02-19-2009, 10:33 PM
Well Richard, I think you're right. We set forth these challenges for ourselves, and I suppose I chose beforehand to have this naturally skeptical mind. It's absurd really, how I can read so many things that resonate with me and I just feel that it's right without question, and then a little thing will throw me off and if I question some minor, unimportant thing then I'm forced to question everything, even all those true feelings I've had. It's not a very proportionate ratio, but I'm working on it. I realize how I've been and that it is often illogical to let these little things make me skeptical of the whole larger picture, and now I've come to accept that there are many things that I will never be able to personally prove or disprove, and to not just throw away countless helpful learnings simply because I find something hard to believe. Now I know not to let that happen, if something is hard to believe then I leave it at that, it's simply hard for me to imagine, not impossible, and it doesn't change anything about all the positive things this material has shown me. I've still got obstacles to overcome, don't we all? I've learned not to allow myself to be so unreasonable at times. One step at a time.