Negative Wanderer.

[DVA]

I experienced that same lethargy about life myself, and had many years of anger and self sympathy
Which leads to massive blockages. It's taken many years to reverse and unblock those. I bet if you started growing some plants and start caring about your diet. You would notice a small change. Seriously try growing some plants.

I love nature and animals. But when I do what I love I usually think “what is the point of this?”
Have you found your true purpose and reason you have come here?