Message in a bottle

[MangusKhan]

I am sorry to hear your adolescent dabblings in the occult ended up with such consequences. You seem like such a nice guy to be haunted by demons. If it's any concilation, my soul may or may not be bound to Satan/Enki (???) via blood-contract from my own dabblings at the same age. These things happen!

If you think that you are bound to negative, you still don't give in to it, right? You still have faith in being a good person?

Tell me about that if you can, this is my biggest struggle.

What am I fighting for trying to remain positive while most of my experience is extremely negative?

I'm sorry but I can't really offer any advice better than that which has been given. It is also a point of interest to know that this "Satan" I signed contract with is almost certainly not the same "Satan" which is attributed to the rule of the elites on this planet, and stands in direct opposition to the false god, Yahweh, of the Abrahamic power structures. As for the feeling oneself bound to negativity, I find that the more I pierce the veil of illusion, the more impossible it becomes to actually serve myself or deny service to others. I think the spirit guide thing is valuable. I used to hate the idea of these nosy beings watching me masturbate (before I learned to harness that great source of energy), but all the talk on these forums of trusting and welcoming the spirit guides got me thinking about a different perspective. This morning, while laying on the beach, I sincerely welcomed them and asked them to guide my energies, and found myself smiling with joy as what felt like a bubble of happiness rose up through my body. So it seems there could be some real value in the practice of calling upon these beings regularly.