Be free of desire before graduation to 4th Q'uo October 15, 1989

[Glow]

Ok and I am just going to throw it out there and be perfectly excessively, if I had sufficient shame embarrassingly vulnerable. lol

My one remaining personal desire is to be in union with another portion of the creator to the point I can experience both sides. I figured that was 4D. Skin between but getting to be in as close to unity as possible without fully merging into oneness. I might explain that as the moment building up to climax just before release during sex but withing a loving relationship and sustaining that, not moving away from this near unity. Then(at death) be released back into unity without the veil.  No not asking to much at all

Why desire just that when you can live from a place of being The One expressed in every form and "being"?

That was where I was going when I was on the shamanic path, but parts didn't resonate for my life path.

I really want to plumb the depths. For that it requires not just staying on the level of what is deep withing each but go deep into what a chosen few as creator has experienced. The creator comes into these forms, lives these exquisitely deep and moving heartbreaking and joyous lives but they/we really experience them alone. No one is there to walk the whole way with us experiencing our highs and lows(like we see portions of in movies but miss with loved ones) we do not get to be privy to the entire story of another experience.

Not just the creator within but that life; that experience the creator came for. That but add a new twist - one creator experiencing themself but then fully experiencing another with the filters their life gave them, through their own heartbreaking/joyus experience. The desire is to know that part too, which makes the experience of another even deeper and has a different pitch of light, and for my part of the creators experience to be witnessed too.

I just think it is beautiful that type of oneness within separation, not a lukewarm oneness but a fiery I will go there and witness you kind of oneness. Not just the pretty parts but the murky and dim too. The creator has done it the other way as long as humanity can remember. Sometimes another way is sought as beautiful too. I think it would be incredibly beautiful.