Complete lack of energy. What to do?

[AlgolSon]

This has happened to me. I was aware of why. The negativity of a few was too overwhelming. Not the world, but just a few. My illogical positivity was confronted by the illogical negative. Are you aware of why? The only way through it is to question negativity. First, recognize the negative. There is no avoiding the confrontation. The confrontation emerges to challenge you. You will be confronted until you make the correct choice.

In my case, I stopped going to work. No call, no show, never answering calls. I lay in bed. I drank water and would eat rice every few days. I've read that simply being still is a form of meditation. That's what I did for six weeks, unknowing that I was 'meditating' until I read about it years later. This is the meditative power of fictional Sherlock Holmes. He had to be still for long periods. To be honest, the Sherlock Holmes character is very familiar to me, but I don't solve crimes nor do cocaine. I solve basics for others and drink alcohol.

I meant to write about my experience from the Creator later but will write now. In the sixth week of stillness a force came through my feet. It passed into my torso and I was scared as hell. I had been under attack too many times to count, but never through my feet. It had always been through my shoulders, first, and then went to my head. I had gotten so good at wrestling with negative entities that I could fight them head on. In extreme circumstance I would just 'eat' them.

But this force through my feet was as endearing as it was powerful. I lost my fear and let it move. I let it come through my torso and when it reached my head I became another entity.

I was not Tim. Nor was I in any place like Earth. Nor was that place describable, for there wasn't height, length, nor width. I did not have a body. Space was infinite. But there was time. For a time I drifted around. I was not lonely though I was alone. I felt very happy. There was color and temperature and I explored moving around, testing the sensations of color and warmth.

I had no eyes nor body, so could only feel. And then an entity came and grasped me. I cannot describe the entity because I could only feel. I surrendered to it because I only knew myself, never another, and could not fight against it's grasp. I was taught rules. I cannot say what rules as a human, because I do not know the language. I just know they were rules. I listened.

I grew a body after that. Feet, then legs, then torso and head, and then I could fly. I did not grow wings but I could soar. I was very haughty after that!

I cannot describe the atmosphere or perception I had, then. It is easier to describe the non-dimension. I flew around laughing! It was fun! And then I met another entity. It was cordial, but I ignored it. Very rude of me. We got into a fight. I beat it up. And then I woke up very slowly.

It was a strange day. After six weeks of self isolation my 'sociopathic' father came to talk to me. He was nice. We went to eat Thai food. I knew that Buddhists would be there from the countryside. They came. But I did not pursue the precognition. I let myself slide back into 'maya'.

That all happened a while ago. Though I am somewhat 3D now, I am not 3D. The experience after the Creator's giving made me different. I never feel that Earth is real and I always feel that my body is my vessel. I control the vessel. This is my 'earth ship'.

Much more happened since then, but they are in human terms. This is the only experience I can share that is without humanity.

Don't fret about your loss of energy. If you consciously review happenings, you can find the negativity. They won't stop until you are conscious of them, waking, and make a conscious choice.

Energy is infinite. Loss comes from certainty. Be uncertain. Trust.