Seeking for an answer, advice or direction.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

First of all, want to excuse me for my english.

1. I'm lost, how to know what polarity I'm belong to?
I don't have anymore strength to sacrifice myself, as there is no desire to manipulate others.
2. How to find your professional sphere?
Until a certain stage of the search, I worked quite successfully and earned enough to care for myself and my family, at the moment I can’t do anything, including old job.
3. How to find the meaning of life?
I don't understand why and what for I live.

This is a brief description of the problems, I can go deep, if necessary.
I'm 34 yo.

You're asking some tough questions.

The first should be the least difficult to answer:

What percentage serving of others are you? If less than 50% then you're at least slightly negative. If 50%, neutral. If 51% or more, positive.


The second question is easier than the last, but by no means easy. I'd say find a professional sphere where you like what you do and can earn enough to live independently. Bonus points if you don't have a "boss" in your line of work. I've decided for myself that becoming a therapist would suit me, and with a bachelor's degree, I can also teach English abroad, which would allow me to travel. While I teach English abroad, I can earn a Master's online in mental health counseling. As for what YOU might enjoy doing, that's for you to figure out. But make sure it comes with a line of work that pays enough for you to live on your own. If you enjoy what you do and make enough to live independently doing it, I'd say you're doing well in the job market. Most can't say they enjoy what they do for a living. Not really.

As for the third, f*** if I know buddy. What makes you think the rest of us have the meaning of life figured out? I know the purpose of third density is primarily to choose your polarity, but a lot of people also learn extra lessons while they're incarnated, which helps them polarize I guess. If you can't polarize enough to graduate in this lifetime, a) don't sweat it and b) welcome to the club. Just find a way to either help others with what you do for a living or help others in your free time. ORR just selfishly try to live a life that makes you comfortable. If neither of these is enough to graduate, so be it. You'll always have the next lifetime to choose.