Negative Wanderer.

[Kaaron]

I can relate. I've had similar problems connecting with anything in this place.
Your dream characters sound like past life work.
I have a theory lol
I feel like our guides are actually the aspect of ourselves from another incarnation that is helping balance whatever karma was created when they/we walked the earth in that form.
Perhaps they are aspects of yourself that need healing so that you don't feel such a disconnection?
Another way of saying it would be that your guardian angels (or aspects of you) are appearing as you need to see them, in order to show you what you came to overcome and thus help others with by being able to relate.
I feel like that's why I am the way i am.
Imagine how its gonna feel once we reconnect...we had our entire existence with fleeting glimpses. I feel like the disconnection can be compared to the drawing of a bow. The further you pull back the string blah blah...
The greater the disconnection or contrast to love we feel, the greater potential for deeper connection and love. We are giving the creator the experience of feeling more than it is...by experiencing its opposite and THAT is why the Angel's n every other entity in existence are in awe of us.
You're a wanderer who hasn't polarized properly due to blockages...not a negative one.
Meditation is key.