The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 18, 1999:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each of you again in the love and the light of the infinite Creator. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present might have for us. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have been struggling with a tendency to be angry and go on the defensive, but I don’t know how to get out of that feeling from the inside out. I find it almost impossible to claim myself as anything other than the anger that I feel at that time. Could you make any comments or suggestions?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that we may speak on some aspects of this problem, shall we say, but there is much yet which will need to be discovered through your own efforts. We may suggest that the long-term press of pain upon the physical vehicle wears both upon the physical vehicle and upon the mental support framework, shall we say, the nerves and the nervous system, as you would call them. For as one has the experience of the physical pain repeated in a nearly constant fashion at various locations within the physical vehicle there is the tendency of what we have heard called the transparency of the experience in which there is the response or knee-jerk action, as it has been called, that appears within the behavioral patterns of the entity so experiencing pain. Thus, it is a kind of wearing upon the machinery that has its effect upon you at this time. However, there is the potential of the reprogramming of the system of response so that there is less likelihood of losing one’s center or balance in a mental and emotional sense when one feels the confusion or startled response as a result of interacting with other entities within one’s environment. This is something which takes the conscious attention to reprogram these responses and is nearly as constant in its requirements for application as is the pain which it is seeking to ameliorate.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. I’ll have to read that over.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

T: Keeping free will in mind, how do I recognize the reason for the fears that I experience. Why am I afraid? Why am I uneasy?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We would comment by suggesting that the fears of any moment might best be explored by entering that state of consciousness which is available when one is in the meditative state. That is, to retire upon a regular basis to that inner room where one may look at the environment in which the fear was experienced, the thoughts that accompanied such fear, the responses that arose within one, and so forth, so that one may examine, as well as one can in an intellectual sense, the nature of the experience and how it affects one’s being.

This exploration may best be accomplished while one is in the meditative state, for while one is in this state there is the easier access, shall we say, to the subconscious level of the mind complex, and from this level of being it is possible to make connections between that which is experienced consciously, and the source of such experience, and the response of the self to this experience. Thus, this is a careful study which one may make of the self. This is an enhanced level of seeking or course of experience in that the fears that one may explore also represent some aspect of the primary lessons which one is working upon during the length of the incarnation. Thus, when one is exploring one’s fears one is continuing the exploration that was set forth for the incarnation before it began.

Is there a further query, my brother?

T: No. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you very much, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

R: As I sit in meditation my mind picks up on a situation or pattern and works with a thought and creates what I call a mind movie that goes on and on. I can consciously stop this and return to silence and then it begins again. I try to allow a place for that pattern, but I still wonder if there is something else that I can do with it, or just leave it?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The minds of most third-density entities such as yourselves are quite stimulated and active upon many levels as a result of the progress, shall we say, of the way of life which is experienced and created as an experience by your peoples. There is the tendency to apply the self liberally throughout the daily experience, to spread oneself thinly, shall we say, to engage the mind often as a means by which one navigates through the cultural experience. This experience has been enhanced by many tools and gadgets that take one quickly here and there and require from one a great deal of information, time, effort, and thought. Thus, the mind is like a plant which has been given a great deal of water, of soil, of sun, of nutrients, and of attention and has grown in large degree as a result of this overemphasis on its functioning into a kind of machine which has a momentum of its own being, we shall say, for we find a difficulty in adequately describing how active the mind complex of your peoples is.

We find that the meditative state is, indeed, that place where one may approach the quieting of the mind yet find time and again examples of its rambunctiousness. That you are able to become aware of this chatter or momentum of the mind and have been able from time to time to be able to displace this chatter with the one-pointed focus upon the silence within is an achievement of note and is the path towards the eventual balancing of this mechanism so that there is the possibility of entering into a sacred place within the mind complex and be unhindered by the activity of the constant stream of thoughts that is the natural concomitant to the kind of style that most of your people find themselves living.

Thus, our suggestion to you is to continue that which you have done tirelessly, and that is to notice when the mind is running and then to place that mental picture aside so that the main focus of the mind may return to that one-pointed focus upon stillness. This is an exercise which does engage the mind upon a simpler level than the normal daily routine. If there is a scent of incense or a sound as of your music or your chanting that you find relaxing, we would suggest that you engage these activities to enhance the process of relaxing the mind process.

There is no easy answer for any entity within this environment who wishes to find the peaceful place within, for each must deal with this mental activity and the tendency to take over the focus. We can only suggest your perseverance and the application of the light-hearted attitude in so doing. For it is the effort that you make, the regularity of your meditations, that is of importance in the real gain from this stage of the meditative practice. As you continue to invest your time and your effort there also is a momentum of this investiture that is made that will eventually take its hold upon the meditative endeavor.

R asked Q’uo: “As I sit in meditation my mind picks up on a situation or pattern and works with a thought and creates what I call a mind movie that goes on and on. I can consciously stop this and return to silence, and then it begins again. I try to allow a place for that pattern, but I still wonder if there is something else that I can do with it, or just leave it?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that the minds of most third-density entities are very active on a number of levels which is enhanced by gadgets such as the televisions, movies, and meetings of different kinds which is like being a plant that has been given a lot of water, fertilizer, and sunshine that results in it becoming like a machine with a momentum of its own that is hard to control. Then Q’uo said that meditation is a good place to rid the self of the chatter that is normal for most people because as one enters the single-pointed focus of silence there is a sacred space within the mind where silence may be found. So Q’uo suggested that R persist in his meditative practice, and if his mind continues to run in mental pictures that he uses the smell of incense, or music, or chanting to put the mental activity of the mind aside and focus on the silence. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that everyone has to deal with the overactive mind in meditation, and R should continue in his effort to find silence in his meditations and utilize the light-hearted approach to create its own momentum in his meditative practice. On February 15, 2004, Q’uo described the value of finding the sacred space within ourself:

Move with us, if you will, in the clockwise motion about the circle, feeling the energy of the group moving, growing and forming a temple of light about you. Now continue that exercise, but move only within the orbit of your being, and feel the part of the temple of the group that you are. Feel that smaller temple whose light moves into the group energy. Now, move deeper and deeper within that holy and sacred space within until you come to the very center of that being that you are and rest there. Stop, and sense into that quiet, living center of self which is your heart. Here is your place of rest, recuperation, and healing. Here is your place to reach out your hand to the Creator and to feel Its hand in yours before the reaching has ever been done. This is the center of your connection to guidance, truth, and stability. Were we never to speak with you another word, were there no perceived authority to offer wisdom, this center of self would be entirely sufficient to guide you, in terms of that which your desires for this incarnation were before you ever came into the experience of life with its hectic breath and its beating heart (and we may say, because of this instrument’s allergies, its itching nose). Before all of the sensations of life, the center is the place of rest and the platform from which one may spring into action, spring into expanded being, spiral into those lessons to be learned and those services to be performed.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: No, not on this subject. I will have to sit with those suggestions.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: How can R prepare himself for meeting a girlfriend to be a companion?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your queries, my friends. When an entity finds that there is a portion of the self that resides in loneliness and wishes to be accompanied by another it is well to do those things which one would normally and naturally do to make oneself available for the finding of such a friend. We find that this is well-known by the one known as R in that this entity is active in placing itself in its environment in which there is the likelihood of finding the female of the proper persuasion.

However, we would also suggest that there is the possibility of placing oneself in the meditative state upon the regular basis, as is always our suggestion, for the meditative state is a means whereby the subconscious mind and other resources of the entity may be accessed so that the direction or plan may first be formed in this place, then fleshed out, shall we say, within the physical illusion in which each moves.

Within the meditative state it is well to look at the self and to see the self as it is, shall we say, to look at the heart of the self and see where there might be the company provided by the self for the self so that the self is enhanced in its view of itself. This is to say that an entity may find that there is a missing piece, a place, an avenue of interest that, when explored, feels like going home. That there is a completion upon this avenue, that a direction that may be found will allow a certain passion within to be released, from self to self, so that there is the possibility of the completion that occurs first within. Then it is followed within the physical illusion by the physical expression for the self, respect for the self, and excitement of the self for the life experience.

Again, we have not provided a course of study or reflection which is easily achieved, for there is within each entity a place whereby the self may expand in its view of itself, that is to say, a place where a new level of learning, a new level of resonance, may be discovered. When this place is found there is the possibility, then, of having this new level of experience be reflected within the daily round of activities.

Is there a further query, my friends?

R: No. You have given me a lot to think about, and thank you for the words of encouragement. Thanks to Carla as well.

I am Q’uo, and we are grateful that we are able to be of some small service. Is there a final query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as it appears that we have exhausted the queries for the nonce we would take this opportunity to thank each for inviting our presence in your circle of seeking this day. We are most grateful to be able to walk with you for a few steps upon your journey. We would also remind each that each has many such friends that walk with you, and wait with you, and rejoice with you at each step and praise with you the unity of the one Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and would take our leave of this instrument and this group at this time, leaving each, as always, in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This Morning I went upstairs and re-recorded the section on Reincarnation from Chapter Three of 103. Then I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves off of the Moss Garden, and then I used my trimmer to weed the Moss Garden.

This afternoon  I went upstairs and re-recorded the section on The Balancing Exercises from 102.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert
 

November 6

Offer Sorrow And Thanksgiving

I am the voice of unconditional Love which speaks to the world in the name of Jesus the Christ.

I greet you in the full consciousness of that Love.

How many of you, while aching within the heart, must move through the day attempting to manifest the plenty from which that heartache seems to detract? We focus today upon heartache, upon the sorrows of living.

Within your life, within all life that matures and moves forward, there is a balance of sorrow and joy. Allow a knowledge of the kingdom of the Father to touch that septic sorrow. See that pain as the true, sore ache and agony that it is and offer it to love for love’s nurturing, comforting care.

You who seek so diligently are not alone. The principles of Love and Light are with each at all times. Therefore we say to you, “Take your sorrow, your sadness, as well as your joys and offer them up in thanksgiving to the Father, for all things work together to create a balanced compassion within the faithful seeker.”

May you find that balance this day and every day. Open the self to the power of infinite and unconditional Love. We are with each of you, but though we may knock upon the door of your consciousness we cannot open it. We cannot comfort or aid without the turning of the sorrowful spirit to the door and the welcoming in faith of that positive principle of Love. Then over your threshold shall move peace and confidence and a balance to sorrow.

We leave you in that balance, that pe ace, that wholeness that is love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 18, 1999:

Our question today has to do with the concept of finding the Creator in each aspect of our everyday lives. We can understand intellectually how the Creator has made all that there is, and eventually we progress through all of the experiences, and all is one again, but we are wondering if Q’uo can give us information today about how to find the Creator in each moment, whether we are washing dishes or driving a car, or fleeing attacks in Kosovo, or flying in an airplane, or whatever we might be doing. It’s easier to see the Creator in the good moments but it’s harder when we find things bad, or boring, or nonsensical, or absurd, how do we find the Creator there?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the infinite light of the one Creator in whose name we come. We thank you and bless each of you for calling us to your circle of seeking. It is both our privilege and our pleasure to share our opinions with you on the interesting subject of daily spirituality. We ask of you only that you listen to our words as to those of a brother or sister, for we are not perfect nor any kind of authority over you but, rather, we are those who are pilgrims on what this instrument calls the King’s Highway. We are in service to the one infinite Creator, and as we seek, we know you also seek this beauty, this truth, this mystery, this way, this life. It is good to have such companions, and as we said, a great blessing to us to be able to be of service in this way. And we thank each.

As we rest in the comfort and the beauty of your blended vibrations, we find ourselves aware of much each of you already knows from experience, from suffering and undergoing great difficulty, from being held together and lifted up by the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. Each has beautiful stories to tell of those times when everything seemed clear, and the creation truly did seem to be one beautiful, harmonious symphony of people, and relationships, and nature, and things great and small, all moving together with rhythm and pulse and a lovely dance that was new every moment. It is not simply with the intellect that each of you has had these experiences, but with the whole self. Each has had these transcendent times when the world simplified itself, and the Love could be seen. We are grateful for the beauty of those memories and those awarenesses within you, for this gives us common ground. We do not have to convince or persuade any that spirituality is a very real and a very intimate thing, for each of you has had those feelings from deep within the self, and each more or less trusts those experiences. We would encourage you to continue to trust those memories, for whenever times of ineffable harmony come, however they come, through what suffering they come, or as what gift out of nowhere, they are the gems hidden within the ore of common life, so far. And what a blessing it is to stumble across a perfect diamond or ruby, to see the crystalline nature of truth which has been realized in some way.

Andnow each is filled with the appetite for living at this level of harmony and justice and that feeling of rightness. You crave and seek with all your heart to enlarge those experiences and to enhance the possibility of having those times come upon you, for surely we may say that there is no guaranteed entrance into a state of mind or heart within which, while the illusion of normal life is full and living, you may control your state of mind or your awareness, for we would not be telling the truth were we to say that we have the solution that can erase the illusion and leave you in sure possession of the truth that lies within the illusion. And may we say that were we able to guarantee to each within incarnation upon your planet at this time that each would be able to be completely free of the illusion, we would not wish to ruin the experience of suffering which each of you desired to undergo.

Let us look at this point, at this issue of the desirability of suffering. Why would a spirit in full and conscious knowledge of the Love of the Creator voluntarily place herself within the veil of forgetting and then ask herself to undergo a certain level of suffering, and learning, and transformation? Why would you wish to plunge into the difficult and confused sea of illusion that your Earth plane represents? That which places you within this illusion is infinitely and intimately tied to the Creator Itself and to the Free Fill that has begotten the universe and that calls each spark of the Creator onward to reach once again that Source and ending of all.Why would any do this, except for the simple reason that it is the nature of each spark of the Creator to wish to learn and to serve. Now, we come to you hoping to be of service to you, and as we speak to you, we find ourselves learning twice as much as each of you may perhaps learn from those things that we say. Such is the nature of any gift that is given, that it comes to bless the giver twice, and three times, and a hundredfold.

Before incarnation each of you saw clearly what it was to live by faith, what it was to affirm in each moment the holy nature of that moment and the blessed nature of the holiness of the self. Each saw this clearly, and we see this clearly, for we do not have that veil of illusion that has dropped upon you as you have taken on yourselves the flesh and blood and biochemical mechanisms which move you about within your lifetime that you experience. We see clearly, but because we see so clearly our choices are easy. There is no effort in choosing to radiate or, rather, to allow the radiation through us of the infinite Love and Light of the one great original Thought which is Love. It is not that this is easy. Rather, that this is inevitable given our view which is clear. Therefore, we cannot polarize towards loving more, or serving more, or learning more. We cannot become, this instrument would say, better people. We cannot improve our vibratory complex very easily at all within this state which we now enjoy. That which we do to increase our polarity is done with infinite time and patience compared to the rough and tumble and very quick energy exchanges and learnings that are available to those who do not know and cannot see the truth plainly.

Faithto us is simply a word, a word that means the knowledge that all is well and the knowledge that all shall be well. To us it is not amazing to look out of the window and see snow and call it snow. There it is. Yet this within your world is not at all clear. We are not speaking now of snow. We are speaking of the ability of each heart to see that it is Love itself, and to see that each atom, each iota, each mote of stuff visible or invisible is instinct with the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. From your viewpoint as third-density human beings dwelling within physical bodies, what you gaze at may not speak to you. As the one known as R said, “A floor is only a floor. Dust is only dust. The broom is only a broom.” To us, with our clear vision, every manifested atom, dust, floor and broom is alike, a beautiful, living, transformative piece of the Creator’s manifestation.

The ability to call upon that part of the self that is already aware of the truth and sanctity of daily living is to call upon a part of the self that this instrument would call the Holy Spirit. The self is a concept that is extremely rich. When one looks at oneself in the mirror or looks at another self, another being, it is easy to see that which is immediately visible to the physical self, and one gathers great quantities of information from gazing in the mirror or from looking at another: the color of the hair, the health of the complexion, age, weight, general characteristics of all kind can be easily noted and filed away. But within that mirror’s image, within that other self that you see lies a limitless and infinite self, a self that is connected to all other selves and to all parts whatsoever of the creation of the Father. This connection is so powerful that to gather together in groups, even small groups, is to gather tremendous amounts of energy, and if each of you can sense into the flow of energy around the circle in which you sit you may indeed experience for yourself the great amount of light energy that coming together with one purpose and hope has given to you. Each connection that is made between spirits such as yourselves is a connection that is greatly sanctified and blessed and holy, and it is the reason that you feel that need to come into groups and to express your love of the Creator in some way as a group. The energy of each multiplies the energy of each, so that together you are far more than the sum of yourselves.

You have become an infinite power for Love and Light, and this is a resource that we are glad that you are taking part in, not only because we feel close to each of you as we meditate with you but also because we have heard the sorrow of the brothers and sisters of those upon your planet, and we know that the light energy that you gather in groups such as this will have a great healing effect upon the suffering of the world as a whole. For each light that connects with another becomes a stronger and stronger light and a lighthouse, shall we say, if there is a group that continues so that entities who have been within the circle know that there is a light source within a certain place. And so entities have come to depend greatly upon churches and synagogues and temples and places where entities may gather for spiritual healing and service. And this is the Sunday mentality that each of you grew up with and is familiar with and is what most of those whom you may know find acceptable as the extent to which they wish to express spirituality in their lives. This is the easy spirituality: the gathering together in groups and the raising of the group spirit. It is much more difficult within the illusion for an entity to come into remembrance of its own nature by himself.

The group question for this session was: “Our question today has to do with the concept of finding the Creator in each aspect of our everyday lives.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that each within the group had experiences when the creation seemed to be an harmonious symphony of people, relationships, and nature moving together with rhythm in a lovely dance that was new every moment, and it wasn’t just perceived by the intellect but with the whole self when the world simplified itself, and the Love could be seen. Then Q’uo said that there was no way that they could help any within the group to erase the illusion and to see into the nature of truth, and even if they could guarantee to each person on Earth that each would be able to be completely free of the illusion that they would not wish to ruin the experience of suffering which each of them desired to undergo before they incarnated.  Then Q’uo asked why would a spirit with the knowledge of the Love of the Creator place itself within the veil of forgetting and then undergo suffering, learning, and transformation?  Then they said that the answer was that which places you within this illusion is infinitely tied to the Creator and to the Free Will that has created the universe and calls each spark of the Creator back home again to that Source and ending of all because each spark of the Creator wishes to learn and to serve. Then Q’uo said that before our incarnations it was easy to see that each of us was part of that infinite Love and Light of the one great original Thought which is Love, and they could experience this truth but could not grow in this experience as quickly as we can where quick energy exchanges and learnings are available to those who do not know and cannot see the truth plainly in the third density illusion. Q’uo continued by saying that faith is the belief that all is well, and that all will be well, but within our third-density illusion we cannot see that we are the Love of the Creator, and that It exists in all things. They went on to say that we can call upon the Holy Spirit within us to see more of that nature of our being, and that Love of the Father is within each seeker in groups such as the one gathered for this session, and when seekers come together in that way their connections with each other are holy, and their energy is greatly multiplied when they join together in groups. On October 22, 1983, Carla asked Q’uo a question and explained her experience with the Holy Spirit was that It was within everyone and could be helpful to each one in various ways:

The bias which I follow is that each of us has a Comforter, another word for the Holy Spirit, and the action of this force, whatever it is called, I don’t think you have to be Christian to have an awareness of the force itself, it sustains you one way or another. Could you comment on my guess that whereas I tend to get very articulate messages from this force, nevertheless the mechanism basically works for everybody, it’s just that in some people’s lives the working of this force, or this source of information, this comfort, might be dreams, might be coincidence, or many other ways in which the Comforter or the Holy Spirit or whatever you could call it, the higher self, might work. But it’s one, no matter what your bias, the force itself that occurs is one very substantial force which is the true one.

The one known as N spoke earlier of the isolation that a painful condition might give to a patient who does not look sick but who indeed suffers great pain. There is a spiritual isolation that entities may easily feel as they go about their daily round of activities. This isolation is based upon the incoming data from the outside environment which is fed through a number of biases that filter information and prioritize its use. Were each of you to know this and pay attention to all of the incoming data that your senses receive each would become paralyzed with the flood of information. Consequently, each spirit within flesh begins very early to learn what can be taken in, what must be taken in first and acted upon, what is secondly important and what is only in the third place important, and so on. And we would suggest that each of you has adopted biases that cut into, and, in some cases, delete completely the large amounts of data received which are helpful to one which is attempting to break the bonds of Sunday spirituality and come into a closer relationship with the Spirit that lies within.

Now, each within this circle has achieved a high measure of dependability and functionality within the society and the culture within which you live. Each has made the choices which have brought each to this point of awareness because those choices seemed necessary. What we are suggesting is that it is possible through observation to reprioritize some aspects of incoming data in order that either different filters are used, or certain classes of material are reprioritized and noticed at a higher level than was previously done. One example of this is the creation of the Father. It brings to the eye most of all, certainly to the nose, to the ears, to the senses altogether, the feel and touch and taste of creation itself: the elements of earth and air, wind and fire, the incredible complexities of a life that seems infinitely fertile and wonderfully abundant. Each bush, each blade of grass, each leaf upon a tree, each cloud within the sky, carries a beauty that is ineffable and that hides from the notice of the everyday awareness because it cannot be used in the acquisition of comfort or safety or that money that is needed to assure the comfort and the food of the self and the family.

This, shall we say, is one fairly large category of data that tends to be prioritized quite low, and, therefore, tends not to be appreciated or reacted to at the level of the whole conscious self. Certainly, an entity may feel better in the sunshine than in the shade, may enjoy a sunny day more than a rainy day. But to appreciate each drop of rain or each ray of sunshine, to see each blade of grass as the miracle that it is, this is seldom done because it has no survival value. It is not that which the nuts and bolts needs of humankind would say is part of a necessary awareness of life. And yet it is this aspect of things, the beauty, the wholeness of each creation, that can bring home to the spirit the lessons of faith, and hope, and love that each does indeed yearn for in that Spirit within the self that is a citizen of eternity and not simply a personality that develops and becomes ill and goes back into the dust from which it came.

Weare suggesting that each of you is more complex than you may be aware, that you have more needs than can be satisfied with the data prioritization that you now employ. There is that need to go back into the deep programming of the self and to ask, and ask again, and ask again, that self within to pay attention, to take in and to notice the lessons that each blade of grass may teach. And what are those lessons, you may ask? Let us look at that blade of grass. You see the tip of the plant as it comes forth from the fertile soil. You see the hope of its greening in those cold days of the first part of Spring when the earth is still chilly, and it is brave and courageous for the seed to start reaching towards that wintry sun that is a bit more to be seen in the sky but does not yet come with that summer warmth that is easy to grow under. Underneath the soil lie those roots which have made it through the deepest sleep of winter on faith alone. That grass has rested within its roots and its seed and accepted the dying of that self that was, is responding to a new life with all the power of its tiny form, and if some weeder such as this instrument should attempt to take that blade of grass from its home, which unfortunately is in some flower box that she wishes to weed, it will resist with every fiber of its being, for it loves life. It knows not how to do otherwise than to reach for the light and to bless all who may tread upon it. And this is one blade of grass, so ask to yourself what lessons lie within the floor and the broom and the dust.

Might you see, then, that the dust expresses a patience, a contentment of being what it is. Dust is, indeed, the most patient of friends. It will stay precisely where it is. It will not travel, for it knows its place and is happy with its place. And that place is upon that which was at one time the tree, and this tree has undergone great suffering. These planks of wood have been torn from the ground by huge saws. They have been rammed into sawmills and made to be peoples’ floors, and as peoples’ floors they are yet willing to lend the beauty of their grain, the softness of their spring underfoot, and the ability to hold that lovely, patient dust. And these gifts they give to you and to all who no longer find them.

Then Q’uo said that many spiritual seekers feel a great deal of pain and loneliness because as they have learned how to place biases on incoming information in order to keep from being overwhelmed by too much data, but sometimes they have put a bias against some information that could give them a closer relationship with the Spirit that lies within them. Q’uo continued by saying that it is possible to use different filters and to reprioritize some aspects of incoming data so it is noticed at a higher level than was previously done, and they said that the Father’s creation was an example of this because it brings to our senses the feel, the touch, and the  taste of creation itself: the elements of earth and air, wind and fire, the life that seems infinitely fertile and abundant. Then they said that it is the beauty and the wholeness of each creation that can provide us the lessons of faith, hope, and love that we desire because that Spirit within us is a citizen of eternity and not just a personality that develops and becomes ill and goes back into the dust from which it came. Q’uo went on to say that we need to go back into the deep programming of our self and to ask our self within to notice the lessons that each blade of grass may teach us where we see the tip of the plant as it comes forth from the fertile soil, and we can see the hope of its greening in those cold days of the first part of Spring when it is courageous for the seed to start reaching towards that wintry sun, and underneath the soil lie those roots which have made it through the deepest sleep of winter on faith alone. On July 18, 1982, Hatonn spoke of the eternal nature of the Spirit within us:

My friends, the spirit within you does not know any limits. That which governs your heart, your life, and your soul throughout eternity does not speak the language of society, family, government, or even planetary considerations. It recognizes a law that is so far beyond the laws of your science and the dogmas of your religion that most have great difficulty in grasping the mechanisms of the spirit.

The one known to you as Jesus the Christ offered the heart or ethic of this law, saying, “Love your God with all your heart, all your mind, all your soul, and all your strength; and love your neighbor as yourself.” The law, my friends, is Love. It is a law of freedom, not restriction, of flexibility, not rigidity, of wisdom, not knowledge, of possibilities, not dogma. And we ask that as you give thanksgiving for this wondrous miracle, this infinite, immortal and precious spirit that has come among you to be cherished, to be guided and to be set free, that you see yourself also as infinitely precious and infinitely miraculous. Do you lift up your heart in thanksgiving at a baby? No less lift it up for yourselves, for your neighbors, for your brothers and sisters, for are you not each eternal facets of the one infinite Creator?

And so that incredible being that has the power of locomotion and the power to pick up things and place them otherwise than where they were, this being has manufactured a wonderful instrument for addressing the replacement of dust upon floors with cleanliness upon floors. And this being comes to sweep away that which is old and that which has done its work, to take it up and place it back within the province of the unimproved earth. And in this humble and surely boring little chore there lies the excellence of spiritual inquiry, that desire to uncover beauty, that desire to cleanse and bless one’s environment, to take a magical sense of cleanliness and give it to the surroundings which it enjoys. The sweet earth is expressing a spiritual Love when it expresses a desire for cleanliness.

The inspiration for cleanliness is indeed spiritual. And the ritual of making that which is dusty into that which shines with cleanliness is a spiritual ritual. The one known as Jim has often spoken of his Sunday morning house-cleaning as part of the family plan, for the one known as Carla goes to church and sings to the infinite Creator and goes through the ceremony of the holy communion. Meanwhile, the one known as Jim is taking all of those things which may have gone awry, that dirt which has fallen or spattered or come upon the things of daily use and with great love and great feeling of the ritual of cleanliness has blessed the entire house with loving and careful attention. And we will guarantee each of you that when you have cleaned your space, when you have cleansed your living place, those coming through the door and entering your magical aura may well never realize why they feel so welcome and so comfortable within your space, but you will know that it is because you have loved your space and have spiffed it up and shined it up until it is proud of itself and feels very ready to bless all who come within its purview. There is nothing that you see that is not holy. There is nothing that you do that cannot be holy. Nothing in your environment is dead. All is alive, made with Love and manifested with Light. All things are available to those who live by faith as ways to express faith, and love, and hope.

We cannot cause each of you to sense this. Were we to impose our will upon you in some way, to give you visions of the holiness of the everyday, we would choose not to, for we would simply be doing your learning for you, and the realization would have no real power within you. Indeed, each of you must live by faith, completely by reason of your own free will. Each of you must learn the lessons of love and service for yourselves, chosen only by your own free will. When the free will of an entity turns towards faith there is the tendency and the temptation to reach out as if there is something out there that can be gotten into the light, into the mind, that will change things. Each of you must learn the lessons of love and service for yourselves, chosen only by your own free will.

We spoke earlier of the Holy Spirit. It can be imagined as that which comes from without, as that which is exterior to the self. And certainly it is, shall we say, exterior to the conscious self. But the spirit of the one infinite Creator is far closer to you than your bones, or your muscle, or your flesh. It is far closer to you than your hearing, or your eyes, or your senses. You are made of faith and love. The Holy Spirit is with you in an intimate and inner way as a true portion of your being, as that portion of the self that knows and that can inspire. This instrument calls upon the name of Jesus and yet Jesus said, “I am the way.” By whatever name you call love, you are calling [inaudible].

Within those gifts that are yours by nature you are not calling upon something that you must go out and get, for the Creator is the “I” of you. When you say “I am,” you are speaking also of the Creator. When you say “I am,” you are speaking of Love. You are speaking of holiness. You are speaking of faith. And this awareness is part of your web of perception that has been prioritized so low that it does not come up into the conscious mind.

We are being asked by this instrument to finish this portion of the meditation, and so we would conclude through this instrument by suggesting that the life lived in faith begins with the assumption that all is well and that all shall be well. We are suggesting that to live in faith you claim faith, that you live in a magical world. You claim the magic of your “I,” your “I am.” If you wish to bring the holy within your daily awareness, you claim the holiness of your self and reprioritize those things to which you pay attention, so that you may be better served by those things about which you think and by those ways in which you form biases and opinions. That which you seek lies within you. The ground whereon you are sitting is holy ground. Begin with the assumption of that which you seek, and you will begin to uncover the simple truth that that which you seek is right there, closer than your breathing, nearer to you than your hands or your feet.

Now Q’uo said that the inspiration for cleanliness is spiritual, and in this humble chore lies the desire to bless one’s environment, to take a magical sense of cleanliness and give it to the surroundings which we enjoy. Then Q’uo mentioned how Carla would go to church on Sunday morning, sing sacred music, and take Holy Communion while I stayed home and cleaned our home so that people who came to our home could feel the vibrations of cleanliness, and both Carla and I were engaged in a holy practice. Q’uo went on by saying that nothing in our environment is dead because everything is alive, made with Love and manifested with Light, and all things are available to those who live by faith as ways to express faith, love, and hope, and that each of us must learn the lessons of love and service for ourselves that are chosen by our own free will. Then Q’uo said that the Holy Spirit of the one infinite Creator is far closer to us than our bones, our flesh, or our eyes, because we are made of faith and love, and when we say, “I am,” we are speaking also of the Creator. When we say, “I am,” we are speaking of Love, of holiness, of faith, and this awareness is part of our perception that has been prioritized so low that it does not come up into our conscious mind. Then Q’uo said: “But to live in faith you claim faith, that you live in a magical world. You claim the magic of your “I,” your “I am.”  That which you seek lies within you. The ground whereon you are sitting is holy ground. Begin with the assumption of that which you seek, and you will begin to uncover the simple truth that that which you seek is right there, closer than your breathing, nearer to you than your hands or your feet.” On May 24, 1998, Q’uo described the nature of a life lived in faith:

There is much unseen support for work in consciousness, for prayers, and for a life lived in faith. We ask you to lean into that support. This instrument would call it angelic support and say that there are angels everywhere. Other entities would describe this far differently, but the concept remains the same. There is guidance. There is help, for the Creator is constantly communicating to you using everything: nature, the environment, other people, coincidences. Be alert. Begin to see the spiritually interesting coincidences and you shall be much encouraged thereby.

We would at this time transfer the contact to the one known as Jim that we may answer any questions that you may have at this time. We leave this instrument in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo

This morning I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the back yard beyond the Little Locust Creek that carries rainwater to the drainage ditch so that the predicted rain tonight would not be hindered in its path to the drainage ditch by the leaves.

This afternoon I went over to the Presbyterian Church here in Anchorage to vote in the national election for president and in our state election for representatives in the House of Representatives, as well as local offices in Louisville and Anchorage.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 5

The Life Lived In Grace

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ. Your Lord and Savior is my very essence.

We would speak to you most fervently of the eternally abiding nature of all that you call true knowledge. We who greet you in the consciousness of Christ realize that you who seek the consciousness of Christ yearn for there to be information on certain subjects in order that you may learn and that those about you may gain in understanding. And yet we assure you that all information and understanding whatsoever is invariably and securely within your grasp and awaiting your accurate reach.

You who seek the consciousness of Love need to seek, therefore, not for knowledge but for a life lived in grace. For it is the nature of your life, your thoughts, your actions and your intentions that will avail to you all the information, wisdom and learning that you could ever wish to acquire.

Information which involves the seeking of the consciousness which is Christ must always partake not in what you think and what you may understand of the mind, but in who you are entirely.

Seek always, therefore, to be more and more a creature surrendered to Love and guided by the highest and best which you may see in any situation. Then the understandings will walk to you and open themselves before your inner eye in the silence of the consciousness of Love.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 21, 1999:

How can we use our desires and expectations in a balanced way to grow spiritually?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is our privilege and our blessing to join you in your meditation, to experience the beauty of your vibratory patterns, and to be able to speak with you our opinions upon the subject that you have requested this afternoon. We are most happy to speak with you concerning desire and the balancing and use of desire. We ask only that each of you listens with a careful and discriminating ear, for truth is a personal thing. That which is true is true one person at a time, one creation at a time, for each of you is the center of your creation, which is no one else’s. You and your creation are unique, and you will resonate to those truths that constitute an asset and a resource to you. When you feel that resonance, you may trust it. And when you do not, we ask that you leave our humble thoughts behind. For we are as you: pilgrims upon a spiritual journey. And though this instrument is fond of saying that she never met a physician she didn’t like, we continue to insist that we are as you, perhaps further along in the great circle from source to source. But we walk the same road, and we seek and desire the same things. Calls such as yours are most precious to us, and we thank you especially for allowing us to practice our form of service to the one infinite Creator, for we are within your inner planes at this time specifically for the answering of calls by groups and entities such as you.

Let us focus upon desire. What is the nature of desire? It is our limited understanding that the Creator Itself used the function of desire, which is also called free will, when It decided that It would know Itself. It’s desire was knowledge of Itself, and so the Creator flung out all the densities of experience, all the infinities of galaxies, and stars, and planets, and consciousness so that It might experience Itself. As the nature of the Creator is infinite Love, so did It create all Its parts as infinite Love, and each of you is as a sun or a planet in being created of infinite Love, having the nature of infinite Love. Each sentient and non-sentient being, each poppy, each breeze, each animal, and tree, and human being, is the result of that desire of the Creator to know Itself. The Creator has, from the beginning of Its creation, found Itself utterly in love with each iota, with each soul. The Creator is delighted, thrilled, and fascinated, and so the Creator has an attitude of Love and feeling of that Love radiating to every sentient being. The Creator remains fascinated. What will happen next? wonders the infinite part of deity.

Since the nature of deity or Godhead resides completely within Love and the desire to know the dimensions of that Love, it is only suitable and appropriate that each soul that awakens to its spiritual identity becomes aware of itself as a creature of desire. As the one known as R said earlier in this discussion, “I thought that I was on a high spiritual plane only to discover that I still have many, many desires.” May we say to each of you that you shall never find yourself lacking in desires. This is the nature of your being. It is the nature of space and time which creates dimensions in which you may follow your desires. So it is entirely appropriate that each of you has desires and that each of you works within the self in consciousness to know better the desires of the heart, to refine the desires of the heart, and to discipline the personality that would go forth into the world that it may have the armor of Light, that it may have the resources which it needs in order to remain aware to an increasing extent of the patterns and ramifications of the desires of the heart.

As the one known as Jim said earlier, there are many, many entities upon your plane of existence who find themselves unable to fit into the myth and mythical system of the culture in which they may find themselves. These wanderers are those pilgrims which do not have a place to stay upon the road, who do not have a handy chapel that they may go into and find themselves at rest. For many, these culturally pervasive religious influences have not been able to offer the rest and the peace which constitute spiritual balance to the pilgrim that is perforce abroad upon the spiritual path. You see, once an entity has awakened to itself as a citizen of eternity and has become aware of that essence of self that is infinite and that shall not go down to the dust, that entity then hungers and thirsts for that of the Spirit which may come into the consciousness and deflect the conscious mind during the everyday existence. It is significant to us that so many of your people feel that it is impossible to maintain a spiritual practice in everyday life. This is notable because you are the entity that you are, having the nature of Love and of Love’s desire: to love and be loved, and then having that feeling that one cannot bring this into the everyday sphere.

There is, more and more, within the heart of the seeker a feeling of imbalance, a feeling of not being able to express the essence of self. When that lack of center, that lack of peace, exists within the heart of the seeker there shall inevitably be a feeling of imbalance and a feeling of restlessness, of itchy feet, a desire to get on with and through whatever is keeping the spirit from the Love of the infinite Creator. Further, it is telling that within your society the solution of bringing the spiritual into the everyday is to take time out from the everyday to go to a weekend conference or a spiritual convention or some grouping where one may trust that there will be spiritual food and there will be the time-out from the everyday life taken for spiritual work. Mind you, we are not criticizing those who offer or those who take spiritual courses or weekends or conventions or workshops. These are wonderful means of sharing, and caring, and learning, and service. However, the source that can be most deeply secure and reliable for each seeker is the innermost heart, for in the deep heart there is a tabernacle, and within this tabernacle, in all of its infinity, lies the one Creator, patiently waiting for the seeker to open the door to their own heart. It is not in the reaching out that the most trustworthy grounding of desire may be had but, rather, in the smaller and smaller, quieter and quieter, energies of the self. For each of you is a hologram of the Creator. Each of you is already that which each seeks, but this treasure lies buried within the deeper self, not so much, shall we say, closeted away as behind a door which has a key, and that key is silence.

Whenan entity thinks of desire, the word itself has overtones of passion, sexual or sensual in nature, certainly vital. The connotations of desire are warm, hot, burning. And each experiences desires in a tremendous array of levels so that when one attempts to talk about desires with others, even those of like mind may become lost in the semantics of “desire for what?” Are some desires more balanced than others? Is it more appropriate to desire the higher things than it is to desire those shallow and materialistic things of the Earth world? The key here, we feel, is balance, as several of you have mentioned this afternoon. That word, balance, is most important. We would note that to our way of thinking that there is no particular necessity to begin with the higher desires. Indeed, we would recommend against it for those who have not done a good deal of work in consciousness, and the reason is that each is a creature of many parts, with various energies which the body, and the mind, and the spirit experience. All need to be balanced, and it is our feeling that it is far better actually to begin working with the so-called lower energy centers and chakras when one is doing so-called spiritual work.

The three lower energy centers that we have talked about before are those centers with the colors of red, orange, and yellow: the base or first chakra being the red chakra and containing those issues of survival, sexuality, and vitality; the orange-ray, that belly chakra, wherein the issues of personal ethics, personal choices, and personal relationships are worked upon; and that yellow energy center which is sometimes called the solar plexus center, which deals with the energies having to do with society and societal groups, the ethics and the relationships and the responses which the seeker may choose to offer to those catalysts which may come about. These are the chakras which need to be open and in minimal balance in order that the full energy that the Creator offers may come from the base of the body up into the heart. To do work in consciousness in the higher energy centers when the heart is not receiving full energy is to risk what this instrument would call burnout, ill health, scattered personality, and other ailments—mental, spiritual, and physical—that are the result of attempting to do high intensity, high energy work in consciousness when the heart does not have enough power to keep all things in balance.

The Group question for this session was: “How can we use our desires and expectations in a balanced way to grow spiritually?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that the nature of desire could be seen as the Creator’s desire to know Itself, so each sentient and non-sentient being, each poppy, each breeze, each animal, and tree, and human being was created out of the infinite Love of the Creator to help It know Itself, and the Creator feels great Love for each sentient being and whatever they will do next. Q’uo went on to say that since the nature of the Creator is Love, and because It would desire to know the nature of that Love, it is entirely appropriate that each of us has desires, and that each of us works within the self in consciousness to refine the desires of the heart, and to discipline the personality so it may have the armor of Light, and reveal the desires of our heart. Q’uo went on to speak about wanderers who feel no kinship with any religion or philosophy on Earth, and once they have awakened to their spiritual path as a citizen of eternity they hunger and thirst for the Spirit which may come into the conscious mind and bring it peace in its daily experience. Then Q’uo said that it was significant to them that many people could not maintain a daily spiritual practice since they had the nature of Love and of Love’s desire to love and be loved, but then having the feeling that they cannot make this part of their daily life. Q’uo continued by saying that within the heart of the seeker there is the feeling of not being able to express the essence of the self, so when that lack of peace exists within the heart of the seeker, it will experience a feeling of restlessness and a desire to get through whatever is keeping the spiritual seeker from the Love of the infinite Creator. Then Q’uo said: “that the source that can be most deeply secure and reliable for each seeker is the innermost heart, for in the deep heart there is a tabernacle, and within this tabernacle, in all of its infinity, lies the one Creator, patiently waiting for the seeker to open the door to their own heart, and the key is silence.” Now Q’uo began to speak about the nature of desires that each person experiences on many levels so that the question becomes “desire for what?” So Q’uo felt that the key here is balance, and they said that it was their feeling that it is actually better to begin working with the so-called lower energy centers and chakras when one is doing so-called spiritual work. Then Q’uo described these lower energy centers as: “The three lower energy centers that we have talked about before are those centers with the colors of red, orange, and yellow: the base or first chakra being the red chakra and containing those issues of survival, sexuality, and vitality; the orange-ray, that belly chakra, wherein the issues of personal ethics, personal choices, and personal relationships are worked upon; and that yellow energy center which is sometimes called the solar plexus center, which deals with the energies having to do with society and societal groups, the ethics and the relationships and the responses which the seeker may choose to offer to those catalysts which may come about.” Then Q’uo said that these chakras need to be open and minimally balanced so that the full energy that the Creator offers may come from the base of the body up into the heart and begin work in consciousness in the higher energy centers because when the heart is not receiving full energy there is the risk of ill health, scattered personality, and mental, spiritual, and physical problems that come from attempting to do high intensity work in consciousness when the heart does not have enough power to keep all things in balance. In 15.12, Ra spoke of the need to unblock the first three energy centers in order for the heart to begin work in consciousness:

Questioner: How does an individual go about balancing himself? What is the first step?

Ra: am Ra. The steps are only one; that is, an understanding of the energy centers which make up the mind/body/spirit complex. This understanding may be briefly summarized as follows.

The first balancing is of the Malkuth, or Earth, vibratory energy complex, called the red-ray complex. An understanding and acceptance of this energy is fundamental.

The next energy complex which may be blocked is the emotional, or personal, complex also known as the orange-ray complex. This blockage will often demonstrate itself as personal eccentricities or distortions with regard to self-conscious understanding, or acceptance, of self.

The third blockage resembles most closely that which you have called ego. It is the yellow-ray, or solar plexus, center. Blockages in this center will often manifest as distortions towards power manipulation and other social behaviors concerning those close and those associated with the mind/body/spirit complex.

Those with blockages in these first three energy centers, or nexi, will have continuing difficulties in ability to further their seeking of the Law of One.

The center of heart, or green ray, is the center from which third-density beings may springboard, shall we say, towards infinite intelligence. Blockages in this area may manifest as difficulties in expressing what you may call universal love, or compassion.

This instrument is fond of a writer and mystic called Evelyn Underhill. Within this saintly and delightfully humble woman’s work there lies the suggestion that one may think of the spiritual self as a house with two floors. Upon the first floor there is the eating, the drinking, the sleeping, and all those things which the body and the mind must do to maintain the self, to provide for the self, and to make the household that may then offer rest and security to the seeker. The one known as Evelyn asks how the seeker might feel if it ignored the dirty dishes, the unmade bed, the wonderfully creative mess that entities can make of those possessions that they have. Walk up the stairs and go into the upper room. To some, this would be very easy to do. And yet the one known as Evelyn suggests that this is putting cart before horse. This is moving too quickly for the whole being to follow. And so, we would say to you that we agree with this sentiment, that we do feel it a holy and loving work to balance those feelings concerning existence, sexuality, person, personal relationships, family relationships, and societal relationships. All these are blessed and important concerns. They are not the small change to be tossed away so that one may go higher. They are the steps which you must be able to trust, going up that staircase to the upper room. And we ask each of you to be especially aware of the beauty and the divinity of simple things. For these things will feed you and will balance you and will open your heart.

Onceyou have entered the open heart, once you feel able to bear the silence of that inner voice which speaks, not to the ear but to the heart, you rest balanced and ready to look at the deeper desires of that heart. Again and again, you will find your heart closing. You will find your relationships coming out of balance. And we say to you, take no worry from such. This is the way of things. For all things go in spirals. That which you meet today you shall meet again in a week, a month, or a year, just to be sure that you have gotten that particular point. You will see the same lessons repeated and yet not repeated, for you have spiraled into a different person, and at the new level you need to be tested. Therefore, when you find yourself moving back out of the open heart, back out of balance with relationship or with the self or with the health, or with the depression, know that this is not stepping backwards but spiraling into a review, a test, if you will, of that which you have already learned. If you spend any time at all condemning yourself for once again experiencing catalyst of this particular kind that you see repeating we ask you to put it out of your heart and forgive yourself for being who you are.

You see, within desire there lie choices which are very subtle. When you reach that point in your spiral where you get the lesson again, it is very, very easy to move back into the lower energies, meanwhile berating yourself for being within the lower energies. Yet know that you will be working with these lower energies every day and every night of your incarnation. Many times you will not even be aware of the work that you are doing in these lower energies, for the more discipline that you bring to your way of living, your rule of life, as this instrument would call it, the more you do rest in faith and do not contract away from the catalyst that constitutes this review, this test of your awareness of your balance. It is not only the balance, often, that is tested. It is your awareness of the process. When you can win through in a confused situation to a remembrance, a memory of the way catalyst works, of the process in which you are taking part, the more you will be able to move smoothly, gracefully, and cooperatively into doing the work at hand, without condemnation of self or of others, forgiving completely that which this density of experience confers upon each and every sentient citizen of eternity. For each of you is human; each of you, therefore, cannot help but make errors. That is the nature of third density of the human experience, of the spiritual path at the point which you are now, that you will constantly be tossed into confusion, difficulty, and aggravation. This is simply in order to set the stage for your journey from the intellect to the heart.

It is often seen as desirable to live the life in a carefully thought out manner, and certainly we would not say that thought given to a way of life is unwise or unspiritual. Rather, we would say that there is a kind of wisdom that appeals to the intellect, but which is false, for your density is not the density of wisdom. The greatest wisdom that you shall ever learn in your density at this time is that you cannot know anything. In other words, that your incarnation is based completely upon faith. You have no backstop of destiny. You have no eternal parent that will tell you what to do. You are on a journey in uncharted waters and your intellect will not be able to be so wise as to steer your spiritual journey. Many mistakenly attempt to live a spiritual life coming from the intellect and from wisdom. However, this energy does not make use of the open heart, and it will not take you far. And those seas into which it pitches you will be as confusing as the seas you left behind to seek for wisdom. It is our understanding, rather, that your density is a starkly simple stage set for making one choice again and again, and that is the choice to love and to be loved. The one known as Ra has said in each moment ask yourself, “Where is the love in this moment?” This question contains the seed of the heart’s opening and polarizing, and we are aware that that is what each of you wishes to do: to become more awake and aware of the true nature of the self, to be more and more able to express that essence in the daily life.

These are desires that all have in common. For each, the ship upon which each finds herself is without a lodestone or rudder. But, rather, there is a sail which may be moved about by the seeker to catch the winds of Spirit. Once one has been able, even for a short time, to run before the wind of Spirit and to feel the sails billow, one has become able to recognize what it feels like to be in the rhythm and in the rightness of things. For truly we say to you, to the best of our knowledge, each has a destiny. Each has a mission. Each has come into incarnation with gifts to share, with a mission to fulfill, a service to do, and with learning to accomplish. The learning is always about love. The serving is always about trusting in the rightness of the moment. Again and again we have heard the question, “What can I believe in? How can I have faith?” We say to you that when your desires come into balance, then it is that you are most liable to experience the harvest and the blooming of faith, for faith is not faith in anything. Faith is simply an attitude which is part of your spiritual being. Faith is that which knows that all is well and that all will be well. It cannot be gotten at by trust in any other person. It can only be experienced in midair after one has leapt from the precipice safely. In midair one finds oneself marvelously able to cultivate faith, and you will find, as you work with your desires, that there is a place or balance which you will come to recognize. There is a comfort in sensing that one is centered, that one is on the beam, that one is in rhythm and in cooperation with one’s destiny.

We hope that we have been able to describe some of the processes that go into arriving at the inmost heart and becoming aware that within it lies the Creator and that you may go in and tabernacle with that Creator and allow that Creator to be actively indwelling so that when you come out of that inner room of prayer, meditation, and silence you will feel the energy of Spirit moving through you, and you will know that, thankfully, you are no longer depending upon a pitifully small amount of human love which comes from you, but you have been able to open up the instrument of self that infinite Love and Light may flow through you and out into a hungry, thirsty world. It is our feeling that this being in the self is the highest mission of all people, that living a devotional life in the midst of all the everyday confusion is each spiritual entity’s first vocation. And I think we may say that once one attempts, on a regular basis, to live the life from this point of view, the rhythms shall grow more obvious, the music more clear, and the love more flowing as though each petal of each flower, each bird that sings, each iota of the Creator’s universe are harmonizing with you, aware of you, and in love with you as you with all of them.

Then Q’uo used Evelyn Underhill’s analogy of the spiritual seeker having two floors as the nature of their being, and the first floor would be concerned with sleeping, eating, and drinking within the daily round of activities that are related to the first three energy centers of sexuality, personal relationships, family relationships, and societal relationships, and then there was the second floor that would begin with the heart and the higher energy centers, but she did not recommend going up to the second floor of the higher energy centers until the first floor energy centers were clear and balanced. Q’uo continued by saying that once we have entered the open heart, and we are aware of the silence of that inner voice which speaks to the heart, we can feel balanced and ready to look at the deeper desires of our heart. They went on to say that again and again, we will find our heart closing and our relationships coming out of balance because this is the way of things to go in spirals just to be sure that we understand the lesson, and we will see the same lessons repeated and yet not repeated, for we have spiraled into being a different person, and at this new level we need to be tested. Then Q’uo said that if we find ourself moving back out of the open heart and out of balance with relationships or with the self, that this is not stepping backwards but moving into a review of that which we have already learned, so we should not condemn ourself but move back into our heart and forgive ourself for being who we are. Now Q’uo said that we would be working with the lower three energy centers for the rest of our lives in ways that we may not be aware of, so the more discipline that we use in meeting the day’s catalyst, the more faith that we can use to know that we are learning what we came to learn without condemning anyone or our self for any mistakes since this is the process of moving from our head to our heart. Q’uo went on to say that the greatest wisdom we can know in the third density is that we cannot know anything, and our incarnations must be lived in faith and in our open heart so that we may learn the lessons loving others and of being loved, and that each entity has a destiny; each has come into incarnation with gifts to share; with a mission to fulfill; a service to do; and with learning that is always about love. Then Q’uo said that when our desires are balanced, then we are ready to experience the harvest and the blooming of faith that all is well, and that all will be well, and then we are in rhythm and in cooperation with our destiny. Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that by opening our hearts in prayer, meditation, and silence we can tabernacle with the Creator and allow the energy of infinite Love and Light to flow through us and out into a hungry, thirsty world because this is the highest mission of all people: that of living a devotional life in the midst of all the everyday confusion is each spiritual entity’s first vocation as a way of being in harmony with the Creator’s universe. On October 1, 1995, Q’uo described the nature of the devotional life:

There are some who have a gift for the light touch. These are the entities you will find saying just the right thing to break the ice to make people laugh and find comfort in each other’s company. But for most this skill of asking the self to stop and open to a larger view must be learned as any habit must be learned. Now you “oof” and “grunt” and try, and find it hard to do, but we say to you simply continue to “oof” and “grunt.” This is good work. At some point, your own self will begin to yearn for and to seek the stoppage of that earnestness and will begin to hunger for the music behind the notes of the devotional life. Trust yourself through these practice periods, for cyclically, as lessons are learned, each seeker will go through learning periods which seem quite adverse. One cannot gain a certain amount of wisdom and then coast for the rest of the incarnation, for the Creator and your higher self hope to learn as many depths and resonances of the lessons you came to learn as time permits. So, you will find seemingly the same material coming in again to cramp your style and make life hard and earnest, yet you are not repeating but rather learning at another level of subtlety and profundity.

We thank you for allowing us to speak upon this subject, and would at this time transfer the contact to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo, and thank this instrument for its service. We leave it in the love and light of the one Creator, whom we serve with all our love and might.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves to any further queries which may have come upon the minds of any present. Is there another query at this time?

T: Is it best to attempt to create your desires, or is it better, to use the basketball phrase, “let the game come to you,” and do what comes the best you can and make your desire to do the will of God and not put too much of your own coloring on the interpretation?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. To use your analogy of the game of basketball, it is well to find oneself within the flow of life as a result of observing those experiences which come to you and which come through you. You are, as a conscious being, as one who is moved by forces which are great and unseen in the life pattern, for each has chosen a kind of curriculum, you might say, in which the opportunities to learn that which remains as lessons for you will be presented to you and will be presented as often as is necessary for you to understand their impact and the effect that love has with the open heart. Thus, it is our suggestion to each seeker of truth that you move as lightly as possible through your daily round of experience, looking for those experiences which leave a mark upon your inner being, which remain with you and affect you as that which has been drawn to you.

Is there a further query, my brother.

T: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: To follow up on T’s question, if one does have a burning desire of some kind is there the way to go concerning focusing on that desire, or is it simply to step back and say, “Thy will be done”?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. If in the observation of the experiences which are yours over a period of time it is discovered that there is a passion for this or for that avenue of expression, then it is well to follow such a passion and trust that such a passion is the will of the Creator for you at this time. For this feeling of passion is, indeed, one of the most effective ways for the subconscious mind, or the will of the Creator to move through the subconscious mind, and to move the conscious entity in such and such a fashion.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Not on that subject. I do have a question of my own and it’s OK if you can’t comment, because it is specific. I have noticed this week my own anger very strongly, and I wondered if there were any psychosomatic connection between cleansings that I have done with my body this week and the more easily felt negative emotion of anger?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. As you have surmised, we must tread carefully that we do not infringe upon your free will. We may suggest that those experiences that have been yours this week in the way of cleansing have accentuated the continuing tendency for the transparency of the self, as we may put it. That is to say, the physical condition that you have experienced concerning pain for a great portion of your incarnation has had the effect, shall we say, of wearing the nerves thin so that there is a more easily recognized emotional response to the environment about you. The fragility of your own physical vehicle has as its analog within the mind a psychology of the feeling that one must take care and be careful, and when there is another within the life experience that seems to be careless in regards to relationships with you—for example, the entity pulling in front of your automobile in a careless fashion—then there is as a result within your physical and emotional being a tendency towards the defensive reaction: the fear, the anger, and so forth.

Is there any further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

R: Can you tell me whether the books by Carlos Casteneda are of the path of that which is not?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. But we find that there is a line beyond which we may not go in describing the nature of these or any volumes as being of the path of that which is not or the path of that which is, the path of negativity or the path of positively. These choices, my brother, are most important for each seeker of truth to make for himself or herself, and this choice we find that we must leave to you.

Is there another query, my brother?

R: No, not on this subject. Thank you anyway.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you for your query, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as it appears that we have exhausted the queries for the nonce we shall take this opportunity to thank each present for inviting our presence in your circle this day. It has been a great honor and privilege for us to walk these few steps with you. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and would at this time take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I re-recorded the section on A Choice I Perspective from Chapter Two of 102, and this completes the re-recording of Chapter Two.

This afternoon I recorded the section on Is There An Unnatural Self? from Chapter Three of 102. Then I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some cat food for Bosco. My second stop was at the bank where I made a cash withdrawal. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My fourth stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I picked up a couple of prescriptions and bought some Pepsi Zero. My last stop was at the vet’s where I picked up some meds for Benny and for Bosco.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 4

Time To Blossom

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

Love, beauty, truth, the ideal and the absolute are greatly appealing to those who are seeking for that which does not perish. They are irrelevant to many others. This is an individual matter. Thus, it is well for those who seek and wish to serve to find an endless tolerance.

As one rests in hope that all may seek the truth, one releases that hope to the infinity of the appropriate time for each flower’s soul to blossom. Though your hearts may have compassion upon those who are quite different in their feelings and thoughts, yet know that each chooses.

If any appear to be unhappy, having turned from their birthright of love and service, let them appear as they will and await the moment of sharing of love, joy and peace.

There is the time of jubilee for each, a time of self-acceptance, self-forgiveness, and the simple faith of the child. That time cannot be forced. It can only be given thanks for when it occurs. Rest in your jubilee, or rest waiting faithfully for that same jubilee. There is all the time and space necessary for each to grow, to learn, and to come at last to that heavenly kingdom whose name is Love.

We leave you in that Love and peace which is of the principle of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 7, 1999:

The planetary awakening to unseen essences such as angels, guides and spirit guidance is part of our awakening to an even larger self-realization of direct co-creatorship with intelligent infinity. Could you speak of the process that is taking place, in which we are coming to actual awareness of our role as co-creators, with specific focus on how we are learning to become direct conductors of the eternal energies?

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We thank this group, as always, for calling us to share our views and to take part in your meditation. This experience is precious to us for each of your vibrations is beautiful, and we greatly appreciate to be able to blend with that. Also, we thank you because this sharing of opinions gives us the opportunity for service to others in the way that we feel our gifts are best shared. As always, we would ask that from these thoughts each take only that which has personal meaning, leaving the rest behind. For each seeker has excellent powers of discrimination, and we encourage their use. There is no authority greater than the authority of the inner heart and that feeling of rightness.

You ask this day for us to share our opinions on how awakening entities are coming to experience a universe in which time and space have given way to infinity and eternity and the seeking of the metaphysical self has become more important than the approval of the world or any worldly gain which does not have its roots in love: the love of one doing the service, the love of one offering the self. Many entities are awakening now to their spiritual identity. This is the time for the blooming of those feelings and awareness that have long been hidden. This is the time of the blossoming of those entities upon your planet who have become aware of themselves as citizens of eternity.

It is our opinion that all things are one, that all there is dwells within each entity. It is our feeling that each entity contains the infinite creation. All things are thought, all thoughts, all emotions, all that is seen, all that is sensed in any way has manifestation to the outer eye but first has roots within that inner being that is connected, not with larger spaces, but with infinity itself. For each of you is that holographic image of all that there is. Each of you is one thing. The small self cannot grasp the unity that is the truth of all your peoples upon your sphere of Earth. It seems obvious to the outer eye that each entity is a person unto herself, and yet just as a child awakens for the first time in her mother’s arms and becomes aware of a new world of sight and sound and sensation, just so does the spiritual self within the human being awaken to an alarm that only it can hear.

No two entities have the same clock setting. There is no one time for spirits within bodies to awaken. For each seeker that time of awakening is perfect and right although it may not seem right to others. It always shall come to the one who is ready to deal with the implications of the new inner birth that constitutes the awakening into realization of the self as a spirit independent of space and time but wholly dependent upon Love and Light. For each is Love and Light, yet each also transduces Love and Light as it streams from the infinite Creator into the Earth plane. And so, each of you, no matter the age or any details about the person, each who is awakening is a receiver and a transmitter of vibration.

Your scientists tell you that all that there is, is made up of particles of energy vibrating at various speeds and creating various energy fields. One such energy field is that in which is contained the spirit of each of you, and when that spirit awakens there is no going back to sleep. Once awake, the seeker must remain awake and alert. The question then becomes, “How can I help this process of awakening along? How can I accelerate the pace of my spiritual evolution?” We would suggest several ways in which this can be encouraged.

Firstly, we would suggest that each awakened soul choose for the self that rule of life which most nurtures the spiritual child within, that child that dwells in the heart and can become mature only as the outer self makes room and time for it. Time spent in silence, whether formal meditation is offered, or whether it is simply sitting, greatly aids the spiritual self within. Further, it helps to align the seeker with her personal destiny, for each has come with gifts to share, lessons to learn, and service to offer. Each has planned for the self companions along the way and good work to do, and each has hoped that within the veiled conditions of the physical illusion that constitutes consensus reality upon your planet that the awakening would occur, and the choices would begin to be made which would more and more allow the spiritual self within to mature.

The group question for this session was: “The planetary awakening to unseen essences such as angels, guides, and spirit guidance is part of our awakening to an even larger self-realization of direct co-creatorship with intelligent infinity. Could you speak of the process that is taking place, in which we are coming to actual awareness of our role as co-creators, with specific focus on how we are learning to become direct conductors of the eternal energies?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that many entities are awakening now to their spiritual identity, and this is the time for many entities upon our planet to see themselves as citizens of eternity. They went on to say that all things that are sensed have a manifestation to the outer eye, but they first have roots within our inner being that is connected with infinity itself, and that each of us is part of the unity of all the people upon the Earth, and just so does the spiritual self within the human being awaken to an alarm that only it can hear. Q’uo continued by saying that each seeker awakens at the time that is right for it, and it is ready to deal with the nature of the awakening into realization of the self as a spirit independent of space and time but: wholly dependent upon Love and Light. For each is Love and Light, yet each also transduces Love and Light as it streams from the infinite Creator into the Earth plane.” Then Q’uo said that once that the seeker is awake it needs to remain awake, and then the question is: “How can I accelerate the pace of my spiritual evolution?” Then Q’uo suggested different ways that this may be done, and the first was to choose a rule of life such as meditation to nurture the spiritual child within; the second one was to discover her personal destiny of gifts to share, lessons to learn, and service to offer; then to join with spiritual companions that could help each other to awaken so that choices could be made to help the spiritual self to mature. On December 17, 1995, Q’uo spoke of how one’s personal destiny might be discovered:

Grace, then, is seen by your peoples as a visitation that occurs from time to time. It is seen in various cultures as coming from various outside agencies—angels that come into the life pattern as messengers of grace, personal guides, entities such as we, many, many different ways of thinking about the experience of coming into a state of balance and harmony with the outworking of personal destiny. And this is as it should be, for within each culture there are somewhat different ways of perceiving the same states of mind, but we would ask you to consider the vagaries of language, the limited nature of words, and the deeply illusory environment in which third density finds itself living, for this is a concept that, more than most, asks the entity to open up the mind and to empty it of concept. Grace is that which is beneath the superstructures of conscious thought, and indeed all the structure of metaphysical thought may be seen to be structure of a mechanical nature in which logical connections are made which enable people to think about spiritual things.

Meditation is not the only technique or method whereby one may encourage one’s own spiritual evolution. Certainly, the attempts to offer service to others always creates a more spacious environment for the spiritual self to grow in. Certainly, reading and listening to inspired and inspirational material is helpful. More helpful, however, than any of these practices is the persistent focus upon the mental and emotional awareness of the nature of the self within incarnation upon planet Earth. For as we said, each of you is as the radio: receiving and transmitting vibratory energy as good feelings, as good words, as good deeds. All of these are equal in the world of metaphysics, for thoughts are metaphysical things and have shape and substance and reality in the world of spirit. That is why the intentions, the desires, and the prayers of the seeker are so important.

The greatest single practice for bringing seekers into more and more direct awareness of their role here within the planetary rise in vibration is simply to be, to be the deepest and most profound and true self of which one is capable. In this being there is a releasing of the doing, for, metaphysically speaking, it is not these but rather being and essence which are the gifts that we have to give to each other. When a seeker becomes aware that it is a creature of will, discipline, and faith then that person can simply allow those instreaming vibrations of Love and of Light to move through the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual channels of the body and out into the world that so desperately needs those vibrations of undistorted Love and Light.

Each seeker is here to become a direct co-creator by allowing that which is, the Logos, that one great original Thought, to be us and to move through us and out into the Earth plane. By blessing this energy and yet not holding it, by knowing there is enough, an infinite amount of this Love and Light, that it cannot be spent, the seeker is affirming that which is. We wish each entity those delights of travel, those mountaintop experiences, those great and profound realizations that come. Those times are precious, and yet each of you will find that when all is said and done it is the vibratory level of the beingness of each entity that sticks in the mind and in the heart like no other sense memory can. Each of us knows blessing when we experience it. All of us have known these entities who, by their very being, improve the vibrations of a place. Yet always know that it is not from you that these things come. It is through you. There is not a key that unlocks the doors of the heart that has anything to do with the human mind or the will in the worldly sense of that mind. Rather, it is the naked soul, the bare and unadorned spirit that is the object of perfection, that is Love itself, and that is each of you.

May you find ever more creative ways to share the infinite Love and Light that will come through you by blessing that energy and by consciously sending it out into the world. We encourage each who hears these words to take the self very seriously in terms of developing a daily practice that feeds the metaphysical self, whether by meditation or prayer, contemplation or rumination, the gazing at inspiring objects, or the reading of inspired words. You will find these techniques of entraining the mind to be most helpful. There are many ways in which the person who sees the hunger and the thirst of the self that is emerging for metaphysical truth to offer that truth to the inner self. Itis our opinion, however, that truth is a fluid and changing thing and very personal and subjective in its nature. For each entity there will be landmark truths that come and stay for a very long time. There will also be truths that are seen to transform and to migrate as lessons come to one and as the self develops.

We encourage each of you to trust in the self, to listen to those hunches and intuitions that are the only voice into the conscious mind of the deeper and larger self that exists below the threshold of consciousness. Each of you is as the fruit of the true vine. Each of you has roots in heaven. Within each of you dwells perfection, truth and infinite Love. Spiritual maturity comes to those who seek to run the straight race regardless of what others may think. Move slowly and thoughtfully and wait for inspiration. Maturity will come faster to those who yield their ambitions and ask, “What is the Creator’s will for me today? Where is the Love in this moment?” The Love in this moment is you. May you carry that truth and wear it as a crown and even when the crown sits heavy upon the head, may you serve, may you reach out to others, may you respond to requests for help with the best that is in you. May you encourage others in their paths, for you are the hands, voices, the caring of the infinite Creator within the Earth, you and none other. As the old chant goes, “May you love each other. May you care for each other. And may you bring each other home.”

Now Q’uo said that there were various ways of accelerating our spiritual evolution such as providing service to others, reading and listening to inspirational material, and focusing upon the mental and emotional awareness of the nature of our incarnational self, and each of these are helpful because: “thoughts are metaphysical things and have shape and substance and reality in the world of spirit. That is why the intentions, the desires, and the prayers of the seeker are so important.” Q’uo went on to say that the best way we could discover our purpose in helping our planet to increase its vibrations is to be the deepest true self that we can be and to become aware that we are creatures of will, discipline, and faith. Then they said that we can simply allow those instreaming vibrations of Love and of Light to move through our physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual channels of our body and then out into the world that needs these vibrations of undistorted Love and Light. Then Q’uo went on to say that we are here to become a co-creator by allowing the Logos, that one great original Thought, to be us and to move through us and out into the Earth plane, and when we bless this energy without holding on to it, then there is an infinite amount of this Love and Light, and we are affirming that which is. Q’uo continued by saying that they wished that these mountaintop experiences could happen for all of us as they are precious, but then they said that it is not from us that these experiences come, rather it is through us. Then they went on to say that there is no key that unlocks the doors of our heart that has anything to do with our mind or our will, but it is our naked soul that is the object of perfection, that is Love itself, and that is each of us. Then Q’uo suggested that we bless this Love energy that comes through us and send it out into the world and then develop a daily practice that feeds our metaphysical self, whether by meditation, prayer, contemplation, or the reading of inspired words in order to offer that truth to our inner self. Then Q’uo said that truth is very personal and subjective in its nature, and for each of us there will be truths that come and stay for a long time while others will transform as our lessons come to us and as our self grows. Q’uo said we should listen to our intuition that comes from the truth and infinite Love that is within our deeper mind, and that spiritual maturity will come faster when we ask: “What is the Creator’s will for me today? Where is the Love in this moment?” Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that we are the Love in this moment, and may we serve others with the best that is in us; and may we encourage others in their paths; for we are the hands, voices, the caring of the infinite Creator upon the Earth. On January 7, 2008, Q’uo said that we are the love in this moment:

This entity often asks herself, “Where is the love in this moment?” My sister, when you ask yourself, “Where is the Love in this moment,” as concerns your yellow-ray work environment, you may find that the Love in the moment must come from you. Therefore, see yourself as a creature of Love that is faithful and confident, because she knows that this situation has been given to her that she may grow and become stronger, wiser and more loving.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We would leave this instrument in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves for further queries which those present may find value in the request. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I would like to ask two questions for P. Firstly, what is the origin and purpose of the B’hai faith?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. And we would greet the one known as P, who has for a great period of time has been seeking in the faith in which the query is rooted and is a friend of this group that is dear to each. The origins of this particular path of seeking the one Creator lie in the recent past, as you would measure time, that is, within the last 200 of your years, and lie with one who found a personal path that was able to allow this entity to experience the one infinite Creator and to realize the unity of all things through this experience of unity with the one Creator. Thus, this entity who had for a great portion of its life sought that which is called truth, that which is called the origin of all that is, was able, through a blending of various other paths in their rituals of observances, was able to create a meaning whereby not only was it able to experience the unity of all things but was able to offer this experience to others as well, as it was the life’s purpose for the incarnation to put the self in such a position that it was able to make a contact with that which is called intelligent infinity and offer this contact as the eternal waters of life, to be then one who was able to provide this service to others in as egalitarian a means as possible, shall we say. Thus, the origin of many such mystic paths is that journey which begins and ends inside the human heart, for as all such paths to unity the way of the heart is that which moves most quickly there.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes. Her second question is just to comment on her experiences of the last year in any way in which you would care to share. She doesn’t wish for you to infringe upon free will, just comments.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Looking now at that which has been the experience of this entity, in metaphysical terms, we see that there is the dedication of the heart to seek in truth that which are the proper steps for this entity to follow and that there has been a great degree of success in bending the will of the self to new dimensions that seem on the one hand to restrict and yet on the other hand to free. The balance of attitude with which this entity sees its journey and its relationship to others is to be recommended, for within the balanced attitude, seeing the experience of others as a valuable journey and the seeing of the journey of the self as being that which is to move in harmony with certain other selves which have formed a primary place within this entity’s being. The difficulties that the entity experiences are the, shall we say, friction where the rougher portions of the personality meet the reality of dealing with other selves who also have the tendency towards humanity—that is, to err. The ability to accept, to forgive, and to renew the dedication of the self to the seeking of the One in all, is the quality that has sustained this entity and will continue to do so.

At this time we feel that we have given that which is appropriate for this entity and would ask if there would be any further queries?

Carla: I know P thanks you for that. I have a question of my own. I was pondering D’s words in the process of putting them on the tape concerning guides from the inner planes or spiritualist type guides such as doctors, Indians, the Holy Spirit, people who have the awareness of the help of fairies or of angels and all of these discarnate and magical beings. They all seem to have the same kind of service to offer to us in third-density bodies on Earth. What I was wondering was is there an element of creatorship where those of us who expect fairies get fairies, and those who expect Indians get Indians, and those of us who expect UFO contact get that? Is there some way that we come into the mix that assigns guidance? Different people have different methods of guidance?

I am Q’uo and am aware of your query, my sister. It is truly said that these entities of an unseen nature move to inspire and to guide and to bring into contact those influences that are most helpful to the entities that call them. And it is also well said that it is oftentimes the expectations of those who call that determine the nature of the response in the form of one kind of guide or another. And it is a possibility of many that there are previous incarnational experiences that determine that kind of essence that is called for and seen and experienced. For there are throughout the one creation many, many different forms of guidance that are available to third-density entities and these forms of guidance may refine their formation to be more in alignment with that basic vibratory essence of the calling entity. Thus, each entity will experience that which it truly desires and which it has made room for in its metaphysical system of apprehending that which is.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. That was it. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and we would at this time express our great gratitude to those which are present and to those who are in distant meditative circles adding their energy and essence to this one for inviting our presence and our participation in your seeking this day. It is, as always, a great honor and we walk with many who echo our gratitude. At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I re-recorded the section on Where Do Emotions Come From? from Chapter Two of 102. Then Anna and I synchronized our computers and listened to Carla channel Ra in Session #54 where some of the topics were the positive and negative polarity traits, the type of energy that comes up through the feet and into the violet ray center and the energy that is already in the violet ray, plus the nature of the indigo ray energy center. Then I cleaned Benny’s apartment upstairs and while I was up there I re-recorded The Common Emotions that we all experience from Chapter Two of 102.

This afternoon I attempted to clean the dryer hose on the back of the clothes dryer, but I couldn’t get the top part of the hose to connect to the pipe that leads outside, so I took the hose and put it out the basement window for the time being and taped some cardboard across the open part of the window.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 3

The Birds Of Night And Day

I am of the principle of Love, that full consciousness of divine Love which is Jesus the Christ. I greet you in blessings and in peace.

Like a quiet bird the morning flies before you, pulling in its flashing feathers a veil of heaven and earth and all the many colored illusions of your day.

And all too soon the great night hawk will fly and in its dark feathers shall be carried the veil of darkness, nighttime and slumber. So does the illusion shift before your eyes, first light and then dark, all seemingly unattached to your consciousness, to your attention and to your caring.

Yet know that you are both birds: that which brings the day and that which brings the night. Within you lies the power of each. Choose, then, that which you prefer: radiance and light or darkness and the blank O of nothingness.

Choose the environment for your consciousness and abide in peace and Love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from January 17, 1999:

We would like to ask a question about control over one’s daily round of activities, or the lack of control, the feeling of having lost power to be able to affect the outcome of any situation. And this is balanced with the realization that every situation offers us the opportunity to gain from it whatever we need to gain from it and that there is no way that we can lose. It is all a matter of adopting the attitude that all is well, and all is one, and that the moment offers each of us just what we need to grow. So, we would like Q’uo to comment on the concepts of the seeming loss of control, the being able to focus one’s attention in the moment upon what is going on, and that the moment offers us the love that we need in that moment.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the infinite love and light of the one Creator, whom we serve. We thank each that has joined the circle this day. Our gratitude and our blessings go with you, for you enable us to offer our service. And thus, you offer us learning, and growth, and the ability to serve as we had hoped to. May we say that although we are most happy to be able to share our opinions with you, we are not an authority. We are simply those who are upon a path which this instrument calls the King’s Highway. We seek that love and that truth and that way that is so close to us that we cannot express it, yet we know that it is still a mystery and that that mystery recedes before us as we go forward. And so, as we share our opinions with you, we also ask that you use your powers of discrimination, for all that we say shall not be resources for you. And we would ask that you take those thoughts that are helpful and leave the rest behind. This we would greatly appreciate.

You ask us concerning power and control. The song which you have used to tune your circle this day talks of footsteps on the water that lead the singer back to who he is. This instrument immediately thinks of the one known as Jesus the Christ, who walked upon the water and who gave to her the identity in which she rests. The one known as Jesus did not find it remarkable to walk upon the water, nor did the one known as Peter, who sprang from the boat when he saw his teacher coming and walked upon the water also to him until he realized that he was a human, and that humans sink. And so down he went until the one known as the Christ reached out a hand to him and lifted him up. Such is the nature of faith. Faith is not something one can plan to acquire. Upon this King’s Highway there is no hostel at which you can purchase faith nor any school at which you may learn faith. Rather, faith is expressed in the middle of utter confusion, in the midst of the grand chaos that is the nature of your third-density physical illusion.

Let us look at the creature that you are. You are a citizen of eternity. Your essence is infinite, and you have no limit. This is your nature, for are you not one with the original Thought, that Logos which may so weakly be called Love? And this Creator that is beyond, and yet contains all things, has that nature of intelligent infinity. And this birthright is yours, but you have chosen, at this time, to take this illimitable consciousness and to place it gently and lovingly and hopefully within a jar of clay, within that chemical electrical distillery which is your physical vehicle, and with this physical vehicle, this hairless great ape which so gallantly carries you about for your entire incarnation, comes an intelligence that is not unlimited but is limited, that is not eternal but is time bound. And these two natures dwell within you, interacting in many, many ways. When the mind that comes with the physical vehicle is in command of consciousness there inevitably and instantly comes those feelings of limit, disappointment, worry, and an endless series of reasoning designed to solve specific problems. For the mind that comes with the physical vehicle is carefully designed to solve problems and make choices.

To this mind all things can be measured and when one has measured a situation, got its inseam and its outseam, taken all of this down, then the mind makes a choice. And the body must follow. This is the state of what we might call spiritual sleep. The entity depending completely upon the rational, limited mind may well make brilliant choices and solve many hard problems, but there will not be that feeling of ease, or space, or love that is your birthright. This is as it should be, this relatively commonplace placement of the consciousness that is eternal under the threshold of conscious awareness, what this instrument would call consensus reality. And so, to the unawakened spirit it is the subconscious mind, the deeper mind, which contains all of the nature and the characteristics of the citizen of eternity that has hoped, by taking incarnation, both to learn and to serve.

No matter how confused or chaotic the sea of confusion about you is, no matter how limited you may feel, there is a higher truth, a deeper truth, if you will, a broader truth, that lies waiting, hoping, its hand raised to rap upon the door of your consciousness at all times, for you to woo, and court, and open those doors of deeper consciousness. As a limited being, your feet are upon the earth. Your roots go down into the earth itself. You are connected to all that is earthly, to those wonderful energies of earth, rock, fire, water, plants, and animals. The physical body itself has the instinctual grace of animal and plant life, that turning towards the light, that moving to survive, to continue. But as a citizen of eternity, you root yourself in what this instrument would call heaven. It is as though the roots of the tree were at the very top and the branches came down into the illusion. When you reach into the roots of the mind, then, you are reaching into heavenly things. All of this you have within you. It all lies waiting behind doors which are locked against the hasty, the unthinking, the careless seeker.

That sense of power that is, shall we say, not of the illusion is within these rooms of self, these structures of deep mind. The desire to control, a sense of power that comes with that desire, is a perfectly natural, instinctual part of the human animal. It is, of course, a desire that is fated to be thwarted, this being one of the great points of the incarnation and the illusion into which you step the moment of your first breath.

And so, as a citizen of Earth you are destined to spend your time paddling about in the archipelago of confusion which is third-density existence, finding a dry place here and a dry place there, making your way but constantly being buffeted by that which you cannot, in an earthly sense, control or have power over. And if you focus into that life view that feeling of peace that each seeks shall ever be illusive, for the whole purpose of physical incarnation is to so confuse and baffle the mind that it has to let go. This instrument is fond of saying that the spiritual journey is one from head to heart.

The group question today was: “So, we would like Q’uo to comment on the concepts of the seeming loss of control, the being able to focus one’s attention in the moment upon what is going on, and that the moment offers us the love that we need in that moment.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that faith is expressed in the midst of confusion and the chaos that is the nature of our third-density physical illusion. They went on to say that we had two natures: the first is that we are infinite beings and are one with the Love of the original thought of the Logos, and the other one is: living with a physical vehicle of the great ape with a limited intelligence which is not eternal but is time bound. Then Q’uo said that the mind is designed to solve problems and make choices which often causes disappointment and worry, and then the body must follow these choices, and Q’uo called this the state of spiritual sleep. Q’uo went on to say that the mind may solve many problems within the consensus reality, so the unawakened spirit of the subconscious mind contains all of the lessons that the citizen of eternity has incarnated to learn and with which to serve others, and there is a deeper truth within the subconscious mind that awaits the seeking of the conscious mind. Then Q’uo said that as citizens of eternity, we have rooted ourselves like a tree within our subconscious mind where the top of the tree branches come down into the illusion, and when we reach into the roots of the subconscious mind we are reaching into heavenly things, and all of this we have within us, and it lies waiting behind locked doors. Q’uo went on to say that our desire to control, and the sense of power that comes with that desire, is an instinctual part of us, but it is fated to fail because that is one of the purposes of the incarnation within the illusion. They said that the feeling of peace that we seek will always be illusive because the purpose of our incarnation is to so confuse our mind that it has to let go so that our spiritual journey is one from head to heart. On February 26, 2006, Q’uo spoke of the journey from the head to the heart:

The heart and the knowledge of the heart is the higher knowledge when compared with the knowledge of the mind. We do not wish to denigrate the knowledge of the mind or the process of investigation of that incoming information which is precisely what the mind and the intellect were created to process. Indeed, we encourage the natural functions of the mind and would only suggest that the mind be honest with itself and not indulge in sophistry and shallow thought but go deeper and penetrate, to the best of your intellectual ability, the tendency towards shallow analysis as opposed to a deeper and broader point of view that shall bring you more information at a level that shall be helpful to you.

Rather, we were suggesting that it is helpful, when attempting to move from head to heart, to start with the knowledge that the higher faculty is heart and the lesser of the two is mind. Therefore, you have that powerful ally of the heart to ask for help when you are attempting to invite the mind to rest within the mystery of that which is unknown and which must forever, within third density, remain essentially unknown and mysterious. There are guards upon the knowledge that is the gnosis or knowing. It can only be approached through the faculty of faith.

The techniques of using the intellect bring one to many brilliant conclusions, none of which move one into those depths of awareness and comfort and peace which knowing the truth in any moment can make you feel. Each has had these moments of infinite peace and joy. Each has felt the self open, and something stretch and flex and enjoy existence, locked so long in those deep guarded rooms. And what are the keys to these rooms? One door is only opened by silence, and we heartily recommend that each of you spend time in silence whenever you can… thirty seconds, five minutes. A little silence will go a long way.

There is another door that can only be opened by the key of patience. Patience that is not pinned to any expectation. Let us look at this a moment. What are your expectations? Do you have many? What are your desires? Do you have a raft of them? Do you have just a few? If your expectations are more than modest; if they are ambitious; if there is a plan—this instrument’s mind immediately remembers the Soviets’ five year plans which never seem to work—then each plan that is made is destined to be left behind. And even when a plan comes out exactly right often it does not give one the expected feelings. No, rather, patience is that which releases expectation and simply waits, not knowing what is to come, not necessarily even guessing what is to come but, rather, moving in that openness of heart which is as a seat upon which to sit in that house, that room of patience. Remember that expectations are dangerous things; desires are powerful things. Dangerous and powerful because they create an energy that will not be balanced until you achieve your expectations and your desires. And yet nothing is as it seems within your illusion. Consequently, each desire that is granted will bring with it great catalyst, for it will not be what you thought it would be.

And there is a door in the deep mind that can only be opened by the key of faith. When this instrument was in extremity, very close to death, she taped a message where she could read it from the bed upon which she lay. It read, “Faith, the final frontier,” making the pun upon the Star Trek, “Space, the final frontier.” It was meaningful to this instrument, and we pull it from her memory so that we may talk about the unknown land into which faith is an entry. Faith is not faith in anything. Faith is the knowing of things that are not seen, the sureness that one is in the right place. Faith is illogical and cannot be defended rationally, and yet the more time that you spend in this room within the deep mind the more you shall flower as an entity, able to do that work which each truly came to do. For, indeed, what do you wish to control? Over what do you wish to have power? In things of the spirit, those who work within service-to-others polarity will find that there is only one area which needs work. It is not the world that needs work. It is not others that need to change. It is the self that is the province and the realm over which each entity has the right to work, to hope, to dream, and to walk that spiritual path.

The mind asks you, “Where are you going?” “How do you get there the best way?” This is logical. This sometimes works spiritually, but not often. What works spiritually, rather, is that faithful patience that, when in doubt, sees the doubt, sits with the doubt, accepts the doubt, forgives the doubt, and then chooses to rest in faith. We do not mean to suggest that action is not a good idea. You came here to be confused. You came here to act. You came here to make mistakes, to judge yourself, to do all of the things that you will learn are not particularly loving or wise.

You will notice that we have not talked about a room of wisdom, for it is our humble opinion that wisdom is not the lesson for which you are ready at this time. For you see, wisdom may only be studied, with good results, when an entity has learned the lesson of love and compassion. Wisdom is a dead thing unless it comes from that resoundingly open heart that is able to allow the infinite Love of the one Creator to go into the self, to be blessed by the self, and to move on from the self into the Earth plane without significant distortion. This is what you came to do. And it is not a doing but a being that you came to offer as your gift. You came to sacrifice your very self. Your whole incarnation is a gift to Earth. Certainly you hoped to do personal work here. And certainly you hoped to serve by what you do and what you say, but how much more central is your responsibility to meet the moment with a loving and opened heart. And it is this which is the province and realm over which you have control. This is where your power lies, in the momentary decision to seek the love in that moment. As the one known as Ra has said, “Where is the love in this moment?” is a helpful question at any juncture, but especially when the spirit is weary or overwrought.

Then Q’uo said that our intellectual minds can bring us impressive conclusions, but they do not go deeper into those levels of our being that bring us comfort and peace, so they recommended that we spend time in silence whenever we can, even for a few minutes because a little silence will go a long way. Q’uo went on to say that another door into our deeper levels of being was patience because it releases expectation and simply waits, and it does not know what is to come while it is moving into the openness of our heart which is like a seat where we can sit in our room of patience. Then Q’uo said that expectations and desires are dangerous and powerful because they create an energy that will not be balanced until we achieve our expectations, and those that are realized will bring with them great catalyst, for they will not be what we thought they would be. Now Q’uo said that there was another door to the deep mind that was opened by faith which they said was illogical and could not be defended rationally, but the more time that we spend in this part of our deep mind the more we would grow as an entity and be able to do the work which we came here to do. Then Q’uo said that in the spiritual sense of service-to-others there is only one area which needs work, and it is not the world that needs work. They said that it is our self that we have the right to work on, to hope, and to walk our spiritual path. Then Q’uo suggested that when our mind wants to know where we are going that the best way to deal with our doubt is to sit with it, forgive it, and then move forward in faith, knowing that we will make mistakes that will become the way we learn in this illusion. Q’uo went on to say that we have come here to open our heart to allow the infinite Love of the one Creator to flow through our self, and into the Earth plane without significant distortion. They said that we came here to sacrifice our self because our incarnation is a gift to Earth as we meet the moment with a loving and opened heart. On March 18, 2001, Q’uo spoke of the value of the opened heart:

Attempting to live by essence, attempting to be oneself, is the work of the heart. Often it does seem very impractical as a way of living, for the opened heart seems very unprotected and very vulnerable. And so, it is vulnerable to confusion and challenge of all kinds. The strength of living in the heart is that slender strength called faith, that lifts one on angels’ wings and takes one above a problem, so that even if the body is troubled and the mind is confused, there is a serenity that comes from the release into knowing that all is well, and that all will be well. This trick of living which is called faith is a great key in switching universes, for faith takes the place of control in the Earth world and doing becomes being. Details become essence, and a life moves from the inside out rather than being driven from the outside in.

And there is one final door that can only be opened by the key of honest love. And this is the holy of holies. This is the mercy seat. If you can enter that door, all the rest shall open also. If you can dig in the soil of your nature, down into the roots of mind, past the confusion that is your topsoil, past the difficulties that are your fertilizer, if you can get through that to the rock, that rock is love. Take this moment just to feel how much the Creator loves you. Oh, how the Creator loves each one of us! Every hair. Every freckle. Every folly and mistake. All these things are part of a wonderful tapestry, a tone poem of emotion, and concern, and caring that is your signature, and the Creator loves every bit of color, and tone, and energy, and pattern that you have created with your life. How you are loved. Know this. Dwell upon this, for this is deep truth, and it may free you a little at a time from those human concerns that seem to create the atmosphere where you are not appreciated, where there is no balance to life, where those things that you attempt to do to aid others do not seem to find their mark.

And you also have within you tremendous stores of this energy that is Love. Yet it is not that you have these things within you precisely. Rather, as this instrument said earlier, it is as though you only have them when you know that they are coming through you, not from you. For those things which are human are limited, and if you attempt to love the world from your conscious self you shall run out quickly. You shall feel burnt out, and weary, and certainly sapped of energy. Rather, we would suggest that model where you see yourself as a transmitter and receiver of vibrations of a certain kind. You both receive them, and you send them. And if you allow it, you create a circuit amid infinite intelligence, which is that flowing, knowing, growing place that each of you has visited many times, that each of you yearns for when things become fuzzy and muddled.

We are not saying that entities such as yourselves do not often run into brick walls where it was hoped would be open road. We are saying, rather, that these brick walls are part of the illusion and are not particularly interesting compared to the wooing and the courting of that self within which is a citizen of eternity, and which may choose at each juncture, in each instant, to focus, as the one known as Ra said earlier, upon the main thing. And that main thing is always, eternally, Love. May you be guided again and again into situations where you may take those keys of patience, love, simple persistence, hope, and faith, and may find for yourself those places which rest you, which comfort you, which are merciful balms to your weary soul.

Now Q’uo said that the final door that we may open to our deeper self was honest Love, and if we can open this door all the rest of the doors will also open. They went on to say that if we can dig into the soil of our nature, down into the roots of our mind, and get through that to the rock of our being, that rock is love. Then Q’uo suggested that if we take this moment to feel how much the Creator loves each one of us, then we can dwell upon this deep truth, and it can free us of those situations where we do not feel appreciated; where there is no balance to life; and where our service to others misses the mark. Q’uo went on to say that we have the energy of Love available to us, and that we should become aware of when it is coming through us, and not coming from us, because if it were coming from us we would soon be drained of it, so Q’uo suggested that we see ourself as a transmitter and receiver of  these Love vibrations which we receive and send. Then they said that if we allow it, we can create a circuit within infinite intelligence which is that experience of flowing, knowing, and growing that we have visited many times which we yearn for when things become confusing. Then Q’uo said that sometimes we might run into brick walls when we were hoping to be on the open road because they are part of the illusion which are unimportant compared to courting of that self within which is a citizen of eternity, and we may focus on the primary quality of Love. Then Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying: “May you be guided again and again into situations where you may take those keys of patience, love, simple persistence, hope, and faith, and may find for yourself those places which rest you, which comfort you, which are merciful balms to your weary soul.” On October 4, 1998, Q’uo shared our nature as citizens of eternity:

As a unique citizen of eternity you have a core vibration which is a distortion of the great original Thought which is Love. Each of you distorts that core vibration of Love in such and such a way, creating for yourselves a signature that is as unmistakable as the name and certainly more rich in information offered about the self in comparison to the naming. So, your very nature is vibration and, indeed, the nature of all manifest and created things is energetic. All things are vibratory energy fields.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We would take our leave of this instrument in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may have for us.

Carla: I have a question about working on my book. I have tried to divide things up by the energy centers and have found a difficulty doing that. Various issues hit upon more than one chakra. If you take sex, for instance, it certainly is a red-ray issue, and also a yellow-ray issue, and so forth. I wonder if you could comment on this? I am looking for a better direction for dividing the book and the material.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We wish to be of service without the, shall we say, doing of the homework, but can begin to open the door which you, yourself, opened at the end of your query by suggesting that there are topics such as the one mentioned, that is, the sexual energy exchange, and many others, that can be pursued to present the student of the spiritual journey with an overview of this journey using experiences with which it is most familiar. These combined then can become the vehicle to share that aspect of the devotional life which you wish to share with others.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. I’ll look over what you just said. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as it appears that the queries have found their end we would once again thank each entity present in this circle of seeking for inviting our presence this day. We are most honored and privileged to have been able to join you here. And we remind each that there are many such as ourselves that walk with each upon that journey of seeking and becoming and knowing the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai

This morning I went upstairs and began the re-recording of Chapter Two of Living The Law of One 102: The Outer Work because I apparently had the microphone turned around so that the sound was OK and could be used, but I decided that I wanted to have the sound the best possible. This is going to be necessary for Chapter Three and Four as well. So, this morning I re-recorded the first section of Chapter Two which was Resistance Leads to Growth. Then I was honored to be a guest on Jonathan Tong’s Seattle Law of One Study Group where I was asked many questions that involved the current state of affairs in our country as we approach election day, thought about why Ra felt their interactions with the Egyptians were naïve, how to deal with difficult life experiences, and many questions about how to better travel the spiritual journey in the third density illusion.

This afternoon I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Walmart to pick up some paper for the printer. My second stop was at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some cat food, so kitty litter, some bird seed, and some fish food. The third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. The fourth stop was at the vet’s where I picked up some meds for Benny. The last stop was at Walgreen’s where I picked up some prescriptions for myself and some paper plates. I went back upstairs and re-recorded the section Third Density Is About Choice.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 2

The Manna Of Joy And Peace

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of the Love of Jesus the Christ.

Behold, the day has been made new! Yesterday’s dew has long since passed, and the manna of dew has come once again for this special day.

Do not be fooled by the seeming imperfection of your thoughts nor the seeming inadequacy of your actions. Stay in this moment, in that point within the mind which receives this very morning’s dew, this very morning’s manna of joy and peace.

Feel! Feel the sanctity of your own true nature palpably, consciously.

Focus upon that hunger for spiritual food, for the dew of righteousness. Be still in your seeking. Be still in your knowing.

And then, when your joy is complete—only then—move forward into the world of illusion where good seems bad and bad seems good and the manna of Love has been dried up by the false sun of circumstance.

You shall carry the consciousness of the soul well satisfied with spiritual food throughout the day.

And then each illusion may be met with an infinite Love. Such is the Father’s gift through Jesus Christ to you. Rejoice and be glad.

We leave you in the joy and peace of the consciousness of Christ, now and forever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from January 3, 1999:

We would like to ask Q’uo about guilt. When we feel guilt we are usually overtaken by the feeling and don’t know where it comes from. Could you give us information about where guilt comes from and how to work with guilt in our spiritual evolution.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. We greet you with joy in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. It is a great blessing for us to be called to your group, and we bless and thank each who is a part of the circle of seeking this day.

Your question concerns guilt, and as we talk upon this interesting subject we share opinion rather than speaking as authorities over you. We would ask that each who hears use personal discrimination, for that which we have to say is opinion and may or may not be that which is of help to you personally. If it does not constitute a resource for you, if it does not fit in with that which resonates with you, then we ask that you simply leave it behind and move on. As this instrument was tuning and challenging our contact earlier, the instrument, as is her habit, challenged us three times. In the first two challenges our impression was that this instrument was exercising her own discrimination in being certain of the vibration received. However, in the third challenge the instrument carefully described that facet of Jesus the Christ which identifies this entity to her. The nailing of the body upon the tree of wood to take upon the self the sins of humankind, to love others to the point of death, is to this instrument the great characteristic of Christhood that has riveted the instrument’s mind for many years. And it is this characteristic which gives us a place to begin to speak about guilt.

Thecultural religion, shall we say, differs from the pure religion in that the belief itself is eviscerated and removed, but the form remains. The non-Christian or secular expression of the Creator in Jesus the Christ, then, would be the golden rule in which one at least gives unto others as one would give to the self. But this cultural willingness to die for the sake of another as the highest good places a standard of service to others and giving without expectation of any return that is, in Earth terms, absolute. When one gives the life, one has given all and cannot any longer give, for the incarnation has ended in that form. Naturally, gifts can continue to be given and, indeed, are far more easily given when discarnate. However, it is the incarnate aspect that creates the sacrifice of self for the good of another.

Each comes into incarnation with a personality already set up to be created. There is some play in the way in which the personality develops, but its conscious resources, an easily achieved asset, are set in place before incarnation. Consequently, some entities have a far keener sense of justice, fairness, sharing, and giving than others coming into incarnation. Whatever this basic bias of given personality is, the cultural norm for parents is to attempt to increase the instinctively solipsistic infant in its supply of love for others and service to others. Small children are routinely taught to share their playthings, their sweets, and their good times. There is training concerning many behaviors starting with the word, “should.” One should keep one’s hands in one’s lap at the table. One should be respectful to one’s mother. One should avoid murdering anybody. At every level of a child’s upbringing these enculturated biases are repeated and reiterated until they are inculcated into the basic emotional vocabulary of the logic of the deeper mind. Not that mind which moves beyond self, but that portion of the self within incarnation which lies below the limn of consciousness.

Consequently, when one has become enculturated with the bias towards service to others that the society offers, when one has digested this incoming data and responded to it according to its own biases, the biases of the personality shell, then each individual is left with a more or less threshold of guilt. To some the voice of authority remains dim throughout life, and the basic nature of the personality shell has a deafness to the suffering of others. When there is no guilt displayed the medical person attempting to place this entity would call such an entity one who lacks any social behavior or psychopathic. For it is assumed by the healing professions by your peoples among your peoples that guilt is a natural function of the psyche. This instrument has called it “shoulding” all over yourself. And, indeed, when a sensitive entity takes the club of guilt and beats the self about the head and shoulders, metaphysically speaking, that damage is very real and the pain very great.

As you can see, depending upon the basic personality shell of the entity and the amount of enculturation that has stuck with the entity, there are varying degrees of guilt. Needless to say, those who are already oriented towards service to others and who are consciously working upon spiritual evolution tend far more towards a ready acceptance of guilt than those whose viewpoint is less broad. Thus, the very entities who are sensitive enough to be in pain because of guilt receive the more substantial amounts of guilt from their catalyst. It is as though the Creator were adding insult to injury by offering more guilt to those who are already sensitive to it, who are already responding to it by increases in their level of service to others.

The justice of this can only be seen from the standpoint of learning. The feeling of guilt, like many of the negative emotional systems of feeling, is designed to place one in a position in which it is possible to polarize. Now, service to self, in itself, does not necessarily bring great polarity. Many entities upon your sphere indeed live their entire lives in service to those about them without thinking unduly of it or considering it something that can be worked with or maximized. And for these entities the opportunities that awakened souls see are simply unnoticed and unused. However, we may encourage each of you, as those sensitive and consciously awake in the world of spirit, to see that the feelings of “should” are a catalyst to be praised and to be used. When one experiences this emotional set called guilt, one is experiencing a fear that one has not done enough, and, again, the term, “enough,” is relative to the personality shell’s capabilities and the amount of effort that the entity has put into actualizing the potential for service to others that is within the personality.

The group question tonight was: “Could you give us information about where guilt comes from and how to work with guilt in our spiritual evolution.” Q’uo began their reply by giving three standards of giving to others that set the stage for feeling guilt if these standards are not met, and the first one was Jesus giving his life without any expectation of return; the second was the pre-incarnative choices that we make on how we wish to be of service to others; and the third was how we are taught as children what we should not do and what we should do. Q’uo continued by saying that once these standards of expectation have been recorded within our being then we have the possibility of feeling guilty when we feel we have not met those standards, and they said that these feelings of guilt were more likely to be felt by those who are desiring to be of service to others and not so much by those who are not spiritually awakened. Then Q’uo said that this sense of guilt was a way that those who are seeking to be of service to others may use the guilt as catalyst to polarize more positively. On August 24, 2005, Q’uo spoke of how guilt can be used to polarize more positively:

We tell you the story of this instrument’s father in order not to infringe upon your own free will. We cannot go into your own past and pull out the experiences that have caused you to make decisions which have locked perceptual doors behind you at an early age. However, by offering the narrative of this particular entity, we hope that we have shown you the way that entities with a very high level of conscience and a great desire to serve others, can, inadvertently and innocently, shut perceptual doors behind them.

We hope that this will give you some feeling about how, with great care and patience, to move back into some of those earlier decisions and experiences and give yourself permission at last to experience the rage, the anger, the fury and the concomitant guilt at having those feelings that may have indeed caused you to block your own perception of the great range of emotions to which you indeed do have access and which you have used throughout your life in a very full manner on the unconscious level.

It is as if you stand upon the surface of a desert, not aware that there are very deep wells into which you may dip and bring out one bucket-full at a time of experience of these lost emotions. Stand in the oasis of your own reflections, musings, and process, and as you are able, dip into the deep well of that oasis, knowing that the crystalline waters therein are good and come from a true and authentic part of your being that is not a desert at all but, indeed, the Garden of Eden.

Thus, in a way, the more times one feels guilt, the more times one thinks, “Is that enough?” the more one is asking the self to polarize towards service to others without expectation of return. We would not necessarily encourage each to respond automatically to such feelings of “not enough.” For sometimes that guilty feeling of not enough is simply an instinctive reaction, one that cannot be pinned down to specific lacks within the self or within the behavior of the self. We encourage, rather, the noticing of such an emotional system of weather, shall we say, having blown into the mental and emotional bodies with an eye to evaluating, as honestly and accurately as possible, the opportunity for increased service. When there is no opportunity for increase of service, the guilt felt is as that phantom pain coming from the limb that has been amputated. There is, indeed, no actual physical limb there, simply a body so habitually used to experiencing that physical leg that the form-maker body continues to hold that idea in place, the body then feeling all of the pain of the amputated leg.

In some cases, and as entities become more inclined to spiritual work, this becomes more true as the guilt is vestigial and unhelpful, for nothing can be done to ameliorate the situation about which the guilt is felt. A good example of this is the feelings of family in the event of suicide. Even those who are not related to the family member but were friends will consider to themselves immediately upon hearing of the demise of such an entity in suicide all of the things that could have been done had the person realized in what bad shape the entity was. Even though the entity has moved on, and nothing can be done, these phantom feelings are very real and must be dealt with as though they had something to do with consensus reality. When feelings arise of guilt and fear to which the entity cannot find any response, it is then that the entity does well to work upon the discipline of the personality and the discipline of the will. The discipline of the personality is involved in such a case in allowing the entity to sit with, to accompany, to be one with this feeling, to allow it to express and to give it respect and to be a witness to it. The use of the will, then, is that which asks the personality to let those feelings go, to let them be balanced by the awareness that all that has been done is all that can be done and that it is time to move on.

When an entity experiences guilt and finds it to be of this type, we would recommend this general way of working with the dynamics involved. When an entity finds itself feeling the fear of not having done enough and when further detailed examination confirms that there is indeed more that can be done, then it is that we encourage the seeker to view such feelings as good and productive catalyst. For it is not just the willingness to serve others that creates polarity but also the willingness to work upon the self to find ways of becoming more capable of giving, for that giving of self is a kind of muscle and it atrophies in those who do not use it. For those who use it, however, for those who exercise the vigilance to catch the process of guilt and choose a response to it rather than simply drowning in it, there is the possibility of deepening the faculties of will and faith and of using those to pray and to ask and to humbly entreat the one infinite Creator to give grace to become more able to give without thinking of the return.

Not all guilt, then, is good. Some guilt is a knee-jerk response to a catalyst that is truly not there in any sense of being able to work with that catalyst. But when there is something to work with it is work in consciousness that is extremely central to spiritual evolution, for it is to the more highly polarized entity that opportunities will come to give of the self gladly, to give not because of the cultural expectation or because of the nature of the personality but because the entity has come consciously to be aware of the way that polarity works, of the way that the schoolroom of Earth works, and such a student shall always excel over most other students. For if there is a motivation to work, the work goes quickly and more easily and with a sense of satisfaction when the test is over.

The illusion which this instrument calls Earth or the Earth plane is designed as a sea of confusion. It is designed in such a way as to greatly discourage entities from being able to cope from the standpoint of the intellect. It is designed to toss people out of their intellects on their ear, to bring them to their knees, and place them in the sanctum of the heart, humbled, tired, and ready to learn. Know this, just as love casts out fear, love casts out guilt. To remove guilt from oneself it is not enough to do all that one can. It helps to do all that one can, for that surely is enough, but, emotionally speaking, enough is never enough. There is always more that one might be able to do: one more cheek that can be turned; one more mile that can be walked in another’s shoes; one more activity that can be helpful, or the refraining from one more activity that might be helpful. There is no logical end to guilt. It is not subject to logic. It is, instead, a tone in the music of the emotional body.

Now Q’uo said that the more often we feel guilt the more we may ask ourselves if we have given enough service to others, and then they suggested that we evaluate, as honestly as possible, our opportunity for increased service, and when there is no opportunity for an increase of service that we release the feeling of guilt because it is not real. Then Q’uo gave an example of this type of guilt occurring for those who have lost a loved one to suicide and are feeling guilt because they feel that there must have been something that they could have done to prevent the suicide when the truth of the matter is that nothing could have stopped the loved one from committing suicide. So Q’uo recommended that in this type of a situation that the loved ones could use the discipline of their personality to sit with the feeling of guilt, to give it respect, to be a witness to it, and then use their will to ask their personality shells to let go of those feelings so that they can be balanced by the awareness that all that they have done is all that could have been done, and that it is time to move on. Q’uo went on to say that if we find that there was more that we could have done in a situation where we feel guilt for not having done more, then Q’uo  encouraged us to look at such feelings as good and productive catalyst because our polarity can be increased, not  just by serving others, but also by being willing to work on ourselves to find more ways to be of service and strengthening our desire to be of service to others. They also said that this practice would deepen our will and faith, and then they suggested that we pray and humbly ask the one infinite Creator to give us grace to become more able to give without any expectation of return. Then Q’uo said that this illusion is designed to keep us from being able to cope with difficulties with our intellect, and it will bring us to our knees so that, eventually, we turn to our heart and learn that love casts out our fear and guilt. However, Q’uo said that there is always more that we can do to work with guilt by: walking one more mile in another’s shoes; doing one more helpful thing; or not doing it if that might be helpful because there is no logical end to guilt since it is a tone in the music of our emotional body. On January 3, 1993, Q’uo spoke of how our emotional body responds to love:

If you focus on events you are lost in meaningless detail. If you focus on your emotions, you see that when you have pain in the emotional body, you resist, tighten up and say “no” in a speechless, silent way. Now, step back from this knot of negation, and see that the work of the attitude is concerned with holding, loving, and forgiving that self that is in a knot of pain. The attitude is not relevant to the facts in the way you meant it. It is relevant to how you deal with the emotions which you feel as you move through this lesson. If you are angry, a good attitude cannot make you not angry. However, it can kick in like the afterburner and say, “I accept myself angry as well as calm.”

In this self-acceptance lies the compassion and love which the lesson was intended to teach. The events themselves do not teach, and one’s reactions to the events do not fully teach, but the way one deals with one’s unredeemed and lost emotions makes a great difference. The attitude can be adjusted by daily, silent meditation. This is a good foundation upon which to build each day. However, much of the day is spent in a far more active and less contemplative mode. Within this active mode there seems little time for the reseating of one’s consciousness into the center of a life lived in faith. However, one small word is enough to change the attitude, whether it be “Love,” or, as this instrument prays often, “Jesus,” or any other short expression of truth. This is enough to feed the flame of balance within.

This, shall we say, balanced fire can pilot one emotionally. The fire is the fire of Love. This engine which moves the attitude is fueled by Love. And this Love comes into the painful emotional reactions and accepts that painful, twisted, knotted self.

However, this tone can be worked with musically just as the instrument tuned itself for the contact: by prayer, silence, singing and praise. So, the seeker can tune the purity of that emotion called guilt, combing from it the less beautiful pithiness of fear and self-condemnation and bringing more and more into focus by an increasing array of verniers that tune ever more finely until that feeling of guilt is as a beautiful tone, a beautiful and true emotion. For, indeed, that feeling that one cannot do enough is permanent within your illusion. It will recur for the reason that one cannot achieve the perfect behavior in one’s own eyes. One cannot ever fully be satisfied that enough is enough. And so one is left with the awareness that one has this tone or chord of tones within one, but that it too has its place in the universal personality that is the self, that one is capable of comforting the self after all that has been done is done with the pain that remains. One can forgive oneself for being human. One can forgive oneself for not being able to sacrifice the self to the point of death. One can acknowledge, when faced with this catalyst, that the best one could do is not the best, but that is all right. That is as it should be. That is part of the perfection that is hidden within this sea of confusion.

When one has finished rocking, and hugging, and loving this imperfect being that wants so much to serve, then one can send that child within with a lighter heart by suggesting to the self within that uplifting of the self from the worry of the close view, that one can, by will, step back from the situation and from the emotions to a perspective that takes less into account the foreground of the present happenings and brings into sharper relief the basic principles involved.

We honor the one known as Jesus the Christ and, indeed, honor that vibration which is the Christ as being the highest vibration of love that is achievable so far within the infinite creation. We indeed bow to that and come in the name of that and hope to be able to serve to the point of that rude wood cross: the nailed hands, the pierced side. Yet we, in our present situation, do not have that physical sacrifice to make. We do not have the capacity for the kind of guilt that you feel within your illusion. We do not have the ability to be confused and in that confusion to call upon faith. Nor have we the ability to be angry with ourselves and then to forgive ourselves. For, as we are able to see into the roots of mind, we can see that in each system of illusions there are limitations which are set for a reason and that that reason is condign, helpful and enlightening. Upon the Earth plane you have the ability to be utterly dashed, completely confused, thrown to your knees by life, and you have the capacity to tune your responses to that catalyst which brings you down, which makes you feel into the dark side of your personality.

Do not be beaten about by your own feelings of guilt. But, rather, see them as opportunities to do work in consciousness, to forgive the self for being human, to analyze the situation to see whether or not the guilt is productive, to work upon releasing that guilt if it has not been productive, to work upon using that guilt in the highest and best way if there still is something that one can see to be done. Above all these considerations, above all manifestation and illusion the reality, as far as we know, is the perfect outworking of perfection: love reflected in love, moving through each instrument that is a soul of a person and out into the world. As you receive your catalyst, bless it and break yourself open to receive it with the most love of which you are capable in a stable manner. Do not move yourself beyond that which you can do without damage to yourself. Do not ask that which you are not ready for of yourself, but rather be sensitive to the opportunities that these negative feelings, so called, of guilt bring rise to.

And you, as is right within your schoolroom, shall follow in the steps of the cross. You shall have the chance to break yourself open and to pour out your energy, your time, and your attention. When you choose to do this, be aware that it is a sacrament, that you are on holy ground, and that you need to be fastidious in your orientation to the light, not condemning the self in any way for that which has not been done or that which has been done awry, but without heat and in perfect peace, moving back into the situation in mind, finding the balanced and appropriate response, choosing the most generous level of service of which you are capable. This is part and parcel of the teaching of third density. This is one way to move the entity from head to heart and for you to experience it is proper and desirable for those who wish to increase their rate of acceleration of spiritual evolution. In all things, find the love and find within the self the response to that love which most truly expresses yourself.

As in many things it is not so much what you do in the manifested world but how you do it, with what love you do it, with what gentleness and compassion for the self and for the other self and for the entire suffering Earth plane. In the awareness of the suffering of the world one can feel guilty for those who do not eat. Saints can feel guilty because they have not beaten themselves twice a day with chains but only once. You cannot remove this type of lesson from the life experience, so we ask that you see it as a course of study, and like many such a course, one which is helpful although the tests are frequently difficult. Above all, we encourage that you laugh, that you take these things to some extent lightly, that you are able to lift yourself from such considerations and move into awareness of the beauty of the present moment. For this is the center of things. This is the less confused place from which to cast one’s eye upon the situation at hand. Laughter and merriment are most helpful spiritual disciplines, and we encourage their use, especially for those who are serious students and who can become heavy with their concerns for doing things well.

Then Q’uo said this tone of guilt within our emotional body can be worked with by the seeker to purify it by forgiving oneself for being human, and for not being able to sacrifice the self to the point of death and to acknowledge: “when faced with this catalyst, that the best one could do is not the best, but that is all right. That is as it should be. That is part of the perfection that is hidden within this sea of confusion.” Q’uo went on to say that when the child within has been forgiven and loved that it can step back and gain a larger perspective to see the basic principles involved in this process where, in the illusion of the third density, we have the ability to be completely confused by life, and we can tune our responses to that catalyst which brings us down, and which lets us feel into the dark side of our personality. Q’uo continued by suggesting that we not beat our self up for feeling guilt, but, instead, that we could forgive our self for being human; work upon releasing our guilt if it has not been productive; and then use our guilt in the highest and best way if there still is something that we can see that needs to be done. Then Q’uo said that the most important thing that we could do was to bless our guilt and to open ourself to receive it with the most love of which we are capable in a stable manner, but we should not do any damage to ourself and simply be sensitive to the opportunities that these feelings of guilt offer us. Q’uo also suggested that this was a holy process during which we should not condemn ourselves for feeling guilt, but we should remain steadfastly in the light and move back into the situation that caused the feeling of guilt to find the balanced response. Then Q’uo suggested that we choose the most generous level of service to offer as this is one way that we can move from our head to our heart and accelerate our rate of spiritual evolution so that we can find the love within ourself which most truly expresses ourself. Q’uo went on to say that it was not so much what we do but that whatever we do we do with love for our self and for all other selves on Earth who are suffering while learning the lessons of the third density. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that it is important that we see the lightness and beauty of the present moment and engage in the spiritual discipline of laughter and merriment to keep us from becoming too heavy and serious in trying to do things well. On January 11, 1981, Latwii spoke of the value of laughter:

You must understand that this particular word is known clearly to you as a common human experience, whereas it has never been understood that laughter, when entered into totally and wholly rather than nervously or embarrassedly, is another form of the same energy. Laughter is available to all. Laughter is a healing, comforting, lovely energy and indeed is one of the most highly prized of all states of being. We find the universe to be full of the laughter—or the song—of joy.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, leaving this instrument with thanks in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to further queries which those present might have for us. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: One question. I notice that when I say your name in channeling there seems to be an “a” before your name when I verbalize it. I wondered what I was picking up?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We are, as you are aware, a principle which has been created or constructed of two different mind/body/spirit complexes, each of which contains its own signature vibration or sound vibration which designates and identifies the entities involved. The beginning of the identification which you have noticed is that sound of, as we have discovered your peoples call it, the spheres, the great Aum which those of Ra partake of in a more balanced fashion. Thus, this sound of the “a” is a kind of bleed-through or a vibratory range that somewhat overlaps the blending of our two sound-vibration complexes, overlaps and underlies, for this sound of the spheres is that music that is available to any entity which has tuned itself to the one creation.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes. I noted that you spoke of the two social memory complexes involved, and for a while I felt that there was a third one involved, namely Hatonn, and that that entity had come on board with the principle in order to deal with some of the needs of some of the members of the circle at that time, and when that entity left perhaps Hatonn left also. Is this correct?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. And though this supposition upon your part has its correctness it is not simply enough to say that that is correct, for there are many entities of the social memory complex nature which have been attracted to and have spoken to this group in its history, as you would say. When such a commitment and communication has been made it is never broken but remains as a link so that when this group gathers in its circle of seeking there are many who are drawn to it and do not participate directly in the spoken communication but which lend their vibratory presence to this circle of seeking, and any of this group of entities may be called upon by any in your circle of seeking for special communication, shall we say, that is, the calming effect that one group may have for a certain entity, the inspirational effect that one group may have for another entity. In general, there is much support that is available to this circle of seeking from those of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you for the information. It is fascinating and good to know.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. We would ask for a final query at this time if there is one.

R: The answer you have just given about the entities being present when the circle is together has touched upon a feeling that I had, and I wanted to voice it. When I listen to Q’uo I really take Q’uo to represent a Brotherhood of Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow, as Ra has called it. I wanted to thank you for bringing it up because it has cleared up something for me because I felt there were more than just two entities involved and you have put it into a structure that my mind can deal with better. I appreciate that comment.

I am Q’uo, and we are responding to your response to us, my brother, and we thank you for the grasping of the nature of this contact in a more full sense, for as each in the circle is more able to appreciate that which is offered it makes the service which we have to offer take on a certain ease of momentum, shall we say. We are always gratified to be called specifically by this group, but we would reiterate that when any of the Confederation entities have been called that there is the joining of the particular entities called by others who are attracted by the seeking of the group. For as the group in which you sit gathers itself together and shares with the others of the group the concerns of the heart, the concerns of the mind, and the concerns of the day there is created a certain vibratory level which is likened to a calling for service in these areas from entities that are, shall we say, specialists and whose desire is to provide information and inspiration to those of the Earth population who would seek such solace.

As to the beginning of the New Year of your experience, we find that such demarcations of time, and especially this one, are helpful to each entity in that it provides a clean slate in the mind of the entity upon which can be written the new and more refined aspirations that the entity may desire to express within its own life pattern and may find it more easily able to do so when it feels that there is a new opportunity presented. Much as a level of a new incarnation offers the freedom of expression to an entity, so does this beginning of a new calendar year for your peoples.

We are those of Q’uo, and would at this time express our appreciation to each here for inviting our presence in your circle of seeking this day. It is a great honor to be able to do so, and we would hope that each entity would use the discrimination native within each to take those words which ring of truth that we have spoken this day and use them as each will, leaving behind those that do not have that ring of truth at this time. At this time, we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are know to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves from the front yard and the side yard into a pile in the area between the fishpond and the pet cemetery for future pickup by Dave’s Lawn Service.

This afternoon I went back outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the back yard into areas where I could mulch them with Venus. Then I got them mulched and was glad that we got half an inch of rain last night to keep the mulching from being so dusty as we have not had rain all month before last night, and all leaf mulching before day was a very dusty experience.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 1

A Heart Full Of Peace

I am the principle of Jesus the Christ.

I greet you in the full consciousness of divine Love, that consciousness within which lies the peace in which we always end our greeting to you.

We wish you peace because it is the natural estate of the mind and the heart of one whose consciousness is that of Love, regardless of the outer circumstances, regardless of the apparent helplessness of one over such outer circumstances.

The heart of one stayed on Jesus the Christ is at rest within itself, holding itself and all others in the same compassion as does Christ, in the faith that Christ has come before and opened the gates to the full consciousness of that love for all.

May each new situation this day be seen not for its outer configuration but as an environment into which you bring the inestimable value of a consciousness of Love and a heart full of inner peace.

In this peace we leave you and bless you, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from December 20, 1998:

What is the entity, Jesus, doing now, and how can we benefit in our devotional lives from his teachings?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator whose servants we are. As the shadows lengthen on your winter’s afternoon we extend our gratitude and our blessing to you who sit quietly in a circle of working humbly asking for truth, for hope, for resources and tools with which to carry on the seeking of the mystery of love and of deity. We thank you and we bless you, and we give thanks for you. For it is that stubborn and persistent seeker that lights the way for those who follow, that plants the seeds that others shall gather. It does not seem to each who sits in this circle that there is anything out of the ordinary in each life, and yet each has been as a beacon to others in ways that each cannot possibly know. We, too, hope that we may learn and grow as persistently as this group, and we hope that we may share from our experience the opinions and concepts that have been helpful to us. As always, however, we ask that each who hears these words respond only to those ideas that delight and find a home within. Any thoughts that we may offer that may seem disharmonious to you, we would ask that you leave behind, for we do not wish to create problems for you. We only wish to share our thoughts and to share the energy of meditation that blesses us as we hope our presence blesses you.

You have asked this day concerning the entity known to you as Jesus of Nazareth, what he is doing now and what this entity may continue to symbolize and suggest to those who seek the truth. At this level of contact, that is, the light trance of what this instrument calls conscious channeling, we do not wish to attempt to indicate, using this instrument, precisely what planetary sphere or what precise work this particular entity is now doing. We would, however, express our feeling that this entity was one of a social memory complex that was at a stage of graduation to fifth density. This entity and the social memory complex of which It was a part had in common a full consciousness of Love and compassion. A Love that creates. A Love that destroys. A Love that transforms. A Love that is all that there is. This Love was not informed or balanced with wisdom. This state of Love of this social memory complex thusly was, if not absolutely perfect, at a very high level of near perfection. And as such, this group was exquisitely poised at the appropriate nexus when the opportunity came for incarnation using Christ consciousness within the Earth plane in third density.

This social memory complex is now, and has been for some of your time, studying the ways of wisdom and progressing in fifth density. However, the state of consciousness of Jesus the Christ and that social memory complex is alive and well within your inner planes where many teachers who have experienced this state of consciousness await the work of what this instrument would call the Holy Spirit. Thusly, the Earth plane has never been without Christ, nor shall it ever be without Christ. For as the Christ came into incarnation It was perhaps, in some part, a personality, but so filled with the Holy Spirit, the identity of self with what the one known as Jesus called the Father, that there was not sufficient personality clinging to this Christed being for him to retain a personality shell after the departure of this entity from the inner planes of your Earth.

Thusly, without taking anything away from the accomplishment of the individual who carried Christ’s consciousness within the Earth plane we may say that that energy that you know of as Jesus is not owned by an individual, nor was it owned by an individual while that individual was in incarnation. Rather, the one known as Jesus always and persistently stated, “When you hear me, you do not hear me but my Father.” This entity found itself completely lost to Its Earthly personality experiencing the glory of oneness with the Creator, with the creation of nature with the world around It and with each and every seemingly imperfect human being that seemingly presented itself to this entity. This Christed quality of Love is so much a redeemer and a savior of third-density awareness and of fourth-density work that we find it extremely easy to state that Jesus is Lord, as this instrument requires us to do before we may speak. We are not at that time celebrating the individual but stating the Lordship that this individual carried as its identity, eschewing and forgoing the normal ramifications of the ego-driven personality.

Perhaps you may see, then, that each of you has the potential to begin to learn how to carry the consciousness of Christ within the self. For you see, as you consider yourself it is crucial what angle you view the self from. In the eyes of your culture, you are taught to view the self within the nexus of the social arrangement that enables society to live peaceably together. The self then is seen as personality, with characteristics of the personality, with a certain kind of mental ability, with certain culturally conditioned and educated biases, with certain physical work that is done, with certain hobbies and interests and the whole gamut of human identity.

However, each who has awakened spiritually knows well that that is only the surface of self and all of society and its biases, that all of the social arrangements, economic plans and schemes for attaining and maintaining comfort and health and happiness do not identify the self or exhaust its beingness. As spiritual seekers move more and more into consideration of the self as a spiritual being there grows an awareness that the self within is not even a person, that the personality is truly a shell but that what it holds is infinite. There is no bottom to the roots of consciousness. The roots move into infinity. There is no limitation upon the self, the “I” that lives within, and that is one key that the one known as Jesus of Nazareth offers: the redefinition of self, that movement from the “I” of the personality to the “I” of “When you hear me speak, you hear not me but the Father who sent me.” For each of us was sent into this illusion. Each of us, indeed, has sent itself into the illusion to serve as the lighthouse for the source of Light moving into the Earth plane. It is not that the “I” of self has the fuel to burn an infinite Light eternally. Rather, the spiritually awakened self becomes more and more aware that the “I” that is truly the self is simply moving through the vehicle of personality in infinite energy. What the “I” of personality may do to express the true “I-ness” of the Creator within is to allow and bless the energy that moves through the being. For each of you is as a receiver and a sender of energy. Each of you receives infinite Light and Love in a steady and continual basis, both from the Earth energy itself moving up through the vehicle and from those sources of inspiration which each calls to herself from time to time that move down into the self from above.

All of this energy can be held, or it can be allowed to flow. And each serves by allowing that energy to flow through with as little distortion as possible. And not simply allowing but blessing it on its way. Each has outer gifts, and these gifts are there for each to share. However, the one known as Jesus is that perfect example of one who laid all gifts before the Creator and simply said, “What is your will for me?”

The group question for this session was: “What is the entity, Jesus, doing now, and how can we benefit in our devotional lives from his teachings?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that they could not speak precisely about what Jesus was doing now because they were not utilizing the trance state, but they did say that He was part of a social memory complex that was completing the fourth density of love, and that their expression of the Love of the Creator approached perfection. Q’uo went on to say that the Love of Jesus was available in the form of the Holy Spirit within the Earth planes, and Jesus’s social memory complex was now studying the ways of wisdom. They said that Christ Consciousness is always present within the third density although it is not His own because Jesus said that “When you hear me, you do not hear me but my Father.” Q’uo went on to say that Jesus had so completely become one with the Creator that He could see the Creator in everyone and all things around Him, so Q’uo said that even though we are culturally conditioned to see ourselves defined by certain physical work that we do, with certain hobbies and interests of human identity, we still have the opportunity to see ourselves as having the consciousness of Christ within us. Then Q’uo said as we become awakened to our nature as a spiritual being we see that the roots of our consciousness are infinite, and we have incarnated into this illusion to serve as a lighthouse for the source of Light energy moving into the Earth plane. They went on to say that we should allow and bless this Love and Light energy that moves through our being, and that we could do as Jesus did and lay our gifts before the Creator and ask: “What is Thy will for me.” On November 12, 2006, Q’uo explained how we could function as a lighthouse for Love and Light:

We would encourage you to see yourself as a lighthouse. The lighthouse lights its lamp and keeps its windows transparent. It gives to that lamp the power to turn in endless circles, so that those coming in from the open water may see the rocks and avoid them and come to a safe harbor. A spiritual lighthouse has its own kind of light, and when you become aware of the power of your beingness, you may, if you wish, consciously become that kind of lighthouse that radiates Love and Light into the spiritual space around you.

At this time where the world experiences the shortest of days and the longest of nights, at your Christmastide, your light festival, know that the baby that lies within the manger in the story in your Bible is alive and lying in the manger in your heart. Know that that consciousness of Christ that the one known as Jesus carried is carried by others as well. That there are always Christs within your inner planes, those who dwell in that state of consciousness that is so fruitful and helpful for those within the Earth planes, but know most of all that the savior and redeemer of the world lies within the single unified heart. For each of you has in perfect accomplishment the awareness and the ability to be Christed. And as destiny rules, each of you shall be given your times to express perfect Love.

This instrument asks us, mentally, and we repeat it that we may answer for each of you, “How can you say that Jesus is Lord if you say that Jesus can be replaced with another of the same consciousness?” and we say to you that it is our experience that selfhood is far less personal than it seems within third density. It is a matter of breadth of experience, of seeing into the illusion which within your incarnational experiences is such a perfect and complete illusion. Jesus, indeed, is Lord. Christ, indeed, is the highest and most pure and perfect Love, that Love that destroys only to transform, that kills only to raise and move onward. Wherever we see the Christ within incarnation that consciousness held by that entity is Lord. One recognizes it as one would recognize an oak tree or a brand of food in your marketplace. It is distinctive. It is perfect of its own kind. And it is a deeply impersonal, infinitely true consciousness in metaphysical location of quality and essence that transcends personality and reidentifies the individual as Love.

This state of consciousness lies within your awareness even in incarnation, in potentiation, and the thirst for that state of consciousness draws you onward. May we say to you, value and treasure that thirst and follow it faithfully, for it is a true thirst, a thirst that will still be there a hundred millennia from now, only more intense, more single-minded, because you will have found out more, experienced more, been more within the changing and shifting illusions of space/time.

We do not want to turn our backs upon history. We are aware that it is important to this instrument and to others whether the one known as Jesus the Christ was an historical figure. Indeed, this entity did exist and did express as Christ. There have been others who have expressed this consciousness within your Earth plane but certainly less distorted in expression of this gift than the one known as Jesus. We see and believe in the Christ in each of you and in ourselves. Indeed, we have been at that state of consciousness and have shared in expressing Christhood in our service as you shall do in your turn. Beyond all considerations of time, and place, and history, however, there lies a level of truth that goes quite beyond the personal and moves into essences and qualities of consciousness that open doors within the deep mind and create the possibility for further spiritual evolution.

We wish you Light and Love on that journey that each of you takes as each pursues the questions of identity and ambition. Who am I? Why am I here? What is my service? Whither do I go? These are the questions that stir life and aid in acceleration of evolution. Move ever deeper into questions of who you really are, what service you truly came to offer. Know that these potentials for transformation and evolution are real, and know that we do not find any consideration more interesting than the pursuit of self into the deeper mind and beyond the local personality shell with which you have equipped yourselves in order to experience this illusion. Know that you are redeemed, loved, cherished and treasured by the Christ that was Jesus, by Christ consciousness wherever it is, and by us. Know that you are part of a great Self, and that as you pursue your selfhood you also pursue the selfhood of the creation and the Creator.

Now Q’uo said that the consciousness of Christ is within all of our hearts, that each of us has the ability to be Christed, and it is our destiny to express perfect Love. They went on to say that we can see the Christ consciousness as an infinitely true consciousness that transcends personality, and it has the potential to redefine us as Love. Q’uo went on to say that this state of consciousness lies in potentiation within our awareness in our current incarnation, and our continuing desire to experience it will draw us forward on our spiritual journey for many thousands of years. Then Q’uo said that Jesus Christ did exist as an historical figure that expressed Christ consciousness more purely than others who have expressed this level of consciousness. Then they said that they had also been able to express this level of Christ consciousness, and they felt certain that at some point in our future we would also experience: “a level of truth that goes quite beyond the personal and moves into essences and qualities of consciousness that open doors within the deep mind and creates the possibility for further spiritual evolution.” Q’uo encouraged us to move into questions of who we are, what our service is, and to know that the potential for transformation and evolution are real as we move beyond our personality shell into our deeper mind. Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that we are loved and redeemed by the Christ that was Jesus, and as we pursue our selfhood, we also pursue the selfhood of the creation and of the Creator. On September 5, 2005, Q’uo said that our selfhood was part of the Creator:

Lastly, before we open this session to further questions, we would like to take a look at what gold you contain and what treasure you have within you. As we said at the beginning of this conversation, the ore within you or the self within you that you brought into incarnation is huge, much greater than can be imagined in terms of a personality or a human selfhood. You, and all sparks of the Creator, are a portion of the one infinite Creator.

You are a Creator, furthermore, who, though very imperfect in its realization of itself as Creator, has hands and a voice with which you can reach out and make a change in the environment and in which you speak up and express truth as you see it in this environment of mirrors and illusions that is consensus reality. You can be, therefore, the hands and the voice of the one infinite Creator.

The gold that is in you is your deepest self and as you have moved through many transformations in your life already, you have perhaps noticed that as things fall away from you and as you mature, you have become less and less a creature of personality and more and more a creature of the open heart, a creature whose selfhood is not bounded by what she does, what she wears, and where she goes, but who she is.

We would finish this transmission through the instrument known as Jim. We thank this instrument and would leave it in love and in light. We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet you once again in love and in light through this instrument. It has been our great privilege to speak on this topic this day, and we would offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present might have for us at this time. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Are you suggesting that each of us will at some point be given the opportunity to incarnate as a Christ?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Though this possibility is also one which is viable, the more likely opportunity is that of moving as does the Christ move within your own incarnation. For at some point in your experience of the third-density illusion, there is the illumination of the mind/body/spirit complex through its own efforts that is signified by the moving into the, shall we say, office of the Christ, the position of the entity which is fully enlightened as to the third-density experience.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Not just now. Thank you. I’ll think about that.

I am Q’uo. We thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

J: Can you tell us what was the pre-incarnative plan of the one known as Paul in the lifetime shortly following Jesus’ death?

I am Q’uo, and though we believe that we understand your query, my sister, we are unable to respond to it in the manner in which you had hoped due to our inability to utilize this instrument or this contact in the level of trance, as you would call it, that would be necessary to retrieve this information. Thus, we are unable to respond in a manner other than suggesting that each entity incarnates with the desire to be of service and to utilize the life experience as a means of glorifying the one Creator.

Is there any further query, my sister?

J: No. Thanks.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I was thinking about Christ consciousness, and I thought about a guy that saved a lot of people and lost his own life in so doing. I thought that was a very Christ-like impulse. Do such people move into this Christ consciousness in so doing, or is Christ consciousness simply a state of mind that is Christhood?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. As you have described, there is a variety of ways in which an entity may move into a situation of that of a Christ; that is, one who would give his or her life for another. Your allusion provides numerous ways in which this may be done, either as a product of an attitude, as you have surmised, or as the product of the opportunity being presented in an instant and accepted in an instant. In either case, there is the, shall we say, previous decision made by the entity previous to incarnation, perhaps in agreement with the higher self, so that this entity shall be given the opportunity to—“prove its mettle” is the phrase we give this instrument—to be put to the test so that what has been learned previously, as you would measure the experience of time, can be offered as the foundation upon which shall be built the Christed consciousness that is the culmination of the experience in this third-density illusion.

In many instances the entity itself is not consciously aware that this is the process in which it partakes. But this is also a part of the nature of the third-density illusion in that there is a great deal more beneath the surface of events, as you would say, than appears at first glance. For each entity and each entity’s experience is layered with vibrations of experience or meaning, each of which is able to add to the total experience so that an entity may become a participant in the event which you described and be moving into that position of the Christ in consciousness by the actions in which its own life is offered in favor of others. When the entity passes through those doors which you have described as larger life or death, the entity then has the remembrance of that which it was to attempt returned to it and is at that moment illuminated in the manner in which the consciousness is placed in the Christed being, shall we say.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we are very honored to have been asked to join your circle at this time. We would again like to suggest that you take only that which we say that rings of truth to you, leaving behind all others. We offer our opinions and thoughts to you as freely as is given the breath of life, the energy of the one Creator, the light of the sun, as a blessing. We are hopeful that each will find some value therein.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I changed out the sheets and pillow cases on my bed. I took off the green sheets as soon as I got out of bed and put them in the clothes washer. Then I had breakfast and took care of the cats. Then I put the green sheets in the dryer and had my second meditation. Then I put the blue sheets on the bed and used a wet dust mop to clean under the bed. Then I went downstairs and ironed the three pillow cases and the green flat sheet.

This afternoon I decided to stay inside and work on my Camelot Journal entries for the next few days, and I also began reading The Crucifixion of Esmerelda Sweetwater that Don and Carla wrote in 1968 when they first got together. I made an audio book for this book a few years ago, and I was asked to let the editors of the audio book know when each character in this novel first appears since I used a different voice for each character, and they said that would“ make it easier for us to not only identify locations in the text where characters first appear, but it will also help us identify the full cast of characters.”

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 31

Rest Not Your Staff

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ, the principle of Love which speaks to the world today.

Welcome to a morning of the creation of the Father! Welcome to the path of the pilgrim! Allow yourself to awaken slowly, for, as you slept, so have you been taught and comforted by that which is not of understanding to your conscious mind.

Now, as you brush the sand of sleep from your eyes and gaze about you, whether your environment is the mansion or the hovel, yet before your eyes it is the pilgrim’s path you see.

Gather up your staff, then, and prepare to walk this day as a pilgrim of Love; of infinite consciousness; of the kingdom of the Father. And rest not your staff until that inside heart speaks to you of a day well-accomplished in Love and the consciousness of Love. Then may you lay down your staff at the end of your busy day and rest again in the everlasting arms that enfold you between sleeping and waking once again to the peace, Love and joy of the consciousness of divine Love, the path of the seeker.

It is on this path and in this consciousness that we leave you, now and ever, with blessings. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from November 29, 1998:

What kind of souls are incarnating into the Earth plane now? Ra said there were those with third and fourth-density bodies activated and wanderers as well as those who would like to make the fourth-density graduation. Could you tell us something about the souls being born today?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator whom we adore and in whose service we are proud to be. We thank you for calling us to your circle of seeking. We acknowledge the great blessing that you give us by inviting us to share our humble opinions, and we send each blessings of thanks for this privilege. As always, we would ask that those things that we say be listened to with discrimination, for each entity has unique needs and deserves nothing less than the personal and highly individualistic truth that is personal truth. For there are many truths and there are many progressions of truths, and each entity which seeks takes a slightly different journey even though the territory is the same.

And this is what we would ask that you think of our words and other opinions into which you might run in your investigations. Select just as you would the flowers that you would put upon your table those thoughts which you wish to bloom within the house that thought furnishes and builds.

This day you would wish to know more about the current population of your planetary sphere and who is coming through as babies in these days. Within your query you pointed out two of the three basic groups that are here within your worlds at this time. It is accurate to say that those third-density entities that are hoping to graduate within the next lifetime make up the bulk of those upon your planet at this time. By and large, you still shall find perhaps two out of three entities born being, shall we say, the old style of physical vehicle where the third-density body is activated and the fourth, fifth, sixth and so forth are in potentiation only. The hope is, of course, that one last lifetime as the planetary sphere itself is ending the third-density cycle might effectuate enough growth and maturity of spirit to create that integrity of spirit that welcomes fuller light.

There are also increasing numbers of newborn infants which are the pioneers of fourth density upon your sphere, those with the third-density and fourth-density bodies activated. Often such children will have unusually mature thought processes and an enhanced ability to learn, to create, to enumerate with joy those things that are found to be beautiful treasures.

The third type of entity which is being born to your peoples at this time is that general term of wanderer. Wanderers have streamed in large numbers to your planetary sphere in the last generation, and much of the strong spiritual support in the arts that many have noted during these years has come from such wanderers as these. These entities have much more in common with the third-density Earth native than with the entities with double activated bodies in that they are fully under the veil of forgetting. The differences between wanderers and third-density graduation hopefuls is within the area of faith and intuition. The wanderer has more of an instinctive belief or faith in spiritual coincidence, in the aliveness of all things to the molding of a structure of information communication which moves across all lines of language and culture.

These three types of entities are not homogenous as Earth itself has not had a pure or easy history with third density. Rather, your native sphere is one which has welcomed many, many different populations of those who have not graduated from a previous third-density cycle elsewhere. Your planet is then a highly various group of people. There are several pointedly different archetypical structures that have been passed down in what this instrument would call the equivalent of the genetic code in the time/space universe. Your planet, then, is one characterized by various levels of confusion which has not always been the case in third-density cycles. It is as though your plane of existence is in a class filled with those whom other teachers and other cultures have so far failed to inspire.

The group question for this session was: “What kind of souls are incarnating into the Earth plane now? Ra said there were those with third and fourth-density bodies activated and wanderers as well as those who would like to make the fourth-density graduation. Could you tell us something about the souls being born today?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that two thirds of entities being born are those who are hopeful of being able to graduate to the fourth density as they have their first three energy centers activated with the higher energy centers still in potentiation. Q’uo went on to say that the second group had their third and fourth density bodies activated and were pioneers of the fourth density which were mature thinkers and created joy in their lives. (Ra called these entities the ones with the dual activated bodies who had made the graduation on other third density planets and had come to Earth to help with the graduation process here.) Then Q’uo said that wanderers were the third group that has been incarnating on Earth more frequently in the last generation, and they have more in common with third density entities as both are fully under the veil of forgetting, but the wanderer has more of the qualities being able to rely on their faith and intuition and are able to communicate spiritual information across various cultures and languages. Then Q’uo said that because so many of the entities on Earth now are from many different third density planets where they failed to make the graduation, and this has resulted in a great deal of confusion on Earth that is not normally experienced on third density planets. On December 3, 2016, Q’uo spoke of the confusion on Earth that has been the result of so much of its population having to repeat third density on Earth:

And here you are on Planet Earth at this time, once again recapitulating that basic scenario—a feeling that there is more confusion, more darkness, more difficulty, more disillusionment than you have known before upon your planet. And yet, my friends, we tell you that what you know now is but the palest shadow of what has been before, for many times have the populations that have come to this planet to repeat third density caused darkness to heavily rest upon the peoples of various cultures, so that the history of your planet is one of bellicosity, adversarial relationships, and separation of entities from each other so that there was not any unifying force that could bring all together.

And, indeed, for much of the history of your planet and its progression through the various major cycles and minor cycles of evolution culminating now in this great master cycle, there has been predominately a separation dividing nation from nation, religion against religion, community against community, families against each other. It has been a theme, shall we say, and everyone seems to know the song.

We feel that the point of interest for us in discussing your planetary population is not in all of these differences, nor yet in those things which are common amongst all, but, rather, we would point out the unusual vividness and strength of various distortions among your peoples. We compliment your peoples on the intensity and dedication with which ideas are found and held. Yours is a planetary sphere full of tremendous energy, full of great power. This power is most often trapped within the entities’ confusion, and our point of interest is in finding ways to discuss love. For it is this simple passage which we always come to give. Yet, to your unruly and various peoples one way of giving shall never be sufficient, nor two, nor three, nor a hundred, nor a thousand. We celebrate this peculiarly vivid energy of your peoples. Indeed, the energies are in some disarray, yet how beautiful and how powerful the potential. There are so many entities just on the threshold of that level of awareness that shakes down the entire organism and rearranges it. And your peoples thirst for this with great energy.

And they are thirsting for that which they are but cannot see within themselves. They are searching for their Creator. They are searching for Love. Intelligent infinity rests. Intelligent energy asks, “What not?” And betwixt the rest and the question lies the mortal universe in space and time that supports that universe.

We encourage all souls within the Earth plane to focus upon the young ones, for, as always, it is to those born in innocence and full of expectations that information needs to be most lovingly considered in giving. Whenever there is the opportunity to interact with the children about you, we encourage each in her own way to look into the children’s eyes, to make contact with spirit there. For in each of the three cases, the entity is an old soul. The entity has much experience. The entity is full of potential, for each connection with a young one strengthens and bolsters that child’s gifts of faith and will. If kindness comes not so easily to you, then let your kindness be for children. Let the heart open for the young ones, for much teaching shall be given in that manner.

Know that when you come in contact with all entities each is teaching each, and to the extent that you can attempt to open the heart without fear as entities are met. For although as children grow into adults they lose some of that faith and perhaps pervert some of that will, yet there is no spirit in incarnation that is more than a few steps away from understanding. You never know, therefore, what you might say or do or express by your presence that might be salvation or realization to another.

We would encourage entities concerned with the caring for children to focus repeatedly, daily if possible, upon the metaphysical needs that you yourself feel and those children who are with you feel. Find ways to practice devotion to the Creator. And share this as a normal and everyday part of living. This shall reassure and orient young entities in ways that go too deep for words. Some keep an altar. Some light a candle and meditate. Some interact with nature, walking amongst the blooms or the dry leaves or the wintry grasses. Some watching the birds or finding ways to take pictures of the animals in their natural habitat. There are so many, many avenues where the spiritual can be taught to children without heaviness or pretension.

Most of all, we encourage each simply to be themselves, for this teaches more than anything else. Entities who are moving from their core outward, being as true to their feelings and sensings as possible, shall always have a head start in communicating with those called children. For as they are simpler and less devious, so are their ways of seeing. And they shall appreciate an entity who is herself far more than an entity, no matter how exciting that is a mask rather than the person herself.

Then Q’uo said that rather than comment on what the people of our planet had in common or how they were different, they wanted to talk about the great energy and power of the distortions of our people which is trapped within their confusion, so Q’uo wanted to discuss love and how our people are in such disarray that there are never enough ways for them to share love. Q’uo went on to say that they celebrate these vivid energies of our people because they have a powerful potential, and there are many entities beginning to experience that level of awareness that rearranges their entire being, and our people have a great desire for this. Then Q’uo said that our people are searching for Love, the intelligent energy of the Creator, and that: “Intelligent infinity rests. Intelligent energy asks, “Why not?” And betwixt the rest and the question lies the mortal universe in space and time that supports that universe.” Q’uo continued by suggesting that we should focus our love and attention on our children who are either wanderers, those with dual-activated bodies, or third density entities seeking to activate their heart chakra and give them the means by which practice devotion to the Creator by meditation, walking in nature, or photographing animals on a daily basis. Then Q’uo completed their reply by saying that the most important way of communicating with children was by moving from the core of our heart and just being our authentic selves. On July 25, 1982, Latwii mentioned a number of ways that we can practice devotion to the Creator:

We may suggest, my brother, that at any time you wish to pursue your seeking through meditation, that the first portion of your meditation be given to some inward devotion to the one Creator. Whether this be a prayer, a chant, a mantra, a visualization, makes no difference. Use this device to refine your desire to seek the truth in the positive sense. If then you have but a moment in which to meditate, fear not that time is too short, for a moment given to the one Creator cannot be measured in time. Rest in that moment as you surrender your small self and your will to the will of the Father. Know that in that moment you have drunk of the essence of your being. Then go forth, refreshed, full and whole. Your desire, my brother, will see you through. You have no shortage of that most important ingredient.

We feel that we have come to a natural stopping point, but before we transfer to the one known as Jim, we would ask if there are any further queries upon this subject. We shall pause.

[No further queries.]

We are those of Q’uo, and since there is no request for related information upon this subject we shall relinquish the contact with the one known as Carla and transfer to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument and leave it in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in the love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our honor to offer ourselves to the potential of further queries. If there are any upon other topics of importance to those gathered, we would be most happy to attempt to speak to them.

Is there another query at this time?

J: How much of an idea of what lies ahead in third density does a soul who is incarnating into this illusion have?

I am Q’uo, and believe that we grasp your query. We shall respond to that which we grasp and ask you to query further if we have not covered the topic as you would wish.

Those who now move into incarnation within this planetary sphere’s third-density illusion are aware that this is the time of graduation, that this particular planet is having somewhat of a difficult birthing for the fourth-density population that is to inhabit this planetary sphere. The difficulties of blending vibrations, of seeking in unity, and of recognizing the Creator in all are significant enough that there are, as you are well aware, many wars, misunderstandings, miscommunications and other difficulties that make this illusion one filled with confusion and that which seems to be a turmoil of significant degree. This is seen as a kind of chaotic expression of energy by those awaiting incarnation. Yet it is not seen as that which deters the desire to move into the third-density illusion in this planetary influence and to experience the opportunities that await those who seek their own graduation and the graduation of those of their vibration. Rather, the difficulties that are perceived are seen as further opportunities for service as those challenges which enhance the incarnational abilities to learn the lessons of love and to serve the light of the one Creator. The chaotic expression of energy is seen as that which offers the opportunity to enhance one’s own expression of energy as one is able to move in harmony through the difficult times and experiences that lie ahead. For previous to incarnation each entity is far more aware that it is a portion of the one Creator and all those about it are the same, as are those with whom it shall spend its third-density days. Thus, the entity awaiting the incarnation sees with clearer eyes that which lies ahead and is far less liable to shy away from such difficulties but is far more likely to embrace them as the opportunities to serve and to learn.

Is there a further query, my sister?

J: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: May I ask a question about an experience?

I am Q’uo, and we are happy to entertain whatever query you would have to ask.

Carla: Thank you. When I was channeling earlier in this meeting, I could feel an energy start up at the end. If I closed my eyes, I was dizzy, a rush of wind, not chaotic. Just a different energy than I have ever experienced. Could you shed any light on that experience? Is it another contact that wants to speak? Could it be a gift of energy that was being given to me? I couldn’t even name it. It felt like it was occurring throughout the top of my brow and head and within my mind.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. As we scan for the experience which you have described we are aware that there is within your physical vehicle at this time some difficulties that have been of concern to you during this past week as you have measured this cycle of time. And there are those entities within the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator who move to the need for the healing in their own ways. These you have known in your past as those of Nona. This entity has, in this experience which you have described, offered itself in the attempt to lend an energy exchange to your auric field that has been perceived by you in the manner that you described.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: If I wish to accept Nona’s gift, then all I need to do is say “thank you” to her. Is this correct?

I am Q’uo, and this is correct, my sister.

Carla: Thank you, Nona. Thank you Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries]

I am Q’uo, and we would thank each present this day for inviting us to join your circle of seeking. We are gratified that we have been able to offer our humble opinions in those areas which have been expressed as those of concern for you. We would ask that you take those words which we have given which have the ring of truth to you and use them as you will, leaving behind all others without a second thought. At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I ran a couple of errands with my first stop at the vet to get some medicine and cat food for Bosco. Then I went to Walgreen’s to pick up a prescription and drop off another one.

This afternoon I went outside and pumped a quarter of the water out of the fishpond and watered the gardens around the fishpond with this water. Then I cleaned the filters and refilled the fishpond with fresh water.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 30

That Love In You Shall Love

I am the Spirit of Jesus Christ, the Spirit of the Love that is the consciousness of the Creator Itself, greeting you in the vibration of that Love which is most comforting to this instrument.

We are aware that we are precipitant this day. Yet this instrument is tuned and so we speak.

Sink your feet two miles down into the terrible maelstroms and volcanoes of the sulfurous nether regions of those who have no hope, and reach upward, grasping with your fingers the tenuous threads of the wings of angels and the lips of prophets. For if you are not aware that your nature is one with demons and angels both, then you are not aware of the fullness of the Love of Christ and of the universality of the nature of your Creator.

Who shall be Lord of your life? An entity made of your ideals and dreams? A man-made shibboleth? Or the reality of deepest things, the allness of the nature of God?

Turn your understanding, then, to the acceptance of unacceptable things and the recognition of love in all situations, whether they are, to you, fragrant with virtue or reeking of vice. Such is the power of judgment that you can make lovely things ugly and ugly things wonderful. Yet, my children, is that what you desire?

Wait patiently, then, with your eyes turned to the doorway wherein dwells the Spirit of Jesus Christ. For in the fullness of your time His Spirit shall come unto you with the loving of Love itself, that you need not love, but that Love-in-you shall Love, accept, and understand all the universality that your humanity cannot encompass. 

This can only be accomplished through the resoluteness of your will to accept and love in the Spirit of the Lord of your life, who accepted all and loved to the end.

May the peace which Jesus Christ demonstrated to you rest upon you, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 15, 1998:

The question today concerns anger and frustration which we feel for ourselves, and we would like Q’uo to tell us how we can use these feelings to lead us along the path towards compassion for ourselves. Is there hope that we can change ourselves, or should we concentrate on accepting ourselves with the anger and all?

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is in the service of the One that we come to you, and we are, as always, most grateful that you have called us to your session of working. It is a great blessing to us to be able to have the opportunity to share your meditation and to share our opinions with you. We would ask that each who seeks use the discrimination that is each seeker’s gift, that inner voice that says, “This is for me, and that is not.” We would not wish for you to take our word as gospel, for we are but fallible servants of the Light. We can be wrong, and we only offer our opinion in the hope that it may prove to be a resource for you as it has been for us. But always trust your own discrimination whether listening to our voice or to any voice, for it is given to each seeker to sense truth when it comes.

Your query this day is most interesting, for it moves into the heat of that which is perceived as a battle, that running of the good race, as this instrument would put it, from the words of St. Paul. It is in the midst of the illusion that each of you wished to come before embarking upon this incarnation. It is precisely into this self-perceived cauldron of confusion and negative emotional processes that you genuinely wished to enter. You think to yourself, “Now, why would I want to do such a thing?” “Why would I wish to swim in this sea of confusion?” Yet, you must remember the great difference betwixt the place whereon you were standing when you gazed into the possibilities that such an incarnation could offer you. You were not within the veil of confusion and forgetting and illusion. Rather, when you chose to make this particular pilgrimage at this particular time you were gazing at the opportunity to express faith.

The expression of faith is that expression which claims a harmony and balance that is completely unseen. Before you entered upon this incarnation it was not necessary for you to call upon faith, for the truth was evident. Dwelling within the finer bodies of self, gazing upon the possibilities of service and learning that they were before you, each of you felt inspired and strengthened in this desire to move into this heavy illusion, to enter into the sea of confusion completely, accepting the forgetting of those simple truths that are self-evident within the realms of spirit, and taking hold of the opportunity to live a life that was a testament and an anthem of faith and love and joy, for these feelings, these pure emotions well up within you, and you yearned to express them with ever more purity.

Indeed, each of you had to wait and hope for the opportunity to take incarnation at this time because there were so many souls desiring to lend their faith and love and devotion to the Earth plane at this juncture in time and space, for this particular solar system and galaxy is at this particular time moving through what many have called a birth, an entrance into the next density of learning. And indeed, the Earth plane has much difficulty at this time in moving harmoniously through the changes of magnetic energy and spiritual energy that go along with this particular cusp wherein one era or age ends, and another begins. Indeed, this is a critical time for many as many have said to this group, as each has heard many times before. There is a time of harvest at this particular juncture, and there are many who are ready to awaken to their spiritual identity, ready to be harvested into a higher understanding.

And with a full and overflowing heart each of you desired purely and truly to be of service, to be one who went into the fields that were white, to be one of those who helped with the harvest of planet Earth. And may we say that each of you is helping. Each of you does express a level of love and faith and devotion that is marked at times. Each of you has been able, to some extent, to intensify that polarity with which you seek to do the service for which you came.

And so, if you are doing what you came to do, then why do you have these feelings of frustration and anger? Let us look at this. There are many who have no trouble expressing anger, frustration or other negative emotions, nor have they any trouble assigning the blame and responsibility for these emotions to forces outside themselves. However, each of you has become aware that nothing is truly outside of you, that you cannot impute responsibility for your feelings to other people, to outside forces of any kind. More and more, each of you has begun to take spiritual responsibility for yourself, and so when these emotions occur they are turned inward. This is actually, in terms of metaphysical work, a significant advance to imputing responsibility to forces outside the self.

When you are engaged in chastising the self you are consumed with the desire to be better. This in itself, as we said, is a step forward, a great step forward in the process of balancing these emotions. The one known as J remarked earlier that she felt that of herself she could do nothing, and this was a free quotation from that known to you as your Holy Bible. The one known as St. Paul discussed this further, saying that works without love did not have virtue. That if one did all things taught, shared all things, knew all things, and yet had not love, such a person was as a banging gong, a loud noise that signified nothing. This is a key for each of you, we feel; that is, the realization that of yourself you can do nothing, that things done from the self, things done without inspiration, will not have that virtue which you so desired to come and share with your brethren upon planet Earth.

How difficult it is to see that actions without love are not useful! Why is it so difficult? Very simply, within your culture there is little attention given to the value of being. Rather, there is the almost maniacal focus upon doing, accomplishing things in the illusion, things that you can point to that have an objective referent that are actions. It is the actions that seem to be valuable, and yet in the metaphysical sense it is the love with which these actions are taken that is valuable, rather than the actions themselves. From the standpoint of spiritual work, it is the love with which you do or do not do or contemplate things that is your essence and your gift and, indeed, your vocation within the Earth plane.

The question today concerns anger and frustration which we feel for ourselves, and we would like Q’uo to tell us how we can use these feelings to lead us along the path towards compassion for ourselves. Is there hope that we can change ourselves, or should we concentrate on accepting ourselves with the anger and all? Q’uo began by saying that before we incarnated we chose to enter this sea of illusion in order to be able to exercise our faith because before we incarnated it was not necessary for us to call upon faith, for the truth was obvious to us. So, Q’uo said that we incarnated for the opportunity to live a life that was an anthem of faith and love because these pure emotions welled up within us, and we wanted to express them with purity. Q’uo went on to say that many souls wish to incarnate at this time of the planet’s movement into the fourth density, but the harvest is not going smoothly even though many souls are awakening to their spiritual identity and are ready to make the harvest. They said that with our open hearts we wish to be of service in love and faith to others in making the harvest and in increasing our polarity. Then Q’uo asked with all of this understood, why would we be feeling frustration and anger? They said that feeling anger towards our self is a way of expressing our desire to be better, and that this is a good way to balance our emotions, so they went on to say that letting our inspiration and love of service be the way that we can share our love with those around us. Then Q’uo said that any actions that we take without our love are not useful because it is the love with which we take actions or do not take actions that is our essence and our spiritual work within the Earth plane. On December 10, 2020, Q’uo described the part that love plays within our spiritual work:

Your own catalyst is that which is helpful to you. You need not take on the catalyst of the world around you. That can only be affected by doing your own inner spiritual work, using your catalyst as food for growth, becoming able to shine with the Light and Love of the One Infinite Creator, and then be able to move into the fourth density of love and understanding, hoping that your brothers and sisters upon the Earth will be able at some point to do the same with their own catalyst. For this is the great work. This is the spiritual journey. This is what all have come to do, and you can play your part as you have done so well.

And this is a difficult thing even to comprehend because of the enculturation, that work ethic that has come down from so many sources and is the lifeblood of your culture at this time. When entities meet each other, what do they ask in order to establish rapport? Very commonly they will ask, “What do you do?” Can you see how far from the heart such a question may take one, for when that is asked there is not even the general intention to ask what are your interests, for it is assumed that there will be an employment of some kind by which you identity and justify your existence. “I am a librarian. I am a teacher. I am a nurse. I am a researcher.” This is the way you are taught to relate to other souls. And yet each of you has a life within that is compelling, fascinating, fruitful, and active. Each of you has the dynamic tension between the various portions of self that have revealed themselves to you as you have done spiritual work. Realization after realization has come to you through the years concerning intimate and profound processes within the spiritual evolution which each of you is attempting with a full heart to accelerate, to cooperate with and to intensify.

The sharing of this level of self must usually be done completely without words. Rather, it is usually done simply by that quality of being with someone which the other senses cannot precisely articulate. Yet we know that each of you has those who come to you for counsel because they sense the presence of this inner life and because they trust that being that they sense without words. This is the heart of your gift. This is the heart of your incarnation. To be yourself. To meet the moment with yourself, your full, open, loving self. How infinitely difficult this is upon a daily basis. As the one known as R said, “If I forget to pay attention for just a moment, it all comes back, and I am back where I started, seeming to fight the difficulties of daily living.”

How infinitely delicate a job it is to move into your daily behavior with an eye to finding yourself and those gifts that lie deepest within your heart. When faced with what seems to be exigent and continuous demands for action from the outside world, we do not know a simple or foolproof way for you to move from those self-perceived frustrations into that deeper self within where love always remains. Each of you has an innermost heart where this is true. But how difficult it is to go there. How little your outer education has prepared you even to attempt to honor the being before the doing, the love before the action. If you demand of yourself that you only do those things which you can do with love, then you shall perhaps find yourself doing little until you get your feet under you. For it is true that the illusion of third density which you now enjoy is specifically designed to frustrate and baffle the intellect, to knock you off balance mentally and emotionally, to destroy safe and controlled places so that the journey of incarnation may more and more be undertaken from the heart.

We have many times recommended meditation. That still, small voice of silence that speaks in meditation is most eloquent. It is as though each of you has within you the Creator, that one great original Thought that created all that there is. That Love creates and destroys and is a principle that has created all of the manifested worlds. It is a difficult thing to find one’s way to the Creator within. Every energy of the illusion will attempt to distract your attention from that goal of moving into the heart.

Then Q’uo said that over many years of enculturation most people related to each other in ways that are focused upon what kind of job or work that they do whereas in spiritual work we all have deeper essences within us that have revealed themselves to us as we have done our spiritual work that has resulted in experiences of transformation which we are using our full heart to accelerate, to cooperate with, and to intensify. Q’uo went on to say that this type of sharing is not done with words but with our very being which is the heart of our gift to be ourself, and to meet the moment with our full, open, and loving self. Then Q’uo said that they didn’t know a way to tell us how to move from self-perceived frustrations into that deeper self within us where love may always be found because the illusion of third density is designed to frustrate and baffle the intellect, to knock us off of our balance mentally and emotionally so that our life’s journey may be undertaken from the heart. So, Q’uo recommended meditation to contact the Love of the Creator within us, and that is difficult to do because every facet of the illusion will attempt to distract our attention from our goal of moving into the heart. On December 18, 2005, Q’uo described the process of moving into the heart:

It is helpful to realize that moving into the heart is not an unalloyed and simple joy. It is a process that in its inception can create a great deal of difficulty for the student and the seeker. The difficulty of moving into the heart is that one must bring all of the self into the heart in order for that space to become truly sacred. Most seekers are quite astonished when they first enter their own hearts to discover that there is a real perceived problem with meeting one’s shadow side.

After all the work of realizing that we are spiritual beings has been done, after clearing issues of personalities, sexuality, survival, personal relationships, and all of the work that each entity is doing with groups, an entity that is seeking feels balanced and eager to enter that spacious holiness of the open heart.

Fortunately, there is that memory, that awareness that abides through all illusion, that star within, that presence within that each of you may forget often, but occasionally each has had the galvanizing and orienting experiencing of being at one with that heart of hearts, that Creator within. And just an instant of such a union gives the seeker a tremendous strength of conviction and a renewed desire to try again to persist in seeking that way of being that will most deeply satisfy the yearning to be of service that each feels so truly. We can reliably say that none of you grasped just how difficult it would be to express faith in such a heavy and convincing illusion. It is safe to say that each felt more confident before incarnation than now, within incarnation, feeling battered and travel-weary with the dust of the spiritual road. Yet, this road, dusty and in the desert so often, nevertheless feels right, and there is companionship upon this road as each meets others who have similar desires and yearn for similar service and learning.

And so, we say to each of you, you do have the power to alter your perceptions, to alter your state of mind. And yet, this is not a power that is expressed through intellect or through great works but, rather, through very small realizations that come again and again throughout the day as each, indeed, has noticed. The voice of Spirit seems to speak in so many ways to one who is listening, and the more one begins to attend to coincidences and synchronicities the more one begins to get a feeling of Spirit talking back to you, being that unseen companion that is willing to place within the consciousness alternate ways of being. This is work for the persistent, for, indeed, it is the work of the incarnation, not a work done in a day, or a year, or a decade, but rather that goal of self-awareness and self-choice that is as the star that each follows.

We are aware that, from the inside out, each may feel that she has perhaps failed or is failing on this day at this time in such and such a way. And yet this is only true within the illusion. The work in consciousness that each is doing is only tangential to the events to which you are conscious. And so, our best advice to those who wish to have ever more control of their own attitudes and feelings is to persist. Certainly, we encourage each to persist with humor, with grace, with style, with panache and verve, as Merv Griffin might say. But we say it is all right to be ungraceful. It is all right to be awkward, to be behind hand, to be half there and half not. This does not matter. What matters is that there is a continuation of simple attention and effort to be the best that you can, to do the best that you can, and then to let the devil take the hindmost, as this instrument would say.

What a wonderful gift it is to yourself simply to let it all go. And this is something that we would emphasize. Look at the way the intellect functions. It is a tool designed for making distinctions. You may say to yourself, “Thou shalt not judge,” but your intellect knows not how to do anything other. Consequently, no matter how much you are aware that you should not judge yourself, you will judge yourself, for that is the way the mind works. We can only encourage you not to take it too seriously, for it—that is, the mind, the intellect—is a portion of the illusion. The intellect is not the same as consciousness. You have consciousness as a being, as a citizen of eternity. You have an intellect as a function of the illusion. It is enough that you can separate consciousness from intellect in the abstract.

We are not suggesting that you spurn the intellect or cease using it. There is much within your incarnation that the intellect handles very, very well. We would not wish to rob you of that tool that you need to do those things that you do in order to be responsible for the self. We simply ask that you persist in remembering that the consciousness that you are is a mystery that contains deity, that ends in an identity betwixt you and the Creator of all that there is. This portion of yourself would overwhelm completely the incarnative illusion were the veil to lift even for a second. And this does occur with entities, often with disastrous results, within the illusion. But when you sense yourself moving into these negative processes, perhaps we might suggest that you could take just the moment to acknowledge that your consciousness is not a portion of this tangle but, rather, is an agent that remains free to be Love. Just allowing the breath to move in and the breath to move out while identifying with the consciousness that endures may bring fresh air into the muddle that life often seems to be.

Now Q’uo said that we have a deep remembering within us of being one with the Creator that we will occasionally experience that gives us the inspiration to continue our journey of seeking to serve others, even when the difficulty of living in the illusion of third density challenges our ability to use our faith, and then travel this dusty road in companionship and mutual support with other seekers. Then Q’uo said that each of us has the ability to alter our state of mind through the daily experiences of synchronicities and coincidences that are given to us by the Spirit that will continue to inspire us on our spiritual journey of expanding our self-awareness for the rest of our lives. Q’uo continued by saying that each of us will feel that we have failed to do our best from time to time, but that is only within this illusion, so they suggested that we should persist with humor and grace to do the best that we can. Q’uo went on to say that our minds will continue to judge us, but that they are a part of the illusion, and what matters most is that we have a consciousness that tells us that we are eternal beings that contain the mystery of the Creator, and that we should identify with this consciousness as the true nature of our being. On September 5, 2010, Carla gave a talk at our Homecoming Gathering where she said that we are eternal beings:

So, the Creator chose to know Itself. And we choose what? To know ourselves. We know that we are creatures of Love because, logically speaking, how can we be anything else? There’s nothing but Love. There’s nothing but the Logos. There’s nothing but the unconditional Love of the infinite Creator. And we who are infinite and eternal beings have come into these very limited bodies. Why? Because we are this incredible way-point between eternity and all the forces of eternity, and the here and the now and the present and the limited and this wonderful world we have come to experience.

As we said, this is indeed an interesting subject, and this instrument tells us that we have gone on too long discussing it. We apologize. We would at this time like to transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and in light and in thanks. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each of you again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time we would welcome any further queries which those present might have for us. Is there another query at this time?

R: It is well to examine what one does to see if it is done with love. If it is not done with love it is OK to let it go because of the potential for learning inherent in that letting go. Can you comment on that?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. To look at that which one has accomplished and to see if there was love contained in that moment is well, for this is the way in which one becomes familiar with the workings of the incarnation, shall we say. Whatever the amount or lack of love contained, it is well to accept the self for the effort made. For in the truth of the incarnation and the experience of each entity within the incarnation, each movement made is a step of the Creator and by the Creator in Its process of discovering Itself within your experience and of you discovering the Creator in your experience. That this journey might occasionally be uneven, filled with confusion and anger, is the inevitable product of forgetting the harmony of all that is and moving within the illusion that you now inhabit. To accept the self as it now is, is to bless this process of experience, of discovery, of movement not only towards love but a movement within love that has yet to be perceived. For all about you, my brother, is filled with love. When one is able to speak from love, one is able then also to speak to love. If it is necessary to stop the activity, retire to meditation, contemplation or prayer in order to find even the slightest iota of love within a situation that seems devoid of any possibility of love, this is well to do. However, we encourage you always to value the self, its activity, and the direction in which you move at all times.

Is there another query, my brother?

R: Not at this time. You answered my question in more ways than one, and it was very inspirational. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I feel confused about the being versus the doing. It seems like it’s worth something to do good works, and I think it’s really hard to order yourself so that you ask of yourself that you be loving before you ask of yourself that you be productive.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your confusion, my sister. The movement into productivity, as is so the custom of this illusion, is that movement which is more or less informed by love. If love is the foundation upon which you build the structure of your daily life of doing, then it is far more likely to contain the colorful and harmonious moments of inspiration as well as providing the framework for action. To move into action without the quality in some degree is to, shall we say, remove the color from the picture so that there is less variety and possibility for inspiration or synchronically for the movement in harmony with those about you. The quality of love is that which enhances the experience to the degree that that which you may call magic occurs, the changing of consciousness in an instant. The ingredient of love and its addition to your activities is that which allows the magic of the moment to occur, the rising of the bread of life, shall we say. The desire to serve is a good and valuable desire. The intention to be of service is that which stands on its own. To imbue it with love is to add to its efficacy. Thus, that which is called love and is so poorly understood by those within the illusion, by the very nature of the illusion is that which has the ability to change the consciousness of those expressing it and those about such an entity in an instant. Thus, it is that quality which heals, which informs, which makes whole that which has been broken, and is that which causes the service, the productivity, of an entity to be enhanced in such a way which is quite beyond the description of words, but which moves one’s being from, shall we say, the inside. Thus, one who has love is co-Creator and is able to share this quality with others.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Just a tangential one. I just noticed that we all seem to have a tremendous ability to encourage each other, not so much ourselves. It seems harder to love yourself. I guess that’s the way it is, huh?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. And, indeed, within this third-density illusion where so much is hidden from the consciousness of each entity within it, it is most helpful to have those about one who feel the quality of love for one that allows the free sharing of observations that may escape the entity itself while it is moving so diligently along the path of self-discovery, pushing the self to move ever more quickly and surely upon this pilgrim’s path. Thus, each reflects to the other the picture more objectively seen so that one may be informed by each other-self as to the qualities of the self that are quite full of love and deserving of love. Thus, each teaches each. It has been well said that those who of like mind together seek shall far more surely find.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No. I think that is very good. Each of us is good support for others.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as it appears that we have, for the nonce, exhausted the queries within this circle of seeking, we shall take this opportunity to thank each entity present for inviting our presence to your meditation this day. It is a great joy and honor for us to join you here. We remind each that each has a company of angels that joins you in your seeking and walks with you on your path. Retire, then, in meditation whenever possible that you might become more aware of all this host of angelic presences about you that support your every desire to seek and to serve and rejoices at every experience of love that you encounter. We shall take our leave of this instrument and this group at this time, leaving each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop at the Compound Pharmacy to pick up some meds for Benny. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I dropped off an order for a prescription and bought some Pepsi Zero and some Diet Coke.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 29

The Gaze Of Jesus Christ

I greet you, my children, in the Love of Christ. I am of the principle that vibrates in the consciousness of Jesus Christ to the degree that is comfortable to this instrument.

You shield yourself, again and again, from the fearsome gaze of Jesus Christ, for you fear that He gazes upon you from the cross to condemn you. And yet He gazes at you not in pain but, rather, resting upon a pillar of righteousness.

He looks upon you in all of your complexities and darkness and pierces the confusion with simplicity. For the Love of Christ is a simple and singular thing, a constant amidst a sea of seeming changes and shadows. The light of your mundane world shifts and confuses with glare and shade. But the Light of the Love of Jesus Christ is constant and pierces to the heart of your being and your circumstance, seeing the perfection and holiness that hides in the shadows. May you find peace in your shadows and see the shadows disappear in the constant Light of Love.

In that peace I leave you now and hope that you may remain forever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 1, 1998:

No group question today. Potluck.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We thank you for calling us to your circle this day, and we send you abundant blessings that cannot match the blessing that you give to us to meditate with you and share thoughts with you. As always, we ask that these words be taken as opinion and not facts, for we have thoughts and views but would not wish to be an authority. Rather, we ask that your authority be your own discrimination, for each of you does have these powers to know your own truth.

You have opened to us a vast array of things to speak about by requesting potluck. We would, however, find all possible threads of thought and concept harmonizing into information concerning Love. When we had not been so long among your peoples we offered less richly detailed information. At this point, we and your peoples have a long history of speaking together, and so we have found an increasing number of ways to talk about the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator. And yet that basic message remains utterly simply and infinitely profound to us. The simplicity of oneness, of Creator and created, the richness provided by Free Will which has showered the manifested universe with countless worlds, countless civilizations, and infinite motion, and energy, and thought. As you gaze up into the night sky and see the stars sprinkled like sand across the blackness of the ether know that there are more ways than you can see stars on the clearest night to speak of Love. And yet all speaking and manifestations end in one thing: that same Love that created all that there is.

This instrument finds turmoil within as she views the chasm that exists between the perceptions that some others have of her and perceptions that she has of herself. To the ones to whom she is offering a listening ear and the sharing of opinion she appears as a finished creature, and this instrument has had many fulsome compliments to satisfy her ego. And yet this instrument is not swayed by all of these opinions, for within the instrument’s own judgment, she holds herself unworthy. And we would point out that this will undoubtedly be true of each person, that each entity is both deeply flawed and utterly perfect. This is another seemingly contradictory situation, for how can one be both perfect and imperfect? And yet that is what each of you is. Within the illusion one may be seen to be both the giver and the taker, the wise one and the fool. And both estimates are correct. And in the end no estimate is correct, for there is within the illusion no substance of righteousness, no infinite quality. Each of you has the feeling of being in two worlds at once. The outer world of form, and kind, and sequence and the inner world of infinity and eternity. The citizenship that you hold as humans within incarnation is limited. The citizenship that each entity has within eternity is infinite.

The concept of infinity first fascinated this particular instrument at a very young age, for it was awakening within its infanthood. For most entities within this particular illusion, however, the awakening comes perhaps later in the teenage years or even beyond. Before waking up, though the illusion may give hints of its theatricality, it is, for the most part, entirely believable. However, once the seeker has awakened to the citizenship that it holds in eternity there is a reorientation of point of view that is profound. Further, it is as the chemical reaction that one cannot reverse. Once one has awakened, one must remain awake. Those who attempt to shut down those organs of perception within the metaphysical part of self find that it is now impossible to close the gate, for the point of view has shifted, and the creation has become new. We would encourage each of you to spend time feeling the newness of life, being aware of each beginning, each sunrise, each relationship, each project and hope, each dream and ambition. Allow the stale air of old opinion to be vented, released and allowed to fall away, for that which is needed this day is a creature of today and not the offspring of old thought.

We find within this instrument a strain of sadness, for she looks behind her at those companions that are no more: family, friends, mate. Banished from the illusion of time and space, disappearing from sight. And yet each of these entities seemingly lost is experiencing newness this day within the illusion that each of them enjoys this day. The one known as R was speaking of holding on to things. And letting go. There is that instinct to clasp to oneself that which one holds dear. Indeed, there is solid instinct and good reason behind that impulse to control one’s environment, and yet how can one control novelty? How can one discipline that which is as yet unexpressed? The fear which the one known as R spoke of which causes one to cling and to create the small space within which one huddles is an impulse of self-preservation, the self feeling that it must be defended. Yet, as a citizen of eternity, the entire creation which you presently enjoy is but a moment, a moment in which there is the opportunity to stand in the Light, to serve the Light, and to allow the Light to flow through. That Light which is new every day and every moment. As the autumn showers its leaves and creates the golden carpet that crunches and blows with the wind as one walks, this may seem to indicate the deadness of the season that is to come, and yet at this time as much as at any other all things are made new each day.

We give this instrument the image of a traveler. The traveler moves across the desert landscape gazing intently, even feverishly, for a source of water. At the same time this entity is, metaphysically speaking, in a world made of water, that which this instrument refers to as water consciousness. As a citizen of eternity, one may consider oneself cast upon the shore of an inhospitable environment, the desert land which offers learning opportunity for service and challenges that teach and create the potential for transformation. When you feel that you are truly in the desert, that all is dry and lifeless and without hope, we encourage you to practice knowing by faith the watery environment of the human spirit, for that which seems upon the surface to be dry, and dusty, and difficult is, in metaphysical terms, wondrous, a treasure, that which is to be prized, a canvas upon which to paint a self in Love with the beauty and the majesty of the infinite Creator. When the mouth is parched for something to drink, when the stomach grumbles for food, remember that you are a citizen of eternity and that you have meat and drink that the world does not know of. And allow the desert to become the ocean, life-giving and new with every tide.

No group question today. Potluck. Q’uo began by saying that all topics that they could speak upon were related to the Love and the Light of the one infinite Creator and especially to the Love of the Creator that had created infinite planets and civilizations within the universe through Its Free Will. Q’uo went on to say that Carla felt herself to be unworthy, which could be said of each of us, but that we are both unworthy and worthy as well as being the giver and the taker, the wise one and the fool. They said that we are actually living in two worlds: one of form and kind in the outer world and also the inner world of infinity and eternity. Q’uo continued by saying that when we wake up to the concept of infinity that the change within us is so profound that there is no going back to our previous point of view and instead, we should spend time: “feeling the newness of life, being aware of each beginning, each sunrise, each relationship, each project and hope, each dream and ambition. Allow the stale air of old opinion to be vented, released and allowed to fall away, for that which is needed this day is a creature of today and not the offspring of old thought.” Then Q’uo spoke of how it is so easy to want to hold on to friends, family, mates, and those things that we cherish within our environment and create a space of safety for our self, but as citizens of eternity we are living in the present moment where we can stand in the Light, serve the Light, and allow the Light to flow through us. Then Q’uo said that as citizens of eternity we are living in what seems like a desert but, metaphysically speaking, we are living in a world of water where the desert experience gives us the opportunity to learn how to be of service to others and to create the possibility of being transformed by the challenges that we face. Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that if we can exercise faith in what seems to be dry and difficult it is, in metaphysical terms, an opportunity to see ourselves as the beauty and the majesty of the Love of the infinite Creator. On July 29, 1984, Latwii spoke of how we can be transformed by the challenges we face:

Each seeker within your illusion moves within that which might be called the darkness. Nothing is known except perhaps that the seeker does exist and moves within certain boundaries, and these boundaries seem quite real. They are that which the seeker has made familiar through the thinking and the experience which are attempts to reflect the true heart of being, and to make the journey known in a conscious fashion.

These boundaries serve to focus the seeker for a portion of the journey, and when they have served their purpose there is the opportunity to release the boundaries, to bid farewell to that which has been familiar to the seeker. Many of your peoples call this transformation, and some such changing of the guard, shall we say, may be called initiation as well, for the old is given away and the new is born. These are new boundaries, my sister, but boundaries which are somewhat widened and offer more freedom. Yet, with the new-found freedom comes the first fear of taking new steps, for that which is new is not known, nor is it familiar, yet the seeker, full of the desire to move onward, will take that first step as the fool into space, and with faith and will exercised to the fullest ability will find firm ground on which to step, for that ground shall be a new portion of the seeker, and shall be that which awaits the formation first in, shall we say, desire or mind. The step is thought, and then it is taken, and it is taken because it is thought.

Thus, the journey continues within new boundaries, and the seeker once again moves forward for a portion of what you call time until those difficulties that are a result of the new bias mount to the point where a threshold of resistance, shall we say, is constructed, thereby providing the opportunity for yet another transformation, as what once was a new field of experience becomes too restrictive and must be replaced and transformed by a larger field of experience. The faith and the will are those tools which propel the seeker through such transformations. The rejoicing at such an opportunity is also a concomitant portion of the seeker’s own creation that is most helpful in this journey, and most especially during such transformations.

We would finish this transmission through the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo, and we would leave this instrument in love and in light. We transfer.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. We would ask if there may be further queries to which we may speak as this is our habit, to ask for additional queries after we have given the primary message. Is there another query for us at this time?

R: Would you speak to us of how to love the self for those who are on the service-to-others path? How to love yourself so that you do not gain power or control but to prepare yourself for service?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We find that the practice of the daily meditation in which one is able to review the experiences of the self is most helpful in coming to know, accept, and love this self. At the end of the day is the most efficacious time during which to conduct this review, for the day’s activities have made their mark, and the conscious mind is fresh in remembering the experiences which have moved the emotions from one aspect to another; that is, in both directions of the positive affirming emotions and the more judgmental and separative emotions where one has accepted or not accepted the self. To look upon the self in its activities in mediation is to experience that which the self has been able to manifest during the day, the fruits of the day, the fruits of the labors, shall we say. At this time one is able to allow the self to move as it did during the day and to see how one was able to accept or not able to accept the self during these movements. Then, after a period of sitting with the self and experiencing once again that which the self experienced, the entity is able to allow the full range of abilities of the self to express themselves in the meditative state.

That is a simplified form of the balancing exercises which this group is familiar with. The experience of the self, the ramifications of the experience and then the conscious desire and effort to accept the self for having each of these aspects available for the Creator to know Itself. It is within this meditative state that work may be done, whether this work is to accept the self, to know the self, or to simply sit in the silence with the self as a friend.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: You are saying that the work can be done efficiently by allowing and accepting and just sharing the experience at the end of the day during the meditation? No actual doing is required?

I am Q’uo, and the doing, my brother, is that which is accomplished in the daily round of activities in a spontaneous and natural fashion. This doing then is reviewed in the meditative state at the end of the day, and a conscious effort is made at this time to accept the self for its full range of expression, that which was not at first accepted or that which was accepted. However, the conscious effort to accept the self during the meditative state is that which is helpful in actually accepting the self.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: And so, we have a balance between being and doing. Right?

I am Q’uo, and this is so. Is there a further query?

R: No. Thank you. Thank you for the loving words during the first portion of this sitting.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and we are most grateful to each of you as well for inviting us to join you and to speak our humble words of experience, of inspiration, and of information. We are always glad to do so. We find that the energies within this group are somewhat low at this time. Therefore, it would be a propitious time for us to take our leave of this instrument and this group. As always, we leave each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and filled the bird feeder with bird seed. Then I went over to where the deer had knocked over the bird bath and put the lower base upright, filled it with the sand that spilled out of it, and then put the container that holds the water back in place on the top of it. Then I filled it with water and put small rocks under the base where they were needed to level the water container.

This afternoon I took Bosco to the vet where they applied cat caps to his rear claws that should keep him from continuing to cause wounds under his ears. He has been scratching those areas for about a month now, and we think it might be because he is allergic to the appetite enhancer that I rub on one ear each day. He took the pill form in greenie pouches for a while, but now he won’t eat them, and I think it is important that he gets the appetite enhancer in the ointment for his ears to keep him eating.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 28

Seek In All Places

Greetings in the consciousness of Christ. I am the Spirit of the consciousness of Christ in the vibration which comforts this instrument.

Many times it comes to each to move forward into the areas which have not been thought fruitful for contemplation. All areas of the transitory illusion which you call life are fruitful for considering, for all things are shot through with the illumination of the divine.

Very often it is in just those things which seem least fruitful that you will find the most efficient and conformable means of moving forward into a greater enlightenment in your search for the Light beyond Light, the Love beyond Love and the life beyond measure. Consider, therefore, and let nothing be beneath your notice. Rejoice in all circumstances of mind, body and spirit.

May the peace that Jesus came to bring, the peace that indwells all things, be perceived by you, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.