Compassion through social strife

[Bring4th_Austin]

Thank you Austin
I don’t really know what to do. I was pretty heartbroken when a few weeks ago I started to look into the fear of losing my job ( not my case) with a family to feed and looking at weeks to come and how to face each morning the future imagining what to do, what to do.
I started to think about a native Indian couple (not my case) and I decided to send prayer and hold that Unknown family in my heart. It helped a bit but not that much.
The several recent brutalities are just, I don’t know, so heavy and like, it’s been so long since Ruby Bridges.

Seems that embracing each other would be so simple.
I don’t know, feeling so useless, and yet hopeful. It can’t be not progressing from here.

Just my feelings.

on edit  I have to add for honesty, that I have also intense compassion for Mr. Chauvin who acted this way, I can't even explain it, because I can't even think what was going through him at that time, and what is going through inside him now, and despite all this, I have this intense compassion for him that I dont even know where it comes from. With sadness but so intense.

Thank you so much for sharing. I can really resonate with your seemingly conflicted feelings. I think it's important for us to allow ourselves to have a space of unknowing, of illogical feelings, of hope within sadness, of pain within hope. I must admit that it is part of my catalyst witnessing that so many people seem so sure of their opinions. There are so many bubbles of reality that people are so absolutely sure that their bubble is the One True Reality, and that all other realities are being manipulated, are immoral, are harmful, are uninformed, are ignorant, are wrong. I think if more people could admit that what they view as the reality of the situation is more akin to their feeling of the situation, and that we're all trying to sort out our feelings, we'd make a bit more progress. But, ironically, that is simply my own bubble.

And thank you for sharing your compassion for Officer Chauvin. What leads a person to behave as he did, I can never understand. But if my love is to be unconditional, understanding cannot be a condition. I think that is a difficult lesson for many people right now. The cultural voice that condemns Chauvin typically upholds empathy and compassion as ideals - perhaps situations like this are a direct challenge to that compassion. It is for me, anyways.