Negative Wanderer.

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I believe I am a wanderer but with negative polarization.

Negative entities have desires, inclinations and fixations which border on the line of obsession, and they would have little time to ask around in internet forums about their nature. Instead they would be doing what would bring the most self-aggrandizement to them in the shortest time. Be it getting rich fast through making others work, be it gaining undeserved respect, influence or power through religious organizations, military, government, politics or whatever is available.

Don’t remember if I ever felt love towards humanity, have always been struggling to find the reason I have incarnated and have always been trying to find an outlet for my resentment towards myself for my choice to come here.

These sound like a case of estrangement and anti-social tendencies. They are not related to negative polarity.