The Illusion of having 'made it'

[Turtle]

The more positive you get the more negative states can affect you

So? Start enjoying the negative states. Recognize that they are just "unwanted" by you because you prefer to feel positive states. But just because the negative states and moods are "unwanted" by you, does not mean they cannot be used safely, and with respect to other's free will....the most classic example of using a negative state in a fun and positive way that I can think of (especially being a man) is venting that energy through beating the hell out of a punching bag. Fully imagining that you're completely destroying another human's body with hate and rage, the one that pisses you off. FULLY IMAGINING IT WHILE BEATING THE HELL OUT OF THAT BAG....what...sounds a little devious to you? You know better...

That 1st density material cares nothing about your manly might. You hands may be sore after the fact. But best of all, you will be balanced again, and will most likely be surprised by how fun it is to use dark and negative states in a way that harms no one, not even yourself (so long as you have decent punching technique while in the middle of a rage, lol. Doable, so don't fret about that.)

Chew on that a bit...how does it taste?