Negative Wanderer.

[Glow]

I was negative for a while. If you are not encountering the reverse arguments of all your dreams and desires, then you are not in negative sixth density. It sounds like you're more in negative 4th. This would be where you subconsciously remove energy from the existing systems as you feel they don't support meaningful existence from your point of view.

The advice so far is good. Simply express negative emotions through the improvement of your body and environment, and allow love to arise (this burns through the repressed self-hate present as the collective constantly creates more catalyst for itself than it can process, leading to the body's subconscious desire for death and destruction). The fabric of this reality is quite glorious, but the reasons for why things are the way they are is highly convoluted, and meaning can be lost. Without meaning, the desire to destroy that which lacks meaning may strongly manifest.

I don’t express my negativity in a way I need to. I don’t need physical expression but a verbal one, but my physical environment doesn’t let me dive into this properly.
That is I why I dissociate severely. This is also called maladaptive daydreaming. I spend a lot of time in my imagination exercising it and working out that which I cannot work out physically. When I am stressed out or feel trapped in physicality I struggle to stay focus socially 90% of my time. This doesn’t hinder my physical and social development, though. But I mostly feel unsatisfied for I cannot express that which I want in 3D… And therefore I don’t understand why would a soul want to experience limitations like this?

You do not sound negative to me. In fact you sound like one who recognizes the reality of this world is a bit off.

I don’t speculate on wanderer status for the most part but suffice to say most positive wanderers experiences this is some form till they manage to connect with their soul long enough to remember why they are here.

When you come from an innate vibration of oneness it’s less seductive to follow the life scripts of separation. It all just seems off, and you can’t make yourself conform because your soul not your ego is the one objecting.

Anyways welcome I hope this place and it’s members can help you find your way the way they have helped me.