09-02-2013, 02:15 PM
(08-31-2013, 09:05 PM)Aloysius Wrote: I can't speak with authority on your experiences GW, but perhaps a good idea if another being appears before you is to challenge them, like Carla did, in the name of love and light of the infinite creator or a representative of that principle that you resonate strongly with eg. jesus, buddha. I'm glad you're having a restful day.
My experiences have both been equally bad and good. That's why they diagnosed me with bipolar. When I was excited, I'd get really excited like a child. Everything, the mystery, seemed new to me. Like I saw the leaves on a tree appear to morph into animals that seemed animated. That was an excellent experience. Shadows on the wall seemed to be animated like cartoon characters. Also pretty swell.
But when it was bad, it was like being chased by a black hole. Or feeling like the sun was going to heat up and microwave the earth, and that it was all my fault. I felt once like a black hole was appearing in the core of the earth, and I could feel the gravitational increase, although it was just an illusion. I'll probably challenge a being in the name of my higher self, or my guardian angel. I think his name is Cecil. But cecil means blind, so I have a blind guide. How can my spirit guide guide me if he's blind to the truth? Or maybe it's just the name, as spirit guides don't need names.
When I was having great and most excellent experiences, was when I was working with Ra, or so I thought. I loved the cartoons they were showing me. For me, it's more about the character than the story. If the character themselves lights up my life, I'm all for that. The story is secondary to me. And Ra showed me characters that were too cute and adorable for me to handle. Was it really Ra? I don't know. It could have been my guide. The times that were scary for me could be the duality, and me having to face my shadow self. When I was delusional, I hurt my pet. That was my only regret of my experiences, which I have since forgiven myself. I believed I was ready for the next Octave, which was named to me as Unity. Ra called the next Octave Unity, and the Octave after that Wisdom. Or so was my experience. Now I'm back to normal, whatever that means. My experiences I cannot handle off my meds. On them, I still get to feel energy shifting. But I am not overwhelmed with adorability or scared anymore.