Thank you all for your more than welcoming hello. It has definitely made me feel loved.
I have put very much thought into what you have all said and of course followed me heart. I started looking deeper into why my father and mother were the way they were. They, I feel, had loving intentions. I also believe they are hurt and are not nearly as "connected" to themselves as I am. So for this, I forgave them. I believe I have a very close relationship to them more so now than then. I feel way more love and understanding than I once did.
In edition to looking at their good/loving actions and intentions, I also looked at what harm it has done. As oppose to just the good.
My father was very aggressive, in a different way than just mentally and not really physically. He disrespected my mother, in many ways. Outwardly sexual with other females in front of my mother and myself. My mother blew it off like its what he does.. oh well. It made me very uncomfortable and heart broken. I felt like that was what I was going to have to put up with. For awhile I did. Which hurt me more unknowingly.
I think having the ability to evaluate and understand the past gives me what I should of gotten from it. There's so many ways to learn. To get to one certain understanding. Which I find amazing.
I really am grateful for all your loving words. They have helped me more open my heart to my fellow brothers and sisters. also have to add: since I met my boyfriend. I have been working on quite a bit, and feel I have made a substantial amount of progress. He mentioned many times he felt more like my father than my boyfriend. I feel this is because he showed me the kind of love I was supposed to be shown.
Questioner. I have to say this: your words really spoke deeply to my heart. Thank you so much! To start, I really haven't tried to focus a lot of energy into a belief system. I try to learn everything or at least the main facts of each and make my own conclusion. So I can't really give you a answer other than my belief system is myself.
Secondly, I haven't ever tried to meditate or anything of that nature. I have on occasion prayed to my higher self and creator. Which I have to add helped tremendously. Because a few days later information flowed through me. And lead me here
I do however want to spend time looking into these things and making myself more spiritually connected and do feel very much at home here. Thank you again.
To Fairy. Thank you also for you kind words and the link which which I will be find time to read. I have the next couple of days off and intend to spend a lot of time researching and soul searching.
Thank to all of you and I send my love back. I feel something for people! Which is very new, but I know its love. This time I know.
I have put very much thought into what you have all said and of course followed me heart. I started looking deeper into why my father and mother were the way they were. They, I feel, had loving intentions. I also believe they are hurt and are not nearly as "connected" to themselves as I am. So for this, I forgave them. I believe I have a very close relationship to them more so now than then. I feel way more love and understanding than I once did.
In edition to looking at their good/loving actions and intentions, I also looked at what harm it has done. As oppose to just the good.
My father was very aggressive, in a different way than just mentally and not really physically. He disrespected my mother, in many ways. Outwardly sexual with other females in front of my mother and myself. My mother blew it off like its what he does.. oh well. It made me very uncomfortable and heart broken. I felt like that was what I was going to have to put up with. For awhile I did. Which hurt me more unknowingly.
I think having the ability to evaluate and understand the past gives me what I should of gotten from it. There's so many ways to learn. To get to one certain understanding. Which I find amazing.
I really am grateful for all your loving words. They have helped me more open my heart to my fellow brothers and sisters. also have to add: since I met my boyfriend. I have been working on quite a bit, and feel I have made a substantial amount of progress. He mentioned many times he felt more like my father than my boyfriend. I feel this is because he showed me the kind of love I was supposed to be shown.
Questioner. I have to say this: your words really spoke deeply to my heart. Thank you so much! To start, I really haven't tried to focus a lot of energy into a belief system. I try to learn everything or at least the main facts of each and make my own conclusion. So I can't really give you a answer other than my belief system is myself.
Secondly, I haven't ever tried to meditate or anything of that nature. I have on occasion prayed to my higher self and creator. Which I have to add helped tremendously. Because a few days later information flowed through me. And lead me here
I do however want to spend time looking into these things and making myself more spiritually connected and do feel very much at home here. Thank you again.To Fairy. Thank you also for you kind words and the link which which I will be find time to read. I have the next couple of days off and intend to spend a lot of time researching and soul searching.
Thank to all of you and I send my love back. I feel something for people! Which is very new, but I know its love. This time I know.