(10-04-2017, 02:45 AM)Aion Wrote: How might I ask will manipulation of the ether change your situation? What might you change in the ethers that will produce the reality you desire?
The ability itself, and the emotional and psychic freedom that come with it, would be the change.
I miss being able to feel deeply and think deeply and read and write and create and enjoy. Without intelligence and creativity, there is no pleasure and no reason to live except to take revenge.
That's the worst of the pain, I think, the lack of soul. They want to beat the soul out of me and/or control it, so that it'll never reach its full potential even in creative pursuits.
Ever since they tried to take it, starting when I was really little, I just got worse and worse. They want to force me into a mold that I won't fit into, and they've damaged me, and I want them to suffer and die for it.
I hate this country and the people who run it. Everything I've ever loved and cherished in my life has been ripped out of my hands by these bastards, turning me into a monster, and then they want to punish me for being what they made me into.
I hate them.
I hate them.
But they must have enemies. There must be a way out. And even if there isn't, there must be a way I can hurt them.