Negative Wanderer.

[JJCarsonian]

What is the difference between a wanderer and a negative soul? Probably I use the term incorrectly, for I have come across this recently. But I have always tried to give it a name somehow, I have read about old souls, Lightworkers and such, but this didn’t help a lot. I follow the Mercury Light mediumship group; once I asked their Spirit Group if there is a possibility a soul regrets coming here. They replied it happens and described something similar to a wanderer with the possibility of being born handicapped let alone mental severe disorientation.

The way we define it as by Ra, its any soul who is 4+ density and doesnt require to incarnate anymore, but chooses to incarnate anyways. Many choose to come and help out Earth/people and others come to work on some past deficiencies.

1. Physically my childhood was good, I had enough and was not neglected. But mentally it was not, I didn’t receive as much love as I needed as a child. My parents were not able to reveal my character virtues, I always felt I knew the truth and wisdom but was considered “not ok” and “a difficult child” for confronting social norms and inability to conform to authority and rules.
2. I am not that selfish. I don’t use psychological manipulations because I don’t care much about the outcome, physical life seems unnecessary and boring. My main issue is that I live two separate lives: the one being physical/social one and the second one being mental. I cannot merge the two. Sometimes I got caught in social construct and I then feel I am drowning in absolutely useless time-consuming trifles like work, small talks and everyday experience. This is what I feel mentally. But physically I am very tough and power-career-oriented person: this is what I am on the outside for the sake of playing this game of life.

But I don’t see how can I find my true path if I always feel I shouldn’t be here?

There is a difference between a negatively polarized soul and having negative thoughts or feelings.

Many positive wanderers feel disoriented with the energy of Earth. There is alot of negativity in this environment, and it could create disillusionment in the soul. Many wanderers have mental disorders because of it.

If you are truly a negatively oriented soul, then you are selfish. You have no problems stepping over people to get what you want. Take a look at what you do today in your career. Will you do anything to move up the ladder?

I dont know if i'm a wanderer, but i feel the same way you do. I have a good job and career, but i hate it. I feel like i should be doing something else, but i cant because i need to support my family. I was actually going to quit at one point, but then my wife got laid off.

Based on the way you are feeling, it appears your subconscious feels your goals are misaligned and is making you feel restless.

Anyways, feel free to PM me if you want to talk about specifics.