The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 18, 1998:

The question this week has to do with the changing seasons in our spiritual life. We all have desires as spiritual seekers to do a certain spiritual practice: to meditate more frequently, to live more peacefully, to be more aware of what we are doing. We have a lot of different desires that we would like to see fulfilled, but it takes us a lot of effort and a long time to make our desires into the rituals and patterns of our lives. As we go on for a while with a pattern, it seems that at some point we need to make a change and a choice, and our further spiritual growth has to do with making new patterns. A part of us dies and a part is reborn. Would Q’uo talk to us about how these changing seasons come about? We would like to work in harmony with them and to have a better understanding as to how change happens in our lives. Is it really due to our desires and to our efforts and to the past that comes before the change, or does the change come because it is time for it to come, and it comes no matter what?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. As always, we are most grateful that you have gathered in this circle of seeking and that you have called us to your group. We are honored and blessed, and we bless each of you and thank you for the privilege of being able to share our thoughts. We would ask that these thoughts and, indeed, all thoughts that come before you be subjected to your own powers of discrimination, for you truly shall feel the resonance of that truth that is your own and those resources that will be helpful to you. If that resonance is not there, we would encourage you to move on. For that sometimes very subtle resonance of recognition is a key to wending your way through an incarnation lived in your present third density with its heavy illusion. Much that occurs is not what it seems. Indeed, that is the very nature of illusion.

This day you ask us concerning changes, how to bend with the wind and turn to the sun, how to respond to those biddings and desires of the heart that are hopeful and delicate. The nature of the incarnational experience is change, upon change, upon change. And this you have seen again and again in your life already. There are many ways to look at the cycles that seem to influence the mind, the emotions, and so forth. There is the cycle of the adept, that this instrument keeps watch over to see when the strong and the weak times are for work in consciousness. There are the various rhythms, known to this instrument as biorhythms, which are very helpful in giving information to the person who wishes to know more about herself, when it would be a good time to do this, when it would not be a good time, and so forth.

There are the divisions of time that your culture has made, splitting the days into years and months and weeks so that there is a definite feeling about each day which is cultural rather than natural. Look at the work cycle, the Monday through Friday that so many among your peoples simply assume as the work week, not thinking that before the days were named they were all Sabbath days, one as holy as the next. The ways that change comes are sometimes natural and sometimes brought upon one by the culture in which one lives. The changes that are natural are the changes of an organism which is expressing a pattern. The natural run of energy from youth to maturity to the prime of life, to the middle and older ages: these are natural. There is, in any culture, a variety of ways for a person to think of herself as she goes through youth, and maturity, and old age. And although each entity will predictably have difficulties accepting the natural changes having to do with the physical vehicle and the energies of the physicality of the self, it is generally a relatively, as this instrument would say, doable thing to see where cooperation with nature will help. Perhaps in some entities who do not want to accept the passage of time, do not want to get old, do not want to look old, there are difficulties. But normally it is not at this level that the difficulties which are upon the minds of those within the circle this day come from.

The difficulties in changing that each of you is more aware of have to do, rather, with the process of desire in fulfillment that characterizes the life of, shall we say, the spiritual appetite. Once an entity has become aware of herself as a citizen of eternity there is no longer the simple feeling of content with accomplishing the necessary chores of the day. The actuality of spirit works upon the seeking entity encouraging the conceiving of desire to be ever more spiritually opening and transforming. It is difficult to talk about this process with those who are not themselves going through it, and once an entity has awakened to her spiritual identity it seems as though a portion of the population were simply asleep. It is a situation which can be alienating, isolating, and even fragmenting. For as the spiritual self emerges one becomes aware of the power of that energy that is within. One wishes to accommodate and encourage these stirrings of desire. And the appetite for transformation can become very keen.

There is a kind of pressure that one can put upon oneself to do more, to be better, to seek harder, to meditate more, to contemplate more, to hew to a practice of life that the intellect can see as the appropriate and desirable way of life that a person wishes sincerely to follow, never quite acknowledging the various promptings suggesting that perhaps it might be good to slow down, to take it easier. For the seeker intent upon the path, the process is experienced as harmonious and positive usually only when one sees oneself as conforming to those spiritual ambitions of more, and better, and deeper.

And yet, interestingly enough, often this continuing desire and continuing pressure from the self to do more, do it better, go deeper, and so forth does not satisfy; that is, the person does not fulfill those ambitions, does not meditate more, does not go deeper, and thusly the person is simply frustrated and irritated at the self for not conforming to those spiritual ambitions. This instrument has said several times that although it seems that spiritual evolution would be a process of addition, it seems many times in fact like a process of subtraction. And we would agree with this instrument in that often the bounty of deepened desire and that feeling of centeredness that spiritual ambition hopes for is contained not by adding activities or doing things different in some way that is measurable physically but, rather, in moving fully into the present moment and becoming able to take the bounty of that moment as it passes. For each moment is itself, whole and perfect. When one is in the moment, one is not in time. When one becomes even a bit aware of the timeless aspect of the moment there is an almost automatic resonance and a feeling of coming home. And this is accomplished not by adding more focus, or adding more attention, or finding better ways to meditate, but, rather, it is allowed by the seeker who relaxes into the magic of the timeless present moment. If you are within that present moment, you are in meditation, aware of who you are, aware of why you are here.

Many other things go out the window: where you are on planet Earth, what time it is, what you have to do in the world. This instrument can give you chapter and verse about being lost in the present moment, and yet this instrument does not give itself the credit it should have for the ability to get lost. For it is in that abandon, that relaxation into the utter present, that the amazing volume of spiritual information can come fully and completely.

The group question today was: “Would Q’uo talk to us about how these changing seasons come about? We would like to work in harmony with them and to have a better understanding as to how change happens in our lives. Is it really due to our desires and to our efforts and to the past that comes before the change, or does the change come because it is time for it to come, and it comes no matter what?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that the nature of our life is that of change of the heart, the mind, and the emotions, and there were cycles that affected changes in them such as the cycle of the adept and biorhythms. Q’uo continued by saying that some cycles of change are cultural such as days, weeks, and months and the work cycle, and some cycles are natural such as our growth from youth to maturity to the prime of life, to the middle and older ages. Then Q’uo said that one of the most significant changes that we can go through is awakening to our spiritual identity that makes us want to go beyond the daily chores and into the area of the transformation of the self, but it can cause a feeling of isolation and alienation when we see so many people who are still asleep to the spiritual nature of their being. They went on to say that our spiritual appetite for transformation can become so intense that we would be wise to slow down and take life a little easier, because if we continue to try to accelerate our rate of spiritual growth, and we don’t fulfill those ambitions by meditating more or going deeper, we can get frustrated and irritated at our self for not living up to those spiritual ambitions. Then Q’uo said that Carla often felt that spiritual evolution was a process of subtraction, and Q’uo agreed that this can be accomplished by moving fully into the present moment and becoming able to: “take the bounty of that moment as it passes. For each moment is itself, whole and perfect. When one is in the moment, one is not in time. When one becomes even a bit aware of the timeless aspect of the moment there is an almost automatic resonance and a feeling of coming home.” They said that if we are in the present moment, we are in the state of meditation and we know who we are and why we are here. On May 7, 2000, Q’uo described the nature of the present moment:

By that statement we mean to say that each moment contains not only Love but perfection. If one were to investigate all of the energies that have added themselves into that time period which you call the present moment, and if you were able to investigate your own experience leading up to that moment, any such moment would offer you the opportunity of making contact with the one Creator, of experiencing the full presence of the one Creator. Thus, the use of catalyst is the variable which offers to each entity more or less of this opportunity to realize the perfection and the Love contained in each moment. Thus, if one is able to fully utilize the catalyst that is presented to one, at any time that one is able to do this the doors to infinity open for you.

We are not suggesting in any way that it is no longer a good idea to meditate, or to ask yourself to meditate. We always encourage spiritual seekers to that activity, for it truly is a powerful, powerful tool. But a little meditation goes a long way, and it is possible that when the seeker does not find itself able to meditate regularly that the seeker may need to ask herself what it is that seems to be changing so quickly that is actually stuck. For many times the wisdom of the self pulls the self away from meditation because the organism instinctively is aware that it cannot handle more change right now. For that is what meditation actually offers, an enhanced vulnerability to change. Perhaps for those who are having difficulty in setting up daily meditation schedules that would be one concern: what issues am I stuck on?

Another question that the seeker may ask herself when it does not seem possible to get a good schedule going is, “How am I not conforming to the needs of my bodily organism?” This group earlier was speaking of the ways that the culture gets us up and shoots us out into jobs and drops us off in the twilight to watch television until too late, and that this scheduling is not conducive to the natural way of life. This is certainly food we would recommend for your thought. How can you better treat the physical vehicle that carries you through the incarnation? Are there ways in which you could be kinder to the body that carries your consciousness about? Are there ways creatively to adjust when you do things and how you do the things that you need to do so as to bring them more in line with a natural or flowing rhythm?

For many the only time that is truly theirs is that first block of time upon opening the eyes when one wakes up. And it is for this reason that many plan for meditation time the first thing in the morning. And, indeed, that is a natural and deeply resonant time for spiritual work in terms of the energies of your physical body and the energies of your being as a totality. However, any point during the day that seems to be more appropriate is just as highly recommended by us, for the important thing is not to do it a certain way but to have that point in the schedule where there is a formal return to the center of the soul. We encourage you to play with your schedule, to have fun with it, to vary the ways in which you meditate, to bend those stiff necks that say it should be done this way. And play the music of ragtime where anything goes in your head, and find new ways, new times, new practices, if you are unsatisfied on a continuing basis with those that you have now.

More than anything else we could offer, we would simply offer the thought that most spiritual seekers have a tendency to become heavy with their seeking. And certainly, that which penetrates to the very heart of self is a weight, a gravity of importance, and yet it is also dancing in the wind, light as a feather. So more than anything else we do encourage the light touch, the forgiving judgment of self, not because you no longer care to do a good job of attempting to aid your own spiritual evolution, but because you trust yourself to be doing all that you can. We ask you each to be gentle with yourselves, for you have hungered and thirsted after the truth, and that truth has led you on a merry chase and continues to disappear into the mystery. All that you learn seems only to move you into a point into which all dissolves into mystery. To our knowledge, this is a continuing experience, one we share with you.

But while you have the gift of time and space, while you have the illusion of sequence and accomplishment, we encourage you to treasure it, seek to honor it, but do so with a light heart and a conscience free of what this instrument would call the “shouldacouldawouldas.” Whatever it is that you felt to do this day, that was the right thing for you. Whatever you shall feel tomorrow, that shall be the right thing then, and you will be inspired. You will become aware by and of those things that are there for you to see. And if you do not see one, another shall come soon. So, while you are watching and learning and attempting always to seek along the path as best as you can, relax in the knowledge that there is an unseen hand guiding and taking care that nothing that you need is lost. If you miss one experience you shall have an equivalent. That which you need will come to you. And beyond all the questions of “When should I meditate?” or “How long should I meditate?”, we encourage you always to focus on the present, on what is happening at this very moment and on Love, for beyond all telling you are Love. And you came to bear witness to that Love. And you are here, and this is a very precious time for each of you.

Lay your concerns down. Relax into this present moment. See the Earth grow small and disappear. See the solar system becoming a thing of stars. Move further and further into the infinity of creation and yet you still are you, and this is still the present moment. And you are safe. Love reflected in Love.

Then Q’uo said that even though they always recommend the benefits of meditation, sometimes it might be wise to meditate a little less because our body might not be able to withstand more change, and we might need to change our meditation schedule. So, Q’uo asked how we could be more considerate of our body’s needs? Then they suggested that meditating after we get out of bed in the morning might be a good way to allow the body to meditate when it is full of energy, or we just simply look at the schedule of our day and be creative about when to take a little time to meditate and return to the center of our soul. They went on to say that many seekers take their spiritual journeys too seriously, so they encouraged us to use the light touch, to be forgiving of ourselves, because we have been seeking the truth, and the truth has led us on a merry chase as it continues to disappear into mystery. They went on to suggest that we should continue our seeking by using the light heart, avoiding the rigid schedule, and to do what feels right to do each day in the knowledge that we are being guided by unseen hands. They suggested that we use meditation to remain in the present moment where we are safe, and the nature of our being, which is Love, is reflected in Love. On September 13, 1981, Hatonn described how the nature of our being was similar to the nature of their being:

What one may not purchase for any price from outside oneself is the knowledge of why things are as they are, why we are here, and what is the nature of our being. To look in the mirror is to see an infinitely small part of the creation. This, my friends, is to the best of our knowledge, a creation made entirely of Love. As you view yourself, you may see a tiny portion of an infinite Love and yet, within that image in the mirror, there lie depths through which you may only see given a great deal of desire, time, and discipline, for that which you seek within yourself, that which is the true heart of Love, is locked within you like a seed within the earth or a babe in the womb, and it is through quietness, confidence, and meditation that you may let this plan germinate, this babe be born. This entity is that part of yourself that is more fully the original Thought of the Creator—the original Thought of Love.

We would speak further through the instrument known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. We would offer ourselves at this time to the speaking to further queries if there are any remaining upon the minds of those present. Is there a further query at this time?

Carla: Is there any difference in meditating with a candle with the eyes open and meditating with the eyes shut?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The use of the candle is most helpful for those who are beginning the practice of focusing the concentration with the hope of entering into the meditative state during which time the experience is continually focused upon one concept, one thought, or simply the absence of thought or concept. The one-pointed mind is the desired product of the focusing upon the candle. As an entity becomes more familiar with the process of entraining the mind to focus in this unified manner such devices as the candle or the mantra become less necessary. Thus, we would leave it to the entity to determine whether or not the use of the candle or other devices would be helpful in its meditative practice. As we mentioned before, to those who are less practiced, these aids are helpful.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Here’s another question. Say you are having trouble getting yourself to meditate the first thing in the morning, but you are too tired at the end of the day. Are there ways that you can meditate tired?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To the entity who must choose between meditating when it is tired or not meditating, we would recommend the meditation when tired, for the meditation then will become the avenue through which the needed sleep may be expressed. The travel to the state of sleep, however, will be helpful in that the entity will be engaging in the practice of focusing its attention upon one point. There will eventually come, for the entity, the ability to remain awake and alert within the meditative state. That shall endure for as long as the entity wishes before it then desires to enter sleep. For those who wish to begin the practice of meditation we recommend the use of any portion of the day which offers itself most beneficially for the regularity of the practice, even if only for the moment or two. As the entity finds a quiet solidarity moment then it may engage in the focus of the mind for as long as time allows. Each effort spent in practicing meditation builds the momentum for the next and so forth until there is a regularization of behavior in this regard; that is, the establishing of the meditative practice.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Is it possible that if you went to sleep while meditating that your dreams would be clearer?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Indeed, it is possible, especially if the desire of the meditator is that such be so. The suggestion given to the subconscious mind within the meditative state is far stronger than the suggestion given in the conscious state. Thus, the entity may program, shall we say, the clarity and the subject matter of the dream.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

R: I have a question about feeling various amounts of energy in my body during the month. I have noticed that when there is a full moon I don’t seem to need much sleep, and it’s difficult to fall asleep, and at other times it is the opposite. Is energy more available at some times more than at others?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We believe that we grasp your query and would respond by saying that, indeed, the mind/body/spirit complex and its emotional attachment is a series of energy patterns which move in a rhythmic fashion, as does all of the creation. As these patterns of energy blend and intertwine each with the other, and with the rhythms of the planetary entity itself, there are those opportunities that are presented as energies harmonize, one with another, that will allow the entity to be able to express more of these energies and to feel the movement of these energies through its vehicle: the mind, the body, and the spirit, as well as the emotional aspect that responds to and energizes the entity in its movement in the daily round of activities. Thus, there are the biorhythms, that you have mentioned, that can be charted and there are those subtler energies which are not currently able to be charted within your third-density illusion, but which also add their influence to those energies which can be charted.

Is there another query, my brother?

R: Not on this topic. Of all the questions that I have asked over time I have always seemed to be asking how to do things. Why is that? Being rather than doing?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The asking of an inspirational source as to the means of doing is perhaps a paradox, as you have discovered within your own thinking. However, within the third-density illusion the means of existing are composed of a series of those things which are done within the outer illusion. As one begins to penetrate the nature of, not only the third-density illusion, but of one’s own being and purpose within the illusion, there becomes a more finely honed focus upon how one may be. Yet the transition to being is often made with the concept of how to do that which is necessary to be. This is a transition which is natural for each entity within the third-density illusion, for there must be, within the logical mind, a bridge between doing and being. At some point the seeker will discover that there is a greater Self which is always able to be, and which lovingly welcomes home the pilgrim which has done much upon his journey of seeking. And one of its greatest efforts is to return home within the mind of the self so that there is the recognition of that which always has been and always will be by the one who does much and seeks its own being. Is there a further query, my brother?

R: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as it appears that we have, for the nonce, exhausted the queries for this session of working we would again thank each present for inviting us to join you this day. We are always filled with joy at the opportunity of blending our vibrations with yours. We walk with each most closely and joyfully at this time. We shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning Anna and I listened to Carla channel Ra in Session #55 where Ra spoke about our fifth density negative friend conducting psychic attacks on Carla, Orion contact with negative entities on Earth, and the use of the Great Pyramid for healing and initiation. Then we decided to take a walk in the 100 acres of land with trees and a creek that are part of gift of land from Papa John. After that we went shopping for food at Paul’s Fruit Market.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 27

Eternity And Unity

I am the divine spirit of the love of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in full consciousness.

The entirety of the world is broken up again and again in memory. All the theories of wholeness and entirety created by the minds of men break up and disintegrate faced with eternity.

Indeed, mankind is like the dead leaf upon the scintillating, fast-moving tide of the river which empties into the sea, a frail barque filled with death, too dry and brittle to accept the living waters of the thought of eternity, the thought of unity. Yet it is in this circumstance that Jesus the Christ stands ready, healing, giving new life, changing the dead into new and transformed existence.

May you be as trees planted by the water, not as the leaves which fall from those trees, seeking in dead intellect the spirit of truth.

We leave you in the peace of the full consciousness of love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 4, 1998:

We would like Q’uo to give us information as to how we can determine what our true heart’s desire is, that which is more central to the evolution of our soul rather than what we think we want as we go through our daily lives. We are wondering what you can tell us about determining and discovering what our true desire is.

(Carla channeling)

I am of those known to you as the principle of Q’uo. We greet you in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose service we are. We bless and thank you for calling us to your circle on this autumn day. The creation of your illusion is most beautiful at this harvest time of year, and we have enjoyed the glimpses that are within your minds of the beauty of these past days. Truly, yours is a lovely plane of illusion, and we greatly enjoy blending our vibrations with yours at this time. As always, we would ask that you listen to our words, not as words of authority, but as opinion from fellow pilgrims along a dusty road. It is often that those who walk upon this road may be the hands and the voice of the Creator for others upon that road also. For each of you is most definitely a receiver and transmitter of energy.

You ask this afternoon concerning energy, for that is the very heart of desire. The energy of desire fills the universe in which each entity lives for that entity. The human body takes a certain kind of nourishment, craves a certain kind of liquid to quench the thirst of activity and work done. And just so the desires of the heart, both those known and those unknown, have tremendous power to shape circumstance in order that opportunities might be offered to learn more concerning those desires.

Let us talk for a moment about desire and energy. When we speak to you using this instrument’s voice, the sound you are hearing is a vibratory energy. The bodies which you enjoy the use of during this experience are made of overlapping and cooperating fields of energy. As a unique citizen of eternity, you have a core vibration which is a distortion of the great original Thought which is Love. Each of you distorts that core vibration of Love in such and such a way, creating for yourselves a signature that is as unmistakable as the name and certainly more rich in information offered about the self in comparison to the naming. So, your very nature is vibration and, indeed, the nature of all manifest and created things is energetic. All things are vibratory energy fields.

Those upon your level appear solid and real, and yet they are tremendously vulnerable to that entity who knows the higher road, who is able to work with that level of self which overarches the current incarnation. And as each of you has evolved you have had these times of realization of the great effect which your desires can have upon experience itself, and as this instrument is often known to say, you must be careful of what you desire for you will get it. For this is the nature of this experience. The whole human nature is geared towards the satisfying of desires. The heritage from your second-density body is a heritage of instinct to breathe, to eat, to procreate, and to survive. These are instinctual desires, but no more powerful than the desires that your consciousness had as it evolves.

Now let us look at how entities desire, how they may go about determining what their desire truly is. On the surface level, on that level which most entities of your density skate upon, not knowing that there is a universe under that skin of ice which is full of life, and water, and magic, desire is a very plain and simple thing: when the personality says, “I want this.” The response is according to its personality: the acquisitive person shall go and get that which is desired straight away and figure out how to pay for it later; the more chary conserver of the nest-egg will take the same desire but will carefully set aside that energy that is needed to achieve the desire. For most of those walking upon the skin of life and not into the ocean of it, the desires are fairly simple and are in the physical world. But something happens which turns the surface skater into a swimmer that can swim to the depths. A spiritual awakening occurs as surely as an alarm clock goes off, and it is time to wake up. And, as each has found in this process of awakening to the metaphysical side of life, the desires of the heart become much more complicated and much less easy to satisfy. Yet in the way of enculturated humankind, it is not unusual to see quite consciously aware entities still approaching the method of achieving desire in the same materialistic way that an entity would save up money to go see a certain movie, or to buy a certain product, or to get, as this instrument is so fond of getting, a new change of clothes.

And the desires of the heart are not commodities. Indeed, the desires of the heart are constantly in evolution just as your whole vibrator nexus of being is constantly in the process of becoming more of that which you truly are. This would seem to be difficult news to bear, for truly we do wish to satisfy our desires, once they are known.

The group question for this session was: “We would like Q’uo to give us information as to how we can determine what our true heart’s desire is, that which is more central to the evolution of our soul rather than what we think we want as we go through our daily lives. We are wondering what you can tell us about determining and discovering what our true desire is.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that energy is the heart of desire, and the desires of the heart, both those known and unknown, have the ability to shape our experiences in order that opportunities might be offered to us to learn more concerning our desires. Q’uo continued by saying that we are unique citizens of eternity, and that we have a core vibration which is a distortion of the great original Thought of Love. They said that we distort this core vibration of Love in a way that is more detailed than our name, and our true nature is energetic since we are part of the universe where all things are energetic. Q’uo went on to say that it is our human nature to satisfy desires, and it is our desires that can determine the experiences that we have, and the desires of most people are fairly simple and are in the physical world. Then Q’uo said that at some point we will wake up to our spiritual journey and discover the deeper desires of our heart are not so easy to determine or to achieve because they are constantly changing as we discover more of who we truly are. On November 22, 1992, Q’uo described how we can discover our deeper desires:

However, the higher subconscious and conscious mind are involved in all mergings of these deeper desires and emotions with the moment-by-moment transient mind of new actual experience which is being observed by the entity which you are.

Therefore, we first ask your attention be drawn to the situation whereby most of the feelings which run through the stream of consciousness are dealing with the surface of the passing experience and observations which enable you to use, to control, and to shape the passing experience in a manner which conforms to your preferences. However, like deep melodies which surface again and again, those deeper energies excited and born from the entrance into the conscious mind, of fated or destined persons or events, cause the experience being overtaken by these deep desires which then move into a position of dominance in the mind, and which then color for a period of time the passing experience with the deep tapestries of emotions and desires which you have created for this incarnational experience in order to learn the lessons of love which can only be taught by moving through the catalyst of entities or events processing themselves through the day-to-day experience.

But because life for the seeker has become metaphysical, not to the exclusion of physicality but in the sense that the metaphysical universe is known to overarch and to order the manifested illusion, it would indeed seem that there may be better ways of approaching the question of what does one desire than simply to take the opinion off the top of the consciousness and start to try to figure out ways of achieving this conceived desire. And indeed, there are. Moving into a more skillful way of examining self and the self’s milieu is quite possible and not particularly difficult for the one who is moving to be silent and to allow unknowing to remain as it is until it will change. Let us think along the lines of computers for a moment as we often find that such an allegorical comparison is helpful when talking about the structure of the mind or the structure of consciousness. In the software of the computer there are bells and whistles to help you do that which you wish to do upon the computer, but they are not all of the same level. And hidden in many programs are many powerful subprograms that are not seen by the casual observer and are simply ignored with that ignorance that is bliss. They know not that deeper programs exist, and they know not what use they would be. They are still skating on the surface. They are still asleep. And each of you as seekers have plunged into those infinite waters of consciousness and you have become aware of those deep voices within the mind, those presences, those principles that are personal and yet impersonal, that are the self and yet the oversoul of the self. And in the silence you can put the question: “What do I truly desire?” and then you can listen. Listening to that graceful and yet muscular silence is a discipline of the personality that will never disappoint the persistent listener. Simply allowing the distortions of the moment, the confusions of the day to slip away can put one into the heart’s sanctum sanctorum, that inner sacristy of silence and prayer where the Creator waits infinitely and patiently. The Creator awaits each of you within your own heart, within that deep silence that is within that room within the heart, for truly the holy of holies is within you, and within you are not only all of the instructions for this life and for this period of learning but, indeed, all of the instructions whatsoever for the you that you are before time was.

There is no end to that which can be sensed by one who is willing to stop and listen and remain without impulse. This instrument is very fond of an old Irish poem, the last verse of which is, “The peace of God it is no peace but strife closed within the sod, so brothers let us pray for one thing, the marvelous peace of God.” As you activate this holy of holies within, as you tabernacle with that great Logos which has created all that there is, you free from your deeper self and allow to move into conscious experience that self that is truly surrendered to service, to the service of the one infinite Creator, to the service of learning, and expanding, and evolving that you have committed yourself to in a personal way during this incarnation. Wewould not wish to do your work for you. We cannot make choices for you, but we can encourage each to seek for herself an ever-deepening awareness of desire. For we feel that each will find that as he moves into that frame of mind that offers a different vantage point on the concerns of the day that in truth each desire that has seemed to have been thwarted has, in fact, simply not been an opportunity that was part of destiny. And why would this occur? Why would the entity desire, and desire and try, and try to achieve that desire and feel so completely failed when the attempts do not work?

Itis because there is this assumption that desire equals the need to fulfill the desire. As before, we would say to a person skating upon the surface of life this is a logical and useful attitude. To those wishing to live a life in faith and service the attitude simply does not encompass the experience that you have set up for yourself as a seeker. Does this then mean that as one has awakened to one’s metaphysical identity one ceases to be able to achieve that which one desires? We cannot answer this for you, for some have a very clear idea of the deeper desires and others perhaps not as clear an understanding of their deeper desires. When you reach the bottom of the personal life, the incarnational mind, you find that the universe within is created as though for the first time in such a way that you have connections into the impersonal and Creator-filled realms that guide events within this realm. When you come to the end of your human ability to reason and to understand, you will come to a point of surrender, and this point of surrender is a peak. Working with the personality to see into the deeper energies of the self, you open and enable for yourself the underlying desire that feeds all of life. This level of desire is that which wounds in the flower, that which springs from the smile; or from the eyes. Each time you are able to get to the bottom of desire you will find that the base of that desire is the desire to cooperate faithfully and persistently with the destiny that has brought you all which you have so far enjoyed. At the back end of that great long train of desires you will find a little gay caboose that says, “I surrender. Not my will, but Thine.”

Perhaps this is bad news for those who wish to affect their lives in such and such a way. But we believe this to be the way things are in the metaphysical realm, for in that realm thoughts are things. Intentions of actions and desire is turned upon its head, blending for the citizen of eternity the desires of the self and the desires of the Creator, and as these two come slowly into synchronization, destiny becomes fluid, and one finds oneself more and more easily able to pierce the illusions of desire to move into that heart which desires completely one thing: the opportunity to love and be loved, to have consciousness, to breathe in and to breathe out, and all else will be as it will be.

One last thought concerning desire. The one known as Ken Keyes has done a good deal of work in looking at desire, and this instrument has a good opinion of that which this author says, which is this: that desires in and of themselves are neither bad nor good; they simply are things which create a bias. If one moves too far along that route of desire, the bias becomes an addiction. So, in many ways, the managing of the too rambunctious desires of the somewhat less evolved person may be seen to be of an addictive quality. The feeling is, “If I have this, I will be all right. If I do not have this, I shall not be all right.” This author then encourages the addict to downgrade that addiction to preference. One can say, “I prefer that this thing happen in this way, but I am not addicted to it. It is not necessary.” This too, in its own way, is a key, for when you look at desire with the conscious mind it is difficult to see what that energy is. But you will find that there are addictions in the personality just as there are in eating foodstuffs, and certainly life becomes a more, shall we say, comfortable illusion when one is able to see clearly one’s preferences and yet have the center quality of balance that allows one to surrender.

Now Q’uo said that there may be better ways to determine what we desire than looking at the first thought that comes to our mind, such as examining the nature of our self, becoming silent, and allowing our unknowing to remain as it is until it changes on its own. They said that as seekers we have dived into our infinite waters of consciousness, and we have become aware of deep voices within our mind that are both personal and impersonal, that are our self and also our oversoul, and then we can ask: “What do I truly desire?” And then we can listen. They went on to say that when we allow the distortions and confusions of the day to slip away, we can enter into our heart’s inner sanctuary of silence and prayer where the Creator waits infinitely and patiently for us, for truly the holy of holies is within us. Then Q’uo said that as we tabernacle with that great Logos which has created all that there is, our deeper self moves into a conscious experience that is given in service to the one infinite Creator, to the service of learning, expanding, and evolving that we have committed ourself to in a personal way during this incarnation. Q’uo encouraged us to seek an ever-deepening awareness of our desires to get a different view of our desires that have been halted and have not become a part of our destiny, so Q’uo asked if this meant that as we awaken spiritually that we cannot achieve our desires? They said that they could not answer this question for us because some of us have a clearer idea of our deeper desires than others have, and when we reach the bottom, or spiritual essence, of our personal life we find that our universe has been created for the first time that reveals connections to the realms of the Creator that guide our experiences in this life. Then Q’uo said that as we reach the end of our ability to reason, we will come to the time to surrender–which is a peak experience—and this gives us the desire to cooperate faithfully with our destiny that has brought us all which we have enjoyed, and now we say: ““I surrender. Not my will, but Thine.” They went on to say that in the metaphysical realms thoughts are things, and our desires are turned around until our desires and the desires of the Creator come slowly into synchronization; our destiny becomes fluid; and we find our self more able to pierce our illusion of desire to move into our heart that desires one thing: “the opportunity to love and be loved, to have consciousness, to breathe in and to breathe out, and all else will be as it will be.” Then Q’uo shared the thoughts of Ken Keyes that desires are neither good nor bad but simply biases, but if they are taken too far, they can become addictions so that instead of saying that: “We need this to be happy” we should consider saying that: “We prefer to have this, but it is not necessary to have it.”  Q’uo completed their response by saying that: “there are addictions in the personality just as there are in eating foodstuffs, and certainly life becomes a more, shall we say, comfortable illusion when one is able to see clearly one’s preferences and yet have the center quality of balance that allows one to surrender.” On March 21, 1999, Q’uo described the desires of the heart:

Since the nature of deity or Godhead resides completely within Love and the desire to know the dimensions of that Love, it is only suitable and appropriate that each soul that awakens to its spiritual identity becomes aware of itself as a creature of desire. As the one known as R said earlier in this discussion, “I thought that I was on a high spiritual plane only to discover that I still have many, many desires.” May we say to each of you that you shall never find yourself lacking in desires. This is the nature of your being. It is the nature of space and time which creates dimensions in which you may follow your desires. So it is entirely appropriate that each of you has desires and that each of you works within the self in consciousness to know better the desires of the heart, to refine the desires of the heart, and to discipline the personality that would go forth into the world that it may have the armor of light, that it may have the resources which it needs in order to remain aware to an increasing extent of the patterns and ramifications of the desires of the heart.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument and leave it in love and in light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present might have for us. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: For several years I have said that I want to write a book about wanderers for wanderers, but [my] time keeps getting caught up in so many other wonderful things to do. I would appreciate your thoughts. This is obviously something I am not addicted to, but I would prefer to finish this book sometime before I leave this incarnation. Any comments on that, Q’uo?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. And it is our desire to be service in our response without infringing upon the Way of Confusion, that is, upon your free will choices. For there are, indeed, many possibilities which present themselves at this time to your attention for the fulfilling as a means of being of service. That which you have found yourself doing is the reaching out to those who reach first to you, offering advice and opinions much as do we when this circle of seeking has called us as you have called us this day. We would remind you, my sister, that the ability to serve one is the ability to serve all, and there is, in our humble opinion, no necessity for concern upon your part as to how you shall serve, for service and its opportunities shall continue to present themselves to you. You are in the position of being able to choose how you wish to refine, or indeed how you wish to present, your service to those who would seek your advice, your opinion, your suggestion.

If it is indeed your heart’s desire that you write the book for wanderers, then you will find a way for this to be accomplished, as you have done so in the past with other projects of the nature of the book. However, if you find that there are other ways in which you wish to serve, these also may be explored without any feeling of that which “must be done,” for, as we are familiar with it, there is the saying from the one known to this instrument as John Lennon that, “Life is what happens to you while you are busy making other plans,” and this is indeed true for most entities who seek to be of service. The seeking to serve [is that] which is of primary importance. It is that which draws to you opportunities to serve. The opportunity which you choose, the avenue which you go down, is that which is right for you, for you have chosen it, and it has chosen you.

We realize that we have not added a great deal of insight to your understanding of this situation, but we wish to remain within the bounds of free will in our response.

Is there any further query, my sister?

Carla: No. I appreciate your not wanting to infringe upon free will, and I wouldn’t want you to either. I appreciate what you said, and I think it is in my nature to write to one person who is asking the question, and put my whole heart into that, than to sit down and write for the unknown people who would read my book. I know that if I gathered up all that I have written to various wanderers I would have a book. So I guess I can rest easy. Do you have any comment?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query and would simply respond by suggesting that to serve one is to serve all.

Carla: Thank you. That gives me peace.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

A: How does one distinguish between answers that come from the higher self without filtering from the ego?

I am Q’uo, and believe that we understand your query, my brother. The messages that one receives in the meditative state, the prayerful state, the contemplative state, the inspiration that strikes one in the midst of the day, these sources and means of receiving information may be examined again in the meditative state for the depth of purity. For there is within each entity the tree of mind, which moves ever more deeply to make contact with the deepest resources available to one. Whether this is the higher self, the guide, the teacher, or whatever source of inspiration one has sought, it is within the meditative state that one determines the relative purity of or use for this information. For there is within your illusion no clear and certain means to know at each communication what is, shall we say, flavored with the interpretation of what you have called the ego and what we would call the personality structure. Indeed, in some instances it is helpful for this flavoring to occur, for it aids the entity in moving in such and such a fashion. When there is the necessity for a message to be imparted with relative purity one may trust and have faith that this will be done by that source which one seeks, be it the higher self or other sources, and that one may look at this information when it is perceived—in the meditative state—and determine that this is from the higher self.

There are opportunities for each entity to feel that information is more or less helpful according to the origination, the source of the information. We encourage each seeker of truth to use a healthy dose of discrimination on whatever information comes before your notice. We would further add that we would also suggest that all information that comes before one has a value to the entity that notices it. Whether this value is to take the information literally or whether to interpret it with the flavor of the personality structure, is for each entity to determine. For, indeed, all that speaks to one is the one Creator. Each message can have value if followed to its ultimate source. All information can be helpful, and all information can be discriminated, can be evaluated by means of the meditation, the contemplation, and the prayer.

Again, my brother, we realize that we have not biased you in one way or another or given a technique by which information may be discarded or retained unerringly. This is always within the bounds of one’s free will. We wish both to emphasize the value of discrimination and the value of the many voices of the one Creator about each seeker of truth.

Is there a further query, my brother?

A: Is it reasonable for me to ask over the last few years what [is the] percentile of accuracy of determining my higher self’s messages to me?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. And we must refrain from giving such a percentile, for we do not wish to seem to judge, and we are aware that each seeker such as yourself must needs make these choices for himself or herself. We again would reiterate that it is as important for each seeker to determine the framework for seeking, that upon which it shall build its metaphysical personality, as it is for a seeker to receive information from any source other than itself that might aid in the building of this structure. What we mean to say here is that your choices, made with consideration, with love, with consideration for the harmony and unity of all things, these choices are as important to you as any information you shall receive. How you choose, what you choose… you can construct the basic foundation out of the desire to know the truth and the faith that it will come to you as certainly as can any structure be builded by any discarnate entity with information to share.

Is there any further query, my brother?

A: No.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my brother. Is there any other query at this time?

R: I just want to thank you for the inspiration such as you provide. I find it very useful. I guess it’s my desire to say it again.

I am Q’uo, and we appreciate your heartfelt sentiments, my brother. We seek to serve those such as yourself and those in this circle of seeking in the most helpful way that we can. As you discussed previous to this session, the desire to serve is that which propels entities who wish to seek the light and the love of the one Creator. The means by which the service is rendered is not often easily determined and is, indeed, a delicate process, one which challenges the imagination of all true seekers.

Is there another query at this time?

A: One more. When one is at a higher level of consciousness, as opposed to those of us in third density, the third-density person must operate without clear sight. Can we still give advice in this condition and not get carried away with error? How are we doing?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Again, we would remind each that there are no mistakes for any portion of the one Creator which seeks its source and its unity with all. There is in this illusion that you now inhabit the great desire to seek, to love, and to be loved, for this is the lesson before you. The ability to know whether or not one has served well is not a portion of this illusion, for it is that which partakes of wisdom. In this illusion one cannot know anything for certain. One can seek. One can desire. One can build the framework, the foundation for the metaphysical self, and build this foundation securely without knowing anything in detail or in particular. For there is in this illusion the great interplay and interchange of energies as each relates in one form of relationship to each other entity within the illusion. The many steps forward, backward, sideways, missteps, bumped feelings and knees, all of this great cacophony of experience is that which eventually informs each entity precisely as that entity needs be informed. It is a great dance of the one Creator and Its many portions with Itself and though there seem to be many missteps and paths traveled that one may not wish to travel beforehand by entities, indeed, each step is taken with perfection. The ability to learn from what you call the mistake is oftentimes more valuable than avoiding the mistake, as it is called, originally. We are aware that there are forces, subconscious energies, in each entity. There are teachers of an unseen nature for each entity. All work in this great musical effort, this great dance that all participate in that allows each to exchange energies with others that are necessary to be exchanged. We applaud each entity’s desire to move in a certain direction, metaphysically speaking. However, it is not so much the direction that is important as it is the desire that is important, the faith that such movement is possible, the faith that it occurs though one may not see it or measure it in any knowable degree. However, the faith that such movement is possible and the desire to move in the direction of love and light is that which is of importance.

Is there a final query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and we would take this opportunity once again [to thank you] for inviting our presence to your circle of seeking this day. We would again assure each entity that each walks with many companions upon this unseen and dusty trail of seeking the truth. There are with you many who have traveled this trail before and now return to walk again to aid you in some small way that you may perhaps find the right person, the right book, the right roadmap for that moment. In your quiet moments, give thanks and praise for each entity, for they are indeed an angelic company who walk with you at this time. They have walked with you since before time and shall walk with you through all time. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. We leave each at this time in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I arranged all of the extra chairs in the living room to get ready for the public channeling meditation that will begin at 1 pm this afternoon. Then I made an errand run to Feeder’s Supply to buy some cat food and some plastic devices that  my vet said that I could put on Bosco’s rear claws so he is not able to do so much damage under his ears when he scratches them. Then I stopped by Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some Tylenol, a comb, and some hair thickener.

This afternoon we had our public channeling meditation with a full house of twelve attendees and three channels. We always begin our sessions with the round robin where people have a chance to share some recent experience of their spiritual journeys, and I thought that there were so many authentic and heart-felt sharings, more than I can ever remember. There were only about eight questions asked, but they were all from the heart seeking information on how to accelerate the spiritual journey. After the channeling was completed everyone stayed for over an hour talking about how their lives were going, what they were looking forward to in their near future, and just exploring the connections that had been created in the round robin and in the questions that Q’uo channeled their responses to.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 26

Terror And Change

I am the wind and fire of Spirit, and I greet you in the full consciousness of the Love of Jesus the Christ.

Terror and change sweep across the human scene day after day and year after year. To the eye of the keen observer it is apparent that the forces called Apocalypse move ever within the divine stew of Earth and Heaven. Each moment, crises of the life and death of the body, mind, and spirit are marching in relentless step. And the tender consciousness filled with the Spirit of Love and reconciliation aches and yearns to heal the ever-flowing waters polluted by negativity.

Turn away from the human scene, seekers of love and service, and gaze steadily upon the inner desire to know and serve the Lord of all. No one can pray for every hurtful thing which meets the awareness, for sins and errors are numberless. Yet in the turning to silent tabernacling with the highest are all things brought into the environs of love and peace within the consciousness. Thus pray not for things, not for results, but for the presence of Christ which will then heal all things.

We leave you within the watchtower of silence and prayer. Peace be with you now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 20, 1998:

The question today has to do with acceptance. There are a number of people in the group today facing the possibility of a change in their life, of moving to a new location in the country, or a new location in working, or a new situation at home, and we would like some information about how we can accept what the universe or the Creator gives us even though it might not look like what we wanted or what we had in mind. If Q’uo could talk to us about the quality of acceptance, the peace of mind and the harmony that we can achieve by acceptance, we would appreciate anything Q’uo could say.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. As always, it is a privilege and a blessing for us to be here with you, to share in your meditation, and to rest in the harmony of your vibrations. We apparently will be sharing this communication with the one known as M and we welcome this entity. This entity speaks the truth.

You have requested that we speak upon acceptance, and that we are most pleased to do as long as it becomes and remains clear to each of you that we are not the voice of authority but your brothers and sisters, imperfect, as are you in any sense that can be rationally understood. We make mistakes. We have opinions. We share the opinions and hope not to share the mistakes, but undoubtedly we shall make mistakes. Not all of our opinions shall be those that will aid you and so we ask, as always, that you use your discrimination and trust your guidance within to the exclusion of other voices when necessary. For we have utter faith that you shall know the truth that is for you. As long as that is understood we are delighted to talk about acceptance.

As we search through this instrument’s store of experiences, we find that this word of acceptance has overtones of toleration and even a grudging or somewhat difficult transaction within. The acceptance is not an easy thing sometimes, that sometimes it is difficult to accept, and we would like to remove that overtone that is implied in that bare word, for acceptance is a word that does not ring of joy. It does not have the freedom of feeling that we would like to talk about. Our choice of words would perhaps be faith. When this instrument was very close to death some years ago, she put a motto above the hospital bed where she lay. It read “Faith, the final frontier.” As each of you does, she wished to find the joy of acceptance. It is well to have that kind of reminder when one is working upon a situation in which one is not yet comfortable and does not yet feel positively or affirmatively concerning the situation.

The one known as Jim has talked this weekend somewhat about becoming the fool, and we are the first to confirm that in any rational sense that faith is a foolish thing, that archetypical image of the fool walking off the cliff into mid air. This instrument immediately thinks of the coyote in the Road Runner cartoon, who is running at top speed to the edge of the cliff and beyond and continues running in the air until he realizes that there is no more cliff. That realization plummets him to the depths. The teacher known to you as Jesus called to the one known as Peter who was in a boat. Jesus was walking across the waves towards him. At Jesus’ call, Peter left the boat and was walking on the water also, until he realized that he was on water. And as his faith fell prey to rational observation, he sank like a stone. So, each of you is vulnerable when being full of faith to accusations of foolishness, of not getting it, of not being aware of the true situation, and like any fool there is almost no answer that will satisfy one who critiques the actions of faith.

[Long pause.]

We allowed this instrument to remain without any information for some few seconds in order that we might demonstrate immediately, and within the context of the moment, the type of energy that is involved in the faithful. This instrument did not attempt to fill the silence that it perceived from us with its own opinion or any words that might put off the need for the next meaningful thought. The instrument was content to be silent if we were silent. It is a lesson that took this particular instrument some years to learn. And, indeed, each of you has spent lifetimes already working on this precise discipline of the personality and of the mind.

When each of you is not within the veil of forgetting, each of you is full of faith, and power, and purity. Each of you has been eons in development. Each of you brings to this moment a tremendous array of gifts. And each has created for itself each and every opportunity that you and your higher self, as forces of soul or spirit, felt that you would wish to have. As the character this instrument calls Clouseau [Inspector Clouseau, from the movie The Pink Panther.] would say, “Every move you make is carefully planned.” We say this as we watch you falling over the furniture of your life, tumbling through doorways, bumping up against walls you didn’t see, and walking through the walls that others see. And yet within the confines of the incarnational self, how difficult, indeed how impossible it is to remain aware of who you are.

It is difficult to gather the self together to meet such a challenge as prompted this question. For that which you deal with upon the surface is extremely seamless. It is an excellent illusion. It is a thorough going in rich illusion, a tapestry of detail that is incredibly intricate and absorbent. And yet all of this is as the thinnest shell, and has as much life in comparison to the self that you are within that shell of personality as does the shell of an egg compared to that life within, that the shell protects, that the forces within the shell feed.

Many of you have spoken this weekend concerning the desire to move out of that shell, to become a citizen of eternity and not a person with a body and a lifetime, a beginning and an ending. And yet this is your time within the shell. This world of shadow is your time of being unborn and developing that being which shall hatch upon the entrance to larger life which you call death. Within this shell is marshaled infinite power, wisdom, and love. Within this shell lies the food that you shall need, those drinks of water that are guidance, inspiration, and hope. And so, we ask you to abide within that state of being in the learning situation of the unhatched egg. Unlike the little shell of the egg, your shell large. You may move about. You may express yourself within the illusion in many, many ways. However, you are constantly and infinitely protected. That physical vehicle that sustains life within this density, within this illusion, shall fail. Just as it had a beginning, so shall it have an end. So, each moment that you have within the time and space of this illusion is precious, for it can be given only the one time. There is no recapturing a second of experience, opportunity, challenge. And of course we urge you therefore to be alert, to be vigilant, to pay attention, for the winds of your thoughts are rich with useful concepts. There is constantly coming to you from many sources guidance by sign, by metaphor, by physical experience. And as you use your intuition to notice coincidence and synchronicity, and pattern, you may begin to find your environment more and more full of information, and this is helpful to one who is attempting to live a life in faith.

The question for this session was: “If Q’uo could talk to us about the quality of acceptance, the peace of mind, and the harmony that we can achieve by acceptance, we would appreciate anything Q’uo could say.” Q’uo began their reply by saying that the word “acceptance” has a negative overtone that implies there is some difficult situation that must be accepted, so they suggested using the word “faith” instead so that there would be more joy in the acceptance of any experience. Q’uo continued by saying that having faith seems like a foolish thing to consider, like the Fool in Archetype Twenty-Two walking into midair, because there is no rational explanation for doing so. Then Q’uo stopped speaking through Carla for a long pause to illustrate her ability to exercise faith that Q’uo would begin speaking again at some point, and then they said that each person in the room had spent many lifetimes to learn this same type of discipline of the personality. Then Q’uo said that on the other side of the veil of forgetting we are full of many gifts of faith, power, and purity, but within this rich and intricate illusion we don’t remember who we are within our personality shell where our consciousness is eternal while our second-density body contains all of the guidance, inspiration, and hope that we need to move about and express our self in a myriad of ways. Q’uo went on to say that eventually our physical body will die, so the time that we have within this illusion is precious because we can meet the challenge to learn our lessons, and we have many kinds of guidance to help us to use our: “intuition to notice coincidence, and synchronicity, and pattern, and you may begin to find your environment more and more full of information, and this is helpful to one who is attempting to live a life in faith.” On September 22, 2009, Q’uo described what it means to life a life in faith:

Faith, on the other hand, has no content. It contains no knowledge. It is an attitude. It is the attitude that knows beyond doubt, regardless of the circumstances, that all is well. And the entity who is living a life in faith cannot be daunted by circumstance. Faith is an attitude which assumes that the infinite Creator, the higher self, and that self which planned this incarnation before taking flesh have provided ample opportunities for learning and for service.

Sometimes involved in learning is suffering. Sometimes there is sorrow and pain. Yet one living a life in faith knows that that which is happening is perfect. It is precisely what is needed to advance spiritually and to be of service. Consequently, such an entity cooperates and harmonizes with circumstance and allows creativity and imagination to play a part in the flowing forward of events.

For one who is looking for a job, looking for a way to make money, there is that feeling of panic. “Yes, I have faith. I have faith that the Creator loves me. I have faith that I am something more than my body and my mind, but I need a job.” We encourage each who has concerns to voice them not to the self, but to the Creator. This instrument often argues with the Creator. The Creator doesn’t mind. We would encourage each of you to have conversations with deity however you may envision that, at any length, at any time, with any emotional import whatsoever. With this conversation is more than any emotional colloquy. When talking with the Creator you are opening lines of energy within the deep mind that marshal and enable forces that are helpful to you. Let your faith be in something you can talk to. Let the deity have whatever face it has for you. Let the Creator be real to you. For, truly, as you move from this veil of forgetting, much will be restored to your knowledge, and you will marvel that you could ever doubt the eminence and reality of infinite intelligence, that great Logos that is Love.

We do not know how to make real to you the Creator. We can suggest conversation; we can encourage silent listening; but in general we can simply say that any way that you can engage yourself in converse with intelligent infinity will be helpful to you. Indeed, you are speaking with yourself. However, it is helpful to speak to the greater Self and not simply to run the small circle of thought that goes nowhere. When the issue is acceptance or faith, the last thing that you need is rational thought. Here is a situation in which the intellect and its logic will not be useful in most cases.

Now let us look at that for a moment. The logical mind that you have working for you is extremely helpful in making choices. That is the nature of intellect. It discriminates, it compares, it sees options, and chooses one. Much of the incarnational routine, shall we say, of daily life needs this kind of attention, organization, good choices made that will move you through the day and through the week and so forth.

There are entities that spend their entire incarnation without need for the recourse of faith. These people have the bliss of ignorance and having not yet come to the crossroads when logic fails. And one must move into the realm of unknown and mysterious things. For those who have come to be awake within the sleeping world, for those who have chosen to dive a bit deeper into quality of life, times when faith alone will serve come ever more rapidly and frequently. And indeed, for many there are times when intuition and faith alone will steer the ship that can read no direction from the stars, yet how to inspire within you that quality of attitude that we call faith? Certainly, one suggestion we may give you, and we do that again and again, is to learn to appreciate the still, small voice that speaks in silence. The Zen Buddhists have a saying that this instrument is fond of which is, “I held stones in my mouth for twenty years until I learned to be silent.” Where does that urge to fill up the silence come from? There is that fear of silence, that reluctance to move into the unknown, the ineffable, the trackless, and yet this is the very stuff, the very material that you so value as a soul, as a spirit looking for the opportunity to work upon the consciousness, the polarity of that infinite and eternal self. Indeed, you wished to come here to be of service, but you also wished to learn. You wished to place yourself at risk. You make yourself vulnerable in order that you would have this opportunity to work on faith.

Move into now your body, feel that physical vehicle, feel the gravity that makes it rest upon your seat. Feel that contact. Feel the shape of your bones and your flesh as you sit in meditation. Pull back the view and see yourself sitting with your feet pointing towards the center of the Earth and your head pointing outward from the side of the planet as it revolves in infinite space at the edge of the small galaxy, nowhere near the center of the universe. How tiny, how infinitesimal each of us is, and yet each contains the creation. It is this sense of the infinite riches within that we would like to share with you as we encourage you to cooperate with your destiny, to recognize that it is well to move from the safety of intellectual and rational thought to the illogical and foolish ways of faith, and knowing that all is well, and all shall be well. There are so many mottos about taking it one day at a time that we can hardly speak about that concept without trivializing our conversation. And yet one great key in living in faith is taking it as it comes. This instrument has a friend that likes to imagine the worst: “What would I do if the worst possible scenario occurred?” This friend causes itself many worries. We would encourage you that when you have that craving for surety, to think upon the fool in mid-air who does not look down, who chooses, illogical though it may be, to trust.

Then Q’uo said that when we have doubts or panic about our lives that we should engage in a conversation with the Creator in whatever way we see It because this opens lines of communication to deep energies within us that can be helpful if we have the faith that this is possible. Q’uo went on to say that we should let our faith manifest as something that we can talk to by letting the Creator be real to us, and when we get on the other side of the veil of forgetting we will not believe that we could ever doubt the reality of infinite intelligence, that great Logos that is Love. They said that we need our logical mind to help us make choices because it discriminates, sees options, and chooses one as it helps us in our daily routine of living, but then at some point logic fails as we awaken within the sleeping world and have decided to dive deeper into the quality of life, and then faith alone will guide us on our spiritual path. Then Q’uo suggested that we use meditation to hear the still, small voice within us that reveals what tiny beings we are, and yet we contain the universe within us so that we may cooperate with our destiny by being willing to move from the ways of rational thought to the foolishness of faith that all is well, and that all will be well. On March 18, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the universe within us:

You are not here, my beloved ones, to have, to hold, to collect, to sustain. You are here to learn in deeper and more resonant ways always, what it is to be of service, what it is to love. You must begin with yourself, loving, accepting, opening your vulnerable self to wear the harshness of your humanity, for you are sturdy within, you have the strength of the universe within, you abide in the Creator, and Love and Light are your nature. You live in union with all that there is. There is nothing to fight. A limitation is an invitation to change. Know, each time that you experience limitation, you are experiencing the chance to learn something new, to serve in a new way, to find out more about what being and becoming truly are, to discover within yourself that core of being which is the infinite One. The infinite One is without. The infinite One is within. There is nothing but the infinite One. All is One. Cast aside fear, for your heart shall tell you in good time what choices to release, what choices to keep, and what choices to make for the first time that you may learn yet another lesson of love.

Each of you will move through your days and meet your eventual physical demise with a mixture of easy and difficult times. We encourage you to watch for the pattern, watch for those things within you that cause you to stop, and contract, and move into that worried state where the thoughts move in small circles. Watch for those, being aware that your earthly pilgrimage is a journey from the head to the heart, a journey from past and future to the present, a journey from dark and light to oneness, a journey from right and wrong to love. Focus upon your love that you can give, that you can receive. Honor and respect that. Follow that, and for the rest having done all those logical things which one can do in a situation, then crawl into the hands of Infinite Intelligence and rest easy. We encourage you to strive. We encourage you to help your situation in any logical, rational way that you can. But when those things have been done, and there is still concern we encourage you to walk upon the water, to jump into mid-air, to toss yourself into the sea of confusion in faith that the Creator will toss you where you are to go and will bring to you the fish you need to eat, and the water you need to drink, and the understanding you need to grow.

You have but a little while upon this Earth. May you use the time lovingly, sweetly, insofar as you are able. There is for the fool a peace, a peace that the world cannot know. It is the peace of absolute trust, that the one who watches the sparrow also watches you. That no matter what occurs, be it starvation or death, this too is acceptable, this too is part of pattern, a beginning, middle, and ending. When once again this body that you now enjoy is dust, what you shall value about this incarnation is the suffering you have successfully undergone, the challenges that you have been able to take advantage of as opportunities to express faith.

There is no way to prove spiritual truth. This is not an elementary mistake that the Creator made but rather a careful example of the refusal to infringe upon the free will of each spirit, that each may learn, and each may be guided by faith alone to rest in confidence and quiet surety. We encourage each to work upon these difficulties with a light heart and with a peace within that simply says, “I’m looking, I’m watching”…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

…in your faith, in your serenity, and as you go about this work to remain aware of those about you. For they too are moving through crises of faith, initiations that cause them to be up at night, to be concerned and disturbed. For each of you can be to others that bright light that remains faithful and steady, and remember the unknown stranger as well. Turn your mind to the crisis of faith of those many, many of your tribe of human that you know not, that you shall never know within incarnation and who are yet a part of you, and you them. And lend them your faith. Let it wing where it will, where it is needed, for just in such a manner can you love and serve without leaving your chair, without moving a muscle, and serve right well, and in a very important way. You are not the only entity adrift on this sea of confusion. The archipelago is crowded, my dear brothers and sisters, with many frail barques, with many wandering souls, and each of you is to the other an anchor, a mast for sail, a rudder for direction. You know not when you shall be able to be used to aid another.

Now Q’uo said that our lives will be a mixture of easy and difficult times, so they recommended that when we are feeling uneasy or fearful that we should remember that our life journey is one of traveling from our head to our heart, “a journey from past and future to the present, a journey from dark and light to oneness, a journey from right and wrong to love.” So, they said that we should rest easy in the arms of Infinite Intelligence and have faith that the Creator will guide us on our journey and give us everything that we need to grow. Then Q’uo said that the time that we have spent on Earth has been valuable to us because it has given us the opportunity to see the purpose of our suffering has been a chance to express our faith that all is well. They went on to say that there was no way to prove spiritual truths because the Creator wanted each soul to be able to exercise their own free will and faith in their unique choices as seekers, and they suggested that we remember other seekers who are going through crises of faith and initiation who also are one with us. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that we should take time to send our faith to any soul that needs it as there are so many that are lost, suffering, and drifting on the sea of confusion, and we can each be an anchor, a sail, or a rudder for direction for each other. On April 3, 1988, Q’uo spoke about the nature of suffering:

That which is suffering is that against which the entity seeking to know love for the Creator, love for the self, and service to others may push against, may use, not as the stumbling block, but as the starting block. For each difficulty which causes suffering is that which has been arranged that some distortion concerning the essence of love within your understanding may be examined, thought about further, and perhaps revised somewhat.

Without the challenges, the suffering, the problems, there would be a heedless, naive and unschooled joy, the second-density joy of those small creatures you call animals, which frolic and play, hunt and kill with no sense of anything but wholeness. This is a wonderful experience, yet for those within your density, it is not an altogether instructive experience, not an experience designed in the end to move one along in the spiritual evolution.

This instrument is informing us that we have talked long enough on this subject, and with our customary humility we shall, therefore, fold our tents on this subject and steal away in order that you may ask other questions that you may have at this time. We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, thanking and leaving this instrument in love and light. We are Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and am with this instrument, and we greet you again in love and in light. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may have for us. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: As entities, did we always exist, as we shall continue to forever exist?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. To the best of our knowledge, which as we spoke before is limited, each here and each that is now in creation in any portion of the creation has existed before any creation began yet not as you exist now, for you are rich with experience gathered through many, many lifetimes in different locations within this creation. However, as a point of consciousness, as an awareness of being, yes, indeed, each has existed, and shall exist, in the future as you see it.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thanks.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

C: We had a question yesterday that I thought was very interesting and it was “how do you see us?” and we thought, well, you see us as vibration because you have mentioned that, and I believe you’ve mentioned color. I wondered if you wanted to add to that. How do you see us?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We see in a manner which is much like your sensing that there is within your presence another presence. If we choose, we may see you as emanations of vibrations that themselves, can and do produce light, that which you call your aura. We see you often as accumulations of experience and as potentials for further experience. We see you when we look to the heart of your being as ourselves, as the one Creator. We see you in many, many ways for there are many ways to perceive the creation about one and within one, and when one has perceived clearly enough, there is nothing but the Creator.

Is there a further query, my sister?

C: No, thank you.

Questioner: I have a question.

Q’uo: We would welcome your query, my brother.

Questioner: As those of us who are gathered today depart and return to our homes, there may be a desire to meditate at times in ways that we can tap into the collective energy that we have been generating here this weekend. Might there be a particular exercise or focus or suggestion that you could offer that many of us could use at any given time to tap into the collective energy so that our meditations are more of an experience of communion rather than solitary exercise?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother.

[Tape ends.]

This morning I vacuumed the first floor of my home, and then I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow all of the leaves into the back yard into areas where I can mulch them as I cut the grass this afternoon.

This afternoon I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the side yard and front yard into the area between the fishpond and the pet cemetery, and then I used Venus to cut the grass and mulch the leaves in there. Then I ran some errands with my first stop being at the vet’s to pick up more meds for Bosco. My second stop was at AutoZone to buy a couple of containers of 50:1 2-cycle engine oil. My last stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 25

Remain Still And Receptive

I am the Spirit of the full consciousness of Love. I greet you in the name of Jesus the Christ, the great bearer and expression of the full consciousness of Love, which is the Logos which guides and governs the development of all things and which is also the end and purpose of all things.

I ask you this day to sit quietly long enough to experience the divine peace and the life-giving Love that is everywhere in the atmosphere around you. It comes to you in the song of birds, the whistling of the wind, the rays of the sun and the gentle rhythms of household and nature.

Remain still and receptive until your cup of Love is full, full to overflowing. Then may you become a leaven for those who see not Love, by smile and word expressing Love and peace. Then may you become a servant of Love.

We leave you in the Love and peace of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 24, 1998:

We would like information on the difficulties in relationships. We have times of doubt, fear, lack of trust and faith, and we want to know how to resolve these difficulties skillfully. How can we use contemplation, prayer and meditation to find harmony in our relationships?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We bless and greet each in the name of Love, that one great original Thought. It is as servants of Love that we hope to offer our service to those such as yourselves who are seeking the truth. And so it is a blessing to us that each of you has come with your desires and your seeking, for we hope to serve the Creator whom we love. Without the inquiry and the interest, we could not do so in this way. So, we thank each one of you for each step that you have taken against whatever resistance to bringing you to this moment you have experienced. It is a precious one to us, and we are glad to share our thoughts, always reminding you that we are not authorities but only friends along the path. We will share our opinions and our experiences in the hopes that they might provide food for thought. Please, however, take anything that we might say that does not meet with your personal feelings of “this is helpful” and simply leave it behind. We do not profess to be without error. We are as you: pilgrims. And the road is long. Endless, perhaps. And so we may delight in that sometimes dusty walk together and encourage each other, for though we each seek through illusion, there is that which is not illusory. And though it recedes before us, yet it calls us onward. And that call seems to be our deepest spiritual instinct.

Your question this day focuses on that which is at the heart of your third-density experience for which you took incarnation at this time, for relationships are the basis for much learning within your illusion. Your entire makeup as a physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual being in this environment calls you to be with each other. It is obvious that, physically speaking, the male and female call to each other to perpetuate the species. And this, indeed, is the beginning of many, many relationships. Yet there are others that have just as much use with companions, friends, teachers. Perhaps even those who have not met face-to-face but have meant a good deal, those with whom you feel the intimate relationship that comes from the reading of deep truths shared. This hunger for society, society that fits with your own nature, is a powerful force, an instinct within you. Naturally, it propels the seeker into confusion and chaos quite often, for that is one of the intentions of relationship. It is in learning how to love a mate, a companion or friend, family member, or lover, that we learn by reflection how to love ourselves and how to love the creation of the Father.

Each density has its basic learning. That of first density is the simple beginning of awareness, the beginning of being in a manifested environment. The elements earth, air, wind, and fire are of first density. Rock and ocean is of first density and they are learning, not self-consciousness but manifestation. And, as in your holy works, it describes the light separating from the day and the earth from the water, the fire from the air. Such is the learning of first density. The becoming of one element or another. The beginning of the long road from the Source to the Source. In second density the learning turns towards that of movement, of being drawn towards the light and the love of the one infinite Creator. The flower turns to the sun. The greenery breathes that oxygen which animals need, and animals breathe that carbon dioxide which plants need. There is the instinctual sharing of environment, the instinctual harmonizing of each thing finding its place as all things reach towards light and love. And yet there is not a self-awareness. That is the gift of third density. It is the first density in which the spirit within may begin to find conscious expression. For although plants and animals experience harmony and love and a feeling of rightness, they are not conscious of so doing.

When that step into third density comes, there is a veil drawn across that deep knowledge that all is well, for it is within this third density that the newly awakened soul within begins to work through the body, the mind, and the emotions to render them instinctual again through decisions that you make in each and every day. The spiritual work of third density has sometimes been seen as a single decision following one particular religious system, and for some, this is the experience that occurs. However, for many the awakening of the spirit within comes slowly, step by step. And yet small decisions create evolution of spirit, and there is no matter that is too small to become filled with the love which you as a person of faith put into the response that you offer to that which is in the moment before you.

In looking at relationships perhaps it may help to take a step back and to look at the process itself and what we wish to be focusing towards in this process of living in incarnation, behind the veil of forgetting, in the sea of confusion that you call life. To put it in one way that this instrument is fond of saying, third density is intended to be a journey from head to heart. To put it another way, third density is a kind of spiritual boot camp in which one overriding question is put before the spiritual seeker. This question is, “How do you wish to serve?”

The choice in service is of service to self or service to others. Those who choose service to self basically feel that the Creator is them, and they are the Creator. The environment about them is that which may be controlled or manipulated in order to best make the self happy, comfortable, and so forth. This is not a consciously negative attitude in many cases but simply the day-to-day working pattern of self expressing. The other choice is service to others, and the one who chooses this way of expressing love is intending to, at the expense of the self, put others first. The service-to-self polarity and the service-to-others polarity is like the north and south poles of a magnet. In third density each begins somewhere in the middle in a kind of well of inertia. There is no positive charge or negative charge when experience begins to be accumulated by the awakened soul within incarnation. It is little choices, like whether to share your peanut butter sandwich with the other kids in fifth grade, whether to go sit with the kid with a broken leg in second grade, whether to help the parent who seems to need it. These seemingly small and everyday decisions are those in which one either decides to attract to the self that which is needed or to give away the love that is within one for the benefit of others.

We are those who seek to be of service to others, for we feel that others and ourselves are one, even though it is not something that we can see and certainly not something that you can see. You cannot see that your hands do not stop at the ends of your fingers and that the other person’s hands next to you similarly do not end there but that each is touching each. Each energy field is moving to find comfort and harmonization with each other entity within this dwelling place and, in general, this has a tendency to occur, people finding ways to make each other more comfortable and to smooth and oil the social machinery that helps each person to feel better about whatever situation is occurring. These are not small choices when viewed in the context of the basic purpose of third density, for in a nutshell, the way you graduate from this third density to the density of love and understanding is by making decision, after decision, after decision based, not upon evidence, but upon faith. Faith that the love and the hope, and the charity, and the good feelings that you experience within your heart are real and are not foolish or naive. Faith that things are well and that things will be well, and that you do have comfort to give to yourself and to others.

Faith is only of importance when there is no real knowledge, and so it is in your environment in third density that the truth is hidden from you. There will not ever be any specific proof of your belief that will stand up, shall we say, in a court of law or in your discussions with someone who simply does not get it, who is still slumbering to the spiritual self and the spiritual identity that lies within, whatever your orientation. For instance, this instrument is Christian, and that literature and community of the Christian church feeds this instrument and gives this instrument ways to work upon faith. Whatever the orientation of each, it does include resources and tools that are available to all and can be used in the acceleration of spiritual evolution.

The group question today was: “We would like information on the difficulties in relationships. We have times of doubt, fear, lack of trust and faith, and we want to know how to resolve these difficulties skillfully. How can we use contemplation, prayer, and meditation to find harmony in our relationships?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that in the third density relationships are the basic way that we learn our lessons whether it be the mated relationship, friends, teachers, or spiritual companions where we may experience some confusion and difficulties which can be resolved in the process of learning to love ourselves and then love others and the Father’s creation. Q’uo went on to say that each density has a progression of awareness such as the simple awareness of the first density elements of earth, wind, fire, and water that progresses to an awareness in second density which turns towards the light and love of the Creator that plants and animals express, and then in third density the spirit complex is awakened so that self-awareness is experienced, and the veil of forgetting is utilized to keep the third density being unaware of the perfection of the creation. Then Q’uo said that the work of third density is to use all of our experiences to begin to make a choice that can be seen as a journey from the head to the heart and the desire to serve the Creator in all entities either in service to others or in service to the self. Q’uo continued by saying that they have chosen to be of service to others because they can see what we cannot see, and that is that all are one which gives us the ability to blend our energy fields with others as a means of comforting them and beginning our path of service to others that will be the way that we can be graduated into the fourth density of love and understanding. They said that this choice to comfort and support others in our relationships with them will be made again and again in the faith that all things are well and that all things will be well, and that we do have comfort to give to ourselves and to others. They said that faith is important in the third density because truth is hidden from us by the veil of forgetting, and no one who was unaware of their spiritual identity would believe this, but our faith that such is true will give us resources to call upon to accelerate our spiritual evolution. On October 14, 2005, Q’uo spoke of the means by which we can accelerate our spiritual evolution:

Try to remember that everything in the process of a spiritual evolution is in flux. You are dancing with the various influences and energies in your life. Blessed is the entity whose dance is not completely bogged down in the dance of relationships, the dance between the self and groups and so forth. Blessed indeed is the entity who has balanced these energies to the point where the life in its totality may be viewed as a spiritual experience. When all things are seen as sacred, then the potential for accelerating the pace of your spiritual evolution becomes ever greater. We encourage you to see all things as grist for the mill.

So, when we say that this sea of confusion is given on purpose and not in a cruel or unthinking way, we are simply referring to our feeling that it is only when there is no way to prove belief, hope, and love that the choosing of those values and the manifesting of those values in a life experience has metaphysical weight. And, indeed, each choice that you make polarizes you a little bit more to the service-to-others polarity. We are assuming that each within this dwelling is a service-to-others oriented entity, as are we. We do not wish to say anything negative about those who seek in service to self, for we are aware that this too is a valid path as far as it goes. It does not take one as far as the path of service to others, and it must be abandoned, not in the next density, or the next after that even, but in the sixth density. For the fourth density, the one to which you hope to graduate at the end of this incarnation, is the density of love. The density after that is the density of wisdom, and the sixth density is the density in which love and wisdom are balanced. It is at this point that negatively oriented entities must switch polarity, for they discover at this point that they are unbalanced and that they can go no further because the deepest choice of all is towards evolution. Eventually each negatively oriented seeker chooses to become positive and to move onward towards the Source.

So, the situation for each is a walk in semi-darkness, metaphysically speaking. The light is that of the moon, and there are many shadows, and the comfort of companions along the way cannot be overestimated. Naturally, each entity is drawn to the birds of a feather, as this instrument would say, those of like mind, those of like nature with whom they feel more comfortable, and the mating of men and women is a constant force towards the activation of catalyst that will teach the seeking soul to love. And the best of catalyst is gained with those with whom one is in contact with continuously. Those whom we see from time to time are those with whom we can plan to be our Sunday selves. We may wish to show all of our dazzling good points at once, or we may give them out one by one. But as long as it is the occasional friend that we are seeing we can offer the best of ourselves to that entity in each and every occasion upon which we meet. But for mates this is virtually impossible, and thank heavens for that impossibility, for it is necessary to work, it is necessary that we have catalyst to work with. And since we all came here to work on whatever density we are experiencing life, this seeming catalyst of pain and suffering and not understanding and wondering—this is the friction that we need to move us towards learning. And as we learn, we begin to realize that in each case we are looking not just at a situation but at an opportunity to find the love in that situation and to express that love. Consequently, often the catalyst itself becomes less painful to us because we are able to work upon our response to that catalyst, rather than simply being overwhelmed by the catalyst itself.

You asked what do entities fear when they are working on relationships, and perhaps we would say that the greatest fear is the loss of love or trust and the betrayal of security in whatever distorted way that security is felt by the self and by the other self. Many issues have their heart in this emotional security. The surface of an issue may be money, or health, or where to live. It may be almost anything in which two people have a different view, but whatever the seeming issue there is a deeper issue, a singular issue involved and that is not necessarily a doing issue but a being issue. It is the way of being or an attitude that we would like to encourage each to explore. The one known as Ra has offered the question, “Where is the love in this moment?” and it is this instrument’s favorite way of centering the self in times of confusion. For each of you is love. Each of you is a projection into manifestation of the infinite Love of an infinite and divine Intelligence that has created all that there is. Of course, each entity in manifestation is distorted from the original vibration of the Logos. Without this distortion, without this mismatch, shall we say, in space and time, there would be no universe filled with Light. There would be no way that the Creator could know Itself. And yet, simply being in manifestation posits that there be illusion. As long as each of us is a being, an entity, apart from Love Itself, each is dwelling in some degree of illusion. However, in this illusion each is the Creator to each, and in relationship, especially the mated relationship, this awareness is a healing balm that may help and prove a resource to those who are in pain because they feel abandoned, or rejected, or misunderstood.

What people fear is being betrayed: offering trust and having it betrayed. There is within each the dancer that would fly, and soar, and leap in joy. And yet when we let that self out, we are as foolish as little lambs playing in the pasture, and we can be easily squashed. And so, it is a scary thing to surrender to those feelings of love and joy and enthusiams that are in our very heart, for are we all not love?

One of the big illusions is time itself. And as this instrument was thinking earlier, considering the various things that had been said around the circle, many times it is just that waiting that is so difficult. And what is it that mates or anyone in relationship would wait for when there is confusion between two people? We would say that it is as though there were a dance that all of nature and all of humankind is engaged in in third density. It is a dance with meter, rhythm, harmonization of movement, and the plants and animals are aware of that. And the moon and the sun and the stars dance also, and within each of us there is that completely aware dancer also. And to that completely aware part of ourselves which we may touch from time to time, there is no such thing as waiting but merely pausing and resting until it is time to move into the next step of the dance. But to the human heart lost in confusion, anxious to put things right, there does not seem to be much rhythm or harmony. There does not seem to be a clear cue as to when to enter the stage or when to change one’s step or even in what line to say. And as entities repeat lifetimes working upon one dynamic or another of loving and being loved it is as though you were in a situation comedy, or, shall we say, a karmic book, and the jokes sometimes go right past you because there is too much sorrow, too much suffering, and too much angst. And you feel like a living “Dear Abby” letter in search of the impossible solution to a complex knot of problems.

We encourage each to love that part of you that does not get it. You cannot wake up out of this illusion. That is not why you came here. You came here to be buffeted and pummeled by suffering and pain and limitation until finally, finally you surrender your intellect. You give up your logic and you move from head to heart. My friends, it is in the heart that the Creator is waiting for you, whole, complete and loving you with an intensity and utter compassion that is so real and so vital that there is no response but to love the Creator in return. This is not something for which you must reach. This is not something for which you can reach. You may sit in meditation for days and weeks and months, and you will feel spiritual, but you will not necessarily be spiritual. For spirituality is in the being. It is in the self as you bring your self to the moment. It is in the attitude of self that, by faith alone, waits for that still, small voice, that intuition, that guidance that will tell you when to come in and what to say, that will enable you to look at a hopeless situation as far as harmonizing with another and say, “I reject the hopelessness of this situation. I will rest and wait for the rhythm to catch up.

In this endeavor you are crucial to each other, not simply mates, but everyone whom you pass on the street even, for you may in passing smile at someone who is hopeless, and that realness may jolt that entity out of hopelessness into hope that bears much fruit. You do not know what you do. You cannot know the impact that you have as a being. You may not necessarily seem to be as those who are fruitful in the world. Some are. Some do not seem to be. And within the world this means much. Within the metaphysical world it means very little unless each thing that is a fruit is also one that was done with love, with a desire to help, with that stubborn naiveté that says that “I want to give the best that is in me, and I want to see the best that is in those around me.” This encouragement of simple being cannot be overstated. May you have encouragement and support for each other, for you are acting upon yourself when you so do. And may you nurture, and cuddle, and hug that small self within that is so often hurt by a very bruising world. There is much unseen support for work in consciousness, for prayers, and for a life lived in faith. We ask you to lean into that support. This instrument would call it angelic support and say that there are angels everywhere. Other entities would describe this far differently, but the concept remains the same. There is guidance. There is help, for the Creator is constantly communicating to you using everything: nature, the environment, other people, coincidences. Be alert. Begin to see the spiritually interesting coincidences and you shall be much encouraged thereby.

Then Q’uo said that the inability to prove the value of hope, love, and service within the illusion of third density was the means by which a metaphysical value is given to each choice of service that we make to increase our polarization, and the best way to do this was to join with other seekers in relationships that would allow us to utilize catalyst to teach us how to love each other, and this would be done more effectively the more that we interacted together. They said that the mated relationship gave us the most chances to experience the pain and suffering of catalyst and, by so doing, have the opportunity to find and express the love in the moment. Q’uo went on to say that in dealing with relationships of what is feared the most is the loss of love, trust, or emotional security that may deal with money, health, or where to live, but they said that there was always a deeper issue of the manner of one’s beingness that comes from each being a portion of the Love of the Creator. They said that each is distorted in being able to share this love because without such distortions the Creator could not have the opportunity to know Itself. Then Q’uo said if the ones in a mated relationship could simply realize that each is still the Creator that they could take comfort in this knowledge and no longer feel abandoned or rejected. They went on to say that all of life in the universe is part of a dance of harmony and rhythm in our lives that those in relationships are unaware of when they are lost in confusion and feel that they cannot wait for the time to pass until the confusion of these lessons of loving and being loved that come from previous lifetimes are resolved. So Q’uo suggested that we should love ourselves for not understanding that we came here to be thrown about by sorrow and confusion, and then we should give up our intellect and move from our heads to our hearts. They said that this is where the Creator loves us so intensely that we will naturally feel the same love for the Creator so that we can look at our difficult situations with our mate and listen to that still, small voice, to say to our mate: “I reject the hopelessness of this situation. I will rest and wait for the rhythm to catch up.” Q’uo went on to say that we should relate to everyone that we meet in this way of giving our best effort to love them and helping them to move out of their feelings of hopelessness and pain because this also nurtures the child within us that has suffered similar pains. Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that there is unseen guidance that is available to us as the Creator takes various forms such as angels, nature, other people, and coincidences to give us encouragement on our spiritual paths. On January 22, 2011, Q’uo described the nature of some of our unseen guidance:

Firstly, one may ask oneself, “What is the highest and best action I can take at this time? What is my highest and best self’s choice?” You are asking, in effect, your higher self to weigh in with some hint or inkling of what would be the choice of paths of service for the best you that there ever could be.

Another way of looking at asking for guidance is as an extension of asking your friends for guidance—those in the physical illusion with you—and simply extending your field of request to include the unseen realms.

One way of thinking about asking for guidance is a more direct remembrance of that oneness of all creation. The other is a way of reaching out to the help that is always available, which implies “others” within your creation and not simply the self and other-selves that are the same as you.

Whichever way of thinking about your guidance system that is helpful is the one we would encourage you to follow. For some, it is very comforting to think that the higher self, the best you that could possibly be, will offer the unified answer. For others it is much more comforting to feel that there are allies all around—those who truly want to help you. Both ways of thinking about guidance are the truth.

Again, when you find paradox, when you find mystery, you may be assured that you are on the right track, for things of the spirit are consistently and always going to include those elements. For they break the bonds of linear thought and bring in the qualities of infinity and eternity.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and in light, thanking it as we leave it. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each of you in love and light once again through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to ask if there are any other queries to which we may speak. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: To follow up on the first question, are there times when it would be the spiritually rhythmic thing to do to separate from the mate?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. In the run of things, as we observe the great majority of relationships, it is well to stay with the relationship in which one finds oneself in order that the learning might proceed most efficiently, for there is much work in the, shall we say, building of the foundation of trust and of faith that takes a noticeable amount of time and effort in your terms. This time and effort must needs be repeated if there is the leaving of a relationship that has the purpose of the teaching the basic lessons of the incarnation, for in whatever relationship that one finds oneself, there will be the repetition of the pattern, the lessons to be learned, the difficulties to be experienced, the confusions endured. However, in some cases we find that the confusions and the difficulties are in what may be seen as an out-of-control mode where confusion builds upon confusion. Opportunities are lost and lost again, and momentum fails. And perhaps there is the injury of the mental, the physical, the emotional, and perhaps even the spiritual nature that can occur. In such instances we would suggest that each entity within the relationship retire to the silent room within and, in the meditative state, appraise the situation, as one may do in any situation. And surrender the small will, which places its desires foremost in the field of the vision, and ask what the greater will of the Creator or the higher self might be in this situation. We always encourage the reliance upon the small, still voice which resides in each entity, so that this source of information may be found in each instance.

Is there any further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Thank you.

[I am Q’uo.] Is there a further query at this time?

[Tape ends.]

This morning I met Gary and Trish at a place about half an hour from here that might be the venue for future Homecoming Gatherings as my house is too small to accommodate the increasing number of seekers who would like to attend our gatherings. On the way home I stopped in at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some clothes detergent, Pepsi-Zero, Kleenex, and paper towels.

This afternoon John came by from New Circle Mechanical to take a look at one of my sump pumps, my microwave oven, and the upper oven on my stove, all of which have problems that I am hoping that he can solve. He suggested getting a new microwave oven and just using the bottom kitchen oven since it still works. The fellow from Shredit also came by and shredded our L/L papers.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 24

A Lamp Set On A Hill

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ. I speak to you in the flow of the consciousness of divine Love.

When travail is on the agenda for the present moment and the present day, when there is an hour of need that you, with human eyes, gaze upon and know not what to do, then is the time to visualize within yourselves the light which makes visible each dark portion of the day.

For if the mind has fled to the Light and stands trustingly within its scope and power, the mind then becomes girded with that Light and is full of Love.

And if the human processes of doubt and excessive reaction alike are disregarded, each pilgrim may, then, become—in the present moment, in the present hour, in the present day—a lamp set upon a hill to illumine that dark need. For within each exigency lie the seeds of harmony and peace. If you feel broken in this day, may you turn and ask to be made whole by the spirit of the Love of Jesus the Christ.

We leave you in that hope of peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

Our question today has to do with how we travel from head to heart in any spiritual belief that we may have and in the spiritual journey overall. It is easier to intellectually understand, for example, that all things happen in their time, than to actually wait for that time to come and accept it. Is it grace that brings this about? Just the right time?

(Carla channeling)

Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose name, in whose peace, and in whose power we come as witnesses and as fellow pilgrims on a common path with you and with all who seek to know the infinite Creator. We are extremely grateful for your calling us to your session this beautiful spring day. We thank each of you for the time and attention that each gives to the spiritual life, for each brings that to the circle, and each becomes part of a circle whose strength is in all of its members. This spiritual community we find so precious, and we are most grateful for this opportunity to share our thoughts with you. Please take those which please you, or seem useful to you, and leave the rest behind, for we are not authorities but only your brothers and sisters.

We are aware that each of you has a vision, a basic concept of how a spiritually oriented being behaves. It is indeed true that orientation as a spiritual being is of primary importance in allowing the spirit to transform Earthly life into that Garden of Eden, that heaven that does lie closer than breathing, nearer than your hands or your feet. What each of you seeks is fairly clear within the mind. And your question is simply how to move from the situation where the mind grasps the concept to the point where the being lives the concept. And this is indeed a challenge. It is the challenge for which you took flesh and came into a world of shadow. For each of you seeks in this incarnation both to learn and to serve. Each of you to whom we speak, we can say with authority insofar as we are able, is one who has earned her place upon the stage of your Earth world at this time, for many more spirits than there are bodies for have wished to incarnate at this particular time. In your Earth plane’s development as a planetary spiritual being those who have made it are those who are very close to having learned those primary lessons of love which involve making that choice to follow only the good, only the true, only the beautiful and to attempt to allow the Love and the Light of the Creator a place to flow through into the Earth plane. For this is, among other things, what you are. You are, as it says in your holy works, a lamp upon a hill. It is not your light that lights the lamp. It is the Creator’s. What you are able to do as you work with your mind and your heart is, little by little, to clean the panes of your lamp so that they are transparent and so that the infinite Light may shine through, each of you, though you deem yourself unworthy. For you cannot give love to the world. You shall shortly run out in your persona as a human being, as a time-bound entity. Everything is finite, and it is as though you are in a cage of flesh and illusion. There is that within you which remembers paradise, which knows a better way, which is at peace and at rest. But that part of the self is very difficult to find access to. Until the day comes when, as the one known as R said, the journey from head to heart is made.

The culture which has birthed each of you, and cherished you, and supported you to this point in your incarnation has many qualities to offer, many values to express, and some of these values tend towards working athwart spiritual principles. When we speak of such things we cannot over-generalize, but there is that tendency in your culture to value accomplishment of whatever kind as a positive asset and to value motionless being as either a zero or a negative quality in that to those who have their life flowing from their being the list of things to do for the day, or for the week, or for the year, may never seem as important as the yellow wheat in the field or the blue of the sky on a sunny day, or the tips of the trees as they first embrace the air with their new, furled leaves. There is slim value for being within your culture, and we feel that this is a key disadvantage when it comes to that journey from head to heart. For the head is the place where things get done. The heart is the place where things get cherished and cared for. For the head there are choices of a right and a wrong, a movement to the right or a movement to the left. For the heart there is, rather, the flowing of things. Into the heart time and space themselves flow, for each of you is a citizen of eternity, and you are taking part in time during your incarnation in order to learn and to serve.

Now, how can you work to neutralize the result of a lifetime of learning? For this is what occurs as the culture nurtures the young mind and helps it to grow into a mature ability to cope with that which is within the illusion. It cannot be done with the head. To attempt with the mind to move the center of being from mind to heart is to hire a rustler to protect the cattle. There is no way for the mind itself to break one habit and begin another. We would introduce the concept of the will. There are those here such as this instrument whose will has been given to a specific lord or Christ symbol. This instrument has given her life and her spirit to the one known as Jesus the Christ. It is well to choose a principle that speaks to you most deeply of infinity, eternity, and holiness and to deposit in that basic core of belief every bit of will and faith and hope that you possess. For this is an appropriate and an honest gift to the Creator, the surrender of the Light, the willingness to follow with heart and soul and mind and strength a life lived in faith.

Our question today has to do with how we travel from head to heart in any spiritual belief that we may have and in the spiritual journey overall. It is easier to intellectually understand, for example, that all things happen in their time, than to actually wait for that time to come and accept it. Is it grace that brings this about? Just the right time? Q’uo began their reply by saying that the incarnation of souls by their seniority of vibration has allowed many entities the opportunity to incarnate at this time to learn the lesson of love and service to others and to allow the Love and Light of the Creator to flow through to the Earth plane. Q’uo went on to say that our culture tends to value what a person can accomplish in a practical way over the nature of one’s being, and the nature of the head is where things get done and where there is a right and a wrong, and the nature of the heart is where things are cherished, and where there is a natural flow of time and space through us as we are citizens of eternity who are here at this time in order to learn and to serve. Then Q’uo said that is not possible for the mind to move the center of being from mind to heart because it cannot break one habit and begin another habit by itself. Q’uo recommended that we should use our will to choose a spiritual being or symbol, such as Jesus the Christ, that speaks to our heart in concepts that are infinite and holy so that they become our core belief, and then we can make it our gift to the Creator and live our life in faith with all of our heart and soul. On February 9, 2022, Q’uo described the nature and functioning of our core belief:

To speak more to the heart of your query as to what one may offer for another by such means of inward thought, this idea has many, indeed, infinite possibilities and probabilities that are dependent upon the orientation of the seeker and a primal aspect of this orientation being the spiritual foundation of that seeker. By this, we intend to mean that the belief structures held by a seeker involved in the seeking and used by the instrument or the entity on its path imply what may be offered, for if one does not have a root or core belief of what is possible and believes this with all of their heart, then the potential is limited to what may be offered. As such, we encourage any seeker wishing to increase their ability and the scope of what they can offer to other entities by such means to contemplate deeply, meaningfully, and regularly upon what they believe to be possible—what structures of seeking, of philosophy, of metaphysical understanding has the seeker built its understanding upon—and examine this structure with care. The rigidity of the structure can offer stability, yet may also be limiting and so a regular audit or examination of the beliefs and ideals that have allowed a seeker to reach a certain point within their seeking may reveal certain ideas that can be let go or released, and as such increase what may be offered to another entity.

The tools to help you with this work are several. The very first and always the central one, in our opinion, is time spent with the Creator, time being with the Creator. The eyes that see the world see a human being sitting. The heart within knows a different reality. In that world within the self is a pilgrim seeking entrance to an inner sanctum in which the Creator already dwells in full glory and strength; from before time began until there is no more time, this is so. Before you were, before the world was, before all things, the Creator rested in Its universe. And as you are part of this universe of Love so that Love incarnate dwells within you. See yourself as a pilgrim walking up to the door of that inner sanctum, inserting the key of silence, walking in and sitting, not with other human beings, however worthy they may be, but with the infinite Creator. This communion awaits you constantly. It is not that the Creator is not with you, for the Creator is your companion from the instant of your beginning until the last fell knoll of life’s bells. It is the self within incarnation that does not remember where to go to tabernacle with the infinite One. We would encourage each who wishes to move into the heart to attempt daily to sit in silence and allow the Creator within to make Itself known to you with no words, with no dramatic fanfare but that still, small voice whose message is far beyond concept but whose surety is absolute.

The eventual goal of those who wish to be and to move from that flowing beingness is to gradually replace expectation with curiosity. The ways of the mind and of expectations and so forth involve energies which seem to grasp, and hold, and stop the flow of rhythm and attempt to control that rhythm. Frequently, it seems that such manipulation works. And usually, entities can convince themselves that they are in control. However, in the spiritual sense the only control is in how to surrender the small will and the small self to an infinite One whose wish for all is to give and to receive Love. Each time, then, that you find yourself having imaginary conversations, moving into circles of concern and worry, and, in general, finding oneself knocking up against the corners of life, find ways to stop the momentum of that relationship with what is. Stop and remember that you are a child of the Creator, a child of eternity, and a child of Love Itself. You need do nothing but welcome the rhythmic and rightful destiny that awaits. And we are not saying that there is one fate for each entity, for it is our understanding that each has free will, and that each must, of her own free will, choose service to others or service to self. Rather, it is a question of whether you wish to go a straight route or a roundabout route. If there is control attempted in a working pattern, that will change the pattern. The more faith that one is able to express in the moment-to-moment rhythm, the more gently one may meet the unfolding of your particular story. And the shorter will be that moment of centering the self within that identity of being.

Issues of this magnitude are not done with during an incarnation. They will revolve again and again into your experience, into your stream of living. What you learn at this time you shall see again. It may be at another level. It may be somewhat different, but the issues shall be the same: to offer the self with no expectation of return. Each of you came into this incarnation wishing to sacrifice the self for Love, wishing to brave the forgetting of all the spiritual principles that were known and held so dear, daring to come into a world most illusory and seemingly far from the Garden of Eden, as this instrument would call it. Yet in faith and in hope you took on this lifetime, for you wished to love the Earth and its people. You wished to serve, and this is your opportunity. In truth, it matters not what is occurring upon the surface of your life as long as you are attempting to be an instrument of Love, a harbinger of peace. Practice being. Practice at odd moments, allowing the self simply to be aware, and resting in that deep peace that is awareness of the Creator. You shall certainly get lost in the sea of confusion again and again. But that too is illusion. Trust that heart within, and as you are given the grace to do so, work with those concepts of being and doing until you begin to have a lucid idea of what it is to be yourself. This is an art of profound moment, and we encourage each of you to take it up. In your hopes and in your prayers, surrender all to the Creator and know, in confidence and in quiet, that that which is needed for you to learn and for you to serve will come to you. May you see all things with the eyes of Love.

Then Q’uo suggested that we live our life in faith as a gift to the Creator, and that we spend time daily tabernacling with the Creator that has been with us since before time began and will be with us until the end of time because we are a part of the Love of the Creator that speaks to us in that still, small voice that is beyond any concept but speaks with surety that is absolute. Q’uo recommended that we release the expectations of the mind that seek to control the flow of the rhythm of our experience and replace them with curiosity because the only control that is helpful is how to surrender our will and self to the Creator whose wish is for us is to give and receive Love. They went on to say that we are a child of eternity, a child of the Creator, and all that we need to do is to welcome the rhythmic destiny that awaits us to make a choice between service to others or service to self.  Then Q’uo said that our lesson of learning to give without expectation of return will repeat itself many times within future incarnations when we go through the veil of forgetting of all of the spiritual principles that we have learned, and we find that once again that we can become instruments of Love for the Earth and its people. Q’uo completed their response by saying that when we get lost in the illusion that we should trust our hearts and work with the concepts of being and doing to discover who we really are, and then surrender all that we are to the Creator and have faith that all that we need to learn and to serve will come to us.  On February 22, 1991, Q’uo spoke of the nature of being and doing:

The balance between being and doing is that which must be sought for each individual seeker. This will differ from entity to entity and from time to time. Those who have been overbalanced in the direction of doing may well need, in the balancing process, to go through great periods of time in which it may seem there is no doing, but only being. This may be very difficult for those entities involved, as the value systems that have been evolved in the society have placed the measure of the value of the self on those things that have been accomplished.

Ultimately, we feel that being is all that there is. The doing is all a part of whatever illusion each is operating within at any given time. This is not to suggest that the doing is not worthwhile. Indeed, the doing may be the primary means whereby each entity works out his path of service. As in all else, the determination of the value of the doing lies in the intent. However, even with the highest of intentions for the doingness to be of service, the deep self will know the balances necessary for himself and, if it deems it necessary that the balance be moved from the doing toward the being, it will effect this change. In this process we would suggest that it is most helpful to attempt to proceed in the process of knowledge of the self, that the wisdom of the deep self may be felt, trusted, and rested with. This may be a very difficult process for those among your peoples who are oriented toward the doing, especially as many of these also have strong biases towards being in control of the self and of the various situations which are encountered.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo, and we leave this instrument in love and in light.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each of you again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to attempt to speak to any further questions which those present may have for us. Is there another query at this time?

T: I have a question about the sudden appearance of a little bird that I had never seen before just after my meditation. Was there a significance to this bird, or was it just a little bird that was lost?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. As we find there is already certain knowledge within the subconscious level of your own mind moving into the conscious levels, we may speak concerning this small bird which you have observed. The decision to take your journey or not to take your journey was that concept to which this appearance of the small bird spoke, the meaning of the appearance having to do with the bird being as much out of place in your sighting of it as you would have been upon your journey.

Is there a further query, my brother?

T: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

R: Thanks for the food for thought on the concept that I spoke about earlier.

I am Q’uo, and we are always honored to be able to look upon those concerns which come from each heart and to give them the attention of our experience and our desire to be of service.

We would ask if there is any further query at this time?

Carla: I get so much out of worshipping with a spiritual family, and I want to share it with others, but that seems so impossible. Could you speak to that dilemma?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Each seeker that moves along the path of seeking the truth, of seeking the Love and the Light and the Unity of the one Creator has a unique way of moving upon this journey. Many there are who feel similarly to others and who gather together with them to worship as you say, in a community of seekers, and in this community they take comfort, joy, inspiration, and find a great meaning. This is well for each seeker, to find a path which speaks to its heart, whether there be a great company with it or a small company of one. To look upon the journey with the heart that desires to travel and the mind that seeks answers, the passion of the desire is that which is most important for each seeker. For though one seeker may find fruits upon the journey and wish to share the nourishment of them with others it is difficult to do unless those others with whom one wishes to share have the similar desire, for each has the lessons of love to learn. And the greatest sharing that each seeker can make with others is to travel his or her own journey with a full heart, with alive compassion, and with the sincere desire to know that which you call the truth. The radiance that comes from within for each seeker so traveling is as a beacon, a light to others that, when they wish to inquire as to the nature of the journey, it is most appropriate to share with them that which you have found.

Is there a further query at this time?

Carla: No. Thank you for your thoughts, Q’uo.

Q’uo: I am Q’uo, and we thank you again. Is there a further query at this time?

R: Many times you say that you are grateful for the sacrifice that each makes to come to the circle of seeking, but I want to come, and it isn’t a sacrifice, so what is the sacrifice that you are referring to?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Each entity which finds itself in such a circle of seeking as this circle has for an entire incarnation moved upon a path in such a way which has brought it to that point in that circle. Each entity has sacrificed much in each incarnation to gain that of understanding that it has gained, to have gained that of tolerance, to have gained that of continuing in the desire to seek with others. One may find oneself in such a circle and ask the question that you have asked, feeling that the sacrifices have not been that obvious. But if each searches in its own memory and experience, each will find that there were steps that were, at one time, difficult to take, rituals and routines, and responsibilities that were difficult to initiate, to continue, and to accept. Each seeker has accomplished much of work in this manner before being able to join in such a circle. These are the sacrifices to which we have spoken often, and we continue to offer our gratitude to each seeker that sacrifices much in order to join in these circles of seeking, for there are a great numbers of things that could occupy one’s time, activities that could take one’s efforts, and other concerns that would satisfy one’s desire to spend an afternoon. Thus, we are grateful for each sacrifice, great and small, that each entity has made in order to join in this circle of seeking.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: Isn’t it like a fruit that, once tasted, you do not wish to give up because there is truth in there?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. It is true that as one continues upon a journey, a ritual, a philosophy, or a practice, that the effort is easier and easier as the memory of the body, mind, and spirit begins to exercise itself within the new parameters. Indeed, this is the nature of the seeking. As one is able to continue upon a path, a program, or a path of seeking, one will find that there is a kind of rhythm or momentum that gathers behind the effort to aid the effort and to enhance one’s experience of it.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: Thanks for talking about it.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there a final query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and as we have exhausted the queries for this session of working we would again thank each for asking for our presence in your circle of seeking. We are most privileged to be able to share our opinions with you. Remember, my friends, that we do not wish to provide a stumbling block for any seeker. Take only those words that we have spoken that speak to your heart, and leave all others behind. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we leave each in the love and the light of the infinite Creator. Adonai. Adonai, my friends.

This morning I made the choice to go back to using the Mirtazapine gel on Bosco’s ears to enhance his appetite even though it may be the cause of his scratching below both ears and causing wounds about the size of a quarter that I treat with Mupirocin ointment. For a couple of weeks, he was willing to take the Mirtazapine pill in greenie pill pockets, but two days ago he refused to do so. I have decided that it is more important for him to eat than to keep trying to give him ground up Mirtazapine in his food because he usually refuses to eat enough of the food to get very much of the medicine in it.

This afternoon the fellow from Shredit came by to shred about 200 lbs. of L/L papers, but he was not told that it was to be on site shredding, so he said he would send the on site shredders tomorrow afternoon.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 23

Trust, Hope And Light

I am the Spirit of the living truth, and I greet you in the full consciousness of that Love in which all truth abides.

This instrument is quite certain that it does not have the necessary state of mind for the transmission of truth and Love, as it is concerned about its friends, pondering their courses of action, caring too much for the susceptibilities of others to suffering and doubt.

Yet we say to all who care for others that the same Spirit that sustains each in its own struggles is ready to sustain friends and loved ones in that same suffering; that suffering which is universal; that suffering which furnishes good fruit; that suffering through which each pilgrim finds the value of not suffering.

Thus we say to each who is concerned for others, “Turn the attention to the self. Look for trust. Look for hope. Look for Light. And then rejoice in that Light, hope and trust and know that all is truly well.”

In this consciousness your friends may bathe as in the warmth of the hothouse, and your consciousness may then be a seal and protection for your friends. Consciousness itself, and not so-called good advice, is the primary gift of the Spirit of Love.

May the consciousness which is the Love of Jesus Christ sustain each and offer each peace, this day and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 19, 1998:

Our question this week concerns the concept of gratitude. How does gratitude work in the spiritual or metaphysical sense? It is said that it is a powerful force to have in the heart, just to be alive, to be breathing, and to serve the Creator. How does gratitude affect our spiritual growth, even in the worst of situations?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We bless and thank each of you for all that you have done to come to this circle of seeking at this time, for all that you have sacrificed and the choices that you have made that have brought you, as seekers of truth, to sit together and open your hearts to each other, to the universe whose citizens that you are, and to those thoughts of ours that might have use for you. You have truly given us a great blessing and a great gift. We hope that those thoughts that we share with you shall be helpful to you. If any thought does not please you, we simply ask that you release it and forget it, for we do not have authority but, rather, are as you: pilgrims sharing that which we have come to feel is our truth, hoping that it might be a resource for you as well. As always, we encourage your careful discrimination in listening to any and all opinion, for there is no authority as great as that which rests within you and which knows what is yours.

You ask this day about gratitude and thankfulness. We realize that this is peculiarly difficult to come to in any situation, for within the illusion that you experience as your incarnation the atmosphere is not full of clarity and illumination but rather often full of confusion and negative seeming emotion. The heart within desires to experience only a greater and greater amount of solitude, peacefulness, and beauty, but that which the world seems to offer is crowded with many different people with many different opinions and certainly seems far from peaceful as the timbers and rafters of your own personal mental interior shake and stagger under the many confusions that reign and that shall always hold sway over the incarnation, over the experience throughout the incarnation, for truly, as we often say, no one who takes incarnation upon a third-density planet is hoping for a clear and peaceful existence, but, rather, is hoping to be utterly confused and yet to remember, somehow, those truths which can only be known by faith, which can only be remembered by faith, and which can only yield hope, praise, and gratitude within the transformed heart.

It is that transformation of experience that each hopes for again and again within the incarnational experience. And as each of you looks back over patterns that have been completed in the past, each may see the working out of seemingly insurmountable confusion in ways that were unexpected and yet elegant, difficult, and beautiful. Such is the bittersweet quality of realization amidst the sea of confusion that is consensus reality within your Earth world.

What is the spirit that it should be mindful of such things as praise and thanksgiving? It is at this very basic level that so many among your peoples cannot grapple with the issue of life itself. What is the spirit within that it must take flesh and be thrust into a world of sensation that overstimulates with glorious disarray and confusion? The spirit, from the instant that it awakens into the Earth plane until that moment when the last breath leaves the body, what is this entity that it should feel anything, positive or negative? It is in facing this question of identity that the search for true thankfulness must begin. For just here, just upon that spot where the slide is under the microscope, there at that first glimpse of light of that which changes, we get the first scent of the dangers and the glories of this ephemeral and all-to-short process of incarnation. Each of you begins with that spark of Light that is your essence and your core. It is in no way different from or lesser than the Creator Itself, for it, as all things, is infinite and divine Love.

The clay from which you have been formed expresses that Love but is not that Love. There is no thing about each of you that one can pick up and say, “This is the essence of this person.” No, the essence of you is much closer to you than your body, is much more a part of you than your breathing, or your heartbeat, or the rush of blood through your veins. You are Love. It is this identity that is the only explanation for praise and thanksgiving, for positive or negative expression of any kind. When one can realize, even momentarily, that deep identity within, that congruency with the Logos Itself, the seeker then has his feet on solid ground and may say to the self, and in response to the world however it comes to him, “I am Love. I am in a state of utter confusion. But I am love. This is my nature. I take this on faith.” When one can begin with this much confidence then one is able to move into that attitude which this instrument would call the positive path or the path of service to others. If one thinks to oneself, “I am responsible. I did these things,” or “These and these things have been done unto me,” then one has become willing to begin, not from that place of love, but, rather, from a place where masks have been put on and a stage play is being acted. Once one has moved into that level of interaction and the various responses to each other’s catalyst that characterize relationships one no longer has a quick or short route to that positive place of rest within which knows, “I am Love, and the I am that is me is the I am that is you.”

Without this feeling of self as Love, one simply begins to see oneself as positioned in such and such a way and aiming to get positioned in such and such a way. Then the self has a story that is not being created in rhythm and according to destiny’s often slow pace, but rather the self is creating the self with masks at a level which does not fill the heart. The conversation before this meditation several times touched upon the many ways in which that feeling of humble thankfulness comes to one as a blessing and a special visitation much like the spring rain feeding the young plants. We encourage each of you to be willing, when thinking upon this subject of identity, to see the self as a deeply impersonal, a deeply true, entity. For truly each of you is that which is beyond personality, and if the spirit can rest in that most basic and profound identity there stems from time and attention spent here a strength and flexibility of emotional responses that is part of the rhythm of faith.

We are often aware of the degree of suffering among your peoples. The sorrow of your peoples is great. The yearning for that which is remembered is great. There is a hunger for heavenly things, as this instrument would call it, a thirst for that meat and drink that feeds the soul, and yet in so many ways the restless heart cannot find quiet enough to connect with that great heart of Love Itself, which is the source and ending of each and every spark of Light within the infinite creation.

The group question today was: “Our question this week concerns the concept of gratitude. How does gratitude work in the spiritual or metaphysical sense? It is said that it is a powerful force to have in the heart, just to be alive, to be breathing, and to serve the Creator. How does gratitude affect our spiritual growth, even in the worst of situations?” Q’uo began their response by saying that within our third density illusion the concepts of clarity and illumination are seldom experienced because of so many negative and confusing situations, but it was our desire when we incarnated to be completely confused so that we can remember those truths that can only be known by faith and yield the gratitude that can be felt within our transformed heart again and again. Then Q’uo asked what was the nature of our spirit that it is aware of the concepts of praise and thanksgiving and then incarnates into a world of confusion and seeks the positive and negative experiences? They went on to say that it is in this search for identity that the process of thankfulness begins as we become aware of the dangers and beauties within our brief incarnations which we have begun as a portion of the Light and Love of the Creator. They said that when we can realize that we are the Love of the Creator while being in a state of complete confusion, and then have the faith that we are this Love, then we can begin to make choices that lead us to the positive path. Then Q’uo said if we don’t come from this place of Love and, instead, have the attitude that we have failed to behave well or that others have hurt us, then we become actors in the stage play of the third density which means that we are taking the long path of realizing that we and all others are the Love of the Creator. They went on to say that if we cannot see ourselves as Love, then we are putting on masks that make it difficult to see the rhythm of our destiny unfolding before our eyes, so Q’uo reaffirmed that we can: “connect with that great heart of Love Itself, which is the source and ending of each and every spark of Light within the infinite creation.” On September 28, 2022, Q’uo said that it is our destiny to realize that we are the one Creator:

These steps that you take are informed by Love and by Light and in a balanced manner, so that the power of the combination of Love and Light may be able to manifest in your own life journey as the ability to make the choices of service to others, that are the fundamental nature of your journey. This choice is that which moves you as a pendulum, moves the air, indicates the direction, the choice, the movement in consciousness that is the path of the conscious seeker of truth.

This type of power is a kind of fuel for the spirit, which is the heart of your being of a mind/body/spirit complex. This spiritual nature connects you with all of the qualities of the One Infinite Creator that have made the entire creation so that you are a portion of that cosmic mind, that infinite intelligence, that has decided to know Itself in a manner which is possible through all of the choices that you make in all life experience, as you move consciously along your spiritual path into the realms of service to others that are more and more varied, more intense, and more pure, as you continue your journey of seeking and serving the One that is in all.

This is your journey. This is your joy. This is your destiny. You are all a portion of the One Infinite Creator, and this is what you are here to do: to be of service to the One that you see in each entity around you, in each portion of the creation around you. For the entire creation is alive, and the Creator breathes Its breath of life in all places. So, look you there within and without to find that which is your goal in life, to serve that One who is in all.

When entities attempt to feel gratitude they may well fail, for gratitude is not that which may be approached head-on with the most effectiveness but, rather, a sense of thankfulness or gratitude comes as a natural efflux or emanation from the soul which is willing to be still and allow the world to find its balance within the self. This is not something that is easily done by those within incarnation, for the living without faith is that which is taught and practiced by your culture, not here and there, but as a general rule. Young ones within your culture are taught to work, to give a good effort, to follow certain paths in order to further ambition. The soul is taught that worth is in what one does, and so each growing spirit faces the self, attempts to find that which will earn the money, attempts to prepare the self for doing this, and then spends the life following a certain career, profession or job, and as one is wending one’s way through the various obstacles that seem to pop up from day to day in the execution of these various professions and jobs and so forth, any entity that is able to help or facilitate one or another of these ambitions is seen as someone to whom to be grateful while those who are stumbling blocks seeming to be in the way between the self and the ambition are seen to be irritations and of negative help.

When we, or any, attempt to speak upon spiritual things we are often tempted simply to tell stories, for there is within stories that which words alone cannot express. And when dealing with gratitude perhaps the story that this instrument is most familiar with is the story of the Prodigal Son. There are several different ways to look at this little story that was told by the teacher known to you as Jesus. In this story the sons of a wealthy man have two different natures. The older son is the good son, and this son never thinks of anything but simply staying at home and working on the family estate. However, the younger son is impatient and ready to have fun, have a good time in his life. And so this younger son asks his father for his inheritance. He has decided that he wishes to go to the city and have a good time. The father is willing to give his young son his fair portion of his accumulated fortune that he has to offer. And so the Prodigal Son trots off to the big city and engages in various excesses of various kinds until he becomes penniless, homeless, and forlorn. Finally, the young man is reduced to living with the pigs, eating what is given to the pigs in order to stay alive. And it occurs to this Prodigal Son, “You know, I could go back to the country, back to my father’s house. Of course he wouldn’t take me back, but I could be a slave and eat much better than this because my father treats his slaves much better than this.” And so off he goes, but when the father sees him coming he rejoices greatly and orders a great feast to be prepared. Now the older son is very jealous of this, and says, “Gosh, dad, I’ve been with you all the time. I’ve always been a good boy. I’ve done everything you wanted me to do. You never killed a fatted calf for me, and here you are having a huge party for my idiot brother who never did anything.” The father says, “But don’t you see? I thought I had no son and now I do.”

Look at the gratitude in all of these people. The father, grateful because he has regained the son whom he loves. The Prodigal Son who is grateful simply to be accepted back as a slave, much less as a younger son. And look at the hard heart, the pain of the older brother who does not feel his father’s love since he has never done anything wrong for which his father has had to forgive him.

Each of you is a prodigal. Each of you has squandered precious things. Each of you greatly and humbly seeks to return to the house of the Father, to that place of Love that is undefiled and pure. For in that state gratitude is natural and flows effortlessly and this is a great truth for each of you, that you are loved deeply, that you are welcomed in spite of any and all failures, and that the Creator does give great thanks for you. Truly, it takes the movement of thought from the little self experienced in every day to that self that each knows is a truer and deeper self. Gazing at life from the standpoint of the everyday self, there is hardly ever a completely trouble-free or worry-free experience. There is hardly ever a reason to feel completely or profoundly grateful. And yet if one can move back into that prodigal self that is coming home, you may see that all of experience is such that the only response is thankfulness and praise.

Why is this gratitude so powerful? Simply because it is the truth. In truth everything that occurs to you is a gift. Each situation delivers to you the sisters and brothers of experience, Sister Sorrow, Brother Pain. The list is different for each entity. Brother Anger. Sister Depression. Each spirit will have its own guests that seem to be difficult indeed to be hospitable towards, and yet each of these guests comes with great gifts to give you. There is a natural rebellion against having to see things from such a deep perspective. The mind does not want to move to this level where it can be seen that all things are gifts. The mind wants to distinguish between things. The mind wants to make choices and stack everything in neat and orderly piles. “This is that. This is the other. This is something else entirely.” But that spark of true self within you is ever ready to spread and illuminate the spirit within, the heart within.

Each entity, each spirit that has taken flesh comes to the experience of incarnation with an agenda, with the hope of learning and the hope of service. It seems very simple before incarnation, this whole remembering of things through the veil. And it is not so simple, for the veil is surely there and surely appropriately thick and impenetrable. But for those who can live within the open heart, who can face the difficulties of the day from that place of the open heart, there is the opportunity to see each day as part of a dance that is all too short, a dance of rhythm and grace, a dance of living and feeling and expressing the truth within. We hope for each of you the grace to see into that rhythmic and muscular pattern that is prepared for you to walk upon. May each of you have the courage to wait when it feels right, to wait even though to the world this may make no sense. For if each of you can stay within the heart and can sense for the rhythmic delightfulness of things, that attitude of gratitude shall come easier and easier until finally you may experience whole days at a time for what they really are: one moment, one now that is ever fresh, ever beautiful, and ever perfect.

May you learn to express this faith by an increasing stubbornness in holding to that attitude that has its source in the spark of Love itself. For the attitude which you bring to your experience shall make a great deal of difference in that experience, and every moment that you spend attempting to center the self and balance the self, turning always again to that center of Love within, each moment is an experience of truth. We realize that this is a concept difficult to work with words, for the emotional content of thankfulness is far greater than words can express. The power of a thankful heart is truly infinite. May your heart have that great benefit of your protection of it, of your nurturing of that spiritual self within that more and more yearns to dance the dance of incarnation with rhythm, grace, and beauty.

Now Q’uo said that attempting to feel gratitude by itself is not the way that true gratitude develops within the soul, but, instead, it is in the willing of the soul to be still and allow the world around it to find its balance within the soul. They said that this is not easy to do within the culture which does not teach faith in this process but focuses on getting a good job, making money, having friends, and being grateful to those who help us to do this and feeling irritation towards those who hinder these efforts. Q’uo used the parable of the Prodigal Son to say how each of us has wasted useful things, and now we seek to return to the Love of the Father where we are greatly beloved in spite of all of our failures. They went on to say from the perspective of our everyday self we seldom have worry-free experiences or any reason to feel completely grateful, but if we can see ourselves as the Prodigal Son returning home, we can feel profoundly grateful. Q’uo went on to say that gratitude is so powerful because everything that happens to us is a gift, and is the way that we learn the truth through all of the difficult experiences that each person has in their own unique ways to learn the lessons of the incarnation and how to be of service. Q’uo continued by saying that these lessons looked much simpler before we moved through the veil of forgetting, but they said that if we could experience each lesson with an open heart that each day can become a dance of living, of seeing, and being able to express the truth within us. Then they said that if we can stay within our hearts and feel the rightness of our experiences, then gratitude will become easier for us to enter into for greater periods of time of feeling the perfection of the present moment. Q’uo completed their reply by recommending that we develop an attitude of faith and determination to center and balance our self, and to turn again to that Love within us so that each moment is an experience of truth because each moment is a dance of our incarnation full of rhythm, grace, and beauty. On October 19, 1986, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the truth within us:

Each choice, however, to be most efficacious, in our opinion needs to be based upon the great desire to seek what you may call the truth within each portion of one’s life, and then in a particular portion of the daily experience choose to reflect the Light which one has received back to the Creator in a manner of communing with the one Creator which will allow the seeker then to become aware of the essence of all things within the life pattern.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and light. We are those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet you once again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present might have use in the requesting. Is there a further query at this time to which we might speak?

T: Could you comment on my meditational experience from last Sunday?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We may speak to a certain extent. The boundary which we do not wish to cross is that which infringes upon your own free will. However, we find that we may suggest that the catalyst which faces you now in the world of illusion is that which has significance to a deeper portion of your being. And as it does have a potency it therefore affects the perceptions that you experienced when you attempted to enter the meditative state and reach down into a deeper portion of your conscious mind in order harmonize your vibrations as a part of the group meditation. The difficult nature of the catalyst which you now face had its effect upon the images which were being fed to you from your subconscious mind and were attempting to give an indication of the effect of this catalyst upon a basic portion of your personality structure. Therefore, the distortions in your perception occurred as a means whereby the effect of the deeper levels of your being was presenting itself in symbolic form to the conscious mind.

May we speak to any other query, my brother?

T: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I would like to ask about this sense that was suggested to me that my reluctance to work on this book was related to it being my swan song, the last thing that I would do before leaving this incarnation. Could you comment on this possibility?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Again, we may speak only in a limited sense in this instance. To look upon a project or an activity as that which shall be the final statement of an incarnation is an attitude and an experience which could be utilized at any time by any entity within the incarnation, for, indeed, no entity knows the length of days which await in the future, as you call it. Whether this particular project is indeed the final curtain of your incarnation has little value in whether or not an entity such as yourself might decide to undertake it. For to think in this manner is to put a limitation upon one’s own perceptions and experience whether the perception may eventually be true or false. Thus, we would counsel you, my sister, to worry not in this regard, for it is well said in one of the cultural sayings of your people that “what will be, will be.” Your attitude in partaking in this experience is that which will make it as it will be for you.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[No more questions.]

I am Q’uo, and we would once again thank each entity present for inviting our presence in your circle of seeking this day. It is always a great privilege for us to be invited to your meditation gathering, for we, in these experiences, are able to have our being within your illusion and are able to see the Creator in each and every entity and activity, observing the effect of illusion upon Love. We would remind each that there is no entity which walks this path alone. For each here and, indeed, each person of your planetary population, has a guide, a teacher, a counselor, a friend, and many of them that accompany each upon this journey. Within those moments of meditation, of prayer, and of contemplation retire you there to speak with those who walk with you and who offer you unseen hands in times of need. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we leave each of you in the love and light of the infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went upstairs and recorded the section on Exercise from Chapter Three of 101. Then I went outside and changed out the sugar syrup in my neighbor’s two hummingbird feeders. Her feeders seemed to have some activity last week, but mine didn’t so I am not changing out my feeders because this is the time of year that the hummingbirds head south. Then I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco, and my second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up some Kleenexes.

This afternoon I went upstairs and recorded the sections on Mental Health and Emotions from Chapter Three of 102. Then I went outside and transplanted the ten chrysanthemums that I placed at the bottom of the Flower Fall Mound, to replace the Sun Patiens that the deer ate, into the ground with the plan of leaving them there as they are perennials.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 22

Guard Your Thoughts With Love

I am the Spirit of all compassion, which speaks with the voice of Jesus the Christ to the needs of the world today. I greet my beloved brothers and sisters in spirit in the consciousness which is divine Love.

You are surrounded by that Love. Each cell of the body acknowledges and dwells within that Love. All things are held in balance by divine Love: planets in their courses, blood in the veins, the breath in the body.

All that is left without the confines of the perfect and perfectly understood Love of Jesus the Christ is the free will of humankind. Therefore, your thoughts are not necessarily protected by the consciousness of Love.

Allow your thoughts, therefore, to dwell with those things which are full of Love: your own body, cell by cell; the creation about you, blade of grass by blade of grass. And Love Itself may come to comfort you as your consciousness prays to the consciousness of divine Love.

May you be in prayer this day, for the Comforter is always with those who request it. In this surety and in this peace we leave you, with blessings, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 4, 1998:

Our question has to do with a quote which Ra made, “The source of all distortion is the limitation of the viewpoint.” We are wondering how, since each of us seems to bring various distortions with us into the illusion, these distortions affect that which we produce, whether we raise a family, create laws, beauty, dance, channel, whatever we do? How do our distortions in our personalities affect that which we hope to produce in our learning and our service in this incarnation?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator in whose service we come to your peoples. We want to thank each of you for calling us to your group, for enabling us to learn from our own way of offering service. For truly without your call we could not be useful in our present occupation, for we hear the cries of the sorrowed of the Earth, and we seek to lighten that sorrow by sharing our thoughts and our opinions. We ask that each of you exercise discrimination in listening to our words or any words. For we are not authorities, nor is anyone else when it comes to the spiritual journey, for each person is unique. Each spirit has its own journey, and though there are many, many points of similarity each path is unique. Each spark of the Creator is unique, and each will recognize and treasure those truths that are meant to be heard. Those thoughts that we offer that do not meet that demanding criteria, we ask that you leave behind. For truly you shall recognize those concepts that can be to you a tool or a resource in your evolution.

Your query this evening concerns distortion, the distortion seen in personality. And in order to discuss this we must move back to examine that concept of distortion. This is the way that we use the word distortion. To our way of thinking, all that there is in the manifested world is distortion. The lack of distortion, when absolute, describes intelligent infinity, the Creator Itself, in Its unpotentiated state. The first distortion which approaches the unmanifest intelligent infinity is Free Will. This produces that manifestation of the Logos which is known to this instrument as intelligent energy, or Love, and the next distortion is known to your scientists as the photon, or Light. When we come to you in the Love and in the Light of the infinite Creator we are coming to you in those distortions, for were we to come to you as undistorted Creator we would have no being in a manifested universe. We would be unable to act in any way, for all would be one in an absolute sense.

So, when we gaze at the distortion of a particular personality shell, at the systems of energy blockage and bafflement which causes what seem to others as an unbalanced or distorted personality, we gaze upon distortions of distortions of distortions. We gaze upon systems of energy, all of which are distortions of the one great original Thought which is Love. To us, then, that a person is distorted in such and such a way, in the context of an incarnation, is not a bad, a wrong, or an incorrect thing. For we are aware that each entity before incarnation selects the personality shell which contains those gifts and those physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual limitations which will create biases or distortions, which will then set up both the personal learning for that entity for that incarnation and the path of service or paths of service that become available to the entity during incarnation, given that various systems of distortion do indeed prove to stand the test of incarnational time.

It is not that an entity incarnates with one mission and can either fulfill it or fail to fulfill it. Rather, there is the setting up of circumstance which may provide the catalyst which was considered desirable by that spirit before incarnation. The system of distortions or biased opinions can show themselves very simply in the growing entity as preferences. Each young spirit in incarnation discovers things that it likes, things that it wishes to avoid. As the incarnation progresses there are repetitions and cycles of experience that lead the entity repeatedly to the crossroads of incarnational choice, not simply once in an incarnation but reliably and dependably again and again. Each spirit will face one or more basic incarnational questions. For instance, this instrument is already aware that its incarnational desire for personal learning was to find situations in which it was able to give without expectation of return. This is, in fact, a fairly common incarnational goal. And to this end, certain biases were chosen by this particular entity. In just this fashion each evolving spirit will in the processes of incarnational living meet situation after situation in which the metaphysical question is repeated, and the choice may again be made for service to others, for service to self.

So, the biases given to oneself certainly create avenues of learning and avenues of service. However, the metaphysical twist, shall we say, of fate deposits in each spirit’s experience a universe in which gifts are not necessarily used for what that entity thinks they should be used for. The ability to dance, the ability to sing, the ability to do mathematical equations, the ability to do any particular thing which is considered unusually skillful or to constitute a talent or a gift may logically be assumed to lead one to a specific career or line of work or avenue of expression. In many cases, this is simply not the goal in a metaphysical sense. Because one can, for instance, play the piano it is not necessarily one’s fate to become a pianist. The delicacy with which the music is heard and felt, the dexterity of mind and muscle that is involved in producing a heartfelt and intelligent piece of music has many metaphysical uses which are not necessarily apparent and do not have much to do with music.

Consequently, biases in the form of talents and gifts, in a metaphysical sense, do not equate from talent to expression. There is always the mystery of that rhythm of destiny which, if looked for, and listened for, and heeded when heard, can greatly facilitate and ease the accomplishment of that destiny which was, in fact, metaphysically hoped for, illogical as it may seem in Earth terms.

In the sense in which the question was asked, the distortions had to do with producing a pure channeling, the three entities involved in producing this channeling being obviously distorted and biased and in many ways unbalanced. The question put to this instrument by the original questioner in this regard was, “How can such an unbalanced group produce a pure and clear contact?” And we say to this entity, the one known as J, and to this group, as we have said before and as others have said through this instrument, that, metaphysically speaking, it is the intention, the desire, and the hunger of the entity in visualizing service that creates the service, not the system of distortions which have set up a particular dynamic. However, it is to be noted that in line with what we have said about distortions, although it is in no way obvious that various distortions would create these dynamics, nevertheless, the distortions chosen by each of those three entities were exquisitely utile in creating an atmosphere in which three confused and highly distorted entities could support each other’s desire to serve and could support such with a purity of intention that, for each, had been honed over a period of time.

Again, we note that distortion, seen in a metaphysical sense, is a matter of mechanics, of setting up a situation which may produce a system of energies that harmonizes for a specific kind of service. When any group unites for service there is a great explosion of potential energy, and it is to those entities who have spent the time or the effort or have the gifts to be of a sincerity that is profound that service in a group shall be most successful. The way distortion feeds into group effort, then, is both obvious and mysterious. Obvious in the sense of seen attributes, talents, and gifts. Forever mysterious in that seen by human eyes each entity is less than perfect. Seen as systems of energy that may harmonize, distortions may be seen as most fortunate and most powerful in combination.

Our question has to do with a quote which Ra made, “The source of all distortion is the limitation of the viewpoint.” We are wondering how, since each of us seems to bring various distortions with us into the illusion, these distortions affect that which we produce, whether we raise a family, create laws, beauty, dance, channel, whatever we do? How do our distortions in our personalities affect that which we hope to produce in our learning and our service in this incarnation? Q’uo began by saying that it was their belief that all of creation is distorted, and only the Creator is not distorted. They said that the first distortion is the Free Will of the Creator which then uses the power of Love to create the third distortion which is Light that manifests as the photon that is the material of the creation. Then Q’uo said that when they looked at any entity’s personality shell, they could see many distortions of mind, body, spirit, and emotions that give the entity the means of learning its incarnational lessons and of being of service to others. Q’uo went on to say that as we grow up our distortions manifest as things or experiences, some which we like, and some that we don’t like, and our pre-incarnative lessons will present themselves many times during our lives such as in desiring to give without expectation of return so that we can make the basic choice of service to others or service to self. Q’uo continued by saying that we are all born with a variety of gifts that may not always be used in the way that we think that they should be used in the metaphysical sense, so they suggested that we look for that rhythm of our destiny to determine how we can use our gifts. Q’uo went on to say that it was the intention to use our gifts to be of service that was the most important factor in how the gifts should be used, and that distortions seen in the metaphysical sense could be utilized in an harmonious way to provide a certain kind of service. Q’uo completed their thoughts on distortions by saying that: “The way distortion feeds into group effort, then, is both obvious and mysterious. Obvious in the sense of seen attributes, talents, and gifts. Forever mysterious in that seen by human eyes each entity is less than perfect. Seen as systems of energy that may harmonize, distortions may be seen as most fortunate and most powerful in combination.” On March 23, 2019, Q’uo defined how distortions might be used:

We would suggest using the term “expression of” so that any quality that might be considered a distortion might also be seen as a quality that is an expression of a certain kind of an experience. In this way there could be more and more intensity of expression of beauty, of truth, of separation, of ugliness, of adversary relationship, so that there is the quality of more of one sense of an entity, or of beauty, of joy, of understanding, of separation, and so forth. There is, indeed, then, the different type of use of distortion in this regard that sees distortion as a range, as a degree of expression of a certain kind of quality, rather than a simple movement away from unity.

So, in the sense of the more general use of distortion, there is the original answer that we gave concerning movement away from unity as we proceed in the creation towards more and more individualization of the creation. There is also the use of distortion in the sense that there is more or less of a certain quality available in the creation of a certain aspect, shall we say, of the creation.

We are those of Q’uo, and we would welcome further queries upon this point before moving on to another question.

H: I want to know if you can enlighten me on my father who died last August and the fact that I have a real sense of him being with me, and I am not sure what I mean by that. Perhaps you can help me understand a real sense of his presence with me at this time?

We are those of Q’uo, and we grasp your query, my sister. When entities leave the Earth plane there is, in many cases, much healing that needs to take place, and adequate time and space for this healing is supported, nurtured, and provided. There is no time limit upon this period of balancing and review of incarnation, and often a portion of this healing is the continued ability to, as this instrument would say, keep track of those entities [which one has] a particular kind of connection, affinity, or dynamic with. In many cases there is the opportunity during this period for comfort in the company of those still living who have this particular connection, affinity, or dynamic. This is not necessarily evident from closeness within incarnation and, indeed, when there has been some lack of communication within incarnation it is extremely healing for the entity moving through that review of incarnation to sit on the shoulder, indeed, to lie within the heart as comforter and supporter. And most of all to breathe the odor of a beloved personality, for even though the personality shell is chosen out of a vast self that is the true self for incarnation, that personality shell is turned into art, turned into beauty by the creative Spirit. And when an entity gazes back over an incarnation and sees that bright light of a particular shell that for this entity has shone, or as the song said, “Helped the universe to shine,” for this entity, there is great comfort in the company of that entity. It is not that there is a great message to be shared or that there is a concern, but, rather, simply an enjoyment and appreciation that could not be felt within incarnation but that is seen from the wider standpoint of larger life beyond that veil of illusion which is the Earth plane.

May we answer you further, my sister?

H: What I think I hear you saying is that the entity that manifested on Earth as my father is now sitting on my shoulder in appreciation of having a broader view now that he is no longer manifested physically. He is more of a total spirit. It is more like that entity is looking at me, and that is an interesting perspective for me to see because I wondered if I was in some way invoking him. Or wanting to, or this was a hope. I didn’t know where it was coming from. Thank you for your explanation.

We are those of Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. We believe that you have the gist of it as we offered it. This instrument is having difficulty expressing this concept. The puzzle of personality is that puzzle where pieces keep trying to fit together, and after incarnation after incarnation is experienced each entity in relationship finds the fit a bit better and a bit better. And as entities move in and out of illusion they can, when out of the illusion, have far greater appreciation of the healing and healthful aspects of a given relationship and find transformative healing within appreciation of the living entity that is within incarnation seen from that broader context. Indeed, for a person to heal from incarnation there is the self to be forgiven. And each relationship is gazed upon. The surprises involved in this gaze from larger life are many. And we would simply say that in most cases where there is that intuition of presence the source of that intuition is not the self in the personality shell of incarnation but the other self that is in relationship and that is relating from larger life as a part of its healing. So, in a way that entity that is you is a healing presence to this entity as it is in larger life reviewing the incarnation that has been and gazing at the self to see what perhaps shall be the next choices of incarnation, of personality shell, of mission, of purpose.

Is there a further question, my sister?

H: Thank you very much. That was very clear.

Q’uo: We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument and leave it in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. We would continue to entertain further queries that those present might have for us at this time.

E: I am wondering if it is possible to meet yourself in the form of another person in this life?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. In the largest possible sense this is always true with each entity that you meet, for each entity is an other self, an other aspect of your self and of the one Creator from which all aspects move into experience through the illusion.

In the sense which we feel you are asking at this time we would also suggest that is also quite possible for entities to have the opportunity to interact with other portions of the self which have incarnated from other periods of the, as you would see it, the river of time moving from one point to another. However, we would suggest that this experience is one which has the purpose of allowing each aspect of the larger self to integrate with another in order that there might be a more complete experience for that portion of the self which might be termed the oversoul or the higher self. This portion of each entity’s self exists at a level of experience which can be seen as existing in your future. However, it also is that which exists in what you see as your past. The experience of each of its portions is undertaken in order that an overall balance might be achieved.

Is there a further question, my brother?

E: How would you recognize such a meeting?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We would suggest that the recognition is most difficult, for the great majority of the third-density population is unaware of the possibility of such an experience and would not be able to identify the feelings of familiarity and the intuition that alerts the conscious mind to the recognition that is subtle, profound and powerful.

Is there a further query?

E: No. Thank you. I think that that was a very accurate answer.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: H and I were talking about how I could help myself with diet. I feel that I am living on faith and nerve pretty much after a lot of experience with diet. Why would I give myself such a bankrupt system? Why would I not react to food which I so love to see growing and that I so love to cook for other people? I have no logical anything to illuminate that feeling. It’s just an intuition.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. As you are so well aware, the experience which you have had with the ingestion of foodstuffs has been one which has seen a full circle of variety and preparation, tailored so that the gastrointestinal tract which your physical vehicle is saddled with may be able to pass the foodstuffs in a regular fashion. There has been the pre-incarnative choices to limit the physical vehicle in many ways in order that the efforts of the incarnation might be focused inwardly and might look toward those areas towards which it has looked. The side effects of the physical vehicle’s limitations are many, including those concerning the ingestion of foodstuffs, as you are aware. The fact that the physical vehicle is still incarnate is a fact that should bring great rejoicing, for this physical vehicle has gone through much stress and difficulty throughout its incarnation in order that the focus be maintained. It is part of your present understanding that the low-residue diet is of central importance, and this suggestion is one which we continue to recommend. This in itself has its limiting factors according to the variety of foodstuffs that are within the range of the low-residue diet. If there is the desire to further improve the diet, we are aware of some small measures that can be taken but in the overall sense would continue to recommend the course which has been traveled of late.

We would at this time once again thank those present for inviting our presence in your circle of seeking this day. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai.

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply to buy some cat food. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My third stop was at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. My fourth stop was at Speedway to get 5 gallons of gasoline for my big mower, Venus. I also filled up Stanley with gas as well. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some paper plates. When I got back home, I went upstairs and recorded the section of 102 called The Chakra System/Energy Body.

This afternoon, after lunch, I went back upstairs and recorded the section of 102 called Balancing Exercises. Then I went outside and used my hedge clippers to cut down the dying Peony plants near the fishpond, and then I put them in a garbage can for yard waste pickup Thursday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 21

Credo

Greetings in the Love of Christ. I am the Spirit of the consciousness of Christ in the vibration which comforts this child.

Can you consider yourself as one of the company of the faithful because you know that the means of eternal life is at hand? Can you rest in the glory of your future experience while dwelling in the present difficult times?

We find your hearts to be lax, for in your appreciation of the inevitability of salvation, you forget that the moment of salvation for any soul is that moment in which the soul may turn to its Creator and vibrate, “Credo. Credo,” with a whole and single heart.

Peace be with you, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 1, 1998:

Our question today concerns the principle of spiritual pride. We are wondering how it fits into the sequence of catalyst that each of us works with in our lives. We all work with pride at some time or another. Some have said that it comes up last in our pattern, that it is sort of the culmination of all of our work. We would like for Q’uo to give us an idea of what spiritual pride is and how we work with it and if there is any particular time that is more appropriate to work with it than any other?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as the vibration, Q’uo. And we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose service we are. We feel very privileged to be called to your circle at this session of working, and we bless and thank each within the circle who has come to seek the truth. We share that seeking and are glad to share our poor thoughts, as long as each of you will feel completely comfortable listening without needing to agree or to disagree, for if you disagree we would ask that you would leave behind those thoughts. And if you agree, then we would ask that you would simply make those thoughts part of your own resources and tools, always subject to the moving rhythms of learning and experience, for personal truth is both clear and moving. There are journeys to take in this seeking of truth, ways of going that develop and lead to other levels, other facets of that infinite mystery that is Love.

This instrument finds it amusing that one of the cats that is a denizen of this house has chosen this moment to begin to snore. We hope that that is not in reaction to our words, but we cannot be sure. At any rate, we find it humorous, for we are not proud, and we take pride in that. We seek to be humble, and we know that we may be speaking complete nonsense to any of your ears, and if that is the way that it comes out, that is fine with us, that is what we wish to say. For you are the arbiter that is important to you. It is your judgment that counts and no one else’s. No authority. No book. No person. For within you is all that there is, and within you is a finely honed system of sense, the physical senses being but the beginning of those senses into which you may pour your attention and from which you derive the biases that distort your life in just the way that you live it. These biases and distortions are yours. No one else’s. You are unique.

We are aware that you wish to talk about spiritual pride, and we find that, as is often the case, when we are asked concerning a specific subject, we need to move back into the generalities upon which we may base those opinions that we would share with you. Let us look at this concern of pride. What is the general concept of pride? When someone is proud it is generally of some thing. A person may take pride in many things: his physical strength, her physical delicacy, the abundance of supply, or the lack of dependence upon supply, the work that one does, or the work that one will not do, the relationships that one has, or the barrier to relationships. In all these things one may take a certain pride, may say, “I feel that this is a strong point of my being. I feel I can be proud of this accomplishment, this relationship, this situation.” And there is nothing more distorted about pride than there is about the illusion in general. However, in general the illusion is very dense, and this illusion creates the distortion that it is what one does that is the avenue for pride, for feeling worthwhile. The conversation of strangers tends to begin in your culture with an examination of the work that each is accomplishing in order to make money or in order to express self. Whether the work is routine or creative, it is a starting point that people recognize in each other, the place of comfort where one can divulge something about the self and be receptive to hearing something trustably understandable from others. It is very awkward to go up to a stranger and say, “What sort of vibration do you have? What kind of being are you?” Entities tend not to take pride in who they are, in the being that they express moment to moment. So, you may see all of spiritual pride as a thing basically one with mental and emotional pride and physical pride.

Now let us look at pride as [in] your religions, especially the Christianity, the Muslim, and the yogic systems. In those systems spiritual pride is considered a negative value. Why is that? It is assumed that if one is proud, then there is something that must be overcome in order for him to continue with his spiritual unfoldment and evolution. Perhaps the principle, the spine, shall we say, of reason for the mistrust of pride by spiritual systems is best illustrated in the little story within your Holy Bible wherein two men are described, one of whom has made it very obvious by the way that he is dressed, by the spiritual accouterment of his costume and the books that he holds, and beside him a beggar man with tattered clothing and dirty skin, an empty stomach, and a full awareness of his iniquity. While the rich and well-satisfied man is praying, “Oh Lord, I give more to the temple than anyone else. I fast three days a week. I pray without ceasing,” the beggar is saying over and over, “Lord, have mercy on me, a sinner.” Can you see the walls that have come up about this rich man, the wall of wealth, of dress, of possessions, and of actions? All of them offered in a sincere effort to be holy but offered as an accomplishment. These walls make it possible for this man not to realize that in addition to all of these things that he has done right, there remains a basic and intrinsic identity within the illusion which the rich man and the beggar share with total equality. And that is the human state. The human state itself is the basis of pride, for it seems to each human, without recourse to any physical evidence, that she is alone, that the walls of skin surround the self and cut it off from oneness with all else that there is.

To those who are not seeking spiritually, this may seem fairly obvious and not worth mentioning. Of course, each entity is separate. Of course, each entity is alone. Each has common concerns with others of like mind, but with physical eyes, physical senses, there is no question but that each entity is alone, apart from and over against other selves, outer situations in general, and the entire environment in which the entity dwells. It is instinct, the instinct of the physical body, that carries you about, that begins this discriminatory process. The infant slowly realizes that some of its needs will not be met. It begins to realize that some things can be hurtful and does not want to repeat experiences of pain. And so, the walls begin to go up about the young heart. “Don’t touch the stove. Don’t pat the cat too hard. Don’t pick up the dog. Don’t. Don’t. Don’t.” As the child grows it learns how to defend the self. It experiments with ways of relating to other selves. And except in very unusual situations, by the time this entity is considered a mature adult by the surrounding society, this entity has become one to some extent controlled by fear.

We changed from pride to fear because the one known as J was asking which was the ultimate catalyst to be dealt with within third density. And we would respond in general that the only catalyst dealt with in third density is fear and love. The entity begins its babyhood wrapped in love, love known throughout its system, and it learns to close itself, to become apart, and to become defended because it seems fairly obvious that there are things to fear. There are entities and objects out there that can harm and hurt. So, the spiritual life within third density may be described as either a learning how to love or a learning how to release fear, for fear is that distortion of love that posits a separation betwixt beings and things, thus occasioning the necessity of having some sort of response to these persons or things that will tend to increase safety and comfort.

We are not saying that these contents are incorrect, for the entity’s fears are real. There is that which is feared. It is an illusion. However, the illusion cannot be brutally penetrated and torn away, for that would also do harm to the developing self. Indeed, when one is working with one’s fears, attempting to see the love behind the apparent separation, the most nearly correct attitude is simply the slowing down of self, quieting the mind, stilling the emotion, until you are able to sit with whatever fear that is, not removing it harshly, but perhaps moving away strands from that tapestry in front of you, gradually making an opening through which you can see the light beyond.

We could picture the fear in one as being within a cave of safety with a good stout blanket over the hole of the cave to hold back those things of which they are afraid. If one rips away the blanket, then one must deal with all of the distortion at once. However, if one is satisfied to sit with and accept and be conscious of that particular fear that you are experiencing, then one may gently, gradually, with persistent effort, see a lightening of the burden, see a nearer and nearer distance to where that blanket has a place in it where one can go in and out and venture a step or two into that world beyond the cave.

The group question for this session was: “We would like for Q’uo to give us an idea of what spiritual pride is and how we work with it and if there is any particular time that is more appropriate to work with it than any other?” Q’uo began their response by saying that third-density entities don’t usually take pride in the nature of their being, so they gave a general definition of pride in the third density illusion as that which one feels proud of in the areas of the mental, emotional, and physical accomplishments. Q’uo then said that most of our world religions view pride as something negative that needs to be overcome, and that the basic human state that creates pride is the feeling that one is isolated and alone, cut off from any feeling of oneness. Q’uo went on to say that if one is not a spiritual seeker that being physically alone is obvious and is first realized in childhood when the child is told a series of actions that it should not do which eventually causes the feeling of being controlled by fear. Then Q’uo said that they mentioned fear because the only catalysts that are dealt with in the third density are fear and love, so the spiritual life in third density is either learning how to love or how to release fear as fear is a distortion of love which suggests that there is a separation that requires that people find a way to be safe. Then Q’uo suggested that the way to deal with fear was to quiet the mind and carefully examine the cause of any fear so that the fabric of the fear may be slowly separated, and the light that is beyond the fear may be seen. On August 9, 2002, Q’uo described how releasing fear may be accomplished:

However, there is just as much efficacy in the smallest improvement in releasing fear. As the entity perceives fear where before it did not, thusly it begins to perceive those key elements which provide the catalyst that increases fear. Once these imbedded points of entry for negative catalyst are located, it may be seen that these are like triggers towards contraction, self-protection and fear. Thusly, the process becomes more and more transparent to the seeking self, and the self begins to be able to disconnect the seemingly fear-producing catalyst from the actual process of turning catalyst into experience. It is a matter of identifying that point when an entity is entering into fear, and, as we said, this is a subtle and usually long-term process. It is an awakening that is most salubrious and certainly, usually, most dearly bought.

There are those things which enrich and deepen an entity’s ability to work with catalyst, and predictably we feel that this bliss begins with the silence. Entering into silence is an unnatural decision to the earth-bound entity. There is a tremendous amount of letting go implicit in the training of the self to enter into the silence and to release the contents of the intellectual mind. We heartily recommend this entering into the silence upon a daily basis, because it is a kind of training that is like the exercise of the body that strengthens the muscles.

Each of you has come to feel comfortable with imaging and ideating of the self as a spiritual being. Each of you is awake in a land where many slumber. And so to each of you there are special opportunities, both for service and for pain, and spiritual pride is a distortion which each seeker becomes aware of in a subtle way, over time. It is that which remains when the fears have been shaken up and the cave has been left. It is the distortion or fault peculiar to those who have worked the hardest to realize who they are, and where they are going, and whose they are. So let us look at the possible way to work with this dynamic of spiritual pride.

Within this instrument’s spiritual system, pride, like envy, greed, lust, sloth, is considered more of a vice than an actual sin, a kind of excess of a good thing. It is good to be humble, and yet one can justly be proud of one’s good works, one’s good habits, one’s ethics, one’s conduct. When one is attempting to do everything that one can to live a good and holy life, one is peculiarly apt to feel some pride in oneself. Now can you see how that feeling is a separator between the self and the world about the self? It is based upon the assumption, which is an illusion, that one is responsible for the self and at the base of the self, one is oneself. This is a sticky, sticky point, and we would ask you to look closely at this matter of identity, for as long as there is self, there will be pride in self or a feeling about self that does separate one from other. If one is still thinking that one is still living one’s own life, one is not yet beyond spiritual pride. This instrument is aware that she is not beyond spiritual pride and has often said that this is the one vice that she cannot find a way to remove from her personality, for even though she attempts to work on her humility she has a pride of self that thinks self is right. There is a righteousness there. There is an inherent lack of eagerness to taste other souls’ flavors. There is a desire to retain some boundaries, some uniqueness of self, which is completely understandable in an illusion where there is no way to discover in any way that can be proven that one is not separate, that one is not, at base, oneself. And yet we say to you that as far as we know, at base there is only the one great Self, that Love which is reflected in each of the Creator’s children, which each of you is.

As long as you think that you have a self that you need to defend you shall be working with spiritual pride, and so entities for the most part are working with this no matter how persistently and purely and devotionally they have sought year after year, yet still there is the sense of “I” am searching. “I” am looking. “I” am seeking to become the best that “I” can. Conversely, we have found that coming into a fuller awareness of self is actually a process of subtraction, simplification, and elimination of things from the defended self until finally the self is empty and the barriers are down. Is this safe to do within your density? No. Not at all, not in the sense of the preservation of the physical body, the emotional body, or the spiritual body within incarnation.

What we are trying to say is that it is not a terrible thing to be working with pride or in general to be working with one’s fear. This is part of what one is doing in this illusion. This is what you are supposed to be doing. This is your subject matter: fear and love. Boundaries and unity. Each time this instrument tunes she repeats a prayer that we would like to repeat at this time. “Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace. Where there is hatred, let me sow love. Where there is injury, pardon. Where there is discord, union. Where there is doubt, faith. Where there is despair, hope. Where there is darkness, light. Where there is sadness, joy. Oh, divine Master, teach us to seek not so much to be loved, as to love. Not so much to be consoled, as to console.” And this instrument often says, “Not so much to be controlling, but to allow control. For it is in pardoning that we are pardoned. It is in giving that we receive. It is in dying that we rise to eternal life.” Do you see the imagery of this prayer? The darkness that separates. The light that joins. The hatred that separates. The love that unites. This Prayer of St. Francis is the outcry of the soul who wishes to be free of self and subsumed into the service of the infinite Mystery that it worships and adores.

Then Q’uo said spiritual pride is that which develops in the spiritual seeker when it has left fear behind and has worked long and diligently to know the true nature of its being, and it is in this situation that it is easy to develop spiritual pride in how well one has lived a spiritual life. Q’uo went on to say that if one thinks that they are living their own life, wishing to retain spiritual boundaries, and thinking that they are right, they are not yet beyond spiritual pride. And then Q’uo said: “as far as we know, at base there is only the one great Self, that Love which is reflected in each of the Creator’s children, which each of you is.” Q’uo went on to say that as long as we think that we have a small self to defend and feel that it is achieving a great number of goals and desires that we should consider coming into an awareness of the true nature of our self is a process of subtracting qualities of the defended self until it is empty, and our defensive barriers are down. Then Q’uo said that it is all right to be working on our pride, on the concepts of fear and love, because this is the work of the third density, so they used The Prayer of St. Francis as an example of: “The darkness that separates. The light that joins. The hatred that separates. The love that unites.” They said that these concepts give us the opportunity to be free of our self and move as our soul into the service and worship of the infinite Mystery. On June 12, 1994, Q’uo spoke of the nature of the infinite Mystery:

When the desire to serve is felt within, and a channel is opened to the infinite Creator by means of praise and thanksgiving to that infinite One, then it is that this infinite mystery may flow through you, and as a star shines out into the infinite reaches of the one infinite and unified Creation there is no time or space. There is no size of large or small. Each speck of consciousness contains the Creator. Therefore, the wish to serve followed by the dedication to the mystery which is the one great original Thought, that Creator whose name is Love, know and take comfort in this truth as we understand it: you are effective. As you desire to serve, so do you serve. That soul whom you touch may never know you, may never be on the same continent as you, yet that universal Love which you channel forth in that silent witnessing finds its target, for it is called and it goes where it is called. You have only to sit and know the truth that all is Love.

And this is the door that opens into a larger and less fear-filled view of living within the illusion, this realization that there are different ways to look at each situation, that it is not terrible to have faults or to have sins or to have pride about the good things and fear about the bad things. That one is intended to be very confused by this illusion. That there is positive value in this confusion in that it, and it alone, tears most people away from those things that they cling to in fear.

You are attempting to set yourself free of an illusion, and yet within you there lies the self that is completely free, and often this instrument will recommend to people that instead of working intellectually upon some perceived problem that the person simply visualize a perfect state that is the actual truth of the situation. In truth, all is Love. In truth, all is perfect now, this instant, just as it is. For there is no time or space. This is an illusion. This is the stuff of the illusion. And each of us upon our journey are illusions also. And yet unique and wonderful beings, beloved of the Creator and persisting through octaves and octaves of creation to infinity, as those very sparks that learn again and again more and more as the creation’s heartbeat pulses and universes live and die and other universes are born.

It is easy to think of the spiritual life as a kind of school out of which one shall one day graduate, and certainly within the illusion of time life is graduated by larger life. There is a periodicity to things. Then for that universe in the fullness of that system of illusions, all the sparks of the Creator will have completed their journey and lost themselves within the Creator again. And all comes together in that universe at that time in an unimaginable ending of illusion into nothingness. For when there is no one to perceive, what is there but the Creator? And then the Creator dreams again and a universe is born, and the sparks are sent out again to learn more. And so, you are all on a journey that the Creator is fascinated with. You cannot do anything that will turn the Creator against you, for the Creator loves all that It has made with an unimaginable fervor and absolute tenacity and embraces each spark with a Love so profound and so great that it cannot be expressed.

We recommend to each the Prayer of St. Francis. When working with fear, and working with pride, and working with any perceived distortion that keeps one from that tuning that is the truest and the highest of the self, the remembrance that there are always ways of perceiving things that change your choices and options is a tremendous tool. Simply remembering that you can explore any situation for alternate ways of perceiving it, for alternate patterns into which to put it is a great resource. We encourage each to go ahead and be proud and to know that that is a distortion that is not particularly service-to-others oriented. And so, you shall work with it as you shall work with all you perceive false, and yet you shall remain human and error-prone, as we are error-prone. But beneath the time and space, the incarnation and the concerns of the incarnation, there abides a well of being that is infinite within you, an identity which creates unity with all that there is. And those moments when one is lost in communion with the Source and ending of all things are moments of blessing and healing where there is no distortion, for time and space have flown away and you are tabernacling with the Most High.

The next time that you experience the catalyst of feeling that you are yet an incomplete spiritual being, remember the truth of subtracting, of dropping away that which is not. And as you experience those realizations that enable you to drop a part of the ego away, rejoice. You cannot make it happen. You cannot rush it. But there come moments, and you perceive that you no longer have that pride or that particular fear. And of that you may be proud and happy, and if that is a distortion also, then so be it. For you are not here to go beyond distortion but to live within distortion by faith, to express within this confusion a trust in the plan that placed you here, a trust in the destiny that is absolutely yours. A feeling that cannot come from proof or words that all that is yours will come to you and that you do not need to reach but only ask “Thy will for me today. What is it? And I will try my best.” That is all that you must do. So do not give up upon the self because it continues to have distortions and confusions. That is all right. You are not supposed to be without illusion. Ah, precious incarnation. If we could but share with you the opportunity that is now yours. If we could share that perception with you fully you would jump for joy. You would rejoice most fully and heartily, for here is the place where you choose by faith alone, and this choice, this expression of faith, however imperfect, creates within that permanent self which is beyond space and time tremendous changes in consciousness which you cannot achieve outside of this third density of yours. For in other densities the veil of knowing is lifted, and what virtue is it then to realize that you are your brother and that all those things your brother has are you? There is no virtue in perceiving the color red if your eyes are open. But, ah, with the eyes closed, here you are in a world of color with your eyes closed. For you are in the equivalent of a black and white movie. You are up there on the screen watching yourself. The pigment of the movie screen is grainy, and some of the voices are distorted, and it’s kind of a corny story, and it’s over too soon. But, ah, when you come out of the theater into the light and you look back on that black and white movie and you see the hope and the faith, and the caring and the love, and the compassion that you truly have had, with no reason for it but just that constant desire for love, to know love, to know the truth, to express that love. Each of you is a gallant, gallant soul and we both envy you and honor you, for you do much that you do not know; even as you suffer, you heal worlds.

So be content. That is what we would say to you. Be content, and simply look carefully, and more carefully, and with opener and opener eyes at all that there is about you. And see into things as you can, as you are able, as you are given grace, remembering who you are, remembering in whose service you are and letting yourself be yourself, for that is a wonderful and special thing. Each of you is very beautiful.

Then Q’uo said that it was not bad to have fears, pride, and different ways to look at this illusion because that is how we can free ourselves of fear, or we can simply realize that all is perfect, that all is made of Love, that all is an illusion in which we help the Creator to know Itself in one octave after another as universes live and die and are born again infinitely. Q’uo continued by saying that as we all travel our spiritual journeys into unity with the Creator that the universe will dissolve into nothingness, and then the Creator will dream another dream, and another universe will be born where there are no mistakes as all is loved and accepted by the Creator and embraced by Its Love. Then Q’uo said that there were many ways at looking at any situation, and to learn from it, and from working with pride, for we all are error-prone, but beneath all time and space there is a portion of us that is a well of beingness that creates unity with all things, and then we are communing with the Source of all and tabernacling with the Most High. Q’uo went on to say that when we feel that we are inadequate as a spiritual seeker that we should remember the concept of subtracting those parts of our ego that help us to realize that we are working with our destiny when we are working with distortions that require that we live by faith that all is well. Then they said that when we wonder if all that is meant for us will come to us, we can simply ask the Creator: “What is Your will for me today?” Then they said that we should not give up on ourselves when we have distortions and confusions because working with them is the purpose of our incarnation as we create changes in our eternal self that are beyond time and space, and which cannot be created outside of this third density illusion.  Then Q’uo said that when our incarnations are over and we look back at our experiences within our incarnations that we will see: “the hope and the faith, and the caring and the love, and the compassion that you truly have had, with no reason for it but just that constant desire for love, to know love, to know the truth, to express that love.” Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that we should be content and look at our lives and all around us with clearer sight with the grace that has been given to us and remember in whose service we are and to let our selves be who we are as we are all unique and beautiful beings. On May 18, 2019, Q’uo spoke of the purpose of our incarnation:

As each seeker begins the day, knowing that there is much work, as you would call it, of the physical sense, of the mental sense, and of the spiritual sense awaiting it, it is well to retire into the meditative state and to open the heart in that state to the One Creator; to move within the heart of the being of the seeker that the will of the Creator may be done that day through the seeker in all the actions, in all the thoughts, in all the words; that the seeker becomes a vessel then for the One Creator to move upon the waters of consciousness, both subconscious and conscious realms, so that there is a fuel, shall we say, that the seeker then is powered by, knowing that it has given itself over to the basic reason it exists. The purpose of the incarnation, the destination of each seeker of truth, [is] to open the heart in unconditional love to all and to aid this process by inviting the One Creator to move within the heart, within the mind, within the body, within the experience of the day, that this aid may be given to the seeker to share with all that comes before its notice. In this way, there is an enhancement of the ability of each seeker to find a way to give love where love seems to have no home.                                                                             

We would apologize for our wordiness upon this subject, but we feel that this concern is a very deep one and wish to probe into it somewhat. We thank each once again and would leave this instrument in love and light, transferring to the instrument known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo.

[No questions asked.]

[Tape ends.]

This morning I went on an errand run with my first stop being at Walmart’s to pick up some Choc-Zero chocolate candy. My next stop was at Feeder’s Supply to pick up some bird seed and some fish food. My third stop was at Pet Smart to pick up some greenie pouches. My fourth stop was at Kroger’s to pick up some Pepsi Zero. My last stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself.

This afternoon I went upstairs to the recording studio and recorded the first section of Chapter Three of 102 which was titled “Is There an Unnatural Self.” The I went to the Providence Care Home in Southern Indiana to visit Connie who has been there for the last six years after suffering two strokes in 2018. I took along some treats to share with her and a video of my living room so she could see what it looks like now with all of the house plants in it and the chair she used to sit in when she came to our public channeling meditations. We caught up on what has happened in our lives since the last time I visited her and about her interest in St. Barbara.  I also read a few chapters to her from The Things We Don’t Forget by Dianne Aprile. We ended our visit with our usual silent meditation.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 19

Become Christ To The World

I am the spirit of the ineffable Love of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

When this instrument challenged our presence, we, as Spirit, said simply, “We are the Christ.” This instrument was surprised. But the principle of Love is active and powerful, and that which is Christ is wrapped and bound by love ineffable.

Thus, he who carries the Spirit of Christ carries Christ, and as we are the very principle of this Love, so are we Christ too. And now we turn to you with a gift of fire, hoping that the bellows of your conscience and faith cause you also to become Christ, to carry the Love of Christ to those whom you meet; to the world that you accept with eyes and ears. May your senses be filled with the full consciousness of Love, that you, in turn, may be Christ to the world.

In limitlessness Love I leave you in peace, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 15, 1998:

The question today has to do with guides. What guides are available to us? How are they available? How might we gain access to them and feel that we are being guided?

(Carla channeling)

We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator whose servants we are. May we thank you from the bottom of our hearts for calling us to your session of working this afternoon. We thank each in this circle for hungering for truth and for being willing to allow us to speak through this instrument and share our humble thoughts with you. As always, we ask that each of you listens with discrimination, for you shall recognize those thoughts which are able to be resources and tools for you in your path, a path unique and not like everyone else’s, so that no two entities can take all of the thoughts that may have merit in a general sense but, rather, each will find those that are companions and fit into that puzzle that each is putting together in the search for what is loosely called the truth.

You ask this day concerning guides, angels, guardian spirits, and guidance in general, and this is a subject peculiarly unsuitable to words. Indeed, the very nature of the metaphysical universe is such that the guidance which is always and constantly with you is not that which translates into materialistic or fleshly body-oriented thinking. The common concept of a guide or a guardian angel is of a specific being. However, not all of those who are part of your guidance system are beings in the same sense that you consider yourself an individual self.

In order to clarify we must retreat first to express some more general concepts. Firstly, let us look at the concept of personhood or personality, for each of you is a person and has personhood. This is, within the illusion, something that you can trust. The flesh that rests upon your bones is flesh, and it shall continue until the spirit that enlivens that vehicle needs it no more. A skeleton remains a skeleton. The organs remain the organs. These things are physical, and they are obvious. Consequently, entities, even spiritually oriented entities, tend, by and large, to think of the self as the flesh, the bones, the organs, the body, as though the self had no other connections before, or will have no other connections after the incarnation that you now experience. Certainly, it does not occur to many that you have within the physical vehicle connections with and contact with non-physical and non-bodily energies and essences which are as much a part of who you are as those things that can be named, counted, and measured concerning your physical beingness.

However, we feel it is true in our observation that the personality shell that animates the incarnational body is a very shallow, very limited selection of portions of your self, in the greater or metaphysical sense, that you have chosen because these are the attributes and the limitations that you put together in order to be challenged and in order to meet the challenges you would find within the body and within incarnational experience. As beautiful, sacramental, and worthy as this bodily personality shell and all that you see of yourself in the mirror is, it remains as insubstantial as a shadow next to the profound and infinite nature of your whole self. Indeed, it is difficult to explain or express, but within this very limited mind which you sense within yourself and are aware of within yourself, you have direct connection to all energy whatsoever. The entire universe is within your self and with care, regardless of the circumstance of incarnation and limitation within a body, there are ways in which the seeker may improve its connections with these deeper energies of self. It is in these deeper strata of self that the many kinds of guidance available to the seeker dwell.

One of the advantages, therefore, of meditation that is silent is that when the inner silence is entered the door betwixt the conscious and unconscious levels of mind opens, for some very slowly, for others with a great bang, for most at a steady but relatively slow pace, interrupted occasionally by real leaps forward in awareness. This is the general pattern for people who have become conscious of their spiritual identity and now wish to accelerate the pace of spiritual evolution by making more efficient and thoughtful use of the resources available.

The group question for this session was: “The question today has to do with guides. What guides are available to us? How are they available? How might we gain access to them and feel that we are being guided?” Q’uo began by saying that our guidance is always with us but is harder to describe than the beings of flesh and bones that we are within our incarnation, but we have connections with these non-physical essences that are always with us. They went on to say that we have chosen the limitations of our personality shell to provide challenges to help us grow, and there are ways that we can access: “The entire universe that is within your self and with care, regardless of the circumstance of incarnation and limitation within a body, there are ways in which the seeker may improve its connections with these deeper energies of self. It is in these deeper strata of self that the many kinds of guidance available to the seeker dwell.” Then Q’uo said that meditation is the way that the deeper levels of the mind may be accessed to accelerate the pace of evolution for the spiritual seeker. On January 30, 1994, Q’uo described the deeper energies that are within the spiritual seeker:

At a deeper level, there is a true self. That true self within has its vagrant moods and there is emotional truth in hewing with fidelity to these inner moods. It is excellent practice to know what is going on within, to be as aware as possible of the deeper energies, the emotions which underlie the experiences. Without judging the self, there is great healing in simply acknowledging the nature of the self as it is self-perceived. The acceptance of the emotional makeup of the self is very freeing if it is wholehearted, for there is great difficulty in altering that nature if it is not first completely accepted, yet the truth for which each seeker yearns is that truth which cannot be accessible, not by words, not by converse, but only by the inner experiencing of things far too inimitable to be available for description.

The hunger within the seeker is to see the face of the infinite One, and there is no face for that infinite intelligence, rather that face is your own, and that face is the entity next to you and that face is the face of nature. Everything that you see both displays and completely obscures that face of deity. Spiritual seeking is a process in which the attempt is made and made and made again to be honest with the self, to submit the self to the disciplines which strip away illusion, how the seeker strives to clear the mind, to become more authentic, to become more self-aware, to confront the self where it is hiding from the self.

Secondly, let us look at the concept of vibration. It may be helpful to you to begin to see into things as vibrations. This instrument produces a sound vibration by moving air through a voice box while distorting the face in various ways in order to produce what you call language. Language has to be made up of words because it is finite. It has to be made up of units of thought that are smaller than a concept. This, in itself, is very troubling to those in the metaphysical system of illusions that are attempting to speak with you because the common communication used in the metaphysical universe is concept sharing or telepathy, as this instrument would call it. Communication by concept is a direct envisioning of a whole system of thought that is in a certain pattern and that can be offered as a whole. To unravel a concept and exhaust its possibilities can be a lengthy process, the translation into words being awkward and elephantine compared to the cleanliness and lucidity of concept communication. This is but one kind of vibration.

Most within your culture are aware that heat is a vibration; light is a vibration. Most entities are not aware that all things are vibrations, and certainly it is not a common thought within your Earth plane that qualities, consciousness, essences, and energies are vibrations. Indeed, if one could choose one term to describe the manifested world it would be vibration. The first vibration is that infinite Love of the one Creator, and each of you is a system of distortions of that vibration. Very simply put, the goal of the seeker is to become more and more congruent with the undistorted vibration of Love, infinite, universal Love. The Love that creates. The Love that destroys. The Love that is the “I” of you. This Love is not a manifested vibration. The first manifestation of vibration within the outer world which you now experience is Light, which this instrument has learned to call the photon. And it is from this building block of Light that all collections of vibrations and systems of rotation spring, [as well as] all your elements that you have learned go into the making of the various things that you can touch and see. All of these things are systems of vibration.

When you seek guidance, you are not simply asking a friend to talk to you, not unless you wish to access a certain person who is within the inner or teaching planes of your illusion. Now, this instrument does not crave, shall we say, the personal guide and, therefore, has not had experience with that specific contact that comes from finding an inner planes teacher. For those who desire a named person, a person to count on as you would a being with that personhood of personality shell, we recommend studying within the Oriental systems and Asian systems of philosophy and theology, for it is within these cultures that the concept of the Creator as teacher creates a place or a space for inner plane guides. To become more familiar with that entire way of devotion is to bring the self more into the kind of setting, shall we say, of the inner expectations that would be more likely to produce the experience of contact with a specific entity.

Within your Western philosophy, although many spiritual teachers are greatly revered, esteemed, and loved, they are not worshipped as incarnations of the Creator. Consequently, their beingness within the inner planes is quite different and, generally speaking, will move more into the vibratory levels wherein one is contacting a consciousness field of a certain vibration. For those who simply wish by whatever means to surrender to the will of the infinite One there is the feeling of the way, the tentative moving towards an orientation with one’s own energies, with one’s own essences, with one’s connections into the deeper and deeper portions of the self. It is not necessary in order to be guided that you have any particular vision of your guide. However, as this instrument has often said, it is helpful to choose a mythical system such as Christianity, Buddhism, or any other spiritual or religious system of thinking and realizing the cosmos that you feel, personally, the most kinship to. This is a matter not necessarily of the mind but, rather, of the emotions and of the spirit.

The universe is far from blank. It is filled with the vibration of all that there is. Consequently, guidance is always very, very near. Using one spiritual system to realize guidance for yourself is wise. It organizes the effort made. It gives you some starting points from which to move forward. This instrument, for instance, desires to be led by what she calls the Holy Spirit. In choosing the Holy Spirit this entity has done two things. Firstly, she has chosen, within the mythical system she has felt most kinship to, to trust and cast her loyalty upon a certain kind of entity. Secondly, she has called upon herself, for guidance comes from the deeper or higher self. Each mythical system gives one a way to realize these connections.

Now Q’uo said that vibrations that create sounds are one way of communicating by words which are finite and smaller than a concept, but in the metaphysical world communication is accomplished by telepathically transmitting concepts which are a more effective type of vibration for communication. Q’uo continued by saying that all things are vibrations such as heat, light, and consciousness, and the first vibration is the Love of the Creator that is the goal of the seeker to become one with. Then Q’uo said that Love is not a manifested vibration. They said that Light is the first manifested vibration which could be seen as the photon which exists as all things that can be seen and touched. Q’uo continued by saying that when we seek guidance we could look to the Oriental traditions where various inner plane entities are seen as guides, but in the Western traditions the means of seeking to do the will of the Creator is more usually approached by going deeper within the self to find guidance than one feels a kinship with emotionally and spiritually. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that it would be wise to choose a guidance system that we can feel an affinity for such as the deeper mind or the higher self. On March 18, 2006, Q’uo spoke of various entities that could be part of our guidance system:

A large category of the interaction between spirit and flesh is the interaction of the self with the guidance system of that self. Your guidance system is, in the words of this instrument, the Holy Spirit, and in the words of the social memory complex known as Ra, the higher self. It is helpful to think in terms of the latter configuration of words in terms of determining who your guidance system really is, for your guidance system is not an entity other than yourself; rather, it is an access point into your larger self.

Without choosing a mythical system to work with the seeker must create a way of proceeding. Shall it be to name the name and to call upon that name? Shall it be to call upon a certain vibrational level that is desired? This is creative work in consciousness for the individual seeker. The one thing that is sure is that guidance is all about you. The one known as Jesus often said, “He who has ears to hear, let him hear.” And certainly in this instrument’s experience we find a constant conversation with the forces of nature, with beings of bird, and bush and flower and sky, an overheard comment, and chance happening. Anything and everything is material for this instrument because this instrument has come to the belief that all things are sacramental. Each person, each seeker, must first realize her own way of perceiving, her own belief system, her own need in terms of guidance. Some need a named person; some need a level of vibration. But behind all of the mental and conscious ways of gaining access to this guidance there lies the identity of self with self. All guidance is from your self in a less distorted configuration of vibration to the self within incarnation, that incarnation in third density being deliberately and carefully cast into confusion and disarray.

It may seem that there are emergencies where guidance must be had, but, indeed, the greatest friend to one who seeks guidance is Sister Patience, for there is the abiding, the waiting for the rhythm of things to come into the configuration which is harmonious and right. There is that moment when the one who has the heart to understand can almost feel the situation clicking into rhythm. And when that moment of the feeling of rightness comes, there is no doubt. There is only the awareness of and the great gratitude for guidance.

Each kind of myth creates ways of thinking about this guidance. No one way of thinking is wrong. Each is an attempt, by finite intellect, to describe processes that are infinite and that take place outside of the bounds of time and space. Consequently, there are as many ways to think about guides and guidance as there are systems of thought. To this instrument the mind goes to angels because this instrument has been steeped in the Christian faith. To other entities familiar with and finding comfort in other systems’ doctrine there are other kinds of beings configured a bit differently, moving perhaps from a different inner plane, and these are all genuine. For what is happening is beyond all of the systems of thought. It is energy relating to energy, Love reflected in Love. That is what guidance truly is, Love reflected in Love.

To attempt to tell one about guidance one must use finite words and thus great confusion is born. “Well, is it this way, or is it that?” It is all the ways that you can think of and none of them at all. With this paradox we know again that we are in spiritual territory. Yet that which is sought is ever at hand, closer than your own body, closer than your own thoughts, for the silence within those thoughts and within that body is beyond all time and space. And however you realize your guidance in this little life of the Earth plane, you remain a citizen of eternity, and your guidance is sure.

In third density a great veil drops, and one cannot see into the metaphysical universe, or to put it in terms of the mind, into the subconscious mind. One is not supposed to see into this mind for the reason that it is this density’s lesson to learn to live by faith, by those qualities of love, faith, patience, and trust that defy the limitations of personality and confusion. Within each of you there is a stubborn and sure conviction that this little life is not all that there is, and when you have thought this for the first time it is as if you have become awake in the land of the slumbering. We can only say to you who wish to become more aware of the guidance sought that it is all about you, that there are ways of thinking about guidance and methods of guidance that you may consider and choose between, but know this: beyond all of your choices the information that you need comes to you again, and again, and again. If you miss it this time, there will be another time. Your work, indeed, can be very simple if you choose to make it so. If you choose to be a simple and unintellectual seeker you may simply sit in the inner silence expecting nothing, desiring nothing but communion with Love, and that desire you may encourage and feed with the fodder of your thoughts, the branches and the trunks of your emotions.

There is a yearning within each seeker for home. And when the angel, or the guardian, or the guide, or guidance itself, is sought there is that hope of a letter from home, of a pat on the back, or a hint of what the situation is from an older and wiser relative. Whatever the way you choose, you are seeking that home when you seek guidance. You are sensing that you are on a journey, and you are asking for some information closer to the source and ending of that journey. Be aware that you may be someone else’s guide. Be aware when questions are asked of you, for that which is Love may speak through you if you are empty enough and clear enough. Be aware that others may be your guide for a moment without any conscious intention, or with conscious intention. It makes no difference. For what is happening is that vibration is harmonizing with vibration, or not. And connections are being made, or not. Thusly, if with patience you attend to the present moment and desire as purely as possible to know the Love of the one Creator, that which is yours to do and that which is yours to be shall rhythmically come to you and express to you. And when you feel resistance, stop. Wait. Be aware. There is something that you need to know. Make space for that knowledge. Go into the silence and ask. Then be prepared to wait for that moment when the heart knows, and there is no more doubt. May Love always be reflected in Love for each of you, and may all of those difficulties that are such good teachers find their ways into your heart as blessings indeed.

Then Q’uo said that if the seeker doesn’t choose a mythical system for its guidance, then it must choose a name or a vibrational level to call upon, and this needs to be the choice of each individual seeker as there is guidance everywhere in the creation that is from a greater level of our self to our self within this the illusion of confusion. Q’uo continued by saying that if the seeker has the heart to understand and the patience to wait, that guidance comes when the time is right, and all thinking about the nature of guidance is beyond time and space and all systems of thought because true guidance is simply Love relating to Love that is closer to us than our own thoughts. Then Q’uo said that the veil keeps us from seeing into the conscious mind because this helps us to live by love, faith, and patience, and when we can feel that inner resonance that the outer life is not all that there is, then we have awakened to the nature of reality, and the guidance that we need will come to us so that we can sit in the silence expecting nothing but to commune with Love. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that each seeker is looking for guidance of some kind to help it to get back home, and if resistance comes at any time, we can go into meditation and ask when the time is right to know the Love of the Creator. On March 6, 2005, Q’uo spoke of how our guidance works:

You came into incarnation supported and bolstered, without any possibility of being abandoned or isolated, with a very solid, sturdy guidance system. It is up to you to create the structure with which you feel comfortable as a person for receiving this guidance. To some extent, you may do reading into religions, philosophies, myth, and archetype, for each culture has ways of describing and structuring guidance. For the Native Americans, for instance, every animal has a role to play in guiding. Each animal that you meet, therefore, is a messenger. There are systems of guidance which employ inspired human beings who act as gurus; and these gurus are able to focus spirit in such a way that realizations come to the student who is devoted to the guru. There are those religious systems which ask of one that one follow a certain master such as the one known as Jesus, the one known as Buddha, or the one known as Allah and his prophet. There is an almost infinite array of ways to approach beginning to become aware of guidance.

In general, we would say that you must follow the path of greatest resonance. If there is a master who resonates to you so much that you wish to follow in the footsteps of that master, then you will take a certain path towards guidance. If you find that you are more comfortable following the chain of coincidences, of those things that speak to you from day-to-day, then life itself becomes the messenger of guidance. And, in many cases, by the simple discipline of beginning to record one’s dreams or one’s thoughts after meditation, one is able to gain access to that web of Love and support that is all around you and waiting with the greatest of eagerness and joy for the opportunity to be heard. We describe this and characterize this as guidance of a positive or service-to-others nature.

May we thank each again for inviting our presence within your circle of seeking this day. We shall now take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went up to the recording studio and recorded the section titled “Where do Emotions Come From?” from Chapter Two of 102. Then I came downstairs and vacuumed the first floor of my home.

This afternoon I went back upstairs and recorded the section “A Choice in Perspective” from 102 which completed Chapter Two.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 18

Claim Your Birthright

Greetings in the Love of Christ. I am of the principle of that consciousness which is Christhood, in the vibration which comforts this instrument.

Although it is well that you gaze searchingly on each face of Christ which you meet in your daily round of activities and experience, it is better for you to be inspired by these exaggerated delineations of the characteristics of Love, turning from them to a truer expression of that Love in Christ.

For to call your experiences by their true name is to bless them and own them, claiming them as part of your birthright. For you and they and all that is are not only created by God, but are of God, and to behold your likeness is far more blessed than all the careful judgments you may make, wise though those judgments may be.

The consciousness of Christ is the consciousness of Love, that Love which creates, Christ being the truest expression of that potent quality in your waking consciousness. Turn you, then, to that source of Light and let Love illumine all the facets of your life.

Peace be with you, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from January 18, 1998:

The question today has to do with the concept of, “Not my will, but Thy will,” and when we are able to realize that this is the way we wish to behave and to live, what else can we do intellectually to assist bringing forth “Thy will” into our lives? How can we know “Thy will” and get out of the state of confusion in which we most often find ourselves, having given up our will and yet no particular direction shows itself to us? Is there anything that Q’uo could recommend to us that might strengthen our faith and our will?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are always pleased to be called to your group, and this session is no exception. We thank and bless each of you for turning once again to that interest that we have very much in common, that consciousness that lies between us, linking us and all that there is into one vast being, one consciousness, one basic core vibration. This is the mystery that drives us ever onward, seeking always that which lies beneath illusion.

We have found many illusions, and we are aware that you also have your experiences within the illusion of your Earth life. We are glad to speak to you of that issue of confusion and decision, for, indeed, there is an art and an appropriateness that one can only sense, one can only record finding. It cannot be created by will. It cannot be created to a time frame or a schedule. Indeed, in issues of will, this is subtle work. When one perceives working upon one’s own consciousness it is easy and tempting to stay within the confines of that particular issue, that particular concern. When you as a human being in your illusion decide to make the purchase of the choice of everyday things, there is usually a very superficial level of will involved. Many, many things simply need to be done. However, what you ask about this day is that way of knowing when the will of the infinite Creator has been expressed to one. There is, indeed, the rub, as Shakespeare would say. There is the difficulty, for one can make decisions using logic, using the will, using each and every aspect at the command of mind. And that decision has no promise of being the will of the Creator in any way of knowing that can leave one at peace.

Intellectual questioning into the issue of, “Is this Thy will or mine?” almost always involves one in a tautological circle, like the dragon eating its tail. It is forever eating and forever unfinished. However, now that we have taken away the habitual and normal use of mind, what have we left for you to work with in this particular kind of larger decision? We have left your consciousness. Let us look at that which remains when logic, and mind, and intellect are, if not removed entirely, certainly placed in a less conspicuous and influential position in respect to decision-making. We have an entity whose resources are infinite, whose citizenry is of the universe, who does not belong in space and time. We have a stranger in a strange land. Indeed, were we to pull back to see where the self is in self, we would find each of you and all of your affections in the illusion that you now enjoy to be but the merest shell, your personality shell, that expresses perhaps one or two percent of the total beingness and experience which you possess within the deeper reaches of the roots of mind.

Having taken the conscious mind out of the consideration we now chose to use the unconscious portion of mind, for within it lie the resources needed to sort out issues of will and faith. Whatever your energy level within the illusion, resting back in the divine, letting the self be, evokes a contentment that does not reach, nor does it shun those things which are about one. This is the self that is often accessed by meditation. One of the benefits of meditation, indeed, is that the door betwixt the conscious intellectual mind and the subconscious in the roots of mind is, if not wide open, at least ajar. Time spent in the silence is time spent listening to the voice with no sound that indeed does carry the messages of faith and choice, but not to a schedule. And this is where the entity within your illusion, feeling confused, loses that quality that so well supports the spiritual seeker. That quality is patience.

Patience is a powerful spiritual quality. The one known as Jim spoke earlier of persevering no matter what. This is another way of stating the same sentiment. If one can become patient and willing to wait whatever time it seems to take, one then is prepared for messages that do come from the unconscious self. This instrument has seen a popular cliché on refrigerator magnets that reads something like, “Lord give me patience and give it to me right now.” And that is where the third-density illusion comes in and kidnaps the spirit who is not completely staid upon patience. To be content to wait is an attitude that will always prove the best resource possible for the spiritual seeker. For the person who does not mind waiting no matter how long it takes, results can often come quickly. When the entity moves at all from the attitude of “waiting is” and “waiting is good” then comes in the desire. It is not that the desire is wicked or wrong. The universe moves upon desire. It is that beyond a certain point the seeker cannot know himself. There is just so much inner work an entity may do, and that work is more deleting confusion from the way the mind works than it is adding information to the mind. You are in the situation of having a wealth of knowledge that purports to be about the spiritual but having almost no assets concerning and dealing with that which lies beyond the words.

It is a frightening and seeming illogical choice to move beyond logic and trains of thought. There is no victory promised the seeker who chooses to wait. Entities persistent enough to wait a long time have spent incarnations waiting when there was a need to express this quality in order to balance the personality shell. And yet there is no glamour or reward to the practice of waiting, to the practice of patience. Yet that willingness, that abandoning self can and will communicate at the appropriate and rhythmically right time. You see, you experience life within the illusion as if you were walking down a road or moving down a river. There is motion involved from yesterday to tomorrow, from Louisville to Chicago. There is space and time and someone occupying both. In reality this is an illusion, within an illusion, within an illusion. That which seems so full of self is only the paltriest shell of personality from that powerful Self that you are in totality. Time and space actually do not exist, and there is no possibility of making a wrong choice, for all has already occurred, and all is perfect.

The group question for this session was: “The question today has to do with the concept of, “Not my will, but Thy will,” and when we are able to realize that this is the way we wish to behave and to live, what else can we do intellectually to assist bringing forth “Thy will” into our lives?” Q’uo began by saying that it is not possible to determine how to do the will of the Creator by use of the will of the intellect because it takes a kind of art and feeling of appropriateness to feel that one is doing the Creator’s will. Q’uo went on to say that when the intellect of the mind is removed from the equation that there are infinite resources of the subconscious mind that go beyond the personality shell that have the ability to work with the will and faith. Then Q’uo said that within the state of meditation that the concepts of faith and choice may be used to listen to the silent voice within, but this is not done by setting a schedule so: “this is where the entity within your illusion, feeling confused, loses that quality that so well supports the spiritual seeker. That quality is patience.” Q’uo went on to say that exercising patience and perseverance is an effective way to get a great wealth of information from the subconscious mind that the seeker cannot know consciously as words cannot describe this information. Q’uo continued by saying that it can seem frightening to move beyond logical thinking to balance the personality shell, but because we live within an illusion of many layers, if we do wait for the appropriate time we can get far more information from our greater Self than we can from our personality shell so that there is no way that we can make a wrong choice because: “Time and space actually do not exist, and there is no possibility of making a wrong choice, for all has already occurred, and all is perfect.” On July 5, 1981, Hatonn described how time and space do not exist:

For your true self, my friends, is one which is beyond the human joys and sorrows that you experience in this illusion. Your true self, my friends, is one which is part of the creation of the Father and as such, experiences the entire creation outside of time, outside of space, outside of all things but the unity of the eternal present of the creation.

For those who are not able to have hearts to understand, this entire concept makes no sense, and we accept that. We do not attempt to make sense but rather to share our observations of how things work. What you are attempting to do is in reality not to make the choice but to be the person who puts the self to the choice with the most desire, the most polarity of desire. Both of these are important. The most desire. To hone the desire is so important. To move within those well-worn words, “Not my will, but Thine,” not once, not twice, not a hundred times, but with every breath. This is the goal: to consume the self in the divine. To so empty the self that the divine makes its own colors moving through you so that you have only to say, “Oh see, I should do this now. Here this is.” There is a level upon which this is possible for each entity within the illusion, yet this soft spot is surrounded by hard rocks on every side. For truly it is difficult to let go.

Perhaps one suggestion that we could make to one who feels decisions must be made to a schedule is simply to say that if something does not strike before someone’s schedule comes to an end, perhaps this also is information being communicated. Know that when the right time comes you will know the choice that the Creator has for you, and you will feel it to your bones, to the end of your heart, to your depths. And you will be able to jump on it and work with it with all of your self.

Letus look again at this question of mind, for we feel that it is always the razor’s edge to work with the mind within incarnation. Upon the one hand, if you use no mind you cannot communicate with others or share your observations with others. You may be a wonderful light, but you cannot teach except by your being. On the other hand, any use of the intellect tends to pull one away from that seat of joy and delight that is present in the one infinite Creator. The heart that dwells in this opened Love, or the heart that is open to this Love and willing to allow It to run through that heart and into the world of manifestation, has done healing work for the planetary energy, the local energy, and the energy of self. In a normal decision-making the programs that are used are those run by logic. As the one known as R says, “The pros the cons, for and against,” and one can indeed line up all of the pros and cons. They do not add up to a tidy sum, for nothing is simply that surface appearance. Things have the necessity of being more real than that, more subject to free will, more uncatchable than that.

As one becomes more able to use that surface mind without becoming emotionally swayed by one’s rhetoric, one can open more to what this instrument would describe as deeper programs, programs below the level of consciousness that do not work on logic or linear thought but, rather, contain the essences of self that have been purified and worked upon through many, many incarnations and many experiences. These are the assets of the deeper self, and it is here that the soul must go who wishes to learn patience, for patience lies within you, a powerful, slumbering, elegant beast. Truly your brother and your sister, if you are seeking spiritually, there is no friend that is more faithful than patience. There is no challenge that cannot be won with patience. Letting go of the surface of things, being willing to rest in the mid-air of not knowing: this is an art, and it is this that we encourage you to practice. You have, not simply “the answer.” You have all that there is.

To the surface of things, you attempt to make a certain choice. To the reality of things, you are working upon your vibration. Whatever situation you are in or will be in is a fine and splendid opportunity to develop the self, to work on that vibration. And so, we encourage the slowing down, the resting, the quietness of mind that is willing to pass up an opportunity if the time is not right, and is willing to grasp an opportunity when that inner knowing occurs, and it will. In a moment you shall know. Yes or no. And for you that will be the correct decision.

Then Q’uo said that we are not so much making the choice to do the Father’s will but to experience that choice with a greater and greater desire with each breath that we take, and then we empty our self so that the Father moves through us so that we know what we should do. They said that this was not easy to do, but when the right time comes for us to do the Father’s will, we will know it in our bones and in our heart. They went on to say that it was necessary to use the mind to communicate with others, but if a seeker is wishing to share its light with others and to teach them, that is done by sharing the nature of one’s being and opening the heart to let the Love of the Creator to move through it to aid in the healing of planetary energy, the local energy, and the energy of self. Q’uo continued by saying that if one can use the logic of the mind without being swayed by emotions then it is possible to access the deeper mind to experience the essence of the deeper mind gained through many incarnations, and the greatest asset is patience which can help us to meet all challenges that come from our not knowing so that we may know the answer to all that there is. Q’uo completed their response by saying that on the surface of things we are attempting to make a choice while in reality we are working on the nature of our vibration, and if we can slowly contemplate our response to any situation that we find ourselves in, and wait for that inner knowing, that our decision will be the right one. On August 10, 1980, Latwii revealed how patience can help us to meet all challenges:

There is no premium upon suffering. It is simply a very efficient tool for learning the lessons of patience and cheerfulness. When you can be patient, when you can be cheerful in the face of adversity, then you have become a potentially loving person. If you have come into the world with patience and with happiness, then whatever suffering you may have may not be for your learning at all, but only, shall we say, to hold you down, to keep you fixed upon your goal.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are the ones of Q’uo, and we thank this instrument and leave it in love and in light.

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we greet each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time we would offer ourselves to the potential answering of any further questions that those present may have upon their minds. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have a question. I wonder if you could comment on my frame of mind. Sort of feeling listless and lethargic and at the same time not being discontented or upset.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We may speak in somewhat of an abbreviated fashion, for, indeed, it is well for the student to have a fairly good grasp upon her query before we may respond without the problem of infringing upon free will. We can note that which has been noted concerning this attitude of mind, that being that the one known as Carla has in her past served as an instrument for a contact which has as a residue a certain amount of weariness that is inevitable. For when one has been able to contact those more harmonious realms of being, as the instrument known as Carla did during the Ra contact, and has been faced with the necessity of returning to a more dense, in illusion that is, realm of being there is the relative experience of wearying the physical vehicle. This has a cumulative effect, and the one known as Carla has experienced this in some intensity, shall we say. There is within the mind complex of this entity dual needs to achieve and to rest. This is not unusual for many of your entities, for there is the need to accomplish activities and projects that are concomitant with your third-density illusion. All within the illusion experience the drive to move, to gain, to master, to achieve. This is the nature of the illusion. This is the grist for the mill, as we find has been described accurately.

However, there is also within many entities, and this entity in particular, the feeling that to be is sufficient. And this is indeed correct, especially when seen through those eyes that are metaphysically oriented. The being that one expresses is the heart, the essence, of one’s self. And in truth each entity is whole and perfect, having entered this illusion with such wholeness and perfection in abeyance that there may be further exploration into the individuation of consciousness that each entity has undertaken as a portion of the one Creator. The fueling of the beingness being sufficient is a feeling which we can encourage in entities, for it is not only accurate, but within the illusion that you inhabit, a proper balance for the unending activity and seeming restlessness that so signifies those of your peoples that partake in the daily round of activity and experience.

That this entity feels somewhat ashamed of being uninspired, as she says, may be examined for the particularly biased view of the self that this entails. This entity is not unfamiliar with its own criticism of itself. Thus, we feel that we have reached the limit of that which is helpful and we ask if there might be any other query that this entity might ask of us?

Carla: No, Q’uo. That was very clear and helpful. Thanks.

I am Q’uo, and we again thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

R: I have noticed a little fear or anxiety when I participate in these sessions. I sometimes just want to ask a question as if there was an opportunity lost if I do not ask it. I do not know where that fear is coming from. I feel like a little boy standing with a group of grown-ups and am saying, “Me too. Me too.” Could you talk about that please?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We feel that this query concerns an area which is natural for the human experience: that is, when faced with what seems to be the wiser or more informed point of view, one wishes to partake of that point of view in order to enhance the evolutionary process, feeling that if the opportunity is not taken it shall be lost, and there will be the failure to move forward as quickly as would be possible as if the opportunity were taken. We appreciate this experience of our blending of our vibrations with your own, and we appreciate the opinion that you hold us in, but we would again remind each entity that we and others who serve as teachers and guides for each third-density entity are available at all times so that in your own contemplative or meditative times you may ask whatever query is upon your mind or upon your heart and therein find a response that will point the direction in the same way that we would frame a response to your query within one of these sessions of working.

This again moves back to the primary query for the day and to the remark that we made concerning how an entity may perceive the Creator’s will when it stands before one and remains unrecognized. Oftentimes it is simply a matter of realizing the perfection of the moment, for each entity has spent the entirety of its previous life experience to reach the moment of the present. All that has gone before has brought one to this point, thus there must be something important in the present moment. And we would again affirm the perfection of each entity but also of the moment in which each entity finds itself. This is not to say that there will not be changes in what you call your future, for, indeed, there shall be many of these. But each of them, as well as that moment which you now experience, shall be perfect. And when you are able to accept the perfection of the moment, the perfection of your own self, then perhaps you shall not feel quite the fear or anxiety of missing an opportunity to find a more perfect moment.

We hope that we have not further confused you, my brother. Is there another query?

R: No, you have not confused me. I do believe what you have said. Another thought is that I feel a lot of gratitude for these sessions. I feel some love flowing that generates the response and oftentimes I have no questions but just feel like I want to say, “Thank you for speaking to us.”

I am Q’uo, and we are aware of the experience of which you speak, my brother. Indeed, the gratitude for the blessings for the one Creator that come in various forms is a blessing in itself, for it creates within the mind/body/spirit complex of each entity feeling it a certain ambiance that enhances the experience of unity and of harmony that is available to each. When one has been able to feel true gratitude for that which one experiences then this is a kind of opening of a door through which the entity wishes to pass, in that it moves into a finer appreciation of that which it is and that which it experiences. The gratitude of the spiritual seeker is a kind [of] lubricant that enhances the friction of daily experience and relieves much of that which is rough and unrefined.

Is there a final query at this time?

[No further queries.]

We are those of Q’uo, and we would take this opportunity to express our heartfelt gratitude to those present for once again inviting our presence within your circle of seeking. It is a privilege and an honor for which we cannot express enough gratitude, my friends. At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went upstairs to the recording studio and recorded the section on Resistance Leads to Growth from Chapter Two of 102. Later in the morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply to buy some kitty litter and some cat food. My last stop was at my dentist to have the temporary crown removed from one of my molars and then have the permanent crown put on.

This afternoon I went back upstairs to the recording studio and recorded the section on Where do Emotions Come From? from Chapter Two of 102. Then I went outside and cleaned the filters for the fountain in the fishpond because the fountain was getting lower and lower. After the filters were cleaned the fountain went a little higher than I had planned on, so I opened the top of the schemer box which houses the filters to let the fountain run into the box.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 17

Signposts Of Joy

I am the Spirit of that consciousness which is the Christ held sacred by you. We greet you in the Love of Christ.

It is not only in good circumstances that the Comforter is available to those who seek inspiration but in those perceived as difficult as well. It is well to turn to the inspiration of Godly things, eschewing attachment to the transient joys of the day in exchange for fuller and deeper understanding of the greater good and the Spiritual essence of mundane happiness.

For happiness as well as sorrow is a state of mind peculiar to an illusion in which your consciousness is impinged upon by all of those distractions of the senses which please and cloy.

View pleasure, then, with the same eye with which you view pain, not disowning your senses but rather appreciating them as signposts of a deeper, spiritual joy.

May the peace of the consciousness of Love be with you now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.