Worried about being transported to negative time/space

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Can anybody tell me what's going on with these fear and that dream?

Whats the exact question?

Hasnt the question regarding the fear(s) been answered in this very thread in depth already by various members?

Indeed. So why am I still having some issues?

They're not as pronounced, but they still linger.

Maybe because I haven't gone out to China and DONE the thing yet? I dunno. What do you think the dream means? That's the quetion. Why do you think I had it?

Not to be Mom since I'm only 10 years older(big sister) but I would think it would be best to get over this fear issue before moving across the world away from support systems.

You are spinning in circles. Stop. Take a deep breath.

You should spend some time learning to clear the thoughts from your mind.
Even if you only get 30 seconds at a time you will slowly build up and learn to take over the drivers seat.
Right now your thoughts are in control and you will get no where that way. Stop feeding them.

Discipline of the mind should be your first step as it is running you ragged.

I truly wish you well, and know you can get past this but you have to slow down, and you have to do the work.
Going to China isn't going to change what is happening inside of you.  

I will send up request for help for you.

The thought just jumped into my head. Maybe it is to be shared.

If you are drowning someone can temporarily revive you and keep you afloat.
They cannot hold you up for ever though,(healers) you have to learn to swim.

Meditation is a great first step and it isn't actually hard if you start with low expectations of 30 seconds at a time and build up.

I hope you take this with the love and concern it is written from.

Also is it possible weed is contributing to your fear?
Some strains are known to bring on more paranoia then others but you really do not seem to need any more fear.
Perhaps consider if ingesting something known to cause these issues is wise or at least switch strains.