The Camelot Journal

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 12, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to ask if we might speak to any queries which yet remain upon the minds of those gathered this evening.

Carla: Well, if nobody else will kick it off, I’ll ask a question you can’t possibly answer, but I was curious. I sensed another presence here and patrolled the perimeter and found it, and was having a lot of trouble dealing with it for a few seconds. I was holding up an imaged cross. So, instead, I put this cross down and put my arms out and let the cross be big enough for me to be on it and challenged again in the name of Christ, and the entity vanished as quickly as I’ve ever seen one go. If you can make any comment on that, I’d be interested to know what was occurring with the challenging process?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The effect that was accomplished by exchanging the small visualized cross for that upon which you might place yourself was to magnify the intensity of your challenge to the point that the purity of your desire to serve in the positive aspect was overwhelming to the entity towards which the challenge was offered. Therefore, the entity found the need to take its leave of this group.

Carla asked Q’uo about her experience in this session before she began channeling in which an entity of a questionable nature was in the room, so she formed a cross with her body and challenged the entity in the name of Christ. When she did this the entity disappeared very quickly, and Carla wanted to know what occurred in this challenging process. Q’uo replied by saying that when Carla imaged her body as being a cross, her normal challenging in the name of Christ was greatly magnified which caused the entity to leave very quickly. Carla always challenged any entity wishing to speak through her in the name of Jesus Christ. She would challenge three times and would ask “Do you come in the name of Jesus Christ, and can you say that Jesus is Lord?” On September 2, 2007, Q’uo gave a detailed description of the challenging process:

The crystal that you are may be tuned. As a new instrument begins to try its wings, shall we say, it quickly becomes familiar with the feeling of that particular contact which it has been able to receive. The danger lies in assuming that because an energy coming in feels right, that this energy is necessarily the energy which you wish to receive. This is why this instrument’s use of the challenging process is effective. And it is that which we shall discuss with those who wish to learn to be instruments for us in some depth and detail.

Suffice it to say that when an instrument challenges a spirit in the name of its most dearly held principle, that principle which is the fulcrum of that entity’s life, that negative spirit who is able to use the same love and light of the infinite Creator as the positive source, and therefore is able to feel the same as the positive source, cannot succeed in remaining within the aura of the channel.

Challenge in the name of love. An entity who does not vibrate in love must leave. It may seem that this is a very wispy and insubstantial thing to trust and to rely upon, and yet we say to you that all of that which is involved in being an instrument will be likewise wispy and insubstantial from the viewpoint of consensus reality. For your scientists have not yet created instrumentation to measure the vibrations that are used in channeling. Were they able to have that instrumentation, there would be a much more scientific and therefore trustable way for people who trust science to understand channeling.

In the absence of such instrumentation, we can only say that as you tune, you are tuning past the radio channels that are not those channels which you wish to receive, and when you have tuned yourself to the highest and best that is within you, when you have crystallized that, and when you have opened to channel, then you may stand firmly upon metaphysical ground in challenging spirits who may wish to speak through you.

It is to be noted that this instrument does not ever seek to channel outer sources without a supporting group. It is further to be noted that this instrument has been channeling for thirty-three years, and that no harm has ever come to this instrument. The safety net, for balancing and regularizing the energies involved in channeling outer sources such as we, is the principle of batteries in series. One battery is not enough to sustain a universal contact such as ours. There needs to be a minimum of two batteries in series linked to the third battery in series which is the instrument itself.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you. That was a lot more than I’d hoped for.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Questioner: What did that entity intend by its presence?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my brother. This entity of negative polarization was hopeful that it might be able to make some inroad into the channeling process, as is the habitual desire, shall we say, of those of the negative polarity, hoping that by their insertion of their philosophy into the positively oriented of a group such as this one, that they might in some degree partake of the power that is generated when entities of a positive nature gather together to seek more of that which they call the truth.

Therefore, this entity was hopeful of being able to, shall we say, bleed away part of that power, and, if successful in that first step, then be able to take a larger and larger role in the contact with this group, hoping that, perhaps, its information might become more predominant as a focus or concern for this particular group.

Questioner asked what the intentions of the negative entity were. Q’uo said that the negative entity wanted to take over the power of the light that was being generated in this channeling circle and perhaps begin to be the source of information for this group that would eventually move from positive to more negative. Ra spoke of this process that our negative friend of the fifth density wished to pursue in 80.5-.6:

Questioner: As Ra well knows, the information that we accumulate here will be illuminating to but a very minor percentage of those who populate this planet presently simply because there are very, very few people who can understand it. However, it seems that our fifth-density visitor is, shall we say, dead set against this communication. Can you tell me why this is so important to him since it is of such a limited effect, I would guess, upon the harvest of this planet? Since it seems to me that those who will understand this information will quite possibly already be within the limits of harvestability.

Ra: I am Ra. Purity does not end with the harvest of third density. The fidelity of Ra towards the attempt to remove distortions is total. This constitutes an acceptance of responsibility for service to others which is of relative purity. The instrument through which we speak and its support group have a similar fidelity and, disregarding any inconvenience to self, desire to serve others. Due to the nature of the group the queries made to us by the group have led rapidly into somewhat abstruse regions of commentary. This content does not mitigate against the underlying purity of the contact. Such purity is as a light. Such an intensity of light attracts attention.

Questioner: What would our fifth-density visitor hope to gain for himself if he were to be successful in terminating this contact?

Ra: I am Ra. As we have previously stated, the entity hopes to gain a portion of that light; that is, the mind/body/spirit complex of the instrument. Barring this, the entity intends to put out the light.

Is there another query, my brother?

Questioner: What density was that entity?

I am Q’uo. The density was that of four. Is there another query, my brother?

Questioner: Not from me at this time, but I would like to thank you for an extraordinarily illuminating answer, from my perspective, to the question that was originally posed.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother, for posing this query, for it has allowed us to speak upon a point which we felt was of some importance. It is by queries of this nature, and, indeed, by the seeking of each heart gathered this evening that we are able to have a beingness at all within your illusion, and to serve in the humble way in which we have the opportunity to serve.

Is there another query?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo. Again, may we thank each for inviting our presence to your group this evening. It is a great feeling of joy that overcomes us when we receive the invitation to join your circle of seeking, for with the invitation comes the opportunity of walking more fully with each of you and feeling your presence, your desire to know and your desire to serve, which when generated within the heavy chemical illusion that you inhabit is all the more precious for the great spiritual effort that has gone forth on the part of each of you to create these desires of a positive nature. We appreciate the illusion in which you dance and realize that it is not an easy task to continue your daily round of activities, which seem so burdensome so often, to then move the concerns from the daily round of activities to that which lies behind each activity, to that which lies within each self and each beating heart, to look for those clues of the Creator, to follow that trail of love, no matter how trying the journey. We salute each and share with you that which is our love for the Creator in each. We are those of Q’uo. At this time we shall take our leave of this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I used some of the leftover white paint that I used to paint around the windows outside to paint the heat vent and door in my bathroom.

This afternoon I brought all of the house plants from around the fish pond into the house and hung them around the living room windows, except for the Christmas fern which I put on the shelf to the left of the back door. Then I used the carpet sweeper to clean the hall runner upstairs. My next job was to use the broom to sweep up the litter around the two litter boxes in Benny’s room. Then I used the dust mop to dust both rooms and the hall.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 22

Guard Your Thoughts With Love

I am the spirit of all compassion, which speaks with the voice of Jesus the Christ to the needs of the world today. I greet my beloved brothers and sisters in spirit in the consciousness which is divine love.

You are surrounded by that love. Each cell of the body acknowledges and dwells within that love. All things are held in balance by divine love: planets in their courses, blood in the veins, the breath in the body.

All that is left without the confines of the perfect and perfectly understood love of Jesus the Christ is the free will of humankind. Therefore, your thoughts are not necessarily protected by the consciousness of love.

Allow your thoughts, therefore, to dwell with those things which are full of love: your own body, cell by cell; the creation about you, blade of grass by blade of grass. And love itself may come to comfort you as your consciousness prays to the consciousness of divine love.

May you be in prayer this day, for the Comforter is always with those who request it. In this surety and in this peace we leave you, with blessings, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 12, 1989:

Concerning how our (most importantly) mated relationships are perhaps a manifestation of our love for our self. And to carry this further, how all relationships that we might come in contact with, however brief or long, intense or shallow, might also be some kind of a manifestation of our love for our self.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, and rejoice to be called again to work with your thoughts and offer some opinions that we may have. We are honored to join in your meditation, and we do thank you very much. We must be sure that you understand, as always, that we are not infallible, and that each truth that is your own truth is that which is recognized rather than learned. You already know the truth—it is at a level of your mind complex which does not use words. However, when the truth is clothed in words, the deep self remembers and recognizes that personal truth. Truth is, as far as we have learned, subjective, in that all of experience is subjective.

This leads to discussion of the thought offered by the one known as R that the mate is the gift of love of the self to the self.

Firstly, we would like to remove one aspect from this commentary quickly, and that is the always challenging difference betwixt the male and the female entity. Although it could equally be said, for instance, that each mate is an accurate reflection of the subconscious of the other, yet still, to the female energy is given the freer access and the greater energy and power of intuition and the half-knowledge of that which is veiled which is called intuition or inspiration. And to the male is given the reaching for that inspiriting.

To look at it in another way, one might see the quandary of a Creator which creates a companion for Itself, only to find the companion is not happy spending all of its time with the Creator, but rather feels alone without his own kind. We are not saying that this is the way creation in your density began. We are simply saying that the concept there embodied in the female being the artifact of man and man’s desire not to be alone is far different than the original statement of the loved one as a reflection of the love of self for self. For in this debased picture, the two perfectly dovetailed species, male and female, are offered less than equal roles in a creation. Thus, we must pluck from the concept of the outer world of experience being created by the self’s love for the self, we must broaden the horizons of this concept, as the author of this concept rationally had already begun to do, so that it includes all that there is.

The group question for this session was how our mated relationships might be a reflection of our love for ourselves and all other relationships might also be a reflection of love for ourselves. Q’uo began their response by saying that they needed to make an adjustment in this basically correct assumption by saying that there was a difference between the male and female subconscious minds. The female has greater access to the qualities of inspiration and intuition, and the male reaches for that inspiration. In 92.20, Ra made this same observation:

In a more general sense, that which reaches may be seen as a male principle. That which awaits the reaching may be seen as a female principle. 

Now we may gaze at the nature of the entity within third-density incarnation, and we say that this statement is a statement of an ideal nature of a certain kind. It is a spiritual ideal which is invoked. Indeed, the greater Self or the Creator is invoked in this concept, that is, the sense in which this statement is correct and literally accurate, is that the self, which is in the end the Creator, somewhat young and confused within third density, and certainly remaining confused by our fifth-density experience, somehow still contains that perfection which created all that there is. And in that sense, the Creator gazes at the Creator and knows that all has been created because of love.

All that is, is a reflection of the Creator’s love for Itself, and further, Its desire to know more about Itself, to communicate with Itself for the enlargement of Its personality and to learn that which seems to be subjectively true, beautiful and perfect, that which, unlike the physical vehicles of your density, is imperishable. In the sense of the God-self residing within the many layers of distortion and confusion that abound within third-density experience, the statement is accurate. However, we would quickly add that it is misleading to consider to oneself that one is capable of living in the God-self for any length of time and having this experience be a steady state. It is not that this is not possible; it has been done by those who ruthlessly remove themselves from anything but the sitting, the silence, the meditation, the breaking down completely of the self. When one resides, acts and reacts within the societal structure which is your best environment for learning, one cannot remain the God-self. Thus, as one gazes into the eyes of the loved one, one may upon one level try to remember that one gazes at the gift of love of God for Itself.

On another level, it is well to remember that you are gazing at yourself. You may well not love yourself. Therefore, you will not be pleased with the face of another, the conversation of another, or the actions or thoughts of another. The more disturbed or upset that face is able to create the catalyst for you to become, the more that self has to teach. We do not suggest that any learning difficult lessons attempt for any length of time to remain consciously the God-self, for it is a dangerous choice of personas, a risky choice of masks. The risks to one who walks incautiously upon the path of learning [are such that one] finds that one has been waylaid almost inevitably, for one’s energy, unless taken from what you may call the world full time, is most usually not equal to the task of remembering who you really are.

Now, you are here to learn, rather than to dispense information and learning to others. The learning is primary; the fruits of that learning, secondary. Thusly, that which comes to a seeker from the faces of those around the seeker will reflect various facets of that seeker to itself, as a mirror may reflect accurately or in a most distorted fashion. Indeed, all of the mirrors are distortions, in some way, of love, yet the catalyst that this distortion of love may bring is far from a joyful experience.

Q’uo now begins to define the self within third density as being a young version of the one Creator, and the Creator has created this young version of Itself in order to know more about Itself. Q’uo said that in the third density we try to become one with the Creator, but this cannot usually be done for any length of time. However, we can gaze into the eyes of a loved one and see the Creator of love, and on another level see our selves at the same time. Then Q’uo said that if we do not love our selves we will not be able to love others, and this will make it difficult for us to remember that we are the Creator. This, in turn, will cause the seeker to see distortions of love mirrored back to it from those around it, and this may become difficult catalyst for the seeker to utilize in becoming able to love the self or other selves. On May 15, 2005, Q’uo shared how this process can work for us:

It is often very difficult to approach in a direct way the central challenge of loving the self and so you are given mirrors. Sometimes the mirrors are loving and honest, and you get a pretty fair image of yourself, one that you can look upon with some feelings of stability and trust in that image that you are seeing.

When you look at yourself through the mirror of other entities, such as those about whom we spoke, those that give you the catalyst, the interference and resistance, you are a looking at a very skewed and distorted mirror of yourself, and yet it is a mirror of those parts of yourself with which you have had arguments in the past, perhaps not even in this lifetime but in other incarnations. Perhaps you do not have adhering catalyst with this entity. Perhaps you put that entity in your life simply to learn to love without expectation of return. However, as you forgive that entity for its skewed picture of you, you begin to see that you have only to forgive yourself in order to create room within that portion of yourself that we would call the heart.

We would like to take a few moments to talk about a very basic subject, that subject being meditation. It may well be said of those of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator that we sound one note very often, that note of meditation—daily, constant meditation. The reason for that is not one thing, but many, all concerning, however, the progress which each of you, the pilgrims that seek, may make.

As we allow these pauses, we are hoping and asking that you may begin to feel a presence, a presence called to this group from beyond us. We practice at this moment the presence of the one infinite Creator. Allow your heart to open to the greatest amount it may stably open. Do not ask it to become brighter or more crystalline than the power that is moving into it, but allow that to bloom. Allow the feeling of being in the presence of the Creator to bring to you praise, worship, adoration and thanksgiving. You sit with the Father and Mother of All, infinitely available to all, infinitely loving and infinitely unable to speak.

Each of you, then, by the changes made by meditation, may begin to perceive differently throughout a lifetime of sincere and openhearted effort in love, not duty. The viewpoint may change and widen and deepen and strengthen greatly in balance. As one meditates, one is intending to experience firsthand the Creator and the environment of the Creator, which is love, light and eternity, all of those in infinite quantity. With enough repetitive, impassioned silence and listening, one’s reactions begin to change because one’s consciousness has begun to change.

Meditation does other things as well. One great aid that it brings to the meditator is simply the strengthening of the bridge betwixt conscious and subconscious, intuitive and rational; all the parts of what a medical person would call the encephalos, working together and not at odds. We find often among your peoples that there are many voices within, each with a different viewpoint, each with a different program, if you would speak in terms of a computer, and all together having mutually opposing agendas. Meditation, taken daily, systematically and without the long, long meditations, but, rather, short meditations followed by the feeling of being strengthened, the mind begins to remake the basic metaprogram of the biocomputer mind in order that it may complete the process of integration so that one may become more and more a positive, unified entity, capable of a singleness of heart, a singleness of purpose, and a singleness of passion and love.

That which works—that is, that which functions within meditation—is not much affected by the meditative state achieved. The meditative state may, for most of your peoples, never be satisfactory in a subjective opinion, the self of the self. This is due to what this instrument would call your lifestyle; that which is full is ever a little fuller and details clog the arteries of inspiration. With meditation, intention, desire and passion are all, for the process is not a physiological one, not unless what you are attempting is the relaxation of the physical vehicle. Meditation is spending time with the infinite One and with Infinity Itself. It is a completely metaphysical act. Indeed, it does aid a person to be relaxed in order to meditate, but even the strong desire to meditate, pray, contemplate or worship has the desired effect; it opens a door behind which stands a Creator who will not knock, who will not ring the bell within the head, who waits patiently to be asked to come in, to join with the seeking soul and to offer it light, love, healing, peace and joy.

Yes, indeed, my friends, the Creator loves, and all of you are part of what it loves, for all of you are part of Itself. It desires to know each of you with a passion that is incomprehensible. All of the reactions which one has in love, about love, with love are shadows of the Love that created all that there is, the one great original Thought that is the Creator. We encourage you, therefore, not to see love in every face if you do not, but to take it into meditation without judgment, for you are as you are; each pilgrim, with its self-perceived strengths and weaknesses is unique. The Creator does not judge, but loves. Thus, we urge each never to force or push the spiritual seeking, but to allow it to occur naturally. When the seeker finds itself impatient for more knowledge, more truth, the seeker needs to realize that this is not a means to an end; this is the end desired. The Creator’s hope is one thing more than self-knowledge. It is self-love.

Q’uo decided to take time at the end of this session to speak about the one topic that the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator has always emphasized as the most important part of our spiritual journeys, and that is meditation. Q’uo said that at its most basic level meditation allows our viewpoint of ourselves to widen as we are able to make a contact from our conscious mind to our subconscious mind. It also focuses our conscious mind to help us become more positively oriented and single-minded on our spiritual journeys. Then Q’uo said that meditation is the chance for us to commune with the one Creator who has created us all in order to know Itself better and loves us for allowing It to do so, which provides us the best example of self-love. On November 16, 1997, Q’uo shared the process and product of silent meditation:

We have discovered through our own experience that it is well to seek the silence of the meditation in a daily fashion that this become a part of each day, perhaps at the beginning or at the ending, that it be a central feature for each day, that one take the time for this meditation at the same time and in the same place each day, that one reserve these times and places for what could be seen as the axis upon which your experience turns. For as you complete your daily round of activities there are many, many forms of catalyst that assault the senses and give one a great deal to think about, to digest, and it is within the meditative times that what can be learned is seated in a spiritual sense within the soul of the self. Thus in your meditations it is well that you put aside, for the time period of the meditation, the concerns of the day, perhaps ritualizing this concern in a fashion such as taking off the cares as one would take off a hat and placing them aside on a table so that during the meditative time one seeks as purely and clearly as one can the inner silence that will allow one to hear with the heart the speaking of the One Creator in whatever form or fashion in which it may come. Any thoughts that occur at this time may be allowed to move in and out and allowed to go their way. One need not fight against the mind but bring it back gently each time that it wanders to the center of silence. After enough practice at this endeavor one will begin to open a bridge, shall we say, from the conscious daily round of activities to one’s own subconscious mind and through the roots of the tree of your subconscious mind contact then may be sought with the shuttle that is the spirit that moves in unity with the One Creator. Thus you open a door or a bridge, as we have previously mentioned, to the deeper, more informed portions of your own consciousness and through your own, to the One Creator. Is there another query, my sister?

We urge and encourage and exhort each to love each other and to see the face of Love in every face. We equally urge each never to judge the self or to become discouraged when this is not occurring, for that which is occurring is that which needs to occur at the very moment you experience that which is occurring. It is the raw material which, when refined, will become the gold of compassion, wisdom and humility.

We find that there are assorted concerns, and would transfer to the one known as Jim, that if any wish, they may query further of us. I am Q’uo, and I leave this instrument in love and in light.

This morning I went back out to Gary and Trish’s house to spend some time with their kitty cat, Squash. I petted him from time to time and gave him some treats when he meowed. I ran a couple of errands on the way home with a stop at Feeder’s Supply to buy some bird seed and some cat food. Then I stopped at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some ice cream and paper towels.

This afternoon I gave a talk on the Law of One to a group in the Crescent Hill area of Louisville, which just happened to be a few blocks from where Carla was raised. We started with a potluck lunch which we ate around a fire pit in the back yard. I began my talk by describing how Don’s spiritual journey began when his flight instructor, Captain Tom Mantell was killed while chasing a UFO in his P-51 WWII fighter plane. Then I explained how Don used this experience to begin asking questions like: “Is their advanced intelligence beyond our Earth experience?” and “How big is the universe?” Then he heard about the channeling process from a group in Detroit who had exterrestrial contact that share the spiritual philosophy of how we all are moving back into unity with the One Great Original Thought or the Creator. Then I took some quotes from the Ra Contact and commented on them before taking questions from the group of about twenty people. I was a wonderful experience to be able to share the Law of One with such spiritually aware people.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 21

Credo

Greetings in the love of Christ. I am the spirit of the consciousness of Christ in the vibration which comforts this child.

Can you consider yourself as one of the company of the faithful because you know that the means of eternal life is at hand? Can you rest in the glory of your future experience while dwelling in the present difficult times?

We find your hearts to be lax, for in your appreciation of the inevitability of salvation, you forget that the moment of salvation for any soul is that moment in which the soul may turn to its Creator and vibrate, “Credo. Credo,” with a whole and single heart.

Peace be with you, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from March 11, 1989:

Focusing around the phrase, “the willing suspension of disbelief” and the clearing of the lower energy centers, information concerning the red, orange and yellow.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, of which we all partake. It is a great blessing and privilege to be called to your group, for it is our way of being of service, to share our opinions with you who call upon us with a certain vibration of seeking in service to others. It is also the way we ourselves learn and progress, so you are teachers to us as we are teachers to you. And we are companions together upon a very, very long journey.

The journey that we are all upon is much like a very, very long story, a story that takes place in an instant, simultaneously, and yet within your illusion and our illusions and those in between and those before and those beyond us, in rivers of time and space, so that there are pastures of experience along which you may feed and grow and learn. And when you are participating in your story, you are the hero and the heroine, the villain and all the bit parts. You are the audience, and you choose when to ring the curtains up and down. And in any story, in any fiction, in any narrative, the first requirement of the reader and the observer of that narrative is that that observer suspend willingly, out of free will, the faculty of discrimination or disbelief.

Note that it is suspended, while the action is taking place. It is not suggested that after the story is finished there be no afterthought, no process of discernment, no attempt to come to many various terms with all of those things which have happened within the story. “The willing suspension of disbelief” is a phrase taken from literary criticism, however, it is an equally important staple of the diet of heavenly food which nourishes and strengthens and enables the seeking soul to learn and grow.

It is all too tempting, within your illusion, to work with the negative energies of judgment. Turned in upon the self or out upon others, this faculty is equally damaging to the one who generates it. The entire lifetime experience, then, we are suggesting, is the period of the narrative of each entity’s incarnational story, each entity’s incarnational journey. Because it is an illusion that is nearly perfect and complete, it is most important to withhold judgment upon the self and others completely, in that one is never condemned but is seen as an entity which shall be, and indeed truly is, perfect, for the reality which you are experiencing at the same time that you experience space and time is the reality of the present moment, or to put [it] another way, the reality of eternity. The appropriate time for careful judgment is that moment called the day of judgment by that holy work which you call the Holy Bible, and that day shall arrive for each, and the judge shall be yourself. It is you that you must please. It is you that you must convince. It is you that are the critic. It is you that will write the outline of your next play, when you decide in the far more enlightened atmosphere outside of your particular illusion what biases you still wish to emphasize and what ones to de-emphasize.

Now, within any extended story cycle, which is, indeed, the life experience, there are many times of transformation and epiphany, many new beginnings, and it is at those times that we do, indeed, encourage each to take stock of the present moment, to remove that suspension of discrimination and disbelief and to examine, as deeply and as completely as possible, using rational and intuitive faculties alike, what it is that the lesson just experienced has been catalyst concerning, and then, as you gaze at the present moment and move into the river of time and space in the future, you may think carefully what you wish, what you desire, for what you feel passion, hunger and thirst. And when you have found the intensity within yourself, you know the direction you wish to go within the new situation, within the new story, within the new cycle of being that moves as the seasons do within the emotions to heart and the mind of each entity which [is] ensouled within a body within your sphere of existence at this time.

The group question for this session concerned what was “willing suspension of disbelief”, and then the process of clearing of the red, orange, and yellow energy centers. Q’uo began by saying that the “willing suspension of disbelief” could be related to the very long journey of seeking the truth which is much like a story in which we play all of the parts of the actors upon the stage, the audience, and the stage crew. They said that we need to suspend any disbelief that we could be partaking in this story while we are in it in order for it to teach us the lessons that we wish to learn by being characters in the story. It is only after the story is complete, when our current incarnation is over, that we should use any judgment about how well we did. This is what Ra was talking about in 70.17:

After the death of the physical complex in yellow-ray activation, the mind/body/spirit complex moves to a far different portion of time/space in which the indigo body will allow much healing and review to take place before any movement is made towards another incarnative experience.

There is another phrase which may lend some illumination to the phrase, “the willing suspension of disbelief,” and that is a phrase used by, shall we say, one of your more angst-ridden Christian apologists. That phrase is, “the leap of faith,” for you see, the willing suspension of disbelief can only be done in the faith that it is safe to disbelieve—that is, to the intelligent, rational mind—like saying that it is safe to jump off the cliff without a moment’s thought for how deep the cliff may be or what lies below. This is what faith is about. It is a choice made in a vacuum. The choice is very simply to abide and to have faith. What shall you have faith in? We would not call it anything more specific than love, for love is the closest word you have in your language to the terrible, awful, beautiful, creative and infinite love of the infinite One, the Father and Mother of all that there is.

It is not easy to leap into space within one’s mind and heart, having nothing to hold onto but the faith itself which you have decided is your first choice. You have decided to trust the process whereby you shall learn what you came here to learn, and you take the step; you cooperate with change and you are in midair almost immediately. Not only has your disbelief been suspended, you yourself are suspended upon nothing but faith. This will occur time and time again to one who seeks.

This cycle of an experienced faith and a faith only hoped for is the necessary cycle of the seasons of the soul, for no soul can learn with unmitigated suffering, nor can any soul learn with unmitigated joy. The dynamic of the desert and the oasis is that which gives dynamic, interest and detail to each seeker’s unique path. Let us say that each of you is on a very long journey. So does the one known as Jesus speak of the prodigal son. We find that in this connection, this story is helpful in illustrating the willing suspension of disbelief, or the leap of faith. In the first place, we would point out that that entity which did not go upon a journey, which made no mistakes, and had no good or sad adventures, was incapable of rejoicing, whereas that prodigal son, which had done so many things incorrectly, had squandered his inheritance, and was living with swine, was able to experience deep and intensely felt emotions of sadness, longing for home, hunger to be even a slave in his father’s household.

And so, footsore and weary to the bone, hungry and thirsty for home, come we all along the road, along our story, along our journey. We know that our Father greets us with joy and gives us a feast and we know that joy. We can anticipate it. And all of these feelings are within a story, that story that is unable to be felt except upon an inner level.

So, too, you may choose to see your story in everyday, mundane, logical and pragmatic ways. Yet, you shall not learn as a soul by this technique. Far more shall you learn if you seek to suspend all disbelief in love, if you leap into love, whether it is a void or whether it is full and can hold you completely, you must make that choice always at each beginning, at each turn in the path.

In order to do this, it is very much necessary to meditate upon the daily basis, to put oneself in the Father’s house at the Father’s feasting table for just a few moments in the day, so that you know who you are and Whose you are. You are not your own. You do not belong to yourself. You are a story in the mind of the infinite Creator. May you leap into each leg of your journey with faith undiminished, ready to run the race in love, in joy and in hope of wisdom and compassion.

Then Q’uo likened the “willing suspension of disbelief” to the phrase “the leap of faith.” Q’uo said that our spiritual journey was much like leaping off of a cliff without knowing what was below. We take this leap as we enter the life experience that includes the dessert and oasis experiences, the happy and sad. We trust in the love of the Creator that all will be well as we pursue our pre-incarnative choices for this life. Q’uo suggested that in order to be able to take this leap of faith it is well to engage in daily meditation where we can feel more of the presence of the Creator and know that we are the story of the Creator experiencing Itself. On June 14, 2002, Q’uo gave a basic outline of how this leap of faith describes the life experience:

The viewpoint of the self standing upon a prominent precipice and making the self ready to take a leap of faith into that which is your destiny is the basic situation with which you deal. There is the eagerness and the anticipation of the adventure that awaits, for it is that soul’s destiny which you have created before this incarnation as the pattern for the incarnation which you feel is now ready to unfurl before you, as the marker, the guide post, the beginning of the great work.

About the lower energy centers and their blockages we could speak for many, many hours, yet much has already been spoken about these blockages. We can only say that there is no body of philosophical or spiritual material upon your planet, of which we are aware, that has not within it some good insights into the voyager’s search for the peaceful inner self. Thus, it is not a matter of pointing you in this direction or that, this religious system or that, but rather, perhaps, we may say in a very general sense that those things which keep energy from pouring at full volume into the heart energy center are those things which are not of love, but are distortions of love, seen in the faces and voices of those who have experienced pain. The essence of that which robs the heart of energy is separation. Thus, if you anger yourself, you must sit down and find that self within you which may forgive, find the grace within the self which redeems and makes one new. When the difficulty is perceived as being another, let it be clear that in some way you gaze upon the Creator and the self. From this you may learn if you are capable of remaining faithful and abiding in an inner peace which allows one the larger point of view.

Impulses towards kindness are sometimes not helpful in clearing lower energy centers, for there is a distinct difference between pleasing another and serving another. Before an interaction takes place, ask the self what spiritual principle is being called upon in this interchange and what role am I playing within the dynamics of love within this situation? For that which you wish to offer to others is that which may enable them to grow spiritually. Sometimes those things are not pleasing to those whom you would wish to serve, yet, if it be your light, given to you as your own truth, that to serve, this and this must be, then this and this must be the way that you act, in kindness, in compassion, and in unity, forgiving and being forgiven. To experience forgiveness, to allow it to be generated through one, is perhaps the shortest way to the clearing of the lower energies.

Perhaps the only other thing we would suggest in this regard, because of the shortness of the time period in which we have to work, is that each in its meditation move to that portion of the self which is the inner room deep within each heart and soul, and within that inner room offer the self up in complete and total surrender to the Creator which awaits within the self, but which will not come into conscious relationship with the self unless that relationship is thirsted for and hungered for as if it were the very food and drink that sustains life, and may we say, my children, in a metaphysical sense the presence of the one infinite Creator is, indeed, absolutely necessary for the soul’s health. May you invite it. May you greet it, thank it, bless it and allow it to enable you to open the heart, to leap faithfully, joyfully and abidingly into the clear, unobstructed air of the grace and blessing of love itself. It is infinite, and it certainly seems void. And sometimes you will experience it as void and dark, and those are your desert times. Rejoice in them also and worry not if you feel blocked, because just as surely as you have entered the desert, so your steps shall bring you to the garden.

Then Q’uo briefly mentioned the quality that most clearly opens the lower three energy centers was that of love. What closed them was that of anger or separation. Q’uo recommended that forgiveness was the means by which anger at the self or other self might be dealt with most effectively. Q’uo went on to say that the value of keeping the lower three energy centers open was that then, in meditation, one might experience the love of the Creator as food for the soul. On January 6, 2018, Q’uo gave detailed information about the three lower energy centers and the value of keeping them open:

When the mind and the heart are open to receiving any information that is available in the daily round of activities in an open manner, then there is a process of learning that is begun, oftentimes within confusion or doubt or disharmony, for these are those processes that, shall we say, grab one’s attention, and continue to offer the opportunity for balancing the learning within the individual according to the energy centers or chakras that are involved.

Each of you has a certain kind of energy body that is related to the various energy centers or chakras. As you move from the red ray of personal survival and sexual reproduction, this very basic quality of experience can be translated to the orange ray, where the individual expression of emotions and idiosyncrasies with one other being is primary in the beginning process of relating and expanding to others. As you move up the energy centers, the expansion continues within the yellow ray where the individual self is placed in groups, beginning with, in most cases, the family, the neighborhood, the school, the workplace, etc. In each level of experience, there is the opportunity to relate to others, whether individually or in groups, in a manner which offers each seeker the chance to explore whatever catalyst, or opportunities for learning, have been chosen by it before the incarnation to learn during the incarnation. Thus, when there is baggage of an unknown or unrecognized or unaccepted nature, this baggage becomes as a blockage in each energy center in which it might be expressed or discovered.

These lower three energy centers are critical for each seeker of truth to clear so that the energy of the One Creator may move freely through them and begin to open the heart center of universal love and understanding. When this is done, then there is the opportunity for the entity to move from the third density to the fourth density of love and understanding.

We are those of Q’uo, and we would transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. We are those of Q’uo.

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. We greet you again in love and in light, and offer the blessing of the infinite One. We find that the one known as Jim has explained to us that we must not linger. Therefore, we would bless each, thank each and remember to suggest once again that each seeker may best participate in his own story by treating all things as if they were heavenly food, including the self. They are to be blessed, and then to be broken and given to others that they may multiply. So does service multiply itself in love. Each entity who dwells in love creates that which it could not imagine by its mere persistence. May your light shine persistently. May your life in faith never need words, but only deep feeling and faith. We offer each the peace of the journey to the Source. We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are those known to you as Q’uo. Adonai, my children. Adonai.

This morning I vacuumed the first floor of the house. Then I went outside and cleaned the filters on the fish pond.

This afternoon I ran a few errands with the first stop being at the Post Office to mail a package to a friend in New Jersey. My second stop was at the vet’s to pick up some insulin for Bosco. And my last stop was at Walgreen’s Drug Store to buy some paper towels and some paper plates.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 20

Seek First The Kingdom Of Heaven

I am the Spirit, that you call Holy, of the consciousness of Christ in the vibration which comforts this instrument. Greetings in the love of Christ and the peace of His kingdom.

Do you think that the grace and consolation of the Holy Spirit will come to you in time of need if you but turn your mind in the direction of aid and succor? Children, although this be true, nevertheless, it would behoove you first to seek knowledge of the Father’s kingdom, not for any good it might seem to do for you or be to you but for the sake of love alone.

For as you enter more and more into the consciousness of that kingdom, so will the nearly silent voice of the spirit be made resonant and full by your changing awareness. It is written, “Seek ye first the kingdom of heaven and its righteousness and all things shall be added unto you.” These words are true and we recommend them to your consideration.

May the peace of the consciousness of Christ be with you, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 12, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to ask if there might be any further queries to which we may reply?

Carla: Well, I notice that you didn’t directly address the inside versus outside question, but, rather, said that you could think of them as inside or outside. Do you want to leave it at that? Do you want to comment on that?

I am Q’uo. As each entity which has had its origin, as all have, with the one Creator, moves through the cycle experience that shall be its means of returning to the one Creator, the, shall we say, degree of difference that is apparent begins to shift, so that within the consciousness of those entities that move from your illusion to those of a higher vibration, this apparent difference begins to be noticed as less and less significant. We speak here of apparent difference, for there is the shared heart and very spark of life that always undergirds each expression of the one Creator.

As an entity begins to move in what you might call an harmonic resonance with the heartbeat of the creation, we shall call it, for want of a better term, the similarity and identity between the Creator, the creation, and the entity approaches oneness, so that the experience of the entity begins more and more to reflect to the entity the shared consciousness that may be likened unto the entity discovering that its sphere of consciousness, that with which it has become familiar and has called its own, is indeed larger than it has supposed, so that there are within the entity that likened unto veils removed to aid the sight in traveling to new boundaries that again will provide the entity with that experience that is necessary for it to understand, shall we say, in order that it might then use that understanding as a further stepping stone to move into those areas that again reveal unto it an experience that is unmistakably its own, and yet that which seemed other than the self before it had taken the step which led to this experience.

Thus, the entity, in retracing the journey to the Creator, does so in a fashion which may be likened unto the moving into experiences which become its own as it moves into them, and becomes the self as they are experienced. This is always the case for any entity, whether it has consciously experienced that which surrounds it as a portion of the self or not.

However, it is the perception of the entity with which we deal here most centrally, and as this perception is able to be widened in eyeshot, shall we say, so that entity becomes more able to penetrate outer illusion and see the truer nature of not only itself, but of the creation about it, the entity begins to discover that there is an harmonic resonance that permeates the entire creation, and as the entity moves into more profound or deeper realms of the self, the entity then becomes aware that there is far more to the self than it has previously supposed. An effect that has previously seemed to be of an exterior origin is seen to fall within the newly defined and experienced boundaries of the self. However, until the entity has completed this great cycle of being, the entity shall continually find that not only is there a greater and greater degree and breadth of selfness, there is also an increasing call from that which is yet to be experienced of the self which pulls the self onward in its journey of seeking the nature of its own self, of the creation, and of the journey of the self through the creation.

Carla’s question concerned the channeling she had done with Q’uo earlier in this session regarding the interior and exterior nature of the spiritual journey. Q’uo began their answer by saying that as seekers move further along their spiritual paths they discover that they, the creation, and the Creator tend to become more and more blended as one being, one experience. So as the seeker moves along its spiritual path it continues to become, more and more, that which it previously thought was exterior to itself. On  November 23, 2019, Q’uo described the nature how this process works:

As the seeker of truth becomes more and more aware of the journey of the seeking of the One Infinite Creator within itself and within all of creation, it discovers that there is the chance to become that which it seeks in every moment of its existence if its point of view is broad enough, and travels down to the roots of its consciousness and to the heights of its beingness so that it is able to perceive in a manner which is enhanced and imbued with the love and the light of the One which it seeks with every fiber of its being, in every daily round of activities, so that all becomes the oneness for such a being, becomes the Christed experience for such a being.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

Carla: Well, it’s in a tangential fashion, but I could really use your opinion, because it’s sort of what I do for a non-living. I’m a Christian person, as you well know. We went around and around about that one earlier, but I am a mystical Christian, and I do not care whether Jesus Christ lived historically or died. The important thing for me happens to be the story and the way one can use it to approach the highest polarity in service to others that I have ever found of any way. Now, I realize, therefore, in terms of the actual function of Christ within the myth of Christianity, that Christ is acting as just what he said, the way or the bridge, in between our everyday, mundane selves and eternal Self. And what I’ve been doing, working with New Age people, is substituting words like “error” for “iniquity” and “sin” and stuff like that and “self-forgiveness” for “redemption” or “forgiveness” because of Jesus Christ. And I have found that to be somewhat difficult to get across to people, because they are so hard on themselves in the New Age; they haven’t figured out any agency of forgiving themselves, and so they tend to carry around bunches of guilt and push guilt on other people, too. And I’m just wondering, how could I better communicate with the people that I would like to help?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. We find that there are many entities which fall within the realm of qualities of which you speak. There are many which have other distortions or characteristics that make them unique, one from the other. As you meet each individual within your daily round of activities which requests from you assistance in one way or another, we find that it is most helpful to remember that each is, indeed, an unique individual which has needs that are as unique. Thus, to give a general means of seeking to assist such entities is to forget this primary fact of entities and the means by which they choose to experience and to express the life pattern.

Thus, we would recommend that the desire to be of service be that common thread that binds together all of your efforts to be of any service whatsoever, that you allow the moment to determine the wording, the phrasing, the concepts, and the feeling tone that is used to convey the information which then may be called through you, and in many cases, from you, that will be of assistance to such entities. Thus, you will add those portions of your own experience which are pertinent and which rise naturally to the mind and then to the lip.

You will also allow, we are hopeful, that information which may reside somewhat beyond your conscious grasp to blend itself with that which is within your grasp so that there might be the intermingling of sources, shall we say, that will produce in each instance the quality of concept communication that is most nearly appropriate for the situation and the entity which seeks from you assistance.

Again, we come to the question of the source of information, and we agree with you, my sister, that the ultimate source is not as important as is the quality of the information which proceeds from whatever source. The nature of the transfer of information is likened unto the speaking of the cells of the body to each other so that one portion which has been long removed from another might begin to reacquaint itself with that which is, indeed, a portion of itself and which is called to the self by the self.

Carla’s next question was based on her mystical Christianity where she substituted certain more common words when working with New Age seekers than the religious ones regarding Jesus to help them be able to forgive themselves and not feel so much guilt. Q’uo began their answer by reminding Carla that each seeker is unique and that there would not be one general way to approach seekers who were filled with guilt. Q’uo continued by saying that she should “allow the moment to determine the wording, the phrasing, the concepts” and also to be open to sources which might be beyond her consciousness to assist in this process. I am assuming this might be guides or angelic presences or entities of this nature. On January 31, 1982, Latwii described the ability of using the moment to be of service to others:

In this regard, may we suggest that to maximize the learning in any situation, whether it be of the mind, the body, the spirit, or the emotions that are the distortions of the mind and the expression of the feelings, that the entity seeking the learning available look to the moment with an openness, and what you might call a vulnerability which does not seek any reward other than the opportunity of being of service and of learning what love the moment can teach.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: That was very thought provoking. There is one small query, and it’s just because of the fact that I know that I have a real strong bias towards the belief that most of the people that I’ve worked with over the years, their biggest single problem, besides the fact that they were willing to live chaotic lives in terms of relationships, was that they carried around a lot of anger and guilt and stuff about themselves towards themselves, so they basically felt unworthy or had fairly low self esteem. And it seemed like this was the greatest real impediment to seeing the rest of the world compassionately. As a matter of fact, they tended to be better at seeing the rest of the world compassionately than themselves, but on a very subtle level it was keeping them from doing work in consciousness, and, actually, it happens to be my problem too, and I have a very strong bias towards working on that problem with my people, and I know that the help that I get is probably oriented according to that bias. Would [you] confirm if it is a good bias, or comment if you feel there is some thought I might take?

I am Q’uo, and we must pause briefly in order that this instrument complete its task with the recording devices. We shall return shortly.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and [am] again with this instrument. We would ask that the query be vibrated again, as this instrument was distracted by the recording devices.

Carla: Gladly. Q’uo, I just have a prejudice, a bias, that one of the important things to teach to people who come to me for lessons is to forgive themselves in some way. I can’t use Jesus, but I need to get the feeling of self-forgiveness because a low self esteem seems to block work in consciousness better than just about anything except bad relationships, and I wondered if you would either validate my opinion and bias, or comment on it if you feel it needs some instruction.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The ability of any entity to move itself along the journey of evolution of mind, body and spirit is dependent in large degree upon some amount of dissatisfaction, of a kind of angst, if you will, otherwise the entity would remain as it is—happy with that which is and content to be that which it has discovered itself to be up to that point in its own experience. Thus, there is within each entity within your illusion a certain quality that may be seen to be as a kind of self doubt or self-inflicted perception of unworthiness which can be used by the entity as a motivating factor, shall we say, as it seeks to understand those qualities which comprise the self and seeks to match, shall we say, these qualities with those ideals which it has formed also in a mental fashion as the standards against which all shall be measured.

The task of bringing the self to the point where the components that comprise the self are seen as whole and perfect is a task which requires that the entity investigate the, shall we say, polar opposite qualities that also exist within the being that is known as the self, for as those qualities are explored that already exist within the perception of the entity, the entity will find that each quality calls into the realm of experience that which may be seen as its opposite so that when, for example, loving acceptance is experienced in sufficient quality, shall we say, there is a natural setting up of that which is not accepted as well. For as one defines that which one may accept and accept in a loving manner, that which does not reside within the definition in some degree partakes of that which is not accepted.

As the entity begins to explore that which is accepted and that which is not accepted and begins to conduct this exploration in a conscientious fashion in an ever-widening reach of the life experience, illuminating those dark corners of the consciousness, the entity will find that there is a closer and closer connection between the self and that which has previously not been accepted, so that as this process continues, the entity is slowly able to expand that realm of that which is acceptable and that which is loved.

Thus, as any entity looks upon those qualities of the self which are or are not accepted and continues this research with intensity and perseverance, the entity will begin to discover that each quality leads to other qualities, and all qualities eventually are seen to have a very close connection with the self. The ability to conduct this kind of exploration is the inner work which all religious teachings and philosophies have advised as that which is the necessary foundation work for the traveling upon the path of the seeker of truth, as it is called.

Thus, the dissatisfaction that any entity may feel for any portion of the self or any portion of the outer environment which is seen as a reflection of the self can become a motivating force that will eventually allow the entity to not only accept each quality in turn, but allow the entity to accept the polar opposite of each quality, will allow the entity to accept greater and greater portions of the self, and eventually allow the entity to accept an ever-widening field of vision that includes all about it.

Thus, the ability to forgive the self is an ability which is accomplished in slow stages, as if one were peeling the layers of the onion and discovering that each is the self.

Carla said that she worked with many people who had anger, guilt, and low self-esteem that seemed to cause them to be unable to do work in consciousness and see the rest of the world compassionately. She said that she had a similar problem and wanted to know how best to forgive the self. Q’uo began their reply by suggesting that almost all seekers have some degree of self doubt or low self esteem. They said that this self doubt is a kind of motivating factor that gives the seeker a chance to investigate the various aspects of how it sees itself and then also see and accept the polar opposites of each aspect. As this process continues the seeker finds more acceptance of its self and forgiveness of the self, and this inner work is the work of all seekers of truth. On September 1, 2019, Q’uo suggested that this balancing of the seeker’s many qualities would lead to eventually realizing the Creator within:

The nature of self-forgiveness is one which sees those actions that have been difficult to accept within the self, and thus tainting the self, shall we say, that are a challenge to understand, or to grasp, for you are those in the third-density illusion that exist within the veil of forgetting. You do not see that there is much more to you, to your mind/body/spirit complex, than you are aware of in your journey of seeking in this incarnation. You are, in fact, as you hypothesize and believe, the One Infinite Creator. However, as an aspect of that One Creator, you have chosen to express various distortions within this illusion that allow you to further progress upon your spiritual path. These distortions are those qualities that need what those of Ra have called the “balance” in order that you may become aware of the totality of your beingness in some fashion.

Thus, as you become able to balance these distortions, you then are able to see that each is a means by which you come to know yourself more fully, you come to know the Creator more fully, and the Creator is able to see itself in a way that would not be possible without your free will choice that brought this distortion into being. Thus, self-forgiveness looks more and more like the self becoming aware of its true nature as an aspect of the One Infinite Creator containing that Creator in full within your very beingness.

Carla: Does that make it not a good thing to teach? Since it’s going to be natural?

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. The definition of that which is natural is the definition of all that occurs. Thus, to attempt to aid another in the discovery of the path of self-forgiveness is a portion of that entity’s journey which will have the appropriate impact upon the entity and affect it as it is ready and able to be affected.

There is, as you are aware, no mistake that occurs within the life of any seeker, and, indeed, as all are seekers, all that occurs is that which may be used as a teaching device for the perceptive eye and the listening ear.

May we speak to another query, my sister?

Carla: No, thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query?

Questioner: I’ve [been] listening to this and having a lot of thoughts about the neurolinguistic programming model that I’ve been using with myself and with other people. It seems to accelerate this process of self-acceptance and forgiveness of self and others very effectively and beautifully. And I don’t know exactly what question I have about it, accept to ask if you have knowledge of this learning and of how it can best be used and shared, if it might be a valuable thing to share with Carla in relation with her work with other people and her own family, and just in particular, suggestions that would be pertinent to me, as I learn and, one of the—I think that I’ve noticed a certain amount of caution in my approach to sharing this, because it seems to be a very powerful way, and I’m aware of just wanting to be in tune if I’m going to be using that, and in a way I think I think that I need to know more and more to be, I guess, skillful at using it, and yet, listening, I know that I can trust, in fact, do when I work with people, in my prayers and my meditations to be a channel, as I work, for the service of that person, and that what I consciously learn, what I’ve consciously learned to aid in this is always going to be assisted by a power and a knowing beyond that, an ability to help beyond whatever I’ve learned. I don’t know if that’s a question clear enough to be answered or not, or do I need to be more succinct about the question? I asked one earlier, but then I kept talking.

I am Q’uo, and we believe that we have discerned the query that was intended. We are not familiar with the technique of which you speak, though we may suggest that any technique which offers to an entity a model by which it might view the evolutionary process of its own being is a technique which will, indeed, speed this process, for the process of evolution is one which occurs even though an entity be not consciously aware that it occurs. There is a turning point, however, when an entity comes consciously to the recognition that it is, indeed, upon a journey, a journey which will reveal to the self greater portions of the self and of the creation of which it is a part and will allow the entity to make connections between portions of itself and this creation that will enhance its being and its ability to express that which is itself and that which moves in harmony with the self.

Thus, as an entity becomes more consciously aware of a process of evolution, whether this process be described in one language, one structure, one concept, or another, the process of attempting to put a model or a structure to this journey is the beginning of the intensification and the speeding up, shall we say, of the evolutionary journey. As an entity finds that it has success with speeding this process in any degree, it begins to define itself using a broader scope or vision, and allows to itself by this enlarged definition a greater ability to experience and express that which it now sees to be the self. This new experience and expression will allow further refinement of the model, whatever its structure may be.

Thus, there may be within a culture such as your own many, many different models that describe the nature of this process of evolution, the nature of the discovery of greater and greater degrees of the self, shall we say. Whatever the model used, there are entities that may profit from this use and move many steps further upon their journey by such use. As each model becomes refined in a more personal sense, the entity begins to gain what you might call a certain momentum in this journey of seeking. Always and ever, however, is there the ability of the entity, and, indeed, the necessity, for continuing to redefine and refine the perspective, the perception, the means by which the entity structures that which it believes, that which it follows and that idea of the self which it constructs as a kind of stepping stone that will carry it to the next level of understanding, shall we say.

Thus, we can offer no direct suggestions as to whom this may benefit or how the offering of such service to tendered, other than suggesting that your own intuitive abilities will first find whether there be an harmonic resonance, shall we say, at a deeper level of being that may wish to be expressed in a conscious fashion with another entity that may profit from learning a model which you have to share. Thus, we leave such decisions to your own discernment, wishing only to offer the general guidelines for such decision making.

Questioner asked how to best use neurolinguistics programming, which was supposedly helpful in allowing people to forgive and accept themselves. Q’uo said that they were not familiar with neurolinguistics programming, but they suggested that any program that was designed to aid the spiritual journey would be helpful in doing so and would become a tool for expanding one’s definition of the self. Q’uo completed their answer by saying that Questioner should use his own intuition to determine how and when to use neurolinguistics programming to be of service to another. On April 25, 1983, Q’uo describe how the use of intuition aids the intellectual mind:

The general concept is that the intuition shall feed the intellect. For the intuition is connected to that portion of the mind that is unconscious, and is quite infinite in the resources which it contains. It contains the food for thought, shall we say. The intellect then takes this food and arranges this food and arranges it in what you may call a logical fashion, logical perhaps only for a certain entity, yet uses it as a food and expresses certain directions, tendencies and actions according to the arrangement. If the intellect is not fed, then it must operate on, shall we say, an empty stomach. As you are aware, this often hinders the efficiency of any entity’s operation.

May we speak in any further fashion, or to another query, my sister?

Questioner: There’s still a slight question in my mind about my own slowness in spite of what has eventually become a lot that I’ve put into learning and developing my understanding of how to work with this model, and in a way that is individualized both in terms of how beliefs and understanding and in terms of any individual I’d be working with. I, nevertheless, have exhibited a slowness to be very, very active. I offer it out very quietly and almost tentatively, which in a way doesn’t really result in a lot of interaction. And I’ve been sort of relying on the fact that there is an apparent wisdom in this timing, and yet I more and more have a sense that it is time to have more interaction and to be sharing this more, and I’m not quite sure either how to go about it or whether I’m stopping myself in some way, I need to simply encourage myself more?

So the question has to do with my own personal, the word that comes to mind is ambivalence, and how I might speed up the process of sorting out whatever I need to about, that would allow me to go ahead and share this more with other people and just be more clear about the fact, you know, just state that.

I am Q’uo, and in this regard we must speak carefully, that we do not infringe upon the free will of another, for the nature of the query which you have asked is one which is, indeed, personal and is that which benefits most by the introspection that discovers that which is within the being, and we would suggest that the feelings which you have described are those feelings which are most important in the discovery of what action shall be taken by you in your future. The feelings of value attached to the process described must be investigated and the ambivalence connected as is appropriate in those areas where there is doubt. Any art which offers itself to others as a service has value first to the entity which practices it upon the self. As the self experiences that which may be gained from the art, then does the self become convinced of the value, not only to the self, but in a more general [sense] to other selves as well.

Thus, the suggestion that we may make without infringement is that there may, perhaps, be the reevaluation of the effects upon the self of the practice of this particular means of programming the mind to experience new levels of being. Thus, the reevaluation is a process of offering to the self that which, perhaps, shall be offered to others with the self as the, shall we say, guinea pig that first experiences and then re-experiences and discovers those areas which may yet be held in doubt that they may be reaffirmed and reintroduced in the evolution of the self and be made more whole and functional, shall we say.

Is there another query, my sister?

Questioner: No, that’s very helpful, thank you, and confirms my intuitions and extends them. Thank you.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. We feel that this is the appropriate time in this particular session, due to weariness of several gathered, to bring this session to a close. We are most grateful to each present for inviting our presence this evening. It has been a great honor to blend our vibrations with yours, as we each travel the same journey, to walk hand in hand with those who also seek as do we is a joy which we cannot describe, but for which we are most grateful.

At this time we shall take our leave of this instrument and this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I had a zoom meet with a friend that I met in New Zealand in 2018 and then saw again at the Law of One Gathering in Prague in 2019. She currently lives in Malta where she has been active in various spiritual activities like holotropic breath work. She has also been working with sea turtles who come up on the beach to lay their eggs to be sure that no one disturbs them and help them during storms when the waves can wash the eggs out to sea. We had a great time sharing what we have been doing these last few years, and we will probably  meet again in the near future via zoom.

This afternoon I met with a representative of the company that is going to start painting the bricks around the second floor windows, the gutters, the eaves, and the soffits next week. We just took a walk around the house to confirm each portion of the work which will begin Saturday when they will power spray all of the areas to be painted. Later in the afternoon I used my blower to blow the leaves in the front yard into a pile so that I could put them in six garbage cans for yard waste pickup next Thursday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 19

Become Christ To The World

I am the spirit of the ineffable love of Jesus the Christ. I greet you in the full consciousness of love.

When this instrument challenged our presence we, as spirit, said simply, “We are the Christ.” This instrument was surprised. But the principle of love is active and powerful and that which is Christ is wrapped and bound by love ineffable.

Thus he who carries the spirit of Christ carries Christ, and as we are the very principle of this love, so are we Christ too. And now we turn to you with a gift of fire, hoping that the bellows of your conscience and faith cause you also to become Christ, to carry the love of Christ to those whom you meet; to the world that you accept with eyes and ears. May your senses be filled with the full consciousness of love, that you, in turn, may be Christ to the world.

In limitlessness love I leave you in peace, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from February 12, 1989:

This concerns the spirit world and how much of the thoughts that we experience in our daily lives are influenced by the so-called world of spirits, guides, teachers, angelic presences, and so forth? And what is the real difference between whatever influence this supposed other or outer world has and that which we experience interiorly?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. I greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator and share with you the blessing of consciousness. We are most grateful to be able to share consciousness with you at this time, and we find the circle of seeking to be as a lighthouse upon a somewhat turbulent and darksome sea, yet, many, many lighthouses there are. The numbers are increasing, and we are most grateful, and most especially at this very instant of time, as you would call it, to you who seek to know the truth.

You have called us to your group this evening to speak of a subject difficult to speak of because the nature of the integrity of an entity is not understood within your people’s vocabulary. Consequently, we shall be working somewhat athwart of the presumptions which are connotated by many words which can be mistaken within your language, and for this we apologize, but there is no substitute for the language of the entities to whom we speak. We must, indeed, use those words known and attempt to [blend] them as we may, with art.

The entity that each of you is, is much other than you may, perhaps, perceive yourself. The actual portion that is imperishable of your consciousness, that which will take many bodies, that which will learn many things, is not a portion of the self that can be seen or measured or even differentiated from influences upon the subjective experience of the entity. However, the entity remains at the heart of the web of experience, choosing the biases it shall add permanently, or increase once the bias has been added. This is the imperishable self, that is, the infinity of the Creator surrounded by the distortion called free will. This is your consciousness. Your goal as a creative spirit is simply to advance from being a person of free will which wishes to seek the Creator to being a person which experiences a consciousness of the Creator’s presence in the way best understood to the self.

In this context, each and every mundane and daily event is altered because of the contact with the presence of the infinite Father. The manifestations which come from this change in attitude are, perhaps, best described as polarizing strongly along the path of service to others.

Now, we speak first of the true character of each portion of infinite Consciousness, because we now will remove all the structure seemingly from the experience of that metaphysical and perfect creature that you, indeed, are. Each of you is at all times channeling in several different ways. Let us look at them as briefly as we can do this.

Firstly, there is the programming which one chooses as one observes during the younger years of the incarnation. The choosing is that of separating that which will be absorbed and attended to by the conscious mind and rejecting those signals which it is receiving from various points of… we fail to find a word in this instrument’s mind for the various kinds of intentional spreading of various thoughts. However, the process of choosing what one will become aware of is very much affected both by the biases of those which are incarnate and are teachers of the young spirit—the parents, the family in general and the teachers or friends—but also the younger entity is much more aware of the priorities with which it came into incarnation, and is, therefore, even at so young an age, asking for aid in understanding the truth concerning such questions as what is death, and so forth.

Therefore, as the young entity develops its network of noise versus signal decisions which will for the remainder of the incarnation determine what the entity will see and hear and react to, there is much help given, so that even the very, very basic program which runs the computer of the mind has been much aided by spirits both incarnate and discarnate. This continues to be the pattern throughout the incarnation.

Each entity may, if it desires, form a cordial and mutually loving and helpful relationship with any of three guides or angelic presences, as this instrument might call them, which are, in fact, entities which partake to some extent of the self and to some extent of the imperishable greater Self which is the Creator. Some are more comfortable with a guide that is female, seeing that special nurturer as the gateway to the subconscious. Others are, perhaps, happier with the male guide or higher self, as, perhaps, that may have the connotation of good advice and so forth. Others prefer the third guide, which is androgynous in nature and understands each of the sexual polarities without being in a unbalanced or needing relationship, one or the other way. This kind of dispassionate guide is sometimes requested. Each of these are always with each. There is no shortage of available aid, and the ways of requesting it are, in many cases, subconscious. Bringing them into the conscious mind is always recommended if the growth is to be accelerated.

The group question for this session was how much do guides, spirits, and angelic presences influence our daily thoughts, and what is their effect on our spiritual journey? Q’uo began their answer by defining our true being as that of the Creator which, through our free will choices, manifests the consciousness of the seeker of truth. However, as we begin our incarnations in our younger years we begin to discover what we will focus our consciousness on is according to how we are taught by parents, teachers, and friends. Then Q’uo said that as we mature we may also receive assistance from our female guide which is nurturing and provides contact with the subconscious mind. We may also receive assistance from our male guide, or higher self, which offers good advice and direction. Lastly, we may have contact with our androgynous guide which has a more unified conceptualization of the male and female natures. On November 27, 2010, Q’uo gave a general description as to how our inner guides may provide assistance in our spiritual growth:

Each of you is possessed of a physical body and a body connected with each chakra. This gives you a sensitive and complex set of vehicles which express various levels of your energy. Further, you have access to guidance and help from your higher self, from those angels and inner guides who have been attracted to you because of your spiritual essence, and from Spirit as a whole. That is to say that the entire universe vibrates in sympathy with you. And depending upon that which you choose upon which to expend your energy, the creation itself responds to that expenditure of energy with an answer that is in harmony and congruent with your energy.

Once one has begun to accelerate the program of spiritual growth, there are many, many others which may become attracted to the entity. These are some of what you would call inner plane entities, that is, those who have completed their work in your illusion of third density, but have elected to remain behind to encourage and inspire those who wish to graduate into the density of love and compassion at the end of this particular lifetime. These are available by request, and are heard, by those who do not have the refined psychic ability, best in the dreaming process where, when one approaches the sleeping state one simply places oneself within a tuned and protected atmosphere, and protecting the physical vehicle with the crossed hands and the crossed legs, or legs together, invites the teachers of the appropriate vibration to express to you within the dreaming state that which you truly wish to work with, to grasp, and to begin to understand.

Then Q’uo said that as we become able to accelerate our  spiritual growth we may also attract entities of the inner planes  that may come to us in dreams to give us messages that will help us as well. Q’uo suggested that we protect ourselves by crossing our legs or hands while sleeping, but to me this seems unnecessary and also difficult to accomplish while sleeping. On September 26, 1977, Hatonn spoke of some of these entities that work with us in dreams:

In actuality, your consciousness is being taught by your teachers during sleep. And quite often, if you are very careful to keep records of your dreams, you will begin to consciously remember at least part of these lessons. This is most valuable to you and it is worth attempting to discover by means of keeping records of your dreams.

There are also those whom we may call the loyal opposition, those negative entities which are always drawn to one who is attempting to polarize [on the] service-to-others path. In brief, the ways of observing temptations being offered to one are simple. First, the temptation shall be power. That temptation has subtleties. There are different forms of power. It is helpful, perhaps, to look at the holy work this instrument calls the Bible in which the one known as Jesus the Christ was said to have been tempted by the devil in the wilderness. We do not verify the existence of the devil, but feel that there is a good parable to be told here. That is that the temptations were, first, the power to create food and have it to be eaten. This would indicate to the supposed devil that the one known as Jesus was, indeed, the Son of the one Creator. This was a temptation which the one known as Jesus refused. When one is in the position of impressing another, it is well in a metaphysical sense to understate the impressive fact, and, indeed, to be quite hesitant, shall we say, to manipulate others with such information.

Another temptation is that of kingdom and there are many, many kingdoms. Manipulation is [as] subtle in the kingdom of the home as your Machiavelli, as this instrument remembers the name, was in the history of Italy. In the parable we have been speaking of, the one known as Jesus was offered all the kingdoms of the Earth if he would worship someone else besides the one infinite Creator. This also was a temptation that the one known as Jesus avoided. Temptations of kingdom are indeed to be avoided, and when one perceives that one has power over another, one needs to speak with that other in such a way that the power is in some way limited and the other has some rightful voice, no matter what the relationship.

The third temptation which keeps an entity from the spiritual path of good suggestions is that of glory. In the parable, the one known as Jesus was offered the chance to leap from the top of the temple in Jerusalem so that angels would catch the one known as Jesus and set him safely upon the ground, thus glorifying the Father. The response that the one known as Jesus gave was, “Thou shalt not test the Lord, thy God.” When things go poorly for an entity, it is then that this particular temptation encourages negative entities to speak to you in ways which seem to be persuasive, and we suggest to you that it is not helpful to rail, become upset with, become mad at or test the Creator. It is far, far more along the lines of service to others to have faith and abide in the faith that whatever is occurring to you is appropriate in order to teach a lesson which, though it may be challenging, will in the end be fruitful.

Q’uo also mentioned that the spiritual seeker may encounter negative entities who offer various kinds of temptations of power, possessions, or glory aimed at distracting the seeker from further evolution in the positive sense. In 44.10, Ra gave us the process to use in dealing with negative entities and their psychic greetings:

Questioner: This is very revealing to us. Thank you. Each of us gets the signals and dreams. I have been aware of clairaudient communication at least once in waking up. Can you suggest a method whereby we might, shall I say, nullify the effect of the influence that we don’t want from a negative source?

Ra: I am Ra. There are various methods. We shall offer the most available or simple. To share the difficult contact with the other-selves associated with this working and to meditate in love for these senders of images and light for self and other-selves is the most available means of nullifying the effects of such occurrences. To downgrade these experiences by the use of intellect or the disciplines of will is to invite the prolonging of the effects. Far better then to share in trust such experiences and join hearts and souls in love and light with compassion for the sender and armor for the self.

Now, we have covered the fact that you are virtually soaked through with the channeling of entities besides the consciousness that is yourself. Do not let this cause any to be concerned that the entity is any the less. This is not so. Help is simply there, because the lessons that all of us are attempting to learn have to do with service. And because we cannot serve an infinite intelligence which we cannot ever see, because we cannot manifest a mystery, we must turn to the Creator in awe, and to serve the Creator, we must serve you. Indeed, it aids us greatly to serve you, and we would not have you think that we are noble, for this is our path of learning and growing and refining our wisdom in compassionate service to the one infinite Creator.

In some, there is no time when an entity is not channeling. There is no time when an entity’s thoughts can be said to be purely and specifically based upon the conscious thinking processes of the entity. Each entity has many, many influences upon the psyche, both discarnate and incarnate, which form the consciousness itself which takes up and attends to the structure, the fabric, the resonance as you perceive it.

Now, my friends, if you wish to alter your perceptions of reality to a more strongly affirmative and positive level, it is necessary to move into not only programs which move from the first program, that is, the attending program, one also must move into that metaprogram, that great program which lies behind the others and gives one the material for one’s other perceptions and realizations.

If you wish to alter your perception of reality, it is well that thoughts be examined for associations and relationships that do not make logical sense. In the tracing of triggers for illogic lies much self-understanding, and, therefore, an increased ability to alter the basic program which chooses that which you will perceive. This work is best done, as always, in an atmosphere of meditation on a daily basis, and, perhaps, a period of reflection or meditation at the end of any given day, so that one may work with one’s own subjective material in one’s own way, be it serious, humorous or a mixture of the two. That, too, is a portion of programming which you may wish to change. We do recommend inserting as much humor into the biases of the personality as possible, for that light touch will hold you in good stead as you weave your way through the many, many ways of channeling the love and light of the one infinite Creator.

Q’uo concluded their thoughts about how we can receive guidance on our spiritual journeys from unseen presences by saying that Q’uo attempts to serve the Creator as they offer service to us. They also suggested that we utilize the metaprogram in the meditative state that will aid us in perceiving the larger picture of how humor helps us to channel the love and light of the one infinite Creator as we move forward on our spiritual journeys. On March 31, 1996, Q’uo spoke of how to use meditation in the meditative state to enhance the spiritual journey:

There are true states of emotions that have purity and clarity and the self that is the citizen of the stars swims within this infinite sea of feeling, and that which is felt is automatically seen with thanksgiving for this is the way of love itself.

This consciousness does not work upon a particular tape or a particular problem. One could look at this consciousness that is infinite as a metaprogram that the computer that is the living mind can access by opening certain doors between the conscious and deep mind. Each is familiar with our constant recommendations for periods of meditation and contemplation within each daily period. Within those times of silence within, the Creator speaks those words that have no words, those thoughts that have no concept. And yet, because they move from Love itself, when invited they come into the interior conscious life with healing in their hands.

We wish you the luck of your endeavor, and perhaps more than anything, we know and hope that you realize once again that we are, as you, seekers upon a path. We have our opinions, but we do not have irrefutable knowledge; if we did, we would tell you so. Therefore, we simply ask that anything which may help or inspire be kept, and anything which does not seem to be your own truth be left behind.

At this time, we would transfer to the one known as Jim, that he may conclude this session. I am of those known to you as Q’uo.

This morning I went out to Gary and Trish’s house to spend some time with their cat, Squash, as Trish’s mom and dad, who had been staying in the house for the last week, left Monday. On my way back home I stopped by Hometown Pizza and picked up a pizza for lunch.

This afternoon  I used my big mower, Venus, to mow the grass and crunch the leaves in the back yard.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 18

Claim Your Birthright

Greetings in the love of Christ. I am of the principle of that consciousness which is Christhood, in the vibration which comforts this instrument.

Although it is well that you gaze searchingly on each face of Christ which you meet in your daily round of activities and experience, it is better for you to be inspired by these exaggerated delineations of the characteristics of love, turning from them to a truer expression of that love in Christ.

For to call your experiences by their true name is to bless them and own them, claiming them as part of your birthright. For you and they and all that is are not only created by God, but are of God, and to behold your likeness is far more blessed than all the careful judgments you may make, wise though those judgments may be.

The consciousness of Christ is the consciousness of love, that love which creates, Christ being the truest expression of that potent quality in your waking consciousness. Turn you, then, to that source of light and let love illumine all the facets of your life.

 Peace be with you, now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from January 1, 1989:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our privilege to ask if we might respond to any queries which remain upon the minds of those gathered this evening.

T: Yes, I have a question. This maybe—I don’t know, it almost seems like what we’re doing here right now, channeling—but my question is, could you comment on spirit guides and how do you know when what you’re seeming to be getting is real, other than it just feels right. That may be the answer. Anyway, would you comment, please?

I am Q’uo, and we are happy to speak to this subject, my brother. Indeed, we know of no way that the contact with those entities which you call the spirit guides can be proven in an unshakable way, for all that is of value, in our opinion, within your illusion, rests within the boundaries of mystery. And when one attempts to grasp firmly any concept or quality of value, such as purity, truth, beauty, goodness, mercy, forgiveness, one moves through the quality and discovers that there is nothing that can be known without doubt.

We are in agreement, my brother, that the most helpful means for giving assurance to the seeker that a communication has occurred betwixt it and those who watch over its evolutionary process may be determined through the feeling that is the response from the seeker when it has felt or become aware of a communication, whether that communication is understandable or not, for many times there are communications that are not perceived by the seeker that come from those entities that have the honor and the responsibility of serving as the guide or teacher in an unseen manner for the incarnate third density entity. Indeed, there are many, many experiences which each of you undergo each of your days which have been touched and guided by those unseen spirits that are ever-watchful [for] the opportunity to present the student with an illustration, an inspiration, a guiding hand, a warning whisper. There are many times that the coincidences of one’s life pattern become more apparent and the seeker then will begin to wonder to itself if there might be a larger hand within the plan of the daily round of activities.

Again, from time to time when the moment is appropriate for the seeker’s growth, there may be given to the seeker a confirmation of one kind or another that is given by those we are calling guides. The book or person or event that is placed within the seeker’s notice at the appropriate moment is the most usual means by which such guidance occurs, for within the life pattern of each seeker, there are, shall we say, imbedded or programmed the opportunities that will open a new avenue of seeking, perhaps of serving, always of learning. And these avenues are oftentimes triggered, shall we say, by a combination of events which are both rooted within this illusion and without this illusion, as the preincarnative choices of the seeker meet the opportunities that have had the guiding hand propel them in just such a manner that the desired meeting then occurs, and from this point, the free will of the seeker to respond is paramount, and at this point, it is the seeker itself which proceeds upon this particular portion of the journey, having previously set the groundwork, shall we say, and prepared the self for the reception of certain impulses or ideas that will then become seeds that will produce a continuing interest in the seeker.

The question was how do we know when we are receiving a message from our guides other than it just feels right. Q’uo affirmed the sense of feeling of rightness as one good indication that the message has come from one’s guides. But they also said that no communication from a guide can be proven and, in fact, many communications are not in words but seeming coincidences of events, books, and people that the seeker experiences at the right time on its spiritual journey. Q’uo completed their response by saying that even pre-incarnative events can be used in some fashion by guides to aid the seeker on its chosen path. On September 22, 2009, Q’uo gave a detailed description of our guidance system:

This higher self is joined by at least three angelic entities. This instrument calls [two of] these angelic entities the Holy Spirit in his male and female aspect. Others consider the angelic entities to be gurus or literally angels. Some entities who are seeking to serve the light collect about them as many as a dozen angelic presences or more, all of whom wish to support and encourage that service to the light which the seeker has undertaken within incarnation.

This service is not necessarily an outer service. Many are those who create that portal within themselves which holds a space wherein light may come through from those realms of pure love into third density. This is a great service in itself and may be offered by a seeker in any condition of life whatever.

The spiritual principle involved in seeking one’s guidance is that which can be called faith. Faith is often misunderstood among your peoples for they confuse faith with belief. Belief is always belief in something; perhaps a creed or a system of tenets that form a dogmatic system. A believer believes specific points or speaks to a specific creed.

Faith, on the other hand, has no content. It contains no knowledge. It is an attitude. It is the attitude that knows beyond doubt, regardless of the circumstances, that all is well. And the entity who is living a life in faith cannot be daunted by circumstance. Faith is an attitude which assumes that the infinite Creator, the higher self, and that self which planned this incarnation before taking flesh have provided ample opportunities for learning and for service.

May we speak in any further fashion, my brother?

T: No, thank you, that’s fine. Thank you very much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my brother. Is there another query?

Carla: I had a couple. One was about the term, metaprogram. I haven’t run into it before, and I was thinking about physics versus metaphysics. Unfortunately, the only reason it was called metaphysics was that the books were next to the physics books on the shelf, and meta is Greek for “next,” and it was named that at Alexandria, so that doesn’t make too much sense. But I think meta means sort of “beside,” okay, so you’re saying metaprogram, so it’s a program beside that program which is in our conscious mind, so I was thinking, well, what would that be? And then I thought, well, it’s the computer that makes up our computer, that puts the stuff in our computer in the first place. Like, if we changed the metaprogram, the program would change in a lot of different, subtle ways, because it would be changing our basic biases, and that would mean that the metaprogram was that personality of ours that does survive, and it’s the personality of the spirit. Now, do you have any comments on any of these things? Am I in any way correct? Or what is a metaprogram, as opposed to a program, in the mind?

I am Q’uo, and if we have perceived your query correctly, we would equate the metaprogram with the preincarnative choices that have been chosen by each seeker, that there may be the opportunities for learning and then the reciprocal opportunities for serving according to that which has been learned in the life pattern. The programming of such opportunities consists, in general, in the imbedding, shall we say, of certain biases with the subconscious mind and in the conscious mind, when helpful, as well, that will allow opportunities of a certain nature to occur when these biases come in contact with a certain set of circumstances.

For example, if an entity has, for a number of its incarnations, concerned itself with the concept of abundance and its opposite, that being the seeming lack of abundance, then the degree of progress, shall we say, that has been achieved in the mental attitude that sees some degree of abundance or lack of abundance within all situations will be triggered when there is the coincidence of a situation where there is the need for enough of one quality or another, substance or another, to be present within the life pattern for the seeker to feel a certain degree of satisfaction or comfort or the feeling that it is cared for, provided for, and is secure.

Thus, as the seeker moves through various circumstances where it finds itself in need of more of a quality or commodity, then will its programming be triggered so that its attitude will be brought to bear upon the situation which is, in itself, relatively neutral, the coloration of an emotional nature coming primarily from the subconscious mind, according to the program of the seeker.

Thus, the metaprogram, or preincarnative choice, will allow the seeker to pursue the degree of balance that it has chosen previous to the incarnation, and to continue refining, or in many cases, simply approaching, this degree of balance that will allow the seeker to achieve the goal which it has set for itself prior to the incarnation.

Carla’s basic question was what is a metaprogram (as she had just channeled that concept from Q’uo) as opposed to a program in the mind. Q’uo suggested that metaprogramming was pre-incarnatively chosen goals that would balance experiences from previous incarnations such as abundance and lack of abundance. And the subconscious mind of the seeker would bias how the seeker perceived its life experiences in accordance with its pre-incarnative choices. In 94.11, Ra spoke to this biasing of catalyst, or experience, by the subconscious mind:

Questioner: I have drawn a small diagram in which I simply show an arrow which represents catalyst penetrating a line at right angles to the arrow, which is the veil, and then depositing in one of two repositories, one which I would call on the right-hand path, one on the left-hand path; and I have labeled these two repositories for the catalytic action as it’s filtered through the veil “the Experience.” Would this be a very rough analogy of the way the catalyst is filtered through the veil to become experience?

Ra: I am Ra. Again, you are partially correct. The deeper biases of a mind/body/spirit complex pilot the catalyst around the many isles of positivity and negativity as expressed in the archipelago of the deeper mind. However, the analogy is incorrect in that it does not take into account the further polarization which most certainly is available to the conscious mind after it has perceived the partially polarized catalyst from the deeper mind.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

Carla: If you would, I have another completely different question. Thank you for the answer to that one. I’ll enjoy reading it. The other question, I’m honestly a little bit baffled by, because I got a Christmas card from a perfectly lovely lady, but she does something that has through the years irritated me more and more every time, and I guess I’m just getting old and judgmental. But she’s a perfectly well-grown-up woman, and instead of saying, “A relationship I’d put a lot in on failed, but I was really lucky; I fell in love with somebody else that same year,” she had to say that she had done a great deal of work with this wonderful person, but that they had talked together and decided that their work during this incarnation had come to an end, and so they blessed each other and went their separate ways.

And there’s a lot of that sort of thing going around, where people try to take every single bit of guilt or wrongdoing off of people leaving each other. And they just don’t accept the fact that there’s been a failure of any kind. They figure, well, they just had all these different people that they had karmic ties with, that they had to clean up in one incarnation, and that’s why they’ve been sluts or womanizers or whatever, and it just never did ring true to me, cause it seemed to me that what somebody was doing was just doing the same lesson over and over and over again, and it didn’t seem to me to be like cleaning up karma at all; it seemed to me to be like making the same error or failing each and every time and not owning up to it. And I need to write people like this with compassion, because a lot of people that I speak with talk with this sort of vocabulary, and I’d really appreciate your showing me where I’ve gone off the track.

I am Q’uo, and am aware of your query, my sister. May we begin by reminding each present that no matter what the lesson that is attempted during any incarnation within your third-density illusion, each is attempted imperfectly, each is imperfectly perceived, and each is only approached in the ideal, to some degree or another. For within your illusion, it is not possible, as far as we are aware, that one may become absolutely certain, without any shadow of doubt, as to the true nature of any particular lesson, for the mystery of the Creator is great enough to encompass all that is known or thought, and to provide yet further layers of understanding to those who persevere past certainty within their own mind, past achieving what they feel is complete. For, within your illusion of limits there exists the infinite quality of each concept that each seeker has built the incarnation out of. There is the possibility for each seeker, then, to pursue any lesson or any service in an infinitely refined manner, and to continually learn more from every opportunity that it encounters, to learn more upon reflection, to learn more upon future application, to learn more within the silence of the self in meditation, to learn more within the face of each fellow seeker that one greets within the daily round of activities.

You have in your recent experience encountered this communication that has for you brought to your mind a particular quality of relationship and responsibility that stands first within your experience as that which deserves care, honor, work and commitment. These are qualities in your own experience which you have found to hold a certain charge, shall we say.

Before we continue, we find that we must pause in order that this instrument utilize the recording devices. We shall pause. We are those of Q’uo.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and am again with this instrument. We shall continue. We were attempting to illustrate the response which we gave to the previous query, that being that the preincarnative choices or programs will allow the seeker to experience a triggering mechanism upon the encountering of certain situations, which of themselves are a neutral nature, shall we say, the bias coming from the subconscious and conscious minds of the seeker. Thus, upon the reception of the communication concerning relationship, it was your experience that your dedication to getting one’s utmost effort to the constructing and maintaining of the relationship then was triggered. For another with less dedication in this particular area, there may have been little, if any, emotional response to that particular communication.

Thus does each seeker pursue a path that wends its way through experiences according to the programmings that it has provided itself and according to the guidance that it receives in a loving and wise manner from those unseen spirits whose hands yet ever enfold the seeker within their protective and nurturing grasp. We would recommend that when you desire to communicate to others your experience or understanding of any quality or concept, whether it be of relationships, of commitment, of seeking, of desire, or of whatever nature, that you give fully and wholly of yourself with as much clarity as is possible and also with the qualification that that which you give is your opinion and your learning, for it is a dynamic process that one is engaged in as one pursues the path of the seeker of truth, and this dynamism is a fundamental necessity for one who would teach and instruct others, for if one teaches what one is learning, then one is engaged in a living and growing process, rather than the recapitulation of dead facts which have little bearing upon one’s life experience.

It is helpful also to make the qualification to any who would seek to hear what you have to say in these areas that the opinion is that which you share, and that it may not be completely appropriate for another being, but that you have found it thus and such in your own life experience. Therefore, you may speak with as great a degree of commitment and passion as you feel, without fearing that you shall, in your passion and, perhaps, in your eloquence, overwhelm another and divert its free will in a manner which is not appropriate for its own incarnational pattern.

Carla asked what is the problem with people who fail at one relationship after another because they keep making the same mistakes over and over and never clean up their karma, and how should she work with them. Q’uo began their reply by saying that no lesson of one’s incarnation is ever clearly perceived or learned because the mystery of the Creator is infinite. Then Q’uo mentioned that Carla should simply speak her mind clearly according to what she had learned about relationships, but also make it clear that this was her opinion only so that she does not infringe upon the person’s free will.  On May 15, 1993, Q’uo spoke of how it is helpful to speak clearly one’s thoughts while observing the free will of others:

Such a configuration of energy is then experienced by the seeker in a manner which promotes the clear communication of the self with the self and with other selves, accepting the self and other selves and freely expressing the self to all which surround the self. In this manner the giving of freedom and acceptance to others springs from the giving of freedom and acceptance to the self for you are also a mirror and reflect that which is your being to those about you.

Therefore, as you seek to move freely along your path of evolution, you shall also give that freedom to others and shall inspire such freedom to those who come in contact with you.

May we speak in any further way, my sister?

Carla: You did exactly grasp the thrust of my concern. I would just finish up by asking you if you would accept that work in consciousness, or indigo ray work, is basically metaprogramming? Is it a congruency of terms there?

I am Q’uo, and we would agree, in general, with the use of these terms, for the metaprogram is the program which has as its goal or its essence that which is somewhat hidden by its mechanics or its technique. Therefore, the factors which may be necessary in order for a program to be set in motion are more mechanical [in] nature than is the desired outcome from the setting into motion of the program. Therefore, the work in consciousness that is attempted is a work which one must diligently seek more as, shall we say, an aftereffect, having discovered that the outcome of a certain series of events was greater, shall we say, than was first noticed or presumed.

Therefore, it is often the case that the more diligent seeker will continue to look at what has been learned in any experience, so that the first fruits of that experience, then, are not the only fruits and, perhaps, not the central fruits that were possible in the experience. One who continues in this way to assess, to meditate upon that which has been learned, will find that not only are there layers of learning leading to the heart of the learning, but that there are correlations and extrapolations that may be found and applied in other portions of the life experience that were, perhaps, not seen to have a connection to the experience just completed and that which is being pondered. Therefore, the life experience of the more diligent seeker will become more unified in that each lesson, each experience will have a more universal application within the life pattern.

Then Carla asked if work in consciousness, or the indigo ray, was metaprogramming. Q’uo basically agreed with Carla but added that the metaprogramming has a goal that is somewhat hidden by its techniques of implementation and also because there are layers of learning that may be related to other experiences in the life. So as the learning of the seeker progresses “each experience will have a more universal application within the life pattern.” On June 22, 1980, Latwii revealed how metaprogramming may manifest as a universal principle in the seeker’s life:

However, in some instances the faculty of will is developed in the individual and in those cases the mind is able to impress its own metaprogramming much more carefully over the basic metaprogramming of third-density survival mechanisms. Any changes in metaprogramming will be developed and successfully completed by the use of the will.

As you sit here this evening you are exercising the faculty of will. It has been written, “Seek and ye shall find, ask and it shall be opened unto you.” The will is that faculty of seeking, desiring and wishing. When it is developed to perfection, the will of the individual becomes the will of the Creator and you become a clear channel so that you may function through your mind and not through the lower programmings.

May we speak in any further fashion, my sister?

Carla: Not tonight, thank you. I feel the instrument’s probably pretty tired. I really appreciate your answers. Thank you so much.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and it appears that we have, indeed, exhausted the queries for the evening, and we would like to thank each present for inviting us to share our opinions with each of you, for it is in this manner that we discover more of that which you seek and find valuable in your life patterns. And by observing and partaking in this process of sharing, we are also able to find that which is of value in our own life patterns. We cannot thank you enough for your generosity in continuing to open yourselves to our words and our thoughts. We would remind each, as always, that we offer that which is our opinion, that which has been found to be useful in our own life journeys. We do not wish any word to offer a stumbling block to any other seeker. Take those words which have value to you and leave those which do not.

At this time we would take our leave of this group, again thanking each for inviting our presence. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. We leave you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

This morning I ran some errands with my first stop being at Feeder’s Supply to buy some cat food. My next stop was at PNC Bank to make a cash withdrawal. My last stop was at Walgreen’s where I bought some Pepsi, ice cream and non-food items.

This afternoon the freezer that I bought at Lowe’s yesterday was delivered, and I had the fellows put it in the basement where the old freezer used to be. I got it out of its shipping box, and then plugged it in for future use. Then I used my backpack blower to blower the leaves from the Tulip Poplar tree in the back yard into a pile so that I could put them in garbage cans for yard waste pickup Thursday.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 17

Signposts Of Joy

I am the spirit of that consciousness which is the Christ held sacred by you. We greet you in the love of Christ.

It is not only in good circumstances that the Comforter is available to those who seek inspiration but in those perceived as difficult as well. It is well to turn to the inspiration of godly things, eschewing attachment to the transient joys of the day in exchange for fuller and deeper understanding of the greater good and the spiritual essence of mundane happiness.

For happiness as well as sorrow is a state of mind peculiar to an illusion in which your consciousness is impinged upon by all of those distractions of the senses which please and cloy.

View pleasure, then, with the same eye with which you view pain, not disowning your senses but rather appreciating them as signposts of a deeper, spiritual joy.

May the peace of the consciousness of love be with you now and always.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from January 1, 1989:

No matter what the sophisticated or old-fashioned method of consciousness expansion a person tries, what spiritual growth really seems to boil down to is a lot of trial and error and being able to deal with a lot of disappointment when we see ourselves fall short of our ideals. Would you speak to the idea that there really don’t seem to be any shortcuts in spiritual growth, and to the part that disappointment and faith play in the path of the seeker of truth?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. Greetings in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator, on whose behalf we have been called here to manifest those thoughts of love and light that may perhaps find a ready listening ear, so that we may be of some small service. For this to be possible is the height of our hope at this particular point in our development, and we cannot thank you enough for enabling us to speak through this instrument.

Upon this subject, the subject of the spiritual journey, [it] is one which we could begin speaking of in one way, find another way of gazing at the same experience, and in always relevant fashion we would be unable to exhaust the ways in which one may gaze at and imagine the true structure of the spiritual journey. That is, there is nothing particularly spiritual about the journey. It, like any other ordeal, is a matter of certain, shall we say, natural laws with the ever-balancing axis at ninety degrees, always, to those laws of the unpredictability of free will.

But this evening you have chosen to gaze at the spiritual journey in terms of time commitment, in terms of whether by taking thought one might accelerate the pace of spiritual growth. My children, if we of Q’uo did not believe that it were possible to accelerate the spiritual growth of careful and persistent students by means of inspirational messages, we would not be working with this instrument, for it is no part of our intention to waste our time. However, the truth is that it is extremely possible; that is, it is possible in almost any degree desired by the entity to accelerate the pace of spiritual growth. The difficulty from within the illusion is that a particularly difficult manifestation of accelerated spiritual growth is emotional pain, irritation with oneself for having failed, and other negative emotions.

The extremely simple reason for the seeming paradox is that in times of greatly accelerated growth, large-scale changes are being made in the road map of various portions of the program and metaprogram of the mind, and, especially when these changes have reached the initiatory or metaprogrammic phase, many, many feelings, actions and so forth will seem to have been those of an oversensitive, immature and imbalanced person. This person will consider itself the least of all those who seek, for it is not manifesting cheerfulness, gaiety, merriment and freedom, but, rather, suffering under a burden.

However, when the memory has wound its golden bands about these times, and that which you call time has elapsed so that one may gaze back upon that golden-shrouded memory, one may see again and again the rapidity of growth side by side and inexorably tied to the most nauseating and humiliating of failures. It is for this reason that within the illusion it is most often felt that there are no short cuts, and that one must simply bumble along by trial and error.

In point of fact, when working with the deeper programming of the metaconsciousness, the movement of feeling within may be in such a powerful way that it may seem irresistible and perhaps counter to usual politeness. These expressions, however, are to be credited as part of the mind, not part of something called hysteria or emotions, but rather those times when the metaprogram has once and for all time changed a deep, deep program. There will be some sort of release from such a deep change that you do not understand it, and the fact that you may, perhaps, be disappointed in yourself must be accepted by you as a condition of your attempt to live a life based upon the faith that there is, indeed, a kindly Creator, a Creator made of love, which loved us first, and to Whom our response is faith.

The group question for this session was could Q’uo confirm that there are no shortcuts on the spiritual path, and what role do disappointment and faith play in the spiritual journey. Q’uo began their response by saying that, actually, there was nothing particularly spiritual about the spiritual journey as it was a function of what Q’uo called “natural laws” which were often applied at ninety degrees from normal expectations by the exercise of free will which could interpret them variously. Then Q’uo said that great spiritual growth was possible but often was the product of many self-perceived failures and a great deal of suffering. Q’uo affirmed that there truly are no shortcuts and that one must use the mind to continue to have faith that change will come from one’s suffering. Eventually, changes do come from a deep level within one’s being that lets us know that there is the Creator of Love which supports us at all times. On June 24, 2005, Q’uo shared the path to growth that leads through suffering:

If you use the gifts of your own thoughts to examine them and when you begin to see a pattern then to move into that pattern with an eye to working with it, then you begin to see that most suffering is a series of triggers that you have allowed to be imbedded deep within you so that when something happens on the surface it creates a reaction that is greater than it deserves. Look for those inappropriately large reactions and responses. Look for the hidden triggers that mask the suffering that lies deep within.

And then gently, ever so gently, a little bit each day, go after those triggers. See what you can do to mine them for the treasure that they represent. For they represent parts of yourself, and the infinite hall of mirrors that other selves represent, that you have taken into yourself in a distorted and untrue fashion. Bring them gently to the surface. Look carefully at them and begin to forgive the other person and yourself for the damage that has been incorporated within your being as a falsehood that need not exist.

Let the healing of your suffering begin. Let the healing of your incarnation begin so that you can, as this instrument said earlier, stand on your own two feet and look the world in the face, saying, “I know I make many mistakes. I am heavily flawed. Sue me. This is who I am and I am still ready to explore the possibility that love is the answer to all suffering.” Lift up off the cross of thinking it is necessary. Realize it is a training aid. When the training aid is no longer necessary, then you may spend your time rejoicing and giving thanks.

Now, with those things said about the difficulties of progression and the lack of shortcuts being incorrect, let us say that a person does, indeed, use tools to move himself toward such a time of vision, a time of initiation, a time of change and metamorphosis. A person may use the techniques of deprivation known in many, many systems of expression toward the infinite Creator—the fasting, the changing of the daily routine to one of silence and devotion. All those daily acts of meditation and worship, whether it be for a moment or for a minute or for an hour, in their dailyness they keep you, the pilgrim soldier, upon the road. You are battling something you may well call disappointment. We would prefer to call it the uninformed intellectual mind. Your minds, my children, are very, very full of those opinions based only upon what this instrument would call conventional wisdom. Within your heart are stored the natural laws. It is well to know how to act lawfully within your society. It is well to act lawfully within that society.

It is also extremely well for you as a spiritual self to know who you are and who that individual that carries you around is. This is most important to you. If you do not know the large bipedal animal upon which you so depend, if you do not appreciate it, provide well for it, accept it, nurture it, and take care of it, then you as a consciousness will find it more and more difficult to spend intensity and time upon the spiritual search.

So, let yourself be the nurturer of yourself. When you are disappointed in yourself, let your nurturing self remember that you are only disappointed within the illusion. You have no idea, my children, of what a blessing your hopes, your intentions, and your ideals are. The light of those ideals is the light of your planet. Your zest for truth, your fidelity to the Creator, your living by faith and never by words; these things go beyond that self that carries you about. These things are what you really are: a being of faith. In times of disappointment, allow that being to nurture, protect, comfort and soothe you, for it is difficult to move quicker than the body is ready to go, than the mind is ready to move. It is a hard thing to change, and, indeed, it should be carefully resisted. Each change should be seen, considered and approved by your discriminating and entire self, a self always informed and centered by daily meditation.

Q’uo went on to say that if we continue to use tools such as meditation, fasting, prayers,  silence, and worship we can begin to bring about a kind of initiation or transformation. However, while these practices are being utilized Q’uo suggested that we will still need to deal with disappointment and suffering by realizing that they are part of the illusion of third density and by nurturing ourselves with our true nature as being that of faith, holding high ideals, and fidelity to the Creator. Then we can welcome change carefully through meditation throughout the entire process of transformation.  On January 12, 2008, Q’uo revealed the nature of transformation:

It is ironic, is it not, that in the search for truth the answers lie not in discovering that which can be known, but in discovering that the secrets to the mystery of transformation lie in unknowing and faith. Faith is the most powerful force in the universe, it being another name for realized or positively realized love. You live in a universe made of Love. The original Thought was a Thought of unconditional Love.

As you transform, the core of your transformation is an awareness that has not been there before about the nature of your central or deepest self as being part of Love itself or the creative principle, which is the one great original Thought of unconditional Love.

As you become full of new information that brings you to a place of transformation, you suddenly discover that you are no longer full. You discover that this very fullness and sense of new life tips you into the corresponding and balancing awareness of oneself as knowing nothing. It is a devastating portion of transformation, this realization that nothing is known and that nothing can be known within the illusions of the Earth world.

Yet as one moves through that which has been called the Purgative Way, one becomes aware that one is utterly empty. And there is a kind of purity in that emptiness that is powerful. You become the Holy Grail which you seek because you are that cup which is now empty or that hand outstretched which has nothing in it, ready to receive that which is new, that which comes from the great original Thought to transform you as a creature so that you have become that which is new.

To sum up, my children, each of you has spent many years accelerating the course of spiritual growth. Each of you has seen the most fruits come into manifestation in the midst of iniquity, error, mistake after mistake, and self-perceived sin. Each is able to see that compassion has grown during pain, beyond one’s limits, and beyond the pale of that which would not disappoint one. Yes, you shall disappoint yourself again and again, and may we say, the more you disappoint yourself, the more you are trying to do, and the more we salute your brave spirit. Never, ever, allow the words that your mind can create to attack your faith and your hope that all that is painful will also be fruitful, and all that is difficult will also become that which is golden, that which brings the compassion to the heart, the understanding to the mind. For at the end of each and every failure, at the end of each and every limitation, once accepted and forgiven, can the self find the corresponding compassion for that same limitation in each and every other human being which it encounters in the same situation.

May you grow sweeter through adversity, and, most of all, may we say perhaps our greatest hint to you, as those who would like to continue speeding up the rate of acceleration or growth spiritually, learn to work as hard during those times perceived as positive as those times perceived as negative, and the negative events shall not need to occur.

In order to gain from the positive, one must do what would be impossible were not one familiar with negativity, that is, one must push against one’s own standards of excellence, attempting at all times to give more and more praise to the Creator, more and more of one’s conscious hours, attempting more and more, in moving into the sleep pattern, to program the self for the learning, and the setting of new metaprograms closer to the one great original Thought. Do these things faithfully. Work during the easy, the happy, the contented, and the peaceful times, and your lives shall become ever more peaceful and contented. The work must be done, my children. You have designed this into your incarnations. You yourselves will judge yourselves at the end. Yes, it shall be as the greater Self, but it shall be you, specifically and personally, that must riffle the pages of this incarnation.

Claim your disappointments now. Face them and learn from them and grow sweet with compassion. In this way, may the disappointment at seeming failure become, appropriately and in a balanced fashion, appreciation of and forgiveness of one’s limitations, of the history and the tracks of one’s change into an impersonal source of love. Then when, without the veil, you stand and gaze upon your life you shall see that you were aware, that there is no such thing as Earthly disappointment, but only the sounds, the experiences, the side products, the pain, and the difficulties of transformation. May you intend always the highest and best that you know, and may each limitation, disappointment and seeming failure become for you the opportunity of self-forgiveness, appreciation of yourself, and the nurturing of your growing spirit.

Q’uo ended their response to how disappointment and failure are an integral portion of our spiritual journey by saying as we process these difficult times we eventually see how compassion and forgiveness for ourselves has begun growing in our hearts. This allows us to have forgiveness and compassion for others as well. Q’uo also suggested that we use the happy and positive times to set our standards of seeking to serve the Creator more and more fully. Then Q’uo suggested that at the end of our incarnations, when the veil of forgetting is lifted, that we will review our incarnations and see that all seeming failures give us opportunities to forgive and accept ourselves as growing spirits. On February 24, 1991, Q’uo explained how we can forgive and accept ourselves after our incarnations are over:

If you will look in that which you call your past of this life and note those experiences that were of difficulty in whatever manner, you may with the perspective of the present moment see that within yourself there is more acceptance of the self at that time than there was acceptance of the self while the experience was occurring. Time and experiences within time tend to seat themselves in such a manner that the emotional charge one gives to a situation begins to dissipate, and it is easier to forgive and accept the self for that which has passed than it is to forgive and accept the self for that which is currently being experienced as a distortion within the life pattern.

We would at this time close the session through the instrument known as Jim. We leave this instrument with thanks and love and light. I am known to you as Q’uo.

This morning I made an errand run with my first stop being at Cabella’s to see if they might have some Merrill shoes that have a higher or wider foot base to lessen the pain of a hammer toe that I have on my left foot. I found the perfect pair, and believe that they will work just fine.  My next stop was at Lowe’s to buy a small freezer to replace the one that lightning rendered inoperable this past summer.

This afternoon I used the quart of white paint that I bought last week with a roller to paint the bricks above the entrance to the basement as they were the last place on the house where the bricks still showed their old dark red color. I had enough paint left to do a little touchup in my bathroom on the door jam and some on the window sill as well.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 16

The Gates Of Your Heart

Greetings in the love of Christ. I am the spirit of the consciousness of love in the vibration which comforts this child.

You who understand so many things about your daily life and make so many connections between events so as to bring them into order, would find comfort in turning for a deeper understanding of events to the contemplation of that Thought which created you.

For even as you appreciate the gift of father and mother in offering the possibility of breathing and living incarnation, so even more may you appreciate the ultimate Creator of you and of all things.

Nor is it possible to contemplate the infinite order of the creation without assuming, finally, that unacceptable and difficult circumstances are, nevertheless, intentionally organized for your benefit.

Look, then, at the same situation which you have analyzed so well within your mind and open the gates of your heart, letting confidence and peace in the rightness of all that you see wash over you. And in that atmosphere the birth of the deeper understanding will aid the child of God in making the deeper sense of any circumstance.

My peace be with you, now and forever.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. The Q’uo quote today comes from October 30, 1988:

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light through this instrument. At this time it is our honor to offer ourselves in the attempt to speak to any further queries which those present may have for us. If there is a further query, may we take it at this time?

Carla: Yeah, I have a doozy. It’s something that I prefer not to channel, and the question is, and you can refuse it if you like, please understand. I have had many people ask me how to teach, if I could teach them how to work with their guides alone. Now, I have some idea of how to introduce them to their guides. I know about the protection by swirling the red and violet together and then the white light together, but there is something within me that says that I need to learn more before I let even this much loose upon people that I will not be teaching further. Could you comment? Is it possible, and if so, how, to teach this?

I am Q’uo. We shall do our best to respond through this instrument. It is our opinion, my sister, and please remember that it is opinion, that those who serve as guides for those upon your planetary sphere, and any within your third-density illusion, will make themselves known to such entities as the opportunities present themselves and as the time is appropriate. Many of your…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Jim channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet each again in love and light. The means of communication through each entity which is in need of such communication varies according to the situation. This instrument, for example, has had its own means of communication that was quite obvious as the spoken word at one point within its evolutionary process. This was the only time in which this entity was communicated with in this manner by those that may call themselves or be called guides. Other means of communication, perhaps the book appearing upon the shelf at the appropriate time, or the person with the needed information making a similar appearance at the appropriate time, or the inspirational dream or thought which seems to appear quite vividly or dramatically within the life pattern, are means by which those you would call guides have done and do their work within your illusion.

To attempt to form or shape or control that contact is oftentimes an effort in confusion for the seeker, for it at once declares that there is at this time no contact with a messenger’s existence which is ongoing, and declares that the seeker will fashion of its own will and effort the means by which this contact shall be established. These assumptions, in our opinion, my sister, are erroneous, and will simply cause additional confusion within the seeker, for there is at all times the nurturing assistance for all seekers from those called guides, and this assistance is given in the manner which is the most appropriate, given the seeker and the opportunity.

Thus, to attempt to aid those which would desire to seek an understandable contact with their guides, understandable in their own terms, is an effort which has significant attendant difficulties. Thus, it is not an effort which we can wholeheartedly recommend, for it is one which makes presumptuous assumptions, shall we say.

Carla said that she knew how to introduce people to their guides, but she wanted to know how to help people work with their guides. Q’uo suggested that most of the time guides will make themselves known to a seeker through words, the right book or person at the right time, or through dreams. Then Q’uo said that to attempt to give people a way to work with their guides suggests that there is no current contact with their guides, and this is an erroneous assumption as it is very likely that guides are always in contact with the seeker in some fashion. On April 1, 2006, Q’uo described our guidance system as always being with us and assisting us as we request it:

Your guidance system, whether you characterize it as this instrument does in the Christian term of Holy Spirit or whether you characterize it in other ways, is, nevertheless, a part of the interwoven consciousness of Creator and created. You are never without your guidance system.

A key concept to remember when thinking of your guidance is not what form or shape it takes, but what its essence is. The essence of that spirit that companions you throughout an incarnation is unconditional love, absolute support, unending compassion, and a clarity of understanding that takes in the full sweep of the octave of densities within which you now enjoy consciousness.

Is there another query?

Carla: Not presumptuous assumptions—what you’re trying to say is that the assumption would be that there’s no problem, and that that person should just go ahead, and that that’s sufficient protection, and that sometimes that’s not true. That’s basically what you’re saying, yes?

I am Q’uo, and these are correct observations, my sister. In addition to others.

Carla: Okay. Now, as to the nature of the guides and also all that stuff, I have long thought that, like you and every other thing that comes through positive service-to-others type channels, this is some part of the principle of love, which as a Christian, I would term the Holy Spirit or the Comforter, and I figure that the guides and so forth are a more personal vibration of that same Comforter. Are these assumptions correct? I believe them to be so from questions I’ve asked you before, but I just want to make sure.

I am Q’uo, and though the difficulty in describing the nature of the guides is significant, it may be stated with a reasonable degree of accuracy that those who offer themselves in the service of a guide or teacher offer themselves from the point of view of that quality which you have called love, and are able to stand somewhat closer, shall we say, in their own life pattern to this quality, or we may even describe it as an office or level of vibratory beingness, and, standing closer to this quality, may then share some of its essence in one manner or another with those who they have placed themselves in custodianship over, shall we say.

Now Carla wanted to be sure that her assumption that guides, in general, are reflections of love much as her own guides which she sees as the Holy Spirit or Comforter are. Q’uo said that guides stand close to the quality of love and share reflections of love with those entities that are in their care. On September 3, 1980, Hatonn reminded us that our guides offer us direction and love on our path of spiritual seeking:

We would, in this contact, suggest that you are accompanied always by those beings of light who are your guides and who have offered many directions and much love upon your path in the past and shall continue to do so in the future. We offer these words of hope and encouragement, for often it seems as though there is nowhere to turn when one has looked long upon the path which they travel, has looked long for ways to serve, and has hoped for more avenues to open. We would suggest once again that the seeking is the key to finding, and those who seek always are always assured of finding.

Is there another query, my sister?

Carla: I’ll have to read that answer. I don’t exactly understand that one. Yeah, I had a half-baked one, but when I didn’t understand that last thing, it kind of flew out of my mind. I really feel that there ought to be some way that is harmless of sharing with people the experience of not feeling alone inside, because all too often the person who needs the most to feel at peace is, for some reason at least, psychologically isolated to some extent in some way. And it seems to weigh heavy on the seeker who is alone. Is there any way other than introducing the person to their guides that I as a teacher of channeling can safely teach entities that experience in a way that they can do it by themselves?

[Pause]

I am Q’uo. We waited for some time in order that this instrument might reach a more comfortable depth of concentration. In our opinion, there is no way in which the seeker may experience a connection with those entities that you have called guides that is able to satisfy the mundane mind with the proper degree of safety, shall we say…

Carla: So the best thing I can do, then, is to channel and collaborate in some sort of inspirational talk?

I am Q’uo. We will attempt to complete the previous response. The transmission is somewhat slow at this time. The feeling of isolation that is so significantly a part of each seeker’s journey is oftentimes an invitation, or shall we say, an initiation for the inner strengthening that is necessary in order that the seeker be able to welcome and enjoy a greater portion of the light energy and be able to reflect it in a responsible manner in the life pattern.

There is oftentimes the need for what you have called the desert experience, in order that the finest qualities of the being be enhanced and refined by the trials of the isolation and the testing of the resolve to exercise the will and the faith that are the rod and staff of the seeker. The conscious mind, in such instances, which asks for the assurance in an understandable manner that the self is not alone or that the experience has such and such a purpose, are oftentimes the crying in the wilderness which must be accepted, but if the initiation and the testing is to be successfully completed, must be endured rather than catered to, shall we say.

The process of the evolution of mind, body and spirit within your illusion, your illusion having such great mystery, is one which is, as the progress is accelerated, oftentimes difficult in nature. But, as we are aware that those in this group have heard it said, the happiness and the contentment are not the goals. The enhancing of the quality of compassion and the offering of its fruits are more to the heart of the purpose, from our point of view. Thus, there is much of difficulty that must simply be endured, and must be allowed to work its unseen function over a period of what you would call time, in order that the deeper qualities of the being which will survive such storms and tempests might be reinforced, and, indeed, brought to the fore in order that the evolutionary progress of the seeker will find its greatest expression within the life pattern.

Now Carla asked Q’uo if there was a way that she could help seekers who felt alone in the world to feel at peace with their situation. Q’uo responded by saying that many times the feeling of isolation is a kind of initiation that requires the seeker to develop its will and faith that the life path has a purpose and that the difficulties of being isolated must be endured over a period of time in order that the evolution of the seeker might be enhanced to the utmost degree. On October 19, 2021, Q’uo revealed the value of developing the qualities of will and faith:

This type of blending of will and faith is a kind of empowering of the conscious mind to begin to travel the journey down through the lower levels of consciousness into the subconscious mind, and further on into the planetary mind and the cosmic mind of the One Creator. This is a very deep and fulfilling dive into unity with all that is. As you focus your attention on this journey of seeking and serving the One Creator, you yourself begin to expand in what you would see and feel as an outward nature, so that you touch upon more and more of the creation around you—and not just touch upon it but you become it. As you find this focus becoming more intense as time passes, you will be able to uncover the gems of your own self, that you will see and experience as expanding into the infinite reaches of the One Creation.

Is there another query at this time, my sister?

Carla: No. I think I can say that about the best thing I can do with a big group like that is to lead some kind of an inspiring meditation and just lead them that far. Thanks a lot. It’s what I needed to know.

I am Q’uo, and we thank you, my sister. Is there another query at this time?

Carla: Not from me, thank you. Thanks so much.

T: No, thank you.

And we thank each for inviting our presence, and we hope that we have been able to utilize each instrument well enough that the heart of our message has found its mark within your hearts, as well. Let that which does not strike to the heart of your concerns fall away. We shall at this time take our leave of this group, leaving each, as always, in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. Adonai, my friends. Adonai.

Anna stayed overnight after the public channeling meditation yesterday, and this morning we finished watching the interview that Gary did with Carla and me back in August of 2014. It was so good to see Carla again talking about our lives together from the Ra contact, on through the Q’uo channelings that we held in this house since 1987, and the times we spent working together for L/L Research.

This afternoon I repotted Gloria, my Arrowhead Vine, into another larger pot in hopes that this will cure the yellow leaves that have been appearing whether I water it more or less. I am hoping that it was root bound and just needed a larger pot to live in.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 15

Carelessness And Forgetfulness

I am the spirit of the Lord Jesus Christ who speaks unto the world this day, this hour and this moment through the mouth of this instrument and in the heart of each and every soul that exists.

O, how abundant is the spirit! O how rich and inestimably close is the comfort which you seek! It is mere forgetfulness, not willfulness, that draws most of you from the spirit and consciousness of Jesus the Christ.

It is a carelessness of fine trust that one may go forward and forget the center of being.

Yet to move in thought and action without the spirit is to invite the calamity of a careless confusion, one less able to be penetrated in the end by love and peace.

Yes! We ask you, rejoicing, to carry the strength, the comfort, and the laughter of the spirit of Jesus the Christ in your heart each hour of this day, calling into remembrance all of Christ’s passion and remembering love itself made manifest, as that love made us manifest to you, for all time.

We leave you in peace, now and ever. In the name of Jesus the Christ. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for this day. The Q’uo quote today comes from October 30, 1988:

Is there any value to the seeker in studying, in reading, in trying to apply everything that’s been learned consciously day-to-day in the daily life, or can you get just as far in spiritual illusion by being a “nice guy” and living an ordinary life?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. The one known as Latwii also lends their vibrations to our own as we join your meditation. However, we are happy to answer your call for information on the subject of the acceleration of spiritual growth by various means within incarnational experience. We shall attempt at this particular meeting to restrain ourselves from our usual length of speaking and to function in a more conservatively informational manner while expressing ourselves carefully and to the best of our opinion. As always, we wish to express that this is a fallible opinion, and not to be taken as an opinion which carries the authority of one who knows, rather than one who seeks, and hopes to grasp.

Now, for the first time in any previous Q’uo channeling sessions, Q’uo said that Latwii was joining them in this channeling session.

The difficulties of accelerating the spiritual growth are numerous, and it is possible without conscious acceleration of spiritual growth for some entities among your peoples successfully to complete the course offered, to complete the lessons learned, and to complete that which is needed for that particular entity to polarize sufficiently, in service to others or service to self, that it need not form any relationship with [inaudible] various tools and resources of the meditator.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and greet you again in love and light. We apologize for the delay, but this instrument had lost her, what she calls, microphone, and was adjusting it.

Within these entities, the maturity of many incarnations is compellingly enough remembered that there are no resources necessary to encourage the entity to be true to the self, to always seek and express the true nature of the self to the best of its own ability and to treat each other person with honor, dignity and compassion, even at the expense of a sacrifice to oneself. These entities are necessarily rare among your peoples, that is to say, “necessarily” because yours is a third-density planet, and when one has learned all the lessons which may be learned within your density and therefore has no more need of catalyst, the question then becomes, “What purpose has that entity’s incarnation?” “Why did that person choose to come into incarnation?” and “What polarity does that entity expect to gain or what goal achieve within its higher self aspect during the incarnation?” This is another subject, and we leave it, for the main query is, “Must one go through ritual, reading, contemplation, meditation and prayer, and all the exercises, resources and tools of a spiritual student in order to accelerate the spiritual growth?”

Let us observe one who has a worldly ambition. This entity perhaps begins with saving the funds from a salaried position to open the store, begin the business, buy the real estate, or in some way begin to attempt the building up of treasure, power and what may be called a mundane kingdom. This entity who is ambitious for worldly goods and power must exercise much discipline in order to achieve its goals. It must do this over a period of time, and after a period of time, if the effort has been well made, it is rewarded by worldly goods and worldly power. There are those among your peoples with just such ambition, just such goals and these entities realize not that they are as much a practicing spiritual or religious seeker as one who approaches the infinite Creator from another level, for that which an entity considers its ambitions bent toward is that which is that entity’s true spirituality or religion. We would look for less emotionally-laden words, but do not find such words in this instrument’s vocabulary.

Similarly, the piano player which wishes to play extremely well and perform for the concert audience must spend many years in doing apparently meaningless exercises which give the pupil of the piano a deep subconscious knowledge of the instrument, which allows the entity to express and manifest through this instrument far more harmony and euphony than can be expressed by one which has the lesser hours of practice, the lesser ambition, the lesser devotion to the muse of music.

One may consider such worldly ambitions as this to be a kind of idol or icon, that which is worshipped, but that which does not bring one to eternity, unless the personality of the entity is such that happiness and exaltation of spirit, when all goes well within the ambition, gives one a feeling of worship and offers one the opportunity to offer daily thanks and praise to the Creator which has made each entity. This obeisance to the Creator, however, is not often found among those which are worshippers of the money, the science, or the muse of one kind or another. That which artists and mystics have in common—and we wish at this point to give credit to this instrument’s own reading, for we are using this instrument’s reading as a good example of what we mean…

We must pause. I am Q’uo.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo. We greet you in love and light, and shall continue.

That which the artist and the spiritual seeker have in common is the lack of an icon held in space and time. Rather, the true artist and the true spiritual seeker or mystic is fascinated by the mystery of the present moment, and seeks in that moment, in each and every moment, the face of that mystery, the face that shall not be known, the ineffable face of the one Creator, the face of Love. Because this entire concept of what we might call Creatorship or Godhood is completely beyond the resources of any of your languages, we can only speak in ways which may be poetically satisfactory in inspiration concerning the one great original Thought of Love and the importance to the spiritual seeker of using those resources which seem helpful to the seeker, that is, not all seekers need the same rituals, aids, resources and tools. For one entity, the silent meditation may be that which is truly needed. For another entity, a long period of reading and study and intellectual growth may be needed, for that entity may well be all faith and no awareness of the environment.

In order to communicate about eternity to those living temporal lives, it is well to place the self within eternity, within the tabernacle of the Father—to use a phrase from your holy works—as often as is physically possible, and certainly upon a daily basis. Others will need the inspirational reading and the discussion with the self or with others of the contents of that reading. Contemplation of a reading, which we may suggest might be read aloud, is also very helpful. There are also objects which may be taken into the mind for a visual meditation when the mind is having difficulty in quieting. The word “love,” or any other single word or phrase which moves one’s attention to the center of one’s being, sometimes called a mantra, is indeed helpful, as is any visual symbol, such as the rose or the cross, to one whose spiritual resources include those symbols.

The entity which has a good deal of maturity coming into the incarnation may indeed choose or never be aware of the choice of serving others or serving the self. However, instinctively, such naturals, may we call them, those who remember, do not need that which is to move them to an harvestable level. If they are at this incarnational moment prepared to walk the steps of light and move into the fourth density, then they have only to enjoy the pain and joy of this illusion you call third-density life. The probable future of such entities is the graduation and the moving onward to create the fourth-density social memory complex of what you call Earth, or Terra.

The group question for this session was whether it was really necessary to use all the tools that aid spiritual growth, or could you simply be a “nice guy” and reach the same goals. Q’uo began their answer by saying that it is possible that some people may have achieved a great deal of spiritual progress in previous incarnations and in the present incarnation may, shall we say, coast on these gifts in the current incarnation. However, for most people who only pursue money, position, and power are worshiping the idols of the mundane world and do not usually progress spiritually.

Then Q’uo went on to say that those spiritual seekers of truth, be they artists or mystics, who seek the Love, the mystery, and the face of the Creator in the present moment are those which shall progress spiritually. Q’uo recommended tools such as meditation, contemplation, reading inspirational literature, and using mantras or prayer as means of communing with the Father, the one Creator. On November 12, 1989, Q’uo described how each seeker can use various spiritual tools to move into communion with the Creator:

Now, what is the definition of purified emotion? We search for vocabulary which is not religious, but rather philosophical, for it is all too easy to say worship, adore, give thanksgiving, offer praise to the one infinite Creator. Instead, we would simply put it in another context. As one is able to experience the self more and more intelligently, consciously and fully, one is able to feel self-forgiven, worthy, hopeful, cheerful, peaceful and oriented toward a lively work on behalf of the one infinite Creator. Humankind is fueled, not by oil or coal so much as by inspiration, passion, sharing and caring. Thus, the more fully one is able to tap into the deep and plangent notes of purified emotion, the greater is one’s ability to manifest the light of the infinite One to a darkened world, which rejoices in seeing beacons of light, whether or not they know why the light is there, how the light has come to be there, and what is its function. The emotional nature of a deep and strengthening kind is the basis of intelligence which forms the bedrock of faith. We speak not of faith in this, or faith in that, for the Creator is infinite and mysterious, and any specific belief system neglects much of the whole repertoire of spiritual tools and resources. Therefore, in encouraging one’s own deeper intelligence, that is, the deep emotions, one must seek within for that center about which the incarnational experience now [revolves].

None of those to whom we speak is able at this time to reflect that he or she is free of the need to accelerate the spiritual growth at this time. When those of the road or the way who seek to express eternity within the prism of the earthly vessel make that conscious decision, the corollary to that decision is an action, for that which remains within the mind alone has no meaning unless it is followed up with the well-intentioned attempt to manifest that which is understood.

It is often the temptation of those who seek their very most deepest desire to pull back from the… We must pause, for this instrument knows not this word… maelstrom which shall ensue. Once the accelerated pace of meditation, contemplation, reading and analysis has taken place, changes then begin to take place which seem to the seeking entity to be brought about specifically by the desire to lead the more simple, the more peaceful, and the more joyous life.

Yet, indeed, it is a false assumption that those who progress more quickly along the spiritual path shall find “the crooked places made straight,” to use this instrument’s knowledge of your holy work called the Bible, and “the rough places plain.” Instead, the mountains are higher, scaling them is more difficult, and the plunges into that which is the opposite of the mountaintop experience are all too frequent.

When one accelerates one’s process of learning, one is also accelerating one’s process of changing. One begins to die, losing this and that part of the self which is no longer true about the self, but merely that which has been kept and not thrown away. Much like old clothes stowed in boxes in the attic, gathering dust, there is not use to them, but the room that they take up in the memory, the biases and subconscious reasons for peculiar actions which the conscious self does not approve of are due to this extra baggage.

The more time one spends in the presence of the Creator, any minute, three minutes, or five minutes during the day, and especially one concentrated time of at least fifteen or twenty minutes in silent meditation, listening for the Creator’s will and the will of your higher self, for you is inestimable aid, an armor of light, shall we say, that moves about that body which is the inexhaustible spirit in a protective way, so that though the body and the mind and the emotions may ache from the metaphysical muscle sprains of increased metaphysical activity, yet there is no lasting injury. It is merely a matter of reducing a necessary discipline to that which is pleasant, manageable and able to be done on a daily basis.

Each entity has a different need for ritual and worship. Therefore, we do not recommend the same experience for each entity, but recommend that each entity seek without stopping, until each entity has found that in which the entity feels unity with the Creator, a worship of the Creator, an adoration and oneness with the Creator, and above all, complete and utter union with the Creator.

For this instrument, the Christian bias creates joy and manifests in much fruit. This is not a path which appeals to all. For others, the search is the same, however, as it was for this instrument, the search for caring, for something in which one has faith. It is an article of faith not to give up this search until a path has been forged by the self or found by the self which may be expressed in a daily manner and which contains the discipline necessary to hollow out those free will portions of the self which have removed themselves from the mind, body and spirit of the self and have become willful without a reason.

It is the moving from willfulness to willingness to surrender, from the taking and controlling to the use of the will to control the self, that one may in some small way assist one’s own fullness of effort along one’s chosen path. Whatever the way the path and the seeking lies for an entity, the entity must indeed undertake the sorrow and the sacrifice of discipline, a disciplining of the self to worship, to contemplate, and to listen to the wisdom of those who have written in the past.

Yes, one is responsible for these things, and one is responsible to them, for what one knows and has learned in the head must then be grounded in the heart. For this reason, the reading and the contemplation and the discussion need to be followed by the listening, that one may hear that voice which speaks within.

That principle of love which stands ready for the seeker to open the door, the key to that door, behind which wisdom and compassion lie, is meditation. If no book is read, if no symbol is imaged, if there is nothing in the worship but the most devout silence, yet still this vehicle alone may be all that is needed for the entity to have that larger point of view which enables the entity to see each situation in terms of compassion and love, rather than feeling in any way personally unworthy or in any other way inadequate.

Then Q’uo reaffirmed that it was important to set the intentions to do the spiritual work that would aid in the process of evolution– which would include meditation, contemplation, reading spiritual information—then the path becomes challenging as portions of the self that are no longer needed fall away. Q’uo said that now daily meditation was most helpful in discovering the Creator’s will and the higher self’s will which become as an armor of the light of the spirit surrounding the body and mind which have undergone such exhausting work in the process of transformation. On May 23, 1974, Hatonn described the value of meditation as an aid on the spiritual path:

We of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator have spoken to you many times about the value of meditation. This, my friends, is of utmost value, since it leads you not to an intellectual understanding but a spiritual understanding. It is, shall I say, only of a transient value in indicating your attempts at seeking. This intellectual understanding, which is sought and found by many of those who dwell upon your planet, is an indication of your progress along the path toward a total spiritual understanding. It in itself is of no real value for what you find in these endeavors to understand within the limit of your illusion and within the limits of your intellectual mind is so very, very limited as to be of no real practical value.

We do not wish to state that type of endeavor is totally useless and should not be practiced, for some benefit is derived in an endeavor to seek. But, my friends, we do say that in your seeking it is much more important that you realize the truth of the creation of the Father through a much more direct method, a method that is not relegated to the biases of the intellect, a direct and simple understanding through meditation of the total love of the Creator of us all.

This, my friends, is all that is necessary: simply know this love and reflect it. Know it in a total sense. Do not attempt to understand it; embrace it through meditation. And then you must reflect it in your daily existence.

The beginning of spiritual maturity is the acceptance at last that one is forgiven. Those who follow various of the well-known religious sets of belief use various symbols for the principle of redemption or forgiveness. The one known as Jesus is perhaps the best example. However, as each self is made up of that which is the Christ consciousness and that which is the free will consciousness, there is only to be needed a simple recollection by a very complex entity within the illusion. So many, many illusions must be stripped away before one can see clearly one’s true nature and begin to wish to become the consciousness of love and not the consciousness of variousness or free will. Both characteristics are part and parcel of each entity, yet those which attempt to be of service to self, which are not aware of their doing so, but instead are happily ignorant of any decision that needs to be made between service to self and service to others, shall not be troubled until it is their time to be troubled with such simple choices as face each who has awakened to his path.

As you awaken, so you find more and more that without the constant centering, the accelerated changes, the accelerated sensitivity, the accelerated gentleness of spirit, the accelerated compassion and vulnerability, will be such that there will be a considerable degree of pain, emotional for the most part, upon the part of any seeker. The more the seeker seeks, the more the seeker may expect to suffer.

And why, may you ask, should one then try to polarize, to seek to serve others, and to seek to love the self and the one infinite Creator? We suggest that in the same way that those may observe that the tide will come in and will go out, you may consider that you have crawled as metaphysical animals from the sea of deeper consciousness, and lie parched with spiritual thirst upon the shore of an inexhaustible ocean, fertile with archetypical images and a larger point of view. And so, movement by movement, you attempt to move at last back into the water of nourishing, fulfilling, deeper consciousness. As you do so, you shall become more polarized in service towards others, you shall begin to feel the true worthiness of that which is you, the true perfection which you wish to arrive at in your conscious knowledge of yourself, and above all, your goal is to forgive the self of each and every iniquity, as this instrument would call it.

That which is called the karma is not inevitable, but rather that which may be stopped by self-forgiveness. In this state of self-forgiveness, one may see all others as forgiven, regardless of their behavior or appearance at any particular moment.

Now Q’uo said that forgiveness of the self is the sign of spiritual maturity and that this may most effectively be achieved by what they called the use of the consciousness of love rather than that which they called free will consciousness. They said that as we awaken to our spiritual path we will become more sensitive to the world around us and, as a result of our sensitivity, we will suffer more the more that we seek to be of service to others with our free will consciousness. Eventually we will return to our deeper consciousness of love and will see ourselves from a larger point of view which will allow us to forgive ourselves and to forgive others as well. On January 7, 1990, Q’uo expanded upon the concept of self forgiveness:

Carefully did you estimate your limits and move catalyst to the very limits, for you wish once and for all to learn the lesson of unconditional self-forgiveness that opens the door to compassionate love. Therefore, the first thing that we should suggest is dwelling whenever possible upon the all-compassionate love and the immediate presence of the one infinite Creator.

We realize it is difficult for the mind to work well when the physical vehicle demands a great deal of energy in pain control. But the words to give praise and thanksgiving are simple. Merely thank the Creator for your creation, for the safety in which you have lived to this day, experiencing and learning, for opportunities of the moment and the moments to come. You have been created, and you are sustained, and all that is given you is given you by your Higher Self, in sure knowledge that with that which this instrument would call grace, that which we would call the principle of unconditional love, can be made to be the natural and essential being of each, no matter what the condition.

In short, yes, it is necessary for almost all to work in a conscious manner upon the spiritual life in order that that which is so obvious and in front of the face, that which is the illusion of time and space, may be made transparent and the veil metaphysically lifted, so that faith becomes more important than words, and eternity more important than the mundane days and nights of an incarnational experience.

We ask you to take yourselves seriously in your seeking, and yet at the same time to retain that light touch which is part of the essence of self-forgiveness. All entities are programmed to go through difficulties and challenges. Meditation may help each more and more to respond in creative and loving ways to situations, rather than reacting in a blind and uncontrolled way. The straitjacket of emotional programming is difficult to unravel, and there may need to be the help of one to which one may speak which can give the true reflection, the clear image, that which the personal eye is too close to see. But we must tell you that you truly do need to work at the meditation and at the living of a certain kind of life, a life that is not what this instrument would call “goody goody,” but rather a life of deep caring, lasting compassion, and a love that comes not from the heart, but through the heart, from the Creator.

We would at this time like to transfer this contact to the one known as Jim. I am Q’uo.

This morning I made a trip to The Home Depot to get a larger pot to transplant my Arrowhead Vine into as it has been developing yellow leaves no matter whether I water it more or less, so I am hoping that repotting it will help it thrive again. When I got back home I got the chairs in the living room arranged to accommodate the attendees for our public channeling meditation which begins at 1 pm this afternoon. It is for that reason that I will be posting this Camelot Journal early today.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 14

Contention And Disagreement

I am the active principle of Jesus the Christ, the spirit which speaks to the world this day. I greet you in the consciousness of full and divine love.

This day this instrument goes to a convention to do business for her church. This instrument seems to expect a good many differing and potentially hostile opinions.

It is encouraged, in this instrument and in all who see contention in the world outside the self, that all the various opinions and disagreements without be taken within, that it may be recognized that that which is seen as a picture with the eyes may be understood to be a way of seeing that contention, that confusion, which is within the self.

When once the peace of Christ has penetrated the inner being and the heart is soft and compassionate, the outer confusion will never again seem threatening but merely noisy, for there is a peace which passes all understanding.

It is the understanding of love, and in this love and peace we leave you. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.

I did the Morning Offering and then got myself ready for the day. Today the Q’uo quote comes from October 17, 1988:

Who are the entities that speak through our instruments that allows them to come in the name of Jesus the Christ? What is the nature of their makeup that allows them to do this?

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo. We greet you in the love and in the light of the one infinite Creator. It is a rare privilege for us to be called to a group so finely tuned as yours is this evening. We are delighted at the opportunity to share our thoughts with you, insofar as your language can be used to compass the concepts which we would offer concerning our identity. We continue to work in adjusting this instrument to a deeper level of meditation, so that, while conscious, the instrument may be more purely aware of the nuances of each concept which we offer. We find this to be in the case of this instrument, very nearly as satisfactory as the trance sleeping state, in that the instrument’s mind and vocabulary are capacious.

We have been waiting for this opportunity to speak upon our identity for some time, as this instrument would say. We even gave our group a name which compassed the query which to this instrument is crucial, that is, that as this instrument has noted with its intellectual mind previously, our name in the language you call Latin would mean literally, “Who?”

You wish to know why we of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator can pass the challenge of the Christ and can say to you, “Jesus is Lord.” You wish to know what relationship we have to Christ. That which we have to say is both that which is desired and that which is not. Yet our nature is such that it is bound to disappoint each, that is, the intellectual and the faithful.

The group question was who are the entities that speak through our instruments who come in the name of Jesus Christ, and what about them allows them to do this? This could well have been Carla’s question as at that time she was the only instrument who challenged all of her contacts by asking: “Do you come in the name of Jesus Christ, and can you say that Jesus is Lord?” She would make that challenge three times just to be sure that she was connecting with a positive source. Q’uo seemed to be glad that the question was asked as they had given a hint that we should ask when they chose the name, Q’uo, at the beginning of our sessions nearly two years earlier on January 12, 1987, as the Latin translation of Q’uo is who?

We shall begin with our identity as manifestations. We are citizens of various planetary groups which have attained thought communication and are therefore able to communicate without the language barrier. This ability to share concepts is fundamental to the Confederation. In the terms of your illusion, we live, have our various physical vehicles, and remain at this stage of our growth, individualized, but aware and harmonized with those within the group especially, and by careful extension, all those of the Confederation.

Each of us has our own areas of specialization. Some wish to speak to introductory students, some the intermediate, some the advanced, and some, those of any level in a certain area of inquiry, such as healing. We are those which seek out the more experienced or pure… We must pause.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and greet you again in love and light. We must return this instrument to its former depth of contact. If you will be patient, we shall pause again.

[Pause]

I am Q’uo, and greet you again in love and in light. We are those which seek the purer or more experienced channel with the aim of producing philosophically based inspirational material. The contact with this group has been rewarding for us, and we rejoice in the love of the one infinite Creator, which binds each to the Creator and to one another. This is our manifestation. It is, like all manifestations, a mask and an illusion, real, in a manner of speaking, but of a limited duration. Such is the nature of manifestation. By its very nature it calls to infinity.

Q’uo began their answer as to the nature of their identity by saying that they were composed of individualized groups which were part of the Confederation of Planets in the Service of the Infinite Creator. Q’uo said that they were composed of groups, which I assume to mean social memory complexes, one of which gave introductory information, another which gave intermediate information, and another which gave advanced information. In 11.17, Ra gave the basic definition of a social memory complex:

Questioner: At what stage does a planet achieve social memory?

Ra: I am Ra. A mind/body/spirit social complex becomes a social memory complex when its entire group of entities are of one orientation or seeking. The group memory lost to the individuals in the roots of the tree of mind then become[s] known to the social complex, thus creating a social memory complex. The advantages of this complex are the relative lack of distortion in understanding the social beingness and the relative lack of distortion in pursuing the direction of seeking, for all understanding/distortions are available to the entities of the society.

Upon another level, we address the query concerning our relationship to Christ. Our faith differs somewhat from this instrument’s, which is not surprising, considering that our experience is somewhat better realized within our manifestation. Nevertheless, when any seeking entity discovers compassion, that is to say, unconditional love, that entity has discovered and defined Christ.

We come from a race which worships the Christ in a somewhat different way, having, however, the understanding, if we may use that term, that the agent of redemption, be it the Christ principle or such an one as Jesus the Christ, is indeed Lord and one with the Father and Creator, Mother and Nurturer of all that that there is. We do not mean to demean this instrument’s religion, but to say that a Christ is a Christ, that is to say, that “Jesus is Lord,” is to say the obvious, for within the universe of this instrument, we are identical to that which is termed the Holy Spirit. This conjures up images of angels’ harps and clouds. These scenes occur only within your thought worlds, and are created by your thoughts, not those of the one infinite Creator.

We are those who worship the Creator, and seek to serve the Creator, thus we move as close to infinity in our purity as we are able, and offer to those who wish to hear the one simple message of love. Again and again, we suggest that the nature of the creation is love, unmanifest and manifest, and that by moving more and more in harmony with the original Thought of Love, a seeker of the mystery of the Creator may accelerate his pace upon the journey.

We are then the Holy Spirit or Comforter, in this instrument’s terms. We have appeared as many, many things, including angels. We appear in thought alone at this time, and find that the mass of those who would seek our information prefer the, as this instrument would say, mythology, of the spacecraft and the visitors from elsewhere to the equally valid manifestation in thought of the angels or the vision. Were we to appear as ourselves, those of the Confederation would look most variously, and we feel our impact upon your people is more proof against abuse of free will by our speaking through instruments such as this one and using the most desired metaphors and images concerning our inner nature and function in order that we may aid the most entities.

It matters not who entities think we are. We attempt to satisfy the need for otherness, mystery and solemnity, and to indicate our polarity in a clear way. After that, our dependence is upon the relationship we may forge with a carefully tuned instrument, and in that way, by collaboration, we offer what humble gifts we have.

Q’uo continued to define their nature by saying that they seek and worship the Christ as unconditional love. They seek to serve the Creator and could also be seen as the Holy Spirit, or inhabitants of space craft, or more likely as angels. But at this time Q’uo suggested that they had taken the form of thoughts with information to share for those who seek to know the nature of reality. On March 11, 1990, Q’uo described the nature of the Holy Spirit:

To become more aware of that which you have called the Holy Spirit is to widen the doors of perception, shall we say, and to invite this spirit within one’s inner dwelling. We find again that the meditative state is that state most conducive to opening these doors, and to begin to perceive that the Holy Spirit does indeed move through these doors upon your invitation and dwells with you within your inner room. Practice this feeling of the presence of complete nurturing and inspiriting in a regular fashion, so that your inner feelings begin to permeate your consciousness to such a degree that the daily round of activities is then touched, colored, transformed in some degree by that feeling of wholeness within the heart that is the product of this presence as it is practiced in a regular fashion.

There is a third nature which shall disturb this instrument, although it has been intellectually considering this possibility for some time and has discussed it. Yet it will be sorry to hear from this contact that in our opinion we are completely within the instrument’s mind, that is, we are allowed to speak because the instrument has made a pathway deeply enough into its own subconscious levels of thought that it is able to contact principles which lie deep within the mind and are influenced by the various energies of gravity in a spiritual sense which flow rhythmically through the metaphysical portion of each individual as well as the physiological portion. The study of the latter is called astrology; the study of the former could be called metaphysical astrology, and would reveal an inner universe of which the outer infinity of galaxies is but an hologram which moves in a predictable fashion, allowing at various times the various life-giving, gem-like energies of the archetypal subconscious to flash through to the surface and produce each day differently, each moment slightly variously, the message of love and light.

This instrument, therefore, may identify us with itself in the deepest reality of which we are aware. The infinity and reality lie not outside, but inside the non-thing which is each entity’s consciousness. All studies concerning an entity are studies in a mirror, the true self, the inner self, being invisible. One learns of the inner self by looking very carefully in the mirror.

Then Q’uo confirmed Carla’s thoughts that Q’uo’s contact with her originated deep within her mind, within her consciousness, and are metaphysical and physiological energies of an archetypal nature and are also inner reflections of the infinity and reality of the universe which are the true nature of those of Q’uo as they speak through Carla as an instrument.

We are those principles within the infinity of the Creator which speak the words of Jesus the Christ to the world at this day. For those of other belief systems whose journeys have led them to a purity of a certain level, we identify ourselves equally with that entity’s deity and come into relationship as those who may confess faith in this deity. If this entity were not dwelling with an heart full of faith, we could not come in the name of the Deity. It is our understanding—and again you must forgive our use of that word, for we feel our grasp is limited—that the Deity, the Creator is one, and each distortion which moves entities into a life of faith is acceptable to us.

It is the faith, the peace, the inner surrender to the will of the infinite Creator which marks the one which has decided to become a servant of the Creator, or, to put it another way, one who has decided to lose oneself in praise and worship of the one infinite Creator, for worship always produces the manifestation, not the manifestation the worship.

We very much thank this instrument for being courageous enough to be willing to risk what this instrument considers to be wonderful work lost. This risk the instrument chose to take by requesting our true nature. We do not think that this instrument will need to separate its faith from its work with us, yet it is the free will of the instrument which thinks and considers ethical questions deeply. We can only suggest to any whose religious beliefs attempt to strangle information that that information which is not truthful for an entity will not be retained by the entity. Were our energy fields not completely consistent with this entity’s careful tuning and challenging, we could not speak.

Therefore, without wishing to infringe upon free will, we are nevertheless sanguine that we shall indeed be acceptable to this instrument at the end of each deliberation, as we are indeed of the principle of love, and that is the Christ, and the one known as Jesus was a complete Christ, Son of Man, and servant of…

[Side one of tape ends.]

(Carla channeling)

I am Q’uo, and greet you once again in love and light. To repeat that which was lost. We are servant of All and lord of All, as the one known as Jesus was both the servant and lord, because we are those disciplined to the principle of love, to the refinement which allows us to live comfortably and therefore to comfort. There is that position which is attained at many times throughout the infinity which seems to stretch before one such as yourselves, to be many, many things. We have refined and refined our natures to become one with the principle of Christ, the principle of Love, that which moves the consciousness to the consciousness which is the Creator.

Thus, in this instrument’s Christian terms, we are those of the Holy Spirit, of Jesus the Christ. We leave to careful imagination our means of speaking to those who worship in a different way. The message is always the same, the philosophy unified, the hope of manifestation, inner peace, outer joy and the productivity of the good vine as each contributes in spiritual lightening of the consciousness of your planet.

We are those of Q’uo. We find that this instrument has only some confusion, but no queries, consequently we shall close at this time, thanking each who is somewhat fatigued for the privilege of speaking and attempting to serve. We would share our love and blessing and thank each for persistent faithfulness. We are most privileged to work with this group and to share in your quiet meditation. We are known to you as those of Q’uo. We leave you in the love and the light of one infinite Creator. Adonai vasu borragus.

I would like to share with my readers my great surprise at Q’uo’s lengthy, intricate, and inspiring thoughts as to their identity which I do not remember at the remove of 35 years since this channeling session took place. At the beginning of this session, when they mentioned that they were citizens of various planetary groups, one offering introductory information, another offering intermediary information, and one offering advanced information, I was expecting that they would list Hatonn, Latwii, and Ra as the respective groups associated with this range of information.

However, when Q’uo began to speak of how they were located within the deeper portions of Carla’s mind and in harmony with her form of worship of the one Creator, and how she had given herself over completely to the service of the Creator, I must admit that I do not completely understand the manner of their means of utilizing Carla as a channel. I feel total positivity emanating from their revealing this mysterious process, but I am unable to expand upon their description of how they channeled through Carla. I will simply suggest that each seeker read these words of Q’uo, meditate upon them, and use them in any way that feels in harmony with your spiritual evolution.

This morning I made an errand run to pick up more paint and rollers at Porter Paints. Then I stopped at Kroger’s to pick up some aluminum foil and ice cream. The I used my big mower to ride down the mole hills and tunnels in the side and back yards.

This afternoon I vacuumed the first floor of the house and did a large load of laundry. My last job of the day was to use my backpack blower to blow the leaves in the front yard and side yard into two piles so I could put them in garbage cans for yard waste pickup next week.

From A Book of Days, channeled by Carla L. Rueckert:

October 13

Hope And The Experience Of Love

I am known as the Holy Spirit. I greet you in the full consciousness of the love and the creative energy of Jesus the Christ.

As that active energy called love invisibly swirls and moves throughout each atom of creation, opportunities are constantly being given for that which is of a less spiritual nature to take on the vibrations of a spiritualized love.

Thus does the spirit bring out the song in stone, the clapping of hands of the trees, and the rejoicing of the mountains. Thus also the spirit of the Holy One moves invisibly and energetically within the heart of humankind, creating seemingly from nothing a strong and lasting faith. The seeker who wishes to experience the movement of the active principle of love need bring to the encounter with that transformative energy nothing but a heart full of hope.

Not all encounters with new life are as dramatic as Paul’s vision upon the road to Damascus. May you be willing to support within yourself those promptings of energetic love which whisper from deep within your heart. May you hope in the spirit.

We offer you the peace of this ever-fulfilled desire, now and ever. Amen.

I said the prayer at the Gaia Meditation tonight:

We come in the name of love and open our hearts, minds, and souls to send love, light, and healing energy to Mother Earth as she brings forth a new Earth in the fourth density. We ask that the infinite love, light and healing energy of the One Infinite Creator heal the hearts of all souls in pain on Earth tonight. May all souls on Earth feel our love, light, and healing energy in their hearts, their minds, and their souls. Amen.