The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 20, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with man’s ability to ask questions that are quite beyond his ability to answer. This is especially true in the field of mathematics, where there is an endless array of questions that can logically be asked, but which seem to require an intellect far beyond man’s ability to answer. What kind of intellect would be necessary to answer questions of this nature, and of what value to the evolution of humankind is it to be able both to ask and to answer these kinds of question?

(Carla channeling)

I am known to you as the principle Q’uo, and I greet each and bless each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. May it be with you always as it is at this moment. May blessings abide, may peace continue, and may your search for the truth burn ever brighter in your souls and in your hearts. We are extremely grateful for the opportunity to share in this circle of seeking. We too seek the truth, and we come not to give you that which is infallible, but to share with you that which we have learned during a journey which has gone farther than yours, giving us the perspective that we may offer you. We ask you to listen to these thoughts, not with a mind to accept, but after all is said and done, remove the gullibility, the openness, and the clear listening that is so much a part of our being able to speak with you, and discern carefully that which has spoken to you, resonated to you, and seems to be to you a truth that is not known for the first time, but remembered. If such does not occur, we ask you humbly to leave this information, for it belongs away from your path of seeking, for we would not be a stumbling block to any. It is our purpose here only to be of service, and we thank you with open and loving hearts for allowing us this privilege, for this privilege allows us too to grow, as teachers always grow more than their students.

You ask a question this evening that is not at all what it seems. We shall, as we have before, have difficulty in language, for this instrument is completely without scientific awareness of any formal educative kind, and therefore her vocabulary—which we use always, as this is conscious, concept communication—must bridge the gap between our concepts and the clothing of those concepts in appropriate wording. However, this instrument’s very lack of expertise is in some way that which opens our ability to make connections that may not have been made before.

The question seems to concern mathematics. It asks the simple yet profound question which is interesting, and which may be followed for some of your time. We will attempt not to use all of that time, as this instrument scolds us so fiercely for speaking too long, but the concepts which we wish to get across to you are not what you would expect, and therefore we must go carefully ahead with each step in our logical disquisition.

You note that mathematical questions are asked that cannot be answered. And you wonder if they simply cannot be answered, or if there has simply not yet been born a mathematician able to answer these questions. Now, we shall begin with an observation of the type of function that mathematics plays. By the use of mathematics in its pure form, a structural concept web or field has been generated which may be compared to the naming of various techniques, kinds of food, and in certain combinations, the means to prepare this food, which can then be observed to be able to create an empirically based and internally cogent system of observations which form the basis for those disciplines of the scientist which enjoy the creation of machinery, of those gadgets which work because of electricity or magnetism, and of a very large field of more sophisticated topographies or models of the universe, in which events may be seen to fall in some logical order, thus giving to the classical, rational thinker the joy of the manipulation of this self-consistent web of cogent bits or elements.

This may seem to be a less than elegant rendering of the processes of mathematics, of the scientific method and its extremely baroque system of corollary sciences, all developed by the empirical method of observation, hypothesis, experimentation, the hypothesis proven or disproven, and this being done in a repetitive manner, which indicates that the pieces or bits which this web offers have been useful in producing that which may move from the theoretical to the useful in the mundane sense.

It is interesting to note in this regard that the greatest intellects in this, as in any field, sometimes tend to become mystics which focus upon the mystery of those questions that have not been answered, and indeed have oftimes spoken strongly to the effect that any scientist who is not also profoundly a believer of faith and mystery has not seen the true scope of the particular discipline which has been studied.

Now let us go back to the view of mathematics. We ask that each consider its nature. It is a language. A mathematician may speak nonsensically, it may speak clumsily, it may speak with elegant exactitude. The variations in the schools of mathematicians are the variations of ability to use the language of mathematics. Just as there are those which find one truth in life, and speak in the native tongue about this truth to the absolute boredom of all around it, so there are some mathematicians which become excited about one portion of this language, and move far along this particular path of thinking, and become extremely adept at using this particular part of the language without feeling the need to move further in exploring the possibilities of this language.

The group question this session was how is it that man can ask questions that cannot be answered, especially in the field of mathematics, and what is the value to humankind of being able to ask and answer these types of questions? Q’uo began a general approach to the answer of the question by saying that mathematics was a means by which a structure or field of concepts would be conceived of that allow the creation of gadgets that work by electricity or magnetism and even models of the universe. They said this field of concepts is logical and gives the rational thinker a scientific means of using observation, hypothesis, and observation that could be proved or disproven in the mundane sense.  Then Q’uo said that sometimes the greatest scientists become mystics which feel that they have seen more of the true nature of mathematics. They said that mathematics was a language that may be spoken in different ways by different mathematicians and some may become adept at one portion of this language and do not feel the need to move further in exploring its potential. On September 15, 1985, L/Leema spoke about the language of mathematics:

It is useful for some entities, depending upon the type of studies within the psychic or paranormal field, to be aware of the language of mathematics, for the illusion which you inhabit and your progression through it may have what may be called geographical, geometrical and mathematical relationships. Each portion of the illusion is purposeful, in short. Therefore one may gain an insight into the workings of the illusion, the creation, and paths through it by studying the language of mathematics. Yet at the heart of any such study, one must move beyond the mechanical and the outer teachings in order to find that source within that speaks all languages.

If there is any residual doubt that mathematics is a functioning language, one has only to go to one of your libraries and extract from it a treatise which is written in two languages. Indeed, there are sentences in which English and mathematics are both used. The scientist will say “this and this and this” in mathematical terms, and then will say “from this it is evident that” and then there will come another series of mathematical terms. Like German, Turkish, Romanian or English, mathematics is a language, and the mathematician who is most truly suited to the pure seeking within this field is the artist who follows a muse, for it is possible in mathematics to speak badly or well, to speak stodgily or lyrically, and to form the poor sentence or the exquisite, eloquent sentence.

Those who would be most likely to be able to express simple expressions of complex, impossible questions, are those who have abilities in more than one language. If one is a writer, the study of mathematics will make that entity a better writer, because there are accuracies and nuances in mathematics that inform the writer in the use of the English language, or any language in which the writer chooses to pen his words. Similarly, the mathematician who has studied music, especially harmony, is in perhaps the most helpful situation, as these two systems of notation have a great deal in common, and therefore may flow one to the other and back again with more ease. The architecture of the music is, like that of mathematics, made up of ineluctable ratios. The creating of tone is mathematical in nature, and the creation of a musical or artistic mathematics is therefore the cross-inspiration.

Let us say that the nature of all language within third density is such that it cannot describe anything but that which is an illusion, mathematics being a language which describes the local, shall we say, environment of fields, groups of fields, rotations and quantized rotations of light which create all that there is and all that may be observed. Just as instrumentation in the study of the atom moves the scientist ever deeper into what seems to be a recreation of outer space, until finally all that may be seen of the atom is the path of its energy, and so is mystery born within the mind of that scientist, just so, in the language of mathematics and in a purer and intellectual sense, a man may seek a kind of holiness or sanctity as a mathematical mystic who is aware of that which lies beyond the limit of language, that which is beyond the limit of the notes and the arrangement of notes in music, that which touches and moves the soul and the heart and the emotions into a state of purified emotion which cannot be explained by the language used.

So it is in mathematics for one whose muse is truly that of the mathematics. One may see and delight in the many oddities that make the architecture of this language so rich and beautiful. This entity may then gaze upon that marvelous, euphonious amalgamation of mathematical words, shall we say, or pieces of notation, which brings one to a thrilling discovery, a purified emotion, and a wonder, a passion and an adoration of that which lies beyond the language.

Now Q’uo said that mathematics is a language that is used to express complex and impossible questions, and if one was a writer the language of mathematics would help one to write better. And if the mathematician had studied music it would discover that music and mathematics have a great deal in common that would help the mathematician to express itself better in both music and mathematics. Then Q’uo said that the nature of language in the third density can only speak of illusion, but mathematics describes the rotation of light which created all that is in the universe. Q’uo said that the mathematician may become a mystical mathematician as it feels the sacred nature of that which moves beyond the limits of language and moves the soul and heart into a state of purified emotion which cannot be explained by any language. On May 7, 2000, Q’uo described what a purified emotion might feel like:

We may further confuse you by suggesting that in coming to experience the love and the light that each so values as fundamental portions of this experience that each shares, the purified emotion occurs as that kind of feeling that is so basic within one that one is able to see the ramifications of this feeling, its source, its object, its effect, its continued presences within one. And there is a kind of satisfaction that comes from so seeing an emotion that will, indeed, reflect to you increased amounts of love and light. However, the purified emotion is, shall we say, a joy in that there is no confusion any longer as to its nature.

Into each type of notation or language is placed two ultimate resolutions: paradox and mystery. One who follows the muse and becomes the artist, able to play the scales, able to play all that is created, and able to feel also with purified emotion the paradoxes and the mysteries which lie between the lines in the noumenal area, so that the mind retains each of these parts of music, of mathematics, may we say, even of computer programming, of any language, is privy to a wisdom of learning that concept that moves beyond words, that is wonder, that is mystery. The artist sees the beauty; the artist sees the elegance of the beautiful written language. But the artist is also aware of the most marvelous portion of the language, that language which will forever escape the tongue, or the pen, that language which is not local, and cannot describe anything, for there is nothing to describe that lies within the ken of the observer.

Now, when all this has been processed and grasped in some wise by the student of a particular language, it is possible for that student to become aware of its relationship to the noumenal, to that which is mysterious and paradoxical and beyond the ken of the intellectual mind. There shall be two children of this attitude. The first is merriment, for the deep humor of the universe lies in all languages for the entity opening up to its nuances. Secondly, and perhaps more profoundly, such an entity may realize that there is a portion of itself which is also of the mystery, noumenal, beyond human concept, beyond this density of illusion which may be described mathematically in such and such a way, musically in such and such a way, poetically in such and such a way.

Where words end, there a new and larger and non-local frame of reference begins. This frame of reference lies within one, and it is possible that one which seeks in this deep mind, through meditation, requests in the dreaming, and other means of communicating with one’s own unconscious self, may begin to intuit a non-local and fully articulated concept-language which shall have to remain naked of words, because within this illusion the natural laws of the infinite One must needs be kept. However, it is entities such as this which enter into experiments as a part of the experiment, and change the results.

It is forever frustrating to entities who are not in this frame of reference that such results seem only paradoxical and cannot be useful within the illusion. There is, however, the great peace of beginning to grasp timelessness, spacelessness, true simultaneity of all that there is, the nature of infinity, and those many, many mysteries that leave the intellect stuck in paradox after paradox after paradox. To some that shift shall always be an irritation, to others, a challenge, and to others, a wonderful and beguiling poem, a hint that there is more to come, and that each seeker of truth shall one day be more than it is at this point.

This is a dense illusion, and it is well for all of those with the muse to keep themselves grounded in the local rules of whatever language they are using. To communicate with others it is well to use the language well. There is a pride in excellence that one must needs encourage, for all you have, just as all we have, are the concepts that we give this instrument. Now this instrument struggles to clothe each naked concept in shabby, poor and patched clothing. Such it is for each language, that each of you may be a poet, each of you may inspire, each of you may develop a passion, a love of this naked, conceptual mystery.

All paths lead to the love of this mystery which we call Love, the great original Thought that created all that there is. Thus, each may become far more wise than he may articulate, and that wisdom, beauty and imperishability shall be his alone, his to treasure, his to place with respect and love, where it belongs, within the heart and in the soul, within that portion of the self that always has been and always will be. There is wisdom to be found in the picking up of a grain of sand, or a piece of straw. There is love in a dusty window, or the croaking of a frog. All things are sacramental to those who have acquired that language of concept which lies beyond words. Approach it from any study whatsoever, and the same results shall be yielded.

May your language be one of beauty, and may your passion for the truth build a fire within you that warms your heart and fuels your desire and your will to live as imperishable and eternal beings, not caught in the net of what must be, in this local habitation that you call planet Earth. You shall not always exist in this island of intelligence. You shall move forward, and all languages pay due respect to those things which make one’s service to one’s fellow man the greatest. And then, through meditation, contemplation, vision, prayer and dream, cherish that deep part of yourself which is one with all that there is, and is at bottom part of the Creator.

Look to yourself to the alleluia of love for all that you see, and all that you can learn, and with humor and excellence use the words that are your vocabulary, letting them shine, playing with them, showing their wonder as well as their use, to those who wish to see that which you know. You are both here and not here. You are infinite, and you are in an illusion. Love both of these, love the paradox, and most of all, love the Creator, yourself and each other, in whatever language you know.

Now Q’uo spoke of the nature of language as having the qualities of mystery and paradox that go beyond the mind’s ability to understand, and there are two products of paradox and mystery. The first is the humor of the universe that resides in all languages, and the second is the personal experience of this mystery that resides beyond human concepts. Then Q’uo suggested that we use meditation and dreams to access our deeper minds to find a language that is beyond words and would allow us to grasp the concepts of “timelessness, spacelessness, true simultaneity of all that there is, the nature of infinity, and those many, many mysteries that leave the intellect stuck in paradox after paradox after paradox.” Q’uo went on to say that we all need to use language in the ordinary sense to communicate with each other, but at some point everyone’s path shall lead to its deeper source of Love where words fail to describe the experience of the soul that has always existed and will always exist. Q’uo completed their response by suggesting that we use whatever language we know to express our love for the Creator within, for ourselves, and for all of the creation. On September 9, 2023, Q’uo gave an example of how we may speak the language of love:

You have been on a journey full of the service to the One Creator and many who have been members of your church. This journey is one which has been a heart-opening experience for you, and which now offers you to take another step upon the same journey of seeking to serve the One Infinite Creator, and all those who come to you, with the request to aid them in their own journeys. For you see, you are the Creator, speaking to the Creator, in the same language of love.

This, though seemingly a different journey, is yet an acceleration of the same journey. This is the means by which you yourself not only serve others and the Creator, but you experience an expansion of your own ability to allow the love of the Creator to move through your heart, through your soul, through your very being, to be reflected out into the world around you so that not only will you be able to serve those who come to you as individuals, but your service will be magnified each time you serve one. For, the serving of one at your level of experience is also the serving of all, for all are one. And we would suggest to you that you give praise and thanksgiving to the One Infinite Creator within each being that you serve so that your heart remains open, magnified and able to allow you to become the Creator as you serve the Creator.

We would at this time apologize, for once again we have heard the signal that says we have spoken too long. We are sorry, and we will attempt to speak more briefly when you call us next, as we do hope that you will. It has been a struggle speaking through this instrument, for it does not have the words even to describe the words of other languages, but it has put our ability to make concepts clear to a test, and therefore it has helped us to learn to communicate also. We would at this time close the meeting through the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and light. We are of the principle of those of Q’uo.

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop at Kroger’s to buy some Pepsi and kitty litter. Then I stopped at the Rainbow Blossom Health Food Store to buy some Vitamin B Complex. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My last stop was at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco.

This afternoon I went outside and loaded some of the excess Ginko Tree leaf mulch from around the Sun Mandala behind the garage and took it to the four gardens around the Flower Fall Mound in the front yard where I dug it into the soil. I hope that this will allow the soil in these gardens to retain more moisture and help the flowers that I plant there this spring to grow better.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 30

Drop The Rags Of Everyday

I am of the spirit of that principle of love which was in Jesus the Christ. I greet you in that full consciousness of divine love.

How this instrument wrestles with its seeming imperfections!

How reluctant is this instrument to bathe in the clean waters of forgiveness and move, then, cleanly and clad in white, into the sanctuary of the spirit’s meeting with self, body and spirit. How many words it takes to deny the clear and shining perfection, the result of one moment of dreaming, to the cleansing, the whitening, the purification of the channel which is your physical, mental, emotional and spiritual self!

Shall you now let go of woe?

For this instant, see yourself as you are seen by the Christlight, as a holy, perfect and acceptable infinite portion of an infinite creation that is, nevertheless, all one being.

We say to you in meditation, “Drop the rags of everyday. Dip in the pool of returning. Clad yourselves in robes of sufficiency and perfect love, and then, my children, wait. For that which comes to you may come in an instant, in an hour, or in a lifetime.”

Move yourself to the clean body, the cleanly desire and the focused love of Creator with child and of child with most beloved parent. These things you do, you do for yourself. Each turn to holiness you do as a celebration of love.

We leave you in the peace which lies beneath the struggle to see the sun. In sure knowledge that this peace shall come upon you as you turn to the light of Christ, we leave you in the light of that peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 13, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. At this time we would offer ourselves to any further queries that may be of service to those present. Is there a query at this time?

S: Yes, Q’uo. When one seeks spiritually, one needs to learn discipline, and in learning discipline, it sometimes seems that we learn a kind of power over our own personality. My understanding, though, of the difference between the positive and the negative path, has very much to do with power. I wonder if you can speak to the question of the different ways of seeking, some having to do with power, and being what I understand to be occult ways of seeking, others having to do with powerlessness, and being of a more mystical variety. Does discipline involve power over oneself?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. [Inaudible] discipline of which you speak, for whatever purpose used, is a discipline over that focus of energy which you call love, much as a hose with the nozzle focuses water that it moves in a specific and particular fashion, able to do work of a physical nature. The discipline that you exercise when you focus your desire and the energy of love that is yours may be used for whatever purpose, be that purpose to master the personality, to control events or entities, to seek more knowledge of the mystery of creation, or simply to seek union with the One, that whatever may flow from that union may flow through you, as you are a hollowed vessel that has given itself in service to the One, that each of its portions with which you come in contact might be blessed and benefited. Thus, discipline is a tool as any other that may be used for whatever purpose is chosen.

S said that he felt that when seeking on the spiritual path one needed to learn discipline, and he wanted to know if discipline involved exercising power over one’s self. Q’uo replied by saying that the discipline of the spiritual path is achieved by the focus of one’s desire and the energy of love for whatever purpose, including union with the Creator, so that It may flow through the hollowed out vessel of the self. On April 16, 1989, Yom described how one may benefit by exercising power over one’s self:

There is, in the relationship of human beings, the continual trading of the power over the self between various entities for a great variety of reasons, each of which has a relationship to the central theme of the incarnation, the ability to give and receive love under a great variety of conditions. Therefore, the relationship that has as its foundation the complete power to exercise free will vested within each entity, each entity having a variety of lessons and services that it desires to perform. And when it joins with any other entities there is the interrelationship and interaction that affects both entities in a manner which is described by the pre-incarnative choices that, in themselves, form the lens of which we spoke previously: that which is the subconscious predilection to see certain events in certain ways.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S: Yes, my understanding is that in our seeking we reach plateaus, where we dwell sometimes, and then push ahead, and this constitutes a kind of stage, a procedure in stages. Are these stages marked off by what is called initiation—can you tell me something about the nature of initiation?

I am Q’uo, and we shall speak but briefly upon this topic, for it is one which deserves a far greater amount of time and effort than we feel is left within this group this evening. It is true that there are cycles or stages in the journey of union that are likened unto transformations of the entity from quality to quality as that which is heavier and more grossly constructed within the personality is refined and burned away, shall we say, by the fires of experience, so that that which remains is burnished and bright and serves as an honestation for the Creator.

There are various stages that an entity will be available to pass through during an incarnation that are determined before the incarnation as general categories in which lessons shall be attempted. As an entity assesses the upcoming, shall we say, incarnation and the potentials for growth that it wishes to include it will survey the kind of transformations, or initiations, as they are often called, that will be necessary to undergo as a portion of the learning process, much as a student within your colleges would determine what courses of mathematics would be necessary in order to master that particular field of study.

There are also times during the incarnational experience that what you may call a plateau of another nature is reached, this being determined by the entity’s overall needs for some respite from the arduous journey. All journeys at some time tend to fatigue the pilgrim, for there are those times during which the steps are taken in directions that were not planned, that necessitate more expenditure of energy in order to learn the lessons of those steps than is readily available on a constant basis to the seeker. These plateaus are more obvious than are those initiations or transformations of which we had spoken previously. These, the initiations and transformations, more frequently occur in an unseen or unrecognized manner where the entity is totally immersed in some quality or distorted quality of its being as balance is attempted and attempted again and again until the transformation is complete.

Looking back upon the incarnation one may see times of difficulty and intensity as more likely having been the experience of such a time of transformation, during which time the entity may well have felt that there was no progress being made, and that indeed it would seem to the entity that it even moved backwards. The testing, as it were, however, transforms, and a new being moves forward.

S said that he felt that he was going through various stages of growth on his spiritual journey and wanted to know if this might involve initiation. Q’uo said that these stages of growth were the learning of certain lessons that were pre-incarnatively chosen and were transformations or initiations. Then Q’uo said that there were also times when the seeker became weary as it traveled the spiritual path, and these plateaus were more numerous and obvious than initiations which were often not recognized as initiations when they occurred. Q’uo completed their response by saying that the initiations were difficult and intense, but this was part of the transformation of the seeker into a new being. On July 29, 1984, Latwii described the process of initiation:

Each seeker within your illusion moves within that which might be called the darkness. Nothing is known except perhaps that the seeker does exist and move within certain boundaries, and these boundaries seem quite real. They are that which the seeker has made familiar through the thinking and the experience which are attempts to reflect the true heart of being and to make the journey known in a conscious fashion.

These boundaries serve to focus the seeker for a portion of the journey, and when they have served their purpose there is the opportunity to release the boundaries, to bid farewell to that which has been familiar to the seeker. Many of your peoples call this transformation, and some such changing of the guard, shall we say, may be called initiation as well, for the old is given away and the new is born. These are new boundaries, my sister, but boundaries which are somewhat widened and offer more freedom.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S: Yes. It seems to me that these transformations are less than unique to each individual, having to do with the course in evolution that individual has been upon. Still, when it comes to the very difficult business of balancing, one looks for help where one can find it. Is there something that you can say about this help that is available to those of us who are seeking these transformations, and balancing and [inaudible]?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. No one walks alone. This is important to recognize. As alone as one may feel in the most difficult experiences, there is always aid that is available, especially to the entity who seeks in a fervent manner using those rituals that you may call prayer or invocation, or in the sincere and heartfelt pleading that comes from that place deep within where the personality retreats when it has been stretched to and beyond, it would seem, its limits.

Each entity has at its beck and call, as it were, teachers, friends, guides and the force of light imbued with love, that move to support and inspire the entity through dreams, meditation and the presenting of the appropriate person, book, program or experience at the appropriate time within this process of learning. Thus, the entity that perseveres beyond all hope of success and who seeks ardently that assistance from within, shall move most efficaciously through whatever difficulty surrounds the process of learning which carries the entity on to a new plateau of beingness.

S said that these transformations had a general way of being experienced but wanted to know if there was some help available in the balancing process that brought about the transformations. Q’uo responded by saying that each seeker has inner guides, teachers, and friends who may be alerted to the seeker’s need for help through prayers, invocations, or heartfelt pleading. Then Q’uo said that the answers might come in the form of dreams, in meditation, or in the right book or person at the right time. They said it was the strength of the desire for transformation that would bring these answers. On May 10, 1987, Q’uo revealed the value of the strength of our desire for spiritual growth:

The strength of desire is the measure of the result of desire, for the universe is completely rhythmical and responds to that which is asked. There is a spontaneous simultaneity about existence, and in that still point, as one of your poets has called it, it is truly there the dance is. When one finally rests in meditation after great suffering and hoping and seeking, one may finally get a glimpse of what has been learned by the deep self.

To those to whom that glimpse has been given, no suffering ever seems so hard again, for those are the ones fortunate enough to grasp the deep reality, which is that in terms of the deeper desire of the heart they have not been unsuccessful at all, but instead successful beyond their dreams.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: I’d like to follow up personally on what S said at the beginning. It has been my perhaps mistaken presumption that whether you seek positively or negatively you gain the same amount of power over yourself, it’s just that you use it differently. I didn’t exactly hear that, and S was talking about powerlessness. I realize that it feels like powerlessness to surrender to a self that you only know that you are by faith, because you can’t feel it, but it seems to me that you are still very powerful, but it’s only that you are dedicating your power to the will of the self that you carry within a deeper part of yourself. So, the apparent powerlessness is instead, by faith and will, a force with greater power than you could by yourself consciously ever have. This is my understanding. Could you correct it?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. It is well stated that the greater power is that which comes through the entity rather than that which comes from the entity, for one is infinite, and the other finite. To surrender one’s will to a greater power is to open a door through which the power of the universe may move in a more or less undistorted fashion.

Each entity, during the daily round of activities and the manner in which it expends its energy through various rituals and dedications, is given a certain amount of energy that powers the activity. The entity that attempts to harness this energy, for whatever purpose, harnesses that which, in effect, has a limit. To use this energy to surrender, as you have spoken, in faith to the greater power of the One is to offer an energy in service that far exceeds that which is the daily gift, shall we say.

So Carla wanted to know about how the concept of powerlessness of the self could be seen as the activator of a greater power that resides within our deeper selves when we exercise faith and will that such is possible. Q’uo agreed with Carla’s assumption since, when one exercises faith and surrenders the will to a greater power, then one opens the door to the power of the One Creator to flow through one’s being. In 55.7, Ra gave a simple summary of this process:

Things come not to those positively oriented but through such beings.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Yes, but you don’t have to answer it, it just may be too much. A friend of mine is going through an extremely painful period because she is full of faith, but she is going to the Southern Baptist Theological Seminary and the board, which is so conservative, is saying you must believe this and this and this or you do not have faith. It is something that I’ve told her, and I’ve told many people, that belief is antithetical to faith, that you can’t give up your power of discernment to anything that is personalized, not even something that is called God, if you have to believe this and this, and everything else is wrong, because faith is faith without an object such as [inaudible] and love and things being all right.

Have I served my friend well by speaking to her in this way, or could I speak with her better?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We feel that your words have wisdom in them, and would not alter them, for the tendency towards beliefs is a tendency towards narrowing the opening of the door that we have spoken of before, and thus is also that which tends to reduce the ability to apprehend and to receive the blessings of love.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No Q’uo, you have given me a tremendous sense of relief with that answer, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we are most grateful to have been invited this evening to this circle of seeking, for it is one in which we have had the opportunity of greeting many old and dear friends, and we thank each for the love that has been offered to us, and for the opportunity of returning that love to each. We bless each upon the journey which we all share. We shall take our leave of this instrument and this circle at this time. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. We leave each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I vacuumed the first floor of the house. Then I brought up the paint and the ladder that I will use this afternoon when I repaint a portion of the wall in the bathroom.

This afternoon I put the ladder in the bath tub and then took all of the China dinner plates and decorative pots and dishes off of the shelf above the shower doors. Then I painted the two feet of wall up to the ceiling in the same light green color that the rest of the bathroom walls are. I have to do this painting every few years because this area above the bath tub gets a brownish tinge that begins to cover the green color. I also painted the ceiling in this area white to cover some of the discoloration that was there as well.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 29

Blessings

We of the principle of love are with you and we greet you in the name of love: love unconditional; love divine; love infinite.

It is sometimes difficult in the daily round to perceive the glory of the creation. Take time this day to touch in mind and heart the beauties of scenery, character, grace and wit which refresh the weary soul.

Indeed, there are naught but blessings for the faithful. And all those things which seem difficult are blessings, much as the life experience itself, though difficult, is indeed a time of blessing, learning and achieving for the spirit within.

Let not those things which are below lose the reflection of that which is divine. For all things are instinct with the divine life of unconditional and perfect love.

We leave you in the name of Jesus Christ, in that love and peace, to create your experience this day as one of blessing and affirmation, now and forever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 13, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with the concept of the division of the Creator into many, many portions, each of which seems to become an entity, or a person such as we are, and we were wondering at what point in the evolutionary process does each portion of the Creator become unique, and how does this differentiation, one portion from another in order that each becomes unique, occur? Where does it occur, how does it occur, and when we’re in this third density and we have this quality of uniqueness added to by the experiences that we have through each incarnation, when we die is there something of this Earth plane that we take with us that becomes part of that risen body that goes on in evolution? What do we retain, what do we leave behind? What is the core nature of our being?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. My beloved ones, I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. There are no words to express our joy at sharing this circle of meditation and seeking, at sharing so intimately the beauty of each consciousness, of experiencing the trust you have in each other and in the Creator. We shall do our best to speak through this instrument in such a way that no part of that trust, that love or that call to us is in any way harmed, but as always, we ask you to remember that we are your brothers and sisters, and we come to you because we sorrow at your sorrow, and we yearn to soothe the ache of unanswered questions that you have.

As to the truth of your being, you must know that we are liable to error and quite capable of being mistaken. We are not other than you, but only more experienced. Our love is the one love. Our Creator is the one Creator. But what we have we share, as it is our service to you that enables us to grow, as any teacher may tell you. In teaching, it is the teacher who learns, far more than the student. And so, we who are hoping to be of service to you, know, paradoxically, that you are already of inestimable service to us, and if there could be one light that held us all that you could see, that would be the physical manifestation of reality of the situation within your circle and its contact with us at this time. We are one with you. We love you, and all of us love and serve the Creator, and seek the truth.

Your question this evening will stretch this instrument’s vocabulary, for she does not have conscious knowledge of mathematics or of physics, but in some ways this is good, because those to whom we speak do not have those languages either, and perhaps it is better that we lose some accuracy in being more understandable in that which we have to share. You ask this evening about your selves at a level deeper than most ever consider. You ask about the most fundamental uniqueness, the uniqueness that is your essence, not the uniqueness that learns, or does not learn, not the uniqueness that lives and is biased, not the uniqueness that you experience as personalities, but the imperishable uniqueness of you who were before time and space.

We ask you to consider with us an impossible-seeming concept. This is not your first creation, nor will it be your last. You are the first children of the one infinite Creator, created before time and space. You are timeless, you are spaceless, and you are each unique. We are aware that this is not an easy concept to grasp. Where is the memory of all this creation? Where is the buried treasure of this infinite beingness? Where is any awareness whatsoever of this situation? You are not aware of this situation in the same way that you are not aware of the energy fields of your body, of each atom and its paths of energy that hold it together in a field, of each combination of atoms into molecules, of all the fields that interact with each other to form the complex of your physical vehicle, of all the time/space fields of energy that create your mind in such and such a way. Have you any awareness of all this activity? No, my friends, you have not. It is not your business. It is not your purpose.

It is not necessary for you to conceive of yourself in mathematical terms, but to explain your uniqueness using this faulty instrument—and making apologies for lack of specificity of terms—we ask you to move away from all concept, all beingness, all idea, all structure, all awareness, all consciousness, and move back into the unaware, infinite intelligence of the one infinite Creator, whose nature is absolute Love. This is an impossible concept to ideate, and we ask that you switch off the brain that ratiocinates, and move into your artistic, feeling being, and feel the unawareness, the everlastingness, the infinity of the utterly passive, unconscious, intelligent infinity. It is only by moving to this state that you may grasp your uniqueness.

The first distortion or change from utter passivity of Love, Love dwelling without thought, without beingness, is what you may call free will. As Love is absolute passivity, free will is absolutely various activity. As Love never changes, free will always changes. If you can conceive of free will by considering the wind, you know that you cannot predict, influence or have any impact whatsoever on whether the wind shall blow, nor does absolute love have any power, nor does it desire to have any power, over free will.

Now, absolute Love may be seen in your system of physics as that which you call the speed of light. This is incorrect information, but it is as close as we can come to demonstrating the absolute constancy of Love. It does not demonstrate the passion, the intensity of this Love, but merely its constancy. Love cannot change. Love is what is. Love is beingness before beingness begins. This love has a small portion of its infinity, which is in itself an infinity.

Again, there are calculations we could give you—but not through this instrument—indicating that there is an apparent difference, but no true difference, betwixt love as intelligent infinity, and love which has decided to know itself. The first distortion of Love is in itself an absolute equal to Love, but at the same time subject to a different system of mathematics in which the energy of that which is free will being absolutely various falls away—as Love does not—with distance from fields of energy which are created by the joining of Love and free will. The Creator wished and wishes and will always wish in that infinitely small portion of its infinite self that is active, to manifest love, to love and feel the self of love in action.

And so it created its children, children of love and free will, one unit of absolute love that can never change and will never be unique, and an absolutely equal portion of infinitely various free will. That is your nature. Your uniqueness lies not in that you are children of love, but in that no two unions of love and free will are the same. To the outer, or mathematical eye, to any measuring instrumentation that could be imagined, this uniqueness could not be discerned, for free will, when bonded with love, takes upon itself the quality of love. The free will portion of it, the active portion of it, is forever, and in a way that mathematics cannot describe, various. Each of you has an absolutely equal, identical portion of love, and each of you has an equal and unique measure of free will. These differences cannot be used either in time/space as you know it or in space/time as you know it, for you are timeless beings.

The group question for this session was how do we, as portions of the Creator, become unique? When does this happen, and how does it happen? Q’uo began their answer by saying that we are a part of the infinite beingness of the Creator and have existed before time and space. They suggested that we imagine that our true nature rests within the intelligent infinity of the Creator’s Love. Then Q’uo said that this Love is changeless, and eventually we will experience the first change of our nature as the exercise of free will which is always changing. So Q’uo put these two concepts together when they said that the Creator created us as Its children that are composed of equal portions of the Love of the Creator that never changes as well as equal and unique portions of the free will of the Creator to know Itself that constantly changes, and that our uniqueness comes from the fact that no two unions of Love and free will are the same. On March 16, 1986, Q’uo described how each of us is a unique being who helps the Creator to know Itself:

We speak from the point of view that the Creator has made a great sacrifice in causing a portion of Its being to have a mind and to become independent, for there is much effort in accepting the free will of portions of Itself which seem disharmonious with other portions of Itself. And yet the Creator has repeatedly made this sacrifice of wholeness without effort in order to bring Itself an expanded Self. The Creator, shall we say, takes the very, very long view and looks upon all that occurs through all the densities and dimensions, of which there are an infinite number, in order that It may key into Its own Self all of the selves that have become unique and learn all those things which each unique portion has learned. And you yourself are a sacrifice to your own mind, for without mind you would constantly be in a state of meditation and all things would be whole and entire unto themselves and one with you and acceptable in every respect. Yet you have sacrificed that awareness to come into incarnation and to be limited by your separation from those things about you—the material of the seat upon which you now bear your weight, of each other because you can touch but you cannot become in one in physical sense.

You are the children of Love before there was a context for you. You have been in many contexts, and each of you has shared many gross congruencies. You have been formed in time/space and in space/time in what seems to be identical fields of love/light or what you call electromagnetic fields. You have taken, not consciously, but by the very nature of this bonding, the rotations that form light, each of you being thus, first of all, light, and have gone from that first manifestation of beingness to more and more complex rotations and combinations of rotations and grades of rotation to form every field that has ever been examined by those who study such things empirically.

In the scientific world, therefore, it cannot be said in any scientifically provable way that one entity differs from another. It can be shown that some fields of some entities vary. It can also be shown that many of what you would call the cosmic fields of energy have anomalistic variations. Scientists cannot deal with anomalies, for they are not predictable. Thus, if you accept a scientific explanation of who you are, that you are this and this and this, a body, a mind, a spirit, organs working in a certain way, brain working in a certain way, and so forth, you shall never be able to describe how to know, how to feel, that of you which is unique.

There are gross uniquenesses, such as personality. You are well aware that these are a portion of the illusion in which you find yourself, but this is not your true uniqueness, my friends. Your true uniqueness is that each of you is free in a different way. You know, those of you who have had children, that no two children are alike, that each child moves into life with the personality biases strongly set. Each parent is aware that it can do nothing more than guide the arrow which has already been made. It is not the Creator which caused these unique children to be unique; it is the free will which was the creator of the children of the Creator.

Now, we have said that the difference between love and free will is based upon the fact that, though absolute in its variation, love will, in a time immeasurable to yourselves, lose energy, and gradually, as the end of a creation approaches, begin to leave—not in the sense of departure, but in the sense of strength of field energy—that which is you, so that eventually, at the end of a creation—and you know we speak of millions and billions of years—eventually Love calls to love in such a way that your uniqueness becomes a latent portion of love, and you are drawn wondrously, effortlessly, magnetically, and in a way which this instrument cannot describe, but which has to do with field theory, back into the great gravitation of Love. Love has taken a breath, has expelled from the Self Love, and has breathed back into Itself Love, but that which is free will has given to this absolute Love more and more experience of Itself, because each child is unique in its core beingness, in its mathematical description, and as we say, there is no mathematics, even did this child know that language, which could express the kind of field which caused free will, or which bonded free will to love.

We shall have to ask you to accept that these things are so, that they are not mysterious to one who is capable of, not only unified field physics, but that physics which is of time/space. Thusly, we bow to the impossibility of explanation at this point, and ask that you trust that we have some little understanding of the creation physics of each field which is you. We can only say that as free will is infinitely various, so the children of Love and free will are infinitely various in their expression of that which is absolutely identical in each. You are unique to the core of your being. You are mathematically unique. You are unique in ways that have nothing to do with opinion, or understanding, or any way of describing time or space.

Now, we are aware that we are taking much time, but we shall attempt to go forward with other questions having to do with uniqueness, and apologize if we speak too long. We shall attempt to be as brief as we can, knowing that all of you laugh inside at our foolish words, as does this instrument.

Now Q’uo said that we are the children of the Love of the Creator that have been formed into light with varying combinations and fields of rotations of light that we can utilize in a unique way by the free will choices that we make in our lives. Then Q’uo said that our nature, being that of Love which is changeless, begins to lose its strength of field as we are called by the Love of the Creator effortlessly and magnetically back into the great gravitation of Love. Q’uo said that “Love has taken a breath, has expelled from the Self, Love, and has breathed back into Itself, Love, but that which is free will has given to this absolute Love more and more experience of Itself.” So we are infinitely unique according to how Love and free will express themselves through us. In 29.18, Ra spoke of this process:

This point only becomes important when you consider that when all of creation in its infinity has reached a spiritual gravitational mass of sufficient nature, the entire creation infinitely coalesces; the light seeking and finding its source and thusly ending the creation and beginning a new creation much as you consider the black hole, as you call it, with its conditions of infinitely great mass at the zero point from which no light may be seen as it has been absorbed.

In all compassion, gaze upon your imperishable, infinite selves. How many, many choices, learnings, adventures, cruelties, forgivenesses and experiences of all kinds have each of you had. Not one of you will react as any other one of you to the same stimulus, and why? Because everything concerning your time/space beingness and your space/time beingness is based upon that which is unique in you. It may be immeasurable, it may be subtle, but you cannot be the same as another, as free will cannot be the same as itself. It is free. You are free. Yet you are free to do one thing only: to distort, to play, to experience, and to learn about love, that portion of yourself which you all do indeed have in absolute common.

Now we ask you to narrow your focus unimaginably. Let the infinity of illusions and creations and billions and billions of galaxies and stars and atoms and fields of energy fly from your mind. They are illusions which follow certain rules. We wish now to narrow your focus to that which you bring into this incarnation and that which you leave behind. You bring into this incarnation an inexorable difference from all else in the universe. When you were a rock you were an unique rock, and people who are sensitive to these things will tell you that there is a consciousness—and not the same consciousness, but various consciousnesses—in rocks. It is not strong enough yet to be obvious, but it is there. Your movement through these densities of experience until this third density of choice is the movement of the awakening of the free-will faculty.

You are now, at this moment, aware that you are children of love, and that you are children of complete freedom of choice. What many are not aware of is that all things that can be imagined, be they dark or light, are distortions of love. The only thing about which you may choose is love. It is often unrecognizable, so clever are you at distorting it, but your choices have to do with love, and in this density it has been created that this imperishable self that will go through this entire very, very long, to you, creation, make a choice within the illusion with such force, such willingness, such a surrender of absolute freedom of will, that you bond your free will in a general way, either to learning and expressing love by loving all that there is, yourself, love itself and all children of love, or choosing to deny that any but you is unique, that you are the center of the universe, that you are to be loved.

And you are loved. This is not an error, it is simple free-will choice. They say that the Creator has made it easier to follow the path of service to others, because it is a path that contains more truth, and that which is truth is that which will smooth your way. Those who deny that others are like the self are those who are depending very heavily upon free will, not depending upon love, and therefore depending on that field, or way of making a part of a field, which will in time become weaker, and finally will not be strong enough to fool the self that is aware into believing that only the self is love. It becomes apparent, in what you would call the sixth density, that all beings are love, and if you love yourself, which negative entities are excellent at doing, then so, against all previous understanding, must you love all that is as you are.

Now Q’uo said it is our great variety of experiences that we have chosen by exercising our free will that makes us unique in how we pursue the quality of love which we all share in common. Then Q’uo said that our process of evolution began with rock consciousness that is unique to begin with, and by the time we get to the third density we exercise the freedom of our wills and bind ourselves to love, either love of others or love of self. Q’uo said that the Creator loves both paths but within the sixth density the love of self path of negativity must learn to also love others since all beings are love. In 36.15, Ra spoke of how this process works:

The sixth-density negative entity is extremely wise. It observes the spiritual entropy occurring due to the lack of ability to express the unity of sixth density. Thus, loving the Creator and realizing at some point that the Creator is not only self but other-self as self, this entity consciously chooses an instantaneous energy reorientation so that it may continue its evolution.

The courage that it takes, in this heavy illusion, when free will is at its strongest, to take that free will, and in the middle of the night with no light to guide you but the moon, working in shadow, working by faith, working without vocabulary or understanding, choose to discipline the free will, which is the great triumph, the great challenge, of entities who are experiencing their free will at its very strongest, to choose to discipline that will in such a way that it becomes not willfulness which is eternally various, but willingness, a will to do that which is chosen: this is the greatest and most courageous step an entity can take in this illusion, for it goes against all sense data. It is only one who trusts love, by faith alone, that asks the will to choose to will the good—if we may use that word—the radiant, the positive, the caring, to choose to emphasize those things about each which are the same, and that is love.

It takes an equal amount of courage to become so self-involved that a choice is made to ignore any truth but that which the self has chosen for itself, and thus disciplines the will to ignore all incoming data, to focus only on gaining power and an intensity of love for the self which is, by definition, a love of the Creator. That others are like itself is simply denied, and understandably so from the point of view of the negative entity. The negative entity is one whose free will is of a certain quirk, shall we say, that makes it seem obvious that the differences are greater than the similarities, and that love owes to love, the self owes to self, the aggrandizement of the self into the nature of the Creator, Love itself.

This is seen by those who are neutral or working positively, as negative, because the negative entity will of course arrange, control and create its universe in the way which is most comfortable and advantageous to it. It does, however, have its own logic, and should never be treated with disrespect, but with the understanding that there are those whose uniqueness creates for them a free will which seems to be more paramount than the love that binds one to another. There is no less worship, there is no less sanctity in the negative than in the positive. It is simply a different distortion of the one Love.

When you drop behind the tattered physical vehicle that has served you so well in this illusion, you will discover that you enter this illusion hoping and praying that you would choose, and choose with the utmost purity of which you are capable, one side or the other, because evolution calls in a way that has been spoken of by your scientists. Evolution in the physical sense is not incorrect, but incomplete. Spiritual evolution goes on, and on, and on, and the call to evolve is always there. Consequently, as you experience the many challenges and difficulties at this time, know that you put yourself where you are, that you may more and more passionately and purely choose the way you shall love.

We ourselves are those who have chosen the positive path, and we speak to those who have chosen the positive path. We encourage you never to be downhearted, but to pick yourselves up after every failure, knowing that this is part of the illusion, to move in rhythm with the varieties of your experience, looking for ways to learn how to love. You are not in your preincarnative state, incarnated in this density to be loved, to be understood, to be consoled, to be companioned, to be happy. These are goals within the illusion. The goal that will stay with you after your physical death, if you have chosen with purity, determination, persistence and will, is your path of service. That is not perishable, for it is a bias that is deeper than your personality with which you carry on existence within this illusion.

Q’uo completed their thoughts on how we uniquely choose our polarity by saying that within the darkness of the veil of the third density we courageously discipline our free will to follow the path of love that unites all entities. However, Q’uo said that the negative entities exercise an equal amount of courage when they make the decision to use the Love of the Creator to focus upon themselves in the gaining of power and denying the Love in others that is also from the Creator. Q’uo said that all this would be clear to us when our bodies die and we see the purpose of third density is to make this choice of polarity, and for the positive choice it means that we will go through a lot of suffering and failures that we will use as food for growth. Q’uo said this choice of polarity is our path of service that will remain with us (into the higher densities). On September 22, 2021, Q’uo described this process of polarizing our consciousness in the positive sense:

As you proceed further into relationships, you will discover that there are times of communication where there is clarity, times when there is misunderstanding, times when there is confusion. These may be seen as opportunities to grow in your own service to others, and thusly, in your polarization of consciousness. As you engage in conversations with such entities in an attempt to share more of commonality, to resolve that of difficulty, to reduce that of confusion, you offer to yourself and to the other-self the chance to process the catalyst that has brought you together in this shared journey of seeking the One Creator in all things.

This is a process which redounds to the very basic nature of your being and every other entity’s being, which is at heart, the One Creator. As you process the catalyst that brings you together there is food for spiritual growth produced. Whether you are in the presence of an other-self experiencing this catalyst or alone in contemplation or meditation, your thoughts carry a weight that moves beyond the normal realms of third density experience, moving into these sub-densities, where the thoughts may enhance your processing of catalyst and discovering more harmony, where there was disharmony, less confusion, where confusion reigned supreme.

We believe that we have made a beginning at an understanding of the nature of your uniqueness, and are aware of the lack of specificity of some of our speech due to this instrument’s lack of knowledge. We do not apologize, however, for as we said, we speak to those who need to be able to understand with their hearts, and not with their measuring devices or their scientific instruments. We thank this instrument for handling concepts that were new and foreign, and we appreciate the concentration that this instrument gave to us, which did make a fairly difficult subject somewhat clearer than it could have been. Shrugging with the knowledge that we have spoken incompletely, as was inevitable with this instrument, we would wish to move on to the instrument known as Jim. We are those of the principle, Q’uo, and we leave this instrument in the love and the light of the infinite One.

This morning I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at Paul’s Fruit Market to pick up some food for myself. The second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I picked up a prescription and some non-food items.

This afternoon I took a walk around my yard to see if there was any outside work left and found an excess of mulched Ginko Tree leaves in the area of the Sun Mandala behind the garage. So tomorrow I will begin loading the excess mulch into my garden cart to dig it into the soil of the four flower gardens around the Flower Fall Mound in the front yard.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 28

Let Jesus’ Heart Be Yours

I am of the principle of love and I greet you in the consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

All praise and glory be to the Lord of creation! Imagine the immensity of the galaxies, the infinity of the reaches of orderly, free-wheeling space and see in this immensity the great glory of the Holy One.

Know that you are part of that glory, for you, too, are a creation of the holy Father and a child of the Creator of all things.

Let Jesus’ heart be yours, then, and let the glory of the Father come upon you like the fire of the spirit of Jesus; move along your limbs like fire; move along your lips like fire, that you may utter those things which may be of service and that you may reach your hands in that same service, therefore adding to that great glory which daily grows, the glory of God in Christ.

May you be today a servant of love itself. And may love change the face of the earth.

In love, joy and peace, we leave you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from May 6, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. At this time we would offer ourselves in an attempt to speak to any further queries which remain upon the minds of those present. We would remind each that we offer that which is our experience and our opinion. We do not claim to be infallible, but desire only to share that which is ours as freely and joyfully as is possible.

Is there a query at this time?

Carla: Since the other two are pondering, I would like to ask a question which I would only wish you to answer in a general way. I do not wish a specific answer. My experience this week has been that I have been praying for some time for a sign as to my path through this period of somewhat serious ill health of the physical vehicle. I am very fond of and proud of this vehicle, and feel it has a great heart, but it has suffered much. I felt that I was given a sign, a very strong sign, because of extraordinary reaction to a simple activity wherein I was paralyzed after doing exercises I had been doing for many years. The voice seemed to be saying, with all the strength of a two-by-four between the eyes, to get on with the repair of the physical vehicle, that it was not time, at this time, to release my willingness to serve, but that it was my continuing honor and duty to continue to hold in faith that while I am instinct with life I am simply to see those things which occur to me as ways of learning to serve better. I have seen people take just such signs and interpret them in a completely opposite manner. In my case, for instance, the interpretation would have been, “You had difficulty in moving, so the answer is to stop moving.” It is a feeling I have from deep within myself, not subject to the answer, that this negativity is no part of one who loves life and wishes to serve. But I would appreciate any general commentary that you may have about subjectively oriented signs which are offered to entities in order to give them information from the deep mind.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that you have spoken to the topic of your query with far more eloquence and persuasion than could we. However, we shall speak in a general fashion by suggesting that the deep mind does, indeed, offer those clues and hints that are appropriate for the maturing entity, by allowing certain experiences within the daily round of activities to stand out in the notice, and to be seen in a light which may shine for no other. The experiences that convey the deep messages are those which evoke this inner knowing and harmonic resonance, shall we say, within the heart of the entity. By this feeling, then, does the entity know that there is a significance beyond the mundane contained within that experience.

The readiness, shall we say, of any entity to recognize and accept this kind of a signal from the deep mind is the feature which both precipitates the experience and allows it to be interpreted in accordance with the needs of the entity and the guidance of the deeper mind.

Carla asked Q’uo about her body becoming paralyzed recently when she was doing exercises that she had been doing for years, and she got a message that she should look to healing her body because it was not time for her to stop being of service by not using it. Then she said other people might have a different interpretation and suggest that she should stop doing the exercises that caused the paralysis. So she wanted Q’uo to give her a general answer as to how subjectively oriented signs are given to people from their deep minds. Q’uo responded by saying that the deep mind does give messages to the conscious mind that are unique for each seeker. Then Q’uo said that these messages evoke an inner knowing and harmonic resonance within the heart of the entity, and when the entity is ready to accept this type of message it is its readiness to do so is that “which both precipitates the experience and allows it to be interpreted in accordance with the needs of the entity and the guidance of the deeper mind.” On September 27, 1992, Q’uo spoke about the guidance of the deeper mind:

This help from guidance moves into the portions of the deeper mind, not the conscious mind, so that help from without, in your way of discernment, finds the appropriate nodal resonance point which is the receptacle for that particular guidance form.

All that comes to you, those blessings that touch the spirit with healing, touch not a human as you know yourself, but that portion deeper than the conscious human mind which profoundly resonates with the conscious mind if this is allowed, and enables you to see through moments of intense activity, as well as peaceful times, that all things truly are well. Allow your sources of help the invitation needed for you to be touched innerly and you will feel at the moment you ask the aid that is given. Gradually, the path winds as it will, difficulties and tests mount as the capacity to learn increases, but in those who have learned to pour out and leave behind now useless, inanimate dregs of exhausted experience, the marvelous, sparkling joy of one who is accepting of the gifts and blessings of and infinitely transforming energy of love.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Not from me, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and as we perceive no further queries at this time we shall take this opportunity to thank those present once again for inviting our presence within your circle of seeking. It is the greatest of honors to share with you these moments of unity and of the expression of the desire to seek more of the mystery of life-experience, that together we may illumine that which was in shadow and move a step further upon our journeys together. We shall take our leave of this group and this instrument at this time, leaving each as always in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends, adonai.

This morning I went outside and put one of the piles of leaves into a garbage can that I forgot to do yesterday. Then I got my garden cart full of firewood  and took it over to my neighbors across the street as they like to have a fire going in their fireplace on cold winter days.

This afternoon I joined a zoom meet with a couple of friends of 50 years to catch up on each others’ live and study The Ra Contact: Teaching the Law of One. There are usually three in our group, but the third one had to cancel last night because of being overworked and feeling frazzled. Then one of the other two could only be with us for about twenty minutes as she was driving to help a 94-year old friend deal with problems with her new Track Phone. So the remaining two of us just enjoyed a visit for an hour or so which we both enjoyed. After I completed that meet I painted the right side of the wall heading up the stairs in the hall the same color of green that is on the walls going up the rest of the stairs. Taking the door off of the bottom of the stairs a couple of weeks ago allowed me to see the difference of color that I thought should become the same on both sides.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 27

Where Christ Awaits You

I am of that principle known to you as Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of love divine.

We find this instrument’s mind this day a muddle of year-end business: things to be done, things to finish up for the old year, things to begin for the new. Her mind is not resting in the past or the future or the present but footling between them, attempting to make perfect that which has already been imperfectly perceived, while the attempt goes on in the future also to shape and position each prop and piece of business, that the stage of the future may be set well and performed upon perfectly. The present moment hardly exists in such a frame of mind.

Truly we grasp that in the darkness of your winter cycle it is well to put the old to rest and to welcome the new. But this day we ask you, in the spirit of divine love, to seat yourself first upon the holy ground of the present moment where Christ awaits you, meekly, humbly and without noise, silently, in the depths of your heart, in the inner room of the present moment. This is Christ the King, kneeling patiently and waiting for you to open the door.

May this feeling of presence be with you in love and in peace everlasting. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today is from May 6, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with why is it that throughout all of recorded history, various cultures and religions and sects of one kind or another have all attempted to alter their consciousness by one means or another, whether it’s by drugs or dancing or singing or chanting or Oming or meditating. Why is it that humans have found it attractive, and even necessary, to attempt to alter their consciousness? Is there something within the human brain/mind condition that is lacking or searching, or what is the reason for this attempt to alter the consciousness that has been evident throughout all of recorded history and is evident to this day?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. It is a very great pleasure for us to greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator in whose service we all walk, and in whose hope we all live. May we welcome that entity known as K to the group, and offer this entity the blessing which the Creator pours through us and through all, thanking this entity for its interest, and for the intensity of seeking that it and each of those within this circle manifests within their thoughts and their activities.

You have asked us a question this evening which we may answer in many ways. Indeed, there is perhaps no larger topic than this, as it is an examination of the fundamental nature of those imperishable entities which you are, and their relationship to the physical vehicle which carries this consciousness about and enables it to use the catalyst of experiences, which are taken in such and such a way, further to accelerate the pace of spiritual growth, further to deepen the apparent suffering and sadness of the constant life of the pilgrim, which is that of continual change and transformation.

Now, lest you feel that we begin by identifying some, rather than all, as having the desire for deeper perceptions by what we have said, we say instead that each entity, each unique portion of consciousness with whom you come in contact, has within itself as a central spring, a central motivator of the physical manifestation and of the thinking, the fundamental desire to explore a bias which is as instinctual to it as the turning to the light is in your second-density flora. This is not a learned activity, but rather an instinct. We would ask you to put aside philosophical and metaphysical consideration at this time, that you may gaze steadily into the mirror of your memory. Is there any time, if we may use that word, within your conscious memory, that you thought to yourself, “This is all that there is. I am perfectly satisfied with what is”? Very few people could make such a statement in honesty, for it is a portion of the deepest instinctual nature of each portion of consciousness first to seek to be and realize the self; secondly, to turn towards the light, whether it be physical or metaphysical; thirdly, to explore the dynamics of all situations to find within them a transfigurement that causes one to move away from the mundane.

Within your illusion you both embrace the mundane and you push it from you. You have a full range of emotions concerning the difficulties of being the self. Part of that divine discontent is the absolute certainty within each entity which is at all conscious of itself that there is more that it does not know. There is therefore within the very first chakra or energy center that yearning to move from the relative to the absolute, from shadow to substance, from form to information. Let us say that humankind is biased towards some feeling that there is a self that does not perish. In the midst of an illusion which seems to declare precisely the opposite, the vague yearning of many is quelled, and the life energy is distracted and dispelled by your gadgetry, your mundane concerns, and your concern for your position, your rights, your strengths and your improvement.

The group question for this session was why do the various cultures and religions around the world attempt to alter their consciousness in various ways such as singing, dancing, using drugs, or meditation? Q’uo began their answer by giving a general description of entities on Earth who use their physical bodies to allow their consciousness to experience the catalyst of the daily experience. They said that this accelerates their spiritual journey by increasing pain and suffering that results in change and transformation. Q’uo went on to say that each entity has a basic instinct deep within it, first, to be and realize the self, then to turn towards the metaphysical light, and then to find the nature of all situations to offer transformation. Then Q’uo said that everyone experiences a “divine discontent” in which they move from the mundane world of limitation and feel within themselves that quality of the self that does not perish. On January 12, 2008, Q’uo described the nature of transformation:

There are models of transformation which are helpful in thinking about times of change within the self as it undergoes realizations of accumulated information which have precipitated change. One model is the much clichéd butterfly. And there is some advantage to thinking of transformation using this model. The unawakened pupae and larvae go about their routines, eating and becoming ready to enter into a phase of development that is transformative in a way that changes the form of life from that which crawls to that which flies. And you may see that time of transformation as precipitated by the going into the cocoon of dealing with new thoughts and letting those thoughts marinate within your consciousness.

Let us move briefly to a digression about power. This culture’s entities are very eager to give their power away to other sources, rather than seeking to remember the awareness that is within. Redemption and paradise are sought by some identification with some personification of that which seems to us to transcend the illusion in which you are enjoying existence. The yielding up of this personal power is not permanent. It can at any time be taken back into the individual by the individual’s conscious effort, and we urge any who have not done so, so to do.

We would compare the hunger and the thirst for what this instrument would call righteousness, and what others would call the truth, or love, running throughout all of humankind, moving as does the tide, affecting each, but at a level that is beneath the threshold of consciousness, beneath the veil of forgetting, deeply down within that portion of the self from which all truths are remembered. Therefore, we ask each to retain its own power, to act not at this moment as we speak as a discriminator, for that would hinder the flow of this discussion, but to listen with an open heart, an open mind, and an unruffled consciousness, allowing those ideas which are flowing at this time to flow forth in the natural tide of inspiration and information.

Just as the tide goes in and out so within your self you are not only peculiarly and uniquely made by your previous biases to view incoming information in a certain way, but also the influx of that information is altered by those energies within your universe which affect everything from the great sea of life within your veins to the great sea of suffering that you see again and again as entities are self-sacrificing because they love that which they cannot see.

This is your glory and your power. You are an expression of consciousness. Your consciousness is made up of two things, that which we call Love, or the one original Thought, that is to say, the Creator Itself, and that primary principle of free will. Without the introduction of free will the universe would be infinite and intelligent, but it would not be conscious of itself. You have been cast forth as a sower broadcasts the seeds of a garden. Within you, without knowing articulately, you are a certain kind of seed. All begin with this basic seed-nature. During the course of incarnation upon incarnation you begin to become aware in an unique way of your own consciousness. Although this is merely a recapitulation of that realization which is the harvestability of second density into third, we emphasize it again and again to you in this context. Your turning to the light, your yearning for love and acceptance, and your more mature yearning to be loving and be compassionate are such deep portions of your mind that, shall we say, the metaprogram of your existence is based upon this nature.

Now Q’uo focused on how most entities give away their power of the awareness of love and truth, that exists deep within their beings, to other sources for some period of time, but they can also be taken back at some point in the future. Q’uo said that every person feels this power of love at the deepest level of its being where all truths are remembered, and they suggested that we should listen to their thoughts of information and inspiration with an open mind and an open heart so that we can become a clearer expression of the Love and the free will of the Creator within us. Then Q’uo said that we are sowing these seeds of love within each of many incarnations, and we eventually become aware that our consciousness and our desire to be loving are a portion of our deep minds so that the metaprogram of our existence is based upon the nature of love. On January 1, 1989, Q’uo defined how a metaprogram works:

I am Q’uo, and if we have perceived your query correctly, we would equate the metaprogram with the pre-incarnative choices that have been chosen by each seeker, that there may be the opportunities for learning and then the reciprocal opportunities for serving according to that which has been learned in the life pattern. The programming of such opportunities consists, in general, in the imbedding, shall we say, of certain biases with the subconscious mind and in the conscious mind, when helpful, as well, that will allow opportunities of a certain nature to occur when these biases come in contact with a certain set of circumstances.

It is the fundamental nature of third-density entities to reach. Thousands of incarnations go by as each entity refines that for which it reaches, until finally in one way or another the entity begins to realize that much of reaching cannot be done in any environment except the environment of the silent, seeking heart. You are creatures who have a memory which is buried deeply within you and is a portion of that which makes you alive, a creature of a Creator, an entity who has a destiny, an appointment towards which you move, quickly or slowly, to the Father. Do not be concerned about the length of time that it may take to refine this instinctual sense of something more into a practice that ultimately makes immediate contact with the mystery which lies beyond all information.

This mystery is not the answer to anything, for all of your questions lie within this illusion. All of your theories, your perceptions and your knowledge cannot bring you into a state wherein you may expect to experience the knowledge of the one infinite Creator, your Father, your Mother, and your Lover. Each of you is a soul, a portion of light, and you are most personally beloved. Yet you are inextricably entwined with that free will which gives you the opportunity to seek within an illusion whose singular purpose is to throw each entity away from the center of beingness into confusion, despair, suffering and difficulty. These are not the actions of a cruel Creator. These are the actions of a Creator which has learned that no lessons are learned in the happy, holiday atmosphere of Eden. You may visit the garden, the oasis, that place where all questions are answered, but you cannot bring back words to describe this experience.

Now, as you know that your second-density entities are already instinctually turning towards the light, and seeking to grow, so too may you see that part of your inheritance from your own evolution in spirit is that absolute certainty that turning towards the light will obtain for one results which one desires, truths for which one hungers. To be without spiritual hunger is to be somnolent, and there are many at this time among your people who, in spite of all that occurs, remain in this condition of sleepwalking through an incarnation, walking past joy and disaster, worship and suffering, thinking only about the weather, and whether one should have brought the umbrella, thinking about the dinner menu, thinking, and thinking, and thinking, and thinking.

We say to you straight out, although we are not infallible, it is our opinion that you cannot by any system of knowledge become aware of the presence of love. You cannot by any special series of learnings arrive at the gates of paradise, or find yourself in a position to aid others. You seek that which you feel is there because it is there. The unknown does beckon, and there is that which pulls you forward irresistibly so that you are not entirely at any time in charge of your own development, for your instincts towards self-development will create gradual widening and focusing and maturing of the personality. Much has been said about the culture in which you live, a culture in which the idol of the day is what is called technology. Miracles are described in hushed tones and the saints which perform those miracles are your scientists, your doctors, and so you remunerate them handsomely while paying much less of your attention and your worldly goods to those who seek the mystery beyond that which is known.

What drives you? Your own nature. Occasionally an entity may be so disturbed by early experience that it is completely blocked and cannot find access to the doors of feeling and yearning that each normally has. There is a drive to continue evolution that is as instinctual as any other portion of the red ray. When we speak of the fundamental reason that entities seek through any and all means to alter their consciousnesses, we are not speaking specifically of indigo-ray inner work. We are speaking, in many cases, of a simple, perhaps unvoiced or unrecognized feeling, that there is more, and humankind hungers for it because it is the next step of evolution.

When we speak to groups such as this we find that there is a certain irritation factor in that we go over basic material again and again. There is a reason for this. The reason is that you have not yet accomplished this most fundamental of tools towards becoming familiar with the nature of your own consciousness, and therefore are not yet comfortable and willing to work hard in pursuit of a growing feeling of the immediacy of the presence of eternity. And so we move back into that which, as this instrument, whose sense of humor sometimes eludes us, would say: “Read my lips”—meditate daily. When the telephone rings, take an instant before you answer, for you always entertain angels unawares.

Now Q’uo said that as third-density entities we reach for that memory of the Creator, and it may take many incarnations to realize that we have a destiny to seek this great mystery that lies buried within us. Then Q’uo said that as entities of the third density we are within an illusion that has the function of moving us away from our inner realization of unity into confusion, despair, and difficulty because these are the way we learn our lessons of hungering for love and turning to the light. Q’uo also said that there is the unknown that beckons and calls us forward into our next step of evolution. They said that in order to become more aware of the evolution of our own consciousness that we should meditate on a daily basis. On January 11, 1998, Q’uo described the value of meditation:

As one has gathered about one all the various confusions, experiences, communications and so forth one draws certain tentative conclusions about how best to respond within the incarnation in order to determine how to find and share those qualities of love, of light, of harmony, of service, and so forth. Within the meditative state these tentative conclusions and experiences may seat themselves in a manner which allows their influence to have its sway within the total being. One is able to more clearly make sense of one’s experiences by allowing a certain kind of settling out to occur, and for the allowing of inspiration to make its natural response as one considers the events of the day, allows them to have their weight and go their way, and then finds the sitting and the listening to the one Creator to produce an inspiration, a motivation, or simply a recognition. It is in meditation that the confusion and distraction begin to fall away, and the foundation of one’s being begins to be revealed and becomes more accessible to the entity in the daily round of activities when found in meditation.

You never know who or what circumstance is going to enhance your ability to grasp your situation. Your situation is simple. You know that you are more than you seem; you wish to find out what that “more” is, and you are impatient because you have a very short time in this illusion. Your use of catalyst is painfully inadequate so that lifetimes must be terminated as an entity becomes completely full of that which needs healing. It has not done the meditation, it has not squared away towards the self, it has gazed outside of itself for authority. There is information which lies within, and for which channels such as this one, and all circumstances whatsoever, can be triggers, for your memory of the truths that lie waiting for you to discover within your deep mind.

The study of the archetypical mind may seem to be irrelevant, but let us hold up to you the contrast. On the one hand there is the entity which believes that it may collect learnings, and by that collection form a staircase of light which moves that entity gnostically into higher and higher realms of wisdom until it has finally realized itself. To our understanding there is no way to improve one’s grasp of one’s spiritual situation or one’s ability to benefit from this illusion which is summed up in wisdom literature. Wisdom is not what you are here to learn. Certainly you may use it, but what you are here to learn is the open heart, the acceptance of the unacceptable, the love of the unlovable, the meaning of the word compassion, the entry in a personal way of infinity and eternity into the supposedly mundane existence.

We suggest to you that it is our opinion that there is no situation which lies beyond the pale of learning, growing and the manifesting of the love that is the nature of the self. But one thing first must be surrendered, and that is the quest for the one answer that will allow all things to fall into place neatly, cleanly and irrevocably. You are finite creatures attempting to grasp the concept of infinity. Your minds cannot hold that concept, it can only name it, and thereby feel it has some power over it. This is an illusion. Your true power lies in your realization that this is your time of action, of choice after choice after choice in which you choose to view your environment in a way which would be made possible by mind-altering substances of one kind or another.

We suggest to you that experiences using these artificial aids do not move beyond this perishable experience for you. It is only the transfiguration and epiphany of the self, caused by the process of persistent faith and will in silent seeking, that bring your biases and distortions towards oneness, love, hope, beauty and truth, which are, indeed, imperishable. The use of technology of any kind—as this instrument would say, “Better living through chemistry”—is helpful in that it gives to the lucky experiencer a glimpse of the paradise that awaits within. However, there is no substitute for the step placed after the next, and the next, and the next, not in a grim and humorless way, but as if one were on a playful, joyful walk, perhaps even running from time to time, because of the demand of the mundane world, but working always to form the understanding within the self that eternity lies before you now, right now, this moment. Feel this resonance as we speak. Feel space and time vanish. Feel this.

We shall pause.

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Because this suggestion is powerful, and we do not wish to create a state of deep concentration for any, we will continue speaking, but we hope that you may see that which we are talking about. You are eternal and imperishable, and there is nothing that you can do within this illusion to affect your true nature, except to determine to live a certain kind of existence which embraces as the center of this existence the love of, the praise and thanks to, and the supplication before, that portion of the self that may be spelled with a capital “S,” that portion of the self which we shall never find unless we die to ourselves, and by this we mean that the smokescreen, the confusions, and the embafflement of entities which keeps them from this immediacy of oneness with the Creator is tremendously widespread, and is so challenging that it is by grace alone that one is able in any sort of constant sense to attain the desired goal.

Thus, we ask each to use the intellect by all means, but not to confuse the works of the intellect and the functions of belief with faith itself; not faith in an object, for the only object which commands your complete respect is a mystery, to us as well as to you. We know nothing but the mystery, however it has become more harmonious for us to worship and to serve that mystery that is beyond all things and all non-things, that is beyond ego and egolessness, that is beyond the mind and the imagination of humankind.

Faith is that faculty which knows that all is well, and in the face of apparent difficulty, the power of faith is all-important in shaping your experience. Take your substances, imbibe your wisdom-giving potions. There is no harm in experiencing your natural state, but know too that this will cost you, for to dwell within vibrations for which you are not yet ready is often to do damage metaphysically or physically to the entity which you are.

This instrument is asking us with some fierceness to retain that which we wish to give for another time, and so we shall, but we do ask each to meditate, as always, persistently, patiently, lovingly and without regard for any outcome. Allow your realizations to surprise you. Hunting for realization is a hunt without a prey. The realization lies within the silence of your own being.

Now Q’uo said that we all know that we are more than we seem to be, and that any situation can give us more information in that regard. Then they said that many entities seek to read literature in the field of spirituality, but this is a process that seeks the wisdom rather than the true goal of opening the heart in love and compassion. Q’uo went on to say that any situation can teach us a portion of what we need to know, but we must realize that there is not just one answer that we are looking for because we are finite beings seeking many answers to the mystery of infinity. Q’uo also said that the use of drugs could give one a glimpse of the goal of the spiritual journey, but it would be more efficient if we moved step by step in our realization of the eternity that exists in the present moment. Then they said that we need to live the kind of life that seeks the Creator within with every fiber of our being by dying to our self, and, by grace, experiencing the oneness of the Creator. Q’uo completed their answer to the nature of our spiritual journey being that which we shall experience when we exercise the faith that all is well and use meditation to discover the mystery of the Creator is within our very being. On December 18, 1988, L/Leema spoke of how we may use meditation to find the Creator within us:

Thus, as one goes into meditation, we very much suggest using readings, mantras or some inspirational thought which leads one towards the intention to tabernacle with that which is holy, with that which is the infinite mystery of the Creator.

We encourage each further, whenever the feelings are depressed, at whatever time of year, to recreate within the mind the Christmas experience of great darkness, short under-lit days of shadow and bleak cold, and a piercing and poignant joy of that infant spirit that against all odds, and without the acceptance of the darkness, moves into darkness as light that is not recognized. You yourselves are full of light which you do not recognize. It is not sunshine; it is not light in a physical sense. You are the carriers of precious treasure. You carry the infinity of the Love and the Light of the infinite Creator. Picture it. Symbolize it within yourselves as the Christ child, and give it room, encouragement and attention that it may grow each day.

We would at this time, with great thanks and pleasure in using this instrument, transfer the contact to the one known as Jim. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and leave this instrument in love and in light.

This morning I removed the metal receptacles that held the four hinges on the door at the bottom of the stairs in the hall, which I took down a couple of weeks ago, and then I filled the holes with spackling compound and smoothed it out so that I could paint that area with the green pain that the rest of the wall is painted in tomorrow when the spackling compound has totally dried.

This afternoon I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow a few remaining leaves into piles in a couple places in the back yard and then put them in a garbage can for yard waste pickup.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 26

Christ’s Divine Care

I am the spirit of the full consciousness of love. I greet you in the divine love of Jesus the Christ.

It is considered desirable by you to retain your spiritual point of view as you go through the experiences of your daily rounds of activity. And, indeed, we have always encouraged this attempt.

It may perhaps be seen that the reciprocal needs also the attention. That is, it is well to bring the seemingly mundane, everyday experiences of daily life into the holy atmosphere of divine meeting and contemplation.

For if life can be lifted up by thought, then its means of lifting comes not only from the higher idea to the lower manifestation but from manifestation gazing back upon that which is unmanifest and perfect.

In this way, those things which do not feel blessed may be brought into the circle of Christ’s divine care. And raveled and frayed though things may be, yet still all is comforted within that divine purview of love.

May we offer and leave you in the peace and the joy of the love of Jesus Christ, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 29, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. At this time we would offer ourselves in the attempt to answer any further queries that may be on those minds present. Is there a query at this time?

K: I don’t have a question right now, but I want to thank you for the comfort of your words and the validation of our work together. It meant a lot to me, thank you.

Carla: Me too, me too, thanks.

I am Q’uo, and we are most grateful to each as well for allowing us to speak upon this topic by your desires and your intentions as well as your actions. We thank each. Is there any query at this time?

Carla: Is this true universally of those who attempt to be of service, that which you have said about us? Is this a tool for everyone to use?

I am Q’uo, and though the tool we have given is that which will find application in most groups’ experiences, it is not one which is without individual tailoring, shall we say, but that which we have given may serve as a firm foundation for any group that desires to be of service to others through the harmonizing of those individual energies which comprise the whole of the group. The individual idiosyncrasies, shall we say, are paradoxically those qualities which give the group wider capabilities, on the one hand, and when left in an unchecked state, shall we say, that which does not bend to compromise can also be those qualities which serve to fracture the crystallized harmony of a group. Therefore, it is a delicate balance that must be maintained when the individual personalities put themselves forth in the place of a group which desires to serve. Thus, we recommend that the ideal of service be held high for each and that each pursue that ideal through the harmonizing of characteristics as is necessary for the furthering of this ideal of service to others.

When Carla was channeling Q’uo, Q’uo described those in the group that day as L/L Research and said that each was attempting to be of the greatest service to each other by refusing judgement and focusing on peace and harmony even though each was suffering difficulties in their own lives. So Q’uo began their answer by saying that the information they had shared through Carla was a good foundation for any group to utilize on their spiritual journey, but each group would also have their unique expression of energies that could expand the group’s potential in some cases but in other cases could be the cause of the group’s disintegration. So Q’uo recommended that each member of the group focus on the group desire to be of service to others. On June 8, 1990, Latwii described how members of a group could achieve harmony in the group:

Thus, one very primary action that one may take in assuring deep harmony is to work intensively upon the personal program of learning so that one enters into a group situation with as balanced a system of energy expenditure as is possible to achieve, while recognizing that no entity in any group will have a perfectly balanced system of expending the energy that is the daily gift from the Logos through the system of energy centers of every entity.

We also would recommend that there is the possibility of increasing group harmony by reassessing the quality of desire for the group formation within each individual. It is well that there be a principle by which each within the group seeks to work in order that there might be the basic agreement as to the reason for the formation of the group.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes, just one, I don’t know if there’s an answer to it, but I feel so full of love for my friends that come to me—and especially the one known as A, today—but many friends, all my friends, and I just love them so much, and I would do anything for them, and it seems that there is so little that I can do, and it makes me want to cry. I feel this way not only for the people that ask me for help, but people with AIDS, and people that are trapped in socially unrespectable things like homosexuality, which is no sin at all but just a different mode of sexuality. I don’t know what to do with all this love.

I am Q’uo, and, my sister, for one who loves greatly, as do you, it is well to give that love as the bread which is cast upon the waters, that it may go where it is needed, and do its work unseen. It is the most difficult service to allow those that are so dearly loved to learn that which is theirs to learn through their own efforts, knowing that much of that experience will contain that which you call pain, but that painful experience is that which shall guide the lesson to its home within the heart of the entity, and thus is the purpose of the painful experience, and much within your illusion explained. If lessons were easily won, would they be so valuable and carry such weight within the total beingness of the entity? One cannot learn for another or take from another the pain that shall go with the learning, for these are components of this process which must all be in place in order for the learning to occur.

Thus, we suggest that you give that which you have of love in your sharing with the others that you love and that you give freely, and that within your own heart you bless the learning that will inevitably contain the pain and let your love and your blessings be given freely.

Carla wanted to know what she could do to help people with situations like having AIDS and being homosexual.  Q’uo suggested that Carla simply send her love to these people with the realization that each person has lessons to learn that are manifested in a specific way—very likely pre-incarnatively chosen—and the pain of the lessons will give them the opportunity to grow spiritually in the way that was meant to be. So Q’uo said Carla should give her love to these people and bless the learning that will come from their situation. On November 9, 2019, Q’uo spoke of how our lessons are meant to be learned:

Thus, all learn that which is meant to be learned when there is the focusing upon that quality of hindrance or opportunity or combination thereof, in each incarnation, so that there is the blooming of the flower, the opening of the heart, the exposing of the soul to all the influences that can aid it in its evolutionary progress through mind, body and spirit.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes. Is my suffering for these people that I love so much, which has happened to me all my life; and I don’t know how to shut it down; I would take all their suffering if I could; is it part of why I have physical limitations and physical suffering?

I am Q’uo, and we weigh our response carefully, for we do not wish to step over that boundary of infringement upon your own decision making and understanding of your life pattern. Your great empathic identity with those about you, especially when the emotional experience of those about you swings into that area of discomfort, sorrow and suffering, is a central feature of your…

[Tape ends.]

[The essence of the response was that these are two separate issues, and Carla expressed relief in that confirmation.]

This is Christmas Day, and I decided to take the day off from outside activities and focus more on spiritual work like the Camelot Journal entries for the next few days and meditation. I hope that all of my readers have been able to enjoy this Christmas Day in the way that has the most meaning for them, and may each feel the love of the One Infinite Creator for them, and may each feel that same love for each other.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 25

The Folly Of Christmas

I am of the principle of the consciousness of love that is in Christ Jesus and I greet you in the full consciousness of our common divinity.

You have experienced the ritual bringing forth, into the world of sense and shadow, the unchangeable light which the darkness cannot quench. And to many who feel saddened this day, we say that it is acceptable to rejoice when the time is at hand and the ceremony of deity and man is celebrated.

But my children, know you this: faced with your humanhood and your clear perception of deity, it is a natural tendency for the spirit within you to be impatient that all days might be those birthdays wherein the spirit is born anew in every conscious being.

Beware of the folly of Christmas and rest your joy not only upon an occasion but upon a continuing and sometimes difficult to fathom stream of events and occasions within which the full spirit and caring of Jesus the Christ shines through. Be you those channels who do not need the occasion to rally themselves to the love of Jesus the Christ.

We leave you in the discipline and the freedom of Christ’s own peace, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from April 29, 1990:

No group question today. We’ll take potluck.

(Carla channeling)

We are those of the principle of Q’uo, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We thank you for the plenty of your company, for the thanksgiving of your meditation together, for the rejoicing in unity of this circle of seeking, and for the openness to hear what we have to say to you, though you are so scattered at this time that you are not able to form queries that are deeply in your heart. And we assure each of you there are queries in your heart at this time, queries that you could bring closer and closer to the surface by wishing and desiring and willing to live more and more consciously, more and more single-mindedly, to burn with passion, to hear the voice of the one infinite Creator within you, to have the enlightenment and the opening up of those things which seem closed to you because they are caught in the prison of words.

Each of you has suffered in this week, each of you has rejoiced in this week. Have you noticed? Have you grasped your life in any one moment, and turned to the central sun of your being in praise and thanksgiving and joy? Where is your joy, my children? Where is your passion? Where is your thanksgiving? You are upon a road, and each stranger that you meet may open to you the book of your life, the meaning of your moment. Do you listen to every stranger? You are strangers to yourself, each of you. Do you know how your heart yearns to dwell in joy? Do you know the passion that lies within you to follow with a single mind and a single heart that trail you can sense, that dusty road that you know is better than it feels, finer than it seems, more wonderful than it apparently could ever be? What ties you to this illusion, my children, you who are in such an advantageous position, you who have made such firm commitments?

We choose to speak of what this instrument spoke of earlier, for though this instrument knows not whence its thoughts arise, yet it is true that this instrument has opened, more than most, those passages into what may be called the frontal lobes of your brain, if you wish to give a geographical location to that portion of consciousness which is capable of faith. Because of this instrument’s blind and unknowing faith, because of its insistence that there is a positive way to observe an act in each circumstance, it burns, it gives praise, it has its moments of joy, perhaps more often than some, though it too dwells completely within your illusion and is completely blind to that which it senses. It is, however, correct. You, my children, have banded together in blind faith with apparent difficulties on every side, with personality clashes, with personal difficulties that seem to make certain relationships less easy, each with personal business that seems upon the surface to cause the relationship to be that that is not unity.

So it seems to you, yet you have vowed deep within yourself to serve the infinite One together, and all your words and moods and fears and tears and problems within the illusion have absolutely no effect whatsoever upon the joy of your union within the love and the light of the service to the one infinite Creator. You have made a choice that is completely idealistic and unrealistic with regard to your circumstances. You shall not see your oneness, perhaps ever, and surely not quickly, for each of you lacks, in some way, the work that must be done to learn passion, and sureness, and stillness, and blindness.

You are not blind to your illusions. Why, why is that? We may ask all upon your grieving, weeping, agonized planet. Why can you not be blind? You know that which you see is an illusion. Even your scientists speak to you thus. Your poets have always spoken so. All have wished to burn with passion for the infinite, the divine, the ideal, the everlasting. Why do you see? Why do you open your eyes and allow yourselves to be pulled into an illusion that you are so aware of as an illusion?

The answer is very simple. You are doing what you are supposed to do. Were you able to be blind to this illusion and awake to joy, you would not, nor should you, be here, dwelling in this illusion, learning and suffering and changing and transforming yourself, day by day, step by weary and seemingly plodding step. You have come here and have given up your true sight, and so you do not find your blindness a virtue. This is the forgetting, this is the veil, this is birth into an illusion, and you have plunged yourself into its icy waters, because in your courage you have wished to become better, to become more single-minded, to find more courage, to burn brighter, to have more passion and more single-mindedness in love of the one infinite Idea or Thought that is Love itself.

There was no group question today, so Q’uo spoke about the nature of the spiritual journey within the third-density illusion. They began by saying that each person that we meet offers us a chance to learn more about the nature of our being by mirroring different aspects of ourselves to us, and that the members of this meditation group had banded together to share their spiritual paths and to aid each other in serving the one Creator. Then Q’uo said that even though the presence of the Creator is within all of us we still move within an illusion that we have chosen to use as a means of going through the suffering of the pain of change and transformation that will eventually give us a greater experience of the nature of the Love of the Creator.  On January 6, 1991, Q’uo described how our third-density illusion helps us move ahead on our spiritual paths:

That is to say, that the nature of the illusion is helpful, so that, in order to transcend experience, one must enter freely into experience. The way to realization of the nature of the soul and the nature of the Creator is through the illusion, not around it in any way. It is when moving through experiences that are appropriately valued and respected that one may begin to transcend them, and to achieve an immediate awareness of the presence of love, that is, the one infinite Creator.

Thusly, if you wish to move from shadow to light, it is well first to realize that the search shall be in shadow, and that you shall be in the shadow more and more, in pain more and more, as you continue to learn, to evolve and to grow. You are in pain because of the subjective nature of experience. It is painful to reprogram your computer, but as you go through especially traumatic experiences, or as you go through nontraumatic experiences in attentiveness, you begin to have the motivation to use each opportunity for learning amidst all the shadows.

So, do not in any way cause yourself to criticize yourself, discourage, doubt or complain about yourself. No matter what it may seem that your lacks are, you have chosen them, bravely, knowing the pain you would endure by your blindness. In such blindness the ideas of one who has faith, such as this instrument, often sound unrealistic in the extreme. Nor is this instrument at all infallible, yet in this particular statement, that you who have banded together to serve and have called yourself L/L are indeed one, [she offers an accurate translation of our concept]. We do not know if you shall ever have the joy and the thanksgiving and the harmony that you would wish. The combination is more difficult, the problems each has more serious. Each is unbalanced in a different way. The group, upon the mundane level, functions in love and light often by refraining from speaking. This may seem like a mistake. Is it not good to correct each other’s faults? Is it not good to share the mirror, and say, “Gaze, gaze upon this mirror, look honestly into what you are saying and doing. Let me help you see yourself better.” This is what each is to do with the other in relationship. Yet, how often have each of you chosen not to speak, and why? Have you wondered, you who so often do speak, and right clearly, mirroring each other?

As L/L, you have stubbornly and blindly refrained, not out of fear, not out of a lack of ability, but you have allowed your surface to remain calm, and though in each there is difficulty, judgment, disappointment, unhappiness and confusion, you carry it as your own baggage and do not mirror it to each other. Although in your personal relationships you very well may, and so you must, as L/L, you have given the best of yourselves. Are you aware of this? No, my children, you have not known, but have only felt your way. You are blind, and so this must be. Trust in this blindness, trust in your feelings. Do not doubt, for one second, ever, your intuitions regarding this particular commitment to service to others.

Each of you gives up and sacrifices much to serve. When a group serves together each sacrifices in order to harmonize with others. This is known, but not appreciated. You do not give yourselves credit, for you suffer for a grand and wonderful purpose, and the harmony you create, though created in blind faith and confusion, is the brightest light you may shine as a nascent, inchoate, barely born social memory complex. Do you think a social memory complex begins by all telling all what all think? No, my children. A social memory complex begins by each loving each unconditionally—unconditionally, no matter what the cost, and so you have done with exquisite care, not even knowing why.

We do not say this to make you proud. We say this to make you see the process that you undergo spiritually, as a group that moves in service to the one infinite Creator, by offering information to others that is practical. We of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator do not rely upon inspiration only, although indeed we hope, oh, how we hope, to inspire! We know that people need resources, they need tools, they need practical things, things that they may think about and use as they work to move along the path of service to others in the evolution of their own spirits and the spirit of all, which, in the end, is one and the same thing.

And we say to each who may wish to walk with others in the service of the one infinite Creator, love each other unconditionally; bide your words, bate your tongue, hold and release your judgments. Is not each attempting the very most it can attempt already? Have you not faith in each other to this extent, that you have faith each is attempting the impossible? You know it is impossible to act ideally in this illusion. The illusion is what you see. The illusion is what will form your actions, and they will be relative, not absolute. Again and again you yourselves shall perceive yourselves in error. Is it so strange you should perceive error in others also? But if you wish to work for love, if you wish to serve in love and light, love each other, care for each other, be for each other, advocate each other, burn with love and passion for the portion of each that wishes to serve. Is this not beautiful? Is this not beyond the understanding?

Then Q’uo said that whatever limitations we have, we chose pre-incarnatively as means by which we could grow spiritually. Then they spoke of the meditation group this session was L/L Research, and said that they attempted to maintain peace and harmony within the group even though each person did suffer difficulties and confusion. Q’uo said that this was a service which was offered blindly, for the group did not consciously realize what it was doing, but its efforts should be trusted as a means of helping each other through loving each other unconditionally and thereby being of service to the Creator. Then they said that each would continue to make errors and see errors in others in the group as well, but rather than engage in judgment the better choice would be to love and care for each other. On May 20, 1984, Hatonn shared the value of loving each other:

There are stages of maturity, spiritually speaking. Each stage involves transformation and initiation. The unhindered will still have pain. When change is resisted or muddied by worry, the process can become quite unnecessarily painful. We urge each of you to minister to each other and to love each other and to let love abound and grow and take root wherever it may. We encourage each relationship, encourage each new-found realization, and we encourage careful attention to and analysis of emotional and spiritual pain, for the powers of transformation are great and the rewards are enormous. Nevertheless, transformations occur well to those with courage and a great sense of love.

In service to others let each be stern with the self, and full of infinite love and advocacy for each other. You have your own lessons to learn, and only out of those lessons do you have what you may give in love and harmony to the group. Take those lessons seriously, and in your personal relationships, make full use of the mirroring effect. Listen to each other honestly, but as you come together in love and light, do not seek to be understood as such and such, but seek only to understand the beauty of each other. Dwell in praise and thanksgiving to the one infinite Creator. Rejoice in the harmony that your blind faith has given you with each other. You are not harmonious together, no people are harmonious together unless they give up that which is ego, and cease to judge. The relationship of [or through] service is forever healing, forever blessing, forever giving thanks, forever finding the most passionate love of that single-minded search which each has joined together, the search for service to that most beloved infinite One whose passion, whose Love, whose Thought, has originated all of creation.

We leave you glorying and giving thanks and praise at the harmony that you so blindly are willing to attempt in such a difficult illusion for the purpose of service to the one infinite Creator, and we urge you to continue so, knowing that nothing is as it appears but love, and that is all that it appears, and more.

Q’uo completed their message by saying that we should use the mirroring effect with each other to see what our lessons are and seek to understand each other rather than to be understood. Then they said that we should rejoice in harmony with each other and give up our ego in order to be able to join together in the service of the infinite Creator whose Love has created the universe. On December 25, 1982, Hatonn suggested how we might be of service to the Creator:

How many times have you centered yourself within the Creator? It is difficult to imagine turning yourself towards the Creator, as you may find the Creator in any quarter within, without, north and south, east and west, in the faces of strangers and of the most dearly beloved. And yet the Creator’s original Thought is most often missed even upon the feast celebrating the growth of the spirit, a spirit new within you, new, indeed, each day as each day you turn towards that Creator, that original Thought of Love, and offer that day, that moment, to the service of the Creator, to the service of the Creator in others and in yourself.

We would close this meditation through the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument for opening itself without a query, for it has been some time since this instrument has done so and it did not feel comfortable. We thank this instrument, that it is flexible and trustful enough to do this, and so we leave this instrument in thanksgiving, and move to the one known as Jim. I am that principle known to you as Q’uo.

This morning I went outside and cleaned the filters for the fountain on the fish pond with the hose and sprayer that I have been storing in the basement since the beginning of the colder weather.

This afternoon I repainted the south side of the garage that I painted two days ago with the paint that the Five Star Painters used in November. That paint had some blue in it, but I stirred it up well, and when I was finished painting it  the garage looked good. However, yesterday morning I noticed streaks of very light blue all over that area, so I went to Porter Paints and bought two gallons of pure white paint. After I cleaned the brush and put the paint away I went inside the house and used the carpet sweeper to clean the hall runner on the second floor. Then I used the broom and dust pan to sweep up the kitty litter in Benny’s room. My last job was to use the dust mop in all three rooms.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 24

The Manger Within

I am of the principle of divine love and I greet you in the full consciousness of that love.

We find this instrument’s mind revolving not about things of the spirit but about the processes the day shall bring, each item more wonderful and precious than the next, for this day is the eve of the mass of the Christ child, the mass welcoming the new child to birth, the new soul to its walk in the valley of death from which death alone may free him or any which dwell in this body of dust and clay.

May you truly rejoice to know that within yourselves lies a manger. Most of your mangers are poor. Most of them are humble. Most of you have not prepared a way and so must improvise when the Son of Man comes, when the gates of your heart are opened.

This is a time of coming into being. This is a time for you to make anew the welcome of the self towards that tiny, delicate, precious, new spiritual being which shall indwell each spiritual womb.

May you find the peace of Jesus’ mother and know that your spirit follows not the commands of the world but the commands of that consciousness in which He and all of your spirits partake.

May you wend you way in peace and the hope of glory within, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 15, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each in love and light through this instrument. We thank you for your patience, as it was necessary for us to pause as this instrument needed to complete the duties with the recording device. At this time we would offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any queries which you may feel have importance for you. Again we remind you that we offer that which is but our opinion, though we offer it joyfully. Is there a query at this time?

Carla: I’ll ask one, if people want to wait awhile and think. I have had several people in a wave talk to me about healing myself, as though my illness were some sort of crime, or indication of my waywardness of spirit. It is, on the contrary, my opinion of my own self, knowing my history, that is, that I died at one time of kidney failure, for about twenty seconds, that I indeed have a very healthy body that is doing amazingly well. I do not know what I can say to entities to give them comfort and to free themselves and myself from the feeling of guilt that is lain on me by those who feel that one must be bursting with physical health in order to be of mental, emotional and spiritual health. Could you comment?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We may comment in a general fashion, for we wish to share the principle. Those who offer their help, their opinion, of your situation, have the desire to serve, the basic love that propels motion and service. The vehicle, or channel through which the service is offered, is whatever framework of belief has served this entity, or any who offer their assistance. Thus, they give that which is biased, according to what they have found helpful. The manner in which you receive that which is given is determined again by your own framework of belief. You may see the offering as that which is laden with guilt. This may be the result of a distortion of either one or both of the means of perceiving. This perception of the role of guilt, then, has meaning for each in an unique manner. The weight that you give to that perception, then, is a function of…

We must pause, we are having difficulty with this instrument.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we apologize for the delay. We shall continue. The perception of guilt as a portion of your condition, is merely a reflection of the…

Jim: Carla, this isn’t [inaudible]. It doesn’t feel right, I’m going to have to stop. It doesn’t feel like Q’uo.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each through this instrument once again in love and light. We wish to applaud and encourage the instrument known as Jim, that this instrument’s perception is such that there was felt to be a lack of steadiness of the tuning, and although the one known as Carla was keeping the circle well guarded by means placed there by the instrument before the meditation, yet it is always well whenever in doubt to cease the communication, for it is the desire of the Confederation of the Planets, who are in service to the one Creator to offer only that highest truth that may be offered in a safe and secure manner.

We hesitate to respond to the query which was posed by this instrument, as there is the difficulty of the instrument’s own individual small self which has its opinion, and would in any case doubt that which we were to offer. We shall simply say that the nature of health and wellness is a nature which knows not bone nor sinew, blood or tendon, infection or disease. The health and wellness of an entity is its acceptance of itself, and its realization that all is as it should be and as it must be for the entity to be open to the lessons of love received and given in that moment.

Carla had asked the question of what she should say to the many people who had made suggestions as to how she could heal her body that would comfort them and remove the feeling of guilt that they had put on her. Then, as I was channeling Q’uo’s response, I apparently came to the conclusion that I was not really channeling Q’uo, so Carla took over the channeling of Q’uo in answer to her question. But first Q’uo said that it was a good idea for me to cease channeling them when it didn’t feel right. They said that Carla had guarded the circle before the meditation by some means, so there probably wasn’t any negative entity involved, just my “lack of steadiness of the tuning.”

So Q’uo gave a short response to Carla’s question by saying that the true health of a person was not as much related to the condition of its body as it was to being able to accept itself and its feeling that all was well for it to be open to the lessons of love that it gives and receives. In 18.4, Ra shared the same basic opinion about Carla’s health:

Questioner: Are there any foods that are helpful or harmful that the instrument might eat?

Ra: I am Ra. This instrument has body complex distortion towards ill health in the distortion direction corrected best by ingestion of the foodstuffs of your grains and your vegetables, as you call them. However, this is extremely unimportant when regarded as an aid with equality to other aids such as attitude which this instrument has in abundance. It, however, aids the vital energies of this instrument, with less distortion towards ill health, to ingest foodstuffs in the above manner with occasional ingestion of what you call your meats, due to the instrument’s need to lessen the distortion towards low vital energy. 

Before we close through this instrument we would ask once more if there are any further queries?

K: My name is K and I drive here from St. Louis weekly, and I would like for you to comment on the teaching and work of the circle that I am speaking about, particularly, could you comment upon the entity Sananda, who speaks to the circle?

I am Q’uo, and we greet you, K of St. Louis. Blessings upon you and upon your seeking. The conditions of that activity called channeling are different for each channel, and the sensitivity each channel may bring to its work is unique to that entity. Those ideas which can be used as tools and resources in the daily life are ideas inspired by love, call it what you will.

As to the name, Sananda, the Christ name has moved through many namings. There is no one name of this consciousness that may declare itself unique at this time, that is, the only entity which speaks as the principle of the master known as Jehoshua, or Jesus. We ask that you yourself listen with an open heart to the messages of the one known to you as Sananda—how many names this energy has been perceived as having, how many more shall there be. You are one, as are most who have studied the consciousness, the mind and the actions of the one known as Jesus the Christ. Listen to this entity. Seems it to speak in humility, compassion and acceptance, encouraging each to love each other? If that be so, what matters it what it call itself?

We may say specifically only that the intentness of the entity which is Christ is a consciousness which has used channels which have given over their lives to servanthood. Gaze clearly upon the face of love. There is no pride; there is no judgment; there is always love, forgiveness and healing. That which is of Christ-consciousness dares the entity to look at itself, to accept itself, and by that impossibility of self acceptance and blind faith, be healed. If the entity whom you hear has this love, this yearning, this passion and this healing, you may judge for yourself what energy or principle of the Creator this entity is. We do not give opinions positive or negative of any source, but ask each entity to use its discrimination, and always to use the light touch, the relaxed and time-consuming patience allowing ideas offered by such consciousnesses to steep and ripen within the self. By the fruits of these teachings shall you know the nature of him who planted the seed that blooms within yourself.

K asked Q’uo about an entity named Sananda that was channeling to his group in St. Louis. Q’uo said that the one known as Christ had various names such as Jehoshua and  Jesus, and if Sananda spoke in “humility, compassion, and acceptance“ that the name was unimportant. Q’uo said that they never made any judgements about other channeled sources but simply suggested that if Sananda shares the concepts of love, of acceptance of the self, and of healing of the self, K could use his own discrimination as to determine the nature of Sananda. On May 17, 2023, Q’uo reminded us of the value of using our own discrimination to determine the value of their channeled material:

We are most honored once again to be called here to speak with you of spiritual principles that may aid your journey of seeking the One in all. In order to do this most effectively, we ask you our perennial favor, that you consider what we have to say and how we say it with your own discrimination as to what you feel is appropriate and useful for you. And if there is anything we say that is not useful to you in you in your own spiritual journey, that you set it aside. If you would grant us this favor, then we will feel more able to speak openly about those words and concepts which have, we hope, use to you at this time.

May we be of any more service to you at this time, my brother?

K: Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo. We thank you, K of St. Louis. Is there another query at this time?

K: Could you comment briefly about the connection that B and I have between each other?

I am Q’uo, and without abridging free will, we may. K is teacher to B; B teacher to K. You have the honor of being honest, and the duty to be compassionately honest, and to give to each other a true picture of each other, that together you may pull as two oxen the cart of your faith and your will to serve, not a striving to please, only, but looking always for that which may serve, never striving to limit, but searching always for that which may advance a sense of freedom.

The mated relationship, regardless of what its nature be within the legal framework of your culture, is the most powerful possible arrangement within which acceleration of the spiritual path may be done. It is also the most difficult, because intimacy is very difficult among those in a culture which teaches each entity to wear the mask and to behave in such and such a way, that the truth be only half told, or not mentioned, for to do so would cause time-consuming, heart-rending work in consciousness by both.

Thus, each who is a teacher to the other in a mated relationship must, to be the most effective partner, gaze within the self within all circumstances and within all transactions with the cleansing, purifying and healing openness of heart, never allowing difficulties to remain between the two, realizing always that difficulties will continually be between you, for you are each other’s greatest catalyst for learning. Face that squarely. You shall make each other uncomfortable. That is the nature of change. And when you have a teacher, the weight of learning increases, and the discomfort increases likewise. Therefore, see the pain that you give each other with sorrow and with apology, but with the knowledge that it is a necessary portion of the learning of two who together seek most beautifully.

K asked Q’uo to comment on the relationship that K had with I. Q’uo said that K and I were each the teacher of the other in their mated relationship and suggested that they use honesty and compassion as a means of giving each other a true picture of themselves. Q’uo said that the mated relationship was a powerful way to travel the spiritual path and also very difficult because most people only share a portion of their true selves and are not willing to do the work in consciousness that comes from being each other’s greatest source of catalyst. Q’uo said that the change that comes from making each other uncomfortable would be painful but was a “necessary portion of the learning of the two who together seek most beautifully.” On August 28, 1983, Latwii spoke of the great potential for spiritual growth that is possible in the mated relationship:

The experiences that each entity shares with each other in this relationship develop that trust foundation with the tool of clear perception and honesty. Then each experience which the couple shares may be refined and utilized by higher and higher, shall we say, energy centers, culminating in the birth of the adept, the one who is able through conscious effort to penetrate the illusion, and to see and be the unity of all things. This is a difficult journey, a journey which requires great dedication, and a single-pointedness of mind and purpose. It is that type of discipline which the mated relationship strengthens as the difficulties are seen as catalyst and are refined and worked with until they become the gems of experience, and further add to the stable foundation upon which the two journey together.

Is there another question, my brother?

K: Thank you. Thank you very much for increasing my insight and understanding, and I wish to give the rest of the time to someone else who may have a question.

We thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo. We are aware of your questions, and respect each for the silence that indicates that it is not now the time to ask such questions. Ponder them instead within your heart and your soul. You can answer as well as we. If you give yourself the time to allow these questions to sink deeply into your subconscious, each question shall be answered at last, by whatever means.

Your planetary sphere has a special light this day, which you call Easter and Passover within the culture in which you live. Lift up your hearts, my children, sing alleluia to new beginnings, new understanding, new perceptions of the self, new consolations and a renewal of a passionate desire to know, to love, and to express by service to others the one infinite Creator. In the love and the light of that Creator we leave you now, rejoicing with you at your Eastertide. We are those known to you as Q’uo. Adonai. Adonai vasu borragus.

This morning I ran a few errands with the first one being a stop at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some Pepsi, and then I stopped by Porter Paints to buy more white paint. My last stop was at the Village Anchor restaurant to pick up a takeout order.

This afternoon I took the vacuum cleaner out to the garage and vacuumed Stanley since I had tracked a good deal of dirt and detritus into the driver’s side in the last few weeks and, to a lesser extent in the rest of the interior as well.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 23

To Smile Or To Frown

I am of the principle of divine love. I greet you in the consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

What have we to say about the world as you gaze at it this day? Perhaps today we would wish you to see that which is behind the daily matters which shall parade this day before your eyes.

Many things shall occur within this day and you shall have many opportunities to smile or to frown; to speak the kind word or the harsh one; to react impulsively or to take it easy and gaze at a situation long enough to gauge its total nature.

Perhaps, this day of all rushing Christmas days, we would suggest to each to take the time to slow down and to consider, in all the hustle and bustle, in all the choices that are made, that the great choice is always for merriment and for the expressions of love and sharing. All other considerations of preparation and business have not the priority of offering and manifesting the love of Christ in God.

May you stop and sense that abiding, deep, magical and peaceful presence. And in each choice that you make this day, may that feeling of peace empower and strengthen your ability to choose well your manifestation to the outer world.

You are children of the Most High. May you experience your birthright this day.

We leave you in love, joy and peace, both now and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 15, 1990:

The question this evening concerns how we find our spiritual path when we find it in a conscious fashion. How it is that we select the path that we do finally select? Are there forces or influences that come, not only from our current experience, but from childhood, from the way we first experience the world? Are there forces that come from before the incarnation? Do we set up, pre-incarnationally, choices or biases that eventually lead us to the path that we choose, or that eventually becomes ours? What are the forces that help us to choose our path and to follow it?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I am known to you as Q’uo, though the name that we use we give to you only because of your fondness in the naming. We are a portion of the creation of Love, which is the one great original Thought, the Logos of the infinite Creator of us all. We wish to acknowledge entities within the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator, those known as Hatonn, and those known as Latwii, and to thank them for their participation in this particular meeting, for there are those here who need the silent comfort of the sharing of vibrations with these entities. They will not be speaking, but have simply been called here in order to abide in silent meditation with some few of those present at this time, for there is great fondness and affection in some for these entities.

Now this is the first mention of those of the social memory complex of Hatonn as being with those of Q’uo, but mentioned only in the role of sharing their vibration. Latwii is mentioned again but just in the same role of Hatonn in sharing their vibrations.

We thank each for calling us to speak upon the subject of the influences which affect each seeking soul’s way of experiencing spiritual help. The honor is great and we are very humble, as we feel that you may have a desire to share with us our opinion. Because you so desire this, we offer to you our plea that you not take us or any but your own heart as the authority which recognizes the truth that is the truth for you. We are not infallible. We simply share opinions based on a larger range of experiences than you.

As you gaze into the memory of your childhood you see much of what was there, and you have blocked yourself from seeing many other things that were part of the childhood which you experienced. It is so that you came into this experience of incarnation with your own biases, opinions, tendencies and characteristic ways of thinking, feeling and acting. All of these things were yours within the womb before your mother ever gave birth to you. You came into this experience of incarnation a realized being who has chosen various difficulties and challenges as the means whereby you may come to a greater polarity of service, service to the Creator, service and nurturing the self as part of the Creator, and service to those entities who are your own selves, seen in a mirror.

Therefore, we cannot generalize that this or that about a certain childhood would have such and such a specific effect. Each entity is unique. There are, however, those categories of conditions which set up for the seeker the way he will visualize and perceive the road of seeking the truth. There are some few who do not wish to seek, or to know, but wish to be told what is true. Those people are not interested in what we have to say, but we wish them well. Those are the entities which accept specific guidelines such as good and evil, righteousness and sin. These are entities who are only comfortable as slaves. They do not question, they do not seek. They simply stand and believe that which is told them.

This tendency cannot be learned and is not the usual true nature of a third-density entity, but we did not wish to leave out entities such as these, for in these entities too lies a viable and beautiful link between the self and the realization of a Creator which banishes all of that which you call error or sin. To these people the blessing of simplicity is given, and they seem to a more seeking entity narrow or dogmatic, yet their way is as valid as any, if by that way they are able to open their hearts in service to others as they love the Creator and as they love the self as heir to the Creator, son and daughter of the Creator, the hands, the mouth and the energy of the Creator alive and working in your environment at this time. These are not entities upon which one should shower patronization. They simply are simple and uncomplicated entities who do not have the desire to seek further.

Most entities, and certainly those who would call us to them, have entered into this incarnational experience choosing limitations which shall be experienced during the years of youth. Perhaps the greatest stimulus towards freeing the self of mandatory belief is the simple demand that all be believed without question. The spiritual disciple will not accept an unquestioned description of the spiritual life. One who wishes to seek the truth must seek it through movement, movement and change and transformation, day by day, sunset by sunset, and moon by moon, through the questioning of a living, powerful, very real purveyor of truth. Each seeks the link that will link the mundane to that which is eternal.

Many entities within the childhood experience are cut off from the feeling of self-love. This is perhaps the most common of those limitations which are chosen before the incarnation, in order that the entity may experience and exercise the lesson that one is not here to be loved but to love. One is not here to be pampered, but to console others. One is not here to be praised, but to support, cherish and nurture those about one, seeing in them the infinite Creator. The inability to feel the worth of the self derives its strength, for the most part, from the childhood wherein the child is not accepted as it is, in which the child is not appreciated, feels itself not to be fully loved, feels itself to be criticized, feels itself to be unable to please those first witnesses and embodiments of the Creator, the parents.

As the parents cut the child off from the spontaneous giving and taking of love, so in the mature spiritual search the pilgrim shall find itself laden with a burden of self-doubt, and that even heavier burden of unidentified guilt, for in such a childhood one is given the feeling that one is somehow guilty, but of what, the child knows not. One is given the feeling that the child is unwanted, and there is no defense possible to that child, for in the young years of incarnation the child is too purely that spirit which incarnated into the world to have defenses against lack of self-perceived love, worth and righteousness.

The group question for this session was how is our spiritual path consciously chosen? By childhood memories or pre-incarnative choices? Q’uo began their answer by saying that pre-incarnative choices could be manifested during our childhoods as difficulties and challenges that we would experience in a way unique to ourselves and which would aid us in polarizing our consciousness in a way that could serve the Creator. Q’uo went on to say that one of the challenges is that we need to discover how to make our own choices and not believe all that we are told. They said that we need to go through changes on a daily basis that will eventually link us with that which is eternal, which I would think would be continuous spiritual growth. Q’uo also said that many are born with the limitation of self doubt and are not here to be loved, and  they feel guilty and unwanted, and these feelings will carry over into the adult years as well. On October 5, 2003, Q’uo gave a way that we can work with self doubt:

It is not that we wish to cause self-doubt or to invalidate the thoughts that you have and the feelings that you feel. Rather, we ask you to stay with them, to experience through intensity and time, allowing energy to move as it will and as it must, neither hurrying it nor resisting but rather embracing it with as much love as you can and thanking it for the opportunities, be they challenging or pleasant or elating, as they come up and as it is time to deal with them.

The second most heavy influence upon the mature experience of the seeker is that yellow-ray experience the entity has had with what this instrument would call institutionalized religion. We use this word carefully to differentiate it from cultural religion. Each of you lives within the Christian culture. Each of you thinks in terms of the story of the one known as Jesus Christ, of the parables this entity gave, of the life this entity lived. The threads of this incarnation run so deeply within your culture that whether you be devout or atheistic, or anywhere in between those two, you are still forced to use a language of Christianity and Judeo-Christianity, because that is your cultural heritage.

This creates a very great difficulty in those who have rejected the vocabulary of institutionalized religion and have left that institution, either because they did not believe the institutionalized religion was helpful to the self, or because this religion held no interest for the self, no identity for the self, no means of expression for the self, or simply because the entity was too sensitive to the deeper, darker strains that weave their way through the Christian religious story. How dark and sad is that story, a story of an entity one with God and one with man, who must die; that entity asking us each to die each day, to give up the self each day, to be with the Creator in the small death of the personal part of the self, the ego, in order that one may more and more come to a realization of a Greater Self within. When it is put to an entity in specifically Christian terms, the entire experience of redemption, forgiveness and freedom is bent and twisted in such a way that many, many entities cannot at all accept this expression of redemption. Yet each seeks the experience of being forgiven.

It is one thing for a parent to act in such a way that an entity feels chronically unforgiven and unappreciated. It is a far more serious thing when an entity cannot, within the confines of its spiritual practice in that which you call Christianity, find, believe or rejoice in the experience of forgiveness and redemption. Few there are who truly believe, if they have considered it well, that they are, without some movement of the spirit within, forgiven all those things known and all those things not known which have been acts which separate us from ourselves, from each other, or from that great principle of love which is the Creator. Thus, the parents first, and the church, shall we call it, secondly, create the basic limitations upon those who seek the truth but cannot accept the particular expression and distortion of the truth of forgiveness and redemption in any language which is used within your religion.

There are many ways in which entities find a process of forgiveness, for let it be noted well that none feels truly without error. All consciousnesses are aware of their own humanity, their own clay feet, their own self-perceived error. It is part of the illusion in which you live that you experience this as part of being yourself. This is a part of yourself. In some entities, because of a childhood in which the entity was greatly loved and was given the love, the smiles, the touching, the obvious caring, the entity will far more likely be able to experience a sense of forgiveness through the forgiveness of the self by the greater self within. It is not that such entities know that they are without error, but that they have the faith given them because the sun shone upon them in the days of their youth, that the sun still shines upon them, and that there is no thing which cannot be forgiven.

How do these entities experience this forgiveness? By their forgiveness without stint or hindrance of any kind of all those with whom they come in contact. It is the self-forgiven entity which forgives others, not because he has earned forgiveness, but because he is an entity, and there is no error which may take away from that entity the truth of that entity’s nature, a being of oneness with the Creator.

When the experiences of the childhood were ones in which much was unforgiven, criticized, denied or rejected, the pilgrim shall have, shall we say, the knee-jerk reaction to deal with, of a feeling of not forgiving the self. Others it may forgive, but until one has come to some deep archetypical emotion within which expresses itself to the spirit in the words, “You are forgiven, you are loved,” that entity shall have a great deal of trouble loving the self, and thus, its forgiveness and compassion towards others masks a deep and abiding ache, a wound so terrible that it cannot be described, a wound of the self that will not forgive the self for being human.

All entities have help available to them. None need rely upon the self. But to those whose childhoods have been experienced as accepting and cherishing and nurturing will come those entities which are personal, speak personally to the entity, are intimate with the entity, and become the objective vision which encompasses the wall of self-forgiveness. Those who have been caused to believe that they cannot be as they are and be loved learn to behave and carry into their relationship with love an entity which behaves, rather than an entity which is as it is. In this case the same help is available, but it shall come to the entity in an impersonal form. Such impersonal forces, principles and entities, are as we, those who speak as inspiringly as possible through each instrument of the depth and resonance of the self of each of you, calling to you to call within yourself, acceptance, love and forgiveness.

You carry upon your backs, unless you forgive yourself every day, a terrible, terrible burden. The variousness of catalyst and experience among your peoples is intended and is guaranteed to create within the experience a subjective concept and opinion of the self as having come up short, of having failed in some way. Where, then, is salvation? It is within you, each of you. Roll the stone away from the tomb of low self-esteem, of self-doubt, of prejudice against the self. Think of yourself as an object other than yourself. Gaze upon the self as upon a stranger, and you will find that your opinion of yourself is changed, for you do not judge others as you judge yourself.

We are being asked by this instrument to come to a conclusion of our part of the message which we wish to offer, that comes through this instrument, as the hour, as this instrument calls it, grows late. We confess, we are talkative, and always speak overlong, according to this instrument.

We wish you to realize, each of you, that each of you has had various experiences in your youth, various experiences in those that seem to be in authority over you in a spiritual way. This has the repercussions of your own self-image, of your relationships with the Creator, with yourself and with those about you. We ask you simply to remember that it was to a man who had betrayed and denied the one known as Jesus that the one known as Jesus said, “You are my rock. That which is forgiven by you is forgiven, that which is not forgiven by you is not forgiven.”

My children, each of you can be perceived as less than perfect, but each of you has an honor and a duty to perform. Love yourself, and if you do not love yourself, work to love yourself. Love the Creator more and more passionately, spending time with the Creator in silence, and love and forgive all with whom you come in contact, for you are as powerful as any other human, fallible being. There is that within you which is of the consciousness of love, and your wellness, your wholeness and the truth of your being is wrapped up in the concept of yourself as an extension of brother or sister, a fellow heir of the one infinite Creator. Forgive, console and love, the Creator, yourself and others.

As we know that we are out of time, we must end with this instrument. We ask you to remember only one thing more. You may find yourself to be incapable of creating this within yourself in a week, or a month or a year. You have eternity in which to become joyful, forgiven and redeemed by whatever objectivization, such as Jesus the Christ, you may choose, or by whatever inner guide that your own background has made better for you as a bridge to the eternity and the infinity of love.

Q’uo seems to spend most of the rest of their answer to how do we choose our spiritual path focused on the effect the Christian religion has upon the spiritual seeker. They said that even if a person does not accept the religious experience of Christianity they are still subject to the concepts of having to let the ego die each day so that the seeker can be one with the Creator, but this process becomes twisted in a way that the seeker feels that it cannot accept this expression of redemption and must be forgiven. Then Q’uo seems to say that the spiritual seeker who lives within the Christian culture is burdened by this feeling of needing to be forgiven. However, Q’uo also said that some seekers who were loved and greatly appreciated in their childhood may be able to feel the forgiveness of the small self by the Greater Self within them. Q’uo said this type of seeker experiences forgiveness by being able to forgive those around it whereas if a seeker has a childhood in which it was not forgiven and was criticized, it may well have such an experience of deep pain that it will be unable to forgive itself for being human. Then Q’uo said that the ones with the positive childhoods can find self-forgiveness from those that are intimate with them, and those with negative childhoods will find forgiveness from impersonal sources such as Q’uo. Q’uo completed their response by saying that everyone could eventually find forgiveness by contacting that quality of the infinity of  the love of the Creator which is within each being, and there is an infinity of time for this to be experienced. On October 6, 2018, Q’uo outlined the process of self-forgiveness:

The forgiveness of the self is that which, when accomplished, allows the self to be able to move forward unfettered by the judgment of the self by the self. All judgment may be seen in a dual fashion. Judgment of a beginning nature, shall we say, is that which recognizes qualities within the being which are not as desired by the being, for they are considered to be other than that which is harmonious.

We must pause briefly.

[The instrument adjusts a restless and persistent feline entity on his lap.]

I am Q’uo and am with this instrument once again. The beginning judgment of the entity recognizes disharmony and that which offers the opportunity to grow through the harmonization of that which is disharmonious within the being. This involves the conscious recognition of each portion of the disharmonious experience as being that which has within it certain qualities which would allow the seeker of truth to expand its perception of itself. Thus, the ability to recognize that which needs to be balanced by its polar opposite is that which offers the concept of wholeness to the seeker of truth. In perceiving the self as becoming whole, it is necessary for the seeker to see the self as that which has made what could be described as a misstep or an error, and hold this misstep or error against the self as being a foolish movement, and thus increasing the judgment that began the appreciation of the nature of the supposed misstep.

However, after the recognition by the self of the seeming misstep, it is necessary for the entity to realize that this misstep has not been a misstep after all, but has been a movement towards growth, and the expansion of the perception of the self that requires that the self be able to accept itself as a new and risen being, shall we say, a being with a new possibility/probability vortex as a result of being able to move forward from the original position to the new position of more harmony and acceptance of the self. This acceptance of the self is another means of describing forgiveness. It is necessary for the entity to forgive itself for making what was seen to be a misstep. This forgiveness is possible as one sees that there has been a measurable growth in the awareness of the self, due to the experience of the need to process the catalyst resulting from the seeming misstep.

Thus, the completion of the process of learning, which can also be described as “stopping of the wheel of karma” is accomplished, as the self realizes that every step that is taken by the self is necessary for progress in conscious growth of the self. Thus, the forgiveness of the self is a primary part of this learning. If there has been an interaction with another self that has also been a portion of this disharmonious experience of the seeker of truth, then this other self must also be forgiven, for it is truly the case that each self is the other-self, each other-self is the self, so that it is necessary to forgive the self in both cases, and the other self in both entities. Therefore, there is the breaking of the inertia or the momentum that has carried the self to this point where it has been able to process the catalyst and to produce experience that is the fuel for future growth.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. I am known to you as Q’uo.

This morning I vacuumed the first floor of the house, and then I ran some errands with my first stop being at Cavalier’s Alterations where I picked up one of my new pairs of pants that needed to have the inseams shortened by an inch. My second stop was at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco. My third stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some non-food items and some ice cream.

This afternoon I used the white paint that was left over from the painting of the second floor bricks around the windows, gutters, soffits, and chimneys and painted the south side of the garage to blend a couple places where an off-white paint had been used years ago so now all of the south side of the garage is the same shade of white.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 22

Celebrate The Mass Of Christ

I am that inflow of divine love which is called the spirit of Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of Christ’s love.

The days grow short and because of the season you scurry about, arranging and rearranging the symbols of joy and peace so that you may come to the celebration day, the birthday, of Jesus the Christ. You move about, make and carry out many plans, and before the season itself is upon you, already you are foot-weary, heart-sore, and feeling that the true spirit of Christ’s mass has disappeared.

Yet have you asked for the spirit to move within your thoughts of consciousness to show a different panoramic view of this season? May you do so more and more frequently, turning always to the infinite love that is consciousness in Christ. Then all feet shall no longer be weary. Hearts shall no longer burn with anxiety, and those candles which are lit shall be lit with limitless love.

Bow your heads, my children, so that when next you look up you may see the grace of infinite love and you shall be comforted.

Now and ever, we leave you in peace. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 1, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any queries which have arisen during this gathering, or to any other query which is upon the mind of those present. We would preface this offering by reminding each that we offer but that which is our opinion. Take that which is useful to you and leave behind any words which do not ring with your own truth.

Is there a query at this time?

K: I have a brief one. Could you please give me as exact a transliteration as possible of “Adonai vasu borragus,” and what the origins are of those words?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. These closing exaltations are from a language which some upon your planet know of as Solex Mal. These words…

We pause.

[Pause]

We apologize, there was a disturbance with this instrument. These words are those which offer a thanksgiving to the crystal pure light within each being that has called for the presence of the contact speaking through an instrument. “The lord of the light” is one literal translation of the “adonai.” The “vasu” and “borragus” have meanings that are approximated by “the One who reigns within and forever.” This is seen as the essence of each entity and is felt to be a fitting closing for messages which are in truth spoken from the One to the One.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: Not for now, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

C: I have a query as to this time of year, the season, it being a time of growth and blossoming on this planet, and as to what activities and pursuits we can engage in singly and in combination with others to further the process of growth within ourselves and all that is around us.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Your planet at this time experiences each of those rhythmic cycles which you call the seasons. Within your own hemisphere there is the springing forth of new plant life as your days lengthen and warm to the greater presence of your sun body. It is a natural portion of each entity’s life pattern to respond in an harmonic fashion to those seasons which paint the background of your daily round of activities. Thus, to those who are sensitive to such cycles, one may see the harvest of the fall being taken into the heart of the self to be reflected upon in the depths and cold of your winter season. This reflection and burying of seeds within then makes way for the bursting forth of new ideas, new directions, new energies and growth in that season of spring which you now begin to enjoy, to produce its own crop of nourishment for the soul in your summer season.

It is well for those who have this sensitivity to engage in the group ritual observations of the changing of the seasons so that the essence of each is understood and practiced by the individuals who bring themselves and offer themselves in group worship, rejoicing and ritual. These are the milestones of the yearly procession of each day that you walk as a pilgrim upon your journey.

As a conscious pilgrim on the journey it is within your abilities to look upon each day as complete and to see the portions of the day as yet another cycle in a somewhat shorter season, so that you are completely free to bring forth new beginnings at any moment, to share the fruit of your learning of love and compassion and wisdom and of service with any entity that may for a moment walk upon the path with you. To share the smile, the helping hand, the understanding ear in any manner with any entity is to share the best of that which is yours, the fruit of your journey thus far within this illusion.

Thus, you are creatures of free will, moved by feelings, moved by tides within your own subconscious minds, and moved by a desire within your being to know that which is called the truth, and to experience that which is love, to learn that which is wisdom, and to serve in the power of the One. You may do this at any moment, according to your renewed desire that begins with your waking from your slumber, and extends throughout your day as you travel with each of your brothers and sisters upon this same journey.

Thus, what you do is to share that which you have when it is your moment to share as you are moved by the opportunities of the day and by your own desire to expand upon the opportunities and your abilities.

C wanted to know how we could use the time of the changing of the seasons as a group and as individuals to enhance our spiritual journeys. Q’uo began their response by saying that each of us can use the cycles of growth and change of our planet to reflect the new growth of the spring season, the enhanced growth of summer, the harvest of the fall, and the dormancy of the winter to reflect these seasons in our own lives as individuals and within groups as well. Then Q’uo said that as conscious seekers of truth we could also look at each day as having all of the seasons contained in it so that we could see new beginnings at any moment and share the love of the Creator to anyone around us as the fruit of our spiritual journeys. On March 20, 2021, Q’uo spoke of how the changing of seasons may affect our spiritual journeys:

Indeed, each entity within all of the creation is affected by the movement of the sun, the moon, the stars, the weather, the light, the dark. All of these cosmic forces are streaming into your environment at all times in various degrees of intensity, so that in one season, such as the winter season which is now ending upon your planet, [in the northern hemisphere] there is the paucity of light and the majority of darkness that has an effect upon third-density entities. They are more likely to be retiring into rest as the trees and flowers and grasses become dormant in the winter, and find themselves more contemplative, meditative and more able to realize their own limitations as mind/body/spirit complexes in that the weather may require that they remain indoors, find activities of a limited nature to pursue.

Then comes the spring, the light begins to increase, the temperatures begin to rise, the flowers and trees and bushes come to life, and there is the feeling of growth, of expansion, of expression that comes from within the being that is sustained, inspired, supported by the changing of the season, so that there is the feeling of new life, new possibilities, new directions in which to move and expand one’s activities to move into the outer atmosphere, the yard and garden, the larger world around one, to move in and out as the rivers of light begin to move within the being as well as without the being.

These are the two more extreme examples of how the weather and times of season change for an entity that is sensitive to such changes. For there are other changes as well that are in the form of the cosmic streamings of intelligent energy that come from distant stars and galaxies that have an effect as well as the seasons upon the planet.

As the galactic clock face has to offer the inspiration of the unity of Creation, the particularization of creation, in various and sundry ways, so the entity upon your planet has these cosmic rhythms beginning to pulsate within the spirit that then moves into the mind and the body and inspires certain kinds of feelings, and expressions of these feelings, that correspond to the changing of the seasons upon the planet itself. For all are part of the great galactic cosmic oneness of all Creation, and each part has an effect that it plays upon each other part so that all may make their contribution to the great puzzle and mystery of unity.

Is there a further query, my sister?

C: Not at this time, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: I guess not, Q’uo. Thank you so very much for being here.

I am Q’uo, and we also offer our gratitude to each of you who have invited our presence. We rejoice at these opportunities to share our opinions and our thoughts with you. We hope that within the many, many words which we have shared this evening there might be a few which are useful to you. Go forth, my friends, and use that which is helpful in your own way to further your own journey and those of your brothers and sisters as they walk with you.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we leave you as always in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my trimmer to weed the Moss Garden. It has been quite a while since I have had to do this since the colder weather has slowed the growth of the weeds.

This afternoon I got the remainder of the white paint that was left over after the painters were done painting the second floor bricks around the windows, gutters, eaves, and soffits last November and used it to touch up around the door in my bathroom.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 21

Seeds Of Light

I am of the consciousness of the love of Jesus Christ. I greet you in that love and wish you the joy of the Feast of the Nativity.

Feast it is, as light comes into the world, ever-darkened, ever pregnant with that which is to be. For darkness is the perfect home of future things. So the inside of your heart’s nature lies, black and fecund, awaiting the insertion of seeds of light that only you may acknowledge and nurture through the grace of your own calling upon the consciousness of love. By that call, great things have been accomplished.

Yet we are not bearers of the seed, but you. Therefore, carry your darkness proudly and bewail it not. But rather be ye perfect farmers of the seeds of the full consciousness of the love of Christ.

May peace be born in you this day and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.