Negative Wanderer.

[DVA]

I wish you all the best on your journey!  

Thank you a lot!  

This to me sounds like you have some residual memory of living in a group dynamic that is a lot more harmonious and supportive. It also appears to me that you have a lot of potential as you recognize these higher virtues, and are desirous of being able to express them in 3D reality. Obviously the limitations of this experience are understandably difficult, but in general, limitations that are overcome tend to make one stronger, more disciplined, more inventive, etc. Therefore I see great opportunity in wanderin', not to say I find it easy.

This usually serves me well, for this helps me work my issues out. Plus, this is the great way of communicating with my psyche.

But sometimes this distorts my perception a lot, for I tend to turn to these “psyche people” than those around me, so I feel even more alienated. I mostly feel this imagination plane is much more comfortable and familiar than the 3D. And I guess I am not wrong, because Seth mentioned psyche benefits a lot, but still I am not sure how to use it for my benefit 100%.

I have found the progression to yield exponential results, therefore the beginning starts pretty slow, but it gets easier as time goes on. I started by just making truth and universal love as values that supersede my personal comfort, then opportunities were presented to aid in my healing. It didn't always look positive on the outset, for example I spent quite some time watching YouTube videos on narcissism, especially hearing people's personal accounts of how they had been victimized by this personality structure. I started seeing narcissism everywhere, including in myself. It would seem that I was getting immersed into a pattern of blame and hate, but actually I was just processing and detoxing my confusion, anger and disgust at certain aspects of the human condition. When you accept it with understanding as a potential within yourself, you accept its existence in the world, and you essentially free-up that energy that was being used to push back against it.

Same here; I am interested in psychiatry since childhood for I was trying to find answers for my inadequacy. Usually it is considered a narcissist is not able to reflect on his/her narcissism, very rarely this happens, but I thought since I was not probably an “average” one so this was possible for me  

In my experience, the feeling of universal love is the default setting of consciousness. Therefore I do not will myself to feel universal love. It would be more accurate to say that I will myself on a pretty consistent basis to ignore distractions, and then unblock and balance the lower triad of energy centres so that vital energy can freely flow into the higher energy centres.

Sounds exactly like it should… You just let it and it works well for you.

Do you have some kind of connection and communication with your Higher Self or Guides?