The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Qu’o quote comes from November 7, 1999;

Our question this week has to do with being able to live in the moment. How can we live in the moment more consistently? Can we ask for assistance from our higher selves to help us to live in the moment? What are the advantages of living in the moment?

(Carla channeling)

[A recording problem rendered portions of this recording inaudible.]

[inaudible]. We ask that as we offer these thoughts and opinions that each that hears them submits them to the inner knowing and discernment that each has in abundance. For not everything that we have to offer may aid everyone equally and we would not wish to constitute a stumbling block. So, we feel free to speak [inaudible].

That mindfulness and remembrance is so effortless to muscle and bone, to bloom and bud and to all second-density, but which so escapes third density mentality. If you will cast your mind upon the world of nature you may quickly see how single-mindedly the flower, the tree, the bush [inaudible]. Breathing in and out of each other’s lives, the textures and colors and pigment as the leaf turns towards the sun and the hunger and appetite of the animal kingdom brings them to interact with each other in absolute mindfulness. The animal and the plant are held gently, safely and completely in the hand of the Creator. The ways of each species provide a seamless garment in which each movement of each part of nature is interwoven to create the tapestry that the eye of the third-density human falls upon and does not see, for who can see into the magnificence of such perfect orchestration of all beings moving in rhythm and harmony?

And yet second-density is not the density that is the highest. Rather, the third density, with its seeming lapses into unmindfulness and unawareness, is actually that giant step forward that those who are chauvinistic about the human race have been proclaiming for years. And, indeed, the human race is a noble and strong race of entities. Third density has its marvels and miracles, and we would not want you to feel that you have lost something by moving from second density to third, for you have not lost that ability to be a perfect part of a perfect creation. It has simply gone underground in your mind. But every cell of your body knows what it is, where it is, and who it is. Every iota of your being at the cellular level is mindful and knows its source.

And so, perhaps, we would begin this consideration by recommending to each the continuing dedication to reentering the body, seeing that body as one of perfect health and perfect rhythm, feeling within the self, within the muscle and bone the rightness of this precise manifestation at this precise time. For each of you has a niche in the harmonics of the Earth plane. Each of you is essential to that overall balance of energies which the planet itself vibrates in. You may trust your bodies in their rhythms, in their cycles, and it is very, very good to remind the self, when you catch yourself being disrespectful to your own body and the wisdom of your own body, that it actually knows a great deal more than the mind of the human, that the heart and every cell of that body, which may seem at times nothing but a mechanical physical vehicle, to revisualize and to understand that body as a perfect and graceful body, one that is beautiful in its own way, one that has great wisdom in and of its own.   constitutes a tremendous resource for the mindful person. For in exercising that physical vehicle, in walking among things of nature and working within the realm of nature, these activities tune and harmonize your body with all of the bodies of plant and animal with which it comes in contact. For a walk is not simply putting one foot in front of the other. A walk is also a recapturing of the perfection of the being that you are. Indeed, it is well to think of yourself as a dancer through life, for each of you dances or walks, is graceful or isn’t, and these infinitesimal changes in the way you think about yourself and the way you think about the body can, indeed, bring you to more mindfulness as you revisualize yourself in perfection, in harmony, and in unity.

When the life force of a human is new the animalness of the human is ascendant and the infant is always in the present moment. For it is largely unawakened to the Earth plane, and, for the most part, as it moves into the Earth plane it is the physical vehicle that is a perfect and energetic body. As the young child begins to gain the concept of itself as a being apart from the rest of the universe that spontaneous position of the self in the moment becomes more and more tenuous until often by the time a child has entered school the self-consciousness of the human has become entirely ascendant, and the young soul is already concerning itself with the past and the future, plans that have gone wrong and plans that have not yet come to fruition. And the march to ever less mindfulness has begun.

The group question for this session was: ‘’Our question this week has to do with being able to live in the moment. How can we live in the moment more consistently? Can we ask for assistance from our higher selves to help us to live in the moment? What are the advantages of living in the moment?’’ Q’uo began their reply by saying that all of the second density plants and animals interact with each other in complete mindfulness and move in rhythm and harmony within the hand of the Creator. Q’uo went on to say that in the third density there are many marvelous experiences, and there are movements away from mindfulness, but we are still a perfect part of a perfect creation, and every part of our being is mindful and knows its source. Then Q’uo suggested that we reacquaint ourselves with our body because it knows far more than the human mind and has its own perfection and grace, and it can become a wonderful resource for the mindful person, so we should harmonize our bodies with the plant and animal worlds by taking walks in nature that help us to recapture the being that we are as we move in harmony and unity with all that is. Q’uo continued by saying that as the human infant is born into the world its animal nature is always in the present moment, but as the infant grows more into self-consciousness it begins to think of the past and the future, and it becomes less mindful as time goes on. On March 18, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the value of mindfulness:

It is well to remain mindful, as you have put it, during your diurnal cycles, of the one Creator and one’s seeking of the Creator, for your illusion is one which is designed to give experiences that move one in and out of the presence or the mindfulness of the one Creator, for when one seems to move away from this mindfulness, there is created within that likened unto the vacuum which pulls the consciousness back again to the seeking, to the questioning, to the asking. Then that which is learned by such questing again allows one to move outward, as it were, only to return again, and again, in what is an upward spiraling path of energy expenditure. Each entity must needs create the pattern for this spiral. That which you create has significance in your journey as it comes from your desires, rather than being imposed by any outside source such as ourselves, beyond the general recommendation that periodic rituals of remembrance, shall we say, are helpful in each entity’s journey.

It is typical of the training that the culture offers to the individual that the spontaneous and rhythmic harmonization of the self with all will be systematically and thoroughly interrupted, for it is not useful for society to have a tribe of completely mindful and aware beings. Rather, what is the easiest block of entities to govern turns out actually to be those who have turned their concept of themselves over to the orthodox ways of thinking and then have begun to measure themselves by those yardsticks that the culture and the society puts forth. As each becomes a so-called adult, each more or less finds itself necessarily moving into those areas of work and employment and the chores of living that constitute keeping body and soul together for those within third density.

In the culture in which you now enjoy living the hope is not that the entities will be mindful, but, rather, that they will be mind-persuaded in the ways in which the culture wishes its citizens to think, behave, and move. As far as an unawakened spirit can tell, what is required of it is that it get a job, pay for the privilege of having space in which to live and food to eat. This economic concern, namely, that each citizen will take care of itself and its dependents, ranks far above any consideration in terms of public policy of the spiritual evolution of its citizens. Naturally, this not being the obvious concern of governmental or cultural entities this has never, for the most part, been questioned. No one expects the government or the culture to require mindfulness of its citizens.

However, we would say more than this. In order to become a citizen of eternity it seems necessary to become one that is athwart society. You may think of it in terms of being radical or in terms of being other than the mind control of the culture. This may seem an extreme statement but there is a seduction of principles and values that goes on within the daily intellectual life that the culture offers through its newspapers and various other information sources which offers to its citizens much information [inaudible].

[Inaudible] just as it should be, the past, present and the future nicely falling into the patterns of intellectual consideration while unbeknownst to this tidy arrangement the portion of the self having to do with eternity is completely other than this stream of time that so dominates thinking in what this instrument would call consensus reality. You must decide [inaudible]. You must decide to abandon society within your inner selves and hew instead to the ideal. This will take you out of time. This will give you the present moment. You cannot hold this present moment. You cannot cherish it or shape it or put it safely away some place. Now it kisses you on the lips and then it is gone. [Inaudible].

Then Q’uo said that as we become an adult through the process of enculturation we lose our feeling of unity with all others and focus on making a living and paying the bills which is the general nature of the unawakened spirits because our government and our culture see no value in our spiritual evolution through exercising mindfulness. Then Q’uo said that in order to become a citizen of eternity that we must abandon consensus reality within our inner selves as this will take us out of time and gives us the present moment, and then it will be gone. On September 10, 2010, Q’uo said that we are all citizens of eternity;

It is a spiritual principle which we repeat often that “all things are one.” You dwell in a completely unified and interactive universe. The creation is one. You are all beings, all things, all emotions. You are a part of the Creator and therefore a citizen of eternity, comfortable with infinity, dwelling for this particular lifetime within a physical vehicle in a heavy illusion. Within your illusion which you call everyday life or consensus reality, if you will, it is not obvious that all things are one. It is, in fact, counterintuitive to say that you are part of all you see and that all whom you see act as a hall of mirrors for you. Yet it is so.

The present moment comes to you and stays with you. It is catching the magic, of letting go of the past and the future that is the trick. How to catch the self on the hinge of the present moment? How to recapture the self from consensus reality? This instrument has often felt it useful to use the sounds within its experiences on a daily basis to encourage mindfulness: the striking of the clock, the ringing of the phone. If one is in a school situation, the bell between classes. These sounds are helpful reminders, or they can be made so. And so, one thing the seeker may do to encourage mindfulness within the self is to analyze the sights and the sounds and the hues of various colors that are in [inaudible]. Identifying those sounds that are repeated each day and then training the self to use those questions, those hints, and not to use them in a way that stays in the mind but rather to move into the awareness of them as bells that ring within the heart, that have reverberation within the vastness of the deep mind, so that the deep mind itself is awakened by this sound; the phone, the doorbell, any repeating sound can be a tocsin that tolls, “Remember, remember, remember.”

There are many ways to slip out of consensus reality and into the kingdom of the Father, as this instrument would call it, to join the dance of the flowers and the trees, and the stars, and the wind, and the rain. Some have found music to bring their hearts back to the present moment. Some find the present moment in the exhaustion of dance. Some find it within the repetition of outer observances. Indeed, there are those among your peoples who for thousands of your years have had access to the repetition through each day of a long life of what this instrument would call services. Some having more separate services per day in which the Creator was the center of the focus of worship. Some more. Some moving the student into days and weeks and months of constant meditation. All of these practices that you are aware of through your travels through the supermarket of spiritual resources have much to offer to the person who is seeking to turn the mind from not simply the things of society but from time itself.

Try each of these avenues of remembering and see which of them work for you. But above all realize that there is a switch, shall we call it, in the deep mind, a toggle switch that is on and off. And when it is on, you are in consensus reality and working within the strictures of society. Move that switch in thought, not in action, but in thought, and you are a subversive element, as far as time is concerned. For you now stand upon the eternal and time means nothing. And, ah, the bliss, the relief, the release of experiencing the plenum that is all that there is in the present moment. Let your hearts be open. And know that within you there is the bliss of this present moment. To get to it, often it is not a matter of adding things but of subtracting things, and not things that are out there but the things of the mind, the things of the intellect, the things that you may never have questioned seriously having to do with time and responsibility.

We invite you to a land which is one turn past tomorrow and just a few doors down from yesterday. We invite you to open and empty yourself and to ask. To open, to be empty, and to ask. Each time that you feel that you would wish to enter the present moment, be open, become empty, and see what happens. We would encourage each to use meditation with regularity in order to seat and regularize this process. And we are always glad to be with you in that meditation.

Now Q’uo said that in order to release our self from consensus reality and attain the present moment we should of identify those sounds that are repeated each day such as the sound of the phone, the doorbell, any repeating sound can be a tocsin that tolls, “Remember, remember, remember.” Then Q’uo said that there were other ways of slipping out of consensus reality like listening to music, dancing to exhaustion, and long periods of meditation, and we should try all of them to see which ones work best for us because deep within our mind there is a toggle switch which is on when we are in consensus reality, so they suggested that we turn it off with our minds to become aware of the present moment. Q’uo completed their response by suggesting that if we wish to enter the present moment that we use meditation with regularity in order to seat and regularize this process. On January 14, 1996, Q’uo described the nature of the present moment:

When we say open to the present moment, we speak of that present moment which is eternal. Within time the attempt to grasp the present moment is constantly doomed to failure for your mind—that is, your earthly intelligence—and the illusion itself were created so that things would occur in an order. In the eternal present moment, all things exist simultaneously. That which is, is, and in this fullness of being resides the peace that is so eagerly sought by those who weary of the passing scene.

How can one find this present moment? We suggest often the practice of regular contemplation or meditation, for within silence there is that key which unlocks the doors of attention. And into that sanctum sanctorum of the open heart, silent and listening, there resides the Creator whose name is Love.

We encourage each to form the habit of silence on a regular basis, for that voice which speaks in silence is that which gives life and peace. We do not say that it gives wisdom. Rather, we suggest that it works little by little to open the heart and the awareness to the presence of love.  

At this time we would transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument, and leave it in love and in light, for we are those of Q’uo.

This morning I recorded the section on Living the Choice in the Present Moment in the Work Environment for Chapter Five of 102. Then I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the far back yard behind my home into a large pile for eventual pickup by David’s Lawn Service.

This afternoon I recorded the section on The Service to Self Aspect of Earning a Living for Chapter Five of 102. Then I drove over to southern Indiana and visited Connie in the Providence Care Home. We enjoy a conversation about Carla’s experience of claustrophobia on our Honeymoon in Hawaii in 1987, about my experiences with dancing since I was young, and then I read a few chapters from the book: The Things We Don’t Forget by Dianne Aprile. We ended our visit with our usual meditation.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert;

November 16

Surrender Your Daily Schedule

I am the voice of the Son of Man that speaks to the world today.

I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love that is the consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

Whatever you feel that you have before you this day, we offer this suggestion to you: release it now into the hands of that Almighty Father which watches over each thought and each moment of your life.

For events may fall unexpectedly and meanings and nuances may be lost if, in your mind, you know already what the day will bring.

Keep your ears open and your eyes wide and, most of all, your mind and your heart alert, for things are not always what they seem, and the spiritual lessons gained by those whose ears are open, whose eyes can see, and whose heart can understand are very great.

The Comforter is with you and will aid in releasing, seeing with new eyes, hearing with new ears, understanding with cleaned and blessed hearts. Surrender your trust to the Creator of all things, to the Lover of your soul, to the Source of your being.

Allow Love and power to move within you, through you and out into the world, knowing it is not your doing after all, not your schedule but the righteous schedule, the rhythmical and right action of a soul working together with the Comforter.

We leave you in the peace and the joy of that surrender, of that faith and that Love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 17, 1999;

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may have for us. Is there another query at this time?

S: I recently purchased an audio cassette device that was to help clear geopathic lines around my home and work with nature spirits. I am curious as to what results, if any, I have been able to accomplish?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. As we observe the device and the activity which you have employed in order to work with those more elemental spirits within your home environment we find that your desire to communicate with these entities is that which has been most successful rather than the gadget, shall we say, that you have employed though there is an efficacy attached to this gadget that is powered by your desire and your intentions. For these intentions are from your heart, and it is upon this level that communication may be established with such entities.

Is there another query, my brother?

S: With your communications here, what are some of the things that you have learned?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. And we are gratified to say that our learning that has been associated with this group and with this kind of service with other groups has been focused in the area in learning to accept limitations, though they be great, and to persevere beyond the seeming boundaries that are created by one’s own mind. For each of us in this creation—and we speak of all entities of which we are aware—desires to know the one Creator, and yet each of us has put before ourselves various hurdles, shall we say, various levels of lessons that seem to bind us, to keep us from moving in the desired direction. These, however, have the ability to reveal to us the necessary steps to take to move beyond them if we become able to accept that which we are, that is, the one infinite Creator. This ability to accept our nature as the Creator, for each entity, is that which is somewhat beyond the reach and thus propels us onward in our great journey of seeking.

We have also learned that which you call humor, that which we would call the sense of proportion, where it is discovered to be helpful to see the self in a lighter manner. Though the seeking be the sole desire of the entity and the knowledge of truth, love, wisdom, and so forth is that which is sought with every fiber of the being, yet there is the enhancement to the process that humor brings. For if one can lighten the point of view, can lighten the intensity of emotion in even that situation that seems the gravest, then there is the freedom to move more as in a dance, more as with the flow of the universe.

We have learned much of the nobility of the human spirit, the desire to be of service to others beyond all cost to the self. Constantly we see entities who are willing to do whatever is necessary in order to serve their brothers and sisters who suffer within the illusion of this third density. We are most honored to witness this nobility and this humility, for it shows to us the very heart of the one Creator that wishes to love and serve all as the Self.

S asked: ‘’With your communications here, what are some of the things that you have learned?’’ Q’uo began by saying that their learning had been associated with answering the call of groups such as this one and learning how to go beyond the limitations that were created by their own minds. Q’uo went on to say that they wish to know the Creator, and the way that they have chosen to do this was by programming difficult lessons that make knowing the Creator a process of moving through the difficulties step by step and then to accept the fact that they are the one infinite Creator, and that this is a lesson that they are continuing to learn. Then Q’uo said that they also utilized a sense of humor to see the lighter side of any difficulty that they might face so that they may move more in an easy flowing dance with the universe in their desire to learn the lessons of truth, love, and wisdom. Q’uo completed their answer by saying that they have been inspired by the human spirit that is so desirous of serving all who are suffering within the third density as it reveals to them the heart of the Creator that wishes to serve all as the Self. On August 30, 1992, Q’uo spoke of the value of a sense of humor:

The sense of humor that is so valuable an ally upon the spiritual path may be described as a sense of proportion which allows you to see beyond the moment in which you are experiencing one motion, event, experience, or another. This perspective allows you to place each individual experience within the larger continuum that moves ever onward as the river flowing.

Look then at any moment in which your humor has seemingly evaporated, at the entire situation in which you find yourself. Look at the world about you, seeing those entities and events which are momentous and powerful. See yourself placed within the context of a Creator which has made an infinite variety of entities of Itself which seek their identity and the nature of the Creator through myriads of interactions that may or may not make what you call sense, and which may reveal to you the humorous nature of the human creature.

This creature is one full of desire to know the truth, full of the energy of inspiration, full of the confusion of the illusion, and yet which moves valiantly forward, sideways, up, down, and around in order that it might progress yet one step further. See the anguish, the confusion, the joys, the determination, all of the emotions that comprise the resources upon which you draw. See them moving with you as colors of the rainbow. Look at yourself upon this rainbow journey and remember that that which is of value is the love which you create in each moment and all else shall fall away, having little of impact in your future. As time progresses, only the love remains.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S; Concerning past inventions in this world. One was the eternal candle, how that was constructed and made, and the second one was the Bessler Wheel constructed in the 1700’s. How were these constructed?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. It is our purpose as members of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator to speak upon those topics of a philosophical nature which entities who are desirous of moving their evolutionary process along may be able to utilize in so doing. We are marginally able to speak upon areas which lie outside of the philosophy of being, shall we say. The topics that you have mentioned are somewhat removed from our main desire or purpose, and in utilizing an instrument such as the one we now utilize, that is, in the conscious meditative state, we are unable to access the necessary terms to give technical descriptions such as the ones which would be necessary this case. Therefore, we must apologize for our lack of breadth and our lack of words upon this particular topic.

Is there another query, my brother?

S: There seems to be a life-long strife between my wife and her mother. It seems hurtful to my wife, with the strange and bizarre behavior from her mother. She was asking me what she should do, and I would like to help. How can I help her?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. As is oftentimes the case, entities who are of what you call a bloodline relationship are of such a relationship for in such relationships lessons of a most intensive nature may be undertaken that would not be possible with other entities that would not be in one’s proximity for the length of time and the intensity of experience that one would have, in this case, in the mother and daughter relationship.

We would recommend, as we would in many such instances, that the loving acceptance of the process is the first foundation stone to lay in the attempt to serve another entity. For if one is able to see that the difficulties shared in such a relationship that are also offering opportunities for the opening of the heart, each to the other, then the proper valuing of the experience may be appreciated. When one sees that such a relationship is sacred in its nature and fertile in the possibility of producing the open heart, then it is possible to see the interrelationship of the entities as that which will eventually produce the desired opening of the heart. As one supports each in the process one may retire periodically to the meditative state to look more deeply at that which occurs in the daily round of activities, for those experiences which, shall we say, push the various buttons, each of the other, and result in the heated words, the hurt feelings, and the overall confusion as regards the entire situation, one may begin to see a pattern in the relationship where there is the possibility of progress as each is able to accept what previously seemed unacceptable. Each is able to love what previously was seen as unloveable. The process of being able to see and accept more and more of the other self as whole and perfect allows the self to do the same with the self. For in each instance it is a process of learning that occurs within each individual entity and then is offered in love and service to the other.

Tolerance, the light touch, the sense of humor, the acceptance of the process, all of these are ways in which you may serve an entity in such a relationship.

Is there another query, my brother?

S: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again. Is there another query at this time?

D: Is it useful or wise for me to use the analogy of sun, earth, moon, and universe to define the nature of the self as a constructed being?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. And we would suggest that this is indeed efficacious for it is a system of construction which not only draws its usefulness from the nature of the qualities you have invoked, but also draws its efficacy from your very effort at constructing this analogy. For each seeker of truth constructs a personal mythology, or means by which the universe is viewed as well, as the entity’s journey through it. Thus, you are as the magician who is able to gather the tools for its working and by arranging them in such and such a fashion is able to build a useful channel for information and inspiration to move through.

Is there a further question, my brother?

D: Is there truly a distinction between the allness of God, the embodying of the Creator, and the enlightening of the Father?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Again, we would suggest that those distinctions which have value to you with these terms and phrases are those which will allow you to experience a greater revelation and be able to experience this as one who can share it with others. Thus, that which you do in the use of these terms is that which makes plain to you the goal of your understanding.

Is there another query, my brother?

D: Does one ever lose the incredible sense of loneliness?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. And we are aware of this loneliness of which you speak, for there are many such as yourself who have removed themselves from other realms of clearer experience and understanding and have chosen to enter this illusion of separateness, of seeming separateness, each from the other, in order that those who are seen as brothers and sisters of sorrow may be served with all one’s being. In this service there is the distant memory of those realms from which one comes, of those friends which one has agreed to work with, and of the purpose of the incarnation which is seen to be the pearl of great price, the service of others, no matter the cost to the self. And the cost to many such selves is that feeling of alienation, of isolation, of loneliness, of being cut off from that which is of the most worth to the self, of being away from home, of not being able to return home. This is a feeling which each entity shall live with for the entire incarnation, for it was seen previous to the incarnation as that which was necessary to endure, yet that which was possible to endure, and that which, indeed, may even aid in the achieving of the service to others. For it is a way of propelling the self, shall we say, upon the subtler, more spiritual realms so that the desire of the heart to serve others and to know the one Creator might be realized.

There are many, my brother, who walk with you in an unseen fashion so that in truth one is never truly alone. There is a goodly company of such angelic presences that is with each such entity within this third-density illusion. There is much of hope and sustenance that can be gained from attempting to speak to these entities within one’s daily meditations, to become more aware of their walk with one in the daily round of activities. For truly, the efforts of each within this third-density to serve those brothers and sisters of sorrow are recognized and great praise and thanksgiving is given for each such effort. There is, indeed, my brother, a heavenly choir that accompanies you upon this great journey of seeking and service.

Is there another query at this time?

D: Is the path that we walk simply God’s individuation of Itself seeking to know Itself, unify Itself, and simply create ideals of Itself that incorporate or encompass infinite opportunities, possibilities, gestalts, and so on, and is there tension that is created within this vast array of experiences that we have in which simply those who serve others and those who serve themselves are a catalyst for this process to unfold individually, relationally, socially, planetarily and so on?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. And we would respond by saying that we could not have said it better. For, indeed, all of the experience of the one Creator in all densities of illusion is the Creator knowing Itself through infinite means, infinite entities, and the polarity of the light and the dark, that which you have called service to others and service to self. Thus, the creation itself is held in place by this dynamic tension. And thus the Creator is able to play in those fields of flowers that It has created for Itself.

Is there another query, my brother?

D: Is the opportunity available for us, and is the role that we play in serving others simply assisting in everyone knowing themselves, establishing rules and ideas so that from self-knowledge collective ascension transpires within the context of a social group of people through time?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. And we would respond by saying once again that you have eloquently stated your perception and an accurate perception of that which is. There are many, many entities that move upon this great journey of seeking, that move as in a dance, in a harmony that is unseen by those who do not look, and yet they dance to the tune, to the beat of the heart of the one infinite Creator. Yes, all dance and move in rhythmic patterns. The balance in all of the creation is one and is perfect. That which each does as his or her own contribution to this great dance and journey of seeking is that which has been planned aforetimes, shall we say. There is a pattern to movement, a pattern to thought, a pattern to seeking, a pattern to suffering, a pattern to all that is.

Is there another query, my brother?

D: I am done. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as we observe the last inchoate queries fading from the minds we have once again come to an ending to a session of working with this group, and we are most grateful to each for inviting us to your circle of seeking this day. We are always honored to be able to share our thoughts and humble opinions with those who call to us. And we would suggest to each gathered today that we have been especially honored to join each this day and would greet those who are new to this circle, yet not new to this group, and remind each present that we are available upon your mental request to join you in your personal meditations in order that we might help to deepen those meditations without any spoken words or thoughts. Just our vibrations moving in harmony with yours. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I re-recorded the section on Politics from Chapter Four of 102. Then I took Bosco to the vet to have more caps put on his rear claws where the old ones had come off. The caps keep him from doing more damage below both ears because he seems to be allergic to the mirtazapine appetite enhancer that I rub in one ear per day because he won’t take the pill in the greenie pouch. Then I ran some errands with my first stop being Feeder’s Supply where I bought some bird seed. My second stop was at PNC Bank where I made a cash withdrawal. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some hair thickener and a box of trash bags.

This afternoon I re-recorded the section on Service to Country, Armed Forces, and Peace Corps from Chapter Four of 102. Then I went outside and blew the leaves in half of the yard behind the house into two piles for eventual pickup by David’s Lawn Service.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert;

November 15

How Precious You Are!

I am of the principle of the Love of Jesus the Christ, the Spirit and consciousness of divine Love. In this great peace and power we greet you.

How special each of you is. How precious! Perhaps you are undervaluing yourself. Perhaps you accept the yardsticks of a foolish and materialistic world and judge yourself to be other than acceptable to the Father.

It is inevitable to experience in oneself the exceeding of limitations; that which aids the growth but is painful to the emotions. Attempt not to lose courage as you learn and change and transform, for you are indeed special, unique, whole, and worthy.

It is within this illusion that you fight the shadow battles that bring the spirit to choice; the choice of love for others or of self. May you love, forgive and value your unique being, for so does the Father do.

We leave you in this divine love and peace, both now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight;

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from October 17, 1999;

The question this week has to do with whether or not it is possible in this day and age and in the place in which we live for us to use meditation and personal works to become the seeker we hope to be, to achieve that state of being that will allow us to radiate the Love and the Light of the Creator and to continue to expand as learning and growing beings. Or is it still necessary to retire to a cave in the Himalayan Mountains and meditate for twenty years with some small chance for success, of some hope of achieving a realization of who we really are?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings and blessings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We thank each of you for all that you have sacrificed, all that you have sought, that has brought you to this circle of seeking at this time. We thank you that you have called us to your session of working. We wish you to understand what a blessing it is to us to be able to share our thoughts with you, to be able to fulfill that which is our chosen service at this time. Please know that you serve us far more than we could ever serve you with our humble words by providing us with the opportunity to experience what it is to be called, to be asked to share. We will, indeed, share all that we can share through this and other instruments this day. We ask but one thing of each of you, and that is that you listen to our thoughts and our opinions with a careful and discriminating ear and heart, for that which we have to say may or may not be that which is needed by you at this time. And for us to be considered by you as an authority to which you must listen is obnoxious to us, for that would mean that we were, instead of helping, being a stumbling block before you. Therefore, we ask that you take those thoughts that ring true to you and leave all the rest behind. We trust your powers of discrimination and we ask that you also trust your own inner knowing, for each has a personal truth to which each needs to hew.

You ask this day concerning the unfolding of spiritual evolution and the ways in which you can encourage that within yourself. You ask if the practices of meditation and personal work are enough, are sufficient to open the process of evolution for you and so encourage and promote that evolution, that you will be able to see and realize that you are where you should be, doing what you should be doing as an authentic being.

We find that the question is such that we cannot say yes and no, but, rather, we must discuss these concepts. And so, we shall begin. Let us look at the nature of each of you, for what are you? What is your nature? Each of you, through personal work, has begun to realize the most basic truth, which is that each of you is the Creator, and within incarnation each of you is the co-Creator of experience for yourself. But what, then, is the Creator? The word, “Logos,” in Greek means “word.” But more it may be seen to be a word denoting all-inclusive thought or being. What is the nature, then, of this original Thought or Being that is the Creator? It is our understanding that the nature of the Creator, the nature of the creation that has been formed in the image of the Creator, is Love. This is your basic identity. Each of you has within you a spark that vibrates precisely at the original vibration which is the Logos. The Creator is not out there, but, rather, the Creator is within each of you already, the heart of your identity and your being. There is nothing you can do, think, say, or believe that can separate you from this basic selfhood. You cannot give it away. You cannot lose it. You can, however, and easily, become distracted from it and move into other areas of thought that are not so directly of the one infinite Creator. No matter how far you go, however, in your straying from Love and from your own identity as Love, it shall not leave you, and you shall always have this inner source of all that you seek closer to you than your very thoughts and heartbeat.

And what, then, is the nature of this spark? This instrument would say that it is a vibration. And that is close enough for us. The original vibration, then, is the reality within every illusion which you experience. This anchoring vibration can be overlaid by any number of vibratory complexes, for each receives an unending supply of the pure vibration of Love that is the moving energy of the cosmos. Each takes this vibration into the various bodies from the gross to the finer and distorts that vibration in various ways as it moves through that vessel which is your mind, body, and spirit. And, thusly, to those who have the ability to see through the veil each entity speaks itself in vibration with a distinctive and utterly unique identification.

Since the very nature of your being is vibration, it will not surprise you that we would ask you to evaluate those ways in which you characteristically distort the original vibration of Love. Now, there are various ways to distort, or block, or over-activate the vibratory energy that feeds and fuels your being. Those of you who experience incarnation in third density at this time are experienced souls. This is due to the fact that through what this instrument would call the time of harvest there is a tremendous opportunity for relatively rapid soul growth, and this has meant that there are far more entities wishing to take incarnation upon your Earth plane than there are opportunities for these souls to come into physical vehicles. And so those who have incarnated into your plane of existence at this particular time for this particular planet are those with a seniority by vibration. This means that each of you is already capable of doing relatively, shall we say, “advanced,” for want of a better word, work in consciousness.

Eachof you has many assets and resources in place. Among these resources are meditation, and each of you has personal practices: the reading, the contemplation, the solitary walking, the discussion with companions, the work in healing, the work with various structures of thought which provide ways of thinking about the issues that matter to you. All of these are valuable. Meditation especially, as each who has heard us before is aware, is that which we most encourage and recommend as a daily practice. So let us look at the concept of having a daily practice, for beyond any particular avenue of personal or spiritual growth there is the keenness of desire that seeks with a heart full of hope for that feeling of authenticity of self which allows the self to release the strictures that have provided spiritual and emotional discomfort.

We cannot say what any one seeker shall find useful for herself. We do feel that entering the silence is universally helpful, but there is a range that is fairly extensive from soul to soul in terms of what techniques or modes of spiritual seeking shall be more efficacious at any given time. However, in each case the dailyness of the practice is that which is very helpful, that which will, indeed, suffice to bring the seeker more and more to herself, to an awareness of the self as a whole and radiant being. Remember that beyond all illusion, each of you is vibration. If you think, for instance, of an engine in a car that develops a certain speed of turning because of the fuel fed to it you can see that various kinds of practices will move that vehicle which is yourself at various rates of speed, with various rates of efficiency, for each of you is an unique being and you will not react or respond to various elements of practice in the same way that any other entity would. And so, there is a continual seeking and searching through the aisles of the supermarket of philosophy, metaphysics, spirituality, and religion that each seeker does go through seeking those resources that for that seeker do that job that the seeker feels needs to be done. Consequently, much is left to you, at least in terms of what we would encourage each of you to do. We cannot encourage for each a specific practice that is the same for each, but, rather, we can simply encourage the dailyness of such practices.

The group question for this session was: ‘’The question this week has to do with whether or not it is possible in this day and age and in the place in which we live for us to use meditation and personal works to become the seeker we hope to be, to achieve that state of being that will allow us to radiate the Love and the Light of the Creator and to continue to expand as learning and growing beings.’’ Q’uo began their reply by describing the nature of our being was that of the Logos or Love of the Creator that always resides within us, even though we may occasionally forget that this is true, and It will never leave us, so we will always have it as an inner source of that which we seek. Q’uo went on to say that each of us can distort this vibration of Love in an unique way as It moves through our energy centers and our mind, body, and spirit complexes, and, depending upon how we have distorted, blocked, or activated our energy centers, we have incarnated now according to the incarnation by the seniority of vibration to attempt to make the harvest. Then Q’uo said that we could use various practices to advance our spiritual journeys such as meditation, philosophy, metaphysics, spirituality, and religion, but they especially recommended meditation to help us to remember that we are whole and radiant beings. In 48.8, Ra describes the nature of the incarnation into the third density by the seniority of vibration:

The seniority of vibration is to be likened unto placing various grades of liquids in the same glass. Some will rise to the top; others will sink to the bottom. Layers and layers of entities will ensue. As harvest draws near, those filled with the most light and love will naturally, and without supervision, be in line, shall we say, for the experience of incarnation.

When the entity becomes aware in its mind/body/spirit complex totality of the mechanism for spiritual evolution, it, itself, will arrange and place those lessons and entities necessary for maximum growth and expression of polarity in the incarnative experience before the forgetting process occurs. The only disadvantage of this total free will of those senior entities choosing the manner of incarnation experiences is that some entities attempt to learn so much during one incarnative experience that the intensity of catalyst disarranges the polarized entity and the experience thus is not maximally useful as intended.

It is as though the self were a bit scattered in the normal dailyness of living. There are the calls upon energy for those with whom you are in relationship. There are the calls upon your energies for those things you need to do in order not to be a burden to others: the gaining of the money for the necessities, and the enjoyments of a physical life. There are many, many things, ways of thinking, modes of thinking, that move one to various levels of the mind, the shallow or surface mind, the levels of mind just below the limn of consciousness, and those levels that are in the deep mind that this instrument would call archetypal or archetypical. Some entities will wish to work on the surface questioning the form of their practice, moving into rituals that feel right, using the moments to generate within the self-realizations of beauty and delight. Indeed, there is that practice that is legitimate of focusing completely upon the surface and delighting completely in the very chores and minutiae of the day. This is a legitimate practice, a dharma that is blessed and that works for some entities.

There are those who find their delight in logic and intellectual inquiry whose approach to the spiritual is of a—we look in this instrument’s mind for a word and do not find one—aesthetic approach to the deeper self. And to that person the delight of perfect ideas moves that person into the authenticity of its own being. There are those such as this instrument who dwell in what we would call an emotional approach in which the responses to incoming data are monitored for the purity of the emotions evoked, and there are practices which encourage this accuracy of notation. This instrument would call this level the life in faith, and it is a kind of way of centering the self which lends itself to those who are of a mystical nature. There are those who thirst so for true spiritual food that they are not satisfied with anything less than the archetypical foundations of consciousness, and these entities are like explorers of the deep who bring treasures from mines deep within the Earth and open them to the light within themselves. This also is a legitimate way of approaching the job of cooperating with one’s own spiritual evolution.

Most entities work on more than one of these levels, and some entities work on all of these levels. Consequently, it is additionally helpful to many entities to practice the facility with which they slip from level to level within themselves. For the way the self works is a structure but one unlike any other entity’s structure. And so, there is a good deal of inner exploration which is very productive in terms of identifying for the self those modes of inquiry that will be the most helpful assets in working with one’s destiny.

We would venture to say that within third density what most often disturbs the spiritual seeker is the veil itself, that veil of forgetting that drops over the infant soul as it enters into the Earth plane. Gone is that knowledge of identification with the Father. Gone is the awareness of other selves as the self and all selves as the Creator. Come, instead, is a world in which people observe forms but not essences, doing but not being. And, yet, this is a school carefully designed for maximum learning. How can one learn when one is so bemused, confused, and flustered by this unknowing?

Look at that. Look at the conundrum, the enigma of the veil. Before you came here you knew who you were. Why did you work hard and rejoice when you succeeded in getting a place within this Earth plane which you now enjoy? Why the confusion? Why the necessity to backtrack, as it may seem to each, and learn again who your real self is, what the real self is, what the quality of realness is? But you see, the point of your density is singular. There is a choice that needs to be made. It is a choice which this instrument would call one of polarity. Do you seek to serve others, or do you seek to serve yourself? Each path, in our understanding, is equally valid. Each path has its adherents. Both paths come together a bit further along the evolution of the spirit for each of you.

Then Q’uo said that there are practices that move one to the shallow or surface mind and also to those levels that are in the deep mind that are called archetypical, so some entities will wish to work on the surface of questioning the form of their practice, or using rituals that feel right by using the moments to generate within the self those realizations of beauty and delight. Q’uo went on to list a variety of ways that we may use to advance our spiritual evolution such as: using logic to discover the authenticity of our being; using the purity of our emotions to monitor incoming data; or living a life in faith; and exploring the archetypical foundations of the deeper mind. Then Q’uo said that we all have chosen to move through the veil of forgetting that we are one with the Creator and the creation so that we can use the catalyst of third density to discover who we really are and make our choice of being of service to others or service to self. On September 26, 1987, Q’uo spoke of the time of making the choice of service to others or of service to the self:

Now let us bring the scale down as small and as infinite as each entity’s heart and mind. The third density is a density wherein people are attempting to learn lessons connected not only with experiences with others, but also with groups of others. Thus, as each of you incarnates again and again, you come closer and closer to making the choice, and therefore you are more and more biased in your thinking.

This is also true of those who are tending toward a decision to seek the Creator by following the service-to-self path. When entities which wish to serve the Creator by serving the self achieve what you would call political power, they come to be effective instruments of the failed attempts to control others, which is termed warfare. Failed, we say, because power and freedom lie in a place which no one and no power can shake or remove. The greatest of altercations can end only in the freeing of the individual who has been brutalized through the gates of physical death.

One path, in our opinion, that of service to others, is favored by the infinite Creator. It is the path upon which we have chosen to move, and we are aware that each within your circle has chosen that path of service to others. And this awareness brings to what practice that each of you has the additional practice of constantly looking at one’s intentions to see where the desire for service truly lies. And it is always fruitful to look back over the situations through which you have gone with an eye to pinpointing for the self the self’s own actual orientation as evidenced by that which one has gone through.

And so, we would say a resounding yes, a heartfelt affirmative to the question. In the city or in the country, in any place where you are, if you have a daily practice is it enough? Yes. Whatever is heartfelt to do that daily brings you to yourself is sufficient for you. You are not expected to figure it all out. That is not what this density that you are experiencing is for. It may be a wonderful luxury that certainly has occurred to this instrument, and undoubtedly to each, in the past and hopefully in the future, that there is that moment when all is one. All can be seen to be perfect, and there is nowhere that pulls, no place that one wishes to go, for all is perfect as it is. These moments of bliss and joy, indeed, perhaps days or weeks of bliss and joy, come not due to work but because it is time. For you cannot learn on a schedule the lessons of Spirit. The Spirit moves as the wind and comes when it will and teaches with breath-taking honesty when it will. And when it will not it sends its messengers everywhere to give you hints and little bits of encouragement that keep you seeking. But there is no scheduling those moments of utter authenticity, nor is it a realistic expectation of the self that the self shall one day come to a mode of living in which the utter authenticity of the self runs on a continuous basis.

This instrument would perhaps choose the one known to her as Jesus to be an exemplar of undistorted Love, and yet we say to her and to each of you that this entity, as devoted a servant to the Creator as he was, had many moments, and many days, and many weeks, and many months in which confusion reigned, and the puzzle was not solved. And the hunger and the thirst for truth and beauty was unfulfilled. These seasons of weal and woe are extremely helpful and very deeply to be appreciated, for in addition to bringing to one that catalyst that one needs in order to learn, these seasons of dryness and aridity of Spirit deepen and purify the vessel within. For each truly is a channel, an instrument.

Think of the musical instrument that is played by the wind of the instrumentalist. The air moves through the instrument and under the clever movement of the fingers various tones come forth expressing, when they are played as written, flights of music that lift the heart and encourage the spirit. And each of you has this hollowness that is filled with the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. What this instrument and perhaps others within this room hope for is that the self will become transparent so that the wind of Spirit that is blown through will come out as it went in, totally undistorted by the self. For if the self can allow infinite Love and Light to move through the self, then that self has the capacity to bless that Love and Light that flows through it and offer that that has been brought through to the Earth plane. Indeed, it is our feeling that this is the basic work of all spiritually awakened people, this essential beingness of self that does not distort the Love that flows through the instrument of selfhood. Beyond all the beautiful tunes that your instrument might play with the various distortion of the various energy centers there is the wonderful ability to do that essential work that is the work of being that allows Love and Light to flow into the Earth plane undistorted.

We have talked to you often of being versus doing. Of essence versus action. It is our humble opinion that each, indeed, needs to address the beingness of the self, and we ask each to think on this for the self, to look at the question of whether there is releasing and surrender that might create a more pure way of being. Very often that which most constricts the spirit from its evolution is that which hampers beingness and no amount of good works, good actions, or good thoughts, no amount of practice of any kind can address this rather deep and subtle question: what shall you surrender in order to more fully be yourself? As each faces the chances and changes of daily living, we encourage each to look for those things that can be surrendered and look for those things which can be taken up and embraced, for there shall be an ever-evolving panoply of choices for each of you to make. We encourage you to move forward in a faith that all that you need will come to you, and all that you must crave and learn will be before you in its own time.

Now Q’uo said they believed that the Creator favors the path of service to others, so they said that it was true that we could use meditation as a path to radiate the Love and Light of the one Infinite Creator in that moment when all is seen as being perfect, and this feeling may last for a few minutes or hours. They said that the Spirit moves as the wind, and it is not realistic that we shall one day be able to live in this perfect moment on a continuous basis. Q’uo went on to say that even Jesus had moments of doubt where confusion reigned, and He was in doubt, so we should be grateful for these moments because they bring us catalyst that help us learn our lessons while the dryness of the Spirit within us deepens and purifies the vessel within us. Q’uo went on to say that each of us is an instrument and we can; ‘’allow infinite Love and Light to move through the self, then that self has the capacity to bless that Love and Light that flows through it and offer that that has been brought through to the Earth plane. Indeed, it is our feeling that this is the basic work of all spiritually awakened people, this essential beingness of self that does not distort the Love that flows through the instrument of selfhood.’’ Then Q’uo suggested that we consider our beingness and if there is a way that we could create a purer way of being by releasing and surrendering some part of ourselves that is hampering our being and restricting our spiritual evolution, so the question becomes; ‘’what shall you surrender in order to more fully be yourself?’’ So Q’uo encouraged us to look for those aspects of our self that we come across in our daily lives that we might surrender and those things that we may retain and embrace because these are choices that we need to make by using our faith that all that we need will come to us at the right time. On January 15, 2006, Q’uo spoke of how the Love and Light may flow through us;

Again, we pull you back from the intensely personal nature of times of choice to the realization that you are always doing impersonal work. Because a portion—and hopefully a growing portion—of who you are is the impersonal “I” that is the one infinite Creator’s Love and Light flowing through you, not from you. The true letting go is the realization that it is not your choice entirely. It is the choice of the Creator, and you are the Creator, choosing your universe and your creation. Allow that impersonal “I” to have its voice within you.

We are sorry that we have spoken longer than we should. We heard the recording device come to its end and realized that we should have been at ours. However, we would like at this time to transfer this contact to the one known as Jim in order that we may answer any questions that may be upon your minds at this time. We leave this instrument in love and in light and transfer now. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I re-recorded the section on Religion in Chapter Four of 102.

This afternoon I r-recorded the section on Philosophy, Religion, and the One Infinite Creator in Chapter Four of 102.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert;

November 14

Expect Your Good

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love.

Today we ask you to expect your good. The instrument speaking our thoughts is a living example of this principle. For in expectation of this contact with Love, the instrument and her partner placed the recording device, set the proper buttons, placed the microphone in the proper place, and prepared with readings and meditation for inspiration through this contact. Good was expected and prepared for, and now, in this example, the good comes freely, gently, lovingly and surely.

So good comes to all, expected or unexpected. Yet it is well in each and every morning, in each and every beginning, to affirm, hope for and confidently expect the good that is yours.

And when it comes to you, we ask that you accept that good though it may not seem good, knowing that all things work together for the good and seeing in your own experience the good that has come before. In this state of mind, in this expectation of things unseen, you are dressed in the armor of light and hope and the course of your day may be significantly changed, more peaceful, more harmonious. This is what we hope for you. This is what we ask you to expect.

We leave you in the peace and the Love of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight;

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote for today comes from October 3, 1999;

Our question this week has to do with desire. We would like to know what it is to balance desire. A lot of times we think we know what we want. We think we understand that if we had a certain ability or a certain thing, we would be able to function more efficiently. We would be more whole. We would be more balanced. And then when we do achieve that it turns out to be other than what we thought. We would like Q’uo to give us information about working with our desires. How do we determine what we really want rather than what we think that we want?

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We cannot say how blessed we feel to be called to your circle of seeking on this day of your fall as the creation about you has begun to release its summer heat and to prepare itself for the sleep of winter. The desire of each tree and bush and flower for growing and turning to the light must gaze at this time of autumn knowing its time of sleeping and regeneration is soon to arrive. And while the ground and the second-density trees and creatures of the shrub and forest have no trouble adjusting their desires to fit the harmony of temperature and inner direction, the third-density humans upon your sphere do, indeed, have no winter of sleep and regeneration but rather an endless, or seemingly endless, succession of hopes, ideals, wishes and desires of all kind that seem to know no season and sometimes seem to give one no rest.

We are most happy to speak to you upon the subject of desire. We ask only one thing and that is that you listen to what we have to say with a jaundiced and careful ear and heart, for we would not wish to place a stumbling block before any who seeks. Rather, we wish to offer thoughts that have been useful in our own development. It is our service to you to do this. We are delighted to do this, but we do not wish to pretend to be authorities. For we are not authorities, but those who walk with you upon a spiritual path that, as far as we know, is endless. The rising and falling of desire can well be said to be the hallmark of the experience of being self-conscious. Not only your third-density human experience but also the experience of higher densities. There is ever the finer tuning of desire, the finer delineation of the shape of energy of desire.

Indeed, it may be said that in a very powerful way desire is necessary to the third-density experience, or to the fourth, fifth, sixth-density experience. So let us move back to take a longer view of this that is called desire. This instrument has received from those who have had unusual experiences, and we find in her memory a recent letter that gives us a good place to start speaking of desire. This entity was able to move out of his body in a daydream-like state, not in a sleeping state, but in a very relaxed and self-confident state. He was able to leave the area in which his body was placed and eventually to leave the planet. At first, he could not move beyond a certain distance but then, he wrote to this instrument that in the metaphysical or time/space continuum the mode of motivation or movement was Love. Love, therefore, took him by his will on a tour right up to the point at which he felt that he could not and would not go further. We offer this experience in order to be able to talk about the relationship about the great original Thought or Logos, which is Love or desire.

Desire feels, when one is in an incarnation and experiencing the momentary arising of it, very straightforwardly a desire for acquisition. It feels like it has an object, in other words. And for the most part, those things which entities among your peoples desire have what this instrument would call a simple location. One desires a meal or a girlfriend or to go someplace or to read a certain book. These are things in the outer world that can be achieved and brought into the dwelling place and possessed. And as the one known as R noted, it seems that these desires have a very short shelf life after the acquisition of the object. Once the object is acquired it is no longer desired. As long as desire remains at this level and is seen as that which is desire of an object we have to approach the subject in a certain way and that would be to speak of certain ways of estimating the value of various desires.

However, there is another level of desire with which those present all have considerable experience and that is the desire for purity, for truth, for beauty, for light, for true love, for true love between people, for true relationships between people. And this level of desire has a life that is denied to desires for things which can be acquired in the physical world. This level of desire places a seeker in a different world where she is able to see objects, both metaphysical and physical, not with the eye of the physical world but with the eye of the heart, what the one known as Ken Wilbur has called the eye of contemplation. These desires for a higher way are wise, wise desires and we would encourage each of you to stoke these fires of hope and faith and will and ask for your highest desires with abandon and greed. For these desires for a higher way of being, a higher method of seeing, will cool the fire in the oven of desire so that you as an instrument of the divine are tempered and strengthened.

The group question for this session was: ‘’We would like Q’uo to give us information about working with our desires. How do we determine what we really want rather than what we think that we want?’’ Q’uo began their reply by saying that having desires that rise and fall was the hallmark of being self-conscious in the third density, and that desires are more finely tuned in the higher densities. Then Q’uo said that they wanted to give an overview of the nature of desires and used an experience that had been mailed to Carla by a seeker who was able to astral project out of his body into time/space by using the power of Love which utilized his will on a tour up to the point where he felt that he could not and would not go further. Q’uo used this experience to be able to talk about the relationship of the great original Thought which is Love or desire. Q’uo went on to say that desires are usually experienced in the outer world as having an object that one wishes to acquire such as meal or a girlfriend, and once acquired they are no longer desired after a while. Q’uo continued by saying that there is another level of desire such as desire for truth, for beauty, for true love and relationships between people, and this desire places a seeker in a different world where she is able to see objects, both metaphysical and physical, with the eye of the heart. Then Q’uo suggested that we use faith and will to ask for our highest desires with abandon because these desires for a higher way of being help us to become an instrument of the divine. On October 4, 1998, Q’uo spoke of how to obtain our highest desires:

But we believe this to be the way things are in the metaphysical realm, for in that realm thoughts are things. Intentions of actions and desire is turned upon its head, blending for the citizen of eternity the desires of the self and the desires of the Creator, and as these two come slowly into synchronization, destiny becomes fluid, and one finds oneself more and more easily able to pierce the illusions of desire to move into that heart which desires completely one thing: the opportunity to love and be loved, to have consciousness, to breathe in and to breathe out, and all else will be as it will be.

You shall not, to the best of our knowledge, probably ever be able to experience a lack of desire. For you dwell within a physical vehicle which must eat, which must have a place, which must put onto the body protective clothing against the elements. As long as you carry this structure of flesh, the chemical, the biological reactions which move the physical vehicle from infanthood to growth to decay to death will continue unabated, that being the nature of that physical vehicle and the nature of the physical world into which this vehicle has been born. The poet which this instrument knows as Tennyson called the nature red in tooth and claw. Everything must eat, and so the universe of the body is full of that which is eaten and that which eats. It is full of the tiniest organization of molecules which make up the simplest life form, having unending desire and with each iota of consciousness there come new and greater levels of physical desire.

There is no harm, error, or sin in desire. It is simply logical to satisfy appetites. Each organism has instinctual appetites and the fulfilling of them is appropriate and, shall we say, planned for by the infinite Creator. Indeed, desires are to be protected in that it is well for all that draws breath, shall we say, within your physical world to have that which is needed to sustain life.

The kind of desire that tends to provide excellent catalyst for growth and good food for thought is what we might term mental/emotional desire. The one known as R spoke of that desire to get those things which he might need at a later time. The one known as S spoke of the desire to come into a more integrated or full understanding that would illuminate the experience that he was having that would make things make more sense. As the one known as R noted, when these particular desires were dropped others would take their place. And in this context we would use something else out of this instrument’s memory: a story that is given as what this instrument calls a koan, a parable, shall we say, that helps seekers to gain realization.

This story, in brief, is that there was a holy man, an anchorite, one who had been given a room where he might put his bones and a daily bowl of meager soup and bread that kept body and soul together. And in this room this entity sat in meditation all his waking hours, waiting on the truth, resting in the Divine, at peace, and feeling no rising desire. Years went by, and then one day the door to his humble room burst open and into the room came a woman he had never seen before. She placed a baby in his arms. She had told her parents that this holy man was the father of her child, and she was giving the child to him. After contemplating this gift for a time this holy man set out for the sea coast very near the street on which he lived and obtained work of the most humble kind, carrying heavy things on and off the ships that traded at that port. With the money that he made, he purchased food and fed and clothed and tended the child that had been given to him. Several years went forward in this way, and then one day his door burst open again and this woman entered again, having decided that she wished for her child after all. He gave her the child who was by now passed the toddler stage, arranged his limbs for meditation and rejoined the Light that he had left behind when the gift of the child was his.’’

Then Q’uo said that as long as we have physical bodies we will always have desires such as to eat, to have a place to live, to put to protective clothing on for warmth, and it is well for all that live in the physical world to have that which is needed to sustain life. Q’uo went on to say that the kind of desire that provides catalyst for growth and food for thought occurs when mental/emotional desires were dropped and then others would take their place, so Q’uo decided to use a parable to illustrate this concept. Q’uo said that there was a holy man who spent his day in meditation resting in the truth of the Divine and feeling no desire when; ‘’one day the door to his humble room burst open and into the room came a woman he had never seen before. She placed a baby in his arms. She had told her parents that this holy man was the father of her child, and she was giving the child to him. After contemplating this gift for a time this holy man set out for the seacoast very near the street on which he lived and obtained work of the most humble kind, carrying heavy things on and off the ships that traded at that port. With the money that he made, he purchased food and fed and clothed and tended the child that had been given to him. Several years went forward in this way, and then one day his door burst open again and this woman entered again, having decided that she wished for her child after all. He gave her the child who was by now passed the toddler stage, arranged his limbs for meditation and rejoined the Light that he had left behind when the gift of the child was his.’’ On September 24, 1995, Q’uo spoke of the value in letting some desires to drop away so that others may take their place:

Now, we cannot say that all those systems are wrong to encourage the removal of desire, for truly much of life as you experience it, as it responds to unconscious and deep desires runs directly counter to one’s conscious desires. The instinct of the seeker is often to fight against the way the experience is going, to desire a change, whereas the deeper desire of the self may well be to experience loss, limitation, or some difficulty. We would ask you then to think of your desires as those things which are natural and good in their essence.

However, because the illusion is thick, and because there is the veil drawn between the conscious mind and the unconscious mind many times it seems impossible to embrace that which is occurring, even though the deep mind does indeed embrace this seemingly negative situation. The task of the seeker is simply to place the self within the fire and allow the catalyst to burn away that pride of self which suggests that the desirer knows the way to purify desire. You have within you the capacity for great faith, and we may suggest that one way to exercise this capacity and so enlarge it is to reflect, when faced with that which one does not desire, with the quiet mind which is willing to open the hand and say “Here is all I feel. Teach me what is the pure desire and what is the husk and chaff of pride.”

To the one who has no arising desire the universe is free. It is a gift. And every blade of grass, every ray of sunlight, every kind word, every gentle glance, is a beauty and a truth. When you have no arising desires you may feel the grass and the elements, the dance of the wind, the dance of fire, the dance of water, and the dance of earth. And the universe lies before you infinitely complex, infinitely unified, at one with itself, at one with you, part of you, as you are a part of it. May we say that we do not expect many moving through third density who experience this state of no desire for longer than, say, a moment, an hour, or an afternoon. Times of feeling this peace indeed are gifts that come now and again, and while you were experiencing this peace you wondered why you ever desired anything. But that setting of full and open heart of faith, that ultimate balancing will that would allow such a state, are genuinely not helpful for the purposes of evolution in spiritual terms. design of your physical vehicle as human beings is not an error or a whim but, rather, it is the result of experimentation on the part of what this instrument would call the Deity. Creations before this one that you now experience have tried various kinds of ways in which entities could accelerate the pace of their spiritual development, and, so far, what has been found is that placing a veil over the truth and the beauty and the ultimate goodness of all that exists is very helpful for the developing spirit.

If you are as the trees and the flowers then you know without having to reach that all is well, that all is one, and that all is a dance. But humans with this knowledge will not move themselves forward spiritually but rather tend to remain in the state in which they were born. It is actually the arising of desire creating discomfort that motivates entities on so many levels, and this motivation of people who wish to simplify, or clarify, or solve the perplexing questions of what to desire and how to desire it are what open people to new thoughts, new ideas, new practices, and new ways of looking at things. There is, of course, much of skill but more of art in learning your own self, of using the mind carefully in a limited fashion to analyze just what level this desire is on, how true to myself, the seeker, is this desire, how honest and pure is this desire.

There are many ways to use the emotions in working with the desires of the heart, the emotions, and the mind. We would like to take another half hour to speak of the desire to know, but we shall content ourselves here with saying that the intellectual and the emotional parts of the self often so combine as to create a very intense desire to know, and this desire has power both for good and for ill in terms of the evolution of the spirit. Here we would perhaps offer a warning that we have offered many times and that is the warning of the nature of the mind as compared to the nature of consciousness. It is easy to confuse the mind with consciousness, but they are separate things. You are, in terms of your physical vehicle, an almost hairless great ape. You have an excellent mind capable of abstract thought, self-reflection and many, many other things. It is basically a choice-making tool.

Now Q’uo said that if we have no desires the universe is free, and that universe lies before us is infinitely unified, at one with us, and it is a gift to feel this peace which will occasionally occur, but that ultimate balancing that would allow such a state is not helpful for our spiritual evolution. Q’uo went on to say that Creations before this one that we are now experiencing have found that placing a veil of forgetting over the truth of all that exists is very helpful for the developing spirit. Then Q’uo said that if we were like the flowers that know all is well, we would not be able to move ourselves forward spiritually but would remain in the state in which we were born because it is actually the arising of desire which creates discomfort that motivates us on so many levels, and this motivation to solve the questions of what to desire and how to desire it are what open us to new thoughts. Now Q’uo said that our intellectual and emotional parts of our self often combine to create an intense desire to know, and this desire can be both helpful and unhelpful in terms of the evolution of our spirit. So, Q’uo offered a warning by saying that it is easy to confuse our mind with our consciousness, but they are separate things, that our physical vehicle is like a hairless great ape with an excellent mind capable of abstract thought, self-reflection, and it is basically a choice-making tool. On May 1, 2005, Q’uo explained the difference between our mind and our consciousness;

In life, as you experience an incarnation, the space/time and time/space components of memory and mind play back and forth. Dreams and thoughts and daydreams and imagination and the processes of internal review make a kaleidoscope that is constantly shifting between two worlds.

You, to some extent, have facility in shifting back and forth betwixt mind and consciousness, but the differences are subtle and it is well to realize those times when the nature of your personal reality shifts from the third-density concerns of mind to the multi-density concerns of time/space, which we would describe as that of consciousness.

When faced with something the physical mind wants to solve the problem. It is not comfortable. It is not used to thinking about, or analyzing, or sitting with what is perceived as a desire that needs to be fulfilled. For your everyday existence, for meeting society’s demands, and for keeping body and soul together, this is an excellent tool. It is not to be confused with the consciousness that you are. That which you are is not a citizen of time or place. You are not of this Earth. You are not of this era. Before time began, you existed. In all possible creations you exist. You are one with the infinite Creator. Being able to separate these two strands of being is sometimes extremely helpful when you are working with desires. For that which you are as a citizen of eternity is, in itself, what this instrument would call a safe place to rest from this seemingly ceaseless process of arising desire and the satisfaction or the disappearance of desire.

Be sure that when you use the mind you use it as you would any tool or resource. Be sure that you do not allow the mind to use you. For, as we said, the mind of the physical vehicle has a life of its own, and it can, and it will drive your consciousness to distraction if you allow the mind to race away with you. It is a good tool. It is a poor, poor master. Rather, we would suggest that you come to the working with desire from the heart because the heart is that point within the energy system of the body wherein the one infinite Creator dwells and awaits the reaching of the hopeful heart. It is as though that which you most keenly desire with your spirit and your soul is already within you, more yours than your breathing or your heartbeat, closer to you than your own bones and flesh, so that the judgment and analysis and understanding that you have within you and can apply to questions that you have about desire are in place, waiting for you to achieve the quietness and confidence of self, to turn to them and to allow them their full sway.

Whether a seeker decides to get this car, or that computer, or that larger tent in a very important way makes almost no difference in the spiritual life of the seeker that makes these choices. But when you move into the area of desires for qualities, for truth, for higher spiritual capacity, then you are beginning to work with desires that are very helpful in terms of acceleration of your spiritual self, the moving forward of that process of the evolution of the spirit for which you took flesh in the first place. When next you have these desires for things or for qualities gaze at them from a secure and restful place from within your own heart, knowing that you have all that you need if you are one with the infinite Creator, yet knowing that you dance the dance of life. And while you are moving through the steps of this beautiful and intricate dance, desires shall arise and may well be satisfied. Know that this is a not only accepted but protected activity, that you have not cast yourself into the outer reaches of foolishness simply because of desire. For it is your nature and your glory to desire, but what shall you desire? There is always the choice. 

And then Q’uo said that we should not confuse our mind with our consciousness because we are not a citizen of time or space since we existed before time began, and we exist in all possible creations since we are one with the infinite Creator. They said if we can separate these two strands of being it would help us to work with our desires because we are a citizen of eternity which is a safe place to rest from the ceaseless process of arising desire and the satisfaction or the disappearance of desire. Q’uo continued by saying that we should not allow the mind to use us because it has a life of its own, and it will drive our consciousness to distraction if we allow it race away with us. So, Q’uo suggested that we work with the desires from our heart because our heart is where the one infinite Creator dwells and awaits our reaching because that which we greatly desire with our soul is already within us. They said that what we desire was more a part of us than our breathing or our heartbeat, and that the analysis and understanding that we have can apply to questions about our desires are in place, waiting for us to achieve the quietness and confidence of our self, so we should turn to them and to allow them to work for us. Then Q’uo said that our choices in the outer world are not important, but when we consider our desires for truth and for higher spiritual capacity, then we are beginning to work with desires that will aid the process of the evolution of our spirit for which we incarnated. Q’uo completed their response by saying that whether we desire things or qualities that we should see them from a place within our heart where we have all that we need if we are one with the Creator, and then we can continue to dance the dance of our life knowing that desires will continue to arise within this dance as it is a protected activity to choose what we desire. On May 26, 1985, Latwii spoke of how we may look within our hearts to see the desires that aid us in making choices:

We can suggest, however, that you look within the heart of your own being to see what is the basic desire that motivates your actions and your efforts. If you desire to serve with all your heart, then in this choice you cannot be incorrect, for the intention to serve is that which is seen and that which carries weight. We do not mean to seem obscure. We, in this instance, deal with a most delicate matter, for how to serve is the crucial question which each of your peoples who seeks in conscious sense must deal with and in some way reconcile, for to serve is not a case of the black and white easily made choice.

We would at this time make an offer and also leave this instrument. Our offer, as always, is if there is a desire for help as you are seeking, say, to deepen a meditation or a contemplation, we are happy if you will call on us to be with you, not to speak with you but simply to add our meditation to your own. For in many cases this actually helps in stabilizing or deepening a meditative state and is part of that which we are allowed to do without infringing upon free will. Call us mentally to you by our name, and we are glad to be with you at any time.

We would at this time leave this instrument and transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument. We are those known to you as those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves to speak to any further queries which those present may have for us. Is there another query at this time?

S; I have been participating with a group which purports to be Zetas and I have doubts about the service orientations of those of that group. Could you give me your perspective?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. It is our great desire to be of service through speaking to groups such as this one, for in so speaking we have the opportunity to walk with each a certain distance, shall we say, upon the journey of seeking. And if we may speak in a manner which offers catalyst and inspiriting we feel blessed. We at all times seek to avoid infringing upon the free will of any entity to whom we speak. There are many ways in which free will may be abridged, and we are aware that if we give a blessing or a warning to an entity such as yourself who is working with other groups then, perhaps, our speaking will carry too much weight in that regard. Therefore, in matters such as this we leave the process of discrimination to you, my brother, for we are aware that you are able to assess the nature of any information which comes within your provenance. Thus, we must apologize for not being able to give you that which you seek in this case, for we would not take from you the opportunity to exercise your own powers of discrimination.

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I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. Is there any other query, my brother, to which we might attempt to respond?

S; Yes. There has been a gentleman named C, a young man who through the internet has been asking me for advice, spiritual and otherwise, and I am not quite sure how he fell into it, and I am concerned that I am giving him good advice. I ask for your thoughts on that.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We would suggest to you that as you have come in contact with this entity that there is no mistake or happenstance about the crossing of your paths. This entity has been drawn to you, for there is within this entity’s subconscious feelings the impulse to seek information from those sources which it values. Thus, as you speak with this entity and share with him that which is your best and highest information and inspiration you give to him that which he seeks. You must also realize that this entity is, as yourself, one who is able to discriminate between that information that he receives that is helpful to him and that information that is not helpful to him. Thus, we would encourage you in your sharing information with this entity that you…

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This morning I recorded the section on Parenting in Chapter Four of 102. Then I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the front and side yards into the area next to the pet cemetery.

This afternoon I recorded the section on suicide from Chapter Four of 102. Then I went on an errand run with my first stop being at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. My second stop was at AutoZone to pick up some 50:1 2-cycle engine oil. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to pick up some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some Pepsi Zero and some non-food items.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert;

November 13

The Doorway To Freedom

I am of the principle of Jesus Christ, the Love of almighty God, the Creator and preserver of all things. I greet you in that self-same consciousness of Love which enlivens the dead and causes the still to dance with joy.

You cling very tenaciously to your ideas of right and wrong and assume that your perceptions operate not only on your own behalf but also on behalf of all. Yet you have not the authority to make that assumption. It is only in the desires and biases of those who contend with you that you may find the doorway to a more gracious concept of rightness which allows the freedom of others to find their own rightness in their own way and at their own time.

How can you know the perceptions of another? How do you dare to assume that you have the perception of Christ? We rebuke you not to break your love of right into little pieces but rather to scatter your presumption in living an unexamined life. Ask for the grace to be given a wider view and I shall be there.

May the peace that you seek be with you always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight;

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote comes from September 26, 1999;

The question this week concerns our desire to know what we are doing when we attempt to serve another person. Could Q’uo talk to us about the equality of service, if such is so, between washing dishes, raising children, sending rockets to the moon, teaching, feeding thousands, whatever we may do? We would like some information about what we really are doing when we serve another person.

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, and we thank you for calling us to your circle of seeking this day. We are most happy to share our thoughts and our opinions with you on the nature of service to others and what is involved in serving another. This is certainly a fascinating and central topic. We ask of you that you listen to what we have to say with a good deal of discrimination, taking that which seems to you to have use and leaving the rest behind. We encourage each always to use those inner powers of discrimination to sift and test data and thoughts that you receive from the world that is around you. For many are the thoughts that those around you think, and yet not all of these thoughts are helpful.

We come as those with a simple and single message: that all is one and that that one thing is the infinite Creator which is also Love. We see a universe which is unal, unified, of one piece, of one thing. We also, as you, see an infinite array of universes, all of which are unique, different one from the other as snowflakes are, as people are, as all living things are, both obviously of one kind and obviously of infinite variety. We see in our way of looking at the universe that there is a natural instinct implicit in the parts of this unity that is all that there is to fit together in such a way that all are fed, and all needs are met. We see a universe in which there are orders of beings, and we see the order of being that is the level of your present incarnational experience as level three, the first two levels being inanimate or seemingly inanimate matter such as rocks, water, air and fire and animate objects, those plants and animals which can turn towards the sun and move about under their own power.

We see this level three as being one in which the instinct to serve remains within the heart while a veil is drawn over the deep memory of why this desire is so deeply ingrained. It is an instinct for beings of level three to wish to be of service, to wish to have a purpose, to wish to help or improve the situations in which they find themselves. The instinct is there. It depends greatly upon the culture in which entities of this density grow up as to how any individual might come to think about the question of how to be of service. In the culture which has produced those which sit in this group we see a heavy emphasis upon activity and accomplishment of a physical type. Thusly, it is normal for each of you, when thinking about service to others, to think in terms of actions that take place in the outer world.

However, when entities such as yourselves commit themselves to living a life of service and seek it, they are working as citizens of eternity rather than citizens of space and time. For the world of the seeker who has become consciously aware of the desire to seek further and who is consciously attempting to live such a life, the terrain shifts from the world of physical objects and activities to a world of thoughts, ideas and intentions. These two worlds merge within the seeker, for the seeker is living in two worlds at the same time. The seeker is living in a very physical consensus reality, in which consensus reality rules apply, and in that world it would seem obviously better to feed one thousand people than to feed one, to heal one thousand people than to heal one, to console one thousand people than to console one. Further, it would seem obvious that the seeker who is putting in a considerable amount of her energy and her time upon seeking within the self, meditating, spending time in contemplation, that this kind of activity was not serving others. It would seem obvious that this kind of activity is selfish and service to self. The confusion that the seeker often feels is because these two worlds are offering conflicting pictures and giving conflicting information. For within the world of spirit it is not at all obvious that it is better to heal a thousand than to heal one. It is not at all obvious that spending time upon one’s development as a person is selfish. In fact, to the contrary, in the world of metaphysical existence time spent upon developing the gifts and skills of the Spirit can be clearly seen to be service to others’ work of the highest order. Let us look at this concept.

When this instrument thinks of one who has excelled beyond any other in service to others, this instrument immediately thinks of Jesus the Christ. Here was an entity who did not behave according to the normal standards of the culture in which he lived. Because this entity’s father was a carpenter this entity would be considered to be a carpenter, for that was the way of the culture into which this entity was born. This entity did not satisfy the requests of consensus reality that were thrust upon him by the world in which he lived. Rather, this entity was moved by inner direction, first to seek out the wisdom within its own culture, then to seek out the wisdom of other cultures in lands which neighbored his own. This entity did not ever hold a job or earn money. This entity, thusly, did not contribute to society in the accepted ways of his culture, nor did this entity marry, have children and become husband, father, advisor and wise old man. Rather, this entity wandered from place to place, owning very little, seeking within his own heart, moving according to those inner dictates that called to him from planes beyond the one in which he dwelled.

Fasting, praying, talking to those who wished to talk about the spiritual journey, this entity eventually gathered about himself students, and gradually the entity began to have abilities that were remarkable. And, yet, the healings and the manifestations which the one known as Jesus eventually became able to offer to those about him were not a product of any part of the outer or consensus world, but, rather, were the fruit of a long and arduous process of self-discovery and purification of self which this very gifted individual felt called to pursue. When this entity then was able to open a channel within which miracles could take place, the entity was able to do this not through anything that he did but through that which he was. This was an entity who had worked long and hard to open up the deeper levels of his own mind, consciousness and heart.

The group question for this session was; ‘’The question this week concerns our desire to know what we are doing when we attempt to serve another person. Could Q’uo talk to us about the equality of service, if such is so, between washing dishes, raising children, sending rockets to the moon, teaching, feeding thousands, whatever we may do?’’ Q’uo began their reply by saying that they see the infinite universe as the Love of the Creator which is unified and within this unity the needs of each entity are met at the third level of the universe, and at this level of being the desire to be of service remains within the heart and is an instinct which is buried beneath the veil of forgetting. Q’uo went on to say that the nature of the service would depend upon the culture into which one was born, and our culture saw service as that which was offered in the outer world, but when entities such as in this group begin living a life of service they are as citizens of eternity rather than citizens of space and time. Then Q’uo said that world of the seeker who desires to seek further and is consciously attempting to live such a life, the seeking changes from the world of physical objects and activities to a world of thoughts, ideas and intentions, and the seeker is living in two worlds at the same time. Q’uo continued by saying that the seeking while living within the consensus reality it would seem obvious that it is better to serve a thousand people that to serve one, and if the seeker is spending time in meditation and seeking to know more of herself that this would be a selfish act. Then Q’uo said that this was not true because developing the gifts of the Spirit is service to others’ work of the highest order, and then they used Jesus as an example of one who was considered a carpenter in the outer world but who was moved by inner direction to; ‘’first seek out the wisdom within its own culture, then to seek out the wisdom of other cultures in lands which neighbored his own. This entity did not ever hold a job or earn money. This entity, thusly, did not contribute to society in the accepted ways of his culture.’’ So, Q’uo said that Jesus followed the calling of His heart that came from the higher planes and gathered about Him disciples and eventually developed the healing skills and other physical manifestations that were not of the consensus reality that were a function of his self-discovery and purification, and these miracles were not a product of who He was but were His ability to open up deeper levels of His own mind, consciousness and heart. On October 27, 2007, Q’uo spoke of the nature of obtaining the gifts of the Spirit:

Yet, in terms of process, there is that sensation of needing to move from the outer world through the doorway into the inner world. Basically, you as entities are a living doorway, a living gate, an interface so that the one infinite Creator, in a far less distorted form than you can appreciate with your senses, can move in power into your life. Those known as Ra have described this function as being the gateway to intelligent infinity.

In order to approach this gateway, much work has already been done. For it is impossible to enter the gateway of indigo ray until the entity has gathered the entirety and the wholeness of its integrated self into the heart and has done the work of forgiving and falling in love with this integrated self, with its many perceived faults.

Therefore, we speak of those seekers who have achieved—either by gifts of the Spirit or by a process of work in consciousness and the disciplining of the personality—the ability to yearn for and desire that essence of the one infinite Creator that can be pulled through that gateway and into the energy body which is interpenetrating the physical body, thereby bringing infinity and eternity into a finite environment.

The model of this activity is that of what is known in the Buddhist world as kundalini. You have the infinite Love and Light of the one Creator streaming through the chakra system from the bottom up, feeding it with an infinite supply of Light. This is the power and the energy with which you work in getting to know yourself, becoming friends with yourself, and working with all of the various aspects of physical life on Earth as you know it.

In itself, it is a powerful and infinite energy. And yet, as the seeker begins to mature, he begins to have a yearning and a thirst for the immediate impact of divine Light. Therefore, as the seeker becomes more aware of the true nature of his desire, he begins to be able to focus that desire and to set an intention to ask for the highest and best.

As the seeker does this on a continuing and intensifying basis, that gateway to intelligent infinity becomes clear. As that intensification persists, the gateway opens, and the Light of inspiration comes through to bless and fructify the fallow and waiting soul.

When this instrument challenges us in the name of Jesus the Christ we are able to answer her not so much because this entity died on a cross, hoping to save the world by its sacrifice, but rather because this entity had a quality of being that was maximal in terms of the purity and profundity of his intention. Or to put it another way, because of the utterness of his Love.

Each of you has a heart full of love. And, yet, because it is a human heart with a human love, the human supply will run out quickly when it is placed under stress. The hope that each seeker has of becoming a person that may hold a higher quality of Love is the hope of moving more and more into the world of eternity and away from the world of space and time, cause and effect, quantity, and quality, and differentiation. The one known as St. Paul the Apostle wrote most beautifully that one may do all manner of wonderful things, but if one has not Love, one is nothing but a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal1. And perhaps this seed thought may open to you the nature of service to others. For it is not what service you do, it is the Love with which you do this service that makes all services equal. It is not the healing or the feeding or the changing or the washing that you do. It is the quality of Love with which you do it.

How can you develop your being to be capable of ever more fullness of Love, but by moving within and paying attention to the self and the processes of the self. And many times this process feels selfish, self-absorbed and narcissistic. You think to yourself, “I am taking these walks and having these thoughts and basically screwing around, not being useful.” And we put ourselves down for the very thing that will go furthest towards deepening our quality of selfhood. We say, “we,” because it is not only in third density that this is an issue. We still very deeply hope and pray to learn more about how to serve.

One thing we have come to know for ourselves with great certainty is that it is in the opening of the self to the processes of spiritual evolution and the seating of these openings with daily and with repetitive exercises that realizations have the best atmosphere into which to come. You are as a human being at the third level, just at the beginning of the road that is infinite, just making the acquaintance of the self, just finding out precisely who and what you are. And as you work with the self and pay persistent attention to the thoughts of the self you are working to open and deepen the shuttle or linkage from the world of space and time to the world of eternity. You are a place in which two worlds meet. And as spiritual entities you are attempting to be, and in that being, to yield to and embrace Love itself.

This instrument has thought much of late upon the many false steps that she considers that she has made as she has persisted in attempting to create what she calls the Wanderer’s Handbook. We say to you for each person, for each intention to serve, this is the pattern to expect. That pattern of many false starts which seem upon the surface to be useless and yet which are very rich in learning. Many times of seeming paralysis in which there does not seem to be any way to move forward, and many times of seeming success where there seems to be progress, there seems to be success. The further that one gets from one particular process the easier it is to use hindsight, to look back and say, “There, just there was when I really found pay dirt. There was the time of service. There was the time when I did it right.” And yet this, too, is an illusion, for at the level of essential being there is no sense of failure at the false starts. There is no sense of failure at the times of paralysis. And there is no sense of success when the world says that you have success. But rather, there is the one infinite Creator. There is the self utterly with the one infinite Creator and hoping through faith and will to become more and more like the infinite Creator. And less and less like a dream within a dream within a dream.

Then Q’uo said that Jesus’s very being was the service of Love which it offered to all, and it is this Love with which we do our service that makes all services equal whether it is healing, or feeding, or washing clothes that we do. So Q’uo said that we can help our being to be able to experience more fullness of Love by going within and paying attention to our self and the function of our self, but often this process feels selfish and narcissistic. Q’uo said that; ‘’we put ourselves down for the very thing that will go furthest towards deepening our quality of selfhood. We say, “we,” because it is not only in third density that this is an issue. We still very deeply hope and pray to learn more about how to serve.’’ They went on to say that one thing they had come to know about themselves was that it was in the opening of their selves to the processes of spiritual evolution with repetitive exercises that realizations are more likely to occur. Q’uo continued by saying that as we are third density beings we are just beginning this infinite spiritual journey to find out who and what we are, and as we work with our thoughts, we are creating a link with space/time and eternity, and as spiritual entities we are attempting to embrace Love through our being. Then Q’uo said that there is no sense of failure with false starts, and there is no sense of success when others say that we have succeeded because there is only our self that is one with the infinite Creator, and by exercising our faith and will to become more and more like the infinite Creator we will be less like a dream within a dream within a dream. On May 29, 1994, Q’uo said that by exercising our faith and will we may know the Creator:

The quality of faith balanced by the exercise of will are the rod and the staff which can comfort the seeker. By continuing to exercise faith and will that opportunities are available for the seeker to grow, to serve and to know the Creator then such opportunities are indeed available.

Where is reality to a spiritual entity but in the present moment and within the Love within that moment? Why are all ways of service equal? Because they all address the same thing. They all come from the same being. Each entity came into incarnation with gifts, with endowments of nature, and when one considers what to do with the self it is well to consider with the eye of reason the self and the gifts of the self. What are the natural proclivities, natural affections of the self? For truly these preferences are there for a very good reason, not to distract, or disturb, or move someone off the path, but rather to help point out the path that is to be taken. Seen with the eye of reason it is perfectly logical to look for the service that one may do in terms of one’s gifts, in terms of what one person can do. Can this one person do physical things? Can this person heal? Can this person teach? These are questions the self can ask of the self when looking at the question of service. And yet seen with the eye of faith the question is not, “What are my gifts?” But rather, “What is Your will for me, infinite One? What good works have You prepared for me to walk in? Help me to see better. And when I see them, help me to meet them.”

We are, in your world, as smoke or haze. We are a melody upon the wind. We are a thought within the mind. We are an energy and a level of awareness into which this entity which is our channel has tapped. We very deliberately are not flesh and bone, those who come into your skies, those who land upon your earth. We do not see our service as including the outer manifestation that proves us to be real. We wish simply to be a quiet and available voice upon the wind, for this is where we perceive our service to lie. In terms of the world, our service is obscure and, in many ways, meaningless. But we continue to be satisfied with the blessings that this kind of contact has offered to us, for we believe that it is not our words but, rather, the vibration that accompanies our words that is essentially our service. You know our hearts, for we have opened them to you, and you feel comfort from our beingness. And in this we are satisfied that we have offered the highest service that we know how to offer.

Again, we know we give comfort and reassurance. We know that we give food for thought. But we would say that our perception of how we are serving is that we offer a quality of beingness that underlies these messages that speaks not of us but of the one infinite Creator. We do not want you to look at us. We want to join you in looking at the one infinite Creator. We see that in you. You see that in each other and in us, and that quality of comfort and reassurance and belonging moves from the Creator to us to you and out into the world. And we can see the energy moving that we allow through us and that you then allow through yourself, and we are humbly and profoundly satisfied. And we would encourage each of you to see yourself as one who has within that being of self those seeds which flow out of the self to comfort and reassure those about you. See yourselves as those through whom undistorted and infinite Love and Light may love. You have prepared good works for yourself to walk in. You do not know what scale they might be on or what direction in which they might lie until you find your feet moving instinctively and naturally, and your direction finds itself; and there is a moment of realization and a pattern; for a moment, is clear and you say, “Oh, now I understand.” These moments are rare. But they are a blessing when they come. Wait for these moments in perfect faith. They will come. And know that your highest and best service will be opened to you one moment at a time.

The one known as R speaks of entering this or that avenue for additional service, and we would say move with that which moves your heart, but know that if such and such a choice were not made, if the entity did not go forth into another environment but stayed within the one which offers comfort and pleasure at the present time, yet still the same quality of service would be offered, would come about. Indeed, one cannot escape one’s opportunities for growth and for service. They are so much a part of the warp and woof of the incarnational experience that there is no escaping them. Your purposes will find you where you are if you listen. And so, we simply ask you to rest, insofar as you are able, in the sure knowledge that you are not alone, nor are you lost. All that you hoped for and seek will come to you in ways that surprise you often but in ways that are still recognizable in terms of your hopes and your dreams. Hew always to those dreams. Encourage the faith that lies within you. And relax into the moment with its joys and its sorrows and its dailyness. And know that in the most simple and everyday atmosphere stunning and powerful forces are at work and will reveal self to self and service to the seeker.

Now Q’uo said that reality for a spiritual entity is in the present moment and within that moment’s Love, which means that all ways of service are equal because they all address the same thing and come from the same being, and each entity incarnated with gifts, so it is well to consider with the eye of reason the self and the gifts of the self. Then Q’uo said that it was logical to ask what a person’s gifts might be, but when seen with the eye of faith the question is not; “What are my gifts?” But rather, “What is Your will for me, infinite One? What good works have You prepared for me to walk in? Help me to see better. And when I see them, help me to meet them.” Q’uo went on to say that they were not of a material nature but were like voices in the wind, and their service to us was the vibration of the Love in their hearts, and their messages to us were those of the one infinite Creator’s Love and assurance that moves through them, through us, and then out into the world. Q’uo continued by saying that this love will move through us to comfort those around us, but we would not know the means by which this occurs until we find our feet moving instinctively, and there is a moment of realization we say, “Oh, now I understand.” They said that these moments are rare, but they are a blessing when they come, and we should await them in faith that they will come, knowing that our highest and best service will be realized by us one moment at a time. Then Q’uo said that our purposes will find us wherever we are if we, so they said that we should rest in the knowing that we are not alone or lost, and that all we have hoped for will come to us in ways that might surprise us, but we will still recognize them as the fulfillment of our hopes and dreams.  Q’uo completed their response by encouraging us to remember our dreams and the faith that is within us; to relax into the moment of joys and sorrows; and: ‘’know that in the most simple and everyday atmosphere stunning and powerful forces are at work and will reveal self to self and service to the seeker.’’ On January 30, 2010, Q’uo described how the self may reveal the self to the self:

Some there are who wish to deal with their inner life to achieve a full radiance of being. The prayer life is that which uses the indigo ray. There are those who simply sit and allow the self to reveal self to self. The divine aspect of the self is opened, and the things that are not necessary can fall away so that the eye of the self becomes the eye of the Christ, that icon or that symbol of unconditional Love. In that model, then, the lower chakras being opened, the heart being open and the intention set, the entity reaches up through the gateway to ask for that energy of radiance of being which comes down through the body, down through the violet, indigo, blue rays and into the green ray and springboards back up to indigo, where it remains and does its work. This is what we feel is happening in terms of your energy body and how it relates to the one infinite Creator when you pray, or heal, or teach or simply rest and allow the self to be revealed to the self.

We would close this communication through the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each of you again in love and in light through this instrument.

At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may have for us. Is there another query at this time?

Carla; Yes, I sensed that there was a lot of material that I did not get to, and I wondered if you could just continue the train of thought and open to some of what I was not able to open to through the one known as Jim.

I am Q’uo, and you are correct, my sister, in your supposition that there is a great deal of information that is available upon this topic. We are aware, however, of the time restrictions that this group has set for itself, and we are attempting to observe those restrictions so that we do not overtire those present. Thus, we have found a place that is, as you would say, good for the stopping and would focus now upon any short queries before ending this session.

Carla; I would just say that it is frustrating sometimes to have the bridge to the subconscious open and to see the immensity of the structure of thought that is behind the little bit that I am able to say, and I wish that I could move into those immense structures of thought and explore.

I am Q’uo, and we would agree with you, my sister, that there is a great deal of organized information that is available upon not only this topic but upon most topics that are the subject of our speaking to this group. This is so because, of course, as you all are aware, there is a very close connection between all thoughts of each entity. For the one Creator is alive and well and thinking mightily upon all things. And yet does not all of this fine and intricate structure dissolve into the one unifying concept of Love that has created all of us, the thoughts that we think and the means by which we think and observe our thinking. There is as much to be said about such topics as there is time to say it, and of course, within the third density most especially, there are time parameters into which various portions of experience are placed. Then, as we communicate with you, we also seek to observe the patterns of your life, the ways in which information is sought, and we look at that which we have to offer of our own opinion and seek to form it into a shape which will fit your needs. If there were only five of your minutes, for example, to give information upon this topic we would attempt to hit more of the high points, shall we say, than attempt to interweave a more intricate connection of these points as was our desire during this session of working.

Is there another query at this time?

Carla; Yes, I have one on a completely different topic. I got an e-mail from a fellow who had an experience where in a dream or somewhere he saw a skull which shot out a green light from its eyes into his eyes. When that happened he could feel that he was changed and he saw his shadow walk up to him and join him, and from that time he has cleansed his body. He is now a vegetarian and seeks in meditative and contemplative ways and he has asked about the shadow. Is it something added to him or some part of him rejoining him, or what was happening here?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Indeed, within the dreaming state there is the opportunity for each entity to feel a revitalization, a rejuvenation, a rededication and an inspiration which will move one beyond one’s previous self. In experiences as the one described today where there is a connection made with the self that is profound and powerful, one may look to the addition of those latent powers, those essences of the subconscious mind that become available to the conscious seeking self. Thus, in this particular experience the shadow may well represent those hidden attributes that this entity has programmed previous to the incarnation as additions that would be sought at some point within the incarnation and made available as doors to the subconscious mind, that dark and hidden place of power, are opened to the conscious mind. Thus does the subconscious mind join with the conscious mind in the conscious seeking during the incarnation.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla; No. I thank you for that answer.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

R; No. Not from me. Thank you for all that you have said.

I am Q’uo, and we thank each present for inviting us to speak our simple thoughts and opinions this day. We would again ask each to use discrimination in choosing that which to place within the life pattern and that which to leave behind. We are those of Q’uo, and would take our leave of this instrument and this group. We leave each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I recorded the section on relationships from Chapter Four of 102. At 10 this morning I was on a zoom meet with Gary and Austin where we were interviewed by a fellow in Scotland concerning how various people use the Law of One in their spiritual journeys.

This afternoon I went outside and pumped one quarter of the water out of the fishpond. While the water was being pumped out of the pond, I put the five pots of water lilies on the bottom of the pond for the rest of the fall and winter. Then I repaired a tear in the netting on the west side of the pond.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 12

The Man, Jesus

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

Gaze you now within upon a man of love; a man of compassion; a man of sorrows, acquainted with grief; a man who stands your personal friend; a man whom you already love as a personal friend. For such has been his character in all that you have heard about him.

We speak to you of a man, Jesus. The Christ you may worship, but we bring you the man today that you may gaze upon Him and that you may reach out for His hand.

For He is the brother of all humankind and, as you, true son of the Father of all. Think the name, “Jesus,” and the spirit of love shall be with you, for such is the power of that name.

We do not expect each to worship in the same way, to adore in the same fashion, or to offer praise and thanksgiving in the same place. We simply say to you, “Here is one way of gazing upon love. Here is one way of reaching out a hand and becoming one with that comfort.” For you must have no doubt that this man who is eternal is, in His whole being, shot through with love of all that His Father has made.

May you feel the peace and security of being loved and loving, whether you are alone or in a family. All seekers spend spiritual time alone. Yet, seeker, you need never be alone completely if you may say the name, Jesus.

We leave you in that holy friendship, in that gentle brotherhood, in the ineffable peace of the consciousness of love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 12, 1999:

What words of inspiration would Q’uo have for those people who have been on the path of seeking for a long time? They are very familiar with their catalyst. They have seen it come around again and again. Maybe they are beginning to wonder if they are ever going to get anywhere with their catalyst. So we would like to ask Q’uo what words of inspiration Q’uo would have for people who might be getting a bit burnt out on the spiritual trail?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator in whose service we come to you this day. May we say what a joy it is to rekindle the contact that we have enjoyed with your group of seekers for some of your time now. The opportunity that you offer us is greatly appreciated. The energy that you bring to us as you endeavor to aid in your own spiritual evolution is very inspiring to us, for we are aware of the darkness in which you labor and the thick illusion which conceals from you within your illusion the true shape of the form of that catalyst which comes to you.

This instrument has been a fan of the television series, The X-Files, and we find in her memory many instances where these two agents of the government had no light but their flashlights to peer into the darkness of their own seeking for their own truths, and so it is with each of you. You have the flashlight of hope, and faith, and will to see into the inky blackness of that spiritual night which both day and night upon your Earth world are.

We hear with sympathy the pain and the effort in the question for us today concerning seekers who have been upon their path for a long time, long enough to begin to see into the patterns of learning which are cyclical in nature. These patterns of learning are different for each seeker due to the arrangements that each seeker has made before the incarnation. Each entity will have an unique set of incarnational lessons. In some cases, this list of lessons is very short. Perhaps one or two themes were chosen to work on during this incarnation. In these cases perhaps the pattern is more easily seen more quickly. This does not mean that it is easily balanced. Others have more complex and interrelated incarnational lessons. And to the ear of logic such lessons are baffling because the connections between the various levels of the lessons are not logical. We cannot say that they are illogical. Perhaps the expression would be extra logical.

If the seeker recognizes himself in this description then perhaps we can simply say that for you the patterns may not seem regular for some time, during which there is much confusion. However, we always encourage that patience which waits to see more of the pattern, for those patterns which are not yet completely seen will look chaotic and will seem to have no order. Nevertheless, this is the creation of the Father, and in that creation there is infinite order.

You ask us for inspiration in words to those who are tired and burnt out on the spiritual path. In a way, anything that will be put into words will be inadequate to the task of lightening the feelings of being heavy laden that drown the senses of the seeker who is weary. What words can change darkness to light, or sadness to joy, when the ineluctable facts that have given rise to the weariness remain as they are? For each entity has vigorously and eagerly created incarnational lessons that are tremendously challenging. What words can make someone forgive the self for being so eager to learn, so eager to learn that the plate of life is overfilled with things to digest during the lifetime?

Before the incarnation began each seeker gazed upon the life to come as though it were a gem, a ruby, an opal, a diamond, with each facet fascinating and pure in its lucid power. Each of you held this gem of incarnation in your figurative hand and gazed upon it with joy and eagerness to begin. Before incarnation the pattern was there for you to see in all of its detail. In that state the look into the actual lifetime lived in space and time looked tiny, as the moon looks just so large as the thumbnail when it rises. Unfortunately for the temperament, the moon that was the size of the thumbnail is now seen as a planetoid with crevices and mountains and dust and earth. It is not small at all, and the pattern has nowhere to express itself. For that faculty of knowing and vision is closed somewhere around the moment of the birth into the Earth plane.

This instrument recently held a baby that was less than five hours old. The nails upon the hand of this infant were so tiny that they could barely be seen, and yet they were perfect in every detail. The tiny little mouth, eyes barely large enough to see, the tiny form, so new to breathing and crying, and expressing the self within the illusion. It is probable that already this tiny infant had feelings of weariness and despair, wondering where all the quiet has gone, where all the wisdom and knowledge and closeness of the bond with the mother has gone. Why is it colder? Why do I have these coverings upon my body? What is this thing called life? The veil drops and does not rise again, and is it any wonder that the seeker grows weary? And yet we say to you that you can at any moment turn a corner within your self and come upon a new world.

The group question for this session was: “What words of inspiration would Q’uo have for those people who have been on the path of seeking for a long time? They are very familiar with their catalyst. They have seen it come around again and again. Maybe they are beginning to wonder if they are ever going to get anywhere with their catalyst. So we would like to ask Q’uo what words of inspiration Q’uo would have for people who might be getting a bit burnt out on the spiritual trail?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that the veil of forgetting hides the true nature of our catalyst, and we only have the light of our hope and faith to see into the darkness of our world on Earth. So, they said that they had sympathy for those seekers who have been on their spiritual path for such a great period of time and who are looking for the cyclical patterns that will reveal their lessons to them. Q’uo continued by saying that the pattern of lessons will be unique for each seeker, and there could be various levels of lessons for some that would be beyond the logical understanding, so they encouraged the seeker to be patient in their attempt to discover the pattern that is within the lessons because the creation of the Father does have an infinite order to it. Q’uo went on to say that each seeker has created these lessons before the incarnation that are so challenging because then it seemed like such a great opportunity to learn since the pattern was there for the seeker to see in all of its detail, but within the incarnation it was necessary for the seeker to forgive itself for choosing more lessons than it had the ability to learn. Then Q’uo said that the ability to see the pattern of lessons ended with the birth of the seeker because the veil drops, and it is not surprising that the seekers grow weary, but they said that it is possible that at any moment the seeker may turn a corner within the self and discover a new world within it. On October 25, 1987, Latwii said that it is possible to discover a new world within the self to learn the lessons of the incarnation:

It often takes a great deal of an incarnation to rebuild trust betwixt two which have hurt each other in heart, mind, or spirit. Yet it can be done in a moment if each turns first to the Creator, and then, knowing a new world within the self, turn to each other. Turn and turn and turn, becoming more and more graceful as each conversation and confrontation is experienced.

We may say in closing that many, many incarnations have been planned by entities incarnate at this time to include very serious challenges to faith and a life lived in love and service. Before the incarnation, each of you considered well that which you wished to accomplish. Now that you are experiencing the actual classes which you chose for yourself, you may feel, in this instrument’s scholastic vocabulary, that you have taken too many hours, that you have enrolled in too many courses, and that you cannot possibly conclude and do well in this exercise of study and expression of the fruits of that study which is commonly called life upon your sphere.

We would ask you to move with us in thought. Take the attention within. Move into the darkness of your own mind, breathing in and breathing out. Allow the tension to move deeper and deeper within the self, down through the roots of mind, through the archetypical mind, through the mind of Christ. Feel the tides of time and space flicker and vanish. Feel the stars themselves give way to that which is neither light nor dark but Deity Itself. Feel this energy of Deity that rests and yet contains all creations that are, all that were and all that shall be. And yet you are balanced, looking nowhere, sensing nowhere, bound in one mote of lucid energy. You have nowhere to go, for you are everywhere that is. You have no knowledge to give for you are everything that is. At this state there are no cycles to complete. There is nothing to do. There is nowhere to go. All is perfect now. Allow this awareness to move back into time and space, back into the stars, into the Earth plane, into your physical vehicle. This is the essence of you, resting within a vessel of clay. You are beyond description. You are beyond all worlds, all space and time. You are perfect. Remember this feeling. Come back again and again to this tabernacle of no time and no space where you are and you are perfect, and there is nowhere to go and nothing to do. For this is the truth about you; beyond all your endeavors and all your suffering this remains the truth of each.

Now let us turn and look upon the landscape that offers itself to you. There, just there, is, indeed, the catalyst that you know so well. There the pen to write. There the decision to make. There the life to live. There the grace to write. Are you rats in a maze? Do you see your higher self as the scientist that is running you mindlessly through a useless task? As the one known as St. Paul would say, “May it never be!” Far closer to the truth is that your higher self is a spiritual entity with a healthy appetite who signed you up for, perhaps, more courses than you wished that you had now that you are at least through at least half of your semester at school in the Earth school. There is one difference in this Earth school from all schools that you are familiar with, and that difference is that there is no requirement for you to make a grade. There is no teacher to set an arbitrary standard that you must achieve.

Rather, you are completely in charge of how much you wish to learn, how far you wish to take each portion of phase of each lesson. You may not feel that you have control, and this is frustrating. But we say to you that you do have full control over your incarnation. If you are too weary to move on, if that is the sense that you get at this point, then we say to you, lighten the load. Remove expectations from your own self and allow yourself to play, to be as the daisies that dance upon the wind, carefree and blameless. You do not have to learn today. You do not have to work today. You have to do only that which is in your heart to do.

When you become frustrated with the self, with the lessons, with the pattern, then it is that we encourage the lifting of the self from pain. And how is this done? For some personalities it is accomplished by moving into the silence, by going for the walks, the meditative reflective times. For other personalities it may be that the choice is to remove the self physically from that which is frustrating, turning the attention to others things. But whatever your personality, we suggest to you that the inspiration that lifts frustration is within you and within this moment if you can but allow the self to express its nature through your instrument. For you are not as you think you are, but, rather, you are a personality shell that distorts the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator in just this and that way. You are an instrument. You are an instrument of a certain kind. You are a citizen of a world that you do not see. The great baffling thing about spiritual seeking is that you seem to be in one world, a world with sidewalks and chairs and furniture and cars and movie theaters. Yet in actuality, once you awaken spiritually, you are in a creation of energy fields and all of your work is upon your energy field, the vibration of that field and its dynamics when coming into contact with other fields of energy. Each person that you encounter has a field of energy, and you will interact with that energy in certain ways suggested by your distortion and the distortion of the other self. Ideas are fields of energy, and as you come into contact with them there are dynamics between the field of energy that is you and the field of energy that is an idea or an ideal quality that you may wish to pursue.

You are, as a spiritual seeker, in a universe of thought, of being, of essence. It will always be frustrating to live in two worlds, but it is just that dynamic that creates the fertile field for your acceleration of spiritual evolution. Know yourself to be ever on the path and yet ever at rest. Know yourself to be ever learning, yet always knowing. Know yourself to be ever striving, yet always having arrived at precisely the place for which the strife exists. Knowing the self, allow the self to be the self. Release and release and again release the self from the stricture of making sense, of coming up to snuff, passing the grade. Each release, each forgiveness, each new level of acceptance will bring its own inspiration and offer its own opportunities for transformation.

Then Q’uo suggested that we close our eyes and enter into a state of meditation in which we go deeper and deeper through our subconscious mind, the archetypical mind, into the mind of Deity, the Creator, and then look around and see that there is no light or darkness and feel the energy of Deity as all that is or shall ever be, and there is nothing for us to do because all is perfect. Q’uo continued by saying that we should return to the tabernacle of no time or space many times because here we are perfect, and there is nowhere to go and nothing to do as this is the truth of each one of us as we experience our lives of difficulty. Then Q’uo said that as we return to our life experience of catalyst to experience and choices to make that we will discover that our higher self who has signed us up for more courses than we wished to take and now that we are at least through half of our semester in the Earth school, and there is no teacher or requirement for us to make a grade. Q’uo said that it may seem that we have no control over our lives, but we do have control, and we can do whatever is in our hearts to do which we can determine by entering the silence of meditation, going for walks, or removing our attention from difficult experiences. Then Q’uo suggested that we are a personality shell that distorts the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator in our own unique way, and the confusing thing about spiritual seeking is that we seem to be living in a world of physical objects and group activities, but in truth we are living in fields of energy. They said that we will interact with that energy in ways that are determined by our distortions and the distortions of others, and this would also be true for ideas that are fields of energy, and as we experience them there are dynamics between our field of energy and the field of energy that is an ideal quality that we may wish to pursue. Then Q’uo said that as spiritual seekers we live in a universe of being, and we live in the material world of action, but it is this situation that gives us the chance to grow spiritually because we are always on the spiritual path and resting, learning, and knowing, knowing the self and allowing the self to be the self. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that we should release our self from the need of making sense and passing the grade because: “each release, each forgiveness, each new level of acceptance will bring its own inspiration and offer its own opportunities for transformation.” On September 18, 1983, Latwii spoke of how the continuing of the acceptance of the self and bring the transformation of the self:

The seeker is one who is conscious of the process of evolution. Though each person learns as the one Creator, many do so in a manner which you may consider unconscious. To use our brothers and sisters of Hatonn’s analogy, there is the stumbling into the spotlight, the falling into the orchestra pit, and eventually the entity begins to write the script, which is another way of saying begins to seek in a conscious manner the keys which shall unlock door after door within the inner self, and reveal those treasures of being that await such seeking.

At some point in this process there is another transformation which occurs. This is the transformation in which the seeker not only knows intellectually with the conscious mind that it and all it observes are the one Creator, but experiences more and more the being of the one Creator within its own being. The one Creator is found within, and the entity is found everywhere within the one Creator. As this process becomes more apparent and becomes that which is experienced more and more within the incarnation, the seeker discovers that it is that which it seeks.

This is more than semantics, my friends. To seek is to suggest that the one who seeks spends the efforts looking for that which it is not, yet wishes to become. To know that the self is that which is sought, is the one Creator, is to de-emphasize the seeking and to be that which was previously sought. In this transformation the entity looks upon a new creation. The entity looks upon itself as it surveys that which it is and which formerly would have been seen as that in which it existed. In this transformation there is a greater responsibility assumed by the one which formerly focused its efforts upon seeking. Now this entity, our former sturdy seeker, is that which it sought, and shoulders the responsibility of being all that is. This is not an event which is lightly undertaken, and is most properly placed within that realm of what you may consider the advanced nature of being.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim that we may conclude this session through this instrument. We leave this instrument with thanks, love and light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. We have taken a great deal of pleasure in presenting our offering to you this session of working, and we would ask if our speaking or any other impetus has brought any other queries to your minds. If so, we would be happy to speak to them now.

Carla: I would like for you to speak more about living in two worlds at once. It seems to me that the frustration, the pain of living, is in trying to deal with the Light and see things in a spiritual way and yet there is just no way to escape the fact that we live in the Earth plane and life as it is.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. This is a query which each seeker, from the depths of its soul, asks of any entity which will answer. For it is most difficult for the spiritual seeker who wishes with all its heart to hew to the upper level, to the higher road, to the spiritual journey, to have to dip again into the illusion of third density and to move within a realm that seems to be muddied, confusing and chaotic. This is the nature of your illusion. For if all were as the time/space realm, that is, clear to the eye, to the heart, to the mind, and to the experience of each moment, then there would be no challenge to the seeker to enlarge its scope of being, its realm of possibility, to gain more experience in the rather efficient way that the third density has of impressing upon the seeker the urgency of catalyst. There is within your illusion the benefit of the seeker who wishes to know and yet does not know, and the benefit that we find here is that the angst, the frustration that comes from wishing to know that which is beyond the illusion, beyond the grasp, is that it motivates the seeker to move forward even when the seeker does not recognize forward as forward. For each catalyst, each experience, each event within your illusion has the ability to temper the heart of the seeker, shall we say, the will of the seeker, the faith of the seeker.

There is within frustration an inevitable rededication of the self to seeking, for the temptation is to stop, to quit, to rest, to have done with it. Yet, though this may momentarily give solace to the mind of the seeker there is no quitting, no true stopping. Though one may rest there is always the journey that waits before one. And the heart of each seeker seeks the heart of the one Creator. There is no better way to put it. And when heart seeks heart, there is the motivation to move forward, to learn from that experience, that catalyst about one, enough to move yet a small bit forward, to feel the desire afresh. To feel motivated again. And so this wishing to know what seems beyond knowing is enough, for there is within each frustrated moment the tempering, the hardening, the building up of inner desire to know, to grow, to share, to experience again the great round and round of this illusion. For though frustration may grow greatly there is still in the heart the knowledge that this is as it should be, this is as it must be, this is as it was planned. There is a recognition of the rightness of frustration so that when its fury has worn off there is reborn the kernel of desire, the seed of knowing, the seed of knowledge.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: And when there is bitterness, what can I say to such a person?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. There may be nothing that will satisfy one that feels bitter to the point of quitting, wishing to quit, laying down the desire and withering upon the spot. And, yet, when one feels such desperation and anger to this point of bitterness, perhaps being heard is all that is necessary, and yet one wishes to give more, to share what is in one’s heart the difficulties that you have experienced, the frustrations that you share in common…

[Side one of tape ends.]

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. It is important to make the effort to share with one who has become embittered that which one feels about being bitter, the fruits of bitterness, that there is a lesson that can be learned from bitterness, that there is always an opportunity to begin again. There is always the opportunity every experience that one has had, to drop the illusion of activity, to retreat to a quiet, remote and isolated place within the mountaintops of meditation, to seek there the soothing hand of the one Creator upon the fevered brow, to open the heart finally and fully one last time, to throw down the weight of worry, the burden of frustration, and to ask with a full and bursting heart to be again a child of the Creator, to see again with new eyes, to move again with trembling legs, to ask again the eternal questions, to build the faith and the will to continue.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: On another subject I would like just a short answer. Is it all right if I ask some questions in the future about various facets of the book I am writing? I don’t want to presume that your agency would help me in writing the book.

I am Q’uo. Yes. We hope that was short enough.

Carla: That was sufficiently short. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo. We are always happy, my sister, to speak to any queries that you may have for us. We will always give those responses that we are hopeful that are helpful.

Is there another query at this time?

R: I don’t have an actual question, but I wanted to speak and offer greetings to all the entities of the Confederation that join us here and to thank you for the words of encouragement. Thank you for your company.

I am Q’uo, and we appreciate your comments. We are always grateful to be able to speak to this group and to entertain those queries which we feel come from the heart, for we are also those of the heart and recognize the great desire which fuels the desire of each seeker which hears our words, both those present and those that are removed from this group but who shall hear these words nonetheless.

At this time we shall take our leave of this group and this instrument, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I re-recorded the section on Discipline from Chapter Three of 102. Then I went on an errand run and picked up some sharp shredded cheese and Tylenol from Kroger’s. Then I stopped by Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Speedway to fill Stanley’s tank with gas.

This afternoon I re-recorded the section on Living the Choice to Serve Others from Chapter Four of 102.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 11

Great Companies Within

I am the Holy Spirit of our Lord, Jesus Christ, in the vibration which comforts this instrument. I offer you greetings in the consciousness of Love.

You who are in distress are urged not to turn to those who would extend and amplify that distress by disharmony or even by sympathy which has as its unconscious purpose the deepening of misery.

Turn instead to the companionship of those who rejoice. Within the depths of the interior of your consciousness lie gateways to great companies of those whose songs are always of praise and thanksgiving. And within your conscious life, the careful ear may hear the steadfast encouragement of those whose minds and hearts are fixed on the Love of Christ. For Jesus was a master not of indecision but decision; not of despair but of hope. And even in His moments of trial, He, acknowledging the certainty of human despair, trusted in a greater will than His own and an infinite and ultimately good disposition of all things by and for the Creator.

May you find peace in ultimate things, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 23, 1999:

Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each of you again in the love and the light of the infinite Creator through this instrument. At this time we would offer ourselves to the possibility that there are further queries that rest upon the minds of those present. If there are further queries, may we ask to hear the next query, please?

R: Why was this universe set up as it is? This octave set up with learning about interactions that collapses into another octave?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother, though we do not expect to be able to give a complete answer to a query which is as broad as the creation itself. But we may give some thoughts that we ourselves have considered concerning the nature of the creation as it is and as we have experienced it.

We are aware that there are those who move as completed beings, those which you have called the Logoi, who have the responsibility of taking the stuff, shall we say, of the infinite mind of the one Creator and refining it in such a way so that those entities such as ourselves and yourselves who are under the care of the Logoi are offered greater and greater opportunities to both know the self at its heart and to know the one Creator at Its heart, and to find that one is in the same place when one knows the self and the Creator.

The infinity of creation is dwarfed by the infinity of the Creator, and as each entity which each of us and you is discovers more of the one Creator and more of the self, each is exploring more intensely each density until it is explored in completeness so that the opportunity for a quantum leap to another density is offered to the self.

Thus, each entity in each density is offered increasing opportunities to know more of the creation, the Creator, and the self. By offering steady increments of the one Creator the very structure of the creation allows for a steady growth of each entity rather than an overstimulation which would cause the burning out of those receptors of stimuli which the senses of each entity in each density offers. Thus, each entity is offered a reliable means by which to journey through the creation so that it is a perfectly balanced and self-generating curiosity inspiring mechanism, shall we say. We feel that this is perhaps the best way in which we may describe the creation, for there are infinite ways in which it may be described, and each is in its own way correct, for each perceives that which it is ready to perceive and will move up the centers of energy within the physical, mental and spiritual complex vehicles.

R asked: “Why was this universe set up as it is? This octave set up with learning about interactions that collapses into another octave?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that the question concerned the nature of the entire creation, so they said that they would give an answer according to their experience of it, and then they said that the Logoi were completed beings that included the entire octave of densities who could refine the nature of the infinite mind of the Creator. Q’uo went on to say that this would allow all entities of the densities of creation to know the Creator better as well as know themselves better, and it would also allow the Creator to know Itself better. Q’uo continued by saying that the infinity of the Creator was even greater than the infinity of the creation, and within this octave of creation there was the opportunity for each entity to move through the densities and know themselves and the Creator more fully with each quantum leap. Then Q’uo completed their reply by saying that this process was a balanced means of spiritual growth that gave each entity its own unique way of moving through the energy centers of the physical, mental and spiritual complex vehicles. In 13.13, Ra spoke of how the galactic Logoi refined then nature of the intelligent infinity of the Creator to create solar systems:

Questioner: Was the galaxy that we are in created by the infinite intelligence or was it created by a portion of the individualized infinite intelligence?

Ra: I am Ra. The galaxy and all other things of material of which you are aware are products of individualized portions of intelligent infinity. As each exploration began, it, in turn, found its focus and became co-Creator. Using intelligent infinity each portion created an universe and allowing the rhythms of free choice to flow, playing with the infinite spectrum of possibilities, each individualized portion channeled the love/light into what you might call intelligent energy, thus creating the so-called natural laws of any particular universe.

Each universe, in turn, individualized to a focus becoming, in turn, co-Creator and allowing further diversity, thus creating further intelligent energies regularizing or causing natural laws to appear in the vibrational patterns of what you would call a solar system. Thus, each solar system has its own, shall we say, local coordinate system of illusory natural laws. It shall be understood that any portion, no matter how small, of any density or illusory pattern contains, as in an holographic picture, the One Creator which is infinity. Thus all begins and ends in mystery.

I believe that when Ra was using the term “universe” they were really referring to galaxy as it is the galactic Logoi that create solar systems rather than a galaxy creating a “universe.”

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: Are the completed beings, the Logoi, within time and space or do they stand apart from it as shepherds who then drive the others until all becomes one again and goes into another creation?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Your latter assumption is more nearly correct, for the Logoi entities are without time and space; that is, they are as the shepherds you have described which care for those who are within their provenance. These Logoi entities are entities of completion who, themselves, have not partaken in the progress of evolution from first density to second and so forth but, from the beginning of the creation, are entities of completion, who look upon the previous octaves of beingness for the seeds that shall grow into the next octave of beingness.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: So, because of their completeness of being the Logoi have the ability to perceive other octaves of experience, and I guess it is their choice that they stand apart rather than become part of the Creator?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Rather than saying that it is their choice it is more their nature as a given that they are one with the Creator, yet are enough different that they have the ability to harvest that which has been learned in previous octaves of experience and expand upon these seeds, these lessons, these crystallizations of being, and to partake in further octaves of being.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: It is always fascinating to hear you talk about the larger picture. Thank you. I don’t have any more questions today.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you for those queries which you have offered us with a whole heart. Is there a further query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and again we thank each present for inviting our presence in your circle of seeking this day. It has been, as it always is, a pleasure to join each this day and we remind each that we walk with you at all times for we are one in love and in light and in our common bond of seeking the one Creator together. We invite each to call upon us to deepen your meditative state at any time. At this time, we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I re-recorded the section on The Healthy Use Of Power from Chapter Three of 102.

This afternoon I went upstairs and cleaned Benny’s apartment by using the carpet sweeper on the hall rug. Then I swept her room to get the kitty litter off the floor. Then I used the dust mop to mop all three rooms and the hallway. While I was up there, I re-recorded the section on Self Control from Chapter Three of 102.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 10

The Inner Room Of Thanksgiving And Prayer

I am the spirit of the consciousness of Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of that Love.

We move through timelessness to the point of entry which is the opening of this instrument’s spirit to the inner room of thanksgiving and prayer. And we find that within the inner room of this child are many things that do not belong in such a holy closet.

Why is your meditation not set apart from the things that distress and worry you? When you enter the house of prayer, why do you not shut the door upon the tatters and barking dogs of mundane concern? Think you that by carrying them upon your back into holy places, you shall bless and sanctify petty concerns? Petty concerns shall never be sanctified but only transformed by a simpler and stronger understanding of the value and importance of Love.

If you come to listen, to ask, and to be fed with holy things, then come with a light heart, empty arms, and no burden upon your back. For that which is spiritual will not grow in the soil of familiar problems but must have the soil of quiet, darkness and patience.

How patient is the King of Love! Though His heart is full, His empty hands stretch out to the spirit of one who prays in the house of silence.

Let your inner room, then, be such a house and let your opening into the realm of spiritual things be uncluttered by the concern that you are not wise enough to observe as a being under the dominion of a powerful and triumphant Love. May you triumph by becoming less than your concerns, a humble and silent servant, open to Love.

May that love bring you peace, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 23, 1999:

The question this week has to do with three weeks ago when we began to ask about the devotional life and how to live the devotional life, and we would like to follow up that question by asking how we find more and more of that which we really are, that which is the heart of our being. We would like to hear whatever Q’uo has to say about ways to discover more of our true nature, how to observe our true nature, how to become aware of our true nature, our true being, that which we had planned before the incarnation to have as an opportunity, a way of expressing our soul essence.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are most happy and blessed to be included in your meditation this day, and we appreciate greatly your question for us. Truly, the mystery of deity is wrapped up in this question of how to be one’s true self. For as the one known as Jim read from the Law of One material earlier this day, each is the Creator. And the challenge before all living in illusion is how to become more aware of that personhood as infinite Creator.

The workings of what this instrument would call God and men are as complex and as assorted and varied as the grains of sand upon the shore. It is difficult to comprehend the myriad numbers of sparks of the Creator that are, just as you or we, attempting to be their true selves. It is hard to fathom that, even upon your planet, one small entity amidst a million or a billion other planetary entities, there is such a long history of people such as you attempting to survive, to relate to each other, to accomplish physical and societal, mental, and emotional goals. It is difficult to imagine the thousands of years during which the human experience has basically remained the same. This instrument thinks back over all of the reading that she has done through a long succession of classes and learning experiences, and no matter what the century or the millennium, the human heart has remained the same: seeking wisdom, seeking compassion, seeking the truth, concerned for basically the same things century after century, millennium upon millennium.

As each entity sits in this circle of seeking, she brings to this moment the sum total of all that has been undergone, all that has lasted through the chances and changes of daily living. In one field of energy there lies for each that history of the life and, taken to a bigger scale, the history of that spirit whose personality shell is now occupying the chair. For each of you and each of us has a tremendously long and varied history of incarnations, and experiences, and gifts, and graces, and opportunities, and were we to speak upon any one of you, upon all that that one entity is, we could not exhaust the subject through any amount of time, for each of you is all that there is. Each of you is full and whole and infinite.

As always, for one attempting to come to a place of more awareness the tool of choice is silence. In meditation and in prayer much may be accomplished beneath the surface of that beingness that is each of you. Without words to limit, without thorns to inhibit, the silence speaks in the free and open manner of deity. The more of silence that one may eat as food, the more deep shall come that awareness of the Creator speaking within that system of energies that is the being that is each of you. We hear you speaking of the desire to serve, the desire to give of the self to others and to the planetary energy, and we applaud that hope and that energy, for each of you was indeed careful to include unique gifts in the personality that you chose for this incarnation. And it is wise to seek out one’s gifts and to find ways to use them in the service of others.

Perhaps we may say that when the word “wise” or “wisdom” is heard, we have not yet gotten to the heart of meaning for this particular density. The lesson that is before you at this point is undoubtedly not about wisdom, not about being wise, but rather about discovering the spring of infinite Love. The rational mind can do just so much when it comes to seeking out the wellspring of one’s being. It can put you in a good place. It can arrange an environment for best effect. But once the stage is set, there seems to be nothing but a beating heart, a resting body, an alert and seeking mind that thirsts for the Creator, and time. And in this curl of body, and silence, and time, there is that feeling of being alone, being still, and being at sea. And the rational mind asks how this curl of energy, and hope, and time can bring one to oneself.

Individuality is a very deceptive thing. We are not denying each of you your individuality at all, but it is a puzzling thing in that it predisposes one to thinking that the goal is to find more of one’s individuality, that in becoming more of oneself one shall become more individualized. This, however, is not our understanding of the way one becomes more fully or wholly oneself. The rational mind wants to reach out and pull in all of those things that will be useful and helpful in the search for the heart itself. There is that feeling of accretion, of collecting resources that will be of help in this search. Yet it is our feeling that the becoming more of oneself is a process of things falling away, a process of subtraction.

The group question for today was: “We would like to hear whatever Q’uo has to say about ways to discover more of our true nature, how to observe our true nature, how to become aware of our true nature, our true being, that which we had planned before the incarnation to have as an opportunity, a way of expressing our soul essence.” Q’uo began by saying that Ra had said that we all are the Creator, and that Carla felt that the relationship between God and humanity was a long story about how for thousands of years the people on Earth have sought their true nature in a great variety of ways, and no matter what the period in history the human heart has remained the same: seeking wisdom, seeking compassion, seeking the truth. Q’uo went on to say that each person in this meditation circle had a long history of incarnations, experiences, and opportunities, and that no matter what the century each one’s heart has continue to seek wisdom, compassion, and truth, and each of them was perfect and infinite. Then Q’uo suggested meditation and prayer be used in order to enter into the silence and become more aware of the nature of the self that is the awareness of the Creator speaking within the being of each of us. Q’uo continued by saying that they could see that each in the circle desired to serve, to give of the self to others, and to the planetary energy, and it was wise for each one to seek out their gifts and to find ways to use them in the service to others. Then Q’uo said that the lesson that each is learning is not about wisdom, but was about discovering the infinite Love within because their rational mind that hungers for the Creator could only do so much to aid in the seeking of the nature of one’s being, and then the mind asks how hoping over a period of time can bring one to its true self. Then Q’uo spoke of the concept of individuality as a process of discovering more of the variety of qualities of the self because the rational mind wants to discover those things that will be helpful in the search for the heart of the self, but Q’uo said that becoming more of oneself is a process of things falling away, a process of subtraction. On March 30, 2019, Q’uo spoke of the heart of the self:

Thus, so seeking, is the seeker informed of the unity that binds all things and all entities. This is the foundation of honesty—that is, unity. The seeming separation that springs from this unity is an illusion that has been created in order to aid each seeker of truth in penetrating the outer qualities of the illusion so that as one looks at the daily round of activities that produce catalyst with other entities, one can see beyond the disharmony, the separation, the confusion and the seeming chaos, and look into the heart of not only the other beings, but also the heart of the self, and find there the quality of unconditional Love that is the binding quality for all of the creation, for it is the power of Love that has made all that is within the creation, and within each seeker’s life experience.

The model that we give this instrument is the model of an entity who works upon two levels. On the outer level the seeker who wishes to become more itself deals with the environment about it, attempting to place itself more and more in an environment that it finds conducive to the giving of its gifts and the learning of its lessons and the keeping of its promises in relationships and ethical considerations, and in all those matters of personal honor and duty. There is a valid benefit gained by the seeker as it simplifies and regularizes its environment in such a way as to find fruitfulness of self in all of those ways that entities think of being fruitful in avocations and vocations. There is a legitimate outer work that is helpful to doing, and we would not say that one who wishes to move more into the heart of oneself should forgo working on the discipline of the personality, the purification of emotion, and the development of the magical personality. These are just and helpful uses of the mind, of the attention, and of time.

However, in terms of doing the inner work the challenge is to find ways to allow that which is not the heart of self to fall away. It is not that one decides to remove self identification from this or that pattern of living or distortion of mind, but the seeker who feels that it knows what is to be dropped in order to be more the heart of self is deluding itself at some level, for there is no way from within the self to see into the patterns of energy that are, in essence, distortions of the one infinite Creator. Consequently, there is no rational way to become more and more undistorted. Working to become less distorted is a distortion itself, and the seeker who attempts to guide itself in the ways of becoming the Creator is, instead, most likely developing patterns of thinking that are in and of themselves an additional distortion, so there is the addition of distortion rather than the subtraction of distortion.

What we are trying to say is how easy it is to work too hard at something that is not actually work at all but, rather, a growing willingness, and this is the heart of what we would like to say this day. This place of willingness that things may change in any way, seemingly inwardly or seemingly outwardly, it is this attitude of open possibility, of lack of fear when viewing the present or the future that is a kind of key. And if you can do nothing else from what we suggest this day but cultivate an attitude of willingness to be swayed by the tides of destiny, then we are more than happy.

You are something that is whole and unifying and simple. You are infinite Love, infinite Light, infinite energy, stepped down and stepped down until you can exist within this particular illusion with this particular kind of physical vehicle, this particular energy shell that we have called the personality. It is as though out of an infinite universe you came through density after density and experience after experience, looking and laughing, and gazing and enjoying, and came to this particular planet and said, “Here, I shall plant myself. Here I shall learn to blossom. Here I shall enjoy the sun and feel the rain. Here I shall be born and die.” And you descend through the inner planes, through each level at which you make choices, until you have chosen this body, and this time, and this set of circumstances, and suddenly you are born. And this is the present moment of all times, and this is the place out of all places, and this is the density, and this is the experience.

And somehow it seems a miracle that is out of time that has burst upon the Earth like a sun. This is you. This is here. And this is now. Think of yourself in this way, as a sun or a blossom. Anything but a human. For to think of oneself as human is always to move to the outer, for your true self is no outer thing. Your true self is without distortion, and infinite in Love. We cannot teach you how to realize compassion. You cannot teach yourself how to realize the compassion that is locked within you. And even with the dint of the hardest and most intransigent work upon the self, you cannot add one whit of compassion to your personality. You can teach yourself to perform compassionate acts, but the key to that infinite compassion that is truly yours is not to be found within teaching and learning. It is locked within the present moment, and it is when you go into the present moment that you are vulnerable to a deeper realization of yourself.

Then Q’uo said they wanted to share how the seeker could work upon two levels to find the heart of the self and on the outer level: “the seeker who wishes to become more itself deals with the environment about it, attempting to place itself more and more in an environment that it finds conducive to the giving of its gifts and the learning of its lessons.” Q’uo continued by saying that in doing the inner work it was necessary to find ways of allowing that which is not part of the heart of the self to fall away, but this cannot be done by the mind because the seeker cannot rationally know what must fall away, so that in attempting to become less distorted the seeker is actually increasing its distortions. Then Q’uo suggested that the better way for things to fall away for the seeker was to for it to develop a state of mind that created a willingness that things may change in any inward or outward way for it, and then of having a lack of fear when viewing the present or the future which becomes the key to discovering one’s destiny. Q’uo went on to say that each seeker is infinite Love and Light that has stepped down its frequency of being to become a personality shell that can live within the third density illusion, and we moved through the inner planes, and have chosen our body, this set of circumstances, this planet, and this present moment to have our incarnational experience. Then Q’uo said that our true self is without illusion and is infinite in Love, and we cannot teach ourself how to realize the compassion that is locked within our personality, so the only way that we can realize compassion is to go into the present moment so that we can discover a deeper realization of ourself. On September 5, 2010, at our Homecoming Gathering Carla spoke of the nature of our true self:

Our service begins with being. When we are most truly ourselves we have served, immediately and absolutely, because the heart of all of us is one. It is a oneness that is tempered by our uniqueness but the consciousness that we share, that is our true self, is one. We share consciousness. We don’t share minds. We don’t share our biocomputer. We don’t share our choice-making abilities. Those are all unique to each of us. What we share is consciousness.

And so, what we encourage this day is a heightened awareness of the value of losing yourself in the present moment. When one talks about the devotional life, again one is pulled into thoughts of the outer world. The question that you ask when you ask to learn more of your true self is a question that has no answer but only a direction, a direction that says, “into the present moment, into life.” Not living, not a process, but that state of being that lies beyond all process. It should be utterly simple to allow distortion to fall away, and yet it is as far from simple as the challenge of the sculptor who is looking at an ovoid rock which he wishes to carve into a likeness. The likeness dwells within that rock. It is a matter of chipping away at the rock until it has the requisite form to satisfy the maker.

Let us move back into the image of the self in the water. The self has a relationship to the water of being in that the self is a bubble upon the sea of being that wishes to dissolve into that sea, and yet it is the essence of being an individual that you cannot, for the term of this experience, this incarnation, dissolve. This is not your time to dissolve. This is your time to be a bubble. The bubble has a skin, the coherent shell that holds the self apart from the water. And within that bubble there is, one would say, nothing and yet it is within that bubble of individuality that your true self lies. So, you may accept being that bubble on the water, but you are touching the water. You are carried along by the water, and we encourage in each of you a sense of that rhythmic and pulsing wave effect that this instrument would call destiny. You have little or no choice as to how the wave on which you are sitting will go. You may, perhaps, position yourself so that the waves do not toss you unduly, yet you are directionless, except for the water. Where the water takes you, you shall go.

And there is an endless art in the observation of this wave action and in those creative attempts to come more into congruency with the line of energy of this wave action. Your responsibility as a personality shell is to be present during this experience of individuality, to observe, and to respond. As you do this outer work, yet still realizing that you are the bubble on the ocean, you set up for yourself that two-layered plan of attack, the outer layer being largely the attempt to come into rhythmic harmony with that energy of destiny that shall give you the experiences that you hoped for, those limitations that will help teach, and those opportunities to share the gifts that you brought with you. Meanwhile, always reserving some of the self for the immediate experience of diving into the present moment. This instrument was earlier speaking of the bliss while working in the garden, talking to the plant life, and working with the devic energy, and she wondered, “Is it out of proportion to its actual import?” and we would say to this instrument, “No, it is not at all out of proportion.” It is an instance where this instrument did dive into the present moment to find the heart of bliss that is within each present moment.

We encourage each, then, to find those situations within which it is the easiest to forget the self completely and simply to be. For this particular entity, that is, this particular instrument, being in the garden, interacting with second-density energies, is one excellent set of conditions that encourages this particular seeker to come completely out of herself and into the moment. We encourage each to find those situations that so encourage each. For some it is great music. For others it is art. For some a tramp in the woods. For others the contemplation of the structure of thought that is majestic. What all of them have in common is the result, that explosion of the limited self into the infinite present. Each of you is a blossom. Turn towards the light.

We ask each of you to remember the help that awaits the seeker. You are not alone as you seem to be. There is at many levels help, guidance, encouragement, and comfort. As always, we encourage patience, persistence, and a sense of humor. For those who seek outwardly there are many accomplishments that can be pointed to. For those who seek to be truly themselves there is only the joy of bursting the bubble and becoming the ocean. We encourage you to continue this seeking in all faith and all hope.

Now Q’uo said that the best way to find our true self was to lose our self in the present moment of our being much like a bubble that floats upon the sea and moves with the rhythmic harmony of the waves that will carry us into our destiny. Then Q’uo encouraged us to find those situations in which it is the easiest to forget ourselves completely and to simply be, and then we can dive into the present moment to find the heart of bliss. Q’uo went on to suggest that we look for those situations where it is the easiest for us to forget the self completely and to simply be by enjoying great music, or art, a hike in the woods, or simply the contemplation of the structure of thought that is majestic because this is the way that the limited self becomes immersed into the infinite present moment. Q’uo completed their reply by encouraging us to use patience, persistence, and a sense of humor in seeking to be truly ourselves so that we can experience the joy of bursting the bubble and becoming the ocean. Then they encouraged us to continue seeking in faith and hope. On April 7, 1996, Q’uo described the infinite present moment:

My dear ones, you are the Light of the world. It is from hearts such as yours that the light of your planet comes. It is from lives such as yours that the great procession of life and death is imbued in the passion play of life on earth with honor, dignity, compassion, and deep caring. You have within you every force of death and every force of Light. Nothing has been left out of your makeup. It is the way of the spiritual sojourner to live that uncomfortable life that is aware of these matters, that is aware of the great wheel of evolution working through time and space to bring consciousness to that infinite present moment, where that great Love that created all that there is suddenly explodes into Light infinite and indivisible.

We would at this time conclude this contact through the instrument known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I re-recorded the section on sexuality in Chapter Three of 102. Then I got all of the chairs in the living room arranged for the public channeling session that will begin this afternoon around 1 pm. And then I drove down to my vets to pick up some meds for Bosco.

This afternoon we had twelve attendees and two instruments for our public channeling meditation. As is so often the case there was a great deal of open-hearted sharing during our round robin where each person shared their recent spiritually-oriented experiences that had been difficult or joyful and had given them the opportunity to learn more about themselves. There were about ten questions asked of Q’uo that also explored the nature of their spiritual journeys.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 9

Love One Another

I am of the principle of the Love of Jesus Christ. I greet you in that full consciousness which is the Logos: Love.

Love one another, my friends. The Comforter may comfort as it can. But it is only a voice which speaks in the darkness of the interior of the mind. It is only heard when faith and hope allow the inner ear to hear.

Be of good cheer, therefore, and be comforted in the knowledge that it is completely up to you to ask for comfort, wisdom or succor, or to refrain and attempt living upon the energy of humankind, which is finite.

You will find that as you open yourself to the comfort that is behind the shut door of your meditative heart, you will more and more desire to be in that state of consciousness which is aware of unconditional and infinite Love. All the turmoils of humankind are born and pass away, but your spirits shall be comforted in joy, in hope, in faith, and in peace, as you request it, as you desire it, and as you have the grace to accept it.

We wish you infinite Love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 2, 1999:

Today we would like to get some information that would help us to clarify the work that we do in our daily lives that is of a metaphysical nature. Usually one, or many people, or lots of people, think that the spiritual journey consists of operating in the higher energy centers from the heart on up, through the throat and brow, and doing these things that seem obviously of a spiritual or metaphysical nature. But we are wondering how to focus one’s life on the spiritual journey while living the everyday life that has various relationships that are going well or poorly but is where we really live. Could Q’uo give us some information to help us clarify how we focus on what really is our spiritual work each day?

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator in whose service we are. We thank you for bringing this circle together, for seeking truly, and for calling us to share in this circle of seeking. We hope that we also may be counted as true pilgrims, and we feel the blessing both of being able to share in your circle and for being able to perform the service which we dwell within your inner planes at this time in order to offer. It is a great opportunity that you offer us, and we accept it eagerly, with the one stipulation that each take from what we say those things that seem to be helpful, leaving the rest behind.

You ask us this day concerning clarity, the clarity that would create for each of you the way in which to see the events and happenstances of your everyday life in the most useful, the most clear, the most lucid, the most spiritually helpful standpoint. We give to this instrument a view of a memory which she has, for we wish to go in somewhat a different direction than this instrument expects, and so we chose out of her store of memory that clear memory which is useful to our purposes at this time.

This instrument was experiencing at the time of this occurrence a nearly complete lack of life; that is, this instrument was very close to death at the time of this experience. It was aware that it was in extremity. The instrument was in the hospital. Her physical body was not functioning adequately. The concern of those surrounding the instrument was intense. In this environment the instrument lay in a state of prayer. Far from being lucid, the prayerful state of this instrument was described by her at the time as a fog, a mist on the waters. This was literally the vision which the instrument was aware of at the time. She was aware of herself as a spirit, not resting in or on the waters but being at the water and seeing through the fog two lights as stars would appear, beaming ever so dimly through the fog. Sometimes she could see them. Sometimes she could not. But more and more it became a vision that had its own reality.

There was a moment of sudden realization in which she grasped the fact that these lights were spirits, spirits whom she could identify, and she realized that these two entities, her relatives, were praying for her, dwelling with her in thought, accompanying her in the hour of extremity. As she became aware that this was, indeed, a specific vision and not a passing miasma or phantasm she saw the fog lift and the sky light up with literally millions of lights. And she again had that realization in which she realized that these were all of the entities which dwelt upon Earth who were, at that moment, in a state of prayer, doing work for those who suffered upon Earth. None, or almost none, of these entities knew of her or her extremity and yet they appeared in her universe as spirits because they were praying to lessen the suffering of humankind.

This vision has a clarity to it that is born of the depth of reality and the shallowness of personality. Although the instrument was aware of the first two who prayed, once the universe was realized as being a way to see prayer help, the way to see energy coming to help the instrument, the instrument immediately transcended personality and saw those who were vibrating in Christ-like Love. We choose this memory because it strips away so many layers of perception and habit in the way in which entities tend to think about themselves, what they are doing, how they are doing, and how they can do better in attempting to be those who live like a spirit, those who are working from a metaphysical frame of reference. The pursuit of spiritual evolution is a pursuit in which almost every temptation to follow this or that avenue is a temptation toward folly, for the instincts that the physical and mental parts of the personality have are instincts which show no clarity or very little clarity when it comes to what is actually taking place spiritually, from moment to moment in the passage of everyday life.

Because this instrument was in an extremely precarious position, it was therefore more open to awareness that followed no obvious logic. What we ask you to do at this juncture is to take a moment and move into that space in which you are a light. We would pause at this time and allow each of you to move into that space where Spirit is real in you.

[Pause]

As each of you struggles with this concept each begins to see how deceptive rational thought is when it comes to spiritual matters. In attempting to see the self as a light there is that feeling of self-judgment that comes immediately, that feeling that, “I am not a very bright light.” The feeling that, perhaps, “I am not even lit all of the time.” That feeling of all limits washing away, shores receding and disappearing and the self finding itself in the midst of a trackless ocean of experience in which there is more fog than light.

We have said many times through this instrument and through many other instruments that what you are is a vibration. That you are a metaphysical entity that is expressing in a complex of vibrations that is as clearly and uniquely yourself as your name. Indeed, that is clearer than any name because it is an encompassing, complete rendition of the self. There may be two or more John Smiths, or Jane Does, or even Jim McCartys, or R’s, but there is only one vibratory complex that has configured itself in precisely the way that you have. No one thought up your vibratory complex. No one named you this vibratory signature. By direction and misdirection by things done and left undone, by the uncountable totality of everyday moments mounting one upon the other, without effort, without guides, without knowledge for the most part, of what is occurring, you simply are. You can poke. You can probe, but you cannot break down the metaphysical vibratory complex that is one precious, infinite and much-loved being.

The group question for this session was: “But we are wondering how to focus one’s life on the spiritual journey while living the everyday life that has various relationships that are going well or poorly but is where we really live. Could Q’uo give us some information to help us clarify how we focus on what really is our spiritual work each day?” Q’uo began their response by using Carla’s experience of being in the hospital as a way of seeing the clarity of her experience that occurred when she was near death and in a state of prayer, and she saw a kind of fog upon the waters where saw herself as a spirit at the water’s edge, and she dimly saw two lights as stars that would appear which became a vision that had its own reality. Q’uo went on to say that eventually she realized these two lights were relatives that were praying for her and were with her in thought, and then the fog lifted, and the sky lit up with millions of lights that she realized were people praying to lessen the suffering of humanity on Earth. Then Q’uo said that once the universe was seen by Carla as being a way to see prayer being used to help her, she immediately transcended her personality and saw those who were vibrating in Christ-like Love. Then Q’uo said this experience revealed that spiritual evolution is a pursuit in which almost every temptation to follow this or that avenue is a temptation toward folly: “for the instincts that the physical and mental parts of the personality have are instincts which show no clarity or very little clarity when it comes to what is actually taking place spiritually, from moment to moment in the passage of everyday life.” Q’uo continued by saying that since Carla was so close to death, she was open to the kind of awareness that was not logical, so Q’uo asked the members of the channeling circle move into that space within themselves where they were a light, and then Q’uo paused for a moment to allow each one to move into that space where Spirit was real for them. Then Q’uo said that each in the group was having to realize that rational thought is deceptive when it comes to spiritual concepts, and when they attempted to see themselves as a light they had feelings of self judgement that “I am not a very bright light” and the feeling of all limits washing away, shores receding and disappearing and the feeling they were in the middle of trackless ocean of experience in which there is more fog than light. So Q’uo said that each of them was a metaphysical being that was expressing itself in a complex of vibrations that described them more clearly than their names because each was a unique entity that was determined by: “direction and misdirection by things done and left undone, by the uncountable totality of everyday moments mounting one upon the other, without effort, without guides, without knowledge for the most part, of what is occurring, you simply are. You can poke. You can probe, but you cannot break down the metaphysical vibratory complex that is one precious, infinite and much-loved being.” On November 20, 2005, Q’uo described the nature of a metaphysical being which each of us is:

In the first case, that of physical growth of a human being through incarnation, the seed is that which is produced by sperm and ovum from the dust, metaphorically speaking, out of which your Earth has created a local habitation of flesh in which you as a metaphysical being have chosen to place your consciousness for that cycle known as an incarnation in order that you may have being within the environment of third-density Earth.

We will allow you to name the nature of the seed of flesh, saying only that it is steeped in illusion and rounded in mystery. Each life is a gift, a miracle, an incredible circumstance, which happens only once. The being that you are is unique. This incarnation you experience shall not be experienced again. The song that you sing in flesh shall never be heard again. The colors of your emotions as they flash, and change, and transform are an experiment in beauty and dynamic that shall not recur. You are precious beyond description within the folds of your dailiness.

As infinite and eternal beings, the seed from which you sprang is the infinite Creator. And in this metaphysical creation, although growth indeed does take place, it is rounded just as a physical incarnation is in the birth and the death of one beat of the Creator’s heart, one unit or creation of the creative principle.

The Creator is vitally interested in each configured being. The Creator grasps the totality of this vibratory complex and echoes back to the being a validation without judgment, created utterly of love—creative and destructive, all-powerful love. It is this vibratory complex that is you as a light being. It is this light being that you are. You are not your body. You are not your personality. You are not your mind. You are not your emotions. You cannot exhaust the qualities of yourself regardless of how long you look, how deeply you search, or how prayerfully you mine the rich lode of the deep mind in attempting to affix to the self a deeper and more permanent personality. That is to say, that the building up of the magical personality, as this instrument has often called the work of disciplining the self, while it is a good and even an important adventure to be on, it has a limited use, a use within the illusion rather than a use that will alter the configuration of your vibration.

Indeed, we could gaze at the entire spectrum of conscious methods of working upon the discipline of the personality and point out that they are or constitute a materialistic view of spiritual evolution. This instrument immediately thought to herself, “How can there be spiritual materialism?” because the first dynamic, the first paradox, is the dynamic between the spiritual and material worlds, and this is so. This is spiritual work as seen by and as taught by entities within the spiritual illusion of Earth. This does not mean that the discipline of the personality is a bad idea. There is tremendous clarity to be gained by such a spiritual practice. There is tremendous advantage to be gained in working with many spiritual practices, and one of the things that spiritually awakened beings do is find and employ spiritual practices that feel useful and fertile and productive. But, you see, when you are thinking about becoming more spiritually productive, you are thinking about being spiritual in the same way that you would think about finishing your physical labor for a given period. It is the work ethic of your culture carried over into the spiritual life. Again, we say, we are not in any way attempting to discredit those efforts which you make to become a better spiritual being. It is simply to point out that what you are spiritually will express itself the most clearly when there is no thought taken as to how one is doing spiritually.

The being that you are is only lightly connected to the body that you experience or even the incarnation that you experience. In truth, at the level of clarity which we are able to express through this instrument, that vibratory complex that expresses self when the infant cries its first cry is not difficult at all to pick out of a metaphysical lineup of those beings that are ending their incarnation. The change from the beginning of incarnation to the end of incarnation in vibratory complex is minimal. Although it is far more possible to make substantive changes in that vibration within your third density than it is in any other density that is higher, yet still that with which one began the incarnation is going to be pretty much that which one takes out of the incarnation.

This does not mean that spiritual work is useless. It simply means that the power to be is so all-encompassing that the distortions laid upon that basic vibration of infinite Love are quite, quite small compared to the core reality of limitless Light itself vibrating in undistorted Love, or, shall we say, in minimally undistorted Love. For all that is manifest as vibration has the distortion of Free Will and is, therefore, not a pure Love vibration. Each of you is not here to work upon one’s quality of life. This is not what we are suggesting. What we are suggesting is that the material part of spirituality concerns itself with patterns of interaction between beings. The densities are schools in which spiritual entities learn with increasing efficiency to interact with each other with minimal distortion. This is quite different from the self as a configuration of Light.

Then Q’uo said that the Creator was very interested in us, and It sees the totality of our vibratory complex and echoes back to us the confirmation of our being that is created utterly out of Its creative and destructive all-powerful Love, and this is our vibration as a Light being which means that we are not our body, our personality, our mind, or our emotions. Q’uo continued by saying that we cannot exhaust the qualities of ourself regardless of how long we look or how prayerfully we discover the nature of our deep mind which Carla called the magical personality, but when we are thinking about becoming more spiritually productive, we are thinking about being spiritual in the same way that we think about completing our physical labor for a given period. Q’uo said this is the work ethic of our culture applied to our spiritual life, but they said that they were not seeking to discredit our efforts become a better spiritual being. They just wanted to say that what we are spiritually will express itself the most clearly when we take no thought as to how we are doing spiritually. Q’uo went on to say that the change that we experience from the beginning of our incarnation to its end is minimal in its level of vibration although it is easier to make significant vibrational changes with our third density that it is in the higher densities, so the vibrations that we began our incarnations with will be much the same as the vibrations that we have at the end of our incarnation. [I would suggest taking this last statement with a grain of salt since I believe it is far more likely that most of us grow within our incarnations in a way that our vibrations at the end of our life would be higher than they were at the beginning of our life.] Then Q’uo went on to say that the ways that we are able to distort the vibration of Love during our incarnation are very small compared to the reality of limitless Light and undistorted Love, and they suggested that spirituality is concerned how we learn how to interact with each other with minor distortions which is quite different from looking at our self as a configuration of Light. On September 21, 1986, Hatonn spoke of the nature of spirituality:

The seeker must gaze at all that passes before his eyes with a determination to see—that is, perceive—what he is looking at in the light of creative Love, and so move from complexity back to simplicity, breaking the illusion and entering the density that is to come.

My friends, this all sounds as if we were recommending that you do very grand things, perhaps meditate a great deal or do something dramatic to bring mankind together. There are those who have planned to do something dramatic within an incarnation, but most entities within any density are working for the most part upon themselves. And so, what you are working with is the little things. Therefore, forget your impressions of spirituality, for you will work best upon your spirituality by paying close attention to the very small things of daily life.

We ask each of you to look at what you have done this day, at each word that you have said to another, at each gesture, and smile, and frown that you have shared with another consciousness. What intentions had you for service this day: service to others, service to self, and service to the Creator? How much of today was spent in fulfilling neutral needs without inspecting them for the joy that lies within the humblest task?

You see, my friends, the one who irons a shirt, praising it as part of the creation of the Father, dwells in the kingdom of the original Thought of Love. And that kingdom is within him at that very moment that he wields the humble iron. The cook who praises the broth and smiles at the soapy dishes has garnered far more riches than good food and a clean kitchen, for the consciousness of joy and peace has come into the domicile and softened the neutrality of everyday things.

What we would suggest to each of you when the way seems clouded and conflicted is that you separate reality from illusion, that you call to remembrance who you are and how you are, that you call to remembrance with full respect who other entities interacting with you are and how they are. That you be able to see the difference between the self and that other self as inevitable beings that are as they are and self and other self as those who have been offered the opportunity to work within an illusion in such a way as to discover as much as possible about loving interaction. It does not cure problems if you see that those having the problems are simply beautiful configurations of light. But it gives to the seeker something that does not need work, something that is already perfect, in the self and in the other self. It gives to the seeker that ability to move into distortion with an awareness that it is distortion even when the most exacting spiritual practices are being observed and the most discipline of personality is being accomplished.

It may seem unfair that so much of spiritual seeking is in the spiritually material sector when what the soul thirsts for is that sense of self, other self, and Creator as Light. But it does set a baseline against which work within an incarnation can be seen for what it is. This instrument would call it homework, and, indeed, many are those upon your sphere who have shaped the spiritual life as a process of learning, a school of instruction. This is a pretty good metaphor, a useful tool in thinking about specific difficulties. We are aware that this question comes from each within the circle and those writing in from outside the circle having that feeling of wanting to know more about work on this or that energy center, this or that chakra, this or that relationship, this or that process. And each of you will find yourself leaping nimbly from precipice to midair to abyss and back again as the various moments of living and experiencing pass in this time and space illusion that you enjoy, indeed, that we also enjoy.

We assure you that there are realizations to be gained and lessons of love to be learned just as you have been going about learning them through your meditations, through your attempts to balance experience, through your concern for and work upon core interactions and core relationships. We may say to the one known as P that this desire for work, desire for understanding of experiences, is a good and a proper desire, and yet as with all desires there is no achieving of the objective that will satisfy the depth of that desire because of the fact that entities are configurations of Light; that is to say, because they are vibrations. Any and every thought that an entity can have about identity, relationships, spiritual work, or any matter whatsoever are like that desire for food that is not satisfied by the eating of food. There is a thirst and a hunger in spiritual work that cannot be satisfied by spiritual work or by spiritual attainment. All spiritual attainment in the end is nonsense, one with the illusion that spawned it. And yet, it is the nonsense that each came here to prosecute with the highest degree of integrity, love and respect of which each is capable and will hope to become more capable.

The being that you are attempting to create, you see, is, and yet cannot be that Light being, for that Light being is pretty much as it is and will change only through unimaginable eons of time. The whole octave of experience shall have its way with that vibration and you will still be you. However, you actually think to create an entity that never was until you put yourself into the rhythms and the intentions of a way of living that will bring you closer and closer to a goal that you can only dimly sense, and that goal has to do with the way you interact with other selves. The entity you are attempting to build is the world soul or the social memory complex, as this instrument would say it. Light simply is. Yet time and space create the need for movement and it is in becoming aware of graceful movement in habit, in ways of thinking, in disciplines of the personality, in purification of the emotions, that you may reliably hope and trust that you will make progress, that you will at the end of an incarnation be measurably more able to see the self and the other self without significant distortion when first you grasped the fact that you were alone in this illusion and wailed your first wail upon being born.

We appreciate greatly the depth of this question. We are extremely thankful to have been able to make this attempt to share with you our limited understanding of the issues involved. In your beingness, we salute you. And in your patterns of doing, we salute you as well. Each level is acceptable and true. In terms of remembrance, we would suggest the key advantage of the memory that you are as you are, and others are as they are, and that you and they are both perfect. Indeed, we suggest that each think of self and other self as this instrument does the Christ. You are that ideal, that archetype, that loves so deeply and so generously. You are easily capable of Christhood as is everyone you meet. The desire to affect that outcome, that hunger and thirst for righteousness, will not prove false, simply somewhat limited.

Now Q’uo said that it would be helpful for us to see the way that we move through difficulties in our lives is as the Creator learning about Itself and not just our illusory self that is failing to learn our pre-incarnative lessons of how to love, and we should also see that this is true for all other selves with whom we interact. Q’uo went on to say that this desire for understanding of experiences is a proper desire, and yet as with all desires there is no achieving of the objective that will satisfy our desire because we are configurations of Light vibrations,  and every thought that we have about identity, relationships, spiritual work, or any matter is like that desire for food that is not satisfied by the eating of food. They said that there is a thirst in spiritual work that cannot be satisfied by spiritual attainment because spiritual attainment in the end is nonsense and part of the illusion that it came from, and yet it is this nonsense that we came here to seek with the most integrity, love, and respect that we are capable of, and we hope to become more capable in doing this. Q’uo went on to say that the Light being that we are now will be much the same for eons of time, but the entity that we are hoping to create now in the third density is created by how we relate in a loving manner with those around us to create a social memory complex, and we can do this by using disciplines of the personality in the purification of our emotions so that we may hope that we will make progress, and by the end of our incarnation we will be more able to see our self and the other self without significant distortion. Q’uo completed their reply by suggesting that the key advantage was remembering that we are as we are, and others are as they are, and we are both perfect, and: “Indeed, we suggest that each think of self and other self as this instrument does the Christ. You are that ideal, that archetype, that loves so deeply and so generously. You are easily capable of Christhood as is everyone you meet.” On June 18, 2005, Q’uo said that we contained that known as the Christhood:

We realize that you are young spirits. You are young co-Creators. And yet the power to create is yours. That which you forgive is forgiven. That which you lift is lifted. That which you reach forth to heal is healed. It is difficult to take ultimate responsibility for Christhood. And yet we say to each of you, that individuality that you see as yourself, that which you say is “I,” is an illusion. The personality shell that you experience is very helpful for working within the field of Earth, for doing what you came to do, living and breathing, and being and blooming. Yet it is not all of you. It is not the earth of you. And as you ask again and again, “In each day, create me to see who I am, help me to realize my true nature,” you are opening the way, little by little, to begin to feel that essence, that “I” that is the consciousness of Love.

We would at this time end with some reluctance. Let this be the totality of our initial discussion of this interesting subject. For this instrument is expressing to us in no uncertain terms that our time is up. We realize that there are other questions at this time and in hopes of being able to speak with you further upon those topics we would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, leaving this instrument in the love and in the light of the infinite One. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each of you again in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator through this instrument. We would now ask if we might speak to any further queries which those present might have for us?

Carla: I would like to start off just by asking why I was moved to tears by something which never moved me to tears before when I was reliving that memory. I was feeling intense emotion. I couldn’t say whether it was happy or sad. It was an almost unbearable intensity of emotion. Any comments you could make on why that happened might have some bearing on the message, I would think.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The image of the Light and the Love filled beings at the heart of the Light is a revealing of a connection to Love which opens the heart and releases the emotions in many. That it should do so within your own being is not surprising. To discover that one is loved to such an extent that the heart of another beats for another for you is overwhelming to many who have not felt such love before.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Not about that. Thank you. In thinking about P’s questions, I would just ask if you have a message for P; if there is something you would respond to in those many specific requests for information that would help the way she is working on herself right now?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We are aware that the one known as P has offered the service of many of those concerns which are upon her mind at this time, and we do not wish to seem to weigh them less importantly, shall we say, than does she, for each has its focus and opportunity for learning. But we wish to offer our service which does not infringe upon another entity’s free will by providing for them the direction or heart of a concern which is of necessity theirs to discover. For to feel that there is experience and information of importance within a certain set of circumstances is the domain of the seeker of truth. But we would comment to this entity by suggesting to it that each flower grows where it is planted, and where this entity has found itself situated within this illusion at this time may not be the most comfortable of circumstances but is the situation in which its higher self felt it most helpful to be. For it provides the lessons that are not easy but are to the heart of its incarnation.

To learn to love and accept that which seems unlovable and unacceptable is, indeed, a worthy challenge, and we would encourage this entity to look about it and to discover that those entities within its circle of experience are those which have come together with it to dance the dance of this illusion’s catalyst, shall we say. Each entity has that to offer that is important to the one known as P, and we would encourage perseverance. We would encourage the opening of the heart in a relentless fashion, and we would encourage the seeing of the one Creator in the smallest of moments and in the most difficult of circumstances.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes, but from my standpoint rather than P’s. For many years I have heard people ask about specific questions and this kind of question was taken and discussed by inner guides or other entities and the person asking the question felt a great deal of valuable material was gained through such questions and answers. I have also felt that it is a distraction. Is this an unfair judgment on my part? What is the basic nature or value of asking metaphysical sources about specific circumstances or relationships?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator have found that it is most appropriate for us to speak upon those queries which are of a philosophical or generally applicable level of principle. For we are not native to this planetary sphere and are not able to see with a clear vision the means by which to avoid infringing upon free will without applying this general principle of replying only to general philosophically oriented queries. It is so very easy to feel one has helped another by giving the answer to specific queries such as the ones which this entity has offered and then witness the loss of the power to seek and discriminate on the part of such a seeker when a source such as are we is trusted more in this area more than is personal discrimination. Thus, we leave it to those of this planetary sphere—those who inhabit its outer planes and those who inhabit its inner planes—to deal with the issues of specificity: the determining of dreams, the meaning of a book, the coincidence of a friend, and so forth. That these events do have a meaning and a purpose in the incarnation is without dispute. The great value of their determination is that the seeker herself shall make this determination and thereby strengthen her ability to discriminate that which has value to it by the exercise of the intuition, the releasing of the power of the subconscious mind, the harmonizing of that which is the conscious mind with the subconscious mind so that like a muscle that is well exercised there is strength developed in the area of discrimination as well. We apologize for our inability to be of service in these areas but would feel that we are of a greater service by refraining from comment.

Is there a further query at this time?

Carla: No. Not now. Thank you very much for myself and for P.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you and the one known as P. Is there another query at this time?

R: So, you are in a way doing the same thing that we are doing on our path, looking for catalyst that comes your way and then strengthening your muscles of discrimination and then finding the best way to use it so that you can move along on your own path?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother, and in the general sense you are quite correct, for always is it necessary to exercise the muscle of discrimination. There are many potential avenues of service provided all seekers of service at all levels of experience. It is to those who exercise most carefully, or shall we say lovingly, or shall we say wisely, the ability to choose the path, for there are always considerations of appropriateness, of infringing upon another entity’s free will choices in his or her own journey. Each of us as a portion of the one Creator is most carefully and closely connected to every other entity. As we give our energies, attention and concern, love, and light, information and inspiration, we affect those to whom we speak and with whom we share these energies. It is well to affect others in a fashion which provides an opportunity for discovery from within that entity. This is difficult to do. However, the attempt is worthwhile, and we continue to make it, as do each of you. And as we travel this journey, wishing, indeed, to place one spiritual foot in front of the other, we do not wish to negate that which we are nor that which we have been, wishing to leave them for they fall short of some standard, but have learned to accept all that we are, all that we have been, and all that we shall become, as portions of the one Creator.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: I was trying to do as you advised earlier in the session and move into a place of Light, but I was having trouble doing that and wondered if it would help if I were to focus on an emotion and then follow that emotion to the place of Light?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. This is somewhat difficult to give a clear response to for the emotional aspect of most entities’ complex of being is that weighing of the value of a thing by the emotion it causes to arise in response. The emotional aspect of most entities’ complex points to those areas of concern and of immediate attention, shall we say. However, the desire to seek in a spiritual sense the nature of one’s journey and the nature of truth, of love, and so forth, is the, shall we say, directional arrow that points the way and which opens a door within the essence of one’s being so that one may feel a connection with all things, including the quality of the one Creator called Light. Thus, we would point one to this concept of desire and will, the concept of faith that might be more helpful in opening the avenues to the inner being rather than relying upon the qualities of emotion.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: If we continue to talk about this question from today and fashion another query from it, would you want to talk further about it?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother, and, indeed, we would be happy to speak upon this query again or one similar to it if you would care to consider and rephrase the query for another working.

Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I was struck by a statement from you that we were able to interact with others and create social memory complexes and get together more and more. My mentality said that, well, you don’t want us to become exactly alike, and I feel this is so. Would the model, then, of such an interaction be one of infinite harmony rather than unison?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We would agree that this is a good representation of the nature of the blending of the various portions of the one infinite Creator, into a kind of choir that each entity contributes to by the uniqueness of its voice.

Carla: So, the angels’ songs are really harmonious emotions and harmonizing personalities. They don’t just chant “Hallelujah! Hallelujah!” Their every fiber of every being is like a song to the Creator. Is that what you are saying?

I am Q’uo, and this is correct, my sister. Is there a final query?

Carla: No. I am done, and I just want to thank you for a fascinating session. Well done.

I am Q’uo, and we would also thank each of those present for preparing a query full of nuance and rich with the heart-felt desires of each present and those not present as well.

At this time we would take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I re-recorded the section on Mental Health from Chapter Three of 102. Then I vacuumed the first floor of my home.

This afternoon I re-recorded the section on Emotions from Chapter Three of 102. Then I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply to buy some cat food. My second stop was at the PNC Bank to transfer some money from my savings account to my checking account. My third stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some hair shampoo.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

November 8

Come, Holy Spirit

I am the Spirit of the Son of Man. I am the consciousness of divine Love. I come to you, and I come to all in every moment, saying, “Comfort! Comfort be with each.”

The principle of Love is that which touches and comforts, nurtures and nourishes. Yet comfort and Love are meek and will humbly wait to be asked to enter the heart, to heal the soul, and to bind up the wounds of sorrow and time.

We ask that you say to the Spirit of Love, “Come, Holy Spirit, enter the hearts of your faithful.” This invitation is your comfort to Love itself, for when Love asks for Love, the whole creation sings with joy.

May peace and comfort be yours, for they are yours for the asking, whoever you are, whatever you believe. It matters naught but only that you have faith in Love.

In that Love and in that peace we bless you, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight;

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I am using today’s Camelot Journal entry to speak about Don Elkins since this is the 40^th anniversary of his passing into larger life, and I also want to share some information about Carla L. Rueckert who first began channeling 50 years ago this past February 23^rd. I will start with Don Elkins by sharing an essay that I wrote six years ago about the nature of his passing.

Dear Friends,

Today is the 34th anniversary of the death of Don Elkins, and recently it has come to my attention that the nature of his death, by his own hand, is a topic that usually is not openly discussed by people who love the Law of One. The topic of suicide, in general, seems to be an uncomfortable and stigmatized one, as it is often viewed as a failure on the part of the deceased to meet life’s challenges. Many people have a friend or family member that has left this illusion by that means, and it is very painful for those left behind. I am sure that people’s reticence to talk about Don’s death is largely based on love for him, for the Law of One, and for L/L Research. There may be a desire to guard the reputation of the Ra contact by avoiding conversations about Don’s mental illness and suicide. I can feel your love and support in this regard, and I thank you for your heartfelt concerns.

I want you to know that, despite our great sadness in losing Don, Carla and I maintained faith in the possibility that Don’s decline was the result of his undying dedication to others–namely to Carla–and to his life’s work. He was truly a beloved companion for Carla, and was my best friend for the time that I knew him. Carla and I always wished to honor his memory by acknowledging all parts of his journey including the nature of his death. The factors that one must consider when talking of how Don’s life came to an end are almost beyond most people’s ability to comprehend because they are multiple in nature and have probably been reproduced only in a handful of instances in Earth’s entire history, if at all.

The primary factor was the “magical” nature of our spiritual work and, therefore, its susceptibility to negative interference. According to Ra there is a spiritual principle that when positive information, such as we were gaining from Ra, is consciously sought, this choice must be balanced by the availability of negative offerings from service-to-self entities. The “playing field” is automatically “leveled” by psychic greeting, so that the difficulty of our seeking is synonymous with the strength, or purity, of our free-will choice. In other words, spiritual work is never without sacrifice of one kind or another, as the power of a positive (or negative) choice equates to the difficulty of making it. The work of negative entities in this regard is usually called psychic attack, but Ra used the term “psychic greetings”. Ra mentioned this in 69.17:

“Secondly, that which we and you do in workings such as this carries a magical charge, if you would use this much misunderstood term. Perhaps we may say a metaphysical power. Those who do work of power are available for communication to and from entities of roughly similar power. It is fortunate that the Orion entity does not have the native power of this group. However, it is quite disciplined whereas this group lacks the finesse equivalent to its power. Each is working in consciousness, but the group has not begun a work as a group. The individual work is helpful, for the group is mutually an aid, one to another.”

So, we were in a unique situation in that our work with Ra had attracted the attention of a fifth-density negative entity who wished to stop the Ra contact and remove the light that it produced. And the way that it went about that work was described by Ra in 80.4:

Questioner: What is the reason for the fact that the entity is able to act through physical distortions that are already present [as] opposed to being unable to act on an entity who’s had no physical distortions at all?

Ra: I am Ra. The key to this query is the term, distortion. Any distortion, be it physical, mental, or spiritual in complex nature, may be accentuated by the suggestion of one able to work magically; that is, to cause changes in consciousness. This entity has many physical distortions. Each in the group has various mental distortions. Their nature varies. The less balanced the distortion by self-knowledge, the more adeptly the entity may accentuate such a distortion in order to mitigate against the smooth functioning and harmony of the group.”

Each of the three of us in the Ra contact had a variety of distortions that were used as targets of opportunity by our negative friend throughout the Ra contact. Just like any seekers, we still had much to learn. Carla pre-incarnatively chose arthritis as a means of focusing on her inner work—instead of on outer work in the world. This constantly was being intensified by our negative friend, sometimes in very mysterious ways but always according to the metaphysical laws, if you will, that provide for this balancing of difficulty in the face of choice. My tendency towards anger at myself in order to learn compassion for myself, for example, was intensified many times in my life as I made mistakes and responded by breaking a tool or an object.

Don was always very cautious and wise in anything that he did. In the last two years of his life his wisdom became distorted towards worry and fear that his employer, Eastern Airlines, was going bankrupt and that Don would no longer be able to support our work or L/L Research. He also was worried about Carla’s deteriorating physical condition that was being intensified by our negative Orion friend of fifth density. But his greatest worry seemed to be that Carla’s spirit might be displaced into negative time/space by our negatively oriented friend. This had almost happened during a Sunday night public meditation on August 16, 1981. (68.5) This emphasis on the worry aspect of his wisdom constituted a free-will choice that could be, and was, intensified by psychic greetings. When Don asked Ra how our negative friend operated in regards to our group Ra said in 62.20:

Questioner: What is the objective; what does the, shall we say, the leader, the one at the very top of the pecking order in fifth-density Orion, have as an objective? I would like to understand his philosophy with respect to his objectives and plans for what we might call the future or his future?

Ra: I am Ra. This thinking will not be so strange to you. Therefore, we may speak through the densities as your planet has some negatively oriented action in sway at this space/time nexus.

The early fifth-density negative entity, if oriented towards maintaining cohesion as a social memory complex, may in its free will determine that the path to wisdom lies in the manipulation in exquisite propriety of all other-selves. It then, by virtue of its abilities in wisdom, is able to be the leader of fourth-density beings which are upon the road to wisdom by exploring the dimensions of love of self and understanding of self. These fifth-density entities see the creation as that which shall be put in order.

Dealing with a plane such as this third density at this harvesting, it will see the mechanism of the call more clearly and have much less distortion towards plunder or manipulation by thoughts which are given to negatively oriented entities although in allowing this to occur and sending less wise entities to do this work, any successes redound to the leaders.

The fifth density sees the difficulties posed by the light and in this way directs entities of this vibration to the seeking of targets of opportunity such as this one. If fourth-density temptations, shall we say, towards distortion of ego, etc., are not successful the fifth-density entity then thinks in terms of the removal of light.”

So, since we would not detune our desire to serve the One Infinite Creator, our negative friend wished to put out our light by whatever means possible. Each of us experienced numerous psychic greetings although Carla certainly bore the brunt of them.

As Don’s worries continued to grow Carla became concerned that her beloved companion, or B.C., as she called him, was suffering too much. So, she told him that she would like to take over his worries and be the strong one. He could be like her, “small and foolish”, instead of having to shoulder all these worries. Carla did not know that this offer had real and dangerous metaphysical implications. Don really didn’t imagine that anything would come of this offer when he off-handedly accepted. But Ra said that since Don and Carla “had been as one since before time” (75.23) that this agreement resulted in a “deleterious energy exchange” between them. Ra described this deleterious energy exchange in 106.13:

Questioner: Could Ra recommend what I should do to improve my state of health?

Ra: I am Ra. We tread most close to the Law of Confusion in this instance but feel the appropriateness of speaking due to potentially fatal results to the instrument. We pause to give the questioner and the scribe a few moments of space/time to aid us by stepping away from those distortions which cause us to invoke the Law of Confusion. This would be helpful.

[A few moments pause.]

I am Ra. We appreciate your attempts. Even confusion on your behalves is helpful. The questioner has, in the recent past, allowed a complete transfer of mental/emotional pain from the questioner to the instrument. The key to this deleterious working was when the instrument said words to the effect of the meaning that it would be the questioner and be the strong one. The questioner could be as the instrument, small and foolish. The questioner, in full ignorance of the firm intent of the instrument and not grasping the possibility of any such energy transfer, agreed.

These two entities have been as one for a timeless period and have manifested this in your space/time. Thusly, the deleterious working occurred. By agreement in care and caution it may be undone. We urge the attention to thanksgiving and harmony on the part of the questioner. We may affirm the previous recommendation in general of the skills and the purity of intention of the one known as Bob, and may note the sympathetic illness which has occurred due to the instrument’s sensitivities.

Lastly, we may note that to the one known as Peter several aspects of the distortions experienced by the questioner, the instrument, and the scribe may be quite apparent and rather simply traduced to lesser distortions.”

The deleterious energy exchange was never undone. What happened to Don, instead, was that his armor of light that allowed him to deal with any situation from a position of wisdom was removed and all outer stimuli came crashing in on him causing him great mental and spiritual pain. This continued to increase for the remaining eight months of his life. On top of that, both Don and Carla were in the midst of initiation at this time. (106.3 and 106.12) Initiation often is difficult all by itself to go through, but now it was added to the deleterious energy exchange and the attention of our negative fifth-density friend.

Don’s great worry about Carla’s spirit being displaced into negative time/space also led to a curious question that he asked me in the fall of 1983. He asked me if I thought it might be possible to make a deal with our negative friend to leave Carla alone. I told him that there would be no way to trust such an entity of negative polarity whose sole aim is to control you. So, I really don’t know how this question and Don’s consideration of it played into his death, but I would not be at all surprised to discover one day that our negative friend was able to use this thought in Don’s mind to help bring him to his end.

The three of us lived in the house in Anchorage, Kentucky for seven months before Don died. During all that time he was in mental, physical, and emotional decline. He lost 70 lbs. and went from 220 down to 150 lbs. He put himself into the psychiatric ward of a local hospital, but his psychiatrist went on vacation for the first three weeks of Don’s stay there. And when he returned from his vacation, he had very little to do with Don since Don didn’t want to talk to him. Eventually Don was able to feign improvement enough to be released. He told us as we were driving home that he was no better, and each day seemed worse than the one before it. Carla feared that his body may eventually fail due to not eating.

One day Don mentioned to me that he felt that his death was immanent, by one means or another. Reflecting on this today, it’s still impossible to know whether Don’s feeling came from his intuition or from his confusion. That day Don told me he was thinking of killing himself because, if he was going to die anyway, he did not want to die in the hospital. Carla and I faced a very difficult choice. Neither of us wished to violate Don’s free will if he was making conscious decisions. However, we were not convinced of Don’s presence of mind. We certainly feared losing him to an unconscious act. We believed in the greater possibility that Don’s mental illness, which was enhanced—or even brought about—by psychic greeting, was taking center stage. We felt it was causing him to believe in the imminence of his death, and in the doctors’ inability to help him, and was leading him to contemplate suicide. We did not think that Don wanted to die; but only that he could not see a way to survive. To us, for better or for worse, Don’s confusion constituted a call to service. Carla and I did our best to apply a love/wisdom balance to Don’s predicament. I signed a mental inquest warrant to have Don taken to the hospital for a seventy-two hour stay to evaluate his situation.

When the police came to serve the warrant, Don put a .38 revolver to his head and told the police to leave. It was then that Carla ran up the stairs to be with him but was pulled back by police officers. At one point during the ensuing standoff Don gathered all the coats in the house and put them on the porch so that the police could keep warm on a cold November night. Even through the agony of his current state of mind he could still feel compassion for the police in the cold night air. After a six hour standoff the police decided the situation needed to end and shot tear gas into the house. This drove Don out into the back yard where he shot himself and died instantly. Carla and I always believed that Don went outside to shoot himself so that Carla could continue to live in the house.

Three days later Carla saw Don in a waking vision, and he told her that everything that had happened had occurred as planned and that all was well. He said that we would not be able to understand how this could be true until we, too, went through death’s door. Within another two days Carla saw Don once again in a waking vision and was given the same information. So now Carla has passed through death’s door and knows the good reasons for which everything happened, and the rest of us are left to ponder yet another mystery on the journey of seeking the truth of the Law of One.

We cannot know whether Don might have survived, had things gone differently. Ra said many times that “There are no mistakes.” That is easier to say than to comprehend, but I believe that is where our faith plays the crucial role in our spiritual development. Each of us in our spiritual journeys will find many times when we cannot fathom how what is happening to us can be without mistake. And yet when we look back upon how our spiritual journey has unfolded, we all can see many places where things did not look well at all but turned out well as we moved further along our paths. In this case, Carla’s life may well have been saved by Don’s sacrifice. Don was an incredibly conscientious, ethical man. He was also quiet and mysterious. I believe that there is much he sensed, knew, or experienced but did not discuss. I believe in his utter positivity and in the fact that all his conscious choices were designed to bring about a positive outcome for others, even at his own expense. Whether or not Don ended his life with presence of mind, his actions may have preserved Carla’s life—whether by ending the Ra contact, or by some other means that allowed Don to accept the interference of our negative friend so that Carla could go on sharing her love and light. After all, they had changed places, and this precipitated Don’s decline.

After Don’s passing, Carla and I felt almost as though we had entered a new incarnation together. Carla’s tireless work in service to the One Infinite Creator would continue for thirty-one more magical years. During that time, Carla and I were able to serve one another in ways that we feel were in fulfilment of our pre-incarnational plans. Carla was finally able to balance her tendency, since childhood, to give of herself without expectation of return, with the ability to accept the love offerings of others, represented by her accepting my care while she was confined to her hospital bed. In this way, she balanced her sense of unworthiness. For my part, I was able to open my heart in unconditional love, thanks to the opportunity to meet Carla’s daily needs. After her passing, and as a result of my experiences with Carla, I felt finally able to love myself. I was later inspired to ask Jesus to come into my heart and have since felt an ability to more fully open my heart to anyone around me. Every day I thank the One Infinite Creator for everything in my life. I do believe that all is well with Don, with the world in which we find ourselves, and with the world within us. All is truly well.

In Praise and Thanksgiving,

Jim McCarty

As I reflect on the outcome of Don’s taking his own life and later appearing to Carla in her two visions to tell her that all had occurred as it was meant to, I remember when Carla was talking to me about how the book The Crucifixion of Esmerelda Sweetwater that she and Don wrote in 1968, as their first work together, that they knew one of the major characters would have to die at the end of the book. (Don was the character Joshua Starr; Carla was Esmerelda Sweetwater; and I was Theodore Behr, but it would be ten years before I met them.) But they couldn’t see which one it would be, so they just assumed that since Carla was the one with the weaker physical body, and that Don had never been sick a day in his life, that Carla’s character of Esmerelda Sweetwater would be the one that would die at the end of the book. This is what Ra had to say about this situation in 68.14:

When the commitment was made between two of this group to work for the betterment of the planetary sphere, this commitment activated a possibility/probability vortex of some strength. The experience of generating this volume was unusual in that it was visualized as if watching the moving picture.

Time had become available in its present-moment form. The scenario of the volume went smoothly until the ending of the volume. You could not end the volume, and the ending was not visualized as the entire body of the material but was written or authored.

This is due to the action of free will in all of the creation. However, the volume contains a view of significant events, both symbolically and specifically, which you saw under the influence of the magnetic attraction which was released when the commitment was made and full memory of the dedication of this, what you may call, mission restored.

I could be wrong, but maybe this is what Don was telling Carla that all turned out as it was meant to be.

Now I would also like to share Carla’s experiences with channeling that began 50 years ago when Don Elkins was a professor of physics at the University of Louisville, but he had larger questions about life and the universe that led him to study questions unanswered or just unaddressed by science, particularly regarding paranormal activities and UFOs. In 1961, this research led him to meet a fellow named Hal Price who gave Don what later came to be known as The Brown Notebook—a collection of channeled transcripts from a group in Detroit led by Walt Rogers who claimed to be in “telepathic” contact with the beings in the UFOs. After visiting this group in Detroit, Don decided to begin an experiment to reproduce this contact at home.

Toward that end, Don gathered twelve of his physics students from the Speed Scientific School and formed a meditation group to conduct an experiment. He wanted to see if he could transplant the protocols he had picked up from the Detroit Group in order to form a channeling group to receive Confederation contact. One of the students asked if his girlfriend could come along. She turned out to be Carla L. Rueckert.

After some false starts and challenges, along with an in-person visit from Walt Rogers to help the group, the twelve students began to develop as channels, receiving information and inspiration from entities calling themselves members of the Confederation of Planets in Service to the One Creator.

Carla enjoyed these channeled messages which were done in the state of meditation, but she didn’t have any desire at that time to learn how to channel. However, after about twelve years all of the physics students had graduated college and moved out of town, so Don asked Carla if she would be willing to help keep his experiment going by learning how to channel. Carla agreed, and on February 23, 1974, her first channeling was a brief message from those of Hatonn:

Hatonn: I am going to try to use an instrument that is new to channeling. If you will avail yourself.

(Carla channeling)

I am Hatonn. I am with this instrument. I am having much difficulty with this instrument.

Then, on March 5, 1974, Carla wrote a short report of how her second experience channeling Hatonn went because there were no microphones on the day before when the actual channeling session was held.

I am recording this in the form of a report because I did not have the microphone on and so cannot furnish a transcription. I am writing down as much of the message I received as I can remember and noting the experience as a whole for the record. In retrospect, I feel it helped me learn about doing a better job of channeling.

Yesterday, the fourth, we had a very large group for meditation and Don was not here. Nor was R, nor was M. R and M are the now more accomplished of the new channels and Don is the oldest channel in the group and very reliable. There are many people in this group who have been getting conditioning. Eight people were here who have been getting conditioning that I am sure of. They have not yet really developed as channels. They have channeled one message each. And these were very short.

We simply did not have any microphones on. I felt that I was ready to channel, I heard or was aware of certain thoughts that came into my mind and I spoke them. There was, of course, a good deal of doubt in my mind later as to whether the thoughts were mine or whether they were actually channeled; especially, since there was not a more dependable channel there to correct me if I made an error.

What the message was about mainly was simply a greeting to everybody and a statement of how pleased Hatonn and Laitos were to be here. And that they would condition all those in the room who wished it and attempt to use each new instrument that they could use, very briefly. They didn’t use anybody else but me. Although afterwards two other instruments stated that they could’ve spoken, but they were “chicken.” It is very easy to be “chicken” because when you begin to get a thought all you get is the first, which is usually, “I am Hatonn.” And unless you say that aloud, they won’t go on to the next bit, unless you say it to yourself. Which is how I got up the courage in the first place, because I said it to myself and got about the first paragraph and I realized that I was going to get a message.

So, today, there was no one here for the first time in a long time and my meditation was by myself and I had been thinking to myself all day and as many times, as I believed in other people’s channeling, I did have the predictable problem very much of self-doubt and so when I sat down and meditated and I was meditating I thought to myself, “Hatonn, if it really is an occurrence, I want conditioning now,” and I began getting conditioning and when my jaw finally opened and that unmistakable “I,” I said it. And sure enough, I got a thought and it led to another one and it led to another one, so I went on and channeled Hatonn to myself. And it was short. It said, “I am Hatonn. I am very privileged to be with you. I am pleased to see that you are meditating. I will recommend to you that you relax more because if you wish to become a channel and if you wish us to direct you there is no way for us to do that if you are misdirecting yourself.”

There was a pause after for the thought to sink in and then he just said, “I leave you in the love and the light of the infinite Creator. I am Hatonn.” So, I am now able to do it, and I had a sense of it actually being over. I could feel that the contact had lifted, and I wanted to ask a question so I said, “Hatonn, can I ask a question?” and immediately I could feel that there was presence as though a computer had come on and was kicking over or something and I said, “How can I meditate better?” And I got the thought, “Think of nothing. You are thinking of something.”

End of report.

After developing a close relationship, Don moved in with Carla in 1968 to consciously dedicate their lives to their mission as companions and research associates. In 1970 they formed L/L Research. (Named “the L/L Company” for its first several years.)

Their research continued alongside the ongoing channeling experiment until 1974 when all of the former students who had participated in the experiment had gone their separate ways. Though Carla had not channeled up to that point, Don requested that she take up the art so that the experiment could continue. Carla took to channeling naturally. Carla loved and lived to be of service-to-others as an instrument for the Confederation’s words. She continued in this service without interruption up until 2011 when a major spinal fusion surgery brought it to a halt. Her last channeling was on April 2, 2011, when she channeled the answer to the question: “Q’uo, please tell us something about the seeking and the enlightenment of Gautama Siddhartha. Aka, the Buddha. What does this story tell us about spiritual enlightenment?” You can read the response from Q’uo that Carla channeled by using the search function on our website and using the first sentence of the question.

Of course, you all are well aware that Carla was the instrument for those of Ra for 106 sessions which focused on the Law of One and produced the two volumes of The Ra Contact: Teaching the Law of One. This channeling was done in trance where Carla would leave her body and be with those of Ra in the inner planes of Earth so that they could use her body from a distance to respond to Don’s questions. All of the rest of the channeling that she did was conscious channeling.

Carla also channeled her guidance system which she called the Holy Spirit 470 times, from 1987 through 1989, as a way of perfecting the channeling process for herself. Her first thoughts for channeling any spiritual source of information was to ask anyone attending a channeling session to ask only spiritually oriented questions and to avoid any fear-based questions and any questions focused on worldly advice. She created a process of preparing herself to channel by tuning her consciousness by singing sacred music, praying and meditating in silence. She also used protective techniques such as calling on the archangels, visualizing protection for her energy body and counting down from her age to zero to focus her attention. Then she would ask for the highest and best contact of the Christ consciousness, or the Holy Spirit, that she could channel in a stable manner. When she was ready to begin the channeling process, she would challenge any source that wished to channel through her asking them if they could say that Jesus is Lord since she was a mystical Christian, and she would offer this challenge three times.  She and I chose 366 of these channelings to eventually become the book, A Book of Days: Channelings from the Holy Spirit. I have always felt that these channelings from the Holy Spirit are the most inspiring channelings I have ever read as they have the concepts of Love and Light in almost every sentence.

When you look at all of these channeling experiences that she had, along with over 1600 sessions with those of Q’uo, and the 106 Sessions with those of Ra, I cannot imagine a more gifted channel that wanted to be of service to the one infinite Creator and to every person who might be interested in traveling their spiritual journey. It was my great honor to be a part of her channeling gift to the world; to have known her for 35 years; and to have been married to her for 28 years. Thank you, Carla, for a beautiful and inspiring life given in service to others, to Jesus, and to the one infinite Creator.