Negative Wanderer.

[JJCarsonian]

Hello there!

I have been looking for some answers, hopefully I can find some here.

I believe I am a wanderer but with negative polarization. Don’t remember if I ever felt love towards humanity, have always been struggling to find the reason I have incarnated and have always been trying to find an outlet for my resentment towards myself for my choice to come here.

I have two main questions for those who probably experienced or experience something similar:
- first one: WHY? Why would anyone with the highly developed mind find this place interesting? I feel bored with life, with people, I can’t find anything worthy of my attention for I have lost my path and understanding;
- second one: If someone can share their experience; is there a way of finding a way out of endless negativity and finally reaching a least a partial comprehension of my life purpose?

You sound like a friend of mine. Do you place Overwatch? DVA is a character in OW ..

Anyways, per Ra, its very unlikely that a negative wanderer would come here and risk polarization. Maybe you are a positive wanderer but feel misplaced... Earth drives alot of wanderers nuts. A friend of mine, who is innately good guy, but has an extremely negative opinion about everything - i suspect him to be a wanderer too but he doesnt even believe in God. Or maybe you arent a wanderer but a negative soul close to graduating, and thats why you are here.

I have questions for you:
1) How was your upbringing? were you surrounded by loving parents? or experiencef alot of negativity growing up?
2) Tell me about yourself? Are you an extremely selfish person? Do you look at every situation from a "How can this benefit me" POV? The true mark of a negative person is someone who is extremely selfish and constantly manipulating others to get what they want.. Is this your personality? Is this who you are?