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[Unbound]

Your choice of technique is a good one, Lulu. When you breath in the energy, it may be useful to circulate the breath from the back of the skull, up and then down the front, as I have found that to be the most vulnerable area. Also, you may want to add a second part to it which I have found useful which includes the full cycle of expelation. After one consumes, it also requires an elimination or release. So for myself a powerful technique I use is to with my in-breath pulling in white light in to my body, and then with the out breath releasing black smoke.

There are also mantras and such which could be powerful and useful, such as Shanti.

However, it is quite true that so long as we hold within us pain, there is pain to be amplified by others.

[Lulu]

...with my in-breath pulling in white light in to my body, and then with the out breath releasing black smoke.

well unfortunately for me breathing in the energy which in my openness feels like whatever anxiety the other is experiencing, which is not exactly the same but closer to the black smoke, and certainly far from the white light is the opposite of what you suggest. From what I have learned for myself, what you suggest for me, won't work because breathing in white light will enhance the disturbance at the temple increasing the uncomfortable sensations by asking for something to be different then it is. I just try at this time, to let it pass through me on my out breath let it drain out into the earth, makes me feel a little scowley. Ideally I think it should be consummated somehow and then transmuted on it's way out of me but that would take a partner.

Lulu

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There are also mantras and such which could be powerful and useful, such as Shanti.

However, it is quite true that so long as we hold within us pain, there is pain to be amplified by others.

I don't use mantras in other languages that are not my own. I don't care for calling in those spirits.

Your comment about pain is stated in a way that if I took it how you might have intended would indicate you are saying I have the same anxiety and it is amplified by others. This is actually, not truth. I have no anxiety around the issues that they are experiencing that is WHY I can feel them so clearly and distinguish it from my own sensations of myself.

I've traveled a long road to determine my feelings vs. others, and I know explicitly what my own energy feels like.
Lulu

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The frequency is so different, that is why I FEEL it physically.

[Unbound]

Aha Well, I am glad you have sorted so much out for yourself.

[Unbound]

Wow, I just realized that your story on this page is actually a Hero's Journey. Legit, you could take this story and understand the path of the fall and the return to grace with ease.

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“I am not of the mysteries of this world. I am the Gatekeeper to what lies beyond it. When they are ready, I ferry those who have gathered all that they can in this place to another learning ground- a world of things beyond this realm’s understanding.”

[Plenum]

Wow, I just realized that your story on this page is actually a Hero's Journey. Legit, you could take this story and understand the path of the fall and the return to grace with ease.

lol. Isn't everyone's wanderer's story's a hero's story's?

[Unbound]

Too true!

[AnthroHeart]

So true Plenum!
I've been as high as an angel in heaven next to God in my experiencing.
And I've been as low as a black hole.

[Phoenix]

Well, thanks for this. (Post 22)

When I read it I really enjoyed it. Recently I printed it off to show to someone but they weren't interested in it (too young). So now I have a copy to go through when I want.

[Brittany]

It's a nice little allegory.

[Lycen]

Thank you for sharing you're journey!

I found myself wrapped in you're writings, so much simple truth yet so hard to follow. Also the "sci-fi" setting = win

Akhtu: Reloaded, had quite an emotional impact as well, I felt lighter and still do then I was before reading it .)

I luve you, for who you are.

Bless you, thank you for being as well

[Brittany]

Awww, I love being luved!

[Spaced]

I just read through your story/ies Britanny Lynn and I would like to thank you for sharing with us! Beautiful story and beautifully written. Much love to you on your continued adventures.

[Brittany]

I am writing this post because I am weary of answering the same questions on a repeated basis. I feel I have arrived at a place where a public statement is in order.

At the end of last year, after a traumatic psychological event, my entire belief system crumbled around me. When I finally emerged from that wreckage I realized my path had changed, or, perhaps, I simply realized the path I've been walking all along. Over the past months I have educated myself in the fundamentals of Left Hand Path philosophy and aligned myself to this path. I have made my way into an appropriate social order and now study to advance within it.

I can honestly say I've never been happier. This is not the appropriate venue for me to share my personal philosophy, so I will simply say that the work is incredibly difficult and incredibly satisfying. I tentatively stepped into a world I expected to be full of heaviness and hate, and instead I find myself in possession of a certain light-heartedness and genuine joy. Love is a much more fascinating phenomenon when you don't feel obligated to feel it. I at last feel like myself.

Regarding those who have asked of my "agenda", it is to increase in wisdom and understanding of the ways of Self Love. You won't see me running for office any time soon, nor attacking hippies, nor joining the Illuminati. Such endeavors are trivial to me and the majority of my time is simply spent studying, conversing with teachers and practicing the things I have learned in a practical sense.

I find myself pulling away from concepts like harvest, focusing much more on the present moment. My post-incarnative destination matters less to me than my desire to do work I find fulfilling while I still have the life in my body to do so. This life no longer seems like a burden, but a precious opportunity to understand a being I have spent far too long injustly hating.

Perhaps my views will change in the future. Thus far I've had a hard time holding onto any belief system for more than a few years. At this moment, however, this is where my heart lies, and this moment is the most important moment of my life. I do not know when or if I will be back, so I leave this piece of advice, which I feel could apply to any path:

Obtaining a deep, objective awareness of Self is the cornerstone, foundation and most of the house of seeking. Know who you are and why, what you want and why, and the rest will fall into place of its own accord. No attempt at polarization will be effective if the action performed is not truly desired and accepted by the Self. There is no system of percentages that can hide the things in your heart, so know it well, and follow it wisely.

[Adonai One]

>appreciating the present moment
>left-hand path

Good luck when the present moment doesn't contain your ideal of will and ideal of self.

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Ra: I am Ra. The power of which you speak is a spiritual power. The powers of the mind, as such, do not encompass such works as these. You may, with some fruitfulness, consider the possibilities of moonlight. You are aware that we have described the Matrix of the Spirit as a night. The moonlight, then, offers either a true picture seen in shadow or chimera and falsity. The power of falsity is deep as is the power to discern truth from shadow. The shadow of hidden things is an infinite depth in which is stored the power of the One Infinite Creator.

The adept, then, is working with the power of hidden things illuminated by that which can be false or true. To embrace falsity, to know it, to seek it, and to use it gives a power that is most great. This is the nature of the power of your visitor and may shed some light upon the power of one who seeks in order to serve others as well, for the missteps in the night are oh! so easy.

[third-density-being]

Hello Brittany,

Thank You for your Openness. As for your Choice, its utterly acceptable for/by me. In some way I admire your determination, as Love-Of-Self Path is very demanding and strongly based on the power of One's Will. Either way I don't think anyone here will discriminate You because of your third density's Choice.

I my Self was thinking of this path but deep inside there's just too much compassion in me and there's simply no imaginable scenario, in which I am capable of "gaining" anything, while hurting/diminishing Other-Self. No matter how deeply (as well subjectively, as objectively) I was hurt/diminished by Other-Self. I simply do not possess such "mechanism" in my Self.

Nevertheless I was paying some attention to Ra's descriptions of higher Service-to-Self densities. One quote is really thought-worth:

(7.14)
Questioner: What is the density of the Orion group?

Ra: I am Ra. Like the Confederation, the densities of the mass
consciousnesses which comprise that group are varied. There are a very few
third density, a larger number of fourth density, a similarly large number of
fifth density, and very few sixth-density entities comprising this
organization. Their numbers are perhaps one-tenth ours at any point in the
space/time continuum as the problem of spiritual entropy causes them to
experience constant disintegration of their social memory complexes. Their
power is the same as ours. The Law of One blinks neither at the light nor
the darkness, but is available for service to others and service to self.
However, service to others results in service to self, thus preserving and
further harmonizing the distortions of those entities seeking intelligent
infinity through these disciplines.

Those seeking intelligent infinity through the use of service to self create the
same amount of power but, as we said, have constant difficulty because of
the concept of separation which is implicit in the manifestations of the
service to self which involve power over others. This weakens and eventually
disintegrates the energy collected by such mind/body/spirit complexes who
call the Orion group and the social memory complexes which comprise the
Orion group.

It should be noted, carefully pondered, and accepted, that the Law of One
is available to any social memory complex which has decided to strive
together for any seeking of purpose, be it service to others or service to self.
The laws, which are the primal distortions of the Law of One, then are
placed into operation and the illusion of space/time is used as a medium for
the development of the results of those choices freely made. Thus all entities
learn, no matter what they seek. All learn the same, some rapidly, some
slowly.

Choice is utterly yours and should be freely made.

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(...)
This life no longer seems like a burden, but a precious opportunity to understand a being I have spent far too long injustly hating.
(..)

This would indicatre some Self-Healing necessities. Because as You wrote your-Self, it is necessary to know Self to do Work. I guess at some point "knowing = healing" Self.

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In many imaginary scenarios Service-to-Self path is presented as filled with "hate". "Hate", as I understand it, is translated "Love-to-Self" for Other-Selves. But even label "hate" doesn't cover it - it is to refuse to acknowledge Other-Selves as Creator. This is very deep path into Self with no One to relate to, no One to trust.
I hope that on your path Feelings of actual "Love" to Self will dominate, rather than "hate" to Other-Selves.

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Best I have in me for You.

[Parsons]

Thank* you for your Service. There are so few who choose to walk that path once they are able to make the Choice and perceive both paths.

*Edit: Typo

[Adonai One]

I would argue that such a person is unheard of especially when you want to enjoy the present moment while deny parts of the present moment as yourself at the same time. But, hey, anything can happen. I just find falsifying the present moment and claiming to enjoy it at the same time is a bit paradoxical.

[isis]

That you for your Service.

that's an intriguing typ-o... (imo)

[Parsons]

How so? The typo formed a nonsensical sentence.

[xise]

I think both paths can both appreciate the same thing like the present, but in different ways. The positive path appreciates the present through green and through an acceptance of the present, whereas the negative path appreciates the present through an immense love of life (red), and immense love for themselves (orange), and an immense love for the potential the present contains for control or shaping of the future (yellow).


I.e., a positive billionaire loves the present moment regardless, a negative billionaire loves the present moment in part because of all the cool things he can do or shape or control in the future with his money. But the negatives also hunger for even more potential in the future, and that drives them to achieve more and more, while still enjoying what they have. It's not just endless hunger; it's endless hunger with some satisfaction of the current ability or current potential of the self, which is a non-green aspect of the present.


Or so I so speculate.


Anyway, I've hung out with Brittany in person (admittedly pre-path change, whether sts/sto or something else). She's an awesome person. The negative path isn't necessarily linked to hate, and she's living proof of that. Edit: I should say assuming she is negative, since as later pointed out, she could be on a wholly different path entirely.

[Adonai One]

I can't imagine attaining much control when you're happy with what you have. I offer this as a reflection of thought by all who will read this thread.

/opines

[isis]

How so? The typo formed a nonsensical sentence.

i found it intriguing in a "there are no mistakes" kind of way

[Rake]

I personally have never grasped that there are supposedly two paths. It's all one in the same to me.

[Stranger]

I am writing this post because I am weary of answering the same questions on a repeated basis. I feel I have arrived at a place where a public statement is in order.

At the end of last year, after a traumatic psychological event, my entire belief system crumbled around me. When I finally emerged from that wreckage I realized my path had changed, or, perhaps, I simply realized the path I've been walking all along. Over the past months I have educated myself in the fundamentals of Left Hand Path philosophy and aligned myself to this path. I have made my way into an appropriate social order and now study to advance within it.

I can honestly say I've never been happier. This is not the appropriate venue for me to share my personal philosophy, so I will simply say that the work is incredibly difficult and incredibly satisfying. I tentatively stepped into a world I expected to be full of heaviness and hate, and instead I find myself in possession of a certain light-heartedness and genuine joy. Love is a much more fascinating phenomenon when you don't feel obligated to feel it. I at last feel like myself.

Regarding those who have asked of my "agenda", it is to increase in wisdom and understanding of the ways of Self Love. You won't see me running for office any time soon, nor attacking hippies, nor joining the Illuminati. Such endeavors are trivial to me and the majority of my time is simply spent studying, conversing with teachers and practicing the things I have learned in a practical sense.

I find myself pulling away from concepts like harvest, focusing much more on the present moment. My post-incarnative destination matters less to me than my desire to do work I find fulfilling while I still have the life in my body to do so. This life no longer seems like a burden, but a precious opportunity to understand a being I have spent far too long injustly hating.

Perhaps my views will change in the future. Thus far I've had a hard time holding onto any belief system for more than a few years. At this moment, however, this is where my heart lies, and this moment is the most important moment of my life. I do not know when or if I will be back, so I leave this piece of advice, which I feel could apply to any path:

Obtaining a deep, objective awareness of Self is the cornerstone, foundation and most of the house of seeking. Know who you are and why, what you want and why, and the rest will fall into place of its own accord. No attempt at polarization will be effective if the action performed is not truly desired and accepted by the Self. There is no system of percentages that can hide the things in your heart, so know it well, and follow it wisely.

Hi Brittany,

Thank you for sharing your personal story with us. I want to make a few points you may or may not have considered in your decision.

You speak about knowing the Self, and that is indeed crucial. What you will eventually discover if you pursue that path of inquiry is that your Self is the Logos, the Father of the Christian religion, wearing a personality. Your Self and my Self are one being full of love and kindness for His creation. Any lower understanding of Self is also a truth, but it is only a partial truth that conceals the most important fact, a deep and objective awareness of self which completely transforms one's perspective on pretty much everything.

It also sounds like you found the attempt to offer unconditional love tiring and out of alignment with what you currently perceive as your nature. Yet your nature is not fixed. The entire purpose of third density is to transform the personality toward whatever ideal one chooses. This is not done by forcing oneself to love, but rather by recognizing one's brotherhood and, ultimately, unity with all others, noticing that they struggle as much as oneself, and wishing to ease their burdens as you would wish your burdens to be eased. Also recognizing that every step one takes in the direction of loving-kindness and compassionate care toward oneself and others is a step toward increasing inner peace and lasting joyful contentment. To the best of my knowledge, there is no other means of obtaining true happiness in this world or any other.

There is no right or wrong path, but there are consequences to each choice. In the third density with all seven rays active you can indeed experience light-heartedness and genuine joy despite pursuing STS. Once you go beyond the threshold of graduation, that is where lightheartedness and joy permanently cease. Grim satisfaction and pride are there in abundance, but in my experience they are not worth a tiny shred of the bliss one gets from an open heart filled with love.
You are back to being the hunter who is constantly hunted by others, and ultimately the entire path dead-ends in 6th density. Having suffered much yourself and inflicted much suffering, you are back to square one of having to find and grow that love for others within yourself.

Adonai, my friend, and may you find that which you seek.

[Steppingfeet]

There's always difficulty attempting to match up terminology between different philosophies. What the Law of One community understands to be the "left-hand path" may not correlate perfectly to the concept of "left-hand path" that Brittany is working with.

We naturally attempt to understand her new path through the lens of the Law of One, but the system of thought she uses may not meet with the classic definition of service to self.

I don't know one way or the other, actually, as I haven't examined it. I only reflect that, without further information, we must be on guard against making assumptions. What most identifies ones path isn't a statement regarding its left-ness or right-ness, but rather ones energetic orientation towards self and others, and the way that orientation manifests in action. Thus far as I've seen no attempt to manipulate, deceive, or control others on Brittany's part.

On the contrary, she contacted us this morning and asked that her account be deleted. This was something needed for her - a releasing of the old and a sense of closure with the past. But it was also a gesture of respect to the forums. She knows that her philosophy is at some variance with that which is generally studied here, so she sought not to proselytize and not to interfere with with this path, but instead to respectfully withdraw.

Brittany is a personal friend whose presence on this forum I will miss. But I wish her well on her new path and hope that it brings her joy and meaning. Like everyone here, self included, there are of course surface distortions, but fundamentally, as I've known her at least, she's always been a person of kindness and compassion. I imagine that core bias will continue through each twist and turn of the road.

With love/light, GLB

[Patrick]

In my opinion, the left hand path that Brittany is talking about is not the STS path that the Ra material is referring to.

I feel her and so this seems obvious to me, but what do I know ?