The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 12, 1989:

What is the function of emotions in the life of the spiritual seeker, and what value is there to the seeker in attempting to uncover or develop or feel the full range of emotions, especially the caring for those about one, and feeling the vitality of life and being able to express the feelings that move through one?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet this circle of souls in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is our privilege to be called to this group of light being, and we bask in the glow of your seeking and your love.

In speaking about emotion, there are semantic difficulties. Emotion has been systematically undervalued among your peoples for a great span of your experience, much to the detriment of the whole and unified self which seeks to manifest through third density illusion the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. What passes for emotion among many are not so much feelings as basic instincts such as reproduction, companionship and practicality. The role of emotions, while idealized within your culture, is in fact a false role, in that emotions do not serve the function which they are capable of serving.

The most usual blockages of energy are two. One is the overactive emotional nature, that nature that wears, as this instrument would say, the heart upon the sleeve, one who reacts with a shallow and instinct feeling to each catalyst that it encounters. The hectic quality of these emotions is a disturbance and a confusion, rather than that which is the true function of emotion, that is, the further knowing of the self and the ennoblement of the expression of life within the consciousness of manifestation. How much we wish we could aid those who are caught in surface emotion, yet always it is the free will choice of each to use its intellect, surface emotion, or to move in consciousness into a more helpful and useful focus of mind and heart, so that one may discover the true, deep and abiding emotions that create a life in faith.

The other common blockage of emotions is also culturally produced. The young ones of your society are not cherished with deep and abiding emotion, quite often and instead there is the rigid rule, the constant request of parent to child for this or that behavior, which, in the course of the young years, causes many souls to become inured and numbed to emotion. The intellect observes the pain of expressing emotion to those who identify deep emotion with misbehavior and unacceptable sentimentality, and so it becomes unproductive, seemingly, and indeed hurtful, to continue experiencing the impact of the full emotional nature of the deep mind.

The group question for this session was what is the function of emotions for the seeker of truth, and what is the value of expressing the full range of emotions and to be able to experience the feelings that move through one? Q’uo began their reply by saying that our society does not appreciate the true value of emotions but operates more by instinct such as reproduction, companionship, and practicality. Q’uo continued by saying that emotions were blocked by expressing only surface emotions instead of expressing the deeper emotions based on faith, and there was a second blockage was that parents frequently did not express a deep and abiding love for their children, but constantly required correct behavior which eventually blocks children from being able to express their deeper emotions. On September 19, 2004, Q’uo describe the problem of surface emotions:

And how difficult it is sometimes to see through the surface details to the issues that are half-hidden and half-revealed by surface emotions, surface occasion, and surface reaction. Yet those surface expressions are as the foam upon the top of the waters. They have no substance. They have no longevity. They have no reality. Yet because they recur with such steady regularity over the course of the waves of the day, it is easy to become fixated upon watching them and surfing in them, to the exclusion of doing that work which deepens the requirements upon the self; which pulls the self into the more mysterious precincts of the deeper waters of the path.

Almost everyone dwelling upon your sphere at this time, in your culture, tends toward one or the other bias, rather than appreciating emotion in its purified and deeper sense as the profoundest part of one’s intelligence. The function of emotion in the spiritual life is the creating of the vitality, the passion and intensity which is not created out of thin air, but discovered from within. In order to make use of these purified emotions which speak of deep intelligence, it is often necessary for an entity to be aided by inspiration, example, and most of all, desire: desire to remove the stumbling blocks which block energy from the heart. With the energy blocked by over-activity or numbness of emotion, the spiritual path is even more muddled, wearisome and confusing than it needs to be. This is because such blockages keep energy from entering the heart in full measure, and it is the heart energy which is lifted up and ennobled by work in consciousness.

Now, what is the definition of purified emotion? We search for vocabulary which is not religious, but rather philosophical, for it is all too easy to say worship, adore, give thanksgiving, offer praise to the one infinite Creator. Instead, we would simply put it in another context. As one is able to experience the self more and more intelligently, consciously and fully, one is able to feel self-forgiven, worthy, hopeful, cheerful, peaceful and oriented toward a lively work on behalf of the one infinite Creator. Humankind is fueled, not by oil or coal so much as by inspiration, passion, sharing and caring. Thus, the more fully one is able to tap into the deep and plangent notes of purified emotion, the greater is one’s ability to manifest the light of the infinite One to a darkened world, which rejoices in seeing beacons of light, whether or not they know why the light is there, how the light has come to be there, and what is its function. The emotional nature of a deep and strengthening kind is the basis of intelligence which forms the bedrock of faith. We speak not of faith in this, or faith in that, for the Creator is infinite and mysterious, and any specific belief system neglects much of the whole repertoire of spiritual tools and resources. Therefore, in encouraging one’s own deeper intelligence, that is, the deep emotions, one must seek within for that center about which the incarnational experience now revolves.

It is impossible to create purified emotion by desire alone, for desire will bring you to the border of that emotion, but will make of it a mockery unless the deep self is touched, and felt, unless emotion may inform intellect. Those among your people who are small in years are perfect examples, for the most part, of entities which are in touch with deep emotion. The younger the entity, the closer that entity is to concepts of deep memory concerning the true self and the purpose of the incarnational experience. However, immediately upon entering this illusion the process of enculturation begins, and little by little, young souls react to a lack of understanding, either by moving on a sea of shallow emotions at all times, or by rejecting emotion as painful, unnecessary and undesirable, as it does cause pain to one who does not have a fully energized heart energy center.

Many of your peoples attempt to create within themselves deep emotion, that they may love, and know the joy of deep and spiritual love. This is an exercise in futility. Also to be de-emphasized are those practices of your religions which encourage and even goad participants into an high emotional state which is fed, not by deep emotions in most cases, but by the enjoyable excitement of group joy, that is, when one worships in such a way as artificially to move the hearts of entities from without, so, to the extent that this is so, shall the emotion be that which rings false for deep work in consciousness.

Indeed, the intellect is often the master, even of the most devoted spiritual seeker. Burdened with the rational mind, the seeker often places too little emphasis on the freeing up of deep energies, of keeping open those passageways from spiritual self to mental, emotional and spiritual self. The creation is consciousness, and that consciousness is pure emotion, not the pure intellect. Infinite intelligence expresses itself within incarnation as deep and abiding emotion. Thus, as one feels love pouring through one, one is fulfilling one’s fundamental and major mission upon your Earth sphere, and that is to be a radiant being, a light to many, not by action, but by the vital energy, the sweetness of soul, and the expressions of love which move through the seeker who has opened the door to deep emotion.

Now Q’uo said that the expression of deeper, truer emotions is often blocked in one of the lower three energy centers so that they cannot enter the heart, and in order to express these deeper emotions one must discover the center of one’s being about which the current incarnation revolves. Q’uo said that the younger that children are, the more fully they can feel their deeper emotions, but with additional years of enculturation they begin to express more shallow emotions or even reject emotions as being too painful. So Q’uo suggested that the seeker must free up its deeper emotions and the passageways to the spirit within to allow pure love to flow through the heart so that the seeker becomes a radiant being to many. On September 12, 2009, Q’uo spoke of the value of discovering our deeper emotions:

If you respect your own emotions and regard them with affection and a lack of judgment, and if you persist in allowing yourself to feel those emotions and to let them move ever deeper, you shall find that the gift begins to bear fruit as you feel yourself becoming more spacious within, more responsive to the deeper emotions. You will find that you are an alchemist turning disharmony into harmony, fear into love, darkness into light. It is a natural process and it begins with the disharmony, with the darkness. Such are the ways of spirit.

To remove oneself from the coil of emotion that is shallow, or emotion that is numbed, one may sometimes find it helpful to seek a healer which works with the emotional dynamics and energies of entities. There is, in this type of healer, the energy which may be used, shall we say, as a jump start upon the clearing of emotional blockages. The energy of the teacher in this instance is critical, and those teachers which are not basically moving in joy need to turn within before teaching further, to find the absolute love which is the wisdom of the self for that greater Self which is Love. Love needs must answer love for the creation of each seeker to move into balance.

Perhaps the road to experiencing emotions more clearly and more deeply begins with the contemplation of the astounding, generous and infinite love of the one Creator. The Creator’s nature Itself is love infinite. Each of you is likewise imperishable and infinite, but in terms of the experience you now enjoy, you within the body are finite, limited and fooled by the illusion which is to teach you. Therefore, we suggest a daily alignment of affirmation and closeness with the love within one’s self which is infinite. Many negative emotions disturb the hearts of those who have not found pure emotion, and, instead of being uplifted by love, they feel judged, inadequate and unloving. This is because the surface healing emotions come from one rather than through one, and are easily exhausted or transformed into negative emotions of frustration, anger and guilt.

Thus, one is seeking that which one cannot put into words, that which may fill the being, so that the being is rich and full and vital, and spilling over with love, love infinite. In this atmosphere each entity becomes a healer, each entity becomes a channel, each entity becomes that which one would call Christ to those about one.

Purified emotion, whole and unblemished divine love, is the very axis upon which infinite intelligence built the myriad illusions which lead each imperishable soul along the path of inspiration, closeness to the one Creator, and an infinite capacity for compassion and service to others. Without emotion of a deep nature, the life experience lacks vividness, and it is more difficult for the seeker to make the choice of service to others or service to self with firmness of heart and intensity of passion.

Sometimes it is a long road which the pilgrim must wend upon its way to the experiencing of untutored and unregulated emotional truth. This is as it should be, and we ask each not to be discouraged as one again and again fails to realize the potential within the self, while manifesting this worshipful, sanctified and perfect love. Such deep truths are difficult to find within your illusion. So it was designed that each, by one lesson upon another, by persistence, and by the leap of faith, may become that which one was not before, consciously, that is a very creature of the Creator, a portion of infinite intelligence, an eternal, beautiful and perfect group of energies and expressions.

For, as you well know within your density, all that you see, including your own body, is illusory. That which you are indeed, in truth, is a complex of electromagnetic fields which hold within them the precious and infinite consciousness which, when purified, is one with the infinite Creator. Thus, each emotional blockage which may be found and dispelled, leaves a space, an emptiness, which is absolutely necessary in order that one may move from the emotions of the surface and the involvements of the day to a keener awareness of self as one with the Creator, a bearer of love, a messenger and channel of light to all whom you meet.

Now Q’uo suggested a few ways that we might purify our emotions so that they are deeper and genuine, and the first way was to seek a healer that was already in a state of joy and contact with the Creator’s love to help one become healed of the shallow emotions. Q’uo also said that it would be helpful to contemplate the infinite love of the Creator and find that love within one in order to heal the surface emotions that are the source of negative feelings like frustration, anger, and guilt. Then Q’uo said that this process of healing surface emotions and finding the love of the Creator to be a part of one’s deepest emotions might take a great deal of time and effort as we continue to learn the lessons of our incarnations that were designed to help us with this process. However, Q’uo said that such work is well worth the effort as the end result is that the continual removal of surface emotions makes more space within us for being able to see the self as one with the Creator and a channel of light for all to see. On December 15, 1996, Q’uo used the analogy of a piano tuner to show us how purifying our emotions provides a connection to the deepest part of our being:

So you may look upon the disciplines involved in purifying emotions within yourself as that job that the piano tuner does when it takes its vibrating instrument which, when struck, vibrates the A below middle C, and then attempts to tune the corresponding note upon the instrument to that precise vibratory rate. Each of your emotions has a perfect crystalline nature. It is buried within the distortions that keep you from seeing and hearing the beauty of that note of feeling, that emotion. So when you experience emotions, know that you are receiving information from a deep source, that is, from that large portion of your consciousness that resides at a level below the threshold of conscious awareness. Where words cannot go, emotions become vocabulary.

There is danger, as in any other pursuit, in working at the discovery of one’s emotions. The nature of the deep self is subtle, and is not to be manipulated from without. Rather, it is a matter of seeking faithfully and persistently in meditation and in action, to begin to observe the resonances of deep emotion which lie between the lines of the pages of everyday life. Emotion wells up within, the gift of the nature of the one infinite Creator to its infinite family, its heirs of glory.

We use the word glory most specifically and literally. There is within each seeking entity the dynamic of vitality and numbness, of joy and sorrow, of giving and receiving. It is those which harness the intellect as a dray horse for work upon the surface, and who move into meditation and deeper states of consciousness, which will find the emotions being released from within. A release of blocked emotion is greatly healing, and as one entity is healed and becomes more and more an intense and passionate creature of the light, one becomes less and less addicted to those everyday things which seem so important, and more and more tuned to the spontaneous actions of creative love. The glory of the universe of the infinite One is that each portion of it is full and instinct with profound and whole emotion, that is, the one great original Thought of Love, which is the Creator as well as the creation.

There is further aid when one has touched the heart of self and felt the release of blocked energies, and that is that one’s abilities to serve others in a compassionate manner are greatly aided, for entities of themselves within the third-density illusion cannot sustain an effort which is ideal. Ideals will always be overtaken by practicalities, adjustments, compromises. Better it is for one to retire from the human arena in a persistently regularized manner, seeking within, listening within, asking to know the deepest portions, the most intelligent portions of the self, which move in emotion and archetype.

The developing of genuine purified emotion is for most a long and toilsome task, where so much of the cultural conditioning is that which, in the case of some, encourages the bubbling of surface emotion, and in others the refusal to express feeling in any way. Such are the ways your culture deadens souls to their true purpose, which is to seek persistently, patiently and prayerfully, to know, and to be with the One.

Once one realizes that within oneself lies holy ground, one knows and trusts far better the path of seeking within, for as we said, emotion that is artificially created is easy emotion, emotion which must be renewed as a library book must be renewed. It is not lasting and it requires constant nurturing and stimulation from without.

Each entity will, because of cultural conditioning, have to more or less extent some measure of blockage within those energy centers which feed the heart energy center. Thus, no one is alone in doubting and asking, yet also no one who seeks to remedy this situation by meditation and contemplation shall be a complete failure, for it is sheer intent, intensity of desire, that moves one beyond the self in surrender to that other Self which is the true nature of the ephemeral third-density self.

Then Q’uo said that the nature of our deeper self is subtle, and we need to use meditation and action to access the deep emotions of the love of the Creator that are a part of Its gift to all of the creation. They said that as we are able to release blocked emotions that this is very healing, and we can become beings of light and be of greater service to all. But then Q’uo said that everyone will have some blockage of the energy centers that will have occurred as a part of our cultural conditioning, and in order to remedy this situation we will need to exercise a strong desire to surrender our small self to our greater Self and open our hearts to feel Its great love. On June 2, 1985, Latwii described the fruit of surrendering the self to the Creator:

To surrender the self, to surrender the decision-making ability in a large degree and to give over the self to the use of the one Creator is the second manner which is most successful and least often chosen among your peoples. To await that which is within is difficult, for you see others seeming to serve very effectively in a manner which is apparent and seems to bear fruit. That you are not first on your block to do so is discouraging, but that you shall eventually do so gives you comfort, and that you shall choose to do so in such and such a manner seems to give more comfort. But, my friends, may we suggest that you give over your desire to do this or to do that in this or that manner and pray that the one Creator moves through you in the way most salubrious, shall we say, for true service to be manifested through being. For each has at least one ability which shall be developed.

The instrument informs us that we must cut short our unfortunately prolix dissertation. We are sorry for being unaware of the passage of time, but within your dimension the realization of the time you experience is most difficult for us, and there is much to say upon this subject. We shall simply say to each that the release of negative emotion such as guilt, anger, humiliation and resentment is an incredible healing which is only possible through the infinite love of the one Creator, and through one’s identification with that love, and one’s dedication to seeking in the deepest and most aesthetically beautiful way possible, to be truth incarnate, to express love divine, to allow oneself to be a channel of compassion and nonjudgmental aid.

We encourage each to seek the holy ground within, to find praise and give thanks for the glory, for beauty, the infinite majesty of the one great original Thought. The heavens sing with His glory, the trees and mountains dance, and all stars and planets sing a song of passionate love for the Creator unmanifest, and for each of you, the Creator made manifest and given complete free will.

We encourage you each to seek the deeper truths within, to allow negative emotions to be balanced and to fall away, as it is natural for them to do in the light of unconditional love. May each of you discover within the inner room the infinity within oneself, the purified emotion which in full strength is the Logos.

What is the function of emotion? It is intelligence which produces profound and fundamental transformation. Only the heart, when released from stricture, may be so. The approach of intellect, the approach from the outside in, the approach of believing this or that, is most frequently fruitless. It is the opening of oneself to free-floating and abstract faith, the faith that all is as it was planned to be, the faith that that which was planned is helpful and full of love, which moves the seeker onward most swiftly upon the path of spiritual evolution.

Rejoice, each soul who finds release from numbness or surface addictions. We rejoice with you as you seek the heart of the self which is the greater Self. Respect deep emotion. Realize that the vital energies are based upon one’s ability to have faith and to dwell in an emotional state of unconditional love. Daily meditation, daily contemplation, and what analysis the brain may perform, is suggested for all who seek, for you are seeking to change into the awareness of the self which is imperishable. Forgiveness is an emotion, not a mental process, and it is the key to the advancement of the self in polarization of service to the one infinite Creator. May you respect and encourage intense, loving emotion. May you find it acceptable to release numbness and surface emotion as meditation matures and strengthens the deeper self within.

Q’uo said that we can achieve healing of our negative emotions by identifying with the infinite love that the Creator has for us, and then shining it out into the world around us as channels of compassion and service. They said that the function of emotions is to produce profound and fundamental transformations through contacting the love in our hearts which is actually the love of the greater Self. Q’uo completed their response by saying that forgiveness is an emotion that allows us to serve the Creator more fully, and that meditation reveals the deeper self within us where we can find this forgiveness. On March 28, 1993, Q’uo spoke of forgiveness as that which allows us to serve the Creator more fully:

So we have the situation where forgiveness is intellectually considered as being accomplished but within the emotional portion of the mind, body and spirit the forgiveness is not believed because the self deeply rejects the forgiveness since there remains unhealed memory. You have perhaps heard us before speak of something we call “healing of the incarnation.” In your third-density incarnative experience this is the heart of work in consciousness, for if the incarnation be healed the potentiated and polarized servant is then free to offer with purity the life to the Infinite Creator. As each looks upon its “if onlys” we ask that each consider that these unhealed memories dim and make tenuous the pure light which is the manifestation of love, which empowers each servant of the One Infinite Creator.

We thank this instrument, and would like to close the meeting through the one known as Jim. We leave this instrument in love and light. I am Q’uo.

I would like to let everyone know that we have begun our annual fundraiser for L/L Research, and if you would like to make a donation you may do so at:

https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/annual-fundraiser

This morning I changed out my bedding and washed the blue sheets, pillow cases, and bed spread and then put my green sheets on the bed. Then I  made a short errand run to the Post Office to mail a package and pick up some Christmas stamps for the L/L Research Christmas cards that I will begin working on next week. My second stop was at the City Clerk’s office to pick up two calendars for 2024.

This afternoon I vacuumed the first floor of the house, and in the evening I did my second load of laundry which is my normal Friday laundry.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

December 1

The Bloom And Fruit Of Peace

I am of the principle of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

Peace is much sought after among your people. Yet as you gaze out upon a barren winter landscape you may not see the great peace which is engendered by all those plants as they dream within the seeds and roots of their being, creating by will and thought and the grace of Jesus Christ those formations and changes which in time shall bring forth bloom and fruit.

The human idea of peace is rest without thought. Yet the inner man seeks a different peace and must listen to the voices of the natural world and the inner signal of creation and inner change. This is the peace that is spiritual and frequently it feels not at all like peace but rather like strife. For change and growth are painful, and there may be long periods when there is no evidence of bloom or fruit.

May the peace of Jesus the Christ be your hope and your inner reality, that you may grow more and more into the kingdom of heaven. We leave you in the peace that truly passes all human understanding, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 5, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet each again in love and light through this instrument. We realize that we have spoken for a lengthy portion of your time and that there is fatigue within the circle. But we wish to offer an opportunity for those present to ask the query which may yet remain upon the mind, if indeed such does. Is there a query at this time?

Questioner: I would ask about what, in yogic terminology, is referred to as kriyas  which I experience as resistance within the body and mind complex to the free flowing of intelligent energy as it was given from the Creator. I am wondering if this is largely due to mental distortions which have their root in the physical body, or are they also maybe preexisting physical distortions? And in what way can I work towards clearing my mind/body complex to allow this freer flowing energy?

I am Q’uo. I am aware of your query, my brother. The distorting effects of which you speak are, for most entities, reflections of mental origin which have as their roots the particular bias that has been desired to be experienced as a portion of a lesson or a service within an incarnation. There is the movement through the deeper portions of the tree of mind that is made as one enters into the meditative state and begins to contact those deeper portions of mind. One experiences this contact as an increase in one’s vibratory rate or awareness of this nature of being. One also passes through the area in which the perceptions have been formed and reside, upon a subconscious level, and refracts a portion of this light energy.

These symbolic experiences that, in effect, cause a resistance to the available and increasing energy of intelligence contacted may be seen in their more expansive nature, shall we say, by observing the energy centers affected and the type of expression that occurs within the life pattern in the daily round of activities as a result of this kind of distortion, which is also an opportunity to become more aware of a facet of the being that seeks balance.

Thus, one may observe the daily round of activities in a regularized fashion so that those experiences which register in a polarized form, either toward the positive or the negative, in personal terms, may be noted and used as seed for meditation, so that greater understanding of that facet of the self might be achieved and might be applied to the life experience in a more conscious fashion when similar catalytic circumstances present themselves once again.

This kind of review of the daily experience has the effect of illumination in that the self becomes informed. It has the effect of allowing for balance to occur within the total being as well as the effect of providing the opportunity for forgiveness to be offered to other selves and also the self, which indeed deserves this kind of inner acceptance and requires such in order for the movement from that point to be made.

Questioner asked about the kriyas that he experienced as resistance in his mind and body to the flow of intelligent energy from the Creator. He wanted to know if this resistance was in his mind or in his body, and what could he do to clear his mind/body complex to allow a freer flowing energy. Q’uo responded by saying that these distortions were mental in nature and reflected either a lesson or a service that was being distorted in one of the energy centers as Questioner was going through his daily round of activities. So Q’uo suggested that Questioner use these distortions as a focus in meditation to see how the balancing of these distortions might be accomplished. Q’uo said that such balancing would allow forgiveness of the self and other selves so that progress could be made in the spiritual journey.  In 5.2, Ra gave the balancing exercises that could be used by Questioner in balancing his mental distortions:

To begin to master the concept of mental discipline it is necessary to examine the self. The polarity of your dimension must be internalized. Where you find patience within your mind you must consciously find the corresponding impatience and vice versa. Each thought that a being has, has in its turn an antithesis. The disciplines of the mind involve, first of all, identifying both those things of which you approve and those things of which you disapprove within yourself, and then balancing each and every positive and negative charge with its equal. The mind contains all things. Therefore, you must discover this completeness within yourself.

The second mental discipline is acceptance of the completeness within your consciousness. It is not for a being of polarity in the physical consciousness to pick and choose among attributes, thus building the roles that cause blockages and confusions in the already-distorted mind complex. Each acceptance smoothes part of the many distortions that the faculty you call judgment engenders.

The third discipline of the mind is a repetition of the first but with the gaze outward towards the fellow entities that it meets. In each entity there exists completeness. Thus, the ability to understand each balance is necessary. When you view patience, you are responsible for mirroring in your mental understanding, patience/impatience. When you view impatience, it is necessary for your mental configuration of understanding to be impatience/patience. We use this as a simple example. Most configurations of mind have many facets, and understanding of either self polarities, or what you would call other-self polarities, can and must be understood as subtle work.

The next step is the acceptance of the other-self polarities, which mirrors the second step.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: I don’t know, I guess I’m still really aware that no matter how you look at the illusion, if you are having a bad time, you are having a bad time. Is it possible that a constant state of joy is not so much the focus of this incarnation as the constant search for the proper questions about what is truth? I’ve puzzled over that for many years. It doesn’t seem to be part of the human destiny and nature to be unfailingly happy.

I am Q’uo, and I am aware of your query, my sister. For indeed, this evening we have spoken at length concerning the place which joy holds as that which is ever present and eternal, yet that which is but the oasis upon your long and dusty journeys within the third-density illusion. For if one wishes to progress and to be able to experience a greater unity with all that one sees about one as the one Creator, it is necessary to be in the midst of the catalyst and its effect upon your total being. This requires a forgetting, for the most part, within the incarnation of that unity which indeed binds all that is and of that love which creates and empowers all that is and that light which reveals the true nature of all that is.

This forgetting allows for the self to become affected by the illusion in a manner which will offer the opportunity for the entity to choose more and more to seek, in one fashion or another, to serve the Creator in the self or in others so that an awareness of the Creator might be given to the Creator in a fashion which is unique.

And in providing this perspective and experience, one also expands the ability to accept more and more of the light of the Creator within the being. Thus, you are correct, my sister, in that joy is but a fleeting visitor to those who wish to pursue the work in consciousness that is possible within an illusion that seems so far removed from unity, from love, or from light. This is the sacrifice which you make, my friends, when you enter incarnation.

Yet, there is a pearl, as it has been said, of very great price that may be won by such sacrifice, so that when it is finally won, all sacrifices will seem as nothing in comparison to that great pearl.

Carla asked if it was possible for a person to experience a constant state of joy in the third density, or was it the case that the purpose of the life in the third density was the constant seeking for truth. Q’uo replied by saying that joy was indeed a fleeting part of any incarnation because the veil of forgetting required that catalyst be used to move forward on the spiritual path in a manner where growth into the light and love of the Creator was a slow process and required a great deal of sacrifice. However Q’uo completed their answer by saying that at some point this processing of catalyst could produce the pearl of great price or the realization of the true nature of the self as that of the Creator. On December 16, 1984, Latwii spoke of the nature of the pearl of great price:

What promises of wealth can lure the seeker away from pursuing that pearl of great price which lies buried within its own being? The field is the entity. The price is the continued seeking for that pearl. All which is sold in order that the field of the self might be redeemed is the great variety of temptations that each seeker will encounter upon the journey. It is a journey which seems quite endless and arduous, yet to the devout that makes the journey a straight and narrow path. It ends in a moment when that pearl is found and the entity finds that it is one with all things, that it has traveled a great distance and has found itself within itself and within all beings and things.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at his time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and would take this opportunity to express our great feeling of joy and gratitude at being invited to blend our vibrations with yours this evening and for the journey which each shares with the others at this time. We hope that we have been able to offer a perspective from our experience that will be of service to you. We would, at this time, take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

I would like to let everyone know that we have begun our annual fundraiser for L/L Research, and if you would like to make a donation you may do so at: https://www.llresearch.org/news/2023/annual-fundraiser

This morning I went outside and took the thirteen garbage cans that had been emptied of their leaves into the back yard and filled them with more Ginko Tree leaves. It looks like there are enough leaves left to fill the garbage cans again next week. Then I made an errand run with my first stop being the little clothes donation bin behind PNC Bank where I dropped off five pair of pants. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. My third stop was at Hometown Pizza where I bought a pizza. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some ice cream.

This afternoon I went outside and decided to use Venus to mulch the Ginko Tree leaves behind the garage because there are too many of them to get into garbage cans before the last week in December when there could be snow on the ground to make that process possible. After I finished that project I went to my neighbor’s yard where their lawn service forgot to mulch the Ginko leaves in a path behind my forsythia bushes about four feet wide and fifty feet long. After I had made to passes through this area the belt that turns the blades on Venus broke, so I called Anderson Sales & Supply to arrange a pickup of Venus next Tuesday to replace the belt and service Venus as well.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 30

The Skin Of Your Illusion

I am the spirit of the living Christ and I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

Take a moment this morning to gaze at the many imperfections of the skin which covers your physical body and know that it is the metaphor for all the imperfections of the world about you.

Turn inward and walk, within the mind, up the dark tower of good intention, resting at the landing to remove that imperfect outer covering. Behold! There is a basin of living water which may cleanse and make alive that which is wholly spiritual within you. Bathe freely and joyously.

Rise, then, step by step, until the dark tower opens into the seat of prayer, where the soul gazes out the window into divine light. Know that that cleanliness of soul which you desire has been seated deep within, so that, as you move down those same stairs and don again the imperfect covering of humanity and go out now into the mundane creation, you shall shine from within with the light of Christ.

For that which is outer in the world or in person is only a covering which partakes of imperfection and which partakes of an illusion. Never rest upon the surface of anything but, rather, upon the light of Christ within.

We leave you in the peace of this understanding and compassion, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from November 5, 1989:

The question this evening has to do with joy. What is the function of joy in the evolutionary process in this particular experience, and how can we find and utilize joy in our daily round of activities in a way that sustains our growth and service to others?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet each of you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. How lovely it is to dwell with you at this time in peace and harmony and seeking. We feel most privileged that we are asked to come and share with you our thoughts upon the subject of joy. May we say what a joy it is for us to so share our opinions.

We wish, however, to caution each against looking upon us or any material whatsoever as an infallible authority. We share our opinions. We are not infallible. Thusly, if we speak truth that is the truth of your heart, you shall recognize it. If you do not recognize it as if, though hearing it for the first time, it were a memory, then it is not a personal truth and could well be a stumbling block. We would ask you not to keep those things which do not feel resonant with your own path of seeking but we hope that we are able to share with you some things which may help as you move along the dusty road of pilgrimage.

Firstly, what we would like to say about joy is that, in its primal state, it has no function. It is. For joy is another expression, and indeed a basic manifestation, of unconditional love. Thus, it is of the essence or the beingness of the consciousness of the one infinite Creator, which is Love.

To attempt to describe our understanding, limited though it may be, of reality or that which is most real, we may say that we have found the universe at rest to vibrate with the intensity and joy of sexual orgasm in a steady state. This is the energy power, the joy, the, as this instrument would say, élan vital which is its own truth, has its own beingness and needs no reason.

Now, we realize that it was not this ultimate joy, this joy which moves beyond the word, about which you are asking but rather how to find joy in circumstances where an orgasm is out of the question. We hope that you find this analogy helpful because all that manifests is a diffusion, a watering down, a shadowing, a tinting of that one great original Thought which is Love and which manifests its energy in the manifested creation of a billion, billion sun bodies and the joyous flames of an infinite number of beings such as yourselves, who have moved into the darkness, into the seed bed of the densities, to root, contemplate and break forth from the earth in due time to bloom.

The group question for this session was what is the function of joy in the evolutionary process and how can it be used in our growth and service to others. Q’uo began their answer by saying that joy has no function because it simply is. It is the consciousness of the Creator which is Love, or in more basic terms, a steady state of orgasm which is the beingness of a billion billion sun bodies of creation.  On October 15, 1976, Hatonn described the consciousness of the Creator.

We share with you the thought that through others you may see the Creator, and others may see the Creator through you. Yet of yourselves, you cannot give or receive the love of the Creator. It is only through the consciousness of the Creator Itself that you and your brother are one. Of yourself, you cannot do what you wish to do. You cannot depend upon your own resources. Yet you have infinity behind you, the storehouse of talents and power and ability so great that you can never exhaust it. Your cup may always run over with all that you need, if you can but remember whence love comes.

Each of you is a natural entity. There is a difficulty with experiencing joy, and now we speak in your terms of simple vital energy, love of life and so forth. It seems as though one were disappearing into a dark maze as one encounters the daily routine. Where is the joy, you ask, in taking out garbage and doing chores; in accomplishing well a job for which you have no real fondness? Where is the joy? Somehow it leaks out, it is not with you. It is unfindable and so an entity moves into the desert of indifference or sadness or sorrow or unsatisfied desire.

It is painful there in the desert. One goes through the motions. One does not appreciate the difficulties until a length of your time has passed and, as you gaze back on the mystery of your desert experience, sitting in an oasis that has come upon you, you are able to see the enormously helpful catalytic nature of that which seemed to be no joy but only difficulty, frustration, boredom and distraction, if not even more negative emotions.

When speaking of spiritual work we always move to speaking of a daily practice, one which is faithfully and reliably kept. It is not easy for entities who dwell in your heavy chemical illusion and who have so much to do in order to keep the self going to find the time each day to meditate, to move into silence, to listen and speak not, neither utter a word except, “Here am I.”

For as you are aware of your beingness, you are aware of the beingness of all that there is. For the creation is an illusion outside of you. It is actualized within you in that portion of yourself which is of the infinite Creator. It is this portion to which you may turn for joy. In the sense of creating, from the outside in, a way of feeling vital and energetic, we can only say that it is to those who enjoy the athletics of the body or other means of exhausting the self who may find the joy from outside. For the true function of joy is an infinite function and that is growth. Joy may be another word for confident and sure faith.

Now, we have moved away from the state of orgasmic pleasure to a more modest view of joy but we do not wish to give you information that enables you to burn out like a bright comet and become extinguished. We wish to speak of a joy that is peaceful, stable, vital and living. This does not come from the entity within the incarnational experience. Rather, the self which is experiencing the incarnation on the surface level of consciousness must yield to that which is within the self which is infinite.

The practice of this yielding, this tabernacling with the one infinite Creator, the immediacy of this presence, when carried on persistently, patiently and with no dedication to outcome over a period of time begins to set within one a growing awareness of infinity. For as you meditate and listen, you are lost in the present moment. And this present moment is instinct with joy. The present moment is infinity. It is as though one were at the intersection of time and eternity at each present moment. The difficulties people experience are due to living the horizontal life without being aware of the resonances of the vertical life which is moving infinitely within one at all times.

Now Q’uo said that in our daily round of activities there is no joy that is obvious because so much of our lives is spent in dealing with a great variety of difficulties. So they suggested that we make daily practice of meditation where we simply seek to enter the present moment of tabernacling with the Creator which is infinity and the experience of joy. On October 19, 2021, Q’uo said that we can use meditation to experience joy through feeling the presence of the Creator:

In the process of realizing one’s own personal desire to seek the Creator in the most efficacious manner possible, it is well to take into account the many distractions that each seeker of truth encounters in the daily round of activities, and in the experience of your third-density illusion. For beyond the veil of forgetting, there is not this type of distraction that causes one to lose the focus upon the basic nature of all creation, including the self that is unity with the One Creator. Thus, you are facing what we would call a challenge within your third-density illusion as you seek to find that will within yourself to know the Creator, to be able to feel the Creator moving in your meditative state into a manner of communication that you may perceive in a variety of ways—whether it be words, images, inclinations, thoughts of joy and inspiration.

You see, it is so tempting to think of oneself as the physical vehicle which you may see in one of your mirrors. It is so tempting to give oneself characteristics and qualities based upon various parts of one’s physical appearance, emotional makeup, and so forth. It is very, very easy to become entwined with many, many intellectual thoughts which always end in mystery and paradox.

It is extremely tempting, in a world which values things and phenomena and fact and proof, to seek some proof of that which is your inward journey to eternity, your journey to the present moment and into the present moment, so that you begin to sense the deep, infinite resonances of your beingness in the one infinite Creator.

You are love. You are the light. But you are not these things within your physical form. Indeed, within this density you are deliberately causing yourself to become stupid in order to be able to partake of the intense catalyst available to one in a heavy, chemical vehicle. You may think of yourself as a distillery or a refinery that begins with the raw material of the harvest of your spirit, your experience, and your meditation and out of which you begin to create that which may be called the magical personality. You begin to know, without knowing what, that there is an immediate presence, an infinite and omnipresent reality lying beneath, above, within, without and in between all that there is. There is a depth and a height to any moment of the life experience.

The point of view may be manipulated by the intellectual mind, and this is a tool which is useful in the search for one’s own center of vitality, joy, peace and love. One certainly may ask oneself what causes joy within. But the answers are most distorted by the chemical body which is experienced.

And again we move back to the analog of orgasm and joy. To expect one within third density to vibrate orgasmically at each moment would be to ask that which is not possible within the illusion. You are not here to be joyful but rather to make choices. This is that for which you came into this experience: to choose to serve either the self or the one infinite Creator, as seen in the faces of all those whom you meet.

Now, it is difficult to see many entities as the face of the one infinite Creator. For all entities have the clay feet of that which perishes, that which does not know what is hidden within the roots of mind. Thusly, to expect to have the vitality and the joy at all times is to expect to learn nothing, to progress not at all and to make no choices. For with choice there comes change. With change there comes pain.

Each time a truth that has worked in the past ceases to work in the present, much difficult work must be done in consciousness. For your mind must lose or “dump” the program which no longer is effectual for the seeking entity in order to make a place for a new understanding that will inevitably change the seeker in some way. Change is painful. Dumping information is painful. Letting go of old truths is painful. Being uncertain is painful. Being at risk is painful.

You are those who have sought a life of risk. You do not wish to stay in one place mentally, spiritually or emotionally. You wish rather to accelerate the pace of your spiritual evolution. Now, this is sensible. This is in our opinion the very best and most useful attitude to take. But it is not a path which delivers one into the gateway of élan and joy but rather the continuing difficulties of confusion, misunderstanding, realignment of understanding, and ever progressing onward.

There is much more desert in the spiritual life than there is oasis. It is simply a matter of how much you, as a spirit, wish to work in consciousness. The more that you work in consciousness, the more you will change, the more you will be transformed and the more you will be uncomfortable.

Q’uo continued by saying that in our third-density illusion it is easy to think of ourselves as our bodies, our emotions, or our thoughts and to seek some intellectual proof that we have a spiritual journey. But we will have to go through a great deal of painful change before we can begin to feel the benefits of meditation, attempting to create our magical personality, and the feeling of the presence of the Creator within us. Then Q’uo said that the more work we do in consciousness the more we are able to feel this presence and become aware that we are here to choose to serve the Creator in all of those around us. On November 6, 2005, Q’uo described the benefits of doing work in consciousness:

So we would say to you, my brother, that the value of the infinite can only be known by you in experiencing the infinite directly. That is what work in consciousness concerns itself with.

You are a living and breathing meeting place of the finite and infinite, in every cell of your body. There is that aspect which experiences life and death and there is that aspect which was never born and which shall never die. That infinite aspect does not know itself for it is wrapped up and lost in the Creator itself.

You, as a finite being, are the place where great truths and infinite values meet; that environment which creates form and gives shape to the dance of the Creator learning to know Itself.

As far as we know it is not possible intellectually to conceive of infinity. It is, however, possible to experience the infinite. The infinite is that world in which you exist without masks. You have journeyed to the world of finity in order to do work in consciousness that must be done without recourse to that point of view that is full of love, wisdom and knowledge.

Why then, do seekers so stubbornly follow their star? Nothing, my friends, rests in the creation. All things move. And in this activity, in this manifestation, in this movement there is that which, as it is said in your holy works, passeth all understanding. The name for that which passeth all understanding within the holy work of which we speak, is peace. But it is not a peace that is understood among your peoples for it is a peace that is joyful, a peace that is vital, a peace that is merry, that may make light of the serious and may tease and play and feel one’s way as a child within the great caverns and grottoes through which one must pass in the spiritual quest, having only one faint light: that of hope. And so you move in darkness, attempting to see. And much of the energy of the incarnation is involved with the simple ability to perceive without distortion.

Now, perception without distortion is a sure yielding of joy. On the other hand, each must distort, through the physical senses, the catalyst which comes to one. The senses you have are those given to all and they are all illusory. To base one’s seeking for vital energy on the life experience or anything which it may offer is to put one’s trust in that which perishes. The key to joy is the realization that you are an imperishable being. You are a being which is love and is called to love. The Creator created each out of love and placed within each free will and Itself. You are moving through the disciplining of your own free will. And that disciplining must be done freely, the choices your own, in order for that joy which underlies all things to begin to bubble up into the life experience.

We find that a sense of humor, as this instrument would call it, is extraordinarily helpful in the pursuit of a deeper and clearer awareness of the tremendous beauty and resonance of each present moment. As one moves about the illusion doing what one must do to support the needs of the physical vehicle, it is most easy to see life as a horizontal path; a path upon which one literally walks, plods, trudges, ambles or runs, depending upon the mood; a path in which gravity keeps one’s feet to the ground, keeps one from rising into the ethereal or sinking into the roots of mind.

One of the choices each spiritual entity makes is whether to move upon that which is consciously known in making life decisions and in living moment to moment or casting all safety to the winds and trusting the self to the risky business of feeling the depths and the heights of each present moment.

It is difficult, when one is working at a job to which one is indifferent, to feel the magnificent resonance of the present moment, to experience the intersection of eternity with that present moment. Consequently, it is a good exercise, when one is fatigued in the spirit, the emotions and the mind, to move backwards, away from gravity, away from all that has to do with the illusions created by fields of energy.

Moving back, we may see the home planet—fragile, somewhat troubled, and infinitely beautiful. One may imagine the many entities scurrying about on the surface of this celestial globe but one no longer sees the individual selves of the bodies of the third-density beings of the planet, that which will become, in fourth density, a social memory complex.

Thus, when one is peeved, distressed or distraught it is well to move back in the mind, moving away from the surface, flying upwards, gazing down upon, first, yourself and the room, and the dwelling and the town, then larger land masses, then the planet. Then one finally moves back enough to see the infinity of celestial bodies, of centers of the Logos or Love which is the great original Thought.

It is well to keep within the mind the resonances of eternity. And if they are not to be found upon the surface of the daily experience, yet still, you are of a certain nature and you may tap into the infinite possibilities of the present moment more and more by persistent faith and hope. Within your illusion all ends in mystery, nothing can be known ultimately.

It is a necessary portion of the illusion of third density that nothing may be objectively proven that would interfere with the free will choices of entities who are deciding upon their path of service. For this reason you came into incarnation, to express and manifest your choice of a path of service.

There are suggestions we may give as to how to compound the joy that is native to you already. If one may draw back from an unpleasant entity enough to affirm that that entity is the one infinite Creator distorting its own illusion in its own way to its own sadness, one is then able to feel an outburst of compassion for an unhappy spirit.

One is similarly able to feel compassion for the one who is happy but without a spiritual vector. Many are those who are asleep and do not wish at this time to awaken. This is acceptable, for there is an eternity in which each has all the time, literally, in creation to move back to the source whence each came before the world as you know it was created.

You are imperishable. You are light. You are moving towards the light. This instrument finds the parable within the holy work which you call the Holy Bible of the prodigal son and daughter to be most useful in an awareness of the spiritual journey’s constant intersection with the infinite love of the one Creator.

Then Q’uo said that we must seek that peace that passes understanding because this kind of peace is joyful, so we spend much of our lives trying to perceive our spiritual journeys without distortion. But as we live our lives we find that we cannot help but distort what we see with our senses because they are illusory and perishable, and we cannot see without distortion. So Q’uo suggested that we should remember that we are imperishable beings, created by the Love of the Creator that has given us the free will that we can discipline to find the Creator and that joy that is within us. Q’uo also said that it would be helpful for us to feel the intersection of the present moment with eternity, and then move to a position in outer space which gives us a view of the Earth as a small orb within the infinity of celestial bodies of the Logos of the great Original Thought to see how our spiritual journeys intersect with this Love of the Creator. On May 11, 2019, Q’uo gave an example of how the overview of our lives may aid us in experiencing the presence of the Creator:

The meditative state in which the presence of the One is sought is a means by which to imbue one’s own being with a sense of direction and purpose, also the sense of actually moving into the workaday world, shall we say, and utilizing the presence of the One to color those interactions with others in a manner which is most beneficial as it is that which contains the overview of all of the creation, and how each tiny portion fits as a piece to the greater puzzle. We are also aware that there has been a great deal of experience with allowing the moments of one’s life experience to evolve as the seed that grows from the ground that has been watered by one’s attention within one’s own being.

We would suggest that this query is one which has basically answered itself, for if one has availed the self of the opportunities of feeling the presence of the One, then this great nurturing food for the soul might be taken with one into the daily round of activities and shared there with those hungry souls who come one’s way, for each in a day’s experience will discover that there are many opportunities to be of service: whether by a simple smile, a short conversation, the offering of a service, the finding of that which is lost.

We will now work upon some simple exercises to move into a mental, emotional and spiritual configuration which allows one to follow one’s joy.

Firstly, the listening meditation, done persistently and in a daily manner and, if possible, with two or more together, is a basic tool, one which cuts to the heart of a process of spiritual evolution. For those who speak are not listening and those who know all the answers have blocked further questions, further learning, further refinement, further distilling into purity.

You seek to be pure in your service, in your dedication to the one infinite Creator. Yet this seems oftentimes a burdensome and toilsome thing, a yoke you must carry, and a burden that weighs the body, the mind, and the soul down with responsibility. This is where the ability to laugh at the self, to laugh at situations, to laugh at the enormous comedy of paradox and mystery comes in so handy. When all else fails and there is no joy within you and there is much difficulty, one tool you may use is the sense of humor.

Gaze at the entity which is the Creator but is distorting itself in a way which expresses anger or hostility or other negative emotions and remove that entity’s clothes. Put this image in the mind so that all the gesticulations, all the pomp, all the mannerisms are those done by an entity in his underwear. It is well, perhaps, to imagine how someone would look with big green spots or a third eye or blue skin. Work at thinking ridiculous thoughts. For the spiritual path is not serious, precisely. The spiritual path is all that there is.

It is possible within the schoolroom to ignore the lessons. But when one is in school, that is the business of the student. One may be an eager student or a lackadaisical one. One may do the homework or not. And we would not judge any, for until the time comes when the demand from within to know infinity and imperishability becomes paramount, it is only flogging and whipping at the self to approximate the state of realization of one’s own imperishable nature. Thus, each entity has a rhythm of its own, a time of its own, and a pattern of its own.

There is another tool which one may use to good effect if one is able not to trust the intellect beyond a certain point. That tool is the analytical ability of the mind. When one moves oneself back from a situation which is disturbing one and begins to untie the tangle of distress, one may, through inductive and deductive reasoning processes, come to more and more fundamental realizations as to the true nature of that experience which is difficult for you at this particular time.

You were not of a mind to come here to be happy and content. You were of a mind to come here to graduate into a density that has more light, less heaviness, and no veil between the conscious mind and the roots of mind. Yet you cannot use the light of the one infinite Creator until you have made a profound and persistently chosen choice.

Whom shall you serve, to serve the infinite One? Shall you serve yourself, or shall you, having prepared yourself to serve others in what may seem like service to self, move into the world with the attitude, “How may I help? Send me where there is work for me to do and let me never judge that work or hold it as a goal but only do it for love and let it go.” There is a tremendous release of joy in the experience of truly releasing one’s good intentions to the caretaking of those who may well not view that joy and wisdom of yours as useful to them but indeed may gibe and carp at the spiritual seeker for his unworldliness, his lack of attention to the important things such as your money, your possessions, your reputations, and your power over other entities.

You see, this third-density experience is biased, in the outer sense, towards service to self. This makes all entities uncomfortable and puts them in the position of choosing. This is the point of this particular density. It is especially the point of the density at this time, as each entity prepares for the walk of light and each entity wishes to move comfortably into the more dense and living light of the one infinite Creator which creates the illusion of fourth density.

A tool which is most helpful in removing negativity from the self that is unwanted is that which this instrument would call prayer. It is not for nothing that a teacher known as Jesus suggested to pray for those who despitefully use you. The concern, the turning to the Creator, the genuine loving and praying for an entity who would never expect such a positive return, is a way of aiding that entity by the love it does receive. It then becomes a mirror to reflect back to you a hundredfold that desire to be of service. It may not come from the entity with which you have the difficulty, as each entity has its own path, but it is inevitable that, as you offer yourself, so you shall receive what others offer.

Now Q’uo gave us some tools that would help us find joy in our lives, and the first one was the silent meditation that is shared with friends on a daily basis to feel the purity of our being as the Creator. Another tool Q’uo suggested was exercising our sense of humor where we make a cartoon out of a difficult situation or person that reminds us that we are all the Creator experiencing Itself. Lastly, Q’uo said that we could use prayer for one with whom we have experienced disharmony. Then, in some other part of our life, this good wish for another would be mirrored back to us a hundred fold as an increased desire to be of service to others. On January 11, 1981, Latwii spoke of the value of humor:

My brother, the value of humor is a pale shadow of reality. Reality, as we understand it, is likened unto what this instrument would call an orgasm. That is, the basic ecstasy or joy of the universe. That is, the energy that is love. It is existent in all levels of being. Laughter is one outward expression of the emotional state of what you may call orgasm, however, it would not be advisable for you to call it this during your working hours while speaking to your workmates, or they might think you a little strange.

You must understand that this particular word is known clearly to you as a common human experience, whereas it has never been understood that laughter, when entered into totally and wholly rather than nervously or embarrassedly, is another form of the same energy. Laughter is available to all. Laughter is a healing, comforting, lovely energy and indeed is one of the most highly prized of all states of being. We find the universe to be full of the laughter—or the song—of joy.

How to find joy? Know more and more who you are. You are an imperishable being of light. You are doing many ridiculous things within an illusion which is created to be difficult, ridiculous, paradoxical, confusing and destructive of all positive emotions. Yet within you is the one infinite Creator. And the infinity of that imperishable self that is you may always lift the self by prayer, by meditation, by laughter, and simply by the abiding, persistent calling upon the hope and faith that each truly is a portion of the one infinite Creator and of the return of the prodigal.

No matter how long and how difficult the journey, it will occur and the Father will be waiting with a great feast. And in that feast you shall feed each other. For joy comes from others to the self and goes from the self to others. Joy is expansive, generous.

Vitality is a matter of honoring the Creator within each and having the sense of humor to make fun of the illusion that separates each from each. When you touch hands, you touch energy fields. When you love and pray and make a cartoon of an entity to strip him of his negative qualities, you have invoked that which will give joy not only to yourself but to those about you. For one who is centered in eternity while in the present moment is a light unto many, a joy unto many, a source of faith to many. Never consider yourself as unimportant or unworthy. You are the Creator. You simply are learning to deal with the freedom that is the hallmark of the creation of the infinite One. You are free. There is no failure. You choose your own pace.

Before we leave this instrument, we would like to affirm once again that there is not a large number among your people who have the spiritual maturity to experience joy as a steady state. This is not important. What is important is the knowledge within that it exists in a steady state, that it is of love, the Logos, the infinite Creator, and that all is as it should be for your learning.

What sacrifices you made, my friends, coming here. One might well compare this to the basic training in the Army or the Marine Corps. It is difficult. It is taxing. It is wearying. Allow yourself these things and laugh together. Be merry together. Exhort each other, when each is sad, by the silent exhortation of the hug, the smile, the listening ear, and the understanding heart.

If you wish to be joyful, it shall always come to you by reflection. For as you give, so shall you receive.

Q’uo completed their response about how to find joy by our realizing that we are the infinite Creator even though we do many destructive things to the positive emotions in our lives. Then they repeated that we could use meditation, prayer, laughter, hope, and faith to make our journey back into unity with the Creator in the present moment of eternity. Then Q’uo said that the third density is a difficult place for all to be, and we can help each other by sharing laughter, love, hugs, smiles, and support which is the giving of joy that comes back to us as a reflection, for as we give we receive. On September 26, 1987, Q’uo said that we all have the ability to share joy with each other: 

Each of you has a central general lesson which you have set for yourself. Each of you has gifts, gifts which are the product of incarnations and incarnations of development, which express themselves most usually in smiles and laughter and the ability to share joy and cheer with others. May each of you have that faith which it takes to deal with all the cycles which bring about stress, from the petty raised expectations of your television to the increased vibratory disharmonies which mark the end of a dualistic age, to that great slow heartbeat of creation which is the movement of the ceaseless free will of the one infinite Creator.

We would at this time move to the instrument known as Jim so that we may close the meeting through that instrument if he will accept our contact. We thank this instrument very much and we leave it now in love and light. I am Q’uo.

This morning I stirred up the soil in my seven Aloe Vera plants with a fork and then added some peat moss to each plant and mixed it with the soil to give each plant a better means of retaining water. The original soil came from one of my gardens outside and tended to harden between waterings, so now I am hopeful that the Aloe Vera plants will do better.

This afternoon I went back outside and used my backpack blower to finish blowing the Ginko Tree leaves into long piles that will make it easy for me to put the leaves into the garbage cans after yard waste picks the now full cans up tomorrow.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 29

Black, White And Gray

I am the Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ, of the consciousness of love in the vibration which comforts this instrument. I greet you in the name of love and in its full consciousness.

As always, we bring you news of the kingdom, the kingdom which you call heaven but which is, in fact, the kingdom of true perception. For as you gaze about you within your quotidian days, your rituals and rites of dailiness, you judge and deem the nature of all things in shades of gray.

Yet in the kingdom of heaven are all things light. The thought of blackness is possible as a supposition but as an actuality, the concept of the mixture of white and black becoming gray is unthinkable, for light is exclusive to light, and all things are filled with that light to the exclusion of any shade or variation.

Thus at this moment each soul is full of light, full of life, and full of true perception. Yet your quotidian eyes bring about a curtain of shadow, an illusion which colors action and makes it possible.

Attempt, within your world of gray, as you act, to realize that behind all action there is an absolute reality. Therein lies the strength of faith and thence you may obtain the will to persevere in any circumstance, knowing that true perception shall yield to you the full consciousness of love and the absolute lucidity of light.

May peace be yours, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 29, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet each in love and light through this instrument. At this time, we would offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to those queries which may yet remain unanswered upon the minds of those present. We hope that we are able to offer ourselves in a manner that does not provide the stumbling block but which, instead, makes clearer and smoother the way that each travels.

Is there a query at this time?

Questioner: I’d just like to know if my daughter’s [inaudible] last night was a metaphysical event or an event created by [inaudible]?

I am Q’uo, and your latter assumption is correct, my sister.

Questioner: Uh-huh.

Is there another query?

Questioner: Yes, Q’uo. Your words are very well taken [inaudible]. I take them to heart. I have three brief questions concerning the way that we might pursue the path of our own growth. In posing these questions, I understand that the substance of the answers to these questions must come from within each of us. So, these questions are about form.

Can you give me a form in which any association with an inner master might be politely and gently and appreciatively dissolved? Can you give me a form in which a successful challenge to an entity, a discarnate entity, may be made? Can you give me a form in which a positive, service-to-others discarnate entity of the Confederation might be evoked?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your queries, my brother. These are thoughtful queries which move to the very heart of the process of seeking, for as one moves within your illusion there is the taking of information from various sources and making it useful within the incarnative pattern. This is an ongoing process that increases with intensity as one becomes more conscious of this process.

It is well, as one continues to seek the nature of the Creation, the nature of the self, and the process by which one moves the self along the evolutionary path, to begin to see the relationships of the self with all that surrounds the self. Thus, there is shone upon this small self, shall we say, light from many directions that reflects to the self its nature in an extending manner. As one becomes more aware of those qualities that are the bedrock, the foundation of the self, one begins to have a firmer ground upon which to build this expanding concept of the self. One begins to have the qualities and ideals being internalized that one has found useful in the, shall we say, outer world. By this construction, one prepares the self for further information from whatever source, or sources.

When there is the establishment of a link between this self and other selves of, shall we say, a discarnate nature, those who have removed themselves to the inner planes of your planetary sphere, the link between these entities and yourself is that which is built upon your desire to know more of what is called the truth in order that one might come closer to this truth, which is ultimately the Creator, and then reflect some portion of this union to those about the self as one attempts to serve those about the self. Thus, it is the desire that one has manifested that creates any link with any other entity whether the entity be incarnate, discarnate or be of one Confederation or another.

Thus, the first step in forming a link, or severing this link, is to first find within the self the desire to do so and, as this desire is discovered, to follow that desire in intensification to the point that the beginning of what you have called a form makes itself apparent as well. In most cases, the form will have been made by the entity of third-density as it repeats its desire and moves in accordance with the intuitive information that is brought forth by this desire. This process, then, becomes repeated as a kind of ritual or mantra in order to either establish a link or to ask that the link be removed. Any entity of the inner planes, or of the Confederation of Planets in Service to the Infinite Creator origin, will respect the request and desire on the part of the third-density entity to either receive or cease to receive information. The entity of third-density, being incarnate within the third-density illusion, has great power over its own destiny, shall we say, in this manner for it is within the illusion and the incarnation and may, through its continued expression of desire, create those opportunities which it wishes to create, more and more successfully as the desire is purified.

If it is desired that entities of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator assist a third-density entity, this assistance is most usually offered in a manner which does not include the vocal channeling, as is occurring at this time, for we are well aware that it is necessary for a group to support such an effort for there is the opportunity to share much of that which is light-filled and, therefore, metaphysically potent and desirable upon many different planes. Those entities which would respond in the negative sense would, therefore, have greater success in removing this light were an entity operating singly in the capacity of an instrument, shall we say.

We are most comfortable in sending our love and blessings to entities requesting our assistance and in joining their meditations in order to deepen and enrich these meditations in the manner which the entity has chosen. Thus, my brother, we can suggest that one’s desire and the purification of this desire is central in the continuing to seek information, from whatever source, in order that the illumination of the Creation and of the self might occur.

Questioner had three questions about how the form of conscious intention might be used to gently dissolve an association with an inner planes master; then the form of challenge to a discarnate entity; then the form that might be used to evoke a discarnate Confederation entity. Q’uo began their response by saying that it is well for the seeker to seek the nature of its relationship to the creation and the Creator as it moves along the path of evolution as this gives the seeker a foundation upon which to build the concept of the self. Then the seeker may seek information from other sources to expand the concept of the self. And Q’uo suggested that any desire to create or severe a link with an inner planes master or a Confederation entity might take the form of a mantra in which this desire is spoken. Q’uo said that both inner planes masters and Confederation entities would respect this request because a third-density entity has power over its own destiny to create the opportunities that it desires, and this power grows stronger as the desire to create its own destiny grows stronger. On March 21, 1999, Q’uo described the basic nature of desire:

May we say to each of you that you shall never find yourself lacking in desires. This is the nature of your being. It is the nature of space and time which creates dimensions in which you may follow your desires. So it is entirely appropriate that each of you has desires and that each of you works within the self in consciousness to know better the desires of the heart, to refine the desires of the heart, and to discipline the personality that would go forth into the world that it may have the armor of light, that it may have the resources which it needs in order to remain aware to an increasing extent of the patterns and ramifications of the desires of the heart.

Is there a further query, my brother?

Questioner: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query, at this time?

[No further queries.]

I am Q’uo, and we would take this opportunity to thank each for inviting our presence and for offering us the patience that we find is often necessary as we become somewhat lengthy in our discourses. We do not wish to overtire the mind or the body but we rejoice in the opportunity to offer those thoughts in response to your queries which we found helpful in our journey and which we hope that you will, in some way, find helpful upon your journey as well.

At this time, we shall take our leave of this group, thanking each again for allowing us to walk upon that journey with you in a more manifest fashion. We always walk with those who seek union with the one infinite Creator for we are all portions of that one Creator returning to Itself, rejoicing with each step and blessing each burden.

We are those of Q’uo and we leave each in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the front yard into the leave the leaves area between the fish pond and the pet cemetery.

This afternoon I ran some errands with my first stop being at The Home Depot where I bought some netting for the fish pond and some peat moss. Then I went to Feeder’s Supply and bought some cat food. My third stop was at PNC Bank to make a cash withdrawal. My fourth stop was at AutoZone where I bought more 2 cycle engine oil for my blower. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store where I picked up a prescription. After unloading all of my purchases I took the torn netting on the west side of the fish pond off, where it looks like maybe a raccoon may have killed a bird, and replaced it with the new netting. Then I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow some of the Ginko Tree leaves, that came down last night, into the same areas that I blew them yesterday. There are still a lot of leaves to blow tomorrow, and I hope I can finish the blowig then. When the yard waste is picked up this Thursday I will put as many of these leaves as I can in the empty garbage cans. However, there are so many leaves that I am sure it will take another week and the emptying of the garbage cans again to get all of these leaves cleaned up.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 28

Contemplate Freedom

I am the voice of Him who comes in the name of love and I greet you in the full consciousness of divine love.

How many things are before each of you today, things that seem to be cages, traps, limitations and limiters of freedom?

This day, let us contemplate freedom. For what is it to be free?

To be free is to be that entity which realizes itself an actor, an heir of Christ and a son of the Creator, an affirmative and utterly free sensibility and consciousness.

The outer details and conditions of this day need have veritably no relevancy to your self-concept of the joy of freedom. For if, in your heart and in your mind, you are free to think and to choose and to act, then you have found the greater portion of love. For you are then able to act, to love, to comfort, and to seek to understand.

Use the freedom that is yours affirmatively, not against or in spite of people or conditions, but moving always straight as the arrow to its mark, knowing, feeling and being free: free to love, free to understand, and free to console. And as you console, so shall you be comforted.

The spirit of Jesus Christ is with you always in love and peace, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 29, 1989:

The question this evening has to do with the great variety that exists in types of beings, those that are incarnate and who go through the incarnational process, those who are incarnate and perhaps do not go through the incarnate process, those that we might call angels that provide guidance and assistance from the inner planes, other types of beings that perhaps do not individualize themselves, maybe the type that we would call the logos or the godhead that comprises the totality of the octave of experience which we are enjoying, and provides, actually, that octave for us to go through the evolutionary process. We are wondering about these beings that may not incarnate, those that may not partake as we do in the evolutionary process, and how it is that they exist, how it is they function, and how it is they might progress themselves, if indeed it is necessary for them to progress in any fashion.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. May I greet each of you upon this beautiful day, within your blessed circle of seeking, quietness and faith. It is indeed a privilege to share this meditation with you, and to offer those few thoughts which are our opinions, and which may be provocative, challenging or inspiring. We hope to give you tools and resources so that you may accelerate your growth upon the spiritual path, your work, and your love of the one infinite Creator. That is the nature of creation, that is the nature of the Creator, and that is the nature of the biggest portion of the self.

Let us begin by saying that one who has moved in consciousness through work in consciousness and the disciplines of the personality, that one may gradually become more and more open, able to receive, and able to discriminate that which one receives. Therefore, it is extremely wise to so regulate the in-pouring of consciously channeled energy, that it does not move beyond the boundaries of what is known as physiological capability for work in consciousness. Perhaps the gist of what we have to share is that each entity, no matter what the [inaudible], of angelic beings or [inaudible] discarnate entities [inaudible], is responsible for [inaudible], to serve the one infinite Creator in an unique way, for as each soul is different, so is each harmony and conflict special and different, and richer for that.

The question of, so called, discarnate entities, may perhaps be amended to the subject of entities which are not incarnating upon the earth plane at this time. The ones with which you are most familiar are those active and mischievous spirits called poltergeists. It is this kind of phenomenon in which people are most interested, for they are very fond of measuring, [inaudible] and [inaudible] the, so called, scientific method. This approach, that is, one of the observer who is not taking part in the experience, may yield good results for a time, but it is a false entity who moves continuously along this line.

Therefore, some things which we have to say are difficult to hear, but we still say them. For, [inaudible]. This entity has spoken much about the process of the [inaudible]. There is a reason for that and we would like to go into it and find a pattern. [Inaudible].

However, though you are at the mercy [inaudible]. The true nature of [inaudible] is such that the entire metaphysical portion of the universe, that is, the time/space portion is still with an alternate spiritual velocity. Without the [inaudible] which fools entities by appearance, [inaudible] is evident no matter what [inaudible] no matter how high or how close to the light the entity has come, is surrounded by aid and comfort from those entities who [inaudible] wish to help and wait for the call to help.

The only way in which one may be decisive and authoritative in the [inaudible] process is to become aware of the metaphysical and imperishable and whole self again. This entity is whole unto himself. [Inaudible] bringing several people together and it may [inaudible] pre-incarnatively [inaudible] that each entity, whether in a group or alone, has the honor and the duty [inaudible] into the trunk of mind becoming able to be in touch with those painful, carnal, tidal living and desire [inaudible].

Why do you not realize this already? This is an illusion. This is a total illusion. All that you see, hear, smell, taste and touch are illusory [inaudible] has a personality [inaudible] within the incarnation are illusory and ephemeral, and in that persona, it is impossible to realize the true nature of the [inaudible] process. Therefore, we strongly suggest that any [inaudible] to your studies of how to serve others place one’s first priority upon the self and the [inaudible] that self will have faith in and desire for [inaudible].

These questions are not easy. These questions are to be the questions of an entity’s life experience. It is upon one’s deciding the nature of oneself that one entered into service in a way which promotes the gifts that empathy and forgives [inaudible]. This is true throughout the Creation for metaphysical beings, that you must move from the relative to the absolute, from the pragmatic and practical to the ideal in order to cleanse all [inaudible] and make a clear path for the words, the healing or the love of the one infinite Creator.

How does one become a metaphysical being, a magical personality? Perhaps, the first step in this endeavor is the realization that you truly must start from the beginning, that you have the mind of the beginner, that you do not [inaudible]. It is wrong to trample any pride or ambition underfoot, for worldly things will keep one upon the surface of life and stifle the thinking and feeling processes which are the very heart of the resources used for spiritual growth within. In meditation each day one might ask, “Who am I? What is my greatest ideal?” Throughout the day, one does many things and at the end of the day one may [inaudible] over that day’s activities [inaudible]. Then you may decide for yourself those things that you wish could have been done differently, that you may experience forgiveness and redemption through your own self to any other [inaudible] unhappy and, most of all, to the Creator.

To get one’s spiritual feet under one, to be able to stand firmly at spiritual [inaudible], it is necessary to know the self well enough that the self becomes, for the time of the working, an absolute [inaudible] with no relativity, no personality but only the impersonal channeling of the infinite love and light of the one Creator. So, before one seeks to receive information, or to attempt healing or any of the other paths of service, it is well to make peace with oneself, peace [inaudible] but not worldly [peace]. Indeed, we were speaking of the peace of committing oneself totally to spiritual thought. Those who answered this call are no longer sleeping, but are willing and equal partners with the higher self of spirit and the one infinite Creator, weaving a passage through this life which not only teaches the self but reflects much for others that they may also learn from you, as you learn, complete, whole, perfect services to [inaudible] any kind of contact.

The group question for this session was to ask what is the purpose of beings who do not incarnate, and how do they progress in their evolution? Q’uo began their answer by saying that both those who incarnate and those who do not incarnate are responsible for serving the one Creator in a unique way. Then, after a comment or two about poltergeist, Q’uo seemed to speak at length about beings who do incarnate and the nature of their spiritual paths having difficult lessons to learn that reveal more of their whole selves again, and that there are inner guides to aid them. Q’uo said that we need to focus on forgiveness and clear our impurities in order to make a path for the love of the Creator to move through us. On March 21, 2004, Q’uo described the process of becoming our whole self again:

When a situation is upcoming in which the will to serve is known by the person but not which situation needs to be served, it brings forth the second kind of use of will, which is to abnegate one’s own will in favor of the will of the infinite Creator, the guidance system, and the basic incarnational plan that one has had in place for the entire incarnation and in which one does have faith. In this latter situation, it would be folly to force one outcome over another. In that case the will is involved simply in bringing the whole self to a point of surrender so that as the will of the Creator becomes obvious, it may be followed with a complete and full intensity of effort and focus.

Now let us move to more transient material. Although it is without bias, neutral [inaudible] and information we are happy to share, up to a certain point

There are two kinds of service [inaudible]. One servant-ministry is that of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator. This instrument is correct in assuming that we could also be called angels. However, it is our function to indicate mystery, to indicate paradox, to stimulate thinking in seeking, searching for the truth.

We abide by the laws of free will and come only when called. We do not have the rights of those upon the inner planes to move into actual activity upon the Earth plane. To our dismay, we made several mistakes in attempting to move into right relationships with incarnate beings in third density by manifesting ourselves among them. The results were egregious and unacceptable to us. We were worshipped. We were over-esteemed. We were thought to be invincible and all-knowing. We still have much to do to uncover that part of light within. Consequently, it was our detection that we were living a lie, even as we taught the truth, by our very beingness and therefore the positivity of the work we were sharing was too much upset and offset by the [inaudible] involved, and in attempting to receive information without the finally settled notion of who you, as an entity, are. These are the questions of philosophy and religion. We are not capable of acting in the way [inaudible] upon the outer planes because we come only when called. We often work with people within their dreaming state or their daydreams. Our touch is subtle and gentle, we hope, and we are limited in what we may do to you, co-creators of the one infinite creation.

Then Q’uo spoke of their basic natures was of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator, and some people might call them angels. And they went on to say that at one time they walked upon the Earth in an attempt to be of service to third-density entities but were worshipped, and this caused them great dismay. This is the first time that those of Q’uo have suggested that Ra may be a portion of their group  as the experience which they said that they were involved in sounds a lot like the experience those of Ra had when they walked among the Egyptians 11,000 years ago, and during that time they were seen as gods. This was the basic message Ra gave to us in 6.4:

Questioner: It seems to me that it might be an appropriate time to include a little more historical background of yourself, possibly information having to do with where you came from prior to involvement with planet Earth, if this is possible.

Ra: I am Ra. I am, with the social memory complex of which I am a part, one of those who voyaged outward from another planet within your own solar system, as this entity would call it. The planetary influence was that you call Venus. We are a race old in your measures. When we were at the sixth dimension our physical beings were what you would call golden. We were tall and somewhat delicate. Our physical body complex covering, which you call the integument, had a golden luster.

In this form we decided to come among your peoples. Your peoples at that time were much unlike us in physical appearance, as you might call it. We, thus, did not mix well with the population and were obviously other than they. Thus, our visit was relatively short, for we found ourselves in the hypocritical position of being acclaimed as other than your other-selves. This was the time during which we built the structures in which you show interest.

Those upon the inner planes who have remained behind after incarnation upon your sphere to work with all others who have not yet created their redemption so that each may become more and more aware that there is a universe within that is vaster, more interesting, more challenging, is more informative than that which may be consciously thought and surmised.

There is a difficulty with those upon the inner planes. An inner-plane decision to remain within the vibrations of third density in a discarnate form is a good expression of martyrdom. For this entity, as long as it desires to be an inner planes teacher, may, itself not progress beyond this density and the study of its lessons. However, these entities have much more capacities to speak personally about specific things than those who, shall we say, are from the outer planes existence.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo. We are sorry for the pause but we were asking the instrument to retune. If there could be some chanting at this time, it would be well. I am Q’uo.

[Carla and another sing]

We all come from God and unto God we shall return. We all come from God and unto God we shall return, like a river flowing into the ocean, like a ray of light returning to the sun.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and am, again, with this instrument. We appreciate this instrument’s fastidiousness with challenging and its desire to retune when it sensed that there was not a satisfactory degree of [inaudible]. We shall continue.

The inner planes masters, so called, are often extremely wise. They have graduated to the next density. However, they have turned their back upon their own spiritual evolution that they may aid their brothers and sisters who have come after them. It is a truly sacrificial and, shall we say, theodic ministry of spirit. Yet, many are the spirits who have moved through the incarnational experience as the devoted pupil of some teacher or master. Consequently, one who has had this strong and [inaudible] relationship where the teacher basically becomes that which is worshipped, and the Creator worshiped only through that teacher, that you, yourself, begin to accomplish the karmic mind of necessity and that is, it is not balanced to receive constantly from the inner planes as much as it is balanced for entities to move on, continue their own seeking and, at the same time, stretch themselves in abundant service to a hungry world.

We do not suggest that the interior monologues and dialogues which you have within yourself—these also being inner-planes thoughts by nature—may indeed be helpful. It is simply that as one is taught, so one will desire to get, and for those entities to whom worship is offered, these entities have the responsibility of steering, most gently, those entities back upon the path of thinking for the self, examining the self, and being aware of one’s self-worth as an independence of spirit. For you need nothing to make you complete. The Creator, which is love, lives within you in infinite abundance.

Some entities approach the spiritual path as if they were drilling for oil and they do a good deal of harm within their minds, seeking too much too quickly, and unable to assimilate all of it. This constitutes what this instrument would call spiritual constipation. Thus, if you are enjoying a relationship with a discarnate teacher that is of the inner planes and advises one, in addition to speaking of spiritual principles, one is yielding one’s free will to that which is the ephemeral personality of the master that speaks within. This will hinder an entity from becoming fully aware of its nature.

All inner planes entities are those who have incarnated, lived and offered much upon your Earth’s sphere. Many of them are extremely wise, some of them are mischievous, and some, within the lower astral planes, are most disturbing. However, if one learns from a teacher rather than from one’s own heart, one is forever dependent upon that teacher to be without the feet of clay. All entities have the feet of clay, not only in your environment of third density but as one moves on. Of course, that which one does not desire becomes more and more refined in its removal so that where, at first, one took large chunks of the being that did not aid the self and held them upward to the Creator saying, “Take these, these are no longer my personal truths,” then one may get on with the business of paying attention to, blessing, nourishing and loving the self. This is the fundamental heart of service to others.

It is impossible to move fully into the heart energy, that is, fully rather than substantially, but to, in whatever manner is comfortable for each seeker, examining the self, discovering and rediscovering the life, gazing at one’s choices and asking one self, “Why did I choose? Who am I that I would choose this?” In this context, one looks for spiritual coincidence and for the repetition of the kind of situation which has occurred before and is now occurring once more. This is, if substantial, a part of your inner experience, most probably that which you, yourself, set for yourself to study within this life experience. So we would not particularly suggest that one move beyond one’s own angelic [inaudible] for the simple reason that is has slowed the development of those teachers who sacrifice the self and in order to balance what this entity calls karma, each entity who works with guru as Creator must, in turn, be Creator to a student. It is a sacred obligation as the choice is constantly made to adore the teacher. This is much more prevalent in the cultures of Asia. However, because of the “global village” effect of mass-communications media, it remains possible to move through one’s days in extremely good intentions but unknowing of those things which may be [inaudible]. We do not encourage any to seek inner-plane masters unless you, as an entity, wish to spend some time in third-density time/space aiding those who wish to seek from within. If an entity feels comfortable and of service in this regard then we can do no more than encourage the entity to make this sacrifice.

Now Q’uo began to speak more of the inner planes masters as those who have become a kind of martyr in that they will not progress further in their own evolution as they work with students but are more able to speak to their students of more specific practices than those such as Q’uo who are from higher densities. Then Q’uo said that the inner planes masters, having stopped their spiritual movement in order to teach students what they have learned themselves, are engaged in an unbalanced process since it is more natural for a seeker to think for itself and move on to the fourth density and, at the same time, seek to be of service to others and share the love of the Creator that is within them. However, Q’uo said that if one wishes to follow an inner planes master and eventually become the same kind of teacher for their own students that they would support such a choice. On October 8, 1989, Q’uo gave a more detailed description of the nature and function of the inner planes master:

Let us speak about the inner-planes masters, so called. These are entities which have personally evolved to be harvestable to fourth density who have instead chosen to remain discarnate and to turn back and aid those of third density. These entities are creatures of your illusion which have moved to larger life and are able to see, shall we say, the tree of consciousness down to its roots and up to its loftiest branches. They are out of the illusion, but they have not had the experience of the higher densities by working with a social memory complex. It is, shall we say, a choice. There are service-to-others and service-to-self entities within your inner planes. There are very wise ones within your inner planes. They have done very, very difficult work, and they are to be commended. However, they have halted their own learning process, turning back to aid, and knowing only that which has been realized within the incarnation that makes the entity at the time of the physical death able to move into fourth-density light.

Those who move ahead also have an imbalance of karma because they have left those who still were sick, struggling, miserable, wretched, angry and confused. Consequently, there is, at the appropriate time for each entity, this being also unique, there will be the need for those who have gone on and not stayed in the inner planes to move into the inner planes in thought and offer what inspiration, information and general spiritual guidance we may offer. It is our privilege and pleasure to be of the Children of Sorrow for as we move into your vibration we sense the deep horror, sorrow and anguish each feels over all that there is within this illusion which seems un-beautiful, impossible to restore, broken and hopeless. Yet we of the outer planes and those of the inner planes also, will say over and over and over again: all things are as they should be. An entity who is working within the self, with faith in the self, forgiveness for the self, and strength to the self will realize and recognize, increasingly, those lessons of love which are theirs to learn within this particular life experience. One gazes at one’s gifts, whatever they may be, but one does not take these gifts for granted in relation to how one is to use the gifts at hand. It is well to gaze out into the greater community and, in serene and gentle yellow-ray energy, concern oneself with society and culture and all peoples as you are able to meet and know them. Realize that each of you is here at this time either to aid in the harvest as wanderers or to be in the harvest as those of third density reaching graduation for the first time.

We may also remind each who feels his self to be a wanderer that, although, as every entity within Creation, it is whole and perfect, yet if it has ascribed unto itself glory it must balance that within another incarnation. If it has experienced and not balanced any of the deeper feelings it well may be necessary to move back into the life experience and refine, in the fire of third density, the gold from the dross, the light-self from the heavy chemical body.

There are also entities which do not appear in any personal form. These social-memory-complexes wander in their own way, for they keep a vigil. They walk the watchtower. They are of the Logos. They are of the principle of unconditional love. And, by realizing the strength of these connections, it becomes more and more possible for an entity which is steeped in its own iniquity and confusion to become more and more able to recognize its needs, its resources, its gifts, and its path of service. If one is of service to one being, one is of service to the planet. If one is of service reluctantly, the energy shared is not pleasant for it is the cheerful giver, the glad giver which acquires no karmic bond by what it offers for it has no desire for any particular outcome, but only the desire to aid other creator-selves. These entities are such as stars…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

…and, indeed, the plenum of space.

Perhaps, in order to simplify and express what is to us the heart of that which is [inaudible] is: there are two kinds of help. There is one help that is of the inner planes in which the entity who has graduated is willing to be the comforter, the redeemer, the savior symbol that the self may reflect self-forgiveness from this mirror. As we said, the drawback is that each of you which does this with a particular teacher incurs karma and must come back to teach that which was learned to balance that dependency with an independence which accepts another’s dependency upon it. We suggest, gently, that each think for the self. Each knows that one is not alone, ever. However, the relationship of teacher and pupil is only helpful if the questions asked to the teacher of the inner planes have to do with spiritual principles. This is seldom what is asked of inner-planes entities or, indeed, of any metaphysical entities. Yet, this is what people desire to know. The inner-planes masters are equipped and capable of working with such entities.

We are those who move from another portion of what you would call space/time. We are those future-selves which the decision you make within this density will cause you to become, either positive or negative. Feel the sunshine and know that love unmanifest, unspoken, unuttered and serene is, indeed, that of the Creator. To see yourself more and more clearly, ask oneself the difficult questions more and more deeply. Crystallize the entity within that you know that in which you have faith and that you have committed yourself to that path to an extremely deep extent so that the life experience has become not secular, not laic, but rather a poem, a paean of praise and thanksgiving and prayer to the one infinite Creator. Those who spend time with teachers, either earthly or discarnate, are apt not to value enough the gifts of the spirit within which moves from the outer planes. We suggest that each of you think carefully and at length until you have come to peace with your own definition of yourself, your faith and your desire.

Then Q’uo said that those who do move on to the fourth density and above will eventually return to the third density to aid those who are in pain and are suffering the illusion of separation. Q’uo was speaking of wanderers who come to help seekers use these difficult experiences to learn more of forgiveness and love for each other. Once again, Q’uo suggested that each entity think for itself as to whether it wished to learn from an inner planes master and then pursue the same path for itself, or whether it wishes to look within its own being to see its true nature that is crystallized so that the life becomes a song of praise to the one infinite Creator. On January 2, 1983, Latwii spoke of the waves of wanderers who have come to Earth to be of service to entities on Earth:

Therefore, as those with the greatest opportunity for harvest incarnate, the calling for the lessons of love and assistance in learning them increases. These callings are answered in many ways. One manner of answer is the incarnation of those known to this group as wanderers in waves or in groups. This began in earnest with the birthing of the concept of freedom which was born at approximately the same time in its intenser form as was this country some two hundred of your years ago. There have been various events which have been prominent in allowing further waves or groups of wanderers to incarnate. The second of what you call world wars was most important in this regard, for the release of that energy known as nuclear was of such a profound nature that a great wave of wanderers incarnated at the cessation of that conflict. These wanderers then begin to reach what your peoples call their maturity during the period you have referred to as the 1960s and this flash of light, shall we say, took many forms, yet was felt around your planet.

Each entity will go through difficult times and prosperous ones, speaking spiritually. We hope that you do not become discouraged at any time because you feel subjectively that you have not created a beautiful, lovely experience. More than us, then, who are not the Creator and do not wish to be worshipped, it is the work within the self in silent meditation that brings the true enlightenment, brings it softly, naturally, quietly, so that one is sure in an instant, whenever that instant may be, that one has found a path for the self that will move one from time into timelessness, from this illusion into that which comes far closer to the reality of All That Is.

Meditate and ask, then listen. The universe is crowded, teeming with populations of various kinds. It is well to be tolerant but, of oneself, we suggest one be somewhat fastidious. Begin to develop the magical personality. Guard one’s reaction and create, instead, affirmative and more positive actions than the natural reaction would be. Eventually, you may tap into that deep self within the self, which is the creative self, very quickly, clearing the energy center with rapidity that is not possible for a long period of time but does, indeed, clear the mind for a period of time necessary to begin the channeling process. This is also true in each entity’s everyday and mundane existence. There is such a thing as faith and this faith is another word for love.

The faith that you seek is not the faith of the world as you know it. For the world has attempted to place everything in a slot, organizing, rationalizing, thinking and opinionating upon the nature of the creation and the Creator. This is not the job you were sent to do, not the work you came to accomplish. You came to be servants, servants of humankind, helpers in the harvest, those who are truly humble, those who truly wish to serve and do not need the reassurance [inaudible]. Set your mind upon that goal and move in the way which seems correct to you but seek always, first, knowledge of yourself, for this is knowledge of the Creator and until you know yourself and have a great and detailed knowledge of how faith and will work in the life, there will not be the peace which passes all understanding. There will only be the difficulties and toil of the spiritual journey. Love, light and merriment come upon those, upon that narrow path, who are able to be merry in their search and pilgrimage for the Father.

May each of you spend time gauging, examining and forgiving the self. In this effort you will have aid, both inner-planes and outer-planes, but as we have said, it is not wise to accept an inner-planes discarnate entity as one’s own teacher unless one wishes also, when one graduates from this density, to suspend further learning for what would seem to be very many of your years. It is thought by us that it is preferable to move on and when one has learned more than third-density, then turn back and offer the hand in aid. And this is true of each upon your sphere. It is not well to move within one’s human personality in service to others. It is well, rather, to know oneself so well that one may deliberately and consciously move in consciousness to the deeper self and with that deeper self console, comfort and forgive all that there is to be comforted or forgiven.

This instrument is telling us very loudly that we have spoken too long, once more.

The question has ramifications that move beyond what we have said this day but we may say that all questions of a non-transient nature, or that bring forth non-transient information, are those upon which one may expand and expostulate for any amount of time, as you know it.

We are of the principle of the spirit of the one infinite Creator and that one original Thought which created all that there is, that being Love. Each of you is whole, perfect and an embodiment of Love. May each open the self, knowing who one is and being a citizen of the universe in total democracy with all other spirits, and move and flow and allow that which is offered for one to occur. It is not necessary to push the experience about, for the most part, but simply to observe and become more and more knowledgeable of the dynamics of the mystery of your own self. For, only when you have done this may you chose your contact by the challenging process. In order to challenge a discarnate entity you, as an entity, must see yourself as light. The sparks of the Father within will eventually illuminate the whole of beingness, making it no longer necessary for a heavy chemical body to experience things within. Thus, those of you who are service-to-others oriented, be of service to yourself first. Ask for the comforter, if you wish. Ask for any help that you wish knowing the obligation placed upon you by inner-planes teachers. Move at your own pace and in your own way but be faithful, my friends. Keep seeking persistently, keep hoping, keep loving until you begin to feel as a wonderfully clear aqueduct for the water of blessedness and aid.

Q’uo concluded their comments by seeming to speak to wanderers and how they may be of service to others by meditating and seeking the purpose of the life, by developing the magical personality, and contacting one’s deeper self to enhance one’s service. Q’uo said these were all tools that could be used to gain more knowledge of the self and its plan for aiding in the harvest of souls on Earth.  They suggested that we remain faithful in seeking to discover more of the mystery of ourselves through contact with our deep minds so that we become a clear channel for the love and assistance of the Father when we seek to be of service to others. On March 11, 2004, Q’uo revealed how discovering more of the mystery of ourselves could help us be of service to others:

And as the searchlight of one’s everyday consciousness becomes charmed and intrigued into attaching itself to the focus of a deep inner search, that spotlight may sharpen and delineate much that upon the surface of things is impossible or certainly improbable to see.

In some cases it is a matter of almost seducing oneself away from the joys of thinking and into a position of utter surrender to that darkness that accepts the mystery of the self and the infinite possibilities of what that self may do if allowed to bloom as the Creator has prepared for you to bloom. Not that there is one destiny for you or one choice that is right. Quite the opposite. There is certainly one destiny in terms of a general incarnational design but it is rather that chances for that design to be fulfilled are bursting at every corner so that there is never an end to the possibility to, as this instrument would say from the old Shaker hymn, “come round right.”

We would leave this instrument at this time, that the one known as Jim may conclude the working. We are apologetic for our garrulous nature, however, the questions asked us are interesting to us and we find many ramifications therein. We do apologize. We have great difficulty gauging your time as it is not that which is [inaudible].

I am Q’uo, and I leave this instrument in love and light.

This morning I had an appointment to get a haircut, and after that I ran some errands with my first stop being at Kroeger’s to get some groceries for myself. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to get more food for myself that is not available from Kroger’s. My last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to pick up a couple of prescriptions and a non-food item. When I got back home I unloaded all my groceries and then went outside to use my backpack blower to begin blowing all of the Ginko Tree leaves into a couple of piles. Since there were so many Ginko Tree leaves the ground was almost pure yellow with these leaves, and I quit after an hour or so and went inside to have lunch.

This afternoon I went back outside and completed blowing the Ginko leaves into a couple of piles and filled seven more garbage cans with them for yard waste pickup this Thursday. There were at least that many more leaves left that will have to remain in the two piles until the garbage cans are emptied this Thursday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 27

The Tide Of Spirit Within

I am the spirit of living love and I greet you in the full consciousness of that love in Jesus Christ.

The sea seems to flow, calm or stormy, with rhythms of its own. And only the sailor who gazes from the shore sees the water meet the earth. One who stands upon the strand of life sees that the water never rests, moving always in rhythm, utterly sensitive to those forces which cause it to advance upon the land and then retreat into the deeps.

So is the seeker’s soul, walking along that ever-changing tidal point of water and earth, of spiritual and natural man. The boundary is not clear but ever-moving and ever-responsive to those great forces of spirit which move, alike, the waters of deep consciousness and the conscious creature who carries the seed within him.

Listen each day, each hour, to the sound of the tide of spirit within, that you may ever draw sustenance from the water; that you may be unafraid of the deeps within you. For you are that sailor who stands upon the shore and makes the choices of when to wade and when to be immersed in spiritual consciousness.

We wish you peace, the peace of water ever-moving, the creative peace which rests in love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 22, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. We would offer ourselves at this time in the attempt to speak to further queries if there are any remaining on the minds of those present. Is there a query at this time?

Carla: Well, if nobody else has a query I’ll ask one that’s real marginal, you probably can’t help me, but… in talking about spiritual principles with someone who is traumatized by traditional Christianity, one needs a very different vocabulary than one who is a Christian such as myself would use, and I wondered if there were any way to express what to me is a reality, that is that one does not exist metaphysically until one knows who one is, and can stand firm on that, to the point of death if necessary, in vocabulary that will be neutral, and helpful to one traumatized by religious dogma and doctrine.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that as it is important that one grasp and master these concepts of the knowing of the self to the heart of the being and the expressing of that knowing as a form of tuning and as a form of challenging of spirits, that it is also necessary that when one speak of these activities that one do so in a manner which is of one’s own nature, shall we say. If it is a stumbling block to speak in this manner, then perhaps the words may be written upon the page, after having been brought forth from the heart without censor, and then upon the page to be arranged in a manner that would be acceptable to the [one] which was not able to receive the words in their original form.

There are many ways of describing the, what we would call, basic principles of exercising as an instrument. There are as many ways as there are entities who have accomplished this task. Therefore, we are confident that one which has mastered this task can also redescribe or interpret that experience in a means which is acceptable to another, after having expressed that process as fully and as concisely as possible in the vocabulary and concepts which are natural to the entity, then accomplishing the translation, shall we say.

Carla wanted to know how to use neutral terms to explain, to a person that was traumatized by traditional Christian dogma, that one does not exist metaphysically until they know who they are. Q’uo used the analogy of the tuning and challenging procedures, that an instrument uses before channeling, to let Carla know that she could use these same concepts to help a person discover who they really were spiritually. Q’uo also suggested that Carla speak from her heart either in spoken words or perhaps written as a note that could be helpfully pondered by the traumatized person. On February 4, 2001, Q’uo spoke of the metaphysical identity:

The thoughts that you think, the emotions that you feel, the spiritual experiences that pass through your energetic system are all kinds of thought and they constitute your basic metaphysical identity. Every thought that you think, every thought that you pursue, every thought that you bring to a fruition, creates slight changes in the vibration that is your energy signature. To those of us, and others upon the spirit planes, looking at the metaphysical entities that you are, these vibratory nexi are very evident, and it is as clear to us as day who you are, how you are, whose you are.

Is there a further query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

K: I have a question. I’ve been in circumstances a number of times where those who are either not serious seekers, or those who are seekers within what appears to me to be a very narrow path, ask questions about my particular path, and I have often been at a loss as to how to answer them without either infringing on their free will, or seeming to place judgments on their views of life as being right or wrong. There seem to be such differences in viewpoints, and it’s difficult for me to know how to answer the questions. Sometimes I feel that they shouldn’t be answered at all, but again I’m at a loss to know how to do that without giving offense. Do you have any comments or suggestions on this situation?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query. We apologize. The instrument was tickled.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument, who has now added the necessary recording device. When you are in the presence of those who ask of your path, and you wish to answer in a manner that is both accurate and compassionate, it is our suggestion that you first ask yourself how it is you wish to serve this entity or these entities, that you find that desire to speak both clearly and yet with an understanding of the position that is experienced by the questioner.

When you feel a desire to serve, then do not worry about the words that might be used to express that desire. Speak freely, as you serve as a channel from your conscious and subconscious minds concerning that journey upon which you find yourself. If one worries overmuch about the specifics of the question and its response, one may find the mind in a kind of tangle. However, if this worry can be circumvented by focusing upon a desire to serve freely and without judgment, then a clearer path is made to the subconscious portions of the mind which contain the clear and compassionate expression that will suffice as the reply to the query. Thus, one serves as an instrument in these situations that one might share that which has been helpful to the self.

K wanted to know how to answer people’s questions about the nature of her spiritual path. Q’uo simply suggested that K speak freely and without any judgment in answering such questions as this would access both her conscious mind and her subconscious mind in a compassionate way. On February 6, 2000, Q’uo described how we may communicate from the heart:

Many do not seek the wisdom of the heart because of the commitment to the daily round of activities. We would ask each to look therein on a regular basis that one may develop a clear communication, with the heart, the intuition, the portion of the self that still moves in unity with all.

Is there another query, my sister?

K: That was very helpful, thank you. I do have another question also, and that is, can you offer some suggestions on how to differentiate between serving and pleasing?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We find in our experience that there is a significant difference in these concepts. The desire to serve another is based upon a concern for the other self, and how best to aid that other self in its thinking or in its actions or in its being. The desire to please another self, however, has its focus upon your own self, and receiving a reward from the other self for actions which have been constructed with the hope of receiving that reward, whether it be the smile, the confirmation, the attention, or in a negative sense, the removal of criticism.

Thus, look to that which is desired from the action to determine whether it is an action that has the other self or the self as its central focus.

Is there another query, my sister?

K: Yes, along the same lines, if the desire is truly to serve the other self, there are still many circumstances in which I find it difficult to determine which course of action would truly be of service, and I find that I do not have the appropriate resources to determine that. That’s the sort of situation that I’m really interested in. How do I decide what course of action to take with a person when there are various ones open to me and I do not know which would be of more service?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. First, we would recommend that one determine what it is the other self desires. This may be accomplished by a simple query. It is the explicitly expressed desire for service from another self that is the clearest indication of how that self might be served, regardless of what one might feel would be the greatest service.

To become the other self is a means whereby one might in imagination as closely as possible approximate the other self and its desires if the other self is not present and able to be queried as to how best to serve that other self. The further one moves from the explicitly expressed desire from another self, the more possible it becomes that one’s offered service will deviate from an actual service. The desire to serve another which motivates action often goes astray when the other self has not requested a service, however, that desire is the fundamental quality that makes it possible to achieve a redress, shall we say, if the original effort has fallen somewhat short.

K asked how she could determine the best way to serve another person. Q’uo said that she could simply ask how the person wishes to be served, or if the person was not physically present she might use her imagination and become the other self that she wishes to serve. On February 3, 1983, Q’uo described a way that one may best serve another person:

If one can know what another needs by hearing those needs from the other, then one may best serve as one has been asked. If one knows not how to serve, one then must follow the heart. The love then that is given may take another form. Begin in love, refine with the wisdom which you discover either through your own discernment or through the lips of the one needing service.

Is there another query, my sister?

K: There are times when the explicit request or desire of another entity is something which I do not feel comfortable in being able to fulfill for one reason or another. At those times my assumption is that my responsibility is to exercise my own judgment as to what I feel that I can honestly give, and yet there are times also when I feel that I should be giving what is asked no matter what, because that is what service is, and that I feel that if I don’t that I’m not being of service. Can you comment on that sort of dilemma?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Indeed, it is a dilemma to be asked to give that which one finds it difficult to give. It is, shall we say, less of a gift if there is the taint of resentment given with the service. It is oftentimes better not to offer the service if it is not possible to offer without the feeling of resentment or guilt or other emotions which would confuse or color the gift in a manner that would disrupt the clear communication, shall we say.

It is, as you have surmised, better to give what can be given with a cheerful heart than to give all of what was asked, but to include the negative emotions as well. It is often helpful in a situation in which one has been asked to give more than one feels one has to offer, to meditate upon that which limits the giving, in order that one might discover a facet of the being which might benefit from attention. There is much that can be learned by studying limitations and facing them in an honest fashion.

There is no shame in recognizing and admitting limitations. These are the boundaries which at one time served one well, and provided a fuller arena of experience, shall we say, but which at the present moment have the opposite effect in reducing that which may be offered as service. The discovery of these limitations increases the knowledge of the self so that there is possible an expanded view of the self that included the limitation and the beginning work upon the balance of the fundamental nature of the limitation.

Therefore, we would agree with your original assumption that it is better, in terms of the purity of service, to give what one can in a cheerful fashion, and when one is unable to give fully, to examine carefully that which limits that which is given.

Now K asked what she should do when she didn’t feel comfortable in being of service when she was asked to, and she also wanted to know if there was ever a time when she should attempt to be of service no matter what she felt. Q’uo responded by saying that one should give what one can with a cheerful heart and not attempt to give when there is a doubt about one’s ability to give as one has been asked to give. But Q’uo also said that it would be well to meditate upon one’s limitations and attempt to understand more of the nature of one’s self so that one may eventually expand one’s ability to serve. On January 11, 1998, Q’uo explained how difficulty in being of service may actually call forth service in a more effective way:

To learn regret that one has caused injury, to learn the determination that one shall not do so again, to learn a vast array of possible responses. In this moment one may learn how to give love in a way that is much quicker, intense and efficient than this learning could be accomplished where harmony, oneness and the power of love and light are obvious, and the proper response is given without thought, without effort, and the entire mind/body/spirit of the entity is affected but little. Whereas in the intense moment of third-density confusion the love and light that you find there carries a great deal more value and weight in your total beingness and moves your mind/body/spirit further along the line of evolution than is possible in the same amount of experience within the higher realms of harmony and oneness.

Is there a further query, my sister?

I believe that Q’uo’s response to K’s previous question from January 11, 1998, would also be the appropriate response to K’s next question, so I will insert it at the end of Q’uo’s response.

K: Would the examination of these limitations be with a view to removing the limitation or just to understanding and accepting it?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. Either may be the case, in our experience, for in many incarnations there are qualities or characteristics which are placed within the character structure that allow certain services to be offered, certain abilities to be expressed, that when seen from another angle, perspective or point of view may be seen as a limitation to yet another kind of expression. In such an instance it is well to accept that quality or characteristic that has been discovered through careful self analysis and meditation to be a fundamental building block of the incarnation, and to accept such freely, openly and with a joyful heart, realizing that service yet grows from this limitation.

In other cases, it is possible that a limitation is a portion of the being that yet remains to be balanced, and when the balancing occurs that there is a greater or wider perspective that allows a larger amount of service, shall we say, for want of a better phrase, to be offered. Only one’s careful self-analysis and meditation upon the results of such analysis can determine whether certain characteristics must be accepted or might yet yield further growth.

K wanted to know would the examination of these limitation be with a view to removing the limitation or just to understanding and accepting it? Q’uo said that either could be the case and meditation could be used for acceptance of the limitation, and self-analysis and balancing could be used for removing the limitation. On January 11, 1998, Q’uo explained how difficulty in being of service may actually call forth service in a more effective way:

To learn regret that one has caused injury, to learn the determination that one shall not do so again, to learn a vast array of possible responses. In this moment one may learn how to give love in a way that is much quicker, intense and efficient than this learning could be accomplished where harmony, oneness and the power of love and light are obvious, and the proper response is given without thought, without effort, and the entire mind/body/spirit of the entity is affected but little. Whereas in the intense moment of third-density confusion the love and light that you find there carries a great deal more value and weight in your total beingness and moves your mind/body/spirit further along the line of evolution than is possible in the same amount of experience within the higher realms of harmony and oneness.

Is there a further query, my sister?

K: No, that’s very helpful, thanks very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, again, my sister. Is there a query at this time with which we may complete this session?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and are most grateful to have been able to speak this evening to this group. We take great joy in joining our vibrations with yours, for we find the queries from this group are not only thoughtful and interesting, but come from the deepest concerns of the hearts of those present in the desire to know more of the self in order that the self might be offered to the self and to the Creator in its many other selves as a sincere honestation to that one Creator.

We are those of Q’uo, and we await your calls in your future times as you reckon the movement of time and space. We shall leave this instrument and this group at this time, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I went outside and took down the netting on the front of the fish pond and replaced it with new netting as the old netting had become torn in a number of places and was getting harder to work with when I cleaned the filters for the fountain.

This afternoon I went upstairs and used the carpet sweeper on the hall runner rugs and then used my broom and dust pan to clean up the kitty litter in Benny’s room. Then I used the duster to dust the floors in each of the three bedrooms.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 26

Claim Your Good

I am of the principle and spirit of Jesus the Christ and I greet you with the full consciousness of love.

Today I ask you to take hold of your divine good.

There are many situations which do not appear to hold divine good. Yet appearances can be deceiving.

The cry of the child seems full of misfortune. Yet there is the divine good of the cry answered—the nurturing mother who comes and holds the little one to give it comfort and nourishment.

So, too, be not afraid to speak up, to reach out, to know that your good is before you, to ask for it and if you see it not, to ask again. Many are the times that that good is half-hidden or perhaps completely obscured by other things which may not be of divinity, but petty, inconsequential and of the moment. Those things that are not of divinity to you, pass them by and claim your good.

For that which is divine is there for you, just as that which is not. That which is everyday is also before you. Look always for that which is of divine consciousness. Claim your good. Know divine love. And in all ways that you may be able this day, express the consciousness of love that gave you the faith to look for and claim your divine love and good.

We leave you in this consciousness which cannot be understood but only experienced, the consciousness of the love of Jesus the Christ.

The consciousness of His healing peace be with you, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 22, 1989:

How can people who are interested in pursuing a life’s work and being of service to others and developing their gifts discover what exactly the gifts are that they have, and then, if, say, they have more than one gift, how can people determine what the best way of service is, how to use the gifts or gift that they have in developing themselves, and then in being of service to others?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is a great privilege to share in this circle of meditation and seeking and to see the earnest hearts of those who wish to express their unity of all that there is in the very life that they lead.

We are aware that the illusion is a heavy one, and that missteps are inevitable and frequent. We urge each always to turn again in hope, to try once more, to be undiscouraged by circumstances, but simply to abide in this feeling that fills this dwelling place at this time, the unconditional love of the one infinite Creator.

The third density is not a density in which wisdom plays a great part. It is the folly of men to believe that there is wisdom in third density, and thus one may see the ideal of justice, an ethical, philosophical ideal which does not take into account either the nature of the illusion, the purpose of the illusion, or those entities which have come to self-consciousness within third-density illusion. In any real sense, there is little observable justice, for the plan which each has created before the lifetime often deliberately includes difficult, unfair and painful circumstance, and the more spiritually ambitious an entity is, the more difficult the lessons that that entity came to manifest will be.

We speak this evening to those whose worldly ambitions are a cipher, a nothing. This has been decided. This leaves the mind free, regardless of whether work is done in the mundane world or not, to ponder and contemplate those philosophical and spiritual questions that you may have. This is a great head start that you have over people who are torn between the world and the cosmos, between this life and infinity. Those who have awakened, such as you, to their true desire to be of service to the one infinite Creator by loving each other, are so often in the difficult position of having to adjudge their own service in the absence of any support whatsoever.

This is especially true of the mated relationship, and the raising of children. There is no greater or more sacrificial service than the raising of young souls, attempting to offer to those souls that information which is grist not only for making one’s way in the mundane world, but for becoming aware of eternity, becoming aware that so-called human beings have a context into which they fit. They are not the be-all and the end-all of evolution. Evolution moves steadily on, and the progress, after third density, is all spiritual. Within this density you still need more of the personality in order to deal with the heavy chemical vibrations. More and more you will see yourselves as a spiritual discovery, finding and refining that truth which is within you until you become aware of your nature. Becoming aware of one’s own nature may or may not sound simple. It is not simple in our estimation, unless one has the gift of faith as this instrument does and simply bypasses the intellect, moving instinctively toward intuition and what the instrument calls purified emotion.

For the most part, entities wish to do something which is of true service to the Creator, and it seems logical and right to entities who have observed great spiritual figures of the past and present to wish to be great spiritual figures and to be of service in that way also. One can even seek dramatic, publicized service to others, and within the limitations of mixed contact, since there is ego involved in such hope, such channels are able to do much good to bring many souls to an awareness of the mystery that underlies all that there is.

We always say to each that we do not wish to become a stumbling block, and we wish you to take only that which makes sense to you from what we say. And no matter how inspiring, if confusing, we ask that you release and forget the information, for it is not your personal truth at this time, and there is no need for you to change and struggle and strive. The spiritual path is one of allowing things to occur, for you have planned well.

Each of you would be unable to incarnate at this time upon this particular sphere, were it not possible for each and every entity to graduate either service to self or service to others, third density; that is, each has the opportunity of learning to use a denser and much enhanced cohesion of light. In this atmosphere, as the instrument has often said, thoughts become things. And as you are entering at this time into fourth-density space/time, thoughts are becoming things, over and over again. The negative emotions involved with lifestyles that are not helpful to the entity through anger, through feelings of rejection and so forth, cause much illness, much unhappiness.

It is difficult for the person who comes to this information as a neophyte to imagine that he or she could be of equal service to those who heal or teach or channel, for the latter three are somewhat dramatic. The entity, if positively oriented, is relatively without ego, as you call the need to impress or to control. We would like to extend this idea to form a true picture of spiritual service in third density.

Perhaps the greatest spiritual service you can do is to center and meditate and think upon the Creator, lovingly, gratefully, emotionally, in a purified and inner way, not letting your prayers float to the four corners of the room in which you are so that entities may hear you, but rather stepping into that inner room and listening in silence, waiting for the presence of the infinite One.

The group question for this session was how can a person, who wishes to be of service to others, determine what their gifts are and then how to use them in service to others. Q’uo began their response by saying that in the third density people plan their lives before the incarnation, and this plan often contains the difficult and painful experiences which allow the seeker to become aware of its true nature. They said that if we use our intuition rather than our intellect and allow those experiences to occur which we have planned pre-incarnatively, each of us has the potential to graduate to the fourth density. Then Q’uo recommended that we use meditation to listen in silence to experience the presence of the Creator. On February 6, 2000, Q’uo mentioned how communing with the Creator in meditation can reveal our path of service:

 When one finds that there is the confusion as to the next steps to take upon the journey of seeking it is well to consider the situation in which you find yourself and to utilize the facilities of the conscious mind to their fullest extent so that that which can be known is known to you. Then take the time from your daily round of activities each day, to retire into meditation that those questions that have been asked consciously may sink further into the deeper portions of your mind and that connections may be made with those pre-incarnative choices which have been guiding you in a more or less clear fashion. And simply await the speaking of your own heart, of the Creator which moves inside of you. When you have stilled yourself to a point deep enough and regularly enough—and no one can say when this point is—but when it comes you will know it, then the direction will be made clear to you that you might move in the confidence of the one infinite Creator.

The difficulty for those within your culture is that people identify service to others with certain specific skills, which we would call dramatic skills, such as the vocal channeling and the healing. It is our opinion that each and every entity who has incarnated at this time upon the Earth has a beautiful, loving and right service to perform, planned beforehand, planned in such a way that one may be continuously rocked and buffeted by the winds of change that accompany realization.

This is true whether or not the service is the greatest service of all, that of knowing who you are, and of vibrating in that knowledge consciously, or of non-dramatic service. This is what confuses your people. It is your people’s idea that some services are greater than other services. This is true only insofar as some desires to serve are purer than other desires to serve. It does not matter what is in front of your face. What is in front of your face is your service. If you can allow yourself to flow intuitively in the river of consciousness, you yourself will let yourself know, “Yes, I wish to do this,” “No, I do not wish to do that.”

Therefore, we suggest that in order to find out one’s gifts, one do several things. Firstly, if one is of some substantial age and has had many experiences, it becomes extremely easier to gaze back over the incarnation and see the pattern of lessons to be learned. One kind of lesson will occur again and again and again, until you have mastered and balanced your ability to serve under those conditions. Basically, each entity goes through a lifetime process of accepting the unacceptable, of forgiving the unforgivable, of loving the unlovable, of consoling the inconsolable, of pardoning one in error, even when that error has cost you greatly.

It does not seem to be a service to be a parent, or a breadwinner, or any of the other myriad non-dramatic ways of living possible. What sets the spiritual seeker apart from one who simply lives in the mundane world without questions as to eternity, is that realization of the present moment as eternity, that ideal which says “I can have time spent with the infinite One, I can feel Its love and Its light. These experiences are meaningful to me.” This creates an atmosphere within of trust, so that one may gradually, gradually relax, and allow the rhythm of life, as you have planned it, to overtake you.

It is not well to pray and affirm in the attempt to control the life, because that which is upon the surface of your minds is as the tip of the iceberg, and those things which are deepest within take some time to express themselves through dreams, visions or instant realizations after ten years of work. Some entities move quickly, others more slowly and more surely. All that we suggest to each is that each remain within the integrity of the self, feeling the selfhood of the self, feeling the discrimination and the thought processes of the self, so that as one listens to all of life, whether it be the weather report, a symphony or a channeling such as this one, one is listening with an ear to pray for the lost, to rejoice with the joyful, to give thanks for those who have had blessing, and to console those who are wretched.

Any form of loving one another is that action which expresses what this instrument would call the Christ consciousness, that which is deeply buried within you, that with which you are to some extent acquainted, but perhaps more to the point, of being able to love without stint, to give without thinking, to spend all one’s energy, time, talent and what you call money, with the spiritual life central and in the mind.

It is possible to be of tremendous service while washing your dishes, for as one washes the dishes it is a waking meditation. The gestures are automatic, and it is possible in the meantime to be in a state of light meditation and listening, or in a state of contemplation, or in a state of intercessory prayer, where you are concerned for the health and the well-being of those you love. Thoughts are becoming things; your prayers are heard more than ever.

Then Q’uo said that everyone born on Earth at this time has planned the services that it wished to perform, and that what is in “front of your face” is your service whether it is seemingly great or small. They also said that if we see lessons occurring many times these are our services which we have learned to perform in one way or another whether it is “accepting the unacceptable, of forgiving the unforgivable, of loving the unlovable, of consoling the inconsolable, of pardoning one in error, even when that error has cost you greatly.” Q’uo also said that anything that we do with love is truly a service whether it is washing dishes, meditating, or praying for another. On April 26, 1992, Q’uo described how our desire to be of service is our service:

As you become aware or informed by wisdom, it may be that your service becomes more effective, but until one has the pure heartfelt desire to serve and to offer oneself in service at each opportunity available, wisdom is useless. The desire to serve is that which begins the process in a manner which is, in the overall sense, most effective. That your service may or may not be effective according to your estimation from what you call “hindsight” is relatively unimportant. The important factor is that the desire is generated to serve. This desire is that which you have incarnated to find and to nourish as the seedling which later becomes the great oak.

We find that it is unfortunate that entities who are upon the spiritual path that does not include orthodox religion, tend to wish that they may be of this or that service rather than allowing service to come to them. It will come; it has been planned. It may not seem dramatic or large or important, but the dish washed for the love of the one infinite Creator is a dish washed in a bath of love as well as soap and water, and that love radiates and lightens the consciousness of the planet. This is your greatest service, each of you, and you do it within the unmanifest being with no one to know, no drama, and no announcement of having done so.

You are working upon your evolution, and from third density forward all evolution is spiritual. Thusly, we would back up and look at how one may abide in faith, and have the patience, the persistence, and the faith to wait and do what there comes before the face to do. That, and that alone, for that instant, is all that is needed. It is never known to you when you have truly succeeded and when you have failed, nor is it important, for if you do anything for the love of the one infinite Creator, that radiant thought, however poorly the actions manifest, is a purely positive, loving and caring thought, and will add to the consciousness and the lightness of your sphere.

Entities within your culture are much bemused by gadgetry, much in love with foreign places, ambitious and restless and yearning, and thinking that what they hunger for is better money, a better position, more power, or more clout in some way. This is not the objective of living this particular incarnation in this particular density. You are attempting to drop that of yourself which does not seem to be loving, not in overcoming or repressing it, but by balancing it and understanding it within the self.

This is a difficult thing to do, painful for those with any sensitivity, for as you know, all of creation lies within you. You are all that is. Circumstances may have made it possible for you to move through the incarnation comfortably, or uncomfortable but honestly, or comfortably and dishonestly, or uncomfortable and dishonestly. Yet, within each and every situation, no matter how unpromising, lies that which may be a certain knowledge, a certain determined hope in that which is unseen, that the situation before one’s eyes is exactly what it should be, and, painful or wonderful, is giving you what you need to take in and work with as catalyst at this time.

Each upon this planet at this time had a hand in creating the life pattern. Once one has discovered the lesson that one has set oneself, it becomes easier to see tiny moment after tiny moment, and small detail after small detail take on an aura of the spiritual as one seeks within such situations to find a way to manifest love where there is no love, light where there is no light, and union where there was discord.

We may say, because each is aware, that each is a wanderer who has come to this planet at this time to be of service to those who are attempting to graduate, who are not able to accept the consolations of any organized religion. We do not claim to be a religion, a church, a dogma, or a doctrine. We are those who have had experiences with the Creator, who have grown closer and closer to the Creator, and who expect to have quite a way to go before we are able to dissolve once again in the ocean of unmanifest love. The cycle is as beautiful as the beating of a giant heart, and the fact that anything that one does could not be one’s service is to us improbable. Subjectively, one may feel that one has erred, made mistakes, been thoughtless, and so forth. It is well in those times to continue positive thinking, and move quickly towards a state of forgiveness of the self and of the one with whom there was conflict.

Then Q’uo said that most spiritual seekers want to know what their service is in a specific sense, but that is not necessary as whatever the seeker does, that is done in love, is a service to others and to the Creator. So Q’uo suggested that we simply abide in the faith that our service will come to us, and even though we may never know how well we offered our service, that it is only important that we offered it in love. They went on to say that we all have created our life patterns before this incarnation, and once we have discovered some portion of our lesson we will in some way offer light, love, and unity as our basic service. On March 18, 2017, Q’uo said that our pre-incarnative choices can manifest as our service in this life:

Your pre-incarnative choices have put a certain charge, shall we say, upon various kinds of catalyst that your subconscious mind shall guide to you during your incarnative experience, so that when you see this catalyst coming to you, you will respond in a certain fashion, hopefully, if you are in harmony and unity with your pre-incarnative choices.

Each of you has, perhaps, a handful of these lessons which you wish to learn during your incarnation. As you begin to learn these lessons more and more fully, and process them in the meditative state, so that the meditative state is able to seat the lesson within your being, then you are able to profit from this process, and you have increased your polarization in either service-to-others, or service-to-self, depending upon your choice, and we are sure that those here have chosen service-to-others.

Perhaps the second greatest service upon your planet at this time, or at any time in third density, is the responsibility of parenting young souls who know and seek the truth with childish lilting voices and squeals of laughter. This particular service is looked down upon by most as being the lot of the one who is too lazy to work. We find the concept ludicrous in that children and a home are a great deal of work. There is no boss, there is no judge, there is only the parent attempting to be of service to the young one. And we may say that it is our opinion that the most helpful thing spiritually in the service of raising children, for the children, is either to bring them to any organized religious group for interaction with people of their own age and teachers, or, and this is undoubtedly preferable to many, to create a worship service within the home that is done daily and without comment. Emphasis is not put upon such spiritual discipline; it is picked up by young children as that stress or emphasis which protests too much. Happy are the parents who are settled in peace together and who may sit in meditation or whatever form of spiritual practice is desired, each and every day for a short time. This moves into the child’s subconscious as that which is, and in our opinion this is the truth of that which is—that is, that the Creator is within everything.

It is impossible not to serve if one is loving the Creator while doing the service. At this time your planet is very polarized. Very positive entities gaze upon the havoc created by very negative ones, and negative entities gaze back at those who are polarizing towards the positive and see what this instrument would call “suckers.” We urge each, therefore, to allow those things to happen which happen, and to ponder them and ruminate on them, and even analyze them—if one is of an analytical turn of mind—at the end of each day, that one may remain clear, confident and calm, centered in the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. We know of no other way to explain to you the difference between your view of service and our view of service than to say that to us there is no lifetime lived that is not potentially a life of service if things within it are done with a love of the one infinite Creator and in the love of the one infinite Creator.

This is not easy medicine for entities to swallow. Wanderers especially are quite certain they have a mission. Indeed, the mission may be an humble one. There are no missions that are not humble. Some seem to be more than humble services because they are dramatic, such as this instrument as she speaks without knowing what word will come next. This is interesting to people, a tightrope act, and therefore dramatic. Will the instrument lose the contact? Will the acrobat fall off the slim, round, slippery wire upon which he is walking between the present moment and eternity?

You are here to bring light to a dark world. It is as simple as that. The purpose for which wanderers incarnated is all one—to love, and to love, and to love, and to love. You will be hurt, broken, humiliated and defeated in the course of a life in faith. It runs directly counter to the culture in which you live to do things for an ideal reason, to focus upon the Creator which is unseen rather than all of the phenomena, all of the gadgetry, all of the amusements that are so delightful upon the surface of life in your density. Be aware that even in those situations you may choose to be of service by moving constantly in an awareness of the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. But also, and most of all, be aware, we ask each, that non-dramatic service is as vital as dramatic service, just as the mouth of an entity speaks many things, but would not be able to function without each and every other organ of the physical vehicle, which must be kept in some sort of balance in order that one may manifest any gifts whatsoever.

Now Q’uo said that being a parent was one of the most important services that could be offered to the small child. They suggested that some form of daily meditation or worship be created by the parents, and then they would invite the children to participate. Then Q’uo repeated their belief that any act that is done in the love of the Creator is a true service. They said that we are here to bring light to a dark world, and that may be done in ways both great and small. On October 2, 1994, Q’uo said that any act done service of the Creator is a true service:

There are so many gifts, most of them quite unappreciated, such as the mothering, the parenting in general, the chores, the cooking, the cleaning, the driving. Each activity done by the whole self becomes a devotion, and the practicing of the presence of the infinite Creator becomes constant.

We may say that there is one thing that we would not advise in attempting to be of service and find one’s niche, and that is to attempt to control the process. The conscious mind has very little in it compared to the unconscious mind, in which lies the roots of mind and the Creator Itself, covered over and over by distortion, but there, perfect and whole nevertheless: each one’s true nature.

Now, we would suggest to this group, as it is doing somewhat advanced work, that it simply practice the presence as it moves about the daily activities, not berating the self every time one realizes one has not thought about the Creator for hours, but simply turning again and again to its simple ideal, the desire for the love of the infinite Creator, to love each other.

Almost any situation which seems difficult involves a lack or a loss of love. Hearts that are not opened to the love and the light of the infinite Creator can be mean and petty, hurtful and vicious, all in the name of service. Better it is that you do nothing but sit in one place and send love, than be active and confused, and somewhat negative as well as positive by desiring to control what happens to one.

For in the desire to help someone, there needs to be the realization that one must come to a halt within, and admit that one does not know all that there is to know about service to this entity, that one will need inspiration and intuition, so that one may call upon these deep resources of the self, which many call the higher self, the Holy Spirit, guardian angel, or inner planes master. All of these sorts of entities exist, the difference between them is only that of outer plane third density and inner plane third density. Those within the outer plane may come from other planes, those within the inner plane must have at one time been incarnate upon this particular sphere.

Thus, be aware, we ask you, [of] the service that you provide by your very consciousness, by your love of the sunlight and the dappled shades of autumn trees, by your love of the immensity of the universe and its noumenal mystery, by seeing life itself as sanctified, a blessing which oftentimes seems a most uncomfortable and inconvenient blessing.

Now, how shall you reach that point of faith where you refuse to accept that you are not of service and simply continue to be of service? As this instrument has said many times upon its own, due to its own experience with its intelligence, the intellect has almost no help to give a spiritual seeker, for those truths which will be helpful to one will be recognized from within as personal truths.

Thus, we urge each when listening to us, or any other spiritually oriented being speak, to discriminate carefully, not in terms of intellectual right and wrong and so forth, but in terms of the intuitional feeling of recognition or non-recognition of truth. Each has a different path.

This thing that is common to all paths in third density is that you are learning how to love and be loved. This is the foundation of a social memory complex which shall be your next lesson, that is, to see all that there is in each mind—and in each mind is the mind of the murderer, the rapist, the robber, the revolutionary, the despot—and yet accept the self and all others for the nature which has been given them in order that they might make choices with free will.

It is very important that there be negativity and difficult experiences that one may learn the humility of one who allows, observes and then acts, rather than reacts. To take the life into one’s own hands is not to take control of what one wishes by affirmations and prayers unceasing. It is rather to realize that the plan has already been made, the pattern has been set. It is the best pattern you and your higher self could create for you, and all that you need do this time is allow yourself to be upon the path upon which you are, keeping your eyes open, watching your feelings, finding ways to manifest love, the smile upon the street, the kind word to a stranger.

This instrument is asking us to allow this to end, however we wish to make one more point before we leave. The instrument itself was concerned with its many gifts and its lack of desire to use the gifts of creativity in an intellectual or physical manner, such as the music, the dancing, the criticism, and the creative writing. In fact, all of these gifts are being used in the life pattern. It is simply that the gifts are being used to support that one thing with which the channel has been concerned and involved within its entire life experience, that being the living in a poem, the making of a beautiful tapestry of a life as a gift to the one infinite Creator.

To complete their answer regarding how to be of service, Q’uo said that we should not try to control any situation as our means of determining what our service is but to practice the presence of the Creator and call upon those deeper resources of our subconscious mind–the Holy Spirit, angels, and guides–to give us the direction of our service when we are confused about how to serve another person. Q’uo said that if we continue to manifest love in our desire to serve others that is a “gift to the one infinite Creator”. On June 29, 1986, Hatonn had this advice for how we may best find our service:

We suggest to you that true happiness is often quite uncomfortable and yet so exhilarating that once having been experienced, it shall be the way you seek to manifest love. Love one another, my friends. Serve one another. And find your freedom, your joy, and your peace.

We would at this time transfer this contact, thanking the one known as Carla and the one known as Jim. We shall close the session through the one known as Jim. I leave this instrument in love and light. I am Q’uo.

This morning I got the chairs in the living room arranged for our public channeling meditation this afternoon. I also got the house phone and printer unplugged so that the meditation would not be interrupted by a ringing phone.

The channeling meditation began at 1 pm this afternoon with eleven folks in the circle, and it was a very inspirational group with such amazing spiritual stories to share in our round robin. And they were full of great questions for Q’uo which resulted in the channeling lasting for an hour and fourty-five minutes. I look forward to seeing each of the attendees again in future channeling meditations.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 25

Yesterday’s Faith

I am a particle of the love of Christ, the spirit sent forth to enliven the world which lies in darkness. I greet you in the consciousness of that love which is powerful enough to banish night.

Yesterday’s faith is not today’s, nor is hope for tomorrow a substitute for the present consciousness of redemption. If you seek to know the consciousness of love, seek in the here and now, not through memory or through desire for future good. For it is in the present moment that your darkness resides. It is the present darkness over which you have potential power, through the grace of Jesus Christ and through the love of love itself.

Know you not that seeking for light, even in a dark present, can at least crack open the gates of light? And for that slight, illumined crack of light, there is no price valuable enough to purchase so dear a thing! For only a little light, sought for and found, may illuminate all of your present darkness if you can but will it so.

Thus, do not depend upon your faith as if it were a constant thing, for, like food for the body, the nourishment of the soul, being light, must be taken daily, and, indeed, periodically within each day, that you may replenish the light within you which comes from another dimension.

From the dimension of peace, we wish you peace, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 15, 1989:

Pot luck.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, in whose service we come to answer your call this evening. May we say what a joy and blessing it is to us to enter your circle, and to aid in whatever way we may with the spiritual evolution of each, for, indeed, you do us a similar service by allowing us to serve you, for those who serve learn always more than those who receive. The teacher learns more than the student. Therefore, we are most grateful to you for continuing to be able to refine our understanding of compassion and wisdom. We find that we have been given a blank slate, a tabula rasa, this evening. It is good that the instrument is somewhat fatigued, for the sort of monologue which we would have through this instrument would perhaps be, shall we say, objected to if the instrument were less tired, for we shall touch on more than one subject.

We believe that we shall start with the general gaze at the nature of third density. If you could consider an ice that was not cold, but merely a skin over water, that is what your conscious mind is to the ocean of consciousness beneath the limen of consciousness. Those who yet have not asked what their purpose in life, or what their purpose in eternity might be, skate upon that thin covering, thinking that it is life. Indeed, it is a grand illusion, an illusion within an illusion many times. Why are you here? What do you wish for yourself? What is the truth? We have very simple answers, my friends, too simple for your questions, for the truth is so simple that it is difficult to accept. The truth is that there is one great original Thought which created the creation in order that It may know Itself better, and by the use of Free Will moved Love—that is, the One Great Original Thought—into manifestation as Light, and through the use of this substance, shall we say, or radiation, created all that you see outside of your physical eyes, all of it an illusion, and all of it designed to cause entities to make choices. Not simple and easy choices, like what to have for dinner, but the grand, major choice of this density, to serve others, in serving the one Creator, or to serve the self, realizing that the Creator is within.

We are not a service-to-self contact. We only teach service-to-others information. But we feel that we are speaking to a group who would wish only positive information, so we are satisfied that we are universal enough in our scope, but we did wish to mention that there are, indeed, two sides to the story of this particular sphere at this particular time, as each side, the positive and the negative, attempts to polarize itself to the point of being able to form a social memory complex and to make use of the denser and fuller light of fourth density.

This is the work in which each of you is engaged in one way or another. The choices are yours, and ofttimes distinctions are subtle, and difficult to judge accurately. This is acceptable, for within this density the whole idea is that you must work upon faith, that which is blind, as faith moves in many ways in the context of many wills, and no two entities follow the same path as they seek to form a polarity of service to others. But we encourage each at this time to realize that all those things which are outer within this illusion are in themselves illusions, that is, they are fields of energy, rather than the materialized objects which your physical eyes behold.

The nature of everything is consciousness. Thus, to move the focus of attention most well towards the one infinite Creator, it is well first to move the attention from the world of phenomena to the world of paradox and mystery, these two characteristics being the hallmarks of spiritual truth. Although the paradoxes are in later densities blended and unified, the essence of spirituality is an awareness of the absolute polarity of this density, and the dear necessity, the grateful necessity, of choosing and continuing to choose one path to the Creator.

For it is those who choose, those who risk, those who leap blindly in faith, those who will and hope, who move themselves in a most accelerated manner along the path of spiritual evolution. It is not those who seek this phenomenon and then that. This is what we may call the spiritual seeking, and each of the paths examined, it is well to examine. But in the end we ask that you consider very carefully the creation of your own system of faith. We do not ask that you believe in one or another story about the Creator. We ask only that you see yourself as a pilgrim on a very long road, that you see yourself in transit and know that the price that you pay for accelerating along spiritual evolutionary paths is discomfort and pain, because of the nature of the brain as opposed to the nature of consciousness.

The nature of the brain is such that when changes occur the programming of the biocomputer brain must be altered. This is a painful process. The old programs are, somewhat painfully perhaps, removed, and the energy created by that removal is used to form a new personal understanding or truth, and this crystallization of the self, the understanding of the self, its relation to the creation and the Creator, it moves, but it is difficult.

So we warn each seeker that the path is not a comfortable, joy-filled picnic at all times. There are the oasis times, there are the desert times. In terms of the dynamic of human personality it is necessary that these two basic states of consciousness follow each other seriatim, for there are truths to learn from mountaintop experiences, and there are the same sacred truths to learn when deep in the valley of mundane ordinariness.

Now, those who work upon themselves may find it easy to undervalue those who skate along the skin of life. Remember always that the universe is an utter metaphysical democracy, as all entities are portions of the one infinite Creator in its active principle, that is, the Creator is made up partially of its active principle, which is each entity with consciousness, each planetary entity, each sun entity.

There was no group question for this session, so the “potluck” choice was given to those of Q’uo to speak upon whatever subject they felt might be most helpful to those gathered for this public channeling meditation. Q’uo began with a basic description of the nature of third density as being an illusion in which our conscious minds have little information about the true nature of reality being created by the One Great Original Thought of Love, which used its Free Will to create Light, which created all that we can see. Then Q’uo said that this third-density creation exists for the purpose of helping us to make the choice between service to others and service to self, but that this creation is often confusing and difficult to navigate. This requires that we use faith to move through paradoxes and mystery that are basic tenets of the spiritual path of evolution that can, at times, provide the mountaintop experience of joy and also require us to experience the pain that comes with change. On April 26, 2008, Q’uo described the value of paradoxes and mystery:

At each instant of each of your lives upon planet Earth, infinity and eternity are as close to you as your breath; as near as your heartbeat. Each moment upon this seemingly solid earth and its seemingly mundane concerns can open up in an instant to reveal the stunning complexity, paradox and mystery of the infinity of the moment. Land falls away and the waters invite, encourage and attract the seeking heart to escape the island of consensus reality and plunge into the waters of the noumenal, the unknown, and the wondrous.

We would focus upon the crystallization of one’s will and one’s faith. The desires which are within each must be fulfilled before the entity is free to depart this illusion for another, more light-filled illusion to learn further lessons, all further lessons being the refinement of the choice made in this density. Thus, we ask that you be very careful of that which you desire, for you shall get it, and that before you may move on to the next density.

Therefore, a prerequisite to graduation from this density is to have done all those things which you wished to do, and have purified the desire to the point where that which you desire is to know the will of the Creator within. It is very difficult to know that will until one has worked with the self for some time. The process of daily meditation in a listening sense rather than creative visualizations, we feel, is central, for in listening to the silence within, passages are opened from the conscious to the subconscious mind, and voices may come upwards from the roots of the tree of mind and break through the threshold of consciousness and enhance and sustain the life experience.

Now, how should one go about this task and this joy? One may begin in many ways. But once one has settled upon a daily spiritual time, a daily spiritual routine, a daily spiritual practice of the presence of the one infinite Creator, then we suggest that you stop looking up and down the aisles of the supermarket of spiritual values, thoughts and phenomena, and to move into that leap of faith, acting upon that which moves you the most greatly of any inspiration, thoughts and ideals with which you may have come into contact. Then it is persistence and persistence alone that brings the results that you wish, meditation upon meditation upon meditation, not done any fancy way necessarily, done on the run, done when the clock strikes, done when the noon whistle sounds. Centering and calling for the presence of the one Creator, even momentarily, is a steadying and stabilizing experience, a part of the crystallization of a personality.

Now, we are aware that there is interest in crystals in this group this evening. The crystals are a large subject, and we do not wish to instruct you in them, as there are others far more able to speak, within the inner planes of your planet, than we. But let us say this, that without the entity becoming crystallized, the crystals are only rocks. The crystalline nature is that which may hold a metaphysical reality. Now, within the illusion you are not real, you are a personality shell. In order to become real to the self, in order to become conscious of one’s own self-consciousness, one must become conscious of the discipline of the personality, of the choices one is making, of the thoughts one is thinking, for the time is coming, more and more, when thoughts, especially negative things, move into manifestation with ease, there being much fourth-density energy already upon your planet.

The creation is a subjective thing. We have found nothing but illusion, and yet still we seek the one infinite Creator as we refine our path, as we become more rested, more trusting, more joyful, more relaxed and more intent upon a single-minded goal of practicing the presence of the infinite One. We find, as we have said, that we continue to find ourselves in the divine discomfort of learning, in the difficult and sometimes painful cleansing of the self of those idiosyncrasies which are not necessary and perhaps are seen [as] stumbling blocks to a continued, persistent and successful seeking to accelerate the rate of one’s spiritual growth.

That one may so accelerate this growth is so, else we would not be here. However, my friends, we cannot tell you that the work is all joy, all love, all ease and all merriment. When one is dealing with mystery, when one comes up against paradox after paradox, one can be fascinated, but never comfortable, in the ways of those heedless ones who feel that they are but hairless apes which are born and then are no more.

Each of you is a portion of the infinite Creator. Each of you is precisely equal—the murderer, the rapist, the saint, and the fool. For each of you has the entire constellation of possibilities within, and it has been with each a matter of choice after choice after choice as to how to live the life, how to serve the Creator, how to practice the presence of the Creator, and how to serve others, perhaps the most difficult question of all.

Now Q’uo began to talk about our use of will and faith to learn those lessons of third density that will allow us to move into the fourth density. They suggested that we create a spiritual practice of seeking to do the will of the Creator through daily meditations that allow us to move deeply into our subconscious mind where we can experience the presence of the Creator and crystallize our personality. Then Q’uo said that this process of growth can be difficult as we cleanse ourselves of unneeded patterns of behavior as a means of becoming more able to serve the Creator and to serve others as well. On January 11, 1987, Q’uo said that the use of will and faith could be our path to the love of the Creator:

Thusly prepared, the seeker may move through its incarnational experiences empowered by the faith that there is purpose and direction to the life pattern, and that that which comes before the seeker’s notice is appropriate and full of purpose and opportunity to learn and to serve. Thus, no matter what experience might find its way into the incarnational pattern, the seeker thus empowered by faith and the desire to learn and serve may look upon each experience as being yet another opportunity for the Creator to know Itself and to be served and glorified by the seeker that has the will and faith to penetrate the outer appearance of things and to find at their heart the love and the light of the one Creator.

We study this still. We have found that it is foolish of us to attempt to serve others before they request it. We heard you speaking of the individual that is voiced, “Yod-he-vau-heh,” or “Yahweh,” or “Jehovah.” This entity, which was a group entity and a guardian of this planet, a member of the Confederation, was extremely helpful in finalizing our code of ethics as regards this planet, for the plan to create improved, healthy human physical vehicles for souls turned from a plan which was focused upon entities being more able to move more quickly in spiritual growth and in service to others into a disaster where those who were somewhat superior mentally or physically simply became bellicose and worldly, moving away further and further from service to [others].

The quarantine upon your planet was therefore placed after this experience, and we may assure you that the positive entity, whose name was described Yod-he-vau-heh, moves still in this density attempting insofar as it may to correct the damage it has done.

However, it is human nature that in an apparently separate universe—that is, each entity being separate from each—many would feel that the best way to serve others is to become strong in oneself, and this is easily turned by the entity who is not careful into an absorbing self-interest which removes the entity from the mainstream of human suffering and joy.

It is well to be painfully and vulnerably in touch with the dynamics of this illusion, for the choice-making is easier in the face of the facts. The decision to jump into the thin air of faith is made possible only because of an ultimate grasp of the fact that we understand nothing. All ends in mystery, regardless of where you pick up the string of phenomena. The string always leads at last into the mobius ring of eternity. Truth recedes before the seeker like a carrot upon a stick.

If one is not careful one can create one’s own spiritual burnout. We suggest that the meditations be limited to perhaps no more than an hour per day, perhaps no more than a half hour at any one sitting. This is due to the fact that meditation is a very powerful tool, and the rate of change needs to be slow enough that the personality of your consciousness may have time to absorb knowledge and inspiration that it receives and make its choices in a timely and deliberate manner. It is not well to rush or to hurry the spiritual life, for the soul has its leisure, and in the fullness of time are things accomplished. It cannot be known within the illusion which day is the day of jubilee for one entity, and that is not important. To seek the happiness, the contentment, this is not important. To seek the presence of the infinite One, this is a great aid, and we suggest that we do this most gently, most lovingly, opening to the subconscious as a suitor with bouquet and candy, knowing the Spirit to be sweet and precious, the nature of Love.

When you are aware that there is that jewel within, that crystallized entity within, it then becomes the goal to find that center of self, to find who one is, what one wishes, and how one wishes to go about the process of one’s desires. Meditation is always most helpful, as is paying attention to the dreaming, which is a large part of the life of the deeper mind, and can constitute, in one who keeps a record of such things, an auxiliary report, auxiliary, that is, to your experience as perceived on a conscious level, for within the dreams those dynamics which may not be seen upon the surface, those feelings which may not be acknowledged or even known, move across the threshold of consciousness, and in some symbolic way express and manifest themselves. Thus, it is well to work with this material, as indeed perhaps one fourth to one third of one’s time is spent in this method of relaxation of the body complex and restoration of the spiritual complex.

Then Q’uo spoke of waiting until service was requested before offering it, and that meditation be used as a means of discovering the most steadfast and focused way of seeking the presence of the Creator. In this way our means of knowing who we are and what our service is may be manifested in our lives. Q’uo also said that working with our dreams was an effective way of becoming aware of messages from our deeper mind that may point the way of our spiritual path of service that we may express in a conscious fashion. On February 22, 2020, Q’uo suggested a way that we could work with our dreams:

Thus, when you feel the dreams that you speak of, look then to the heart of the dream within the meditative state to see what that dream is really speaking to you about. What does it represent? How literally can you take it? How symbolically should you take it? Use your intuition and your intelligence together to fashion a kind of response that then perhaps may be able to become a query that you ask your higher self in meditation or in dreams to make a response to.

If you are successful in convincing your higher self of the need for this information, then there will be transmitted to you what you may call a download which reveals the steps necessary to take in order to make such dreams come true. If you find, however, that there is some sort of blockage that stops you from realizing these particular dreams, do not be concerned overmuch, in that such blockages may show you a path to the realization of the dream that may present themselves at the appropriate time. Each thing occurs for each seeker at the appropriate time when the seeker is ready, as it appears you are now.

We feel that we have spoken to those things that are most upon the minds of those present, in a general way, and although we could move on and speak of many things, we are aware that each within the group is fatigued, and so we would at this time thank each for its attention to us. We wish each to know that we are your brothers and sisters. We are on the same path. We have moved further along this path and we study the lessons of wisdom. We are those of fifth density, yet still we have, in order to experience that which aids us in accelerating our spiritual growth, a physical vehicle of a kind, which requires nourishment, companionship and the fulfillment of its nature. What is your true nature? Seek this, seek to know it well, for it is the one who knows who he is in no uncertain terms that may move into the world of discarnate entities, and be an equal among equals.

It is most unfortunate that many of your peoples feel that they must be overcome by a greater power. The great power lies within each. It is simply a matter of choosing to seek the highest and best of that power. This is not done in a day; this is sometimes not done in a lifetime, but for all the difficulties of the spiritual path, shall we say, of hard knocks, there is the joy of companionship, the joy of learning, the joy of experiencing immediately the love and the light of the one infinite Creator. These are the oasis times, these are the sweet honey times that sustain one through the next dry and bleak period within the life experience. Back and forth each entity goes, for there is much to be learned from both frames of mind, especially if an entity can begin to focus upon difficult situations as challenges, a kind of game in which one attempts to find the love hidden in the situation at hand. When one once sees and is able to grasp the principle involved in the lesson being learned, either by analysis or intuition, one may then simply will to complete that lesson.

So you see, all phenomena are corollary to the great work of consciousness itself, the disciplining of the human personality, the encouragement of the greater Self within, the encouragement of its being able to speak in many different ways through the subconsciousness to the conscious mind, always this produces the longer view, the more compassionate and wise point of view, for always one begins to see the pettiness of one’s concerns and the overwhelming importance of love.

This instrument requests…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

We shall continue, leaving this instrument. We discover that this instrument has tried very hard to get below forty-five minutes, but we have outfoxed her once again. We are most apologetic, we really have not the sense of time that we would need to be able to limit our sessions as to time. We are simply able to limit them by the strength of the group energy, and this normally is that which this instrument would call long-winded. We hope we have not bored you. We hope you realize that all truths are personal. That which is your personal truth you shall recognize. There shall be no struggle, you shall simply say, “Yes, I knew that, I remember that,” and that is your truth, for however long it is your truth. Some truths are larger than others, some are fleeting, none are permanent except unity.

We would now leave this instrument, asking each to continue the daily, faithful, moderate meditation, the centering whenever possible, momentarily within the presence of the one infinite Creator, that the intersection of eternity and present moment may work its magic through you that you may bring eternity into the lives of those about you.

We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, that this entity may conclude the session this evening. We thank this instrument and the one known as Jim also, both of whom are somewhat fatigued. We are most grateful for the willingness to be open to us, and we thank each for the service it offers us and for the call itself which is a great blessing to us. We are those known to you as Q’uo. We shall at this time transfer to the one known as Jim.

This morning I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow the Ginko Tree leaves in the back yard into a pile, and then I put those leaves into four garbage cans to be picked up by yard waste. Then I ran some errands with my first stop at Feeder’s Supply to buy more bird seed and some treats for Bosco. My second stop was at Paul’s Fruit Market to buy some food for myself. My third stop was at the vet’s to pick up some meds for Bosco.

This afternoon I vacuumed the first floor of the house and also did a load of laundry.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 24

Trust That Within You

I am the spirit of the living God. I greet you in the full consciousness of the love of Jesus the Christ.

The difficulty which living within the physical shell of the body creates in understanding that the spiritual path is a path of plenty and light is that the outer circumstances of the path of light seem anything but comfortable.

There is truly a narrow path whereby one may maintain contact within the self with the spirit which enlivens all things. It is best not to look for evidence of the spirit’s work within men and within the world but, rather, faithfully to rest in the trust you have in that which is unseen but which has been as a beneficent wind moving across and guiding your voyage of seeking and discovery.

Those attitudes allow one to become aware of the simple joy available to one who is not limited by the definitions of self which the limitations of the body seem to impose. Accept and respect that within you which is moved by the spirit. And listen to the inner voice as to an honored guest.

We leave you in the peace of this process of living by faith, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 8, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. It is our privilege at this time to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to those queries which may yet remain upon the minds of those present. Again, may we remind you that we speak those opinions which we have found useful in our own journey. We do not wish our words to be accepted without discrimination upon your parts. Is there a query with which we may begin?

T: Yes, I have a question, or something I’d like to say. I’d like you to comment on it. I try to get an answer from myself or from within—you said earlier, there usually comes a point where you just feel it’s right, when you know that this is right, and coming to accept this as a valid answer, or a safe answer, or however you want to say it—so therefore I trust it when it just feels right, and I believe I understood you to say earlier that this was the criteria that we should use when judging an answer or getting an answer. Could you comment on that, please?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. The image that we give this instrument is that of the garden. This is an interior garden. There awaits in this garden many flowers, shall we say, that have been sown by the seeds of your desire, your interest, and the direction of your seeking. As you seek those answers from within, it is as though you continue to water this garden, and as you seek the specific direction of that inner voice you are accomplishing the same thing as though you were to pluck the flower from that garden.

Thus, by your own desire and your persistence you have tended this garden, and it provides you with those answers which are helpful in your daily round of activities as you call upon the inner garden for the beauty and the fragrance of the flowers whose seeds you have sown. In short, my brother, we affirm the query which you have presented to us.

T asked if he seeks answers from within himself if his feeling of the rightness of the answer is enough for him to accept it as being correct. Q’uo said that his assumption was correct and used the analogy of a garden within T that had many flowers that have been sown by T as he has traveled his spiritual path. Q’uo went on to say that his desire to know how to continue to follow this path was like watering the garden and each seeking provided another flower on his spiritual path. On April 21, 1995, Q’uo said that seeking for answers from within us is a way we can enhance our spiritual growth and also that of others:

We would suggest to each that as you continue your own seeking within in order to untangle those knots of confusion and to balance the distortions from light that you aid this process greatly, and as you witness to this process to those about you in your daily round of activities there is much beneficial effect also given with this simple interchange and interplay of energies between entities.

Is there a further query, my brother?

T: No, thank you, that’s a very nice way of saying it. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

S: Yes, Q’uo. We are sometimes accustomed to distinguish [inaudible] energy between that portion which is manifest and that portion called the Godhead which is not manifest. I understand that we belong to the divinity, each in a unique way. This belonging is experienced by us in manifestation. What I would like to understand, explore, is the respect in which the manifestation of divinity is motivated within the Godhead Itself and to understand the sense in which factors such as emergence of will and desire come into play from within the Godhead.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. This is a large and most interesting field which you have chosen for your query, and for the sake of clarity we shall attempt to be brief rather than to explore in depth this field. Within that entity or quality which you have called the Godhead there exists a desire. That desire is to know the nature of that which you have called the Godhead, to know the nature of that great Self, to know the Source that is unmanifested from which that which is manifested springs, to know the possibilities of that which is manifest, to know if there is any boundary to that which is possible within manifestation, to explore as an adventurer that vast plenum of manifestation.

This desire is that same desire which moves in each particle and portion of the manifested creation and, indeed, moves in a freely chosen and intelligent manner in each entity such as yourself and all within the third-density illusion in which the mind, the body, and the spirit first are joined in this great journey of seeking. Thus, that sense of yearning to know is that quality which one may call the will. Thus, that which has no form or manifestation of any kind has provided the spark of desire, of will, that enlivens and enables that which is manifest, that there might be this great exploration of the nature of all that is, and that each portion of all that is might partake in this journey of seeking.

S wanted to know how “the manifestation of divinity is motivated within the Godhead Itself and to understand the sense in which factors such as emergence of will and desire come into play from within the Godhead” for him. Q’uo began their answer by saying that the Godhead principle, which comes from that which is unmanifest, has a yearning to know Itself, and It exercises this faculty of will through all portions of the creation and in each manifested entity such as S, and each manifested entity also desires to know itself. In 27.8-.9, Ra described how this process works:

Questioner: Now, I understand that the first distortion of intelligent infinity is the distortion of what we call free will. Can you give me a definition of this distortion?

Ra: I am Ra. In this distortion of the Law of One it is recognized that the Creator will know Itself.

Questioner: Then am I correct then in assuming that the Creator will know Itself the Creator, then grants for this knowing the concept of freedom— total freedom of choice in the ways of knowing? Am I correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is quite correct.

May we speak further, my brother?

S: There is one point I would like to look at more closely, and this has to do with the way our seeking fits into the experience of the Godhead. From where I stand now there seems to be an ambiguity between an understanding I have that the one infinite Creator has begotten me, and the sense in which I feel a kind of self-origination out of a desire within the Godhead. As I find my way back slowly and through the densities to the Godhead, it is important to find my way back to the specific place of my origin. Is that why one is so scrupulous to attending to one’s biases?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. We shall take your phrase, “the place of your origin” not to be a specific location, for, indeed, you are from all places, but to be that frame of mind or attitude of unity from which each portion of the one Creator springs, and, indeed, this is true, my brother, for each entity has begun in total unity as an unpolarized and undifferentiated particle of that one great original Thought of Love which has set all creation in motion. Each entity, therefore, finds its uniqueness in the means by which it is able to refine and define this unity from a perspective born of experience that becomes of necessity unique, for as each portion of the creation that becomes intelligent and self-conscious does so, its experience is at variance to some degree from the experience of any other portion of the creation, for the hallmark of an infinite Creator, my brother, is variety. By the free will choices that are possible to each portion of the creation, there is seen an infinity of possibility for each portion of the creation.

Thus does each entity such as yourself move in a rhythm that partakes of the great heartbeat of the universe, moving outward and outward, gathering experience, turning that experience into the power to serve, to love, to glorify the one Creator, and to continue on the journey, moving then back again to that place of unity from which all this began, having now gained the experience of moving through the cycles of creation. Thus, you are in microcosm the one Creator that has come to know Itself as you are now, and shall come to know Itself as all that is.

S asked about how his seeking fit into the experience of the Godhead, or Creator, in knowing Itself. He was wondering if, in his journey through the densities, he needed to return to his specific place of origin. Q’uo began their response by saying that S’s place of origin was that of coming from a place of “total unity as an unpolarized and undifferentiated particle of that one great original Thought of Love which has set all creation in motion.” Q’uo went on to say that as S moved through the densities of experience he would create a unique identity that could serve and glorify the Creator and he would eventually rejoin the one Creator that has come to know Itself as all that there is. On August 31, 1986, Latwii described how this process of reunification with the Creator is accomplished:

I am Latwii, and indeed this is so, my brother, for each seeker of truth has discovered in one way or another that that which may be seen as the stream of consciousness is without beginning and without end, and moves in many ways throughout all of the one infinite creation. The one creation is held in its place by that one Thought of Love, given birth ageless eons ago by the one Creator, that the one Creator might, through the movement of various portions of Its own Love, come to know Itself in ways not available to It without such division of Itself into the infinite portions and expressions of Love that move throughout this same creation in order that each portion may come to know itself by gaining the experience of evolution in a unique fashion that will, at its culmination, bring the harvest of experience to the one Creator, that all may again know the heart of being as Love, and may continue the process of movement and growth and seeking and gaining the experience that will reveal each portion of the Creator to each portion of the Creator as the one Creator.

Is there a further query, my brother?

S: No, thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and again we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: I have one. In analyzing what I can remember of what I channeled, I was struck mostly by, well, in the past there has been a lot of emphasis on two things: faith and will, will and faith. Now thinking about the guru trip, the trip of inner-planes masters, incarnate or discarnate, and thinking that perhaps although there is much faith, the will is given over to a teacher that is perceived as apart from the self, and that teacher interacts with the student, and the student becomes able to deal with fourth density light, but it has not honed its faith. In other words, it thinks it knows something.

Whereas, the person who walks the road of spiritual principles and, shall we say, the hard school of knocks of life, instead of the ivory tower of talking with an inner-planes master, who has chosen to live the truth rather than study the truth, and because of that the only thing that moves one through experience is faith, and sooner or later it must be grasped by any one hopeful enough to continue to exist.

So, that is why you recommend working things out within your experience without undue attention to any opinion but your own, and that is because faith does not depend on facts or proofs or anything that is known, but faith just is faith that all is well and all is one with the infinite Creator. Could you comment on that? I thought it was kind of an important thought.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We shall attempt to speak to this point. It is difficult to generalize with accuracy in the manner which you have described, for with any teacher or student there is the likelihood that there will be anomalistic experience, that which deviates from the norm.

There are many teachers of the origin of inner planes that work with specific beliefs as you have noted. There are many students who work either with a teacher or alone who also work diligently upon the nature of beliefs and the power of the mind to affect not only one’s behavior but one’s ability to move along the spiritual path, shall we say. Whether one works with belief and concentrates little upon faith, or whether one works greatly with faith in that which is unseen and little upon belief, there is within your illusion a quality built in, shall we say, in which all efforts shall both fall short of the mark and shall produce some fruit.

The quality that we find most helpful to any student in whatever way the journey has been fashioned by that student, is the tandem, shall we say, use of will and faith. The desire to know, to grow, and to serve must be strong, and there must be the faith that such is possible, and we find that whether one has focused upon belief in certain principles, rituals or concepts, or has focused upon the direct application of faith, it is yet this quality of faith powered by the will, the desire, that is functioning either consciously or subconsciously, for each student has chosen—and in this sense we speak of those who are consciously seeking—to move the self upon the path of seeking to know in a way which implies and requires the exercise of faith in something, whether that something be a set of beliefs, a guru or teacher that personifies certain qualities, or whether it is indeed the faith itself, the faith that all entities share an origin, a journey, and a destination, and the surety that all is indeed well throughout the process of evolution.

Carla asked about the concepts of will and faith and felt that the inner planes masters require that the will of the student be given over to the master whereas Q’uo had recommended that the student exercise its own will as it moved through its life experience with the faith that all would be well, and Carla asked for Q’uo’s comments on her thoughts. Q’uo said that there was a variety of possibilities that applied to both working with an inner planes master and following one’s own will. They said that some seekers might combine these two paths, and there could be instances of both successes and failures on both paths. Then Q’uo said that they felt that the use of will and faith was the crucial element for the seeker whether it was faith in certain rituals or beliefs or faith in the personal spiritual journey that all will be well on that journey. On March 7, 2020, Q’uo explained how faith and will can help us move forward on our spiritual journeys:

The faith that all shall work out fine is that which is the foundation stone upon which each seeker may build the spiritual journey, for there are no mistakes for any spiritual seeker. Each seeker grows and changes according to an individual rhythm of expression of intelligent energy or the light of the One Creator. Each seeker has the opportunity and the ability to accelerate this path or type of movement along the spiritual journey as it becomes more aware of how faith and will can use the moment to grow. Each moment is pregnant with possibilities. Each moment has a variety of layers of opportunity that can be utilized, if the will of the seeker is strong enough to investigate beyond previous investigations.

If the desire, the will, and the faith are utilized by the seeker in a conscious fashion (so that there is the potential for greater growth, and is seen by the seeker to be a potential that resides within its own being), then the seeker can take this faith, this desire, this will, and apply it to any present moment. Then the fruits of the moment may be more evident to the seeker and the seeker will not only be fed physically in a manner which propels the body forward, but can be fed spiritually, mentally, and emotionally in a similar fashion, so that there is food aplenty for each portion of the seeker’s spiritual anatomy, shall we say. Thus, the seeker itself can determine the rate of progress in its own spiritual journey, according to how it applies its desire and its will, encompassed within the larger facility of faith.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

Carla: Well that’s very eloquent, it’s just that I feel rather strongly that the organized religions, if you should take them literally, or take any body of teaching literally, or any spirit guide, following its directions literally impacts the will, and that’s why I was saying that faith seems to have ascendancy over belief in being a good tool, because faith isn’t faith in anything, it’s just faith. If there’s no further comment from you, than that was just—I thought that thinking for yourself and seeking your path did more to improve the strength of the will than the path of accepting that which a teacher has to say without question.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister, and we would further comment by suggesting that it is indeed the most frequently noted experience that the organized, as you have called them, religions do seem after a period of time to solidify the tenets of the faith or of the belief so that there is a more narrow path that is permissible to walk upon.

However, given this limitation of the hardening of the viewpoint and the narrowing of the viewpoint, there is ever available within each system of beliefs a path which is straight and true for those followers whose faith has remained unblemished and whose ability to awaken compassion within the beingness has ripened, shall we say, and has found a means of manifesting within the daily life.

We would agree that the hardening of the beliefs provides a difficulty for those entities who do not take upon themselves the responsibility of making those discriminations and interpretations and applications of the belief which will allow the awakening of compassion.

May we speak in any further sense, my sister?

Carla: No, I thought that was very enlightening. Thanks a lot.

I am Q’uo, and we again thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

R: There is one other small, humble question. I get many sounds, and I wish your comment on these sounds. [Inaudible] before.

I am Q’uo, and we must apologize, my sister, for being shy of information in this regard, for we find that if we were to speak in this way we would be infringing upon a process of inner growth which is in our opinion most beneficially aided by your own efforts. There is a line across which we do not desire to move, and that is the infringement upon an entity’s free will when there is the process of inspiration occurring that is of an inner nature which must be discovered by the student without the teacher, shall we say, giving hints for the homework.

Is there another query, my sister?

R: That was [inaudible]. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Carla: I guess we’re through, Q’uo. Thank you so much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank each for allowing our presence this evening. It was a great honor to be able to blend our vibrations with yours and to walk with you upon your journey of seeking, which is indeed the same journey upon which we move as well. We take a delight in being able to give voice to our concepts and hope that we have been able to share some portion of our journey with you that might be of service to you. Again, we request that you apply your own discrimination rigorously upon those words which we have been privileged to share with you this evening.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends.

This morning I removed the screen door in the hall on the first floor that leads upstairs as it is really not needed since there is a second door at the top of the stairs that can keep my feral cat,  Benny, from coming downstairs.

This afternoon I went outside and gave my big mower, Venus, the usual season-ending cleanup since there are only a few leaves left to come down from the Ginko trees in the back yard that I will put into garbage cans instead of mulching them.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 23

Your Vessel Of Dust

I am of the principle of the consciousness of Jesus the Christ and I greet you in divine love.

You have seen yourself as a boat upon the river of life, being blown to and fro by forces which you cannot control. The spirit within you asks you to enlarge your vision, deepen your understanding, and share yourself, not with any frail craft but with the illimitable ocean which is your true nature.

It is the illusion of wood and sail, the illusion of tides and winds which make one feel apart from the nourishing water which supports and upholds life. Think now of this productive image. The wood dissolves. The sails disappear. And that most frail vessel of the physical body is released. At last the seeker becomes one with the sea within which lies wholeness of life.

This is water which the soul breathes. This is wholeness which the body mistakenly denies. Know that you are one with that which feeds, nourishes and sustains your spirit. Know that you are not limited but are only a drop of the sea of consciousness which moves sometimes into a vessel of dust, that it may be fruitful, just as raindrops mold themselves about the dust within the atmosphere and thus fall down to nourish the crops that feed your world.

We leave you flowing freely and endlessly in the peace of the ever-moving water which is the consciousness of love, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 8, 1989:

We have a two-pronged question this evening, the first portion being, is there any additional way in which entities of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator, such as we contact in our group, can expand their contact with us and their teaching to us? For example, the inner-planes masters frequently take entities to other densities, or to other areas within the inner planes where [there are] experiences that are especially helpful to them. And then, once we have gathered information from whatever source, whether it be from the inner planes, from a guide, from a book, from a channeling, from a friend, or from whomever, how can we further put that information to work in our lives and produce more of the spiritual fruit, and the evolution of mind, body and spirit and the service to others that we have come here to accomplish?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. We are very pleased to be speaking through this instrument. We wished this instrument to reach a deeper state of meditation after the instrument was satisfied it had challenged us properly. We feel the instrument is now ready to proceed. We wish you a most happy and blessed evening together. It is our privilege to be called to this circle of seeking. We come in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Our gratitude for your allowing us to share our opinions with you is great. It is you who help us, as any teacher may understand, for we learn, slowly but surely, truly how to understand and have compassion, truly how to temper that compassion with wisdom, by gazing at those who are going through what we may call the fire of decision. Yours is a stressful time, as you would say. It is so for a purpose.

We would now move to the question that has been asked. We of Q’uo are those of what may be called outer plane principles. That is, we have had the experience of working as a social memory complex, and we have chosen as one to move back to a density in which our humble opinions may be of value. That which we may offer is limited by the steel boundaries of free will. We may offer to you principles that are spiritual; we may attempt to contrive resources and tools for you to learn. But that which we do is as you surmised earlier, governed by a counsel which has found no single happening of that which was intended coming from a service-to-others physical appearance. It is always an infringement upon free will.

Consequently, we speak with you as those who love and those who wish to serve, and you serve us as you listen and consider. Please consider always that our opinions are finite. We do not have the knowledge of the one infinite Creator. We are merely a little further along on a path which is as dusty to us as it is to you, and as joyful.

Let us speak about the inner-planes masters, so called. These are entities which have personally evolved to be harvestable to fourth density who have instead chosen to remain discarnate and to turn back and aid those of third density. These entities are creatures of your illusion which have moved to larger life and are able to see, shall we say, the tree of consciousness down to its roots and up to its loftiest branches. They are out of the illusion, but they have not had the experience of the higher densities by working with a social memory complex. It is, shall we say, a choice. There are service-to-others and service-to-self entities within your inner planes. There are very wise ones within your inner planes. They have done very, very difficult work, and they are to be commended. However, they have halted their own learning process, turning back to aid, and knowing only that which has been realized within the incarnation that makes the entity at the time of the physical death able to move into fourth-density light.

We have chosen, shall we say, a path with a broader vision. It may be said, perhaps, that we have chosen to love the Creator more than we love those to whom we speak, whereas the inner-planes masters love their students more than they love themselves, for they are unable to progress while still within the inner planes of third density. They are, however, able to give very, very good advice and to speak to specific matters that on our part would be an infringement of free will.

No, we cannot come among you. That which we know of the service-to-others path is enough to allow us to have concluded that the most effective way to aid humankind in this third-density illusion is to speak to spiritual principles with a long view, a point of view that is far away from yours in time and space, if you wish to use those terms. We look at thousands of years, while inner masters speak to the daily needs of their students.

Each path of seeking among your peoples is acceptable. Those upon the inner planes have done the equivalent of crucifixion. They have not risen; they have not moved on. They have loved their brothers, and have so great a compassion that they stay within discarnate third density, and attempt to be of service to their brothers and sisters. We have chosen to learn to be, knowing that eventually we would be able to be of service by our being, and at this point in our development we have also conceived of the project of speaking with groups such as yours, and this has passed the Council, obviously, or this instrument who challenges so fiercely would not be speaking.

It is acceptable to seek the Creator either through the inner-planes masters, or through those such as ourselves who attempt to offer a cosmology and some tools and resources for entering into that which is infinite and unknown. This instrument would call it the noumenal. It is our feeling that as we seek the Creator and learn more and more within the social memory complex experience, we learn to become able to serve in such a way that we learn; and so our service is our learning, and all that we offer comes back to us a hundred and a thousand-fold.

The apparent difficulty, from the standpoint of an inner-planes entity, is that any kind of physical apparatus, even light bodies, must be maintained. The consciousness must be housed. We are uncomfortable; we have our catalyst; we are attempting to refine our understanding of the ways of wisdom. Learning is always less than comfortable. The inner-planes masters have the realization which they have achieved, and they are very comfortable, for they are only consciousness, and because they once stood upon the same planet as you, they may, through a materialization medium, come to you and speak specifically to you.

There are those who need the daily touch, the intimacy, the ability to converse, of the inner-planes master or guide. A large percentage of your planet’s entities choose this method of seeking. Let us say that the teacher known as Jesus the Christ offered a clearer view, that is, a longer view, of the purpose of the choice-making density, by living a parable, which may be seen to be that which explains that the one who is the greatest is the one who has chosen to be a servant, that the one who is most centered and conscious is the one who moves to the least comfortable position so that others may have the comfort.

You all wish to be service-to-others entities, and, as of this evening, you have chosen to work upon the way itself; not upon the answers, but upon the questions. It is our honest belief, from this point of view, that the questions are far more important than the answers that this instrument prizes. The point of the path of seeking is evolution, and a movement towards unity, not through experiencing the self as the Creator, but in experiencing the Creator through the self. That is, we see in each of you the Creator. We see the patterns of distortions that you have woven about the tapestry of your life so far. We can see the incarnational pattern, the learning of love that you are doing, and the integrity and sincerity and intensity of your intention to seek the truth. This is what makes the call that reaches the tuned ear.

Those who seek from inner-planes masters are often of, shall we say, an entirely different planetary origin, and find the need of inner-planes masters or guides because they are unwilling or unable to work within third density, within the prison of the flesh, within the additional prison of the brain, towards realization within the illusion, towards a penetration of the illusion from within the midst of that illusion. This is interesting to us.

We encourage people to take a long view. It is our honest belief that it is better to continue learning to be, and then, as a side product, being able to serve, than to turn one’s back on one’s own evolution, and sacrifice and martyr oneself within the inner planes in service to beloved students. This is only our opinion. There are very many service-to-others oriented, positively polarized and excellent inner-planes beings, some of which you are aware. We find within this group a very burning desire to move on, to progress in evolution, knowing that service to others will be the natural byproduct of the sacrifice of comfort, the sacrifice of freedom, in the sense of having to have a physical vehicle and a place to be.

You see, my friends, consciousness is not as you feel that it is. It is not the thinking; it is not the doing. The closest we may come to the essence of consciousness is purified emotion. There lies your wisdom. That which inhabits your brain, that which is given you within this illusion, is by and large that given for the making of choices, this being the density of choice. Much as a computer answers a question “yes” or “no,” time and again, to come up with any number of informations, so too does the mind choose what it will perceive, and then arrange that perception according to the distortions of its own biases and understandings.

We suggest that whatever a person has found its path to lead it to at this time, that it is well to follow the heart, the preference, the bias, not to move from one way of seeking, such as inner-planes masters, such as speaking with those of us of the Confederation. It is a free choice, and good information comes from both, if the channel be pure.

There were two basic group questions for this session, and the first one was: Could any social memory complexes of the Confederation interact with us as inner planes masters do by taking us to some of the inner planes of Earth and having experiences there. Q’uo began their answer by saying that their ability to interact with entities on our Earth is limited by their need to respect free will and not interact in person as this has never been approved by the Council of Saturn. However, Q’uo said that the masters of the inner planes are graduates of third density who have chosen, not to go on to fourth density, but to remain within the inner planes to offer experiences to aid the spiritual seeker on its journey of learning. Q’uo said that, as Confederation members, their service to us was to speak to us in words and concepts that reveal a larger point of view to give us tools to work with to help us evolve spiritually. Q’uo recommended that the spiritual seeker follow its heart in deciding which of these types of paths to follow as good information can come from both if the channel is pure. On October 29, 1989, Q’uo gave examples of a number of kinds of inner planes masters who may contact the seeker of truth:

All inner planes entities are those who have incarnated, lived and offered much upon your Earth’s sphere. Many of them are extremely wise, some of them are mischievous, and some, within the lower astral planes, are most disturbing. However, if one learns from a teacher rather than from one’s own heart, one is forever dependent upon that teacher to be without the feet of clay. All entities have the feet of clay, not only in your environment of third density but as one moves on. Of course, that which one does not desire becomes more and more refined in its removal so that where, at first, one took large chunks of the being that did not aid the self and held them upward to the Creator saying, “Take these, these are no longer my personal truths,” then one may get on with the business of paying attention to, blessing, nourishing and loving the self. This is the fundamental heart of service to others.

Now we would tackle the question of how you may be aided more by our beingness. We are parables; we are exemplars. We do not teach, we are the catalyst for teaching. We are the voice of the infinite One, and we speak with vast perspective, compared to your own. Yet we are called to very specific vibrations, such as this group’s. Inner-planes masters are called to individuals. They may be channeled to others, but they are in essence entities which belong to one person alone, or one person which belongs to one entity alone, depending upon the polarization of the contact.

Humankind has for all of written history, this instrument would say, tried to become wise. It has written billions and billions of words in many, many languages. It has thought many thoughts, and proposed many proposals concerning the way things really are. Mankind has struggled to learn, to evolve, to believe in something that is real. There is a difficulty with that. Nothing is real. All that you experience, including your own personality, is illusion, shadow and distortion.

It is our belief that because of our longer point of view we are able to serve you in a way that is different than the inner-planes master, and it is our belief that you are in a position to serve yourself in a way that is different from inner-planes guidance, and that is by the conscious use of spiritual principles in living the very uncomfortable life of one who is attempting, while in, shall we say, marine boot camp, to work twice as hard as the other entities who are grabbing the gusto, the bowling balls, and the beer. Those of you who hear my words and seek to help others are those who have chosen the dusty path, the path of sacrifice, the path of discomfort, of woes and troubles and problems. You have chosen to expose yourself to all that is in whatever form you may experience it, be vulnerable to it, be open to it, and attempt to learn from it, by the conscious use of spiritual principles.

Now, spiritual principles end always in two things: paradox and mystery. Consequently, it is the entity who seeks with a literal mind who seeks the inner-planes masters. It is more often the mystic, the poet, or, shall we say, the wanderer type, who is interested in the abstract principles which theoretically govern a living world of reality. Within your own life, then, you may devalue certain aspects of the brain’s limitations of choice, and realize that beyond the veil of the inner being, if one is careful, and like a lover searches for the self, the heart of the self, and the heart of passion, that one may find, little by little, the self, amidst all the variousness of free will, and may begin by will and intent, consciously to change the polarity, to evolve spiritually, not because there is a guide who may speak to you each day, and tell you what to do, but because you are upon a quest. You are in search of an unfathomable mystery. That mystery is love. You have only one tool at the beginning of that great search, that dusty, infinite walk, and that is your intent, your desire, your seeking. The one known as Jesus the Christ said, “Seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you.” This is inestimably true on many, many levels. Be very careful of that for which you desire, as it will come to you. Be sure of your desires; have the purity to know and examine the self.

Thus, we are suggesting to you that what we can do as beings is teach you that it is perhaps, although seemingly a choice of selfishness, [better] to move on and learn more, and not to stay behind in the inner planes and help students. It is better to go on, seeking, asking, being an entity with personality, which means that one has not yet approached the heart of the Creator. It is possible with inner guides masters to experience egolessness, personlessness and nonbeing. It is possible to have great realizations beneath the threshold of the conscious mind, and to allow one’s being to be moved by whatever intuition those realizations produce.

Eventually, each inner-planes master will decide to move on, for the will to evolve is so much a part of the nature of the active principle of the Creator that it cannot be forever denied. The inner-planes ones must take up their staffs at some point, must take upon themselves manifestation and learn more, refine that choice, that understanding, that realization, more and more, until that which is called free will is found to be the desire to serve, that is the free will. When the free will and the desire to serve the one infinite Creator [are one]—this instrument would say the “not my will but Thine” syndrome—then the entity is most prepared to take full advantage of the experience which this dance upon planet Earth at this time offers.

You do not need to be other directed. We give you these words hoping for inspiration and information, but without hope that any will have any particular reaction to our words. We give them to you as opinion. We expect that you will take what is useful to you and forget the rest. This is excellent; this is the way it should be, for those who are conscious teach themselves by the catalyst of gazing into the face of the Creator, in each other, in us, and in the self.

Take the long view, my friends. Find the lightness of heart that this gives you, the balance of opinion, and the thoughtfulness, and eventually, the faith that it offers. [For when there is no reason to anything within the illusion, then it is that that which is mysterious outside of the illusion has the only possibility of being real.] Gaze at that pontificated reality, and realize that that reality, that mystery, is love, an energy indescribable. The infinite intelligence of the one Creator is love, unpotentiated, unpolarized, unaware. It merely loves. The active principle of free will is chosen again and again by the Creator, Who chooses to make a creation and form active principles of Itself that It may learn of Its own nature. We already know the answer: the nature of the Creator is love; the nature of you is love; the nature of your circumstances is love. Whatever they may be, all is as it should be; all offers the catalyst that is required at the present time.

If one may have faith in this, and seek the one infinite Creator which is within the mystery, which is the mystery, and which is the core of the being of the self, then one may find one’s way to a way of living that is beautiful, and makes of marine boot camp a very tidy place, a place of happy laughter and merriment, a place of lightheartedness and peace. For as you learn more and more about service to others, taking the punches, having the troubles, learning from them, and not from an inner guide who tells you what to think, so you become more and more aware of the humbleness of your own nature, and of your desire for servanthood. Servanthood is not as you may think of it. Servanthood is servanthood to the Creator. One may see the face of servanthood in the face of a mother or father, who serves the Creator and nurtures the beings that house those consciousnesses that are unique, just as each of you is unique.

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. We continue with this instrument. Each of you has a special gift to give. That gift is the gift of the pattern of the self. Consider the snowflake, no two alike. So it is with spirits, as they grow in compassion and wisdom and service to others. Each one has a somewhat different energy nexus, a somewhat different emphasis or area of expertise. Each speaks uniquely to the Creator of itself; each has experiences no other in the infinite creation has had, and has experienced them in the idiosyncratic way of one truly conscious of the self within.

You see, my friends, you are a jailer as well as a prisoner. In most entities the jailer is the stronger of the two entities. And so the entity moves through the life depending on outside help. You do not need to depend on any outside help, my friends. You do not need us, you do not need any teacher. You merely need persistence, determination, and a kind of respect for the self that must be the foundation of seeking. The core of you is the infinite love of the one Creator. You are the Creator within. This is not evident; it is not intended to be. You must seek this beingness within. We can be with you in your meditations; we can strengthen your meditations. We cannot strengthen your persistence, your determination or your seeking. We cannot purify your intent, or widen your point of view. You must leave that to the consciousness that is within you, the purified and ever more purified emotion that comes forward as bliss, ecstasy, passion, intensity and, paradoxically, peace. All these things are within you.

This is where that which is called faith becomes evidently different from that which is called belief, for inner-planes masters are those who have believed certain things, who have certain pathways to follow to graduate from third density. They are legitimate. There is a blindness to them, since the higher densities have been bypassed by the entity’s immediate realization of the one infinite Creator. This may seem to be a great advantage, but it is as if you were only visiting and must go home. The only way to move back to the source, the only way to become unpotentiated love once again, the only way to find and be the Grail, is to walk this dusty path, learning of the self, of the beingness, of compassion and wisdom and balance, in that order, so that one may at last, having experienced much, turn and offer to the Creator the one gift that is most excellent and holy: the self, with all the richness of its learning.

May you see yourself as beautiful, my friends. May you attempt to live beautiful lives. May your laughter be hearty and real. May you delight in each other. May you seek together, may you be persistent and daily. At any time you wish for us to strengthen your meditation, we are welcome to be with you. We will not guide you. We respect you. You will guide yourself. All that you need to know lies within you. When you hear it, and say, “Yes, now I understand,” there is a part of you that would wish to say, “Yes, now I remember.” For that which is personal truth comes to one as a long forgotten memory that has somehow found its way to the surface. We welcome you to the dusty path. We feel it is an authentic option, a way to learn, a way back to the Source, and we are most grateful for your seeking.

In answer to the second question of how seekers could be aided by Q’uo’s beingness, Q’uo said that they are here to share spiritual principles that help us to deal with difficulty and uncertainty in this third density illusion. They do not have the specific thoughts and procedures of the inner planes teachers but help us deal with difficulties, sacrifice, and woes through learning from these problems which then result in paradox and mystery. Q’uo said that we are on an infinite journey to find the mystery of the love of the Creator in a way unique to ourselves and not the specific answers from an inner planes teacher. They said that we will eventually find that everything is love, and we will need to exercise faith that when we find this love within us that we will  be able to offer ourselves to the Creator in helping It to know Itself better and also to polarize our consciousness by learning compassion, wisdom, and balance and eventually become one with the Creator once again. On February 22, 2020, Q’uo described how we may become one with the Creator:

The initiation of the surrendering of the self to the will of the One is that which is carried out with such an intense desire that it is difficult to adequately describe how this is accomplished. It is motivated and initiated by the seeker itself which has desired this union for a great portion of what you would call time, and has through various means of spiritual expression been able to accomplish a kind of replica or preliminary experience of this unity, so that there is a taste of that which is to come.

The initiation itself is that which can happen in the eye blink of a moment, or in prolonged meditation, or in the daily round of activities, for there is no determining the exact timing or characteristics necessary when the desire of the seeker will have built to such a level, both on the unconscious mind and the conscious mind.

This will and desire become balanced by the faith that such a will and desire will be manifested when the faith is as strong as the will and they move together in union. Then there is the blending of these two strands of rope which is used to take the seeker into the highest realms of the fully-experienced presence of the One Infinite Creator in order to be able to do the will of the Creator, having become one with the Creator, and knowing the will because of that unity between the two that is no longer two, but one.

This instrument informs us that we have been much overlong, as we are wont to do, and we apologize, but the question was an interesting one, and we must admit to being fond of interesting questions. We would at this time transfer this contact to the one known as Jim, that he may conclude tonight’s working. I leave this instrument in love and light. I am known to you as Q’uo.

This morning I went outside and used my backpack blower to blow all of the leaves in the front and side yards into the leave the leaves area between the fish pond and the pet cemetery. Then I ran some errands with my first stop being Paul’s Fruit Market where I bought some food for myself. Then I stopped by Hometown Pizza to pick up a pizza I had ordered. My last stop was Walgreen’s Drug Store where I bought some non-food items.

This afternoon I blew all of the leaves in the back yard into the area behind the garage and mulched them with Venus.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

November 22

Ask For The Spirit Of Love

I am the spirit of the living God. I greet you in the consciousness of that great name which is love. I am of the vibration of the consciousness of love which comforts this child.

As you perceive, more and more, the depth of lack of glad understanding which you express with regard to the consciousness of love, you may naturally become disheartened. Although it was never intended that difficulties dishearten the seeker, it is necessary, in order to appreciate love’s consciousness, that perceptions be had of the great dynamic between the action of the spirit of love and the substance upon which that action takes place.

For there is much within the consciousness that is experienced by sons of God upon the Earth which is dead to all consciousness of love. And thus the redemption of the action of love upon this consciousness is all the more remarkable.

Remember that those who do not ask for the spirit of love to come upon them shall not experience a substantial amount of grace. For even were spiritual grace to be given by another who prays for you, unless you gladly receive this grace, it shall not endure. Seek always, then, the redemption of that which is dead and do not mourn your iniquity fruitlessly.

May the consciousness of love keep you in peace, now and always. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.