"You create your reality"

[Mahakali]

I do not mean suicide of the body, suicide of the mind, of the identity.

If your goal is building then you need order. Without order no building is possible as entropy will dissolve things before they are even made.

I will profess that I do not think black magic alone holds the answer to what you seek, but holding to it will limit you.

I'm confused. Ego death would imply death of the body, or at the very least, its dissolution and reconstruction, would it not?

Also, dissolution is generally the prime way I approach things, because it is the ultimate power. Order is automatic, so if you approach things through chaos an dissolution, then you can simply keep breaking down order until it hits the right configurations.

I don't know if I'm expressing what I mean very clearly, but.

At any rate, do you have any idead on what would be a good start to a practical solution? There's a lot to be factored in, here.

WWIII is in the works, a bunch of weird s*** is happening, the planet is under attack, my body is screwed up and potentially damaged, my chakras are all f***** up, and friends and family members of mine might be in trouble.

I really need to stop sitting on my ass in front of the computer, theorizing, but I need to figure out where to go from here.