How should one feel?

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Strong prayers during the attack tend to help me fight them a little bit. You have to believe that you are the creator and you deserve free will while it happens. They are most afraid and weakened when you are calm and focused. I believe they feed on anger, but there is nothing wrong in experiencing that emotion / energy. Supressing and holding it in is probably worse. It's very difficult to express love when you're being attacked viciously, but sending love after it happened might help. I'm sorry I can't help you in a more practical way, I am dealing with something similar most of my life.