Dark Night, Hatred, Shadow Work, and Acceptance(Please Pray for Me).

[Black Dragon]

Rationally I'm there, emotionally I'm trailing a bit, but I intend to bring that into balance(the left and right hemispheres or my brain don't always make a good team, so I need to work to get them on the same page, one thing I found so far is binaural beats), and intent is a strong thing. My intent and will towards honest self-reflection and change are already a starting point.

  
  
Um, yeah.  Well, you're still outmatched.

Your nice words are as nice as your mean words are mean.  I don't think the dichotomy is between your hemispheres.

It appears that you don't have a good map of the playing field.  And you don't really seem to have much of a sense of your opponent.  You seem to feel that this matter can be approached directly because you can see it all because you're so aware of what you can see and all of that is visible, and you just might be fooling yourself because you cannot yet really see into the darkness.  Although it can play you like a sock puppet, that's not the same as sharing intimacy, my friend.  Your opponent knows you far better than you know him, so whom do really expect will run the show?
  
  

I never said this would be a simple or necessarily straight-forward process. If your tone continues to be interrogative, condescending, dismissive, and worst of all discouraging, I don't know if continued discourse with you will be beneficial, or if I'll just be wasting my breath on somebody who judges the entirety of my knowledge and character off of a rant that came from my shadow side. It seems to me you've already written me off, have nothing constructive to say to me and nothing I say or do from this point forward will change that. I don't need your approval, I only need to do my work. If you are trying to get a rise out of me to make a point, you can pat yourself on the back, because it's working just a tiny bit, I am finding this aspect quite frustrating conversing with you. Maybe that's just the way I'm perceiving it due to my own issues, or maybe you do have a bit of a superiority complex. I think it's now time for you to be the one to clarify your own intent and sincerity. Are you here to help me, or to chide, condescend, and discourage me?