12/21/2012: David Wilcock, Harvest, Ra, New Age Gurus. What does it all mean?

[xise]

I don't know, days feel slower for me lately. I'm counting the hours. I'm a little disappointed that nothing seemed to happen that was obvious. I spent Dec 21, 2012 in jail because I went mentally insane and made a mistake.

I'm not sure now if I've been given the choice to leave or not. I probably would have taken them, that's how fragile my ego has been. Energy doesn't feel much different than it did a year ago. Not sure about how 4D energies are coming in. And it frustrates me a little bit. How much can I really do being here. They say we're shining light/love by just being here. But I can't say that for sure if I'm making a difference. I try to turn to my guardian angel, but just get confused energies.

Full moons can be intense. But they are also periods of great potential learning because of distortions of the subconscious mind that temporarily become more concious and manifest as uncomfortable emotions and energies. Just another reason to go deep within the self.