09-07-2018, 04:00 AM
(09-07-2018, 03:17 AM)Agua Wrote: To expand on that a little, i'll give a hypothetical example:
Well, the example is not too hypothetical, but i dont know what exactly it is in your case, its actually very common
Imagine you are an unborn baby. Birth is approaching.
Space is extremely limited since you are already quite big. The "walls" are closing in on you.
You dont have the slightest bit of understanding of whats happening.
But its a serious threat!
Your body usually turns upside down. The "walls" get tigther and tighter. Contractions start and you are being pushed against the "exit", but the exit is still tightly closed in that phase.
Life as you have known it up to know is about to end!
This is actually pretty much the same as when you die at the end of your physical life.
Fear of death, stress and struggle are beyond ANYTHING you could imagine what is humanly possible.
You could multiply the greatest pain and the biggest fear you know by 10 000 and you still wouldnt be close.
And dont forget, you are not an adult, you are a baby that can not yet live on its own.
In that phase it often is as if the "gates to hell" open.
You can envision demons fighting you, you can experience scenes of torture and so on.
This very often activates trauma from other lifetimes, bringing it back into "memory".
Additionaly, the can be other factors. For example if the mothers connection to you is umstable, meaning she cits the heart connection to you makes you be all alone in hell.
Eberything the mother feels at these stages becomes imprimted into your system with incredible energy, for example, "i dont want the baby".
ALso, this is a perfect point of time for psychic attacks, negative entities can use this trauma to make it even worse.
After borth, you suppress all of this.
Many people for example chose the "intellectual path", that means, they build a strong ego around thinking and the intellect, which is a perfect tool to completely shut out these experiences.
Thinking and the intellect then becomes a means of survival.
Many people close the,selves to such a degree that they completely block most of their emotions, in order to avoid remembering trauma.
Now, usually there are certain "windows" in your later life, when it becomes possible to slowly access old trauma and step by step heal.
This can be an outer trigger like a relationship breakup, loss of a job, giving birth to a child, having children and very often when one has "settled down" and reached a place of stability.
Another factor can be drug use. For example, marijuana mostly is underrated.
It can be quite ego dissolving, which results in either barriers becoming less firm or in the ego running wild and catching you up in thought cycles.
That depends on if you surrender or if you resist.
When something like this happens, a tiny little flashback of (for example) the fear arises in you.
Its just a little bit, nothing remotely close to the "original fear", but in normal human terms still a major fear.
Your comsciousness usually cannot allow the fear fully arise, you would probably kill yourself immediately when this would happen. So it tries to control the fear.
Much of the control we apply to keep those things at bay is what we call "understanding".
You might notice that many of us (including myself, hehe) have a compulsion to understand things.
Actually this is not really understanding. The intellect cannot understand those things. Never.
It is in fact simply and only an attempt to control the experience.
We do not really understand it, how could we, if we dont allow the experience.
But by thinking and by intellectual activity we can cut off from it and so reduce the energy of the experience.
It might still be a strong fear, but it is nothing compared to the real thing.
In an attempt to control the experience by "understanding" it, we interpret the emotion of fear, we label it mentally and put it in a category.
In your case you imterpret it as "fear of being transported to negative time space".
we turn the emotion that we cannot allow fully into something that makes sense to us and control it by understanding it.
If you smoke marijuana, which i would not recommend at the moment for various reason, try to set the intention that you allow to understand nothing at all and have fun witnessing what happens
You will be overwhelmed with fear and probably would not be able to allow it for even ten minutes!
Actually, this is what psychosis is about (not saying you're psychotic). We experience something that is real, a tiny flashback of an old trauma. We dont recognize this as old emotions and believe it is happening right now. Then we zry to "umderstand" it and interpret it according to curremt circumstances.
This is what happens on a smaller scale throughtout the whole day for most people.
So, relax, dont be ashamed. This is perfectly normal. Some will umdstand this, others wont.
Become aware of it, practice presence and heal and grow.
Dont use it as a means to put you down.
Use it as an opportunity to grow!
This is exactly how our lives are designed, it is not a malfunction, but the way it was intended.
Just try to not stay stuck in it
Let me summarize:
Limited, closing in, serious threat, upside down, tighter and tighter, you are being pushed, fear of death, stress and struggle, life... about to end, die, end of ... life, fear of death, stress and struggle, the greatest pain, greatest pain and the biggest fear by 10,000, gates to hell, demons fighting you, scenes of torture, trauma from other lifetimes, all alone in hell, a paragraph of sudden typos forcing a deeper hypnotic state, I don't want the baby, perfect point for psychic attack,
haha, you said borth.
I'm not going to validate the rest. If 90-100% fear-mongering isn't enough to convince you, perhaps you could learn to more artfully apply the art of fart:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KUaEtf1s23w