Negative Wanderer.

[BastionPath]

Hello there!

I have been looking for some answers, hopefully I can find some here.

I believe I am a wanderer but with negative polarization. Don’t remember if I ever felt love towards humanity, have always been struggling to find the reason I have incarnated and have always been trying to find an outlet for my resentment towards myself for my choice to come here.

I have two main questions for those who probably experienced or experience something similar:
- first one: WHY? Why would anyone with the highly developed mind find this place interesting? I feel bored with life, with people, I can’t find anything worthy of my attention for I have lost my path and understanding;
- second one: If someone can share their experience; is there a way of finding a way out of endless negativity and finally reaching a least a partial comprehension of my life purpose?

So here's where my seeking led me. The sun was an individual, or expressed the soul of an individual that committed suicide. The sun did this with a specific set of lessons and distortions. As soon as a person hits a high enough vibration, they are pushed to immediately save or serve others unconditionally. If they fail to do this, then the sun's original distortions are projected upon them.

Because I've noticed that only the highest vibration (or healthiest souls) become lost here on earth. The souls that are very dense and physical reality based succeed wonderfully.