The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from December 13, 1992:

Group question: The question today has to do with the general kind or level of angst that we each find in our lives no matter what the particular experience, whether we are not being able to fulfill our creative identity and desires we know we have, or the ability to find the balance in our lives so that we are able to move through our lives without being swayed overly much either towards the sadness or the joy, the ability to find balance between being and doing. Each of us seems to have some kind of angst, some necessity for dealing with a situation that is difficult, that provides us with worries, with fears, with challenges, with work of some nature that needs to be done. We are wanting to know if there is some level of changing this angst or this way of perceiving our experience so that we are more in line of what we feel is fulfilling our abilities, of walking a balanced life, of being of service to others, and wonder what you may have to say to us in that regard.

(Carla channeling)

We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Greetings in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator whose blessing is upon us all. We feel most privileged to be sharing in this circle of seeking and thank you for giving us the opportunity to be of service to you. We ask that each seeker realize that we are not final authorities; we make mistakes; and are as you, seekers along an infinite path of learning and becoming more and more that which we seek. Therefore, we ask each to use his own discrimination to take up those thoughts which have an interest and to leave behind those which do not, for only in this way may we feel free, without infringing upon your free will, to offer our opinions.

You ask us about the pain of living. What is the necessity of it, how can it be transformed? We must begin with a larger canvas, so if you would, come with us in mind. We take you to the point at which the infinite and eternal consciousness which you are chose to come into manifestation or an incarnational experience. What were you co-creating with the infinite One when you created the opportunities and overarching destiny which you did indeed co-create? It seems logical to assume that the choice to come into manifestation in this manner was based upon an advantage to be gained from so doing. There are things which entities in incarnational, physical bodies can do which discarnate spirits cannot. Those in incarnation cannot know. Those not in manifestation cannot escape knowing that all things are one, that there is one Source, one great original Thought in which all exist, and which is in everything. In the illusion of manifestation this truth is escaped, cleanly and completely. There is no way of knowing while in incarnation that you are one with anything or anybody. All things seem to have limits and seem to be separate, whether these things are people, relationships, or ideas.

The darkness of the valley of the shadow of death, to quote one of your culture’s holy works, is the setting of the stage for your journey through this incarnation, for are you not all born with the life sentence of inescapable death? Therefore, you live in the shadow of that known outcome throughout the incarnational experience. So you have chosen to enter into an illusion which blocks all knowledge of unity from the conscious, logical mind. Further, you have come into an illusion which is eternally mysterious; that is, nothing is known no matter whether one seeks to the limits of the microscope or the telescope. One cannot find the basic reason “why,” a basic method of “how,” or a good definition of “what” the essence of the experience of manifestation might be, for as telescopes grow more powerful infinity is simply seen in more depth. As microscopes grow more powerful all that may be seen is the path of energy left by your electron particle. Now, if you are fields of energy, interacting in an illusion whose trademark is mystery and shadow there must be a reason not immediately obvious for your choice of coming into this illusion.

We shall pause.

[Pause]

This illusion is the third such level, shall we say, of learning for the infinite portions of the one Creator. To experience the first being the level of the elements, the experience of being rock, sea, air. Those experiences are simple yet move deeply and slowly, and consciousness then graduates to another level of illusion. In this illusion, for those portions of consciousness which now know that they exist and begin to move in order to seek the light, the easiest example of this movement is the turning of the flower and leaf to the sun to receive light. In these two illusions there is not self-consciousness, but with graduation into the third-density illusion which you now experience, you as co-creator are in a physical vehicle which has the ability to be conscious of itself experiencing the illusion.

There is a purpose for this particular illusion, in our opinion. Just as the purpose in the first density is to experience manifestation at its basic level, and just as the second density’s purpose is to experience and learn the movement, the choice towards being fed, being comforted, being warmed, finding light, so in third density the individual seekers of light become self-conscious and decide to interact. Your illusion has everything to do with learning not only who and what and why you are as you are but also in learning how to interact with those about you. Upon graduation from this density the next series of lessons starts with learning to be a complex of entities which have all memories in common. In the next density this veil of mystery and forgetting which you now experience is gradually lifted, and, once again, you know that you are all One.

Only in third density is the unity hidden. This is in order that each may make an all-important choice of how to proceed with the evolution of the spirit, for there are two paths to the one infinite Creator in general. One path is radiant, giving, loving, and unifying, and is called service-to-others path or the positive path of seeking. The other path to the one infinite Creator is magnetic, attractive, charismatic, and may be called the path of service to self or the negative path. Each of these two paths is a valid path to follow and will bring the seeker to the growing awareness of the nature of the mystery of Creator and self. We are those of the positive path, as we find it to be the more efficient path, and in our opinion the more agreeable one to follow.

Therefore, as you approach the choice of which path to follow, nothing can be known for sure, for it is all important that this choice be made in faith and not because of any proof or fact, for only in faith, only in the mid-air of that leap of faith is the choice truly made to love. Once the pilgrim’s soul has made the choice to learn to love by attempting the positive path of service to others then there shall be the unfolding of the destiny which you co-created. This does not mean that free will is abridged thereby; it is as though you have furnished yourself with a place to begin a journey and a place where that journey ends.

See, you begin in Louisville and go to Chicago. In the journey there you may well travel through China but you will end up in Chicago. This is what you experience as the rough and tumble of the frustrations of your days. You have a destiny at work in you. The more clearly you make and remake the choice of polarity, the more you have the emotional calmness to be aware of whatever hints and synchronicities that are around to offer you the nudges you need to choose this or that way to be, to act and to respond to the seemingly good and seemingly bad things which occur to you. So you see, rather than your angst being a suffering without a context, this angst is as the ballast, the weight in your frail barque of being.

The group question for this session was: “What is the necessity of the pain in living our lives, and how do we deal with it and grow from it?” Q’uo said that before our incarnations we were infinite and eternal beings that chose to enter our incarnations to co-create a destiny with the one Creator that would be lived within the illusion of seeming separation of people, ideas, and relationships. Q’uo continued by saying that we are born into an illusion of mystery in which nothing can be known, and we are here within bodies that have only a certain length of time to discover the “basic reason “why,” a basic method of “how,” or a good definition of “what” the essence of the experience of manifestation might be.” Then Q’uo said that in the first density there is only a basic awareness of earth, wind, fire, and water, and in the second density there is the movement such as the flower turning towards the light of the sun, and then in the third density we have the self-consciousness of the spirit which gives us the opportunity to seek the unity of the Creator either through service to others or through service to self. Q’uo went on to say that we can only make this choice by taking a leap of faith into the mid-air, and when we have made this choice then we may experience the destiny for our lives that we have co-created. They said that the more often we make this choice, and the more we see the hints and synchronicities in our lives, the calmer we can be in dealing with the angst in our lives and see it as a means that aids our spiritual evolution. On April 18, 2006, Q’uo spoke of the way that the leap of faith works in choosing our path of polarity:

The veil of forgetting was put into place not in order that it may be penetrated but to set up the conditions for a life in which the choice of polarity and the continuing choices of polarity that follow such an initial choice might be played out without any possibility of proof. The choice of service-to-self or service-to-others polarity is intended to be made against the backdrop of unknowing so that one must literally take a leap of faith in order to choose how to respond to the catalyst of everyday life. In each situation where there is a decision to be made that has ethical overtones, the whole point of that veil of forgetting is to clear the canvas of any paint except that which you wish to apply in the present moment. Your choices, then, are made very cleanly—not because you feel there was karma from this or that previous lifetime or because of any other fact that you feel that you have come to know but because, by faith, you wish to choose your manner of being in a way that expresses your heart’s desire.

As you sail across uncharted waters your only rudder is your basic faith that all is well, that you have not misplanned these things which are occurring. The more you begin to realize that there are no mistakes the more you can move past wondering why the suffering was necessary and, therefore, the more time you have to take to pay attention to the situation in which you experience the suffering. Is this suffering necessary? Well, my friends, we may say that the discomfort of pain is necessary.

Now, the more the discomfort is resisted the harsher the discomfort. As we are on the journey of the mind and the spirit you shall constantly be changing and transforming because of your experiences. These changes are uncomfortable and, therefore, there is pain. To the extent that you cooperate with these energies of transformation, then to this extent the discomfort may not breed fear. You can look at the suffering and say, “I must be changing pretty well,” but if you need the fear, allow it. There is nothing wrong with protecting your delicate and sensitive inner self. It is possible to allow this fear and then try just a little less fear, and then a little less, and move slowly, supporting the self, not discouraging the self by railing against the lack of courage or railing against destiny for the discomfort which change brings.

Perhaps what we would leave you with in this portion of this working is the thought that if you are learning lessons of love your first lesson is to love, accept and forgive yourself. In one of your holy works it is written that there are only two laws of being, to love the infinite Creator and to love all others as you love yourself. What entities often do not realize is that they are loving others more than they are loving themselves. How hard are you on yourself, my friends. Attempt to support and refresh your own self in your pilgrimage just as you would any friend. Attempt not the courage but the lack of discouragement. When you feel discouraged, find that portion of your spirit which cradles you and comforts you, and allow that comfort to fill and calm the rough seas, the rough seas of emotional pain. Then simply open your eyes and gaze upon that manifestation which barely hides the imminent glory of the one infinite Creator.

My friends, you are loved so very much by the infinite One, you are so precious. You are unique. Your nexus of experiences and biases is irreplaceable. Feel that jewel within yourself grow and glow and allow the Creator to move through each facet of this jewel of essence, and this shall be your rudder on the uncharted sea.

Now Q’uo said that as we move within the veil of forgetting we need to have faith that all is well, and that the suffering that we may feel is the result of the pre-incarnative plans that we made for ourselves. Then Q’uo said that we will experience the pain of making changes on the journey of our minds and spirits, and this will result in going through transformations which may breed some degree of fear that we should accept without feeling like we are failing to learn and grow into our destiny. Q’uo reminded us that we are here to learn the lessons of love, and that includes learning to love and forgive ourselves as we love and forgive others. They said that we should deal with discouragement by looking for that portion of our spirit that reflects the one infinite Creator that loves us as a unique jewel, and It shines through each facet of our jewel to guide us in traveling the uncharted sea of our destiny. On June 14, 2002, Q’uo revealed the nature of discovering our destiny:

The viewpoint of the self standing upon a prominent precipice and making the self ready to take a leap of faith into that which is your destiny is the basic situation with which you deal. There is the eagerness and the anticipation of the adventure that awaits, for it is that soul’s destiny which you have created before this incarnation as the pattern for the incarnation which you feel is now ready to unfurl before you, as the marker, the guide post, the beginning of the great work. The dual feeling of anticipation and weariness is not so surprising when one considers the nature of spiritual paradox. Knowing beforehand that there is a great work to accomplish and yet seeing this work within the eyes of the work-a-day world, the illusion of this density, and translating the amount of work that lies ahead into the ordinary terms, causes one to feel a great burden, a great weight upon the soul, and this expresses itself in various ways in the physical vehicle, in the emotional vehicle, in the mental vehicle, and to a lesser extent within the spiritual vehicle as well.

We would at this time open the meeting to any questions that any might have. May we take a first query?

Questioner: Yes, Quo, in the negative polarity, do they view themselves as being of negative polarity? Do they have a concept of polarity?

I am Q’uo. My brother, there are very, very few which, having no concept of polarity, are nevertheless of the negative polarity. However, the negative polarity is far more difficult than the positive polarity to do work in consciousness using [inaudible]. This is due to the fact that in order to graduate, shall we say, from the third-density illusion in the positive path it is necessary for an entity to be working in service to others at least 51 percent of the time, whereas in order to achieve graduation along the negative path of polarity it is necessary to be working in service to the self 99 percent of the time at a minimum.

Therefore, those who follow the path of negative polarity are almost always quite well aware of the process whereby all energies and entities about that person are subsumed and consumed by that person in order to bring added strength and power to the self. The times of slavery, shall we say, of which negatively polarizing entities are capable is large, however all are to one extent or another conscious.

May we answer you further, my brother?

Questioner: Yes, do the negative polarity people or entities, do they view us as positive polarity and themselves as negative, or do they not use this terminology or way of thinking? Perhaps I am not asking that clearly, I am not sure.

I am Q’uo. We believe we have the gist of your query. From the standpoint of the negative path the positive path is naive and weak. From the standpoint of the negative path the negative entity feels that it must look out for itself, and shall take all opportunities to take advantage of others who are naive and weak. It further feels that if these entities which are naive and weak learn from this experience to protect the self and use others who are naive and weak, then they have been of service in teaching a previously naive “babe in the woods” the nature of “the real world.”

Indeed, almost no negatively oriented entity wishes to use such prejudicial language about its path. The language is more often couched in terms of affirming the self. This is not to be confused with the process of accepting the imperfect and universal self as a heart of preparation for loving others as you love yourself. Do you see this, my brother?

Questioner: Yes, thank you.

Q’uo: May we answer you further?

Questioner: Yes, I’d like someone else to have a turn.

Questioner: I have a question for you, Q’uo. What is the role of comfort—physical comfort—within the illusion, on the path of learning? If you can answer that question, what is the role of comfort in the metaphysical sense?

I am Q’uo. My brother, there is no inherent virtue in discomfort. The difficulties into which one falls by wishing for comfort have to do more with an addiction to a certain expectation than with comfort itself. One may indeed be comfortable, happy, wealthy, or other seemingly good things, and be quite miserable because of need, for some form of discomfort lies within the soul. The notion of comfort, further, is one which suggests that there is a place in which one is comfortable. This invariably is not so. The true comfort is in accepting and cooperating with the destiny in which one flows like the raft in the torrent of the river.

May we answer you more specifically?

Questioner: Is there then a place for wishing of discomfort, as far as, metaphysically speaking, wishing for learning? As opposed to wishing for comfort and being couched within the illusion?

My brother, the fine joke of comfort and discomfort is that at the beginning of any learning there is tremendous feeling of discomfort while there is very little seeming work being done. The wheels, shall we say, are spinning, and even the slight bit of change which is occurring is causing tremendous amounts of emotional, mental, or physical discomfort. As the lesson begins to sink in, usually the fourth or fifth time the genre of experience has come around again, and the seeker is getting the hang of this particular lesson of love, the strides being made towards transformation are far greater, change is occurring at a far more deeply biased level, yet the experience of discomfort is somewhat less because comfort actually lies, as we said, in accepting one’s place in the flow of change.

As the end of any lesson approaches, this realization of the flowing nature of learning and destiny is clearer and clearer. Finally, one is somewhat comfortable, and then of course it is time for another lesson to begin. Thus, there is always the discomfort, the angst, but the amount of angst is not necessarily consonant with the amount of change but is rather more nearly consonant with the amount of resistance to or standing athwart of that change because of preconceived ideas about what one’s path of destiny is. It is well to release all expectations beyond a certain point in order for the play of the wind of destiny to aid rather than to seem to hinder.

May we answer you further, my brother?

Questioner: No, Q’uo. I thank you for your patience with me. I appreciate the different viewpoint and will take time to think about it.

I am Q’uo, and we appreciate your patience with us, for we attempt to give answers on several levels at once in order to speak to each within the circle, and this, while perhaps helpful, at least we intend it to be, certainly does little to keep us simple.

Is there another query at this time which we may obfuscate and confuse you with our answer to?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we find that our sense of humor has run away with us again. We shall put it differently. May we answer another query at this time?

Questioner: Yes, Q’uo. I do not want to monopolize the time here because I am so full of questions, but I am curious as to … We had so many reports of people having encounters with reptilian-type humanoid forms. I was wondering, this is just a thought that occurred to me, seems to make sense, if there could be a planet which would have had reptilian life forms, perhaps a third density or a fourth density, and their body forms made good vehicles for negative polarity entities to reside in. Does it work like that or is it somewhat different? Is that clear?

I am Q’uo, and yes, the query is clear. The physical vehicle which carries consciousness is not ever biased towards positive or negative evolution, for this is evolution of consciousness. This consciousness is infinite and eternal and uses physical vehicles in order to come into manifestation and experience the limitations which allow self-knowledge. This consciousness can use any vehicle. It is this consciousness which has the ability to choose, to learn, and to love the infinite Creator, either by loving others and serving them as the self or simply loving the self and serving the self.

The reason that both polarities are acceptable ways to move towards the infinite Creator is that the service-to-self entity is quite correct when it sees that service to self is the service to the infinite Creator. Nothing that exists is not the infinite Creator, there is nothing to be of service to except the infinite Unity. However, the consciousness can choose to separate the self from others and use others or it can choose to attempt to unify itself with all others in service as if each entity were the self.

Does this answer your query or may we answer further?

Questioner: Yes, it answers it somewhat. I guess that I am still not clear. Do you not think that there are races … perhaps I should state it this way—when you are in a negative polarity, when this is your choosing, do you form societies, do you all live together or do you intersperse among the populace of the positive polarities?

I am Q’uo. My brother, both polarities exist at this time upon your planet. Some examples of more or less negative polarities are the corporation where the credit for the work goes to the leader of a team, and those who are within the corporation attempt to use others in order to advance, and the married state in which each partner attempts to gain control over the other. You see, we are not speaking of negative races, of beings, but of negativity itself. The actual look of a predominantly negatively oriented society is handsome or beautiful, neat and tidy, the hallmark of service to self being control and order.

May we answer you further, my brother?

Questioner: No, that is all I have right now.

Q’uo: Is there a final query?

Questioner: I wonder if there is any query that we may answer for you, Q’uo? [Inaudible] joke is on me.

I am Q’uo. Your queries are to us a great blessing. They enable us to pursue our own path of learning. As we attempt to share our thoughts with you we learn a great deal from you and we are most grateful for that privilege. We would at this time rejoice in having been with you all. As you go upon your way may many blessings befall you and may you be merry with one another. We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as the principle of Q’uo. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and tied the few remaining tree branches, from one of the three large Maple tree trunks that came down last Saturday evening, into four bundles and put them at the head of the driveway for yard waste pickup next Thursday. Then I cut the large piece of plexiglass that I bought yesterday into a size that would cover the screen over the bottom half of the window outside of the living room where I have a bird feeder hanging. Squirrels, birds, and a raccoon have been able to get through a tear in that screen to eat the bird seed there, and the birds can’t get out of the tear without me grabbing them and taking them outside to let them go.

This afternoon I put another piece of plexiglass next plexiglass I put up this morning because a couple of years ago I broke the storm window with my ladder as I was painting the bricks around the window. Then I took down the old Pawley’s Island hammock that is worn out and replaced it with a new one in Dana’s Crystal Corner.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 7

Rise And Be Free

I am the spirit of the full consciousness of Love. I greet you in the Love of Christ.

Within the mind does each pilgrim bow before the Spirit and fall to the knees upon the dusty floor of human suffering.

Yet to the Spirit all things are Light and Love and the holy flame of the principle of Jesus the Christ reaches out to sin and suffering with hand and arm, saying, “Arise! Come and do the work of the spirit, not the work of the bondservant.”

My children, rise and be free, for that spirit which is love utterly commits and utterly frees the answering spirit of the pilgrim. Answer and be made whole, that the light may shine in and through you and that you may, by your light, lift others from the threshing floor of error.

We leave you in the transfiguring peace of the love of Christ, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 22, 1992:

Group question: The question this afternoon has to do with the general concept of how do we deal with loss, in a conscious manner, so that we are able to get the most benefit out of the experience? How do we either exercise our will, or move our will aside, or find a harmonious way of using a sense of grief of loss, of separation that comes when relationship ends, a relationship that has been emotionally satisfying and nurturing for us? That is the specific question, and, in general, how do we allow the greater will to move through our lives so that our small will, that may or may not be informed, can become a part of the movement of the pattern of our incarnation that brings us eventually to the realization of the unity and acceptance?

(Carla channeling)

Greetings. We are those of Q’uo. We come to you in the love and in the light of the one infinite source and ending of All. How privileged we feel to be called to speak to your group at this occasion and to have the blessing of blending our vibrations with this circle of seeking.

Your query involves the merging of two kinds of illusion. When one is dealing with those deep emotional memories and desires that stem from the roots of the being, one is dealing with the infinite and eternal consciousness that each of you is. When one is asking about the manifestations of these desires in the present illusion one is dealing with the third-density mind of the physical vehicle which offers you the opportunity for incarnation. The first mind is often called the subconscious mind, although more accurate would be the term roots of mind. The latter mind is the—we correct this instrument—in the first mind we find the roots of mind to be the location which you may consider these thoughts and emotions to stem from. However, the higher subconscious and conscious mind are involved in all mergings of these deeper desires and emotions with the moment-by-moment transient mind of new actual experience which is being observed by the entity which you are.

Therefore, we first ask your attention be drawn to the situation whereby most of the feelings which run through the stream of consciousness are dealing with the surface of the passing experience and observations which enable you to use, to control, and to shape the passing experience in a manner which conforms to your preferences. However, like deep melodies which surface again and again, those deeper energies excited and born from the entrance into the conscious mind, of fated or destined persons or events, cause the experience being overtaken by these deep desires which then move into a position of dominance in the mind and which then color for a period of time the passing experience with the deep tapestries of emotions and desires which you have created for this incarnational experience in order to learn the lessons of love which can only be taught by moving through the catalyst of entities or events processing themselves through the day-to-day experience.

As had been discussed previous to this sitting, one of these portions of personal destiny is sometimes the relationship which seems to be over. Now, in this case the relationship is over in the framework of the conscious mind of the entity which lives and dies within the flesh and personality of this incarnation. However, the relationship is anything but over from the standpoint of learning the lessons of love, for which reason both entities within this relationship chose to meet, to exchange desires, and to part, thus only beginning and setting up the conditions under which the lesson may be learned in a way which creates a lasting bias in consciousness which will polarize the consciousness that is infinite within you towards the unity with the love and light which is the Source and Father of all that there is.

The group question for this session was: How do we deal with the grief of loss of a loved one, and how do we allow the greater will to move through our lives so that our small will, that may or may not be informed, can become a part of the movement of the pattern of our incarnation that brings us eventually to the realization of unity and acceptance? Q’uo began by saying that in this situation one is dealing with the nature of the infinite being that all are and also dealing with the third-density body that gives us a chance for an incarnation. Then Q’uo said that the higher subconscious and conscious mind are both involved in all mergings of these deeper desires and emotions with the moment-by-moment transient mind of new actual experience which is being observed by the entity which you are. Q’uo went on to say that most of our feelings that deal with the passing of a loved one are part of our surface mind’s ability to shape and control this experience in a way which we prefer, but they said that at some point the deeper feelings of our subconscious mind color our emotions in a way that aids us in the learning of the lessons of love by helping us process the catalyst of the passing. Then Q’uo said that when a loved one passes on it seems to the conscious mind that the relationship is over, but in truth the relationship is not over because each within the relationship incarnated in order to meet each other, exchange the desires of the incarnation, and then to part as portion of the overall plan of learning the lesson to love that will polarize our infinite consciousness within with the unity of the love and light of the Source of all that is. On December 30, 1990, Q’uo revealed the overall plan of learning the lesson to love:

In this instrument’s life, for instance, this instrument struggles to like an entity close to her which she chose for the precise reason that she in no way could possibly like this entity. What was the lesson? To love. Not to like, not to prefer, not intellectually to crave, but to love, simply that. In each entity’s life there are these things which cannot be liked, but which can, through the grace of an infinite Creator which is Love, be loved, and in the loving of them floats a continuous prayer like a bell tone that rings throughout space and time and eternity.

So you wish, above all else, not to advertise but to protect this child, while you, to the best of your ability, amend and improve the basic energies of a physical, weak, finite vehicle with finite energies, finite amounts of time and space in which to do the work of a complete incarnation, and to do that right quickly, for in truth, a century of your time is far too short even for you to achieve the first true maturity. So know yourselves as perpetual teenagers, perpetual rebels, perpetual prodigals, far from home, confused, poor in heart, until you are able to realize the richness that lies within this vessel of earth, which noble earthly vessel carries you through an incarnation with its greatest devotion and care.

Let us look at the experience narrated within the holy work called the Bible of the one known as Jesus the Christ. When this entity was upon the hard wood of the cross with arms outstretched to welcome its destiny there were two occasions when it is recorded that this entity dealt with relationships. In the first exchange a criminal which wished to turn from its behavior and find a deeper desire asked the teacher known as Jesus to pray for it, and the teacher spoke without hesitation. Dying though it was, it turned in compassion and acceptance and faith and said: “This day thou shalt be with me in paradise.” There was no confusion because the teacher was suffering, for this entity had learned hope and desire only to surrender the will to the will of its Father, as it thought of the infinite Creator.

In the second exchange the teacher viewing its own mother pointed with name to a beloved friend and in a brief sentence realigned relationship away from accidents, shall we say, of birth and adjusted this relationship for a loving and compassionate opportunity for both mother and friend, as each then might comfort the other. From the sorrow of the apparent loss in both cases there may be seen to be an absence of fear, of self-pity, and an abundance and acceptance of the way destiny moves.

Let us move back onto the terra firma now, and gaze at the situation of lost love. Now the lover of the past is a memory. Were it a lesson learned, the memory would not come up to disquiet or sadden one. That it haunts one is a good indication that there is a deep and destined lesson of love to learn. There are three ways one might work upon this lesson. Firstly, there is the work of forgiveness. Most seekers are far more willing to forgive the other self in a relationship than to forgive the self, whether the self feels that it could have changed destiny by an action or feels that it could have changed destiny by eschewing an action. The case is that often the lack of forgiveness of the self stems from the belief that things ended wrongly. May we offer our opinion that there are no true accidents or mistakes in the metaphysical life– only opportunities. Therefore, the greater part of the work of acceptance and forgiveness is allowing the self to feel all right, that and no more, simply all right.

The second way of working upon moving into a better framework from which to view and work with deep sorrows in a life path is to focus upon the opportunities for mulling over the treasure gained during this destiny-filled relationship. That which one did not have before one has now, a center of energy, a vortex of power absent before has now been made, allowing the merging of deep life path needs with the day-to-day manifestations of destiny and accident.

You see, the sorrows of the lost love are not a negative quality but rather a praise-worthy, hollowing out and deepening of the capacity to love without expectation of any return. The reason that the lost love haunts the everyday experience is that there is still much work to do in praising and seeing the treasure in the learning of how to love so deeply in the first place. Only in this kind of sorrow does the incarnate spirit become tempered and transparent to infinity. Only in the darkness of seemingly negative emotions of loss and limitation does the deep prayer, the soulful song of love take wing and sweep the incarnate being to a point of view where the breadth of love, once felt for one entity, may be turned at world dying and yearning for your deep love and compassion. Thusly, one does well not to turn from sorrow but to turn towards it, to merge with it, and to carry this loss as a shining ornament which honors the infinite Creator.

The third thing which is skillful to do when dealing with any seeming negativity is simply to, as this instrument would say, “Praise God from whom all blessings flow.” We would change it in this case to say instead “Praise the Creator from whom all sorrows flow.” The turning from the self and the concerns, whether shallow or deep, of the self to the infinite Creator in praise and thanksgiving is an orientation in intelligent infinity, that is, in the Creator, or what this instrument would call Christ consciousness. This consciousness is the essential portion of both the consciousness which is infinite and the incarnate being with the biocomputer which makes so many hasty judgments. Calling forth in the conscious mind the holy, worshipful attitude in which only the Creator exists reestablishes a center within the being which merges unconscious and conscious beings together in a useful and balanced way.

Here Q’uo said that when Jesus was upon the cross there were two relationships that he dealt with when he told the thief on the cross beside him that he would be in paradise with Jesus that day, and when he told his disciple, John, to behold Mary as his mother so that these relationships exemplified Jesus’s ability to accept His destiny without fear or a sense of loss. Then Q’uo spoke of how a lost love might be accepted, and the first way concerned forgiving the self for the loss of love because of some action that was taken or not taken and feeling that all ended well. Q’uo said that the second way of dealing with a lost love was to give praise for that relationship that provided a way to give love without expectation of return and to embrace the deep sorrow of this lost love so that the incarnate spirit may become tempered and transparent to infinity, and that love once felt for one entity now is available to share with a world that is so in need of love. Now Q’uo said that the third way to deal with a painful loss is to turn from that loss to giving praise and thanksgiving to the Christ consciousness which is a part of infinite consciousness and also of the incarnate consciousness. Then Q’uo said that calling forth into the conscious mind the holy and worshipful attitude where only the Creator exists merges the conscious and unconscious beings in a helpful and useful way. On March 19, 1989, Hatonn spoke of the value of the merging of the conscious and unconscious minds:

Indeed, each entity which one meets in the daily round of activities is an other self, not just because each entity projects from its own conscious and unconscious mind a certain image of the self that serves as a kind of filter or eyeglass through which one sees one’s universe, but even more profoundly, each entity is, indeed, the one Creator, and as the One exists in all, then all exists in the One, and, indeed, in each other. Therefore, the experiences that each entity accumulates in each incarnation are available as a resource to all if each entity is able to move through the deeper levels of the mind complex to that place within the subconscious mind where this unity is more obvious and more profoundly in effect within each incarnation and each portion of each entity.

It is not in any way easy to do that which we have suggested. The more intensive the desire has been to find love the more intensive the experience of love, the more the yearning for love, the more it will seem very, very difficult to so center the mind viewpoint that all these acceptances and forgivenesses and reorientations may have their just process. Therefore, we urge each to see that this is the work of not one but many incarnational experiences to deepen the source within during the incarnation. In a star-crossed, shall we say, relationship both entities, whatever the outcome in this experience, have been working with this balance for many incarnations. But allow the normalcy of day-to-day experience to move you until the next occasion when this haunting desire for a known or an unknown person or relationship looms so largely before the conscious mind that it colors all of one’s thoughts. Then see this occasion as the treasure it is. Let the fears fall; let the heart speak all it wishes until its well of words and threnody of pain is fully expressed. Honor and respect the deep emotions and give them full expression rather than feeling them as an ending of a real life experience and only a memory. Allow the feelings to become living. Birth them with your awareness of the beauty of love. You have desired truly; you have loved truly. This you have experienced. It may now be separated from the constraint of belonging to one entity and the self and become that potential for love and for acceptance and compassion which may be universalized by being aware that this love is an energy unto itself.

You are able to accelerate the process of spiritual evolution whereby you are learning from the deep expressions of personal destiny and in all you do. To offer thanks and praise in any moment is your way of moving quickly, instantaneously to the mind or consciousness of unity wherein you may see that there is no loss, there is no lack, there is no separation, even in the case of a loved one which has died or been permanently separated. This love is an entity unto itself, a vortex which may pull forth either a bitterness of a judged loss or a smooth vine of a judged treasure. It is always your choice.

Two things before we open this meeting to other queries. We are error-prone and request that each use any thought each may from that which we say and leave the rest behind. And also, to accelerate the process whereby one is more observant of that merging process between deep emotions and day-to-day experience, it is well to move into silent communion with the one infinite Creator, listening to the silent voice of love unlimited and inexpressible. To spend time wisely, spend some each day with the Creator.

Now Q’uo said that the more intensively we wish to find love in our lives the more difficult it will be to fulfill this desire, and they said that this is actually the work of many incarnations. Q’uo went on to say that when this relationship is over we should wait until we feel that there is another relationship where we can feel this love again, and we should cherish it and let it be born into our awareness as the true beauty of love and realize it is not just love for one person but is a universal love that is an energy unto itself. They said that this would accelerate the rate of our spiritual evolution when we can give praise and thanksgiving after we realize that there is no loss of love when a loved one has died, and that we can see that love is an entity of itself for which we can either see it as a treasure in itself or feel bitterness for its loss. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that it would be helpful to spend time in meditation each day in order to become more aware of the merging process of the deep emotions and the day-to-day experience. On June 12, 1994, Q’uo gave a detailed description of the nature of universal love:

Picture, if you will, the star-studded sky with its unimaginable numbers of points of love and light which shine infinitely forth, and know that the Brothers and Sisters of Sorrow are as these stars. And each entity is as a star. When the desire to serve is felt within and a channel is opened to the infinite Creator by means of praise and thanksgiving to that infinite One, then it is that this infinite mystery may flow through you, and as a star shines out into the infinite reaches of the one infinite and unified Creation there is no time or space. There is no size of large or small. Each speck of consciousness contains the Creator. Therefore, the wish to serve followed by the dedication to the mystery which is the one great original Thought, that Creator whose name is Love, know and take comfort in this truth as we understand it: you are effective. As you desire to serve, so do you serve. That soul whom you touch may never know you, may never be on the same continent as you, yet that universal love which you channel forth in that silent witnessing finds its target, for it is called and it goes where it is called. You have only to sit and know the truth that all is love.

That infinite intelligence will take that energy which you breathe forth and will touch the hearts who are in pain. Know this truth and rest in it, just as we hope to serve by our words, yet we know that we cannot serve beyond a certain point person-to-person. To be our most deeply effective we move into meditation, into that silence where the Creator is felt.

May we ask if there are any additional queries at this time?

[Pause]

We find that there are no queries upon this subject in addition to that which we have said. Therefore we would now ask if there be any queries upon other subjects that we may address briefly at this time?

Carla: I have one about the trumpet. I would like to know about the functioning, or how to get it to really work.

I am Q’uo, and we may speak in general upon this subject, my sister. We thank you for this opportunity. When one has opened the channel to useful work with entities of the inner planes which move into the energy web of your planet and yourself, one has basically established a way of being of service as a tuned instrument. When an instrument is played, it is not the instrument alone which must be excellent. The excellence of the instrument being assured, then there is the allowing of the best possible, shall we say, contracted or focused line or channel between the two and through the instrument so that the most compelling music may be played.

In working with the energies which make the trumpet move, the voices speak, the apports appear, and the other materialization phenomena which you are familiar with, the instrument which you are must be activated in a certain way. This is like unto the polishing of the inner surface of a reed, for instance, so that the energy moving through this reed may come forth or materialize in the manifested world with unabated vigor or energy. Any, shall we say, rough spots, any blockings, any ways in which the inner surface is not smooth will baffle and frustrate the energy or breath moving through it and add limit to the materialization phenomenon.

There is a kind of energy which allows the materialization phenomena to occur, and this lively energy is one with each is familiar. However, it is not this energy which moves the trumpet. This lively energy is expended in poising the self without let or hindrance, without any reserve in such a way that the Spirit moving through you, as the instrument, may use that generated potential for materialization in a crystallized and finely focused way. It is as though your personal, deeply felt commitment and substantive energy given to this liveliness of will may be seen as a broad spectrum potential which the breath of Spirit moving through your vortex of self may pick up more and more powerfully the less tightly you personally are holding onto this energy.

We might refer the mind to the Zen parable this instrument has within its experience of the archer who spends his entire concentration upon the focusing perfectly the visualization of the target, but does not at any point while drawing the bow and releasing it open the eyes to look at the physical target. The careful medium’s focus of attention is upon this static, permanent ideal of bow, of the powerful drawing of the bow, and of the releasing of the arrow, not when the personal will suggests but when the breath of Spirit creates that choice.

Thusly, we suggest the encouragement of generation of this deep desire and this lively will, and then the utter and focused surrender of this and all gifts and talents to the one infinite Creator, that the breath of Spirit may move through you in such a crystallized way that the personal energies become universal. In a way, it is the same objectification of deep emotions of which we spoke in talking of relationships, honoring the ability of the self to become capable of carrying those communications or attitudes which may benefit all people, and then surrendering this to the highest and best spiritual contact which is within your energies and which comes to you from that portion of the Creator, shall we say, which embodies for you your highest service.

Carla asked the question about playing the trumpet and how to really get it to work, but there was no transfer of the contact with those of Q’uo to me or to any other instrument. So, it seems that Carla must have momentarily released her contact with Q’uo in order to ask the question, and then she must have gone through the challenging process again to be sure she was channeling those of Q’uo before channeling their answer to her question. I certainly do not remember this session or any other time that Carla may have done this. So, I will go ahead and attempt to distill Q’uo’s answer to Carla’s question as Carla channeled it.

Q’uo began their reply by giving an overview perspective of one who serves as an instrument for inner planes entities by saying that the contact between the inner plane entities and the one serving as the channel must be activated in a certain way that allows the most unabated and invigorated energy to come through them. They said that this manifests as the Spirit coming through her in an unhindered way so she may use that generated potential for materialization in a crystallized and finely focused way. Then Q’uo used the analogy of the Zen archer which draws the bow with the arrow pointed at the target but with the eyes closed, and the archer remains in this pose until the breath of the Spirit inspires the archer to release the arrow. Q’uo completed their response by saying that Carla should seek to develop this deep desire to surrender her will to that of the Creator so that her personal energies become universal and she may: “become capable of carrying those communications or attitudes which may benefit all people, and then surrendering this to the highest and best spiritual contact which is within your energies and which comes to you from that portion of the Creator, shall we say, which embodies for you your highest service.”

After distilling the basic concepts of Q’uo’s response to how Carla could learn to play the trumpet, it seems that Q’uo channeled information that was focused on how to become a more effective instrument or channel instead of how to play the trumpet. Once again, a confusing situation which continued for the rest of the session with a few questions by Carla and then Carla’s channeling of Q’uo in concepts that are clear and do not need to be distilled.

May we answer further, my sister?

Carla: Do you pick up that I have the ability to do that?

I am Q’uo. It is our opinion that there is within each this potential, and it may be further said that deep desires are there not by mistake. The gifts and talents one has are not false; that which you desire you can do. Yes, my sister, we feel that you have this ability.

May we answer further?

Carla: Right, you are saying everybody has that ability or that potential, but … I mean, like everybody has the potential to play music, but again, some people have the talent. Everybody can learn to do something, but some people have certain talents that they learn more quickly in their development of … like music or art, where another person would have to work a lot harder, put a lot more energy into it. I am trying to feel out more in the sense of … I mean, I realize that I have, that everybody has that potential, but I am trying to see, is this something that will happen quickly for me, or is it something that will take years to develop? I am trying to see exactly about my talents or ability in that area of spiritual development.

I am Q’uo. My sister, there is a respect which we have for your free will which inhibits us from describing to you those energies which you ask about. However, perhaps a more general statement might enable you to think further upon this. We would say that when there is, as in your case, a deep desire to serve as a channel, that this desire is true. The manner of manifestation of this desire is not fixed. Destiny does not say, “You shall do this and this,” it says “You shall be put in this situation wherein you may attempt to learn of love and to be of service.” We encourage you to move ahead with the learning while being extremely alert for indications from spirit as to the finer and finer choices which determine the direction of learning and service so that you may find your own unique way of serving and of loving.

Thusly, in the area of channeling, for instance, some channel as healers, some as teachers, some as prophets, some as those channeling this or that spiritual resource of an impersonal nature, some channeling from a source of a more personal or individual nature. So at each juncture be on the lookout for synchronistic occurrences, for those small signs of happenstance which may seem coincidental to others but which are subjectively interesting to you. Notice and remember these occurrences and pay them attention, for it is by these signs that you will change and change again the seeming direction of your quest to serve so that as your personality within this life matures and ripens it may be informed as to its best avenue of service.

This is for all entities a process which has the characteristic of both occurring over a long period of time and of coming to a central crux, at which moment a great deal is made clear within you subjectively as a palpable realization. Therefore, surrender to patience and a complete lack of expectation in a day-to-day search, simply doing your inner work, and when the moment comes wherein you find your true voice as an instrument you will know it with a certainty which is beyond time and space, and it shall feel right for you. When that moment has come, cleave unto it and stand upon this rock and do not look back.

May we answer you further, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you very much.

My sister, may we share our great joy in speaking with you. It is a true pleasure, and we are full of love for you and for your devotion.

Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

We are known to you as Q’uo. Through this instrument’s perceptors we feel the deepening of the evening upon your planet, the world is becoming less busy and more quiet about you as the energies of the day and the light put themselves gently to rest. It is a precious time, that time when the energies of your planet are very quiet, those of the daylight going to their rest, those of the powerful and magical night only just beginning to stir. Into this parentheses in time insert yourself, viewing the light and the darkness as one thing. Feel the unity of all that seems light and dark, sad, and joyful, feel with us the perfection of the mystery-filled Creator. We know not this mystery but we rejoice in it.

We leave this instrument and you in this love and this light, this one great original Thought, for that is all that there is. Until we speak with you again, we say to you Adonai. Farewell in the Creator’s love and light. We are Q’uo.

This morning I went outside and got the fishpond ready for the fellow from Economical Aquatic Gardens to clean the fishpond. Then I began cutting up the large Maple tree trunk that fell to the ground last Saturday evening. After I got the trunk cut up into sections about 16 inches long I filled the circular fire pit just below the Maple tree with them. Then I took more of the sections of the log and made a second circular layer just about a foot smaller in circumference than the first one, and then put on last vertical section on the top with a plan to put a solar lantern on top of it.

This afternoon I ran some errands with my first stop being at The Home Depot where I bought some plexiglass which I am hoping will cover the tear in the screen in the living room where a raccoon has gotten in to eat some of the bird seed that I throw up there every morning. My second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up a prescription, some Tylenol, and some Vitamin D3. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My fourth stop was at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some bird seed and some cat food for Benny.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 6

Joy Upon Joy

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

This is the Spirit’s word for you today: come down from your cross, my children and nourish your faith upon the common ground of ordinary life. There is the concept of suffering.

There is the suffering of the past, of the present and of the future. Yet, the Spirit of the living God is with you. You need not suffer, but open to faith and hope.

The Spirit of Jesus the Christ is one of comfort, consolation and strengthening. There is no damage that cannot be mended by faith; a faith that brings about the climate of forgiveness; a faith that brings about the healing of all that is broken; a faith in which fears for the future may not live. For fear is a hothouse flower and when exposed to the love of a living Christ it must perish as a weed before the burning sun.

In this light, may you be impregnated with faith upon faith, joy upon joy. To prepare your ground for faith this day, ask in sincerity and truth that it may be so. Ask with all your heart and it shall be so.

We leave you in the blessed peace and love of Jesus the Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 15, 1992:

Group question: Today’s question has to do with our attitude. We have various attitudes, each of us, that help us or cause us to look at situations in a certain way. We would like to know a number of things about attitude. First of all, does the attitude that we have have a direct relationship to the lessons that we wish to learn if we wish to affect our attitude in order to change the way we experience our lives on a day-to-day basis? Is this something that is worthwhile doing? If so, how can we affect our attitude in a way that is meaningful rather than in the usual judging ourselves by how much we do, what we do, or how well we do it the accomplishment factor? And just in general, what part does attitude play in the way we learn our lessons and live our lives?

(Carla channeling)

We are Q’uo. Greetings to you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. What a blessing it is to be with you this day, and to share in the creations of each of you, for each of you possesses and is a complete creation. That which you have within you is continuous with and equal with and not separate from all that there is, yet as long as you have a personhood, your creation has a subjective component. We salute and celebrate the subjective components of each universe here, for within your creations, the mystery of faith and faith in the mystery is central. And each of you seeks truly.

We feel so privileged to dwell in this meditative state with the energies of this group and are very happy to speak on the subject of attitudes with the disclaimer that, as always, we wish each to know that we are fallible. We can and do make mistakes. Therefore, use the discrimination within your own subjective universe, for you and you alone are responsible for that creation which is a co-creation with the one infinite Father of all that there is. You create in fine company, as do we.

We are speaking, we perceive, to those who have approached the living of the workaday life with vigor, energy, and willingness to work. This basic positive attitude serves you well. Yet the attitude of those who work needs adjustment as the daily routine varies according to the individual needs of each person and the changing time allotments available for your work as the subjective river of time moves with you. Were we speaking to those who truly wished not to work, we would have to begin elsewhere, but the basic attitude which each has is productive of positive polarizing. However, this potential for the good can and does, if not watched, turn, and become that which creates confusion and depolarizing effects.

However, we wish each of you to see your basic energy here. Let us pause a moment while you feel within yourself this positive enjoyment of what you would call work for the good. We see each of you lighting up, shall we say, from thoughts of enjoyable labor which is of service or bears a productive fruit which then can be used for service, be it a financial aid gained by earning money or free time which can be used like the money. This is the essential attitude for those who expect to learn positive lessons through the use of daily work. It is efficient to have this positive attitude. It is productive. And by itself, it does not have the kind of contact with the deeper roots of mind that enable this basic attitude to be more informed.

As you walk about, as you do your duties, as you spend your time, where does the attitude come from? How is it that one can move within the being in such a way to affect the attitude? Firstly, we suggest that the seeker when thinking about attitude realize firstly that the attitude on the outer level is a simple vision created by complex movements of data called up from the roots of mind. This calling up is done often subconsciously to the greater extent to the extent that a person wishes quick changes in attitude. For deep changes there will be a frustration. We feel you are hoping that we can tell you a way to change attitudes, that is, spontaneous attitudes quickly. However, this is not usually swift in its processing.

The seeker who wishes to move quickly often will seize upon the quest and attempt to change the programming, to change the thinking in the direction considered helpful or appropriate for one polarizing in a positive way. However, the opposite is true. The one who fears and worries will grow closer and closer to the difficulty that is being perceived. The person who is not fearing does not hold on to the circumstance or piece of thought or programming which is or is not causing fear. Can you see how the tendency to focus on a problem simply moves you closer and closer to a surety that there is indeed a problem? The faith and will grow smaller, and the problem or difficulty grows larger. The seeker ends up feeling helpless and discontent. The fearless entity moves along and turns the attention to each thing before it, accepting it.

Now there are many things about third-density entities that predictably will not sit well. The Catholic or universal nature of humankind promises a lifetime of introspection followed by some disgust, revulsion, or horror, for all possible traits of personality are potentially there in every being within the human family. The tendency, then, is to attempt to think positively and emphasize the positive. This is taking the basic attitude of “I am living; I am glad to take action,” and adding some supporting structure for the emotions, that is, in thinking positively about each task, one accepts and blesses the task.

However, an entity may go a lifetime attempting, through this method, to improve an attitude or widen its outlook and not find itself satisfied. The deepest influence upon attitude is the willingness to turn from the world picture and pay attention to the mystery, to stop time and space in the mind. And in that stopped moment, worship and adore, praise, and offer thanksgiving. Then in the next moment turn to the world again.

The Creator is seemingly far away. Seemingly, this wondrous mystery has created and then left the universe in which you exist. For all any can prove, this is the case. However, when the heart and emotions form the habit of turning momentarily or for a longer time to the infinite One, to the mystery of unity, there then opens a very, very primary and deep channel within the roots of mind, and joy, hope and kindness flower upward to blossom without fanfare or ado in the forefront of the mind, offering that inner home, the sweet smell and freshness that the flowers always do. Stopping to remember the Creator is like planting a seed within the self. It flowers and bears fruit in time.

The group question for this session was: What part does attitude play in the way we learn our lessons and live our lives? Q’uo began by saying that our normal attitude of desiring to participate in the workaday world can be used for positive polarization, but it can also cause confusion and depolarization if we are not careful in exercising it. Then they said that this basic attitude of desiring to work for the good is helpful in learning positive lessons of service to others, but it is not connected to the deeper roots of our mind that can aid it in becoming more informed. Q’uo said that in order to change our attitude and move more quickly we will often seek to change our programming in a way that we consider appropriate for positive service, but then Q’uo said that this was not as helpful as actually feeling some fear will allow us to grow closer to the difficulty that is being perceived, and eventually we can turn away from the world picture and focus on the mystery that allows us to stop time and space in the mind, and in that stopped moment we worship and adore, praise, and offer thanksgiving to the infinite One, which is like planting a seed within the self so that it flowers and bears fruit as time goes on. On June 27, 1993, Q’uo described the value in offering praise and thanksgiving to the infinite Creator:

The Creator created a great original Expression or Thought. This we have called the Logos or Love. This principle, this Love, created all that there is by the quantizing articulation of Light. Yet all that is created is of the nature of its parent source, which is Love. The reason for offering love, appreciation, a blessing, and thanksgiving to the infinite One is that the entity within incarnation is attempting to form its vibratory frequency more and more like that of the vibrational frequency of the one great original Thought, which is Love. The closer the seeker comes to matching that vibratory frequency, the more that entity will be perceived as offering praise and thanksgiving. This is true far beneath any articulation of words or even what you consider thoughts. Rather, it is in the nature of the way creation is built. That is, original Thought expresses in Love, thanks, blessing, praise, and rejoicing. Thusly, it is not a Creator hungry for praise and thanks that requires homage of its worshippers, but rather it is love, it is reflected in love, and in that infinite reflection lies truth.

Now, there needs to be patience when attempting any spiritual work. We have said often that persistence, regularity in the habit of turning toward the Creator, is the greatest virtue, the most effective trait. That which each wishes is the experience of a loving, giving self. How can you find this attitudinal posture and find it to fit the self? We have spoken before about the way females and males support each other in learning the lessons of love. Consider how those seekers who have lacks perceived, and find these lacks to make them feel isolated and alone may, by the technique of moving the point of view, find the answer to the question.

In other words, if an entity is unhappy, because of a lack of companionship or lack of a right work to do, the focusing upon this is the first thing not to do. But then what can be done to ameliorate the situation while the fairly long process of attitudinal change, of praise and thanksgiving, that is going on can be effective? We would suggest taking the “I want” statement and gazing at it as if you were the one hearing this from another. For instance, if one says “I want a companionship,” turn this around and you hear a voice saying “I want companionship.” Now where are voices like this one in the surrounding neighborhood or town? What entities are alone that you may aid with your presence? If there is a lack of supply and the attitude is poor because one feels financially poor, turn this 180 degrees. You are listening to someone who is poor. Where are the poor people in your vicinity, and how might you help them?

We suggest this reversal when a lack or limitation is perceived. If it is simply thought, it will not be very effective. If, on the other hand, one who perceives a certain lack continuously decides to serve from a feeling of abundance of love within and finds a way to serve those who are alone or those who are very poor, the activity will be coming from a place of plenty where you have forsaken the thought of being alone, and instead asked, “How may I serve those who are alone?”

In brief, we may say to control the attitudes is a poor idea. To note them and pay attention to them is an excellent idea. When fear is part of the thought, do not hold that fear unless you need it. Whatever you can look at and accept makes your faith and will larger and the lack or limitation smaller. Then turn the self towards the Creator at every possible moment, simply allowing the momentary burst of praise and thanksgiving to rise. This refreshes in the present and has fruit in the future. And finally, when you do perceive a need, find the way to express abundance as regards that need in service to others, for that which you feel is that which all feel in some way. All are of one family. There are no true strangers. Nothing is alien to you. Allow the self to relax its boundaries of thinking and this shall sharpen the observational skills.

Lastly, we would suggest that if you keep the basic attitude toward action positive and find delight in movement, then move. Do that which feels appropriate to do without worrying overmuch. Take the rough and tumble of living the everyday life and be rough and tumble with it. Let things be incomplete, imperfect and unfinished. See and accept all the errors and mistakes of judgment or of any other kind. Just see and accept and go forward. And in the middle of it all, you will find now and then that a threshold has been reached.

We would use the example of two of this group, both of whom had found a threshold passed within the same twenty-four hour day. Each entity had decided to accept some very basic things concerning the life pattern. This bore fruit in fearlessness, for what is accepted can be forgiven. The healing of the incarnation is this process of coming to accept life as it seems at all times, not necessarily the things in the life, but always and everywhere giving thanks and praise, simply because consciousness is either consciousness of something, of nothing, or of everything. We suggest simply that praise and thanksgiving move the mind and heart out of things into the absolute of all that there is.

We have found again and again that we speak with this group on one aspect of a central subject, and that is perfecting or attempting to perfect the life experience. We can only say to you that this area of consideration will continue to deepen as the life patterns of each become fuller, not only with experience, but with the vital energy which creates the appetite for more intense or full experiencing. There is only so much space in a life experience, however, that space may be filled with different qualities of light, different qualities of understanding, of compassion, or of wisdom.

Thusly, seek not only the obvious or evident improvement of the life behaviors, thoughts, and feelings, but seek in a directionless way to be more and more able to accept a fuller and fuller space within. The light within you can transform, and as you allow this quality of light to intensify, so you become as the lighthouse. The light within is not the light of self, but that limitless Light which is of the One Source and ending of All. Deepen your cup to hold delight in the mystery.

Now Q’uo asked how one might change their attitude to be of service to the Creator in other people when they are feeling that they need a companion in their lives? They suggested that they not focus on that need but state it in a way in which they hear another person saying the same thing and then look for such people in your neighborhood that you may help by being such a companion. They said that this is a way of giving praise and thanksgiving to the Creator in everyone that is served in this way because we are all part of one family of humanity. Q’uo continued by saying that keeping the attitude of positive service is always helpful, and then to accept any errors in judgment or activity and simply go forward to find a new threshold of a change in attitude.  Q’uo completed their reply by saying that if we let the light within us shine in this way, we will be transformed into a lighthouse for the light of the One Infinite Creator to shine through. On  January 2, 2016, Q’uo described how to share the love and light of the Creator:

The conscious seeker of truth, (as we have heard it called), of love, of light, of the One, of service, puts these qualities first in their life pattern, and lets these become the foundation upon which the rest of the life is built. It does not distract from your spiritual seeking to partake in the daily round of activities, the meetings with friends and the celebrations and the observing of rituals, of anniversaries and birthdays and so forth, of enjoying the activities offered by your arts, the music, the dance, and so forth. If you are, at your heart, experiencing the love and the light of the One Creator first and foremost, all the rest will be added unto you. If you seek first the pleasures and comforts, they will be given to you as well, for that is the law—what you seek, you shall find. Thus, it is your choice what you seek, and how you seek, and the priority which you give that which you seek.

We would ask if there are further queries at this time.

[Pause. Comments not transcribed.]

We thank you also. We find this instrument’s weariness such that we would therefore, since there are no further queries we can address briefly, leave this instrument at this time. May we say again what a delight you are, what a delight the circle is. We circle it with you, and as you bless us with allowing our service, we bless and thank you for the energy and persistence of your seeking. We leave this instrument and you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator and the joy we …

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This morning I went outside to take a look at the giant limb from the maple tree beside the fire pit that came down yesterday evening about 7 pm during a light rain. It is about 50 feet long with other shorter limbs on it, and I have no idea why it came down as there was no lightning or wind during the rain. Fortunately, it missed hitting the garage. Since it is Sunday, and I don’t want to make a lot of noise with my chainsaw, I decided to use my limb lopper to cut off the small limbs and then put them into garbage cans for yard waste pickup this Thursday. I got about half of the limbs cut and put into garbage cans before taking a break for lunch.

This afternoon I went back outside and finished the cutting of the small limbs, and putting them into garbage cans although I ran out of garbage cans and had to tie the last of the limbs into three bundles secured with twine.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 5

Anchored In Love

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the consciousness of pure, whole, and divine love. May you feel that love as these words surround you and penetrate you, that you may begin your day and continue your day anchored in love.

This instrument was concerned during this morning’s offering that she was so irreverent as to make jokes and to laugh with an unexpected caller. May we say forcefully that if the life is lived in the spirit of love, it is a life lived in laughter. It is a life lived in joyful humor. And one who spreads the laughter and the humor spreads the peace and the healing of Jesus Christ, Lord of all.

Are you afraid of the words “Lord” and “King”? Know that Love, the very fabric of consciousness, is Lord and is King of that kingdom of Love which you seek. And you do not need to seek in vain. We are of the spirit of Jesus the Christ, Comforter to the world today. And at this moment we say to you, “Live and laugh! Live and be joyful! And you shall live sacramentally and in the kingdom of eternal life.”

We leave you in the peace which passeth all understanding, in the love of Jesus the Christ, now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 1, 1992:

Group question: The question this afternoon deals with how we really accomplish whatever it is we accomplish in our lives. We know we have feelings that come from our heart, that direct us in certain ways, and we know that we can analyze with our minds any feeling or possibility, and we are wondering, particularly in Carla’s case let us say, where she experienced what seems to be a rather miraculous healing, whether this kind of healing or growth is a product of chance, of luck, of application of the intellect, of the following of the heart, of the balancing of the intellect and the heart? How anybody in general can use the intellect to assess all of the possibilities in a situation, among them being the feeling that we have in the heart, the desire to be of service to others, and to express compassion to others at all times. What part does the intellect play, what part does the heart play, and is there a balance really possible? Or should we always go with the heart?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is a privilege, as always, to share our opinions with you. Please remember, as always, that our teaching has no authority past that of the opinion.

The confusion which is the environment of your query at this opening working is considerable but completely understandable, given the position in space and time which those in third-density incarnation experience. In reality or, shall we say, in a more transparent illusion there is no distinction between the analytical and the heart-centered working upon catalyst. The two are seen from the broader viewpoint as resources belonging to an unique entity, which entity has its unique point of balance betwixt mind and heart. The healing or other changes, depending upon the individual, might be aided by a larger dose of the heart’s wisdom than analysis, or exactly the opposite. Each spiritual individual is moving along a path within the infinite creation which has a three-dimensional reality. In other words, each entity has its own creation. No two internally perceived creations are alike, although many will find comfort when sensing a kinship to another’s way of approaching the experiences of incarnation, both limiting and expanding in nature.

Let us look at this particular instrument’s situation, working toward generalization while doing so. It is commonplace among those who have chosen the manner of their incarnations that there should be more than one stopping place, shall we say call it, within the incarnation. The balance of wisdom and compassion in the mind of the entity before incarnation is automatic. It is a portion of the personality. The wanderer is likely to be wise enough in a balanced manner to offer to the incarnated manifestation of self before birth one central lesson on the personal level, and a series of attainable goals within the impersonal life in service. It is grasped by the individual before the incarnation that during the forgetting process the cold, clear logic of all the goals to be met will be greatly muddled if not obliterated from any conscious knowledge. Therefore, there are the stopping places, for it is not known before it is experienced how many of the lessons of learning the spirit self may tolerate without needing healing beyond that which can be offered within incarnation.

In this particular entity’s case the stopping place was offered more than once up to this point within incarnation. At the younger ages, twice, and as a more mature entity also twice. This is due to the pre-incarnated realization that each attainable goal or lesson of love to be brought into manifestation was adequate learning for one incarnation. Therefore, it is as though those who are spiritually hungry are like the cat with more than one life. Indeed, it is not unusual for entities eager to attack the plateful of incarnational fodder to generate the potentials for more than nine lifetimes of learning.

You see, my friends, your incarnations are so much more precious than is usually palpably felt by entities during the incarnational process. Each moment of your illusory experience has been bought, shall we say, by much, much refining and preparation on the finer planes. When incarnation occurs the clock begins running down. Like a time bomb, that clock will one day ring and set off the explosion that opens the door for the entity, now without the physical form, to move through into a larger life, the life that you would call that of the spirit self.

When an entity approaches the end of an incarnational lesson, if that entity has been exhausted by this learning it will be given the opportunity either to embrace life with all of its confusions and distresses or to embrace the dropping of the physical body and the movement into whatever healing modes the learned lesson has created the need for. When this moment occurs, the choice is freely offered in silence, and the love of life of the entity, or the disdain of life, create the potential for greater health within incarnation and a new lesson to be learned, or the gentle or rough path to the passage into larger life.

Neither analysis nor the wisdom of the heart create the convincing argument or balanced thought process which generated further incarnational life or the end to the incarnation. What is more vital is the simple hunger or appetite or gusto felt for the rough and tumble of incarnational life, with all its buffeting and confusion. With enough enthusiasm the persistent seeker may go through many initiations, learnings, and then the experience of the fruit of these learnings.

The group question was: How anybody in general can use the intellect to assess all of the possibilities in a situation, among them being the feeling that we have in the heart, the desire to be of service to others, and to express compassion to others at all times? Q’uo began their reply by saying that in truth there is no difference between using the intellect and the heart to process catalyst, but each seeker has an unique balance of using both the intellect and the heart in making these choices. Then Q’uo said that the wanderer is likely to program one major lesson for it to learn as well as a few general services to offer during the incarnation, but that these lessons will be forgotten in many cases so that there would need to be places within the incarnation where one could stop and either receive the healing necessary for continuing on or to drop the body and move into the larger life beyond the physical life. Q’uo went on to say that neither intellectual analysis nor the wisdom of the heart can provide the decision to continue the incarnational life or to end the incarnation. They said that the determining factor in this decision was the enthusiasm to endure the difficulties and confusions of the incarnational life which would result in many initiations and the fruit of these lessons. On May 13, 1990, Q’uo spoke of how initiations may occur in stages:

There are various stages that an entity will be available to pass through during an incarnation that are determined before the incarnation as general categories in which lessons shall be attempted. As an entity assesses the upcoming, shall we say, incarnation and the potentials for growth that it wishes to include it will survey the kind of transformations, or initiations, as they are often called, that will be necessary to undergo as a portion of the learning process, much as a student within your colleges would determine what courses of mathematics would be necessary in order to master that particular field of study.

There are also times during the incarnational experience that what you may call a plateau of another nature is reached, this being determined by the entity’s overall needs for some respite from the arduous journey. All journeys at some time tend to fatigue the pilgrim, for there are those times during which the steps are taken in directions that were not planned, that necessitate more expenditure of energy in order to learn the lessons of those steps than is readily available on a constant basis to the seeker. These plateaus are more obvious than are those initiations or transformations of which we had spoken previously. These, the initiations and transformations, more frequently occur in an unseen or unrecognized manner where the entity is totally immersed in some quality or distorted quality of its being as balance is attempted and attempted again and again until the transformation is complete.

Looking back upon the incarnation one may see times of difficulty and intensity as more likely having been the experience of such a time of transformation, during which time the entity may well have felt that there was no progress being made, and that indeed it would seem to the entity that it even moved backwards. The testing, as it were, however, transforms, and a new being moves forward.

When the words “wisdom” and “analysis” are set up as a dynamic it is as though there were an observer apart from the owner of the analysis and the wisdom which judges the way decisions are arrived at. What this observer self often fails to realize is that the observer self is a creation, a persona developed by the internal use of both wisdom and analysis. In the subconscious, or the roots of the mind, the two have an authentic, unique balance created by all that has accumulated throughout all incarnational previous experiences. It is difficult for the intellectual mind to grasp how little it truly has to do with the deepest choices in an incarnation. Yes, it may block the rhythmic, natural action of destiny, but in blocking that it simply stops a forward motion. If it appears that another course has been taken it may seem that analysis and/or wisdom provided a choice which changed the whole life. However, along both paths, seen at the crux lie the same lessons in variant forms.

The choices you work on making skillfully are choices in substance and quality of beingness. This beingness informs whatever choices are made. We are not in any way saying that it does not matter whether one makes choices; it truly does greatly matter. We simply wish you to grasp the thought that these choices are those which have to do with one’s stance or attitude towards that which is facing it rather than having to do with one situation chosen over another. There is a saying in this instrument’s mind, “You can run but you cannot hide.” The destiny which you skillfully offered your future incarnational self before this experience holds sway in the amphitheater of your brief existence in this one incarnational opportunity. You need not attempt to monkey overmuch with the tendencies or basic givens of your incarnation. What you are here to do is refine and refine again and again, the choice of focus, of attitude, which—we correct this instrument—with which it faces the present moment which is destined to be just so.

How can we express to you the importance of your accepting the gifts of both intellect and heart’s intuition and wisdom except to suggest that if one trusts one’s destiny enough and if one trusts one’s basic universal nature enough the balances will be offered in ways which engage both the intellect and the heart. Therefore, we suggest to you several things. Firstly, we suggest the entity respecting both tools, the intelligences of the mind, both shallow and limited, and deeper and broader, and the wisdom of the heart. Also, we suggest the focusing upon the worshipful side of the human, shall we say, nature. How natural it is to respond to the beauty about one, to flower under the kind attentions or smiles of friends or acquaintances or strangers. The more that trust in one’s destiny and one’s validity as an eternal and infinite being are taken as sure, the more sure-footed the entity shall be at utilizing in a skillful and graceful manner all of the assets which it has. The mistrust of self and circumstance creates very nearly all of the confusions within one’s incarnation. With enough trust and faith, that which is becomes transparently joyful and vital.

We may say, to move back to this instrument’s very different experience at this juncture from the experience of the past, that when an entity is repeatedly tested and has made several choices to learn more, to serve more, and to be more in the same incarnation, there comes to the process a somewhat smoother or more speedy or more apparent alteration, change, or more correctly, transformation. It is as though having trusted blindly, repeatedly, the next occasion which calls for the greatest trust, though it be one degree more difficult, it is also met by a more tempered incarnate entity, and, therefore, if the entity consciously realizes that there is a choice to be made, a new lesson to be taken up, it can then affirm its appetite for the vital push and shove, confusion and disturbance of the lesson to come.

Thusly, in the more mature spirit there may be radical, seemingly quick changes in circumstance. This is due to the entity refusing to resist the change and instead deciding to back the change, to even accelerate the rate of change, to welcome the next muddle and confusion of new lessons to be learned. This may be a comfort to those who at the present time feel that transformation is all too slow in coming.

We ask you to consider the manner of being that you are. You seek to become aware of your basic nature, you seek to go beyond what can be known either by mind or heart. You are, shall we say, children of the one infinite Creator; no less than that are you. Shall a spark of fire choose the manner of its burning? See yourselves in relation to the infinite Creator, sense the back-pressure of the Creator’s love of you. Can you know the Creator with either compassion or analysis, either intellectual thought or intuition? In no way shall you know the Creator. Through you the Creator knows Itself. You are precious, for you are being that which the Creator experiences, you are experiencing the Creator being, both of these locutions being equally so. Sense your natures, give praise and thanks that this nature is, beyond all dynamics, unified.

Then Q’uo said that over many incarnations, as we have been using the wisdom of the heart and the intellect of the mind to make choices, that there is an observer persona which is created by the use of the intellect and the wisdom of the heart,  and it does not realize that the choices we make in the roots of our mind can be made equally of wisdom or analysis, both of which provide the lessons that we wish to learn. Then Q’uo said that the choices that we make during our incarnations are more in the realm of the nature of refining our beingness that provides the attitude we have in making any choice so that we may realize the destiny of our incarnation. Q’uo continued by saying that we should respect both the intellect of our mind and the wisdom of our heart as this is the way that we can discover our destiny and our nature as infinite and eternal beings. They said that this gives us the ability to meet the continuous challenges of learning our lessons more and more effectively. Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that we are children of the Creator that we will never know, but we are aiding It in knowing Itself as we are experiencing the Creator, so we should give praise and thanksgiving that we live in a creation of unity. On September 4, 2016, Q’uo described how we live in a creation of unity:

The heart of your journey is to seek the Creator that is within you, the Creator that you are, the Creator that is all things. There can be no other way of looking upon an infinite creation of unity. The Creator took pleasure in making this, what you call creation, in order that It might know Itself through the free will of each of Its entities that It has created. From the Logos of every star within your skies, to the planet upon which you dwell, to each of your entities that you share the illusion with, each of you has free will to exercise however you wish. Each exercise of free will teaches the Creator more of Itself, and fulfills the purpose of the illusion. Each of your actions reveals more to you of yourself, and if you are conscious of the seeking process, of the Creator itself, it is a journey of lovers, the Creator loving you with unending love, you seeking and loving the Creator with a growing love. At some point, you will find the Creator. There is no other outcome for the end of this journey. At some point, the Creator will know all that you know and will thank you for all that you have taught It of Itself. At some point every entity within this great one infinite creation will coalesce again into unity, bringing home to the Creator the fruits of this journey through the octave of densities in which you now travel. You are all upon the most noble quest. You are all upon the quixotic quest. We salute each of you; we bless each of you; we encourage each of you.

Before we close this, as this instrument would say, cosmic sermonette … I am Q’uo. This instrument was correct in refusing to channel further, as there was a momentary lapse of concentration, and this instrument felt correctly that it was not channeling our thoughts but its own diluted opinion. We have said that which we can say without further queries. Are there further queries upon this topic?

Questioner: Not from me Q’uo, thank you.

Q’uo: Very well, my brothers, may we work upon any other query at this time?

Questioner: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we gratefully acknowledge that we have exhausted this subject for this time and place. We ask you to look in two ways at the mind and heart. Your skill in working with this dynamic is very important in learning who you are. The seeking for ever deeper roots in the mind, the blending of …

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This morning I went outside and weeded the striped liriope by hand as we have had a couple of inches of rain in the last few days which makes weeding very easy. At 11 am I had a Q & A session with Jonathan Tong’s Seattle Law of One Study Group. It is always a lot of fun to take the questions from this group, but today was especially filled with love as each of the questions was prefaced by an early happy birthday as my 77^th birthday is next Friday. And it seemed like today’s question also were more heart-oriented than ever before like: “How can I find the best way to worship?” And: “How can I help my 5-year old daughter to forgive herself for getting angry and breaking her toys?” There was a lot of the Creator’s love flowing out of everyone’s heart today, and I am so grateful to have been a part of it.

This afternoon I went back outside and used my trimmer to weed the Moss Garden as the rain has allowed the weeds to grow more quickly than usual. And then I cleaned the filters on the fishpond again as there is so much mud on the bottom of the pond that clogs the filters and keeps the height of the fountain very low. Fortunately, the fellow from Economical Aquatic Gardens will be coming over Monday morning to clean the whole pond.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 4

The Wellspring Of Life

I am the spirit of the living Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

The living wellspring of life comes to each and yet awaits the asking, just as water remains in the pipe until the faucet is turned.

The holy city of God stands with plain streets and glass stones until the seeker within its gates opens those gates to let in that vivifying spirit which turns glass to gem and plain streets to crystal seas and golden portals.

Each seeker already stands at the wellspring of life within the city of God. Yet until the call goes out in full sincerity from the heart of the pilgrim, the manifestation of joy and wholeness cannot be felt.

We stand waiting without the gates for the principle of the full consciousness of love to be asked to enter. We await each call in perfect confidence of the glorious outcome. For all consciousness shall see Christ.

We leave you in peace, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 14, 1992:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and in light. At this time we would ask if there are any further queries to which we may speak?

S: Yes, I do talk to Ron a lot. I’m bothered by the fact that I feel so cut off from him, when he was here I was able to feel his presence, whether I knew he was there or not. When I kissed Ron for the last time in hospital he was still alive, I knew he was not in that body, he was gone. I no longer felt what I knew as Ron to be in that body; he was not there. And now I’m expecting, I think, to feel something when he’s with me and I don’t and that scares me, and I know on some level that he’s with me most of…

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(Jim channeling)

…to approach you in the dream state and to communicate there his love and unity with you. There are many such dreams which are not in your memory but in which you and he have moved as one. If it is possible for you to again open a channel in your heart of the love of this life and experience there will be an easier means by which the one known as R may make himself known to you.

Is there a further query my sister?

S: That’s a tall order. Yeah I have another question. I’m really confused as to where… I feel unable to go on, and basically that sums it up in a nutshell. I lack the ability to go forward, I lack the desire, I feel a real strong sense of wanting to die, I don’t know where, I’ve tried to… oh god, this is going nowhere. I feel like I’m lacking the ability to continue. It almost seems as if life has come to a point where the test is am I or am I not going to kill myself, which I really don’t believe I will because I know there’s a big price to pay for that one, so I find myself praying and hoping… you know, it’s really strange that I watch a show on breast cancer. I’m thinking, gee, I hope I get that soon, you know, and I’ve just, I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t know where to get what I need to go on. I’m so confused and no direction seems right, but at the same time in practical manners, I don’t feel like I can sit back and wait for something to be shown to me, you know. I don’t want to wait to the point where I’m a bag lady, to hopefully get an answer, if it gets that bad, I won’t be around for the answer. If you could make any sense out of that?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister, and aware of the great pain and sorrow which are yours to bear at this time. We feel great sympathy for you, for the experience of love which you enjoyed with the one known as R seems at this time to have been cut short, when in the larger view of the lives which continue before and after this Earthly illusion there is but a moment’s experience to complete within this life, though it may take what you call years to do so.

We may suggest that you re-examine those basic beliefs which you shared with the one known as R. We are aware that you have brought many of them into question as a result of the death of your beloved, but we would recommend that you look to that faith most especially that each of you shared, that lives do continue, that there is a purpose, however seemingly absurd in this life for this life, and that you, in general, begin to build again the foundation of attitude and ideals that were your foundation with the one known as R.

There will be suffering and confusion throughout this illusion, for it is by such testing that these basic principles are forged in the fire of experience within each entity’s heart. Be gentle with yourself, not expecting too much, yet placing before yourself the goal each day of renewing faith in the fact that there are truly no mistakes within this illusion. There are great puzzles and riddles and experiences of confusion and doubt which each seeker of truth will find placed upon the path and with which each seeker must grapple.

We encourage you in your struggle and would hope to give comfort with the suggestion that as this experience of sorrow and grief continues, that there will be born within you the ability to withstand it and even to overcome that which seems to overcome you at this time. There is a great plan within each entity’s life which is the pattern, the dance within the illusion. Each entity has before the incarnation chosen this pattern in order that it might balance and intensify and refine those qualities gathered before this illusion that are felt to be of primary importance in learning of the mystery of creation and in the honor of service. Each entity must trust the destiny that has been chosen and fuel that trust with the will to persevere, knowing that even if confusion and sorrow and suffering have their day, there is the resolution at some point within this illusion so that each seeker will find the indication that it is truly upon the right path.

We know that a great deal of anguish has been your lot for this past year in your time measure and we cannot express enough our sympathy, for few within your illusion have had the harmonious, loving, honest relationship which you have been privileged to experience, and to lose such is to lose a great, great deal. But we encourage you, my sister, to persevere beyond confusion, beyond doubt, in whatever way you can find to do so, realizing that you have chosen well the path you travel, though it moves at this time through a deep and dark valley. It is only the shadow of death that haunts you, whether it be yours or your beloved’s. There is truly no death, there is only life and the experience in this illusion has the purpose of verifying and ratifying the unity of the one Creator that can withstand even the most difficult of challenges.

You are not alone, my sister. You move not only with your beloved in your heart and in your mind but with a great company of lighted souls that rejoice at your every determination to continue and who offer support when your determination flags and seems to fail.

S expressed a great deal of confusion as to how she could move forward with her life after R’s passing, and even considered killing herself although she was sure she would not do that because of the heavy price it would cost her. She just wanted to know what to do. Q’uo began their response by suggesting that S review the basic beliefs that she shared with R, the faith that life goes on after the death of the body, and that there is a reason for the suffering and confusion that are experienced as the way that the refining fire of love in the heart is created; that there are no mistakes. Q’uo went on to say that each person creates the life plan before the incarnation, and that she should be gentle with herself in her learning of the mystery of creation and the honor of service by trusting in her destiny and using her will to persevere in carrying it out. Q’uo completed their response by saying that S should remember that there is no death, and that R was within her heart and mind as was a great company of light-filled souls to support her when she needed help, and who rejoiced when she used her faith to meet life’s challenges. On April 15, 1984, Latwii said that there are no mistakes in the experiences of one’s life:

We may suggest that as foundation to our reply it be stated that there are no mistakes, a phrase which has found frequent utterance in this dwelling, yet let us reaffirm its truth. As you move through this illusion, you cannot err, for each movement serves and each movement teaches. The question then which the seeker must ask is, “How do I wish to serve, and what do I wish to learn?”

Of course, the answers to these queries have, in part, been programmed before the incarnation. Yet throughout the incarnation free will may alter any answer. It may be that the great desire of one for a particular action is reason enough for the action to be taken, especially if the other wishes to serve in its own way by granting that request. It may also be that difficulties shall arise when the one which lacked the great desire to begin with, but found a desire to serve later, finds some regret in the future. Yet, is this not also an opportunity to once again find love and to serve and to learn?

You see we cannot give you an answer which is clear-cut, for each has lessons and services that are unique, and when joined with another are doubly unique, and there are no mistakes. The questions we suggest the seeker then ask are as we have stated. What lessons are desired? And what services are desired? Let the decisions emanate from those answers resting upon the foundation of knowledge that there are no mistakes possible, and that love is always available.

Is there a further query, my sister?

S: Yes, just briefly. Along this line of making decisions and things like that, I’m having trouble figuring out what criteria to follow. It seems like every decision that I make feels OK for the moment, but then comes to feel not OK, it doesn’t feel right. I think this was a bad decision, this isn’t working, this isn’t… I don’t get any good feedback from the decisions and I’m sensing that when I make a right decision, I will get some sense of “Yeah, this is the right thing to do.” I haven’t really felt spiritually great about any decisions I’ve made—other than to stay on the planet, that I know is the right one—but if I make a decision, and it doesn’t feel right, and I want to back away from the decision, I’m confusing myself, you know, and what’s the best way to approach this decision-making process?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To make decisions is the great experience of this illusion, to use each opportunity to choose the light, to choose the love of that which is before you. This we know is difficult in itself, even under what you would call the best of the conditions that are to be found in this illusion. When you find yourself as you have with great sorrow and confusion, the making of decisions is even more difficult, but with this increased difficulty comes also the opportunity to reap the greater metaphysical benefit from even attempting the decisions.

As to how those difficult choices may be best made by you at this time, we can say very little for it is these very choices that will form your experience in what you call your future and will thereby provide the greatest opportunity for you to learn that which you have set before yourself to learn and to be of the greatest service to those about you.

To approach each decision from the aspect of seeking to serve and seeking to love is that suggestion which we find is most appropriate at this time. As you look to those whom you love and under whose care they are awaiting, shall we say, these choices are to place the welfare of these entities in the greatest position of responsibility.

We perceive some difficulty in interpretation and shall find additional words for this concept. Those entities which are yours to care for are those whose welfare we see is of primary importance in your life, as is your own life’s journey and direction. Seek at each opportunity that presents itself to choose that opportunity which is most filled with love and service. This we find you are already attempting with a whole heart, and we would reiterate our previous suggestion that if it is possible for you to once again open your heart in even the smallest degree of love for the life that is yours to live, then it will be easier not only to feel the presence of the one known as R, but to feel the direction that is yours to take, for it is the symbiotic love of life relationship—your love of life and life’s love for you—that will allow you to feel that your movement is guided and is appropriate.

We may suggest the taking of time in the beginning or end of your day or at any time when you can sit in an uninterrupted fashion, meditating upon the feeling within your heart and visualizing a channel of love opening there and feeling the connection with your life and the opportunities and challenges before you, opening so that you are able to move not just from the intellectual assessment of possibility, but more importantly are able to feel and move from the flowing of sensitivity of love from your heart and to your heart. If you can be regular in this meditative practice you can begin to build once again the feeling of connection to this life that has been severed by the death of the one known as R.

Now S asked how she could approach the decision-making process because none of her decisions felt right except the one to stay on the planet.  Q’uo began by saying that choosing the path of love and service to others was difficult enough without the sorrow and confusion that she was experiencing, but if she could do so that would offer her an even greater opportunity to accomplish her pre-incarnative lessons. Q’uo said that in her case, to place the welfare of her children first in her life, and if she continued to share love and service with them that would be the way to fulfill her life pattern and to feel the presence of R within her. Q’uo completed their reply by saying that if S could use meditation to feel love opening a pathway into her heart that would allow her to feel a connection of this love with her life’s path and its opportunities and challenges. On August 22, 1982, Hatonn described the path of love and service as a life pattern:

This eve you have promised to aid another being in his life of seeking. Perhaps the greatest aid that you can be to this small entity is to continue in all ways to seek, at whatever cost, the path of love and service to others. Your mistakes will be myriad, for the illusion guarantees misunderstanding. The moments in which you lack confidence will be many, for no entity can hope to see through your illusion more than imperfectly. And yet if you are willing to take upon yourself what seems to be the greatest burden that we could describe to you, the burden of yourself, if you take it well—thoroughly and truly—you shall find an ever- expanding experience and ever further reaching journey of seeking.

It is not within our grasp to express to you the joy, the fruit, the bliss, and the peace of total commitment to seeking, and to ask far more than any may accomplish in one incarnation, but we recommend the attempt, my friends, for the merest shadow of such an attempt has a stature that is great among your peoples.

Is there a further query, my sister?

S: No. Thank you very much. I’ll work on that.

Carla: I have one. I would like to know something about an expectation that I didn’t have met. I expected if we did hear from R at all, that R would be like Don was after his suicide, that he would be laughing at how seriously he had taken everything and be in really good shape, but I felt an entity that was deeply enraged and really angry and a lot of things about having to leave S. Does that mean that he too has not been able to let go, that he is just holding on really hard? What’s going on here? Is it a personality shell that’s holding on like that? I’m just totally befuddled by the fact that he was experiencing a lot of negative emotions? I just wonder where is he? What form-making body, the between incarnations thing, what’s going on?

I am Q’uo, and I’m aware of your query, my sister. We are having some difficulty with this instrument but shall attempt a brief response. The one known as R spoke through your instrument in a manner which he felt would be of the greatest service to the one known as S, for the one known as R is of the awareness that the one known as S has great sorrow and suffering at this time and though he is well aware of those principles of love, light, and unity which both shared during his incarnation, it was his opinion that the one known as S would be more comforted to know that he also felt a great splitting and loss when it came his time to depart the incarnation, for each of these entities had plans which did not include such an early departure, shall we say.

The one known as R resides within the green-ray body this time, that body that is imbued with love and compassion and great passionate emotion. This entity is busying itself with the refining of those lessons that it was able to learn and process within its incarnation and awaits, as the entity known as Michael mentioned, the movement of the one known as S from this incarnation and awaits this rejoining with great joy, knowing that should the incarnation of the one known as S last many, many years in your measure, it will be but a brief moment as time is reckoned within the illusion now enjoyed by the one known as R. This entity has fulfilled its purpose, yet wished, as most positively-orientated entities, to do far more and to be of even greater service and sorrows that this was not possible. Yet, this entity knows that all is truly well and offers its encouragement in its own way at this time and shall continue to do so.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Just a follow-up. Is he with Don?

I am Quo, and I’m aware of your query, my sister. We find that the ones known as R and Don are members of a great grouping of entities of light that serve this planet at this time in a manner which is likened to a group consciousness, though each remains individualized in intention and ability to express love and to serve in a unique fashion.

Is there a further query, my sister.

Carla: No, thank you Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister, Is there a final query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo. It has been our great privilege to offer our selves and our opinions at this circle of seeking. We are grateful to be asked to serve in this manner, and we cannot express enough the joy that such opportunity gives us. We thank you, my friends, and we hope that some of the words spoken this day may bring comfort to each heart present. We can only remind each doughty seeker that this illusion will test each fiber of your being and will refine your desire to seek and to serve. That is what this illusion is constructed to do, and though it seems that it is a long and torturous journey it is in your larger span of life but an eye-blink in eternity, and you shall be most grateful to have had the opportunity to experience this illusion when the opportunity has gone and you have found yourself on the other side of this illusion, shall we say, rejoicing for what you have gained, rejoicing even more for what you have given, for as the one known as R was well aware of, the love that you take with you is the love that you make.

We are those of Q’uo, and we leave you at this time in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I dropped Bosco off at the vet’s to see if they could figure out why he is still drinking so much water two weeks after he got an antibiotic shot for UTI. Then I stopped by Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some Pepsi Zero, some non-food items, and pick up a prescription. The next stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My fourth stop was at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some fish food and kitty litter. My last stop was at Thieneman’s Nursery where I bought three astilbe and a tray of begonias. When I got home I put all of my purchases away and then went outside to clean the filters in the fish pond.

This afternoon I vacuumed the first floor of the house, and then went back to the vet’s to pick up Bosco. They decided that I should increase his dose of insulin from 6 to 7 units twice a day and see if that reduces his water consumption. I also transplanted the tray of begonias to the little garden behind the fishpond and the three astilbe to the three areas of the astilbe garden that were most in need of new plants.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 3

True Reality Beyond Doubting

I am the spirit of living love and I greet you in the consciousness of Christ.

We find this instrument full of self-doubt. And it would be impossible to use this instrument were it not that the instrument is willing to be clear, regardless of her doubts. We would ask each to use this as a parable for the life experience.

Of course you will have doubts. Of course you will be discouraged. Of course there will be many things that you do not understand. But the strength, the power, and the divinity of the consciousness of love is with each always, far closer than your breathing, far more yourself than your skin and your bones.

Know the true reality beyond the doubting. Call upon the spirit of the living God, for you live your life not only in doubt but in the certainty of eternity.

We leave you in the everlasting peace of the infinite love of Jesus the Christ. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 14, 1992:

The question we’re considering this afternoon for S is why things seem to have gone so far astray from the path that allowed her to provide the most service to others, and that was when her husband R was alive she had the opportunity of being in a mated relationship and of helping a family to communicate and to live together and to grow together, and she felt that in that role she was able to provide services that were hers to provide. Now that R is dead, she is faced with possibilities that just don’t feel like they are right: going to school and taking classes that she has no interest in and pursuing a career working outside the home, which also seems to be a dead end as far as interest and opportunity to be of service. The picture of her life seems to have a number of dead ends and we are wondering this afternoon what kinds of considerations should be foremost in her mind, what opportunities are presented by the seeming dead ends, is there something that she’s missing, is there something wrong with this picture, and if so, what is it?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings to you, my special friends. We thank you for calling us to this circle of seeking and are most privileged to offer our opinions, with the understanding that we are not imbued with perfect knowledge. These thoughts are our opinions. Please choose those thoughts which aid and leave the residue behind.

Once, as the saying goes, upon a time all of those things in heaven and Earth, as this instrument would say, were one, and yet all existed in chaos. Into this chaos came one great creative Thought: Love or the Logos. At this timeless time each of you and we were already created, the manifested universe no less than your manifested selves is the intimate abode created to house and offer an environment to the spirit that each of you is. For millennia your peoples have sought and sought to discover by what means they might find a comfortable, pleasant, and productive existence, they have sought help from inspirational words and from the myths of their cultures, yet none who has awakened to a realization of the nature of evolution are very comfortable in this house of Earth created so carefully for spirits to dwell in and learn.

How could this extreme discomfort be a part of the plan whereby Love itself created an abode for those infinite parts of Itself which It wished to offer experience to? How could such an unimaginably pure Love create such pain and suffering?

Once upon a time there was a point in your planetary sphere’s development when it became able to support third-density beings such as yourselves. The gift of self-consciousness was offered and accepted, and the human animal form based upon instinct was sacrificed to the third-density consciousness. This consciousness is your infinite self. It does not work logically or sequentially but rather by deep feelings and the persistently held desires of a seeker. However, there are no outward signs which may tell you when your second-density instinctual brain is thinking and when your infinite consciousness is running the show. Only by hindsight can a guess be made as to from what part of the complex being that you are this thought or action came from. The experience of loss, of overwhelming confusion may be received either by the brain which thinks in black and white and is forever subject to duality.

We pause to move this instrument somewhat deeper.

When the brain copes with pain and difficult suffering, it wishes either to attack or to flee or both. In contrast, the consciousness which carries with it eternity looks at the same catalyst, it functions as all self-conscious things do, to observe, to analyze, to figure out what is occurring. Once this has been done, the way consciousness works is to take all of this ideated material and let it sift down through the roots of the deeper mind so that at some point dreams, visions or certainties will be clear, clarifying in lucidity beyond words, not the particulars of transformation, but the feeling of surrender and acceptance of the catalyst which occurs.

This was a special session held for our dear friend, S, whose husband, R, had recently passed into larger life, and since he was no longer with her it seemed to her that there were no ways she could be of service to others as there were when he was alive. So, she was wondering if she was not perceiving her situation properly, and how should she look at her situation now? Q’uo began their reply by referring to the larger picture of how in the beginning of the creation all was chaos, and then the One Great Creative Thought of the Logos created the Earth to house us, but after thousands of years of seeking the comforts of existing on Earth the only experience has been discomfort, pain, and suffering. Then Q’uo asked the question: “How could such an unimaginably pure Love create such pain and suffering?” So, Q’uo returned to the process of evolution in which the second-density ape was able to evolve into a third-density being which had infinite self-consciousness that replaced the second-density instinct for survival, and sometimes it is difficult to determine when the instinctual ape brain or the infinite self-consciousness is in charge of our experience. Then Q’uo said that our animal brain looks at catalyst and either attacks it or runs from it while our infinite consciousness observes and analyzes the same catalyst and then allows these thoughts to sink into the deeper mind so that dreams, visions, or intuition will provide a path to the acceptance and surrender to the catalyst. On May 18, 1986, Latwii discussed the value of dreams and visions:

You are consciousness, and that consciousness creates. It has created this moment for you by the work it has done in the past. It will create what you call your future as the work that you are doing at this moment comes into manifestation. The tool of intuition is one which may be applied by the remembering and recording of your dreams and visions, by the listening to what this instrument would call the still small voice, the voice that says, “This is good; this is not so good. This feels right; this does not feel right.” An intuitive person often has no verbalized reason for these feelings. It is always well to recognize them and give them respect. It is also well to use the tool of the intellect insofar as that skill is a portion of your native character, for the intellect can analyze dreams and visions, can examine thoughts and find from them the harvest of love therein, can temper the feelings of “should” and “could” and “yes” and “no” with sometimes an encouraging and sometimes a cautionary analysis of those intuitions. Many a baseless fear has been removed because of the work of the analytical portion of the mind.

As we blend with your vibrations we find that we need not spend long portions of our precious time with you in speaking of meditation and other spiritual disciplines. Indeed, we must turn about and encourage the consideration that short, even momentary times spent asking for the Creator and It’s silent messages are extremely effective. The time spent in company with the infinite One is timeless. The purified desire that leaves the seeker to the momentary thought of the Creator is the powerful portion of the meditation. The long sitting meditations are far more for the purpose of becoming a fairer observer, not becoming one with the infinite One. It is desire that moves each to that close relationship and continuing conversation with the Creator.

It is often assumed by those who are not on a spiritual pilgrimage that the greatest boon of living a spiritually oriented life is the peace of having made such a deep choice and, indeed, there is that peace of commitment to a life in faith. However, what those not on the path often forget or do not know is that the pilgrimage towards eternity, while greatly speeding up the pace of spiritual evolution, is terribly uncomfortable and inconvenient.

Each in this circle is already aware that he does not come from around here; that is, each is aware of being a wanderer. Into this particular experience come entities who must plunge into the darkness of illusion and live through an incarnation to be of service by the quality of consciousness. Each of you volunteered to be here. From the point of view beyond the third-density environment the suffering which each has gone through, or now goes through, seems to be a very small thing. Within the illusion it swells and seems to become overwhelming and as deadly as any disease of the body. We can only encourage each to turn from the questions of “why” long enough each day to spend a few moments or minutes with the infinite Creator. The answers are within and there is far more help than each here can imagine which is available to those who call upon loving positive discarnate energies.

We encourage this leaning upon the invisible company of those who would support you. As you ask within you will feel that sympathy in the depths of your heart and so will know that truly no one suffering suffers alone. The invisible company of those who love is there just as close as the breathing or the thinking.

Now Q’uo speaks of the value of short, periodic meditations during the day that helps one to have a timeless conversation with the Creator and to become one with the Creator, but then they said that even though this will speed up one’s spiritual evolution is it likely that the path will be very difficult and inconvenient. Then Q’uo said that each person in this circle was a wanderer that had chosen to be of service knowing that there would be suffering, but within the incarnation the suffering was much greater than was imagined before the incarnation, so Q’uo again suggested that meditation with the Creator to find the answers to the suffering and to discover that there is an unseen company of spirits that walk with each of us and who share their love with our hearts so that we are never alone. On January 11, 1998, Q’uo discussed the value of meditation:

As one has gathered about one all the various confusions, experiences, communications and so forth one draws certain tentative conclusions about how best to respond within the incarnation in order to determine how to find and share those qualities of love, of light, of harmony, of service, and so forth. Within the meditative state these tentative conclusions and experiences may seat themselves in a manner which allows their influence to have its sway within the total being. One is able to more clearly make sense of one’s experiences by allowing a certain kind of settling out to occur, and for the allowing of inspiration to make its natural response as one considers the events of the day, allows them to have their weight and go their way, and then finds the sitting and the listening to the one Creator to produce an inspiration, a motivation, or simply a recognition. It is in meditation that the confusion and distraction begin to fall away and the foundation of one’s being begins to be revealed and becomes more accessible to the entity in the daily round of activities when found in meditation.

Once upon a time two entities lived happily ever after. We know that few in the third density ever experience this fairytale, yet it is beyond all joy when such occurs. When one seeks hardest, on the other hand, for the fairytale romance then it comes that this is denied. This then places each, whether having loved truly or knowing no true love, in the position of wondering “Why?” May we remind each that it is well to seek the Creator’s will and in that seeking there is guidance available. This guidance may be found in any of your planet’s holy works. We would use this instrument’s Christian bias to state that it is said that those whom the Creator loves best are those who are tested.

As wanderers, you came for two reasons: to serve and to be tested. If there is comfort in knowing that the path that is in front of each now is the appropriate destined path designed by yourself then please take comfort in that. There is always in the illusion the feeling that to be without the heavy body and heavy experiences of third density would be greatly desired, yet as soon as the incarnation is naturally over the seeking spirit gazes backwards and thinks, “Why did I not learn more? What a great opportunity!”

Once upon a time, there was to each seeking soul a moment. For each here this moment has come, the great incarnational decision has been made, the positive path will be striven for. Now that each is committed to love the source of all and to love the self and all other selves there now remains only acknowledgement of any emotional feelings, recognition and respect for the unique suffering of your own lives and the true peace which is not a comfortable peace, that peace which is the knowledge that the path of your destiny is true and its aim is straight towards infinity.

When this path is through desert wastes and bleak wilderness there seems no hope. We urge each to encourage each other in the faith that this seemingly disharmonious and painful situation is the correct and worthwhile path. The grass, shall we say, is in truth not greener elsewhere.

Q’uo continued by making an analogy of R’s and S’s relationship as that of a fairytale romance that they hoped would last forever, but when any couple seeks to travel the spiritual path they learn difficult lessons by being tested. Q’uo said that if they wondered why this occurs, then they should seek the Creator’s will, and then guidance will become available since they are wanderers who have come to be of service and to be tested so they should be aware that the path that they are on is the one that they were destined to take. Q’uo suggested that they realize that they have chosen the positive path of loving the Creator, the self, and all others, so they should respect the suffering in their lives since it will bring true peace to them because their destiny is true and is aimed at infinity. On July 17, 2005, Q’uo suggested that it is helpful to respect the suffering on the spiritual path:

Whenever you have doubts as to the benefits of this process of refining the self in the fire of experience, ask yourself to remember and that will bring back to you the entire flood of knowledge of self and of all through which you have been. We hope that you can begin to respect the suffering that you have endured for what it is: a service to your own seeking.

We will come back to this instrument. However, we would wish to yield our speaking position in this instrument’s energy web to an inner planes entity. Please accept the pause necessary to open this particular channel. We leave you briefly in love and light. We are those of Q’uo.

I am Michael. In love and light I come to you to speak those words of comfort which we may offer. We would wish to share the acceptable to free will information that we can concerning the one known as R. This entity may now speak to some extent through this instrument…

R: I am so glad to talk to you, sweetie. Hi, I am with you. I am so pissed that I had to go, and you had to stay. I wanted so much to stay if one of us had to stay. Why couldn’t it be me? I want you to know that there is never a single, single minute that I am not inside you, where I always wanted to be anyway. I am in your heart, and I will never leave you. I just wish that Carla could make some cigar smoke and you could see me, but this girl does not have that ability, so I will just say, honey, you hold on and just flow because things are going to turn out. We did everything OK, and I know you will keep on doing that. I have to go but you know I am with you. Can I ask a favor?

S: Yes.

R: Will you talk to me sometimes and say the special things? I would really like that, just tell me what you feel and stuff. Good-bye for now.

I am Michael. We could not use this instrument further this day for inner planes work. We are sorry we had to cut the one known as R short of expressing the immense love and unity he feels. Yet he is well, and the waiting will be only as a few minutes, so he is happily awaiting the one known as S when her learning is done in this incarnation, and together there will be a new experience, new lessons, and new suffering so that the Creator may learn and learn and learn.

We would leave this instrument at this time that the one known as Q’uo may receive queries. If the one known as Jim wishes to channel, we shall transfer to this instrument at this time. We are those of Q’uo, and leave this instrument in love and in light…

This morning I went outside and used my trimmer to trim all the weeds in the yard as well as trim around all of the bushes, trees, and gardens.

This afternoon I went outside and used my big mower, Venus, to cut the grass for the second time this year. Then I used my backpack blower to blow all the walkways, porch, deck, and driveway clean. I picked up all of the tree pollen at the end of the driveway and the parking area in front of the house and was able to fill a garbage can with it.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 2

Lift Them To The Lord

I am that principle which comes in the name of the Lord Jesus the Christ, and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

We would focus this morning upon the word, “cherish.” All of you are wounded. Turn to the spirit within and in faith lift up your wounds, your hearts, and your spirits as an offering to the Creator, the Father of all.

Trust in the spirit of love to create within that offering the consciousness of cherishing; of lightening the burden; of lifting the heart; of making a true offering of the self, not just as a wounded self but as a self that is always in the presence of healing. It is a right and joyful thing to do; it brings you no reward but that you have remembered to cherish and praise the Creator of all.

As you move through your day, gaze upon the many chores that seem so mundane and the relationships that do not seem to be happy, useful, or helpful. And once again lift them to the Lord, cherishing these seemingly ruined gifts.

For it is in the strength of the principle which we represent, that of divine love, that all these are turned into a cherishing. For you ask for nothing back, nothing in return but only to make an offering of your life as it is, as you are.

You are cherished. Lift your consciousness and you, too, shall cherish the mundane and so change it into an offering of praise, thanksgiving, and blessing.

We leave you in the consciousness of healing, completely unselfish, divine, and cherishing love; love that shall give you peace, now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 4, 1992:

In an out-of-body experience—which is the question this afternoon—when the exit is via the crown of the head there is impression of movement, at great speed, as if one were drawn up through a tunnel or a funnel. Please describe this process and account for this impression. We would like to know, in this area of out-of-body experience, if this feeling of movement is actual. Does it take place in time/space? Is it a movement in consciousness or is it simply a feeling of movement that accompanies a more profound experience or process? Also, what would you recommend that the seeker of truth take as the attitude or position regarding out-of-body experience. Of what value, in another words, is it to a person to experience out-of-body experience, and what would one think of such?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings, my friends, in the light and the love of the one infinite Creator. Thank you for asking for our participation in your session of working at this time. We are honored to be called to your circle and bless each with a whole heart. As always, we ask that our words carry no authority except that of opinion.

The out-of-body experience about which you ask is a subject which many are focused upon because of an underlying desire to be shed of the heavy chemical machinery of the third-density physical vehicle, or body. The spirit or consciousness of an entity is bound by choice to its physical vehicle in order to persevere throughout an incarnative experience. It is no wonder that the consciousness often may yearn to be free of the seeming tyranny of flesh. However, there is much to be said for the consideration of that which is uncomfortable and inconvenient being also far more useful in the production of catalyst.

Let us look briefly at the experience itself, of moving from within the physical vehicle to observing the physical vehicle through the eyes of the finer bodies which are within incarnative stricture, however, are not necessarily tied within the physical vehicle permanently. The consciousness, as it were, in the most natural or easy way of egress from the physical vehicle may visualize the tucking and rolling motion of certain practiced falls or yogic postures. When the physical vehicle is exited and entered with this visualized method the trauma is minimal.

The experiences spoken of in the query, of the squeezing feeling and the tunnel, are those feelings associated with a less skillful method of exiting the physical vehicle. The imagination, if we may use that term, is helpful to those who would wish not to experience the less than optimal symptoms of exit and entry, by visualizing the tucking and gently rolling, both leaving and entering the physical vehicle.

In most cases of unintended exit of the physical vehicle, the finer bodies carrying the consciousness are within the same illusion, or, depending on the vibratory patterns of the individual, there may be the precise location which one enjoys in the third density, but the out-of-body experience may be in fourth density. This still appears to the consciousness senses as a normal, solid, seemingly third-density illusion, and though the electrical nature of energies between people is far more apparent, nonetheless the work which might be done in this out-of-body environment is no more or less effectual in creating new polarity than experiences within the third-density physical vehicle.

The question for this session was: What is the value of the out-of-body experience, and how is it accomplished? Q’uo began their reply by saying that many people would like to be free of their physical bodies, but the consciousness of an entity is bound to the discomfort of the physical body in order to experience its catalyst. Then Q’uo said that the way that one might leave its body would be to use the imagination to do a gentle tucking and forward rolling to both leave and re-enter the physical body. Q’uo went on to say that the unintended exit of the physical body may actually occur in the fourth density, but would appear to an entity’s consciousness to be that of the third density, and even though the experience of energies between people would be more electrical, the creation of new polarity would still be that of the third density. On August 28, 1983, Latwii described the nature of the out-of-body experience:

The experience of which you speak is one which contains elements of what you have described as an out-of-body experience, yet there are many such experiences that fall under this general heading. The salient feature of such an experience is not necessarily whether it occurred, either in or out of this or that body, yet is the vividness of the experience, and its impact upon your perception. Such experiences have many purposes, as many as there are entities who have such experiences. In general, we may suggest that this experience occurred at a time which you were ripe for it to occur in that you were seeking the nature, in a deeper sense, of your own being and of the illusion which you inhabit. When an entity experiences certain difficulties within an illusion, it is often helpful for that entity to touch home base, shall we say, and be re-energized by the truer nature of that reality, and that that energizing might strengthen those channels from the conscious to the unconscious mind and allow further experience.

There is a very old tradition amongst your people of spiritual quest involving work done without the physical vehicle. For this type of moving out of the body a very precise and lengthy tradition or school of training has been followed by the aspirant to, shall we say, holy or magical orders. Within these orders the discipline of the personality is labored upon by visualization and austere practices which begin to reclaim the linkage between the physical mind and the mind of consciousness.

Perhaps we could use the term “brain” to indicate the natural thinking capacity of a second-density animal which your physical vehicle is, to differentiate it from the term “mind,” the mind being that of infinite consciousness. The linkage betwixt brain and mind is normally set within incarnation in a matrix which allows free communication from brain to mind and limited communication from mind to brain. The magical training—which may be called cabalistic or white magical traditional—attempts often quite successfully to restructure the matrices—we correct this instrument—the matrix so that the points of connection are denser between the mind and the brain so that subconscious material is made more available to the brain or that which controls the day-to-day living.

This application of out-of-body experiences is a form of information gathering. In and of itself we do not find it to be useful, however, when a desire is formed to examine the surrounding inner planes and the consciousness which is sent forth is carefully laden with instructions which move it into inner planes, then such a spiritual scientist may make notes and learn more of the subtle inner environments which in total make up the inner structure of the deep mind or deeper aspects of the self. We do not encourage entities to move out of the body without there being a spiritual goal involved, for as many have said before us, it is a crowded universe and many of the citizens of it are particularly interested in those whose life force of spirit and will dims before the life force of the physical vehicle.

The danger here is that those who do not yet value or respect the incarnation may yearn so to be spirits that the emphasis upon finding holiness and worship within the physically bounded experience is lost or tossed away, and instead the entity simply wishes to escape the bounds of the physical body. We encourage each to contemplate the manifold opportunities within the confines of the physical vehicle to be a spirit, that the house of flesh involved does not limit the desire to experience as a spiritual entity, a magical entity, but rather offers to such spiritual questing the sharpness and substance of experience which cannot be had outside of the physical body. This incarnation which each now enjoys is a rare gift. We encourage each to respect and love this gift of intense time, of intensive actions, of deeply difficult choices made perforce in the darkness of illusion. To escape the bounds of body is also to deeply blunt the efficacy of precious incarnational time, space, and time where the questing spirit may make blind choices. This blindness, this darkness is precious, for choices made herein strike deeply into the infinite self.

Now Q’uo said that there was a tradition of magical orders to use disciplines of the personality, austere practices, and visualization to reclaim the linkage between the physical mind and the mind of consciousness. They went on to say that the goal of these practices is to make the connection between the infinite consciousness of the mind and the brain of the body so that the subconscious material of the mind is made more accessible to the brain of the body which controls the daily activities of the seeker. Then Q’uo said that out of body experiences are often used to gather information about the inner planes and the deeper mind, but they did not recommend engaging in out-of-body experiences without having a spiritual goal for them. Q’uo realized that many seekers would like to be out of their bodies because they do not appreciate the holy nature of the physical body to experience the sharpness and substance of the spiritual journey, that cannot be experienced outside of the physical body, whereas when one is in the physical body one may make those blind choices within the veil of forgetting that move deeply into the infinite self. On November 19, 1997, Q’uo defined the infinite self and its role in our spiritual journey: 

When each incarnate being gazed upon the incarnation to come, each selected from the infinite self those gifts and quirks of being, thought and attitude which would provide the resources and tools to prosecute various purposes for which the incarnation was chosen. Often, these eccentricities and biases do not seem in the life experience to have any direct application. However, the indirect use of gifts is frequently an enlarged group of service. Secondly, we would encourage the concept of the personality shell that makes use of these gifts and a kind of focus for the deeper reasons for incarnation. As the self gazes at the self, the self is actually gazing at the personality shell. This is the first fruit of self-knowledge, that knowledge of the personality shell. Now, this personality shell is created by the blending between the second-density life-form which is your physical vehicle, and whose mind and instincts are unimpaired, and the consciousness that is that infinite self within its vehicle.

Far beyond the apparent nature of the self, with its temptations and duties and positive and negative thoughts about many things, there is a deeper self, a self that may ultimately be identified as the great original Thought, which is Love. This Logos is complete and utterly within and it, Love itself, is the nature which you may come to know in the most trustworthy way. For Love is Love. Love created all that there is. There is no sham, no falsity to divine Logoic Love. And this is the vibration, this is the essence which each is beneath the personality shell.

When one considers what one is to do with one’s gifts, we would encourage each seeker to contemplate first the greatest gift, that gift of consciousness. There are duties and responsibilities that go hand in hand with the awakening of awareness of one’s spiritual identity. One responsibility is to remember who you are, and what you are. For it is that essence that you came primarily to offer as your service. As each comprehends these words, each is fulfilling her major, primary service. For the primary service is to share sacrificially the essential vibrations of self with the planet that you call Earth in order that the planetary consciousness may be lightened at this critical time, metaphysically speaking, in Earth’s history. So, no matter what occurs within the outer world, as the one known as C observed, no matter whether one devolops a new physics or works and retires, the primary service is performed as you breathe in and out, and as you are most deeply and truly yourself.

I am Q’uo. Is there a further query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo. We find many questions in this group, but none of them spoken aloud, so we are not allowed to answer them. We own the terrible pun. What can we then do, having exhausted the queries, but bid you every possible blessing of love and light in your journey towards the One. We leave this instrument with thanks and this group ditto, in the love and in the wondrous light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, Adonai.

This morning I changed out the sheets and pillow cases on my bed, and then I put them through the wash and dry cycle in the basement. After I ironed the flat sheet and pillow cases I went outside and continued weeding in the back yard around the Secret Garden, and the little yellow creeping Jenny garden.

This afternoon I went outside and continued weeding around the fishpond gardens and the garden on the north side of the Wuthering Heights Mound in the front yard. Then I used my trimmer to wee the pet cemetery and the Moss Garden.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

May 1

Endless Centers Of Love

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in full consciousness; the consciousness which is all that there is; the consciousness of love.

You sit. You listen inwardly. And your universe contracts as meditation lifts you and silence greets you with profound wisdom. Slowly you feel yourself expand. And you are aware of the love all about you: the creatures that fly and walk and crawl and swim, the very motes of dust in the air, the blessed sunshine or the equally blessed rain giving glory to the Father. And as you meditate, your universe expands even more.

You are aware that you are an integral part of the sphere upon which you live. The world is your neighborhood. All the sunshine and all the rain of all the world are within you; within the heart; within the consciousness.

Then your consciousness takes flight and moves away until your home sphere is no longer visible and all about you are endless centers of love, radiating, radiating, radiating.

And as you expand further, you discover that all of the infinite creation—every star, every planet, every ray of sunshine and every creature—lies within your consciousness. For you and the creation are one.

Now, you are still sitting upon your blanket, or upon your couch or chair. Yet, the universe is now inside you and you feel its balance and its grace. You feel also your balance, your grace, and the infinite love that created all that there is. Nothing is alien to you. All is love. Open your hearts to that infinite truth.

We leave you in peace and love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 27, 1992:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to ask if there are any further queries of a briefer nature to which we may speak. Is there a query at this time?

Questioner: How would you go about asking for guidance for one’s self at any time during the day?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. For those who have little or no experience in requesting guidance from those whose honor it is to provide such, we would recommend that there be those times of meditations reserved for opening the heart in this seeking to the inner guidance, and during this time we would recommend that the seeker begin to familiarize the self with those sensations and feelings that rise up from within as this request is made. Thus, the seeker will come to feel the response to this request, and will come to recognize the feeling tone, shall we say, of those who respond.

During these meditations it is helpful if the seeker is able to begin the meditations by centering the self upon those qualities of the self which are, shall we say, more securely set and which can be used as the building block. By centering upon the qualities that are stable the seeker offers its call and is in a position to remain open to the response according to the stability of centering qualities, be they humor, balance, care, devotion, intensity of desire or whatever the seeker feels are the most stable and available characteristics. Then, when the seeker has become familiar with the feeling of the response, it is then possible to ask for such in the normal round of activities, outside of meditations.

Questioner asked how to go about seeking guidance at any moment during the day. Q’uo began their reply by suggesting that meditation be used specifically for seeking inner guidance, and that she become familiar with the feelings that rise up within her being after making the request for guidance. Then Q’uo said that the meditation should begin by focusing on those stable qualities of her personality, whatever they may be, and when she becomes familiar with the response that comes from their guidance, she may also seek guidance in her daily round of activities. On September 6, 1992, Q’uo spoke of the value of inner guidance:

There is work in all directions to support the physical self, to corral the emotions, to find the truest heart of self amidst all the vicissitudes of change. Yet, there is within a universe of suns, of, shall we say, energies that represent, and in a holographic sense are, the vibrations of wisdoms represented by the outward sun and stars.

This door to the deep mind where this universe revolves, and can gradually be seen, is opened by the self and the self only. That is, it cannot be opened by another person in incarnation. Yet, in the inner room of meditation, when silence is truly reigning and the spirit somewhat freed, the desire to find inspiration taken into silent meditation yields an inner guidance. Inner resources come into more and more developed usefulness.

This occurs over a long period of time, and though one may sometimes feel one has made a breakthrough, yet always the most effectual ally is persistence. Patience, dogged persistence in practicing one’s way of approaching infinite values and truth, becomes more and more clear with time, for the effort necessary to put aside that time says to the outward being that this being values the resources of the deep mind. Thusly, inspiration is felt by the self’s efforts as the asset of the deep mind. It begins to be used constructively through looking at dreams, through ways of listening to one’s own hunches and intuitions. Faith, then, does breed faith. The use of will aids greatly in the next use of will.

Is there another query, my sister?

Questioner: Not at this time, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: I have one final one if no one has anything. I would like to have your opinion, if there is any opinion that you can offer, as to whether the longer group question is a better teaching tool at this time for this group, or questions that are answered in a shorter manner and then each question being answered leading to another question. Are you able at all to give some indication as to… how you feel about the efficacy of these two ways?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. We are, as always, happy to serve in whatever manner is requested if it be within our abilities. As we look at the changing faces within your group we can see that there may be instances in which the shorter query would be more efficacious, other instances in which the group question of the longer nature would be more helpful.

We must leave this determination to your group, as its personality is formed from session to session, according to those entities that join your seeking and the concerns that each brings with him or her. However, as a general practice it is well to offer this segment of questioning at the end of your session so that those queries that arise in the mind may be offered for our opinion.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, that was helpful. Thank you very much for being here today.

I am Q’uo. Again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and as we are aware of no further queries we shall take this opportunity to thank each, once again, for inviting our presence and our opinions to your circle of seeking this day. We are most honored to have been able to join your group and walk with you always upon your journey of seeking as do many others, unseen to your physical eyes, but who wait for your inner call to lend their assistance and support on this arduous journey that you find yourself upon.

At this time we shall take our leave of this group, leaving each as always in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Thieneman’s Nursery to buy some coleus, some more lantana, and some caladium. Then I stopped by the PNC Bank to make a cash withdrawal. My last stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. When I got home I began transplanting the caladium on the top level of the flower garden in the Moss Garden. Then I transplanted the lantana on the last of the second layer of the flower garden in the center of the Moss Garden, and this completed the transplanting for that flower garden.

This afternoon I went outside and transplanted the coleus around the giant Sycamore tree next to the Moss Garden which completed all of my transplanting in preparation for Homecoming at the end of May. Theneeee I began doing some weeding in the astilbe garden in the far corner of the back yard, and since we got an inch and three-quarters of rain last night I was able to put the weeds up roots and all very easily.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 30

With The Eyes Of Love

I am the spirit of Him who cleaved the way of truth, Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of love, the spiritual principle which Jesus the Christ lived.

This entity saw all things with eyes of love. And we await each heart that calls to us that we may be, for each, the eyes of love. For as you look upon your day, if it is seen with the eyes of love, it is a perfect day in every way. The tasks put before you to do are those which will be helpful to others or will teach patience and understanding. Those people whom you will meet will feed you with their unique loveliness or will challenge you to find the Christ within the distortions of your mundane world.

And so all things are either for joyous and enhanced living or for serious and persistent study to know the mind of Christ, to see with the eyes of Christ.

Call upon the spirit of love. It was for this reason that this principle was invoked in a personal sense for each and every consciousness within the creation. We have great love for each and await each call with a happy heart.

We leave you in the peace which cleaves through falsity, that active peace which is love, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 27, 1992:

This afternoon we have talked about topics ranging from the feeling of the loss of control over the environment around us to the fear within ourselves that we might not be able to survive economically. Rapid change, frustration, learning how to balance various positive and negative aspects of our lives yet remain within an equilibrium that we feel is the quality that is most helpful in dealing with most of these various forms of catalyst and stimulus and also is the fruit, shall we say, of successfully balancing the opposites in our experience. We are aware that this centeredness and this feeling of equilibrium is important to incorporate into our lives. We are wondering if there are suggestions that you would have as to how we could more easily incorporate or find ourselves with that feeling of centeredness, equilibrium, and balance. Are there certain attitudes that would help? Humor, meditation, or anything else?

(Carla channeling)

We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Greetings to each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is on wings of joy that we obey your call at this session of working. We so appreciate the blending of your meditative spirits and feel privileged to mingle our vibrations with your own. As we speak, kindly remember that we are not without error. Use your own discrimination and accept nothing that is not your own personal truth.

We shall speak a story taken from one of your religious systems. There was once a seeker who found a guru in a small village in the mountains. This guru recognized the student and without much discussion took the student to a cave, and bid her to sit until she had learned all she needed to know. Each day he came to the cave and asked her if she had learned all that she needed to know. She replied in the negative, she had not learned all yet. At this the guru’s hands raised high, holding a stout stick and the teacher firmly rapped the stick against the student’s hapless head and went away.

One day he came into the cavern and asked again, for perhaps the thirtieth time, “Now, have you learned all you need to know?” “Yes,” said the student, and ran from the cave. “Ah,” said the guru, “that is all I have to teach.”

My dear ones, the energies of the biochemical mind are not all of your consciousness. The mind which lives and dies with your body complex is one geared towards knowledge which enables one to control its environment, to maintain survival and comfort, and to pursue goals within the reach of the horizon. It is your consciousness which neither lives nor dies but is infinite and eternal which asks the questions it cannot answer, which aims the incarnate self at goals which the self cannot encompass in total.

And the role within incarnation of this consciousness which is infinite is quite often reduced in efficacy because the intellectual mind complex is fairly sure that it may know and be sure of anything which it sets out to know. How confident you are in the efficiency of the intellect. Yet the experience of incarnation as it passes shows again and again the error made by any which assumes that because it knows truths it will be able skillfully to propagate those truths in a life pattern.

We ask you to gaze inwardly at the physical vehicle. Is the head, the neck, relaxed, or do you strain for truth? Is the abdomen, the breathing, relaxed, or is there tension? We ask you to breathe deeply and feel how the tension goes to a lower level with each breath. Allow the belly to become soft, allow the neck, the shoulders that carry so much thought to be relaxed and know in a completely non-mental way that you are receptive.

Feel that emptiness that few of our words have created within each, that delicious, restful feeling of the empty cup. No leaves in the bottom of some forgotten, previous drink but all clean and ready. Ready for what? Ah, you are ready to accept and allow the fullness of love. Feel that sweet wine filling your cup as the many workers in the spiritual realm that are concerned passionately with you bend to you lovingly, faithfully, continuously, freshening that living vine of love within. Now, allow this visualized self to be held up to the light and feel the energy, the creative power of quickening, enlivening, space-giving light.

You have friends you are not using, dear ones. You have covered your half-empty cups because of the fear engendered by the realizations that you shall not manifest the vision or ideal that lies within your faithful, open hearts. Why do you have this darkening, closing fear? You have it because it is needed. Your mind, the mind of the body, has said “This and this must be if I am to be as I wish,” and then the mind judges because of a perceived error or a falling short of the ideal exists. Could it be that the self takes the self too seriously, and the irreplaceable, infinite ideal too lightly? To love the highest truth is very, very well. To love the self as the perpetrator and controller of this unlimited truth is a judgment error. Thusly, hold to the ideal but not to the extent that there are forces of judgment within which take the self into the cave of fear and thereby stop further catalyst from occurring.

The group question for this session was: We are wondering if there are suggestions that you would have as to how we could more easily find that feeling of centeredness, equilibrium, and balance. Are there certain attitudes that would help? Humor, meditation, or anything else? Q’uo began their response by saying that the mind of our bodies is not our consciousness as it is geared to survival and controlling its environment whereas our consciousness is infinite and eternal and asks questions that it cannot answer. Then Q’uo said that the consciousness that is eternal is often limited in its efficacy by the mind which thinks that because it knows a certain truth that it will be able to live it. So Q’uo suggested that we should relax our bodies by breathing deeply so that we can feel the restfulness of an empty cup that we then may fill with the sweet wine of love so that we may hold our self up to the light to feel its enlivening power. Then Q’uo said that there is fear that has covered our half-empty cups because we are afraid that we cannot manifest our ideals that rest within our hearts of love, and they said that we are taking our self too seriously and our ideals too lightly. Instead of doing this, they suggested that we should hold to the ideal but not engage in judgement of ourselves that would stop further catalyst from occurring. On December 16, 1990, Q’uo shared the value of not judging the self:

Was there any soul with a 360-degree capability to love and to not love that did not have, in the brightness of light, a shadow to cast? Can you not accept both your light and your shadows, for as your light grows brighter the shadows will be more sharp, and you will seem always to yourself to be one very iniquitous and often in error.

This is primary to your ability to move forward: that you are able to let judgment of yourself go, for only insofar as you love, accept, and refuse to judge yourself can you be compassionate in such wise to others. And only in compassion, as you see the treasure within you and within all, can you truly serve in a love that is without condition and that demands no return.

Now, let us return to the student coming from the cave. Into the sunlight comes the student, not perceiving any truth except the desire to avoid being beaten about the head. This is your situation. Into this situation come a great company of those who would aid, not far from you or unavailable during activity but as near as memory. You are required to ask for help. When help is requested, mentally, that help flows, and the open heart receives it and feels its healing touch in every cell. As each knows, so to speak, it is not the vision that fails, not the love, the compassion, the ideals, but that self which cannot empty itself of the dregs of used up experience. Trust the plangent cords of memory to sustain the learning implicit in each and every perceived error and block. Then allow the self to open slowly, slowly, until the feeling of relaxation is such that you are not threatened by the act of will of uncovering the self within and allowing these dregs to be poured out. Visualize even if this helps that you are giving this distillation of disappointment, frustration, and other seemingly negative emotions into the all-healing Earth energy which is all about you.

Now, thirdly, empty and cleansed, having released the fears of failures, accept the love and compassion of those mystical beings, essences and energies of spirit that wish to support you to aid in filling the pot with new, living compassion, its liquid crystalline, sparkling beauty, soothing, invigorating and enlivening the small human self so that this self may take its place in the full identity that you are, for you are all of these manifestations, concerns, and thought patterns, and you are pure consciousness as well. This help from guidance moves into the portions of the deeper mind, not the conscious mind, so that help from without, in your way of discernment, finds the appropriate nodal resonance point which is the receptacle for that particular guidance form.

All that comes to you, those blessings that touch the spirit with healing, touch not a human as you know yourself, but that portion deeper than the conscious human mind which profoundly resonates with the conscious mind if this is allowed, and enables you to see through moments of intense activity, as well as peaceful times, that all things truly are well. Allow your sources of help the invitation needed for you to be touched innerly, and you will feel at the moment you ask the aid that is given. Gradually, the path winds as it will, difficulties and tests mount as the capacity to learn increases, but in those who have learned to pour out and leave behind now useless, inanimate dregs of exhausted experience, the marvelous, sparkling joy of one who is accepting of the gifts and blessings of and infinitely transforming energy of Love.

This Love created, this Love destroys. All that is, is within that which we must for lack of other words call Love. This awesome and terrible Love shall test and stretch each of you. That it does so with sure purpose is very hard to see. When you are emptied and the filling of your cup has begun, rest in the hollowness within, and allow the open heart to feel the peace of this one moment without fear. May you be sustained. As you are, you shall be. Transform the face of the Earth.

Now Q’uo said that we need to let the dregs of our difficult experiences in the past go and mentally ask for help, and then our heart will open to this help and feel it in every cell of the body. They also said that we could visualize giving these negative experiences to the healing Earth energy that is all around us so that we can accept the love and compassion of the mystical beings of the spirit that communicate with us through our deep mind and reveal that we are pure consciousness and can experience the transforming energy of Love. Q’uo completed their response by saying that the purpose of this Love is to test and stretch us so that we can empty ourselves of the dregs of difficult experience and then rest in the peace of the moment and transform the face of the Earth. On November 17, 1995, Q’uo described the nature of the pure consciousness that we are and the difficult lessons that we learn:

Truly, as that precious metal within you—that pure consciousness—is refined in the furnace of incarnation, it is very helpful for the self to learn to minister to the self within that is undergoing transformation. What age are you within? What age is the shadow side of self? Is not your isolation—your feelings of alienation, this whole constellation of painful lacks and perceived limitations—the product of a young child’s agony as it attempts to grow into that which it was not? We suggest to you that when you begin to turn to self-judgment that you perhaps turn again and take up that self within that you perceive as misbehaving and embrace that being, showering it with compassion, for it does no more than express its nature.

You judge not the slag, the dross. It simply does not make it into the ring, the ornament, the coin … Just so, love all of the self. This seemingly imperfect instrument is in fact perfectly created to give the seeker the maximum degree of potential for learning. Sometimes lessons come hard, but it is precisely your confusion and perceived lack of understanding that place you in so exquisite a rightness of position to meet and to learn to embrace and cooperate with the destiny that you have planned for yourself within this incarnative experience.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, if the one known as Jim would wish to receive this contact. We shall attempt to transfer at this time. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I returned to Thieneman’s Nursery to buy a flat of orange marigolds, a flat of begonias, a flat of lantana, and a flat of red allysum.  Then when I got home I got dressed to attend the funeral of a long-time and dearly-beloved neighbor who passed into larger life last Wednesday morning. The service was held at St. Luke’s Episcopal Church where Carla used to sing in the choir. His ashes were buried in the court yard just outside the church.

This afternoon I cleaned the filters on the fishpond because there is so much mud on the bottom of the pond. I am looking forward to next Tuesday when the fellow from Economical Aquatic Gardens is schedule to clean my fishpond. I transplanted the allysum in the Ruins Mound which completed the transplanting there. Then I transplanted the lantana, begonias, and orange marigolds in the flower bed in the center of the Moss Garden.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 29

The Inarticulate Voice

I am the spirit of the consciousness of love, and I greet you in the name of Jesus the Christ.

We are principles of consciousness, the kind of consciousness in which all distorted consciousnesses have their origin.

As in all consciousness, we are inarticulate messengers and are able to impress the paradigms and motivations of love upon the mind and heart of the pilgrim only to the extent that the consciousness of the pilgrim is slanted towards the bias of the articulation of love’s message for each and for the harmony of creation.

Thus, even if one seeks the voice of the Spirit, it is also well to seek the consciousness of intuition and articulation of feelings. For it is in small and often inarticulate ways that the voice of the Spirit speaks. And it is the wise pilgrim which has prepared the mind and heart for that still, small voice, expecting not the poverty of intellectual articulation but the riches of clear bias.

We leave you in peace, both now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 20, 1992:

With today’s question we are asking what kinds of service that the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator has to offer the population of our planet. We are aware, of course, of the channeling service we offer here, we are also aware that there are inspirational dreams where people are helped with the direction in their lives and the services they are to offer, and the lessons they are to learn, with coincidental meetings, with people, books, ideas that are important for the person to be concentrating on… and we are wondering if there are other services? In what ways does the Confederation offer itself to the people of our planet, and are there cycles or seasons of certain services so that it is felt that some are more helpful at a certain point in a person’s or population’s evolution and other services are more helpful at another time? For example, with so much channeling going on today all over the planet, and there being so much that is of questionable value, does channeling or any other service after a while tend to lose effectiveness so that there is the need to move on to other kinds of services?

(Carla channeling)

We are Q’uo. Greetings to you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We greatly thank you for requesting the presence of the Confederation at your meditation, and are honored to share in your vibrations at this space/time. As we answer your question we, as always, request your appreciation of our fallibility and our hope that discrimination will be used in assessing the worth of our opinions in your own seeking for the truth.

As we begin the consideration of what our service to humankind consists in, we feel it wise to express that we and you who listen alike have the same service, that is to do the will of the infinite Creator, to live in such a way as to be continuously focused upon that will, surrendered to that will, and willing to either act or wait as the Spirit makes itself known to you to do. That being said, we may turn to details of our particular service to humankind at this space/time.

We have chosen for a season to attempt communications with your peoples. The communication is of several levels, and these begin with the level of introductory material having to do with the infinite Love and Light of the one Creator being all that there is and the author of all that there is, concluding with the need for daily, regular, and persistent meditation, contemplation, or prayer. This is perhaps to be considered as the kind of instrument such as this instrument’s so-called telephone answering machine. When there is a request for this information which is below a certain vibratory quality, the automatic information begins flowing. This is, shall we say, in place about your sphere and has been for some of your years. It is only when entities begin attempting to realize their universal self aspect that we begin to be able to communicate more advanced material, whether it be in thoughts or images.

By universal we mean that there is a distinction between personal sources of information and inspiration and universal sources, such as we. The inner planes of your sphere have many greatly wise inhabitants—and many not so wise—all of whom are moved to at times become involved with a living—that is, incarnationally lying—entity. These inner plane beings and energies have a right as those of a native land to be very frank and personally helpful to the extent of their knowledge with those to whom they may speak. We may speak to those whose vibratory level and ability to receive information is of a certain quality. Let us then look at this quality.

The path of seeking moves each seeker through the trials of regularizing, crystallizing, and clearing out the basic and central energies of self: self-love, love in relationships with others, and relationship with the society in groups and as a whole. The clearing of the heart and its opening is exceedingly important and usually much of a seeker’s time is continually spent in keeping this heart energy flowing and radiant. The work turns, then, from the obviously radiant to a more tightly focused radiance in the development of communication skills which are based upon a certain depth of personality or depth of a point of view, that is in the blue-ray center.

We do not say that an entity has blue-ray energy simply because the entity speaks a great deal. The communication of one working in spiritually vibrant blue ray is of a certain quality or order. This in turn is based more upon work done in the brow or indigo-ray energy center than simply upon the open heart. Thusly, we are able to address this instrument in its highest tuning because we worked with our energies to find a harmony which was euphoniously interactive with this instrument’s ability to receive in-depth information. This energy is one which will not endure beyond this particular channel’s use of us as we formed this union in order specifically to work with this particular channel.

The group question for this session was: What kind of services does the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the One Infinite Creator have to offer an individual or the population of our planet, and are there cycles or seasons of learning for people or populations? Q’uo began by saying that the basic service of all people is to do the will of the infinite Creator and to await any action until the will of the Spirit is made known. Then they went on to say that their introductory level of information that they share with seekers concerns the original thought of Love and Light that created all that is and suggested that prayer, contemplation, and meditation be used on the spiritual path. They said this kind of information was provided by them in an automatic way in answer to a lower vibration of seeking. Then Q’uo said that they would begin to channel more advanced information to those who were becoming aware of their nature as universal beings. They said that there were also other more personal sources of more specific information from guides that could be either positive or negative. Q’uo went on to say that they were able to speak to those who had cleared their lower three energy centers of the love of the self, love in relationships with others, and love in groups which would then open the heart center that radiated love to all. They said that the blue center was that of the focus of love in clear communication and was affected by work in the indigo center which was the reason that they were able to communicate in-depth information through Carla. On November 28, 2004, Q’uo spoke of why they were able to communicate through Carla:

We are those of Q’uo, and are aware of your query, my brother. We are composed, as you said, of three groups, one of fourth density, one of fifth density, and one of sixth density, in this instrument’s and our way of describing our relative position and experience. This particular principle was created because this particular instrument has a certain way of tuning and preparing for contact with the Confederation entities. She prays for contact with the highest and best contact that she may handle in a stable and conscious manner. It is a very precise request. The entity whom she tended to receive upon making this prayer, prior to her contact with those of the Ra group, was the Latwii group and she had received those of Latwii fairly consistently for several years before experiencing the trance contact with those of the Ra group.

As each within this circle is aware, the contact with those of Ra was a very narrow-band contact which was only possible during that window of opportunity when the ones known as Don, Jim, and Carla were all in the circle and when the one known as Don passed from this third-density experience, the possibility of further contact with this particular entity was ended. However, this instrument continued to tune and pray in the same manner and those of Latwii and others within the Confederation, including those of Hatonn and those of Ra, felt that perhaps the creation of a principle would best respond to this instrument’s very real desire for the highest and best contact of which she was capable. Since those of Ra could not speak with this instrument in a conscious and stable manner, there was no possibility for that social memory complex being the speaker. However, both those of Hatonn and those of Latwii had previously enjoyed sharing the thoughts of those of Ra in a teach/learning circle and the three groups decided that they would blend into one principle, with the ones known as Hatonn being responsible simply for projecting a vibration of love, of which I feel sure that each of you is aware as we speak. The ones known as Latwii took the responsibility for speaking to this instrument and the ones known as Ra were part of the process of defining just how to respond to the question that was presented to the principle of Q’uo. So, as those of Q’uo speak, it is those of Latwii who are creating the concepts which this instrument receives and translates into words.

We see the concept of the universal self as one which may bear some interest to you. When you receive a certain level of, shall we say, initiation or transformation a peculiar thing begins to occur. The self that has many, many details to concern the self with begins a little at a time to receive from the deeper mind—that part of the deeper mind which speaks consciously. You may have noticed the growing tendency of your own mind to have a kind of knee-jerk response in terms of how one looks at events and occurrences. Spontaneously, there begins to be a larger part of the self which sees each thing occurring as being part of an universal experience, that is, one common to all beings.

It is to this energy that we communicate. We have no right to interfere with your free will. For those who wish personal advice we have only spiritual principles to share, and often this is not satisfactory. However, we can only offer that which is rightfully ours to offer. It may be said that we who have been among your people have the right to be in your inner planes and speak from that standpoint. However, we see one kind of information as being, shall we say, horizontal and the other as vertical. The inner planes attitude is level with the mundane experience but has, in addition to the mundane, further mundane-oriented information which applies and somewhat crystallizes thinking about situations. We chose as each of two planetary groups to refrain from inner planes’ work for our, shall we say, gifts lay more in the vertical or the transformative, universal information. The worth of this information, as all sorts of information, remains at the level at which it was delivered. Truth seen through various biases of contact and channel does not go out of fashion. There are more entities attempting to create teaching tools and resources at your space/time present than at other earlier or later times. However, the material is timeless insofar as the channel has held to the universal viewpoint while preparing to make contact.

If, for instance, this instrument asked us if we came in the name of Christ but did not love the universal Christ as well as the specific entity Jesus the Christ, we could not use this instrument. An inner source could, however, use this instrument very well. For us to accept a call the necessity is for the instrument to be aware of the omnipresent, omnipotent Creator, ever invisible and ever mysterious. This instrument has this point of view at a strongly fundamental level, thusly the contact is stable ,and we have enjoyed the privilege of communicating through this instrument for some time.

Do you then wish to be universal entities? This question is valuable to consider at this time, we feel. Are you able to look calmly upon the gradual decrease of a strongly personal service and judgment of service in favor of a nonjudgmental and nonpersonal attempt to be, in a spontaneous enough way that experience will be tempered in their formation by inner gifts of universal awareness?

In this regard we remind each of the request of the one known as Jesus the Christ, that if a man were to follow this entity it must hate its mother and father. [ Luke 14:26 ] This is what we speak of. The spirit of universal love and service speaks in silence, yet its urgings are strong, and the time inevitably comes when the seeker must choose between personal preference and doing the will of the infinite One. This decision does not have exceptions for family, friends, or convenience. It merely is offered without any tangible reward for turning one’s back upon sources of financial plenty, emotional comfort, or other excellent mundane benefits. It offers only the impersonal satisfaction of being totally willing to do the will of the infinite Creator.

Not all entities aspire to this type or quality of service. It is especially frustrating to those who seek a feeling of truly being of service that there is no one service more beneficial or high than any other service; the service is completely within in the total loving dedication of heart, mind, soul, and strength to carrying into manifestation the Creator.

Consider that which this instrument does to prepare to channel. It always asks that it be completely transparent, so that all that flows from its mouth may be the words given by the spirit of the infinite Creator and not the instrument’s own opinion. This seems an act of self abnegation, yet it is the key to this instrument’s ability to receive fairly advanced material. Were the instrument to be requesting very wise-sounding material, wishing to be thought of well, inner planes energies would then be attempting contact with this instrument. We do not deal with those whose personal—or what you would call egoic—nature is the primary mover causing the entity to seek contact. We are able to make good communication establishments only with those who have surrendered to the will of the infinite One, to the point if nothing occurs the entity will simply carry on without any feeling of being less of a channel.

For those who are living in continuous prayer or meditation or are truly attempting to do so, our help is ever present as a kind of keel underlying and strengthening the ability to be stable which each entity has in its seeking. This is perhaps the most used of our ways of communication, and we are not identified as a source other then the self. That is because selves who can receive us in this enspiriting manner think of themselves in a universal way.

Now Q’uo said that when one begins to experience initiation that there is the contact with the deeper mind that becomes a larger part of the self which sees each thing occurring as being part of a universal experience and one common to all beings. Then Q’uo said that it was to this energy that they communicated transformative, universal information rather than that which is of a mundane nature, and that there were more entities at this time attempting to serve as channels for this information which is timeless. Q’uo continued by saying that at some point the seeker must decide to do the will of the Creator rather than follow its personal preferences, and there is no service that is better than another service because what is of the most importance is the dedication of heart, mind, soul, and strength to carrying the Creator into manifestation. Then Q’uo used Carla as an example of desiring to be transparent and channel only the thoughts of the Creator and none of her own, and this is why those of Q’uo were able to make contact with instruments who have surrendered their wills to the infinite One. Q’uo also mentioned that they were with those who were sincerely trying to live a prayerful or meditative life to help strengthen their attempt to think of themselves in a universal way, but they could not be identified as any source other than the self. Now I would like to share a part of Carla’s tuning process that she used before all channeling which she called the Prayer to set intention:

Dear Creator, I come before you to offer myself as a channel. I do not claim to be worthy, for I know you have no servants in this world except us humans. I offer myself 100% to your service. I ask to channel the highest and best contact I can carry in a stable and conscious manner of the unconditional love of Jesus the Christ. I ask that all words be yours and none of my own.

At this point we would ask if there are questions which may help to clarify this material. Is there a query at this time?

Questioner: Not from me, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument in love and light. Perhaps the heart of this session’s query is a consideration of the nature of service to others. It is obvious that this instrument serves as it channels. It is not obvious that this instrument serves as it observes and reacts to sense impressions by creating mental formations which bless charitably those events observed and reacted to. In each entity’s life pattern there is the inevitable assumption that dramatic services are more important than non-dramatic services, that those who are healers or teachers are somehow more advanced than those whose service is to tend machines or to aid other entities in menial and mundane tasks. The truth is that what is most of service is the attitude of the heart. Each entity must work within its own self to create the holy of holies within, to become aware of that occasion within the self and to move gradually, a little at a time, the heart and the seat of the mundane self into the holy of holies that is being prepared within so that the life experience is mundane experience seen from a standpoint which is stably spiritual in its structures of perception.

As we have said, this is subtle work. We feel it is an appropriate direction, and encourage each to contemplate what true service is. Is there truly a necessity in order to be one’s very best? To be obviously a leader among humankind? Or does it feel more likely to you that true service is involved in the surrender of the self, moment by moment, to the inspiring energies of the universal self. The universal self is all of you, yet you are the universal self alone. You are holy and profane, you are as much a mystery as is the Creator. Your mystery and your service may be contained, convenient and finite, or you may choose the high road of attempting to universalize modes of perception so that you move more and more into an acceptance of that which the mind brings. Full and loving action in the face of circumstance is your path of service. Each is on that path. Sudden changes take place in such paths and the scenery changes. As long as the attention is kept upon the will of the infinite One whatever service lies before you will feel most blessed. It may also feel inconvenient, uncomfortable, and not at all fun. The persistence and even stubbornness of entities as they move through paths of service which have encountered difficult terrain…

This Morning I went outside and transplanted a tray of Dahlias into the garden in the middle of the Moss Garden, and then I came back inside, and Anna and I synchronized our computers in Nashville and Louisville to listen to Carla channel Ra in Session 27 and also be able to see the words being channeled at the same time. Then I went upstairs and did my weekly cleaning of Benny’s three rooms with the carpet sweeper, the dust pan and broom, and the mop.

This afternoon I made an errand run with my first stop being at Thieneman’s Nursery where I bought a flat of begonias, a flat of red lantana, and a flat of yellow marigolds. My second stop was at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some bird seed and some cat food for Benny. My third stop was at Kroger’s where I bought some low-carb bread, some Pepsi Zero, and some sharp shredded cheese. When I got home I put the groceries away and went outside and planted the red lantana in the Ruins Mound and then I planted the yellow marigolds and begonias in the flower garden in the center of the Moss Garden.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

April 28

Praise And Thanksgiving In Your Heart

I am of the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

Take this moment to become more and more in touch with that feeling of praise and thanksgiving that is in your heart this day. The trees praise the Lord. The hills and valleys rejoice. And the burgeoning flowers move through the earth to the sun in bursts of pleasure and chanting of happiness to the winds.

It may seem that there are obstacles to your joy and that the world is not one which you would praise. Yet gaze you at your own hands and at the mind of the Father which created such tools.

Gaze at the incessantly changing colors of your thoughts and behold the beauty of the creation of the Father.

Look at those who have served you and those whom you have served, those who have displeased you and those whom you have displeased, and praise the Father Who gives you freedom to make your own decisions about His creation; Who urges you to pick and choose, to think and select and grow.

The more your heart may stand in the light of faith, praising and giving thanksgiving, the more yet again shall the spirit find this opportunity to be granted unto you in happy harvest.

The first word of praise in any day is an act of blind faith and brings the heart into peaceful concert with the harmonious plan of the Father.

May you choose to dwell in that peace, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light, and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.