11-26-2010, 09:17 AM
When I work with myself through different kinds of feelings, thoughts and emotions it getting more and more clear to me how we all are one. Then the concept of my home and my sisters and brothers is getting confusing here.
But the main issue that I have is that I still feel some blockage before I dive in that feeling/emotion of being one with humans and Earth.
My concern is: what if I enjoy it so much (parts of it I have allready been experiencing and enjoing very much) that I realise completely in my whole essence and consciousness how funny, delightful and enjoing it is to be human on Earth? What if I find it so wonderful that I decide to stay here?
Allready it is so that I am leting go of all previous values of humans being lower beings which is what we learn in our society while growing up. That spirit is above all this creation on Earth and that humans have to work hard to get there by "enlightning" process. Now I see that all are being a fusion of everything without any values that humans put into it, meaning that there is no such things that are "higher" and "lower". And it brings me a great joy, like of an innocent child.
Anyway, what if I find it so joyful that I decide to do it again (that is incarnate, if allowed offcourse)? Before I found out about that whole thing with Wanderers and words of Ra, I have been sensing strong perception of this being my last time incarnated here, and that it's time for me to go home now.
I know it's stupid of me to not dive in that emotion of being human and coalesce with Earth, and I feel like an adult here asking for permition to eat an icecream, but the blockage is there and is real and I am worried to let go so completly that the concept of my home and my brothers and sisters will evaporate. And then I decide to stay here...
But the main issue that I have is that I still feel some blockage before I dive in that feeling/emotion of being one with humans and Earth.
My concern is: what if I enjoy it so much (parts of it I have allready been experiencing and enjoing very much) that I realise completely in my whole essence and consciousness how funny, delightful and enjoing it is to be human on Earth? What if I find it so wonderful that I decide to stay here?
Allready it is so that I am leting go of all previous values of humans being lower beings which is what we learn in our society while growing up. That spirit is above all this creation on Earth and that humans have to work hard to get there by "enlightning" process. Now I see that all are being a fusion of everything without any values that humans put into it, meaning that there is no such things that are "higher" and "lower". And it brings me a great joy, like of an innocent child.
Anyway, what if I find it so joyful that I decide to do it again (that is incarnate, if allowed offcourse)? Before I found out about that whole thing with Wanderers and words of Ra, I have been sensing strong perception of this being my last time incarnated here, and that it's time for me to go home now.
I know it's stupid of me to not dive in that emotion of being human and coalesce with Earth, and I feel like an adult here asking for permition to eat an icecream, but the blockage is there and is real and I am worried to let go so completly that the concept of my home and my brothers and sisters will evaporate. And then I decide to stay here...