The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 28, 1993:

Group question: The question today has to do with “If only I had done such and such in a certain situation, in my past, in a situation about which I now feel very badly, it would probably have turned out differently.” We tend, as seekers, to beat ourselves up frequently and badly by this kind of thinking. What we would like today, Q’uo, is perception and perspective on what positive impulse it is in the seeker that causes him or her to say “If only I had done this” or “I should have done that.” Is there some positive quality that we can accentuate, is there some negative or self-defeating quality there that we can be aware of to de-accentuate, and do seekers of truth really have too much to be concerned about in the way of psychic greetings or attacks in this area? How much of our worries of “I should have done that” or “If only I had done this” come from psychic greetings or are most of these of our own creations?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the light and in the love of the One Infinite Creator. We are very glad to be called to your session of working this day and to join in your meditation and share the vibration of your circle. We thank you for the privilege of being asked to share our thoughts. In doing so we ask that each preserve its own free will and discriminate between those thoughts which aid and between those which do not, leaving those that do not behind.

We find that your query at heart is one which concerns that principle which is the—we correct this instrument—which is perhaps the most difficult spiritual principle for entities in third density to grasp. That principle is the charity of forgiveness. When any query comes concerning regrets of the past, the regrets themselves and the emotions and mental formations concerning these regrets circle about the third-density misunderstanding due to the heavy illusion of third density of the principle of forgiveness. It is felt that though one may be forgiven by the infinite Creator, that one is not thoroughly or completely forgiven by the self or by another for there remains the memory which, according to the distorted understanding in third density, would disappear or transform itself if the forgiveness had truly taken place. This is a misconception.

The great call of third density for objectification of forgiveness, acceptance, and control of one’s surroundings has been answered at various points in your third-density culture’s long history by a series of those who came to forgive, redeem, accept, and transform. We feel none of these was truer in its Christhood than the one known as Jesus the Christ which is the pattern or mythological structure into which each entity present was born. Each has made widely varying use of this mythological structure, however, it is real, for example, to this instrument that because it was absolved after a confession during this Lent season, it has begun a new life and is forgiven. This, however, does not stop this instrument from the repetition of regrets, thoughts of “if only,” and desires that the past could be played again.

So, we have the situation where forgiveness is intellectually considered as being accomplished but within the emotional portion of the mind, body, and spirit the forgiveness is not believed because the self deeply rejects the forgiveness since there remains unhealed memory. You have perhaps heard us before speak of something we call “healing of the incarnation.” In your third-density incarnative experience this is the heart of work in consciousness, for if the incarnation be healed the potentiated and polarized servant is then free to offer with purity the life to the Infinite Creator. As each looks upon its “if onlys” we ask that each consider that these unhealed memories dim and make tenuous the pure light which is the manifestation of love, which empowers each servant of the One Infinite Creator.

Let us turn and look at the workings of the mind complex, the phenomenon of remembrance of unhealed memory on a continuous basis. That is, when the same regret or kind of regret keeps recurring without being solved or dissolved you may turn to your computers to grasp the nature of the error. To the computer it is not an error. The computer gives to the view screen that which has not been cleared from the view screen. When the situation is such that an entity thinks a series of thoughts frequently enough to create a kind of program the accidental or aided entry into any portion of the program will cause the program to run itself through. If the program is not cleared after it has run it will repeat. If the program is preempted by looking at other material that is not cleared, then when the other material is cleared the program immediately again appears on the screen. It has not ever left; the computation has not been completed.

So we are describing to you a situation in which the sorrowing or grieving entity creates a thought-form which can be triggered into appearing seemingly at random, whenever portions of the initial part of the program are run. If one can think further perhaps each can remember times when not only did one set up regrets to run, but before the appetite for such a regret had been satisfied other regrets came into the program and were also run. Thus, if this program is not cleared it can gradually take precedence over all other programs and in extremity can cause the mind of an entity to become diseased. This is all due to the difficulty entities in the third density have at forgiving themselves.

Now, each has had experience with complete forgiveness of others by the self. Each has achieved forgiveness with regard to others who have seemingly caused catalyst to occur for the self which was painful. With the passage of time the words “I forgive you” become entirely and wholly true. The memory remains but it has been healed. Why then is it difficult to imagine healing one’s own memories? We feel that it is largely because the self, if privy to the self’s constant displays of, shall we say, humanity, not meaning to insult the creature that humankind is but indicating that it is a flawed or distorted or relativistic portion of a flawed, imperfect, or relativistic illusion, all manifestation whatsoever then are flawed.

This is difficult to accept. The thinker wishes the self not to be flawed, not to be relative, the seeker wishes to be whole, to be absolute, and so the seeker in truth is beyond the realm of the illusion. Yet each came here to pay close attention to the illusion, with all of its difficulties, and one of the points of business for each seeker in its work in consciousness is the work on achieving the healing of memories, the acceptance of the stream of incarnative experience as it has been experienced, and the forgiveness of the illusion and the manifested self for being flawed. The hardness of heart comes because there is not the instinct to move directly into the heart and open the self to the wholehearted request for forgiveness. Though the religious expression has enormous amounts to recommend it, the dependency upon religious expression to objectify the process of forgiveness to the greater Self—as an objectified and solidified other-self—numbs the inner sense of truth to the fact that this process of forgiveness is not external to the self.

The forgiveness by the One Infinite Creator may be religiously expressed by another self to one, yet the effects of true forgiveness of memories are inconsequential unless it is also realized that this external expression of forgiveness reflects, and is only a reflection of, the actual process that has been transacted upon the metaphysical or time/space planes in the portion of the being in which energy is blocked and the computer is stuck.

Therefore, we ask that those with unhealed memories see this as an order of business to be addressed. The self must in some way open the heart to the self’s need and ask with no reservation for forgiveness, and more than that, be prepared to accept that forgiveness and to drop that program and allow its spiritual energy to dissipate, allow the past to become the past. We recommend that this kind of work be done promptly and persistently and be given priority, for sorrows and hard-heartedness may make poor combination of guests, and though they speak much they do not make a good company. The time which is precious in each incarnation need not be spent with such guests if the work be done.

The group question for this session involved how one can forgive the self for past failings.  Q’uo began by saying that forgiveness is one of the major lessons of the third density where a seeker may be able to feel the forgiveness of the Creator for the self, but it cannot feel other’s forgiveness for the self or the self’s forgiveness for the self because the memory of the personal failure in the emotional part of the mind remains unhealed. They continued by saying that these unhealed memories make the healing of the incarnation difficult because they dim the light and love of the entity that empowers the seeker as a servant of the One Infinite Creator. Then Q’uo said that if these memories of regret for past failures keep repeating, and other programs of similar regrets are added to the first one, the mind can become diseased, so Q’uo said that: “The self must in some way open the heart to the self’s need and ask with no reservation for forgiveness, and more than that, be prepared to accept that forgiveness and to drop that program and allow its spiritual energy to dissipate, allow the past to become the past.” On November 26, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the value of self-forgiveness:

Within your culture, as we have said, the intellect is valued almost to the exclusion of deep, quiet, confident, considered intuition. You are an impatient people, eager, and perhaps running faster with your feet than your heart and your mind can follow. Thus, the first priority may seem very selfish to one, and that is to learn to love the self, unequivocally, with complete self-forgiveness, with full knowledge of the various iniquities of one’s own character. You must allow yourself to become aware that the Creator and the creation lies within you, each of you. It is not well to speak as though one were ever and always unworthy to be the vessel for divinity. All of clay and dust, bone and muscle is by definition unworthy to carry imperishable ideals into a world which you experience as that which is not ideal.

There are reasons that this work is work well done. Firstly, to allow any thought-form to have control over the screen, if you will, of the mind’s eye is to release the stream of experience to flow into limited pools of stagnated, situational experience where nothing new is learned. Thought-forms take the place of acquiring new and transformative information. Third density is for making choices, not for repeating the same program over and over with no clearing or solution or moving on.

Secondly, if held in mind with enough tenacity and allowed to run within the mind’s eye, such programs can cause the need for another self which then must go through the entire trail of manifested learning, every density. To send a self and a universe off into a parallel or split existence weakens the strength of existence now being experienced, removes some portion of the limitless and eternal self which had been the spark of the manifested self which you are, thus making the process of spiritual evolution more complex and more baffled, that is, less open to pure experience.

Thirdly, there is, when an “if only” has taken the mind repeatedly away, a kind of scarring which is obvious and which entities of either polarity from other densities can see, and if there is for some reason an entity or entities which does indeed have reason to greet an entity, such regrets are excellent targets for the temptation to become lost in them and take the rhythm and the impetus away from that polarized and potentiated action which has generated inner light to attract what this instrument calls the “loyal opposition” in the first place.

My friends, sorrow and sighing are deep within each entity just as laughter and glee are deep within your makeup. The purpose of incarnation is not to avoid either the tears or the laughter, either the sorrow or the joy; the goal rather circles around the respect and compassion which one may offer to each emotion felt without preferring one to the other, without denying any pure emotion. We ask you to love, accept and forgive yourselves and be brave and bold enough to open and allow the healing of the self, the healing of memories, the healing of the incarnation. Into such concerns does the Light of Love’s Spirit move.

One who seeks healing, who seeks loving, is never alone. There are strong forces which come in the name of Love to aid, support, and strengthen the attempts of the self to realize and know Love. Express within the self the request for such help and you shall have, as this instrument says, a crowd of witnesses whose only hope is to deepen and strengthen this healing effort. Relax into that ambiance, feel the energy of those who truly come to serve those who seek the truth and the Light and let your heart become easy.

Now Q’uo said the seeker should not let unhealed thoughtforms take over the mind because they inhibit acquiring new information and making choices. They also said that unhealed thoughtforms can cause the personality to split and enter a parallel universe which would weaken one’s eternal self and baffle one’s spiritual evolution. Q’uo went on to say that these unhealed thoughtforms also open the self to psychic greetings from negative entities. Then Q’uo said that the sorrows and joys should be accepted equally in order to heal the self, the memories, and the incarnation through the Love and Light of the Spirit, and we should relax into this ambiance and let our heart become easy. On April 25, 1982, Latwii spoke of the value of healing the self:

Other ailments are, when in the physical vehicle, simply symbolic representations of the frame of mind which has not yet been able to accept a portion of itself. In each case the injunction to heal the self is another means of saying to the self that there is some portion of the self that needs to be accepted as part of the self, whole and perfect, and when this acceptance is made deep within the heart of the being, then the entity shall realize the unity of that portion with the self and with all creation and shall be healed of that known as the ailment which served to point out that which needed to be accepted.

We do not sense any queries at this time. If there are no queries we shall take our leave of you. Are there queries at this time?

[Pause]

We are those of Q’uo and thank each again. We wish you many blessings, we wish you good work within your consciousness, we encourage you and give you a hug of the heart, and leave you in love and in the infinite light of the One Infinite Creator. We are those known to you as the principle of Q’uo. Adonai, Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my nippers to dead head the dianthus and Angelonia in the flower gardens along the parking area in the front yard. Then I used my garden rake to rake the mulch pile further to the north so that there is enough space between the mulch pile and the maiden hair ferns for my mower to get through. Then I got a quart of white paint and a paint roller to paint the ramp that I clean my mower on, the vertical lattice work under the bird feeder, and the platform under the bird feeder. Then I ran some errands with my first stop at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. My second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up a prescription. My third stop was at Kroger’s to buy some Pepsi Zero. My fourth stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Feeder’s Supply to buy some kitty litter for Bosco and Benny.

This afternoon I trimmed some of the Elderberry Bush limbs along the back of the garage to make it easier for our Homecoming tent to be installed and used.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 16

Go Abroad In Happiness

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

Be it known that happiness is not necessarily a burden. We say this because we find this instrument, this morning, bemoaning the awkwardness of a happy spirit which does not seem to produce the fruits that an unhappy spirit produces.

The spirit is with each always, not only in times of trouble but also in times of rejoicing. It is the soul’s difficulty that in times of happiness it is far easier to become oblivious to the wants and needs of the spirit within. The spirit within would always be giving. And, indeed, the happy soul is often content to stay at home amidst the accoutrements of living which have produced such contentment.

Therefore, go abroad in happiness, sensitive as always to the winds that blow from the spirit saying, “Come hither! Touch, feel and sense the spirit at work in and through each soul!”

We hope we leave you in a state of readiness; readiness to turn outward to others and inward to God. In that balance lies peace, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 14, 1993:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and great each again in love and in light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may have for us. Is there a query at this time?

Carla: Well, maybe it will be cleared up when I read it, but in trying to listen to what you had to say I just kept thinking of how it felt this week when it occurred to me that I had acted as if I owned this virtuous prayer group and that, somehow, I had been doing this. There was a feeling there of distaste, and I judge myself like that a lot. I judge myself all the time. I understand that you just turn from your wickedness and live, as it says in the liturgy. You just turn and behold the mystery, but at the same time there remains that voice within that will pop up again and again and tell me that that really is prideful. Could you speak to that?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. It is, of course, the great strength of each seeker to look with the critical eye at all experience seeking to discern that which has value and that which does not. This critical eye, when turned upon the self, as it is most often for the conscious seeker, lends itself most frequently in the careful examination of the experience through which one moves, the responses, both mental and emotional, to each experience and continues this reflecting process over and over until there is a resolution that is acceptable to the seeker. When one attempts to view the inner and emotional response to perceive spiritual pride one is bringing to bear this critical process upon a topic which is frequently overlooked by many, for the feeling that one is proceeding well along the spiritual path is, in itself, a feeling which can both encourage and mislead. Thus, we advise each seeker to look carefully at that experience, to examine the details as they occur, to make the discriminations and choices that will alter one’s perception and perhaps one’s behavior. And then to move onward as one would in learning any discipline.

All learning requires practice. All learning requires a certain amount of what you would call failure, for it is the failing to hit the mark that teaches one where the weaknesses lie in the discipline. Then we advise further that the seeker should release concern for this area as it is well to release over-concern for any area of learning in order that the concern does not become over-exercised and cause a kind of blocking caution that would inhibit further progress. This is where the lightness of touch is recommended, the sense of perspective and humor with which one views the self and the world about one, for there is indeed much humor in each learning process: the attempt that is well intentioned and full of the vigor of fulfilling an ideal, the falling short that is inevitable with all learning, the recovery as with the kitten that has almost landed on its feet but stumbles somewhat as it regains its balance, and the assessment of the situation with the puzzled look upon the spiritual face, and the moving on to again tackle the ball of yarn, shall we say, in this great untangling process through which each of you moves.

Carla was speaking about the Intercessory Prayer Group that she was the head of at her church, and sometimes she felt that she acted as if she owned the group and then judged herself harshly for acting that way. So, she wanted Q’uo to speak to how she could handle those feelings of self-judgment. Q’uo began by saying that it is helpful for the spiritual seeker to have a critical eye for all of its experiences to see which are helpful and which are not, but when this critical eye is turned upon the self in the area of  spiritual pride it is well to look carefully at whether one feels they are proceeding well as this feeling can encourage one as well as mislead one. So, Q’uo suggested that the seeker should look carefully at its choices and behavior and then move on in a way that feels appropriate. They continued by saying that this process always requires practice and frequently results in failure as well, so they suggested it was helpful to keep a healthy sense of humor and perspective in all learning. On December 16, 1990, Q’uo described the value of the sense of humor:

That which your peoples call the sense of humor is, indeed, most helpful to any entity, no matter the position upon the path, or the placement within the life pattern. We see that which you call the sense of humor as being a sense of proportion where an entity is able to gain enough experience within the life that one may see a broader view. One stands upon a somewhat more elevated position, building experience upon experience, until that which you call wisdom is begun.

There is much in every entity’s life pattern and daily round of activities which lends itself to humor, nothing so much as the entity itself as it attempts to make a sense of and to form a cohesion from many disparate parts of the life which seem not to be held together well at all. There are innumerable instances in every entity’s life during which the entity will find itself playing the complete fool. This, in your mundane way of seeing things, often lends to the feeling of insecurity, doubt and wondering if there will ever be a time where the entity will have control of itself and be able to do that which it wishes, when it wishes, and in the manner it wishes. We would utilize your sense of humor at moments such as this, if we were in your position, in order that we might be reminded that each of us contains those elements which are less than ideal, but are completely acceptable as portions of a personality that one attempts to discipline as one would the wayward child, in order that the lessons set before one might be learned with more efficiency.

However, when those portions of the self, or activities of the self, seem to go awry, it is more nourishing to the small entity that always resides within, much as the child in each entity, to reinforce the concept of wholeness and acceptability, for the divisions and definitions of acceptable or unacceptable behaviors are man-made, and it is always a whole and acceptable entity that places any foot upon the path, whether that foot is solidly placed or not.

Thus, we highly recommend the utilization of your humor, that you may gain a degree of mirth from your foibles, and those of your fellow seekers as well, for in some sense each of you is always exactly where you need to be at each moment, and in another sense each of you is dancing a dance which you do not understand, and which has steps that may puzzle, trip, and fell you. Yet it is all a dance of one piece, and in this dance you move as the whirling dervish, the child which is set upon the careful exploration, the kitten which tumbles with its sibling across the floor, bursts out of the room and runs smack into the radiator, this is all a part of your dance, this is all a part of your learning, and you are whole and acceptable beings that partake in it.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No, that was just splendid. I appreciate that answer. Thank you very much, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo. And we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

R: I have a query, Q’uo. I wonder what you would say to the seekers who try to stay in touch with this particular group, who live far away in our environment, to participate in the meditations and who feel that they are frustrated being too far out to be in touch. How would you comment on those feelings that I think many of them have?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. To those who feel there is inspiration in the words which move through this group and who feel physically removed at a distance, shall we say, and who wish to feel a community of purpose and who wish to walk more closely in spirit with this group we would say that we walk with each of these entities and are available to each upon their request as those who would aid in deepening their meditation …

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and we shall continue. We seek to aid each in the meditative state upon request and we offer ourselves there without words but in the joining of vibratory levels of beingness. We are also aware that those in this group are most happy to respond to queries and comments of those who read and hear the words of love and light that are available through this particular group. There is much of community that may be shared through the written word that communicates the spirit of comradeship and exemplifies the seeking of the many portions of the one Creator.

Is there another query?

R: Let me just restate for clarity and see if I understand correctly. When someone in silent meditation requests your help in deepening the meditation you are with that particular entity. Is that correct?

Q’uo: I am Q’uo, and this is correct, my brother. We gladly offer ourselves in the joining of vibrations with all who ask our presence in their meditative states.

Is there another query?

Carla: I have one more. I have a letter that I just sent off yesterday to a guy in New Orleans who wanted to know if there was a teacher of channeling in that area that I could recommend. There wasn’t one that I could recommend, and I said to him, “Don’t listen to people who tell you that it is perfectly safe to channel, because it is a crowded universe and there are all kinds of entities out there who wish to speak to you of various vibrations.” And then I said, “If you wish only to contact your inner guide, perhaps I can help you by tape.” Could you comment on both the first and second part of what I said to this person. Could I have answered better? Could I have answered more accurately?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To the first portion of your query we would heartily agree that, indeed, the universe teems with forms of life, and at all times there are those that observe your illusion and who offer themselves in one way or another in the speaking through those who are seeking to serve as channels or instruments for love and light. Because the array of entities is so widely variant, from the negative to the positive polarities, we agree that it is greatly recommended that those who would seek to serve as instruments undergo a process of training that is rigorous in the preparation of the instrument so that it may offer itself in the highest level of desire to serve and be able to tune itself at each serving as instrument in order to receive the contact that it is able to withstand in a stable fashion and be able to offer its self that is well known as an instrument.

This is to say, the study of the self to gain the knowledge of who one is, is important in order that this self be offered at each working and be offered at the beginning of each working as a kind of filter through which a contact may speak after this contact has been challenged, shall we say, by the instrument that knows itself well enough to offer the self as instrument.

As far as being able to aid other entities in contacting their guides, as they are called, we would suggest that this is a practice that also needs guidance, shall we say. It is well that you seek your own inner guidance as to the techniques by which you would instruct another in this process so that there is the flexibility to utilize the strengths of each seeker, be it in visualization, in working with dreams, in the meditative state, or in prayerful contemplation. Thus, your ability to serve another will be dependent in large part upon your ability to ascertain the qualities of the seeker and how best to guide this entity to utilize the qualities which are strong.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: So, instead of moving directly to a technique that I know will open up an awareness of some form of guidance I should more skillfully find out what I need to know about that person and focus my own attention and that person’s attention in developing that person’s awareness of himself first. Is that what you are suggesting?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Yes, you are correct in your summary of our advice. It is well for each seeker to carefully study the self in order to ascertain the most effective avenues to travel in furthering the knowledge of the self and the Creator which is the great Self of all.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there a final query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and we take this opportunity to thank each present for once again inviting our presence within your circle of seeking. It is a great joy and honor for us to walk with you with words and concepts which are but our opinions and that which we have distilled from our own journey of seeking. We ask that you take each word and use it as you will, leaving behind any words or thoughts which do not ring of truth to you.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the ineffable light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and began the process of weeding all of my flower gardens as recent frequent rains have helped both the flowers and the weeds to thrive. I began in the Ruins Mound and went on the astilbe garden, the cross area, the Hosta gardens, the yellow creeping Jenny garden, and the flower garden in the center of the Moss Garden, all of which are in the back yard.

This afternoon I went back outside and weeded the gardens around the fishpond, the Wuthering Heights Garden, the Flower Fall Gardens, the pet cemetery, and the gardens along the parking area in the front yard.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 15

Sacramental Waiting

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

This instrument gave us our lesson this morning, our words to the world, and our comfort to the nations, by its own experience. For it was heavily beleaguered by entities which were not of the principle of Jesus the Christ. And again and again there were attempts made to open the channel to associates that were not desirable to this instrument.

Finally, all was quiet and this instrument prayed, “I am content with the silence if I cannot hear the voice of Love.”

Our key word this day is “presence.” Many, many situations seem unendingly to press upon the self with their wrongnesses and incorrectnesses. Nothing can be saved. All must be cast away. And the effort one has put into that situation seems lost. It is not lost.

It is that which empowers the heart to patience; quietness of spirit; trust and faith in the midst of no evidence to support faith. The waiting one does for wisdom is sacramental. The disposing of that which is not desirable is sacramental. Nothing that you do for the love of the Father is ever lost. So wait you in quietness and do not be moved by the small wounds of insignificant discomfort.

We leave you in the peace which does not demand confirmation but accepts silent, sacramental waiting; that peace which the outer world will never know, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from March 14, 1993:

Group question: The question this afternoon concerns spiritual pride. We would like to hear some information about the kinds of spiritual pride that both groups and individual seekers could be aware of. From Q’uo’s point of view it is probably easier to spot spiritual pride. We would like to know some of the pitfalls as well of spiritual pride and what a seeker or a group can do to balance the spiritual pride and regain the humility which seems to be such a great ally of the seeker.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. How privileged we feel to be called to this group to share our opinions with you on the subject of spiritual pride. We have many group memories of this continuing topic and the concept is chosen well in that it is a lesson that is not learned once but, as far as we know, continually, again, again and again throughout the densities with which we are familiar.

When entities speak of pride there is usually an emotional bias to the term. Pride is considered as a synonym for arrogance. It is not considered appropriate to think too well of one’s self. Yet before we speak of pitfalls of spiritual pride we would point out that a just and fair estimate of one’s assets is a work of lucid observation and cannot be said to constitute a spiritual pride in and of itself. Indeed, the balanced seeker moves upon the seat of knowledge of the self and this seat serves it well as it does the toe dance or the high wire act through all of the situations which provide interesting food for thought and action in your day-to-day world. It is not spiritual pride accurately to estimate one’s abilities or lack thereof in a given situation.

Now, spiritual pride is focused upon both by your eastern religious systems and your western religious systems. For instance, the one known as the Buddha is said to have found all of the various items of doing such as serving as a prince or king and loving and being loved to fill him up not with the fullness which true worship brings but with the growing observation that all of each activity and way of expressing the self within the life pattern was prideful folly. In this mythical story the Buddha at last is cast as a ferry man rowing other seekers across a river from one side to another, a man content at last with the fullness of everlasting change.

Within the western tradition or myth the one known as Jesus speaks often concerning entities which may feel that they are doing well. There is the example of the man who was extremely virtuous in observation of each and every commandment, yet when this seeker asked the teacher known as Jesus what more he could do to follow him the one known as Jesus suggested that this wealthy man sell all that he had and thus be free. This parable has made entities which have a comfortable living nervous ever since these words were heard and written down.

The parable is not so much about money or other kinds of wealth as it is about one’s relationship to that which comes and goes. The body, for instance, is born and dies, yet it is not prideful to care for it that it may be comfortable and serve well. So with one’s estate in life; it is not a crime to conserve one’s wealth and to so use it that one is comfortable. Yet, if one wishes to hold onto the body by avoiding getting old or avoiding death, then there is the question of what takes precedence, the body or the soul? With the wealth of money or power this same question holds true. Is there the relationship of conserver or steward with wealth so that it be used prudently or with charity, or is there the grabbing onto or owning the wealth or influence? If there is the latter, then there are some possessions to be sold so that you may follow the mind which this instrument often calls Christ consciousness.

Spiritual pride is about ascribing ownership about absolutely anything at all to anyone except the infinite Creator. Examine what there is in the universe. There is one great original Thought. This Thought is the Love of the infinite Creator. This living thought of Love is the Logos which, potentiated by Free Will, has created and is creating all that there is. This creation is made of the first fruit of the Logos, the first manifestation, which is Light. Out of Light Love has created, is created, and will create forever the infinite unity of all that there is. If this be so, Spiritual pride is about ascribing ownership about absolutely anything at all to anyone except the infinite Creator. If this be so, each seeker is of love, made of love, made for love, made by love, made to love. To love is the infinity of a verb. So all entities may truly be seen not as nouns, not as persons or as objects, but as energetic words which activate and enable love to be expressed and received, from love to love for love’s sake.

Indeed, the creation is made of mirrors, endlessly Love reflecting Love. Where, then, fits any individual expression? Each individual possesses its own subjective conscious awareness and is as that awareness gives it to be. Every gift, every talent, every seeming liability, every lucky and unlucky accident of fate that has shaped who you are is an occurrence drenched in love. Thusly, the way out of being caught in spiritual pride is not as one might think, to call upon humility, for humility is a kind of pride. If one is conscious of being humble it is because there has been a choice to tell oneself or to behave to others to tell them that you have the consciousness of humility. Rather, true humility is of the one who, without thinking either well or ill of the self has the impulse to serve under any conditions whatsoever. While another is seeking to be humble the truly humble entity has already found a way to be of service, perhaps by listening to the conversation of the one who is seeking to be humble. Humility, in its balanced state, simply moves with the occurrences which come before the vision in the passing moments of your day-to-day experience.

The group question for this session was: What are the pitfalls of spiritual pride, and what can be done to balance it? Q’uo began by saying that dealing with spiritual pride was a constant process that begins with the seeker being able to accurately estimate its abilities or lack of abilities in given situations. Q’uo used the Buddha as an example of feeling that the performing of princely duties were unfulfilling whereas the simple rowing of seekers across a river made Him feel content. Q’uo also used Jesus’s advice to the rich man that followed all the Commandments to sell all he had and follow Him which was another analogy for keeping the focus on the eternal principles such as seeking the Christ Consciousness rather that which is of the moment. Then Q’uo defined spiritual pride as: “ascribing ownership about absolutely anything at all to anyone except the infinite Creator.” Q’uo went on to say that the Logos has used Love to create everything in the universe out of Light so that each seeker is of love, made of love, made for love, made by love, made to love. Then Q’uo said that the balance for spiritual pride was not the normal use of humility as humility could also be another form of spiritual pride. Q’uo suggested that true humility was simply seeking to be of service in each moment without thinking either well or ill of the self. On March 1, 1998, Q’uo said that we all are always working with the concept of spiritual pride:

As long as you think that you have a self that you need to defend you shall be working with spiritual pride, and so entities for the most part are working with this no matter how persistently and purely and devotionally they have sought year after year, yet still there is the sense of “I” am searching. “I” am looking. “I” am seeking to become the best that “I” can. Conversely, we have found that coming into a fuller awareness of self is actually a process of subtraction, simplification, and elimination of things from the defended self until finally the self is empty and the barriers are down. Is this safe to do within your density? No. Not at all, not in the sense of the preservation of the physical body, the emotional body, or the spiritual body within incarnation.

What we are trying to say is that it is not a terrible thing to be working with pride or in general to be working with one’s fear. This is part of what one is doing in this illusion. This is what you are supposed to be doing. This is your subject matter: fear and love. Boundaries and unity.

There is the challenge, then, to find a way off of the Ferris wheel or the merry-go-round of judging the self to be prideful or striving to be more humble. How, when one has felt one’s prideful ownership of that which is the Creator’s, does this seeker step off of the merry-go-round which rolls between the dynamics of pride and humility? It is a daring suggestion, but we do suggest that there is sometimes a need for the benign neglect of one’s powers of inward perception. Thinking about being less prideful is merely an engraving mechanism for etching even deeper into the consciousness the concept of one’s being prideful and seeking humility. Once one feels one has become humble that very statement is a prideful statement. Like all dynamic opposites of the spiritual life the way away from the dilemma is by turning from both extremes towards the infinite Creator’s love, allowing the train of the mind to chug away into the far distance and be gone so that the silent inner countryside of the heart and the spirit may be full of the silence into which love comes. And from which the seeker may be transformed into that which love shines through.

This transparency to the infinite Creator is a product of one who continuously turns from too much examination and study to the mystery. In turning to the mystery seekers finally face their life as unknowable, as hidden within an unknowing which is absolute. Yes, much may be gained by the study of inspirational works, by listening to those whose spiritual seeking has produced fruits which can be communicated. Yet, no matter how many riches of knowledge and wisdom the seeker piles up, no final gain can be said to be produced in this way. Only in the silence of the listening and harnessing spirit is there the realization of the crystalline, shining, transparent self that is merely a sun-catcher, merely there to act within manifestation as a servant of love.

You ask what pitfalls there may be for individuals or groups. The first pitfall is to worry, to be overly concerned about such things as spiritual pride. This falls somewhat under the category of taking the spiritual temperature. The other pitfalls are those created by circumstance wherein there is the opportunity to communicate with others, not strictly attempting to voice thoughts of love but attempting in some way to defend or impress. The impulse to defend, when communicating, is that fear-driven impulse which is motivated by characteristics within such as pride. It is the desire to have another or even the self think well of who you are or what is being done by you. The desire to impress is a special kind of defense, an offensive defense shall we say, where one is moved to attempt to bedazzle or otherwise impress others with the qualities which you, yourself, consider impressive. Whether those qualities include humility or whether they are simply a list of degrees or achievements the impulse is the same and is prideful.

It is not ever necessary that others grasp who you are or what you are doing. It is acceptable, in our opinion, to be misunderstood, misvalued or misestimated. It is acceptable for others to think better of you than you think appropriate just as it is acceptable for others to think less. Release ownership of who you are. You cannot fly away from who you are, yet how closely you clutch and cling to this identity and attempt to torture it into ever more excellent details of behavior, appearance, conduct and thought. Yet, you are asked only to love and worship a mystery and to embrace others just as you embrace, forgive, and accept yourself. Seek to put your life in the Creator’s hands and the Creator’s life will be in your hands. You then will be the perfect mirror, transparent to the light and the love of the infinite One so that there is no flaw in the backing of your light mirror. Seek simply to know your identity in love. Turn from any other consideration as frequently as possible and spend precious moments with the love that you are, with the love that you then may share.

Now Q’uo said that it would be a helpful choice for the seeker to forget about one’s powers of inward perception and turn to the silence of the inner heart and spirit to become full of the silence into which love comes so that the seeker may become that which love shines through. Then Q’uo said that the mystery that reveals life is unknowable, and this realization allows the self to become transparent as a servant of love. Q’uo went on to say that the pitfalls of spiritual pride are to be overly concerned about spiritual pride in the way of attempting to take one’s spiritual temperature, or when communicating with others in attempting to either impress them or defend the self against them so that they will think well of you, or yourself may think well of itself. Then Q’uo said that we should love and embrace the mystery and put our lives in the Creator’s hands so that the Creator’s life will be in our hands. They said that this would make us the perfect mirror, transparent to the Light and Love of the Creator, and to know our identity as that of love as often as possible, and spend time with this love that we may then share it with others. On February 3, 1991, Hatonn gave an example of how and why we may embrace the mystery:

The mist of chaos surrounds the entity as he stands upon the cliff, a sheer rock face with barely a foothold of human knowledge. Shall he ascend? Shall he descend? No, for he cannot climb sheer rock; there is no cleft; there is no comfort. That is your situation. Consequently, with the tiger above, the tiger below, of that which is not possible, those who choose to live a life in faith must choose to leave the cliff of human knowledge and embrace the mystery, willing to allow that mystery to teach them. At that point the seeker gathers itself together, centers its consciousness upon the next step, and begins its long and dusty road of seeking by leaping from the cliff into the thin mist of chaos, that chasm of unknowing which will forever separate time from eternity. Yet, the seeker knows that it does not know any way to proceed except to will itself to take that leap. The will is secondary. The feeling for faith is primary. However, it takes an application of will to leap into a chasm, and it is a right use of will, not to corral oneself into doing anything, but when one feels that the time metaphysically is correct to act. And so, the first expression of faith is very much, for most entities, that of acting as if there was faith within the heart already.

We thank this instrument and would, at this time, move to the one known as Jim, and may we say we are grateful that this entity wishes to receive our contact at this time. We are those of Q’uo and we leave this instrument in love and in light.

This morning I went outside and completed the washing of the windows in the living room just before it began to rain. Then I went to Thieneman’s Nursery to buy a couple of flats of impatiens that I want to switch out with the pansies that are currently in my two flower pots on the front porch because they are getting tall and scraggly since they don’t do well in hotter weather.

This afternoon I stayed inside and washed the windows in the living room. Then I went outside and transplanted the pansies to the area between the garage and the firepit and then transplanted the impatiens into the two flower pots on the porch. Then I cleaned the filters on the fountain for the second day in a row. I called the company that the fellow who came out and cleaned my fishpond last week works for to see what I can do to keep the filters from becoming clogged. He suggested a solution that I ordered from their website, and I will use it as soon as it arrives.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 14

What Shall The Day Bring?

I come in the name of Jesus the Christ and greet you in the full consciousness of Love.

What shall the day bring? This question lies upon the fearful brow of one who hesitates in the morning to gaze steadily at the day’s offerings.

We encourage each instead to rejoice in what the day brings, whatever it may be. The enjoyment of it is the perfect gift of perfect love. Seize it. Relish it. And, in the best way given, deal with it appropriately.

But know, too, that this, indeed this very moment, is the moment which is given for peace, joy, rejoicing, and happiness; this moment and no other. Feel the fullness of the spirit of the living Christ within and open to the splendor of the morning.

We leave you in the bracing wind of spirit and the perfect peace of acceptance, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 7, 1993:

Group question: The question today comes from N, and it is as follows: Q’uo mentioned the aura as the outward manifestation of the form-making body or electronic body perceivable by those aware of their time/space capabilities while in incarnation. It was also mentioned, or at least I understand that the form-maker or electronic body belonged to the inner planes and that the inner planes were in a space/time continuum that has its corresponding realities in time/space existence. Since I believe that the aura is a product of the emanations of the energetic vortices or nexi generally known as chakras, and these organs constitute the etheric body, can I conclude that the ether—not the gas used in anesthesia)—is the synapses between reality and the illusion of the three-dimensional life?

(Carla channeling)

Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those of Q’uo and feel most privileged to be called to this working to offer our thoughts upon the subject of the juncture betwixt the illusion which you now inhabit and that of reality. A couple of introductory comments seem appropriate. Firstly, as always, we ask all our opinions be considered with an open mind but not taken as authority. Your discrimination is your authority. Secondly, the format of querying is acceptable.

As we approach the question we note that the wording of the question moves our reply towards a vector probably not intended by the questioner, for the juncture of three-dimensional illusion with reality is within the spiritual complex only, and it is that direct linkage through the shuttle of intelligent energy to intelligent infinity. To move to intelligent infinity is to enter reality, however, it is also to cease being aware of the self or anything whatsoever. Intelligent infinity is all that there is with no variation within the infinity. Though there is unlimited intelligence, there is only the one Thought, or Logos of Love. All other states whatsoever are illusory.

To move from this statement, we go to what we consider may more be the intent of this query and that is where the juncture might be betwixt the space/time, conscious awareness of third density and the time/space or inner planes which contain the light bodies which govern the physical vehicle in space/time. This non-physical awareness is partially a creature of the illusion itself, that is, it contains the resources, both physical and mental, of the creature which is your physical vehicle.

There is, however, an overshadowing influence upon this physical vehicle and its life which is of the infinite and eternal creature which is your consciousness. This consciousness is carried in time/space during the space/time in which it is connected to the particular physical vehicle of this incarnation by an inextricable connection which is popularly known as the silver cord. The energies of the chakras, then, are a blending of the natural health or lack of comfort of the physical and mental state of the being in incarnation with the complex additions of those resources and biases brought by the consciousness into manifestation during the incarnation, so that the aura, as seen by those with clear inner sight, displays not only the physical, mental and emotional state of the entity, but to a variable degree, shows the native density of the wanderers, and overtones, shall we say, of vibration which belong not only to one incarnation, but to the continuing pattern of this image or being which goes through many incarnations.

The connection is not broken except through death. It may be released at some point slightly prior to physical death or shortly thereafter. However, the nature of this connection is such that it simply withdraws from a non-viable physical vehicle.

The group question was from N, but it was making incorrect descriptions of the relationships between space/time and time/space, so Q’uo attempted to correct these concepts in their response. Q’uo began by saying that the connection between the third-density illusion and reality is perceived only in the spirit complex which can serve as a shuttle between intelligent energy and intelligent infinity which is the Love of the Logos. Then Q’uo said that: “the juncture might be betwixt the space/time, conscious awareness of third density and the time/space or inner planes which contain the light bodies which govern the physical vehicle in space/time. This non-physical awareness is partially a creature of the illusion itself, that is, it contains the resources, both physical and mental, of the creature which is your physical vehicle.” Then Q’uo said that the consciousness of the physical vehicle which is located in time/space is connected in space/time to the physical body by what is known as the silver cord. They continued by saying that the energies of the chakras indicate the health or lack of health of the body and the mind in the present incarnation as well as previous lives and the identity of those who are wanderers. Then Q’uo said that the connection of the silver cord to the body is only broken at the death of the body. On December 25, 2010, Q’uo spoke of the silver cord, wanderers, and illness:

However, there is such a thing as unrealistic optimism, shall we say, and we find that many wanderers are those who come into the incarnation having chosen to retain enough of a good contact with the inner planes that there can be what you might call illnesses, or difficult conditions that strike. Just as a cold or a sinus infection might hit the physical vehicle, so there are times when the energy body experiences colds or fevers or periods where there has been some slight injury to the basic wiring, shall we say, of the energy body. This is not to say this is a serious illness or serious condition of which we are speaking, not something that would cause the energy body to stop working or to sever the silver cord, as this instrument calls it, but to say that there are surprises.

This instrument’s surprises came because there was so much emphasis on keeping higher-density wiring. It was unseen by this instrument before incarnation that this would leave the physical vehicle vulnerable to physical illnesses. In just the same way, some may find that their wiring, as this instrument would call it, creates for them times of intense sensitivity to the energies of the inner planes that are directly contiguous to or attracted to the energy body and it is just like a physical illness, quite distracting, and is a kind of discomfort that must be managed.

Before we can speak further to this we shall require a further query. This concludes this discussion. However, we would open the meeting to any other queries which might have the interest in asking.

[Pause]

We see that there are no queries at this time ripe for the vibration. We therefore thank each. May we say that although sometimes the questions seem to be working upon a subject which has little inspiration in it, it is our opinion that there is no subject which cannot be viewed with a feeling of reverence and love. When those who attempt to be healers come to the study of spiritual principles of healing, they often are trained to be very accurate in a scientific manner. The ways in which your culture’s medicine works are detailed and mechanically and biochemically complex. There is the concept of exactitude, and a tremendous respect is given to detail. When someone working from the spiritual consideration of life or eternity then turns to the consideration of spiritual healing, such an entity moves as a poet or a dancer, expressing in generalities of grace, rhythm, and aesthetic beauty. These two approaches harmonize to become synthesized as one broad holistic way of viewing health concerns.

The physical body is the child of the form-maker body, which is the creature of the infinite and eternal unique consciousness that expresses the “I Am” of one entity. This entity’s disease may be approached through latrogenic measures—we correct this instrument—through allopathic measures, through the workings of such remedies as laughter, meditation, and visualization, or by fasting and prayer. What we hope may be seen is that all disciplines can work together harmoniously and cooperatively, no one being greater than the other, but all being used as appropriate. As each approaches its own health concerns, remember that there is virtue in the whole circle of ways of affecting consciousness, but above all these things for the greatest health of all turn always towards the infinite One in praise, in prayer, in silence and in thanksgiving.

Now Q’uo chose to briefly speak upon the concept of healing. Q’uo began by saying that in our culture healing is often studied in a scientific manner with great emphasis on detail and the mechanics of the body. Then they said when someone working from the spiritual consideration of life or eternity turns to the concept of spiritual healing, they focus on the more general aspects of the grace and rhythm of healing, and then these two approaches to healing can blended into a more wholistic way of viewing healing. Q’uo went on to say that the physical body is a product of the form-maker body which is a creature of the infinite and eternally unique Creator. Then Q’uo said that a variety of healing practices such as laughter, meditation, visualization, fasting, and prayer may be used to achieve healing with no one being greater than another, but the greatest of all healing can be accomplished by turning to the Creator in praise, prayer, and thanksgiving. On November 6, 1994, Q’uo spoke of many aspects of the healing process:

There are many tools, as you have put it, that are available to an entity for the finding of the wholeness within. There are, for example, the uses of meditation, contemplation, the prayerful attitude, which are most helpful in preparing the entity for healing. There is the examined life, shall we say, that looks at the need for healing and sees many behaviors, perceptions, thoughts, and attitudes, which flow from the distorted being that is in need of healing. These behaviors and attitudes may be worked upon by the conscientious seeker to bring them into a balanced state. The entity may seek the healing catalysis from one of your medical profession that may utilize any number of healing modalities that themselves become tools for the healing to occur.

The entity, in the long run, shall we say, will rely upon an inner faith that will take form in whatever manner has meaning to the entity. This faith will then provide a channel, or a doorway, through which the healing efforts of others may move into the life pattern of the one to be healed. Thus, you may find that there are many, many tools available to an entity seeking healing, yet the attitude of this entity and its ability to exercise its own faith, coupled with the entity’s work in consciousness focused upon its own patterns of thought and behavior, are those tools which are most efficacious in this healing process.

Questioner: Can I come up with a question for Q’uo before we leave?

I am Q’uo: You may, my brother.

Questioner: I just thought to ask you to comment in general on this thought, and that is how people who are in the medical profession in our illusion, be it a general internist, or a doctor specializing in a certain field, or a nurse or radiologist, when they come to try to synthesize what they are trained in with helping people on the spiritual sense, is there some line of thought or contemplation to consider that they can fruitfully use towards increasing their service to others, not only within the training they have but also merging it with their metaphysical belief?

I am Q’uo. My brother, the overriding hope of all true healers is that the infinite One may smile upon such efforts as can be made by the practitioner to the patient. Those who believe rigorously in any particular regimen, whether it be chemicals used in medicine, or visualizations of thought forms, will find that this dependence is not always rewarded. Happy is the doctor whose patient has a destiny still upon this plane. Happy is the doctor whose patient has some awareness of this destiny. The tools aiding healers the most in general besides being expert at their fields, include the glad awareness of a higher power and a recognition of the value of the patient’s vital energy and will to live.

May we answer a further query, my brother?

Questioner: This is a general concept for me. Let me try to move the direction somewhere else a little bit. If you were a doctor who for the first time was coming to realize that the illusion is the illusion, would you recommend using meditation at first to clear up what kind of service he can blend with what you are already doing? Is that clear enough to comment on this? I am just trying to feel my way through a question which I feel may bring some inspiration to whoever may read what you are saying.

I am Q’uo, and we were not able to make sense of your query all together. Would you please query in another way?

Questioner: Perhaps I do need to think about it myself before I ask a question. There’s not really anything that comes out specific … out very clearly, to ask a question that may not be the best way to ask it. I will decline to be more specific, and not ask a question at this point.

I am Q’uo. We are aware that the one known as N has asked the session question. It is our thought that the direction of questioning be left to this entity as it shall be moving with regard to examining some of the details of how vital forces are conjoined, inner to outer planes. We then await the next query to be well pointed in our responses. However, as we believe, my brother, that your concern was for the one known as N and other physicians to feel the inspiration, we would simply say that it is our understanding, if we may use that term, that physicians such as the one known as N are inspired to ask queries of sources such as this group because they already have an insight which gives a vision of the great potential of an universal healing center or combination of all of the various modes of healing so that entities which come with disease may through more than one kind of doctoring receive a more complete or more whole healing.

We would at this time thank each, especially this instrument whose faithfulness we have often noted. It is such a privilege to work with this group and to share love with you. We leave you in that love and in that light. We are those of the principle of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and weeded the driveway, parking area in front of the house, and the walkway around the fishpond. Then I made an errand run with my first stop being at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My second stop was at Thieneman’s Nursery to buy a flat of zinnias. When I got home I transplanted the zinnias to the zinnia garden on the top of the Wuthering Heights Mound in the front yard to replace the zinnias which had died out in the last couple of weeks.

This afternoon I cleaned out the filters in the fishpond again as the fountain had gone down in height because of more of what looked like mud on the filters. Then I began to wash the windows in the kitchen and the wayback area behind the kitchen and around the back deck.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 13

All Are Loved

I am of the principle of the divine consciousness of love, and I greet you in that love.

We find, as we often find in using this instrument, that the instrument so despairs of its own worth in the spiritual sense as a fit conduit for the Holy Spirit of the Lord Jesus Christ that it is almost impossible for an open channel to be held in a stable manner.

It is unfortunate that the perception of so many pilgrims is that in some way they must earn by worth or works the right to spiritual experiences. Indeed, it is just in the opposite way that the spirit may work. For if an entity is concerned at all with self the concern aids in blocking the free flow of the spirit.

Once the desire for surrender to the spirit is clear within a pilgrim there is far less resistance to the flow of energy which is the hallmark of the spirit. And so we suggest to this and all pilgrims who are concerned that they are not worthy of spiritual gifts that no one is worthy or unworthy. All are loved.

We leave you in the peace of love, which demands and expects nothing but the beautiful essence of each and every spirit, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 28, 1993:

Group question: Today our question concerns moderation. Carla is concerned as to how she can modify her physical activity to avoid the kinds of injuries that her arthritis has been bringing about through sewing, singing, and crocheting and needlepoint, and all these heavy physical activities when over-doing in any particular area can bring about an injury. She would like to know what moderation would be in her situation, and R is wondering more generally about moderation in the spiritual seeking, how one can continue persistently and consistently on the spiritual path without becoming overly concerned about the situation that one is in and working so hard to be this or that that is considered ideal that you start working against yourself and start getting frustrated and begin taking your spiritual temperature and judging yourself.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings in the light and the love of the one infinite Creator. What a privilege and a pleasure to join our essence with your own in the warm and embracing circle of your meditation. We thank you for calling us to you this day, and hope that we may offer something of benefit, but as always, we wish for each seeker to choose carefully that which is taken in of what we or any may offer, for none that speak words is without error.

You asked us to speak of moderation. To set the stage, we move to your myth of the Garden of Eden. Within this garden all was of a plain and pure vibration. The mother and father of the race of humans was described as being tillers of this perfect paradise. The so-called fall of humankind came about because that described as Satan, or the Devil, suggested that the pure, innocent tillers and gardeners of this place could know of good and evil and yet still live. The choice of humankind was in this parable to know of good and evil. It is into this arena of dynamic opposites that humankind is, therefore, all born. The very foundation of third density is based upon what is described as a mistake; that is, a choice to know good and evil and, therefore, to die. All of the third-density environment is necessarily founded upon dynamic opposites and the choice for or against the radiance of living and dying as opposed to the magnetic pulling and grabbing at life and the fearful pushing away of death. It may seem that this choice to live and die, to be imperfect and to choose between imperfectly derived essences may be a foolish choice, but it is this very environment which creates the best conditions for the growth and the learning of that within each which may be called the seeker or the higher self, that is, that self which aspires to move more and more fully into the radiant energy of the one Creator.

This first pair, then, were immoderate, and the spiritual journey as well as physical, mental, and emotional journeys of humankind may be seen to yield the greater fruits to those which seem immoderate. Examine, if you will, each his own story within this incarnation. The most productive of the choices made can be seen in retrospect to be immoderate, full of passion, and deeply, strongly felt. So, our first point is that the essence of third density is dynamic balance between two extremes, and progress upon the seeker’s path is aided by immoderate, full-hearted action moving towards choices which polarize the seeker’s heart towards reaching out for the light and being a transparent conduit for that Love and Light that is the Creator.

This being said, we move to the examination of what virtue moderation might have. Perhaps we could define moderation as that activity within which there is expressed an awareness of the limitations which pertain to the sort of moderate activity being sought. If an entity, for instance, is very, very strong a moderate exercise might be the careful, evenly paced climb to a great height of one of your mountains. Moderation, to one physically limited, might be walking for a short length of time. The mountain climber and the ambler through a field or two have nothing in common about their rightness. Moderation, then, is a subjective thing. Similarly, moderate activity for one of extreme intelligence or creativity might completely ruin the mental abilities of one whose resources are limited, and that which would be moderate to the latter would be starvation for the former.

Perhaps you may see the same as being so of emotional and spiritual capacities. Moderation being always subjective, judged only by one entity which is in command of the knowledge of itself, its native capacities and its rate of enlargement or learning or development. Addressing the specific query of the one known as Carla, we point out that the activities which have been obviously immoderate for this entity are not, in and of themselves, immoderate. For one of perfect health, these activities would barely be noticed and would not be more than just and moderate.

When entities are self-destructively immoderate what seems lacking may be the willingness to accept and use the accurate evaluation of the limits of one’s capacity. It is this inaccuracy with regard to the self which sets the stage for those discomforts which come from having done so far too much of an activity that the abilities of the self are not only stretched but broken. The result of this lack of accurate evaluation of the self, then, is a further limiting of that particular capacity, thus requiring a new accurate evaluation of capacity. Failure to be accurate in the self-estimate causes the cycle of being able to do less and less. Finally, at some point, the seeker is forced to reckon with the failure to be an accurate assessor of the limits of capacity.

Looking with these eyes at the spiritual life we may see that the seeker’s goal, then, is not to press so far beyond the bounds of the present ability, but rather to move to the limit of what the instrument which has been given to the seeker in this incarnation can bear without injury. Thusly, the one who moves persistently, taking the small but frequent steps towards enlarging the spiritual capacity is that entity whose heed of moderation has allowed it to continue slowly but surely to press the envelop of personal limitation so that there is a maximal movement towards more and more discernment, compassion and transparency which allows the radiant energy of the One to flow most freely.

The group questions for this session concerned the topic of moderation and began with Carla’s question of how she could engage in all of her daily activities without injuring her arthritically sensitive body. Then R wanted to know how to achieve moderation on the spiritual journey of seeking and working so hard to achieve personal ideals that he begins to judge himself. Q’uo began their response by using the experience of Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden where there was only goodness in the beginning, but when the Devil introduced the concept of good and evil then the concept of dynamic opposites—or a mistake—was created, and it is into this mistake that all of humanity is born: the radiance of living or the fear of dying. Then Q’uo said that it was in these conditions of immoderate living that offers the spiritual seeker the best chances for growth and moving into the radiant energy of the Creator. Then Q’uo said that in looking to the concept of moderation it should be said that this was a subjective concept that recognized that moderation had a different meaning for each seeker whether one speaks of physical, mental, spiritual, or emotional capacities. Q’uo went on to say that one such as Carla, who had limitations on her physical abilities, would need to take these limitations into account so that she did not cause herself problems by exceeding them. Q’uo said this would be true also of the spiritual seeker who would need to take moderate steps towards enlarging its spiritual capacity so that it exercised more discernment, compassion, and transparency, and then it could experience the radiant energy of the One to flow most freely through it. On October 3, 1999, Q’uo spoke of how we may enlarge our spiritual capacities:

But when you move into the area of desires for qualities, for truth, for higher spiritual capacity, then you are beginning to work with desires that are very helpful in terms of acceleration of your spiritual self, the moving forward of that process of the evolution of the spirit for which you took flesh in the first place. When next you have these desires for things or for qualities gaze at them from a secure and restful place from within your own heart, knowing that you have all that you need if you are one with the infinite Creator, yet knowing that you dance the dance of life. And while you are moving through the steps of this beautiful and intricate dance, desires shall arise and may well be satisfied.

Now why would entities wish to abandon accurate sense perceptions? Why would entities reject their own situations? Why is there intoxication, that is, great immoderation resulting in lack of function? The reason for this, basically, is that always that which may be termed the Devil or the negative principle delights in suggesting to the seeker that one can do that which one wishes as much as one may fantasize, even if it be forbidden, for this will not kill; this will aid in greater expansion, in greater expansion of living. This temptation moves deeply within the sea of consciousness of each. It is the energy of spiritual greed. And it says to the conscious self, “Eat of this. You will not die.” And so those who heed this siren call do the equivalent of getting in one of your automobiles, moving the gas pedal to the floor, and when hitting that curve or that cliff or that rock which cannot be maneuvered around, the crash does kill, and there is an overwhelming sense of loss.

We suggest that it is well, then, to heed the estimate of one’s own abilities, neither puffing them up nor underestimating them. One last thought. There is one avenue in which moderation is not suggested. That is in the area of what you may call moral or ethical judgment. When faced with that which from within speaks to one of right and wrong, this sense within may be heeded without moderation as one searches for the choice which will polarize. In your holy work there is the admonition to let your yes be yes, your no be no. This immoderate firmness reflects not upon any subjective limitations of capacity but, rather, is the examination of the abstract principle. When this feeling of right and wrong is awakened, respect that ethical sense within and allow the yes to remain purely yes and the no to remain purely no. The importance of respecting this ethical impulse within cannot be overestimated. It is the foundation stone of the whole world of spiritual principles which simplify themselves more and more as experience is gained in trusting that sense of ethical rightness or justice.

Now, when one moves from the examination of a principle to the consideration of the application of this principle, then it may be seen that moderation again becomes a valid and central concern. Yet, even in the application of the principle there is virtue in immolating oneself because of the sense that the incarnation itself has moved to its center and martyrdom of some kind is necessary in order to witness to the spiritual principle. So even when one attempts to live a strongly felt life holding one’s convictions and expressing them moderately there is virtue in having an accurate enough sense of one’s destiny that one may know when immoderation to the point of loss, or martyrdom, is appropriate.

The tool most handy for use in applying the principle of moderation may be as simple as the use of the clock. To set the beginning and the end of activity of one kind or another. But any tool must be used by the self so that the self needs first and foremost to come into the accurate awareness of the capacities of the self. That this awareness is avoided is, shall we say, human, and those most immoderate by nature are often those whose capacities in some senses are extreme so that no effort seems to be immoderate. However, this sense of the self as indestructible must be avoided in favor of a more accurate gaze at the various kinds of capacity which make up the complex of activities of the self. Above all, this search for accurate perception takes the light touch. There is humor inherent in limitation. It is starkly compared with the joy of utter intoxication. One wishes to move somewhere between that intoxication and a lack of any use of an inherent capacity.

Now Q’uo asked why any entity would abandon its own sense perceptions of its situation, and then they answered their own question by saying that negative principles enjoy telling the seeker that it can do whatever it wants, even if it is forbidden, and this activates spiritual greed which says that you can do whatever you want and you will not die. But when the death comes there is the suffering of the loss, so Q’uo suggested that it is well to maintain an accurate estimate of one’s abilities. Then Q’uo said that when one faces an ethical situation, and as the inner feeling of right and wrong is awakened, it is important to let one’s yes be yes and one’s no be no because this is the foundation upon which all spiritual principles are based, and they become simpler as experience is gained in trusting this sense of ethical rightness. Q’uo went on to say that it is possible that a movement from moderation may become necessary when the incarnation has moved to its center so that martyrdom becomes necessary to witness to the spiritual principle that is necessary to fulfill one’s destiny. Q’uo completed their answer by saying that one must become aware of its capacities of the self and avoid those feelings of being indestructible and adopt a more accurate estimation of one’s activities so that one can see the humor of one’s limitations balanced by the joy of utter intoxication. On August 29, 1993, Q’uo spoke about the fulfilling of one’s destiny:

 So, we would say to you that the greatest skill which the spirit may offer, when working with one’s destiny, is that skill which surrenders the intellectual and logical modes of thought, and instead adopts a willing and flowing attitude which allows the seeker to feel its way until that which feels right within has been discovered.

The permeability of destiny to accident is variable, depending upon how far from the target or hub of destiny a seeker may be. When a lesson has just been begun, that is the equivalent of being in Louisville and having enough supply of money to afford a variety of ways to Chicago. As choices are made and the lessons go forward, that is, analogously, as Chicago is neared, there are fewer uncertainties about how the next few occurrences will unfold, for there is less room in which to work, less latitude concerning the approach to the, shall we say, punch line of the lesson.

We ask again that that which we say be considered as opinion, and would ask if there are further queries before we leave this instrument?

All: No. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we too are filled with joy at being part of the give and take of spiritual seeking. We have found this instrument to be somewhat fearful about channeling concerning its own queries, its own concerns. Insofar as this has escalated to a fear of being a poor instrument this concern has been regrettable. Why is there a fear of getting it wrong? Why not the giving up of the self in complete trust? In each seeker’s life there are times when the answers seem very, very important. Yet there need be no fear concerning the gathering of information about this matter, whatever it may be. Wherein this instrument, the lack of fear has worked against it in its evaluation of physical limitation, its fear has worked against it in the gathering of information about how to correct its behavior.

We ask each to embrace an attitude that does not partake of any fear, and further ask that in each spiritual seeker the moderation employed in moving toward spiritual goals not be the result of any fear but rather be the embracing of freedom. As the prudent and enthusiastic course is chosen and the choices made never decide through fear, but, using the subjective knowledge of the self, choose by means of the illumination of spiritual principle and the confident application thereof in the activities of the loving and radiant life.

We thank this group and this instrument for this opportunity to share, and may we say, reluctantly leave this vibratory nexus. We are with you in supportive silence at all times in which we are mentally called. This, too, is our abiding joy and we thank each for these opportunities to serve also and will be with each in meditation as requested. We leave you in the love and the light of the infinite One. We are those of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning Anna and I listened to Carla channel Ra in Session 31 and 32 as she had stayed overnight in one of the basement bedrooms after our public channeling session yesterday. As always, it was very interesting to see how Ra’s concepts carried more layers of meaning now and then and gave us new perspectives on their meaning.

This afternoon I made an errand run to Walgreen’s to buy some clothes detergent and some dish detergent along with some Clariton for my allergies to tree pollen. Then I stopped by Thieneman’s Nursery to buy a flower that had no name but looked kind of like a Zinna, and when I got homme I planted it in the location where I trimmed back the Surprise Lily leaves that were dying in the middle of the flower garden in the Moss Garden. Then I dead-headed flowers with dead blooms and weeded all of my gardens.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 12

Whence The Spirit Shall Blow

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

At the beginning of time the spirit moved upon the face of creation and light shone forth upon the darkened portions of the Earth.

The spirit of the living God is a light which comes from beyond time, a light which encompasses all times and places, a light which may move as it will from past to present, from future to past.

Nothing is closed to the light of love and the spirit of that love moves as it wills. Thus is it ever impossible to know whence the wind of spirit shall blow nor whither it tends. The only prayer of the spirit-filled being is a prayer of surrender. For plans may be made, but the spirit may well overturn the plans of man.

Yet is not the strong action suggested by spirit more desirable than all the ordered series of actions without the spirit of love in the universe?

We leave you in the peace of the mind’s surrender to eternity and the forces of love, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from February 14, 1993:

Group question: Well, the two issues that I have in mind are, first of all, if we can obtain a definition of life that would certainly be applicable to all creation and simple enough to be understood at our level. That is the first question that I had. And the second (it is the simpler one in the group), is why the rainbow colors are sort of upside down, with the purple on the bottom and the red on top. You and I spoke extensively yesterday and today, so you probably know better than I do what else I would like to ask.

And as an addition to the question on what the definition of life would be, in a form that we could understand here, we would also like some information on how the death and removal from this illusion of any one of us would affect the others that we have incarnated with who don’t remember the pre-incarnative plan; and who especially if, say, a child dies at a young age, the loved ones that are left behind may engage in some expression of grief as a result of the death, that would have effect on their karma. How does the life that we live affect other people, as we remove ourselves from this illusion through the death process?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. What a pleasure and a privilege it is for us to be with you in your meditation this afternoon. The mingled vibrations are such a blessing to us, and it is a privilege to join in your circle of seeking and light. As always, we are sharing our opinion, and ask that each use his discriminatory powers in listening to this or any material offered for spiritual seeking. Trust in your discrimination, take what is for you—what seems remembered instead of learned—and leave the rest behind you, for we would not be a stumbling block for any.

We speak to your query about a definition of life. My friends, the subject, like all metaphysical subjects, defies the use of your words. However, if this be understood as a necessary limiting factor, then we may proceed in good humor, tripping over the nouns and verbs of your illusion. The most comprehensive definition of life is this life, is manifestation. To put this another way, life is movement. Because we do not feel that this basic definition is helpful, we shall go further, but it is well to remember that all that is, is alive—that all was created by a thought which was the character and nature of the infinite Creator. This thought we call Love, for there is no appropriate designation. However, this Love is as terrible as it is filled with wonder, and loves as passionately destruction as it does creation, for the Love that is the nature of the Father, shall we say, is a Love that embraces the creation as a whole process, so that all phases of this movement are equally lovely.

To focus more on a definition of life that might be helpful, we would consider the way in which third-density entities come into the energy web of a physical vehicle. In terms of human existence, the human life is joined when the vibratory nexus of what you may call the soul enters into and mingles with a permanent bonding with a physical vehicle. There is a life of the body complex. This is inextricably enmeshed with the life of the spirit or soul, and the resulting harmony of vibratory patterns becomes a living being.

Similarly, when the movement of the spirit has ceased and separated itself from the energy nexus of the physical vehicle, that human being is not living. This occurs sometimes before the physical death and sometimes at the moment of physical death, and in some rare circumstances where there is a soul very tenacious of consciousness within this particular illusion, there remains the clinging of the soul to an unviable physical vehicle. This is usually described as a ghost or a haunting, and is a result of the spirit being unwilling to move forward.

Because there is the energy for more directed querying possible, we would like to open the meeting to a series of questions, if this is acceptable to each. We ask now if there is a query to be asked, or if each would prefer for us to go on with our, shall we say, sermonette, on our own. Is there a following query to guide our giving of information?

The group question for this session was: “What is the definition of life?” Q’uo began their reply by saying that words really cannot define metaphysical principles such as life, but they suggested that life was a manifestation or a movement, and then they went further by saying that life is the Love of the Creator that loves creating the universe to know Itself [and then destroying it as it all coalesces in the octave density] so that all of the phases of life are equally lovely. They continued by saying that life as we know it begins when the soul or spirit enters the physical body, and it ends when the spirit leaves the physical body. On March 23, 1997, Q’uo gave another aspect of the meaning of when life begins:

For truly the Creator broods over each of you, so in love with each of you. We cannot express the intensity of that Love that we have perceived coming to us and to all from the infinite One. We are His heart’s darlings. We are the children of creation, and this describes our nature beyond all illusion.

When this has begun to become a part of who the seeker is, when this feeling of being so loved and so precious has sunk in and taken root in a subtle and ever-changing way, the life begins to be transformed because the self finally accepts the Creator’s opinion of self and can begin to see by faith alone that whatever is upon the surface, the self is the Creator’s own from its very origins upwards. This is the native land. This is the home. This is the safety of each, not the power, security, or any manifested part of how the world thinks about itself, but, rather, the safety and security lie in remembering whose child you truly are, whose service you truly wish to join, whose love you truly wish to channel through yourself and into the world.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we see that this circle wishes us to proceed. We shall. As each rests within this illusion, the questions of, “What is life?” and, “How fully am I living?” seem bright and obvious and pointed. The life looks to be obvious. If a person moves and thinks and expresses, this person is alive. If this person is not breathing, not thinking, and not moving, this person is not alive; however, this is not the simple truth. The truth is simpler, though still a mystery to us, and that is that all which proceeded, is proceeding, and will proceed from the one great original Thought or Logos of Love, lives, and this life moves with an ever more characteristic energy pattern as it moves through sub-densities of incarnation and experience, moving into matter or space/time coordinates with time/space coordinates within, and by your science largely unexplored.

We would if we could suggest in a specific way, that, “The key to further grasping the life that is within the illusion which you enjoy …” however, we cannot. We can only point the way for those who would consider and do investigatory work along these lines; and that is that the so-called “inner planes” are time/space coordinate areas, shall we say, in the twin illusions of time and space, which are precisely out of phase in a sequestered but complete harmony which echoes the manifested space/time life, so that there is a strong bridge, a common center, shall we say, which connects space/time catalyst and time/space beingness, in such a way that that which occurs in the incarnational experience of the living being is able to have a skillful and complete interfacing with the appropriate coordinates of time/space, that is, of the metaphysical or inner bodies and beings of the entity, or spirit, or soul which is living this incarnational experience.

This is an enormous aid to the ongoing and eternal spirit, for by this conjoining of the inner illusions and the outer illusions, material may be refined and refined, again and again and again, until the mystery begins to be seen—that mystery which is beyond all definitions of life, and yet a mystery which gives all life and absorbs all spent life within itself, with no loss of coherence or energy, so that in no way, regardless of the passing pageantry of changing existence, is there any iota of beingness lost, no way of learning and loving and giving ceasing or at an end.

The tools which humankind has to work with during an incarnational experience are those which can limit one. The tools of the intellect—or to use a more neutral term, the intelligence—the intuition, the learning by experience, are all good, sound tools which will be faithful workers for the entity which, in seeking, remembers to focus first upon the mystery which is Love, so that the incarnational experience begins to be pointed towards allowing the living to become the being, and the being the living. Or, to put it in more emotional terms, to allow the manifestations—whatever they may seem to be within the illusion of which you as a seeker are conscious of within yourself—to become the living, so that you are not living “this and that” in life, but rather, you have become the purified, refined essence of the incarnational experiences, which, by faith and persistent request, have become more and more deeply grounded within the energy nexus of both physical self and spirit self.

In this way one ceases being the questioner and becomes the question, and within that question knows that it is also the implicit answer. Thusly does the creation roll itself up until it is complete within you. Each seeker has its own infinite creation, and all of these unique creatures, in turn, are rolled up until there is no further manifestation and all has coalesced beyond that which knows or moves or manifests.

Now Q’uo said that the mystery of life comes from the one great original Thought of Love, the Logos, and moves with unique patterns of energy through the sub-densities of creation as matter that exists in space/time with time/space coordinates within each being. Q’uo went on to say that the time/space coordinates could be seen as the inner planes where the twin illusions of time and space function so that the space/time life is connected to the space/time catalyst and the time/space beingness and to its spirit or soul which is living the incarnation. Then Q’uo said that this joining of the inner and outer catalytic material is an aid to the eternal spirit as the mystery of life begins to be seen as giving all life, and expending all life so that no portion of beingness, learning, loving, or serving comes to an end. Q’uo continued by saying that humankind has tools of the intellect, intuition, and learning by experience that will aid the seeker as long as it first focuses on the mystery of Love so that the seeker becomes the purified essence of the incarnational experiences which have become grounded in the physical self and the spiritual self. Then Q’uo said that: “Each seeker has its own infinite creation, and all of these unique creatures, in turn, are rolled up until there is no further manifestation and all has coalesced beyond that which knows or moves or manifests.” On September 25, 1993, Q’uo spoke about the mystery of Love:

We have looked at the walking of the spiritual path and seen that it is based upon the awareness that within the form which walks upon the surface of this sphere and dies and is no more, there exists a self which does not go down into the dust or in any way become corrupted, but which is infinite and eternal and unknowable, as the mystery of Love shall always remain unknowable.

We have acknowledged that the beginning of this path may usefully be seen to be the first conscious choice of how to walk that path. Each here who hears our voice has committed the self to a pilgrimage of service to others on behalf of the one infinite Creator. We also have chosen this path, and this is why we have been called to your group at this time/space. We have suggested that beyond all questions of human motive, which keep intellects busy attempting to discern right, there is the actual center of this quest in the very body which is corrupt; for the consciousness which is Christ Consciousness, which is Buddha Body, dwells with a faithfulness that shall not cease, short of death.

We would wish to focus briefly upon the query concerning the rainbow and why its spectrum seems backwards. This instrument wishes us to go ahead with this thought, so we apologize for the bad joke. No, we think it is too bad to tell. We shall move on. “Now, seriously, folks,” as this instrument would say, consider if you will, the tree: its roots moving down gathering food, nourishment coming up into the tree, the leaves turning to the sun, pulling life from the surroundings, turning to the light … Now, consider the tree of what you may call life, for that is a technical term used in your white western magical tradition. Its roots are where it gets its nourishment. The Logos, descending through the bole or trunk of the tree, becomes light in all of its manifestations; and the most articulated of this light becomes conscious of itself in third density, and begins not only to turn towards the light but to turn in whatever way it might choose, gaining its light, its nourishment, leaf by leaf, not by instinct alone but by free will.

That which you know as light comes from the Logos, and is the first manifestation of Love of the infinite Creator. It draws its life from the center of Love and moves into all of the vibratory quanta which comprise the arrangement of the universe which you behold; thusly, its frame of reference is not yours. To the metaphysical way of thinking and expressing truth, this which you now experience is the final fruit of Love’s traveling into manifestation. Thusly, as through a mirror you see a reflection, so your living, your experiencing, is by reflection; and all that you see, in a metaphysical sense, is, shall we say, upside down or backwards. You see, feel, and think by reflection, not by direct perception.

Now, this is a large area and perhaps it would be well to stop before we begin another entire subject, and again ask if there be any queries at this time. We are those of Q’uo.

[Pause]

I am again with this instrument. I am Q’uo. We thank each for the energies brought to this circle this day. We have spoken of life. All is life. We have attempted to focus into the way of thinking about being a living human being. Firstly, the seven grosser aspects of life that is its basic definition, and secondly, the living of a life to the fullest, metaphysically speaking. We can share your hope that entities in the appropriate time/space shall decide to manifest within your illusion, to create instrumentation to measure those conjoining points between space/time and time/space which show to the eyes of those who can see what you call the aura, the existence of a human being as opposed to a physical vehicle whose silver cord has been severed. In a living being whose silver cord has been withdrawn, the aura lacks the motions characteristic of space/time time/space juncture—these junctures moving with emotion and thought in such a way that the resonating energy centers within the physical body are affected either by being regularized, spun more quickly, given more energy, given blockage, or given a glut of energy which creates its own interference difficulties.

These things can be seen by those who have become aware of their ability to see the inner plane bodies, most especially the electrical body as you have called it, or as we would perhaps prefer, the form-maker body, which is so often worked upon by those who work with the aura, with color and so forth, in their healing modalities. The instrumentation for this will, undoubtedly, bring great relief to those who wish to know objectively and in a stable and provable manner the estate of the soul within a physical vehicle. In the meantime, we may simply say that there truly is no incorrect choice when determining life or death in the medical sense, for so much is beyond the ken at all times. When faced with what seems to be a life and death decision, it indeed feels crucial to be right. The intention of being right is central. The accuracy of rightness is acceptable in its variability. Because this is so much upon the heart of the one known as (name), we include these hopefully comfortable words. The following of the hunch, the knowing within and waiting for validation—these tools will aid. The use of what you call clairvisual entities to determine whether or not space/time and time/space nexi are still conjoined …

[Side one of tape ends.]

…that clairaudient ability, like any other ability, has its good and its not so accurate moments. Instrumentation rather than psychics, shall we say, will alone satisfy the mind of the scientist.

Now Q’uo said that the spectrum seems backwards because light draws its life from the center of the Logos, which is Love, and creates the manifested creation which we see, feel, and experience as a reflection which looks upside down. Then Q’uo went on to say that all is life and that when an entity moves from time/space and enters into an incarnation that its work in the basic sense is upon the seven energy centers, and when the space/time nature of the incarnation expands into the time/space nature of the metaphysical realms that life is lived to its fullest. Q’uo went on to say that those who are able to read auras can see when the energy centers have been blocked, over-energized, or which have been balanced or regularized. Then Q’uo said that if the seeker feels it is facing a life and death situation the one who can read auras has the ability to determine whether or not space/time and time/space nexi are still conjoined, and this will give the seeker the opportunity to use its intuition concerning the best course of action to follow. On January 4, 1976, Hatonn spoke of the nature of life and death:

Even the least of those has been born in love and if you can realize this love within him, you have given him the reality within his center. Such service as this is what links you to your center; is what keeps you within reality. The consciousness of love will continue forever. Your consciousness of love will be your spiritual personality for eternity. Within this consciousness, the cycles of life and death are merely periods which seem as meaningless as the ticking noise of a clock seems in a year.

Within the consciousness of the physical illusion, life and death are weighty and serious matters, and shocking even to discuss. Within the consciousness of love, all is one and there is nothing to fear. And no one to resist. All that you see is love. We say this to some of you especially who are anointed with the ability, yet who have not used this ability on all occasions.

We would move on now to some brief consideration … This instrument laughed at us … perhaps a “not-brief” discussion, of the query concerning the karma and what patterns it assumes when a young one is removed so quickly from incarnational experience. Instead of focusing upon a mother and child, we would wish to look at the term “karma.” A misperception which seems quite widespread among your peoples is that karma is a way of keeping metaphysical books, that karma is a ledger which must balance—debits and credits equaling. However, this is not our considered opinion of the concept of karma. It seems to us that karma is the energy of action. An action accelerates an energy within some combination of energy centers, and creates within the incarnational experience a conjoined movement betwixt the body, mind, and spirit complexes. It is for this that each came into incarnation.

You see, my friends, you are here to witness to the Light and the Love of the infinite One. Yes, there are more and less skillful ways to witness this love and this light. Those with a certain lack of metaphysical rhythm or harmony may well spend an entire incarnational experience off-guard, behind, and confused, and without any seeming learning taking place, but rather simply aimlessly buffeted about by catalyst. This person would be seen to be collecting much karma, for its acts towards itself and others might or might not be centered in love and compassion. However, this, as well as the wisest sage’s life, is full of witness.

Now, certainly such an entity asleep within the dream of living shall awaken, and see that it has accelerated itself in a non-cohesive manner and is scattered in its energies. In the next lifetime, then, this entity shall co-create with the higher self or infinite One, an incarnation which addresses the illusion in such a way as to go over the same material again. Entities do not run out of chances to learn a given lesson of love; further, when all that has been accelerated within has been grasped, the lesson taken, and the impetus of karma ceased, yet still, there is a—we correct this instrument—an irretrievable and permanent karma or acceleration which is the movement from Source to Source or from the Creator to the Creator.

Mistakes appear to be numberlessly numerous, endlessly occurring, and it seems most risky to enter into the veil of illusion, to live the life and attempt to learn the lessons of love with no true knowledge or remembrance of the agenda. However, there is a keel, a rudder within which knows surely its destination; and from whatever place any seeming imbalance or karma might take this entity, from that precise place lies a straight and sure path along the lines of the lessons desired to be learned within the incarnation, so that what matters, metaphysically speaking, is not whether one chooses more correctly or skillfully one’s actions; rather, what matters is the purity and genuine authenticity of the desire to express as a channel of the love and the light of the infinite One.

Begin to allow yourself to see that you are the Creator when you are in any emotional distress or state of anguish, just as much as you are when peace is a loving, living river within, and you have the uplifted knowledge that all is well. The report card, shall we say, is not dependent upon your abilities as choice-maker, but very much dependent upon your desire to love and serve the infinite One. This opportunity does not cease under any circumstance, and there is always an equal, whole opportunity in the present moment to choose life, and not the life that comes into manifestation and leaves, but the life that is One, and is infinite and eternal.

Here Q’uo began to speak about karma and described it as an interaction of the various energy centers of the body that connect the mind, body, and spirit complexes and provide the reason for the incarnation. They said that we are all here to witness to the Light and Love of the infinite One, and this may be done well or poorly. Q’uo went on to say that when it is done poorly, then karma has been accumulated which will need to be worked on in as many future incarnations as are necessary. They also said that within each seeker there is a rudder or quality within each seeker that knows its true destination, and what matters most in choosing one’s actions within the incarnation is the authenticity and purity of desire to serve as a channel for the infinite One. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that we should realize that we are the Creator when times are good or bad, and it is our opportunity to choose the life of the Creator that is infinite and eternal. On March 16, 1997, Q’uo described how we can become channels for the one Creator:

How precious you are. How beautiful. Touch into this beauty, this grace. Feel that light as you move into the place of love within self. Feel the radiance beginning. And know that it is not from you that that radiance comes. All you can do is prepare the channel for the infinite Love and Light of the one Creator to flow through you into the world of manifestation. The suffering, the questioning, the doubting, the pain, and the suffering and agony of all that you experience is for one thing: to hollow you and to focus that emptiness so that it is ready to receive. For those upon the service-to-others path, those to whom we wish to speak, what is being received is infinite love and as it flows through you into a channel that you have cleared it radiates into all of your Earth world. It is for this that you came: to live a life filled with many sacrifices as things fall away and you begin to know what is valuable, what is beautiful, what is true. You are a witness, and yet you are what you witness in that wonderful paradox that is the signal of the metaphysical world. It will always baffle the mind and it hopes to so baffle it that you will make the trip from head to heart.

It is in that life, that love, and that light that we would leave this instrument and take leave of this group at this time. It has been a true pleasure to work with your queries, and we thank you for calling us to your group. If it is desired, we are very happy to be with you in meditation as a carrier wave, and that, too, is our pleasure. We are those of the principle of Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I got the chairs arranged in the living room for our last public channeling meditation. I also got some trays, plates, place mats, napkins, and silverware set out for the eleven attendees and four channels to share a dinner after the channeling sessions is over. Because we will be having a dinner and spending time together afterwards I am going to post this Camelot Journal entry this morning.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 11

The Details Of Daily Life

I am of the principality of heaven and of the nature of Love. I greet you in that consciousness which is the Love of Christ.

We find within this instrument the experience of wrestling with the dark angel of desire. For as the instrument’s brighter angel desires to tend towards the living Christ, yet the busybee mind engages wholeheartedly and insistently in wrestling the attention towards smaller and smaller details of the daily life, so that all feeling of continuity and wholeness is lost and the earthen vessel which is the body seems in place for no reason except to attend to a myriad of details.

Yet it is truly said that great treasure may lie within and be reflected from and through just these earthen vessels. And so the struggle is well continued.

Indeed, the simple knowledge that there is an alternative to a life without a unifying Spirit enlivens and beautifies the intentions and thus the deeper desires of the pilgrim. The Holy Spirit of the living God wishes never to intrude but to invite the strength of Love to enliven the drab details of daily life. And so shall it be done. The struggle shall give way again and again to victory.

We leave you in the peace of the spirit’s continuing struggle to seek the full consciousness of Love, for that is only the surface appearance. What one seeks, one shall surely find. Peace to you, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 7, 1993:

Group question: The question today has to do with the balance one seeks to achieve between accepting what the universe or the life pattern of catalyst has given one in the way of experiences and people, and then balancing that with using these very same situations, the catalyst of a life experience, and manipulating them in such a way as to attempt at least to achieve the goals which we feel are important, the learning of lessons, the loving and acceptance of others and so forth. How do we balance accepting what the Creator and the life pattern has given us and using it to progress along the evolutionary path?

(Carla channeling)

We are those of Q’uo. Greetings and love to you, my brethren. It is in the mystery of the infinite One that we come to your calling. We thank you for asking us to offer our opinions and shall endeavor to make our words as wise as possible, asking each to discriminate as to those things which we say according to each entity’s own light, for we are prone to error.

In speaking of the best way to enable your mind and heart to be satisfied with the balance between surrender and active change we find we need to move to a larger canvas and ask each if there is a serious question as to the wisdom or the clarity inherent in the life pattern which is now being enjoyed more or less by each. This decision is critical, for if the seeker finds a faith and a trust in the overall plan and agenda, metaphysically speaking, for this particular incarnational experience, then much of the obfuscation which shadows the clear path may be taken out of the way, for if the incarnational plan or agenda is accepted as one which yields lessons in love and opportunities for service, then the outer picture from day to day has less ability to shake the basic steadfastness of attitude and temperament.

In any given situation there is always free will, and one is free to choose not only how to act but also how not to act. When there seems to be a difficult choice to make the seeker may sit with this situation asking only that light may be given. We suggest no more direction than this, for the direction of the Christ-conscious self or higher self are silent, sometimes subtle, and movement of mind and emotions does obscure the ability of the self to place inside the heart the true model of that which is occurring. During this period of waiting it is well to refrain from thought, and when thoughts occur, to allow them to go their way.

This is a description of meditation in general to some great extent. However, when an entity is looking for resources which inform concerning the will of the infinite Creator one needs to become very quiet … inside. One needs to request of the self a freedom from the timetable, for the first task of a seeker faced with a choice is to sit with the situation, to bathe in its feelings and its shapes and so move into it that the situation itself is clarified. We cannot offer a suggestion as to the time limit of waiting for clarification. However, we may say that the waiting time is often the opposite of that which is expected. That is, there may seem to be a very complex and difficult situation which the waiting and listening period clarifies all in an instant. Or there may be what seems to be a cut and dried arrangement or situation which has a fairly obvious either/or, asking only this or that, which may upon reflection be found rather to contain unsuspected complexities or layers of choice or decision-making.

When the feeling has come that this situation is characterized in the heart and mind in an accurate, subjective manner then there comes a time and space for evaluating for the self the foreseeable spiritual or metaphysical pattern or shape of the road down which each of the options shall lead. In this evaluation one is not considering the surface qualities first. One does not seek, shall we say, contentment, for the path of the seeker is the path which goes onward and is often uncomfortable. This reflective period needs to be long enough that an unbiased or as nearly unbiased as possible evaluation of each option is attained.

So, firstly, you have surrendered to the still, small voice in order to receive a clarified picture of your situation. Secondly, you have turned to the intelligence and deeper intuitional faculties of the mind and heart and have actively applied the self to envisioning the benefits of each option, spiritually or metaphysically speaking. This ends the mid-part of your work.

The third portion is to move back into the contemplative or meditational phase of mind energy and again allow this still, small voice its place. Its place is always with you, in you, and of you. You are not exterior to your situation. You offered this situation to yourself. Now you have received it. There is the often quoted phrase of which this instrument is aware, in the form of a short prayer. It is “God, grant me the ability to see the difference between that which I can change and that which I need to accept.” Often, when all three portions of the decision-making process have been accomplished, it shall be very clear that one alternative will tend more towards the learning by the self of love and the opportunity to be of service to others in a way which is spiritual or metaphysical. In short, you are looking for the highest proportion of any opportunities to experience helpful catalyst and to offer these gifts and talents which are yours to offer on others’ behalf.

The group question for this session was: “How do we balance accepting what the Creator and the life pattern has given us and use it to progress along the evolutionary path?” Q’uo began by asking if the seeker has a question about the clarity with which the life path is being experienced because if the seeker can see that the path is providing opportunities for learning to love and to serve, then there is less chance to alter the steadfast nature of one’s day-to-day experiences. Then Q’uo said that when there is a difficult choice to make, that it is well to sit in silence and meditate and to wait until the situation is clarified since there is no time limit that can be predicted for this to occur. Q’uo continued by saying that when the seeker feels that it has a clear subjective grasp of the pattern of the learning in its future it is well to turn to the intuitions of the mind and heart to determine the spiritual benefits of each option.  Then Q’uo said that we should continue to meditate to hear that “still, small voice” of the Creator, and when we have used these three ways of determining our path forward, we may choose the highest way of sharing our love and service with others. On May 3, 1987, Q’uo suggested a way that we can consult our mind and heart to determine our path forward:

The basic job description, shall we say, of the third-density seeker is to observe and, if possible, to draw conclusions, to act upon those conclusions, to record in the mind and heart the results of the actions from those conclusions in such a way that gradually certain biases shall be built up within the heart and mind that shall last. So it is in every season of the life, and human seasons do not follow the year only, but many, many cycles, seasons and times that are unique to it, to it alone. Thus, the world may be experiencing summer, but you on the other hand may be experiencing the deepest winter or the first blush of spring.

We feel that at this point a further direction in the form of a further query would be helpful, as we are through generalizing. We would therefore ask the one known as R if there is a further query on this topic?

R: I will mention a line of thought that is coming to me, and will ask Q’uo to comment on it. When catalyst is experienced and is considered and an action or an active change in a direction comes to mind, when it stays there and seems to be harmonious, is it then appropriate to make the change within the illusion? To be more specific, how do you metaphysically know, feel, or recognize the manifestation of reaching the point where there is a need to do rather than to surrender? Is that clear enough for a further comment?

I am Q’uo, and feel that sufficient amount of questioning has occurred for us to grasp your query, my brother. Perhaps in speaking to this point we may offer our opinion that either doing nothing and continuing with experience as it flows in the present moment, and making a change are viable and good options. The lessons of love which are yours to be exposed to shall be yours upon either path. Where skill can be learned is in the evaluation of the opportunities in each situation, based solely upon the feelings which come together in a moment during which the choice becomes perhaps not clear but distinct, in that whether you can explain it or not, you have found a peace, and this peace is the satisfactory validation of your end decision.

The emotions are treacherous if experienced only at face value. However, the emotions contain and can be refined so as more to contain enormous, infinite stores of wisdom. When the issue at hand has come into a place where one option makes all of the heart rest in an emotion of purified, dynamic peace, then you may feel you have done that which you needed to do. The decision is made. If there is no discovery of any peace, then the conservative suggestion would be to stay precisely as you are and continue doing that work which lies before you while awaiting that moment of inner insight which renders the whole entity—soul and body, shall we say—peaceful and relieved.

To act when the situation is not enough clarified within to bring one to peace then you simply realize that you may have chosen a more crooked and bumpy detour upon your path. This does not mean that you have lost your way, but only that you may choose the harder or rougher or more catalyst-heavy road.

The free will seems just a joke, and a cruel one at that, when one is looking at one’s limits. However, when one moves within to the point of present infinity and can see the starry heavens rather than the place two inches in front of the nose, or even the city or nation state, then one has become larger within and has given the self more room in time/space in which to allow this decision to become obvious.

It is well to do nothing until some insight into the fears and other emotions concerning this choice have become part of self-knowledge that can be first gazed carefully at and then surrendered. As long as any portion of the seeker is withheld from the inner surrender there will be that proportion of things occurring with extra bumps and fits and starts. Thusly, if one were able, it could be said that the best way to make decisions is to wait and continue doing that which you are doing, while opening the self regularly and repeatedly in simple offering of thanks and praise and the desire to be sent forth to allow light to shine through you. As you ask for this light to shine through, you begin to have the feeling that any road is good as long as this light is shining through you, as there is no exhaustion of spirit as long as the heart lies open, and the incoming undistorted light is then able to move through the transparent personality and out into the waiting and thirsty world. You yourself are thirsty for the light, yet that thirst in itself is a beginning of the deepest service.

R refined his question and asked: “How do you metaphysically know, feel, or recognize the manifestation of reaching the point where there is a need to do rather than to surrender?” Q’uo replied that either doing nothing to change his behavior or making a change in his behavior were valid options, but it was R’s evaluation of his options and then the feelings of which course to follow that was most important. Q’uo continued by saying that if one particular course of action brought his heart peace, then that was the course to take, and he should offer praise and thanksgiving for this light to shine through him and out into the waiting and thirsty world around him as this was his deepest service. On December 25, 1982, Latwii spoke about one’s deepest service:

As a general response, therefore, let us say that to look within the heart for the deepest service possible and to meditate upon the carrying out of those heart’s desires is that which is the most helpful to the seeker of truth. If you look within your being and ask what can be done, and wait then for that portion of yourself which has all answers, then it shall be revealed unto you the path which is most helpful to tread. Remove from your being fear that you shall fail and go forth in the glorious light and love of the one Creator that exists at the center of your being.

May we answer further, my brother?

R: I would ask for one additional comment along the line of … When this process is going on and there is apparently another entity involved, to which extent is it appropriate and helpful to communicate with the other entity of the process, of the work that you do, the work that you have to do on your own? I am looking for a comment on how this work affects another being. Is that clear enough for a comment?

I am Q’uo. My brother, there is not a decision you can make which holds for any other person besides the self. When decisions are made, they need to be considered upon the merits of the situation for the self and for maximizing the self’s opportunity to learn love and to offer love in service to others. If there seems to be another or others involved in the decision, then the decision has not yet the maturity to be ready for the decision-making process. Before one may seize, shall we say, the moment and act in a spiritually wholesome way one needs to focus upon the self and gaze at those things which in freedom of will are options to one. In other words, as each seeker is responsible for the self, decisions are, shall we say, in our opinion better made focusing upon the direct and simple situation which is the harvest of removing, one by one, those things of which you as a seeker do not have control. Only those things which are yours alone to control come under the provenance of your own decision-making process.

May we speak further, my brother?

R: No, Q’uo, that is a lot of thinking to do for me, and I thank you very much for your comments. I would yield my place to other questions, if there are any at this point. Thank you.

We thank you also, my brother, and can express only encouragement and our love as you seek to become more clear and more filled with the true freedom which is wholehearted service to the infinite One. If that service and that center are maintained the result will be a calm and steadfast heart in the end.

May we take any other queries at this time?

Jim: Thank you Q’uo. I don’t have any. I appreciate what you have to say.

I am Q’uo. Thank you, my brother.

It is our great pleasure and privilege to speak to you this day. We realize that choices are the essence of third density and that they do not simply disappear. Passive decisions are also decisions. However, we would ask each to reflect upon freedom, the freedom of the self, and attempt to see where this freedom comes from. If one is free in a chaotic way one will either be random or somewhat destructive, than somewhat positive. However, if a deeper singularity of self is sought, a deeper connection with unity, then many puzzled pieces which are not relevant to your decision-making can fall away and the true nature of the decision lies then uncovered in far more simplicity. The connection between freedom and the basic decision of serving the infinite One shall give your heart a strong structure and the best possible way to seek the understanding to move forward in support of your own spiritual evolution. Because this is far from obvious we simply wish to emphasize this consideration.

You have your homework now and we thank you once again for allowing us to so tease you. Although we are, as always, reluctant to leave this group it is indeed the decision which we have reached, that it is time for our service to withdraw from this instrument and subside into that passive carrier wave of love to which each may avail itself during meditation. We are with you in silent love and support when you ask, and we feel very blessed that you do ask. We leave you as we began in the love and in the light of the infinite Creator …

[Tape ends.]

This morning I vacuumed the first floor of the house. Then I ran a couple of errands with the first stop being at Paul’s Fruit market where I bought some more food for myself and some double impatiens to add to the double impatiens garden in the front yard. Then I went to Thieneman’s Nursery to buy some Hosta for my neighbors since the deer have eaten some of theirs along their driveway.

This afternoon I used my backpack blower to blow the leaves under the Sycamore tree in the back yard into the grassy area behind the garage so I could crunch them with by big mower, Venus. Then I used my backpack blower to blow all the walkways and driveway clean. Then I transplanted the double impatiens into the garden in the front yard. Then I transplanted the four Hosta for  my neighbors along their driveway.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 10

Become Part Of Your Creation

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the fullness of the blessing of love.

There is so much in a day that goes unnoticed; the beautiful color of the sky and the twitter of birds. Seen from the windows of your transport, the world seems surreal and apart from you.

Let it not be that way this day for you. Enter into the majesty and glory of the creation of the Father. Raise your hands in joy to the sky. Feel the life beneath your feet. Touch the living branches of the beautiful trees. Do these things as a blessing to yourself. For this beauty was made for you, and if your eyes do not appreciate it, it must bloom unseen. Become part of your creation this day. Find the peace and the joy that leaps from every living branch.

We leave you in that peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from January 10, 1993:

The question this afternoon is from V in San Diego, and she would like to know a little bit about some books, a group, and a contact that she has been getting information from, and inspiration from, and would like to know what Q’uo has to say as regards the nature of the information that she’s been getting from Metatron, who’s been working with her on an inspirational and a channeling basis, I believe. She would also like to know about a book called The Keys of Enoch, and her study of this particular book has been closely linked with her work with Metatron.

She would also like to know about a book called Love (and Love): Through the Doorway, written by Solera. It has to do with the date that passed in 1991, I believe… January 11th… At any rate, it was a time during which a special doorway was supposedly opened into the New Age so that there would be a greater intensity and variety of spiritually awakening experiences open to people.

She’d also like to know about a group called Starborn Unlimited. This is a group that I believe concentrates on people who believe that they are from other planets and very likely other densities, what Ra calls wanderers… a group formed around that concept that shares information about those from elsewhere and the nature of their mission or work upon this planet in being those who help to lighten the vibrations and aid with the birthing of the New Age upon this planet.

And lastly, she would like to know about a little book called E. T. 101 that is published by the Intergalactic Council Publications and written by Master Jho. And they are supposedly related to the Council of Nine, and this also has to do with the nature of entities that are from elsewhere, and those, such as Q’uo, who have offered their services in the aid of growth of mind, body, and spirit on this planet during its time of transition.

We would like to know what you have to say to V on these topics and any other comments that you would care to make.

(Carla channeling)

Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of the principle Q’uo. It is our privilege to share your meditation and to speak with you concerning questions having to do with the correctness or authority of various entities and written volumes. We begin by saying that we do not have any authority over you. We are prone to error. Our opinions, though offered because we feel them to be worthwhile considerations, do not constitute error-free information, but rather careful opinion of one who is on the positive, or service-to-others, path. Each individual entity, each group of entities, in the end all the unity of entities, insofar as they have the capacity to activate, evaluate, and judge have no capacity for logically, rationally proving any authority from the outside in. In our opinion, neither any entity’s self, higher self, nor any teacher that still speaks or thinks or considers has knowledge of the mystery of the infinite Creator.

By saying this we wish to establish a basis upon which we may build. The foundation of the right consideration of an entity’s position as judge of its own creation depends firstly upon there being no authority that is final. No hand or word has the master’s authority over servants of the infinite One, for the infinite One has established that in all manifested creation there be no final, provable answers. As entities discover what seem to be definitive answers, the edge or furthest limit of knowledge is pushed back, and it is discovered that beyond that new pioneering frontier of knowledge there lies still an infinite mystery.

Now, it is well for a student of any subject or field to do research, read, and gather tools and resources for coming to understand that field of inquiry. Those who seek along a spiritual path are not so different from those who seek to learn how to work one of your machines or learn a previously unknown skill. There is the studying, the processing of many facts into subjectively formed categories and organizations, and in the end, there is you with a more enlightened point of view concerning the field of inquiry which has been studied.

We encourage those who hunger and are not yet filled by spiritual food to seek out experiences with entities visible or invisible and to read that which they consider helpful. All of the information on each page of written work, each thought from a channeling source, is to be enjoyed. However, this is not to say that all is simply to be accepted. Nor are we saying that if many things seem wrong about a source there is no good in it, for even the most inaccurate contact, dealing with the most fear-driven subjects, are attempting to serve the one infinite Creator. And those which listen to or read these perhaps wrong-headed thoughts may be offered much erroneously fearful information. Still, there is at least the gathering together for reasons of spiritual inquiry. And as this energy brings entities together to seek, so no matter how faulty the group may seem there is the effect of help from each consciousness present to each other as all form a circle of seeking.

The group question for this session came from V, and she asked Q’uo to give their opinion on a number of spiritually oriented books. Q’uo gave a general response by saying that there are no final, provable answers, and when one thinks that they have found such provable answers that the limit of knowledge has been expanded, but it is discovered that beyond that new pioneering frontier of knowledge there still lies an infinite mystery. Q’uo went on to say that it is well to do research and gather tools for evaluating any information gathered so that one’s point of view is expanded, and they said that if this research is done in a group that each in the group may help each other in the process of seeking. On June 12, 1994, Q’uo spoke of the infinite mystery:

When the desire to serve is felt within, and a channel is opened to the infinite Creator by means of praise and thanksgiving to that infinite One, then it is that this infinite mystery may flow through you, and as a star shines out into the infinite reaches of the one infinite and unified Creation there is no time or space. There is no size of large or small. Each speck of consciousness contains the Creator. Therefore, the wish to serve is followed by the dedication to the mystery which is the one great original Thought, that Creator whose name is Love. Know and take comfort in this truth as we understand it: you are effective. As you desire to serve, so do you serve. That soul whom you touch may never know you, may never be on the same continent as you, yet that universal Love which you channel forth in that silent witnessing finds its target, for it is called and it goes where it is called. You have only to sit and know the truth that all is Love.

There are several ways to consider how to form one’s own opinions and value them. We might suggest that when information is being evaluated the seeker stop to reflect as to which energy center or centers are being activated by this information. For instance, information which focuses upon matters of survival is driven by the instinctual energies of the red ray, all in the reflection, naturally, from the yellow ray physical existence. We speak of inner rays here, rather than densities.

If information is offered concerning the moving together of some who are different from others, or simply if there is information about groupings and joining or avoiding groups it may be seen that there are many energies of the yellow ray. And if there is information concerning this or that messiah or special chosen entity, then it must be left to the entity itself to evaluate whether the attraction of this savior is resonating with the red, the orange, and/or the yellow ray.

All of this sort of information tends not to activate or enhance the healing powers of the opened heart or green ray. It is within the more abstruse and abstract regions of theoretical considerations that the inspiration of words or thoughts might be offered which open the heart or the powers and energies of communication. And it is within the student only that the indigo ray is activated by any material whatsoever.

For work to be done in consciousness, the consciousness must have its attention upon doing the work. We might take a different tack in this matter of personal discrimination. Now, we are saying simply that each spiritual seeker, having its own universe, must and shall evaluate for itself all stimulus which comes into the sensory net of awareness. From the first impressions to the end of the most involved and recondite argument all that is processed by a spiritual student is accurate to that student, and the only authority is that student, for the infinite Creator Itself, while offering constant love and support, does not wish to influence the experiences of any being. All beings are free to experience what and as each chooses. This is that which is the seeker’s gift to the infinite One.

No outer authority may be considered, in our opinion, a satisfactory substitute for an individual’s inwardly moved framework of opinion. So we encourage each student to think of itself as responsible in that the will of the infinite Creator is that there be love. Each is love, and each experiences love. This is that which is the truth insofar as we know it. Putting this truth into manifestation is a task whose characteristic is polarity or apparent difference. Without this, there can be no manifestation, for love experienced as love is an eternal tautology when considered as a way of knowing as opposed to the way we grasp beingness.

So each of you is sovereign—the judge and jury of those things which come to each entity’s attention. If that is accepted, then it can be seen that there is a certain desirable character, or group of characteristics, which may be attributed to a responsibly working spiritual student. The teacher known to you as Jesus the Christ spoke of this when it said to its students to be wise as serpents and innocent as doves. The serpent is a symbol for wisdom, and it is wise in apparent manifestation also. The first sense is that of the symbol. This symbol of wisdom is expressed in your cultural myth by the gift of the serpent which was making available the knowledge of good or evil. In other words, wisdom has to do with a personal ability to judge whether something is good to that person. This kind of decision is strictly personal, and cannot and should not be offered in dogmatic fashion for others.

The other way in which the serpent is wise is that when an enemy or possible enemy comes into hearing or sensory range the serpent removes itself cautiously. These both are good ways of being wise. When one considers the innocence of doves and asks how that can be applied to the judgment of information, we can only suggest that each entity knows of those individuals to whom all things are signs of disappointment, trouble, and doom, while others with the same basic situation find much to make merry about and much to give thanks and praise for. The innocence, the purity, the untouched nature of the open and loving green-ray energy center—the open, loving, compassionate heart—can see beauty in almost any situation, for as it speaks to itself it hears the outer world.

Then Q’uo said that there are several ways to determine how to form and value one’s opinions about information, and they are determined by which energy center is involved whether it be the red center of physical survival, the orange of one-to-one relationships, or the yellow of group energies. Q’uo went on to say that the green center contains the heart’s ability to heal; the blue center pertains to communication; and the indigo center refers to our work in consciousness, and is that center worked upon by the adept. Q’uo continued by saying that each spiritual seeker is unique and must determine what information is useful for it to utilize, and though the infinite Creator supports all such learning It will not bias the student as the student’s personal perceptions are its gift to the Creator to help It know Itself. Q’uo said that no outer authority should be considered as a substitute for the seeker’s own choice of how to manifest love in its choice of polarity, for each is love and manifests love. Q’uo suggested that each seeker should be wise as the serpent in its choice of what is good for it and as innocent as the dove in its open and loving compassionate heart that allows it to see beauty in any situation. On July 2, 1989, Q’uo described the nature of the compassionate heart:

However, whether you learn from an Earthly teacher or whether you have your hand in the Christ’s or visualize in some other way the identification of that consciousness and yourself, you will be less strong than if you can make a simple habit of moving in consciousness to the center of one’s being, the open and compassionate heart.

When the red, orange, and yellow energy centers are all functioning, spinning brightly and moving the energy well, the conditions are good for the seeker to undertake work in consciousness. It is not good to undertake work in consciousness of a higher kind before one has gazed at one’s life and, to the extent it is possible, made amends, squared away debts and, in general, until the person no longer has the love of the wealth of the planet, but the love of the Creator as the motivating force. This change in attitude often comes in an instant, but that instant is preceded by a good deal of work.

We find that this is a good beginning upon this topic and invite further queries both now from this group and, in the future, from the one known as V. We hope that this transmission has been clear in why it refrains from offering opinions considering the validity of sources.

Before we leave this topic we would simply say that there is much, much of fear in any human experience. The physical vehicle is fragile, and it is known that it is mortal. Many of the fear-driven topics, which may be considered by many such as this instrument to have little effectual truth, have a truth in a larger or archetypical sense, for there is a wonderful urgency about this present moment, about this present cycle, about this present year, and so forth. These are the minutes, the last minutes, of each of your incarnations. There may be millions of these last minutes, but they can be counted. Thusly, there is a deep and natural capacity to fear, for one’s worst fears, those of annihilation, stand starkly, and without evidential answer, before each seeker’s life. At the end of that last minute of the incarnational experience, that consciousness that is the seeker goes through a door and it closes behind that entity, leaving those who are still experiencing the illusion of third density to remain ignorant of that which occurs thereafter.

The more compassionate way to deal with this existential fear is to realize and affirm the wonder and blessing of each present moment. If disaster or catastrophe is to be part of an entity’s destiny, it shall occur, regardless of planning attempts to protect the self from such a fate. If all is to be peaceful concerning a seeker’s last days in this illusion, so it shall be, although the seeker stands within a hundred which are slain. The attitude of gazing with a full and loving heart at whatever is occurring is the more compassionate and loving approach to the quandary of existence without answers. Appreciate and attempt to inhabit fully each moment, each minute and hour of each day of this experience, one at a time, and whatever the outer circumstances, the inner spiritual journey shall be as full of light and blessing as the experiencer can hold.

Here Q’uo said that there was a wonderful urgency about these last years of the third density and the last years of the physical vehicle, so there is a natural fear of going through death’s door without knowing what is to come next. Q’uo completed their response by saying that the more compassionate way to deal with this fear is to gaze with a full and loving heart at whatever is happening in the present moment so that the inner spiritual journey will be full of light and blessings. On May 22, 2006, Q’uo said that all entities are capable of being lighthouses:

It is a simple act to dedicate that which is in your full and loving heart to the Creator and to the planet of which you are a part. Truly, that light which you dedicate from your heart pours out  into a hungry world. The world is starving for love and light, and all entities are capable of being lighthouses. Be light to each other. Be love to each other. The times are inconvenient because they are profoundly transformational. You came not to enjoy the inconveniences but to serve and to learn. These are times to walk with focus and faith.

We would at this time ask if there be any queries? May we have a query at this time?

Questioner: Not from me, Q’uo. Thank you very much. That was very helpful.

Questioner: Not from me, either, Q’uo. Thanks for [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and we have enjoyed being with you also, my brother, and are grateful that you allow us to be of service. We always wish to linger with this good company, but it is time for us to go. And so we caress each beautiful spirit in hugs of brotherhood and offer always our love and blessing in the name of the one infinite Creator. We leave you in that Creator, in love and insofar love is manifest, in love and light. It is the season of the growing light. May each ray of the Creator’s love and light that enters your heart find a happy home. We are those known to you as Q’uo. Adonai, my friends, Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my trimmer to weed places in my various flower gardens that I could get to with the trimmer after having done all the weeding yesterday by hand in those areas. Then I began the process of weeding around trees, bushes, and walkways in preparation for cutting the grass tomorrow.

This afternoon I ran a series of errands with my first stop at AutoZone where I bought some oil for my chain saw. Then I stopped in at Porter Paints to buy a quart of white paint. My third stop was at Speedway Gas to buy 5 gal. of gas for the lawn mower. My next stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some Pepsi Zero and some hair thickener. When I got back home I unloaded my purchases and then went back outside to complete my trimming in preparation for cutting the grass tomorrow.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 9

You Are The Holy One

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness which is divine love.

Sometimes it may seem that troubles surround you, that your easy path seems hedged in at every turn and filled with boulders difficult to climb over and impossible to remove.

It may seem to you that you are then comfortless. This is not so. The spirit of Jesus the Christ lives in the world this day, this moment, and for you. You are the holy one we have come to comfort. You are the seeking saint we hope to console. You are the doubting spirit we hope to renew.

Share your responsibilities, your troubles, and the difficulties of your path in prayer with those of us who love you most dearly. In that sharing there shall be joy amidst hardship and strength amidst weakness.

In joy, in strength and in peace we leave you now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from January 3, 1993:

How much can we either consciously or subconsciously affect the way we look at the experiences in our daily round of activities, and what we can do to sow seeds of a wider perspective, a lighter perspective, one that takes the broader view and gives us the opportunity to go through our lives with less turmoil, less of the up and down, or if this is even advisable. Is it better for us just to work with the way we go up and down—do people really have an effect upon their attitude or is it a figment of our imagination?

(Carla channeling)

I am known to you as Q’uo. My greetings to you in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. We feel our thoughts streaming to meld with yours in a unison of peace and praise, and we are most appreciative of the privilege of sharing the comfort of meditative awareness with this circle of seeking. You ask us this day about the effect one’s attitude has upon one’s life, whether it does, how it does, and so forth.

To begin to answer that query, we would turn it around and say that the experiences which constitute an incarnation affect one’s attitude and are designed to do that, so one cannot begin with a blank slate in speaking of attitudes, for there are lessons to be learned, catalysts to be experienced and reacted to in the life regardless of which attitude these programs of material or lessons are received.

Let us spend a bit of thought upon this before moving forward. You are already aware of so much in the field of metaphysics, having focused upon it intensively. However, sometimes the basic fundamental of a cosmological system such as the one we offer can seem fresh and new, because the material has not been dealt with in just this application. Such is the case with the plan which you as co-creators, with the aid of your higher self, set out to experience during this particular incarnation. There was a destiny, shall we call it, of kinds of human experience—that is, experience which can be had by humans or third-density creatures—that was the helping of food on the incarnational plate. These lessons of loving were meant only for your own learning and growth. There was not in your minds as you planned these lessons a mischievous or wicked impulse, but only the ambitions of the seeker who wishes to stretch and grow within while offering service in the name of the infinite One. Consequently, you gave to your future incarnational self a potential for incarnational experience that you yourself felt was the very best possible.

Now, we all know how the eyes can be larger then the stomach, how that incarnational plate may have been loaded generously. Nevertheless, it is to be remembered that there is nothing intrinsically mischievous or wicked about the lessons that fly before you in the gale of experience as you experience it. No matter how fierce the winds and storms may seem they are as you yourself wished them to be in terms of that which was inevitably going to be dealt with as you lived through this incarnational time. When the difficulties seem overwhelming it is always easier to malign destiny than to buckle down and do the laborious work of digesting the catalyst instead. However, as a beginning to speaking of attitudes we may say that these attitudes do not address a random life plan of catalytic experiences; rather, they address the stuff of which lessons are made. The fractional broken pieces of a whole lesson come bit by bit into the net of your personal energies and are there for a blessing and for learning and growth.

The group question for this session was: “What effect one’s attitude has upon one’s life, whether our attitude does affect it, and how it affects it?”  Q’uo began their answer by turning the question around and saying that the experiences which constitute an incarnation affect one’s attitude and are designed to do that because we have to have experiences before we can have attitudes about them. They went on to say that we co-created our incarnational experiences with our higher self, and these lessons became our destiny to learn about loving as a means of spiritual growth and serving the infinite Creator. Then Q’uo said that often we plan so many lessons that they become difficult to experience, and rather than complain about the destiny of these lessons we should determine to use the catalyst with the attitude of working with the various pieces of a whole lesson and see them as a blessing for learning and growth.  On April 5, 1992, Q’uo described how learning and growth are pieces of a whole lesson:

It would more nearly be correct to look at each entity as a faceted gem with many sides and many angles or perceptions on a number of topics, for each entity has within it the ability to pursue interests in a wide variety of fields of endeavor that will enrich and influence the further learning and growth of the entity. So that when entities gather together to share that which is theirs to share and to learn that which they desire to learn, one may see the shining of the light of this desire through the facets of the gems which each entity is, and as the desire is moving through the different points or angles of perceptions, there will be a light that is bent in a certain way as your white light is bent and separated into the colors of the spectrum as it moves through the prism. Just so is the desire to learn and to share, in its movement through the faceted gem of each entity, bent and colored by the experiences, the information, the desires and potentials that are within the entity and which make it a multi-layered being. Thus is intercourse or interchange between your entities enhanced and enriched.

This having been said, we ask that you take some of your time when reflecting simply to put your being carefully within the awareness of yourself as an infinite and eternal being who wishes both to serve and to grow in the love of the infinite One. Into this arena where free will meets destiny and chooses its reaction comes that called the attitude. An attitude, we may note, is etymologically a word meaning “the way of leaning or tending.” To take an attitude in the dance, for instance, is to turn the foot and leg sideways while raising it upwards instead of raising it straight. The attitude is the slant which you may put upon the straightforward march of life events. And, yes, the attitude one takes does have a great deal to do with how rough the incarnational experience seems as you progress through it.

The attitude of those who hunger is that they wish food now. We say this to remind each that the consideration of an attitude is a luxury brought about by having a full stomach, a warm shelter, and comrades in arms, as it were. Those simply attempting survival have only the background attitude of desire for life. But most within your culture have the luxury of experimentation, with the inward turning of the mind as it meets new situations. We would say to you that that which has ripened within you will come forth as an attitude, and you may feel as if you have consciously done great things, when in fact the choice of attitude has been a small one in the present, the greater part of the work on that particular lesson being done beforehand so that you could respect and accept the incoming data as recognizable. It is the old lesson unlearned which becomes the new lesson, where the novelty of the experience catches one flatfooted, or with an old and still unlearned lesson. The boredom and distress which has accompanied past failure causes the attitude to change.

So, we would look first at new lessons and then at the true culprit which you are after. In new, or novel to you lessons of love the remembrance that you are in tune with your own destiny is often enough of an attitudinal adjustment to allow you to accept and process new material without undue difficulty. However, when you are revisiting old tangles of emotion, you are attempting to let light, air, and warmth into that which is dark, cold, and closed. The very process of accepting the data is painful because it is recognized that this is difficult, that is, unlearned material and there is the feeling of “Oh no, here we go again!”

Look for a moment at the fear at that turn of thought and see the dulling, freezing, darkening effect of fear. We do not encourage you to go forward as if you had no fear if your distress is considerable, but would indeed encourage you if you can do this at any crux, to recognize and accept these older and seemingly more painful lessons even though they are painful. The barriers put up by fear could seem to be an attitude barrier through which truth simply will not flow. So much of the work of having a positive attitude is clearing away the inevitable irritation that grows upon one at life itself for handing you your own failings, as seen by your self, then asking you with those failings to tackle that which is too hard for you.

The first adjustment, then, is simply to accept difficult material. You may work in another density on accepting it with total and unconditional love. In terms of the choice made in third density for the light, it is well that you focus on the basic choice, of saying “yes” to whatever the incarnation brings. Accepting difficult material is in itself difficult. Simply to accept is excellent work for you as a soul, for in accepting this difficult lesson of love as it manifests to you, you are expressing faith in the nature of this material. Do you see that in order [inaudible] this material you would have to say to life itself, “I do not believe that there is a reason for this suffering, limitation, and loss. I do not believe I am a loved child in my Father’s care.”

Now, in seeking the Creator we so often assume that, of course, we accept that we are children under the one great original Creator’s care. However, in the day-to-day experience this seeming unconditional acceptance is refused and ignored by the thoughts of doubting the goodness of a destiny which would so bombard you with difficult situations and emotions. Once you have seen this portion of your attitude come into focus, that is a simple and profound faith in the system of learning lessons in your density. Then you may choose wisely how you may approach the sense impressions which make up the daily experience. If all things are good but often unknown, then it is with eager interest and positive hopes that one would take up every new thing that came forward to the sinecure of attention.

Yet this remains not so, because the nature of one who is cut off from the processes of the deep mind cannot stay consciously at all times in the deep rhythms of existence. The feeling of being lost on the sea of troubles is quite literally cut off from the sea of consciousness in which all that is separate comes into one unified stem or root, and is ultimately lost in the mystery of Godhead. So, persistently you shall, even though affirming the goodness of all experience and affirming the goodness of your lessons, come up again and again against the outrageous, unacceptable, painful experiences which, by subtle or bold means, shake your comfort apart and force you to deal not only with the situation but with your own feelings about that situation.

You see, you can know that all is well and know that everything is for you to learn, but this does not keep the unruly emotions of a deeply sensitive being which has been cut off from the resting place of eternity from feeling many, many painful things, and seemingly having to feel them in the darkness of solitude, whether it be total solitude or simply the deep loneliness of inner solitude. You cannot expect any attitude whatsoever to buffer you from feeling emotions. This, we feel, is where your query was aimed. We hope you can see that all we said before stands as the foundation upon which we can talk about having attitudes.

Now Q’uo said that we should remember that we are infinite and eternal beings who wish to love and serve the Creator, and it is in this desire that our free will meets our destiny, and our response to this meeting results in the attitude that we take in how difficult our incarnational experience will be. Then Q’uo said that whether we are dealing with new lessons or old lessons experienced in a new way, it is our failure to learn either kind of lesson that causes our attitude to change. Then Q’uo said that when we encounter new lessons of love it is easy to feel in tune with our destiny and comfortable to work with them, but when we deal with old lessons that are still unlearned, we may experience the dark feeling of fear which makes it difficult to have a positive attitude towards dealing with our old failings.  Q’uo continued by saying that we can develop this positive attitude by simply saying “Yes” to whatever catalyst comes our way because this involves the exercise of faith that this difficult catalyst may teach us the value of learning lessons in the third density. However, Q’uo said that it is not always possible to remain in this positive attitude because there are times when we will have to deal with painful and outrageous experiences which will make us feel that we are having to feel the painful emotions in darkness and in solitude, and there is no attitude that can keep us from feeling these painful emotions. On November 28, 2009, Q’uo explained the positive potential of dealing with painful emotions:

To ask the self to allow emotions to be refined and purified is to ask the self to walk into the fire of suffering. For if one defends against pain of an emotional type or a spiritual type, one ceases to be able to go deeper within those many, many levels of self that move into the archetypal mind. Indeed, it is through repeated experiences with such deeply painful emotions such as grief, anger, jealousy, and rage that one, oh so slowly, becomes able to bear the beauty of pure emotion.

As in all things spiritual, the paradox is that as one is able to open oneself to the pain of going deeper within one’s emotional life, one is more and more able to see, to bear, to hold, to accept the emotions of joy, bliss, and peace. For as in all of the levels and ways of understanding the one infinite Creator, the essence is always love. Consequently, the river of grief, the river of rage, all rivers whatsoever of purified emotion, lead at last into the ocean of bliss, which is the steady state of infinite love. It is, in a way, terrifying not to defend the self.

Yes, my friends, the practice of a particular bend of attention and way of consideration is a tremendous force in shaping your learning experiences and in performing the service which you came to offer. Part of the work of any wanderer is the living of the life itself, for when that which has been in a more compassionate vibration, or wiser one, has all of its forces in harmony inwardly then the breathing in and breathing out of everyday living is in itself the central portion of the service which you came to offer, that service being to enable consciousness within this planetary sphere to be lightened. Insofar as the eyes of your heart are lightened, so is the planetary vibration lightened.

Now, as you go forward you may feel that this seems very easy: “I will just take what comes with good humor.” However, the incarnation will turn around and surprise you as soon as you think thusly. Again, what is important in the creation of an attitude is largely that fundamental way in which you as a servant of the good are ready to deal with destiny. In doing this you shall again and again find in theory that you are doing well, but what are all these unhappy and turbulent emotions, why must you suffer? This is where we came in. This is what you asked, and about this we may say that building upon the foundation of faith which undergirds all of your existence you may focus upon your emotions, not upon the events causing the emotions, with good results as far as aiding yourself by attitude.

If you focus on events you are lost in meaningless detail. If you focus on your emotions, you see that when you have pain in the emotional body, you resist, tighten up and say “no” in a speechless, silent way. Now, step back from this knot of negation and see that the work of the attitude is concerned with holding, loving, and forgiving that self that is in a knot of pain. The attitude is not relevant to the facts in the way you meant it. It is relevant to how you deal with the emotions which you feel as you move through this lesson. If you are angry, a good attitude cannot make you not angry. However, it can kick in like the afterburner and say, “I accept myself angry as well as calm.”

In this self-acceptance lies the compassion and love which the lesson was intended to teach. The events themselves do not teach, and one’s reactions to the events do not fully teach, but the way one deals with one’s unredeemed and lost emotions makes a great difference. The attitude can be adjusted by daily, silent meditation. This is a good foundation upon which to build each day. However, much of the day is spent in a far more active and less contemplative mode. Within this active mode there seems little time for the reseating of one’s consciousness into the center of a life lived in faith. However, one small word is enough to change the attitude, whether it be “Love,” or, as this instrument prays often, “Jesus,” or any other short expression of truth. This is enough to feed the flame of balance within.

This, shall we say, balanced fire can pilot one emotionally. The fire is the fire of love. This engine which moves the attitude is fueled by love. And this love comes into the painful emotional reactions and accepts that painful, twisted, knotted self. It also accepts just the same the times when you are not in pain but feel wonderful, and then the acceptance is that of the fond relative which sees the children playing on the grass on a summer day and glows with the joy of it. You can be pleased with yourself; this is a good attitude. Just let yourself be equally pleased when you are having unlovable and unpretty reactions. Let your compassion flow to yourself. This is the best attitude.

There are other ways to affect the attitude besides prayer. A song upon the lips or in the mind always helps. The joking with oneself or with another is almost always helpful. The attempts made to soften another’s pain, when another comes to you for aid have a profound positive effect on you. So that we encourage each to rejoice in the outworking of destiny and to attempt to allow your frame of mind to be that which it must be because of what is happening, so that you are not thrown, or dismayed, or judgmental with yourself when you stumble and fall. Let your attitude be that all is well even as you pick yourself up again and yet again, dust yourself off, as this instrument’s song goes, and start all over again.

The crux of having a good attitude is in that moment of recognition and forgiveness of the self by the self. May you rejoice in your destiny and find it within yourself, faithfully and persistently, to cooperate with it, for as you attempt through having an attitude to do these things the puzzles you encounter will be simplified to the extent you have ceased judging yourself as you do your lessons.

Here Q’uo said that if the wanderer can live a compassionate life then the simple breathing is a service that lightens the vibrations of the planet, but there will come difficult times when the wanderer must look to the emotions within it that come with the difficult times and build upon the foundation of faith that one’s destiny is working out as it should and develop the attitude of love and forgiveness of the self. Then Q’uo suggested that daily meditation was a good way to reinforce this attitude of love and forgiveness for the self, and when one is living the more active part of the day a simple word like “Love” or “Jesus” might restore the balanced attitude within one. Q’uo went on to say that this balanced attitude is actually the fire of love that allows the acceptance of the pain-filled self as well as the joyful self because compassion is the best attitude. Q’uo completed their reply by suggesting that we rejoice in our destiny and forgive ourselves for all future mis-steps as this attitude will greatly aid us in solving the puzzles that we encounter. On August 29, 1993, Q’uo described how we may deal with our destiny:

The spirit within has the capacity to live as the bullet does: swiftly, straightly, accurately and with substantial force. Even those who are without any sense of personal destiny may well find events quickening and becoming more simple, simply because there has been, for whatever reason, a willingness to move forward without resistance when change of some kind is seemingly necessary.

So, we would say to you that the greatest skill which the spirit may offer, when working with one’s destiny, is that skill which surrenders the intellectual and logical modes of thought, and instead adopts a willing and flowing attitude which allows the seeker to feel its way until that which feels right within has been discovered.

At this time we have finished with the direct communication to this one query. Are there further queries at this time?

Questioner: [Inaudible]

I am Q’uo. We find this sentiment hilarious, and wish you the same. Are there any further queries?

Questioner: Thank you very much.

And we, my friends, thank you as you sit in the gently descending early darkness of winter in your pleasant domicile. We find ourselves, as always, reluctant to let go of this channel, yet we must. Please know, however, that although we have different concepts of time and space as our illusions are different, yet we are with you in your time and space in a faithful and stable way, a strength for you to call on. We are most happy that you do call upon us, for we can give one thing, and that is our unconditional love. And we do so enjoy being with those who call upon us not to share information, but just to be able to send the vibrations of love and support that are the other part of our service to you. We may speak to you of many things, but the vibratory connection between us is that carrier wave of love, and this is never away from you simply because we do not have a voice. No words are necessary. Love is experienced in love. We let you now go away from the quiet of meditation and into the world at large for some more helpings of catalytic experience. May your attitude be full of joy and compassion, and always, my friends, good humor. Be merry with each other.

We are known to you as the principle of Q’uo. We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite and glorious Creator. In that shining light we say Adonai. Adonai.

This morning I began weeding the various flower gardens in my yard as the recent frequent and heavy rains have allowed both the growth of the flowers but the weeds as well.

This afternoon I completed the weeding of the gardens by hand, and then I took the 13 garbage cans of the small limbs from the Maple trunk to the street for yard waste pickup tomorrow. Since there is more rain and heavy winds forecast for later today, I took my largest tarp to cover the garbage cans so they don’t become heavier with water or blow over. I anchored the tarp with various heavy tools and weights.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 8

The Garden Of The Spirit

I am of the principle of the full consciousness of Love. I am the garden of your heart.

I am the fountain of joy. I dwell in the midst of experience and no creature is far from me at any time.

The difficulties of experience may seem like many waters separating the soul from light, separating the thirsty one from wholesome drink. And yet the water of troubles is shallow. And with the feet under one, the soul may stand up into good air and see the fountain of life.

Know that if you are in trouble of any kind today, it is a shallow and unstable trouble, a mere shadow waiting only for the heart to pound with courage and faith, that the feet may be gathered under one and the soul’s body be thrust upright.

For truly it is said that man has never left the Garden of the Spirit in any but the most shallow sense. A little round of salvation may seem large. Yet because it is a perfect circle you have never been without it.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from December 13, 1992:

Group question: The question today has to do with the general kind or level of angst that we each find in our lives no matter what the particular experience, whether we are not being able to fulfill our creative identity and desires we know we have, or the ability to find the balance in our lives so that we are able to move through our lives without being swayed overly much either towards the sadness or the joy, the ability to find balance between being and doing. Each of us seems to have some kind of angst, some necessity for dealing with a situation that is difficult, that provides us with worries, with fears, with challenges, with work of some nature that needs to be done. We are wanting to know if there is some level of changing this angst or this way of perceiving our experience so that we are more in line of what we feel is fulfilling our abilities, of walking a balanced life, of being of service to others, and wonder what you may have to say to us in that regard.

(Carla channeling)

We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator whose blessing is upon us all. We feel most privileged to be sharing in this circle of seeking and thank you for giving us the opportunity to be of service to you. We ask that each seeker realize that we are not final authorities; we make mistakes; and are as you, seekers along an infinite path of learning and becoming more and more that which we seek. Therefore, we ask each to use his own discrimination to take up those thoughts which have an interest and to leave behind those which do not, for only in this way may we feel free, without infringing upon your free will, to offer our opinions.

You ask us about the pain of living. What is the necessity of it, how can it be transformed? We must begin with a larger canvas, so if you would, come with us in mind. We take you to the point at which the infinite and eternal consciousness which you are chose to come into manifestation or an incarnational experience. What were you co-creating with the infinite One when you created the opportunities and overarching destiny which you did indeed co-create? It seems logical to assume that the choice to come into manifestation in this manner was based upon an advantage to be gained from so doing. There are things which entities in incarnational, physical bodies can do which discarnate spirits cannot. Those in incarnation cannot know. Those not in manifestation cannot escape knowing that all things are one, that there is one Source, one great original Thought in which all exist, and which is in everything. In the illusion of manifestation this truth is escaped, cleanly and completely. There is no way of knowing while in incarnation that you are one with anything or anybody. All things seem to have limits and seem to be separate, whether these things are people, relationships, or ideas.

The darkness of the valley of the shadow of death, to quote one of your culture’s holy works, is the setting of the stage for your journey through this incarnation, for are you not all born with the life sentence of inescapable death? Therefore, you live in the shadow of that known outcome throughout the incarnational experience. So you have chosen to enter into an illusion which blocks all knowledge of unity from the conscious, logical mind. Further, you have come into an illusion which is eternally mysterious; that is, nothing is known no matter whether one seeks to the limits of the microscope or the telescope. One cannot find the basic reason “why,” a basic method of “how,” or a good definition of “what” the essence of the experience of manifestation might be, for as telescopes grow more powerful infinity is simply seen in more depth. As microscopes grow more powerful all that may be seen is the path of energy left by your electron particle. Now, if you are fields of energy, interacting in an illusion whose trademark is mystery and shadow there must be a reason not immediately obvious for your choice of coming into this illusion.

We shall pause.

[Pause]

This illusion is the third such level, shall we say, of learning for the infinite portions of the one Creator. To experience the first being the level of the elements, the experience of being rock, sea, air. Those experiences are simple yet move deeply and slowly, and consciousness then graduates to another level of illusion. In this illusion, for those portions of consciousness which now know that they exist and begin to move in order to seek the light, the easiest example of this movement is the turning of the flower and leaf to the sun to receive light. In these two illusions there is not self-consciousness, but with graduation into the third-density illusion which you now experience, you as co-creator are in a physical vehicle which has the ability to be conscious of itself experiencing the illusion.

There is a purpose for this particular illusion, in our opinion. Just as the purpose in the first density is to experience manifestation at its basic level, and just as the second density’s purpose is to experience and learn the movement, the choice towards being fed, being comforted, being warmed, finding light, so in third density the individual seekers of light become self-conscious and decide to interact. Your illusion has everything to do with learning not only who and what and why you are as you are but also in learning how to interact with those about you. Upon graduation from this density the next series of lessons starts with learning to be a complex of entities which have all memories in common. In the next density this veil of mystery and forgetting which you now experience is gradually lifted, and, once again, you know that you are all One.

Only in third density is the unity hidden. This is in order that each may make an all-important choice of how to proceed with the evolution of the spirit, for there are two paths to the one infinite Creator in general. One path is radiant, giving, loving, and unifying, and is called service-to-others path or the positive path of seeking. The other path to the one infinite Creator is magnetic, attractive, charismatic, and may be called the path of service to self or the negative path. Each of these two paths is a valid path to follow and will bring the seeker to the growing awareness of the nature of the mystery of Creator and self. We are those of the positive path, as we find it to be the more efficient path, and in our opinion the more agreeable one to follow.

Therefore, as you approach the choice of which path to follow, nothing can be known for sure, for it is all important that this choice be made in faith and not because of any proof or fact, for only in faith, only in the mid-air of that leap of faith is the choice truly made to love. Once the pilgrim’s soul has made the choice to learn to love by attempting the positive path of service to others then there shall be the unfolding of the destiny which you co-created. This does not mean that free will is abridged thereby; it is as though you have furnished yourself with a place to begin a journey and a place where that journey ends.

See, you begin in Louisville and go to Chicago. In the journey there you may well travel through China but you will end up in Chicago. This is what you experience as the rough and tumble of the frustrations of your days. You have a destiny at work in you. The more clearly you make and remake the choice of polarity, the more you have the emotional calmness to be aware of whatever hints and synchronicities that are around to offer you the nudges you need to choose this or that way to be, to act and to respond to the seemingly good and seemingly bad things which occur to you. So you see, rather than your angst being a suffering without a context, this angst is as the ballast, the weight in your frail barque of being.

The group question for this session was: “What is the necessity of the pain in living our lives, and how do we deal with it and grow from it?” Q’uo said that before our incarnations we were infinite and eternal beings that chose to enter our incarnations to co-create a destiny with the one Creator that would be lived within the illusion of seeming separation of people, ideas, and relationships. Q’uo continued by saying that we are born into an illusion of mystery in which nothing can be known, and we are here within bodies that have only a certain length of time to discover the “basic reason “why,” a basic method of “how,” or a good definition of “what” the essence of the experience of manifestation might be.” Then Q’uo said that in the first density there is only a basic awareness of earth, wind, fire, and water, and in the second density there is the movement such as the flower turning towards the light of the sun, and then in the third density we have the self-consciousness of the spirit which gives us the opportunity to seek the unity of the Creator either through service to others or through service to self. Q’uo went on to say that we can only make this choice by taking a leap of faith into the mid-air, and when we have made this choice then we may experience the destiny for our lives that we have co-created. They said that the more often we make this choice, and the more we see the hints and synchronicities in our lives, the calmer we can be in dealing with the angst in our lives and see it as a means that aids our spiritual evolution. On April 18, 2006, Q’uo spoke of the way that the leap of faith works in choosing our path of polarity:

The veil of forgetting was put into place not in order that it may be penetrated but to set up the conditions for a life in which the choice of polarity and the continuing choices of polarity that follow such an initial choice might be played out without any possibility of proof. The choice of service-to-self or service-to-others polarity is intended to be made against the backdrop of unknowing so that one must literally take a leap of faith in order to choose how to respond to the catalyst of everyday life. In each situation where there is a decision to be made that has ethical overtones, the whole point of that veil of forgetting is to clear the canvas of any paint except that which you wish to apply in the present moment. Your choices, then, are made very cleanly—not because you feel there was karma from this or that previous lifetime or because of any other fact that you feel that you have come to know but because, by faith, you wish to choose your manner of being in a way that expresses your heart’s desire.

As you sail across uncharted waters your only rudder is your basic faith that all is well, that you have not misplanned these things which are occurring. The more you begin to realize that there are no mistakes the more you can move past wondering why the suffering was necessary and, therefore, the more time you have to take to pay attention to the situation in which you experience the suffering. Is this suffering necessary? Well, my friends, we may say that the discomfort of pain is necessary.

Now, the more the discomfort is resisted the harsher the discomfort. As we are on the journey of the mind and the spirit you shall constantly be changing and transforming because of your experiences. These changes are uncomfortable and, therefore, there is pain. To the extent that you cooperate with these energies of transformation, then to this extent the discomfort may not breed fear. You can look at the suffering and say, “I must be changing pretty well,” but if you need the fear, allow it. There is nothing wrong with protecting your delicate and sensitive inner self. It is possible to allow this fear and then try just a little less fear, and then a little less, and move slowly, supporting the self, not discouraging the self by railing against the lack of courage or railing against destiny for the discomfort which change brings.

Perhaps what we would leave you with in this portion of this working is the thought that if you are learning lessons of love your first lesson is to love, accept and forgive yourself. In one of your holy works it is written that there are only two laws of being, to love the infinite Creator and to love all others as you love yourself. What entities often do not realize is that they are loving others more than they are loving themselves. How hard are you on yourself, my friends. Attempt to support and refresh your own self in your pilgrimage just as you would any friend. Attempt not the courage but the lack of discouragement. When you feel discouraged, find that portion of your spirit which cradles you and comforts you, and allow that comfort to fill and calm the rough seas, the rough seas of emotional pain. Then simply open your eyes and gaze upon that manifestation which barely hides the imminent glory of the one infinite Creator.

My friends, you are loved so very much by the infinite One, you are so precious. You are unique. Your nexus of experiences and biases is irreplaceable. Feel that jewel within yourself grow and glow and allow the Creator to move through each facet of this jewel of essence, and this shall be your rudder on the uncharted sea.

Now Q’uo said that as we move within the veil of forgetting we need to have faith that all is well, and that the suffering that we may feel is the result of the pre-incarnative plans that we made for ourselves. Then Q’uo said that we will experience the pain of making changes on the journey of our minds and spirits, and this will result in going through transformations which may breed some degree of fear that we should accept without feeling like we are failing to learn and grow into our destiny. Q’uo reminded us that we are here to learn the lessons of love, and that includes learning to love and forgive ourselves as we love and forgive others. They said that we should deal with discouragement by looking for that portion of our spirit that reflects the one infinite Creator that loves us as a unique jewel, and It shines through each facet of our jewel to guide us in traveling the uncharted sea of our destiny. On June 14, 2002, Q’uo revealed the nature of discovering our destiny:

The viewpoint of the self standing upon a prominent precipice and making the self ready to take a leap of faith into that which is your destiny is the basic situation with which you deal. There is the eagerness and the anticipation of the adventure that awaits, for it is that soul’s destiny which you have created before this incarnation as the pattern for the incarnation which you feel is now ready to unfurl before you, as the marker, the guide post, the beginning of the great work. The dual feeling of anticipation and weariness is not so surprising when one considers the nature of spiritual paradox. Knowing beforehand that there is a great work to accomplish and yet seeing this work within the eyes of the work-a-day world, the illusion of this density, and translating the amount of work that lies ahead into the ordinary terms, causes one to feel a great burden, a great weight upon the soul, and this expresses itself in various ways in the physical vehicle, in the emotional vehicle, in the mental vehicle, and to a lesser extent within the spiritual vehicle as well.

We would at this time open the meeting to any questions that any might have. May we take a first query?

Questioner: Yes, Quo, in the negative polarity, do they view themselves as being of negative polarity? Do they have a concept of polarity?

I am Q’uo. My brother, there are very, very few which, having no concept of polarity, are nevertheless of the negative polarity. However, the negative polarity is far more difficult than the positive polarity to do work in consciousness using [inaudible]. This is due to the fact that in order to graduate, shall we say, from the third-density illusion in the positive path it is necessary for an entity to be working in service to others at least 51 percent of the time, whereas in order to achieve graduation along the negative path of polarity it is necessary to be working in service to the self 99 percent of the time at a minimum.

Therefore, those who follow the path of negative polarity are almost always quite well aware of the process whereby all energies and entities about that person are subsumed and consumed by that person in order to bring added strength and power to the self. The times of slavery, shall we say, of which negatively polarizing entities are capable is large, however all are to one extent or another conscious.

May we answer you further, my brother?

Questioner: Yes, do the negative polarity people or entities, do they view us as positive polarity and themselves as negative, or do they not use this terminology or way of thinking? Perhaps I am not asking that clearly, I am not sure.

I am Q’uo. We believe we have the gist of your query. From the standpoint of the negative path the positive path is naive and weak. From the standpoint of the negative path the negative entity feels that it must look out for itself, and shall take all opportunities to take advantage of others who are naive and weak. It further feels that if these entities which are naive and weak learn from this experience to protect the self and use others who are naive and weak, then they have been of service in teaching a previously naive “babe in the woods” the nature of “the real world.”

Indeed, almost no negatively oriented entity wishes to use such prejudicial language about its path. The language is more often couched in terms of affirming the self. This is not to be confused with the process of accepting the imperfect and universal self as a heart of preparation for loving others as you love yourself. Do you see this, my brother?

Questioner: Yes, thank you.

Q’uo: May we answer you further?

Questioner: Yes, I’d like someone else to have a turn.

Questioner: I have a question for you, Q’uo. What is the role of comfort—physical comfort—within the illusion, on the path of learning? If you can answer that question, what is the role of comfort in the metaphysical sense?

I am Q’uo. My brother, there is no inherent virtue in discomfort. The difficulties into which one falls by wishing for comfort have to do more with an addiction to a certain expectation than with comfort itself. One may indeed be comfortable, happy, wealthy, or other seemingly good things, and be quite miserable because of need, for some form of discomfort lies within the soul. The notion of comfort, further, is one which suggests that there is a place in which one is comfortable. This invariably is not so. The true comfort is in accepting and cooperating with the destiny in which one flows like the raft in the torrent of the river.

May we answer you more specifically?

Questioner: Is there then a place for wishing of discomfort, as far as, metaphysically speaking, wishing for learning? As opposed to wishing for comfort and being couched within the illusion?

My brother, the fine joke of comfort and discomfort is that at the beginning of any learning there is tremendous feeling of discomfort while there is very little seeming work being done. The wheels, shall we say, are spinning, and even the slight bit of change which is occurring is causing tremendous amounts of emotional, mental, or physical discomfort. As the lesson begins to sink in, usually the fourth or fifth time the genre of experience has come around again, and the seeker is getting the hang of this particular lesson of love, the strides being made towards transformation are far greater, change is occurring at a far more deeply biased level, yet the experience of discomfort is somewhat less because comfort actually lies, as we said, in accepting one’s place in the flow of change.

As the end of any lesson approaches, this realization of the flowing nature of learning and destiny is clearer and clearer. Finally, one is somewhat comfortable, and then of course it is time for another lesson to begin. Thus, there is always the discomfort, the angst, but the amount of angst is not necessarily consonant with the amount of change but is rather more nearly consonant with the amount of resistance to or standing athwart of that change because of preconceived ideas about what one’s path of destiny is. It is well to release all expectations beyond a certain point in order for the play of the wind of destiny to aid rather than to seem to hinder.

May we answer you further, my brother?

Questioner: No, Q’uo. I thank you for your patience with me. I appreciate the different viewpoint and will take time to think about it.

I am Q’uo, and we appreciate your patience with us, for we attempt to give answers on several levels at once in order to speak to each within the circle, and this, while perhaps helpful, at least we intend it to be, certainly does little to keep us simple.

Is there another query at this time which we may obfuscate and confuse you with our answer to?

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I am Q’uo, and we find that our sense of humor has run away with us again. We shall put it differently. May we answer another query at this time?

Questioner: Yes, Q’uo. I do not want to monopolize the time here because I am so full of questions, but I am curious as to … We had so many reports of people having encounters with reptilian-type humanoid forms. I was wondering, this is just a thought that occurred to me, seems to make sense, if there could be a planet which would have had reptilian life forms, perhaps a third density or a fourth density, and their body forms made good vehicles for negative polarity entities to reside in. Does it work like that or is it somewhat different? Is that clear?

I am Q’uo, and yes, the query is clear. The physical vehicle which carries consciousness is not ever biased towards positive or negative evolution, for this is evolution of consciousness. This consciousness is infinite and eternal and uses physical vehicles in order to come into manifestation and experience the limitations which allow self-knowledge. This consciousness can use any vehicle. It is this consciousness which has the ability to choose, to learn, and to love the infinite Creator, either by loving others and serving them as the self or simply loving the self and serving the self.

The reason that both polarities are acceptable ways to move towards the infinite Creator is that the service-to-self entity is quite correct when it sees that service to self is the service to the infinite Creator. Nothing that exists is not the infinite Creator, there is nothing to be of service to except the infinite Unity. However, the consciousness can choose to separate the self from others and use others or it can choose to attempt to unify itself with all others in service as if each entity were the self.

Does this answer your query or may we answer further?

Questioner: Yes, it answers it somewhat. I guess that I am still not clear. Do you not think that there are races … perhaps I should state it this way—when you are in a negative polarity, when this is your choosing, do you form societies, do you all live together or do you intersperse among the populace of the positive polarities?

I am Q’uo. My brother, both polarities exist at this time upon your planet. Some examples of more or less negative polarities are the corporation where the credit for the work goes to the leader of a team, and those who are within the corporation attempt to use others in order to advance, and the married state in which each partner attempts to gain control over the other. You see, we are not speaking of negative races, of beings, but of negativity itself. The actual look of a predominantly negatively oriented society is handsome or beautiful, neat and tidy, the hallmark of service to self being control and order.

May we answer you further, my brother?

Questioner: No, that is all I have right now.

Q’uo: Is there a final query?

Questioner: I wonder if there is any query that we may answer for you, Q’uo? [Inaudible] joke is on me.

I am Q’uo. Your queries are to us a great blessing. They enable us to pursue our own path of learning. As we attempt to share our thoughts with you we learn a great deal from you and we are most grateful for that privilege. We would at this time rejoice in having been with you all. As you go upon your way may many blessings befall you and may you be merry with one another. We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as the principle of Q’uo. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and tied the few remaining tree branches, from one of the three large Maple tree trunks that came down last Saturday evening, into four bundles and put them at the head of the driveway for yard waste pickup next Thursday. Then I cut the large piece of plexiglass that I bought yesterday into a size that would cover the screen over the bottom half of the window outside of the living room where I have a bird feeder hanging. Squirrels, birds, and a raccoon have been able to get through a tear in that screen to eat the bird seed there, and the birds can’t get out of the tear without me grabbing them and taking them outside to let them go.

This afternoon I put another piece of plexiglass next plexiglass I put up this morning because a couple of years ago I broke the storm window with my ladder as I was painting the bricks around the window. Then I took down the old Pawley’s Island hammock that is worn out and replaced it with a new one in Dana’s Crystal Corner.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 7

Rise And Be Free

I am the spirit of the full consciousness of Love. I greet you in the Love of Christ.

Within the mind does each pilgrim bow before the Spirit and fall to the knees upon the dusty floor of human suffering.

Yet to the Spirit all things are Light and Love and the holy flame of the principle of Jesus the Christ reaches out to sin and suffering with hand and arm, saying, “Arise! Come and do the work of the spirit, not the work of the bondservant.”

My children, rise and be free, for that spirit which is love utterly commits and utterly frees the answering spirit of the pilgrim. Answer and be made whole, that the light may shine in and through you and that you may, by your light, lift others from the threshing floor of error.

We leave you in the transfiguring peace of the love of Christ, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.