I was pushed by my social memory complex to be here...

[Rusalka]

My understanding of a Social Memory Complex is still rather limited but it seems what I percieve as "me" as an individual is controlled by my Social Memory Complex at times. My other bodies are kept under lock and key. So my ability to become an adept is rather limited, forcibly.

Perhaps I misunderstand this whole paradigm but it appears my original will as I was prior to incarnation is signed in blood. There's no way to turn back except to a certain degree.

what your describing is probably best a summary of the following:

Secondly, the free will of third-density entities needs be preserved. Thus Wanderers volunteer for third-density genetic or DNA connections to the mind/body/spirit complex. The forgetting process can be penetrated to the extent of the Wanderer remembering what it is and why it is upon the planetary sphere. However, it would be an infringement if Wanderers penetrated the forgetting so far as to activate the more dense bodies and thus be able to live, shall we say, in a god-like manner. This would not be proper for those who have chosen to serve.

So if your desire to be an adept, with the whole displaying god-like powers, infringes on the free will of 3d citizens then yes as a wanderer it is possible you have been limited from accessing the more dense bodies of adepthood in this incarnation by your social complex or the powers-that-be. What your describing does make sense at least as far as i interpret what Ra is saying.

I'd even say that connecting with your adept powers would infringe on the will of the part of you that is of 3D.
I mean, the infringement would be in relation to third-density genetic or DNA connections to the mind/body/spirit complex.

Lots of us remember being able to fly, having wings and all sorts of other stuff but we just agreed to come here, do the job and relinguish those things for now.

This would be my understanding of Ra - feel free to correct me.

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Perhaps you shouldn't view your supposed Social Memory Complex as your master.. Rather like a lost limb or faculty only to be rediscovered.

I don't feel the Soc Mem Complex is limiting Adonai - if anything, he himself has limited the full display of his powers by agreeing to incarnate on Earth.

Although it does feel like it's THEM controlling you, had a contact like that as well with my guys, and it felt oppressive - I suppose they were coming from the perspective we agreed before the veil and I perceived the oppression from the perspective of myself as an individual incarnated here and only with glimpses of what might be behind it and what I agreed to do.

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Your resistance to change may be masquerading as lack of resonance. Your lack of understanding may be masquerading as lack of resonance. Or, your lack of resonance may be due to a masquerading source. Resonance and discernment is key.

Exactly!