The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 1, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any queries which have arisen during this gathering, or to any other query which is upon the mind of those present. We would preface this offering by reminding each that we offer but that which is our opinion. Take that which is useful to you and leave behind any words which do not ring with your own truth.

Is there a query at this time?

K: I have a brief one. Could you please give me as exact a transliteration as possible of “Adonai vasu borragus,” and what the origins are of those words?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. These closing exaltations are from a language which some upon your planet know of as Solex Mal. These words…

We pause.

[Pause]

We apologize, there was a disturbance with this instrument. These words are those which offer a thanksgiving to the crystal pure light within each being that has called for the presence of the contact speaking through an instrument. “The lord of the light” is one literal translation of the “adonai.” The “vasu” and “borragus” have meanings that are approximated by “the One who reigns within and forever.” This is seen as the essence of each entity and is felt to be a fitting closing for messages which are in truth spoken from the One to the One.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: Not for now, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

C: I have a query as to this time of year, the season, it being a time of growth and blossoming on this planet, and as to what activities and pursuits we can engage in singly and in combination with others to further the process of growth within ourselves and all that is around us.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Your planet at this time experiences each of those rhythmic cycles which you call the seasons. Within your own hemisphere there is the springing forth of new plant life as your days lengthen and warm to the greater presence of your sun body. It is a natural portion of each entity’s life pattern to respond in an harmonic fashion to those seasons which paint the background of your daily round of activities. Thus, to those who are sensitive to such cycles, one may see the harvest of the fall being taken into the heart of the self to be reflected upon in the depths and cold of your winter season. This reflection and burying of seeds within then makes way for the bursting forth of new ideas, new directions, new energies and growth in that season of spring which you now begin to enjoy, to produce its own crop of nourishment for the soul in your summer season.

It is well for those who have this sensitivity to engage in the group ritual observations of the changing of the seasons so that the essence of each is understood and practiced by the individuals who bring themselves and offer themselves in group worship, rejoicing and ritual. These are the milestones of the yearly procession of each day that you walk as a pilgrim upon your journey.

As a conscious pilgrim on the journey it is within your abilities to look upon each day as complete and to see the portions of the day as yet another cycle in a somewhat shorter season, so that you are completely free to bring forth new beginnings at any moment, to share the fruit of your learning of love and compassion and wisdom and of service with any entity that may for a moment walk upon the path with you. To share the smile, the helping hand, the understanding ear in any manner with any entity is to share the best of that which is yours, the fruit of your journey thus far within this illusion.

Thus, you are creatures of free will, moved by feelings, moved by tides within your own subconscious minds, and moved by a desire within your being to know that which is called the truth, and to experience that which is love, to learn that which is wisdom, and to serve in the power of the One. You may do this at any moment, according to your renewed desire that begins with your waking from your slumber, and extends throughout your day as you travel with each of your brothers and sisters upon this same journey.

Thus, what you do is to share that which you have when it is your moment to share as you are moved by the opportunities of the day and by your own desire to expand upon the opportunities and your abilities.

C wanted to know how we could use the time of the changing of the seasons as a group and as individuals to enhance our spiritual journeys. Q’uo began their response by saying that each of us can use the cycles of growth and change of our planet to reflect the new growth of the spring season, the enhanced growth of summer, the harvest of the fall, and the dormancy of the winter to reflect these seasons in our own lives as individuals and within groups as well. Then Q’uo said that as conscious seekers of truth we could also look at each day as having all of the seasons contained in it so that we could see new beginnings at any moment and share the love of the Creator to anyone around us as the fruit of our spiritual journeys. On March 20, 2021, Q’uo spoke of how the changing of seasons may affect our spiritual journeys:

Indeed, each entity within all of the creation is affected by the movement of the sun, the moon, the stars, the weather, the light, the dark. All of these cosmic forces are streaming into your environment at all times in various degrees of intensity, so that in one season, such as the winter season which is now ending upon your planet, [in the northern hemisphere] there is the paucity of light and the majority of darkness that has an effect upon third-density entities. They are more likely to be retiring into rest as the trees and flowers and grasses become dormant in the winter, and find themselves more contemplative, meditative and more able to realize their own limitations as mind/body/spirit complexes in that the weather may require that they remain indoors, find activities of a limited nature to pursue.

Then comes the spring, the light begins to increase, the temperatures begin to rise, the flowers and trees and bushes come to life, and there is the feeling of growth, of expansion, of expression that comes from within the being that is sustained, inspired, supported by the changing of the season, so that there is the feeling of new life, new possibilities, new directions in which to move and expand one’s activities to move into the outer atmosphere, the yard and garden, the larger world around one, to move in and out as the rivers of light begin to move within the being as well as without the being.

These are the two more extreme examples of how the weather and times of season change for an entity that is sensitive to such changes. For there are other changes as well that are in the form of the cosmic streamings of intelligent energy that come from distant stars and galaxies that have an effect as well as the seasons upon the planet.

As the galactic clock face has to offer the inspiration of the unity of Creation, the particularization of creation, in various and sundry ways, so the entity upon your planet has these cosmic rhythms beginning to pulsate within the spirit that then moves into the mind and the body and inspires certain kinds of feelings, and expressions of these feelings, that correspond to the changing of the seasons upon the planet itself. For all are part of the great galactic cosmic oneness of all Creation, and each part has an effect that it plays upon each other part so that all may make their contribution to the great puzzle and mystery of unity.

Is there a further query, my sister?

C: Not at this time, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: I guess not, Q’uo. Thank you so very much for being here.

I am Q’uo, and we also offer our gratitude to each of you who have invited our presence. We rejoice at these opportunities to share our opinions and our thoughts with you. We hope that within the many, many words which we have shared this evening there might be a few which are useful to you. Go forth, my friends, and use that which is helpful in your own way to further your own journey and those of your brothers and sisters as they walk with you.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group. We are known to you as those of Q’uo, and we leave you as always in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my trimmer to weed the Moss Garden. It has been quite a while since I have had to do this since the colder weather has slowed the growth of the weeds.

This afternoon I got the remainder of the white paint that was left over after the painters were done painting the second floor bricks around the windows, gutters, eaves, and soffits last November and used it to touch up around the door in my bathroom.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 21

Seeds Of Light

I am of the consciousness of the love of Jesus Christ. I greet you in that love and wish you the joy of the Feast of the Nativity.

Feast it is, as light comes into the world, ever-darkened, ever pregnant with that which is to be. For darkness is the perfect home of future things. So the inside of your heart’s nature lies, black and fecund, awaiting the insertion of seeds of light that only you may acknowledge and nurture through the grace of your own calling upon the consciousness of love. By that call, great things have been accomplished.

Yet we are not bearers of the seed, but you. Therefore, carry your darkness proudly and bewail it not. But rather be ye perfect farmers of the seeds of the full consciousness of the love of Christ.

May peace be born in you this day and evermore. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from April 1, 1990:

The question this evening focuses on the points of the journey rather than the goal of the journey, how we are all in a process, and at times struggling quite mightily to meet the various challenges that come our way, whether it might be sickness or monetary problems, relationship problems, finding out exactly who we are in different facets of our being. We tend to focus upon making some sort of resolution and judge ourselves by how well we succeed in our own eyes at solving these problems. We would like some information this evening concerning the process and how this process works, not so much in helping us to achieve a goal, but in becoming a new type of person, a new soul, a new being by going through the process, by going through the struggle, the heroic struggle.

(Carla channeling)

I am of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and greet you, my friends, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, whose servants and messengers we are. We are most grateful for this opportunity to be called to your group, for the energy which each has offered, moving through this instrument, that we may have good steady contact. May we say what a pleasure and a blessing it is also for us to share with each of your vibratory patterns. As we seek together, so the blending becomes ever more harmonious, and we find great joy in the springtime that is in all of your hearts this evening, that springtime sense of renewal and of growth, of movement and rebirth, of transformation and transfiguration.

You ask us to speak of the journey of the pilgrim, of the search for the Holy Grail, of the quest for the impossible dream, of the seeking of truth in an illusion whose purpose is extraordinarily bound up in there being no perfect truths, [inaudible] only pragmatic solutions which have nothing of the ideal in them, only compromise and expediency. There are more and more such as you upon the surface of your sphere at this time that seek that which they cannot know, rather than what has given them their gadgets, their toys, their weapons of war.

Let us first examine the condition into which each of you was incarnated. Into each of your preincarnative programs there was inserted the spirit of willfulness, that is, the spirit to wander, to roam and to do as one wilt no matter what the cost to others. And in almost each life at some time there is the necessity to break free from old bonds of seeming righteousness and propriety, to seek a truer, better, more resonant and halfway remembered road upon which you have trod before. This is the road you call home. You are always on the way. See you then a tree? There is your home. Pitch your tent, drink from the spring, and move on. Within you there is a single self that seeks. The outer self in the great illusion of third density is violently bombarded at almost every turn by attempts to distract one from the contemplation and the seeking after that which you would call the pilgrim’s journey.

Let us examine but two of your myths to see the basic similarities and dynamics of that cosmology into which your own personal faith is the central portion. The first is that parable so familiar to you within the works attributed to those who knew the one known as Jesus. He spoke of a prodigal son, a son who wished to take all that was his and go and have adventure, in the glory of his youth and manhood, and a fine time did he also have, till his pockets were let and empty, and he no more than swine, eating that which the pigs left behind.

What is most often forgotten in this parable was the plight of the faithful son, the one who never took a chance, the one who never did anything wrong, the brother that stayed at home and worked hard for the father. Years later, after many painful and disastrous experiences, the prodigal son, hoping to be hired on as a slave at his father’s estate, limped slowly and wearily toward the great castle which had once been half his and was his no more. Yet the father saw this entity, this son, and to correct the biases of your holy work, this daughter, moving wearily towards a home that he no longer knew might exist, wearily hoping to find the humblest and lowest position in the household, for simply to be in the gates of his father’s house was reckoned enough by the prodigal.

The prodigal was aware of the journey it had made. It was not easy upon itself, and, indeed, it had done many things seemingly amiss. Yet did the father’s love respond in any way to judgment when he saw that his son, his daughter, was coming to meet him at last? No, not at all. Rather, he gathered all together for a great feast to celebrate that son, that daughter, whom he thought he had lost, and in free will could not bring back; that prodigal child who had of its own accord turned back to the father’s house, not knowing the outcome, not knowing the reception, being content to be as one of the dogs at the table catching the crumbs of the meals of those worthy to sit at the high table of his lord the father. Ah, what a welcome this child received, how gloriously happy was the father that that which had been lost to him was found again.

The group question for this session was how the seeker of truth could deal—not with the goal of the spiritual path—but with the problems that occur from time to time while traveling the spiritual path. Q’uo began by saying that each seeker is on a journey much like seeking the Holy Grail or that which is unknowable to the conscious mind. However, we have pre-incarnative programs that we half remember in stages as we move on this trail of seeking which could be seen as our home. Then Q’uo used the parable of the prodigal son who took his half of his father’s inheritance and after a period of time squandered it all until he had nothing left, and then went back to his father’s home with the hope of working as a slave and at least be able to feed himself. But the father was so happy to have him back that he threw a banquet for him because he was lost, and now he was found. On May 30, 1993, Q’uo gave a basic description of the stages of growth that we all go through:

This is another way of saying that the way you look at your self and your life and its possibilities is an attitude which has allowed you to move to a certain point in your growth and balancing of mind, body, and spirit.

All children, and indeed all entities moving through the incarnational pattern, move through stages of growth, of perception, of abilities, of goals, of means of achieving such. The entity which seeks to learn always encounters that which is new. The attitude with which you proceed upon this journey may itself at times need to be expanded, shall we say, or to be made more flexible, more able to allow possibility.

In another of your myths the deep dark of winter is brought about as the hero is chopped up and his parts strewn so that they may not ever be found again. Deep winter dwells upon the Earth as the father is seemingly no more and chaos reigns. Yet such love has Isis that she goes about gathering up those pieces, and putting back together the great prodigal scattering of godhead. Each part within itself could be nothing; it was only as it was put together that it regained unity, and made all the people joyful, the flowers bloom anew, the leaves dance and clap their hands, and the mountains laugh with joyful abandon, for once more that which was lost had been found.

Within your culture this day, my friends, many, many are those who see spiritually oriented or metaphysically oriented groups as those whose duty it is, whose responsibility it is, and whose pleasure it is to reassure, comfort and tend to the needs of those others within the group. Each is felt to be a shepherd to all the rest, and the world becomes one great pasture, where none ever leaves the fold of the father, as the father expresses itself in each son that has stayed at home, for all that the father has is the son’s also.

The comfort, the tenderness, the poignancy and the security of the pastoral sense of community cannot be gainsaid, nor would we wish to. But we address you as pilgrims. You are not of a pastoral faith, you are a pilgrim people, and you move forward into uncharted lands, strange adventures, unknown happenings. The end of your journey is something of which you know not, neither can you know at all. We, who have had some slight more experience than you, know this not at all ourselves.

So we urge each, in the beginning, to recognize the benefits of the pastoral, loving, nurturing community of seekers, but we remind you also, that each of you is a teacher to each other, each of you is a mirror held up to each other and you must hold up an honest, straightforward and fearless mirror that shows whatever is there, whether it may be called that which is spiritually desirable, or that which is considered otherwise.

The pastoral part of your community is excellent for raising the trust of each member for each other. What love is born as one listens, pardons, consoles and gives, as pilgrims who have almost nothing but give what they have to each other, companions upon a dusty path that leads they know not where, in search of an ideal in a land they know not to be ideal, in search of a hollowness of self, when they feel that self overflowing with personality and character and opinion and bias.

Can a pilgrim afford these attitudes of judgment? We say to you, no, a pilgrim cannot. It cannot judge itself, for it is merely a dusty-footed pilgrim upon a very, very long path whose ending lies at the source of all things, the home to which all strive to attain. Although you may find many, many dear companions along the way, each of you is his own pilgrim self, whole, complete, male and female together. There is no need to balance in pairs, there is no need to find balances so that your so-called yin and yang energies are balanced betwixt two entities or more, for the true balancing is done as the prodigal child turns and says, “No more, no more. I am not in a state of enjoyment or happiness, all those things I have sought with money and with debauchery have proven to be false. Let me turn now and listen to that which before I did not hear, see that which I saw before but did not perceive, and understand in my heart those things which made no intellectual sense whatsoever.”

Now Q’uo said that, even though as spiritual seekers we all see ourselves as a group that provides comfort for each other, we need to remember that we are all teachers of each other and need to be honest in our relating to each other as mirrors for each other. Then Q’uo said that the spiritual path is a very long one, and there is much mystery that each will face in a unique way, and that supporting each other with love, trust, and pardoning each other is most helpful on this spiritual journey. They said that we need to avoid judgement of ourselves in this seeking and hollowing out of ourselves and to realize that we are all unique beings who seek to see that which we have never seen and to hear that which we have not heard before. On August 5, 1984, Latwii said the spiritual journey is enhanced by  challenges:

The continuation of the journey of seeking is that which is most important for it is an infinite journey and each stumbling block does not in truth hinder the journey but truly speeds it by providing the opportunity for that which is old and worn and no longer useful to be discarded and for that which is a new possibility for the seeker’s consideration to be placed before the seeker’s mind.

We find that the central image in each which suggests the path that is taken is that path called the path to the Holy Grail. First let us gaze at this great prize. It is a hollow, empty vessel. It waits to be filled with that which is holy. Know you not, then, that that which you seek is within you? That your cup is too full of yourself? You must spill yourself out in your pilgrim walk. You must drop bag after bag, and garment after garment, bias after bias, and prejudice after prejudice, until at last you stand, vulnerable, without the ability to defend the self, yet having no fear, for you have become empty and you wait for the grail of an Earthly self to be filled with the immediate presence of the love of the one infinite Creator.

It is difficult to speak to entities who do not see through the veil of a seemingly objective journey that is also seemingly subjective. In just the way that the creation shows itself through the telescope, but shows itself also within you, so is there the symbol of a glass waiting to be filled with love and light outside the self which may be translated into the cup of the self deliberately and sacrificially emptied day by day by day, until you have the capacity to be hollow, to be humble, and to accept the glory of love divine and imperishable. The cup of your body shall cease to be, yet if you have fashioned it lovingly enough in your thoughts, this cup shall be your metaphysical statement, the centerpiece of a tapestry woven in purity and love and desperation and desire, the tapestry of the life of a pilgrim.

We have said this before and shall say it again: we ask you above all things to be merry in your journey. It is not pleasing to the self, or to one’s companions, to become so involved, so agonized about the spiritual side of the self that it simply cannot think beyond itself. Many spiritual seekers are solipsistic, and therefore not able to polarize towards the positive, for to polarize positively is to see in each face the face of love. It is not looking and searching within the self in the mirror, contemplating the navel, meditating, organizing the life, starting grand projects of spirituality. All these things are good in their place, but realize first of all that when you have become clear enough to open the heart to unconditional love it is time to empty the vessel of yourself of all that is clay and dust, and become that hollow self through which the light and the love of the one Creator may flow.

Is there an answer to the question you ask? We must tell you: if there is one, we do not know it. All we do know is that we are experiencing a journey, a journey without time, a journey without space, in the subjective sense; a journey very much in time and very much in space in your outer experience. We suggest that you study not the fortune-telling aspects of the tarot or the archetypical mind but the symbols themselves, for they show to the self that blueprint of that which any entity has the capacity to attain. Sincerity, humility and persistence, the daily, constant centering and meditation, all these humble things are those that open the self to be a pilgrim.

Stay not at home, tend not your father’s flocks, until you first have discovered your own limitations, your own compassion for those whom you previously thought quite unlike yourself, for you are everyone you meet, and it is only when you have the humility to recognize yourself in all that you see that it is possible for you as a pilgrim to shine forth in each dark corner with the infinite love of the great Spirit that hovers over, around, beneath and within you. Bow to that which is within yourself. Die to that dross which keeps you from the grail. Be a pilgrim people, and exhort each other as each becomes discouraged. Listen to each other, not to change each other, but simply to listen. Trust each entity to heal itself once difficulties have been expressed.

The freedom to speak and communicate clearly is born a very hard birth by most entities who do not have within them the native trust to confide, to be open, to be foursquare against all odds and in all situations. Consequently, we ask that as you walk the dusty road you gaze at those things which you have not thought to trust before: the beating of your heart, the warmth of the sun, the rustling of the trees, the song of the birds. All these things are there to give you that which you may learn from and in which you may abide as you begin and continue an arduous yet most exciting and exhilarating journey full of epiphany, transformation and change.

Now Q’uo said that our spiritual path is the path to the Holy Grail which is an empty cup and waits to be filled with that which is holy, the love of the Creator, but first we must empty ourselves of our various biases and prejudices. Then Q’uo said that we should strive to be merry and not overly concerned about the daily details of our spiritual journey but that we continue to seek to open our hearts in unconditional love and allow the light and love of the Creator to flow through us. Lastly, Q’uo said that as we are able to see the Creator in all others, in the warmth of the sun, the rustling of the trees, and the song of the birds, our spiritual path will continue to bring us transformation and change. On June 23, 1989, Q’uo said that transformation and change could bring us to a higher truth about ourselves:

But in order to avoid becoming a pawn in someone else’s game you must grasp the dimensions of the understanding that is being asked of you, and then to the best of your ability attempt to learn and to manifest that new understanding, to undergo the pain of transformation and change, and to use the energy of that pain for a building of a new and higher truth for yourself.

There are no answers that we have to give you. We can only say that you are asking the correct questions. We cannot promise you riches, fame, security or happiness. We offer you only the dust, the coarse roads of the pilgrim, the harsh sun of the desert which is often traveled while the soul is in travail and a new soul is being born within. We offer you discomfort, the discomfort of change, and as you meditate and seek to know your own deep self, seek to deepen your trust, you shall find yourself more and more uncomfortable as you change more and more. This discomfort is a divine discomfort, an excellent discomfort, an encouraging discomfort, for it means that you are in truth prepared to change. You have allowed your rigidity of belief to melt into the malleable, impressionable thought processes which are powered by the energy gained from dropping the old programs that have been to you in some way destructive.

Each of you has a different way of destroying self-esteem within the self, a different way of rationalizing. Do not condemn yourselves, pilgrims. Move to one who is in pastoral relationship with you and speak your thoughts freely, for you are the Creator speaking to the Creator, and you must needs find entities whom you may trust to that extent, else you shall be alone and confused in the outer world. But when you have expressed yourself and have been heard, then it is time to carry on that which you have begun, the infinite processes of change and transformation.

You will always be on the way, you will never see the face of the one infinite Creator, for could you but see it, it would appear only as light, a light that would blind you. You are not ready for an unbiased look at the infinite One which broods over the universe and gazes upon Itself with a love so compassionate and so complete that there is no end to the loving you are receiving at this very moment, not simply from us, messengers of the Law of One, but from the Creator Itself, whose love sparkles in the air that you breathe, comes through the soles of your feet as you touch the earth, moves through the body enlivening, refreshing, restoring.

Once you feel so restored, remember you are a pilgrim. Pick up your staff and trudge on, for there is more to learn about love, and as long as you are in the physical body that you enjoy for this incarnation, you are gazing at your path of service not in some far off way of extreme asceticism, not in the travels from one group to another to sample the spiritual supermarket, as this instrument likes to call it. You are here to gaze upon an illusion, to come to some basic conclusions about that illusion, and that is that it is a dualistic illusion. In your heart you know there is no duality. The illusion expresses duality in every way possible. Expect your spiritual pilgrimage to be full not only of mystery but of paradox, yet go forth rejoicing, for this present moment intersects with eternity and resonates with joy and love and peace right now, this moment, and this moment, and this moment.

Be ye mindful pilgrims, be ye open to change, be ye not content to stay at home, but move into challenging and unknown ways, freely to examine, to sample and to experience the nuances of the choice that you must make in this density. Nations have made this choice, entities have made this choice. Shall you serve others or shall you serve yourself? In both nations and individuals the answer is usually that of the brother that stays at home where it is safe. Live dangerously, my friends. As this instrument would put it, die behind the wheel. In your content, find the divine discontent of one who seeks always the wider viewpoint, the clearer, more lucid expression of the gemlike self which is the Christ, the great One within. And keep your quest and your questions before you.

As you correctly surmise, the persistent quest of your ideal in an illusion which is not ideal is both foolish and the wisest thing you shall ever do within this illusion. Seek, seek ye, and what shall you find? If you knock, what shall open unto you? Pilgrims, we call you, take up your walking sticks and come along. It is a fine journey. And be very careful as to that which you seek and that which you desire, for you shall receive that which you desire.

Now Q’uo said that we are on a long road of experiencing the pain of change as we drop those portions of our selves that are no longer needed and become new beings. Then they said that one way to aid this change is to seek assistance from one in a pastoral role where we can speak of our spiritual process of change and transformation and receive guidance. Then Q’uo suggested that as we travel our spiritual journey that we realize that we are constantly experiencing the love of the Creator in the world around us in each moment of our lives. Q’uo completed their answer as to the nature of our spiritual seeking is to make the choice of service to others and then continue seeking the One within, for then we shall find that which we desire. On February 4, 1990, Q’uo described the process of finding that which we desire:

The illusion in which you find yourselves at this time is one which presents the greatest of challenges, in our humble estimation, for the nature of your illusion is that of the mantling over of the many jewels of the one Creator in a fashion which seems to suggest that each entity is truly separate one from another and that the strength of one must pit itself against the might of the many for any portion of peace or pleasure. This is the illusion which presents itself to your senses each day, and it is a brave and courageous act indeed to place oneself in the heart of such illusion and to hold steady to the ideals of unity of light, of the ability of each entity to fashion a pathway to that light and to that unity, both within and without the self. We salute each in each effort that is made, for each effort builds upon each previous effort and redoubles the strength of the seeking. You seek, you seek, you seek, and slowly you find, and that which you find becomes strong and firm within your being as you continue seeking, and seeking, and seeking. That light which you create is not easily seen within your illusion, but, my friends, we may say that it shines about you as brightly as those stars and suns that populate the universe about you.

We would like to leave this instrument at this time, as this instrument has been explaining to us again that we have outstayed our allotted time period. Pardon our prolixity. We do get wound up, do we not, in what we have to say? We feel our cup is not yet quite hollow ourselves, and we join you in your search. We thank this instrument, and we now transfer in love and in light and in the merriment of brother and sisterhood together, to the one known as Jim. I am Q’uo.

This morning I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves from the side and front of the house into the leave the leaves area between the fish pond and the pet cemetery. We had some strong winds a couple of days ago that blew leaves from the leave the leaves area all around that area.

This afternoon I went outside and used my blower to blow the honeysuckle bush leaves into a pile in the back yard, and then I put them in a garbage can for yard waste pickup tomorrow. This should be all of the leaf work in the back yard for the year.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 20

Hollow A Place For Love

We are those of the full principle of the love of Jesus the Christ and we greet you in that divine consciousness.

This instrument, like so many, has over-concern for the events of the day, not seeing the magic, the ambience and the comfort of every passing moment. For did not the spirit of love come into the things unseen, unformed and unknown, to create patterns of love and power and wisdom, not by moving to those who are over-concerned but by flowing through channels which love has been allowed to hollow within the breast of humankind?

Thus we ask you to be unconcerned on a deep level, regardless of the busyness and the difficulty of the day ahead. Rest, rather, in the extraordinary comfort offered by universal, all-powerful and all-present love. Rest. Be comforted. And know that if you but hollow out the space and time within you, love shall do its perfect work through you, not as you imagine it should be done in every case, but as love itself requires.

We leave you in the peace of the knowledge of divine love. It is a peace which, though unpredictable in its mechanisms, is infinitely predictable in the standard of love which it bears proudly. May peace and love ride into your life and fill that hollow place where trouble dwelt, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 25, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. We are now able to offer ourselves in further querying if there be queries which yet remain. Is there a query to which we may speak?

K: You said earlier that when a person asks for help it’s a good idea to evaluate that request to determine if our compliance would be helpful for that person in their spiritual search or not. In some cases there seems to be a fairly obvious difference between what would be of help to a person and what would be just pleasing them, but in other cases it is more difficult to tell. My question is, how am I to judge what is going to be helpful to a person in their spiritual search and what is not? Could you offer me some suggestions on that?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. As you speak to those who request your assistance, it is well that you determine through your own intuitive nature the quality that is at the heart of the request. This is to say that one looks beyond the words spoken, beyond the information which is sought, and looks to that yearning that inspired the request. This cannot be done by mental analysis or the recalling of specific information that would meet the letter of the request. This is the nature of the process of taking no concern for what you will say when you are asked to serve, but having faith that words, deeds, feelings, will be given.

Thus, it is our suggestion that, before you seek to serve in any particular fashion that is related to a spiritual query, you take a moment with yourself to make silent your conscious mind that would rush to answer with words, and dive deeply within the silence, there to attempt to become who that entity is in the quality of its query at that moment, not who the entity has been in your mind, or who the entity should be in your mind, or might be, but who the entity is at that moment. Then, respond as you are inspired. You may of course find that there are retrievals of information that occur, memories that are utilized, analysis that is applied, as you respond to the inner inspiration. This is well, for each of you has experiences that are useful in fleshing out the concepts that are oftentimes beyond words.

K wanted to know how she could determine when she was helping another person on their spiritual journey and when she was just pleasing them. Q’uo suggested that she use her intuition and look beyond the words spoken to her and to dive deeply within her silence and attempt to become that entity as it is in that moment and respond as she is inspired to respond to the request for service in a manner that might also use memories and analysis to flesh out abstract concepts. In 18.6, Ra gave the same suggestion to attempt to become the entity one wishes to serve:

We can suggest an attempt to become aware of the other-self as self and thus do that action which is needed by other-self, understanding from the other-self’s intelligence and awareness. In many cases this does not involve the breaking of the distortion of free will into a distortion or fragmentation called infringement. However, it is a delicate matter to be of service, and compassion, sensitivity, and an ability to empathize are helpful in avoiding the distortions of man-made intelligence and awareness.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: Does this process also apply to requests for help that have no obvious relation to the spiritual quest?

I am Q’uo, and we would suggest that this is an useful means of communicating upon the level of pure idea, shall we say, for want of better terms, and can be helpful in any area of concern or inquiry.

Is there another query, my sister?

K: Not for now, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: I have one. There have been several times in my life when I had a very difficult situation, and looked at it, realizing that people were going to think I was a doormat, deciding nevertheless to continue, because I saw a spiritual principle involved. To give you a simple example, I had a boss once who had a very low opinion of herself. I could be two minutes away, rushing all away to the ringing telephone on her desk, but such was the depth of her need to feel superior that she would wait until I answered the telephone. Obviously in doing so I was pleasing her, but to my way of thinking, and this may have simply been in my head and not in my heart, I don’t know, I felt I was serving her also because I was giving her a feeling that she was worth any effort I could make for her. Is this rationalization or is it thinking from the heart? Because this situation has come up repeatedly in my life, and I would like to understand the pattern.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To speak without infringement is our desire, thus we would say that it is, in the case that you have mentioned, an action which fulfills the spiritual or metaphysical prerequisite for polarization that your intention for the action is to be of service to another. Thus, the action is efficacious for you. However, it may or may not be a service to the entity that you reinforce a distorted perception of the self. This cannot be said with any certainty, for we would need to examine each entity’s life pattern in order to offer more informed opinion. The desire to serve is the most important quality in any action that relates entities. The method that we suggested earlier, to take a moment to attempt within to become that entity, is a means by which this desire may perhaps be more carefully and precisely honed and utilized. However, the desire is the most important quality.

Is there at further query, my sister?

Carla: I just want to make sure I understand what you’re saying. What you’re saying is, my action was not necessarily of service to anyone else, but it enabled me to work on my own polarization in consciousness. Is that it?

I am Q’uo, and this is basically correct, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: Is it wrong to please someone, or inadvisable, I should say, just for the sake of seeing them smile?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Of course, as you realize yourself, there is no right or wrong to the means by which entities interact, for each entity is the Creator that works upon Itself and reveals more of the Self in the process. All interaction offers this opportunity. It is the great dance of your illusion to offer opportunities in many and various patterns according to individual choices and idiosyncrasies. Thus are the avenues for progress multiple.

If one should desire to inspire the smile upon the face of another, it is a desire well placed, for within your illusion there is much of confusion that does not bring the smile either to the face or to the heart. Thus, it is a small gift that one may give that is a joy for each. There are, of course, ramifications to any behavior that is repeated, that each entity does well to study. This includes all behaviors, for all behaviors are the coursework of your illusion, and indicate certain tendencies that allow the insight into the deeper nature of the self. Some are well to build upon, others are well to balance. These are individual choices, as you are aware.

Now Carla asked if it was wrong to please someone just to see them smile. Q’uo responded by saying that there was no right or wrong way to interact with others as all interactions provided a way for the Creator to know Itself. They also said that the occasion of the creating of a smile upon another’s face could be a help in the third density illusion but continued behaviors in this way could be built upon, or some might need to be balanced. In 27.8, Ra spoke about how the Creator desires to know Itself:

Questioner: Now, I understand that the first distortion of intelligent infinity is the distortion of what we call free will. Can you give me a definition of this distortion?

Ra: I am Ra. In this distortion of the Law of One it is recognized that the Creator will know Itself.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, Q’uo, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo. We feel that we have spoken at length this evening in a manner which we hope has been helpful, and we thank each for not only calling for our presence in your gathering, but for the patience that each has shown, as we have offered ourselves in a lengthy manner, which often makes the physical vehicle uncomfortable as it rests in one position over the long…

Carla: May I ask a question?

I am Q’uo, and we are happy to attempt your query.

Carla: If this group studied together the information in this session and developed a further question from this session, and tried to get more continuity in the questions, would we be being of aid to your social memory complex, or group of them, to a further extent than accepting the randomized questions of those who write questions, or would it be more helpful if we kept on as we are, in terms of your service at this time?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We are filled with joy at the opportunity to speak at any gathering of this group. We have no agenda, shall we say. We have no desire to offer specific information in what you call a coherent fashion. We are happy to offer such information if we are queried in that manner. We look at the queries which are offered to us and see that they come from genuine concern. This is the most important quality for these contacts, for it is your desire for information regarding the evolutionary process that provides us with the opportunity to serve and the means by which information is drawn from us, for we answer as we are queried. Your desire is much like the magnet which draws to it the iron filing. We see each opportunity as whole and perfect in itself. We are happy to offer ourselves in any capacity as you structure either these sessions or any queries asked within them.

Carla asked Q’uo if it would be more helpful to Q’uo if this group studied the message from this session and formulated one coherent question for the next session, or would it be just as helpful to those of Q’uo if the group continued on with random questions. Q’uo responded by saying that they had no agenda, and that the quality of the desire of those present to seek information regarding the process of evolution was that which allowed them to be of the greatest service. In 7.15, Ra made a similar statement:

However, service to others results in service to self, thus preserving and further harmonizing the distortions of those entities seeking intelligent infinity through these disciplines.

Do you have a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, no, please, I’m sorry I interrupted your closing. I just wanted to ask that.

I am Q’uo, and we are grateful for your queries, my sister, at all times. We are grateful for each opportunity to blend our vibrations with this group’s. We are grateful that there are entities upon your planetary surface that seek information and inspiration, both in spoken words and in those thoughts and feeling-tones which are unspoken as well. We are greatly honored to be able to offer ourselves in even the smallest capacity of sending love to those that request it, and who may be quite unaware that they do indeed receive an answer to their inner queries and needs.

At this time we shall take our leave of this group. We are those known to you as Q’uo. We leave you as always in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I made an errand run with my first stop being at Gaddie’s Eye Center to pick up a new lens for my glasses that was scratched. My second stop was at the vet’s to pick up some medication for Bosco. Then I stopped in at Walgreen’s to pick up some food and non-food items.

This afternoon I ironed a patch on one of my older Happy Socks with a Beatles theme and then sewed it on as well since the patch will eventually come off in the washing machine. I am attempting to save my older Beatles Happy Socks because the new ones I recently ordered were made of a less sturdy material and didn’t fit my foot well, plus they weren’t as colorful.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 19

Open To The Spirit

I am of the principle of unconditional love and I greet you in the name and the peace of Jesus Christ. “Without Me you can do nothing.” You have heard these words many times. They are not words to be taken literally. Think of the sentence, “Without love one can do nothing,” and realize that you are here at this blessed time of darkness, pregnant with your soul just as the earth, so bleak and bare seemingly, is pregnant within with all the blossoms and fruits of the harvest to come.

Whatever your spirit is, this is the time for its renewal. This is the time for its swaddling, its nurturing, the keeping of it quietly, confidently and with no need for outer expression.

Allow this young, new sense of self to be open to the Spirit which you call Holy, that you may be renewed and that the face of the earth may, one person at a time, be changed.

We leave you in the peace of this pregnancy of self. Cherish yourself. Cherish your spirit and rest in peace and love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from March 25, 1990:

What is important in the spiritual life/search?

(Carla channeling)

I am of the principle known to you as Q’uo, and I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We know that you have enjoyed the silent meditation that has come before our speaking, yet we would explain the reason for the extra time which was spent, for it applies directly to the question of that which is important when one undertakes the spiritual search.

This instrument was not receiving the full power of its considerable beingness, as its heart chakra was in part blocked, a most unusual state for this instrument. Consequently, those who greet you of the negative polarity were all too happy to say our names, and because of the lack of full power of perception this instrument was able to discern only that there was something amiss. We were not yet in contact with this instrument, and in any case, had we been or not, we could not have made the choice patiently to return and go through each step of tuning to discover the blockage. That this instrument has the humility, the patience, and the high level of trust of the self by the self in its intuition to move back and attempt only the highest and best of contacts is to the credit of this instrument and to any who would seek.

This instrument’s heart chakra was in part locked into a less than full compassion for one who wished this instrument well, yet who chose to speak and act in ways this instrument could not understand, in ways that were thoughtless and hurtful. This entity has the name, S. Therefore, this instrument took the time to focus upon this relationship, to forgive, forgive the other, forgive and love the self, and realize that no harm is meant in that which causes hurt, in many, many encounters between people upon your Earth.

Some may say, indeed, that this was an orange-ray blockage, a difficulty in relationship, but because of this instrument’s, shall we say, spiritual circuitry, all such imbalances are, in truth, those of green ray. When this anger, frustration and pain, feeling of betrayal and abandonment was released, there opened in the being a chakra full of unconditional love which excluded no part of humankind.

Thus, in answering the question of what is most important in the spiritual life, the spiritual search and the spiritual path, we would say absolute and rigorous honesty in evaluation of who you are, what you wish, what you will to be done, and what sort of search you wish to mount for the Creator. Many look at the relationship with the Creator as the mountain climber looks upon Everest. Like a mountain, the spiritual instinct lies within man, and its very beingness in the consciousness requires many to strive to scale it. The great fallacy is in allowing oneself the thought that when one has reached the top of the great mountain and gazed at the vistas of spirituality available to the eternal spirit, one is somehow changed. One is merely seeing a beautiful view. The reasons, the intentions and the desires of the one who climbs the mountain of spiritual seeking are all important. The success of the attainment of the peak of that mountain is a goodness qualified and biased most strongly by one’s truest and deepest desires and intentions upon attempting the climb. The mountain you climb has no peak. Many, many times the spiritual adept shall find a marvelous apex of consciousness, a newer and broader view of the entire spectrum of perception and experience. This is, however, not an end, not a finality, but rather that gift which often signals a new chapter, a transfiguration, a moment of light that has shed its welcoming and loving brilliance upon the spiritual search and the spiritual seeker.

Beneath your oceans there are also extremely high peaks, extremely high mountains, yet to those of the second density who inhabit that medium of existence and take their life from the neighborhood of that which is water, we may observe that there is no attempt to climb to the peak of any mountain, for surrounding and engulfing all the topography and the geography of the underwater kingdom, one height is not seen as superior to another, nor is it related to the basic consciousness inherent in that mind/body complex.

We are not comparing you to fish. We are comparing you to those who swim in a sea of energy, consciousness and love. You may find yourself in the great valleys of your emotional ocean. There, love is. There, your path of service lies. At other times you find yourself upon the oh, so desired peak, the mountain top. You are no closer to heaven, no closer to the Creator there than at the very gates of what many have called Hell.

When one lives in an illusion which seems to give one condition importance over another, one is allowed by free will then to choose that which it will consider to be of value, and this is especially true of those who have launched themselves into what we may call, in your mythical terminology, (the) search for the holy grail. How long and dusty is the road which seems to go on forever! How few the mountain tops, and how far apart are they! Can one stay upon the mountain top forever? We assure you that if one attempts to do so one will eventually be seduced by pride, which is a killer of light. Likewise those who live in the valley, and though seeking, must admit failure after failure, are no less spiritual.

Q’uo began their answer to what is important on the spiritual journey by saying that we need to know who we are, what we wish, and what kind of search for the Creator we seek. Then they said that many seekers look at the spiritual journey much like climbing a high mountain and, after attaining a certain height, they feel they have accomplished their goal. Q’uo said that this is not the end of the climb but represents a new chapter in an unending climb. They also said that there would be valleys of despair and seeming failure, but to one who seeks the holy grail all is learning and service on the spiritual path. On November 2, 1986, Q’uo revealed the overall nature of the experience of mountains and valleys on the spiritual journey:

For, indeed, all you perceive within your life experience is made of illusion. That which seems good and favorable and that which seems bad or repugnant together form the mountains and valleys of the terrain of your life experience. And it is not from reading of such geographical configuration of land masses that one learns how to navigate such terrain, or is able to deduce any precept or final conclusion from such configuration. One must travel this terrain, moving between the peaks and the valleys, and remaining in various locations for a certain period of your time and experience in order to be able to grasp the effect upon one’s thinking, that residing within a certain location of being and expression will affect the thinking.

By so experiencing these various geographical configurations, to continue, one may then, through this experience, fashion that which is truly born of wisdom and which may eventually produce a loving acceptance of all that one experiences within the life pattern, when one is able to utilize the experiences to their fullest extent.

The first part or aspect of the spiritual search that needs clearly to be seen by each is that each is in an atmosphere not of air and nitrogen, oxygen, all the elements that you breathe in. You live in a sea of consciousness, a sea of energy. You do not float upon this sea, although many, many are the times we have used this simile in attempting to speak in parables about the spiritual journey. In truth you are simply within the environment of the Creator. You are everywhere, you are everywhen, you are every condition. You can improve your behavior, but it is only persistent and patient work upon the self by the self that enables one to be the athlete of the spirit that shall question again and again, if necessary, its readiness to act, to live and to be one through whom love may shine.

Although it is easy to say that you are not alone in this choice, in this constant series of choices and determinations which can only be subjective, the truth within the illusion is quite different. The illusion is designed to confuse you utterly. Not partially, not variably, but completely. Thus, first, in order to have a spiritual life of seeking in service to others, one must recognize one’s nature, not a nature that is dependent upon its place in the geography of the human spirit, but upon its steadfast and unchanging place in the very heart of the Creator. We wish by this statement to remove from each the pride of knowledge, the arrogance of those who are faithful, the terrible wasted humility of those who feel that they have failed and will always fail to be worthy of this search.

You shall not judge yourself. You may only see, in faith, your nature, in the environment which you occupy. Your nature is something we may call love. That Creator that you seek is something that we may call purified or divine Love. Your search is in answer to instinct. With this statement would we take away the sting of judgment, pride and humility. You are an I AM. You are not an “I am a philosopher,” you are not an “I am a recluse,” you are not an “I am a spiritual failure.” You simply are. You always have been; you are now; and you will always be of this one gemlike nature, a crystal, fully faceted, most beautiful, unique to you and to the creation, and infinitely desirable to the Creator.

Then Q’uo described our spiritual journey as the beginning of the realization that we are all a portion of the Love of the Creator, and that means that we are everywhere at all times and have the ability to choose how we shine the love of the Creator to others. They said we need to realize that our nature is always to be in the heart of the Creator, and because this is true we need no pride, judgement, or humility. We simply need to know that we are all a unique crystal and are infinitely desirable to the Creator. On January 11, 2020, Q’uo spoke of our true nature as part of the Creator:

Those, however, who are conscious seekers of truth, as you may call them, have within their own being, whether it be communication through intuition, through experiences of their own of a spiritual nature, or through mental belief in one kind of spiritual experience or path, the possibility that the faith aspect of the seeker may become the guiding star, shall we say, that leads the seeker in the direction that it wishes to travel upon its spiritual journey. Faith is that quality that allows the conscious seeker of truth to begin to apprehend the greater nature of its own being, of the reality in which it lives and moves and has its being in the third density, and the greater vision of the nature of creation that lies beyond the third-density illusion, and partakes of the unity of the One Infinite Creator.

The first step in the spiritual search is to see that side of yourself and to realize that of yourself you may not, can not and will not progress. But within you lies this jewel, this brilliance, this perfection. It is within you in the valley, on the mountaintop, in feelings of unworthiness and in feelings of pride. There is nothing you can do so terrible as to remove yourself from this great love, this perfect identity, nor is there any way whatsoever, by good works, by acts of love and consciousness, by the giving and consolation that you feel flowing with you, to improve or better your condition. You are. The changes within yourself that you perceive are the subjective signs and symptoms of a search led in complete free will, to uncover within the clay of oneself that jewel of beingness, that I AM which exists within the form of bone and flesh that serves you as vehicle in your incarnation at this time. To know that you are as you are is the first and great step, the cornerstone of spiritual seeking. If you are, if the Creator is, the relationship of beingness is one of unity. You are in the Creator, the Creator in you. You and the Creator are love. The Creator is love unknown and unmanifest. You are love known and made manifest.

The second step of spiritual search, life and work is the decision of the self in all honesty and humility to attempt to lessen the opacity of the illusion of the milieu in which you live, the illusion of flesh and bone and hair in which your imperishable spirit lives for this brief incarnational period. As you find your own way to make yourself transparent, so can the love which is infinite in the Creator, but finite in any manifestation of that same Creator to speak, to bear witness, to be that messenger of hope, of abiding, of loving and of caring make of you the Creator manifest.

No one can do more than experience the fringes of the true kingdom and power and glory of love in its fullest sense. Those who feel they have the same chance of doing so as the Creator Itself have fallen into the trap of pride. Those who surrender the jar to be hollowed out and made transparent are those in whom the manifestation of love may not end, but continue infinitely. This process of choosing a way of manifesting an instinct which is inherent to all is entirely up to you. That you choose to seek in this mystery of the finite and the infinite is the cornerstone of all spiritual seeking, the bedrock of the spiritual life.

Now, there are two ways in which one may go about accelerating that movement towards the one great original Thought of Love, and bringing that through consciously into manifestation in the life experience. Firstly, the work within the self must never be taken for granted. Just as this entity, which rarely has a green-ray blockage, had the humility, the patience and the determination to find and clear that which kept it from feeling correct in its attitude toward contact, so is that same patience which again and again will bring practicality, sensitivity and effectiveness to the spiritual knowing of the self useful to you.

In meditation you begin to be acquainted with your true self. You are not this lifetime, you are not a product of the experiences of this lifetime, though many place enormous emphasis on the difficulties which have biased, within this incarnational experience, that which seems to be your nature. You are not the conglomeration of past incarnations. You are not the gifts into which you poured life within manifestation as you were born. You are love. If you think that you are a wanderer, a teacher, a healer, or even if you wish to be one who has a path of service that is obvious to others and commanding of respect, you have lost your way, for your way within yourself is to love the self, to forgive the self and to see that I AM within the self as the I AM that is consciousness and that is Love.

Many, many are the stories and myths told to enable entities to move themselves into a position of realization of the true nature of the self. The final goal of all of these true spiritual paths is humility and a willingness to surrender that clay, the pride, the arrogance, the unworthiness and fear, to surrender all these emotions utterly to the power and peace of knowing that you are Love. This you can know only by faith, and faith can be strengthened only through contact in silence within the self, gazing at nothing, thinking nothing, expecting nothing, allowing all distractions to fade away, condemning yourself for no thought which takes you from this condition of emptiness, but rather, giving it position to have an irrelevance to the state of mind which your heart has wrapped around you for the meditative process of learning through silence.

Then Q’uo said that the first step on our spiritual journey is to discover that there is a jewel within us in that is the Creator, and the Creator is us, that the Creator is love unknown and unmanifest, and we are the Creator known and manifest.  Q’uo also said that we need to become transparent, hollowed out, so that the Creator’s love may flow through us as the mystery of the finite and the infinite become the foundation of all spiritual seeking for us. And Q’uo suggested that we can use the silence of meditation to discover our true self is the Love of the Creator, and then have the faith that this is who we are. On September 17, 2003, Q’uo said that the Creator is within us:

Rather, you are attempting to become a full, circular and robust self that knows its shadow side, knows its virtues and knows that neither is the true tale of the self but only the process that is occurring to allow the self to move ever deeper into that self, that interior road to the center of self that lightens as it goes until, in the very center of self, in the heart of self, in the tabernacle of the Creator within the self, there is a stunning, flooding white light that melts every consideration and allows one to rest in adoration and faith.

The other and corollary method of working to maximize the opportunities of the incarnation that one may live a life of spirituality is to allow the self as imperfect, as poorly hollowed out, as opaque as it may be, to follow each instinct of the heart. To love all others is easy to do, to love entities one at a time, very difficult indeed. We ask you to realize that loving humankind will not polarize you towards the positive service-to-others path, but will seek only to stultify and stunt your growth in spirit.

You do not have answers. There are no answers. Focus then upon the questions of the spiritual seeker. The primary question in dealing with any other entity is “How shall I love, and how may I serve?” In many, the only way available to the loving heart in offering love, is the offering itself. There must be no expectation upon the part of any that those seeds which one sows of truth subjectively understood by the self, may bear any fruit in any other but the self.

To see each entity as an entity of love is an enormous challenge within your illusion, for you cannot see that they too are love, made of love, abiding in love, and very often completely unaware of and uninterested in this primal, instinctual, inherent characteristic of humankind. This awareness cannot be forced upon any, nor should it be. How then to serve others? We ask you to listen, not to speak, for in listening you provide a loving and compassionate mirror which mirrors back to that other self which is the Creator that which that other self is doing that it would not wish to do, to allow that entity to realize that which it is not doing that it does wish to do. In listening you become a manifestation of the Christ. In listening and forgiving you have moved ever closer to the mind of Christ.

Therefore, when no one asks for your help, know that your basic and most important help is in your beingness itself, in the joy that you take, in the zest, the leaping for joy that you experience as you experience who you truly are. Be not cast down. Be merry, for to be merry in the little things and the big things of mundane existence is to express the nature of love. There is nothing ponderous about love; it is spontaneous and full of light, and you need do nothing to those who do not wish to speak with you, but only be who you are with rigorous honesty, admitting it to yourself each time that you jangle and are out of tune, moving then from service to others to the repairing of the self until you once again love and respect that self, finding that self worthy of being a vessel for the infinite light and love of the one Creator.

There are those who will ask you for help. Evaluate these requests carefully. Will they be of service in the spiritual seeking of that person? Or will they be worthless in the spiritual seeking of that person? Many ask to be pleased at all times by those about them, to be placated, soothed and cherished at every turn. They seek for themselves a comfort, a rest and a peace through requests of humans other than themselves. To move toward what such entities ask is sometimes that which maintains that entity in a state of spiritual anarchy, for the saving, or shall we say, the savior, is seen as that which is embodied in another. You are not another, you are the other self of that entity. You can by no means teach through pleasing others.

Upon the contrary, there are those who truly seek the Creator, and at those times may you pray fervently and heartily that you may be single-minded in your persistent effort to be hollow and transparent, that that which is infinite love may work through your oh, so mortal being.

It is said within your holy works that you need never fear for that which you will speak when the time comes to be of service to another. This is not so of pleasing others, but it is indeed so of serving others. Again, it is first necessary to know and love the self, for others are merely distortions of you. As you learn to nurture yourself you learn to serve and heal others. Learn that whatever their outer circumstance and appearance, you are they, and they, you. In all humility surrender that finite self and seek the jewel within, asking it, as you would ask your most beloved self in its deepest aspect, to show itself as it will, to speak as it will. This attitude shall bring about within you that attitude which you seek, the attitude which seeks to be of service in any situation.

We shall end with this thought, “What is it to serve, rather than please?” Ponder this, for upon this hangs much, and if you wish, we may speak to you again upon this subject.

Now Q’uo said that our spiritual path becomes more effective in polarizing our consciousness as we learn to love the entities that we know rather than just loving humankind in general. They suggested that we ask our hearts how we may be of service to others and sow the seeds of love without any expectation of return. Then Q’uo said that most people we deal with have no knowledge that they are also made of love, and the best thing we can do for them is to listen to them and become a mirror for them to see themselves more clearly. By listening to them and forgiving them we move closer to the mind of Christ. Then Q’uo said when we are not asked to be of service that we simply rejoice in our beingness as the Creator and to feel the joy of the love the Creator within us. Q’uo completed their answer to what is important in the spiritual life by saying there are two types of people who will ask us for service. One simply wants to be pleased with our response, but pleasing people is not a service as is responding to people who are truly seeking the Creator. In the latter case, Q’uo said that we should pray fervently that we become hollowed out so that the love of the Creator may flow clearly through us. In order to do this Q’uo said that we must love and accept ourselves and then we need to surrender our finite self to the deepest level of our selves so that the love of the Creator may speak as It will. On June 2, 1985, Latwii explained how surrendering our finite self allows the love of the Creator to move through us in service to others:

As one seeks to serve others in the manner which our brothers and sisters of L/Leema have expressed, that is, to allow the entity to be freer, to do that which he chooses, we may make this attempt in one of two basic ways. One which is the most common among your peoples is to attempt to decide with the intellectual mind what one may do to serve, how one may develop one’s abilities, and just how these abilities shall be utilized. This is an attempt, shall we say, to fashion and structure the manner and mode in which one serves. It is a noble attempt, one borne of the best of intentions, yet the one most often to fail, for the one Creator moves unseen and quite often unfelt within each entity, and each entity has in the deeper portions of its being decided to serve as a channel for the One. How this service shall be manifest is that which is unknown.

To surrender the self, to surrender the decision-making ability in a large degree and to give over the self to the use of the one Creator is the second manner which is most successful and least often chosen among your peoples. To await that which is within is difficult, for you see others seeming to serve very effectively in a manner which is apparent and seems to bear fruit. That you are not first on your block to do so is discouraging, but that you shall eventually do so gives you comfort, and that you shall choose to do so in such and such a manner seems to give more comfort. But, my friends, may we suggest that you give over your desire to do this or to do that in this or that manner and pray that the one Creator moves through you in the way most salubrious, shall we say, for true service to be manifested through being.

We are sorry to have been long-winded, but we have observed that your recording device has tolled the bell of our sermonette to you. So we shall remove ourselves from this soapbox, that we may in all humility, and asking you to remember that we are very fallible and prone to error, and offering only our own opinions, close this instrument through our beloved brother, the one known as Jim. We thank this instrument. We thank those in the support group, for truly this group is strong in seeking, and it enables us to protect this contact in a way which heartens us. We thank each. I leave this instrument in love and light. I am known to you as Q’uo.

This morning I used my garden hose to wash the few remaining leaves out of all of the dozen garbage cans that were emptied by yard waste pickup last Thursday. Then I raked up the leaves and put them in one garbage can which will be the can that I used throughout the winter for what few leaves and small tree limbs may need to be cleaned up. Then I put the rest of the garbage cans in the garage.

This afternoon I walked around the yard and picked up the small tree limbs that our wind today had brought down. Then I took my speed walk which I have not taken for over a week due to the need to give more time and attention to the washing of the dishes in the kitchen for most of last week.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 18

The Weather Of Your Journey

I am the spirit of the living Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of that love.

How easy it is to gaze upon the face of your existence and find difficulties and disharmonies. What is not generally known is that it is just as satisfactory to appreciate the beauty around one. The deeper point that we are trying to make is that daily bread is a modest request, yet of the most deeply intuitive and magical substance that can be given to humankind.

With the mind centered and resting in a place of peace and power, confidence and trust, that person need not experience traumas in the same way as an excitable person. Look at the day outside. Some skies are sunny and some a beautiful pearl gray of winter days without storms.

Whatever your environment, you are there as a kind of pilgrim or missionary, ready to help those around you and of a substance entirely your own, as you have begun to find your authentic self.

We wish you a persistent and strong heart and a will that does not stop to move ahead with this pilgrimage of the learnings of the spirit.

We hope you may ask us to be with you. We are those who come to you in the name of love and of light. Adonai.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 18, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. It is our privilege to ask if there may be queries at this time upon the subject of the evening or any other subject. Is there a query at this time?

K: You originally identified yourself as being of the principle of those known to us as those of Q’uo. Can you tell me what a principle is and if and how that differs from a social memory complex?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. It is our understanding that we come to you in a blended fashion, blending those energies of what you know of as two social memory complexes which have as their origins densities of vibrations that study lessons of unity in somewhat different fashions. The blending of these two groupings of entities creates that which we call a principle, which is our approximation, or attempt, to focus energy upon a certain vibrational level that gives witness to a certain facet of the Creator. Thus, we are as those who testify as to this aspect in a fashion which is ours due to the unique blending of our energies. Thus, our reference to ourselves as that of a principle is a more specific description of our natures than is our usual giving of a name only.

K asked how Q’uo’s description of themselves as a principle differed from a social memory complex. Q’uo responded by saying that they were the blending of two social memory complexes that reflected two aspects of the one Creator. A few sessions earlier Q’uo revealed that they were composed of Latwii and, for the first time, they also mentioned that they included those of Ra. However, there is still no mention of those of Hatton as being the third member of Q’uo and being from the fourth density of love. In 11.17, Ra described how a social memory complex was formed:

Questioner: At what stage does a planet achieve social memory?

Ra: I am Ra. A mind/body/spirit social complex becomes a social memory complex when its entire group of entities are of one orientation or seeking. The group memory lost to the individuals in the roots of the tree of mind then becomes known to the social complex, thus creating a social memory complex. The advantages of this complex are the relative lack of distortion in understanding the social beingness and the relative lack of distortion in pursuing the direction of seeking, for all understanding/distortions are available to the entities of the society.

Does this answer your query, my sister?

K: Yes, thank you.

Q’uo: I am Q’uo, and we thank you. Is there another query?

Carla: I have been facing some real changes lately, and my first impulse was to give up everything in order to give myself time to make decisions. I didn’t give up anything for good, but I gave up things for the moment. When I came to the feeling of what to go on with and what to leave, I found that I had left a great deal. Where does this energy go? Do I now wait for new activity? I feel a little bit as if I’m left hanging. Is that what you talk about when you speak of patience?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. This is so, for you are as each seeker is, moving within a great darkness with but the smallest of candles to illumine the places upon which you shall place your feet, one slowly after another, not ever sure that the journey has been straight, meandering, circular, or if it should be any of these things, yet you gather what information as is possible to be gathered from the small range of view provided by your consciousness within this mystery of being. You use your conscious ability to analyze, you take counsel from that subconscious nature that communicates through intuition, and you go forth.

Oftentimes there needs be readjustment of the progress, reevaluation of decisions. This is but the nature of the choice-making density. It requires that one cultivate that quality you have called the faith that progress is possible, and the will to persevere in the choosing, in the stepping forth, not ever knowing for sure whether the ground is firm, in the metaphysical sense, or if one shall find but thin air for footing.

It is well that you question, that you wonder, that you choose, even that you blunder, for in each action, thought, word and possibility, you exercise those twin steeds of will and faith. That you should move ever closer to those mundane manifestations of metaphysical principles is possible, is probable, is, in its own way, of importance, yet of the greater importance is that you partake in this dance, illumined so mysteriously, with a heart that seeks, that desires, that yearns for the Creator and for the Creator’s touch within the life pattern. This builds the bridge betwixt your illusion and the absolute reality of unity. This bridge which shall hold your feet more surely than any street or ground within your illusion, this desire to know, to move into love, into unity, into harmony, fashions that which cannot be seen, but which cannot, in the metaphysical realms, be denied, for this quality of desire, fueling the faith and the will, is that portion of your being that is more real than any portion of your illusion, and more real than any error or miscalculation.

Carla said that she had been going through changes recently and had to temporarily give up some activities in order to work with the changes. She wondered where that energy went that was associated with the changes and if patience was the answer for dealing with changes. Q’uo agreed that patience was very important in this kind of changing of the life pattern as each in the third-density illusion is traveling a spiritual path that is illuminated by a tiny candle, and each needs to use the intellect combined with the intuition of the subconscious mind to travel this path. Q’uo said that the exercise of will and faith was necessary in order to open the heart to the Creator that provides the bridge from the third-density illusion to the reality of unity. On March 10, 1991, Q’uo validated the combination of intellect and intuition in making decisions:

The place between one extreme and the other, between intuition and intellect, is equally acceptable as long as it is your true balance, that which you can stand behind and say, “This is I, this is the way I felt the need to do this.”

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes, I have two. First of all, I’ve had a considerable amount of anger that this should be happening to me just when I was beginning to be more effective, in my own way of thinking, to the community of Christ which I serve. It seems to me—you mentioned the process of grieving, and (how) do I find a way to forgive that anger and that despair as a process of grieving which is acceptable?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To grieve for that service which has been lost, or seems so, and to find as the heart, the source of the grieving, the simple desire to serve, is an helpful process which will eventually dissolve those boundaries that one has built of the small self’s estimation of service, that there might be recognized other avenues of service which may have gone unnoticed because of the narrowness of the original definition.

Thus, such grieving is a part of a process which will eventually bring one to the realization that there is nothing but service that can be rendered. There is, however, the ability to offer oneself in new ways that can be cultivated, so that the small self may see with new eyes that which is before one, for there is never the lack of opportunity to serve, there is only the inability to see that which offers itself to one at all times.

Carla said that she was feeling anger and grieving as a process of dealing with the despair that she felt because she was having to give up some of the things that she was doing at church, and there were new decisions that she was needing to work with. So she wanted to know how to forgive her anger and despair. Q’uo said that the process of grieving that which has been lost comes from the desire to be of service that has been perceived in a narrow way in her mind and could be expanded to see a wider means of being of service so that there are always opportunities to be of service in the wider view of the life path. On January 10, 1987, Q’uo explained how we can discover more ways to be of service to others:

My children, many are the things which shall pass through your conscious minds in the infinite amount of, what you call, time that exists for you as a conscious being. Many are the arenas you shall enter and leave; many are the life experiences which shall store up for you ten things which you have learned, which will help you become of greater service, and ten million things which you have learned which are of no use whatsoever once the incarnation has been processed.

Thus, it is well to care not more, but rather less about the thinking, the rightness, the probabilities, the future and all the many, many things which go into the intricate design of creating a lived life day by day. Turn, rather, to questions such as, “What is the motive? What service am I performing? What gift may I give? What consolation may I offer?” for consolation, justification, and all human gratification, if we may use that term, whatsoever shall come not from seeking, yet but seeking rather to offer aid to others.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes, one last one. I have felt in the last couple of weeks that perhaps Jim and I could benefit at this time from being more mindful, and meditating just perhaps for five minutes or so during the day, at noon, and at supper time and at bedtime, in addition to the times that we already spend. First of all, is this a good way to stay mindful, since the times involved are short, and second of all, is it acceptable to use rituals that contain Christian words which the one known as Jim can only take as mythical? Is it ethical to do so, or do we need to write our own services?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. These decisions are those which have meaning as the parties involved agree. There is no suggestion that we can give that holds more significance than the desires which each of you express. It is well to remain mindful, as you have put it, during your diurnal cycles, of the one Creator and one’s seeking of the Creator, for your illusion is one which is designed to give experiences that move one in and out of the presence or the mindfulness of the one Creator, for when one seems to move away from this mindfulness, there is created within that likened unto the vacuum which pulls the consciousness back again to the seeking, to the questioning, to the asking. Then that which is learned by such questing again allows one to move outward, as it were, only to return again, and again, in what is an upward spiraling path of energy expenditure. Each entity must needs create the pattern for this spiral. That which you create has significance in your journey as it comes from your desires, rather than being imposed by any outside source such as ourselves, beyond the general recommendation that periodic rituals of remembrance, shall we say, are helpful in each entity’s journey.

Carla wanted to know if she and I should meditate three more times during the day for five minutes for each meditation in addition to the times we were already meditating in order to be more mindful, and should we use rituals from her Christian background or write our own? Q’uo replied by saying that Carla and I should write our own rituals to increase our mindfulness of the Creator because it was the nature of the third-density illusion to cause us to move away from being mindful of the Creator time and again, and our rituals would bring us back to the presence of the Creator in an upward spiraling nature of greater experience as time went on. On November 5, 1981, Laitos suggested a means of remaining mindful that we are the Creator:

I am Laitos, and am aware of your question and your desire to be of service. In this regard we may say one simple thing. That is, that you be ever mindful that you are the Creator, that the healing energy, the love and the light of the Creator resides within your being, that you look upon yourself with humility, with love and with the openness to this experience which you shall undergo and see the energies about you moving smoothly through your physical vehicles, through your mental vehicle, and through your spiritual vehicle, so that your entire being becomes as a channel for the energy which shall heal your vehicles on each level as you open your being to this energy.

Remind yourself daily, even moment-by-moment, my sister, that you are the Creator. That when you seek for healing, for wisdom, for love, that each of these attributes and energies may be found within your own being. To remind yourself that you are the Creator is to develop the respect for your own being that will allow each of your vehicles to be attended to by your own efforts.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Thank you for being with us tonight, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we also extend our great gratitude to this group which has once again allowed us to have our beingness within your illusion, and to offer our service to those who request it. We are most grateful and rejoice at each thought, each query, and each blending of energies. We shall take our leave of this group at this time. We are those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. We leave you in the love and light of the one infinite Creator.

This morning I used the carpet sweeper to clean the rug in the hall upstairs. Then I used the broom and dust pan to sweep up the kitty litter in Benny’s room. Lastly, I used the duster to dust all three rooms and the hall as well. Then I ran errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought more bird seed. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought food for myself. My third stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some non-food items.

This afternoon I was on a zoom call with Pupak to listen to talk she had given in Hokkaido, Japan last September. It was a very inspiring talk about how each of us could help Mother Earth by engaging in the planting of trees and shrubs in various locations that might not have enough to balance the local ecosystem where we lived and which we identified as our home in the larger sense of home beyond our house and gardens.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 17

Nothing But Darkness

I am the spirit of the full consciousness of the love of Jesus Christ. I greet you in the power of that love.

May all be well with you this day as you realize that only in the spirit can any meaning be made clear to you, the nature of any obstacle revealed or the depth of misunderstanding repaired.

The greatest illusion of your illusion is the apparent difference in vision betwixt day and night, for it would seem to suggest that there is as much clear and lucid sunlight to illumine understanding as there is darkness to cover it. Yet there is nothing but darkness in the illusion. The shining light of truth and peace enter in your inner eyesight only upon request.

Request, then, that Christ be with you, that the spirit of Christ remain with you always. For how else shall you see into matters too deep for your earthly sun to reach?

We leave you in the mystery of peace, peace unending. May God bless you.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and the got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from March 18, 1990:

The question this evening is about limits. To what degree is accepting our limitations giving up, and to what degree is it freeing ourselves of unnecessary suffering?

(Carla channeling)

I am of that principle known to you as Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite One, the Creator of all, in Whose name we serve, and we bless and greet you and rejoice with greatest joy in being called to this beloved group. Your radiance is bright to us, and we bask in the sunshine of your desire to seek and to know, though you are vulnerable and open to pain, though you know the truth may cause you hurt, yet you seek, and you seek still, willing to bear the brunt of the truth, willing to ask past the surface of things. You are gallant friends, and we thank this group.

It is with gratitude and humility that we remind you that we are your brothers and sisters, not those infallible with authority over you of any kind, but those who wish you well, and who would give to you the best of ourselves, our feelings, our opinions, our thoughts. It is for this reason that we are awake to the cries of people such as you. It is for this reason that we come to those who seek through dreaming, through visions, through writing, and more occasionally, in those who are disciplined in their seeking, and have chosen this particular path of service through the vocal channeling, in which we are able to offer information more specific than paintings, music and poetry, though surely not more eloquent—simply more lucid and easy to penetrate.

You ask this evening a question which bears with it some dangers, and of these dangers we would speak first. To assume that one knows one’s limitations and one’s abilities, to assume that one has the intelligence to control one’s destiny by thought and reasoning, is to assume a grandeur that you do not possess. And we say to you straight out that you who are guided by intellectual evaluations of situations, and respect for authority of any kind whatsoever, are hag-ridden and living in a nightmare.

One of the great misunderstandings of the many beautiful works man has created is the concept that man has created them by means of his reasoning, his logic, his intelligence. This is the mainstay of the culture in which you now exist. It is this over-respect for authority which one does not understand, that accepts without understanding, that is the hallmark of your desperate civilization at this time.

To whom give you authority? To those who are the priests of reason, of intellect, of logic, of hypothesis and conclusion, whether they be in the guise of those who come in the name of religion, having explained precisely by dogma and doctrine that which may be believed and that which shall not be believed, or whether one wishes to give credence to the doctors and the teachers, the scientists, the priests of reason and technology. Such is authority given to idols made of clay, for though each entity trained to be in authority, and with the feeling of being in authority felt in surety within, yet is this person fooling itself, and removing the possibility of movement in spirit. Those who follow without understanding, without seeking the heart and not the mind, are those who consign themselves to prisons made of their own mental biases: this, this and this is true, and therefore all other is false. Such concepts are comforting, for one may again relax into the structure of a prepared life path where one is aware when one is doing well and knowledgeable of one’s errors as they are pointed out to one by the authority accepted.

Thus, those who ponder the meaning, the necessity and the response to limitation with the mind alone, with weights of opinion from authority without the self, are those who seek to avoid the responsibility of being, to avoid the vulnerability of making an error. The great fallacy of all authority is error. There is no error; there are only ways to learn. Some ways of learning quite clearly inform one of that which one does not wish to do again. Was this then an error which brought one to such a speedy and heartfelt conclusion?

Therefore, let us banish from our minds our own mind’s power over us. See your intelligence, your logic, your intellect as a workhorse, a machine, a computer which has been trained to make choices. Realize that you need this computer, for you dwell in so rich a tapestry of sensual experience that you could not ever be aware of your entire environment in any moment whatsoever. The creation is not large enough to hold the resonance of each passing moment. All your senses are open, thirsty, vulnerable, and the intellect chooses those things of which you must be aware to avoid extinction, to maintain preservation of the physical vehicle, and to meet those needs which your biases have previously fed into the computer again and again until the computer smoothly and quickly eliminates much from your environment, so that you are only aware of a tiny, tiny portion of your own creation.

This was planned by you, not that you be so limited, in and of itself, but that you continually examine your vulnerabilities to see if the choices you have made in what you perceive of what you see is that which you wish to perceive. Allow in your daily meditative moments this question to arise within you: “Are my choices causing me to praise the one infinite Creator? Do my choices bring me joy? Do my choices open me to the glory of consciousness, to the depth and breadth of the resonances of the present moment?”

Avoid satisfaction, especially self-satisfaction, but be hungry and thirsty, for there is more to learn, more to experience, and in that learning and in that experiencing there shall be change, which is, by definition, uncomfortable, stressful, painful. It is the successful heart that is open to these things, yet aware of the power of its own abilities to forgive, to love and to accept.

The group question for this session was to what degree is accepting our limitations giving up, and to what degree is it freeing ourselves of unnecessary suffering? Q’uo began their answer by saying that it was dangerous to assume one actually knew their limitations. They said that the use of intellect as our authority for knowing ourselves was reflected in the importance of the mind in all sectors of our third-density experience such as religion, science, education, and business. Q’uo said that such reliance on intellectual authority rather than seeking the inner knowledge of the heart would be like creating prisons made by the mind. So Q’uo recommended that in our daily meditations that we look at the choices that we have made with our intellects and ask if they have caused us to praise the Creator, and do they bring us joy and the glory of the present moment. They said that we should avoid any kind of self satisfaction and continue to be hungry for change even though it can be painful because it also increases our ability to love, accept, and forgive ourselves and others. On December 9, 1984, Oxal said that we could use our intellect to search for our hearts:

But you, my friends, you are mining. You are mining for your own precious heart. We wish you the right use of intellect, will, and faith as you search and dig and search again for the heart that lies beautiful and secret within you in the midst of this disheveled world which is third density.

Once the faculty of unnecessary judging has been removed and replaced by an eager acceptance of the rightness of that which is occurring, one may then gaze upon what one considers limitations, and it is at this point only that we speak of limitations, having warned you as carefully as possible always to avoid mental constructs and structures which predetermine the meaning of your particular experience of being limited. This is your creation, a creation of the heart and of the spirit. Yes, it is a creation of your deeper mind, but your deeper mind is your heart, not your intellect. The intellect is the animal you ride so that you do not die to this world before you have tasted of the joy of being alive.

Conditions among your people are harsh. There is much pain in joy, there is much sorrow in laughter, there is much loss in each passing moment, until finally the loss of the physical vehicle is complete. All this is illusion, and this the heart knows; the intellect does not. It presumes its own self-preservation as a given which shall continue with no foreseeable end, and to this end it bends all experience. Abandon this, if you ever embraced it, for you seek upon a dusty path that is mystery, not surety, and your limitations are as you find them, shifting, moving, transforming before you as you change in your perception of them.

A limitation is wisely accepted as the basis of evaluation of further action. When one cannot walk one finds oneself an appropriate seat. When one cannot speak, one remains silent. When one cannot understand, one embraces mystery. When one cannot move, one embraces the concept of moving motionlessness. This is a foundation acceptance that is very helpful to the heart. It is not wisdom to ignore the circumstance of the physical vehicle, for these are the limitations of which you speak, limitations of action, of movement, of energy, but this is only the basis for further waiting, waiting in patience, in quietude, in certainty of the constant inflow of inspiration, for many are those who choose to do as much as possible, regardless of the circumstances and regardless of those things done, because authority says those who do the most are worth the most. Thus, the self values activity without evaluating worth, the love one has, the joy one has in each activity, but simply assuming that to give is to be productive, to be busy, to be active.

We speak directly to this particular instrument as well as in general to all, for this instrument has recently moved through the concepts of authority, limitation, and the making of decisions and it has discovered, and you will discover, the positive and the negative necessity of the acceptance of limitations being the beginning of the true choosing of that which is good to do for the self, and that which is kind to yield to for the self. It takes more patience than many have to wait upon inspiration, for the process of waiting is the process of forgiving the self for the limitation it has, and a beginning to believe that the change that is occurring is not a limitation, but a transformation, an alteration of the path of service intended by yourself and the Creator together before this incarnational experience was ever begun.

Times of pain and limitation are those times to find rejoicing and praise and thanksgiving, for these are the signals that the Creator is especially near, and transformation of the life, new lessons, are about to appear to one who truly forgives, who truly accepts, and may sit in peace, glorying in the light of the infinite Creator, and resting in the embrace of the universe with no thought except to wait upon that transformation to declare itself within one’s heart.

Now Q’uo spoke about limitations as being a means by which we can evaluate the need for future action especially regarding the physical body that can be limited by movement, action, and energy. Then they spoke of Carla specifically, and to others in general, to say that pain and limitation can provide a means of transformation if one can accept the limitations, forgive the self for them, and bask in the light of the Creator, knowing that transformation can declare itself within one’s heart as a result of this process. On January 7, 1990, Q’uo again mentioned how we benefit from accepting our limitations:

The acceptance of limitations is a very personal, metaphysical question. If one accepts limitations that are unacceptable to the personality, one is not accepting limitations, but rather becoming dutiful, and duty is a negative emotion. So we suggest to each that one do what one can to improve one’s condition, with joy, and to meet that which one cannot meet with joy with a sense of peace and acceptance.

Each entity was born without this or that gift, and with other gifts. Each entity is unique. Each entity has unique limitations. Therefore, we suggest to the one who wishes to accept one’s limitations that in any circumstance one offer praise and thanksgiving for one’s being, one’s preservation, and one’s son- or daughtership in relation to the one infinite Creator.

The rest of that which we have to say is perhaps self-evident from this point. Many are the things which may be, not given up, but released, for they are no longer a part of your path of service. A grieving process for them is understandable, yet it is time also for faith to show itself, faith without understanding, without knowledge of any kind, but only faith that things are as they should be, that love permeates this and every transaction of the incarnational experience, that there is a path of service in every changed life. Even if the changes seem more and more limiting to the mind, to the heart, that energy which has been set free from those activities released is now there to place in a new path of service, in a new way of seeing, perceiving, changing and becoming. All entities are entities in transition, just as all entities are forever perfect. You are being and you are becoming. Thus, it is folly to hold to old paths of service which seem no longer to be possible, given growing physical, mental or spiritual limitations.

Yet there are those things which still resonate to the heart in a special way, those paths of service which survive change and transformation, because so deep are they within the heart that they are part of the deep self, that which cannot and should not be denied. The one authority you heed is that authority of your own heart. And so, though sometimes limited, one may choose to press against that limitation for the purposes of service, and more than that, for the purposes of experiencing the greatest joy possible to the spirit that you are with your own biases within this incarnational experience.

If you are thirsty and there is something that slakes that spiritual thirst, and you seek still to do this, pressing against a limitation, then you are not harming yourself, but giving yourself a reason to enjoy, to accept and to rejoice in the state or condition of life in which you find yourself regardless of your limitations. How to tell the difference is not a matter for the intellect, not a matter of constant, conscious, careful choice, but a matter of loving, waiting, accepting and listening to the voice that speaks within with the authority of your deeper self saying “Send me, send me here, send me, send me here,” and so you send yourself, whatever the cost may be, if it is possible, for still this feels to be part of your path of service.

You are not here, my beloved ones, to have, to hold, to collect, to sustain. You are here to learn in deeper and more resonant ways always, what it is to be of service, what it is to love. You must begin with yourself, loving, accepting, opening your vulnerable self to wear the harshness of your humanity, for you are sturdy within, you have the strength of the universe within, you abide in the Creator, and love and light are your nature. You live in union with all that there is, there is nothing to fight. A limitation is an invitation to change. Know, each time that you experience limitation, you are experiencing the chance to learn something new, to serve in a new way, to find out more about what being and becoming truly are, to discover within yourself that core of being which is the infinite One. The infinite One is without, the infinite One is within, there is nothing but the infinite One, all is One. Cast aside fear, for your heart shall tell you in good time what choices to release, what choices to keep, and what choices to make for the first time that you may learn yet another lesson of love.

It is for this reason that you came into this world of loss and sorrow and vulnerability and pain and harshness. You came to be thirsty and hungry. You came to yearn and ache and be intensely passionate in your search for that which you know not, that which you cannot ever know, yet the search is your joy, your peace, your fulfillment and your inspiration. Limitation and change are but the hallmarks of an incarnation. Look past the agony and the anguish of that dust that you are. See yourself clearly, vessels of clay with treasures hidden within. Do not dissect your Earthly vessel. Do not agonize overmuch over its flaws, for clay will have flaws, and will eventually crumble, and be of interest only to archaeologists.

You are treasures, you are gems. Trust the process of limitation and loss to show forth to yourself, to the world and to all whom you may serve, all whom you may meet, that beautiful gem hidden within, that many-faceted, amazingly wondrous, youthful self. May you shine through that Earthly vessel. May you use misfortune in joy. May you drop away that which is busyness without undue fear, but with love and acceptance, and may you accept each change through the pain, through the difficulty of change, in perfect faith that all is well and all will be well, and you are fearless, holding up the light of consciousness to a world hungry for consciousness and far too full of the awareness of its own clay.

We are aware that what we ask you to do in such an intense way is that which you shall do perhaps reluctantly, perhaps with upset, forgetfulness and backtracking. It is inevitable, but be courageous enough to forgive yourself each time you forget your true nature. Forgive and accept yourself. You are clay…

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You will, all beings will, seem to yourselves to fail again and again, to forget your true natures again and again and be lost in the wilderness of logical thought. You will be discouraged, you will despair. Allow yourselves to make self-perceived errors, and at the end of each, as you recognize that you do not wish to be as you are, forgive immediately yourself for your despair, your fear, your cautiousness and your lack of intensity, and go forward a new person, refreshed, consoled and forgiven by the self that so you may be a refresher, a consoler, an accepter and a forgiver of others.

Whatever your limitations, do that which you love for the joy of it, and if you can no longer do it, wait, for the Creator has more joy in store for you; there will always be joy in store for you. Abide in the desert, meditate in patience, day by thirsty day, until at last you are delivered by your heart into the oasis and thirst no more, and then give all your love away in service to the one infinite Creator, and to the Creator you see in each face, beginning with your own.

Q’uo completed their thoughts on limitations by saying that we are always entities of being and becoming, of perfection and change, and we should consult our hearts to see what limitations to keep and what to release and how to be of the greatest service. They said that we should trust the process of limitation and loss to show us more of ourselves so that when we experience the pain of change we may have the faith that all is well and all will be well. Then Q’uo said that we should be able to forgive ourselves for any self-perceived failures as we experience the change brought on by our accepting our limitations. They said that we should rejoice for the love in our hearts that brings us into service to the one Creator that is all around us and within us. On April 3, 1988, Q’uo suggested that there were always good reasons for having limitations:

Thus, my sister, in your particular case it is well known to your conscious mind that you have chosen the limitations which you experience for a specific purpose. Indeed, there is more than one purpose for these limitations, and it has come to your attention frequently and in the distance of your past that you have been able to focus upon your inward journey far more effectively because your outward journeying has been limited in many ways. Thus, by this limiting, you have been able to penetrate the outer shell of the life pattern and tap more easily into those deeper truths which nourish the soul and inspire through such nourishment the efforts of others.

That you experience a kind of guilt for having this condition and having it be unresponsive to the healing efforts of any is understandable when seen within the limits of the illusion and the sincere good intentions of those who offer their services as healers.

Yet each entity in any life experience must at some time begin to look beyond the general principles which it finds are helpful to view the life experience through, and then must begin to make individual application of the deeper principles which apply to each situation, for though are all indeed a portion of one great Thought of Love, each portion and entity which expresses that love in the life pattern does so in a manner which is unique to that entity. And those general principles which may give a surface description of many entities at one time, yet do each entity an injustice if there is no further examination of the individual life pattern and expression that is manifested in each life pattern.

Thus, my sister, we would counsel you more in the area of removing your own feelings of guilt, rather than in redoubling your efforts to find healing release from these limitations which have served your purposes well.

We would at this time close the meditation through the one known as Jim, thanking this instrument for its willingness to speak, though fatigued. We shall now transfer this contact. We are known to you as those of Q’uo.

This morning I signed about two dozen Thank You letters to send to folks who have made contributions to L/L Research to thank them for their financial support. Then I went outside and spread the last couple bags of mulch in the Hydrangea Garden.

This afternoon my friend, Dianne, and I drove over to southern Indiana to visit Connie in the Providence Care Home where she has been now for the last five years after suffering two strokes that paralyzed the right side of her body. We enjoyed a dessert of snickerdoodle cake with strawberry ice cream and had a good conversation about what has been happening in our lives since we last saw each other. Then I continued reading to her from The Things We Don’t Forget, by Dianne Aprile.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 16

Must You Deserve The Word?

I am the spirit of the full consciousness of love, and I greet you in the name of the Christ.

We pause to await this instrument’s perfect readiness and surrender to the voice of love which speaks to those who need not deserve such a gift. It is written that Jesus Christ came to save sinners, as if there were within humanity a pristine and spotless category of those who do not sin. We, too, who are of the principle of the love of Jesus Christ, come only to those who do not deserve to hear our words, for by no means can one earn love or the consciousness of love.

Whatever your confusions or distresses, know, each of my children, that the Father has sent a living Redeemer, a living love and a living spirit among you, one that does not gauge what each soul has earned, but, rather, observes the place which each soul has made within the heart to grasp and yearn for our words and thoughts.

The concepts of holiness can never be bought with any price except that of surrender to faith, the faith that love, by means of love, shall bring each iota of consciousness at last into love.

Love and peace, then, be with you at this moment and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 11, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to queries which may yet remain upon the minds of those present. We remind each that we share that which we have to share with a full and joyous heart, but wish each to realize that we are not infallible in our opinion, and we wish each to utilize the inner discrimination that will allow those words which are helpful to be discerned from those which are not. Is there a query at this time?

S: Yes, Q’uo. Your words I take very much to heart, and I too feel the need to soften the edges, and feel the attraction to the feminine side of the Creator as a safe haven. Yet still the severe energies surge within. As one attempts to cope with these, is there a strategy other than negating the severity? Is it somehow transmuted in the experience of compassion?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. As one observes the nature of one’s own manifestation of beingness within your illusion, it is well to allow the experience to run a full course, shall we say, without the forceful attempt to negate and replace that which is not as one would have it be. By allowing the more wisdom-oriented nature to express itself within your thoughts and actions, you may then use this tone of experience as the focus for further meditation where you may experiment, shall we say, with alternate possibilities, examining how you’d feel if a more compassionate response would have expressed itself in the particular situation in which you feel there was given the wisdom instead of the compassion.

Look at the necessary frame of mind or perceptions that would engender the more compassionate response. Look within your being for those qualities which already exist of the compassionate nature. Find the connection between them and the expression of greater compassion in the situation that is the focus for your meditation. Examine the connections carefully. Concentrate upon those qualities which now exist which you wish to enhance in order that the garden of your being might be prepared for the producing of a new way of perceiving. Repeat this process as often as is necessary, for it shall be as the watering and fertilizing of this new plant. Thus, you shall assist in the alteration or transmutation of that quality of wisdom which you describe as being somewhat severe rather than compassionate.

S wished to become more feminine in his life and wanted to know if there was a way to deal with the severe energies– which I would take as masculine–other than negating them. Q’uo suggested that S continue to express the wisdom-oriented nature and then, in meditation, see how a more feminine response would have expressed itself in the given situations. So Q’uo suggested that S look for the more feminine aspects of its being and see how to connect them to the experience of feminine qualities of compassion that he explored in meditation. Q’uo recommended that S exercise this process as often as necessary to transmute his wisdom into compassion. On February 4, 2007, Q’uo gave everyone a method to enhance the feminine energies within their being:

You know which way you wish to go. Each of you here is deeply committed to seeking how to become more and more polarized in service to others. This does not mean that the choices that you make are simple. Third density is very good at presenting you with complicated polarizing choices, choices in which part of your choice is to polarize towards service to others and part of it is polarizing backwards towards service to self.

As you rock back and forth in choice, find your sweet spot of surety and choose your own version of the highest and best. And then move off to court the feminine principle of nurturing, healing and pure affection that you are invoking by making this choice.

Allow yourself the encouragements of energies too deep for words. Listen for the brush of angel wings. For as you know that you are choosing, you become the magician, or as this instrument would say, the Hierophant. You become the actor and the chooser.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: How may we become more alive to the nurturing quality of the Holy Spirit which was the feminine principle of the Christ which Jesus left to comfort us?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To become more aware of that which you have called the Holy Spirit is to widen the doors of perception, shall we say, and to invite this spirit within one’s inner dwelling. We find again that the meditative state is that state most conducive to opening these doors, and to begin to perceive that the Holy Spirit does indeed move through these doors upon your invitation and dwells with you within your inner room. Practice this feeling of the presence of complete nurturing and inspiriting in a regular fashion, so that your inner feelings begin to permeate your consciousness to such a degree that the daily round of activities is then touched, colored, transformed in some degree by that feeling of wholeness within the heart that is the product of this presence as it is practiced in a regular fashion.

Carla wanted to know how to become more aware of the Holy Spirit which was the feminine principle that Jesus left to comfort us. Q’uo recommended that Carla use meditation to invite the Holy Spirit to join her in her meditations. On March 30, 2005, Q’uo suggested a means by which one can call upon the Holy Spirit to join them in their life paths:

In contrast, the energy known as the Holy Spirit speaks in the colors and biases of your inner configuration of mind, body and spirit. When called upon, this energy combines itself with your higher self to create a kind of principle or group consciousness. This group consciousness combines that self which you have created in the fullness of your journey through what this instrument would call mid-sixth density with the pure consciousness of unconditional love. Thusly, there lies within you a home in which the spirit of Christ and the highest and best of yourself have combined. This is an intensely personal aspect of the Creator, and is that with which you may have actual conversation, as does this instrument.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: [Inaudible] of which I would like [inaudible]. It seems to me that biological women as well as biological men are brought up in this society to be rather vigorously male, in the use of the intellect, in the use of logic, in competitiveness having to do with the daily world, the job, the getting done of things, [inaudible] to neglect that nurturing portion of themselves which [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and we would basically agree with your observation, my sister, for the illusion which you inhabit is one constructed for the exercise of the conscious mind that has been, shall we say, insulated from the nurturing and informing qualities of the subconscious mind, in order that the choices made by the conscious mind might carry more weight in the process of polarization within the totality of one’s being than would be possible if there were completely open and free access by the conscious mind to the subconscious mind.

The ease of such an interaction would not provide the difficulty necessary to provide the pearl of great price, shall we say. To any seeking entity, treasures long sought are far more valued than that which is easily won, and your illusion, my sister, is one in which each choice made is one step farther along the great journey of evolution which each of us finds ourselves moving upon.

Carla said that it seemed to her that both men and women tend to use the intellect in order to be competitive in the daily world at the expense of their nurturing feminine natures. Q’uo said that they agreed that the exercise of the conscious mind has been separated from the nurturing qualities of the subconscious mind. Q’uo said that this was done to attempt more positive polarization, but it actually provided more of a challenge in doing so than would be experienced if there was free access of the conscious mind to the subconscious mind, but Q’uo also said that if this access was easy it would not provide the difficulty necessary to win the pearl of great price of actually polarizing the consciousness. On August 21, 1983, Latwii spoke of the value of having to work hard to gain one’s goal in seeking one’s truer nature:

As we look upon your planet and the peoples that inhabit it, we see many variations of perception and behavior. We see the illusion which bars clear-seeing from each eye, and we see somewhat the purpose for the bar. For each entity to look deeply at each other entity is necessary in order that a truer nature of being be discovered. The experience which results from the true seeking, the arduous seeking, is experience of great value, for it is hard won, and much difficulty has been overcome

Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Not from me, thank you Q’uo.

K: You mentioned that Jesus had left behind the Christed portion of himself, or a portion thereof, as the feminine principle of the Holy Spirit. I’m a little confused about what you said about the entity known as Mary. You mentioned that a principle does remain, which from time to time appears to entities here and now. Did the third-density entity, Mary, choose to remain behind through the time of harvest for this purpose, or did that entity continue on with its evolution, leaving behind a similar principle?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The entity known as Mary, after the completion of its incarnation, moved again into those realms from which it had come to be of service, and offered itself from those realms in manifestation at the appropriate time and place for the observation of those who revered this entity, in order that the light body which was seen by these entities would inspire the further seeking and perception of inspiriting—we search for the correct term—that the process of seeking for these entities might then become more enabled due to the appearance of this entity in accordance with the belief structure which had been accepted as a significant portion of the path of seeking for these entities.

Thus, the one known as Mary works from the, as you would call them, inner planes of this particular planetary sphere, and communicates via what is called the light body at appropriate times for this inspiriting and enabling of the seeking process for many.

K wanted to know if Mary, as the feminine portion of the Holy Spirit, stayed in the physical body to aid in the harvest, or did she continue with her evolution and leave behind a principle of her being. Q’uo said that Mary had moved on in her evolution and was working from the inner planes of Earth in her light body to inspire people in their own evolution. On April 12, 1991, Q’uo revealed how entities may call upon Mary for assistance in their spiritual journeys:

As you call upon entities such as Jesus the Christ, various saints or archangels, the mother of Jesus known as Mary, or any angelic presence to intercede for another you are providing the purity and intensity of your own love as a request, a call which is heard because of the purity and intensity by the presence whom you seek and this presence hears the call no matter how weak and responds according to its strength, purity and sincerity. The response is in a form which the one whom you wish to aid can accept, whether it be an immediate healing, as you would call it, which occurs in some few cases, or the sending of the general quality of healing, love and light energy that the entity may utilize in a less immediate or more diffused manner according to the entity’s own ability to contact those qualities of will and of faith that may open the door to the healing power of love for it.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: Has this entity then chosen to put its own path of evolution on hold for the time being in order that it may be of service at this time in that manner?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. To serve is to learn, thus there is no waiting or putting off of one’s own progress when one chooses to serve, but rather there is the enhancing and the acceleration of that growth.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: No, not from me. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I have just one last confusion. It was my understanding that those entities who stay within the inner planes of third density, instead of going on to higher densities, were indeed making a great sacrifice, as even though they learned and could serve, they were not learning in the same way as they would, had they gone on: that they were making the sacrifice to the people of third density as long as this particular third density experience lasted. Am I incorrect in this understanding?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. It is not that this perception is incorrect, simply that it is incomplete. There is the opportunity to progress wherever there is the opportunity to serve. Indeed, it may be so that an entity, removing itself from one opportunity, would increase the chances of growth by so doing, and in many cases this is so for those who remain within your inner planes. However, it is not true that the growth is, as was stated, put on hold. It is accelerated in comparison to what would be possible if no service were attempted.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, that clears that up, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you once again, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we seem to have exhausted the queries for this evening. We hope that our lengthy discourse is not too much of the reason for the exhaustion. We do thank each present for inviting us to join your circle of seeking this evening. It is a great honor to join this group. We would at this time take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I vacuumed the first floor of the house, and then I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My second stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy a little food and quite a bit of non-food items.

This afternoon I joined a podcast with Gary, Austin, and Trish that was hosted by Daniel Hodapp in Germany. This was the first time in a long time that Gary, Trish, Austin and I had been on a podcast together. The questions from the group were very spiritually oriented and gave each of us a chance to share what we had learned from the Ra contact and how it has applied to our life paths. Daniel is becoming quite the accomplished host and facilitator of his meetings, and I look forward to our next time together.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 15

The Nature Of Love

I am the Holy Spirit of the full consciousness of the principle of love. I greet this child in the vibration which comforts it. Greetings in peace in the name of Jesus Christ, who came to be God in man that men could better know how to love.

It is in loving the God of all things that the first lessons must abide. Whether the object be men or God, it is only God that can be loved fully. Thus to some it is well that time be given in which the Father is focused upon to the exclusion of all human things. For unless love is bound up in love of the Father it shall sputter and die, as all earthly things do. Confused and sad is the man who attempts to love others without understanding the nature of love.

To others it is more helpful that the face of God be seen among men and that the hand be outstretched among all. To these who are not abstract in mind, the face of God will always wear the face of a human.

Whatsoever your inclination, perceive love in its rightful nature as the love in which the Father created you.

Peace be with you, now and evermore.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 11, 1990:

The question this evening has to do with what is perceived by many as the end or apocalyptic times that we live in, where there seems to be a great deal of activity both upon the physical and the metaphysical planes occurring on our planet. We see a great deal of difficulty around the world, a lot of turmoil, a lot of suffering, war, pain, misery. There is also the appearance of the Virgin Mary in various places, and other signs and symbols given to people that are interpreted in one way or another to help them deal with their own personal life and perhaps larger life as well. How can we find a meaning in, say, the appearance of the Virgin Mary in various locations around the world, and the message that she has to offer us in these times?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose name we come to serve as you have called us. We are most grateful to share in your concerns at this time, and in the beauty of your vibrations and the unity of your seeking and meditation. We ask each to continue tuning throughout this session, as that which we offer to this instrument, though within the bounds of free will, has the opportunity, through weakness of contact, of moving far too close to those areas of information best left to the study of each individual seeker.

This evening you have asked us about the appearances in these latter days of the Virgin Mother of God made flesh. This is to your people the construction placed upon these occurrences, nor would we deny the truth to each person of that personal truth, for the nature of the evolution of the individual in spirit is utterly personal and subjective, and that which is true for the entity is quite simply true, but true only for that entity, and not of that universal nature which may be passed as common things are passed from person to person, the news of the town, the food at the end of the day. No, indeed. Such things as the concept of latter days and the concept of the appearance of that which is known as the Virgin Mary have an universal meaning which may fruitfully be explored. We must pause.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we shall continue. Each of you moves in a way which enables each to live and move and serve and conduct within the tortured confines of an illusion that does not fit people, but rather asks people to fit it, a life of balance, of beauty, of poetry and of truth which are manifestly denied by the vision of the waking eye.

Within your experience, within your own lifetimes, and within the lifetimes of the generations preceding you, the nature of time which is not the time of clocks, but the subjective time of those who sense the imminence of transformation, has begun a speeding up process, first, many hundreds of years ago upon your inner planes, and then, as a result of this, moving downward gradually into the waking conscious awareness of entities who do not seek for information such as you ask, but who must deal with it nevertheless, as they find themselves faced with the instincts of the ideal and the environment of the completely pragmatic.

This speeding up process has been occurring for several thousand of your years, and is especially noticeable within your culture at this time, as those of one generation experience an entirely different illusion than the experience of the parents. One of your poets has said, “The center does not hold,” and, indeed, the center has not held, the bird no longer obeys the master, the hawk flies free, and the hunter is left with only its instincts, its faith and its intuition.

Yet, in that faith there is begotten aid that is of meaning to each entity separately. See each of yourselves as hunters in this analogy, and you will see more clearly that while those eyes which saw clearer than yours detected you, while all was in harmony with you, there was a protection against that which you call evil which has flown from you in the face of planet-wide transformation. This transformation has already begun.

The group question for this session concerned the feeling that these were the end times; that the Virgin Mary had appeared to many around the world; and what did the Virgin Mary have to offer us in these end times? Q’uo began their answer by saying that each person’s process of spiritual evolution was unique, but the appearance of the Virgin Mary in these end times had a universal message for all. Q’uo went on to say that the speeding up of universal energies has been occurring for thousands of years and manifests for each generation in a different way as time has passed. Then Q’uo said that in these transformational times it is necessary to use one’s faith and intuition to deal with change that can also contain the potential of negative forces being part of the change. On October 15, 2000, Q’uo described the nature of these transformational times:

Let us look at the cultural component first, or, shall we say, the global or transitional component, for there is within your inner planes a tremendous amount of change and transformation going on which has to do with not only the movements of the people upon this planet through metaphysical transformational times but also the planet itself, which is moving in its physical body and its finer bodies through just as substantial and primary a change. The pressure of growing electromagnetic alteration in the planetary web is creating energies which are perceived by sensitive people, especially those who have awakened spiritually, as creating new layers of vulnerability and fragility within the personality shell and the conscious mind. And this pressure comes not from the conscious mind but from the considerable depths of the subconscious mind, that portion of the mind being unable to speak but being far more nearly aware of the changing situation as regards the inner planes of the planet and as regards the energy system of each awakened seeker.

What is it to be alive? What is it to be conscious? What is it to attempt to find meaning of that instinctual hunt which each of you engage in? Are not each of you searching for the center that did not hold, that did not stay, that in and of itself, because of humankind’s uncleverness, removed the easiness with which faith and simplicity were achieved? Without the feeling of being protected, without the feeling of a living faith, vital and alive, one feels prey, not to the positive, but to the negative, for we may note that within the biases of your minds it is far easier to conceive of negativity as having power than of positivity as having power, for that is the way the illusion seems to work, and this cannot be gainsaid by the most idealistic of entities.

The nature of the illusion is to challenge your ideals to the very bedrock of your existence. The nature of this illusion is to attempt to deaden the living spirit within, to give that spirit a solid picture of the creation which is not as you would choose it to be, so that you discover the possibility of choice. And as the time grows further and further into that which has so often been called the New Age, the newer vibrations, though subtle, disturb those without a living and vital faith.

[Pause]

We are sorry that we must pause so often, but we find that this instrument is being greeted continually, and were we not able to pause while this instrument consumed liquid, it would soon not be able to speak. We thank you for abiding through these short silences, for we of Q’uo can only maintain contact as powerful as the energy of the group.

To continue with that which we were discussing, the end times are not drawing near, the end times have well begun, and they shall continue for many of your years to come. It is impossible to tell you, even if we could, when the transition will be complete. We can tell you that it shall be non-dramatic, that those who are harvested shall be harvested as their natural lifetimes of incarnational lessons draw to a close. But there shall come a time when those both incarnate and discarnate shall need to walk a path walked only by those who are alive in faith and love, adoration and worship of the one infinite Creator, and so, able to receive and use and praise the more intense light, the more dense vibratory patterns of being, which characterize that illusion which is at the end of this gradual graduation process.

Always have there been signs and wonders, but never have these signs and wonders been more exciting to those whose faith is shaken than now, for such phenomena which are public, witnessable and undeniable, are to people who are not able to believe, in faith, evidence of a sort of that love which is alive. And because many of those entities upon your sphere call the one known as Jesus “Lord of all,” it is natural and appropriate that images connected with this entity be given to those of simple enough faith and childlike enough hearts to receive without doubt that which is alive, not in the illusion, but in the spirit, which exists in imperishable reality.

Thus, many signs and wonders connected with the various religions, philosophies and spiritual practices used by many incarnate entities to further their progress have come to life, have stood before the least learned, the least sophisticated, the most open, the most willing to believe, and through the energy of that faith have been able to manifest not only to these people, but through that faith to others who doubt, and yearn not to doubt, but know not how to stop.

Then Q’uo said that the nature of the illusion of third density was to challenge one’s beliefs in the positivity of change because it is much easier to fall prey to the feeling of being taken over by negative energies. Q’uo said that they could not predict when the New Age energies would be complete, but they knew that one day all beings who felt the faith and love of the Creator would have a chance to walk into the light and graduate into the fourth density. Q’uo said that in these end times the various religions, philosophies, and spiritual practices would see signs and wonders occurring that they would connect with various facets of the one known as Jesus. On November 16, 1997, Q’uo described the nature of the end times:

Your question this day revolves around that dance of birth and death most closely associated with the seeming end times, whether that be of a life, of an era, or of a culture as a whole. And indeed as you come to this subject your planet revolves into that season of cold and stark and stark bareness when the only evidence of light is the frozen and battered ruins of summer’s paradise of leaves and blossoms. And as wise prophets of all cultures and religions have noted that which blooms also dies; that which blossoms also withers; and that which lives also dies. This is the condition into which you were so eager to come, this peculiar situation of inter-related energies that do not necessarily know how to pull together, how to cooperate to achieve that clarity and balance which is possible within illusion.

It is said in your Holy Bible that the fields are white with harvest and yet there are so few to harvest. We might suggest to each of you that you do exist at this time to be harvested to the extent that you embrace and attempt to live that inner focus of self as a vessel and a channel for that Love that is the One Great Original Thought.

Now, let us turn specifically to the energies of that entity known as the Virgin Mary. Let us look at the story of this entity’s relationship with the one infinite Creator. This entity was barely fifteen years old when the historical event—the visitation by a messenger of the Living Creator—came to this entity. This young woman had been reared in an extremely restrictive environment, one which would be called in your own terms, a man’s world. The very idea of the Creator was couched in puissance and every masculine attribute. The gentleness, the nurturing, the tender quality of the love of the one infinite Creator in this particular society was not valued greatly, nor were those who represented that side of the Creator—that is, women—regarded as anything but property, those who were totally subservient, those who spoke not unless spoken to, those who watched carefully all that they did, those who would not dream, nor even imagine, breaking a vow of marriage, once promised. Such an entity was this pure virgin, too young to know precisely that which was ahead, but old enough to know that she was marrying an older, responsible and very fatherly man, not at her wish, but as an arrangement, for such was the custom.

In this context a vision appeared to this young girl, at an age that is now thought of as being completely irresponsible, untried, and unworthy of being given the credit of adulthood. Yet the one known as Mary listened to an angel—as she perceived this energy—say that she would be with child because of the will of the infinite and unnamable Creator, that she would bear a son before she knew her husband intimately.

The normal reaction of such a well brought up, carefully reared woman as the one known as Mary, should without faith most certainly have been to run in horror from such a vision. Who could believe her? Who could feel that she had not somehow broken her vows and known another intimately, and borne a son who would be a shame to the responsible and greatly revered man to whom she was promised? It would have seemed, in fact, a sentence of doom, swift and certain, if it could be countenanced at all, which in itself would be somewhat unlikely.

Yet this entity, though young and pure and naive, was a woman of timeless and ageless faith, and her reaction was the reaction of those who have the ultimate bravery of acting idealistically in the face of the impossibility of the ideal. She accepted at once the authority of this vision, and rather than pulling away from the situation in which she would be a shame to her future husband, she threw all caution to the winds, and glorified the one infinite Creator that she might be part of this beautiful story, part of the great promise that had been made to her people, the promise of “him who comes in the name of the Lord.”

How could she believe? How could she find a living faith in such an unusual and bizarre occurrence as this visitation? Such was the power of her faith that she accepted the Creator first and all else after. And so she leapt into a situation which seemed doomed, glorifying the Creator and speaking most eloquently of all those things which seem to be plenteousness, but are in fact rewarded with little, and examining those things which seem to be full of poverty and lack, and exclaiming upon their riches.

Such was the entity, Mary, and so luminous was she with her faith, so alive with her vision, that the one to whom she was vowed could not disavow her, but claimed her and the babe she carried as his own. It is a dramatic and telling tale of a living faith in the midst of a world in which faith seems impossible.

Now Q’uo spoke of the nature of the Virgin Mary, who was barely fifteen years old when she was visited by an angel of the one Creator who spoke to her saying that she would bear a son of the one Creator as a virgin in an environment that did not value women. Q’uo said that she accepted her destiny with joy and bravery and was so full of faith in the vision she had that her husband accepted her and her son as his own. On December 15, 2007, Q’uo spoke of how each of us is a part of the life pattern of the Virgin Mary:

Firstly, we would suggest that each of you is that element which is light born into darkness. Whatever your natural day of birth, you share the birthday of Jesus the Christ in terms of what some among you would call the time of being born again. You are each the infant Jesus the Christ, wrapped in swaddling clothes and lying in the rough manger which holds the hay for the cows to eat.

You are also the blessed Virgin Mary who nurtures this tiny child, this point of brilliant light within the darkness of human experience. And you are Joseph, tolerant, patient and supportive, ready to work as a carpenter to support his wife, the nurturer, and his child, the Christ, the principle of Love. And you are the shepherds who come in wonder and awe to lay down their shepherds’ crooks and kneel at the feet of Mary, gazing with wonder at this precious, precious infant.

And there is a portion of you, deep within your soul, which has never been separated from the one infinite Creator in any wise. That portion of you is the angels, singing, “Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah! Glory and peace.”

When Jesus the Christ moved back to the Source, to the Creator, this entity left a feminine and nurturing spirit available to all each day, everywhere and always. This entity is often called the Holy Spirit, and within other belief systems which are more comfortable to those of this generation they are now known as guides and masters. This is acceptable, as long as it is realized that these entities are part of a living faith in a living Creator. However, the one known as Jesus could not return in person, in visions to simple folk, for this entity released the Christ of itself into the Holy Spirit, into that Comforter which is different for each and every one, and which is invisible and only to be discovered and trusted through a process of living faith.

However, the one known as Mary retained a most blessed part in the story of redemption that has seized the imaginations, the hearts, the minds, the souls and the loyalties of so many, through so many generations. This entity is a living feminine principle. The one known as Jesus the Christ was dealing from a position in which women are not even allowed in the same place to worship as the men, where women were not regarded as the gift that they are, for are not all men and women gifts one to another?

Thus, Mary remained most, most important to those who sought the nurturing side of what had been heretofore a masculine, harsh and judgmental concept of the one infinite Creator. It is of course true that love may sometimes be harsh, that its lessons may seem capricious. However, it is also true that the one infinite Creator is infinitely nurturing, infinitely a female energy also, and this energy, within the culture in which you now enjoy existence, has been personified by many as the one known as Mary.

It is to the nurturer that men and women alike turn, because they do not wish to face the stern face of the Creator, of judgment, which has come through centuries of misconception, without regard to the change in societal and cultural biases. Stubbornly, entities cling to a masculine side of the Creator, the generative and destructive side of the infinite One, at the expense of the realization of the everlasting tenderness, gentleness and caringness of this same Creator.

Thus, Mary is recognized by the one known as Jesus in the deeply moving story of his death, while of all of his family, his brothers, his sisters, his relatives, his disciples, his friends, he picked one person to be sure was cared for, and that was Mary. He gave his own precious mother, not just to a disciple, but to the world. It is important to see the universality of this act, just as it is important to see the feminine side of the Creator, forgiving upon the cross one who had sinned admittedly, and was told simply, “This day you shall be with me in paradise.” Both of these elements of this great and archetypical story are meant to indicate the infinite and nurturing nature of the Living Creator.

And so from time to time when there is a window of opportunity, when there is a special group of simple, pure and believing people, usually children, Mary appears and speaks. She is as she always was, a mother, brought up as a Jew, one who wished above all things to take care of her children, to be there for them, to care for them, to worry about them, and to pray for them. And many who are jaded and lost in doubt have come across the undeniable evidence of these occurrences, occurrences which continue and will continue throughout the transition period into fourth density, in order to give the weary soul rest at last when it needs, in a thirsty dry land of intellectual belief and thought, the sweet, warm love of a living Creator.

This Mary personifies, as do all women. May each woman be aware of the vast potential within for nurture, for safety, for the being of a harbor and a haven to those who come near. It is in the weakness and the smallness of the woman’s heart that the greatest personal compassion resides. The Holy Grail that each seeker seeks is a feminine symbol, a nurturing, caring, protective symbol. You do not see the dagger, you do not see the sword. You bow your head before the love of the infinite One.

You may take that which we have said on any level you choose. We have no interest in the level at which your belief or faith works within your incarnational experience to accelerate the pace of your spiritual development. We wish only for you to see the balance of the Creator. The Creator does not just create and destroy, but is a personal, caring nurturer of every moment of every day of every spark of consciousness in the creation. In passion were you all created, and in passion are you nurtured.

The symbols that you choose to be important to you are your own choice, but we ask that you gaze steadily and carefully at the concept of compassion, that it may come to heal you, to mend that which is broken, to cure sorrow, to turn the wrangling reality as it seems for a quiet and pleasant place for the soul to rest and to love. Your world may seem unsafe, but within you is a world of complete safety, beauty and sanctuary. May you meet the Creator there in that holy place within, realizing the love of the one infinite Creator at every moment. Give yourself up to this love in meditation. Give yourself up to this using of the ideal and allow all that seems chaotic about you to recede into the love and light of eternity, for therein do you truly dwell, and from that viewpoint you may open your eyes and be a beacon of light to those about you, as within you compassion is felt.

Then Q’uo said that when Jesus had ascended into heaven that Mary became an image of the feminine and nurturing side of the one infinite Creator in a culture that was masculine and did not value women. Q’uo also said that it is the nurturing and empowering side of Mary that appears in these times of changing energies to be a symbol of the Holy Grail which each seeker seeks in this transition period into the fourth density. Q’uo suggested that we all seek the love of the Creator in meditation and let this love become our beacon of light for all those around us. On September 15, 1996, Q’uo described how we all can become beacons of light:

And each of you is as a beacon of light. That light will grow dim or grow bright as you allow the infinite love that comes from the Creator to all to move freely through the ever-opening heart and out into the world. You cannot love, for your human love will be very limited. There comes a time when the effort must cease and no matter how firm the intention, love cannot any longer be expressed in a human sense. It is only when one quits trying to be love and allows love to come through the self from infinity that one becomes able to withstand that great force and to be able to offer it on a continuing basis.

So, each is encouraged to think of the self as a kind of light house or radio station with the light being brighter or the tuning being higher the more one’s heart is stayed in love, and is open to love, and is open for loving. All of these things are yours to give before you rise from your bed to begin the busy day. And no matter what gift you give the world during those daylight hours of commerce and satisfying accomplishment, that which is the deepest service shall always be your vibration, your signature that we would recognize from any other entity in the creation, no matter in what density or under what circumstances we met you. You are yourself, full of glory and full of a life that is unending.

We thank you very much, as always, for asking us to be with you. We have attempted to be brief, and we are sorry that we have difficulty with the time. Please forgive the length of this message. At this time we would like to end this working by transferring this contact to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo.

This morning I used Tarn>X to begin cleaning about 30 different kinds of silver-plated cups, saucers, pots, and bowls. I got a little more than half of them done before I took a break for lunch.

This afternoon I was able to finish the rest of the silver-plated dishes, and then I put them back in their places in the house which were mostly in the living room and the office on top of the shelves above the windows. Then I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the remaining leaves in the front yard into the leave the leaves area between the fish pond and the pet cemetery.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 14

The Inner Snow

I am of the principle of divine love. I greet you in the full consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

We gaze upon your first snow of the winter and the emotional response from each to such a wonderful spectacle of nature. Within you, too, in many, many layers, are the light snows, the slight drifting, or even the avalanche.

This is especially true at a time when that light which generates prana is at its least effective within your culture. And so you must be light, power and comfort to those who seek out your information, not weighing your own merits in any way but merely asking that you may do the work which was created for you before the world was and certainly, specifically, before the incarnation that you now enjoy.

Look out the window and enjoy the snow. It is a spontaneous, gentle gift from one whose peace passeth all understanding, now and ever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 25, 1990:

The process of evolution can be seen as the process of learning to discipline the personality, or to focus our expenditures of energy in a precise manner, one that moves us closer to our metaphysical goals. What is the nature of discipline? Does it have to be difficult and tedious? What qualities enable the strengthening of discipline? What qualities detract from the strengthening of the discipline?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I am Q’uo. We have most happily been able to contact this instrument, and we greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in Whose service we move and have our being. It was a good example of your query upon discipline in the process which this instrument has spent the previous approximate hour of your time as we find this instrument is aware of time. In the attempt to banish the genuine exhaustion of the physical self due to pain and exertion, this instrument’s red-ray energy center was most dim, and therefore the instrument, in preparing to offer words of inspiration, neglected to be enough aware of the need for the focus upon the reenergizing of the will to live joyfully that is the mark of the open red ray.

Thus, to this instrument’s surprise, we asked the instrument to move backwards in the tuning process to repeat several times prayers of supplication for the uplifting of joy in life. The instrument is now in satisfactory balance, however we would have done this instrument some harm by calling upon vital energies had we not requested repeatedly that the instrument work within its own faith, its own path, its own ways of recalling and reviving the joy of living. This takes patience, and when there is additional work to be done after an hour of prayer it is, shall we say, indeed an effort.

We find you have the term “no pain, no gain.” This is a shallow statement, yet in most cases accurate enough in terms of learning the discipline of any activity of third density, for each entity is unknown to itself, and there must be put forward the effort to know the self in deeper and more profound ways. This illusion which you now enjoy is upon the level of molecular structure, magnetic relationships, and the geometry of what you call matter, placed in order. However, the divine Thought within, which is love, that which is the true self, is covered over, as is the molten center of your planet, with honeycombs of many, many kinds of material, and finally the shallow waters and land masses of the topography of the surface of your sphere.

This planet is an analogy to that which is the consciousness of love within. That is how deeply it is buried. Your passion seems far from you. The discipline of your personality to know the self seems nowhere upon land or sea, in the air or underneath the waters of the earth. There is no conscious way to break into or to tunnel into the heart of your true nature, which is not personality, but which is desired by your free will at this time.

Much effort has already been expended by each of you. Each of you has made choice after choice after choice. When weary, you have sat by the road of seeking; when energetic once again you take up the burden of humanity and walk the path of the seeker, seeking in the air, the earth, the water, and the fire of energy that which is completely unable to be found by the conscious mind. There is, however, that oneness between the molten center of your being, the passion of the divine love within you, and the one great original Thought that is the Creator. And you are within this illusion to learn the nature of yourself and to choose how you wish to shape that nature, how you wish to make choices within the life to serve, to be inspired, to rest, to seek, to be patient, to be despairing, to be thoughtless. All these are equally permissible. There is no judgment, only free will. That is the law of your density, and free will brooks no discipline. You are free. Thus, as in any classroom, when you who do not know decide to know, effort must take place.

The group question for this session regarded what is the nature of disciplining the personality, and what aids and what detracts in the disciplining of the personality? Q’uo began their response by describing the general nature of our being is unknown to us, and there may be some pain involved in discovering our nature by going deeper into the divine thought of love of the Creator that is covered over in the heart of our being much as the molten core of Earth is covered by land, water, and air. Then Q’uo said that it is our purpose to discover more of the true nature of our being by making free will choices to serve, to seek, to rest, but the conscious mind seems only able to make the effort rather than achieve the goal. On September 13, 1991, Hatonn described the nature of our being:

One may learn how to make the illusion work. What one may not purchase for any price from outside oneself is the knowledge of why things are as they are, why we are here, and what is the nature of our being.

To look in the mirror is to see an infinitely small part of the creation. This, my friends, is to the best of our knowledge, a creation made entirely of love. As you view yourself, you may see a tiny portion of an infinite love and yet, within that image in the mirror, there lie depths through which you may only see given a great deal of desire, time and discipline, for that which you seek within yourself, that which is the true heart of love, is locked within you like a seed within the earth or a babe in the womb, and it is through quietness, confidence and meditation that you may let this plan germinate, this babe be born. This entity is that part of yourself that is more fully the original Thought of the Creator—the original Thought of Love.

Now, there are two answers to your question about the pain of discipline. Firstly, in the deepest sense, all discipline is painful, for it denies free will, the full action of chaos, and chaos is the natural atmosphere into which you, as mind and body and spirit, are birthed in this illusion. You have complete freedom. On the other hand, the first choice is perhaps the most difficult, the most humbling, the most painful, for it is a final, deep and complete awareness that chaos is not desirable, that chaos is but the wind upon the water, the waves upon the shore. Without observation of order, without faith in any order within the self, without faith in any work to the self, beyond this little shadow of a life that flickers briefly and moves from dust to dust, it is the choice to have faith, that is the painful, hard-won, difficult and almost impossible to remember cornerstone of all spiritual work.

Once this choice has been not only consciously made—that is, the choice to seek in faith the true orderly nature of the self, ignoring the obvious chaos about one that one may begin to seek out tools for learning and decide when, how and how intensively to apply them to the life experience—once this cornerstone decision has been made, the difficulty level of increasing the discipline of the personality will vary widely with the random actions of free will upon catalyst. Sometimes the desire is very strong within and the work that needs to be done in meditation, contemplation, study, analysis and service seems to be joyful, easy and most pleasant. Sometimes the self is so far removed from any knowledge of its own true heart that there is almost no possibility of spiritual work, and it takes the greatest effort to bring oneself back to that original cornerstone decision to live a life of faith that you are more than a shadow that will fall into dust.

Each of you has this faith. Each of you is therefore through the most painful and difficult portion of the spiritual search. For once you have put your foot upon the path of the seeker of the true self, the energy of that decision comes as a gadfly to nag and move you again and again no matter how far you stray, aiding you to mindfulness.

This is the tool we would give you this evening: mindfulness. How heedless you are. You are heedless of beauty, you are heedless of pain, you are heedless of much that goes on about you as are all entities. There is too much catalyst to process for any entity to process completely, and so a series of choices is constantly being made as to what in the environment of the self shall be heeded as to where the mind shall be placed, the attention drawn. We encourage meditation with the regularity that must seem endless to those who hear our words, but meditation is the key that unlocks the door to that shuttle into that molten passion of love within, awareness of which inspires and enlivens each portion of the experience of your illusion. This entity, for instance, has been heedless of the needs of its physical vehicle, focusing upon outer works and not focusing upon that for which it has dedicated its life. If it is not joyful in living all else must cease, and joy must again be found, for without that foundation, without that energy, all other energy centers are depleted, flaccid, weak and unable to bear the energy of inspiration.

It is not in any way unspiritual to evaluate the self each day, beginning with the fundamental energy of love of life. To be of good cheer, to care for experience and welcome catalyst is the first priority of the most spiritual of beings. It is not to the one who denies the need for care of the self that glory is given, but to the one who keeps that energy open, that joy alive. This is true for each energy center in an ascending pattern. So mindfulness begins with a mindfulness of the need for the instrument of incarnation, which is your physical vehicle. Mindfulness then continues to evaluate energies, to ask the self if there is joy in knowing the self and in knowing others, then in knowing and appreciating the group in which one experiences incarnation, the job, the friendships, the society of your nation state, the quality of that sphere which you call your home at this time. Others who have not enjoyed the clear yellow-ray environment of freedom and the passion for it—and at this time there is much movement upon your planet, passionately to seek it for all people—yet you who already have won your freedom and are the children of freedom and the grandchildren of freedom, how do you value it? How to you use it? How do you support it? How do you care for it? Where is your balance of joy in freedom?

All this is discipline that must be attended to before you may work with the heart to open the heart, to have compassion on the self, on others, on your planet. First you must do your work with your own self, finding your joy, finding your passion. You have chosen faith, you have chosen to believe that there is a reality beyond this illusion. You have done the hardest work. The rest is learning. The rest is the discipline of the personality that began in the chaos of unlearning into which you were born. As we have spoken, each of you has examined the energies, has opened the heart, has begun to feel each other’s presence as seekers, the unity of this group with all who seek, with those such as we who seek to help, and are ourselves seeking further to refine evermore the discipline of the personality. All this must be done before you can begin to discipline your personality. You must first find joy. You must first allow your faith to show forth in a love of life and living. Sometimes you do most, most beautifully at this, at other times there is a woeful lack of work because the self does not feel worthy of such fundamental work, wishing only to serve others. Nay, my friends, prepare the self first for service.

Now Q’uo began their answer as to the nature of the discipline of the personality being a painful process because it requires that the free will of chaos, that we are born into, to be denied so that we may use faith in discovering the true orderly nature of our being as that of spiritual seekers of truth. Then Q’uo said that we may begin this inner discovery of our true natures by using daily meditation to arrive at a state of mindfulness that can unlock the door to the passion of love that is within us. They also suggested that we engage in using our catalyst to unblock our lower energy centers of orange and yellow so that we can find the joy in one-to-one relations in the orange ray and joy in group relations of the yellow ray. When we have done this work then we can open our hearts in a true love of life and desire to be of service to others.  On November 4, 1990, Q’uo spoke of the value of practicing mindfulness:

True worshipful living is a high risk occupation. It is not a loop into the light, but rather a loop into darkness. The illusion creates an emotional, mental and spiritual twilight in which ideals, the purification of emotions from attachments, and the mindfulness of continuing awareness of the worship bloom in the darkness of blind faith. That is, the true worship is worship of a mystery; awe, wonder, a greater and greater subjective feeling of being held firmly by that which is not illusion, although one cannot understand it, so that the entity rests at last in a completely subjective and subjectively truthful journey. In this regard, worship may be seen as motion, motion of a metaphysical kind rather than a physical kind.

Now we speak of mindfulness itself, a mindfulness of your choice, a mindfulness of your faith that there is indeed within you the passion that created the universe and all that is in it. In meditation roads are built that create a pathway to an immediate experience of this love. This is work done in discipline. When the energy of living within you is good, and the desire to learn is strong, there is only joy in this work. It can also be the most difficult work you can imagine. A great deal depends upon the preparation of your self to be a person of joy and lover of life. Be mindful of who you are. You are love, you are a co-creator with the original Thought of your own experience and your own creation. There is not one creation, there are as many creations as there are perceptors of creation. Each personal truth is absolute. One cannot give to another faith, but only the desire to find that faith and the realization that such a thing is possible.

We come to speak to you as those who have learned mindfulness. We find in this instrument’s mind the phrase “to pray without ceasing.” This is a good phrase to express that which we mean by being mindful. In meditation you tabernacle with the infinite One, you listen to the silence that speaks deeply, without words, and gives the information that will give you the energy, the joy, and the faith to move ahead. Without the meditation it is very difficult to remain in a state of unity with your greater self, with the Creator within. This is the heart of the discipline of personality.

Each of you has read many, many texts which attempt to aid in the process of accelerating the evolution of mind, body and spirit. The catalyst for the discipline of personality is joyful remembering of who you are. As you remember who you are, more and more of that which you may willfully seem to be, but which you are not, is no longer needed and falls away. The effort is not in pushing away the things of this world, as this instrument would say. The effort is in creating within the self a joyful remembrance of love as the nature of the true self, which creates an atmosphere in which gradually, and in a rhythmic, appropriate time, one after another, those things which are hindrances to joy fall away. Anger is not overcome, it is simply no longer needed to express the passion of the self. Distress, despair, all negative emotion is distorted love. It is passion turned and bent and unrecognizable. But as love is all there is, so with your free will you may create ponderous illusion upon illusion, finding perverse comfort in negative emotion, for it is familiar, and that which is familiar is safe, and that which is unfamiliar is not. When one is mindful one finds oneself slowly able to release the fear that has caused the distortion that has created for the self an armor against that which is perceived as a threat. To one continuously aware of the self as love there are no threats, there is only remembrance of the truth of love.

Now Q’uo said that there is a mindfulness within each of us that reminds us that we are a portion of the Love that created the universe, and that meditation is the means by which we travel that road to love. Q’uo said this was the way that the discipline of the personality is accomplished which may be a process that is both full of joy and also a painful experience as we discipline our personalities, but we need to remember that we are a unique part of the original Thought of Love as we are experiencing both joy and pain. Then Q’uo said that being mindful is also accomplished by meditation where we tabernacle with the one Creator to find joy, energy, and faith to move forward in our disciplining of our personality where we discover more of who we are and allow those parts of ourselves to fall away that we no longer need such as fear, despair, and anger. Then only love remains. On March 19, 2000, Q’uo gave a general outline of the discipline of the personality:

In terms of the metaphysical universe the everyday experience becomes the hallowed and greatly valued grist for the mill, as the one known as Ram Dass put it. And when one considers the same chores and concerns one is looking not simply for the completion of a list of things to do but also a way of going about the doing of these things that is informed and energized by the manner of being which underlies and undergirds the everyday experience.

It is in this regard that the discipline of the personality can come into play. However, it is important to note that the energy system of the mind, body and spirit of the complex of energies cannot be manipulated beyond certain limits. That is, if there is a blockage in the lower three energy centers, which have to do with survival, the way the self regards the self or relates to other entities one at a time, and the way the self relates to the groups of third density, such as the work environment and the family, then the power of the one infinite Creator that enters the body in infinite supply cannot come into the heart center with full energy.

We are mindful of this entity’s weariness, and would therefore transfer this contact, with many thanks to the instrument for its remembrance of its great desire to love, to the one known as Jim. We hail each through the mouth of this humble one in love and light. I am Q’uo.

This morning I completed the washing of all of the crystal and China dishes mostly in the kitchen but also in the living room, the office, and in my bathroom. Now the last job is to clean the various silver-plated pots, cups, trays, and saucers by hand with TarnX, and I will probably save that job until tomorrow. At mid-day I drove over to the headquarters of the Kentucky Humane Society for a lunch/meeting that they hold once a month, for people who donate to the work that they do with dogs and cats, to let them know what they do and how they do it.

This afternoon I ran a couple of errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply where I bought some cat food for Benny. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. When I got home I used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the back yard into a pile and then put them into the last garbage can for yard waste pickup tomorrow. Then I put all of the China that was in the dish washer away.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 13

The Personal Nature Of Love

I am the spirit of the full consciousness of Christ. I greet you in His perfect love and in the holy name of the Son of God.

It is through the mediation of Jesus, the man who spells salvation for you, that I speak, and not only from God. For it is the Creator’s desire to personify consciousness into godliness and to generalize personhood into creation itself, so that experience may become infinite and infinity may be experienced.

It is to those who accept the personal nature of love that love shall be given most fully. For it is to the adoring heart that love may speak most clearly.

And how to adore that which is impersonal? We come in consciousness.

We are consciousness. And we speak to consciousness. Know yourself as the personhood of God in Christ and turn your faces in adoration to the person of the Creator, which comes for you and to you and through you.

We are only extensions of the spirit of that great drive of the consciousness of love; only the principle that extends the liveness of the Creator.

In peace we are with you, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 11, 1990:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. At this time it is our privilege to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries if there are further queries. May we begin now with the first query?

S: Yes, Q’uo, you mentioned that we have natural protection when we sleep. We are, in that case, in a state of unity which involves having passed through the veil. In some sense as we study consciously the systems of the deep mind, we attempt in a partial way to do the same thing, but one quickly learns of the necessity for protection in doing so. If one were to take the first step on the path, for example, of the study of the Kabbala, one passes through the dark night of the soul, the Malkuth, through Yesod, I wonder if that involves passing through the veil, entering what is sometimes called the light body, and if so, if there is a danger in doing so, what is one’s best protection in doing so?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. As one undertakes any study of the nature of your evolutionary process, whether it be that path followed by those who study the tree of life, the path of the tarot, or any other path that leads eventually to the realization of unity, it is well to surround oneself with the desire to seek this unity within that quality that you may call love. Love, being the energizing and creative force of all that is, then, can speak to itself within all other beings and forces that may be encountered, calling from each its creative and sustaining nature. To so configure the conscious and subconscious mind with the quality of love is to provide to the self the greatest protection that is possible, for where there is love there cannot be fear, and fear is the only avenue available to any entity that would wish to enter fear and manipulation into one’s pattern of life experience.

Thus, it is well to begin any serious study and application of any particular avenue of ritualistic discipline of the personality with this quality. As one progresses along whatever path is chosen and begins to bear the fruit of that path in service to others it is especially important to fashion the armor of love and light about oneself in order that the endeavor to seek unity in order to be of service to others might be protected.

S asked if, in the study of the Kabbala, when one passes through the veil in the experience of the dark night of the soul would there be some kind of protection necessary for doing so. Q’uo said that if one followed the path of the Kabbala, or the study of the tarot, or the study of the Tree of Life it would be necessary to surround one’s self with an armor of love and light which are the fabric of the universe. On April 9, 1989, Q’uo recommended this armor of love and light as a protection regarding any negative entities:

Though it seems quite a foolish thing to do, the means is to enter, within one’s own heart, within the state of meditation or prayer and to find as much heartfelt love as one can generate and offer it to those that would wish one less than well, and to bathe these entities in this love and in that light and to offer to them that unconditional love from the heart which is so sweet and delicate to those of the positive polarity but which has the opposite effect upon those of the negative polarity.

However, we must remind each that it is necessary that the intention for such a protection be not to resist or to cause the entities of negative polarity any discomfort at all, but to simply offer the heartfelt love to such entities and then to bathe the self in the armor of love and light and to offer this love as often as is necessary in order that the protection and wall of light be constructed about the entity in a pure and heartfelt manner.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S: Yes. One does find instances where there are correspondences made between the tarot and Kabbala. For example, I have read recently a correspondence between the major Arcana twenty-one, the Great Way of Spirit, and the first path working upon which the aspirant adept may step in the Kabbala [inaudible]. I wonder if you could tell me if these correspondences are useful, if they have a truth to them, and how they might be used?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. Indeed, my brother, in an universe of unity there are correspondences all about one. The usefulness of any correspondence is much like the beauty of any work of art. It is in the eye of the beholder or the efforts of the practitioner that the usefulness is to be determined. For each entity, no matter what portion of the study is undertaken, will be moving from a place in his or her understanding that is unique, and whatever correspondence is available or noticeable to that entity will be useful insofar as the entity has prepared itself to utilize that which lies before it.

This is to say that the preparation in understanding and practice will call to the seeker those succeeding steps and the perception of those steps that is appropriate in order safely to place the foot upon new understanding and new metaphysical ground. Thus, as the quality of the…

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S asked if the correspondences that he heard about between the Kabbala and the tarot were true and, of so, how could they be used? Q’uo said that such correspondences exist according to the uniqueness of each seeker and their place on their path of seeking. On February 25, 2023, Q’uo affirmed the unique nature of each seeker:

Each seeker is unique, and each seeker may use information in a way that is unique to that seeker, for all are part of the One Infinite Creator, and each offers the Creator a certain path of knowing Itself, that is also a path that each seeker may use to know itself.

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. Is there a further query, my brother?

S: There’s just one. It occurs to me now that the greatest protection we may need is from ourselves, and as you have said, the surest protection is provided by the loving and open heart. You have mentioned on other occasions that the heart may be used as a springboard to the higher energy centers. A question I have had is, does that springboard effect work directly, say from the heart center to the throat center, and then again directly from the heart center to the indigo center, or does it simply rise up through the channels, going first through the throat center, then through the indigo center? Is there a way to draw directly on the energies of the heart?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The nature of the heart center is for the adept as the foundation is for the carpenter. This is the foundation upon which the structure of any effort shall be placed. It is necessary in order to be able to move beyond the blue-ray energy center that there be a considerable amount of work accomplished, not only at that center, but also within the indigo-ray center, for the opening of the green-ray or heart center is an opening which allows a movement from that center to the next center for the beginning of work within the throat or blue-ray center.

It is necessary to master to a minimal degree the study of each center beyond the green-ray center for the opening of any center beyond the green ray to occur upon a regular and dependable basis. Thus, when such work has been accomplished within the blue and indigo rays, it is possible for the adept to choose whether energy shall be moved through the green-, the blue- or the indigo-ray center for work of either the healing nature within green ray, the freely given communication within blue ray, or the work of that which you may call the white magical nature within the indigo-ray center.

Then S asked how the heart served as a springboard to the higher energy centers. Q’uo said that the work one does in the heart center prepares one for healing work in the heart center, for communication in the blue center, and for work of the white magical nature in the indigo center. In 48.7, Ra described the nature of the heart center being a springboard for further growth:

Having accepted that an harvestable or nearly harvestable entity will be working from this green-ray springboard one may then posit that the experiences in the remainder of the incarnation will be focused upon activation of the primary blue ray of freely given communication, of indigo ray, that of freely shared intelligent energy, and if possible, moving through this gateway, the penetration of violet-ray intelligent infinity. This may be seen to be manifested by a sense of the consecrate or hallowed nature of everyday creations and activities.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S: No, thank you very much, Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: I’d like to follow up on a couple of questions, and then just a thank you. To follow up on S’s question, would not, once the green-ray center was established as fully opened, the energy be drawn naturally to one’s chosen path of service, that path of service which was chosen before the incarnation? Is it not something that happens naturally and doesn’t have to be chosen, or is the conscious choice necessary?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. This statement we find, if we understand it correctly, to be much as one of your sayings which states that it is putting the cart before the horse. In this regard we mean to say that the opening of the green-ray center is most often accomplished by those who have begun, and well begun, the following of what you have called the life’s work, or chosen service, and the pursuing of this service has been refined to such a degree that the opening and energizing of the green-ray energy center then becomes possible, and when accomplished, acts much as your magnifying glass does to enlarge that service which has been chosen.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: Yes, I see from that answer that it is desirable to continue always to wish to seek higher and higher in the indigo ray. I understand now. But I did have a feeling from the whole message that you were inferring a simplicity beneath the various ways of studying dreams, in other words, that you said the dreamer is the dream and the dream is the dreamer; that if you were studying the archetypical mind the first of the major Arcana would contain the whole of the Arcana, and the first station, or I guess it would be the last in the [inaudible] [Tree Of Life], Malkuth, would contain the whole of the tree of life. Is this inference correct?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Not only is this inference correct, but it may be applied to any of the stations, any of the Arcana, and any portion of one’s life experience, for all may be seen to be individualized and particularized facets of the one Creator, viewpoints from which the one Creator may be experienced, may be observed and may be glorified. Each station, Arcana and experience, then, is as a facet upon a jewel, the jewel being the one Creator, the facet being a window through which a portion of the one Creator may be viewed, and when viewed with a perception free of distortion, all facets of the one Creator are then made available through the one facet that is observed, much as your holographic picture will yield the entirety of the picture from any portion.

Carla was making a correlation to what Q’uo channeled through her earlier in this session when they said the dream was the dreamer, and the dreamer was the dream. She asked if this was similar to saying that the first of the Major Arcana would contain all of the Arcana just as Malkuth in the Tree of Life would contain all of the Tree of Life. Q’uo agreed that this was correct just as any Arcana could be seen as facets of a jewel that could reveal the Creator through any facet just as a holographic picture reveals the entirety of the Creator from any angle. On December 14, 2019, Q’uo define a holograph:

Then, the creation itself could be seen as the holograph, and each portion of the creation, be it a sun body, a planetary body, a mind/body/spirit complex, or any first or second density awarenesses, may be seen as portions of a holograph, each portion or iota containing the One Infinite Creator in its full power and being. All else is seen as the same, for the holograph is unified, there is nothing but the One Infinite Creator expressed in various frequencies of vibration, various forms of manifestation, various powers of energy, moving in synchronicity with all other powers in the One Infinite Creation, to form that which is the one infinite creation.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, Q’uo, but I’d just like to thank you for the blessing of the most incredible light that I’ve ever seen—actually I didn’t see it, I felt it, and the only word I can use to describe it is splendor. I thank you very much for this experience.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you as well, my sister, for the service which you and each within this group provide us. It is a light to us as well, of great beauty. Is there another query at this time?

M: Yes, Q’uo, I have a question. I [inaudible] that could be used in understanding archetypes, the Tree of Life and the tarot. I understood that perhaps astrology would also be useful [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. It is true that astrology is also quite useful in the study of the nature of the archetypical mind and the evolutionary process as an whole. However, we did not mention astrology in our original statements because there is much that has been attributed to this study which is confusing to those who have not engaged in intensive and long-term study of the origins of this particular field of inquiry. This is a study which differs significantly from that of the tarot and that of the Tree of Life in that much of the work of the study utilizing astrology must be accomplished within the meditative state where certain tones or resonances, harmonics between concepts and energies, are felt and intuited. This type of study is one which is highly informative to those who are quite sincerely dedicated to penetrating beyond the surface appearance of what is usually given in books and treatises upon the study of astrology. The necessity of penetrating the outer appearance of this study is so great as to cause us to, shall we say, give the caveat that it is a most difficult study to master without great dedication and perseverance.

M had a question that seemed to ask if astrology could also be used like the tarot or the Tree of Life perhaps to describe the life path. Q’uo said that astrology could also be used in the study of the archetypical mind, but it would require meditation and the study of astrology before it could be applied to the evolutionary process. In 88.23, Ra went into great detail to describe how astrology relates to the Major Arcana of the tarot:

Questioner: You mentioned earlier that the tarot was a method of divination. Would you explain that?

Ra: I am Ra. We must first divorce the tarot as a method of divination from this Major Arcana as representative of twenty-two archetypes of the archetypical mind.

The value of that which you call astrology is significant when used by those initiated entities which understand, if you will pardon the misnomer, the sometimes intricate considerations of the Law of Confusion. As each planetary influence enters the energy web of your sphere those upon the sphere are moved much as the moon which moves about your sphere moves the waters upon your deeps. Your own nature is water in that you as mind/body/spirit complexes are easily impressed and moved. Indeed, this is the very fiber and nature of your journey and vigil in this density: to not only be moved but to instruct yourself as to the preferred manner of your movement in mind, body, and spirit.

Therefore, as each entity enters the planetary energy web each entity experiences two major planetary influxes, that of the conception, which has to do with the physical, yellow-ray manifestation of the incarnation, and that of the moment you call birth when the breath is first drawn into the body complex of chemical yellow ray. Thus those who know the stars and their configurations and influences are able to see a rather broadly drawn map of the country through which an entity has traveled, is traveling, or may be expected to travel, be it upon the physical, the mental, or the spiritual level. Such an entity will have developed abilities of the initiate which are normally known among your peoples as psychic or paranormal.

When the archetypes are shuffled into the mix of astrologically oriented cards which form the so-called Court Arcana and Minor Arcana these archetypes become magnetized to the psychic impressions of the one working with the cards, and thusly become instruments of a linkage between the practitioner of the astrological determinations and divinations and the one requesting information. Oft times such archetypical representations will appear in such a manner as to have seemingly interesting results, meaningful in configuration to the questioner. In and of themselves, the Major Arcana have no rightful place in divination but, rather, are tools for the further knowledge of the self by the self for the purpose of entering a more profoundly, acutely realized present moment.

Is there a further query, my sister?

M: No, thank you Q’uo.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

K: You spoke this evening of the protection inherent in the consciousness of love. It seems to me that there may be different types of protection available, but maybe not, maybe they all stem from that one source. Earlier you spoke about the protection that is offered by the cat entity, and I’m wondering if you can talk a little bit about how they offer that protection and if that’s related to that same love consciousness?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The entities known as your cats have a history within the archetypical experiences of your third density that dates back, shall we say, using your reference of time, to many, many thousands of years ago, moving especially through that culture that you know as the Egyptian culture, moving back even farther to the roots of this experience into that culture known to you as Atlantean.

Within that culture there were those who sought sincerely and successfully the Law of One, and in this study used as a portion of their ritualized worship and seeking of the One the companionship of the entities that you call the cat. These entities have a correspondence by their nature to that quality within the human being that may be seen as the feminine, the subconscious mind, the High Priestess as given by the tarot, which inspires, nourishes, protects and potentiates experience within that portion of the mind exemplified by the male, the conscious, the third-density entity which exists upon the level of the illusion.

Thus, the cat has for great eons of your planet’s metaphysical experience become associated within the mass mind of your planetary sphere with that which is protective, nourishing, loving and inspirational. Thus, the connection between this creature and that quality known as love is one which is steeped in metaphysical experience and within the roots of your subconscious mind.

K asked if the protection nature of love was in any way reflected in cats being able to serve as protectors. Q’uo said that for eons of time the cat had been seen as a source of protection by the Egyptians and the Atlanteans because they represent the feminine principle of nurturing and loving and are connected to the roots of the subconscious minds within third-density beings. On December 12, 2005, Q’uo affirmed the loving nature of cats:

Certainly, it is a partnership of a very special kind and it begins with the simple creature comfort of two second-density animals that have agreed to make each other part of their family. There is a tremendous comfort in coming into the presence of one for whom you feel affection and one who feels affection for you. It is the gift of several species, cats among them, which are normally treated as pets among your culture, that there is the gift of affection which is part of the natural mentality and emotional makeup of that second-density animal that is the cat. Such animals are extremely well suited to creating a healing and comforting partnership with their humans.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: Has there been any decision on the part of the feline species to offer themselves in service to us in that way?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The decision, as you call it, is not that which you would understand as a decision made in a conscious fashion, but one which is rather as is the given in their nature, a gift or quality which by its very nature offers itself in this service without either being consciously made or even being conscious.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and we would like to take this opportunity to thank each entity present this evening for inviting us once again into your circle of seeking. It has been a great honor to join you here and to walk with you in that light and love of the one infinite Creator in which we leave you at this time, rejoicing at each step, praising the light and sharing the love. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I continued washing the dishes in the kitchen and was able to complete the third set of shelves. While the dishes were washing I also used Pledge to clean the shelves where they were displayed.

This afternoon I was able to get the fourth and last of the shelves of dishes washed, the shelves cleaned, and the dishes back on the shelves. Now I just have a few dishes, China, and silver left in the living room, the office, and my bathroom to complete the project tomorrow.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 12

Come, Worship Life Within You

I am the spirit of that which all men seek, the spirit of love. I am of the principle of the Father and of the redemption of the Son. I greet you in the full and perfect confidence of the consciousness of love.

It is unknown to many of your peoples what kind of God created the myriad of universes and the infinite detail that makes up each life. And yet if the powers of observation function even feebly, the nature of the Creator can be seen. For no story within the creation has a true ending. All things are propagated again and again, to shine in glory from season to season. The creation is rich with seeds of life and seeds of consciousness.

Thus it can be seen that we as spirit are alive because the Creator is God of life. And if there is within you death, yet it is not the death of aught save hands and feet, not the death of thought or love or consciousness.

Thus we offer to you not the sensations which end in death but those which offer to your consciousness fruit for heart and soul, always renewed, always transforming. Come and worship life and love in the infinite consciousness within you. We who comfort are here to comfort infinitely.

May you be washed, bathed and blessed in the comfortable peace that fears not death: the love of Christ. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.