The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from July 15, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. We realize that we have spoken overly long once again this evening, and we apologize for our lengthy speaking, but those queries and concerns which you posed for us are of such a deep level of meaning to each that we felt it was appropriate to speak at some length. At this time we would offer our self to any further queries which may remain within any mind present. Is there a query at this time?

Carla: Well, before [inaudible] I have one question that’s been on my mind for [inaudible] also, as we deal with the cost of a new publication, a new publisher that seems to be much more [inaudible] of us. We will, however, be making a quality product and charging for it, such an expense that we ourselves have to change our policy. The change that we have come up with seems to preserve the freedom of people to purchase our work with any cost that is comfortable to them. The addition is only information, that is, the cost to us of each item. In no way do we wish to suggest that people pay that, that is simply information. Is there a flaw in such an attitude toward invoking the spiritual Law of Plenty?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We would suggest that the course of action which you have set for yourselves is one which you have invested with your desire to be of service in a manner which allows you to continue that service within the framework of trade and exchange that is utilized by almost all of the entities within your culture. That you have found it important in your previous experience to deviate in a significant fashion from this stated means of exchange, that is, the setting of prices upon one’s goods and services that is fixed for all, illustrates your desire to offer that which is of your service in as free a manner as is possible within this framework. Your current decision and refinement of this decision is also within the boundaries that you have set previously, that is, to offer information in a free manner while seeking to preserve the continuity of this service.

We would suggest that the intention that propels any decision upon this policy is the governing factor, shall we say, that determines the purity of the principle that one honors. We are aware that your desires are within the proper degree of purity, and would not recommend any addition to this decision at this time.

In her question Carla is talking about the beginning editions of The Law of One which we self-published using Palmer Publications in Amherst, Wisconsin as the printer. They were 8 ½ by 11 inches, solid blue in color, and gold lettering for The Law of One title and the designation of book One, Two, Three, or Four. In those days we put ads in publications like Flying Saucer Review with a simple description of the nature of the Ra contact and the Law of One information,  and we offered to let people order the books and read them for free. Then, if they decided to keep the book, we asked them to make whatever amount of donation seemed fair to them. If they did not enjoy the material we asked them to send the books back to us. Eventually we were able to find a mass market publisher, The Donning Company, that was willing to publish our books for us, but we had to pay a certain amount more for these books than those from Palmer Publications because they were of higher quality. Carla wanted to know if it would be OK to let people know the additional cost even though we would still not be asking for a set price. Q’uo responded by saying that we had remained within our previous standards of offering our books for free, and it was this intention to do so that was the governing factor in the situation with our new publisher. In 96.4, Ra spoke to the importance of how we set our intentions:

May we note that just as each entity strives in each moment to become more nearly one with the Creator but falls short, just so is physical spotlessness striven for but not achieved. In each case the purity of intention and thoroughness of manifestation are appreciated. The variance between the attempt and the goal is never noted and may be considered unimportant.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we feel that we have, at this time, spoken at sufficient length for this particular gathering, and we would thank each most heartily for inviting us to do so and to share that which is our opinion upon this topic which is of such great interest to each, as each pursues in a diligent manner the path of the pilgrim, the seeking, the learning, the serving. We commend each upon this path, and we thank you for making a place upon your journey that we may walk with you. We are greatly honored that you would invite our presence.

At this time we shall take our leave of this group, leaving each as always in the love and in the light of the infinite Creator. We are know to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I took Bosco to the vet to have his claws trimmed as he has been getting them caught in my bed spread and the carpet recently. Then I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some food and non-food items for myself.

This afternoon I got out the white paint and painted some of the bricks at the bottom of the wall on the porch in front of the house. As I looked around on the sides of the house I can see places where it might be a good idea to use a roller to paint more bricks a deeper white, and I may do this on another day when the temperature is above 50 degrees since I have a gallon and a half of white paint left.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 9

The Heart Of What You Learn

I am the spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

Much is not known to you. And because your minds ceaselessly seek knowledge, your ignorance is a burden. And you are concerned with learning more, gaining information and so controlling your environment.

The forces of love are not inimicable to the forces of mind. Rather, the voice of the spirit is that which, through and beneath all written and intellectual learnings, brings the heart of what you learn to the center of your own mind, thus ordering in a helpful and compassionate way that data which your mind would otherwise make into a maze into which it wanders, confused and uncertain.

By all means, seek that information which humankind has collected. But seek also that great judge and orderer of what is, for you and you alone, the creative and shaping force of the spirit of love. Thus peace and right knowledge shall be yours and your path shall be made clear. Trust your world, remembering to keep it in the hands of the spirit of Jesus the Christ.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. Amen

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from July 15, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with following our path and learning lessons, dropping old patterns and developing new patterns of behavior, in the overall pursuit of the choices that were made before the incarnation by the soul and Higher Self. How do we accomplish the dropping of old patterns that we have known for so long, that have provided us with a great measure of support, and adopt new patterns of behavior when we feel that there is change that is necessary to acknowledge and to reflect in a new pattern of behavior? How do we find the assurance that the new pattern is truly our path that has congruency with the soul’s choices, and how do we release the old patterns of behavior?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings to all of you in the love and the light of the one Creator, infinite, invisible, intelligent, creative and full of glory. Under the influence of these purified emotions, and with the understanding that Love and Light compose all that there is, we are with you this evening, thanking you for calling us to you. As always, we ask you to listen to that which we give as you would to any friend’s opinion, giving it neither less weight nor more than you would any friend who is a friend in spirit of unconditional love. We always mean well, but truth is subjective and personal, and if what we have to say is not a portion of your truth at this time, we ask you the great favor of allowing us and our thoughts to be moved aside, that we may not become a stumbling block before any, for we are fallible and prone to error, as are all who seek mystery and are not yet the mystery.

We are experimenting with the mixture of the two social memory complexes involved in this contact, and if there are pauses that seem to move to more length than usual we would ask the one known as Jim to squeeze the instrument’s hand. We do not want this instrument to go into trance. But the instrument asks, as it always does, to be better than before, and in this particular case that involves going deeper into the subconscious and allowing more of that which is impersonal and that which is finely tuned to match the fine tuning of this instrument. Therefore, we ask that the one known as Jim be vigilant.

We do not come to you as those who have not changed. We have been where you are. We have been where you were. We have had our choices to make, and we remember the density in which you now dance your dance and make your choices. Stage left, stage right, lights up, lights down, how shall you be? That is perhaps the first thing we would ask of each of you. When you relax, so that you are with yourself in a loving and nurturing way, who and what do you wish to be? This is the density of choice. Not to define one’s choices is to remove from oneself the opportunity of making them. Not to know who you are at this moment is to keep from yourself the ability to choose a specific other way to be. This is not seen to be a large subject, a large challenge, yet it is the beginning of all spiritual work.

We see each of you in part as precisely the same as each other person in third density consciousness upon the surface of your planet. All of you have a God self within. Within each of you is the inestimable, imperishable jewel of the Infinite One. You are children of Love, and you are Love. In order for you to have been flung out from the heart of the Creator, to pass through so many dimensions and energies, and to choose this particular experience, there needed to be added the first alteration, or means of changing, that Love, which is the Creator, and which is precisely the same from before you can ever conceive, now, and forever to come.

Yet, each of you is unique, for each of you is also bound in that Love to a portion of Free Will. Free will is as absolutely various as Love is absolutely the same, and free will is expressed in all of the emotions and ways of being possible to imagine, possible to be thought, possible to be attempted. You are the man inebriated and lying in the gutter, you are the thief, you are the murderer. All that is possible is within you, as it is within all. This is not due to any shade or nuance of Love. Love is fiery, creative, and absolutely stable. Your choices are made as your free will begins to recognize of its own choice that role which it wishes to play in your own spiritual evolution.

And so we ask each of you to begin to know, truly know, the self. Do not judge the self which you know so well. Say no judgmental or negative thing to yourself about yourself. Recognize your patterns. Discover those things which you wish to encourage and those things which you do not. You yourself are the basic tool, the basic resource with which you have to work. Elements of your free will, which this instrument calls will, and faith, create for you a place—not a geographical place, not a place in space or in time, or in your imagination—let us say, a room, which you answer and close the door behind you, and all alone with the Infinite One, drenched in love, marinated in life, dissolved in light, you are upon holy ground. If this place is within your mind you may take it with you, and wherever you stand is holy ground.

The group question for this session was how do we determine what our pre-incarnative choices are, and how do we learn new patterns of behavior to replace old patterns of behavior as we move through our incarnations? Q’uo began their response by suggesting that we ask ourselves who and what we wish to be as this is the beginning of the spiritual path. Then they said that each of us contains the one Creator, and we are each a unique portion of the Love of the Creator that is always the same. Then Q’uo said that by our use of free will in making choices we discover that we are always changing as we discover that we are capable of being every emotion and every kind of being from the murderer, to the thief, the poet, or the dancer. So they said that knowing ourselves was important so that we could accentuate those qualities we feel are those we wish to retain and determine those qualities we do not wish to retain. Then Q’uo suggested that we should use our will and faith in meditation to commune with the Creator and answer the questions of who we wish to be. On November 5, 1981, Hatonn gave us information about our identity:

This is a confusing density. We can make no bones about it. It is a difficult one in which to remember your identity. But there is, shall we say, a master and you are his children. And the mark within you is that as his children, you are children of light. And the light within you marks you as the Creator’s own. No circumstance, no thought, no behavior, no error, no difficulty, no limitation can remove this mark from your very being and you rest in the arms of the Creator. There is no moment in eternity when this is not so.

The illusion is strong and ofttimes dark, my friends. But there is a light within you, and you are the Creator’s own. You shall never be forgotten. You shall never be lost. For all who seek begin to intensify that light more and more. As your light becomes brighter, so shall you yourselves begin to light the way of others and so may it go. Perhaps you cannot see your light—many do not. Others will tell you. Trust no words, no thoughts, no behavior in yourself or others, but be grounded in the knowledge of your birthright, of your identity in the light. Call upon it, speak to it and never fear that you shall be lost from it.

To develop the tools of will and faith, several things are helpful. Firstly, a daily meditation, be it long or short, momentary or part of an intentional praying and fasting, this way you use to listen to the still, small voice, as it has been called in your holy works, within. This intention, this will to seek the truth of the Creator, is your strength and your heart and the motivating factor of that which will occur to you.

Faith is a word which we use, not perhaps as others would use it, for we wish to distinguish between faith and belief. It has seemed to us as observers of your people that rigid belief systems kill faith and destroy being, giving the person instead the choice of behaving instead of being, and holding on dependently to a set of rules in order that from the outside to the inside the redemption and forgiveness and healing of the self may take place. We suggest that all belief systems be examined, and none taken up before it is understood that in each orthodox belief system, some distortions of love are unraveled and made clear, while other distortions or ways of learning about love are confused and difficult to accept for you.

We are not those who preach. We are not those who evangelize. But this we will say: if you wish to increase, or accelerate the intensity of your spiritual path of evolution, living a life in faith, day by day by day, and using its tools of discipline, and service, and conceptualizations is all important. We speak to you of the way that we believe that the universe works. We can only tell you that you are at the crux of what is often called the density of choice, the choice between loving the Creator by serving others, and loving the Creator by serving the self, these paths often being called the path of service to others and the path of service to self.

Many times it is indeed a stumbling block in the way of those who wish to be of service to others that they must needs spend so much time working upon themselves. Yet, we say to you, that if you do not have your roots deeply spread, if you do not know what those roots are, if you do not live as you have faith to live, if you do not express and manifest that which you know, you shall be, this instrument would say, stuck in the gravitational well, spiritually speaking, of basic indifference.

Until you have found your passion, and we mean this on all levels, not ignoring the lower energy centers, sexual passion, the passions of friendship, the love of the work that you do, the love of your society and your world and all its people, you shall be holding back from the center of spiritual love the energy that that center needs. We speak of the heart energy center. This is not a job that you can do for yourself once and have it done. Again and again you shall turn from the truth, and do those things which you would not wish to do, or regret, or do not do, something you wish you had done. Should you chastise yourself? Please, my friends, if you wish to attain the goal of which you spoke this evening, never chastise the self, but form all internal dialogue positively. Instead of saying, “Oh, 2 plus 2 does not equal 5,” say “Oh, I have learned something, 2 plus 2 equals 4.” That is the nature of mistakes, all errors, all of what this instrument would call sin. It is like an error in arithmetical calculation, simply seen, and slowly and carefully replaced by the truth, by the correct summing, by the correct grasp of the situation.

Most entities have a great deal of difficulty doing this, because their opinion of themselves, though they love other people, is harsh. The voices of childhood parents and authority figures still ring in the heart’s ear with negative expressions and warning and judgments. Many of the most difficult portions of your lives are difficult because you are still listening to these voices. When you hear them, say instead the positive affirmation of that criticism which has for so long been unfair. When you were small, when you were a child, you could not defend yourself, but you can defend yourself now. You can live a life of faith in which old voices need have no power over you, indeed, in which no voice on the Earth, over or under the Earth, no discarnate voice, none whatsoever, need have power over you.

You are made of precisely the same infinite intelligence and free will as every spirit in the infinite universe, and, speaking metaphysically, you are a portion of utter, complete and final democracy of spirits. There is none better than you, and there is none worse. You are a portion of the Creator, which is everything. Thus, the choices are yours. They do not have to be handed to you by society, by friends, or parents, or spouses, or the ubiquitous “they.” “They” say you should do so and so. “They” are not a pleasant breed with which to deal. Remove “them” from those voices you wish to grow with, to attend to, to identify yourself with in terms of ambition.

Your life in faith is a life without words, for there are no words to express faith. Faith is a basic attitude that one finds, because one wills it or wishes it to be so, but because as a result of willing to know the truth it comes to you, and the prodigal son and daughter have come home. Faith is simply faith that the Creator that made all that there is, including you, is a Creator of infinite and intelligent love, that it loved you as part of Itself, as a child to nurture, as a personality from which to learn about itself, as all parents learned from their children. Aiming toward living a life in faith is nothing more than releasing fear, and allowing that which is to be, to be.

Now Q’uo said that in order to develop our will and faith that we should utilize a daily meditation that will allow us to listen to the still, small voice of the Creator within us, and our intention to do this daily will determine our spiritual journey. Then Q’uo made an important distinction between faith and belief saying that using systems of belief tend to kill faith as they demand certain behavior, instead of focusing on one’s being, in order for forgiveness and healing to be achieved. Q’uo suggested that if we wish to accelerate our spiritual path that we should realize that third density is where we are making the choice of service to others or to the self, and as service-to-others entities we will often need to spend a good deal of time working on our selves. They said that this work would help us to develop our passion of the lower three energy centers of sexual passion, passion for friends, and passion for our work and our society that will open the way for our heart center to open in love. However, Q’uo that we would need to continually work on the lower centers because our enculturation as children has left the voices of criticism of us which have created negative feelings about ourselves that need healing and forgiveness. Then Q’uo said that we can use our faith to know that we all have the Creator within us which makes us all equal one to the other so that all fear may be released and allow us to experience that which is meant to be in our lives. On November 9, 2019, Q’uo described how we move through many experiences of difficulty in order to be able to realize that which is meant to be on our spiritual paths:

In each incarnation there will be seeming hindrances or difficulties that provide each entity with the challenge that must be dealt with in some fashion in order to make the lesson apparent to expose the purpose of the incarnation so that the piece of the puzzle of each incarnation may thus be achieved and made a part of the conglomerate wholeness of the being.

Incarnations which seem to offer hindrances, as have been mentioned in the question, are those incarnations which are not as obvious to the outward eye, or even the inward seeking eye of the entity itself, in discovering the purpose of the hindrance, the role that such a hindrance can play in achieving the final portion or piece of the puzzle that will then become that which allows the opening of the heart in complete and unconditional love for all about one.

Whether it be physical limitation of non-movement of a limb, of the seeming limitation of the mental process that is able to apprehend the nature of the incarnation, whether it is genetic defects that seem to offer the blockage of any effort in a certain area, all of these are portions of pre-incarnative plans that have been made by the entity previous to the incarnation that will allow the progress as the difficulty in some fashion is dealt with successfully; for there are no mistakes within any incarnation with any pre-incarnative choice, within any entity, with any examination or exhibit of certain limitations, so that each entity then provides itself with the opportunities that, when fully or partially achieved, become a portion of the soul’s progress through the third-density illusion.

Thus, all learn that which is meant to be learned when there is the focusing upon that quality of hindrance or opportunity or combination thereof, in each incarnation, so that there is the blooming of the flower, the opening of the heart, the exposing of the soul to all the influences that can aid it in its evolutionary progress through mind, body and spirit.

Oftentimes, that help which you have with you personally at all times, whether you call it spirit, or guidance, or the Higher Self, will give you hints and warnings. Do not ignore them. Ask for help in visions and dreams, and listen to them. Go into meditation, not simply to listen, but with a question asked, expecting not to awaken with one answer, but expecting and knowing that you will eventually know the answer for yourself to your own satisfaction. A great deal of faith is patience. A great deal of will is persistence. We are well aware that these are not the same as the mountain top experiences offered to you by those so-called seers or prophets which make the choosing of a live lived in love seem so very, very easy.

Were it easy, there would be no reason to work through so much of pain and limitation and change, for choice is change, make no mistake. Each choice that you make will change you, and you will feel pain and discomfort, because it is painful to change, and as you meditate, and seek, and live a life in faith, you will change, and change, and change again. Some truths will remain the same forever for you. Some truths will be outgrown, and must be let go.

Against this backdrop which we have attempted to paint, let us look at the way of encouraging ourselves to release from ourselves old, and undoubtedly unneeded, and certainly negative, habits. Again, most of what we have to offer you is a tool called forgiveness. We do not prefer one method of achieving redemption over another. All myths contain within them redemption and forgiveness, no matter how great the error. You may choose your path of faith, or you may create your own personal myth, but be sure it contains a rock solid foundation of redemption and self-forgiveness.

Oh, it is easy to forgive others, is it not? For you love them anyway, and you are sure that whatever they said amiss was not said meanly. But to love the enemy in yourself, or outside of yourself, ah, my friends, that is more difficult, and we assure you that each of you sees some part of yourself as your own enemy. This is the attitude we would suggest that you tackle first, for you are not your own enemy, you are simply being offered choices. Each time that you choose to be of service to another you recreate the strength of your polarity.

But let us remind you of a particularly apt teaching from the known as Jesus. In two sentences, he tossed the ten commandments, with all of the damage that they have done, away, and gave a new covenant, or promise, as he would use the language. “Love the Lord your God,” he said, “and your neighbor as yourself.” This is why you must begin by forgiving yourself. How can you love your neighbor in utter and open forgiveness if you have not forgiven yourself? We do not deny that you are imperfect in a personally valid way. We only remind you that this is an illusion, and that all things, including your body, your intellect, and the artifacts which you make, a part of an illusion, a local habitation for the spirit within you.

This illusion was created not to promote happiness, although the writer of your Constitution seems to think so, much to the confusion of those who seek spiritually, for you do not seek happiness, you seek the truth, you seek to be mature, and ripe, and ready for harvest, and this involves a great deal of choice. Firstly, the choice to forgive yourself for all those things of which you may think you have done wrong in the past. Sometimes it is helpful, as a tool, to take one person with whom you have a high level of trust, high enough for confidentiality to be no question, and state, simply and directly and thoroughly, each and every mistake you feel you have made. Speak this to another entity, for this entity is also the Creator, and this entity’s forgiveness is as true, and real, and honest, as that entity is true, and real, and honest.

We are trying to move the mind from behavior to being. It is not behavior which you wish to correct, for behavior is the manifestation of your being. It is that which is held inside as a portion of yourself and of your identity upon which you wish to work. There are teachers everywhere. The creation of the Father teaches a thousand lessons in a minute, if you can but stay in talking to them. Each of your comrades is a Christed being, to some extent or another unaware of its true nature. But as it holds its hand out to you, the Creator is holding its hand out to you. As it expresses friendship and love, so does the Creator. Look beneath behavior for your healing of those things which have harmed you in the past, and which you now see as useless.

The physics of this process is easily comparable to that called the physics of inertia. Many, many years before now you set into motion, by choice, patterns of behavior and thinking that were not helpful to you, and that you now see as not only unnecessary, or unproductive, but hurtful and harming, and you wish to heal. Forgiveness is that which stops what this instrument calls the wheel of karma. Karma may in this sense be defined as inertia, an action put into effect and never forgiven.

Here Q’uo begins to talk about how we can use our dreams or meditation to get guidance from our higher self as to how we can use patience and persistence to welcome change into our spiritual path. They also said that change is painful, and that one way we can choose to change is to forgive ourselves for negative habits. Then Q’uo said that this forgiveness allows us to love ourselves which also makes it possible for us to love others, and loving others is a means by which we can serve them and increase our positive polarity. Q’uo said that this is a process of changing the nature of our mind from behavior to being because our behavior is a function of our being. They said that the more we can realize our true nature of our being is the Creator, the more we can forgive ourselves for our failures and stop the wheel of karma. In 34.4, Ra speaks of stopping the wheel of karma:

Questioner: Thank you. Would you define karma?

Ra: I am Ra. Our understanding of karma is that which may be called inertia. Those actions which are put into motion will continue using the ways of balancing until such time as the controlling or higher principle which you may liken unto your braking or stopping is invoked. This stoppage of the inertia of action may be called forgiveness. These two concepts are inseparable.

Now, can you forgive another and have that power to cease the inertia of karma for another? Not at all. When you forgive another, you do not affect the other, unless he chooses to observe the difference in your attitude. You are working upon the only thing in this universe which you can work on: yourself. Part of forgiveness is forgiving others. The further part is forgiving all the situations which created this pattern. Some of you are more aware of past lives than others, and for those of you who trace the pattern that is unhelpful to what you would call the karma of a past life, know that there is no karma or inertia which is not braked completely and stopped forever by unconditional forgiveness, of the other, of the situations, and of yourself.

You cannot make yourself change. You can only put yourself in tabernacle of the most high, and tune yourself in silence to the most loving and peaceful and light-filled state which you are able to hold upon a steady basis. You do not want to do these things without being extremely careful that you have opened your lower energy centers, thereby allowing that prana, or love/light which strengthens each and gives life to each, to move into the heart chakra where it can be called on by those doing work in consciousness, which is largely at the brow chakra, although instruments such as this one will use the energy center of the throat, often called the blue chakra, in order that it may communicate. Others may choose to stay with the green, open heart, that it may heal others in that way.

But to do work upon yourself, you must move through the green, and blue, into the brow chakra, the indigo center in which all work in consciousness is done. In your sessions, prepare yourself for them, and when they are over, release the power which you have gained by this working, for you deal, in dealing with your metaphysical self, with a magic, if we may use that over-used word, that is very dangerous to attempt to hold in a steady state.

Thus, we urge you to recognize and respect the changes you have wrought in yourself during each meditation, and in some way give that glory, that energy, that peace, that love, or that irritation of the self because the meditation seemed subjectively not good, back to the Creator. During the rest of the day, touch in to the consciousness of eternity. Live in eternity. Then the illusion becomes more and more transparent.

If you have those with whom you are constantly in contact—spouses, mates, friends—inform them of that which you wish to accomplish, and ask them to be mirrors for you. If they are good friends to you, they will not please you by ignoring those things which you have asked them to help you with. They will instead choose to seem harsh, because you have asked this, you have asked for a mirror which you can count on, which is as objective as the other entity can be, and this mirror gives to you its point of view on what it considers you to be doing, to encourage or to discourage unwanted ways of being.

You are a wonderful resource for yourself, but so are those with whom you walk this path. Rich indeed is the pilgrim who has many companions along the way. You come together in love and in service, not to be sweet and dear and darling to each other, but to serve. Sometimes the most difficult thing for a friend to do is to choose service over pleasing a friend. See yourself, therefore, as a resource for others, and be careful in your spiritual communications with them, respecting them as equals. There are no teachers, there are no pupils. There are points of view, there are those who have more experience than others, but we are no more enlightened than you, for in our deepest selves we are one with you.

We have spoken to you now, as much as we can within this time period, of the healing of the self by forgiveness and by the choosing of the path of service. In short, the path of service consists of doing that which is before your vision at this time with as much love as you can. Most paths of service are anything but dramatic, and all paths of service are equal. The quieting of a crying child, the smile to a stranger upon the street, the sharing of the self, of food, of shelter, of listening, the doing of a job which seems to lack an opportunity for service, with faith that indeed it is of service that you have not yet penetrated, these attitudes will keep you in a positive and loving relationship to yourself. Each needs a path of service. Each needs a high self-esteem. These are gifts you give to yourself in will, in faith, and in constant self-forgiveness.

May you love yourself infinitely, for you are a child of God. Your mother, your father, is the universe, Love itself. Rest, and have peace and confidence in who you really are. See the illusion for what it is, as much as you can. And when you fail and fail and fail again, as you will inevitably think that you do, never chide yourself, but with patience and care and love grasp once again your desire, your hope, your dreams and your ideals, and go forward on this path of mystery.

Here Q’uo said that it is important to forgive ourselves not only in this life but perhaps for karma from past lives as well. Then they said that we must take care that our lower energy centers are open so that the love/light of the Creator may move through them and into the heart, then the throat and, finally, the indigo energy center so that we may do work in consciousness within the meditative state. They said that this work will cause changes in our consciousness that is magical in nature, and then give these changes of glory, peace, love, irritation back to the Creator so that we can live in the consciousness of eternity. Q’uo said that then the third-density illusion becomes more transparent, and that we should work with friends of like mind and ask them to serve as mirrors to us of those areas which we need to work upon, and we should do the same for them. In this way we can achieve forgiveness of ourselves and more fully follow the path of service to others in whatever way presents itself to us, whether large or small, as all service is equal in nature. Q’uo completed their thoughts by saying that we need to realize that we are all children of God, of Love Itself, and when we experience any failure in our spiritual journey we must never chide ourselves but once again focus on our hopes and dreams and go forward into the path of mystery.  On September 13, 1979, Hatonn described our lives as children of God:

Your tour of duty, shall we say, is almost over, and we feel that it would not make you unduly proud to say that you have done well. We wish only that your heartaches could be less and that your joy could be more. For this is what you came into this world to share, the joy of living under the highest law, the law of love. We wish you the greatest of peace and strength and confidence in your day-by-day attempts to express this love in your life, to show this love and this joy in every smile and laugh, in every refusal to be bitter, in every forgiveness and every forgetting of a wrong. In a way you are not special, for you are children of God as are all. It is only that you have more experience and this gives you responsibility. We hope that this responsibility may weigh lightly upon you and that you may find grace.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are pleased with the newer adjustments we have made in our combining of energies to this channel, and we thank this channel for being open to the adjustments we have made. We are known to you as Q’uo, and in love and light we transfer to the one known as Jim.

This morning I cleaned up an area on the desk in my bedroom that had some mugs full of pencils, magic markers, pens, and other small items of plastic, most of which I recycled, some I washed, and some that I threw away. It had been quite a while since I had cleaned that area, and now it feels a lot brighter and alive.

This afternoon I brought the red hose out of the basement and used the sprayer on it to clean the filters for the pump on the fish pond.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 8

The Holiness Of High Places

I am of Jesus Christ. The full consciousness of love is the principle which wings my being into the nexus of your own. We who are of the principle of Jesus Christ greet you in that consciousness of love which pervades all things.

It has long been in the consciousness of humankind that the high places, the mountains and hills, are holy. Is there superstition and false belief to the holiness of high places? Perhaps some, and yet it is most certainly true that the spirit of the one Lord of all things dwells more purely in less cluttered atmospheres and is more prevalent in the perceptions of those who seek to rise, literally and symbolically, from the miasma of thought pollution which infects any crowded community.

We are able to speak anywhere, under any conditions. Yet the voice of love is often silent. To hear the stillness, it is often most helpful that the distractions of noise from other minds and other hearts which seek after other faces of the Lord be somewhat removed, both literally and, shall we say, psychologically. If you cannot get yourself to a high place within your external world, be absolutely certain that the high places within your own hearts are kept.

We leave you in the peace of holy places and still thoughts, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from July 1, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time we would offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any queries which are upon the minds of those present, again reminding you that we give that which is but our opinion, but we give it happily and honestly. We ask that those words that ring of truth be the only ones that are retained, leaving all others behind. Is there a query at this time?

Carla: I have one question. Is it true that the free will that was being not abridged by the refusal to give certain information was mine? I do not wish to give any information that would cause any involvement with government forces of any kind. I don’t wish that kind of attention. I don’t want that kind of knowledge, and I don’t want to channel that kind of information. Was it my free will, or was it the free will of all that was being observed?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The free will of which we spoke was your free will in the manner you have described, and also included the free will of those who would have received this information. Thus, we chose not to give that particular information, for we do not wish to become a stumbling block to any.

Carla asked about the information that Q’uo channeled through her earlier in this session, and she wanted to know if it was her free will that Q’uo was wanting to guard as she did not want to be involved with any government forces or channel that kind of information. This is the information that she was speaking of when Q’uo said  that there was information they could not speak of:

There have indeed been many, many landings, abductions, and that which seems to be abduction but is in reality work upon the computer within you which you call your brain, placing within it programs which seem as much the truth to the one experiencing such, upon awakening, as any other memory. The basic intention here is to create fear. There are other designs which we cannot speak of because of that same Law of Free Will, but we can say that they are inconsequential to those who choose to live a life of faith. Yes, these things are occurring, and yes, many, many positive contacts are also occurring for those who seek in love and light and the purity of intention. Of course, both experiences will be far more active towards the end of a cycle.

And the type of UFO landing that Q’uo was talking about when they were channeling through Carla is the same type of landing that Ra was speaking of in 8.13:

Questioner: Specifically, what do they do when they land?

Ra: There are two types of landings. In the first, entities among your peoples are taken on their craft and programmed for future use. There are two or three levels of programming. First, the level that will be discovered by those who do research. Second, a triggering program. Third, a second and most deep triggering program crystallizing the entity thereby rendering it lifeless and useful as a kind of beacon. This is a form of landing.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Do you consider that the information I requested not to discuss is of any value to the spiritual seeking of those on planet Earth at this time?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query. We see little apparent or actual value in such information in that it partakes of that which is as the sparkling toy, lasting in the total beingness but for a moment until another toy replaces it. We wish to give that information which endures and do not wish to distract entities from their journeys by giving that which is of but the moment’s interest.

Carla: Then you’re speaking of all phenomena that point towards the fact that there is a mystery Creator behind this illusion, not just the information that was discussed this evening, that is, not just UFOs, but Bigfoot, and glass skulls, and that kind of thing. Is that correct?

I am Q’uo, and again we agree basically with your summation of the kind of phenomenology that we speak of. There is at this time much of distraction within the daily round of activities for most of the peoples of your culture, and there is much information in the areas that are primarily focusing upon the external appearance of phenomena that hold the potential for even greater distraction. Therefore, it is to the heart of things and entities that we wish to speak.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Then was it part of the plan of the Creator that these things and many others, in all sorts of walks of life, be plaints, and questions which have no answers, but which point to a mystery and are therefore of value in that way? In other words, do phenomena have the value of pointing towards the mystery, or the noumenal, or the imperishable?

I am Q’uo, and this is correct, my sister. Is there a further query?

Carla: No, I’m satisfied, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: I have one last question for you. Are you still pointed towards a mystery?

I am Q’uo, and we are indeed pointed towards the great mystery of being, looking beyond what little we know into the great distances, depths, heights and vistas of seeking and knowing, being and becoming, so that we discover more and more how our choices are the essence of the Creator knowing Itself.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No, and thank you, as a fellow walker on the path. Thank you, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo. Again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and as it appears we have exhausted the queries, we would take our leave of this instrument and this group, thanking each for inviting our presence, and leaving each in the love and light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I had a telephone conversation with Stephanie concerning the concept of improv comedy. I have always wondered if that might have any relationship to how I talk to myself sometimes as I am working at one thing or another and, from time to time, I make a joke about how things are going that gets me off on a humorous tangent. She said that she would send me a video of an improv comedy performance to give me a better idea of how it works.

This afternoon I had another call, this time with Anna, where we synchronized our computers so that we could listen to Carla channeling Ra and frequently pause the recording so that we could ask questions or make comments about the concepts being discussed. Carla’s very slow channeling of Ra gives us a lot more time to consider what is being said and often we discover new information that expands what we previously thought Ra’s words meant. It took us an hour and half to complete Session #9. Then I went upstairs and did my usual Sunday cleaning of Benny’s room, the hall, and the other two rooms using the carpet sweeper, the broom and dust pan, and the dust mop.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 7

Spend Yourselves Wisely

I am the spirit of the consciousness of love. I come in the name of Jesus the Christ, in the vibration which comforts this instrument.

It is an unhappy thing that your peoples find so much pleasure in vain recreations and idle pursuits. For the right use of the illusion may be seen to be that not of the path of least resistance but often the path of most resistance.

Yet it is no penalty to those who must rest from their labors. Rather, it shall be seen, in the context of larger life, that so much precious time was spent as a spendthrift spends money, not for gain but for gadgets.

Spend yourselves, my children, and do not count the cost. Insofar as your will is able to lead you, when the time comes for rest accept your limitations and lie down to be comforted in whatever distractions amuse you. Yet know that if there is energy within you and you spend it foolishly, you shall count it against yourself in the eternal now which is your birthright.

We wish you peace, yet peace which has the sword’s edge; peace that shall forever remove the virginity of innocent delight from your days and replace it with the worshipful gaze of the lover. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from July 1, 1990:

The question this evening concerns UFO abductions. UFO abductions are occurring at an increasing rate in this country, and much is written about these “gray” entities who seem to do most of the abducting. Not only do the people who experience these abductions report profound feelings of fear as a result, but much is now being written about agreements between these gray UFOnauts and world leaders that suggest that these grays are seeking to enslave the population of this planet. As a result, many people who are consciously seeking the truth report a feeling of helplessness and hopelessness. What would you say to such people who feel that their free will is soon to be taken from them? In what perspective can we put this and any other phenomenon that seems to remove the ability to act as a free entity?

(Carla channeling)

I am that principle known to you as Q’uo. Greetings to each of you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Our pausing was in order to encourage this instrument to relax, as during the challenging process it had become most fierce in protecting the purity of the contact, and was consequently clenched as for battle. We do wish those who are vocal channels for the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator to be alert, however clenched is somewhat beyond our needs.

The subject of which we are to speak this evening is a subject that is indeed on the minds and in the hearts of many who have had experiences with so-called extraterrestrial entities. Since we who come in the name of love and light and service to others are also alleged UFO entities, it is what we would call our loyal opposition of which we would speak this evening.

Let us move backwards from the heart of the question to describe methods whereby entities external to your planet and its web of energies are given access to the attention of those who are incarnate upon your planet at this time.

We who come in the name of unconditional love and limitless light, we who are of the one infinite Creator, the one original Thought that is Love, must go before a group of entities, which is chosen from among our Confederation, and which changes from time to time, and offer to them our intentions, our plan if you will, for aiding entities upon your planet. These requests for service are taken most seriously, and it is an honor indeed to be allowed through quarantine to be able to share our thoughts with those who ask for them.

You may ask why the planet is quarantined. It is quarantined because it has been put, shall we say, in an unbalanced state by those from the Confederation who have, in your far past, erred in decision making. To avoid this occurring again, the planet was quarantined some of your years ago. Why do we wait for the calling and not speak to any who would listen? As a curiosity we could speak to many. However, we have found, by careful experiment, that attempts to speak to those who are not specifically calling for information which we are able to offer will be misused, misunderstood and ineffectual regarding the goals which we have, which is to offer information to those of your peoples who request it, and who will use it.

Just as there are those whose path is service to others, there are those whose path is service to self, and control over others. This is not a strangeness to your thinking. Each who sits in this circle of seeking together knows those whose delight is in controlling, sometimes not even for the benefit of the self. Those who have truly moved along the path of negativity—or, as it is sometimes called, the path of that which is not, or again, that which is sometimes called the path of separation—control strictly for their own benefit.

Because of the fact that positive information—that is, information of love and light and service to others, information concerning the path of unity and peace and love—is available to those who ask, it was considered right or just that an opportunity be given to those whose call was for information of a negative type, who desired information on the path of service to self and control over others. Consequently, in your web of space and time there were built in, with the impossibility of prediction of where or when, these windows of opportunity that occur, openings in the web of time and space, in space/time, that, if the negative entities were able to be there at the correct time, would place them in a position to offer the information to those who requested it.

There are various densities of learning, both in the service to others path and in the service to self path. Those entities in the service to others path always obey free will and will not abridge it, because if they do so they cannot sustain the contact with the vocal channel that has been able to receive the information they have come to offer. Those who are, shall we say, of a more sophisticated nature along the path of service to self, having wisdom as well as love—that is, the love of the self—await the free will contact of those who seek negative information, for such contacts are likely to be fruitful, in the negative sense, and satisfactory in the transferring of information which is helpful to those who are upon the path of service to self in your density, and who are preparing for harvest.

Those entities who are less sophisticated and closer to your density—that is, who are of the density of love—feel that they have come in simple conquest. Therefore, they do not feel that there is any need whatsoever to avoid the abridgment of free will, for their thoughts are those of warriors who attempt to battle what they see as a light which must be put out, a strength which must fail, a faith which must be vanquished, a foolish group of people who are not aware of the relativity of the illusion as they understand it. Speaking ethically, we gaze at the battle of situational ethics versus ideals.

In your third density illusion, it has been clear from the first ophidian representative of negativity in your Garden of Eden to the great dragon that now thrashes its tail among your people in its death throes, that the illusion seems to be weighted heavily, sometimes, on the side of the negative or service-to-self path. This is a necessary and salutary virtue of your illusion. It is the background or the drama against which each of you shall make a choice that is so important that the remainder of millions of your years of life, a significant portion of the life of yourself within this creation, will depend upon it. You may choose to be foolish, unworldly and idealistic, and find yourself constantly at odds with situational ethics, which is the way the world wags. Or you may choose to be those who serve the self, what this instrument would call “numero uno.” The negative path is a path that leads to the Creator. It is simply a difficult and long path.

In this density, in which one attempts to learn the lessons of love and is perfecting lessons of social intercourse and movement towards the light, the negativity revolves about learning to do those things which one considers to serve the self more of the time. Those upon the positive path will be attempting the exact opposite of this, that is, they will be attempting to think in terms of service to others, or simply service of any kind, because of the love of the infinite Creator which is in their hearts. They are attempting more and more to spend their precious few moments of this small time of choice choosing again and again to help, to attempt to be of service. In both cases, positive and negative, it is the attempt, the sincerity of the desire, which registers as the polarizing factor of the entity.

Thus, those who are indifferent in your density are those most to be mourned, for as they eat and drink and be merry without regard to serving others or the self, they simply continue in this density of experience, finding upon graduation that they have not graduated, they have not learned to love, they have not learned to turn towards the light, or to use the light. And so they shall be given—not hell, any more than third density is hell—but simply another third density experience lasting approximately 75,000 of your years.

The group question for this session regarded UFO abductions by negative entities that were working with world leaders to enslave the population of our planet, and what would Q’uo say to people who feared having their free will taken from them in this way? Q’uo began their answer by saying, as positive entities, they needed to go before the Council of Saturn to be able to move through the quarantine and have any plan for aiding the entities of Earth supported. Then they said that the quarantine was put in place when other members of the Confederation erred in their efforts to be of service to others on this planet, and negative entities would be able to offer their services to those who called for it when they were able to utilize windows of opportunity to penetrate the quarantine which could only be perceived at unpredictable times. Q’uo went on to say that both the positively-oriented Confederation entities and the negatively-oriented entities were attempting to provide the population of Earth the choice of the service-to-others polarity or the service-to-self polarity that would aid their movement into the fourth density.  And those who do not make this choice would have another 75,000-year third density experience to try again to do so. In 26.34, Ra explained how the negatively-oriented entities used the windows to offer their services to those who call for them:

Questioner: Is it necessary in each case for the entity who is contacted in one of these landings to be calling the Orion group, or do some of these entities come in contact with the Orion group even though they are not calling that group?

Ra: I am Ra. You must plumb the depths of fourth-density negative understanding. This is difficult for you. Once having reached third-density space/time continuum through your so-called windows, these crusaders may plunder as they will, the results completely a function of the polarity of the, shall we say, witness/subject or victim.

This is due to the sincere belief of fourth-density negative that to love self is to love all. Each other-self which is thus either taught or enslaved thus has a teacher which teaches love of self. Exposed to this teaching, it is intended that there be brought to fruition an harvest of fourth-density negative or self-serving mind/body/spirit complexes.

Positive entities who have polarized adequately move into fourth density, become closer and closer, and begin to form themselves into societies so harmonious, because of all thoughts being open one to another, that they become social memory complexes, each entity within this society able to know and to feel whatever has been known and felt by all other entities within that particular group. In this setting, which is far more harmonious, and far less given to strife, the lessons of love, and service, and compassion, and understanding, are perfected to a minimal point. It does not have to be perfect, but it must be such that the next density, with its greater density of light, may be accepted with great comfort and enjoyment, and therefore be the native light which that entity has earned.

In negative fourth density there is a similar attempt to polarize ever more strongly, to perfect the lessons of love. In the negative case it is always the love of the self and control over others which is a constant drain upon those who are in fourth-density negative, for they form uneasy alliances, and are always ready to challenge someone they think they know best in order to gain their power and to control them. Thus, although thoughts may be known by all, thoughts are attempted to be hidden, armored and guarded in as many ways as possible. Then the entities must gain enough of a strength of love of self and the ability to use that love in what they think is honest service to the Creator, whom they love, to be able to use light of the next density, which is that of wisdom.

In fifth density positive and negative, one finds a good deal of isolation of entities, both positive and negative seeking the path that is its unique path, holding finally the wisdom of knowing itself totally. However, in fifth density positive, there is the constant flowing back towards community and communion, the communal meals, the communal services of worship and adoration to the one infinite Creator, and the happy blending of mates and friendship. In fifth density negative, there is nothing for the fifth density entity but the cave, the rock, the solitude and the seeking.

Graduation to sixth density is very difficult for the negative polarity, for sixth density is the density of unity. When negative entities reach the point in sixth density at which they fully understand the lessons of sixth density, that is, that all things are One, they find that their negative path is at an end, they are at a standstill, unable to evolve one iota more. Using every bit of determination, will and faith that they have, they cause themselves to switch polarity in order that they may go on evolving. This seems at the time to be a service-to-self choice, for one thing that may be said of all densities is that there is an undeniable drive towards evolution. However, when the negative entity has switched polarity, it quickly discovers the sweetness of its choice. It must review a great deal of material it has missed, but it is the convert that is more fervent, if anything, than the one who has always been positive. It is the most positive of positive entities, the most loving, the most desirous of service, for it knows that it has finally discovered the truth that will continue its evolution.

Therefore, you see that of which we shall speak in a moment must be seen against a backdrop of a great length of time, and, indeed, in sixth density is not the end of learning, for those in sixth density study and perfect the combining of compassion and wisdom, until compassionate wisdom has been grasped to an acceptable point, and the final lessons of egolessness and foreverness begin to be yearned for, to be learned, and so there is another graduation into the density of foreverness.

Now Q’uo described how both positively and negatively-oriented entities enter the higher densities. They described how the fourth-density positive social memory complex is formed of entities that are able to use whatever has been known and felt within the group of love of others in a manner which is harmonious and full of compassion. Then Q’uo said the fourth-density negative entities are also aware of each other’s thoughts but attempt to use their abilities of separation and control to gain as much domination and control of others as possible, which results in continuous battle of realigning the power structure. Q’uo described the fifth density as being similar for both positive and negative entities as there was the opportunity to move in a solitary fashion—instead of in social memory complexes–in continuing to pursue their choice of polarity, although the positive entities would periodically move back into the group harmony whereas the negative entities would continue to separate themselves in the gaining of further power. When Q’uo described the negative entity’s experience in the sixth density they said that the negative entity could not go any farther than the beginning of the sixth density because it was necessary to see all others as the same as the self, so the negative entity would need to abandon their negative polarity and, with great effort, become positively-oriented. Then the balance of wisdom and love is used by all to attain the state of egolessness and then foreverness as the movement into the seventh density is the next goal. In 36.15, Ra described the negative entities switching to positive polarity in the sixth density:

The sixth-density negative entity is extremely wise. It observes the spiritual entropy occurring due to the lack of ability to express the unity of sixth density. Thus, loving the Creator and realizing at some point that the Creator is not only self but other-self as self, this entity consciously chooses an instantaneous energy reorientation so that it may continue its evolution.

Now, in mid-sixth density your future self turns towards you in what seems to be the past, and gives you a gift, the gift of your self in a state of compassionate wisdom. This is your truth within. It is yourself.

In mid-seventh density, as spiritual gravity begins to move the ego into a lack of desire for form, for self, that creature turns back and in turn gives a gift to the mid-sixth density entity, so that in actuality each entity in third density has two levels of its own guidance to depend upon which are gifts from your future, as you would call it in your illusion. This mid-seventh density gift is, quite simply, the total data of all possible choices and all possible tracks at all decision points that have been registered along the way. It is a very subtle and complex gift, holding within its memory all those dreams that were not followed, all those paths that were not taken, and the results that would have happened had these paths been taken. It is your deepest intuition, and it is your gift to yourself.

As the seventh density entity loses all need to feel selfhood, the power of Love which has infinite intelligence and no awareness of self at all calls it home, and it rejoins the Creator, which is intelligent infinity. At that point, so we understand from those few who have come to us from future creations, loss of self is in itself an illusion, for that which the Creator has created is never lost. There is no beginning over. The knowledge of this entire octave of creation is simply a gift to Love itself, and Love learns about Love, and the heart of the universe beats once more, and a new creation, based upon the learnings of the previous, begins.

As far as we know this is an infinite process, but we urge you to be always aware that all things of which we speak are our opinions only, they are not infallible, and we only give you that which we believe to be true. You must hold each thing which we say to you to the mirror of your own discrimination, and if it is not your personal truth, [if] it does not seem to spring from your memory with a recognition and a resonance to you, then it is not your truth, and we ask you humbly to let it lie, for we would not be a stumbling block before you.

Now Q’uo spoke of how our higher self gives us the gift of compassionate wisdom which is our nature, and then in the seventh density our higher self’s higher self, no longer using the form of the body, turns back and gives our higher self the gift of all those choices and paths that we did not take so that we have an infinity of beingness that is our deepest intuition as a gift to ourselves. Then Q’uo said that the seventh density entity becomes one with the Creator, and all of the knowledge of the entire creation becomes a gift to Love, and this Love learns about Love and the entire process begins again. In 37.6, Ra discusses the nature of our higher self and our higher self’s higher self:

The higher self is a manifestation given to the late sixth-density mind/body/spirit complex as a gift from its future selfness. The mid-seventh density’s last action before turning towards the allness of the Creator and gaining spiritual mass is to give this resource to the sixth-density self, moving as you measure time in the stream of time.

This self, the mind/body/spirit complex of late sixth density, has then the honor/duty of using both the experiences of its total living bank or memory of experienced thoughts and actions, and using the resource of the mind/body/spirit complex totality left behind as a type of infinitely complex thought-form.

In this way you may see your self, your higher self or Oversoul, and your mind/body/spirit complex totality as three points in a circle. The only distinction is that of your time/space continuum. All are the same being.

Now let us return to the drama of third density, as both positive and negative entities are attempting consciously to achieve harvestability, to positive fourth density or to negative fourth density. Many are the stories of contacts and arrangements betwixt governments, or individuals within governments, and those who are not from your world. Because there is no way we could speak of these things that would not interfere with the free will of those who hear these words or read them, we shall simply say that were such things possible they would be part of an illusion which is soon to end, part of the fifth act of a play. You may make it a comedy or a tragedy. It is not anyone’s choice but your own.

There have indeed been many, many landings, abductions, and that which seems to be abduction but is in reality work upon the computer within you which you call your brain, placing within it programs which seem as much the truth to the one experiencing such, upon awakening, as any other memory. The basic intention here is to create fear. There are other designs which we cannot speak of because of that same Law of Free Will, but we can say that they are inconsequential to those who choose to live a life of faith. Yes, these things are occurring, and yes, many, many positive contacts are also occurring for those who seek in love and light and the purity of intention. Of course, both experiences will be far more active towards the end of a cycle.

Your density is quickly moving towards its end, and you shall, each of you, walk the steps of light, and when you find the light that comforts you the most you shall be either in third density or fourth. The polarizing that you do now is that which you came to do. The judgment that so many fear among your people is a simple and objective matter of how much density of light you have learned to use. There is no fire and brimstone, objectively speaking, for those who must repeat third density, but only the matter of fact reincarnation upon a third-density planet, and another very short period of time, 75,000 years or so in your measure, to make the choice to love and serve the one infinite Creator by serving others, and by serving the Creator, or by serving the self, which is serving the Creator, which is of course understood to be the self.

Now, there is fire and brimstone, there are angels and harps, there is anything that an entity has desired by way of healing and expressing that which it wishes, after the incarnation, and it may rest in this heaven or this hell until it is ready to release the third density experience in which these things were necessary archetypal images, to undergo the healing of the previous incarnation, to view it, to see that which was learned and that which was half learned, and with the aid of the Higher Self, and many other angelic presences, you may call them, or extraterrestrial entities, to determine those lessons which each shall focus upon in its first fourth-density incarnation.

Always are you in the classroom, always are you learning, and yet always do you have the choice to make the learning merry or solemn, to find the vacations and the play time, or the weariness, and the tiredness, and the hopelessness.

Those who do not polarize do not control what occurs to them with any particular preferred reaction—reaction is random. Those who wish to polarize in service to others choose by faith to feel that all situations are situations in which service is possible, that simply to be and to love the Creator, to worship and adore that Love which created each of them, is a service worth performing, and, indeed, may we say that as many upon your planet awaken to this choice the consciousness of the planet has grown lighter and lighter in the past few years, as this instrument would measure what you call time.

You are never without the ability to choose that which occurs to you, because if you have no fear you may have negative experiences which you will see only as environments in which to learn challenging lessons of love. Positive entities can gaze at one, shall we say, of the loyal opposition, and find in this contact the opportunity to realize that this entity too is a part of the self, and is to be loved, and blessed, and prayed for, and cared for, and taken into the heart.

It has been said in your holy works that it is easy to love those who love you. Better is it then to love those who revile you and wrongfully use you, without fear. These entities who are called the “grays,” or any other entity or situation whatsoever which is attempting to make one feel helpless and out of control, are completely malleable and transformable by love, love unhindered by any fear, for, indeed, there is nothing to fear.

You yourself are not either a good person or a bad person. You are, if you can consider good and bad as the full circle of being, a 360 degree being. It is by your choices that you define who you are and where your loyalties, where your choices and your faith will lie. And as you move further and further, building choice upon choice and polarizing toward service to others in the name of the one infinite Creator, as you become more and more a transparent channel for the love and the light of the infinite One, you create your life, you do not react to it, for the reactions are automatically those of one who seeks to help.

Now Q’uo spoke of the UFO contacts of a negative nature and their possible working with various governments and suggested that this was all a play that would soon end with the completion of the third density, and we could view it as a comedy or a tragedy. They said that there are also positive contacts occurring at the end of this third-density cycle, and that when we walk the steps of light we will enter the fourth density if we have polarized our consciousness sufficiently in service to the one Creator. Then Q’uo recommended that we look at the negative UFO entities, or any seeming negative situation, with love and compassion and transform them into that which has no fear. They said that we are neither good nor bad but are 360 degree beings, and channels for the love and light of the one Creator. On January 19, 2019, Q’uo described our nature as that of a 360 degree being:

You are everything. If you can look and find more of those qualities that you observe in the world around you within yourself, and begin to balance that which you find with that which remains to be found, you become what may be called a “360-degree being,” containing, observing, and experiencing all that there is of the One Infinite Creator. This is the great goal, my brother, of all entities within the creation, and it is not a goal that is easily achieved, or quickly achieved, or achieved only within the third density, for this is a goal which all seekers of truth proceed to discover and follow as they move through the journey of the densities that lead back to the One Infinite Creator. Here, in this third-density illusion, your experience is that of beginning to become this 360-degree being. The achieving of such is accomplished by looking about you in your daily round of activities, to find one more, and one more, and one more quality that you might use to balance that which is already known to yourself within your own being. Thus, you become, in your own mind, that which you are in your unconscious mind.

We realize that we have spoken too long, and we are apologetic, but there was much information to put into perspective these seemingly terrifying events. They are local third-density phenomena. They are controllable by love, faith and honest realization of one’s union with all that there is, whether it be called good or bad. The duality is an illusion. You are all things. It is your choices which create the you that is unique and will be refined from this point through density after density after density. This is your choice. These are your precious moments. Know in your heart how passionately you wish to move on and evolve as a spirit, an imperishable metaphysical being of light. Your physical evolution in this density is over. Your spiritual evolution is beginning. Make your choices fervently, carefully and persistently.

In order to aid you in these choices, and in your point of view, we ask two things of you. Firstly, we ask that you find a path that includes love of the infinite One shown as worship, adoration or simple attention, on a daily basis. We do not ask for any particular path to be followed. We are not those who ask for one religion or another. You choose the path that works for you and brings you into awareness of your true self and your true relationship with the infinite One. Daily time spent in silence, listening for the voice that is silent but speaks so loudly, is recommended as an aid to this process of choice.

Our other request of you is that you be light hearted and merry, and find every chance to be joyful, and to love one another, not as a solemn duty, not as a reason to polarize, that negates the polarization, but find joy in the service that gives you the true freedom and peace of doing that which you have now found that which you wish to do with all your heart, all your mind, all your soul, and all your strength. Be merry in your service, be merry in your worship, for the most serious choices of millions of years are being made by you now, and you would be crushed by your own solemnity, and your own realization of your importance of this choice, did you not have the saving grace of a sense of humor. See the illusion and the choices that you make, not only as the life and death choices that they are, but also as part of the unimaginably funny human comedy of the soap opera that is called third-density experience.

Oh, how high your emotions run, and how important everything seems. Step back whenever you feel too intensely disturbed, or saddened, or despairing, or inconsolable. Step back, and see the thousands of years that lie before and after this moment. See the true situation. If you are upset with someone, be ridiculous with him mentally. Undress that person. Cause that person to act in a ridiculous manner in your mind. Tell him off. Take the clown’s bat and harmlessly bat him about with it, while the circus audience laughs. Do whatever is necessary for you to break the spell of the illusion, and then gaze up at the stars, which are part of the love of the infinite Creator, and know that you are a player upon a stage, and you do choose the comedies, and the happy endings, and have no wish to be stabbed through, in great Shakespearean agony, in the fifth act. The critic that is you, you can be assured, will give you a better review for the comedy.

Now Q’uo assured us that the negative UFO experiences are a part of the illusion of third density, and that we could deal with them with love and faith because we are all portions of the one infinite Creator that will move forward to the higher densities by the choices of love that we make in this third density. Then Q’uo had two suggestions as to how we can continue to make these positive choices with the first one being the use of meditation to commune daily with the Creator, and the second one was to be light-hearted and  merry in truly loving each other with every fiber of our being. Q’uo ended their response by reminding us of how important a sense of humor is in third density as it allows us to see every person as an actor upon the stage and see the play as a comedy that can help us break the spell of the third-density illusion, and then we can experience the happy ending of the play. On December 16, 1990, Q’uo explained how a sense of humor can be helpful on the spiritual path:

That which your peoples call the sense of humor is, indeed, most helpful to any entity, no matter the position upon the path, or the placement within the life pattern. We see that which you call the sense of humor as being a sense of proportion where an entity is able to gain enough experience within the life that one may see a broader view. One stands upon a somewhat more elevated position, building experience upon experience, until that which you call wisdom is begun.

There is much in every entity’s life pattern and daily round of activities which lends itself to humor, nothing so much as the entity itself as it attempts to make a sense of and to form a cohesion from many disparate parts of the life which seem not to be held together well at all. There are innumerable instances in every entity’s life during which the entity will find itself playing the complete fool. This, in your mundane way of seeing things, often lends to the feeling of insecurity, doubt and wondering if there will ever be a time where the entity will have control of itself and be able to do that which it wishes, when it wishes, and in the manner it wishes. We would utilize your sense of humor at moments such as this, if we were in your position, in order that we might be reminded that each of us contains those elements which are less than ideal, but are completely acceptable as portions of a personality that one attempts to discipline as one would the wayward child, in order that the lessons set before one might be learned with more efficiency.

We are thankful to this instrument for allowing us to use it to speak upon a subject which its long history of study of the particular subject at hand had rendered it somewhat less than agog with interest concerning. However, we hear the call of many who wish this information, and we thank this instrument, and leave it in love and light. At this time we would move to the one known as Jim. I am Q’uo.

This morning I was a guest on Jonathan Tong’s Seattle Law of One Study group which is held on the first Saturday of each month. It is a question and answer format, and it was my favorite session of all time.  I always enjoy talking about the Law of One, and today the questions were so inspired in the way of how traveling the path of the Law of One could enhance the spiritual seeker’s journey.

This afternoon Anna and I had our own little gathering via telephones and computers where we continued to listen to Carla channeling those of Ra. We listen until one of us has a question or comment to make about the concepts being discussed, and then we pause the recording to share our thoughts. Since the channeling is so slow it gives us time to really think about what is being said, so we don’t cover very many sessions within the time that we are listening to them. Today we only listened Session #8 as it took us two hours to do that!

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 6

Yielding To Unmastered Destiny

I am the Comforter of this child, the principle of the full consciousness of love. I come in the name of Jesus Christ and greet you in the consciousness of love.

Aforetimes it has often been said that men will do as they do for reasons unknown even to them and that the world is a various place, full of difficulties and unexpected pitfalls. And so there is no need to plan for the future; no need to attempt the goodness of spirit or a trusting quality in personality. For are not all things blown by the wind and destined to perish?

Indeed, this yielding to destiny will always be a temptation for those who strive to know the love of Jesus Christ. Such is the appearance of your mundane world. This is why the door is so often closed against our advent into your consciousness. The world you perceive is too much with you and the world you wish to perceive is invisible. What need would there be of faith if you could see the wind and fire of spirit and transformation?

Yet we ask that as each perception of unmastered destiny rises before you, you open the door to a new perception of that same destiny in order that your present moments may find all things possible and all hope gladdening your heart and encouraging your thoughts.

Seek us. Seek love. Seek the truth. For only through determination can such a measure of intelligence come through the doors of your perception.

May you seek and practice peace and may peace be yours, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 24, 1990:

(Jim Channeling)

I am Q’uo and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. We are pleased at this time to offer ourselves the attempt to speak to any queries which may have arisen in the minds of those present. Is there a query at this time?

R: Yes, Q’uo. I’d like to ask if enough time has passed that we might be able to know if which social memory complex we were watching when my wife and I had [inaudible]. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and you are correct in your assumption that you were observing a thought-form of the social memory complex of those of Latwii, as we were attempting to give but a small and intriguing mystery-filled event that might cause you to do as you did: to seek more of the mystery, not only of the event, but of your life pattern in general. This is the way of those of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator who wish to serve without being, shall we say, obvious or heavy-handed in our approach. For we wish to give the small nudge when needed to the student of life, that it might take those steps which are appropriate to take at the time which is most beneficial.

There are wide places in the road, shall we say, that allow easier movement. And it is at these times that contact in some form–whether the manner of your visualization, or perhaps a vision in a dream, or an inspiration during the waking moments–may prove helpful to the students as a signpost, shall we say.

R wanted to know which social memory complex they were watching, and then what they were watching was inaudible. I might be able to determine what they were watching by examining Q’uo’s response. Q’uo said that they were correct in their assumption that they were observing the social memory complex of Latwii (the voice of Q’uo) as Latwii was giving them a mysterious event to awaken their spiritual journey in a manner that was often used by the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator. I believe that those of Latwii were probably in what we would call a UFO, and those of Ra said that such sightings were a means by which the Confederation often sought to help people begin their spiritual path as they stated in 7.12:

Questioner: I am interested in the application of the Law of One as it pertains to free will and what I would call the advertising done by UFO contact with the planet. That is, the Council has allowed the quarantine to be lifted many times over the past thirty years. This seems to me to be a form of advertising for what we are doing right now, so that more people will be awakened. Am I correct?

Ra: I am Ra. It will take a certain amount of untangling of conceptualization of your mental complex to reform your query into an appropriate response. Please bear with us.

The Council of Saturn has not allowed the breaking of quarantine in the time/space continuum you mentioned. There is a certain amount of landing taking place. Some of these landings are of your peoples. Some are of the entities known to you as the group of Orion.

Secondly, there is permission granted, not to break quarantine by dwelling among you, but to appear in thought-form capacity for those who have eyes to see.

Thirdly, you are correct in assuming that permission was granted at the time/space in which your first nuclear device was developed and used for Confederation members to minister unto your peoples in such a way as to cause mystery to occur. This is what you mean by advertising and is correct. The mystery and unknown quality of the occurrences we are allowed to offer have the hoped-for intention of making your peoples aware of infinite possibility. When your peoples grasp infinity, then and only then, can the gateway be opened to the Law of One.

Is there a further query, my brother?

R: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo. We thank you. Is there another query?

Carla: I had a question that Sally Dewitt brought up that I didn’t know the answer to, and that is this: Would it help or improve my tuning to have some of the accoutrements that we use during our contact days, such as a candle burning, being dressed in white, that sort of thing?

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. We find that these accoutrements are helpful for a certain kind of contact and a certain kind of instrument, which at one time indeed you were. And at this time, we find that those accoutrements are internalized to a degree that their outer manifestation is not necessary, unless you feel in your own discrimination that you would be aided by such. And in that case, the feeling would be the deciding factor so that your inner attention might be focused. We find that your ability to focus this attention, through years of practice, is well honed. Therefore, the choice of further ritual and additions to your current practice is yours.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No. I will have to think about that and see how I feel about it myself [inaudible]. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: Okay. Since everybody’s real quiet, I’ll ask the other question in my mind. I got a request from a student to send him all of the old issues of the Light/Lines, because the entity was wanting to go into channel and was quite incorrectly subjectively giving himself a hard time because he wasn’t learning fast enough. He felt that perhaps he could, by reading examples of my channeling, keep the lessons of channeling that we had shared uppermost in his mind. It seems to me that all he would be doing by reading my channeling would be learning to sound like me. And, in my mind, this is no great service. Each channel has his own voice. So, I wrote and said just that. Could you give any comment on the wisdom or unwisdom of this action?

I am Q’uo, and, I am aware of your query, my sister. We find, as in many cases previously, that your query has its own answer within it. You have thought well upon this subject and have spoken to its heart. For each instrument will indeed have that which is unique from its own experience and desire to offer as a vocal instrument. It is not well for an instrument to try to place itself within a mold that was formed by another and for another. Many advantages of the personality would be removed by such an action. We commend your insight and clarity.

Is there a further query?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we are most grateful to each as well. It is a great joy for us to be with this group and to greet both old and new friends this evening. We are filled with joy at this opportunity. We are with each in the personal meditation when requested and look forward to those times when we may join you in your meditations, both within the group and individually.

We shall take our leave of this group at this time, leaving each as always in the love and in the light of the One Infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I ran a couple of errands with my first stop at Feeder’s Supply to buy some cat food and bird seed. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. Then I came home and vacuumed the first floor of the house.

This afternoon Austin came over and got the new computer set up in the recording studio so that I can begin making audio recordings of Daniel’s guided meditations.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 5

The Home Of The Heart

I am of the spirit of Jesus the Christ, the vibration of the full consciousness of love which comforts this instrument. I offer greetings to you who come in the name of love, greetings of love, of wisdom, of understanding, of power, and of all the mysteries that cannot be grasped or solved within the world of your minds, hearts and hands.

Yet I come without a home, seeking the only home which the consciousness of love may ever have: the home of the heart, the mind, and the hand which seeks, accepts and worships those mysteries which, through faith, seem lovely and true.

Into your home we come to dwell, thanking you for your hospitality and sharing with you those light qualities that may illumine your home and structure and manifest the full consciousness of love into the world which you know and of which you must expect the giving and taking of many confused perceptions.

The spirit and you who seek the consciousness of love are one, incomplete without each other, united before time and after time. We thank each who invites love and to each we shall come in joy.

May peace be yours now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from June 24, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with how we make our way through the illusion, working with the catalyst that we have planned for ourselves. We are assuming that we put the catalyst in place before the incarnation in the form of various experiences that make an impression upon us so that we have a basic personality with which to operate, and as we go through the incarnation this basic personality that is formed early in our lives then has a series of lessons that come in the form of various kinds of catalyst, difficulties, problems, confusions, challenges. How do we use the basic personality that we have put in place, and how do we face the catalyst when it is, as many people feel more and more, overwhelming, and seems to have no end, there seems to be little rest? Is this a function of growing older, or a part of the cycle that we’re going through now since it is so close to the end?

(Carla Channeling)

Greetings to all of you in the love and in the light of the One Infinite Creator. I am known to you as Q’uo. We are humbly grateful to have been called to this place of desire for knowledge and truth, and we shall do our very best to share what truth we personally feel to be so with you. As always, we wish to remind each of you that we are not infallible, but rather those who have teachers just as you do. Those who walk a seemingly dusty trail without time and space, but standing always upon holy ground. We, like you, are finite in our manifestation at this time. We are all dust that lives in the presence of the Infinite One.

Your question this evening has to do with how one may find a point of balance within the illusion where one feels relatively safe, where one cannot be overwhelmed by circumstance or difficulties. So, as you picture yourself walking upon this infinite trail, the first tool or resource that you have in order to work with the illusion, which so often attempts to bring you from your center, is to remember that, as this instrument would say, “Wherever you go, there you are”.

You cannot cope with a life–a life is an illusion. The only thing within this particular illusion, or any illusion that we know of in the kingdoms of the Father, is each imperishable spirit to whom we speak. You must make it through yourself. It is not circumstances which overwhelm one but rather the self’s choice of reaction to circumstance.

Now, let us look at one’s handling of one’s self. Do you handle yourself as if you were a precious Chinese vase? May we say that, no, you do not. And yet how much more precious are you than such a man-made artifact. How little you value yourselves. How much difficulty and grief you cause yourself by asking to be perfect in every way according to your own personal definitions of this behavior.

In an illusion which was created specifically not to be ideal, the Creator gave you consciousness. This same Creator did not give you happiness, nor should you expect that this quality will come to one who is wise or compassionate as a reward for living well. As in any school room, you are here to learn; and there was never a comfortably given test in the history of education, according to most students.

But being within the illusion, you focus upon the material which you are receiving rather than upon the consciousness that receives it–that is, yourself. The experiences are transitory. The choices that you make in reacting to these circumstances slowly build up a non-transitory resource. If you have had courage once in choosing what was subjectively perceived as the ethical or correct thing to do in a situation, you have made a difference in yourself. You have chosen. And with each choice, your polarity, your positivity, your service to others becomes intensified, until there begins to be within each who continuously seeks persistently, a fire, a passion, to do and to be that which is love.

There is no activity that can give you this attitude. And the test that you will take at the end of this life experience has everything to do with attitude.

You may find within the illusion that circumstances are overwhelmingly difficult. Often one is stretched to one’s limits or beyond them. And one may consider that one has misbehaved and done wrongly, and regrets and rues each seeming wrongness, and wishes with all its heart that it might return to that moment and do it again–only this time, with love. That is why time is so vastly important within your illusion. The stream runs one way. You have a shot at creating a conscious and light-filled moment, fresh and new and joyful, every instant of your life. And once that instant is gone, it is gone.

This is true, not of a few people, or of most people, but of all persons in whatever path of service has been their destiny, their burden, and their honor.

So, when you look at situations, and hear the difficulties coming into your ears, and feel them growing in your heart, know that you are experiencing yourself, and that that which has happened to cause these feelings is within you. You cannot escape yourself. You can escape every other thing in the illusion, including the illusion. But in each escape, there is the wasted opportunity for learning the lessons of love.

Thus, we hold up to you a picture of yourself as beloved. Created as beloved children. Rocked and comforted and held by the mother nature of the Infinite Creator. And strong in heart to wish to do that which is of service.

When as an adult, so-called, you are hurt–mentally or physically or emotionally–or especially if you suffer that most painful of all sufferings–the spiritual suffering–you know that you do not have anyone to run to. You are no longer a toddler that can run to the all-embracing mother, and hide your head upon her lap, and cry until you are released from sadness. You must be that nurturing mother-self to yourself. You must treat yourselves well. This is not service-to-self. For if you cannot treat yourself well, out of a pure and unconditional love for yourself, with all of your imperfections and errors, then how can you love and serve those about you?

Thus, the first resource revolves around your own self-concept. You need to know yourself more and more deeply. As always, the daily meditation is a great aid in this search for the universal and unique self that you really deeply are.

The group question for this session makes the assumption that our lessons, which we perceive as catalyst, are pre-incarnatively planned, and our response to this catalyst eventually creates our basic personality. So the question is: It seems that the challenges of difficult catalyst continues to be overwhelming, and is this because we are growing older or because it is the end of the third density? Q’uo began their response by saying that we are our only tool to use to deal with our lessons, and our choice of our reaction to circumstances builds a resource that we can continue to use to increase our positive polarity until we begin to burn with the desire to give love and to be love. Then Q’uo said that there will be times when the catalyst is so intense that we will feel that we have failed to love, and we will wish we had done so. They said that this feeling is within us and is the means by which we continue to grow if we are able to treat ourselves with love when we judge ourselves to have failed to love others. Q’uo said that it is our self-concept that is of most importance, and daily meditation is the way to discover the unique being that we truly are. On May 18, 2005, Q’uo revealed the value of discovering our the limitations of our self-concept:

It is in coming into a present moment awareness of who you are that you more and more free yourself from the limitations imposed upon you by your self-concept. Your hope, before incarnation, was that you would come into a more and more full awareness of that essential nature of yourself that is not bound up in the personality shell or in the emotions connected with instinctual behavior as inherited from your physical body, but to be able more and more to avail yourself of that larger personality that you would call the soul or the spirit. And again, the more that you enter into this essential and deeper personality, the less entirely personal your selfhood becomes. For as you get closer to the heart of who you are, you take on those aspects of the self that are wrapped up in the larger self—or as this instrument would call it, the Creator-self.

When an entity thoughtlessly uses the word, “I,” that entity is referring to the personality shell. Certainly, that entity is one-of-a-kind and very idiosyncratic and unique. However, as you cast off items of your personality shell and enter more and more into your spirit-self, you do not in any way remove or limit your identity as “I.” Rather, you retain the uniqueness of yourself as a spark of the one infinite Creator, yet you become more and more aware that this Creator-self has its roots in the Creator Itself so that you have more and more of an awareness of the solidity at the center of your true identity.

Secondly, we would talk about the resource of doing. When one is not aiding, caring for, and loving the selves about him–family, friends, strangers, and humankind–one may do all manner of things, and yet not find oneself at all engaged in the joyful possibilities of living. There is tremendous spiritual help in having an attitude of servanthood to all those about you. Let your thoughts run towards what you might do to be of service to all those who cross your path. How twisted and convoluted are so many entities’ feelings towards those whom they meet. How very often is judging and biased opinion the content of one’s thoughts instead of the realization of each person as precisely as important as you and every other being within the density that you now enjoy.

We do not mean that you should drop all other priorities and simply follow other people’s instructions. That is not the kind of servanthood that we mean. As a matter of fact, we may suggest that often you will find yourself in a position, as you attempt to be of service, in which you are being unpleasing to the entity whom you wish to serve.

But if you can see that another is addicted to some strain of thought or action that is unhelpful and self-destructive, and you are then asked to aid in this addiction, the one who wishes to be of true service is the one who will refuse, but never without compassion, never without clear communication, and never without forgiveness.

The service-to-others path seems simple. One pictures one’s self as being a kind of celestial waitress. Bussing the tables of humanity. Easing other people’s passage through the difficult times. Splitting the Great Red Sea, so that your friends may cross dry shod. We do not see this as service-to-others, for each entity needs to be given room to learn for itself. Therefore, sometimes the greatest service is to allow a being, that depends upon you to make it safe, to live, to make mistakes, to make errors. For those whom you wish to serve will not learn if you do the learning for them. Rather, in relation to others, you create an atmosphere in which learning is safe.

If your heart is full and energized and open to the world about you, you will feel those times when love bubbles forth from within you as a spring into a fountain. And you will see yourselves used as beautiful and inspirational witnesses to the light that you are within.

Many of your people are afraid of this light and would indeed shutter it from their sight. Because in order to become aware of oneself as light, one must square with one’s self one’s true nature. And although each entity is unique, each contains all emotions, potentials, and possibilities of which one may think.

Thus, you do not get to know yourself by behaving or doing well. You get to know yourself by observing yourself being precisely what you want to be and what you feel to be. And then when the day is done, asking yourself where the stress points are–where the sores, the aches, the pains–or the delightfulness of the day has occurred. So, you begin to find out your own nature.

And as you learn your own nature, it becomes transparent. One does not need to act out one’s own nature with anger and trauma. For one is quite aware, having done the work, of what is actualizing or causing the entity of your self to be thus in self. So, you not only nurture your self in and of your self and by your self, but you nurture your self in relation to others by offering, through simple attitude, a sort of atmosphere of helpfulness–a relaxed and welcoming aura which invites entities to feel safety and peace when they are around you. In that atmosphere, then perhaps you may be of further service by the talking, the speaking together, the enjoyment of laughing, friendship, and love.

Now Q’uo began to speak about the resource of  our doing that we may develop by seeking to create an attitude of how we may be of service to those who cross our path. Q’uo said that at times this may mean that you allow people to make mistakes that they might learn from them rather than attempting to learn for them by correcting what you see as mistakes. Then Q’uo went on to say that when our hearts are energized and open to the world around us that our love will naturally bubble forth as we become witnesses to the light that is within us, but in order for this to happen we must be able to observe ourselves as we want to be and feel to be. Then at the end of each day we look back to see the difficulties and the delights of our experience and become more aware of our true nature, and eventually the light within us becomes transparent to those around us so that we have a welcoming aura of peace and love as we share friendship and laughter together. On November 5, 1981, Hatonn spoke of the nature of that light within us:

And the light within you marks you as the Creator’s own. No circumstance, no thought, no behavior, no error, no difficulty, no limitation can remove this mark from your very being and you rest in the arms of the Creator. There is no moment in eternity when this is not so.

The illusion is strong and ofttimes dark, my friends. But there is a light within you, and you are the Creator’s own. You shall never be forgotten. You shall never be lost. For all who seek begin to intensify that light more and more. As your light becomes brighter, so shall you yourselves begin to light the way of others and so may it go. Perhaps you cannot see your light—many do not. Others will tell you. Trust no words, no thoughts, no behavior in yourself or others, but be grounded in the knowledge of your birthright, of your identity in the light. Call upon it, speak to it and never fear that you shall be lost from it.

But to be of service to others, you must need have some sort of idea as to who you are, and you need to have given up and surrendered that childhood need to protect oneself by behaving. Your essence is not behavior. Your essence is spontaneous moment by moment. It is in this naked and vulnerable selfhood, as you go forth with, as has been said this evening, loins skirted or girded–so that we may include women–to be of service in whatever way you can.

No service should ever be put down by the self or held in scorn and contempt. Anything that is done for the love of the One Infinite Creator is equal to anything else that is done for that love.

The last resource that we shall cover–because we realize, as this instrument is telling us, we are speaking too long–[is] what you call among your peoples the sense of humor. People who are extremely serious about accelerating the path of spiritual evolution have a tendency to sound like the Volga boatmen putting their poles in the deep rivers of the Volga and pushing slowly and with difficulty to make the great barge move. This is not the true nature of spiritual evolution.

The laughter quotient, shall we say, of your days should be gradually moving upward. More things should be transparent to you who have been upon the trail for a while and, therefore, deeply humorous in that humor that goes beyond the smile and warms the heart. For this life that you experience is the joke without the punch line. You play the second banana to yourself. As you gain perspective and see yourself as soap opera characters, cartoon characters, creatures that may be ridiculous and still be safe, secure, and undaunted, so will you lose the many, many layers of fear which cause you to armor against the delightfulness of life.

We are aware that this is a world in which young children get run over in the roadway, in which young men die fighting for something that they do not understand. We are aware that there are many, many injustices, that life is not fair. This is an illusion designed to cause you to act, to cause you to think, to assist you in making choices. Shall you be the cynic–the one who is usually correct for the moment? Or shall you be that idealist, who always suffers for the ideal in the present, but who, in a millennium or so, will find that that ideal still holds true and is something to which it has been worthwhile to be loyal? Idealists, in this extremely relativistic society, are most often seen as fools. Can you accept that? Or do you need to behave in such a way that people will never see you as foolish, but as one who knows the score, one who is in the know, one who is a player in the games of economics and politics and society?

If you choose to retain your ideals in the face of life as you experience it, you are both accelerating your path of consciousness and becoming more vulnerable to appearing strange to those about you. If you care about your reputation more than you care about your ideals, you will most surely be more successful during this short eyeblink of a lifetime. But shall you have done for yourself as a beam of light?

We ask that sometime within the next few days, you do two things. Firstly, sit quietly and watch your grass grow. You will be delighted by the life that you see teeming all around you. The glory of the sky, the beauty of the foliage, the music of the laughter of children, and the human dark comedy of anguish over misbehaving children and friends. How funny and beautiful is your illusion, if you can but slow down and look at it?

The other thing we would ask you to do is to laugh. Not a giggle; not a chuckle. We ask you to lose yourself. To find that one thing that, for you, takes you out of yourself. All of you are in need of healing, and laughter is the medicament. You patch together melancholy and weariness, not with long and drawn out speeches, lists of what to do, or naturopathic remedies. Simple laughter.

Thus, we would leave you with those three thoughts. Love and nurture and honor yourself, love and nurture and honor others who are all yourselves, and be merry in your love. Give to your life the light touch. Let the world come to you. For you are not working on the world; you are working upon yourself.

We know that you love the Creator, that in whatever way you choose to think of this higher power. You love the mystery. You love the dream. Please know that it loves you back. That it loved you before you loved it. And that it and you are love.

You may now take two steps backwards, and take a brief–we correct this instrument–a long sigh of relief. And we urge you always, when you are feeling harassed, to take those two steps backwards and take a long deep breath. Just a moment to praise the Creator, to thank the Creator for all the blessings of life. It need only take a moment, but you return to your mundane situation centered in eternity.

Now Q’uo said that we need to be aware that our essence is spontaneous and vulnerable, and that all service that we offer others is also service to the Creator. Then Q’uo suggested that as we move further on our spiritual journeys that the laughter factor should be playing a larger and larger part of our lives as we have been able to see that we all move together in a great cartoon where we are safe, secure, and undaunted by life’s challenges. Q’uo suggested that we retain our ideals and even though life is not fair that we should learn to laugh as laughter is very healing. They completed their response to the nature of our journey as one in which we need to remember that we love the Creator, and the Creator loves us, and when we feel stressed that we should just take a moment to praise the Creator for the blessing of our lives and then return to our mundane lives centered in eternity. On November 5, 1989, Q’uo described what it means to be centered in eternity:

Vitality is a matter of honoring the Creator within each and having the sense of humor to make fun of the illusion that separates each from each. When you touch hands, you touch energy fields. When you love and pray and make a cartoon of an entity to strip him of his negative qualities, you have invoked that which will give joy not only to yourself but to those about you. For one who is centered in eternity while in the present moment is a light unto many, a joy unto many, a source of faith to many. Never consider yourself as unimportant or unworthy. You are the Creator. You simply are learning to deal with the freedom that is the hallmark of the creation of the infinite One. You are free. There is no failure. You choose your own pace.

We would speak to the one known as Sonya in explaining who we are, for there is a portion of our principal that is Latwii. And this portion of our self wishes to extend its assurance to this being of light, that it is never absent, though it never speaks, but is always there as a battery, as a carrier wave, to strengthen and smooth and comfort the path of this entity.

We are a principle made up of two social memory complexes: that of Ra and that of Latwii. Ra is unwilling to risk this instrument by further speaking in the sleeping state. Those of Latwii are also students of those of Ra and are most happy indeed to be able to blend their vibrations, to offer to this instrument all such thoughts as she may be prepared stably to offer.

In last Sunday’s Camelot Journal entry those of Hatonn were mentioned in the June 30, 1990 Q’uo session to be present in that session but not in a speaking mode. Now, in this session, we have the second confirmation that Ra is part of the principle of Q’uo but that it is Latwii that gives voice to Q’uo.

We thank and bless each through this instrument, and thank this instrument for offering itself to our service now and in each day. We would close the meeting through the one known as Jim. I am Q’uo.

This morning I spent some time reading a number of essays that Carla wrote in 2010 when she was confined to her hospital bed after the first surgery to fuse some of her upper vertebrae in her spine so she could be able to use her computer again. I had  never seen them before yesterday, and they are very inspiring memories of our time together and also with Don Elkins. You can find these essays by going to our website: www.llresearch.org and clicking on About. The click on Carla’s picture and scroll all the way down the page until you come to a section called A Small Medium at Large where you will find these five essays.

This afternoon I filled out the paperwork for my first physical therapy session next Thursday at Kort Physical Therapy in Middletown.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 4

The Cold Of Human Commonplace

I am of that principle which is the essence of divine love. I greet you in the full consciousness of that love which is in Jesus the Christ.

How tightly are the seeds furled against the cold of winter this day. And how tightly are your hearts guarded in their hope for growth. They contract, shrinking from the cold of the human commonplace.

Yet we say to you that within the spirit of the consciousness of love lies an eternal springtime. Seek in each daily activity this day the dance of joy which the spirit offers to unfurl the heart within and to join work and love.

May your day dance. May your heart know both winter and the goodness of nurturing and waiting and the eternal springtime of right action led in hope, love and peace. For as you call the spirit, so these qualities come in answer.

We leave you in that great peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 20, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time we would offer ourselves for any remaining queries to which we may speak further. Is there a query at this time?

S: [Inaudible]

I am Q’uo, and we believe that we have the gist of your query, my sister. It is the martyr’s choice before the incarnation begins that this path shall be the overriding path which is followed, and that this path shall be followed in order that it might be that which most fully glorifies the Creator, and serves the Creator in what you know as the positive polarity. When one considers this path within an incarnation and places it among many as that which may or may not be chosen as the service that will be provided when it is unsure what that service should be, then it is that the intellect does the work within the incarnation that the entity at the level of the soul has done before the incarnation. It is not so much that the intellect shall move one in a negative path if it attempts to rock the martyr’s path, as it is that when…

[Side one of tape ends.]

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. It is more the case that when one chooses a path using the intellect, laying one choice against the other, analyzing the benefits and the detriments, that one tends to move away from what is true for the self, for the path that is most appropriate for each entity is the path which has been carefully laid out before the incarnation with the aid of many friends and teachers that have the purpose of serving as what you may call a guide or a guardian of one kind or another.

Many times during an incarnation an entity will feel that it has moved its feet from that path which was more clearly felt at a previous time, will feel the confusion of the present moment, and with the great desire yet remaining to be of service in whatever way is possible, will attempt to construct by the analytical and intellectual means the path which it might once again feel at home within. Seldom is such a choice that which would move one into negative polarization or service to self. More is the case that one would simply conduct the life pattern in a place which was somewhat in a limbo field, as you may call it, where one is not yet at the heart of the self of the path chosen before the incarnation, but one instead moves as best as one can.

Now, this is a situation in which many, many of your peoples find themselves at this time. Those who are awakening to a larger perspective of the meaning and purpose of the life pattern oftentimes at the awakening to this realization of greater purpose will attempt to emulate others that are appreciated in order that their journey might continue rapidly as they have felt the awakening energy to move in a burst through the awareness. We recommend to each entity that ponders upon this point of how the feet shall be placed as the journey is continued that there be no steps taken that do not have with them the feeling of wholeness and of rightness, that feeling of assurance that each has had experience with at some previous time within the incarnation where it has been known without doubt that the next step was such and such.

Since S’s question was inaudible I will try to reconstruct it from Q’uo’s response. S may have asked how the martyr’s path was chosen by the seeker and what role did the intellect and pre-incarnative choices play in the seeker’s becoming a martyr. Q’uo began their response by saying that the martyr’s path is chosen pre-incarnatively as a means to glorify the Creator in the positive polarity, but within the incarnation it is sometimes the intellect that consciously chooses this path. However, Q’uo said that if the seeker has only the intellect by which to choose the martyr’s path it may not follow that path as faithfully as possible but would likely not move into any negative choices. Then Q’uo said many people are experiencing this feeling of awakening to a larger purpose in their lives and are not sure how to proceed, and it was Q’uo’s recommendation that they only take steps in the direction that feels the rightness that previous steps have felt. On May 14, 1995, Q’uo suggested how a person might choose their spiritual path:

There are many, however, who in their own personal journeys of seeking see such occurrences as a continuing strain or strand of confusion and disorder, which is a reflection of their own personal lack of unity in choosing a path of service. Thus, those who see with clearer eyes, those who look beyond their own personal boundaries and seek that which binds all beings into one, are those who are more able to see events about them as being significant in the achieving of this unity.

Is there a further query, my sister?

S: Not about that. [Inaudible].

I am Q’uo. We scan your memory. You have asked a query that is most interesting and highly symbolic in your particular case, one which the deeper portions of your subconscious mind have constructed, shall we say, in order to provide the symbol, and in some degree the riddle. The forest is most important to you at this time, for reasons which we feel you have begun to ascertain with increasing clarity, though there yet remains much which is unclear.

Consider the nature of any tree that grows within any forest. It draws what is needed for nourishment from depths that are great and hidden within the earth as well as being nourished by the life-giving rays of the sun which is a great distance from it, nourishment for the tree that is old, strong and wise, and therefore available even when there are dry winds and harsh conditions that move from season to season about the forest. There is little effect upon the great oak when the variations of seasons become extreme in heat and cold and dry and with rain.

The snakes of your experience have been well perceived, we feel, in that the symbolism of the action and reaction of wisdom is that which is currently playing out, shall we say, within your life pattern. To sum, we could suggest that you have well perceived the symbols that have been given to you, not only in your life pattern, but by deeper portions of your own mind, so that the path might always be available to you, and nourish you in the way which is necessary at this time.

Once again, S’s question is inaudible. So I will try to guess what her question might have been by looking at Q’uo’s response plus what S says in her next question concerning her forest and the tree of life. Q’uo speaks about the strength of the great oak tree in the forest which is sustained by the earth in which it grows and the sun that shines upon it so that it may survive in harsh conditions. Q’uo also speaks of snakes which they relate to wisdom which seem to be symbols given to S by her deep mind to aid her on her spiritual path. On July 14, 1994, Q’uo spoke of the value of the Tree of Life:

The Tree of Knowledge is that tree, that figure, that attitude, towards the living of a life which gets the seeker started upon the road towards the acceleration of spiritual evolution. However, when that seeker has indeed begun to walk upon that dusty path, and when it has gained experience along this path, then it is that the seeker does well to remove that figure from the mind and replace it with the Tree of Life. The choices possible to make within an incarnation having to do with polarity are rather quickly done, in that it becomes easier and easier to adjudge the polarity of various responses to certain catalyst.

Beyond these choices, however, lies the true ground wherein work in consciousness is done and into that ground it is unacceptable to bring this consciousness that is divided. Once upon the service-to-others path, then, it augers well for the seeker if he chooses to observe creation as the Tree of Life suggests, the “as above, so below” of ultimate reality being implicit in this cosmology that is seen, as well as that which is unseen.

Is there a further query, my sister?

S: Is there a connection between my forest and my thoughts on [inaudible] and the tree of life [inaudible], or are they two separate arenas?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. You may look at that information that we have just given as being the arena, or the parameters, within which great refinement of thought, feeling, imagination, intuition and action may take place. When one looks at the tree of life, for instance, one may see many centers of energy expression that may be investigated with the archetypical relationship of the subconscious potentiator working to inspire or inform the conscious mind in order that there may be a deeper understanding of the seemingly mundane experiences that one encounters in the daily round of activities. This is true in each case where one wishes to apply the principles of the archetypical mind. That you have discovered various of these principles and have decided to arrange your further study around these areas of study is well for you at this time, for you have both the need and the ability to penetrate areas of the self and the life pattern which correspond to the stations and the archetypes.

Is there a further query, my sister?

S: This is real, kind of strange, but it’s something that has always been in the back of my mind, but why, why have I [inaudible] to be here?

I am Q’uo, and, my sister, as you serve others as the teacher, this is a question which often comes to the mind of the teacher, why are some students more inspired, or as you have called it, driven, to excel, than are others? Why is anything as it is? You are one who has chosen for yourself a certain kind of service that remains in most cases hidden within the unmanifest self at this time. However, as many are awakening to those inner urges according to the season and the cycle of the time upon this planetary sphere, so will there be many that bloom and break forth from those previous boundaries, shooting forth from the dark earth the vibrant shoots and stems that together will form the new forested population of this particular planetary sphere. Thus, you move with a rhythm that is coarsely tied to this cycle, this planet, and your own choices before entering into this incarnation.

Is there a further query, my sister?

S: No, thank you [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there a final query at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and it is with great joy that we have been able to join this circle this day. We cannot speak our gratitude with words that are sufficient to express it, but we wish each to know that we cherish these times, and feel most especially blessed to have been able to speak to the one known as S. We hope that our humble words may provide some illumination and inspiration as the life pattern continues to unfold, step upon step. At this time we shall take our leave of this group, rejoicing, leaving each, as always, in love and light. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This  morning I had an appointment with my rheumatologist to see if there might be some physical therapy that would help me to increase the strength of my core and obliques so that there would be less likelihood of the recent pain that has occurred when I do my stretching exercises each day. A friend of mine in St. Louis was able to help reduce the pain by suggesting that I not do any exercise that involved leaning forward while I was on the floor. My rheumatologist agreed that physical therapy would be a good idea, so I will go down to Kort Physical Therapy in Middletown this afternoon to schedule times to do my physical therapy. On my way home I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought another case of bottled drinking water.

This afternoon I enjoyed reading two emails that contained a lot of very interesting information. The first one was from a woman in Australia with whom I had been in contact from the early 1990’s who wanted to use my emails in a book which she is writing about what events are coming into our world today as a results of channeling from over 30 years ago. Then I went down to Kort Physical Therapy and got my first appointment physical therapy for January 11 at 11 am.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 3

A Day Of Forgiveness

I am of the principle of the consciousness of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in whole and divine love. The Master calls each to a day of forgiveness. Let this be such a day.

During this day, note each to whom your heart has become hard, that you may take this opportunity to call and pray for grace; that you may know how to forgive; that you may learn the gentility, the transformation, and the peace of forgiving.

For what is there to forgive between children in the same family? Do not all families learn from rubbing against each other, perhaps even causing friction but always working as a family? Such is your condition as a soul in the creation in which all of consciousness are children of one Father.

Let this day be your day of forgiveness of others, of yourself, and of your Father. Many things are beyond understanding. But the love and the peace of forgiveness are food for the heart and drink for eternity.

We leave you in forgiveness, peace and divine love, this day and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 20, 1990:

The question this afternoon has to do with the differences between the one who pursues the martyr’s path, and the one who pursues the path of the mystic. What are the similarities, what are the differences?

(Carla channeling)

I am of the principle of Q’uo. Greetings to you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We greatly appreciate the opportunity to speak to you, and to be called to your group this day. It is a privilege and an honor, and a chance to be of service, and we are most humbly thankful to each of you. Because we speak to an old and beloved friend, we would have the one known as S know of who we are. We of the principle of Q’uo are those of Latwii. We are also students of the teacher known as Ra. Their social memory complex and ours have blended together for communications with this instrument, as it can no longer bear the cost of physical trance. Nevertheless, it is of an acceptable vibration to receive many of the concepts of our teachers, and of course we also contribute those things which fill out the situation as down plumps out the pillow. We are not as excellent are those of Ra at speaking tersely and to the point, yet in our rambling we find that people are able to find more to grasp onto and find more ability to grasp what is being said. And so, all of us are grateful to be with you, and those of Ra and those of Latwii send you their love, and are with you always.

Briefly we speak upon this, that is to say we are with you always. You are never alone. There are times when, in your illusion which you now enjoy, the stimulation from that illusion becomes so overwhelming that the senses are shut down and one is no longer able to be aware, or to express any reaction, to stimulus. This has no bearing on our presence or the faithfulness of the seeking soul. It is simply the symptom of dealing with the illusion, having chosen a difficult, but hopefully very fruitful, existence in service to others. Thus, we speak to the mystic in you as we say, by faith, know, where you cannot feel it, that help is near, and that the Creator is closer to you than your own breath.

Martyrs and mystics have often been one and the same, that is, it is often the entity with the ability for the abstract and extra-physical or other than physical use of senses to be a mystic, to see ideals that this illusion does not in any way confirm but may only suggest from time to time. It is these mystics that often will make an heroic gesture which ends in the killing of the self by others because of the insistence upon their ideals. Thus, the two words are intermixed often, as one follows the line of those lives are built on faith and not by words as it stretches back in glory across time and space. However, by no means are all mystical entities martyrs, nor are all martyrs mystics.

A mystic is not a word which means one thing. It may mean any number of things, that is, it may refer to one who chooses a non-literal interpretation of life in any non-literal interpretation that entity may choose. Thus, there are no two mystics whose paths are the same, for the golden glow of sanctity is shone to one person in one way, to another in another. There is no set pattern for mysticism. It is indeed rather a process of growth or evolution which may be chosen by the seeker as the most comfortable or the most efficient way though uncomfortable, of living the most consciously accelerated spiritually evolutionary life possible while living in the illusion of third density. The mystic is one who says, “I do not need an objective referent to believe that something is there.” Thus, some mystics never leave those things founded upon what other mystics would call sheer superstition. There are as many non-literal ways of looking at the world as there are entities.

So mystic is better understood as an adjective, mystical, meaning non-literal, or freed from vigorously philosophical and scientific processes of deduction. Therefore, being a mystic brings out a different point of view in each person who is, by gift or by choice, living life mystically. A mystic is not particularly liable to become a martyr, anymore than is the scientist, the ethical man, or any manner of humankind which you may choose to describe. A mystic simply believes that which it does not see, and has faith in that which cannot be touched, or felt, or measured by the instrumentation now available to your peoples. It does not suggest a creed, and it does not suggest an agenda. One’s personal myth and the way one manifests one’s personal myth are chosen uniquely by each unique entity.

The group question for this session was what are the differences and the similarities between a martyr and a mystic? Q’uo began their response by saying that often martyrs and mystics are the same thing, but more often the mystic is one who seeks a non-literal interpretation of life which could be different for each mystic. Q’uo said that in general a mystic is one who believes in that which it cannot see and has no creed or agenda. On April 23, 1989, Yom described the basic nature of the mystic:

It is possible that the mathematician that is a mystic shall be that person who is of most help to the beginning of those in fourth density. But may we say that at the end of third density, what we feel would be the most help is not physical, is not explanation of the order of nature, but rather an insistence upon a gaze at the spirituality of all that there is, the thought that each thing that one does is done for the love of the Creator. There need be no other reason, there need be no higher path. Anything that is done may be done for the love of the Creator. And as long as you are practicing that presence and the Creator is with you, all that you do, though it may be the most menial and undramatic thing possible, is blessed and appreciated, and you are loved.

The word martyr, on the other hand, is a very specific word, meaning that entity which chooses to allow itself to be used, even unto death. Death is not necessarily the end of the martyr, one may live a life of martyrdom, but in essence the attitude is that the self is unimportant, and that the will of a greater Self is that by which the martyr seeks self-immolation, and gladly hopes for the destruction of anything that stands in the way of service to that more important Self. Many are those entities among your people who are martyrs to idols. Many would call blasphemous the martyr’s love of the mother for the family to the point that this nurturing entity abandons all personal hope, dreams, originality of existence and authenticity of opinion, in order to best serve in any way that is requested the demands of this greater Self.

In other words, to many martyrs, the greater Self is very much alive, and is living in bodily form as an human being, and often in family relationships. It may be noted that when this occurs it is a poor choice if one wishes to balance one’s karma and remove oneself from the dense influences of this particular classroom, for just as negative over-activity bonds one karmically to another, so does excessive and self-sacrificing love that is unnecessary and an infringement upon the free will bind the same entity, karmically, to the one idolized.

There are many within the Eastern cultures which operate upon the hierarchy of student/teacher and the Creator, who neglect to remember that the teacher is transparent, and that the Creator is to be seen in the teacher, and not the teacher in the Creator, which is the same kind of karmic tie, the same kind of martyr’s worship, which is in bad judgment, not because a great deal is not learned, for one cannot help but learn, but in the event one is wishing to prepare oneself for freedom from these lessons, it is well to recognize that karma needs to be balanced, and all entities need to be seen as one’s peers and equals, neither higher nor lower, neither greater nor smaller, no teachers and no students, but colleagues.

Yes, there are teach/learners and learn/teachers, because one entity has more experience than another, or more ability to articulate than another. But the transaction is between equals in the deepest truth of human transactions. If this once and for all can be seen, then it can be seen that there is no possibility of being a martyr as long as one remembers that one is always dealing with one’s colleagues, each entity being an imperishable and perfect light being.

If we speak to the unwisdom of martyring oneself for idols, dowe then suggest that it is wise to martyr oneself for ideals? This is a matter of the free will of the entity who contemplates such an act. We may suggest simply this: that if the situation of martyrdom is not placed in front of one it is never necessary to create a martyr’s path. For if one has in one’s life pattern the lessons involved in martyrdom, they will appear of their own accord, and as Jesus the Christ prayed the day before he accepted his martyrdom, “I know my time has come, I see the cup I am to drink in front of me, I am afraid of the pain. If it is possible, move this cup away from my lips that I will not have to drink it.” But the cup stayed where it was, and in humility, Jesus the Christ said “not my will, but Thine be done”. At that point, in anyone’s experience, when the entity is sure that it is receiving clear and positive information, and that there is a clear and positive way of redefining unconditional love for those about one, the martyr’s path overcomes wisdom, for yours is a density in which you are attempting to learn to love without condition, and when at last there is a choice between wisdom and dying well for an ideal, wisdom must needs wait its turn and be learned in its proper density.

The great error with those who have a tendency, because of their mystical experiences, to see opportunities for self-sacrifice, is that they will choose self-sacrifice when it is not at all necessary, and when in fact it may well prevent or cause to make longer another entity’s road towards understanding of the nature of love. For instead of seeing itself as responsible, it simply turns to a service-to-others self who loves so deeply, and that service-to-others self again and again plays the martyr’s role. It is well to remember that this type of martyrdom is a kind of idolatry. There is but one Creator, and although the Creator is in each person, unless by self-sacrifice you are expressing that ideal to others in a clear communication on whatever level you wish, then that martyrdom has a karmic element, which then must be balanced.

Then Q’uo described the martyr as one who wishes to give its self over to the greater Self even to the point of death. They also said that the martyr often may be found in the family where one member idolizes another and seeks to give of itself in a way which is unwise as it karmically ties the self to the one idolized. Then Q’uo said the same situation occurs in the Eastern cultures where there is a student and teacher that can cause karmic ties of one to the other. Q’uo suggested that it is wiser to see all as equals and none as idols. Q’uo also said that it is best to allow one’s life pattern to decide if one is to become a martyr and then that opportunity will appear of its own accord and fulfill the third density lesson of giving love without condition. On September 19, 2004, Q’uo gave a description of how one may determine whether it is well to become a martyr:

That is the difficulty of the bias of the path of a martyr. And so this entity must constantly ask itself where the appropriate balance is between service to others and martyrdom. Others following other paths must look at the biases that are connected with that model and that path and then ask the self what the issues are as one attempts to follow the way of a hero or an avatar.

The virtue of having a model or a hero for a path is simply that it is a shortcut, if you will, an icon on the desktop that you can click on in order to see deeper into the issues that you are facing. The cliché of modern day that this instrument would use, then, is “What would Jesus do?” Or as this instrument has altered it many a time, “What would Jesus be?” Asking the self what one’s hero would do or how it would be is often very instructive to one’s own private communication with the self. For one is working in deep waters and the light is dim. It is not easy to see one’s way when one is attempting to sort signal from noise and truth from chaos. But we would suggest, if there is that feeling for a certain hero or avatar or icon of some kind, to use that, not blindly, but asking the self, “If I were thinking as this entity, how would I see my situation?” It helps to bring one up from the morass of confusion and give one a promontory upon which to stand, from which vantage point you may see the surrounding landscape of the moment that you are facing. If one does not have a hero, a master, an avatar, an icon, then one simply must move within the self and ask the guidance of the self, “What is the highest and best part of myself going to do in this situation?” And then await that wisdom in confidence and quietness.

It will never cause anyone karmic problems to be a mystic, for the mystical view is merely that of one looking through the bars of the prison of third density and seeing that there is more. Whether these entities are called philosophers, or fools, or poets, or men of god, they have a vision of the way the world is, to which those who hear it resonate, and by which those who live with it are enriched, and indeed the planet itself is enriched by the mystical view, by the love of mystery and the withholding of judgment that accompanies the mystic grasp that we do not, nor can we, know anything for certain, but by faith we see the world in this way and that, and we do not need the tape measure, and the calibrations, and the figuring, and the equations, for we see life at first as mystics in the abstract, and then watch as those abstract principles of love, affirmation and service to others find their way into manifestation as each mystic lives its life of eternity in the world which lives in time and space.

Some mystics will find it far easier to be what they feel is the best they can be, in the life of silence and contemplation that the monastery offers. Thus, by their very existence such entities raise the consciousness of the planet, certainly not by any deeds done, nor words said. Others speak a great many words, and are therefore honored, but are not the least bit more helpful than those whose service is silent, for it is the viewpoint which causes radiance to be possible, radiance through the self, radiance that lights the planet, and fills the Earth with the possibility of loving kindness.

To study the psychology of the martyr is a large subject which we cannot fully tackle within the time limitations of this working. In part, it is that which the subjectively perceived reality of humankind demands because it is aware that it is often in error, often immoral and unjust, and no matter how secret are these errors, and how unknown these mistakes, yet each entity understands quite well that it is in many ways most unworthy to be lifted up, whole and perfect, to claim birthright as the child of the one infinite Creator. You live in a pattern of duality. You speak in terms of duality, your very mind functions by duality, that is, making choices, yes or no, yes or no, over and over. And in this light and dark that is the third-density experience there is a deep need for someone to erase the night, the darkness, the error, the mistake, the need for there to be a way to perceive oneself as being forgiven, redeemed to fullness of self and wholeness of life and transformation of personality, so that one may more and more serve the infinite Creator, and each day start anew and fresh, without the vast burden of one’s past errors causing the shoulders to sag.

Thus, the martyr is logically an inescapable part of a dualistic system such as yours. The psychology of duality demands it, for each of you was not born neutrally moral, but was born with a moral imperative, with an inner moral bias. Thus, there is no [inaudible] judging, and now [inaudible] need for there to be a martyr. The need for a martyr is the need to sacrifice part of that which humankind is, so that, somehow, the remainder of humankind might be forgiven its errors. Those who gaze at this part of myth may see that in no way could it be considered literally or objectively acceptable. But myths are not intended to be literal. If you are all that there is, you are also the martyr that expends its life that the rest of you may live, forgiven.

And so, a small part of you, the stale, the unhealthy, the self-perceived sicknesses of self, mind, body and spirit, are offered up on the cross of change and transformation, and in these special descriptions of subjective martyrdom lives the true wisdom of martyrdom.

We do not intend to indicate the bias against the historical truth of the one known as Jesus, the one known as Buddha, the one known as Zoroaster, or any of the world’s crucified Christs. We wish only to indicate that those entities showed a pathway, not for you to walk through, but for you to imitate, for there is no way one in one’s consciousness of duality may approach the Creator, for the Creator is one, and you are one, and one with the Creator. Thus, your own dualism is that cross that you bear; your own humanity, your own mistakes, your own errors, your own times of self-perceived wrongness, and these things you do well to drag to Golgatha and to crucify, that the rest of you may live and be renewed and be more and more who you truly are, whether that be mystic or empirical thinker. The mystic is more aware of the true nature of the illusion. However, there are many who are able to pass into that beautiful light that is the light of the density to come without ever being a mystic, but merely doing those things that seemed there to do, being there to help, however practically or matter-of-factly.

Now Q’uo suggested that it would never cause anyone karmic problems to be a mystic because the mystic simply sees that there is more to life than we experience in the third density, and the mystic enhances the people around it and the planet itself by its love of mystery and its dedication to love and service to others. Then Q’uo suggested that becoming a martyr was not a good choice in our third density because it fails to recognize how being a martyr suggests that one has made an error and must then seek forgiveness rather than appreciating the purpose of third density being that of giving the self in service to others and the Creator as well. Q’uo said that many people may play the part of the martyr as they go through transformations in which the unhealthy parts of the self are sacrificed as one grows spiritually. Q’uo completed their thought by saying that the mystic is more aware of the true nature of the third-density illusion, but even the average person could walk into the light of the fourth density just by being of service to others in a matter of fact way. On January 20, 1991, Q’uo revealed how we all may be of service to others in our own way:

Let us recall to your minds the basic purpose of third-density incarnation. You are here to make choices. It is imperative that you make choices. If the choices that you make are unskillful, that is acceptable to the infinite Creator. The process of making choices creates in the seeker more and more skill at the process of making choices. Like any other process, choice making improves with practice. If one is able eventually to claim and name all of the portions of the personality, one is then able simply to say, “I know not how these portions of myself fit together, and I lay that before love itself, for I know not what to do, yet love knows that which is the very best for me, and I will allow that love to lead me, and I shall follow.”

We would transfer to the one known as Jim at this time, that this instrument may close the session. May we thank each for calling us once again. We are those who dwell in realms of glory, where music of praise and thanksgiving is never still, yet we do not know all that there is to know, nor do our teachers, so, as always, we encourage each to take that which is valuable, and leave the rest as interesting but unnecessary thoughts. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I did a load of laundry which included the sheets and pillow cases from my changing of my bedding yesterday morning. Whenever I do that I need to iron the flat sheet and pillow cases to take the wrinkles out of them. The fitted sheet fits so tightly around the bed mattress that all the wrinkles are stretched out.

This afternoon I went outside and took the remaining Ginko Tree mulch and dug it into the Flower Fall Mound in the front yard with the hope that the soil will hold moisture better and help the flowers that I grow there to do better. Then I used my backpack blower to blow the dirt and mulch off of the stones both in the back yard and the front yard.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 2

The Joy In Labor

I am the spirit of the full consciousness of Christ, the principle expressed by Jesus Christ. I greet you in the love that creates, sustains, renews and transforms all of creation.

We see that your minds are much bent upon the prosecution of worldly duties. We suggest to you that all employment is gainful if it be centered on the love of the Creator, expressed in any way whatsoever that seems most fitting to you.

However, there is no employment which is gainful if there is removed from the doer of such work the consciousness of the true motivation of all labor; that is, the glory, the worship, and the rejoicing in the presence and the power of the love of Christ which lies behind and is the motivation for all labor.

There is no less joy in working over columns of figures or recalcitrant earth than there is in studying the most exalted thoughts and sayings, if both tasks be done in equal consciousness of the end of all labor. Be you, therefore, mindful, as you work and as you rest from work, that all things adumbrate to the glory of the Creator, or the hollow echo of your weary soul shall fail to satisfy, whatever your labor.

We leave you in the peace of the mind that dwells in love, now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 3, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to ask if we may speak to any further query. We remind each present that we are happy to speak to the best of our ability that which is our experience and that which is our opinion, and we would wish that each realize that we are not infallible, that it is well to take those words and thoughts which have the ring of truth to the self, and leave all others behind. Is there a query at this time?

S: Yes, Q’uo. Sometimes, when one looks very starkly at one’s condition, one sees a kind of rejection of perfection, very deeply rooted, which is a repulsion of self, and also directed at the Creator, for as we know we are of the Creator. It’s a repulsion of the Creator as the Creator. I’m trying to understand how it comes about that the Creator, in order to know the Creator, needs this deep feeling. Can you speak to the question of why healing seems so primordial?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We give the instrument the image of the broken bone. That which was whole becomes broken by experience. The broken bone within your body, when healed, is stronger than it was before it was broken. Thus it is with the body of the Creator, the mind of the Creator, and the spirit of the Creator that indwells in each entity, that moves through the creation…

[Side one of tape ends.]

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. We shall continue.

Experiences are designed to test the limits of the entity that seeks truth, as each entity does indeed seek truth with each fiber of its being, thought of the mind, and action of the body. Experience moves the boundaries of perception and knowledge and faith beyond what are normal, shall we say, for the entity. That which is normal is that which is stably experienced and has been gained by previous experience, which in its turn broke previous boundaries. The breaking of boundaries, the breaking of rigid perception, has the function of increasing boundaries, perception and possibility. Thus, it is imperative that each entity who seeks the one Creator experience this breaking in order that that which is new, stronger, deeper, larger, richer and more varied may be contained in a vessel which is now larger, richer, deeper and more varied in its capacity, as each of you are vessels which are hollowed out by the experience which is the means by which you seek the One. Thus are you strengthened; thus do you go on in your journey.

S felt that sometimes when one looked at the self there was the feeling of rejection of the self that, because the Creator wishes to know Itself in each of us, also becomes a rejection of the Creator, and why would the Creator need to feel a rejection of Itself? Q’uo used the analogy of how a broken bone in the body gets stronger after the healing of the bone, than it was before it was broken, to say that our experiences test the limits of our learning until they are broken and enlarged by the breaking, and that this is true also for the Creator as a means of knowing Itself. Q’uo said that it was necessary for seekers of the Creator to experience this breaking to advance on their spiritual paths. On January 1, 1989, Q’uo described the nature of spiritual growth:

To sum up, my children, each of you has spent many years accelerating the course of spiritual growth. Each of you has seen the most fruits come into manifestation in the midst of iniquity, error, mistake after mistake, and self-perceived sin. Each is able to see that compassion has grown during pain, beyond one’s limits, and beyond the pale of that which would not disappoint one. Yes, you shall disappoint yourself again and again, and may we say, the more you disappoint yourself, the more you are trying to do, and the more we salute your brave spirit. Never, ever, allow the words that your mind can create to attack your faith and your hope that all that is painful will also be fruitful, and all that is difficult will also become that which is golden, that which brings the compassion to the heart, the understanding to the mind. For at the end of each and every failure, at the end of each and every limitation, once accepted and forgiven, can the self find the corresponding compassion for that same limitation in each and every other human being which it encounters in the same situation.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S: Yes, one more. I understand there are certain paths of spiritual growth, ones that I have taken to be negatively oriented, that take the breaking of boundaries as a value in itself. It seems they can hardly wait to break boundaries. My understanding is that a more integrated approach to this process is more efficient. Does this involve processing catalyst through the open heart? Can you speak to that?

I am Q’uo, and we shall attempt to speak to this query. We ask that you re-question if we are not successful. Each entity, whether of the positive or the negative nature, will increase its ability to further its evolutionary process as it breaks those boundaries by which it has defined itself, for as the circle of knowledge enlarges, it touches upon more which is unknown concerning the self. Thus, there is the constant need to enlarge the boundaries. Within limited illusions this is done by applying the breaking force of experience.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S: No, I’m fine, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I’d sort of like to follow up on S’s question, because I think that there was something there that he had hold of and that is that if [one] attains the learning, and growing is held in the open heart  flow, and then instead of becoming bitter and negative, you become sweeter and more loving without attempting to accept, by attempting to keep the heart open. Would this [be] a question [on which you can] comment?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The open heart which accepts the pain of change will find the means of healing that which is broken within more easily accomplished if the attitude attending the painful change is one of acceptance rather than containing any of that which you would call resistance. However, it is not easily accomplished, for that which has carried one to any present point is that with which one is familiar upon a stable basis. When changes are great enough, it often feels as if the foundation beneath one’s feet is cracking and separating to the degree that one shall be torn asunder as well. The ability to move with such changes in the acceptance of the new configuration of self is an ability which is developed through great effort, and is one which most entities never master upon your plane of illusion, but are forced by circumstance to accept, and only in retrospect are they able to see the beneficial aspects of those experiences which have been greatly traumatic previously.

Carla asked if one could allow learning to flow through the open heart, could you become sweeter and more loving rather than becoming negative and bitter by having to try to keep the heart open? Q’uo replied by saying that if one could accept the pain of change, rather than resist it, healing would be easier, but this is harder to do in the third density when changes are difficult enough that one feels great trauma that simply has to be accepted as it occurs. Then Q’uo said that later in one’s life these kinds of changes can be seen as helpful. On April 16, 1995, Q’uo spoke of the transformative nature of the pain of change:

Through the cycles that are within, each seeker has moved through periods deep in the mire of personal misery and pain. And whether this has been accounted as suffering or as nothing, yet still, the work has been done. That which is dead has been released, making room for evolution. The pain of change feels like a death. The releasing of old opinion feels mortal. And the wound of leaving behind old ways of thought is fell and fatal. There is literal truth in death and resurrection in terms of the spirit. There must be the willingness to die to the old in order for that which is written already upon your heart to become visible, to become illuminated, to be in the light. Even when that which is old is a rending and separating truth, even when the new is gentler and sweeter, the death of the old is very hard to bear. And we do not wish to quibble with how hard it is to progress in relation to the letting go of that which is dead.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Just one. Would it be then impossible for a negative entity, which is not working with the green energy of the heart energy, to have this healing occur?

I am Q’uo, and aware of your query, my sister. The negatively oriented entity has the need, in order to maintain and further its negative polarization, to control those situations which bring about change, so that that which may be painful is stored, and the energy of that change then is released in a controlled fashion at the appropriate time, so that changes are not accepted as much as they are directed.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we are greatly thrilled to have had this opportunity to speak to this group this evening, greeting old and new friends, and we would thank each for allowing us to speak our humble opinions, reminding each again to take those words which ring of truth, and to use them as you will, leaving all others behind. At this time we shall take our leave of this group, leaving each as always in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This is New Year’s Day, and I would like to wish each of my readers a Joyful New Year of spiritual growth and service to others and the one infinite Creator in all things. If difficulties should arise, see them as chances for growth and a greater ability to open the heart in unconditional love so that a New Day is born for you each time that this is done.

This morning I changed the green sheets and pillow cases on my bed for a new set of blue ones. I also used a wet dust mop to clean under my bed and a small, wet rag to clean around the window frames.

This afternoon I dug up the Sun Mandala garden behind the garage that has the Ginko Tree leaf mulch on it so that the soil might be able to hold more moisture and enhance the growth of the Sun Patiens that I always plant there.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

January 1

The Banquet Of Life

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the consciousness of divine love.

I greet you this day in merriment and laughter, joy and freedom. I invite you to the banquet of life.

Gaze at the table spread before you: the delicious zest of challenges yet unmet; the wonderful nourishment of companions, friends and family; the spice of those whom you shall meet but not understand—those most contrary flavors that often make the meal and bless the feast—and, above all, the beauty of the banquet hall.

Gaze about you today in prayerful thanksgiving for the beauties that love has made.

You are a perfect and divine part of a perfect and divine creation. And that which you see before your eyes may be feast or famine. Ask of yourself that you choose what you shall see. And if you choose to see the riches of the creation of the Father, great riches indeed shall you see.

We leave you in peace, joy and laughter, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from June 3, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with an experience of Carla’s that is generally applicable to anybody who’s in a situation which has a great deal of difficulty and stress in it. When one finds oneself, shall we say, up against the wall, with a lot of pain and suffering of whatever kind, and has very little ability to change the situation, no control over it, is totally at the mercy of it, how is it that it is possible for some people to maintain a faith that all is well, a faith in the Creator, and still be totally angry at the Creator and totally angry at the situation? Is this a helpful configuration for spiritual growth, and is there an explanation for such a situation, and how can the most helpful mental attitude be adopted in the situation?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet you in joy, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Also greeting this group is the one known as Hatonn, who has come merely to give greeting to one dear to them. We offer from Hatonn greetings to the one known as H. We of the principle of Q’uo are extremely grateful to have received your call for information on a subject of the paradoxes that are apparent in stressful situations within your third-density illusion.

This is the first time that the social memory complex of Hatonn has been named as a portion of the principle of Q’uo, although apparently not in a speaking role.

Let us begin by gazing at the one great original Thought that is Love, the Creator of all things. This entity created a certain kind of creation. Many have been your attempts to understand meanings, and the nuances and the subtleties of that mind which is not the conscious mind, nor the unconscious mind, nor the deep mind, nor the racial mind, but the archetypical mind. You have wondered how to use information concerning the archetypical mind. It has always been quite difficult to express the means of use of this deep resource of your infinite mind which in its totality is a part of the creation and the Creator. The archetypical mind is not a mind to be, shall we say, studied for harvesting of understanding, but rather looked to in situations which contain apparent paradox within one’s own mind.

One of the principles of the archetypical mind is that archetype called Hope, or Faith. Now, these archetypes are in place as a portion of the birthright of each individual which is the son or daughter of the infinite Creator. However, it is the result of much experience involving a final and absolute strengthening of a particular pillar of the archetypical structure of the mind which makes it possible for one consciously to be aware of this unmovable archetype, part of the architecture or structure of the deep mind. It exists without regard to the third-density illusory experience which the conscious mind perceives as catalyst and reacts to as it chooses. The archetype of Faith or Hope, therefore, is much like the deep and solid earth which lies beneath the fissures, honeycombed caves, and many irregularities of the land and sea masses and their tectonic plates which make up the moveable, or malleable, or reactive body of the living creature which you call the Earth.

In each person, these archetypes may or may not, in previous experiences of incarnation, have become apparent and recognized as a portion of the birthright and very nature of the unchangeable solidity of your imperishable and infinite self. Thus, not all will experience, in a situation in which faith and hope are tested, an inability to deny faith, for the reason that each entity in its free will has in its many experiences made millions of choices concerning that of which it wishes to become aware in a whole sense.

The group question for this session was how a person in Carla’s situation, with a lot of pain and suffering, could keep the faith in the Creator and that all is well while being angry at the Creator, and what is the best mental attitude to deal with such a situation? Q’uo began their reply by referring to the One Great Original Thought of Love, the Creator, and how It had created a certain kind of creation that could best be described by the archetype of Faith or Hope, the Catalyst of the Spirit. Q’uo said that the concepts of Faith and Hope are our birthright and the nature of our infinite self, but there may be times during an incarnation when they are tested. On October 14, 1984, Hatonn discussed the value of faith and hope to the seeker of truth:

Therefore, since we wish to aid you and must needs use communication of some kind, we choose the least showy display, the least gaudy method of sharing a philosophy which is not an end in itself but is only meant to point you to your own senses of discrimination, of determination, of faith and hope.

We share with you one thing—the original Thought of the one Creator. We share with you ways to put yourself more in line with the shadow of that great Thought. We set your feet upon the path that leads from shadow into light. We can direct you no further than yourself. The meditative and gently analytical methods of touching that tangent which you have with the one original Thought and with processing in a useful way your own experiences is our gift to you.

Let us spend a moment upon this word, “whole,” or “entire.” The closest link which each of you has to the deeper portions of the self involves the full opening of the heart to its own nature, which is love. It has often been described to you as the seat of unconditional love. However, this suggests that it is an activity. Indeed, the fully opened heart is unconditional love, and love, therefore, is not a love for another with condition, but a love with another as the self.

Many are the confusions that have assailed each when seemingly ill, and certainly this instrument, as many have attempted to heal this instrument of the bodily difficulties it experiences; nor would we deny the obvious nature of this instrument’s lack of what you would call health. However, in the sense of being whole, to the extent that one has allowed the pain, the blockage, the limitation, the self-loathing, or whatever is the deeper expression of this illness, to be accepted and loved within the heart, the entity is becoming whole, and it is this state of wholeness, aided greatly by the indigo chakra work of daily meditation, self-forgiveness and other inner work, which will most reliably and quickly make possible the resonance of daily catalyst so that the catalyst may sink into the area of the archetypical mind and the archetype which is being expressed, recognized. Once this archetype is recognized by the whole or open self, it then becomes a deep portion of the mind, a portion of the biases which survive the forgetting process which opens each incarnation.

Each of your experiences with infants shows you there are no two infants which are entering third-density incarnation with the same biases. Each is unique from the first and has been unique, wholly blessed and sanctified, as are you, by the love of the infinite One, since before time and space and that grand celestial illusion of all of the energy fields of body, gravitation and all of the mechanisms of the infinite cosmos. Therefore, this instrument was not able to deny faith or hope, because it had been recognized as a birthright, as a part of the structure of being, which would be as difficult not to accept as it would be for a person with eyes upon a brick wall to deny the existence of that wall.

In the conscious use of catalyst in third density, however, any entity will be creating, or attempting to create, a more positive action, in an unpredictable number of ways depending upon that person’s momentary degree of self-forgiveness, of grasping of the nature of catalyst and of the temporal and mundane personality of the illusory self. As this instrument was paralyzed and informed that, even though paralysis left, it must remain bedfast for this incarnation, it was not surprising that a deep rage against this limitation would fill the heart and cause massive blockage and a very weakened vitality of spirit in the conscious mind. And although many other blows which have come to those within this circle may not be so serious or lengthy in their prognostication, they are, nevertheless, of an equivalent painfulness at the moment they are felt.

Some entities in this circle have become aware of the archetype of Faith, and therefore cannot deny it. Others have not made this connection with the birthright of the self. Thus, not to each person shall this particular seeming schizophrenia occur.

There are, however, many archetypes. Perhaps the most commonly discovered is the archetype of the new mind, empty of experience. This archetype is one which each in this circle is aware exists, and each could not find a way to state unequivocally that one can never make a new and fresh beginning to a life experience. Indeed, this archetype was first learned through the fires of many lifetimes of self-condemnation and the discovery that forgiveness does occur, regardless of one’s opinion of oneself, at some unpredictable point because forgiveness, the redemption from error, is part of the basic truth of each entity’s makeup.

Thus, each of you fails and has the subjective self-criticism which can be the cruelest and harshest criticism leveled by any, harsher than any other would give to you. Yet, at the same time there is the undeniable awareness of the absolute possibility of beginning anew with a new mind, a new heart, and a clean and unblemished conscience. Each of you has done the work necessary to learn this basic archetype, this basic part of the architecture of the self, and in many cases it is a part of why many do not feel it appropriate to seek forgiveness from an outer source when the Creator has placed within the self, in a sanctified and permanent structure, the very heart of self-forgiveness which must always precede new beginnings.

Each of you who has studied the archetypes of mind, body and spirit may examine each archetype to discover more and more of its basic nature. Those archetypes which one is unable to deny, no matter how outer circumstances seem to be in a paradoxical relationship to it, is a portion of the self now known as part of the whole, or healed, or open being.

Now Q’uo suggested that when an entity such as the instrument experiences the lack of health that limits its activities it is often easy to feel a self-loathing that is a manifestation of the lack of health, but if the entity can begin to feel a love for the self while experiencing the lack of health then the entity is becoming whole once again. Q’uo said this process is aided by self-forgiveness and meditation on a daily basis. Then Q’uo said that the use of the catalyst of the instrument being paralyzed would be accomplished by the use of the archetype of faith and hope to deal with the feeling of rage that she felt when told that even though the paralysis had left she would need to be bedfast for the rest of her life. Q’uo continued by saying that it would also be helpful in such a situation of limitation and distress to begin again with the archetype of the new mind and new heart which can be the source of self-forgiveness and the healing of the limitations. On November 20, 1994, Q’uo spoke of the healing value of self-forgiveness:

However, there is a clear and lucid path towards aiding one’s self in the balancing of an incarnation. That way is the way of faith. The most vivid blossoms along that path are those of self-forgiveness, forgiveness of the Creator and forgiveness of all those whom the heart has held in thrall with anger. Once these dusty cobwebs of past negative emotion are swept from that subconscious place then forgiveness may blossom, and then the seeker discovers almost by reflex that the circumstances of the incarnation have been transformed. The first few epiphanies or times of transformation within a seeker’s experience are those which free portions of the self so that various energies are sequentially set free within the individual, clearing the channel on a higher and higher level.

Entities who work with healing the incarnation are those which have gone through those times of testing which may be seen to be partial and, therefore, have come to a place where the next time of transformation is that one which was the final transformation within the life or incarnation which has to do with one‘s self only, and at this time of final transformation, or initiation, the whole self, the whole life becomes soft and malleable, if the seeker is at that time perfectly willing to forgive all.

We would speak of only two things more, for this instrument is asking us, as always, to be more brief. Your planet has also its evolution in consciousness. The surety of various archetypes that you feel are helpful to its growth, and above all the love of the open heart blesses and raises the vibrations and consciousness of the fragile island home which you call Earth. It is appropriate for each of you to share each learning with the native soil which has been the earthly mother and father of the physical vehicle which has made these catalytic experiences possible. Love your planet as you would love your parents, for the Earth upon which you stand loves and heals and cares for each of you without any question, for you are its children too.

Lastly, we would speak to each of the basic nature of paradox. The mundane illusion of everyday works well to instill in one a sense of less than full self-worth. It often seems to bring out in each personality the less attractive portions of each entity’s surface being. This is why you are here; this is your classroom. You are here to penetrate the illusion of catalyst, to see deeper and deeper into the present moment until the basic nature of the self is more and more apparent. Meanwhile, the surface personality rages, and whines, and cries, and grieves, and laughs, and plays its many roles upon the stage of the illusion.

You must feel free to express to yourself to the fullest all emotion, no matter how hateful or seemingly harmful or subjectively not approved, for it is in expressing the self fully and then taking the self in its own arms, into its own heart, and loving, and being loved by this child that you are, consciously, that your spiritual evolution depends. Never, ever, try to repress or deny negative feelings, but open your heart to them. They are yours to love and comfort, for you are children of the illusion, and only imperishable and immature beings as metaphysical beings. You are not upon this planet at this time because you have achieved maturity. Had you achieved such a thing you would have no need to choose to love and to heal.

May you love the Creator who first loved you, and whose nature is your nature. May you honor the free will which sends you to a million emotional states, for this is your catalyst; this is how you learn to love. May you learn to love yourself wholly and entirely, accepting all of yourself. That is the healed person, not the person without physical blemish. And may you love each other, for you are all one Self.

Q’uo began the final portion of their answer by saying that each seeker should share love with our planet Earth as it is much like our mother and father, and our love will aid in Earth’s healing which will, in turn, aid the Earth in healing us. Then Q’uo reminded us that the third-density illusion often seems to give us the feeling that we are failing in the use of our catalyst, but if we express each emotion to its fullest and then accept and love ourselves for our many distortions and love the Creator as well, then we can find healing for ourselves and love for others as part of the Creator. On February 5, 1995, Q’uo spoke of the value of using our catalyst:

The hungry man has a sore stomach, and when the seeker awakens to the call to walk the path of pilgrimage there is that overriding hunger, and the spiritual appetite is keen. Treasure this discomfort. Allow it to continue. Allow the self to see the self with a bit of distance and let that editor or critic of the self reassure and remind the everyday mentality that when one is following the spirit surprises often occur, and the one thing to keep watch on is where the attention is placed, for there is that place within, that inner sanctum sanctorum, wherein that which is holy rests. Moving into this space is that which is the wisest of all resources to choose, for in the end all the catalyst can do is offer you opportunities to learn your own nature and to begin, just begin, to grasp infinite love, eternal life, beingness forever.

And we encourage each to find the light touch, to share the laughter and the silliness of such idealistic and spiritual goals. There is rich humor in every fiber of your density. The less you blink, the less you are overcome by the seriousness of situations, the more humor you shall find, for the Creator is most playful. So allow that spirit within to romp and play, and, above all things, to reach out to others as they ask, as you can serve. For the love you bear each other is that fruit which the other cannot create, and love is the great gift, the inner and deeper truth of all being and all relationship.

We would leave this instrument and you in the heart that is the one great original Thought of Love, which is the Creator, and would transfer this contact to the entity known as Jim, if this instrument is willing to serve. We thank this instrument and would now transfer. We are those of Q’uo and Hatonn.

This morning I used Leather Protection Cream on the two leather chairs in the living room to keep the leather soft and clean. The directions said to use it twice on the high use areas such as the arms, seats, and backs and that this process should be repeated every six months. They did look shinier and cleaner when I was done.

This afternoon I went upstairs and did my weekly cleaning. I used the carpet sweeper to clean the rug in the hall. Then I used the broom and dust pan to sweep up all of the kitty litter in Benny’s room. Lastly, I used the dust mop to mop up the dust in the hall and each of the three rooms.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 31

The Tightrope Of The Present Moment

I am the spirit of infinite love and I greet you in the full consciousness of the love of Jesus the Christ.

What has the spirit to say to one who gazes upon the seeming end of one experience and the seeming beginning of a new experience? The spirit of love says at all times—and we would emphasize it this day—that each day is the New Year. Each day is the end of what has been.

These divisions of dark and light, warmth and cold, joy and penitence have been formed by the human mind and heart in response to the unimaginable complexities of the cycles of the natural world which you enjoy.

Yet we speak with the voice of love. Let this day, then, be to you all that it truly is: the ending of that which is past, the release of that which has caused pain and the forgiveness of that which has caused displacement from love in yourself and in all whom you meet.

Let this day be a celebration of peace. For within you all that keeps you from peace is your hard heart condemning the past and fearing the future. Release those judgments. They have nothing to do with the spirit and everything to do with those blockages that keep the seeking heart from the revelation of comfort and peace.

Know ye that outer peace shall never evolve until enough of your peoples find peace within. Balance, my children, upon the tightrope of the present moment in glad and fearless balance. For in this the spirit is your guide and your balance. We ask you to trust, not in what has been, not in what shall be, but in the being of all that there is. Bless it and celebrate it at the present moment.  Now may you in this day truly rejoice.

We leave you in the peace of the infinite cycles of time, space and spirit, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen