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Meditation does not have to be inactivity. In fact, inactivity is impossible. As long as you are alive, you are breathing, which is doing something. Walking can be a meditation, painting, dancing, anything, can be meditation. It matters not what you do, it matters only how you do it. The only thing of any importance is the way it's done.

As an artist, I care not about the finished product. The finished piece is not the art, the art is in the process. The finished piece is nothing but an artifact of the art that once was. Do you understand?

What I would recommend for you is mindfulness practice.

Just be aware. Thoughts will come and go, there is no need to react to them, just notice them. Sensations, likewise, come and go. Don't react to them, just continue being aware.

I am not suggesting to do nothing, but rather to bring this mindfulness into all that you do.

This, as I have found, is the most efficient way to break habits. The trick is to not fight the habit, but simply to recognize it. This will allow it to solve itself, it will dissolve on its own because you're no longer feeding it, you're just being cognizant.

This is my advice, but understand: only you can discern that which is best for you.

Hope I've been helpful.