Is STS/STO actually about Awareness?

[kraken99]

It makes more sense to me when I frame service to self as being aware of primarily the body energetic field. Extending one's awareness into the world AND including the body is the highest form of service to the creator because the creator is fed by what we are aware of. Thus, feeding the world to the creator is the greatest service. This also works for when one is listening to others. We have ones that are mostly just aware of their own bodies, ones that allow their focus to rest on the body field of another. Then there is the ones that are neither focused wholly on themselves or another.

Thoughts?

I've been lucky enough to interview some exceptionally crystallized adepts on both sides, and have come to consider the general mentalities of the polarities to be so:

STO - I am becoming one with God, who is in all things.

STS - I am becoming God, and all things will submit to me.

Both polarities, if adept, are fully aware of the unified field. Negative adepts do not pursue the path that they do because they are unaware of oneness or confused by it. They simply believe they deserve to be at the center of that web and seek, as Ra put it, to "put the world in order." They follow the so-called Law of Stratification, which posits that the strong naturally rise to the top, fueled by the masses that automatically sink beneath them as they grow in power. They see this as a natural process, and therefore in alignment with natural law, so they feel no guilt over their actions. Indeed, they believe themselves to be doing a service to the species by causing stronger beings to emerge via adversity. It is a very solipsistic point of view.

The sort of bodily awareness you speak of would be found in adepts on both sides, and is a natural product of the expansion of consciousness. How that awareness is framed and directed is up to the individual.  

If STO adept is "fully aware of the unified field" and "one with God, who is in all things", why does he discriminate (name/constitute and reveal consequences) between him and adept of STS?

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I am sorry for my sometimes broken (not native) English.