Eternal Services - Closed

[caycegal]

I just don't know what the relationship between the 3rd and 4th would be in this context. Perhaps what I am consciously thinking as loving myself and others with my 3rd chakra (ego) is not matching up with what is truly happening with my 4th chakra? Just stabbing in the dark here.

It is difficult to describe the anxiety, especially when it is at it's most intense... It just feels like I am dying (even though that doesn't really make logical sense to me as I am not consciously afraid of death as I am aware I am merely a dream of my higher self and I will never cease to exist). At it's most intense, I am overcome with a fear of death and just general intense discomfort in the aforementioned area.

Random thoughts:

1.) I like your idea of different "parts" or selves inside yourself trying to negotiate and run the show together. That idea is also being studied in certain Psychology circles today. Also a lot about it in Jane Roberts material.

2.) Fear of death - everyone has it. At one time back in the day when I experimented briefly with psychedelics I learned that what I really feared most was endless, unremitting loneliness. Since that time I have gradually been learning to connect with the other parts of my universe, for example, actually listening to other people, actually seeing them, actually feeling appreciation for the ways they touch my life, even for the differences and oppositions. Actually looking at and listening to trees and birds (not just "thinking about" them), etc.