"You create your reality"

[Aion]

I do understand what you are expressing although I admit I feel you have some pretty strong biases. We all do, of course. I'm not sure I would agree that order is automatic and chaos is not, since entropy is pretty automatic. I think that is maybe a choice you have made. Personally I view them as metabolism. Anabolism and catabolism are both required to maintain a body in any state. To become balanced is to bring these processes in to dynamic equilibrium.

The body does not die due to ego death because the ego is instantly reborn anew, innocent and open. It does mean reorganization though and I do believe it can even affect physical changes. For the mind death is but a doorway to a new self.

I think everything is automatic until you choose to be consciously creative. Personally I see order and chaos as equal tools, both which are required for creation.

On a practical level I am not sure my suggestion would be appealing or even seem useful, but it would be to explore your opposite self. That is, to delve in to all that you see yourself as Not. Open yourself to everything you don't want to be and accept that as part of All that you are.

Of course, both are automatic. But if you control one, you control the other.

Is the body not a product of the ego, anyway? So if you really destroy the ego, doesn't that imply the destruction and rebirth of the physical body, as well?

Otherwise, it's just mind-wiping/brainwashing, which IMO is not anything near the same as ego death; ego death meaning being completely one with the all without bias towards or against any particular direction.

>Open yourself to everything you don't want to be

That's pretty broad. There's a lot of things I don't want to be.

I don't want to be a heroin addict.

I don't want to be a child molester.

I don't want to be a Mormon.

I don't want to be a fan of It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia.

I don't have anything against any of those things, from one angle, because, yes, all is connected to me, but I also don't see the benefit of exploring these distortions.

So, no, that doesn't seem particularly useful, unless I completely misunderstood.

I don't just want any random new self. I want to improve myself. And perhaps ego death could be controlled, but I've learned my lesson about accepting ego death advice from random strangers OTI (no offense).

I really need to know how to heal my body and figure out how to manipulate physical matter with my mind to a much finer degree in order to be able to survive, or at least teleport away from, problems that I may have.

Seems like the next few years in the world might be turbulent, and the odds are frankly stacked against my survival in some possibilities.

I can survive, however, and I need to find the way to do that.

Perhaps we simply have different ideas of what the ego is, which is true for a lot of discussion on the ego or if it is even 'a thing'. Truth be told, I don't think it even really exists, it's just another categorization. So, no, I do not believe the body is a creation of the ego, quite the contrary, the ego is a result of the mind interacting with the body, in my opinion. It is a ghost of all the processes of the mind appearing in the body. Like a reflection on the surface of water.

Perhaps we conceptualize death different. By 'new', I mean empty. Not 'random' or just anything, but empty. I see no end in death but there is release and transformation. Maybe empty seems like an end, but it is also a beginning.

All the ways in which you define yourself as a dualistic human being with set and concrete likes and dislikes act as degrees of separation between body, mind and spirit, for these create the contrast of differences, light, shadow and form. There become expectations of the form of the self and therefore limits.

Matter is unified. Energy is unified. Matter and Energy are unified. Energy is locked up in your decisions. Decisions about your identity, about yourself, about your reality. All of these thoughts and decisions take up energy to process all of the many layers. Free your choice, and you free up energy, and as you free up energy, you free up matter.

Choice is the juxtaposition between Chaos and Order. In every choice both exist. From order is chaos and from chaos is order. Yet together, unified, they are one choice which has already been made.

Stop getting in your own way. You already know what to do, you already know the path you seek. You already see it before you. Stop listening to me and it's right there.

Don't you see yet that I am a distraction? See the reflection of your goodness and foolishness in the Owl Glass. Much love, my friend.