If you want to do drug then go natural, at least it's made by higher intelligence.
I still don't feel done with marijuana, but I don't see reasons like others may have to. A friend of mine once said "I mean, I could see in some years that I don't take any much anymore but I don't see a reason why I'd come to quit entierely." That's how I feel about it, I could lower my usage, because it does seem to down my energy a bit, but I know I got my own tendency to over-do things the time I feel like it.
I also don't believe in addiction, to me that's a big keyword to mean one is not aware of their own will. I smoked cigarettes a few years and got upset with people that said I was addicted because I assumed it was what I wanted. One day I did a MDMA (in crystal form) trip and spent an entire night talking about when I started smoking daily and the emotional circumstances of the time and it released a lot of energy. I still didn't feel like quitting but I became unable to appreciate it, unable to resonate with it and after forcing myself a bit I made my choice to quit and thought "maybe in another life it'll be a tool anew". From there is was effortless, had many occasions to have another one, but I plain just didn't feel like it and I don't remember having any withdrawal symptoms.
Had phases of drinking daily and they come as easily as they go, like moods that last months and little more.
When I quit cigarettes, I moved to dry vaping weed (all my friends agreed it is way better than smoking) and I rarely feel like not having it in a day, but sometimes I arrange myself to be stuck without to see if it creates a struggle and it doesn't really because I'm just not with the possibility. To me weed clearly has a lot of benifits and, just like cigarettes, would be something I can find to be thankful for even if I came to part with it. The benifits also are things I see myself integrating more and more into my sober state, it helped become so much more open to the energy of others and ever strenghtens my intuitions, helps me to connect to many energies and attain mutual-higher states of mind when discussing with people life and the universe. I think, for me, the downs of my usage could easily be balanced outside it and it is much more of a reflection than anything other. So while I don't believe I had a perfectly balanced relationship with marijuana, I do believe it is something that has definitely made me a better person (not that it was necessary, just sped things up a bit).
Drugs are tools and an imbalanced usage of a tool should not define the tool. A bit like how an alchoholic person needs to stay away from alcohol not because what the tool is but how it is used in self-destructive ways by twisted emotions. If you have a knife and turn it against yourself, it doesn't mean you couldn't find multiple ways to do something other that is positive with it, but ya you might feel like you're better off without any near yourself. But, the will to harm yourself remains untransformed.
Rather than wanting to stay away from something, I think it is more efficient to turn to oneself and distill why one is using that thing the way they are. With enough realization, the thing is not overcome, but the imbalanced usage may fall away. I deeply believe the positive path, the path of healing, to be a path of acceptance. Because, light is found within the shadows and one remains shrouded in darkness only so long they do not seek to see the light that resides in the shadows. In a distant time, all will see truly the light of themselves, and that my friends, is quite the beautiful sight. A sight where all see the purpose of each thing in their moment.
I still don't feel done with marijuana, but I don't see reasons like others may have to. A friend of mine once said "I mean, I could see in some years that I don't take any much anymore but I don't see a reason why I'd come to quit entierely." That's how I feel about it, I could lower my usage, because it does seem to down my energy a bit, but I know I got my own tendency to over-do things the time I feel like it.
I also don't believe in addiction, to me that's a big keyword to mean one is not aware of their own will. I smoked cigarettes a few years and got upset with people that said I was addicted because I assumed it was what I wanted. One day I did a MDMA (in crystal form) trip and spent an entire night talking about when I started smoking daily and the emotional circumstances of the time and it released a lot of energy. I still didn't feel like quitting but I became unable to appreciate it, unable to resonate with it and after forcing myself a bit I made my choice to quit and thought "maybe in another life it'll be a tool anew". From there is was effortless, had many occasions to have another one, but I plain just didn't feel like it and I don't remember having any withdrawal symptoms.
Had phases of drinking daily and they come as easily as they go, like moods that last months and little more.
When I quit cigarettes, I moved to dry vaping weed (all my friends agreed it is way better than smoking) and I rarely feel like not having it in a day, but sometimes I arrange myself to be stuck without to see if it creates a struggle and it doesn't really because I'm just not with the possibility. To me weed clearly has a lot of benifits and, just like cigarettes, would be something I can find to be thankful for even if I came to part with it. The benifits also are things I see myself integrating more and more into my sober state, it helped become so much more open to the energy of others and ever strenghtens my intuitions, helps me to connect to many energies and attain mutual-higher states of mind when discussing with people life and the universe. I think, for me, the downs of my usage could easily be balanced outside it and it is much more of a reflection than anything other. So while I don't believe I had a perfectly balanced relationship with marijuana, I do believe it is something that has definitely made me a better person (not that it was necessary, just sped things up a bit).
Drugs are tools and an imbalanced usage of a tool should not define the tool. A bit like how an alchoholic person needs to stay away from alcohol not because what the tool is but how it is used in self-destructive ways by twisted emotions. If you have a knife and turn it against yourself, it doesn't mean you couldn't find multiple ways to do something other that is positive with it, but ya you might feel like you're better off without any near yourself. But, the will to harm yourself remains untransformed.
Rather than wanting to stay away from something, I think it is more efficient to turn to oneself and distill why one is using that thing the way they are. With enough realization, the thing is not overcome, but the imbalanced usage may fall away. I deeply believe the positive path, the path of healing, to be a path of acceptance. Because, light is found within the shadows and one remains shrouded in darkness only so long they do not seek to see the light that resides in the shadows. In a distant time, all will see truly the light of themselves, and that my friends, is quite the beautiful sight. A sight where all see the purpose of each thing in their moment.
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