The Spiritual Ethics of Suicide

[Jeremy]

I guess my life hasn't really been bad enough to even contemplate something like this. I mean, even when I was dealing with a manic depressed/bipolar wife with delusions while surviving on 4 hours of sleep for 6 months, taking care of my daughter, working full time, getting evicted, getting a knife shoved in my face while my wife held our daughter, thrown in jail because of a lie by my wife, subjected to sleeping on my parents living room floor while only being able to visit my daughter under supervision every other week, car breaking down once a month, etc and I still never even thought about it once.

I guess I always had my daughter to think about but it just simply was never an option that ever arose in my mind. Maybe I've always known that we had more work to do so leaving early would have accomplished nothing.

Wow, you seem to have a very difficult life. I hope you are well.

I'm great actually. Though all of that is still a memory, it doesn't affect me in the least even when my wife and I are on the verge of reconciliation. I had come to the conclusion that I needed to learn patience and forgiveness for which I am grateful.

The subsequent woman I dated after my wife and I split further reinforced the forgiveness aspect when I found out she had was already dating someone else whilen we met after we had already been together for a couple months and shared quite a connection. Through this betrayal, I sat in meditation immediately following the discovery while I was in her apartment. Suddenly, I started forgiving everyone including her, my wife, and even my biological father whom I've never met. It was the most intense spiritual high I have been on yet.

This all has also given me the much needed time alone to discover this wonderful philosophy and path so if this is what was needed to get where I am now, it was totally worth it