Negative Wanderer.

[DVA]

Hello. This passage is very interesting and could point to you being a wanderer of a higher density. May I ask what the nature of your daydreaming is? Such as, what is it that you want to express that you can't in 3D?

Also, can you express universal love? Maybe this is a silly question because you said you were negative. I know it sounds a bit cliche, but in my experience, I got a lot of relief from the boredom of life's trivialities by being able to radiate love/light. That way when I do small talk I can also do energy work. Before that I was more inclined to start playing with people's minds (boredom can lead to some wicked things).

My daydreaming consists of different scenarios I experience in my imagination which are usually triggered by dreams. I “see” different people with different lives, very specific characters whom I know, as it seems sometimes, much better than people around me because I feel them and their emotions through my own self. These differ and depend on my state of mind and being at the time this happens. Sometimes it doesn’t feel appealing to daydream, I don’t use my imagination in this way then; but in some time something can trigger deep immersion I then experience for days.

Very often I long for these people, they feel close. They can lift me up or drag me down, depends on a type of scenes I observe. For my aggression I have a very specific character I once saw in a dream. Very powerful type who helps me to express my violence and rage out through scenes I see him participating which let me feel that which I need to release resistance and achieve some kind of relief.

Have always wanted to experience universal, unconditional love. I have experienced very brief moments of that… Pure emotion sweeping away any doubts, penetrating my mind with knowledge of innate wisdom and certainty that everything is always well. I am not able to get anything like this at times I want.

Are you able to produce this emotion at your own will? Or do you sooth yourself into it by saying something specific which helps to develop this feeling?