"good works for the wrong reasons"

[APeacefulWarrior]

I used to think that before you brought it up. It was my greatest desire to help Ra with their distortions. But I wasn't sure what I could do here to balance 6D distortions.

I still get angry at things, at certain catalyst. I am far from being unphazed by things.

You wouldn't need to understand.  You would be living a life specifically crafted to provide some bit of knowledge or experience to your higher selves.  Your own free will, and the choices you make, and the choices made by all the other Wanderers from that S/M/C, and everyone's choices across multiple parallel realities all ultimately add up to much higher knowledge that transcends any one individual life.

It might sound reductionist, but you would be one data point on a big ol' scatter-graph of wisdom, so to speak.

For that matter, nothing says that a 6D-derived Wanderer necessarily reflects the polarity of its source.  According to Ra, Himmler actually came from a 6D positive who, presumably, was attempting to learn of the negative polarity to further its own embrace of Unity.  So part of that 6D volunteered to get totally cut off from the Love/Light and embrace being an utter b*stard, without having the slightest Earthly knowledge of why he was actually there.

This is not, obviously, meant to compare you to Himmler.  He just makes a good example of how extreme this can get.  The basic point is:  If you are a Wanderer from a higher S/M/C, whatever you're doing is presumably what your higher-selves want\need you to be doing.  

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(edit) For that matter, I actually tend to think -but this is just my opinion- that too much knowledge of one's higher goals may actually be inhibitory or potentially infringe on free will. In my own case, I've deliberately avoided trying to consult too directly with my higher selves about what My Purpose(s) In Life is. I have my own ideas on the matter (to the extent any ideas are my own) which have given direction to my personal development, and my higher selves seem quite supportive of my overall efforts. So in seeking my "own" purposes, I seem to have also found purposes that align with whatever they'd had in mind.

(And since I once received a very clear "no, don't do that" when I nearly attempted, in ignorance, to do something that was apparently a very bad idea, I assume they would intervene again if I ever tried to do something else really stupid.)