Worried about being transported to negative time/space

[EvolvingPhoenix]

So when I first read that people could be "tricked" into negative timespace, I've had worries about it that are more and more coming to the surface lately, needing transmutation. I dunno what to do.

This is very similar to my problem with the "Worrying about being a robot slave" thing and makes me wonder about eeper issues.

Thing is, no matter how much I send the issue to my angels, the archangels, my higher self, etc. for healing and transmutation, I continue to be terrified and I REALLY have a desire not to manifest such a thing through my fears.

What's more is I, like in the "robot slave" thread, am for some reason worried my higher self would be willing to put me through such things.

There are reasons I suspect, but know too little about what goes on beyond the veil to be even remotely confident I know what I'm talking about, yet still have this fear.

for example, my exploration on the nature of the feminine and masculine aspects of the polarized energies and the possible creative implications for beyond the octave or whatever.

I would really like y'alls help getting to the bottom of my fears and resolving them here.

I know my lower 3 chakras are blocked. I'm working on that. Becoming grounded DOES help.

I recognize I've got DEEP SEATED authority issues.

I get that a sense of helplessness at the sight of what is perceived to be an unpredictable and uncontrollable force is something the Orion group tried to instill into primitives by using images from the deep unconscious mind to inspire awe (and fear) so it negativizes for sure to be in such a mindset.

I hear the higher self starts from the end and works it's way there. And while very ungrounded, I have come to the idea of a thought that the rash, negative path may have creative implications of trying to improve or change systems, metaphysically. I get this from reading GentleReckoning's posts.

That being said, I'm not unpleased with the "status quo" of how the fabric of this reality works, so why am I having this fear?

The masculine feminine thing in regards to polarity also may be affecting my outlook on the matter.

I have had some deep seated issues with women in the past stemming from female authority figures and while I know longer consider myself a chauvinist or have an issue with the idea that men and women are equal, there was a time when I considered men superior. This was in response to gynocentric authoritarianism, but I have grown out of it. Still, perhaps some unconscious attitudes remain?  

For example, I look around and say "Men built all this.... primarily for women" and a piece of me worries that by taking the positive path I may be opting out of the metaphysical equivalent of world building. And the chauvinism might be in the attitude that taking the feminized energy or RECEIVING on the matter could be somehow a thing I would take issue with?  I dunno.

But as I've said, I LIKE this reality, so why would I have a problem taking on a feminized energy about it? Unless it were some sort of unconscious chauvinism or...? I dunno.

And I recognize that under this veil there's a LOT I dunno about the metaphysics. So there's that.

Can you all please help me with this and help me with this?

And what (other than working to be more grounded, natch) would help me with these freakouts I keep having?

Thanks in advance. I love you all and am truly grateful for your loving support.

EDIT: I also note that in mid sixth density, one is "beyond polarity" so maybe I'm reading WAYY TOO MUCH into this masculine/feminine polarity thing.