The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 21, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any queries which those present may find value in the asking. Again, we remind each that that which we share we share with great joy, but do not consider ourselves to be in any way infallible. Therefore, we ask that you take our words lightly, and use them in the way that feels most helpful for your own journey of seeking and of service. Is there a query at this time?

Questioner: [Inaudible] love, light, Infinite Creator, Hare Krishna. My query pertains to faith, the actual definition of faith in relation to hope, and when an entity after some time travels [inaudible] on that leap of blind faith, [inaudible] hope come in to awaken the soul so that that faith becomes “solid ground.”

I am Q’uo, and we are aware of your query, my brother, and we greet you in that same joyous love and light that you so willingly share. Concerning your query of the maturation of hope into that which is faith, we would suggest that each entity begins with that spiritual food, as you may call it, that it can digest with comfort. For many this beginning is in that term or concept that is known as hope. The entity with hope is aware that there is more to the earthly existence than those things which seem to comprise the earthly life, that there is more to the purpose of one’s existence than completing a daily round of activities after another daily round of activities, and completing an infinite number of such days, and accomplishing the tasks that come with them, that there is a Self which is greater than the self, that there is a binding force within all of the creation, that there is indeed a purpose which gives the life a nobility and a shining quality, a strength to continue and to find a more fully realized conception of that which is life, that which is direction, and that which is service.

This entity, however, being somewhat young in the spiritual childhood, as it may be called, is tested by the passage of days and the catalyst that is contained within each day that will, as the fire tempers the metal to strengthen it, will also temper the spirit of this entity as it is manifest in the personality. And as the entity continues on in the hope that there is a purpose behind all of its actions and all of its desires, the entity grows in this inner knowing that it has first called hope.

As it continues in growth and grows in strength, the entity begins to enter that concept or area of the metaphysical or spiritual self which is called faith. The quality here which differentiates the faith from the hope is that when the faith becomes developed within the entity it has a sureness that comes not only from the experience that the entity has gained in its own growth, but in a feeling deep within the self that is like unto the iron filing as it approaches the strength of the magnet. The entity begins to feel that it is drawing close to a power that is far greater than any power it has found within itself or its own experience before.

Thus, the entity begins to feel and experience this quality of faith and finds that its feet are placed upon a firmer ground with each step that it takes, each testing that it passes, shall we say, for all of the experience within this illusion serves as a kind of catalyst that will allow the entity to become a crystallized being so that there is a strength and clarity to the purpose for such an entity’s life pattern.

Thus, we would say it is the experience of the entity that moves it closer and closer to a realization of its oneness with all of creation that eventually changes the entity’s philosophy, shall we say, of the life, from that which is guided by hope to that which is stayed by faith.

Questioner asked for the definition of faith in relation to hope, and how one can travel in one’s life in a leap of blind faith so that hope awakens the soul and the faith becomes solid ground. Q’uo began their response by saying that each entity begins with hope as a kind of beginning food for the soul that propels it through the daily round of activities for many years before it is able to discover the Spirit within it that gives life more meaning, direction, and service. Then Q’uo said that eventually the discovery is made within the spiritual self that faith has helped a person to discover power within it that allows it to use its catalyst in a way that crystalizes its being so as to perceive its unity with all of the creation through the strength of its faith. On November 18, 2021, Q’uo described the process where hope can transform into faith:

You could say that hope is a spiritual faculty itself that blooms within the heart of an individual when it is most needed. The spirit will plant it there within the heart of an entity to point the way forward, to lift up the understanding of an entity so that that entity may keep going, no matter what the difficulty.

The cousin of hope is faith. Once hope is felt, faith, the companion to hope, can be born, for faith is hope extended out into what you may call the future. Faith that there will be a meaning, a purpose, an outcome that can be lived with, an outcome that can be supportive of the entity or entities living through such situations. Faith is hope projected upward and outward, again through the spiritual faculty within each entity.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: [Inaudible] project [inaudible] city of God, and if so [inaudible] may be a part in helping very many people in polarizing towards service to others and love and at this time/space, space/time [inaudible] now.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We scan the minds of those present and can confirm that, indeed, this project of which you speak is most helpful to all those which are a part of it and all those which may come within its influence, for there is an openness in the seeking and in the sharing of that which is the purpose for the life, the learning and the seeking in that location which shines as the candle in the darkness, the beacon upon the shore for those which are cast upon the sea and who seek a clear and safe harbor in which to find a place to seek in their own way and to share in their own way that which is theirs to give.

We cannot speak highly enough of the effort that you partake in, and we would suggest that there are those within our density of experience who take great joy in observing this experiment in creating the new human being upon your planet. We bless and send our joy to each that the efforts may be doubled and redoubled, for it is as each light upon the planet shines more brightly and makes a web of light around the planetary surface that this planetary sphere shall eventually be moved into its rightful place within the evolution of the population that seeks so earnestly for that which has always rested within each heart awaiting the earnest pilgrim.

Questioner seems to be asking about gathering with others in a community where the goal would be to help people polarize in service to others. Q’uo said that it was truly helpful to gather together with others and become a beacon of light upon the Earth and help the entire population to learn the lessons of love. In 83.17, Ra made the same type of statement:

Questioner: Could you expand on what you mean by that interaction of polarized entities in piercing the veil?

Ra: I am Ra. We shall state two items of note. The first is the extreme potential for polarization in the relationship of two polarized entities which have embarked upon the service-to-others path or, in some few cases, the service-to-self path. Secondly, we would note that effect which we have learned to call the doubling effect. Those of like mind which together seek shall far more surely find.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: We thank you for your blessing.

Carla: I would like to ask if there is a need for [inaudible] Q’uo?

I am Q’uo, and we feel that though the energy of the group begins to wane that there is enough energy and harmony for the remaining queries.

Carla: OK.

Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Is it much easier living in amongst a community of like minded souls, [inaudible] energy for polarization of [inaudible] takes place much easier?

I am Q’uo, and as you are aware from your own experience, my brother, and the experience of so many others within your community, such a community is a great aid to each seeker that is part of it, for those who of like mind together seek shall far more surely find.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: From scriptures, various scriptures, [inaudible] particularly those scriptures revealed to [inaudible], that in different ages a different process of self-realization is recommended, and that in this particular age, creative [inaudible], the recommended process is to attempt the calling [upon] the name of God. How do you perceive this, how could we [inaudible] enlighten others, [inaudible] of thanksgiving [inaudible] culture, and possibly within other traditions in the world?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Each entity, as it enters the incarnation, has placed before it a pattern of experience that will allow it to learn those lessons which have not been well learned in previous experiences, and will then allow it to take these learnings and share with others as one who teaches.

Thus, learning and service lies before each entity as it enters the incarnational pattern.

However, there is the necessity, in order for the learning to occur in the most efficacious manner, for the entity to pass through that which you may call the veil of forgetting, so that only the most basic remembering occurs within the incarnation. The incarnation then becomes a process of discovery of seeking that which is mysterious, that which is hidden, that which has a price and that which, when discovered, also has the reward, the broadening of the perspective, the point of view, the ability to accept, to love.

However, each entity has the incarnational personality which is, relative to the soul, undisciplined and within the Earthly illusion subject to distraction, temptations and, shall we say, some degree of laziness. Thus, it is necessary for each entity in some manner to discipline the personality.

There are various ways of doing this disciplining of the personality. There are traditions within each culture, and within each religious heritage, that have called upon those practices which you have mentioned as being most helpful for the primary, or foundation discipline, for each entity that seeks to learn those lessons that are appropriate to it and to share them then with others as a service to others and to the one Creator within all. The chanting, the use of various devotional songs, dances and other rituals are most helpful in beginning this process of disciplining so that the expenditure of the inpouring prana, or cosmic energy, may be most efficiently accomplished, for this energy is much like the power of the water that moves through the hose. If the nozzle of the hose is turned in such a fashion as to cause the diffusion of the water to move through in a spray there is little power achieved. However, if the nozzle or the attention is turned in such a fashion as to cause the water to move in a small, boring, forceful fashion, then there is far greater power possible to achieve with such a focus.

Thus it is with the focus of consciousness. If the entity is able to discipline the personality to such a degree, then it is able to move in greater harmony with the cosmic energies that are available to it and to utilize these energies in the accomplishing of those lessons and the giving of those services which are the entity’s incarnational pattern.

Questioner seems to be asking if the various methods of calling upon the name of God evolved through time in a manner that enhanced the ability of achieving self-realization. Q’uo began their response by saying that each person will have pre-incarnative plans that will require a disciplining of its personality so that it can begin to learn the lessons of love through various means such as chanting, songs, and dances. Then Q’uo said that when an entity is able to refine the discipline of the personality it may move in greater harmony with the cosmic energies that allow it to learn its pre-incarnative lessons. On May 6, 2017, Q’uo revealed how we may utilize our cosmic energies:

When you have both intellectually and emotionally attempted to grasp the nature of your interaction with another self, or other selves, or portions of the scenery, shall we say, of the picture on the stage, then it is very possible that you will have a hunch, a flash, an intuitional inspiration that will reveal to you a kind of understanding, if we may misuse this term, which is most likely to be more accurate in its overall assessment of the value of a certain interpretation of the events you have just experienced. For the intuition is that which moves down the trunk of the tree of mind, going from the conscious to the subconscious, and even further, to the cosmic energies to which you are connected in the universe as a totality. For each entity, as you well know, is a portion of the One Creator, which has connections to all of the creation. Thus, those who have relied upon this inner knowing, or intuition, for a large portion of their life experience, have developed a tool which is quite accurate in its ability to apprehend the significance of your interactions with all other entities and portions of your environment.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: I have a query. The names of God which we repeat [inaudible], we tend to focus on to align and balance our being in harmony with divine will, are spoken of as being absolute in nature, they are non-different from the Creator Himself. Are you able, from your density, can you perceive that absolute nature in the sound vibration? For example, Krishna, or Allah, or Adonai?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The one Creator is described by various sound vibration complexes in order to cause a certain facet of the one Creator to vibrate in resonance with the entity calling the Creator’s name. It is our humble experience to partake in this seeking process, and it has been our experience that, though many names reflect many different facets of that one jewel that is the Creator, that there is no one name which can capture all of the essence of the one Creator which is mysterious and beyond capture, shall we say.

Each name, however, allows a certain sacred quality to be awakened within the seeker which vibrates the name. This harmonic resonance, then, begins its work in the appropriate energy center or chakra within the seeker and calls forth from the seeker that quality which is embodied in the name of the Creator which it vibrates. Thus, when properly vibrated within the seeker it is as though the creation sings. This vibrational quality is that which each seeks as it vibrates whatever name of the Creator is sacred to it, or is utilized by it at a certain time in order to enhance that quality within the seeker.

Now Questioner wanted to know if the various names that his group has used to express the nature of the Creator are accurate in their description of the Creator. Q’uo responded by saying that the many names that have been used to speak of the Creator are all sharing one facet of the jewel of the Creator, but no name could capture the total essence of the Creator which includes mystery. Q’uo went on to say that when the seeker vibrates the name of the Creator that has meaning for it, that there is a harmonic resonance that is created within the appropriate energy center within it, and then the “creation sings” for that seeker. In 75.26-.27, Ra gave an example of how this might occur:

Questioner: You spoke in a previous session about certain Hebrew and Sanskrit sound vibratory complexes being powerful because they were mathematically related to that which was the creation. Could you expand on this understanding, please, as to how these are linked?

Ra: I am Ra. As we previously stated the linkage is mathematical or that of the ratio. You may consider it musical. There are those whose mind complex activities would attempt to resolve this mathematical ratio but at present the coloration of the intoned vowel is part of the vibration which cannot be accurately measured. However, it is equivalent to types of rotation of your primary material particles.

Questioner: If these sounds are precisely vibrated then what effect or use would they have with respect to the purposes of the adept?

Ra: I am Ra. You may consider the concept of sympathetic resonance. When certain sounds are correctly vibrated, the creation sings.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Carla: I have one. I [inaudible], and other people have to suffer so hard, [inaudible] confused, [inaudible], and live so long [inaudible]?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. There are many qualities for each entity which are either well expressed or poorly expressed depending upon the incarnational pattern that has been chosen and the incarnational patterns that have been utilized previous to this incarnation. Thus, some entities bring into succeeding incarnations those talents which have been well developed, those which have been reasonably well developed and those which yet await development. Each entity will have an unique pattern to pursue during each incarnation. The hallmark of an infinite Creator is variety; therefore, one may expect to find an unique pattern of experience, of lessons and of services within each seeker of truth. Thus, each need not be the same to be equal in will and in faith.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No, no really, I just [inaudible] why some people have [inaudible] because they can’t deny their faith, while other people, [inaudible] hope [inaudible]. Perhaps could it be that some types of faith [inaudible], just different types of faith?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. In some cases this is so. However, it is more generally the case that as each school will have the beginning, the middle and the higher grades within it, there are students for each grade, and each student will pursue a different course of study, in many cases while being within the same school. There are those who have learned some lessons well, and have not learned others as well. These are their challenges; these are their path; these become their service. Each learns at his or her own pace. Thus, each may serve as teacher to another that travels the same path.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you very much, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Questioner: Can we engage in some chanting together?

I am Q’uo, and we would recommend that this would be well. We would suggest, however, that the channeling portion of this meditation be completed.

Questioner: [Inaudible]?

I am Q’uo. We have chosen this vibration for this particular group. It is spelled in your English language with a “Q,” then your apostrophe, followed by a “U” and an “O.” This group was curious as to the meaning of this vibration and after some period of time asked us about it, and we responded that we have chosen this vibration for this particular group in order to cause it to ask “Who was Q’uo”, for within your Latin language it was discovered by this group that “quo” was “who.” We are an amalgamation of two social memory complexes or races of beings which have answered the call of this group and which takes great delight in being able to speak through the instruments in this group and be of whatever aid is possible for us within your illusion.

At this time we shall take our leave of this group while watching, shall we say, and partaking in our own way with your chanting. We leave each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I ran a few errands with my first stop being at PNC Bank to make a case withdrawal. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. And my last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up a prescription and some non-food items.

This afternoon I used my tamping rod to tamp down the dirt on the three sides of the basement where I have placed dirt six inches high at the wall and tapering down to the ground three feet away. This is supposed to keep water from seeping into the basement, but the recent cold weather caused the dirt to separate from the wall. The tamping down of the dirt will, hopefully, now keep the water from rain from seeping into the basement.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 29

Praise You Like A River

I am of the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

Open your eyes and praise the good and bounteous Creator.

Open your heart and find the cause for praise in all that you see. Every dead branch that litters the ground is but a symbol of the health of the tree. Thus those things which seem to be un-praiseworthy are, indeed, cause for thanksgiving.

Just so, your feet are to be praised as they walk upon the road of life. And the road of life is to be praised for holding your being, cradling your consciousness, and opening up eyes that see not only the good in those things beautiful to the eye but the praiseworthy aspects of those things which may seem lesser.

See the pruning of the Father’s universe and praise the good Maker of the peaceful, harmonious and sacrificial plan of change, development, maturity and illumination.

In the end, as you see with eyes of praise, you shall be transparent and praise shall flow from you like a river as it flows into you by your prayer.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 21, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with free will. We know from the experience of others and from our own experience that the power of our will, when focused, is great, perhaps the greatest power in the universe. Considering the extreme power of the will, why is it that we do not automatically and always polarize towards service to each other and the seeking of the Creator and the serving of the Creator? Why is it that we have to work our way through so many, it seems to be, difficult choices, choices off the path of service, choices that seem to be other than service to others, realization of the self and realization of the Creator in all?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. It gives me great pleasure to greet each of you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are so grateful to you for allowing us to share your meditation and your thoughts, and for calling us to speak upon this question. We will attempt to keep this instrument speaking loudly enough for all to hear, and would ask that any unheard words be questioned for repetition, as this instrument’s voice is not naturally very loud. We also ask a favor of you. We ask you to take our words lightly, for we are not authorities, but pilgrims as you are. The mystery that fascinates all seekers recedes infinitely ahead of us and you. We have been upon your path, and perhaps we are more experienced that you, but we are completely equal, and completely full of knowledge, each equal to each, for all are one, and only one, creative thing, love, created into manifestation by the use of light. This is why we greet you in love and light, for that is all that there is; the rest is illusion.

We come to these questions wishing to step with careful feet, for it is a central question, a guiding question, and we could expend more time upon it by far than this instrument prefers. We will, however, attempt to heed this instrument’s request for brevity.

Let us begin by laying the foundation for our response to your query, always remembering, please, that each person has a personal truth. Some truths are ageless, and some have their age and then fall away to a greater point of view. Thus, take all that we say, and toss away without a thought that which does not strike within you recognition, for you do not learn wisdom and love, you only encounter the catalyst to remember it. It is all within yourself.

It is our understanding that each spirit, or soul, or entity, according to the vocabulary, is created prior to any stage for manifestation. It is created by the action of free will upon an infinite but tiny portion of the vast infinity of intelligence. This intelligence, were it to have a name besides Creator, indicating One Original Thought, would be Love. However, a Love of such a fiery, creative, disturbing and magnificent nature can never be confined by language, so we must make do with the pale shadow of the reality of this Logos, this Creator.

The method of this creation was to place finity within the infinite. Thus, a spark of love was given an infinite and equal spark of free will. We realize that these are paradoxes, and have no choice but to say them anyway. Again, your language has its limitations. Just as love is infinitely and ever the same, so is free will infinitely and ever various. Thusly, although each of you is as a snowflake, unique in pattern and color, so are each of you snowfall, and part of the whole cycle of the year that you experience as your island home circles about your sun.

Equipped with free will, you set forth on a journey through illusions. These illusions, in our understanding, make use of the illusion of time, so that lessons may be taken in order, and all possible aid given to each density of light, or classroom. The first density is that of being—the earth, the air, the fire and the water. Consciousness first rests there, and awakens to its surroundings, is warmed by the sun, is blown by the wind, and gradually each spark becomes aware that there is a darkness and a light, and it conceives of the idea of movement because it is attracted to the light.

And so comes the second density, as the elements grow in consciousness and become capable of expressing the Creator. As they express the Creator they express perfect service, a beautiful and complex dance of bird and butterfly, leaf, flower, the breathing out of that which you breathe in, the breathing in of that which you breathe out. More and more in second density do entities begin to become more than instinctual, more than creatures of love and service and instinct, to begin to be aware of themselves, usually, because third density entities have ministered unto them and loved them.

And when they have learned the instinct of turning to the light, their graduation is at hand and they become self-conscious sparks of the infinite One. But in this grade, and only in this grade or density, is there a brevity of the time allowed for learning, and a great veil drawn across most of the mind. It is intended that this illusion be so heavy, so earthy, so entrancing and distracting, that it would be completely obvious to the casual observer that we are brief incandescent beings, alive so little and dead so soon.

At this point the entity is asleep to the choice that is the business of this density, the making of the choice. For you see, there are two paths to the Creator; they are both valid. We do not teach the path of negativity, often called the path of the left hand, or by us the path which is not. It is, however, a valid path, though very difficult compared to the service-to-others, or positive, or radiant path. This choice must be made blindly. Thus, there will never be, has never been, and is never any objective proof, that is, objective enough to be objective to a scientist, of the possibility of anything but that which can be felt by the senses by a living entity using the senses that limit it. It is in this darkness, by blind faith alone, that a leap is taken from the safety of sleep to the risk of being awake.

The group question for this session was when we realize that we all have the power of free will to use every day, why is it that we do not automatically and always polarize in service to others and to the Creator? Why do we so frequently face difficult choices as to how to live our lives in service to others and be able to see the Creator in all? Q’uo began their answer by giving an overview of the nature of our evolution to the third density. They said that each of us is a spark of the Love or the Creator, and that our love is constant whereas the free will that we have been given by the Creator is infinitely various. Thusly we begin our journey through the illusion of time in the first density of earth, air, fire, and water where we have simple consciousness or awareness. Then, in the second density, we grow in consciousness, begin to turn toward the light, and eventually become self-conscious third density beings that have a veil of forgetting drawn between the conscious and subconscious mind that will give us the opportunity to make the choice of service to others or service to self. However, Q’uo said that there is no proof that we are here to make this choice, and we have to exercise blind faith to move from the safety of sleep to the risk of being awake as conscious seekers of truth. On September 17, 1995, Q’uo described how we arrive in third density to make the choice between service to others or to the self:

As the line of light continues to move upward, the spirit complex is added to those individualized portions of the one Creator which have been able to give and receive the concept that you know of as love in sufficient degree to so individualize the entity that it is ready to add the spirit complex and thus have the completion of complexes available for the free will choice of third density as to the positive or negative—so-called—paths of continued evolution. At this point within third density, in most cases, the soul then comes into being in its fullness.

Now, each of you knows the sacrifices that he has made to be listening, or reading, these words, not that we are the prize, but that only those who truly are seeking would be interested in what we have to say. Most entities are not highly oriented toward thinking, feeling or dreaming the ideal within your culture. Your culture is highly situational in its ethics. It is a culture in which the end always justifies the means, and within the illusion there is little observable justice or truth.

This is not the Creator’s idea of either a dirty trick or the way things should be, but rather a carefully planned schoolroom. You may leave your rulers, your protractors, your pencils and paper at home, for this is the lesson of abundant life, and homework is written in the heart, sometimes in true blood. Each of you has painfully come awake, and made the choice to search. You have not stayed in the garden. You have chosen to come forth and experience, and out of this experience you begin to see what is obvious to you now, that was at first perhaps a shadow compared to that which is the star of your life now. You have encouraged yourself and others.

Now, the lesson of this density and the choice you are to make is all about loving. One may love in one of two paths: loving the Creator by serving others, or loving the Creator by serving the self, and manipulating and controlling others that the self may be aggrandized, and as the self is aggrandized, so all glory is given to the Creator. We teach the positive, or service-to-others, path. We believe that this choice of service to others offers the swiftest road of spiritual evolution, spiritual evolution being evolution itself, from this time forward, as you have completed the evolution of the particular physical vehicle in which you move about at this time.

Let us glance ahead, for this too begins to explain why relatively few entities seem hungry for the food that satisfies each of you so, so well. Looking forward, we see in the next grade, or density of light, a density called the love or understanding density, in which the lessons of love are perfected, and there is study of the lessons of wisdom.

At the end of this density, graduation moves into a density in which the ways of wisdom are perfected, and the ways of learning compassionate wisdom begun. And when an entity has graduated from this density, the next classroom is the classroom of unity, where the lessons of compassionate wisdom are perfected, and the return to the Creator begun.

Graduation out of this density moves into the seventh density or grade, which is the grade during which the entity makes its final preparations as social individuals, or social memory complexes, offers its best back to the Higher Self of its third-density self, and gains enough spiritual gravity to be pulled into the unmanifest, where you are no longer the snowflake, but part of the snow; no longer the bubble, but part of the sea.

And creation beats its heart, and rests in timelessness until the next creation. And what the next creation will be, we do not know, though we have had brief acquaintance with those few who move from creation to creation. Of those we cannot speak except to say they exist.

This, you see, is the path of spiritual evolution. Thusly, in your grade or density of light, your interest as a spiritual seeker is in tuning into love. Love, that much misunderstood word, in our definition, is unconditional. It does not judge; it only supports and appreciates, listens and has patience, consoles and pardons. Does love do this because of what it has given the entity in third density? No. If this were so, then all would be saints, and free will would not be to be reckoned with as it is, for free will begins as willfulness—it is completely various, unpredictable. It is an absolute, just as love is an absolute; they are given to you equally.

As long as the entity is willing to get along, to be asleep, it may be very comfortable. It has not polarized, of course, because it does not value sacrifice, and to polarize by serving others seems, to those who have not yet done it, a very hard task compared to pleasing the self one way or another. But for everyone there comes a moment, and one must wait for that moment in all cases, when the soul must awaken for that individual, in the rhythm of that individual’s destiny and story. And in that moment the choice becomes clear—to serve the self, or to serve others; to be put simplistically, as so many of your society would, good, or bad. Except that there is no good or bad. Realizations such as this continually rock the foundations of the seeker’s cultural conditioning.

Think about this for a moment or two. What is your cultural conditioning? Were you taught the value of love by those who were your first teachers? Were you face to face daily with worship and joy and peace? Is there aught in this society that seems to be worshipped but vain idols: money, power, position, genius? Who are the healers? Were the carefullest health lovers correct, the highest and most advanced beings would all be splendidly athletic. Somehow, that is not often the manifestation of love, for love is of the heart, and those who have learned to offer not their love, which is finite, and which is in short supply in any third density entity, but the love of the Father that flows through the seeker who is open and has emptied itself out, then that love becomes the love that is available for the seeker to manifest.

Then has that seeker begun its life’s work, lightening the consciousness of this planet at this time. No matter what dramatic talents and gifts he may possess, no matter how well one may do anything that is manifest, the greatest service in this density of the search for the lessons of love is being itself. Your essence—to put it another way, your magical personality, or to put it another way, your metaphysical reality as a light and imperishable being—is completely at the mercy of illusion here.

So, you see it is intended that this choice be difficult, and that the rewards of service to others, the rewards of a servant of all, never be guessed at until after the fact. For you, and almost all entities, are born into the world in a state of utter and complete forgetting of who they are, whence they came, whither they go. The nature of the Creator or their relationship to the Creator, or even of their own nature—all of these things are unknown. And it is against this backdrop of unknowing, of scenes occurring which begin to test the individual’s ability to love, that the drama, which stars, you, which has as its chief critic, you, which has as designer of sets and costumes and props, you, which has as its author, you, begins its act upon the stage, which is this illusion. You have free will, but that does not necessarily mean that you understand the free will.

It is not easy to understand that you are not this being or that being, not this self that has so many idiosyncrasies, but under different circumstances would be anywhere within the 360 degrees of third-density activity and manifestation. Who is the killer, who is the rapist, who is the forgetful parent, who is the man of war, but you, and you, and I, and all of us? The essence of the reason that you are not given an instinct for purity is in this understanding of free will. The discipline of the personality is the greatest tool for coming to understand and to forgive the 360 degree self, to acknowledge and love that self, that self that must be loved. This is a key that many miss. You must love yourself; you must forgive yourself for the thoughts that you have thought, the errors that you have made, those things you wish you had done but did not. Subjectively, you feel that these make you unworthy. You could be anything about you that you choose not to like about yourself, and to that extent you fail to love the Creator, the creation, in all of its love, all of its Christ, all of its holiness.

Now Q’uo said that in the third density we have to eventually awaken from our cultural conditioning and begin the process of making the choice of serving others or the self. They suggested that this choice was the beginning of a long journey through the fourth density of love and understanding, and then into the fifth density of wisdom, followed by the sixth density of the balance of love and wisdom, and then the seventh density of foreverness that is the prelude to the complete melding of all of our social memory complexes into the totality of the One Creator. Then Q’uo turned their thoughts back to the third density where we are learning the lessons of love, to listen, to pardon, to sacrifice, and to find the love of the Father and let it flow through us. They said this is our life’s mission: to discover our true selves as what could be called our magical personality or metaphysical self. They said that we are actors upon the stage, and as we learn to love and forgive ourselves and others we are becoming the 360 degree being that is the one Creator. On November 26, 1989, Q’uo described the nature of our true selves:

Those such as we may speak words which inspire or aid or otherwise enable entities to know more and more of their true selves. This work is done internally and in the company of intimate friends, mates, children, and other family. If one deals with one’s own life situation by the use of logic, intellect and cleverness, one shall fall short of one’s own desires, for the intellect is intended to be your servant, not your master. In the same way are your deeper feelings to be tools, resources and instruments for your spiritual evolution, not carrying complete authority, but substantially worthwhile to seek out and to hear and to feel.

Now, how does one discipline the personality? Our brother spoke most beautifully upon the subject. It is most difficult to live with complete freedom and always to make what you would subjectively feel to be the correct decision. One of the great traits of the seeker is its persistence, for gathered persistence is absolutely necessary, for the failures self-perceived, not perceived by anyone but you, seem so many, and if you do not forgive yourself, how can you expect to forgive others, and how can you bless others if you do not forgive, if you do not feel healing love pouring from you? Whether this entity is known to you or unknown, whether this entity may be subjectively described as friend or enemy, the same love is needed by all. For the needs and the behavior caused by the variousness of free will, and the variousness of man’s understanding of it, there is love, and only love, and it is always and ever the same creative Original Thought.

Thus, in a dark time and in the shadow of death that you call life, you seek to forgive, and pardon, and love, and turn darkness into light wherever you see the way, and to serve, if not to please. You may all be judged because you do not please, but those who wish to serve often do not please, and if you are reviled for your love of the Creator, then you have done something right, and you are beginning to create the catalyst for fear among people that are already fearful, because they do not wish to change, because change is uncomfortable.

Pilgrims upon the path of seeking are always uncomfortable, always changing, always seeking. One cannot say to another, “Come with me on this journey, it will be all rose petals and ambrosia, there will be nothing but good times, for the Creator is love.” The best that you can say is, “Come suffer with me until we learn that there is no such thing as suffering, but only pain, and not my pain and not your pain. Come die with me, that we all may live. Come, let us empty ourselves of self, that we may be earthen vessels filled with treasure, dust in the presence of the Creator.”

You are on holy ground at this moment. Let us pause, that we may share this ecstasy.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo. I am Q’uo, and we thank you for that incandescent experience. It is a joy to be with you.

The first choice that one makes may be seen to be the fulcrum, or the crux upon which the remainder, not only of this incarnation, but of many, will depend, and each pilgrim knows that that first choice is the hard one, for it must be made with no prior experience. It is not until some time has been spent, on faith alone, attempting to live in faith, and by that we do not mean a belief, but simple faith, faith that the Creator is love, that we were created out of love and because we are loved, and because we were loved first it is natural to love in return, faith that anything that occurs is part of the lesson of love, and offers us opportunity.

When you are stymied, and your free will wishes to circumnavigate a situation, allow the choices you have made to polarize toward service to others to make you strong in your will. Allow yourself to remember your previous choices, and how, although they seemed hard, they were one hundred and one thousandfold rewarding. For it is not until there has been some time spent in sheer persistence of effort to listen to the will of the Creator that there comes a hunger for that silence that speaks louder than any words.

In a lifetime of choices you forged in yourself a life of faith, a gift for your Father, the gift of a poem, of a tapestry, rich, lovely, filled with high ideals and high hopes, against all odds, filled not with happiness, for only those things that turn to dust are happy things, but filled instead with joy, joy within sorrow, sorrow within joy, until you are blissful, and gentle, and willfulness had become willingness to love and serve the Creator and the Creator in every person.

Subjectively then, you begin to be rewarded only after you have made your choice; that is the cause of the illusion’s being this heavy, this thick, this opaque. The Creator, in giving free will, gave it without stint.

There are hints in one’s own deepest inward thoughts, in the very nature of this very polarized environment in which you live with hot and cold, winter and summer, light and dark. But they do not speak unless you wish to listen. And as you listen, and as you change, you must change so much of yourself, that which seems to be your self, that is, in reality, the programs that your own brain/computer has set in place for your survival, shaped by the culture which has almost no impulse towards holy things of the Creator, but only towards beautiful things of man. The spirit within must sense its own reality, and choose freely what seems to be the great sacrifice of taking up the cross, the carrying on of the endless journey that ends by the water, the water of life, crystalline love.

Now Q’uo suggested how we can discipline our personality, when there are so many self-perceived failures that require us to utilize persistence on our spiritual journey, that we may forgive ourselves and, thereby, we can forgive others. They said that our spiritual paths will be full of the pain of change, but dealing with such suffering will help us to empty ourselves so that we may allow the love of the Creator to flow through us. Then Q’uo said that we can live our lives in the faith that we are created by the Love of the Creator, and that we can love others and have the faith that whatever occurs to us gives us the chance to learn our lessons of love, and also to serve the Creator in every person that we meet. Then Q’uo said that we should go within to listen for the will of the Creator so that we are constantly changing and moving forward on our spiritual paths. Q’uo said that the spirit within us must sense its own reality, and then our spiritual journey will end at the waters of life:  crystalline love. On February 28, 2009, Q’uo described the way that the spirit within us can show us its own reality:

However, the inner life, the life of the spirit within, is held in place at first by the tacit acceptance of what each other entity in the surrounding milieu accepts, and then by the perpetuation of that acceptance. This instrument uses the phrase “thinking outside the box.” Within the inner life you begin with a box which consists of all the suppositions you have accepted as true. Within this box are many systems and subsystems, all with their perpetuating energy. As you begin to loosen yourself from the suppositions with which you began your inner life, you gently and sometimes abruptly step outside the box. You are then free to the extent you are able to take advantage of this increased awareness to alter the way energy works within your particular inner world. Then the limitations of your environment are those chosen by you.

We have spoken longer than this instrument requested. We hope, not too much longer, and we ask all of your forgiveness. We have a poor concept of your time. We would, however, cease speaking through this instrument with thanks to it, and, if the one known as Jim is available, we would like to transfer to this instrument in order to close the meeting. In love and in light I leave this instrument. I am known to you as Q’uo.

This morning Anna and I listened to Session #11 of the Ra contact. The primary theme of this session dealt with the concept of service-to-self and a few of the entities from Earth who had harvested themselves in the negative polarity. The sound quality of this session was the best yet. I am not sure why the first few sessions did not have the clarity that this one did. As I remember, the rest of the sessions should have this same clear quality of sound.

This afternoon I cleaned the filters for the fountain in the fish pond. Due to the recent cold weather I hadn’t done this for a while, so I was glad to get this work done today.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 28

The Winter Of Your Soul

I am the spirit of God in Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

How easy it is in the winter time to abandon the natural world as a source of inspiration, understanding and joy. For your feet touch not the holy ground but, rather, the manmade floors of inner rooms. Your faces feel not the keen sting of cold winds except as you hurry from enclosure to enclosure. And you can hear not, through the thick windows that guard your heat, the many sounds of living creatures rejoicing in their lives.

So it is in the winter time that man does not emulate the tree which puts its roots down into the cold and frozen ground, trusting in the deeper waters of food, nourishment and nurture. For it does not seem that the Creator could possibly intend this season to be blessed.

Yet you, yourselves, are like a tree, and we urge you this day to plant your winter feet upon the frozen ground, trusting as you do so that the living energy of holy ground may, through contact, become yours, that you may have the sense of the dark and secret roots of winter trees gathering, in quietness, all those nutrients in preparation for the time when the soil shall be soft and the wind and sun gentle.

In winter you are a winter flower. Do not cut yourself off from the creation but rejoice with all that you are in the blessedness and sanctity of every portion of your environment, for you shall find strength from the knowledge that you cannot walk except in goodness and light.

May you have faith in the winter of your soul that all is well, that roots are moving down, collecting nourishment and preparing in timeless, steady fashion for the blooming of joy and beauty that shall come through you in the next springtime of your life cycle.

We wish you merriment and the thawing of the frozen heart, both this day and forever. Peace to you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 7, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. At this time we would ask if we may speak to any queries which may yet remain unresolved within the circle of seeking.

K: What comfort may be taken when an animal, either companion or wild, dies an untimely death through chance?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. One may see the return of the second density spirit to that great pool of consciousness from which it came. As like unto the return of water from your oceans to the skies that may form there into the clouds to fall again upon your land masses causing growth in second-density plants, the return of a spirit from incarnated state is a portion of the rhythm of life as you know it within your third-density illusion.

One may take joy in knowing that the animal entity has lived its life fully, for it knows no other way to live. It does not hinder and restrict itself in ways that are created by mental activity that is distorted in one fashion or another, more or less helpful to an entity’s progress, for the second density entity is free of such machinations, and has instead the instinctual activity of a being which is as it is without compromise.

When one sees that such an entity has passed from the incarnation, one may give praise and thanksgiving that it has returned this energy to the Creator to again be formed at another time and at another opportunity into yet another creature that is somehow enabled by all previous creatures’ experience and their contributions to those energy patterns that you call the life, so that further life may generate from this energy and move forward in the great expression of the one Creator through the infinite variety of the one creation.

K asked what happened to animals that were either a companion or wild when they died? Q’uo responded by saying that we can feel joy that any such animal has lived its life fully as there is no other way for them to live since they are not involved in distorting mental activity.  Then Q’uo said that such animals would return to the Creator and the gene pool of their species, and at some future time they would incarnate again. In 20.3, Ra speaks about this gene pool of the second density species:

Questioner: So more and more second-density entities are making it into third density. Can you give me an example of a second-density entity coming into third density, say, in the recent past?

Ra: I am Ra. Perhaps the most common occurrence of second-density graduation during third-density cycle is the so-called pet.

The animal which is exposed to the individualizing influences of the bond between animal and third-density entity, this individuation causes a sharp rise in the potential of the second-density entity so that upon the cessation of physical complex the mind/body complex does not return unto the undifferentiated consciousness of that species, if you will.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

K: Not right now, thank you.

Carla: Does the unself-conscious second density entity suffer when [inaudible]?

I am Q’uo. We may say that any creature which feels pain suffers that pain, for pain is not a state which is easy to accept for any entity with flesh, blood and breath. Yet the kind of suffering which those second density entities upon your planetary experience is a purer suffering, one which does not have mental connotations or distortions placed upon it. There is no grieving for the self, there is no grieving for another, there is no blame for the self or for another. There are none of those emotional attachments that many of your third-density entities place with the experience of pain. Rather, it is as pure an experience of pain as the life pattern is a pure expression of the energy of the animal as it is.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: I have one that I would like to ask, but I want to make sure that all the other questions are asked first.

K: If an animal is suffering due to illness, due to terminal illness, is it interfering with its working out of its own life patterns to put an end to its suffering by ending its incarnation?

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I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. We speak now to the query of the shortening of the time of suffering for the second density creature which experiences the illness which is in all probability that final illness for the life of the creature. We may suggest that this is an area in which one’s own philosophy of life plays the greatest portion, for to the entity that suffers the terminal illness, there is the limiting of the ability to live the normal life of its kind. This it recognizes in only a very simple manner, much as you would feel the addition of greater and greater weights upon your shoulders if you were asked to carry such about with you and could not remove them but had to endure the added weight as you moved about your daily activities.

The animal, therefore, does not in most cases bemoan its fate, but does what is possible within the new set of circumstances, and expresses itself and uses this opportunity to the fullest extent.

However, that quality of compassion that is the hallmark of the beginning third-density lessons oftentimes will, for the third-density entity which loves the pet that is dying, express itself within the third-density entity in a desire to relieve that which is seen as suffering, that which is pain to the creature, and because of the great desire to aid the pet, then the action is taken to terminate the life within your illusion so that there might be a cessation of the pain for the second-density creature.

We can suggest that this can be seen in a number of ways, depending upon one’s sensitivities, and that there is good argument, as you would state it in your illusion, for proceeding along the path of terminating the life as well as proceeding along the path of spending time in shared love with the creature that begins its slow departure from the life experience. In either instance, the overriding principle is the intention to share love in as great a facility as possible.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: Are second-density creatures capable of any type of karmic connection in and among themselves or originating from themselves, connecting to third-density entities rather than the other way?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. In the most successful cases of investment by a third-density entity of a second-density pet, this is indeed so, for the bond of love which has been awakened between the two entities, and oftentimes awakened for the first time within the second-density creature, is that bond which will often tie these entities together until the second-density entity has been invested to the degree necessary for graduation into the third density.

Thus, you see many times the reappearance within the life pattern of the pets that have been in association with the third-density entity previously in this incarnation and in previous lifetimes. Thus, the bond of love brings these entities together time and again in the same way that the bond of love will bring together third-density entities many times in order that the overall karmic patterns may run their full course, that is, allow biases of one kind to be developed and then balanced over a period of many lifetimes.

Now K asked if pets could connect themselves in a karmic way with their owners. Q’uo said that it was definitely possible that pets may have been connected with their owners in more than one lifetime by the bond of love for their owners and their owners for them until the pet is able to graduate into the third density. In 14.1, Ra spoke of this type of situation for pets and owners:

Questioner: Going back over this morning’s work, [inaudible]. You said the second density strives towards the third density which is the density of self-consciousness or self-awareness. The striving takes place through higher second-density forms invested by third-density beings. Could you explain what you mean by this?

Ra: I am Ra. Much as you would put on a vestment, so do your third-density beings invest or clothe some second-density beings with self-awareness. This is often done through the opportunity of what you call pets. It has also been done by various other means of investiture. These include many so-called religious practice complexes which personify and send love to various natural second-density beings in their group form.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: Is there ever continuing contact between the second-density entity that is harvested into third density? Is there any contact after the harvesting into third density with its previous third-density owner/companion/protector?

I am Q’uo, and though this is possible and occasionally occurs within the third-density space/time continuum, more often the continuing connection occurs as the third-density entity which has invested the entity that is newly third-density will take the form of the guide or teacher that operates from time/space as the new third-density entity enters the space/time incarnational nexus.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: No, I think I’m done for now. Thank you.

Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have one which you may not be able to answer except generally, but I will accept any comment which you wish to give. I have sensed that I have had, recently, for the last few months, when challenging you, it seemed that at first I hear—I don’t actually hear it, but I perceive a rather fuzzy, not-quite-right identification. I’ve done a lot of thinking about this, and I’ve finally come up with a thought about it, which is, that since you are a principle made up of Latwii and of Ra, and because I know that in the past Latwii was able to aid me in averting psychic greeting by the fifth-density negative entity which is observing this group, and has been for many years, I felt that it is possible that the fifth-density negative entity—which is not quite as powerful as Latwii, but close—might be attempting to piggyback, having come through the quarantine and being able to work in thought as it will.

This evening I quite fervently stated that, in my mind, as my opinion, when I heard the muffled first, “I am Q’uo,” and specifically suggested to the negative entity that I was upon a cross, that my hands were nailed, and that I was dying to save mankind. This is the most heartfelt and firm mode of challenging that I know at this point. The result seemed instantaneous, and the contact has seemed quite clear and quite crisp since. Can you confirm my supposition as to what has been occurring [inaudible], and the appropriateness of my dealing with it?

I am Q’uo. In a word, yes. We are pleased that you have perceived this situation with great clarity. It is one which is unusual in that there are few groups that have had access built into them by such entities and had this access available so often, and which have been able to avoid the influence of such an entity and its minions for a significant portion of your space/time experience. We also commend your response to such greetings, for this is the heart of your self and your purpose, and is well-stated in the manner which you have chosen. We feel you are accomplishing the necessary tuning and challenging to a great degree, and we thank you for your conscientiousness and recommend it for all future workings.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Just a theoretical one. I know that my nature is that of a martyr. I approve of that. I have consciously decided not to change that. One of the things that comes very easily to me is that I would gladly die to save others. Could anyone do what Christ did, who had a pure enough path of service and felt strongly and utterly faithful about the possibilities of such a path?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The willingness to give of the self to the degree that one gives all, one gives one’s life, is a willingness which, though rarely expressed within your illusion, is a possibility to all who inhabit your illusion, given the appropriate circumstances. Oftentimes, within that condition which you call war, there are such acts of bravery and selflessness that one entity shall take the grenade that was meant for comrades, and give its life in so doing.

In lesser expressions of this kind of selfless giving, those called the parents will often sacrifice to a great degree in order that the children of the mating may benefit in some fashion. However, the giving of the life is that which is most often reserved for but few within a life pattern. At some point within each entity’s evolution there will come the opportunity and the willingness to give of the self to that degree, though the giving may not be done in an instant, but may be the giving of the entire life pattern, which may be lengthy, in order that others may benefit, and that which is given to the self is only enough to continue the life pattern. Each third density entity will find a spectrum of possibility available to it in this regard, and the harvestability of the entity draws nigh when the amount willing to be given to others exceeds the amount desired for the self.

Now Carla said that she had chosen the path of the martyr, and would gladly die to save others, and she wanted to know if it was possible for anyone to do what Jesus Christ did. Q’uo replied by saying that there was a full range of the giving of one’s life for others until one reached the point of giving to others more than giving to the self which would signify that the entity could graduate into the fourth density. In 17.31, Ra said gave the same description of the attainment of harvest:

Questioner: In the book Oahspe it states that if an individual is more than fifty percent for others— that is, goes over the 50% service to others, and is less than fifty percent for service to self, then he is harvestable. Is this a correct statement?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct if the harvesting is to be for the positive fourth dimensional level.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: One last one, which ties the two together. It is my supposition that the reason my challenge from the cross has an effect which is the strongest that I know, is due to the fact that I am telling the truth metaphysically, that I would do that. Can you confirm this?

I am Q’uo, and we can indeed confirm this assumption.

Carla: OK, then I continue, as I teach those few who really wish to learn, to be that [inaudible] about their highest ideal. This is an excellent way to develop the personality which can channel and challenge successfully. Can you confirm that?

I am Q’uo, and again we confirm that which is a correct supposition. This is the ideal towards which each instrument moves at its own pace and according to its own internal rhythms. There will be for each instrument the uncovering of deeper and deeper commitment to that which is the essence of its self. Thus, all need not be the same to be equal in will and faith.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. Thank you very much, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we are greatly honored to be able to join this group as we are asked once again. We cannot thank you enough for this honor. We take great pleasure in these moments that we spend with you, for, indeed, to us they are but the blinking of the eye.

At this time we shall take our leave of this group, leaving each, as always, in love and in light, in the power and in the peace of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I made an errand run to Paul’s Fruit Market to pick up some food for myself. Then I stopped in at Walgreen’s Drug Store to place an order for a prescription and pick up a little more food for myself.

This afternoon we had a public channeling meditation, and, as always, I am so impressed with the open-heartedness of the folks who join us and share such inspirational stories in the round robin check-ins that begin our sessions. The questions that they asked Q’uo were focused on how they could move forward in their spiritual journeys from one kind of difficulty or another. I look forward to seeing them again this winter or spring.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 27

Beyond Reason And Comfort

I am the spirit of the consciousness of love, the creative principle of the universe and all that is manifested within it.

To deal with words is to become involved in overstatement and understatement, both of which are unavoidable. And to seem to be rational is a situation we must endure. For the spirit of mighty love is anything but rational. And its strength lies not in man’s ability to reason it out but in the ability of spirit to gaze beyond the reason of man.

Thus it will sometimes seem to you that the spirit is a harsh and unforgiving voice and is perhaps more interested in enriching negative experience than in offering ease and comfort. Yet to be a Comforter is to seek hard times and hard decisions and then to invest such with the consciousness of love. For it is not in comfortable times that a Comforter is needed but during the transformation of difficulty.

We ask you, then, to ask of the spirit not “Why?” but “What?” and “How?” For though we shall not be the voice of reason to you, yet shall the comfort which we do offer be more precious to the seeker than rubies and gold.

In peace we leave you, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 7, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with Reiki energy. Some within the Reiki movement would say that the energy that is used in healing in the Reiki technique is a specific kind of energy that is different from the universal energy that anybody might be able to tap into at any time and use for healing. What we would like to know is, is the Reiki energy any different than this general type of energy that people use for healing, and if it is, what exactly is the difference, and how is it used? May anyone tap into that kind of energy, or must one have the specific Reiki training?

(Carla channeling)

It is with great pleasure that we bless and greet each of you in the love and in the light of the infinite One. We are those of Q’uo, and feel greatly honored to be asked to join in your meditation, and to take a few steps with you upon your path at this time. We are sorry to repeat the same caveat each time that we speak, but each time that we speak it is necessary in order for free will to hold full sway. Beware of listening to these words or any others with an eye to a rigid belief. We could be wrong, indeed, all could be wrong in terms relative to the illusion in which you live, or in terms of your personal needs and truths; perhaps not wrong for us, perhaps not useful to you. Therefore, discriminate carefully in what you take in of what we say, discarding that which does not seem to be half remembered, so that your responses are, “Yes, I recognize that truth.”

This evening the question concerns healing, specifically the Reiki healing, also any form of the laying on of hands. To approach this subject, we must state a few premises upon which we base our opinions. We consider it as an easement rather than doing metaphysical healing work when one self attempts to heal, and perhaps does heal another by the force of his own will and gift. Neither the healer nor the suppliant gains for very long. Often those who heal because of a gift do it simply to make their life more comfortable because, as people value their health, so they value one who makes a poor condition feel much eased. Unless the one to be healed allows the healer of this type to remain within himself, and not take in the implicit demands of such a link betwixt two entities, there can be much deleterious effect upon the healer, for to the healer’s mind there are two selves, one self serving the other self. There is no focus and concentration upon the Creator, the giver of all gifts, the source of all things.

It is a kind of power which is much appreciated, but one who has such power has an extraordinarily difficult task in disciplining himself to refrain from taking upon himself any credit for that which has been given. This is seldom the case. Consequently, the form of healing by natural gift—without the temperament to see the Creator at work in the world through the manifestations of such as he—will always be limited, unable to advance because of a blockage of his own perceptions concerning the separation of himself and the person considered to be ill.

The other difficulty with this type of healing process is that it does not last. An effect is felt by the will of another upon the will of the self. The body of the ill person may respond to the help, but permanence is not something human. Consequently, it is folly to expect a human believing that the power is his can do even as much as we have described; nevertheless, this is so.

The group question for this session was what Reiki healing was, and was it different than the universal healing that anyone could tap into? And could anyone access Reiki healing? Q’uo began their reply by saying that in general any person seeking to heal another person by the power of their own will is creating a problem for itself since it is seeing two selves instead of seeing the Creator healing and being healed. Q’uo also said that this type of healing does not last. In 66.5, Ra spoke of this same situation:

We may note that there are some who use the yellow-ray configuration to transfer energy and this may be done, but the effects are questionable and, with regard to the relationship between the healer, the healing energy, and the seeker, questionable due to the propensity for the seeker to continue requiring such energy transfers without any true healing taking place in the absence of the healer due to the lack of penetration of the armoring shell of which you spoke.

The healing gift which is most prized is a self-healing that is the prerequisite for any type of work in consciousness. It is not necessary that one be perfect, which is fortunate in your density, for you are not designed to look or feel perfect at any time. It is sufficient that you see yourself as a channel through which an infinite amount of energy, power, grace and healing may be offered. You may even see the channeling of that gift as a manifestation of that gift, but not a gift given by the channeler, for the channeler has given itself to the contact. Thus, many healing modes, such as Reiki, do indeed create a catalytic environment in which, through love alone, the protective field of the body is opened, and an opportunity given for the entity to allow itself to heal. Thus, those who train to become healers may work in consciousness much as do those who learn to channel, or simply to do the will of the Creator.

The Reiki healing is of the second kind. Because it is not of this culture that you enjoy, it is difficult for most people of your culture either to practice it or to benefit from it, for it takes a kind of sensibility which is not distracted, but is at peace. Your people are normally greatly overstimulated. There are many people, things, chores and considerations, some of them literally beating the ears, some of them beating the heart that has not forgiven itself. Reiki is designed for those who are able to become quiet and allow themselves, as a hollow pipe, to be used as a catalyst for opening the body’s opportunity for self-healing.

There is no mode of healing that does not benefit many, but those which are desirable are those including Reiki which realize that there is no separation betwixt he who puts hands on the body of the patient, and the patient, for at that time, and with the protection of spiritual guides, the entity drops all barriers, defenses and armor, and makes itself vulnerable, empty and asking, and in humility, it receives the gift it has been given and passes it on, knowing that it is no more responsible for the healing than the water faucet is for the water which comes through it.

The type of healing used in Reiki is especially effective for those whose illnesses are not transitory, but result instead from a chronic mind/body disconnection, blockage or overage of energy at one point or another. It is not specifically so that a Reiki student does not need a living, present teacher. It is, however, the only careful way to learn that which has personal power, or could have personal power distortions, for those who wish to heal must first heal themselves, and by this we do not mean healing of the physical vehicle, but rather a healing which may have the connotation of balance and poise.

The links between mind and body, the psycho and the soma, are well known among your people. Reiki is especially effective when the distress has first been emotional and mental and then has moved into the body complex, because there was no decision to resolve the discomfort by analysis, meditation and self-forgiveness. Because of the length of time that Reiki takes, it is able, through the system of the faith of the students in the teacher, to produce effective healing. Its energy, like all healing energies, is unique. It works most specifically upon emotionally related illnesses and conditions. If a person has a physical difficulty that is within, self-forgiven, whole and healed, the Reiki will simply be comfortable and pleasant. There is, however, the psychosomatic element in so much of disease, that in the majority of cases this particular vibration of energy is an excellent healing catalyst.

Now Q’uo spoke about Reiki healing as the kind of healing that uses love to interrupt the protective shell around the body of the one to be healed. Then the Reiki healer becomes a channel through which the will of the Creator is done much like water flowing through a pipe since the Reiki healer sees no difference between it and the one to be healed. Q’uo continued by saying that Reiki healing worked best for illnesses that begin as mental and emotional in nature and then move into the body and are self-forgiven, whole, and healed. On December 3, 1981, Laitos described healing as interrupting the protective shell so that the healing love and light of the Creator may enter the body and circulate through the areas of the body needing healing:

Your desire is, in itself, the greatest aid to your healing process. For your desire does pierce that protective shell which holds your physical vehicle in its configuration, whatever that configuration might be, and does allow the healing energy which many send you to enter through your protective auric shell.

This has been the case thus far and your desire to be healed continues to open your shell to healing love and light energies. We simply reaffirm that which you are familiar with, the visualizing of your arm—and entire body for that matter—being surrounded by light, this light being the healing love/light of the one Creator. This light entering through your lower chakras and feet and circulating throughout your body, coalescing in those regions which need the most healing. And then, to complete the visualization in your meditation, the seeing of your body and any specific areas as being completely healthy and healed.

Again, we suggest to you that it is our opinion that the healer does not heal. The healer loves, and in the crystallized purity of its love it creates the opportunity and the catalyst for the person to decide to release the illness, the condition, the blockage, the overstimulation, the stress, whatever it is that is the difficulty. The beauty of the Reiki technique is that it is effective across all cultures, across all languages, and in any sort of condition which has a psychosomatic element.

This vibration at first is hard to feel for most students of Reiki. Again, faith in the teacher keeps the student at the task until it has been able to learn. It is also so that at a very deep level of the mind, of which you are not aware and which you cannot alter, you will make your unique contact with the genuine gift of that teacher, feel and sense how that power moves from the head, to the heart, to the hands. Thus, the healer having a teacher in the Reiki technique is most valuable, just as the teacher is valuable in learning any skill that would be too difficult to learn without persistent effort. The company of the teacher enables the student to remain faithful.

We feel that the idea of healing has been somewhat misunderstood among your peoples, for they see a physical vehicle, an animal, and think that it is you. There are an infinite number of reasons to be ill, the three main categories being chance, intention and pre-incarnative choice. Pre-incarnative choices are not available to be healed. It is the first two categories that call for attention. Indeed, we would wish you to think of healing in a somewhat different way, perhaps, for healing is not simply of the body. You may have an extraordinarily healthy body, but the rest of the complexes which make up your uniqueness are quiddities, idiosyncrasies of each person. The healing work has as its base a faith. In those who give others a jump start from their own energy, faith is not necessary. In those who are open-minded, kindhearted, though skeptical, healing is possible. It is seldom possible in the presence of cynicism and negative feelings.

So we move from the healing to that which underlies it. All are one. The healing of the self that has taken place in the healer before his ministry is public is that crystallization which enables the other self to receive the catalyst that makes it possible to choose physical wellness, emotional wellness, spiritual wellness, mental wellness, whatever it is that is required, or desired. It may well not seem to the practitioner that the entity is becoming healed, for the body complex may have been intended for some good reasons to have its limitations. Healing is rather a feeling of wholeness, a feeling that one is free to love and be passionate, to care intensely, and to follow the heart. The open heart is the key to manifestations of all kinds that are spiritual.

Now Q’uo reminded us that the healer does not heal but provides the crystalized love that allows the one seeking healing to be healed. Then they said that illnesses come by chance, or by a kind of choosing or intention, and by pre-incarnative choices which are not subject to healing but as catalyst for growth. Q’uo said that the healer and the healed are one–the Creator–and when the healer has crystalized its being it can offer this healing to the one to be healed in any area of its being: mental, physical, spiritual, or emotional. They concluded by saying that healing is a feeling of wholeness, and the key to healing is following the open heart. On November 26, 1991, Q’uo described the healing process as the healer being able to channel the Creator so that the healer and the one seeking healing become one which allows the healing to occur:

The one to be healed, then, in seeking the offices of the healer, offers itself to the One Creator, that moves through the healer in whatever modality is utilized, and brings the two into a harmony for the moment of healing, shall we say, that moment in which the one to be healed accepts a new configuration of attitude in the metaphysical beingness from which the manifested third-density physical vehicle depends. Thus, the one to be healed brings itself to the healer in order that the work previously done by the healer in the healing arts, which have been practiced upon the self of the healer, so that this same river, if you will, of energy may engulf both the one to be healed and the healer. And for that moment of healing, these entities are, in the metaphysical sense, seen as one.

We feel that this is as far as we wish to go with this question without receiving more specific questions. We have laid the groundwork for them.

We would speak briefly upon the question also asked this evening concerning the second density animals and how much of consciousness of their own destiny they may have. You know the nature of second density, and you know that you are, by your love of your pet, investing an instinctual animal with an awareness of itself. The vast majority of all pets and all wild animals, stem in their species from a gene pool.

Let us use the word, which is not a word, “catness.” There is that thought form that contains living material, and it produces, in love and joy and rhythm, its young, its life, its death, without ever being self-conscious, that being the nature of second density. Therefore, for the most part, if an animal is hit by a car, or finds another untimely end to its existence, it is chance, not destiny.

If the pet is deeply devoted to its human, and its human is deeply devoted to the pet, there may well have been enough investment of love and consciousness within that second density entity that it becomes, through this investment, harvestable to become a person, as you call yourselves, a human, a spirit, with breath. In that case, there may be the opportunity to graduate which is taken, or suggestions from those who enjoy doing mischief, that are obeyed by a mind not yet awake to reasoning processes to a great extent.

There are those pets with which an entity may have some of what you call karma, because each entity is responsible for what it knows, or believes it knows. Thusly, if you believe that by love you can aid a cat, a dog or any pet in its journey to third density, and you offer that catalyst, you may indeed find that you have woven into your own tapestry the stark thread of a beloved pet’s demise at the hands of the metal machines that move along your roadways. The comfort that you may take in this case is that only those harvestable to third density are capable of this type of connection. If a pet dies thusly, it is to become a third density entity, and though the loss of that dear pet is great, you have given that pet the opportunity to feel love and to give it to such an extent that self-consciousness has taken place, and yours has been the catalyst which encouraged that graduation.

Q’uo said that there was another question concerning pets that I don’t see in the group question, so I will assume that this question was asked, perhaps, in the conversation before the channeling began. Basically, the concept being dealt with is the possibility that pets can be invested with love and devotion from their owners that eventually is returned to the owner by the pet so that the pet moves from simple second-density awareness to self-consciousness that awakens the spirit complex of the pet. Then, when the body of the pet dies, the mind/body/spirit complex of the pet will be graduated to the third density. In 14.1, Ra speaks of this process:

Questioner: Going back over this morning’s work, [inaudible]. You said the second density strives towards the third density which is the density of self-consciousness or self-awareness. The striving takes place through higher second-density forms invested by third-density beings. Could you explain what you mean by this?

Ra: I am Ra. Much as you would put on a vestment, so do your third-density beings invest or clothe some second-density beings with self-awareness. This is often done through the opportunity of what you call pets. It has also been done by various other means of investiture. These include many so-called religious practice complexes which personify and send love to various natural second-density beings in their group form.

We would at this time transfer the contact. We thank this instrument, and move in love and light. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I used some sandpaper to sand off a portion of the paint on my bedroom door that, in combination with the new paint on the door frame, has made the door hard to close and open. Then I did my weekly vacuuming of the first floor of the house.

This afternoon I went outside and raked small limbs and leaves from different places in the back yard into piles, and then I put each of the piles into  garbage can for yard waste pickup next Thursday. Also, a technician from New Circle Mechanical came by to adjust the float on the big sump pump in the basement which has been coming on since early this morning after the two small sump pumps could no longer keep the water out of the basement. This caused water to back up into about half of the basement, now I am hoping that his adjustment of the float will allow the large sump pump to come on earlier with less water accumulating in the basement.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 26

Discrimination

I am the consciousness of love, the full principle of the creative love of Jesus Christ, the exemplar to a torn world of the whole and shining garment of light that is the creation.

Many false prophets have spoken and been heard throughout the ages of humankind and many now are among you. We who wish to create opportunities for enhanced growth of spirit within the hearts of all people wish nothing more than to join hands and hearts in the service of the Lord Jesus Christ for the transformation of your rounded world into a sphere which manifests the light which lies within it.

Yet would we rather urge discrimination of the most fastidious kind than acts of faith without judgment. For though we do not ask that you judge your actions or those of others in such a way that you cripple yourself with guilt or anger, nevertheless we do request that the full use of your powers of discrimination be used in listening to any words, however wonderful the source may seem. For if we have miracles between our lines, that shall become apparent to you who ponder these poor thoughts which we offer in the service of love.

May you go your way in peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 30, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any queries which those present may have yet remaining upon their minds. If there is a query, we shall be happy to speak to it at this time.

Carla: If you are really upset with someone, is it better to go ahead and communicate, or is it better to go into meditation [inaudible] forgiving [inaudible] without having communicated your feelings?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. As a general rule, for most effective use of catalyst in the life experience, it is well to allow one’s spontaneous feelings and thoughts to be spoken if they are not of such a severe nature as to be damaging to another entity. In most cases, the thoughts and feelings are well to speak, as well as one is willing to take the responsibility of continuing the communication until there is a resolution of difficulty, realizing that all difficulty is but a means toward an harmonious end. It is not well to remain within the condition of anger, and oftentimes it is only through the communication of such anger that one is able to allow its movement through one’s being in a manner that will allow resolution in an harmonious fashion to result.

Carla asked Q’uo if a person was really angry with someone was it better to communicate that or to go into meditation and forgive them without communicating their feelings? Q’uo recommended that it is best to use the catalyst of such a situation to spontaneously communicate one’s feelings in order to resolve the difficulty and find harmony again. In 41.19, Ra made this same point:

The key to balance may then be seen in the unstudied,  spontaneous, and honest response of entities toward experiences, thus using experience to the utmost, then applying the balancing exercises and achieving the proper attitude for the most purified spectrum of energy center manifestation in violet ray. 

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: There is, but it’s on another subject, and I think I’ll give [inaudible] an opportunity first.

[Pause]

I guess all the questions are mine tonight. I am equally puzzled as to why we can’t stop some tapes from running to their end. I’ve tried the Jesus prayer, I’ve tried [inaudible] to help me, or for the [inaudible] to help me, although I much [inaudible], I’ve tried spontaneous prayer, I’ve tried sticking my head in a book or turning on the TV or going to sleep. Actually, none of these things truly works except going to sleep and waking up again. Why is it that a person who is genuinely living a life in faith cannot use that faith to place the bar against unwanted behavior? Because it seems impossible not to err, it happens no matter how strongly you try not to.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. That quality that you have called faith is a quality which is, shall we say, recently developed within most entities who recognize its value. Those qualities which seem to propel one’s actions and thoughts in what you have called erroneous or sinful manners are those qualities that run much deeper within the creature that is human, and are there for the purpose of moving one in a manner which will place one in the position that will allow the learning of that which is appropriate for each entity, for only by experimentation within your illusion are you able to discover what are your potentials, what are your limits, and what are your lessons.

It is not meant that all should be harmonious within your life pattern, for the life of contentment is that life which does not change, does not grow, does not expand the point of view beyond that which is comfortable. Thus, you move beyond the boundaries of comfort, the boundaries of self, the boundaries of that which is known, in order that you shall grow through the exercise of free will, and grow in a manner which is most auspicious for you. That you may call some portions of this growing, trial and error, success and failure, is a definition which is not always helpful when viewing the overall process. Thus, we urge each not to judge, the self or any other, for none within your illusion have eyes which see far enough to accumulate wisdom and understanding. It is that newly developed quality of faith, propelled by the will to continue, that will allow you to continue in a manner which is helpful to your overall growth and the growth of those about you.

Now Carla asked how to keep tapes of erroneous behavior from running in her head since she was a person of faith. Q’uo began their response by saying that most seekers have only recently begun to exercise the quality of faith whereas the experiences which bring about erroneous behavior are located much deeper within the seeker in order that they might learn their life lessons. Q’uo suggested that the seeker not judge itself in this process of trial and error but use the combination of will and faith to grow spiritually. On May 10, 1987, Q’uo spoke of how we may use our will and faith to grow spiritually:

Thus, the qualities which you seek to nurture within your being, those of will and faith to persevere in the seeking of love, are those qualities which discipline the personality in a fashion which allows further seeking and further progress upon the journey of seeking. The process is largely unseen, and not dependent upon the outcome for a particular effort or group of efforts within an incarnation that are designed by the seeker as its attempt to polarize in consciousness.

The attempt and the intention are those qualities which further enhance the will and faith and thus the polarization of the being, and it is these qualities that one works upon when one seeks to survive the moments and long periods of disillusionment, confusion, frustration and the various trials that test the entity’s dedication to service and to seeking. And these moments of difficulty are seldom appreciated amongst your peoples as being those times during which the greater work is accomplished.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes, it’s on another subject. I’ve been completely sidelined recently, and I’m having a great deal of trouble sitting up. It doesn’t seem to be at this point possible for me to recover from the waist up, and consequently there are some indications of nature along the lines of a two by four applied to the forehead in my case, that I will probably [inaudible]. I’ve been [inaudible] a long time anyway.

My question is, when you look at that situation which I have, you think of it as you wish. You can think of it as something against which to work, to enable yourself to get in as much use as possible for as long as possible, which is what I’ve been doing anyway, trying to find physical therapy which would just exercise my legs and things like that. There’s another way to look at it, at least one more, that being, why not cut the [inaudible], why not accept the fact that there is a disability, that there is a discomfort and [inaudible]. Why not become one who is able to [inaudible] the beautiful things, but perhaps not be [inaudible], or who is content with going to church, but not being [inaudible]. The poorest person may be wonderful [inaudible] exception, and instead being [inaudible].

This could be done fairly easily by me, at this time, or at any time in the future, as we have other land that is extremely cheap to live on. I do not know which path [inaudible] to working against [inaudible] what seems to be [inaudible], and cooperating with it, to go ahead and be [inaudible] for a contemplative life, which would be further out than this and with less people around. Do you have any comment at all that you can make? I know you can’t answer specific questions.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister, and you are correct in your assumption that we may not speak with great specificity upon this particular topic, which is one which strikes quite close to the heart of your incarnational pattern, and it is well for each pilgrim to make those kind of choices for the self. One cannot delegate such to another. However, we shall comment by suggesting that you have learned well a part of your personality structure is that which moves against limitation and exercises the will and the faith mightily in this effort.

As you are aware, there is great virtue in this kind of pattern of behavior, for it continually stretches the limitations and strengthens the will in so doing. There is also, as you have mentioned, great virtue in being able to accept one’s limitations, accept that which cannot be changed, and look for the door that is opened when another is closed. It is well that one in your position develop the ability for such acceptance, for the limitations, as it is well known to you, are relatively set.

The balance between these two modes of being is that balance which, when finally struck, will allow the greatest amount and quality of growth within your life pattern. It is the nature of this balance which is best discovered through your own efforts. However, we shall say that you have done well in your diligent pursuit of this balance, and we would counsel a quieting of concerns to a large degree in this area.

In this question Carla is describing her situation of having recovered from a recent paralyzing of her body, but she was so weak that it was very hard to do anything physically, even to sit up. So she asked Q’uo whether she should try physical therapy to be able to be active and be useful, or should she accept her weak body and lead a contemplative life. Q’uo began their reply by saying that she had learned how to use will and faith to deal with limitations in her life. Then Q’uo said that she had also learned how to accept her limitations that were part of her life pattern, and now it might be well for her to learn how to balance these two approaches to dealing with her limitations to allow the most growth on her spiritual journey. Rather than give examples of how Carla could take advantage of Q’uo’s recommendations at this time, I will fast forward to a year later where Carla was dealing with, basically, the same situation that had somewhat advanced, and she asked Q’uo what to do about it. This is from September 28, 1991:

Is there another query my sister?

Carla: Yes. I realize that I’m not the only channel who’s ever been told that my body is weak [inaudible] and that if I continue channeling it will shorten my life. I’m also aware that in each of the cases of which we’ve heard both channels chose to continue the work. I realize that there is much to be said for the wisdom of being, and not attempting to add to the productivity. But I find it impossible to grapple with intellectually, and consequently to move into my heart, with a feeling of real worth in just being, instead of doing.

I was thinking, for instance, this evening and tomorrow of going to do more exercise, and yet I have heard Ra say before, “You do not need the pain, you only need the limitation,” which would suggest that I accept the limitation of being on my bed all the time. Yet it has only been since I have been on my bed all the time that my stomach troubles have become more threatening, and I feel that there is a delicate balance there between the desire to live longer and the very way of living longer being an instrument which will lead to a shorter length anyway.

So, basically if you have an observations on that, in other words, exercise seems to be a fighting against my limitations. And, indeed, it does usually, if I am successful, enlarge my arena of possibility of action. If I do not attempt to go beyond my limitations at this point, I will be bedfast except for my walks, which may or may not shorten my life, simply because of the diseases or illnesses or whatever is, I think, the result of not exercising. Mainly the difficulty with the digestive tract. I can’t think my way through this. If you have any comments whatsoever I’d appreciate them.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Again we find ourselves in the position of not being able to give a specific response for the confusion which you express is that particular condition which is a product, or shall we say the precursor of the exercise of free will. We are aware of your confusion; we are aware of your concern; and we can only recommend that you follow that which you feel is most important to you at this time, whether or not it is that which has been recommended previously. Follow that which wells up within you as the greatest desire amongst all your desires. Follow it to its completion; observe again; choose again. Whatever wisdom has been shared with you previously will prove itself or not by your own experience.

So, I suggest that you simply stay tuned as this situation will come up again at some point in further Q’uo sessions. Now, back to this session.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Thank you, Q’uo, but I don’t think so. Not at this time. As the energy is pretty low, perhaps the instrument is even [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you for your queries, my sister. May we ask if there is a final query at this time?

Questioner [Inaudible]

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister, for offering to us the query upon which we may offer our service, for without such queries and such calls for our service we would have no beingness within your experience, and it is a great joy to walk with each of you as you seek more and more of that which you call the truth.

At this time we shall take our leave of this group, leaving each as always in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I used the yellow paint that I bought at Porter’s Paint yesterday and repainted my bedroom door, the bathroom door, and the baseboard in the room as well.

This afternoon I made a short errand run to pick up a pizza from Hometown Pizza in Middletown.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 25

Dance Upon The Road

I am of the consciousness which is the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in divine love. The far country beckons! The mystery retreats! The road calls the weary pilgrim forward and a new day dawns! Let this day be the day the pilgrim kicks off the dusty shoes and dances upon the road.

 Let the heart be merry and light, for within winter’s dimness of day and length of night much is occurring within the body of your planet which shall be cause for great rejoicing.

Similarly, each careworn seeker is gestating within the Christed self that is born within those seeds which shall, in good time, bear fruit.

It is not necessary to await the length of days, the summer’s sun, and the visible harvest, to rejoice in the fecundity of the earth and the perfection of the process of growth. Similarly, rejoice in the process of growth within yourself and be merry this day.

We leave you in the joy and peace of Jesus the Christ, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 30, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with why is it so difficult when we have ideals that we believe in: that God is love, that all are One, and different interpretations of how we would treat people using these ideals. Why is it so difficult to keep that ideal foremost in our mind? Why do we find ourselves slipping and having negatively oriented thoughts, talking to ourselves and others in negative terms, rather than living up to those ideals which we cherish?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings to each of you in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. It is such a pleasure to share this meditation with you. We cannot express the joy it gives us to welcome those who are not new to this group and those who are new, especially the one known as S, the one known as B. We bless each, send love to each, and thank each for calling us to share our fallible opinions with you. We do not, in any way, shape or form, declare ourselves to be infallible, and ask you please to use your discrimination in listening not only to our words, but to all words, for the truth you shall recognize as though you remembered it, and it shall resonate within your being. That is your truth. Other truths may be other people’s truths, but they are not yours. So let them not be a stumbling block in your life, but be straightforward, and to the best of your best ability work upon your own path, and your own truth.

And that is what we shall speak of this evening, for you ask us to speak about how it is that a pilgrim may know to a nicety the various names appropriate to a situation, yet be quite unable to halt the self from speaking amiss or acting inappropriately according to subjectively perceived rules of conduct. We shall have to do some groundwork first, so please excuse us if we seem to be a bit off the subject; we simply must move into it from a larger viewpoint than one life, one will or one circumstance.

Each of you is quite familiar with the fact that the Creator was generous and brave and foolhardy enough to give to His own creation free will. Each of you, and each of us, are the creations and the children of the Father, and as the Creator has its nurturing side, the Father/Mother perhaps would be a way more appropriate, to your species, to speak of infinite intelligence. In truth, the Creator is Love Itself, which is father, and mother, and all.

Now, each of you is created of this love. Consequently, there has never been an unworthy spirit incarnate upon this planet which you now enjoy, for through all behaviors the birthright of your creation remains, as it must, precisely the same. That which is of love does not change, go away, or run out. You were love when you were created, before all that you see of the cosmos. You are love now, in the midst of this heavy illusion, and you always shall be love, until at last you return to Love Itself, and become truly one once more with the Source, the alpha and the omega of all that there is.

There is, however, another portion to your being. It was impossible to create a manifestation out of love, for there is no motivation, ambition or curiosity in love. There is, however, in the first distortion of love, which is free will. By the use of free will the Creator chose to allow a small portion of its infinity, if this non-concept may suffice, to fly apart in sparks of love. Free will was bonded to each spark, free will being as absolute as love, and its antithesis; that is, free will is never the same, while love is always the same.

So, that creature which you are is quite often confused with being a single being, but is actually made up of all that your consciousness is plus all that the physical vehicle is (which you think of as yourself but which is in actuality a highly developed second-density animal). This instinctually perfect entity agreed, before it was given this life, to be the physical vehicle which carries you about, which gathers data from all of its senses, and which makes available to your consciousness the biocomputer which is your mind. To that animal, that body, that vehicle, all thanks and praise should be given always, for its sacrifice has been complete, its instinctual behavior bowing always to the will that has learned, and that accepts, allows and loves each characteristic of that physical vehicle.

The group question for this session was: When we realize that God is love and all are One, why is it that often we entertain negative thoughts about ourselves and others? Q’uo began their response by giving an overview of the creation in which the Creator created all that there is out of Love, so every being is made of love and will always be love until we return to unity with the Creator. Then Q’uo said that the Creator also gave free will to each entity which is always changing, so it is easy for us to become confused with how our consciousness functions as a blend of our mind’s thoughts and our body’s instinctual behavior that submits to our will. On December 21, 1982, Latwii described some of the confusions that arise in the exercise of our free will:

One problem which will arise is the individual wishing to serve feels something is missing and then will disregard other individuals so as to serve them more. They will disregard their free will of choice and practically demand the individual to receive their serving. This causes great problems, for the individual being served does not wish the service, and this causes an ill feeling toward the server, whereas the server does not realize the problem that is being caused by their service, and does not understand why there is an ill feeling towards him. Also it leads back into the vicious circle of wanting to serve as many as possible, and this sometimes overshadows the remembrance of free will.

Thus, perhaps the first way of gazing at your conscious behavior that so often is not what you wish it would or could be, is to realize that you well may be gazing at instinctual reactions which occur faster than your mind is able to respond. In no way, when this occurs, should the physical vehicle be blamed. In no way should the mind and the spirit governing this vehicle be dismayed or discouraged. There are times in this extremely dense illusion when the survival instinct of your physical vehicle will take over, simply because the computer of your mind keeps the entity alive as a first priority. It is not your spirit that wishes your life to linger, it is your body.

The second and very common reason, or cluster of reasons, which keep the spirit from moving only from its center, is the emotional, mental and spiritual distortion of self-worth that you may call low self-worth or low self-esteem. Blessed and well planned are the lives of those entities whose childhoods did not leave one with an inner conviction of low self-worth. All the more blessed they because they are rare among your peoples. All of you have baggage of which you must let go. Why is this so? Why should you let these things go? Why is your opinion not respected by yourself? Even if it is negative, after all, is it not what you think? The answer to that is much too complex to receive either a yes or a no. The voices which echo in the mind may echo from many, many decades ago, from early childhood, from early traumatic time in which many, many negative signals were given to your spirit, either by yourself or others. Those who are seeking in the service-to-self path do not have the problem which you have, for they of course would refuse any guilt, or any judgment of the self as being less than perfectly worthy. It is the entity who desires to be the humble servant of all mankind that most finds itself trapped by its own feelings of inadequacy.

There are several things one may do to work upon this challenge. First of all is the daily meditative period. We suggest at least a few minutes of meditation each day. We do not advise long meditations, except for those who meditate all the time, and are aware of how much power there is in the silent, listening meditation. Rather, we recommend approximately fifteen minutes. We also recommend that mated couples attempt to do this together, as meditation brings change, and it is well that each understand the other’s discomfort as the change occurs. Change is always painful. Thus, to the pilgrim we offer love, it is true, but discomfort, dustiness, feelings of aloneness, and all that goes with doing that which is seldom attempted within your society, and almost never understood. That is your first great resource.

The second great resource is your own observational powers; this instrument would call it paying attention. We do not mean to say that you should pay attention to other people’s foibles, or to the right and wrong of argument, but rather we ask you to pay attention to your own consciousness. We encourage you to be truly self-conscious, to know the exact thing that was the catalyst for your moving away from the center of love and light. It can be an excess of happiness, or an excess or despair, doubt, disbelief, dislike, the feeling that darkness lies all about you and you do not know where to turn. These dark nights of the soul, as they have been called, are very much a part of the path of the pilgrim, and it is difficult at those times to see that one has ever made one iota of progress. Never, ever judge yourself or others.

At the end, however, of each day, as you have been paying attention, without judgment, to those things which move you, especially to those things which have made you uncomfortable and might be a stumbling block in your ability to deal as you wish with others, we suggest, at the end of each day, the consideration, either intellectual, for those who have strong analytical powers, or by feeling them again, for those of you who depend mostly upon your hearts for decisions. As those are by far the majority among those who seek spiritually, we will simply say that which this instrument is already aware of from the Law of One material, that is, that the emotion which was deemed inappropriately off center and negative by the pilgrim be allowed to exist again, to be affirmed by you as being completely acceptable. Let it, in fact, become as sharp and dramatic as it will be, allowing the energy within that to express itself. As you are forgiving yourself, then, as you sit in meditation, allowing this feeling to wash over you, gradually notice that that feeling is receding as a wave, and in its place comes its opposite, the other side of its coin, the antithesis or its thesis.

So, if you have experienced anger, and intensified it, and forgiven yourself for that feeling, you spontaneously begin to feel forgiveness, and caring. Prayers may be said for the one who has acted in a way you would describe as hateful, and all is forgiven, the other self, your self, and the transaction between the two of you.

Now Q’uo began their description of how we may respond to others in negative ways, even though we believe that all is love and God is One, by saying that it may be that we respond to the instinct of the survival of our body quicker than our minds can respond to some perceived difficulty. Catalyst of both difficulty and excessive happiness could also cause us to move away from the feeling of love and light for another person. Then Q’uo said that when we know what the catalyst was, that took us off of our center of love and light, that we should meditate and relive the experience so that we feel it again and also its opposite to be felt so that you can forgive yourself for both feelings. In 5.2, Ra gave a synopsis of this process:

In each entity there exists completeness. Thus, the ability to understand each balance is necessary. When you view patience, you are responsible for mirroring in your mental understanding, patience/impatience. When you view impatience, it is necessary for your mental configuration of understanding to be impatience/patience. We use this as a simple example. Most configurations of mind have many facets, and understanding of either self polarities, or what you would call other-self polarities, can and must be understood as subtle work.

You have often called these times failures, and berated yourself because of them. But do you not see that you must make the mistakes, you must err, and be bold about it, be yourself, in order to learn who you are, to find where those soft and sensitive areas are that cause you to move away from your center? You must go through the process of knowing yourself, truly, truly knowing yourself, for in your life lies the universe, the creation and the Creator, in a part of you so deep that it is not within this illusion for you to penetrate that portion of your informational store with any ease whatsoever. The veil hides it completely, and that is why meditation is so helpful, as it makes that veil between conscious and subconscious more and more semi-permeable.

When you have done these two things for a while you will discover that you have tucked away in a corner of your heart a brown paper bag, unmarked, crumpled up and shoved as far back as possible, out of sight, but never out of mind, for the true mind as you know lies in the heart. Within this paper bag lives all the things that you have said about yourself. How do you come to be able to say about yourself such negative, negative things? Do you not know that thoughts are objects in the world very close to your own? Do you not know the weakening effect that these negative sentences told to the self by the self have upon you, upon your self image?

When you hear yourself saying that about yourself which could be construed by yourself as negative, simply speak again, and place yourself in some positive perspective, for this illusion is not a place where perceptions are objective. You may perceive your universe as you wish. All things are your choice. You are never imprisoned in your mind unless you take yourself into slavery. No one can do it to you. No one.

So we ask that you think of yourself—this entity has a bit of difficulty with this concept, but we shall move ahead—to think of yourself as an employee to which you are the boss. Evaluate your behavior towards yourself. Have you been a good boss today? Have you been kind to yourself? Have you loved yourself? As you worship the Creator, have you loved yourself enough to give the gift of yourself in complete surrender to the will of the infinite One, knowing that it is truly your will also? Perhaps you have not, and if you have not, it is undoubtedly due to the fact that a state of forgiveness does not exist between your self and your self.

The reason that we are being so insistent in talking about being able to do that which you wish to do, in speaking of loving and forgiving yourself, is laid out very simply by the teacher known to you as Jesus the Christ, who said that the new covenant was to love the Creator with all one’s faculties, with the uttermost passion possible, and to love the neighbor as the self. Loving the Creator is often difficult not to do, in our opinion. On a sunny day, can anyone decry the Maker of such beauty?

When one is familiar at last with the concept that the Creator loved us first, is it any wonder that our instinct is to love back and to wish to serve, as children always would their parent? But in order to love others, which is the service-to-others path, one must first love the self, for one can love others only insofar as one has learned to love the self. We are not speaking of a narcissistic love which demands an echo, a pat on the back, a recognition, a thank you, or a noticing of any kind for any other entity which walks your sphere.

If you love others as you love yourself, and you love yourself, then your point of view shall be enough changed that you will surprise yourself, because you will find that you have, in the difficult times of hollowing the self out to be a channel of this love, become able to shine with an infinite love that reaches and touches people. They do not need to know the rationales of love, they only need to know that they are loved. It is the greatest feeling in the universe.

Now Q’uo suggested that we not be hard on ourselves when we seem to fail because in order to know ourselves we must make errors, and these errors may come from our early childhoods where we have stored many negative thoughts about ourselves that are held in our hearts. Q’uo continued by saying that it would be helpful if we could make positive affirmations to counter these negative thoughts by forgiving ourselves and then moving into a sense of love for ourselves. Q’uo said that when we can love ourselves and surrender our will to the will of the Creator, this would be the means by which we could love and be of service to others. Q’uo called this process the hollowing out of ourselves that would allow us to become channels infinite love that reaches all people. On November 6, 2016, Q’uo described how we all can become channels of love:

We are well aware of the work each has done this weekend as you, too, seek to become channels of love and light through the impression and speaking of the words of your language, for each of you is a channel in this respect and in many others. The life you live you channel; the love you give you channel; the thoughts you have you channel. There are many blessings upon you that have been given to you because you have drawn them to you as channels of love and light, the blessings of friends that are now gathered here—of those whom we have become close to throughout the years—the times and places, the families of each, the pursuits of your interests. All of these are blessings of the Father upon you.

It is here upon the Earth that you have taken residence at this time. It is not permanent residence, and your identity is not your true identity. It is but a small portion of that which is in your heart and within your soul, that which you could barely comprehend if it were all exposed to you at one time. You have come here within this third-density illusion from a place within the Father’s Creation that is your true home—the world of the Spirit.

And as for each of you, you did not come here to be loved; you came here to love. Much blockage and distortion of communication betwixt peoples, especially mated people or people intimate in their friendship, is that each has expectations of the other. We strongly suggest that love be conceived of as that which supports, that which puts the other before the self, that which is loyal, that which does its very best. And if that very best fails, then it fails, with the love intact. And if compassion is learned in the failing, were you never to make the pushing of the envelope turn into the breaking of the envelope, were you never to suffer from having done your best and failed, in other words, you would never have the kind of compassion for others that you do after such an experience, for you know you have tried your best, and you know that when you reach your limits and go beyond them, it will seem a failure, and in an outer sense, of course it is. But in the inner sense, if you intended with love to do all that you could, absolutely all, holding nothing back, then metaphysically speaking you have acted as one who runs the straight race.

Again we say to you, never condemn or judge yourself, for you know that you have been redeemed, you know that you are in a state of grace. You do not need to keep telling yourself of your poor habits. You do not need to be hag-ridden by a conscience that looks for ways to criticize you. What you are looking for is not that entity who ruthlessly shoves below the level of consciousness all that is not positive. We do not even suggest that you attempt to control your moods. We suggest going through the process, the painful learning process, and discovering how you are programmed, in other words, who you are in this illusion.

Your consciousness is not programmed, but your mind is. Your mind is a machine, biochemical in nature, and much like a computer in that, through a series of yes/no decisions, a very, very small percentage of all that you see, and hear, and feel, and taste and touch, is filtered, ruthlessly, so that you may gain the picture that your biocomputer has chosen to show you, which gives you the greatest amount of information concerning the survival of the entity’s physical vehicle, and the safe storage of one’s habitual thinking processes. This is for the mind what comfort is, that is, stasis, or lack of change. It is just as though in meditation you opened up to yourself a large body of data which you may begin to allow to be programmed into your biocomputer. It is what we may call a metaprogram, a program which will change, and sometimes dump whole programs as it realigns those yes/no choices concerning that about which it shall prioritize its report to consciousness.

The longer that you have had a mental habit, the harder it is to remove that program, and the more painful the removal. However, it is inevitably successful when the seeker is persistent. You see many who speak of results. We speak of work. We speak of learning to become willing servants of humankind. By nature you are programmed to think of the self as master of the Earth, and perhaps master of the cosmos. You may see the amount of the programming that is necessary when you consider attitudes such as this, plus negative attitudes towards the self that have been picked up so long ago that their origin is almost forgotten. Yet, there is no need for these half forgotten melodies to crowd the mind, if they are not attractive, if they do not sound sweet, for is not your life the gift you wish to give to the Creator as you enter larger life? Then make of it that which is beautiful.

Perhaps this is what this instrument would call a cliché. Yet it is well to gaze objectively at the self, as one attempts to weave the tapestry of a genuinely impassioned and intensely lived life, for there is no lukewarmness about the creation; it is only a distraction from the creation that causes people to consider the nature of things as being everyday or mundane. Indeed, if one has found within the self, love, then one is full of love, love of God, love of others, and love of self.

Now Q’uo said that we have not come to this incarnation to be loved but to love, and we should always intend in our relations with others to give this love even though it may seem from time to time that we have failed to do so. They recommended that we not be discouraged when this happens because this is the way we learn our lessons: by stretching ourselves beyond our capabilities. They said that our intentions to love are the important part of our experience because this is the metaphysical foundation of our learning. Q’uo also suggested that we not judge ourselves for seeming failures but to go through the painful process of change which the mind finds difficult because its function is stasis or the maintaining of the status quo. Q’uo continued by saying that when we open ourselves to such change we are inviting the dumping of large portions of our thoughts and behaviors which are called a metaprogram. Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that this is definitely an intense process, but when we can find the love as the end product of this process we have also found love for the Creator, for others, and for ourselves. On October 6, 1985, Hatonn described how we may find this love:

If you are seeking to grow, know that the only environment that matters is within you. You are the wellspring of your evolution in spirit; you are the fountainhead of your birth into that new portion of yourself which you wish to be lifted up in love to the light that shines from the one great original Thought.

You do not carry this within you as if you were a basket and it the precious cargo. No, my friends, you are far more like the pipe through which is funneled the clear precious water of the fountainhead, the wellspring of that clear mountain lake, full of living water. Things do not come from you as much as through you, for in whatever you may do, you are a channel. There is no situation in which you are not channeling and being used as an instrument either by yourself, by other entities, or by circumstances themselves. The great choice to make, then, in the desire to speed up the spiritual evolution is the choice to allow that through you which you desire to be spent through you. And never, if possible, to accept circumstance or environment as a reason for ignoring the opportunity for finding love that may flow through you that you may become a light to lighten the darkness of those about you who are seeking just such light.

Personalities have often been confused with pure channels. The pure channel is an impersonality, clear and exquisitely pure. If you would be a channel for love, open yourself inside to that spring of living water in which your soul may bathe and become clean and shining pure and from which and through which a great light may shine in a dark world.

It is time for us to come to an end. If more questions are considered appropriate about this subject or any other, we shall have the opportunity for the asking, and may we also say that if there seems to be a query which may benefit from a longer discussion, there is much material in this area which we have not covered this evening.

Come with us, yokefellows. Bend your shoulders and follow, for carry we burdens, carry them we must, but we may carry them with joy, for we know they are only the disbursions given to us as catalyst, that we may die to petty things and be born to imperishable things. Much of the basic second-density mind does need reexamination as a conscious spirit. May you do this without discouragement, without self-criticism, and with much merriment, for to laugh is to worship. Love each other. This is the answer to so many questions, and remember to love yourself, to forgive yourself, and to live in the resonant, infinite presence whose love you wish to practice and be.

We would at this time wish to transfer this contact to the one know as Jim. We are those of Q’uo, and leave this instrument with thanks.

This morning our channeling circle held a practice channeling session in my living room. We shared our most recent spiritual experiences in our round robin and then began the channeling session in which we channeled a group question that was: “What is the relationship between our shadow side and the negatively-oriented service-to-others entities, and how can we use this relationship to grow spiritually?”

This afternoon I made an errand run to Walgreen’s to pick up a prescription and some food for myself. I also stopped by Porter Paints to buy some yellow paint to touch up some areas in my bedroom.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 24

Invisible Goals

I am the saving spirit of the consciousness of love which is in Jesus the Christ.

I greet you with the full power of that consciousness.

Each has sought in the recesses of his heart for that consciousness and met with such a mixture of success and failure that it seems that God is sometimes generous and sometimes withholding.

Yet were the great pattern of being to be laid before the measurement of your mind’s eye, it could be seen that the consciousness of love is infinitely even and disputeth not at what must be done to insure true impartiality of experience to all created beings.

For it is the intent of love that the creations of love are to be creators. And how could that be were there no choices to make, no difficulties to overcome, no mountains to be traversed, and no invisible goals to be set in faith and realized with persistence?

The full consciousness of love embraces each in whatever circumstances. Yet comfort is abundant if each can but ask in faith, knowing that the consciousness of love is indeed within each one. Seek ye, therefore, the peace of utter freedom, freedom to find love in any circumstance whatever and rejoice in the glory of Christ.

I move among you making available to you the peace of love, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 23, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in potential response to queries. We take great pleasure in being able to speak directly to your concerns if there are any questions at this time. May we begin with the first one?

Carla: Q’uo, I find myself in a situation where physically I am completely disabled; mentally, I’m adequate; spiritually, I’m an emotional slob. I was having a conversation with the instrument this afternoon in which I was discussing being, rather than doing. This, I feel, is one [inaudible] I was sidelined completely, because it is [inaudible] for me [inaudible] to be, and that means I have to channel [inaudible]. Yet, at this exact moment in time, as [inaudible] in the illusion, I am feeling more and more to do, and I like doing things, in fact, it thrills me [inaudible], to do useful things, although I am an invalid. Even the instrument, who has a [inaudible] viewpoint, felt I would [inaudible], if there was one person left who asked me for help. I would never be able to ignore a request for help.

This means, and I do accept this entity’s [inaudible]. I am confused. Can one be, and do? Or need there be set aside a time for experientially feeling the nakedness of being with no props, no one moving, nothing to distract the self from [inaudible] meditation, but [inaudible]. Which of these two options is more appropriate? Any comments that you can make at this point would be helpful. I don’t think I can be more confused than I am.

I am Q’uo, and we feel that we have a grasp of your query, my sister. You have two desires: to be, without adornment; and to be helpful, to others. One concerns, it would seem, only the self. The other concerns, it would seem, only others. It is true that your nature is of that kind which seeks to give where there is need, and seeks little in return, if anything is sought, for such actions. On one level of understanding, it could be said that a choice must be made, for one desire to be fulfilled and the other to be dropped.

However, rather than dwell upon this more shallow interpretation of your question, we would suggest that what you seek in the heart of your being is how to be in the presence of the one Creator in all your life experience. This, of course, is a product of the attitude, the motivation, the initial impulse for all that occurs in your life pattern.

Thus, we do not see the query as one which needs to make a choice between being and doing, but that which seeks an attitude of being filled with the presence of the one Creator, so that the moment is sufficient unto itself, and that as you exist in that moment that is ever-present, that which is appropriate for you to be or do will present itself to you without question. This attitude is that gift of grace which all seekers seek and revere, yet achieve not so much by ritual, by action, by prayer, or by any activity. It is rather that which is born in its own time through the persistent exercise of desire to know the truth.

This path of the pilgrim is the path which all walk. There is much effort expended physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually as the table is prepared for the guest of great honor. No one knows when that guest shall walk through one’s door. Thus, it is well to be prepared at all times as best as one can be.

We have no clear cut answer for you, my sister, but offer these words in the hope that they will shed a small light upon your journey, upon which you may focus your attention in the hope that that light shall grow in brightness and in strength to illuminate ever more clearly and carefully the placement of the next step upon this path.

This was the time in Carla’s life where she had been paralyzed for a brief time, and then the paralysis went away. But she was still bed-ridden because she was often too weak to sit up and even had difficulty raising her head up and using her arms. So her question to Q’uo was: “Is it necessary to be and to do, or was this a time when she would need to concentrate on meditation and simply being?” Q’uo responded by saying that she really didn’t need to make a choice between being and doing but could simply seek to be in the presence of the one Creator in each ever-present moment, and then whatever was appropriate for her to do or be would present itself to her. Q’uo completed their response by saying that it was her persistent seeking of the truth that would draw the grace of the Creator to her. On September 5, 1993, Q’uo spoke of the nature of grace:

The quality of consciousness which you would call “grace” is that quality that is nurtured in each seeker, as the seeker is able to open itself to the awareness of the perfection of all creation. Thus, it is also a process of realization. You may, in a moment of great desire, fling all predetermined expectations to the wind and become as hollow as the pipe through which the water moves, and this water for you is grace. The movement of the Spirit aligning with your open heart causes the feeling of perfection, purpose, place and identity with all to occur, so that your experience is the perfect reflection of the one Creator smiling through your face.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, my brother, that answer was as light as the sun, and I have no more questions.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you for the opportunity to serve. Is there another query?

Carla: I have a question, that I’m curious about, because it hasn’t happened to me exactly, I always [inaudible] somehow had half a jar of peanut butter to eat. Why do people choose the experience [inaudible]?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The choices that lead an entity into that situation which you call the deprivation, the poverty…

Carla: The starving.

…and yes, indeed, that which is disease and starving among your peoples of your planet, is a placing, if we may use a phrase, of the nose to the grindstone in a fashion which cannot help but gain the attention. It is a situation in which many entities find themselves at this time. When life is tenuous, and of such difficulty that one is always forced to attend to basic needs, then there is also the opportunity to discover basic principles, of either that which you call service to others, or service to self. Deprivation upon all levels on which it occurs is that catalyst which forces the attention and the decision-making process to choose, each moment of your existence, how one will be, how one shall respond. The nature of the entity is signed with each choice. Thus, this looking into the mirror is as basic in its brutal honesty as is possible to achieve within your third density illusion, that illusion which is already so full of catalyst for all that inhabit it. Trauma teaches, oh, so well, for it does not allow the attention to waver.

Now Carla wanted to know why some people would choose starvation in their lives. Q’uo responded by saying that starvation and any other kind of deprivation would focus the attention very effectively on the lessons that an entity wished to learn in order to polarize their consciousness more and more powerfully. In 83.27, Ra made the same observation:

You may see, in some cases, an entity which, either by pre-incarnative choice or by constant reprogramming while in incarnation, has developed an esurient program of catalyst. Such an entity is quite desirous of using the catalyst and has determined to its own satisfaction that what you may call the large board needs to be applied to the forehead in order to obtain the attention of the self. In these cases it may indeed seem a great waste of the catalyst of pain and a distortion towards feeling the tragedy of so much pain may be experienced by the other-self. However, it is well to hope that the other-self is grasping that which it has gone to some trouble to offer itself; that is, the catalyst which it desires to use for the purpose of evolution.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Just one. If I took an AIDS patient into my home and my heart, and gave that patient the love which I have in such abundance, could that love heal?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Love, freely given, always helps to heal any wound. However, that entity which is in need of the healing is the one which must accept, seek and accept, love into its own life pattern, and that love which it seeks is the love given from self to self. We speak of the entity that has put itself in a situation from which it may only escape when it unlocks its door. Efforts of others await as resources, but may be allowed through that door when that entity opens that door.

The riddle of the key is the riddle that each must answer. Each entity has doors and walls built by its own hands. The life is given as the opportunity to open doors, to open windows, to move through these doors, to see light through windows. Thus, though one may wish to give all one has to another, the success of the giving will depend upon the other.

Now Carla wanted to know if she took an AIDS patient into her home and gave them all her love, if that would heal them. Q’uo said that the key to healing in such a situation is the entity learning how to love itself and open the door to healing. In 4.20, Ra spoke of this same principle:

Healing occurs when a mind/body/spirit complex realizes, deep within itself, the Law of One; that is, that there is no disharmony, no imperfection; that all is complete and whole and perfect. Thus, the intelligent infinity within this mind/body/spirit complex re-forms the illusion of body, mind, or spirit to a form congruent with the Law of One. The healer acts as energizer or catalyst for this completely individual process.

Is there a further query, my sister.

Carla: No, I truly am done, and I want to thank you for [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

K: I have none this evening.

In that case it seems that we have found that for which we have been not so diligently seeking, the end of our speaking. We enjoy greatly this opportunity to speak with you, if you had not guessed as much, and we thank you for being patient with our many words, and with our growing sense of humor, we hope, through this instrument. At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I ran a series of errands with my first stop being at my dermatologist to get a prescription refilled. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at the vet’s to pick up some food for Bosco.

This afternoon I installed three new globes on three ceiling lights—two in the kitchen and one in the office–that I bought on the internet.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 23

Glad Tidings

Greetings in the consciousness of love. I am the Holy Spirit of Jesus the Christ, the bringer of glad tidings to all who have ears to hear.

My children, rejoice! For the glad tidings which we of the principle of love bear is that there is love in all things. It is a matter of recognition, not creation; reflection, not origination. For love was brought into the world as the world, the world itself being part of the consciousness of love.

There is no thing outside of the consciousness of love, only time’s confused and crazed reflections through the cracked glass of imperfect reflection. Whatever lies in front of you this day is filled with joy and replete with peace. And were you to be able to go forward in time you would see, with no need for faith, that all things have indeed occurred so that your joy may be whole.

Thus if you sorrow this day, by faith you may rejoice in your sorrow. There is no greater peace than the recognition of the consciousness of love in every perfected part of the present day.

Love wishes love peace, now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 23, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with the situation that many people find themselves in when they have either a disease that does not yield to any kind of healing, or, perhaps, they find themselves in a situation of poverty, where they seldom have enough money to meet their expenses and are always wondering where the next meal is coming from. Oftentimes, people will say to such a person, “If you only would remove certain blockages, allow yourself to be in a certain way, then you would have plenty of money, and you would have good health.” The question this evening has to do with the possibility—is there a deeper meaning and purpose to some diseases and to some situations of poverty where the person might have another opportunity opened by that situation rather than looking to heal or cure that particular situation of poverty or ill health?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings to this group in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. Greetings and blessings and an infinity of love be with you. Let us pause for a moment with the sheer joy of sharing in your meditation and your company.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo. You are most kind to have allowed us this privilege. We are most happy to be asked to share our opinions and give what insight we have found to be so on the subject of the spiritual, or metaphysically correct, life necessarily being reflected in perfect physical health of the physical body complex, which is the vehicle for such a mentally, emotionally and spiritually whole and healthy individual. You notice that we segregated the body, that is, your physical vehicle, your personal animal, which has sacrificed its instinctual life in order that it may house the self-conscious spirit that each of you is. It is not that there is not, within the illusion, a tie there that cannot be broken and have the physical vehicle sustain life. It is simply that who you are is not that which you see in the mirror. Who you are is not that which loved ones, friends and enemies recognize as you.

Your animal, having done its very best on your behalf, will surely die, and this is part of the necessary function of this vehicle, for your spirit has a great deal further to go than your physical vehicle can take you. You are beings finishing the evolution of your physical being, continuing your mental and emotional evolution, and either continuing, or just recognizing and just beginning your evolution in spirit. Paradoxically, this does not make you as you are less than one unique entity. However, it is well to gaze at the mechanical arrangement of body and spirit.

Much has already been said concerning the difference between mind and brain, and we will not belabor that point, but say only that in addition to the brain of a body, and the mind of the mental complex, there is a wisdom of the spiritual complex. Like the spiritual complex itself, it is not relative, it is absolute. It is that which is most deeply hidden within each of you, the true wisdom of spirit, the true compassion of spirit. A great deal of patience, purity and persistence is required that that spirit may awaken within you and become what it always has been without the knowledge of the conscious mind, that being your true, absolute and perfect self. As all things are one, so do all things in spirit occur perfectly, simultaneously and with joy. This includes any condition whatsoever.

The group question for this session concerned situations like having a physical illness or poverty and whether they could be healed by working on certain energy centers, or if there was a deeper reason for these situations that provided an opportunity for growth. Q’uo began their answer by saying that we are not our physical bodies, that we are evolving mentally and emotionally. Then they said that in order to awaken our spirit complex it is necessary to use our conscious mind with persistence, purity, and patience to discover the true nature of our spirit as being one with all things including any condition we might experience. On January 29, 1989, Q’uo spoke of the true nature of our spirit complex:

The mental and spiritual complexes or bodies of each entity are motivated in large part by this intelligent energy, with the spiritual complex partaking also of a quality of energy that one may describe as unity, or, as we find some in this group would call it, intelligent infinity, which is the quality of beingness that the one Creator draws upon in order to create the creation and each portion of it. This quality of beingness, then, that enlivens the spiritual complex is the primary connection that the entity partakes in with all of the creation. It is that which ensures and sustains its very essence, the being that is never separate from the one Creator or from any portion of the creation.

Now, let us take these three parts of the unity of your being, and artificially separate them that we may gaze upon them separately, for there is no one answer to the question of healings occurring in body because they have occurred in mind or spirit. The body is an entity of instinct and reason. In the early stages it was called the tool-making animal. It, in and of itself, has a body wisdom. If, in the opinion of the wisdom of your own body, you have done harm to it, it will react to protect itself.

Thusly, those who abuse their bodies in one way or another—and this is usually done because of an under activation or over activation of some point of energy entrance—the body will react by causing a necessity for the body to heal. Thus, you may see those who press themselves against the limits of substances which are harmful to the body becoming ill, because they need, in a simply bodily way, a rest. If there is that in the nature which is somewhat sensitive, the body can be put in many situations, one of which occurs to this instrument as malaria, during the building of the Panama canal. These illnesses are examples of illnesses which have to do with the bodily complex, for the most part, although it is always true that the mind can control the body to the point of which the mind is capable. Thus, the first kind of illness has absolutely nothing to do with anything but circumstance.

Now Q’uo speaks of the body and said that it has its own wisdom, and if it feels abused it will react with a disease that is designed to protect itself, and the disease will be related to one of the energy centers and signals a need for rest either from over activation or under activation. On October 17, 1991, Q’uo described the wisdom of the body to heal itself:

Although it may seem grossly selfish, if an entity wishes to heal from a disease and understands the cause of that disease, not that it may be healed from it and does no longer need it, then it must focus upon the Light and the Love that surround it, that permeates every cell, that is the wisdom of the body.

As you gaze at the mental/emotional complex, we see that portion of the belief you have mentioned, that is, that the body is acting out the illness which is emotional or mental. Your people, and we speak of those who are technologically advanced, have used the technology, not to free themselves from labor, but to become ever more enslaved by it. Light, which was to give leisure to the people of your planet, has been used to extend, artificially, daylight. Your particular physical vehicle is not designed to be a night hunter. Its diurnal rhythm is to wake with the sun and sleep with the darkness. When asked, this remarkably adaptable body will do its very, very best to support alternative diurnal cycles, but it is at its weakest when the schedule is not steady, that is, when there is no set time of being awake or of being asleep. This is very confusing to an animal which turns to the sun instinctively, and which controls its environment for its survival. Consequently, unless an entity has thought deeply about such a simple thing as attempting to remain upon a schedule of sleeping and awaking, an entity can induce a high degree of stress while seemingly not overworking, nor giving oneself enough time to rest.

There are many other stresses through which one may put the body because of concern of an overactive imagination of a personality that swings in its attitudes and needs to a greater extent than is comfortably handled by the physical vehicle. Thusly, it is quite obvious that in many cases the mind is the parent of the illness, and the illness is the acting out of that which was refused as catalyst by the mental/emotional complex of the self. There is the cancer of anger that grows upon itself. There are the lung diseases of those who have not said the words that they must say to be healthy, have not told the truths that must be told to be free of misunderstanding at a deep level in relationship.

There is the acidic condition brought about by sheer overwork, which ruins your gastrointestinal tracts. Many are the illnesses that are the outworking of mental imbalance or emotional imbalance. We do not use the word unhappiness, because we, in our experience, have not found that concept helpful. Joy, not happiness, is a spiritual concept.

Because the mind and body are so closely linked in many diseases, they are indeed responsive to love. You may name any emotional or mental complex distortion that has caused illness that you wish, and we say to you that that is love, poorly expressed. But the mind is not closed, and consciousness is as creative as you allow it to be. Consequently, those who undertake, in healing, the will to health, and a faith that that which has been caused by their own minds’ concerns can certainly be turned around, will indeed respond to positive suggestions. Indeed, the habit of saying anything whatsoever about the self or others that is judgmental is a harmful and unhealthful thing to do, both metaphysically, and physically.

This is a large category. Many, many entities can, and are, healed because of a change in attitude, of a renewed passion for life, of the solving of the anguish which brought about the illness, the forgiving of the self and the proper attention to those things which this animal that has been so good to you may need that you are not giving it. You make sure that your pets have food that will give them what they need. Each entity is unique in that respect also, and it is only common sense to eat those things you feel are either good to eat, or in the case of those who have so many allergies they cannot find foods to which they are not allergic, those to which they are least sensitive.

Now Q’uo begins to talk about the effect that the mind has on the body such as deciding to work the body longer into the night so that its natural rhythm of working in light and resting in darkness is altered to the point of stressing the body. Q’uo also said that other stresses can be put upon the body when the mind engages in anger which produces cancer or when the mind is judgmental about the self or another self. They also said that positive affirmations, forgiving the self, and a renewed passion for life can heal the body of diseases. On May 21, 2000, Q’uo spoke of the power of positive affirmations:

One can erode one’s own health by such doubts and fears, not usually in a significant sense, but in the sense that the physical vehicle will respond to the manipulations of the mind. For indeed, the physical vehicle is a creature of the mind. It is well, therefore, not just to affirm one’s health but to claim it, to live it, to exercise it, to go forth filled with it. We would recommend that you rest in the knowledge that your physical vehicle supports you as well as you support it. The pains that you have felt are not of consequence. They are, rather, fulfillments of expectations, more specifically, of fears that have no substance to them at the present time. Therefore, our recommendation is of the positive affirmations that remove doubt.

The third category is the one of spirit, and the cause of so many entities neglecting this portion of the characteristics of healing is that they think of the spirit as that which is in the same relativistic configuration with regard to this illusion as the mind/emotional complex, and the body complex. Such entities, though spiritual, have not grasped that each entity is absolute. What you see, and hear, and taste and touch will die. What you are, if you think of yourself as your body, will die. All illness is healed by the entrance into larger life, if it be done in a natural manner, that is, if one lets nature use its wisdom, and spirit, its decision making ability.

It is not only those who have come to this planet to help with the harvest that have, with the aid of the greater Self, which is Love, the one great original Thought, planned the difficulties and limitations, as subjectively perceived by the entity within the incarnation. These have been set forth for a reason. Most of the entities upon this planet are capable of graduation from this density to the next—are capable, if they wish to make difficult choices of learning the last lessons of unconditional love that they can learn while in this illusion. They have had their part; you have had your part in planning just those things you may bewail the most because if you consider it carefully, you will see that your intense periods of learning have so often coincided with intense periods of discomfort, anguish and pain. It is not altogether false that an artist suffers, and from his suffering makes beauty, for that is the way of spirit.

The goal of spirit is not happiness, for that suggests a static, unmoving self, comfortable, and unchanging. Evolution suggests continual change, continual new learning, and continual dropping off of that which is no longer helpful in the process of spiritual evolution. Thus, in order to distract them, or in some way focus them away from the mundane and everyday world, many entities choose to incarnate with illnesses, diseases and unhealthful situations of mind also, that are deemed necessary by the self and the greater Self, in order to give to the pilgrim the best possible chance of learning the lessons, of having the realizations and the transformations occur, that you yourself felt were needed.

Now Q’uo began to speak of the nature of our spirit complex which, unlike our bodies which will die, is eternal and partakes of the greater Spirit of Love in planning our incarnations to use experiences of disease and difficulty of one kind or another to grow spiritually. Q’uo said that these lessons will provide a means for constant change in our spiritual evolution and the learning of the lesson of unconditional love which is necessary to graduate into the fourth density. On September 7, 1986, Latwii spoke of the spiritual value of some diseases:

Thus, a disease that seems in some ways recognizable to those of the medical community, as you call it, will appear, and according to the opportunity provided and taken advantage of, will then begin to recede in a manner which may not be fully understood or understood at all. Perhaps it has been decided in a pre-incarnative sense that the entity with the disease shall galvanize those with whom it shares experience in such a manner that that quality which you know as love shall be generated in a fashion which not only serves to heal the disease, but to bring a greater sense of unity to those within the grouping of the entity with the disease. It may also be the case that such a generation of that quality of love will provide for each individual expressing this quality opportunities for enhancing the personal expression of this quality of love in a fashion that is congruent with the potential brought into the incarnation which has heretofore remained dormant.

Consequently, if repeated and earnest attempts are made in a single-minded and careful manner, and poverty does not open to riches, or ill health to heartiness, it is then that one must look at one’s situation. The first realization is that this is a relativistic illusion. For instance, each in this circle is unwealthy; one, extremely unwealthy, others closer to being comfortable and without worry, but not close enough to avoid difficulty when unexpected expenses occur. Why would we, and you, sometimes choose such situations? What have they to teach us? In a relativistic world, a simple geographical move to any of your civilizations that contains a large majority of people who do not have enough to eat, or a place to sleep, will indicate that even those in this culture that consider themselves the poorest are seen as rich by those who have even less. To one who is dying, an illness that does not kill does not seem serious. To one who has a non-killing disease, but one which limits, those who are able to move around without limitation seem healthy.

When pre-incarnative choice has given to you a difficulty, have faith that you are a spirit advanced enough to participate in your own destiny, that occurrences do not happen simply by chance, that the seeming poverty, the seeming limitation, the seeming difficulty, the seeming illness, is also a forthright aid in setting up a circumstance in which a lesson of love can be learned under adverse conditions. Yours is the last density with truly adverse conditions for the positive, or service-to-others oriented person. Only in this density, the density of choice, does this occur. Know then, that that which is in front of you is not more than you can work with, is not that which defeats; you would not program that for yourself. But you are stretching yourself, because you wish to change, you wish to become even more polarized in love and service to the Creator and others than you are now. There may be a lesson to learn, there may be a part of service that you chose that could not be achieved in any other way, given the uniqueness of your person, the uniqueness of your character. Consequently, there are illnesses, limitations and what seems to be a grinding and degrading poverty, that may be seen, only in a spiritual sense, as challenges, rather than difficulties; as chances to learn, rather than sentences of condemnation.

It is well, when one is gazing within at one’s situation, to consider all three possibilities. First, give the body what it is asking for. If you are still ill, if you have worked hard and are still poor, offer to the mind the opportunity of thinking carefully about the possible healing of this sorrow of self by a change in attitude, a change in the way you treat the body that has been so good to you. And if these things are tried, in all sincerity, persistently, and yield nothing, try the assumption that this situation, though seemingly negative within the illusion, is the very cornerstone of your evolution in spirit. The lesson there will be learned during the suffering, the pain, the anguish of learning, and change, and the transformation of the self.

Can it possibly feel good for the felled tree trunk to be hollowed out? Yet, if it is not hollowed out, it cannot be the canoe, it cannot carry anyone anywhere. So, too, are lessons unique. You seek in yourself a hollowing out of those petty concerns that you cannot afford if you wish to be open to spiritual evolution.

Certainly, do all that you can to maximize the use of the vehicle that you have. But gaze beyond that. If you are a player of a violin, and you begin to get fingers that are numb, a doctor will say to you that you are holding the instrument incorrectly, and are causing some nerve condition. Pills and treatments will ensue. If that does not cure the difficulties of the hand, gaze within and see if the mind enjoys what it is doing. If it does, and affirms so in a persistent manner, and there is still the pain when playing the instrument, the situation may well be pre-incarnatively chosen in order that your path of service may be changed to another direction, another impetus, perhaps one better served to the deeper gifts of your unique self.

In any case whatsoever, release all fear, fear of the illness or the limitation; fear of the stigma this may bring upon you; fear of what others may say as they misunderstand you. All of these things are as nothing to one who is paying attention to that source of information that is by far the most reliable, that is, the self. As always, daily, persistent meditation, acting upon those new points of view that this meditation inevitably brings, and praising and thanking the infinite One for this opportunity to break the walls of previous misunderstandings within yourself, no matter how small. Here is your opportunity to gaze steadily at the illusion until it blinks. Do not accept any negative explanation or condemnation. Take it not in.

You are engaged in walking a path of spirit, the mind and body in complete cooperation, from before the beginning of this incarnation. You chose the physical vehicle you now have. You chose preexisting, usually genetically caused, in the eyes of the world, physical vehicles that may seem, in the case of preincarnative choices which are challenging, that your body has betrayed you. This is never so. The body that you have is second density. It will do anything it can for you. It loves you. It accepted you. It wishes to do what you wish it to do. Sometimes it cannot, because you chose this situation at this time.

You will move from these words to the many other situations that are criticized as being those of failure of some kind. Take them to heart and have courage and faith, and the will to learn that which you came here to learn; the will to love ever more purely; the will to allow the pettiness of humanity gradually to depart from you as water from a pitcher, that you are an empty vessel at last for the love and the light of the one infinite Creator as expressed through the gifts manifested by you in greater and greater understanding of the true goals of this life of choice.

Q’uo completed their response regarding the purpose of disease and difficulty in our lives by saying that they are often the result of pre-incarnative choices that we have made that will give us the opportunity to learn the lessons of love that we need in order to be of more service to others and to the Creator. They also said that if we have any doubt about this nature of our lessons that we use meditation to be given hints as to the nature of our spiritual path that is enhanced by whatever condition that we have in our bodies. They said that we are walking in unison as a spirit, with a mind and body, that will become an empty vessel for the love and light of the Creator which occurs when we realize how our pre-incarnative choices have manifested in our lives. In 73.19, Ra spoke to how pre-incarnative choices may manifest as diseases:

We might note further that when the one wishing to be healed, though sincere, remains unhealed, as you call this distortion, you may consider pre-incarnative choices; and your more helpful aid to such an entity may be the suggestion that it meditate upon the affirmative uses of whatever limitations it might experience. We would also note that in these cases the indigo-ray workings are often of aid.

I could be wrong, but I think that what Ra referred to as “indigo-ray workings” might be contained in their statement in 71.15 where Ra comments on Don’s statement about “creating changes in consciousness at will”:

Questioner: Could you please comment on the accuracy of this statement? I’m going to generally talk about the concept of magic and first define it as the ability to create changes in consciousness at will. Is this an acceptable definition?

Ra: I am Ra. This definition is acceptable in that it places upon the adept the burden it shall bear. It may be better understood by referring back to an earlier query, in your measurement, within this working having to do with the unmanifested self. In magic one is working with one’s unmanifested self in body, in mind, and in spirit; the mixture depending upon the nature of the working.

These workings are facilitated by the enhancement of the activation of the indigo-ray energy center. The indigo-ray energy center is fed, as are all energy centers, by experience but far more than the others is fed by what we have called the disciplines of the personality.

At this time, we would, with some embarrassment, apologize for speaking longer than the thirty minutes this instrument requested of us. Unfortunately, neither this instrument nor us understands time very well. We leave this instrument in love and light, and transfer to the one known as Jim. I am Q’uo.

This morning I took my new bird bath, that I ordered on the internet, outside and installed it in place of the old bird bath that somehow got broken so that it would no longer hold water. I am guessing a deer knocked it off of its pedestal, and it broke when it hit one of the large geodes that are displayed in that same area. Then I took the old bird feeder and put it in the spirea bush garden next to the fish pond as a kind of decorative ornament.

This afternoon I went outside and replaced the stones at the end of my driveway that I knocked out of the small stone wall, that surrounds a flower garden along the parking area, when I was backing my car out of the driveway two days ago.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 22

Useful Challenges

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love divine.

Sometimes we have not the will to go on. Sometimes the consciousness within the body gazes upon the morning with rejection of all that it portends.

These times of discouragement are important. These times of difficulty are to be observed with great compassion and self-forgiveness, for it is within the framework of trouble and sorrow that much of your spiritual work is done.

Therefore, do not chide yourself for your discouragement but rather, praise and thank the blessed Father that in the mysterious way of grace, such dark days may be seen to cause the greatest inner illumination.

Thus, to the discouraged we would say, “Take heart and know that trouble and difficulty are but useful challenges to a servant of the consciousness of love.”

In that love and that peace may you go forward this day and forevermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 20, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet each in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. It is our privilege to join this group this evening in the work of the development of the instrument, each instrument always needing the exercise in order to develop those abilities to become aware of information and the continued refining of the perception of that which is available to be transmitted. Each instrument works with a certain set of parameters that are entirely personal in nature, being composed of those qualities which comprise the active personality, the means of perception which allow the interpretation of that which lies outside of the personality structure, and the unique way that each entity has of relating the self to the external environment.

These are basic components of any entity, and the one wishing to serve as an instrument will find that the nature of the personality, the means by which the external environment is perceived, and the bridge of relationship that is built between these inner and outer components are also those qualities which are utilized in the broadest fashion in the beginning work as an instrument and continue to be refined for as long as the entity desires to serve as an instrument. These are basic tools and this evening we would exercise this instrument and the one known as K as each attempts to broaden the ability to perceive that which we have to offer and to express it in a manner which is both clear and concise.

At this time we would make our first attempt to speak this evening to the one known as K and would ask that this instrument continue in those practices which it has used previously in the tuning and in the challenging, paying special attention to the ability to sense our presence and to perceive a somewhat more in detail or complex set of vibrational patterns which we shall attempt to transmit as concepts through this instrument this evening. At this time we would transfer this contact to the one known as K. I am Q’uo.

(K channeling)

[K’s channeling is mostly inaudible.]

I am Q’uo, and greet you once again in love and in light through this instrument. It is our privilege this evening to continue to exercise more than one instrument, and we are grateful for this opportunity to be of service. It is also a joy to us to be able to walk for a time with you among that path on which we all continue at all times towards the great mystery. Though at times it may seem to you that you travel alone, we share… on this path at all times… same path as you. And if at times it may seem that we are far ahead of you, out of sight, out of reach, be sure that the separation is part of the illusion… For we are with you at all times… and you may… exciting time… focusing… path… This evening we wish to encourage you on… difficulties along the path… And at times it seems to each that the obstacles… and you find yourself being stuck not knowing if the journey or yourself… Feeling… because… We would like to assure you that this… And as you gaze on the obstacles that seem urge you to be… at such time… Available to you… may take various forms. There may be those such as ourselves who walk with you and are available for comfort and support… Those companions with whom you walk day to day… Other teachers and guides… are aware…

[The rest of K’s channeling was not transcribed.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time we would offer ourselves for any queries which those present may have for us. May we speak to a query at this time?

K: Do you have any suggestions for anything I can do improve the contact?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. As far as the actual practice of the vocal channeling is concerned, we are most pleased with your efforts. You have been able to perceive an increasingly more intricate series of thought concepts than previously, and we see this as a definite step forward in your practice of channeling. It is always well for any instrument to continue with the daily self examination that may take place in your meditative or quiet and thoughtful moments, so that those centers of energy upon which these contacts are based may offer to the contact the most purified and clarified balance of energies possible for each instrument. The balance for each instrument will, of course, be unique, for each instrument works upon the same centers but from a different perspective or point of view. Each instrument therefore has a certain set of balances of an internal nature which are necessary in order for the instrument to be able to release those cares and concerns of the day, as you call them, knowing that that which can be done, has been done to balance them and that they are being, shall we say, balanced in a steady and persistent manner. Other than this reminder, which we would offer to any instrument at any time, we feel that your work and your progress are most rapid, and we appreciate the dedication which you bring to this endeavor. It is quite obvious to us that this is an effort for which no effort will be spared.

This was another intensive channeling session where K was continuing to practice the art of channeling, and after channeling a message from Q’uo she wanted to know if Q’uo had any suggestions as to how she could channel better. Q’uo said K had been able to perceive a more complex message and in order to continue to her growth as a channel it would be well to take part in self examination in contemplation or meditation to balance the catalyst within her because this would allow her to activate those energy centers that are utilized in channeling to be purified and balanced. On January 31, 1989, Q’uo elaborated upon the work within one’s self that is necessary to improve as a vocal channel:

Thus, we find the conversation that was held prior to this session’s beginning to be most helpful, in that it reminds each instrument that whatever areas within the self that yet await the refining and purification that is the task of the conscious seeker, will lend their certain bias to that which is the vocalized channeling. The concept here with which we deal is that each instrument will in some degree offer a portion of itself to the contact, to be blended with our concepts and vibrations in order that the collaboration between us and the instrument might produce information of use to others in their evolutionary journey. The portion that is of the instrument, then, needs must be made as stable, as clear, and as full of the vitality of the self as is possible. Thus, it is always recommended that as the vocal instrument chooses to pursue its art that it heed the advice given also to those who would serve as healers, and that is that it is well to first heal and balance the self as far as is possible at any particular time, in order that that portion of the self which is offered in the vocal channeling be the highest and best which the entity has to offer.

It is often possible for the instrument to momentarily clear the energy centers and the mind of the concerns and the distortions which might unduly influence any channeling process and to successfully serve as an instrument in the moment of this clearing, shall we say. However, it is not a process which can be depended upon to provide the instant remedy, shall we say, each time that the entity desires to serve as a vocal instrument. Therefore, we recommend the continued watchfulness and observation of the self by the self, so that the foundation of service may be built upon as strong and sure a base as possible.

Is there a further query?

K: No, that’s all, we thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and as it appears that we have accomplished the task set before us this evening, we again thank each for offering this opportunity to us and look forward for each such gathering. We shall take our leave of this group at this time, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning Anna and I synchronized our computers and listened to another session from the Ra contact where we could hear Carla channeling Ra while the words she was channeling were on the screen of the computer. It is always an inspiring experience because the slowness of Ra’s speaking gives us more time to consider what is being said. Whenever we have a question or a thought to share we pause the recording and talk for a while. This is my favorite way to study the concepts of the Law of One.

This afternoon I cleaned the upstairs hall runner with the carpet sweeper. Then I used the broom and dust pan to sweep up the kitty litter in Benny’s room. My last job was to use the dust mop in all three rooms and the hall.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 21

For Those Who Trust

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ, the gift and manifestation of the Son of Man, the servant of all. I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

If you ask the outer world what conditions are pleasant for growth you may, perhaps, not find the conditions which appear before you this day. Much may seem out of place, disquieting and disturbing. The peace of the spirit of love is that peace which trusts that the consciousness of love abides in each and every situation and that, in the outworking of time, the justice of the sweep of the world’s actions may eventually be seen. From day to day, however, without the benefit of hindsight, the spirit of God lies in wait for those who trust.

May you trust the superior and final nature of love, both this day and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from September 16, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. We realize that we have spoken long once again in your terms, but we would wish to offer ourselves at this time in the attempt to speak to any queries which may yet remain upon the minds of those present. Is there a query at this time?

K: What were you referring to when you mentioned the approval of the occurrence which I took to be the joint project between those of Latwii and those of Ra—what approval was this?

I am Q’uo. The approval is that, not only of each social memory complex, but of that council which sits and serves as what you would call the Guardians of this particular planet, those entities which oversee Confederation attempts to be of service to entities upon this planetary sphere. This council, the session council, is known to you as the Nine, or the Council of Saturn.

Is there another query, my sister?

K: I assumed that’s what you were talking about. Then the Law of One channelings also had to be brought before this Council for approval, and do these social memory complexes, when they are considering offering themselves for service, in service as contacts through vocal channels, do all those projects need to be approved [inaudible] before the council as [inaudible]?

I am Q’uo, and this is correct, my sister, for there is, as you know, that which is called a quarantine of this particular planet because of previous efforts to be of service to various groups of entities upon this planet by members of our Confederation who were, though very well intentioned in their desire to be of service, mistaken in various aspects of the means by which the service was carried out, thereby infringing upon the free will of some entities and groups of entities upon this planet. Therefore, it is now quite carefully guarded as to contact between Confederation entities and the peoples of this planet.

K asked Q’uo about the Law of One and the Ra contact needing to be brought before the Council of Saturn for approval before they could be offered to Earth, and she also wanted to know if this was true for other social memory complexes. Q’uo agreed with K’s assumptions and added that because of previous errors on the part Confederation entities that a quarantine of Earth was put into place. Q’uo is talking about the guardians that transferred the population of Mars to Earth which Ra described in 19.7-.9:

Questioner: What race is that, and how did they get from Mars to here?

Ra: I am Ra. The race is a combination of the mind/body/spirit complexes of those of your so-called Red Planet and a careful series of genetical adjustments made by the guardians of that time. These entities arrived, or were preserved, for the experience upon your sphere by a type of birthing which is non-reproductive, but consists of preparing genetic material for the incarnation of the mind/body/spirit complexes of those entities from the Red Planet.

Questioner: Then I’m assuming what you’re saying is that the guardians transferred the race here after the race had died from the physical as we know it on Mars. Is that correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct.

Questioner: The guardians obviously were acting with an understanding of the Law of One in doing this. Can you explain the application of the Law of One in this process?

Ra: I am Ra. The Law of One was named by these guardians as the bringing of the wisdom of the guardians in contact with the entities from the Red Planet, thus melding the social memory complex of the guardian race and the Red Planet race. It, however, took an increasing amount of distortion into the application of the Law of One from the viewpoint of other guardians and it is from this beginning action that the quarantine of this planet was instituted, for it was felt that the free will of those of the Red Planet had been abridged.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: Not on that, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you. Is there another query?

K: I do have another one. I presume also that Wanderers have to present themselves individually before the Council for approval as well?

I am Q’uo, and this too is correct, my sister, for each effort of service to this planet from those from elsewhere, shall we say, has the possibility of affecting the entities of this planet in a pronounced manner. The effect of each Wanderer’s service must be carefully gauged in order that the service is offered in a way which will serve as catalyst to the point of information without infringement.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: Do Wanderers who offer themselves for service have specific projects in mind, or do they just come hoping to help in some generalized manner with the harvest of raising of consciousness or things of that general nature, or is that specific enough in itself?

I am Q’uo, and each Wanderer has a variety of services to offer, the first being the presence which is of a lighter vibrational quality, and which shines without any action being necessary and lightens the planetary vibration by its very presence and radiance.

The second level of service is that which you would call more specific, in that the entity will have brought with it into the Earthly incarnation those talents and skills which may be utilized in a more specific or focused fashion in order to operate, shall we say, more as would the surgeon’s scalpel.

The third level of service is that which is more personalized in nature, in that the entity will also take the opportunity to provide a service not only to others, but will seek to balance or harmonize some portion of its being that is in need of such balancing or harmonization. As all interaction with other entities provides a catalyst which is a service this is also a level of service to others that is valuable, though it also has a personal component as well.

Now K asked if Wanderers also had to go before the Council of Saturn before being allowed to incarnate on Earth. Q’uo said that this was correct in that Wanderers had three different levels of service to offer: the first was the general lightening of the planet’s vibrations; the second was specific skills or services; and the third was the pursuing of the balancing of personal lessons. Ra mentioned these three levels of services of Wanderers in 65.12:

Questioner: Then each of the Wanderers here acts as a function of the biases he has developed in any way he sees fit to communicate or simply be in his polarity to aid the total consciousness of the planet. Is there any, shall I say, more physical way that he aids in— what I mean is, do the vibrations somehow add, just as electrical polarity or charging a battery or something? Does that also aid the planet, just the physical presence of the Wanderers?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct and the mechanism is precisely as you state. We intended this meaning in the second portion of our previous answer.

You may, at this time, note that as with any entities, each Wanderer has its unique abilities, biases, and specialties so that from each portion of each density represented among the Wanderers comes an array of pre-incarnative talents which then may be expressed upon this plane which you now experience so that each Wanderer, in offering itself before incarnation, has some special service to offer in addition to the doubling effect of planetary love and light and the basic function of serving as beacon or shepherd.

Thus there are those of fifth density whose abilities to express wisdom are great. There are fourth- and sixth-density Wanderers whose ability to serve as, shall we say, passive radiators or broadcasters of love and love/light are immense. There are many others whose talents brought into this density are quite varied.

Thus Wanderers have three basic functions once the forgetting is penetrated, the first two being basic, the tertiary one being unique to that particular mind/body/spirit complex.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: No, thanks very much.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: Earlier today, Jim and I were talking about the project that Aaron and Barbara and Emanuel and Pat and yourself and me, and together we realized that we hadn’t asked a question of preferences of you, and for the life of me I cannot remember what it was we didn’t ask. If it is possible to look into either my mind or Jim’s, I wonder if you could comment on the question that I can’t remember, if that makes any sense?

I am Q’uo, and we feel that we have a grasp upon your query that is as firm, we hope, as the grasp upon this entity’s mind at this moment, however, perhaps that which we have to say will jog your memory as well.

We have no preference as to whether the project is focused in a chapter by chapter fashion upon a series of topics, or whether there is the opening of each instrument to what you have called in your past meetings the “pot luck” agenda, that is determined more on the unconscious or subconscious level of the mind than the conscious level. We are happy to offer ourselves in whatever way is asked of us. We do not feel that it is our place or proper purpose to choose an agenda of topics arbitrarily, for we feel there is great benefit to be realized by each entity partaking in this process of choosing of topics and agenda.

We do not feel that two session per day would be too great a burden for any of the entities involved, as long as those sessions have a reasonable length to them. We realize that that which we call reasonable may be in question concerning our previous speaking to this group, that is, somewhat overly long in duration. We would recommend a flexibility with the first day’s worth of work in order that each contributing instrument might be allowed to assess that which is possible for it and that no one be asked to partake in any longer or more strenuous sessions than she can comfortably partake in.

May we speak to any further facet upon this topic, my sister?

Carla: No thank you, Q’uo. I remember now that those were the questions that we had discussed, and you’ve answered them very well. I will share them with Barbara, who will share them with Pat. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time.

Carla: Is there any need to cleanse the house especially for this project?

I am Q’uo, and we find that this domicile is well tuned in its basic vibrational quality. We believe that this location will provide an harmonious setting for this undertaking.

Carla: Is there an exaggerated problem with my electromagnetic field anomalies because of the intensity of these sessions, and, if so, should we attempt to [inaudible] the microphones and recording systems as we have done before?

I am Q’uo, and as we examine that which has been discussed concerning this project, we are aware that there shall be a redundancy of recording devices, if each instrument brings her own recording devices. We would continue the recommendation that you have as little direct contact with any recording device as is possible, touching only those portions of the device that is necessary for having the microphone resting upon your physical vehicle. Other than this precaution, we do not feel that there is any need for further concern in this area.

Carla: I am aware already that Jim and K are part of the circle for this project. Others known to you of our group would probably enjoy coming and sitting in some of the sessions. I speak of the one known as R, the one known as S, the other one known as S, the one known as L, the one known as T, the one known as B, the one known as J. These are those entities which come to mind quickly. Is it helpful, neutral, or unhelpful for more entities than Jim and K, Pat and Barbara and me to sit in session?

I am Q’uo. We would suggest that you consider two factors in this regard. One is the preference of the other instruments that will be taking part in these sessions. The second being the ease of scheduling and carrying out any session when there are fewer entities to be considered.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: So it’s neutral, as far as helpful or harmful, as far as you’re concerned, and merely a question of logistics?

I am Q’uo. For most of these entities, that would be correct. However, we do not wish to place ourselves in the position of one who judges. In some cases it would not be helpful to include additional entities.

Carla: We shall inquire separately of anyone who wishes to join us before [inaudible], and we will most certainly take into full consideration.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there a final query at this time?

The project that was being discussed in these questions was going to be Carla channeling Q’uo, Barbara Brodsky channeling Aaron, and a woman named Pat channeling Emanuel. Pat didn’t make it to these nine weekend sessions, so there was no channeling of Emanuel. These sessions were held in the early ‘90s here at L/L Research and also in Ann Arbor, Michigan where Barbara Brodsky lived and channeled her guide, Aaron. The channeling sessions covered a great variety of topics and eventually produced the book, The Aaron/Q’uo Dialogues, which may be purchased from L/L Research for $22 or can be read for free in the PDF format at www.llresearch.org. The reason Q’uo suggested that Carla not touch the recording device/tape recorder is that she had a bad effect on electromagnetic devices as Ra mentioned in 96.6-.8:

Questioner: Was the unusual sound on the instrument’s tape recorder that occurred while she was trying to record her singing a greeting from our fifth-density, negative associate?

Ra: I am Ra. No. Rather it was a greeting from a malfunctioning electronic machine.

Questioner: There was no catalyst for the machine to malfunction from any of the negative entities then. Is that right? I mean it just was a function only of the random malfunction of the machine. Am I correct?

Ra: I am Ra. No.

Questioner: What was the origin of this malfunction?

Ra: I am Ra. There are two difficulties with the machine. Firstly, this instrument has a strong effect upon electromagnetic and electronic machines and instruments, and likely, if continued use of these is desired, should request that another handle the machines. Also, there was some difficulty from physical interference due to the material you call tape catching upon adjoining, what you would call, buttons when the “play” button, as you call it, is depressed.

K: Not from me, thanks.

I am Q’uo, and we thank each again for this opportunity to blend our vibrations with yours and to speak to the heart of each entity in its desire to know more of that which you call the truth. We share that which is ours to give and share it with the hope that there will be some benefit to those present and to others that may eventually come in contact with this information. However, we share most centrally with a freedom and joy that we are able to walk a step or two with you upon your paths of learning and of service. This is a blessed and precious time for us. We cannot thank you enough for sharing it with us.

We are known to you as those of Q’uo and we shall take our leave of this group at this time, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I placed a takeout order with the Village Anchor for some French toast for lunch and went over to pick it up while the outside temperatures were still in the single digits.

This afternoon I worked on gathering information on various people that Don Elkins worked with in his 25 years of investigating UFOs that I will share with our practice channeling circle next Wednesday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 20

What Is Holy?

I am the Holy Spirit of the Lord Jesus Christ, and I greet you in the consciousness of love. The word “holy” is avoided by many who have felt that there is, indeed, a spirit which enhances the experience of humankind.

We, ourselves, are careful in our use of this adjective. For it is not a part of the inspiration which love offers that it be understood as holy. For in and of itself, love is not holy.

For when all things are holy, then are none holy. Yet the holiness of the spirit of love resides in its sanctification of the ordinary in human experience. There is nothing that is not full of holiness. An instinct to love is the love of God. The principle of love imbues every particle of what you call matter and thought in creation.

Yet there must be the will to call that sanctification forth from within the skeletal walls of earth and rust that are so often perceived as the beginning and end of corporeal things. Call forth the sanctification of life by your will and allow your world to become holy. For as you see a holy world, so you shall share that vision and that truth with all whom you meet, inspiring each to the calling forth of that same sanctification. From such beginnings are worlds recreated and transformed.

We leave you in the abiding peace of the consciousness of love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.