07-18-2018, 06:34 PM
(07-18-2018, 06:04 PM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote:(07-18-2018, 03:44 PM)Fuse Wrote:(07-15-2018, 01:12 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: So I responded to my friend's art with a lengthy comment telling them that I forgive them and saying goodbye. I said other stuff, but that's what I said. They deleted the comment and blocked me on Instagram too. Maybe cause I ended it with "goodbye" but I dunno. All's I know is, I forgive them anyway, I love them and I refuse to let this get me down. At this point, I just want to cut etheric ties if this person truly wishes to go a whole incarnation without talking to me again. It's not fair to me, but that's alright. They can have all the space they need.
They don't have to understand me, forgive me back, talk to me or want anything to do with me. I deserve all those things, and it's THEIR loss at this point if they don't, but they are free to do as they please. I release them from all karmic contracts and let them go.
It's really hard to lose a friend, of course. But I think that you're on the right track with the way you concluded this post. Energetic entanglements and problems with relationships can tug directly at your solar-plexus or even heart chakras, I think. You might even think of it as a form of unintentional attack that happens when the other person dwells on the issue in some way. Wouldn't surprise me a bit if that was the source of your stomachache. I would recommend shielding yourself against the effect. I wouldn't do a reflective shield designed to bounce the energy back or anything, but rather a transmuting one designed to protect you while harmlessly dissipating the unwanted energy.
I learned the hard way that I was developing empathic gifts, because I was picking up on and reacting to the heightened emotional output of other people, even random strangers. Recognizing that and actively shielding myself from it has helped me so much.
Reading over the descriptions of your relationship with this person, I get the sense that it was inexplicable to you because there was a service of love that this person needed you to offer, and it involved lessons they were going to learn from you and how you handled all of this. Now that the service is provided, you shouldn't have to suffer from the effects of their learning any longer. Don't know if any of that impression is on point, but I had it, so I'll share it just in case.
As far as ascension symptoms go, at the moment at least, I feel like I'm pretty clear, doing a fairly good job of balancing my service to others versus to myself. I'm sure I could do more inner work, but short of that I feel like I'm doing pretty well. As such, I'm not experiencing much in the way of ascension symptoms beyond the incessant crystalline whine I hear. I understand that one's quite common.
You know, I didn't stop to think the nausea was coming from them, but now that you put it that way, it makes sense that they would accidentally send that energy to me like that. At this point, I'm feeling good consistently lately. I have not, since my "all 3 chakras blocked" thread, had any negative thoughts dwelling on the matter. I think I'm FINALLY over it for good! Although as soon as I say that, BAM! Another (this time VERY slight) feeling of nausea. Huh. But that's not me feeling bad over this friend. At first I thought it was ascension symptoms, mixed with yellow ray blockages (which my healer said I had, along with orange and red) releasing negative energy. Then I thought it was me not eating enough. Yet today, I got sick, even after eating some spaghetti. It's not the healthiest food in the world, but it shouldn't make me feel sick, Never has before...
But now that you say it might be this friend's negativity, that makes sense. Especially cause this friend has bipolar disorder and BPD. You think it's just general negative feelings of theirs or feelings regarding our relationship?
Also, any advice on how to do the dissipating/transmuting shielding stuff? I'm beginning to rethink cutting the cord and instead, let them do their thing. If they wanna reconnect, cool. If not, I'm fine. But I wanna leave the option open, just in case, now that I don't harbour any bad feelings about it anymore.
And naw, my heart chakra's fine. It's the lower 3 I am working to open up/clear/balance.
Omg bpd and bipolar why didn’t you lead with this?
That must be such an impossibly hard thing to live with.
I wouldn’t at all take it personally they cannot continue contact.
The bpd makes them so vulnerable and raw emotionally and also it makes perception of things so confused they often cannot evennreally understand themself.
Don’t take this personally just realized you managed to give them love while they let you and if it was a close relationship that means you are pretty great and empathetic. Sometime(it’s pretty much a thing) they just cut people off. Not to be mean or bad but just because that’s how their brain works and they have to. It’s really a horrible thing to have to live with.
Hard to lose them because generally there is something truely beautiful under all that difficult stuff but it’s one of those things. Love them for the time you can and then let go and heal.
The harder you cling the more they will want distance even worse so just work on healing from the connection now.