments, the years, and the life with such beauty that it is beyond description.

Now having said this, we do encourage each student to muse often within that sacred tabernacle within, to sit mentally and emotionally down within that holy ground of being, where lies truth and eternal things; to sit with bare attention, knowing that silence which speaks of the mighty presence that is both Creator, creation, and created. For these are moments out of time, out of space, and rather eternal and infinite. These moments of practicing the presence of the Creator may be keyed according to your individual needs and circumstances.

And it is indeed a noble task to set for the self, to become present. It is not that one wishes to be without a context. We do not call you away from the world, we do not look down upon any part of the life lived by the ordinary human being. We do not suggest the need for retreat and alteration of the outer circumstances. Certainly, times of quiet, such as the one as T1 has described, are extraordinarily helpful. When there is the sabbatical there is the opportunity to take stock, to express the self as a seeking entity rather than as one who must attend to the ordinary challenges of making a living and coping with the financial side of life. And yet life for the most part is lived in the hurly-burly, in the spotlight of the passion play, as the scenes upon the stage revolve.

We give this instrument a view of a complete lack of location. Picture, if you would, the sensation of weightlessness, of lack of input into any of the senses. Lifted from the constant contact with the senses, one is left within a kingdom which is within. Within that inner kingdom of self lies the truth and a great deal of distortion. Where did this distortion come from? An entity is born into incarnation with certain preconceived distortions already. Each of you has chosen a personality shell that is rich in gifts and in challenges. Each of you has scripted for yourself incarnational lessons which will occur thematically, repeatedly, during the incarnation, teaching you the lessons that you have chosen and offering you the opportunities of service which you have hoped for. In this inner life no mirrors exist, and it is exponentially more difficult to see the self clearly than when one is receiving information from the mirrors around one.

So, while we value time spent in a completely inner search, we feel that the more efficient path, in terms of the rapidness with which evolution may occur, is an environment in which the inner life and the outer life marry. Rather than fighting and dividing inner life from outer life and struggling to get more inner life, we would suggest every way which you may think of personally to stamp the outer with the inner and to relate the inner into the outer, making every connection that you can, so that all of experience becomes one, and the physical and the metaphysical become a dance for two that carries both the male and the female aspect of living within one consciousness.

Bymale and female aspects of living, we are, in our distortion, suggesting that the outer or horizontal life is masculine, or “yang” as this instrument would say, in its activity, its reaching, its power to do, whereas that inner vertical life is as the potentiator, that which awaits the reaching, that which does not have the form but which is productive of all form, that which may be called guidance, or inspiration, or infinity, or eternity. To allow the infinite and the eternal to become a part of the passing scene and to allow the passing scene to become stamped with infinity and eternity is to make that marriage within the life of those aspects which otherwise might fight for dominance. We assure you it is not at all easy to do this. It is much easier to compartmentalize and to do the spiritual practice, and to move into the daily mode, and then back into a spiritual practice, and back into the daily mode. Yet we may say the fewer transitions that you must choose to make, the more often that you are able to blend the inner and the outer being, the more substantial will be your stance, and your point of view will benefit from this unification of inner and outer living. What is the essence of you? That is the question, you see, and the answer is so simple. You are. You are not creating yourself; you are simply discovering the self that is there. You do not choose from nothing; you came into this incarnation a very real citizen of eternity. You are simply peeling away layers of distortion to see yourself clearer and clearer, to have a deeper and deeper sense of your own essence. It is a fascinating journey and we are so glad to have you as companions upon it.

Q’uo said that it is indeed a noble task to set for ourself to become present, and it is not that we wish to be without a context for our life, and they said that they do not call us away from the world, or look down upon any part of our life as we live as ordinary human beings, so there is not the need to alter our outer circumstances because times of quiet are very helpful so that when we have time off we have the opportunity to express ourself as a seeking entity rather than as one who continues to make a living and earn money, and yet most of our life is lived in the in the spotlight of the passion play as the scenes upon the stage revolve. Q’uo went on to say that we should imagine being weightless, with no input into any of our senses, and as we lose constant contact with our senses, we are left within a kingdom which is within us, and within that inner kingdom of ourself lies the truth and a great deal of distortion from our personality shell having chosen distortions in the form of gifts and challenges because each of us has written lessons for ourself that will occur repeatedly during our incarnation and will teach us lessons that we have chosen, and giving us chances for service which we hoped for, and in this inner life there are no mirrors, and it is very difficult to see ourself clearly when we are receiving information from the mirrors around us. Q’uo continued by saying that it is valuable for us to spend time in an inner search as it is the more efficient path in terms of the rapidness with which evolution may occur because it is an environment in which our inner life and our outer life marry rather than fighting and dividing our inner life from our outer life, and struggling to get more inner life, so Q’uo suggested that we make every connection that we can so that all of the experience of our inner and outer life becomes one, and the physical and the metaphysical become a dance for two that carries both the male and the female aspect of our living within one consciousness. Now Q’uo said that by male and female aspects of living, they were suggesting that the horizontal life is masculine in its reaching and its power to do, whereas that inner vertical life is as the potentiator which awaits the reaching, and does not have form, but which is productive of all form, and that which may be called guidance or infinity, and to allow the infinite to become a part of the passing scene and to allow the passing scene to become stamped with infinity is to make that marriage within the life of those aspects which otherwise might fight for dominance so that Q’uo assured us that it is not easy to do this: “because it is much easier to compartmentalize and to do the spiritual practice, and to move into the daily mode, and then back into a spiritual practice, and back into the daily mode.” Then Q’uo said that the fewer transitions that we must choose to make, the more often that we are able to blend the inner and the outer being, the more substantial will be our stance, and our point of view will benefit from this unification of inner and outer living, and our essence is that we are, but we are not creating ourself; we are simply discovering that ourself is there; we do not choose from nothing; we came into this incarnation as a very real citizen of eternity, and we are simply peeling away layers of distortion to see ourself more clearly, and to have a deeper sense of our essence, and it is a fascinating journey, and Q’uo was so glad to have us as companions upon it. On January 15, 2006, Q’uo described what it is for us to be a citizen of eternity:

It is possible for an unexamined, confused situation to crush you so that you have almost no hope, no power to go on, and so forth. It is also possible with that same situation to do what little you can in your mind at any given time to remember who you are and take back your power from that which is crushing you. It does not matter when you are taking back your power whether or not you have the ability to affect the physical situation at that moment. Taking back your power as a soul or spirit is involved in remembering that you are not limited by life and death: you are a citizen of eternity. You are a Creator, and you have a creation that you can populate with the ideals and the beauties that you love. You can forgive the people or the situations that are crushing you.

The power to forgive is tremendous. You have the power to declare that a situation is as you see it and not as the world sees it. And by serenely sticking to your story, you can save your mind, your emotions, and your heart from undergoing the crushing action of physical circumstance. This is not something that the world can understand easily. It is something for you to take within yourself and with which you can experiment.

We would ask you to experiment with taking your power back whenever you feel helpless and hopeless. Remember who you are and why you’re here. Take courage and feel the dignity of your reality. You did not come here for casual purposes. You came here as a sacred journey, and you are doing very well with it. Take pride in yourself. Have faith in your process. And know that your guidance is closer than your hands and feet and nearer to you than your next breath.

This instrument is informing us that we have spoken long enough upon this most fascinating subject, and we bow to her wisdom. We confess that in this particular case we could go on talking for quite a while, for this is a beautiful subject, and we thank you for asking about it. But at this time we do relinquish this subject and ask if there may be other queries that we may respond to at this time?

V: Q’uo, you’ve spoken before about the use of the imagination to discipline rogue energies in the personality, and I wonder if you would expound on that some, and specifically with regard to affirmations and why it would be so necessary to state affirmations aloud or write them down to externalize them in some form in order to make manifestation possible?

We are those of Q’uo ,and we grasp your query, my sister. Perhaps you are aware of the kind of personality which thinks repeatedly about doing something but does not do it. All the thinking in the world is not productive, in terms of creating something in the consensus-reality universe, without action. In the case of making affirmations, the disciplined soul may well be able to make affirmations within the mind without writing them down and having them become “real” things; such is the power of the disciplined personality. However, for the soul who is attempting to become more disciplined, it is well to marry, again to use that simile, the inner intention with the outer fact, to make from the inner dream the outer reality. The act of writing on paper or speaking into the ether where sound may be heard is the act of putting inner vibration into the outer vibration and blending, or marrying, the two. You are aware, my sister, of the old adage, “As above, so below.” The idea of externalizing these affirmations is the idea of bringing them into reality. It is an interesting thing that it is easier to believe in the self when one can see the words that one has written and when one can repeat them and hear the sound.

May we answer you further, my sister?

V: Yes. Actually, I would like to ask about the discipline of the personality and a thought that I had the other day regarding what my mother used to say to me which was, “Guard your tongue.” It occurred to me that, in fact, what the discipline is about is guarding the thoughts and creating the truth within you that says, “I see the beauty, I see the perfection,” rather than looking at it and seeing the cynicism and only expressing the beauty. Could you illuminate that for me?

Q’uo: My sister, we feel that you have illuminated it very well. The only thing that we could add is an encouragement to play with this awareness that you are a creator, a co-Creator and that, as you think, as you actually begin to train yourself to think, you do not narrow that which you comprehend. You are as able to see the thoughts of cynicism, sarcasm, anger ,and so forth as you were before, perhaps more able. What you are doing as you use the discipline is shaping your heart or— we correct this instrument—shaping your mind to be able to contain the thoughts of the heart, rather than simply the thoughts of the mind. It is not incorrect, we feel, to be aware of the ridiculousness, the sorry-ness, or the wretchedness of any particular situation. It is not wrong to have sarcastic thoughts or to react naturally, and fervently even, to those things which make one uncomfortable or create catalyst.

The heart, however, thinks substantially differently from the mind, the thoughts of the heart coming from that vertical part of living, that time/space or metaphysical portion where the thoughts are the thoughts beyond incarnation, beyond circumstance or estate. Those thoughts are the thoughts of the infinite being that you are. They are the thoughts of the consciousness within, and that consciousness is safe within your heart. It is a matter of opening your own doors into that heart, sitting there and gazing from that heart out into the world. One still may have all of the inner opportunities for making the self laugh to the self with cynical thoughts, such as this instrument does as a hobby, we should say! But allowing the shape of the heart’s thoughts to be the shape of the thought as it evolves in the awareness of the inner self gives one grace, and distance, and remembrance of who you are, so that your expression, even to the self, is a kinder and gentler thing. And certainly, the expression to the outer world carries with it that maturity of thought that keeps that heart open and does not consider the imperfection of things as a reason to lose faith or to become embittered.

May we answer you further, my sister?

V: If you are so inclined, I would love for you to answer further but I don’t have a further query so I’ll pass it to T1.

T1: I’ve been reading a lot of the material channeled by the Seth entity and one of the constructs that is causing some confusion in myself is that of probable realities. The choice. Seth indicates that in each decision in this incarnation there are infinite other versions of the illusion in which other decisions were made. The teachings of the Confederation state that the aim of third density is the choice of service-to-others or service-to-self. Which choice one has made is due to one’s polarity. Taking these two together, probable realities and choice, it seems that the choice is made separately and differently by each probable self projected by the soul. Perhaps I’m just wrapping myself up in constructs here and becoming confused but is there a way which Q’uo perhaps could untangle some of my thought processes there?

We are those of Q’uo and aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, we do not know if we are able to untangle your thoughts but we are glad to share ours with you and in their own tangle, my brother. The self is a concept which understandably within humans is limited and defined by the shape of the physical body and the inevitable flowing forward of sequential time. At each decision point, at each fork in the road, the choice of which fork to take obviously creates a different probable reality than the one that would occur if the other fork in the road were taken. However, perhaps it may clear this up for you a bit to contemplate that whichever fork in the road that one takes one is still equipped with the same incarnational lessons, the same things upon the scroll of life, that will come up repeatedly, so that it is impossible to avoid one’s plan. Certainly, one may see that there are widely divergent paths and the tuning song that this group enjoyed this day asks that question, “Is there any other way I could have lived but this one? Is there anybody else I could have been?” Certainly there are other choices that could have been made, but would the person that made those choices have turned out differently, or would those same choices have appeared no matter what road was taken?

In the physical life you walk down paths and turn corners and there is a new place. Turn another corner and there is another new place. Living the vertical life of which we have been speaking, the path is a spiral weaving always around and always anew; not the circle that becomes old, for every time that these themes come around again you are approaching them from a new standpoint, from a new place in your process, a new state of realization.

May we answer you further, my brother?

T1: No, thank you Q’uo. I think I need to read through and think about the explanation that you offered, thank you.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

G: Q’uo, you have often described the process of coming into that relationship with that self, that undiscovered self beyond the personality, of accessing those deep stores of self-knowledge, as a process of “courting” the subconscious mind. My question is: how does one go about, as you say, “wooing” that lover, and courting the subconscious in order to retrieve that needed information and to create that authentic contact with love and with light and with the Creator?

We are those of Q’uo and are aware of your query, my brother. Each lover must woo in its own way. Let us consider the object of love here. That object of seeking is the self within. It awaits the reaching in the archetypical manner of the Matrix and the Potentiator. The self within is as the unread book, the unknown mystery. In the archetypical tarot images, that is pictured as the woman who is veiled. One can barely see the book of wisdom that she holds at her heart. You are attempting to lift the veil from that book of self. How would you court that self within? We have at times suggested to you to think of that not as courting but as parenting, as if the self within were a child that needed comforting so that you take that self within and rock it and ask it what it needs, what its dreams are, what its hopes are, and then spend time listening to that self.

The ways of courtship are slow and sweet; they are full of passion and yet full of restraint, for the object of love is sensitive, young, inexperienced. And certainly, as an essence, living within consensus reality, your hearts are indeed innocent babes in a wicked world. So there are the hints that we give you. It is not seeking as a man seeks a woman, and yet it is, in that there is passion, there is true love, and there is the hope of serving.

Find the ways that your own inner self wishes to express itself. Is it walking in nature? Is it filling your mind with great music or great words? Is it the act of service? We find within this instrument’s mind an example from earlier this day as she was speaking with the one known as Jim and he was expressing to her how he feels grateful for the opportunity to cut and trim the lawn of the client so that he creates a place of beauty and as he leaves, he looks back over his shoulder with great affection and pride because he has loved that place and danced with the love that is in that place. Perhaps that undiscovered country within you is a place that you may love and that you may dance with and in.

May we answer you further, my brother?

G: No, that was beautiful, thank you Q’uo.

Q’uo: We thank you, my brother. Is there a final query at this time?

G: Q’uo, I’ll take the opportunity if no one else does. I have an e-mail that has the potential to create great change sitting in the pending file and I know you can’t offer me advice on right or wrong, because there is no wrong, no mistakes, but could you help, give me some info, offer me some advice on what I might consider before I send it and what it might do to the energy configurations between me and this distant person?

Q’uo: My brother, we are aware of your query and find ourselves full up against the stop of free will. We can give this instrument the image of one of her favorite sayings from the Psalms concerning the entity whom everyone thought was a fool until he opened his mouth and removed all doubt. Every word spoken changes the shape of your world. Look at each word for its truth, its compassion, and its service.

We are those of Q’uo. It has been enormously pleasureful to us to speak to you. We find the beauty of your seeking most delightful and we thank each of you for that beauty that you share with us so freely. The energy exchange has been most salubrious for us. We leave you in peace. We leave you empowered with hope, with the awareness of your own magical natures. We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator and of each other. We are those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends, Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the snow that we got overnight off of the driveway and the two parking areas, one in front of my home, and one in front of the pet cemetery.

This afternoon I went to my PCP to have my physical exam and discuss my fasting labs that were taken last week. All the readings were good, and my A1C reading went down from 6.0 to 5.9 so my pre-diabetes diagnosis is also better.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

February 21

The Key

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

We who dwell in love ask that this day be a day of forgiveness.

In each situation betwixt two entities there is the constant opportunity for miscommunication, misunderstanding, and hard feelings.

In every situation where one must wait in traffic or in your stores, there lie many, many opportunities for the forgiveness of rudeness in others and that same impulse in yourself.

Make this a day when there is nothing so terrible that it cannot be forgiven in your heart. Allow your heart to be made soft. For forgiveness, given again, and again, and again is the key to the full realization of the Love of Christ.

We leave you in love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.