Oh my yes, good intentions, a desire to learn, and the will to keep aware of what might be presented has definitely yielded good results before, thanks for your response! I think 80% of my lessons have been in front of me this whole time to be honest, to stop replying in anger, when those who claim to love me constantly want to control my actions in a way they like yet I do not. My "Ex gf" whom still lives with me, constantly seeks physical affection which is not what in my mind a relationship between friends quite entails. The whole thing at first.. meant to me I needed to stand up for myself first, and stop letting random people sway me this way and that, I've never once gone on a date that originated from my asking, always on they're request was this done, and I always did it for the most part because I just wanted to do something, as opposed to feeling a connection first and than going about things.. I have thus been in a lot of crazy relationships..
Now that I've created my boundaries, as I require them, the attempts to have them breached has not yet stopped, and perhaps this is for the best. I've told it her's unhealthy for both of us for her to remain here, still being in love with me, where I can only be friends right now, and possibly forever. But she really wants to stay, I feel like it's only helping her hurt herself, but I am under the impression the longer things play out, the more likely a grand realization is going to come for both us of. I love her deeply, and enjoy her company, when she isn't trying to dictate my physical actions anyways. I don't feel like a whole lot is missing from my interactions at present, that's a hell of a statement, I'll have to try and figure out just what the hell that could be
Much Love~
As a Side note, I'm about the only thing I trust fully, I know I'm here, and I know I am here now, not so sure about being fully entwined and what not, but I'll give it some thought, without some kind of spiritual breakthrough I'm not so sure I'll be able to realize such a truth.
I like your mantra. humble things attract my love
Now that I've created my boundaries, as I require them, the attempts to have them breached has not yet stopped, and perhaps this is for the best. I've told it her's unhealthy for both of us for her to remain here, still being in love with me, where I can only be friends right now, and possibly forever. But she really wants to stay, I feel like it's only helping her hurt herself, but I am under the impression the longer things play out, the more likely a grand realization is going to come for both us of. I love her deeply, and enjoy her company, when she isn't trying to dictate my physical actions anyways. I don't feel like a whole lot is missing from my interactions at present, that's a hell of a statement, I'll have to try and figure out just what the hell that could be
Much Love~
As a Side note, I'm about the only thing I trust fully, I know I'm here, and I know I am here now, not so sure about being fully entwined and what not, but I'll give it some thought, without some kind of spiritual breakthrough I'm not so sure I'll be able to realize such a truth.
I like your mantra. humble things attract my love